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i talk about byler as a huge sort of conspiracy sometimes. i spend so much time analyzing it that when i lay down and just think about the fact that they are in love i don’t know what to do with myself
theories and analysis and predictions are all so fun but getting hit with the reality that they are actually in love is so. oh my god. they’re in love. they want to go on walks under the moonlight and watch movies together and hold on and never let go. i can prove that but i cannot process it
#maybe it’s the lack of gay rep like this but#i cant comprehend it for some reason#i could list every single detail to prove that they’re in love but#they’re actually in love??? i’m not just saying things?? that’s so#good god#their love is so special dude holy shit#byler
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im bored of animal crossing will be drawing gj again will be mental illness-ing once more.
#women make less than men because we dont know how to ask for more!!!!!#and thats so fucking true my ex manager had to coach me how to ask for more#and then i entered the call and went oh u want to give me less than what i asked for great okay sure love you bye#!!!!!!!!! *looking at myself in the mirror* i hate u#the noise my cat makes when hes frustrated#or really really excited i cant tell which is which anymore#my ex manager is also like lawyer core#ie not a lawyer but loves reading contracts for some uknown reason#and he was pointing out all the stupid phrasing#and i was sitting there like sir to be completely candid i do not even comprehend what the line is saying#let alone what it is suggesting and its implications#apparently when you get those emails like this is confidential dont share it!!!#u can u can like totally share it its not enforceable#the sender even knows its not enforceable they just put it there anyway#what are you gonna do with that info heck if i know!
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Unibrow tom and XD Tom have my heart 😭 plz
have he will
#does this make sense??#i have no clue I just drew this rn and my brain cant comprehend it for some reason-#zeddsasks
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no one except me should be allowed to touch childhood friends to lovers tropes ever
#this is really only about twst#theres not really a problem with riddle and trey but it’s just so off putting to me for some reason it doesn’t feel right#they’re relationship seems so strictly platonic to me. like as a kid trey had this friend who didn’t get to have actual fun#their*#and he allowed him to actually have those experiences#but then everything went wrong because he did and you see him suffering and you just want to help!!!#you want the best for him you want to see him happy. i cannot see anything romantic in their relationship#for kalim and jamil it isn’t even about them being childhood friends it’s about how jamil feels towards kalim#maybe in the future after they graduate they’ll be friends but i don’t think jamil will ever actually feel comfortable around kalim#they don’t even have any chemistry like riddle and trey sort of do#and i don’t know how silver and sebek isn’t obvious#they read as brothers through and through. silver literally said sebek is a brother to him.#i cant even comprehend seeing their relationship as romantic ever in any universe#they seem more like brothers than jade and floyd do#idk. my brain is just so wired to seeing them as brothers that whenever i see people ship them i feel sick#oh and theres also the fact that i feel like silver is so much more mature than sebek. i think thats also a really big factor.#it really affects their dynamic#silver has such older sibling who takes care of their younger sibling alone#like if both of them didn’t have parents silver would totally take up the parental mentality and he would always make sure sebek had someone#to rely on#ok that’s enough hate posting for now
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Self portrait o/
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the fact that the us government can continue funding and arming a genocide despite massive public opposition really highlights how inherently non-democratic the united states is
#almost like the idea of a representative demcracy is both historically undemocratic and inherently is incapable of being so#by historically i mean that representative democracies have always meant the creation of a category of ‘citizen’ that is above ‘non-citizen#even the civilization where the term democracy comes from was patriarchal and had fucking slavery#not chattel slavery but (hot take) non chattel slavery is still bad.#also fundamentally one person can literally not represent the wishes of a large collection of people who have only geography in common.#theyre going to want different things!!!#now the idea of if democracy is inherently a virtue is like. another topic. but i will say that like seeing the history of like the#popular sovreignty movement wrt to slavery really made me question it. just because a lot of people want something to happen doesnt#actually mean it should happen. white people voted to legalize slavery#kind of where the old ‘minority’ terminology comes in. just by numbers alone in the states that had these votes it wasnt like in the south#where in the south because of plantations the actual population majority in some places was black.#but in those midwestern new states even if everyone person there could have voted. white people would still be the vasy majority.#honestly to a degree pointing out that none of the societies that have claimed to be democracies have truly been democratic is…#i guess the primary value in it is to challenge people who take state mythologies at face level#a very large population that i often forget exists.#the ‘they cant do that its illegal’ types.#anyways. if we consider that every society in documented history has had some type of violence and oppression#and if we believe that people are NOT inherently selfish/violent#it follows that what we need to do is something different than what we have been doing.#not just different from what we are doing right now. but different from what we have been doing for the past centuries#but also i can imagine that societies and ways of living that aren’t legible to the status quo or just went undocumented for other reasons#may have been more egalitarian. and we dont know due to erasure (either intentional or non-intentional)#both erasure and a fundamental inability of historians to comprehend it. similar to how cishet historians who cant fathom the idea of#transness or lesbianism talk about things.
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I’m still shock, how can Fyodor be dead? He wasn't my favorite character but he was charismatic. I really can’t believe it
Dude, I don't believe it cuz in the beginning episodes in the play, I saw somewhere that its probably fyodor who was hung on that cross, and Christianity is his whole THING.
Also fukuchi mentioned specifically 500 people being sacrificed?? (Which if jouno is apart of that I'm PISSED I want him back. Where is Jouno?) which might mean something specific
So I think he's going to be resurrected, quite possibly with the power of the book. If there is a "cult" around him (which I think is the case - the V is probably different than what Fukuchi was doing with his world peace thing) then they might bring him back. Also we still have sigma and nikolai - sigma can probably tell us about fyodor cause I know he isn't dead. The mystery WILL unravel around him eventually
And nikolai will either chase after him and use him to bring him back OR will do it himself. OR MAYBE !!! Nikolai will do something else. He's 100% a wild card (who should be arrested but obviously that isn't a top priority rn)
Fyodor's story isn't over just yet - even if he's dead, I think there's a lot more to be said about him story wise at the very least which means more content (I'm holding out hope at least. Like cmon no way he'd die and be thrown out like that nuh uh)
He's too integral to a lot of characters story, so he should be heard about at least !!
#lowkey this episode made me feel for him#heavy with nikolai#cause fyodor has heavy heavy trust issues and nikolai cant attach himself to anyone in a normal way#and it shows in the way that despite barely knowing each other they felt comfort with each other#fyodor liked that nikolai NEEDED him in some way even if it was obviously disturbing in many ways#and he planned to kill him because he truly did hate having people who were close to him#nikolai wanted to be what fyodor was but was really an emotional person#and wanted to express that somehow#and he did that in strange and violent disturbing ways#and for some reason fyodor could accept that#they both are really disturbed and can only be vulnerable in the disturbed#just some fyolai thoughts#but their dynamic was nice#and also i like how it shows how fyodor was scared of intimacy on many levels#dazai is ok with being hurt because he likes it but fyodor cant even comprehend realm of life i think#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd fyodor#bsd nikolai
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my tutor asked me if she could ask a question abt queer culture and she was all 'but i dont want to like, burden you with the expectation of explaining things to me, or treat you like a mouthpiece' and i was like omg PLS ask me questions i LOVE being treated as a mouthpiece hahhaha
and then she asked me about terfs and how older feminists may not align with terf values but feel protective of their experiences as afab women when the cultural conversation around feminism and queerness is changing.. and i was like.. oh god, do you have a few hours to spare?
so she asked me to email her resources and information about this topic hahaha
#i did talk abt some things#mostly how the thing is. the ideology is extremely harmful#but a large percentage of terfs and also these older feminists shes talking about#are traumatised by their upbringing as a woman#some cant even comprehend why someone amab would want to be a woman#so they assume nefarious reasons#and for some it's like#if anyone can id as a woman then does my trauma mean anything? are they invalidating the fact that womanhood has consisted of suffering-#-for me?#personally ive had conversations with older feminists and have cleared up this conversation pretty quickly lol#but yeah it was fun being asked that#and god it's nice having a teacher respect you and presume you have insights rather than assuming they know more than you do bc theyre#the teacher#@ most of my highschool teachers and also my tutor last term#ed mumbles
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it probably means nothing that ive been dreaming that chicago gets flooded with over 10 stories of water since i started living here, right? thats probably fine.
#i just have a dream im in my apartment and water starts rising and covers the windows but my building is fine and waterproof for some reason#also im not really scared just like. memorized#body cant comprehend living near a large body of water without being weird about it#also i dont have a fear of water? ive always been pretty comfortable in and around water
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(decided today that one of my favorite things about ten reasons is the absence of time in it.
like theres the understanding its a Modern AU given that they text and there is one football reference in there to a more current player but that is...the extent of it.
theres almost no contemporary references in the fic that give the reader an idea of what year it even is, or time period. 2000s? late 90s? 2010s? 2020's? WHO KNOWS!
and i think thats very taylor swift/1989 of me.)
#this is partly due to my own cringe at reading fics that mention something VERY current#it feels a little like breaking the 4th wall#which is another reason why Chefs Kiss feels like it was written by a different person#because its littered with contemporary references#and idk why i did that!#i hate it when a character is suddenly mentioning like Frozen#like what? thats here and now? I cant comprehend.#so we stan ten reasons#you timeless wonder#CMA is a little bit like this too.#the most modern thing is texting#the books mentioned are all pretty widespread though#some may say thats bad writing!!!#no firm sense of time or place??? BAD#nah#i actually think its very GOOD#that a story can exist without rooting the readers in a specific year
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asjdhsaflk idk but something glitched so i cant share the photo with the crab amount (i summoned abt 500 earlier ajshklasd)
HOW DARE U SEND ME THIS GIFT
CRYING RN THAMNK U NOBODY TOUCH ME I WILL KEEP SUMMONING CRABS FOR 24 HOURS
#limonium#screenshots because tumblr defaults to my sideblogs for some reason i cant comprehend ajkshkashfklasf
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Actually i hate english class i hate it so so much. I dont like literary analysis and i would rather eat body hair dry and unseasoned than “point out other places where the descriptions support the actions of the story”
#dont even talk to me about how important it is#i know it!#i know all of this shit#and i can read it and be able to appreciate for those reasons#but i cant get that suit on paper#you want to just pick anybof the dozens of fucking times this bitch author descrobe some fucking shit??#i hate this its so tedious#WHY CANT YOU JUST QUIZ ME AND TAKE MY WORD FOR IT THAT I CAN READ AND COMPREHEND SHIT
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oh WGAT?? its my dads birthday?? whoops
#did absolutely nothing for either my dad nor (his twin) my uncle. great#oh well anyway! hi im home from school ^-^#today was fine! talked with my friend zeynep a whole lot#she kept talking about serial killers which was surprisingly interesting to listen to#first two lessons were both with mrs. damla (hoca . i can't not add honorifics it hurts)#first one being for reading (its literature class but we cant do a lot in one lesson so she just makes us read)#and second being.. whats it in english? google translate gives it as guidance i dont know.#the one where you talk to the teacher responsible of your class about the class or other stuff if you want. you know#then we had two english lessons with ms. ahenk (hoca)! ^-^#very fun love those. ms. ahenk (hoca) even told me to repeat the pronounciation of some vocabulary to the class#and made me write some on the board from the book we use for class#felt very nice#after that we had two p.e. lessons#we share the p.e. gym at our school/s with the middle school connected to ours so we go there biweekly#we were in class this week#the first lesson we stayed in class (was fun‚ got to chat with zeynep) and second we went to the garden with mr. can (hoca)'s permission#(was also fun for the same reason)#then we had Qur'an! was fun ^-^#ms. rümeysa (hoca) ran over some of the basic rules of reading Qur'an well for the new girl#so it was nice and easy to comprehend since i already know those. since very long . <3#then we had.. temel dini bilgiler ummm.... basic religious knowledge..???#anyway! ms. meryem (hoca) went ov#whoops. pressed enter too quickly#she went over the subject we were learning quickly (ramadan and fasting)#was nice and easy to understand!#overall pretty ok day if we dont count the agonies (shoulder and back joints on fire)#♚ — rambling !
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too many thoughts in my head . its 1:30 am
#first . theres something that part of whatever idkhow song that reminds me of SOMETHING and its been YEARS and i have never found it but fo#r some reason . my brain tells me it might be from a song on this random album i used to like when i was like idk 12 ??????????#that features something by c418 (which is how i found it)#bc i was trying to find the minecraft music but that was the only thing by them that was on rhapsody/napster at the time#but i ended up liking the album anyways ? but forgot abt it until that part in the idkhow song reminded me of it#anyways . next one. lawl does anyone remember hit or miss..................... just remembered it and . man .#and winston................. crazy#okay next . did anyone elses elementary school show them “animusic” ? like . pipe dream (just search it on yt)#like . formative experience to me . lawl#and connected to that . reminds me of tour the states song YOU KNOWWWW . the song every american elementary schooler knew#lawl .#and another one there was some scary shapes / simensions movie that we watched in 7thgrade . well it was a multi grade level class#i was in 7th grade . i think it was... algebra . yeah. but the teacher showed us this movie with this 2 dimensional shape family#living in the 2 dimensional world and then a 3 dimensional shape starts talking to the (dad?) and shows him Beyond His Dimensional Plane#and also 1 dimensional and . 0? dimesnional#and it has forever made me SO SCARED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#what if theres more past 3 dimensional . what if theres world beyond our world and were in it but we cant comprehend it#gets so scared and starts crying . oki byw
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not her
pt2
warnings: swearing, jealousy, crying, comparison, not proofread
a/n: yall seem like super excited about this series and im all for it tf
a/n 2: if ts is lowk sad, thats my fault, it was an accident I was listening to partially sad music and rlly got into it
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over the past few days, matt and amelias friendship had gotten closer, while y/n and matts was no less than just the title of ‘dating’. they didnt hang out, they didnt talk much and they didnt go on dates. but when y/n did ask matt to do anything, it was always ‘cant. im with amelia’ or ‘cant. ill be with amelia then’. it was always amelia this, amelia that. but never ‘sure baby! i totally want to hangout with my girlfriend’
y/n was fucking over it. she wanted to talk with matt about this all. she wasnt fucking gonna deal with het own boyfriend not acting like her boyfriend.
so, thats where she found herself, standing behind matt where he sat with amelia next to him. it was very obvious was she was being more than friendly to him, her hand was caressing his arm and her eyes were staring deeply into his. y/n bit her lip, fighting back the urge to bitch slap amelia.
y/n ran her hands through matts hair, annoucing her presence. matt flinched at the sudden touch, whipping his head around to look at who had just touched his hair. his eyes softening and a small smile creeping onto his lips when he saw who it was.
“matt? can we talk please?” y/n asked, her eyes studying matts features, god how she missed being this close to him, to be able to admire him.
matt turned his head to look at amelia, before looking back at y/n, “im talking with amelia, maybe later?” he asked. remorse present in his voice.
y/n moved her hand away from him and took a step back from them, refusing to look at amelia, as her eyes glossed over and a lump in her throat grew. breathing grew harder and she knew talking wouldnt be any easier.
“y- yeah. thats fine.” she mumbled, her voice breaking, she took a breath in. and began walking away, but not before saying a quick “I love you” to him out of instinct. she took slower steps away, expecting one back, she wanted to hear him say he loved her too.
but when she didnt hear one back and only heard him resume talking to amelia, her eyes immediately lost all control over the tears in her eyes, the hot tears running down her cheeks faster than she could comprehend. she held her breath, trying to make no sound obvious to the sobs she wanted to let out. but she couldnt let matt know how upset she was about this, and she certainly didnt want amelia feeling the satisfaction of making her cry.
y/n moved quickly, leaving the library where that entire interaction went down and pushed past the doors of the school, walking quick to her car.
she opened the door and sat inside, closing it the door and immediately breaking down, her sobs being loud, her tears being fast as they poured down her cheeks and her breathing incredibly hard.
she couldnt fucking believe it, her own boyfriend chose some other girl over her.
the boy she used to kiss goodnight and sleep in his arms every weekend, the boy she used to be able to come to and expect not to be lonely, the boy she knew she could come to when she was upset or when she just wanted company. but now she wasnt sure if she could, matt only wanted to be with amelia and not y/n.
does he understand how much he meant means to y/n? hes the reason shes not lonely, he was the reason she was able to fall asleep so peacefully at night, he was the reason she was happy everyday, so content with life and now she couldnt have that anymore because of that stupid fucking girl. stupid fucking bitch named amelia.
she took him away from her and she didnt know what to do. its obvious matt wasnt interested in y/n and was only interested in amelia and what she wanted to say or do, not the girl he dedicated his life to, not the girl he told ‘im yours’, not the girl he used to say ‘I love you’ to every time he possibly could.
y/n just wasnt her, not amelia, not what matt wanted, she didnt have beautiful green eyes like amelia did, she didnt have that lovely orange color of hair amelia did, she didnt have naturally beautiful freckles covering her skin like amelia did. amelia was her, and y/n wasnt.
y/n only cried harder, pulling her knees to her chest and hiding her face in her knees, sobs escaping her throat. being so gutural, it scratched her throat with each sound leaving her lips. but that didnt compare with the aching pain she felt in her chest, the lump in her throat being so big she could barely breathe.
what matt had dismissed earlier so easily wasnt so easy to handle with for y/n. all she wanted was matt to be her boyfriend and act like it.
she wanted to dial his number and call him, but she couldnt run to him like she always did. he wasnt going to be there for her like he always was, but he was going to be there for amelia.
a pit in her stomach formed with the overgrowing urge to run to matt, her body so familar with always going to matt, being so familar with his hands rubbing her back as sweet words left his lips, his voice lulling her to the warm hug of being okay. but she couldnt have him, she couldnt have the same comforting feeling he brought her.
she wanted him, she needed him but he wasnt within her arms reach anymore and she felt sick. sick with words she wanted to tell him. sick with the need of feeling matts touch. sick to her stomach with just wanting matt in her prescense, he wouldnt even have to do anything. she just wanted him with her with the gentle reminder he wanted her too and in the same room, but instead he was talking with another girl, giving his attention to another girl.
‘another girl, another girl’ was all y/n heard, her thoughts screaming into her ears.
1107 words.
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soft yandere luffy
- mention of marking, but in a non sexual way
- this is all rather repetitive but UGH im sorry i couldnt not think more abt yandere luffy
he gets so jealous so so easily. hes so needy and starved for your attention and touch that he really cant comprehend the idea of you not giving both of those things to him. he will fiddle with your fingers, playing with them as a way of keeping skinship. he will lay his head on your lap or shoulder, taking up as much space as possible.
hes so possessive over you, the fact youre his crewmate is what really drives this possessiveness. why are you giving other people the time of day when youre his? hes your captain so pay attention to him already!!! likes pulling the captain card for no reason, "as your captain!!! you need to come cuddle with me now :3"
he will pout (like really, really pout - his bottom lip glistening with saliva and jutted out as he beggingly looks up at you) and whine audibly (voice trembling and everything, going up and down in pitch to convince you to listen to him), attempting to drag you off. and when those innocent actions arent enough he starts getting pissed. he gets angry at whatever is taking your time away from him - even if its another strawhat. he will glare, but for the most part sticks to glaring. if its a complete stranger though, thats kind of free game for anyone
"fuck off!!" he would suddenly shout, getting in their personal space and intimidating the fuckkkk out of them. "leave us alone!"
and then obviously no psychopath would try crossing luffy, so they run away with their tail in between their legs. and then luffy goes back to being cheery and all smiles. he shoots you his signature grin, buries his head in your neck and shoulders while hugging your waist, murmuring in a very very very happy tone, "mine, mine, all mine, hehe"
very unsettling especially with his usually cute exterior.
loves kissing and hugging you. its all so sloppy and its more saliva than anything, but to him its his favorite way of staking claim as yours and you as his. leaves his mark too. its not really something that is sexual to him, unless he wants it to be. beacuse for the most part it just plays out with him sitting on your lap and forcing your mouth onto his neck, pleading for you to mark him up. so he can confidently parade it around for everyone to see.
he interprets the civilians that stare too long as being intrigued in his relationship status and rushes over to them, explaining how his boyfriend marked him up as his and how he is very happily in a relationship. he is so sporadic when he talks, expressive as he uses his hands to point at all the places on his body you left your mark.
luffy also gets you guys in trouble a lot with marines when the crews supposed to be "secretive" due to their high bounties and then the first thing he says is: "hi! im monkey d. luffy and gonna be king of the pirates. this is my boyfriend [name] and hes my treasure!!!" with a really wide grin on his face. not even acknowledging how he exposed you guys as pirates.
soft yandere luffy is innocent 98% of the time, the last 2% are when someone pisses him off by taking up too much of your attention and he needs to release some frustrations. he just wants your love and attention and your time and your affection and your love and your hugs and your kisses. he wants you all the time <3
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