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sweeneydino · 8 months

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Same as it never was.

Just 2003 Donnie petting some birds, nothing else.

vv alts below vv

That episode messed me up bro.

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #art #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2003 donatello #donatello 2003 #tmnt donatello #angst #grief #SAINW #tmnt sainw #birds #crows are awesome yo #how many hidden meanings can you find #hug your traumatized kids #donatello #feel free to use #eyestrain

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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As a stranger on the internet (so feel free to ignore or tell me I'm out of line) you might just be going through a grieving process. It sucks, a lot, and I don't really have any advice other than it will slowly get better, but it might help simply knowing.

Grief is different for everyone, and looks different for everyone too. But either way I hope you feel better soon <3

It's very possible, I just don't want that to be the answer because then I don't know what to do

#it feels more like im using grief as an excuse to not do anything and i find it really upsetting #i just dont kno what to do. i have a lightning talk to give tomorrow and i cant get anywhere bc when i try to get anything done i just start #crying and everything feels like a mess that i have no motivation to clean up #just everything. why did i decide to do this with my life? why couldnt i have chosen a functional career path?#i dont kno what im doing. i dont kno how im going yo get things together for my committee meeting Friday #or how ill get thru it without crying. i dont even kno what i want. i wanna talk to my dad i guess but ive never told anyone in my family #when im having a hard time and i dont kno how to do that without making him worry #ugh. tomorrow's gonna suck. so does today. i just want the semester to be over. but then i cant escape my project. so idk what i want #i want sleep for 1000 years or at least until all my problems are gone #unrelated

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brother-emperors · 8 months

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I see your dog-coded Agrippa and Cassius, but what about Crassus ? Kind of like feral dog coded

for me, Crassus skips the dog coding allegations on account of no one being able to put a leash on him, and there's no person he seems to be singularly devoted to in a way that dictates his actions

Dating The Praetorship of Marcus Licinius Crassus, Martin Stone

like, there's Sulla, but Crassus also did a lot of that of his own accord, and Sulla shut the door on him politically so Crassus climbed in through a window and worked a different aspect of Roman society-politics with magnificent skill. he ALSO skips the dog allegations because if anyone is bringing someone to heel, it's Crassus doing it to other people. there isn't a specific person that Crassus' actions can be dedicated to in a way that makes me think of a dog the way Agrippa's actions for Octavian do.

I also don't think he's feral! what he is: really fucking ruthless, or has the potential for ruthlessness, which isn't the same thing to me as being feral. and being ruthless is not uncommon for Late Republic politics

Lucullus: A Life, Arthur Keavney

but its that pivot point between being firm, ruthless, and likeable that makes him interesting. he's actually. he's--

okay, so in my mind, he's Machiavelli Prince coded. there are only two Romans I have ever made a compare and contrast analysis using Machiavelli's Il Principe, one is Augustus, the other is Crassus. and for once my connect the dots of thematic tomfoolery has something I can cite, someone ELSE has also made a comparison to Augustus

Dating The Praetorship of Marcus Licinius Crassus, Martin Stone

#anyone here watch devil judge. crassus is like. more yo-han coded to me. in terms of themes and ruthlessness #you try to put him down at your own risk. with crassus tho its like. no roman could do it so ofc he had to meet his end outside of rome #...on the other hand. i respect yo-han and what he's doing as a whole. you guys ever watch yakuza films? crassus would fit in #SO well as a character in a yakuza film. or a 90s HK gangster narrative #if this was a filipino drama i'd want jake cuenca to play him #i also dont know if i'd call cassius dog coded. he really only comes to heel for brutus during the last few years of their shared lives #he is definitively gladiator coded to brutus' statesman tho #i dont often look at characters/figures and go 'oh. dog for sure.' but when i do its like. oh wow okay guys #like octavius wanting to die with crassus? not dog coded. that's just. devoted. devotion. that's love. that's grief. loyalty.#there's no greater love than to lay down one's life for a friend. there's no greater devotion than to die with your general #ask tag

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rotzaprachim · 8 months

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*breathes in and out through mouth* everyone is scared and grieving and still waiting for news of their families everyone is scared and grieving everyone is scared and grieving*

#Jewish communal leader hurt me very and I mean VE TU deeply today #I mean very #I think in what was to her mind a not passive aggressive way she felt the need to explain the Israeli Side and Israeli history #But like the nail in the coffin was implying that I don’t feel as deeply for the people in Israel #I don’t understand the depth of suffering of the people in Israel #Because I was bothered on Saturday zoom Torah by how Netanyahu has used this for more war crimes #That the fact that I care about Gazans means I don’t feel enough grief or a normal Jewish grief as she sees it for Jews #To me this is jsut unconscionably cruel #Also that the majority of Jews don’t support a ceasefire or at least local Jews #Well if that’s true I want no part of it. Not now or ever again #I can’t believe she felt the need to like. Explain the news cycle to me #I didn’t get this off a tiktok ma’am #I read yo@v g@llant in fucking haaretz. I heard what he said #*no one in Israel is calling for mass death* clearly they are #Anyway she told it was whataboutism to care about the reprisals on a civillians population from what Hamas did #And to feel better being part of a community or doing soemthing active. Maybe read this book on feminism I’ve already read #I’m just so hurt by it all!#Telling another Jew they don’t feel or care enough for ‘am yisrael is the deepest cut there is

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hood-ex · 10 months

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Decided to read a hurt no comfort fic and OH MY GOD. A near batfam bloodbath?? OH MY GOD.

Damian cut Dick's head off and pushed his corpse into a volcano. Tim and Damian then tried to kill each other with Tim vowing to murder Damian even if he had to live a thousand years to do it. Bruce, now a howling monster of a man, ripped himself free from his shackles and struck his sword down at Damian with the intent to kill him. Talia intercepted him and then Bruce tried to kill her too. And then?? Jason showed up?? And shot Damian??

OH MY GOD...

#bruce and tim's grief and rage... HOLY SHIT #and with tim yelling at damian ''how could you?? he loved you!! he loved you!!''#and those lines?? about bruce being dick's only god?? wow.#don't even get me started on kory raging and killing all those assassins #and then roy completely breaking and holding dick's gloves #yo what the heck. this fic altered my brainnn

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giggly-squiggily · 7 months

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It's your birthday!? Omg I hope you have an amazing day!! Your posts always make me smile and I hope you get to smile just as big on your name day!

You have been and continue to be such a force for good and positivity in this community, thank you for all that you do! I hope you really take the time to celebrate yourself today, you deserve it 🥰

Thank you all so much! I may have cried while reading all of these as you all are so, so sweet! Forgive me for grouping them all together- I'm a broken record when I get mushy so I'll spare y'all the deja vu hehe~

(Also death and grief mentioned beneath the cut but the summary of my mush is I appreciate you all so much. Thank you a hundred times over for making today and every year here feel special for me. <3)

This year has been a difficult one, especially these past few months after I lost my dad. I won't lie and say I wasn't dreading today because of that- I was scared I'd wake up and just wanna cry cause he's gone and I won't get to hear him say "Happy Birthday!" to me, you know? I also won't lie and say I didn't cry thinking about that (but it's my party and I'll cry if I want to, hehe. I make dumb jokes to cope.)

I'm okay though- and I'm coming to peace with it all. I just wanted to say that y'alls messages and gifs and overall loveliness has really helped me get through what I was dreading to be a difficult day. I can say with some comfort that thinking about my dad brings more happiness than tears now, and I know he wouldn't want me drowning in misery on my birthday, so I'm doing what he would want and making today a good one! Thank you all so much for helping me achieve that goal. I appreciate you all so very much.

Now- I shall go have ice cream cake in the dead of winter and rewatch the entirety of Spy x Family cause I'm what? Squiggily, hehe~ Thank you all so much again and keep being your incredible selves!

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paynnincorporated · 1 year

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Me on DB: dragons cool, but have you considered. Dragons in situ of this fascinating world. Plus weird character fashion and interesting backstories and arcs. MASH it all together ✨👌🥰

AKA I thoroughly enjoy pulling all aspects of this show together, and love when I draw cohesive snapshots of dragon and human life in Dragon City:

Just genuinely adore drawing a Dragon City teeming with life lmao, it's so vivid in my head. Part of the reason why I like Word and Zulay is cuz I get to brainstorm their lives at every level of Dragon City, it's so so so much fun. From rags to riches, from the streets to the beautiful vistas, from the race tracks to war battlefield ahhhh.

I do feel like odd one out of the general fanbase, with this adoration for the characters and environment over dragon lore 🙈 but whatever lmao, I love enriching these scenes and just think the dragons look even cooler next to their human counterparts and the weird af city they live in

#dragon booster #just feeling like gushing about thjs show lol #im just emotional from pouring so much time and energy and heart into building the universe further lol #or like filling holes and gaps #canon show had little life due yo budgets #and a very obviously white crew lol #so its been wonderful fun putting my own personal spin on things #dunno if its ever been mentioned but my word and zulay arent white lmao and my version of dragon city is closer to heart or drawn from #architecture around me #so yeah #an actual fantasy universe i can actually immerse myself in and love it to bits #wahhh #Enjoy these snapshots of dragon city through word and zulay #in love in death in grief in life

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headlessandhellbent · 2 months

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I got the 8$ 100 cal iced coffee from Starbucks and I had such an out of body experience because I'd have NEVER spent 8$ on a fucking coffee before my mom died and these lil treats I've been treating myself too because my mom is dead is getting a lil outta control at this point but without my lil treats I'm so fucking miserable

#starbucks #iced coffee #coffee #grief #dead mom #my mom died #treats #teeat yo self

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s4ray · 4 months

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xu.e yang was so petty and angry that he really cultivated when he was a kid ( probably after the hand incident lol ) and his powers literally came from rage and disgust ,, i like to think about this because his whole existence was laced w anger and envy . and he literally , i mean literally , didn't feel anything good for anyone when he was growing up on the streets .

#it's so cute like baby were u really that angry ????#i could talk about him treating his grief like a five yo kid that doesn't understand death when xxc died ...#but i could literally never shut up .#so have this .#ooc.

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blujayonthewing · 5 months

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'well of course fad diets don't work' -- guy on keto

#all diets. all diets. all attempts to permanently lose weight by any means including exercise. but also you are literally on a fad diet lol #anyway I shared that 'everything you know about obesity is wrong' article on facebook and only regret it a little bit #I said on twitter that a lot of people are resistant to consistent ongoing findings about weightloss being functionally impossible #not just because of fatphobia toward others but also because most people are themselves trying to lose weight #they've got personal stakes in it! weight loss HAS to be possible because I NEED it to be possible for ME #not to get too personal but when I found out my... body type is a deformity and wasn't just a second puberty away from improving #I went through every stage of grief and then was able to MOVE ON. what choice did I have short of cosmetic surgery?#and after learning about the statistical impossibility of weight loss I felt the same way about being fat #but people fixed on weight loss can't allow themselves to Accept their bodies; they're trapped in Denial and Bargaining #yo-yo dieting is worse for your health than just being fat-- and any successful diet functionally IS yo-yo dieting #'the point of the article is that you should focus on a healthy diet and lifestyle uwu' -- GUY WHO GAVE UP VEGANISM FOR KETO??#actually the POINT of the article is shut the fuck up about finger wagging fat people about their diets and lifestyles!! CHRIST

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art-of-mathematics · 2 years

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Although there is so much wonderful beauty in the world I am in awe of, there's still some sadness that is tearing me apart.

#reliving the prolonged trauma is hard #yet the strength and compassion I have given myself since I was a kid is helping me withstand all the pain #i found old health files from when I was a baby #when i was 3 i had sensory processing problems and should visit an eye doc #my mom told me 'they thought i had bad eyes and wanted me to wear glasses'#my mom is and always was severely overchallenged/overwhelmed with all sorts health-related...#she can't even manage to distinguish the metformin she takes - diabetes meds- and melatonine -sleeping hormone...#even when i got diabetes at 7 yo I had no proper help from her.#... i am so sad as the somehow neglect was only due to her overwhelm...#and she was offered help my the state...#but she always denied it.#she 'wanted to secure her kidsjfrom the cruel curel world'....#sadly... she is paranoid #and i grief for all the pain this has resulted in...#sadly she never kept us safe from her.#she always misunderstands everything medical staff tells her..#ignorance is at fault.#she even seeked a homeopathic healer for my diabetes and tried to 'help' me with globuli. i only ate them because they tasted nice #i even ate dry cat food as kid because it tasted better than anything that was available #everyday just sweets and sometimes joghurt or milchreis #i don't know why i indulge in this thought loop again...#the flashbacks are like... interwoven...#I had autism and adhd all my life but my mother could never handle it...#she was adviced to send me to a special school back then. she denied it.#in elementary school the teachers wanted me to leap school years as I was far ahead with the topics. my mother denied it #she denied it 'because she needs to learn social competence'... damn... allji learned was to people-please #and to neglect my own needs. to fear because i never knew what i did wrong...#and today it still impacts me #as I am notmeven able to get proper diagnoses #because 'it's obvious you have adhd but there went so much wrong in your medical history...' - words of someone who wanted to diagnose ADHD

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months

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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

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cindydartist · 1 year

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Been reading some Miraculous Ladybug and Danny Phantom crossover fanfics and thinking about the two power-systems, ah, ‘perks’ shall we say?

#Ladybug’s ‘Get out of destruction debt free’ yo-yo #Danny’s destructive ghosts #like how much grief has this kid gotten from his rogues smashing him into buildings?#Give Danny a magic yo-yo #it’s for his sanity I promise #referencing the ‘We have money’ meme #text post

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cloverkingsmith · 1 year

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Ref sheets for Nita’s big sister, Idonia, and Vizine!

#black clover #black clover oc #Idonia indigon #Vizine cloud #Idonia was highkey a bitch in life but regretted it and didn’t know how to make amends esp with Nita but she died before she could #figure it out #Vizine was her best friend on the squad and helped humble her #they quit tho after she died and became a disgraced noble bc of it #Nita and Vizine have a good friendship now tho #it started bc of shared grief after the elf reincarnation but grew into something more genuine #Idonia makes me so fucking sad yo why did I kill her

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erotetica · 2 years

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Hi! For sketch requests, maybe something with Nienna? Thanks anyway, have great day!

@irleughlivelyatalanteangodfan when I think of grief I don’t get tears so much as…fabric pooling dejectedly…shroud…

Anyway here she is weeping over the trees, offscreen bc I didn’t want to draw her pale man handeyes

I do commissions

#THIS WAS FUN TY #my art #nienna #valar #irleughlivelyatalanteangodfan #body horror cw #for. a mannequin.#will probably make this a finished piece….hv to think abt the wind and the tree stumps and the. handeyes. yo what if she weeps mercury.#the collarbone area was my favorite #doing body contours as drapery…#if I did this on paper w/ a brush could I enter this into an exebition. call it ‘grief’. something snappy. hm #tolkien

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immayzozi · 1 year

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otra semana. otra semana que pasa en esta vida. la mía. la tuya ya no. ya se terminó. y hay que seguir. los muertos van con uno, dicen. no queiro pensarte como mi muerto. te quiero vivo, vivo, vivo. como el cielo a la noche en el cecupo. como el aloe que tira hijitos. vivo sin parar. vivo con ganas. respirando. te quiero conmigo, vivo. te extraño siempre. me pierdo sin vos. me ahogo. no me aguanto ni yo. no soporto nada. nada que viva mientras vos no. te necesito.

#duelo #grief #about me #diario de duelo #hujiphoto #yo #mine #aloe #cielo #zapallo #mandragora #Mandragora autumnalis

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