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kingofmyborrowedheart · 2 years

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One day you’re laughing on a park bench thinking to yourself ‘hey isn’t this easy?’ and the next thing you know, you’re sitting on a bench in Coney Island wondering, ‘where did my baby go?’

#taylor swift #coney island #ybwm #lyrics #this was kind of a shower thought #🗒#this got notes*

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eternalvanitas · 6 months

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"old man yaoi" and they dont even have wrinkles. youre making 30 year old man yaoi just accept it

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kimmkitsuragi · 1 year

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im playing suzerain and i was like “wow. this is literally turkish politics simulator” and then i learned it is actually done by a turkish team and it’s based on turkish politics sdfbdsb they did a great job

#man fixing this country is impossible im sweating bc of these decisions #all of them hit so close to home too 😭#it's a great game if u like strategy games but it's very text based so be warned #personally this is just how i have fun sdfds 🤷‍♂️#🗒#also i hardly ever come here nowadays. hi guys #suzerain #g

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noblest-roman-of-them-all · 8 months

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Being a system is weird. There are times when life imitates are and we create little inside jokes around it. But I am beginning to suspect that these are not little inside jokes for everyone in the system. And trying to express that or explore that idea is...very complicated.

To me the idea of what began as an inside joke of being a child of Apollo was logically to deal with the idea of our absentee birth father.

The idea that another alter might not see this as a way of processing or "just a fun little inside joke" is...strange to sit with. I find it hard to believe that they might genuinely think that or that other alters have adopted other beliefs based on other media, not as "a joke to make me feel better", but as genuine belief.

I do wonder if part of this stems from a fear of being fake claimed or not being believed or not being taken seriously or being patronized or other people treating as a joke when to us it is not. An internal defense mechanism of sorts.

It's intellectualizing things rather than accepting them or allowing the space to sit with them.

I think also there is the fear of these beliefs not being for a coping reason at all and simply being beliefs or even delusions and the possible implications behind that. I suspect that this would be due in large part to having been raised in organized religion and that religion being something that we as a whole have a complicated relationship with, but some individuals still find some comfort in.

I don't know how to make a comfortable space to allow others to have their own beliefs, but I suspect that we need to make peace with the idea that they do have these beliefs. And allow them the space to have them and express them.

I think there is a fear that allowing these parts to hold these beliefs at all is or will be detrimental to healing, but it's hard to express where that fear is coming from or to look at it too closely beyond that.

There does seem to be a pervasive idea of needing to fix that is arguably and ironically unhealthy.

The continued push toward "getting better" that we grew up with be it in school for better grades or earning a degree for a better job, or in work for getting a "better", higher paying position, seems to have done some degree of damage when looking at it through this lens. It feels ironic given the idea of contentment was also frequently preached.

Being driven can be a good thing, but it can also do damage. It can cause us to run so fast before we're ready that we trip and fall. It has caused some impatience, I think. None of us know how to quit trying to fix, which is, ironically, something we need to work on.

#screaming into the void #system maintenance #🗒

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maobaobao · 9 months

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my name is mao

▪︎any pronouns

▪︎born 2002

▪︎agender cis lesbian

▪︎i study wildlife biology

▪︎🇲🇾✈️🇺🇸

#last pinned disappeared so here #🗒

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the-andromeda-collective · 1 year

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I wish OSDDID were convenient.

#screaming to the void #it sounds like it should be #having multiple states of consciousness that can cover for each other and take over when triggered #but it's not that simple or straightforward #even if there is a switch there are still physical effects on the body from being triggered #its not very convenient at all #🗒

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vomguts · 2 years

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had my binge today. felt nasty! guess I needed it.

done in preparation for my upcoming fast. have some accountability partners and am very satisfied by todays treats so like. kinda buzzing. I really really want it. it would just have very good timing. June first I’ll have a very elegant charcuterie omad to look forward to.

today, went for breakfast food galore. very carby, but hey! It’s what I wanted. A wake up wrap, hash browns, bagel bites… two donuts, Powerade, jerky… ice cream sando to finish.

feel very yucky thinking about it but that’s life. even went to purge but I stopped myself after the first mouthful. I planned this. It’s okay. ugh. bloat though, it says otherwise.

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silhuett · 2 years

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”sometimes it's like someone took a knife, baby, edgy and dull and cut a six inch valley, through the middle of my skull” and ”i say i want you inside me and you split me open with a knife”

#(song: i’m on fire - bruce springsteen)#(poem: wishbone - richard siken)#💽#🗒

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addavlaz · 16 days

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○~○!!

#🗒#Spotify

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kingofmyborrowedheart · 2 years

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The fact that Taylor has released the same amount of albums under Universal/Republic in less than half the time when she was with Big Machine, really makes me wonder about all of the potential things she could’ve done if instead of having to fight tooth and nail for everything, they had granted her more creative freedom and trusted her.