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erosastro · 6 months

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Astro Observations📍

🎈Okay let me know how you guys feel about this one, but I’ve noticed with Synastry, if say you have a cancer Venus and your partner has a Pisces Mars but they’re not enough to make the trine aspect, the effect is still felt just not to the same extent. So imo it’s still a good and significant thing but it might almost be felt not immediately or as strongly as the aspect itself?

🎈Everyone talks about how Virgo placements are always “clean” and “organised” but I really think it depends on how it’s aspected. For example my Virgo ascendant is square my Sun and square my Pluto and I’m messy as hell. Though I have to say there’s some things where it might seem messy but it’s organised chaos in way? lol

🎈I’ve noticed that one of the things that stand out the most in my relationships (romantic or otherwise) in people I get alone with, is Venus conjunct moon and Sun trine Moon. Those are always my best relationships where there’s mutual understanding and mutual respect.

🎈Moon conjunct Neptune tend be very psychic and intuitive people, especially if Neptune is well aspected to other personal aspects too.

🎈Aquarius placements can be very clingy and I don’t know if they realise this but once they’re comfortable with someone, they can be clingy and it can turn into them being like leeches too in some cases (I.e. will not let go at any cost and you have to pry them off). They also tend to stay in toxic situations longer than necessary at times especially if they have water placements in their chart too in their personal planets (for eg Aquarius Sun with a Pisces Venus)

🎈Let’s talk about Libra and Pisces placements and their avoidance of conflict at all costs. They’d rather push things under the rug than deal with it head on or tend to be “fence sitters” even when a situation calls for being firm in one side or the other. A lot of people think Gemini’s play devils advocate but in my experience, I’ve seen this mostly with Libra and Pisces placements.

🎈Saturn in 8th house in a natal chart is a really tough placement to have. These individuals experience a lot of loss in their lives from an early age and their transformations tend be very intense, more so than most other peoples. They also tend to have delayed sexual experiences but it can also be explosive.

🎈I am personally a fan of opposite connections (eg Taurus Moon x Scorpio Moon) in romantic and other connections. I think it’s the right amount of challenging but they also still have a lot in common. Of course there should also be other harmonious aspects in someone’s chart too but I personally love opposite aspects in synastry.

🎈I saw this on twitter and I was surprised that this person was dragged for it but there was a post about how air signs don’t work with water signs because air signs can’t be emotionally mature enough etc. all the usual stereotypes (don’t go on twitter astrology pages they’re full of it on another note) but someone pointed out the air signs are actually very in touch with their emotions as they rule the heart chakra and they were mocked for it and it made me realise people actually don’t know this?? Air signs rule the heart chakra guys believe it or not and they’re not as emotionally inept as people think they are 🤣

🎈I know 7th house overlays are considered one of the best because it’s the house that represents partnerships but people forget it also represents enemies, so it’s not unlikely you may not get along with some people who have 7th house overlays with (obviously check aspects as well).

🎈Okay has anyone noticed that Sun trine Sun can definitely get along really well but they can also really despise each other?? Like I’ve noticed this a lot and I can’t figure out why, like even if they have other placements that are favourable, for some reason the Sun trine Sun is what I’ve noticed as a pattern the most for people that clash.

🎈Prettiest/most good looking rising signs imo are Mercurial risings(gemini/virgo) and Cancer/Pisces risings. Idk there’s something ethereal about them👀shoutout to Libra risings too

🎈let me tell you something, one of the worst aspects you could have with someone(that I’ve experienced personally), whether romantic or friendship wise, it’s Mercury opposite/square Mercury. The communication is either really heated and you can’t get on the same page or non-existent and hard to come across. I don’t recommend it 🙃

🎈Favourite composite moon for friendships/siblings is Gemini/Leo. Favourite composite moon for romantic relationships is Taurus/Cancer or Libra and for parents/parental figures is Cancer/Virgo.

#astro notes #astrology #synastry #astro observations #synastry observations #astro placements #aquarius #libra #aries #Virgo #Gemini #zodiac signs #composite charts #composite chart #composite chart observations

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jessaerys · 1 month

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your fav mello/near fics??? thank yeww (also love your drawings!)

oohh this reminds me i should pick up my ff.net archival reclist project up again...

it is of note that it's been a looooong while since i've combed the archives and there's a couple of common tropes i don't usually read due to personal taste, so i'm sure there's a lot of good fic i'm unaware of and/or forgetting about! this has totally renewed my interest in making a comprehensive personal reclist >:) perhaps i'll come back and edit this post every now and then.

i owe comments to nearly everyone mentioned here i am SO sorry. it's a lost skill that i am working on developing again. at the very least i've got everyone in one place so i can go down the list this year. i encourage everyone reading from this reclist to leave a comment too!

i wrote "off the top of my head" but this got VERY long so under the readmore it goes

obligatory classics

• the famous @tierfal 's sidetracked (2010) and full of surprises (2009). rated e and m respectively. these are like the allegorical little black dress in the wardrobe of the platonic ideal of the mellonear oneshot. seem to be pretty well known across the ship fandom • stripped (2009) by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire on tumblr. explicit. i haven't read this in a while but i remember it capturing the delicate gossamer tension of the ship in a way that was sooo bittersweet and nostalgic. • to speak of rules and privilege (2008) also by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire, gen, a manifesto on tenderness, soooooooooo soft, changed the game, near being afraid of thunderstorms was immediately adopted into personal canon. big time influence for the way i write near and mello's pre-canon relationship re: big brother, little brother. • an understanding (2008) by blueberryash/@tka-trashfire, rated T, short and sweet, razor sharp prose, the aesthetics of the little piece live rent free in my head. • dual(2011) by ramasi, @ramasi here i believe. rated m. historians say this might be one of the first examples of mellonear choking kink ever recorded,

•scarification (2012) by gacrux11 on fanfiction.net, rated m, big time dead dove do not eat. sorry this one leans early 2010s era grimdark melodrama but i love it sjkdfkjfd. not enough dead dove fics about the boys if u ask me. • salt in the wound (2007) •tempus fugit (2007), and • white out (2006) by vaudevillain king on fanfiction. net. a beloved rare find. all of them are rather grimdark edgy products of their era, but some of the best the era had to offer. they make me so nostalgic for my teenagehood on fanfiction.net. i get the impression these might've been written even before death note was finished? • birthday smut (2009) by kleine_aster on livejournal. explicit. this one is SO funny to me because it is both really, really good, very in character, but unfortunately it suffers from almost satirical misogyny that afflicted fujoshis back in the day. near literally is like oh that bitch... like. he would not fucking think that but i can edit quickly in my brain as i read. bisexual mello rights! otherwise really sexy imo. i might be writing something that's kind of in conversation with this fic.

RARE finds

(please tell me if you enjoy any of these, i want to feel like an explorer that's brought back treasures from far away lands)

contemporary favorites:

• you've heard about it before and you will hear about it again: the archer ensnared (2023) by jabbernatty, rated e. a jessaerys obligatory syllabus read, the fic that made me go fulltime yaoi disease. i owe so much to jabbernatty they are my white whale my friend my enemy the writer i've psychically imprinted on from the beginning. honestly too scared to even leave a comment given the jessarys archer ensnared lore. may one day may contact and pray i don't come across as insane • postmortem (2023) by the_hemlock true gen, a favorite of ALL time. it's only tangentially mn really, it is 99% about near trying to piece together the mystery of lawlight post-canon, but the characterization and prose are some of if not the best i've ever come across. reads like it could be a piece of canon material. if you only read one fic on this list i'd pick postmortem. • it's friday i'm in love by neallo/@neallo rated m. possibly my all time fave in the neallo cinematic universe. something about the after-hours longing and the standing in the kitchen by the refrigerator lights, as the poets say. i love when stories feel like you're cutting out a window to peer into a larger universe that is just out of reach. perfectly captures what it is like to have a maddening crush • i want to hold you (hostage)(2023) by neallo/@neallo rated e. thee defining fic of this current modern mellonear era. manages to walk the line of kinky/sexy/sweet/fluffy all at once. plot twist of the century in the last chapter. near is properly as bananas insane as mello is in this fic, which is the marker of a good mellonear dynamic. really everything by morgan neallo is a safe bet for a great read • there's nothing i want but you (2023) by neallo/@neallo rated t. wammy's era mellonear obsessiveness that is soooo teenagery and yet a portent of just how codependent they might one day get. cute and ominous. • armageddon/kill game (2024) by bolide/@bolide-archive came out of nowhere a couple of months ago and ascended to the top of the game like a dark horse. rated m, chess au. one of my favorite interior mello narrations and one of the most similar to my own interpretation. such naturally talented prose. i rotate lines from this in my head all the time. still in progress but i have faith that it will be completed :') • how to burn down the sacred loom (2023) by dornishviper/@vriskarlmarx a contemporary CLASSIC. the less you know going in the better. beautiful prose, beautiful structure. they don't make fic like this anymore • the house always wins (2023) by mer_curia/@vivi-scera. screaming with my mouth closed. holds a special place in my heart given that it is my posting that convinced vi to give the ship a try, and i was rewarded with a fic that is so catered to my tastes i honestly had to read it through my fingers. SO good, the manifesto on wammyscest, so rather controversial. heed the warnings. • moonlight (2023) by tsukinousagi/@quicktimeeventfull rated t. an austere, cold little glimpse into a vampire au. it's giving let the right one in. so melancholic. one of the saddest near examinations out there. •proximity tells (2018) by abysmallypresent, rated m. truly lives up to death note's second-by-second minutia while managing to keep up the tension the entire time. great characterization. •silhouettes (2015) by bad blood/eroticcodependence, @wxmmyshouse on tumblr. unrated, post-canon compliant. made me CRY! elegantly short and simple, bittersweet and so so wistful. •arsonist's lullabye (2023) by tzviaariella/@tzviaariella. rated t. this one has a heart-wrenching air of realism to it that exists outside the chaotic universe of death note, one of those examinations of picking up the pieces after the titans have all gone away. very bittersweet.

honorary mentions

• let's die somewhere prettier (2020) by firesafinething also one of my absolute favorites, unfortunately it is discontinued and it is likely it will never be completed. sad! the premise seemed SO promising. in my mind i file it right next to postmortem mentioned above. the exploration of the tragedy of 27 year old near we could have had in a better timeline. one day i will leave a comment so good maybe it will bring back the fic from the land of the dead • august underground by me & @firebuggg rated e, in progress. >:) (shamless self promo)

#death note #meronia #mello dn #near dn #mihael keehl #nate river #mello #near #fic recs #this took so long to compile dfkgjfdjkgfdjk

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anti-terf-posts · 8 months

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Hi, this may not be the right place to ask, but I’m just wondering what’s so wrong with radfem ideology? I can’t really find any proper resources detailing why it’s wrong, besides screenshots of either toxic people saying toxic things, or screenshots of tradfem blogs. My own research hasn’t brought up anything either, as I can’t really find radfems saying anything horrible like a lot of anti radfem posts describe them saying. Again, sorry if this is the wrong blog, feel free to ignore this ask if that’s the case!

BEFORE WE BEGIN: I AM NOT AN EXPERT. I USED ARTICLES WITH NUETRAL OPINIONS ON RADICAL FEMINISM, AND BASED MY OWN OPINIONS ON IT. USE THIS AS A SOURCE AT YOUR OWN RISK

This one is actually kind of tricky, because some radfem beliefs are actually very valid and are arguably reasonable.

For example, Wikipedia states, "Radical feminism is a perspective within feminism that calls for a radical re-ordering of society in which male supremacy is eliminated in all social and economic contexts" Which like, totally makes sense! The patriarchy needs to be dismantled entirely in order for women to have true freedom.

However, radical feminism dismisses the idea of legal/class based misogyny, which is ridiculous, considering the fact that women in higher classes often have more power over lower class women, and sometimes even enforce gender roles against lower class women (making them do household chores like taking care of the children or cleaning the house for them, etc.)

And let's not forget the racism rooted in radical feminism. Radfems claim that misogyny is the most basic form of oppression, which completely erases the oppression of people of colour, which has been around since almost forever.

In fact, in the early days of this movement, many black women refused to associate with radical feminists due to their ignorance of oppression against women of colour. It was only after radical feminists began to listen to woc, and start including them in their feminism that they decided to join the ideology.

Moving the discussion over towards prostitution and pornography. Radfems believe that both of those are inherently bad things. It is true that women in lower socioeconomic classes have a higher chance of being prostitutes, but it shouldn't be true. Yes, women who are coerced into sex work in any way should have the freedom to quit, but this should not clash with a woman's freedom to join the industry if she wants to.

So, sometime after the radical feminism movement was started, radical lesbian feminism began.

These women believed that they were helping women fight oppression and misogyny simply by being lesbians, because "heterosexuality inherently oppresses women". This statement is incompatible with the belief that women should have the freedom to do what they want. If lesbians are unable to control who they're attracted to, then why isn't that the same for heterosexual women? And let's not ignore the blatant biphobia that comes with that. A bi woman should have the freedom to choose to be in a male/female relationship without judgement (as long as she isn't being coerced into the relationship) and saying otherwise completely erases bi women's experiences as queer people.

Speaking of queer people, we all know and love the classic TERF, or, FART, as I like to call them. (Also, if you couldn't tell, I was being sarcastic about loving TERFs. No one loves TERFs.)

Trans Exclusive Radical Feminists believe that the trans movement "perpetuates patriarchal gender norms," and "is incompatible with radical feminist ideology."

If you couldn't tell, this is greatly untrue. Radical feminism just believes that we need to get rid of the patriarchy and has nothing to do with how people identify. If you take a look at pretty much any article that discuss radical feminism, you'll see the history of anti-trans rhetoric being spread by the ideology.

Being anti trans is probably what radical feminism is most well known for. Over the course of many decades, the ideology has become less about women's movement, and more about punishing trans people for their existence. Hell, even a quick search of "radical feminism" on this god forsaken site will reveal that their main motive is no longer about women's liberation and has now become all about oppressing trans people.

As my mum put it; "it's the cycle of abuse. These women are so traumatized by the patriarchy and misogyny, that they feel the need to abuse the easiest target."

To recap, the radfem ideology is racist, biphobic, and most notably, transphobic. And if that's not enough to convince you that it's problematic, I don't know what is.

#asks #anon #trans #transgender #anti terf #anti gender critical #anti radfem

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blitzy-arts · 6 months

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Commissions Closed permanently. (Please read.)

Hello.

If you've missed what I've been posting on my other socials, I did forget to post about this on all my gallery sites, so here you go.

Yes, I am closing commissions permanently for the forseeable future. I'm struggling to sell slots, and I just can't handle the stress and sadness of it anymore. It's been nearly causing me to go into a mental health spiral. I can't afford NOT to do it as a second source of income, but at the same time, nothing is coming from it anymore, so I've decided to just save myself the hurt/stress of it all, and officially close.

I will still be doing Patreon rewards, and early access/exclusive content on my Patreon which you can find more info about there: https://www.patreon.com/blitzy_arts

But those will only be small headshot rewards. It will be the only way to get any art from me for any forseeable future. Otherwise, I may only accept commissions from a few regular/trusted clients and friends I've had over the years.

I will also hopefully be going back to my roots, and revisiting more human/humanoid art. I've been hyperfixated on BG3/Astarion lately, and will hopefully focus on doing fanart for that. I appreciate furries, and what they've done for me, and I will still always draw furries (specifically my own sona/bf's sona), but it's time I FINALLY get time to draw more things -I- want to draw, not JUST furries. I have so many other interests away from that, things I frankly care about more, and I want to express that, you know???

I hate that it's come to this, and I'm heartbroken, and things will be difficult going forward, but I appreciate the support I got in the time I've been doing this. Thank you to those who've commissioned me, and allowed me to run my little business.

And if I can just leave this with a few words: Please guys. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be there for artists/your artist friends right now. With the economy being fucked, and AI trash replacing us, things are not looking good. Please support where you can, sometimes that just means sharing/retweeting your fave artists' work, commenting etc. This includes musicians, writers, actors etc. Support creative people, and their endeavors. It matters a whole lot.

Thanks.

#important #commissions closed #please read

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ancient-pokehistorian · 7 months

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Rules

Hey guys, Wings (she/her or they/them) here!

The rules are basically going to be the same as my previous blogs, but if you’ve never met me here’s the rundown:

Important general rules:

I can be a very s l o w replier, and often have a tendency to drop threads. Because of some medical issues I get tired and worn-down easily. I also am a part-time student. First off, I’m very, very sorry. Please talk to me if I forget or drop something you really want to do.

Relating to the above, there are some nights where I only have the muse for certain threads, or even just memes or drabbles. Please respect that and don’t take offense that I’m not replying.

I’m painfully shy. While I refuse to use this as an excuse to avoid interacting with other people, just know that if I don’t talk to you or interact with you. This is something I'm working on improving on, but I'll admit it does help if I get hints of interest from you (even if it's just liking some of my other posts)

OOC will be tagged as ‘Out of History’’

IC =/= OOC; If one of my muses doesn’t like your muse please don’t assume that I don’t like you. Val can be a dick sometimes. Chances are I do, very much like you.

IMs/DMs can cause me a lot of anxiety. This doesn’t mean that you can’t send them, but please understand there are some days I just may not reply. It’s not anything you did, it just spares me some stress because otherwise I’ll hyperfocus on them and not get anything done, resulting in a sense of guilt. So please just respect that. Also please don’t IM me just because I’m online; chatting is one of the hardest things.

You may have noticed this is now a sideblog. I don't feel like I can handle blog-hopping right now, or know for certain if I'm going to be able to keep things up. If that dissuades you from interacting with me, that's perfectly understandable.

Interactions:

I do not follow back without at least a rules page, and preferably a rules and an about page. If you're new to rp and new help on where to start, I'd be happy to help.

I have the usual roleplay rules-no godmodding, ect. Usually I give a warning, but if I do please don’t take it lightly. If you aren’t sure, or you’re new to rp and keep seeing the word ‘godmod’ floating around without understanding, just come talk to me and we’ll figure things out.

I don’t have much experience with Pokémon Special, so this will primarily be a game-verse blog. That being said, I’m more than happy to do crossovers of any sort, including between fandoms. Just understand that I may not be well-versed in the world from which your character comes, so you may have to give me some details.

OCs, multi-muse blogs, gijinkas, and Pokémon are welcome. I’m not very picky about who I thread with, so long as you understand the italicized rule above.

I also rp with multiples of the same muse. I do not have a main verse.

Likewise, I will do one-liners, para, and multi-para threads, though I lean towards multi-para. Sometimes my replies will be short, so please forgive me. I’ll try to match your length. Don’t feel compelled to match mine if you can’t think of anything, but I’d appreciate a thoughtful reply that I can work with.

This is a multi-ship blog. Unless relationship conflict is discussed between all involved roleplayers and agreed upon, no muse is cheating on anyone.

I am all for having pre-established relationships. Come talk to me if you want to do that. We can also retcon a relationship if we’ve already started something.

I do not do greeters.

Most of the time I wing interactions, but I’d be happy to plot as well. Just remember that sometimes I take awhile to reply to asks.

Open to M!As, but I maintain the right to refuse any M!A or change the duration (including ending it early if need be)

While I don’t consider myself super strict on reblog karma, if I only ever see you reblogging memes from my blogs and never sending things, I will be disheartened and less inclined to interact with you. I’m working on gently reaching out to people if I see them doing this, and the majority of the time I reblog memes from a meme source if you can’t think of anything to send me personally.

However, if I've only ever seen you reblog memes from me (usually over a decent period of time because I'm slow to notice stuff), without interacting with me. you will be soft blocked.

Content:

The mun does not claim ownership of any art unless it’s tagged ‘Wings arts’.

Mun is of age, as are most of the muses, but it’s worth double-checking. Sexy fun times may occur on 18+ muses but are unlikely, and will be put under a read more. Other NSFW topics, like gore, may appear as well.

Similarly, triggers will be tagged, including gore. I tag ending with TW (ex: violence tw). Because I’m human I occasionally miss things, so don’t be afraid to message me if I have to go back and tag things. Please tell me if there’s anything you need me to tag for you, and I’m more than happy to do so.

I’d love to rp some Pokémon battles. However, instead of just jumping into a battle, I’d rather we either discuss the battle and outcome beforehand, or use a RNG to decide what attacks hit and such (I have a system I’ve used in the past that worked wonderfully, and would be happy to share it).

If at any point you want to ship, just let me know. I can’t promise that my muse will feel the same, but I’m willing to at least give it a try as long as there’s chemistry and you respect my other rules.

Please feel free to come talk to me OOC, even if we don’t thread. I’m a shy birdy, but I do enjoy meeting new people and making friends. Usually my ask box is the best way to reach me, but IMs/DMs are open, too.

#out of history

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localgroupcommsarray · 11 months

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BLOG MASTERPOST

Welcome to the Askblog of local group, Known Injustices, Consequences Ignored.

Unanswered Ask Count: 0

(I am in the process of redrawing a lot of old asks bc when I originally drew them I was very excited and it made them. Far lower quality art than I would have liked ^^')

ASKS ARE OPEN

All four iterators are connected and are accepting Communication Requests

CHARACTER LIST

Top Left- Reflection of Colorless Seas (He/They) Seas is the local group senior, a first generation iterator. He does not emote very much, nor does he seem to even have many emotions. Despite this he cares deeply for his local group and only wishes the best for them

Top Right- Incomplete Unity (She/They/It) Unity is the second oldest, early fifth generation. Her structure was never completed due to severe complications with the construction process, due to this she is at constant risk of collapse. She loves her siblings deeply and often acts as a therapist for them.

Bottom Left- Mists From The Past (He/They) Mists is the second youngest, late fifth generation. He is very focused on making sure his sister, Unity, does not collapse. He creates purposed organisms to assist with maintenance and other jobs. He is not very good at socializing but he tries his best to at least be helpful.

Bottom Right- Cry of Stars (They/Them Only rarely It/Its) Stars is the youngest, a seventh generation. They are very childish and playful, unable to do much to assist others but at least wanting to add some joy to their cycles. They were not actually using their puppet most of their life and are now trying their best to get used to life.

ASK RULES

-No NSFW -In character asks are allowed and!! Encouraged!!! -There is story planned as of updating this (9/25/2023), lore asks will be under a certain tag once it gets there -This blog may go into some triggering/upsetting topics which will be warned in tags and at the top of a post before a read more, please stay safe and try to not trigger yourself with silly robots -No Magic Anons (Unless otherwise stated for a certain period of time) -When making asks please specify which character is being asked the question -Swearing is 100% good I love saying fuck

LORE POST LINKS

-None yet

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NON-ASK RELATED/OTHER MISC INFO

Blog is run by: @thesisthehomosexual Art/General Rain World Blog is: @thesisrainworldblog

(WARNING: THERE MAY BE SPOILERS POSTED ON THOSE BLOGS)

Art may or may not be just randomly posted here

The blog may also have some art reblogged form my art blog that I made for a RP that I joined and that will be tagged separately from actual blog cannon stuff

This blog also keeps getting fucking restarted since I keep forgetting about it, I may also redo old asks if I didn't put that much effort into them hhhough

This post will be updated at random with rule updates/lore posts/other things (new front art probably-)

Have fun on this blog ig??? Have a good timezone thank you for listening to my tedtalk

#iterator oc #ask blog #rocs #iu #mftp #cos #rebooting the old ask blog woooo #hopefully it doesnt fail again

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jeongtokkie · 2 years

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some tag games below the cut:

Some of these tags are from JUNE I am so sorry 😶

Tagged by @kithtaehyung @jiniekook @rumue thank you my lovelies💕

name: sarah

sign: gemini

time: early evening, but when I post this I have nooo idea

birthday: may 30 🌱

fav band/artist: it always changes but rn it’s svt

last movie: mission impossible 1 ???

last show: my kinnporsche rewatch <3 otherwise uhh house of dragon ep1? Does that count

when you created this blog: i think its feb 2013…. But I went on a huge hiatus for a few years before coming back nov 2018

what you post: a lot of photography and art and asian tv series and bangtan/tubatus

other blogs: my side blog for more tv series and a haikyuu sideblog 🖤

do you get asks: occasionally but not really :(

followers: more than I deserve <3

average hrs of sleep: between 8 and 9…. I sleep a lot otherwise I cannot have a good day

instruments: haha no

what i’m wearing: white and blue striped pants (think inkigayo ‘for youth’ bangtan) and a forest green high neck tank top

dream job: artist in a vfx studio :((((

dream trip: just anywhere in asia really. would love to do việt nam

favorite songs: at the moment? Thursday’s child has far to go by txt, highway by jeff satur, ready for love by blackpink

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*

Tagged by @jiniekook @jiminsproof @lovejar

fav color: yellow!!!!

currently reading: ive been reading yolk by Mary h.k. choi and Kafka on the shore by Haruki Murakami for like months now… oops 😶 I forget to read

last song: fever by enhyphen

last series: ooh ive also been rewatching avatar the last Airbender!

sweet / spicy / savory: I really like food,,, so all three??? But not together lol

currently working on: my 3d BE rooms and a learning project in unreal ✨ and namjun’s birthday set which is almost done 🌱

Tagging (no pressure, feel free to ignore)- @inkpa @himbo-harrington @userkoo @sevencoloredstar @rkivedfiles @sopekooks @letisnotonfire @thenerd10 @kimtaegis

#i’ve been sitting on this for the longest time i’m sorryyy #i’m really bad at remembering #tag games #about me

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dark-muse-iris · 1 year

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Also, the dreaded "There's still time!" When it comes to children 😒 There's also plenty of time for these people to mind their fuckin business but they can't do that when it comes to AFAB's bodies. I can personally thank you for me even having the idea that one can be childfree and happy, because beforehand not having kids wasn't even a thought, it was just a "it'll happen when it'll happen" and now I never ever want it to happen 😂 mainly the only reason I use FB anymore is for memes, my kinky bdsm groups, weed groups and childfree groups which is so much better than dealing with my family and high school level drama of old friends. So while I do believe there are internet communities that do nuture interests and are healthy, they are indeed far and few inbetween.

Here's to hoping that your new team is the sort of people that listen and appreciate you and your input/what you offer to your field.

Are there any newer groups or solo artists that have caught your attention recently? I mostly cycle through the playlists that Spotify recommends, which does offer some variety and lately I am seeing more Dreamcatcher on there (finally some more recognition for those beautiful and talented ladies) but I always love seeing what other people are listening to right now.

FB has been deactivated for me for a long while. I got tired of people back home shouting Bible verses online like the rest of us weren’t obeying hard enough. There’s a lot I could say about those communities and their bullshit of late, but I’ll spare the blog. In any case, I’ve had to take some very extreme countermeasures to protect myself and my friends/family thanks to churchgoers in my area not minding their business. And that’s taken a lot of my free time I otherwise would have spent writing stories.

My online community time has mostly be scattered among different interests on Twitter where there was more interaction until recently. I’m in a handful of Discord communities too, but only on a part-time basis because they’re very much like group chats where drama can escalate quickly. I’d like to be more active here but so many people have left, I’m not sure which direction to go. “If I posted writings again, would anyone give a shit?” is a question I’ve grappled with a lot. Writing can be fun and easy, but sharing that writing involves more upkeep and steps and I’m not sure the trade-off would be worth it, if that makes sense.

I miss having people to talk to about k-pop. Most of my k-pop friends are only talking about their personal crises now, or other interests/milestones I may not share, so I shifted my focus with most of them and stayed thankful I still have most of my friends to begin with. I haven’t been super engrossed in 4th gen music lately because I’ve been listening to a lot of old rock from my goth teen years to get through work lollll BUT I really like NewJeans! I’ve played a lot of their songs on repeat because they had sounds that I remember (and sorely missed) from late 90s/early 2000s R&B in the U.S. That’s a really specific reason to enjoy a group, but I told every k-pop stan I knew over age 30 about Attention when it first came out.

Other than that, I’m planning a year-end stages binge alone on my couch soon. I’ll probably be drunk for that and missing my old friends who won’t be there to wheeze with me in person. With any luck, I’ll get a few notes for some stories or forget the year I’ve had for a few hours of bliss.

Nice hearing from you again! I hope you have a wonderful new year!

#iris answers

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j1mmyr · 1 year

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Oop I seem to have gained some new people! Sorry I’ve not been too active lately XD

UH…a small “get to know me” though I guess!

- My IRL name is Jonny so you may see close people using it but my online name/art name/alter ego is Jimmy sometimes stylized as J!MMY and it comes from a long story inside joke! Sometimes I tack on my last initial (R) depending on the situation

- I’m a guy, my pronouns are he/him/his!

- I’m trans and have been out since 2013! I’m 5-6 years on T (I honestly forget the exact year off the top of my head) and am almost two years post-op! I don’t label myself as a “trans guy” exactly though and usually just say “guy” because frankly trans or cis doesn’t matter because I AM A GUY lol

- I’m an artist first and foremost and draw…well, kink and nsfw mostly XD I have an original comic about two fat BDSM gimps in a cyberpunk world that fall in love…sort of :U It’s complicated. They’re names are Scream and Candy and they’re my main OCs. You can see more of them and my art at my art blog @electropuz or send them asks at @spandexspaceman though that blog isn’t exactly ready yet!

- Other hobbies include writing, RPing, and cosplaying! And sometimes making said cosplay though my skills aren’t great so I usually end up buying cheap cosplay and fixing it up lmao. I also like gaming sometimes and wanna stream myself playing them or do “let’s plays” as a side thing for fun!

- Possible trigger warnings! I am mostly “spiritual” but openly identify as an atheistic Satanist! I also am a heavy drinker and a stoner so it’s hard for me to always tag things like drugs and alcohol! I’m also pro-kink BUT within limits!! I DO NOT support pedophila, incest, and other such things! Just keep all this in mind before following and minors DO NOT INTERACT at all! Btw if you’re a minor and I interact with you first out of accident first just tell me and I will quit right away!

- Otherwise I have three (technically five…long story) awesome cats that I love very much and put before all else! They’re names are Cirice (black, female, we pronounce it Cirrus due to a Ghost video we watched early in the fandom years ago), Dewdrop (cream/light orange, male, named after the unofficial name for Ghost’s lead guitarist), and Mochi (sphynx/hairless, male, named because he looks like he has rice ball skin lmao). The other two cats mentioned are cats I had when I lived with my grandpa and had to leave behind when I moved out! I still visit them frequently and make sure they’re well cared for though! They’re names are Wade (fluffy gray and white, male, named after Deadpool because he’s my hero) and Bruce (white, male, named after Batman to match Wade being Deadpool). All are spayed/neutered and three are shelter rescues!

- My personal triggers are cat deaths, harm, etc. so please tag them if we become mutuals! It’s not that other forms of animal death/abuse aren’t important (they bother me too), they’re just not a full blown trigger. Cats specifically send me into episodes of severe anxiety and depression

- My “just talking” tag is “the rest is all bullshit” so feel free to blacklist that if you’re just here for cats or memes or something!

ANYTHING ELSE?? I guess just ask me! I love to talk and my favorite things are currently the band Ghost, Walt Disney World, Ghostface (both Scream and DBD), and talking about my OCs! Also aside from Ghost my big fandoms are OFF, TF2, Rick and Morty, and MHA! There’s also a handful of nostalgic fandoms (like Homestuck) and various characters I adore, it’s just hard to list them all right now XD

OKAY I THINK THAT’S FINALLY IT!! Welcome to my blog!

#the rest is all bullshit

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spookyoat · 2 years

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What breakfast foods I think the slashers would eat

I am pretty new to posting about the slashers, so I apologize in advance for any errors. On that note, I would love to hear your thoughts on what you think our beloved slashers would eat!

Michael Myers:

Only sugary cereals for this slasher

Michael LOVES those halloween-themed monster cereals

specifically the franken berry flavor

he would definitely go the store and buy out the entire stock

since they're seasonal, Michael can and will hoard them so he can eat them year-round

he will eat, at the minimum, two to three bowls over the course of the day

Jason Voorhees:

Jason likes waffles and pancakes

he is especially fond of blueberry pancakes with maple syrup because they remind him of how his mother used to make them for him as a child

he doesn't actually need food to live, but he still eats since it reminds him of good childhood memories

don't forget a side of bacon!

he does own an old, beat up waffle maker

makes waffles and pancakes from scratch

Asa Emory (The Collector):

the more nutritious and filling the breakfast, the more likely it is that you'll find Asa eating it

he likes to stay in shape, so there will be very little indulgence of sugary foods and drinks

if he has time in the mornings, Asa will cook up an high-end omelet along with veggies, fruits, and toast

if he doesn't have much time, oatmeal with bananas and almonds or a poppy seed bagel

the one thing he actually indulges in is coffee and tea

Jesse Cromeans (Chromeskull):

Jesse is a busy man and is always traveling, so he has to have breakfast on the go

English muffins and croissants are his go-tos

Jesse also enjoys breakfast sandwiches and wraps

he will stop at the nearest bakery and spend the limited amount of time he has browsing the pastry display

May or may not have a Starbucks addiction

Thomas Hewitt:

family meals are of utmost importance to the Hewitts, and breakfast is no exception

Bacon and sausage are ALWAYS on the menu

Thomas only ever eats savory breakfasts unless Luda Mae decides to make something sweet

he does like scrambled eggs and buttered toast, too

the simpler the food, the better

Brahms Heelshire:

the absolute PICKIEST eater out of all the slashers

Brahms will throw a fit if his PB & J is sliced correctly or if the crust isn't cut off

although picky, he does appreciate the thought and effort that goes behind making his breakfast

Enjoys yogurt with granola and fruit as well as nutella-strawberry crepes

as a special treat, make him funfetti pancakes with whipped cream on top

Vincent Sinclair:

unlike Brahms, Vincent will eat just about anything

that being said, Vincent does has a soft spot for muffins and cinnamon rolls

whenever he's not working on his wax sculptures, he enjoys experimenting in the kitchen

his favorite creations are carmel apple muffins, lemon pound cake muffins, and pumpkin cinnamon buns

he takes joy in sharing his breakfast treats with his brothers (Lester loves it, and Bo acts indifferent, but he secretly cherishes these moments)

Bo Sinclair:

Bo spends most of his time at the gas station or working on his truck, so whatever food is closest to him will suffice

it could be a week-old pack of jerky, a beer, one of Vincent's baked goods, leftovers at the back of the fridge, or all of the above

he claims to not care for sweets (his brothers know otherwise)

if Bo wants something specific, he will always choose sausage and eggs

Lester Sinclair:

Lester loves donuts

usually tries a different type of donut each day

Raspberry jelly donuts are his Achilles heel

Lester practically begs for Vincent to try his hand at making donuts from scratch for him

Billy Lenz:

Billy is a vacuum when it comes to food

he will eat ANYTHING even if it's not supposed to be edible

expect him to raid the fridge early in the morning (I'm talking around 3 to 5) and stuff his face like he's never eaten in his life

but he does go hours and even days without food, so this behavior makes sense

make a big breakfast just for him, and he will be forever grateful and obsessed with you

Billy Loomis:

breakfast wraps, sandwiches or pizzas are what you'll find Billy eating in the morning if he's in a good mood

if not, he probably won't eat at all

he's more likely to snack on things throughout the day rather than to sit down for a meal

movie foods, such as m&ms, popcorn, nachos and pretzels, are among his favorite things to snack on

Stu Macher:

poptarts are Stu's lifeblood

will inhale poptarts toasted, frozen or straight from the wrapper, it doesn't matter to him

he likes the fruity kinds (just like him), but will occasionally indulge in one of the chocolaty flavors

you can find Stu eating these anytime and anywhere

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earnestly-endlessly · 3 years

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Cherik angst!

Ooooh the angst!! The cherik fandom has an abundance of angst fics and I could probably make a list of hundred fics to recommend, but these are some of my favourite angsty cherik fics. I should warn you though, some of these require tissues.

Cherik Angst

Everyday Love in Stockholm – tahariel

Summary: Magneto is the ruler of the posthuman world.

His only secret? Charles Xavier, the human he's kept locked in his bedroom ever since his right-hand woman, Mystique, came to him pleading for mercy for her stepbrother, who accepted her mutant form and protected her as a child. The human he started fucking after Mystique was killed in battle, despite the guilt he feels at contaminating even this last promise to the woman who was integral to his life's work and happiness.

Boden’s Mate – kaydeefalls

Summary: "Shaw has information that we need, and we need him alive to extract it," Moira says, and there it is: the job is on the table. Extraction.

XMFC/Inception fusion AU. Erik is an extractor, Alex is his point man. They're assembling a team to go after the most dangerous mind in dreamsharing: Sebastian Shaw. But unless Alex and the team can keep him in check, Erik's desire for vengeance might just rip the whole job apart around them -- and then there's the shade that haunts his dreams...

Ritual Self-Torture – TurtleTotem

Summary: Shaw is King, Charles is his royal consort and Erik is a Knight/Lord. Shaw is sterile but his kingdom can't find out, so he asks Erik to impregnate Charles.

He doesn't know Erik and Charles are in love.

The Winter of Banked Fires – Yahtzee

Summary: Charles Xavier has returned from the dead -- but is lost within his own mind. Rogue has cast aside her own power and doesn't know where she fits in the world any longer. The production of synthetic Cure means mutantkind itself is newly at risk. And Magneto, turned human against his will, is in despair until the day he feels a familiar consciousness tugging at his own

Us – Pangea

Summary: “Charles,” Erik says, and if his voice hits a pleading note then who can really blame him, “Charles, it’s me.”

It takes several longer moments before Charles musters up the strength to answer, breath stuttering horribly as he tries to breathe. He’s shaking, entire body trembling.

“Erik,” Charles says, his voice cracking, “Erik, I want to die.”

Enigma – Yahtzee

Summary: Erik dies, or finds a reversey-time mutant, or a magical time travelling device, and wakes up in the past. This time, though, it's before he ever met Charles - in fact, it's before his mother died.

He can save his mother that one time (thanks to his mastery over powers carrying back), but what does Erik do after that? Does he stick around, or escape and run to find Charles again (and hope everything doesn't go wrong)?

By Faint Indirections – kianspo

Summary: Erik is in his ~50s, and lonely and bitter. He survived the Holocaust and was only ~14 when the war ended; and even ~40 years later, living in a country that helped to end WW2 and the Third Reich, homosexuality is still a taboo topic. Then one day, he stumbles over Charles, who is young(early 20s) and bright and smart and cheeky and full of energy and beautiful. And moving in the same street where Erik lives.

Lonesome on the Shelf – ikeracity

Summary: After three years of marriage, Charles has to admit that his relationship with Erik has significantly cooled off. These days, they're barely ever home at the same time and it seems like every conversation they have turns into an argument. Charles misses the way they used to be, misses the spontaneous dinner parties and the surprise morning sex and the wake up calls in the early mornings to catch the sunrise. But it's going to take two of them to fix this marriage, and some days, it seems as if all Erik wants is to be rid of him.

A fic about rekindling marriage.

When the Spell Breaks – kianspo

Summary: Erik, a high-profile lawyer with a successful career, meets a 21-year-old grad student in a bar, and within a few short months marries him. He and Charles are blissfully happy, until Erik's boss runs a background check on Charles and discovers he's been cheating on Erik. Charles denies everything, as there was no affair, but Erik doesn't believe him and throws him out. As Charles tries to figure out how to survive and stay at school that he can no longer afford and makes a lot of bad if not plain dangerous choices, Erik has to fight his own battle of discovering the truth and winning Charles back.

The Tower and the Hurricane – dreamlittleyo

Summary:(Post-movie AU.) Five years after Shaw's death, Erik's predictions prove painfully accurate. Violence rages on both sides of the human/mutant conflict. In a world ravaged by war, it doesn't really matter who's more at fault. Charles struggles to teach his students a better way, but what choices will he make when peace really isn't an option?

The Attempt – Yahtzee

Summary: Charles knows everything about Erik, knows how obsessive and self-destructive he is, how Erik would do anything, give anything, in his quest for vengeance against Shaw. But he also knows that Erik loves him in ways that aren't exactly platonic.

I'd like to see a completely straight!Charles, out of pure love and care of Erik, initiate a romantic relationship with him. It can be because he wishes to give Erik something positive in his life or because he thinks it might help change Erik's mind about Shaw, the reason is up to author. Also, while Charles finds intimacy with Erik strange and awkward, he does enjoy the new, non-romantic layers that have developed in their relationship.

Apple Seeds – pprfaith

Summary: Charles, Erik, apple seeds and Shakespearean love affairs.

Ashes, Ashes – winterhill

Summary: Post-apocalyptic AU — When the bombs fall, and mutually assured destruction occurs, it turns out that Shaw was right and radiation does enhance mutant powers. Snapshots of the XMFC main ensemble in the time after the bombs: Erik decides to stay, Moira thinks she might be the only human left, Raven is having trouble sleeping, and Charles is losing his mind.

Warnings: nuclear holocaust: death (death in general, not a specific character), cancer, burns, medical procedure, mutant powers gone awry

Five Bullet Points – Sperare

Summary: It was supposed to be Erik locked away in a prison one hundred stories below the ground.

Charles was never supposed to be there with him.

Tequila on a spaceship – faerie_ground

Summary: In 2014, Charles Xavier gets brutally murdered and Erik Lehnsherr spends the rest of his life mourning his death.

In 3014, Captain Lehnsherr and CMO Dr Xavier are colleagues, best friends and maybe a little more besides that aboard the Magneto I.

The Tower and the Hurricane – dreamlittleyo

Summary: Post-movie AU.) Five years after Shaw's death, Erik's predictions prove painfully accurate. Violence rages on both sides of the human/mutant conflict. In a world ravaged by war, it doesn't really matter who's more at fault. Charles struggles to teach his students a better way, but what choices will he make when peace really isn't an option?

Simple and Uncomplicated – Pookaseraph

Summary: Erik and Charles had been fuck buddies for some, but when Charles is in an accident he figured their relationship would be over. Erik's visit to his bedside in the hospital changes his assumptions even as he has trouble believing Erik is sincere.

Lazarus – Clocks

Summary: Erik is 19 when he says ‘I love you’ for the first time.

It would take five long years before Charles says it back.

Broken Eternity – CractasticDispatches

Sumnmary: It starts with being alone. It shouldn’t, perhaps, but it does because, of course, alone is what no one ever wishes to be.

Shout it Out Loud – dreamlittleyo

Summary: (Movie-Concurrent AU.) When Charles forges a telepathic link between himself and Erik, the two men find themselves bound together by more than just destiny. With the world on the brink of war, Charles and Erik struggle to cope with a psychic connection that may well be permanent.

Call Me By His Name – sinuous_curve

Summary: Charles wakes from the absence of noise.

There is an empty space in his room, beside his bed. Not quiet as in an abandoned room, but utterly, featurelessly blank. Like a box made of unblemished, impenetrable metal and Charles knows before he opens his eyes.

The Longest Word – septicwheelbarrow

Summary: "I'm Charles Xavier," he says, smiling from ear to ear. Then he gestures to his wheelchair. "Terminal spinal osteoblastoma, reaper due to collect in a year."

After some time, the man gestures at himself with a sardonic smile. "Same, one year. Lung." And then, reluctant, as if trying to keep his name to himself, "Erik."

I reject your reality and substitute my own. Doesn't really work that way, both ways.

Copy – chantefable

Summary: Charles wakes up without his memory. His sole caretaker, Erik, claims to be his husband, and tells him he's recovering from a car accident on their honeymoon.

Slowly falling for Erik again, Charles begins to regain his memories. He starts to notice strange things about his body, Erik, and their secluded mansion.

Myosotis – SomeCoolName

Summary: When Charles got back from Cuba, he lost the two things which made him stand: his legs and the love of his life, Erik Lehnsherr. Charles can get used to the wheelchair but he won't ever be able to get pass the loss of Erik.

"I wish I never met him" is something Charles says one night, maybe a bit drunk, absolutely wrecked for sure. It's a bit silly but Charles figures out his only solution is to use his own powers to erase Erik from his mind, progressively.

Except one day Erik comes back to the Xavier mansion to win him back. And even if Charles doesn't want to stop forgetting about him, Erik will do anything he can to convince him otherwise.

Das Haus am See – sareyen

Summary: The Lake House AU:

Erik is an estate planning lawyer who takes some time off to get away from the big city after his marriage fell apart. He lives in a picturesque lake house by Chautauqua Lake for almost two years, before moving back to New York City. This is in 2019.

Charles is a famous but very private author stuck in a creative rut, and moves to his lakeside estate for a short while to try and find a reason to write again. This is in 2017.

By magic or fate, Charles and Erik discover that the letter box at the lake house has the ability to send letters through time, between Charles in 2017 and Erik in 2019. Through letters that transcend the barriers of time, Charles and Erik fall in love. Charles vows to find Erik two years in his future, and Erik promises to wait for him. Two years - just two, meagre years.

But, fate is fickle, and time waits for no one.

Appropriate Boundaries – Yahtzee

Summary: Charles has been having serious problems with back cramps in the year and a half since he's been in a wheelchair. His doctor prescribes massage therapy. But when Charles meets his masseur, Erik, in some ways they begin to heal each other. So how do you cross the boundaries between professional touch -- and the personal?

Unbound – Cesare, helens78

Summary: Thousands of miles apart, Erik Lehnsherr and Charles Xavier form a soulbond. But when that bond is severed five years later, they have to spend the next ten years trying to rebuild their lives alone.

Do You Love Me – cgf_kat

Summary: Charles and Erik have been married for 25 years, thrown together by a mandatory post-apocalyptic pairing system attempting to increase and strengthen the population. They have seven children. They have never spoken of love, but change is on the horizon.

A Quiet Riot – cloudstroke (aQuired)

Summary: Erik can't stand the fact that his father has brought home a boy less than half his age.

But mostly because he's madly in love with Charles Xavier himself.

#cherik #cherik fic recs #fic recs #angst #asks #earnestly answers

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swimmingleo · 3 years

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Changes: or to take the higher ground before it's too late

I'm going to be real here folks, I cry ugly tears to this song. Bad.

Changes is a song on Cam's album "The Otherside". It's country, it's folk and it's an album a bit influenced by changes in Cam's life (a change of label, personal life). She collaborated with Harry on the song Changes, as she opened for him on a venue and was already working with Tyler Johnson.

From what I gathered: Harry sent her the demo of the song, implying he made most of the writing on this one. What I'm basing this claim on is her interview for Rolling Stones (read it here):

I heard [the demo] and was just like, “Oh, this ache to outgrow something that you don’t want to outgrow!” It felt so good. I normally don’t take outside songs [...]

‼️DISCLAIMER‼️when analysing this song, I'm gonna go from the idea of it being written with a queer mindset (how surprising of me). Cam rendered the song beautifully and it is very much her own, but I believe Harry's input is consequential. After all that's his lil whistle and cute fishsona in the MV.

Sad queer analysis ahead.

Let's analyse the lyrics first:

There is a town

Somewhere down a country road

The speaker describes the town to us, from memory, from experience. "There it is, down the road, can you picture it ?"

I see it now

I take it everywhere I go

The speaker doesn't currently live in the town, they're on the move (nice throwback to the coutry road). But despite all the travelling, they realize the sedentary smalltown never leaves them. It's part of them. It left a mark on them.

The river sways, I can almost hear it now

As if to say, "You're not the only one who wants a way out"

The town is so real to the speaker they can sense it, eyes and ears. But it gets a bit dark: the river sways like it's trying to leave its bed. The river is envious of the speaker who managed to leave. The town is so toxic even nature wants to get away from it. Or the speaker resents the town so bad that they project their own resentment on the river.

So, I go

'Cause I don't wanna feel like I don't know you anymore

I memorize those roads

This is the call for the speaker to leave for good. Their motive doesn't seem to be ambitious or anything grand. They leave because they apprehend a feeling. Apprehending a feeling, something that may not even happen, is the way of an anxious person. Anxiety is the motive of their departure. However, they still memorize the roads leading to the town, just in case. Perhaps one day they'll come back.

Somewhere out in the big wild country

Someone's fallin' in love in a backseat

Givin' it away

Like their hearts won't ever break

Suddenly it's about love ! Young love, one that is lived in the small compartment of a car, somewhere hidden and safe in the big wild country. As if the countryside was unexplored and threatening.

God bless the young hearts sippin' cheap wine

Gettin' drunk with their friends for the first time

Thinkin' nothing's gonna change

'Til everything changes

The speaker looks at the youth with tenderness, wishing them the best. But once again, they're not in the town in the present time, they don't see the youngsters fooling around, they can only guess from first-hand experience. And it's very specific: falling in love, getting drunk with friends and thinking everything's gonna be easy like that forever until it's not and heartbreak ensues.

From there I hop in with the raw queer theme of those lyrics. It started by falling in love and it ended up in a heartbreak. In between, the speaker got drunk for the first time with their friends, people they trusted enough to let go a little, but in the end everything changed. Why ? Alcohol makes you forget about code of conduct, how you're supposed to behave. It makes you say or do things you might not have done sober.

We can interprete this chorus as the beginning of the end for the speaker. It's the only part of the song evocating the past, and it's fun and easy, but it's also where things started to get bad the way they are in the present. Something might have happened that first time the speaker got drunk and it marked the end of innocence and careless childhood, and it probably has to do with love as no other factor is provided apart from falling in love and heartbreak.

They never leave

They're all havin' babies now

Watchin' daytime TV

Livin' off the gossip of a cruel small town

They. With Harry, it's always You, Me, and They. They are having babies, all of them, like it's not a very difficult thing to do, it's just natural. They have the leisure of the day, not a thing to worry about, if not gossip. It's not implied anymore, the small town is downright cruel. Gossip fuels it, but on behalf of someone else, and that someone is most definitely the speaker who left and who describes its inhabitants in the most mundane way, perhaps with a hint of contempt. The speaker seems bitter.

So, I go

'Cause I don't wanna feel like you don't know me anymore

Don't recognize my face

Reprise of the pre-chorus except now, the speaker provides another reason for their departure. Not only they feared they wouldn't know the town anymore, they also feared being seen as a stranger. It's not like the speaker actually changed physically: but it might as well feel like it. Again, apprehension, anguish. As implied in the chorus, things changed to the point where the speaker feels they would seem like a whole another person to the rest of the town, a stranger, a threat to the integrity of the conservatives. So they leave before this shift in perception can happen.

There ain't nothing here for me anymore

They say they don't hear from me anymore

And I don't wanna hear it anymore

The town is not outwardly hostile. It's still the town that saw the speaker as a kid. The town doesn't understand why the speaker left, but the speaker won't give in and get in touch. They want to be as far away as possible, until they don't hear the questions, the river, everything. It's almost like the speaker doesn't carry the town in their heart at all. They want to forget it all, and it hurts everytime the town tries to lure them back in. The way Cam sings it is painful to me man

Somewhere out in the big wild country

I was fallin' in love in a backseat

Givin' it away

Like my heart won't ever break

Had such a young heart sippin' cheap wine

Gettin' drunk with my friends for the first time

Thinkin' nothing's gonna change

'Til everything changes

Yeah, just the confirmation of the chorus being the speaker's experience. I went ahead and assumed it was already lol but it's like a plot twist effect. It's dramatic. It's a personal song to someone.

TO MAKE IT SHORT to me this song is intense and very in touch with the queer experience. Though it describes a specific situation, it is surprisingly not that detailed or full of metaphors the way Harry often writes: this town could be literally any smalltown in the countryside. The backseat could be the one of any car, cheap wine is something any teen can afford. I like to think Harry wrote it for himself but is also aware so many people went through the same thing, and still will. I have to admit I'm heavily biased writing this, as the experience of a queer kid struggling to find their place in a well settled smalltown is familiar.

GETTING DRUNK AND QUEER IDENTITY is an analogy Harry already used in Fine Line when he sang "We'll get the drinks in so I'll get to thinking of her". To drink is to let go, to unveil the most subconscious aspects of yourself you might not want to deal with otherwise. You don't care about judgement and you get to explore those parts freely. In Changes, this is the last memory they recall before stating the changes and their departure. Perhaps getting drunk for the first time would be when they realized they're queer. Or acted upon it, causing their little world to shake. They chose to leave before it eventually wouldn't feel like a choice anymore. There is no life for people like them in a cruel smalltown.

SMALLTOWN BOY

This song reminds me an awful lot of Smalltown Boy by Bronski Beat. The song is about a queer boy having to leave the smalltown where he grew up because of persecutions and no future prospects.

Mother will never understand why you had to leave, Smalltown Boy

They say they don't hear from me anymore, Changes

But the answers you seek will never be found at home, the love that you need will never be found at home

There is nothing here for me anymore

Other people not understanding why they leave. People who can't truly empathize even when they mean no harm. They would never understand the speaker's departure, because those people get to find love and have babies and live a peaceful life in the countryside.

You were the one that they'd talk about around town as they put you down

Livin' off the gossip of a cruel small town

Yeah yeah. I really struggle with just seeing this song as nostalgia when such harsh words are being used. I do believe there is a part of fondness for that town, that countryside setting and the early days. But it's not all tender memories.

CHANGES AND ERODA

Of couuuurse we all noticed the adorable purple fish with the pearl necklace. It represents Harry, no question, as it whistles Harry's part. And of couuuuurse we all made the link with the erodian fish, and some even noticed they formed the bluegreener pair when their colors are inverted.

It makes sense for those fishes to be connected with this interpretation of Changes. Both works are about a small town, lost in the nature, where the people are watching, aware of everything that isn't normal, that is peculiar. The early life of the peculiar boy is similar in every way to the early life of the speaker in Changes. The fish in Adore You grows too big for the island and has to leave, and though Eroda makes amends with the peculiar boy, he leaves as well because his future, his fulfilment, is somewhere else. So does the speaker in Changes.

IN CONCLUSION

The more I write posts like this, the more endeared I am by Harry's world. How Harry writes for himself, but also for other people with songs like this. How nature finds its way in all that he does. How grounded he is, how he doesn't seem to forget where he came from. It really is such a rare thing to see in a mainstream popstar's writing and art. How can someone say he sold his soul to LA is beyond me

#very dear to my heart this song #was in the drafts for quite a long time too #but hey i took louis' new song as a cue lol #they do have parallels #though i feel like louis' change is way more accepting #louis' way more at peace with the idea of time passing and leaving the town behind #not saying harry still struggles or not but the story told in changes is more pain than healing to me #anyway love their brains love them muahmuah #my analysis #song analysis #harry styles

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cuethetommo · 3 years

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LOUIS VEEPS SHOW TICKETS

CURRENT NUMBERS:

11 Dec 2020 6:02pm PST: 478 on list, up to 249 have tickets (242 bought by 120 people)

UPDATE: I will be coordinating until 7:30 am PST. If you want to support a ticket, do it before then. The list will close then. I am going to bed tonight (I will be up early in the morning), do not worry that you don’t have a response from me. I will be emailing folks who don’t get tickets just after 8:00 am PST, so watch for that email.

Ok friends, I’m going to put all of this in one post for the moment.

I am doing two things:

Creating a list of folks who want a ticket to Louis’ show, but cannot afford it.

Collecting & Distributing $$ from folks for tickets (or matchmaking for folks who won’t want to transfer $$).

IF YOU NEED A TICKET:

You do not need to prove your worth or hardship. I’m assuming if you’re coming to me that there is a need. You do not need to prove anything to me. Nor do I think anything other than we live in a shit world ruled by capitalism and that’s why you can’t afford a ticket.

Send me a MESSAGE. Either via my ask box or chat. DO NOT POST A REPLY TO THIS POST.

Send your VEEPS EMAIL and Password.

I will add you to my list and send you a message that says I did.

Once someone buys your ticket, I’ll let you know.

I make NO PROMISES. I cannot control if folks donate. And it is first come first served.

SEE ALSO: this post about being safe on the internet.

Folks do not need to be following me to be added but I will not accept anonymous submissions. Also, I will no longer coordinate tickets for folks who have me blocked (there are a couple who messaged then blocked me and that just feels shitty).

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO FUND A TICKET:

Message me and I’ll give you a set of credentials. You login to VEEPS, pay for a ticket, remove your credit card, and sign out. You can message the person you supported, or I’ll just tell them they were anonymously gifted a ticket. <- this way does not require that you be in the US or give a stranger $$.

Venmo me at CueTheTommo. Tickets are $20.70 each. If you include your URL, I’ll tell the person who supported them. If you don’t, I’ll assume you want to remain anonymous. I’ll tell you (on Venmo) who you supported and otherwise forget your name.

Most folks support one ticket for someone else and that may be the most beautiful thing of all.

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I asked some friends to translate for me. THANK YOU FOR YOUR HELP! All of you who speak more than one language are the real legends. (These are the most common ones I’ve seen, but I am open to others.)

Translated by @believeinlarrysupremacy

Certo, gente. Eu vou pôr tudo isso em uma só postagem por enquanto. Estou fazendo duas coisas:

Criando uma lista de pessoas que querem um ingresso para o show do Louis, mas não podem pagar.

Coletando e utilizando o dinheiro de outras pessoas para os ingressos do show (ou combinando entre duas pessoas para aqueles que não se sentem confortáveis transferindo o dinheiro diretamente).

SE VOCÊ PRECISA DE UM INGRESSO:

Você não precisa provar que não tem dinheiro ou que está passando por uma situação financeira complicada. Eu suponho que, se você veio até mim, é porque foi realmente necessário. Você não precisa me provar nada. Só penso que vivemos em um mundo difícil governado pelo capitalismo e é por isso que muitos não podem pagar por um ingresso.

Me envie uma MENSAGEM. Pode ser pelo ask box ou pelo chat. NÃO FAÇA ISSO RESPONDENDO A ESSA POSTAGEM.

Me envie seu E-MAIL e sua senha do VEEPS.

Eu irei te colocar na minha lista (de pessoas que precisam de ingresso) e te mandar uma mensagem confirmando isso.

Assim que alguém comprar seu ingresso, vou te avisar.

NÃO ESTOU PROMETENDO NADA. Não posso controlar se as pessoas doam ou não. Será por ordem de chegada, ou seja, quem falou comigo primeiro, receberá o ingresso primeiro.

Por favor, se informe sobre como se manter seguro na internet.

Não precisa estar me seguindo para ser adicionado na lista, porém não vou aceitar pedidos anônimos. Também não irei mais disponibilizar ingressos para aqueles que tenham me bloqueado (algumas pessoas me mandaram mensagem e, em seguida, me bloquearam e isso foi péssimo).

SE VOCÊ GOSTARIA DE FINACIAR UM INGRESSO:

Me mande uma mensagem e eu te enviarei os dados de uma conta. Você faz o login no VEEPS (com esses dados), paga pelo ingresso, remove os dados do seu cartão de crédito quando finalizar a compra e sai da conta (sign out). Você pode mandar uma mensagem para a pessoa que você ajudou ou eu digo que alguém a presenteou anonimamente. Dessa forma, não é necessário estar/morar nos Estados Unidos ou dar dinheiro a alguém que não conheça.

Translated by @solouncolorynotusojos

Bueno gente, pondré esta información en un solo post por el momento. Estoy hacienda dos cosas:

Creando una lista de gente que quiere un ticket para el concierto de Louis pero no puede pagarlo.

Juntando y Distribuyendo dinero de otra gente para comprar tickets para quien todavía no tiene (o encontrándole un match a la gente que no se siente cómoda transfiriendo dinero $$)

SI NECESITAS UN TICKET:

No necesitas probar que no tienes dinero o que estas pasando una situación difícil. Estoy asumiendo que si estas recurriendo a esto, es porque de verdad lo necesitas. No necesitas probarme nada a mí. Solo pienso que vivimos en un mundo de porquería gobernado por el capitalismo y esto es lo que hace que no puedas comprar un ticket.

Envíame un MENSAJE. Por medio de mi ask box o por chat. NO LO HAGAS RESPONDIENDO A ESTE POST.

Envíame tu VEEPS EMAIL y contraseña.

Te voy a agregar a mi lista (de gente que necesita tickets) y enviarte un mensaje con una confirmación de que te he agregado.

Te voy a avisar una vez que alguien compre tu ticket.

NO HAGO PROMESAS. Yo no controlo si la gente dona o no. Y la lista funciona para que quienes me pidieron un ticket primero, sean los primeros a los que se les done un ticket.

Por favor infórmate acerca de cómo mantenerte segurx usando Internet

No necesitas estar siguiéndome para ser añadidx a la lista, pero no voy a aceptar pedidos anónimos. Tampoco voy a coordinar tickets para gente que me tiene bloqueada (Ya que hay gente que me ha mandado mensajes y luego me bloqueo, y eso no está bueno)

SI TE GUSTARIA REGALAR/PAGAR POR UN TICKET:

Mándame un mensaje y te voy a pasar los datos de una cuenta. Vos tenes que ingresar a VEEPS (con esos datos), pagar por un ticket, remover tu tarjeta de la cuenta una vez finalizada la transacción y luego salir (sign out) de la cuenta. Puedes enviarle un mensaje a la persona a la que ayudaste, o yo les puedo decir que alguien hizo una donación anónima. (De esta manera no es necesario que estés en Estados Unidos ni que le des dinero a unx extranx.)

Puedes enviarme (VENMO) el dinero a CueTheTommo. Los tickets cuestan $$20.70 (USD) cada uno. Si incluis tu URL le voy a decir a quien se beneficie con tu ticket, quien se lo está dando. Si no me pasas tu URL, voy a asumir que quieres permanecer anonimx. Te voy a decir (en VENMO) a quien has ayudado y luego olvidarme del asunto.

Translated by @cathuniverse

Ok, Je vais mettre le tout dans un post pour le moment.

J’ai fait deux choses:

Une liste de gens qui veulent un ticket mais qui ne peuvent pas se le payer.

Reçoit et redistribue de l’argent de gens qui on donner pour aider à acheter des tickets. ( ou mettre en contact deux personne pour les gens qui ne veulent pas envoyer directement de l’argent).

Si vous avez besoin d’un ticket:

Vous n’avez pas besoin de prouver votre situation financière. J’assume que si vous me contactez c’est qu’il y a un besoin. Vous n’avez rien à démontrer ni est-ce-que je pense autre chose que l’on vit dans un monde difficile en ce moment qui est gouverné par le capitalisme et c’est pour ca que vous ne pouvez payer votre ticket.

Envoyez moi un MESSAGE. Par ma Ask Box ou le chat. Ne postez pas une reply a ce post.

Envoyez moi votre VEEPS email et votre mot de passe

Je vais vous ajouter à ma liste et vous envoyez un message vous confirmant que c’est fait

Quand quelqu’un achète votre billet, je vais vous avertir..

Je ne fait AUCUNE PROMESSE. Je ne peux pas contrôler si les gens font des dons. C'est le premier arrivé premier servi.

VOIR AUSSI: ce post a propos d'être sécuritaire sur internet.

SI VOUS VOULEZ CONTRIBUER FINANCIÈREMENT:

Si vous êtes à l'extérieur des Etats-Unis, je vous envoie une combinaison d’un identifiant VEEPS et vous pouvez vous connecter, acheter le billet pour quelqu’un puis supprimer vos informations de carte de crédit.

La plupart des gens font le don d' un seul billet pour quelqu’un d’autre et c’est possiblement la plus belle chose a voir.

Translated by @they-feel-the-same

Ok, Freunde, für den Moment fasse ich alles in einem Post zusammen.

Ich werde zwei Dinge tun:

Eine Liste von Leuten erstellen, die ein Ticket für Louis‘ Show möchten, es sich aber nicht leisten können.

Geld für Tickets sammeln und verteilen (oder matchmaking für Leute, die kein Geld überweisen wollen.

Wenn du ein Ticket brauchst:

Du musst mir nicht beweisen, dass du es dir finanziell nicht leisten kannst ein Ticket zu kaufen. Wenn du dich bei mir meldest, gehe ich davon aus, dass ein Bedarf besteht. Du musst mir absolut nichts beweisen. Ich werde auch nichts anderes denken, als dass wir in einer beschissenen Welt leben, die von Kapitalismus regiert wird, und das der Grund ist, wieso du dir kein Ticket leisten kannst.

Schicke mir eine Nachricht. Entweder über die Ask Box oder im Chat. ANTWORTE NICHT AUF DIESEN POST!

Schicke mir deine VEEPS Daten. Email und Passwort.

Ich werde dich zu meiner Liste hinzufügen und dir per Nachträglich Bescheid geben, dass du draufstehst.

Sobald jemand ein Ticket für dich kauft lasse ich es dich wissen.

Ich mache KEINE VERSPRECHUNGEN. Ich habe keine Kontrolle darüber ob die Leute spenden. Wer zuerst kommt, mahlt zuerst.

Beachte bitte zu deiner eigenen Sicherheit folgende Punkte: benutze eine Fandom Email-Adresse, nicht deine private. Entferne persönliche Details aus deinem VEEPS Profil. Ändere dein Passwort sobald du dein Ticket erhalten hast.

Ihr müsst mir nicht folgen, um zu der Liste hinzugefügt zu werden, aber ich werde keine anonymen Anfragen annehmen. Ausserdem koordiniere ich keine Tickets mehr für diejenigen, die mich blockiert haben (es gibt ein paar Leute, die mir geschrieben und mich dann blockiert haben und das fühlt sich einfach scheisse an).

Wenn du ein Ticket sponsern möchtest:

Schreib mir eine Nachricht und ich leite dir die Daten einer Person auf der Liste weiter. Du loggst dich bei VEEPS ein, bezahlst das Ticket, entfernst deine Kreditkarte und loggst dich wieder aus. Du kannst dann entweder der gesponserten Person direkt eine Nachricht schreiben und ihr mitteilen, dass du ihr Ticket gekauft hast, oder ich melde mich bei der betreffenden Person und lasse sie wissen, dass jemand anonym ein Ticket gespendet hat. <– auf diese Weise ist ein Wohnsitz in den USA nicht notwendig und du brauchst niemandem Geld zu überweisen.

So viele Leute sponsern ein Ticket für jemanden, was einfach wundervoll ist.

#louis 2020 gig #details #mine #if you can signal boost #that would be great

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Claiming Ones Own

This chapter was a pain to write. It's not perfect but will do as brain seems to want to focus on the next chapter hay ho! Enjoy. Cross posted on AO3.

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Chapter 4 - Bedtime Disasters

By the time the trio had finished their meal it was late/early, depending on your viewpoint, but one thing was certain was that it was past Marie’s bedtime. This may have been a good point to try and get her to sleep, but given that a) they are bats, sleep is for the weak as Tim would state and b) Marie had been fed probably not the wisest proportion of chocolate in the last few hours, sleep was not really on the cards any time soon.

Cass and Jason worked in tandem clearing the table and storing what remained of the takeaway in the fridge. Jason had managed to demolish a significant amount unsurprisingly, so there wasn’t much to box up. Marie stood fascinated, watching the adults dance around each other with practiced ease, taking in all the subtle communication they gave to each other.

As Cass started to wash up the dishes, Jason sighed and set off towards the bathroom. Despite his grumbling’s Jason knew it was his safest course of action. The Alfred threat looming over him was not worth the energy fighting over and simpler to just do the task. Alfred, for all his neutrality, was wrapped around Cass’s little finger (much like Bruce), and now Cass was providing him with a great grandchild would give her more protection of Alfreds disappointment. He doubted it would be long till Pixie learnt that skill from Cass either. Pixie had a charm about her and was already working her magic on him and Cass.

Seeing Jason leave, Marie bouncing with unspent energy, quietly followed to see what he was up to. Washing dishes seemed boring to her, and she had already seen the kitchen. She knew where the chocolate was stored which was the key important factor. Silently she shadowed Jason, that was until he went towards the remains of the battle zone.

“No trick here Pixie, I’m just cleaning up the mess. I’m not gonna get you wet, promise. You can watch if ya like or have a look around the apartment. No escaping or running, we’ve just got ya and don’t want to have to save you again from some more bastards!”

The little huff of air as her response got Jason to chuckle. “We care about you Pixie. Cass claiming ya means your family now. Like it or not you’re stuck with us. Cass won’t give you up easily” Jason replied before starting work on tidying the bathroom.

Marie flitted around the apartment observing them both, wondering off briefly exploring before returning to see where they were. Over the meal they gained a small amount of trust, it was clear to see they meant her no harm so was letting some of her walls down for the moment appeared to be ok. She didn’t completely trust them but she didn’t not trust them.

During her apartment adventures Maria found a thing with buttons on. Inquisitively she pressed some of the buttons. She squeaked in surprise as the TV turned on. Cass heard the noise escaping her daughter and ran into the room in a panic. Heart pounding. Was her daughter ok? Has she hurt herself? Has someone however unlikely broken in?!!!

Relief flooded through Cass as she arrived on the scene, Marie hypnotised by the tv showing some baking show. Easing into a smile, Cass went and grabbed a couple of blankets and draped one round her shoulders and one around Maries. Gently guiding Marie to her lap on the sofa they both snuggled on the sofa to watch the baking show while Jason finished off.

When Jason finished, he found the pair fast asleep wrapped up tight in blankets with the TV and lights still on. As he turned the TV and lights off, two drowsy heads glared at him as he backed away before settling down to sleep. ‘Pixie is such a mini Cass in the making’ flashed through his head.

Jason woke to loud banging on his door, groggily he sat up and with a sleep ladened voice groaned, “What do you want Cass”. The woman barged into his room, “Missing” ‘Marie is missing!!! We slept on the sofa, when I woke, she was gone!’ “Help Jay!!”. Slowly shaking he sleep out of his body, Jason finally registered what Cass was saying and appearance. Cass was unnervingly jittery and had glimmers of fear and worry marking her face. To catch Cass’s mask cracking freaked Jason out.

“Fuck” Jason jumped out of bed. His head finally catching up with the conversation. Cass was scared. Pixie had disappeared between the time he’d gone to bed and Cass waking up. Street kids were tricky, they knew how to escape and avoid trouble. Giving what they saw of her on the streets, she had the potential to slip out the apartment without triggering the alarms. They were set up for those slipping in, not out. He thought that they had reassured her enough to stay the night and well hopefully trust them.

“Shit! Fuck! Where have you looked Cass? Are you sure she’s left the apartment?” grabbing some joggers to slip on, Jason walked over to the semi frantic Cass.

‘Looked in living room and bedroom. I couldn’t see her. Doors and windows locked still don’t think she left but I’ Cass looked up at Jason, her anxiety was showing ‘I panicked. Need help to find her’

Systematically the pair hunted the apartment. Looking in all the unusual places a child could hide. Pixie was appearing to be an expert at disappearing.

Throwing caution to the wind Jason looked in the blanket cupboard. Almost missing it, Jason could see a glimpse of hair poking out. Jason could only smile. His niece was hidden, you could barely see her, under the pile of blankets and right at the back so only if you were seriously looking for her. Leaving the girl who seemed content to rest Jason strode off to find Cass.

“Hey Cass, you can chill now. I found your gremlin. She is in the blanket cupboard all nested and asleep still.”

The visible effect of those words surprised Jason as tension and anxiety left his sister’s body. ‘Thank you Jay’. His niece had really wormed her way into Cass’s heart, and his heart too.

…………….

Being a mother was surprisingly more complex than Cass had thought as she reviewed her first almost week.

Meal times had been an interesting challenge to overcome with Marie demanding chocolate ALL the time. That was until Cass thought of chocolate milk. This seemed to appease her quirky child, so though at times convincing her to try new things was harder than it should be, Marie was more co-operative. At least now meals were not food covered in chocolate spread or succumbing to chocolate bar demands.

Taking Marie shopping had also been an experience she, and Jay, would rather forget. Marie disappearing for 30 minutes had caused an awful lot of fraught feelings for Cass and Jason as they hunted manically for her. When Marie reappeared she seemed quite content with a collection of jewellery and nonplussed about the chaos and anxiety she’d left behind her. Her pickpocketing habits would need to be addressed as she kept the ring she obtained but she gifted the rest to Jason and Cass. The gift given would have been sweet if it a) wasn’t stolen and b) she didn’t think that she needed to buy love/care. Shopping also unraveled that the girl was particularly picky about clothes and distrustful of strangers. All in all, it resulted in a lot of stress for the Wayne adoptees. Shopping trips were now off the table for a while if Marie was involved.

Though these were issues and problems, Cass felt she had managed to overcome them or at least manage to for the most part. Ok, that was a lie but she had plans semi in place.

Her current headache at this moment in time was sleep! Well more the waking. She wasn’t sure how she would survive a month of parenthood at this rate. Every, and she really did mean every, morning Marie was missing only to be found in another location. It was causing her more distress that she’d like to admit.

She had hoped that the first blanket nest situation the first night was a one off. Turns out that was a no. Jason was finding it all too amusing as well!

After night 1, night 2 was spent coaching Marie to sleep in her bed. Buying a new bed hadn’t crossed their minds after the shopping fiasco, and Jason wasn’t currently willing to relinquish the spare room. Something about his guns and personal space. Getting her into a soft bed still required too much chocolate bribery. Waking up to Marie missing. Again. Freaked Cass out. Eventually she was sound curled up in a suitcase on top of the wardrobe.

Night 3 Cass slept in the bed with Marie, hoping that it would convince her to stay in the bed all night. That failed when she was found asleep under the bed. At least that time it was semi easy to find the girl.

Night 4 Cass burrito’d and swaddled the girl up in blankets. Restricting her movements may help her settle and remain in bed. That failed too. Marie was found sleeping in Cass’s wardrobe this time. Slightly easier to find again.

By night 5 Cass was close to pulling her hair out. The morning drama’s were getting to her and Jason finally conceded the spare bedroom to her daughter. The amusement was still there but not as strong. That was a sort of win, Marie gaining her own space and hopefully learning to trust them more.

That was a complete disaster as Marie disappeared again this time. The girl was eventually found wrapped in a blanket nest in the kitchen cupboard amazingly hidden behind the food. An impressive way to hide. Chocolate wrappers were also found.

‘Jay! Help. I don’t understand. Why won’t she stay in bed? What am I doing wrong?’

“You’re doing great Cass! Chill a bit. Pixie is eating more than chocolate and we are finding her quicker each day. She’ll run out of new hiding places soon which will mean we will find out her favourite space to sleep”

‘Nooo Jaaay! Help! Please she needs to learn to sleep in bed. I can’t introduce her to Alfred otherwise. He’d want to meet her. Which brings the rest of them. And I don’t want to loose her! The others would be too much!! Please! Please! Pleeeease Jay!!! For Alfred if not meee!"

Jason could do without the morning stress too and Cass did raise a good point about Alfred and the rest of the bats. Sighing, Jason pondered over what Pixie was doing and recalled his time adjusting to the manor.

“Cass, she likes small safe, hidden spaces. Open spaces leave her vulnerable and open to attack. I think she knows that we won’t do that, but it's a hard habit to break. Plus she is a stubborn girl, a true bat I guess. I know I didn’t like the big rooms at the manor to begin with. Perhaps we can create a safe nest in her room to see if she’ll stay. A small safe space. The room is too big currently for her to be used to it.”

Smiling Cass nodded. The logic sort of followed.

That evening Cass and Jason worked together to make a blanket fort nest in the corner of the room. Marie watching with curious eyes. Playing with the ring she’d taken to wearing on a chain. When Cass started to take the bedding off the bed into the blanket fort, Maries eyes’ turned to saucers as she worked out what was happening. Tugging on Cass’s arm ‘Marie help?’ caused Cass to smile in pride and nod. Marie was starting to sign more delighting Cass and semi trusting them.

The next morning Cass woke to find Marie still dozing in her blanket fort and smiled! This obstacle was conquered.

Note: thank you to PickledPlumFan on AO3 for the chocolate milk idea/concept.

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@histoireettralala asked me to make a post regarding the friendship between Murat & Fouché. I can't promise this is going to be super thorough, but I'll give it a go.

To start off with, there really aren't a whole lot of details to be found regarding their relationship. The (very incomplete) picture of it I currently have, is from piecing together what I've been able to find so far of their existing published correspondence (which is very sparse), and some bits and pieces from various other sources. There are some views on Murat offered in Fouché's memoirs, but they may or may not be Fouché's own; according to Archive.org, the memoirs were apparently not written by Fouché himself, but by one Alphonse de Beauchamp--though Beauchamp did use Fouché's notes and papers. Murat, of course, left no memoirs himself, ghostwritten or otherwise.

I can't be sure when the two men first met, but it seems to have been at some point in the early 1800s that they became friendly, particularly after Murat was made governor of Paris in 1804 and they found themselves working together more frequently. It might seem surprising, given the vast differences in their personalities, that they got on as well as they did. But they also shared some key similarities in their backgrounds--both were born to bourgeois families, educated in seminaries, and became ardent revolutionaries.

They were also both very doting fathers, and I feel like this is probably something they both bonded over. Fouché had lost three young children in the mid 1790s, and this had caused him much suffering. When another one of his children died in the summer of 1805, he wrote a letter to Murat on 5 July, telling him:

My soul is oppressed with sorrow, I have just lost one of my children. This event is tearing my heart apart. Take care of the health of yours. The loss of a child hurts so much!

When Fouché stayed in Naples in 1813, his children became the playmates of the Murat children. From Louise Murat's memoirs:

Received by the King and Queen in total intimacy, invited into the small apartments, I remember having often dined there with him and his children, with whom we had become well acquainted. It is, I believe, to the noisy games which followed those meals that I owe the vivid memory I’ve kept of the Fouché family.

Louise also left a footnote on the relationship between Fouché and her father, which I forgot to include in the post linked above:

If Thiers and a few other historians are to be believed, Fouché made no secret of his friendship for Murat, which more than once aroused, and in particular in 1809, the Emperor's jealous discontent.

(The 1809 reference alluding of course to the Fouché/Talleyrand discussion about potentially having Murat succeed Napoleon in the event that he died without a legitimate son, which permanently altered the relationship between Napoleon and Murat for the worse.)

The remaining letters between them are few and far in between, but a few little excerpts provide some insights into their relationship (these are all from Fouché to Murat):

[16 August 1805] Your Highness was missing yesterday at the ball at the Hotel de Ville. However, a magnificent sword of precious workmanship was to be presented to him. Our most beautiful ladies were counting on your hand to dance. (...) P.S. I saw with great satisfaction that Princess Caroline's health had enabled her to be taken in a canoe and to traverse the entire rear of the line of battle, at a time when the combat was most animated.

[23 August 1805] I undertook to fulfill the mission that Your Highness entrusted to me. I presented your compliments to Mme R... She gave me in response the letter that I have the honor to send you.

[18 September 1805] I was pleased to learn that your health has not suffered from the rapidity of your courses. (...) Although I regret no longer seeing you in Paris, I cannot help congratulating you on being with the Emperor when he is about to expose himself to new dangers. However, I prefer to see him fight the Austrians than the English, because I have the confidence that in the continental war which is about to rekindle, there are only laurels to harvest. I beg Your Highness to believe that my feelings for you will never grow cold in separation, that I will maintain a respectful and deep attachment to you all my life. Have no doubts about the satisfaction I will have in learning from you the first victories of the Grande Armée.

From the 1805 campaign on, they were rarely within each other's orbit. Between administering his new Grandy Duchy of Berg and taking part in three wars between 1805-1807, Murat was only sporadically in Paris. He spent most of the first half of 1808 in Spain, most of the second half in Naples; from the time of taking the Neapolitan throne on he made only a handful of trips to Paris (and after Fouché lost his ministry in 1810, it was some time before Fouché was there again anyway).

I'm not sure if they saw each other again between 1810 and late 1813, when Napoleon sent Fouché to Naples to try to urge Murat to stay the course and remain loyal to the Emperor. What seems to have happened instead, is that Fouché went through the motions of fulfilling this mission, but privately ended up advising Murat to accept the Austrian terms in order to save his throne.

In the aftermath of Waterloo, Murat found himself in dire straits in France, to which he had fled after his own failed campaign against the Austrians in Italy. A bounty was put on him by the Marquis de Rivière (whose life Murat had helped save years earlier), and Murat was forced to hide out in the countryside until he ultimately found the means to flee to Corsica for refuge. Behind the scenes, Fouché was working--at odds with the new régime he was serving and with whom he was trying to ingratiate himself, it should be pointed out--to save Murat, by procuring for him passports and an offer of asylum from Austria, where he would be able to join his wife and children in exile.

We know how Murat's story ends. But Caroline did not forget the efforts Fouché had taken to save her husband, and years later--shortly before the death of Fouché--she wrote him the following letter:

20 August 1820

Monsieur Duke, for a long time I have wanted to express to you my gratitude for the good you tried to do for him whom we will mourn unceasingly. I and my children have not been unaware, that if it had depended on you, misfortune would not have overwhelmed us. Trust that we will keep the remembrance of it continuously, and that it will be sweet to us in whatever position fate places us, to remind ourselves of your generous conduct towards the King.

I am very happy that the departure of M. Gayl offers me the occasion to express to you the sentiments of attachment that unite me and my children to you and yours. I keep myself regularly informed of everything that concerns you.

I know that your wife is charming, that your children have justified all your hopes, that, in short, you are happy through your family. Remember me to your sons and your daughter; tell them that my children cannot forget the few happy moments they spent together.

I cannot give up seeing you again, and I hope to be able one day to assure you in person, that my gratitude and my attachment will never end.

-Caroline

So, that is pretty much all I have regarding the Murat/Fouché relationship. I wish there was more available, but enough remains that I do feel comfortable in believing that they did strike up a genuine friendship; Fouché is one of those figures whose reputation is so sinister that people tend to believe him incapable of any kind of warmth and natural human emotion whatsoever, but I think there's enough evidence here to show otherwise, and I believe he did acquire a certain amount of attachment to Murat. He had no reason whatsoever to try to help Murat in 1815 at a time when he was still trying to win over the new regime; if anything his efforts probably imperiled that effort. Murat had nothing to offer Fouché, nearly all of his assets had been lost when his kingdom was retaken by the Bourbons; Fouché's efforts to save him and reunite him with his family were, in my opinion, totally selfless, and borne out of his true friendship for Murat.

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