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rubberduckyrye · 1 month

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Someone followed my sprite blog who rbed a "DON'T DONATE TO AO3!!!!!1!!1!!1!!!!" Post that essentially boiled down to "They have too much money already!!! They have enough saved to run the website for 5 years without further donations!!!"

And I'm like..... "And????"

5 Years ain't that long of a time, hon. I know younger people think it is but damn have the years been racing by for me as I've gotten older.

Also, I'd rather Ao3 keep that surplus on hand and not have to dip into it unless for a financial emergency. Like if they start using their surplus now and then two years from now they get into financial hell for whatever reason, and all of that surplus saved up is gone, then Ao3 will be gone too.

Here's the thing--I get that people want to be like "DON'T DONATE TO AO3 DONATE TO X IMPORTANT CAUSE INSTEAD" and if you don't they tell you to off yourselves, and it's like. People with expendable money can and will donate to more than one thing. You do know that, right? You can donate to both. I know the argument is "YOU SHOULD PUT ALL OF YOUR MONEY IN THE BETTER CAUSE" but that kind of mentality leaves other important fundraising projects in the dust.

The preservation of fandom and fanfiction is an important cause, because preserving primarily queer literature is an important cause. It's not just because "Ooooh my favorite fanfics!!!!!1!!111!!", and it never has been. Fandom is primarily queer, and queer spaces are always in constant danger of being shut down at the smallest hint of a law break.

Which, on to the post's second point: Ao3 is not investing their surplus enough for a stable financial future.

I argue: Laws. Laws specifically for non-profit organizations and how much money they can get from investments before they go from "non-profit" to "profit."

I can't find any easy-to-read US law on the subject, but considering that Ao3 is a predominant queer space with lots of queer media that everyone with an internet has access to, that excessive scrutiny over OTW will be brutal if OTW isn't careful. Again, I am not sure how much money they can invest and make in investments, but due to the nature of the website and how queerphobic the US government has become/has always been, I wouldn't be surprised if the reason why investments aren't a viable option to OTW was simply because of how quickly things can go downhill if they start making too much money. Because I hope you people realize the moment Ao3 is deemed as a "for-profit" organization by homophobic governors who are clutching their pearls and chanting "think of the children!" at the horny gay furry porn on Ao3, that it will get utterly destroyed by copyright law and shut down within a year, at the longest.

So yeah. Idk, donate to whatever the fuck you want tbh? If you wanna donate to a fundraiser that is aiming to protect queer literature written for free by fans in fandom, then by all means, donate. It's not the soulless cause you think it is.

#I dare not tag this post I dare NOT #Anyway. Tempted to block them for RBing that post because I support free queer media being accessible to all #even if that queer media is fandom queer media #But also eeeeehhhhhh....'#like whatever Ig???#I can be very brutal about blocking people so maybe I should lighten up a bit; huh?

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authortobenamedlater · 11 months

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Ivanova and Talia for that bingo you rbed

Tried to use a cut but it didn’t work for whatever reason, so here I am spamming everyone’s dash. Ivanova:

Done dirty by creator/not enough screen time: These are just because we didn’t get her in S5. I don’t think that was JMS’s fault from what I know, so she got done dirty by whoever’s fault it is.

Study like a cockroach: I want to study most B5 characters like cockroaches 🤣

Free space: Ivanova is so depressing and so self-aware about it. Like, “Yes, I’m a pessimist. What of it?” And for all that she has a surprisingly intact sense of humor too. That’s not easy to pull off.

What’s wrong with her (affectionate): Her mom was a blip telepath who committed suicide, her brother died in war, she was estranged from her father until his final moments. She lost Talia, Marcus, so many people she loved. Even though she gets bitter and resentful about it she never lets that consume her. She always fights it.

Talia:

Wasted potential/not enough screen time: I know Andrea Thompson wanted out and there was nothing to be done here, but Talia’s character had SO much potential. I would have loved to see her views on Psi Corps evolve over the series—would she eventually decide she couldn’t be with the Corps anymore? Become sort of an inside (wo)man for Babylon 5? I know a lot of her planned story went to Lyta, but I still wonder how different it would have been if Talia had stayed.

Study her like a cockroach: As I said, I want to study most B5 characters like cockroaches. Mostly, I want to know how much of what we saw was really Talia and how much was the control personality manipulating her.

Better as part of a dynamic: Maybe this is because we only got not even two seasons with her. Related to my first point though I would like to see how she and Ivanova “sharpened” each other over the course of the series. Talia was coming around to Ivanova’s anti-Corps views. Maybe Ivanova would have come to understand why Talia and so many other telepaths were fiercely loyal to Psi Corps? I wonder what middle ground they would have come to.

#babylon 5 #talia winters #susan ivanova #character bingo #ask meme #ask box open #ask me anything

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rarepair-haven · 2 years

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I feel so bad because i have all these cool and detailed aus with interesting sanses and entire stories beyond the multiverse that has lived in my head rent free for almost 5 years but i never posted them or let them see the light of day lol. I wanna make a sans au/undertale art blog exclusively for that but i mostly have rarepairs( i think you guys rbed one of my feverdream/dream x fresh art) and oc x canon and oc x oc so i never get popular cause people only like the common pairs and posting your non-sans au ocs(especially if said oc is human and isnt a selfship related thing) garentees a drop in blog traffic.

It sucks but do you have any advice for someone trying to be more seen as a sans au artist but dosent want to come across as demanding?( like i rly dont want to add a banner of "rbs >likes" cause i know it makes me feel bad when i cant or dont want to be put on the spot.)

Also side note, ive noticed sans aus and undertale is getting alittle bit of a resurgence on tiktok so thats awesome! Hopefully the fandom will get a second wind.

It’s like one am so bear with any incoherence here.

You’re more popular than you think I guarantee it. People for whatever reason don’t tend to interact with art much, they’ll see it Maybe like it and continue to scroll by. But chances are there’s gonna be a group out there who talk about your posts and send them to their friends and chat about the characters. I know this from personal experience albeit with fanfic. Went writing a few fics and abandoned a couple, only to still find people years later who read and loved it, just never commented or if they did leave a kudos it was under a guest account. So yea there’s likely more people seeing your stuff than you think.

Now to get popular popular, like one of those AUs that are known by the vast majority of the fandom? Unfortunately that ship has already sailed. When it comes to a new game or book or even social media site, you gotta jump on it right from the start and be pumping out content frequently. Even then you need some luck, one or two posts going viral, before hitting some big well known level of popularity. My advice? Stick with whatever makes you happy creating, join a server or two to share stuff in and get feedback/praise for it, and thank whatever god you may or may not believe in that you’ve made your own space online without having to deal with the hate that inevitably comes with the popularity

#mod classic #ask #a bit more of a serious topic than usual but

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silverislander · 2 years

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hey just so we know where i stand on this, although it should be fuckin obvious: you never, ever, not under any circumstances, tell a person to kill themself. fucking never. and if they say they’ve made past attempts, you do NOT fucking use that against them.

#lets keep this one here #cant believe this has to be said but theres no fucking reason. EVERRRR i dont care who they are #that one tr/sc/m commenter on a post i rbed earlier has gotten this exact kind of comment and im fucking incensed #yeah theyre a part of a really harmful ideology and all but jesus fuck some of you have no fucking soul thats evil #you NEVER fucking say that.#levi.txt #and these arent kids commenting?? theyre like 22 what the fuck do yall not know better #i understand being mad! hes not a good person! but fucking hell i thought we moved past su/c/de baiting back in the early 2010s #suicide tw #im very politely asking for nobody to r-b this i dont want it to spread around i dont want to start disk horse or whatever

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anapologethicc · 3 years

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happy diwali💛💖 i let out my inner louis😌

those not wanting to read abt my feelings pls scroll to the bottom:)

i'm in bed and all diwali celebrations are finally over and i just spent like 15 minutes just sobbing in bed🙈 firstly because i don't think i've ever felt so happy and comfortable with myself as i did this diwali🥺🥰

i didn't need to wear a ghagra (long heavy skirts not that i hate them) or sth frilly or a fricking blouse of any sort. i got to wear clothes which were so so comfortable and so so gender affirming (idk if that's a term lmao). i've worn similar stuff before and never realized why i had felt so happy in them and i don't think i really understood how much this would mean to me and my gender to be wearing clothes that felt so ME.

i got to be whoever i wanted to be. i got a chance to embrace my own gender and i'm still cuddled up in bed sobbing at how wonderful i felt these past two days.😭😭😭💖💖💖

for once i wore sth for myself and dressed up for myself and MYSELF only. i didn't care that i got told i look too chubby or that my clothes were "boy" clothes or that i should've kept my hair long becuz short hair doesn't suit me or that short hair and traditional clothes don't go tgt (BITCH HAVE U SEEN HOW BOMB I LOOK?!?! HOTTEST NB LESBIAN IN TOWN!!😂 more like only lesbian in town lmfao)or judged for the fact that i changed nail polish colours so many times in like 2 days (i think my nails are abt to disintegrate)

i didn't fucking care this year because i was so happy to finally feel good in my skin (tpwk ref👅). i've always had so many issues with myself and with my mental health. it's taken me such a while to get to where i am and accept myself for the way i am.

i still struggle daily with my relationship with my body, my relationship with food, my relationship with painkillers, my relationship with my adhd my depression or my anxiety, my relationship with school with friends with family with myself. i wake up everyday and just try to grow and be a better person for myself to be someone worthy💕

i just wanted to take this moment to thank everyone for any and all interactions they may have directly or indirectly had with me🥺. becuz i don't really follow a lot of people nor am i good at making any new friends (i suck at it becuz ppl find my personality over the top cuz i'm loud and flamboyant and so fking talkative and i feel like i'm never enough :/) BUT i made a resolution this year that if i couldn't get myself to interact with real life people becuz i find ppl generally really fking annoying😂 that i'd at least finally try and make some online becuz i've been in this fandom and on this site for wayy too long now😌😌

i know i'm just some person in your phone you just made u read a rubbish emo essay all abt myself😂 but i just wanted to let you know that every single interaction has made me feel happy and validated and i just wanna say thank you for somedays being my reason to want to live to see another day🥺💖 thank you for creating a safe space for me knowingly or unknowingly and thank you for being absolutely fantastic human beings😚😚❤❤

i'm sending all the love❤, happiness😂, kindness🥰 and gender joy🥳 in the world that i possible have in me to every single one of you🥺💖

so here's to everyone who has talked to me, liked my tags or post i've made/rbed, rbed sth from me, tagged me in sth or answered/sent an ask💖 and whatever else we get up to on this hellsite😂💕

because every single one of you has made me smile on days i didn't wanna get out of bed or felt like absolute fucking shit🙈💕 i'm so so grateful and so so thankful and just so overwhelmed with love😭💖 i love you❤ (every single one of you)

so thank you my most wonderful mutuals🥺😚 @littlegenderbean emme💕 @quickpauseinconversations cande 💕@mamaharry eli💕 @littlespoongf mehar💕@grimmpitch moon💕 @louisandharry yuktha💕 @casuallycrruell arrow💕 @justmehernthemoon kaitlyn💕 @heartshaped-lou gio💕 @dorothyharry rachel💕 @1800louis sab💕 @swimmingleo leo💕 @holyshit kay💕 @ladychlo chay💕 @rainbowparadisebht kaw💕 @laurelier meg💕 @stylinsuns adheera💕 @softlouve debbie💕 (hopefully i got everyone's name right and didn't miss anyone😳)

for anyone who ever wants to talk /cry/ scream/ infodump to a non-stop oversharing chatterbox / human embodiment of an over excited puppy my dms are always open and i'm always ready to talk😂😂😚😚 you know where to find me!! HAPPY DIWALI💛💖

#hi everyone #so i got a little too emotional and i'm still all red in the face and sniffly #just whatever u do pls don't be mean to me (i'm very sensitive)#anyways this has been a wonderful 2 days and i'm just so so content and just happy🥰#i thought i'd share some love and joy🥺❤#hopefully i don't regret this tmr morning😂#once again #SENDING ALL OF YOU SO SO SO MUCH LOVE AND THE BIGGEST HUG AND LOTS OF KISSES😚😚😚💖💖💖💖#tis the season of diwali so here's to wishing all your dreams and wishes come truee and something very special happens for you💕#ok love you byee❤🙈#good night💕#diwali

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nido-emojis · 3 years

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all the stuff that was mentioned about a/ot is false and has proven to be false. the op that rbed from even admits they've never seen the show and gives no refs on the claims towards the mangaka. i say this as a jew who's really sensitive to antisemitic dogwhistles. it's 100% valid to not want any show to be near you for whatever reason though. also thank you for supporting m/spec lesb/gays, calling out misandry and for using the mlm flag, it's so pleasing to look at

(i censored phrases so they wouldn't show up in tags and give you unnecessary grief)

thank you for your input, we'd still rather keep it far away from us due to the themes of fascism (& and there quite definitely being connections you could draw to the h*locaust) and such but we'll update the carrd!

& really that is simply basic decency, we wholeheartedly support radical inclusivity here & refuse to exclude people for identifying with terms that may be controversial* (*unless the labels are actively harmful, like clo/ver/gen/der. that's p*dophile bait babey!)

u right tho the mlm flag very good

#things are censored so they won't appear in tags #tyvm anon for doing the same #tw holocaust ment #tw antisemetism ment #tw fascism ment #mod beats #not emotes

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shoezuki · 3 years

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I'm confused, why do people think Techno's portraying psychosis with the voices he hears? I'd say it's pretty clear from the fact he's never said he is, the fact that they're the chat and therefore actual people and the fact that he'll sometimes acknowledge stuff they tell him that his character has no way of knowing, that they're meant to be an outside influence.

So i’ll preface this by saying i don’t have psychosis or any form of psychotic mental ailments. At the closest i had extreme hallucinations and psychotic episodes as a kid due to trauma i was experiencing mainly in the form of night terrors and dissociation that i struggle with when stressed. But i am NOT the say all end all on psychosis or psychotic experiences. i have never truly experienced them, and therefore i can never truly understand them.

If anyone who’s psychotic wants to chime in with input, correct me, or add anything either to this post or through an anonymous ask please do. im open always n i wanna hear what ppl say!

so im gon Try and explain what I interpret but as i said. im no expert, im not psychotic, therefore i cant add or detract anything from the conversation. im just wanting to explain what i see and basically recount others’ thoughts. listening to ppl w psychosis is much better than someone without

ANYWAYS. for someone Without psychosis to portray characters who hear ‘voices’ or any forms of hallucinations such as that is always going to be inherently in a questionable area. And therefore it is with technoblade. but id argue Especially with technoblade considering.... his character

so the voices are vaguely defined in canon, but what we know is that technoblade Hears them, they say Many things such as ‘blood for the blood god’ and demanding he fight and kill people. we dont know if theyre hallucinations in Canon, if theyre actual people he happens to hear, if its the ‘blood god’, anything really.

although i assume techno’s intent was just a way to involve chat a bit because he finds the chaos Funny. but intent or even what he defines the ‘voices’ as doesnt really matter, although the vagueness he’s left around it isnt helping thats for sure.

like. nonpsychotic people are going to see this character, who is known for being powerful, deadly, and violent, having voices he hears in his head that crave and yell for violence.... like. thats inherently a psychotic stereotype. no matter what people have and will interpret it as the voices make techno violent or at least encourage his violence in ways.

also: i said he vaguely defines it and most likely just wanted to include his chat, but even when he first spoke of the voices and introduced them to phil he started with ‘the reason it’s so hard for me to be nonviolent.... is because i hear voices phil.” [will find the specific timestamps n edit it here im having trouble w my laptop] so.... like. even techno himself is directly saying the voices at the least heavily influence and Convince him to be violent.

its a major, dangerous stereotype that psychotic ppl and therefore those with such symptoms are violent people. even If techno explains the voices as something supernatural, magical, whatever. it Still coincides with Real Word psychosis.

its inherent for non-psychotic people to see such fictional portrayals and connect it with Real world psychosis and psychotic traits. its an inherent aspect of ableism we cant avoid and will Always think and presume. thats just how it is. and it sucks.

so yeah. the ‘voices that techno hears are reasoning for his bloodthirst and violence’ is very apparent in fandom as we see like. everywhere. and its encouraged by techno himself cuz like there’d be no psychotic stereotypes if he himself didnt bring up the ‘voices’

here’s more reliable words on it by schizopathy, which i rbed n no doubt its what brought this up. heres another post that goes over All character’s interpretations of mental ailments with more focus on fanon interpretations

#Anonymous #ableism #mcyt #technoblade #won't tag w my usual tags or d'iscourse because its worth seeing

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lesbianklance · 3 years

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tagged by: @katelfiredemon

tagging: whoever wants to tbh! i think all my mutuals have already been tagged so dhskdhwjdb

why did you choose your url?

well im a lesbian and i love klance

also i was very surprised to find it free akdhajsj

any side blogs? if you have them: name them and why you have them

@itsdem-on personal for literally whatever comes to my head tbh

@klance-fics self explanatory plus ive read a lot of klance fics so why not help people out

@keithsmith ya i got no explanation for this one

how long you’ve been on tumblr?

i think i made this account on 2015 for whatever reason but only started using it around november for fic recs. started posting on april cause i was bored and had too many ideas to be wasted

do you have a queue tag?

actually i dont use queue when i wanna post smth i just do it immediately im too impatient bsjdhskdj

why did you start your blog in the first place?

oops already answered this lmao

why did you choose your icon?

well im matching liya and i love lance

why did you choose your header?

once again matching liya also klance

what’s your post with the most notes?

the one about "thats rough buddy" and "we had a bonding moment i cradled you in my arms" lines having the same vibe. i think rn its at like 560 notes. it's actually one of my first posts which is a surprise

how many mutuals do you have?

idk actually prob around 20-30?

how many followers do you have?

189 but most of them are prob bots or smth idk lmao

how many people do you follow?

i think 88 currently?

have you ever made a shitpost?

all my posts are shit

how often do you use tumblr each day?

too much for it to be socially okay

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

uhh not really? at least not a big one? only one that could count is one time this person rbed my post about how klance was set up and was like "klancers act oppressed and then threaten people" or whatever which was wack cause i joined the fandom in like nov aka after that shit happened. anyway i told them that it has nothing to do with my post and they blocked me so that was it

how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

they kinda stress me out. like i get the point but you shouldn't guilt trip people into spreading word yk?

do you like tag games?

i like when my mutuals think of me and tag me but i dont participate often becase im too shy to tag people bsdnhadjhs

do you like ask games?

fucking love them they're so fun

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

im gonna be honest, probably all of them. like you all make such cool posts??? i never expected any of you to complete the mutual yet here we are???

do i have a crush on a mutual?

nah. i have friend crushes on some of them that i will not name thankyouverymuch but not that kind of crush (im prob demiro sooo)

#tag game #here's a bunch of info on me #enjoy #idk what to tag lmao bye

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eremiie · 2 years

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i didn’t think that me asking that would spark some discourse i’m sorry 😭 i understand the point that person was making, and it was nice to have some insight on eren’s choices but i still think he’s a bit outta his mind. maybe more than a bit lmaooo.

i can’t really debate about the manga, chapter 139 and all that ish for this exact reason 😭 don’t ask me about any other solutions to the whole freedom thing bc i haven’t thought about it that deep tbh. i’ll just stay over here with modern au eren, where i know what’s going on 😌

it’s not big deal lol don’t apologize LMAO… it’s not your fault!

yeah their point is valid but they’re acting like eren’s choices and an attribute to his character can’t exist😭…. he can do something for a good reason and still be a person deemed crazy, that has never changed for him because every single motive he’s ever had in the show has been for something good but the thing is he’s also always been willing to go whatever lengths to obtain that good and that’s what makes him a bit insane…. that he’d wipe out the earth for his friends. as good as that is the action itself isn’t and it’s “crazy”

like did we not learn anything when he killed 2 grown men and his dad went “do you even know what you’ve done?” or when he started beating himself up because he felt like he was a failure???? or maybe…… when he confessed to doing the absolute most when he fought armin? he even said he didn’t have to go that far,,,,,, all these things make him a tad bit insane, if even in the slightest… so i don’t get what the discourse is about him being a crazy lol— to the point the person who rbed felt the need to throw the r slur, like that’s crazy, and i would rather people like that stay off my page— especially when you go those lengths over a character…… nobody should ever provoke you to offend like that, it’s disrespectful.

anyway i love discussing 139 and aot in general but they took a post that wasnt ever that serious and turned it into something else lmao, i bullshit post every 3 seconds and they took that to heart, act like a lady!!!!

#and how you gone tell ME about eren…….🙄#i know him on a deeper intellectual level than anyone on this tumble app #y’all could never #(i’m joking. b4 someone screenshots and rbs these tags)#aot spoilers #snk spoilers

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haknew · 3 years

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pls talk about your thoughts about chanhee and also the other concepts!! I always have such a hard time interpreting music and videos but i love to read about it

“bestie pls share ur thoughts on make your own concepts specifically chanhee’s but any others that are ur fave too 🎤- mar”

omg mar thank you for enabling me all day today 😭🥺🧡 thenks bestie ily :,)) and thank you too anon ! i should preface that T-T i have not read any other theories or analyses so these are just my opinions / impressions but i hope it’s entertaining to read about haha :p ! (feel free @ anyone to add on or share your thoughts too ! :,))

HYUNJAE - okay so audio cues... if you listen to the beginning there’s a sound of a bomb going off before the music starts ? and that ties into the dystopian / cyborg aesthetics that jump out at me of course, but what i immediately thought of was their no air perfo ? like we know hyunjae in the no air mv got that shot where he’s laying in the bathtub filled with water but also their kingdom performance with it also had those underwater shots ! so i think it ties into that... i feel like we saw in gen z, he’s a very straightforward person he says things on his mind which can come off as blunt but he thinks it’s better than not saying it ? which is interesting bc i think that speaks to his self- determined personality, he’s much more inclined to do whatever it takes to get something done, which i think falls perfectly in line with the “make your own air” phrase that he gets, if it’s something he needs he makes it himself, in a situational sense methinks u.u

JUYEON - JUYEON’S DJSKHDG i’m waiting for dri’s essay but in essence we see the gen z “juyeon is not such a good boy” shot and these text bubbles that pop up that say “sexy” “you so hot” “such a bad boy” and tbh i like this ‘concept’ ? for him better than his gen z one ? it’s not bc of the concept itself but i like the idea that he can “make your own character” as in he has the capability and power to be whoever he wants to ! you see him throwing white paint at the gen z canvas and i think ?! that’s symbolic of like a fresh canvas ! of remaking himself to whatever he wants bc the canvas is now blank again thanks to the white paint and flowers usually indicate spring ? so renewal and stuff like that ! i really like his, it’s also fun word play on “character” which has been juyeon’s intro in tbz (bc his name sounds like main character in korean) but yea :o ! i really love his the idea he can just repaint / paint over a literal image of him gives it the possibility of becoming smth new and that’s so so cool

CHANGMIN - SCREEEEECH okie um oh boy um *windows shutting down noises* this was so so so very different from his gen z stuff but i actually think BOTH are equally perfect for him ? the way that he set up the sparklers and neon lights on this very obviously trashy and kind of rundown rooftop with the cityline behind him is so ?!?!? LITERALLY making his own stage as his tagline goes, sort of like how the physical stage itself does not matter but rather it’s changmin himself that makes the stage special ! i talked about this in gabi’s set that i rbed ;-;/ but changmin puts a lot A LOT of stake in his position as a dancer it means almost everything to him as a form of expression from what i can see ? so he’s always trying his best to put forward the best performance possible and seeing this segment makes me feel like he’s doing just that ! pouring himself into it to make his stage pls i care him

HAKNYEON - god i’m a jusadan but just u.u rest in peace me, i’ll ... T_T be kind of honest this one confuses me a little ? i have assumptions and i feel like i know ... quite a bit about haknyeon (LMAO) my best guess is it has smth to do with self assurance ...? the way he’s framed and the fact that he’s sitting on a bed in the middle of a church surrounded by candles gives me christ figure symbolism (where my ap english takers at :/) and the light that perfectly frames him in a halo gives me angel vibes too, but the tagline of “make your own romance” paired with him kissing his reflection makes me think it’s about self love ;;;; from what i can tell haknyeon has always been someone who really likes feeling validated and praised for the stuff he does well, which he does for himself a lot of the times too ! but sometimes i think the self assurances he compliments himself with is more for reassuring himself rather than bragging (which i think people misinterpret) so it’s more about becoming the person he wants to fully love and being happie with himself which *tears* i might be reading too much into who knows i just love him ok ... U.U

KEBINNN - i know !!! dri mentioned this in my gifset tags but ! kev on kpop daebak (? was it) or smth mentioned how he strives to keep a childlike wonderment for the world around him, which is a reason why i think he loves drawing and sound / music production, he talked in a fancafe post once about an artist who turned mediocre everyday objects into art and he said he really loves that sense of wonderment so peter pan who “never grows up” is actually perfect for his worldview ahhhh T^T also kev really likes disney lmao, the way he’s doing this outside in this “neverland” garden on a balcony which is a part of this very typical apartment backed by a typical city bg also i believe ties into this turning a mediocre everyday thing into smth wonderful through his sense of childlike wonderment and his tagline of “make your own fantasy” (i also care him a lot this concept >>>>>>) and keeps to his referencing movie plotlines like he did in gen z jddkfj

SUNWOO - i also mentioned this in my tags on sunu’s set but this gives me 100 degrees vibes which i still to this day think is one of the most “sunwoo” vibe things ever, it’s a lot of him having fun and doing his own thing, and mixes both more mature and youthful aspects together in a way that i’d only ever describe as sunwoo vibes LMAO like the roller skating around and all the soap bubbles ! cute and youthful ! the crop top and celine wasitband (don’t laugh at me we all noticed) more mature and a callback to his gen z look methinks U.u, think sunwoo has always been a more go-with-the-flow or do whatever he feels like doing sort of person and so “make your own vibe” fits well with him in that sense to me

SANGYEON - .... *silence* *more windows shutting down noises* *jess.exe has stopped working* OKAY i feel like ! sangyeon’s is also more self explanatory :p i love the juxtaposition of boxing AND the arcade type fighter games ?? like both require very different sets of skills i feel like one is more physical the other is more mental ? but both require adapting to changes whether in the game or the boxing ring which as leader sangyeon would know a lot about, esp being flexible and quick to respond to different situations, and the “make your own glory” i feel is maybe more on the nose, but tbz are this man’s pride and joy you can see it literally anywhere and for him, as leader, to have made it this far with tbz, winning rtk and building their popularity through their hard work and efforts really is building his own glory and i just HHHHHHHHHH

YES EYYSFDHSHF CHANHEE YES - i said it in the tags of my srb before deleting it so i’ll just repeat it here but CHOI CHANHEE !!!!! this detail i didn’t quite process first watch was the continuous flashing of lights in all his scenes, like ... from the shots and the set it looks REALLY empty ?? but the flashing seems to indicate cameras and photos being taken of him despite there being no people we can really see in any of the shots ? WHICH IS SO COOL i think the implication is like “all eyes on him” type which SO TRU i love that idea, like i said the walking past the wedding dresses ? v heavily implies fashion designer which i think you mentioned mar :o ! and i see it in the sense of his tagline “make your own stereotype” bc white wedding dresses are the very traditional / typical choice and obviously feminine in stereotypes, whereas chanhee is wearing a SUIT which is all black in a very clean b/w set with no color which i feel is very stereotypically MASCULINE and the glasses too, it’s such an interesting contrast of his “stereotypically feminine” features (in my view) with very masculine symbols, like glasses we usually associate with more soft hearted / meek stereotypes ? but the geometric shape of the windows and again his suit seems to indicate the very opposite ? it’s a mixing of stereotypes which i think is the point, by putting those together he quite literally makes his own stereotype and puts on the crown while the cameras continue flashing while pointed at him AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YOUNGHOON - okie might have less to say about this one :o i feel like both hak’s and younghoon’s i don’t see the connections quite as readily but ! i think it’s interesting that his tagline is “make your own classic” but then in the scenes itself he has a flip phone ??? with an antenna (okay boomer /j JDHFKFG JK PLS) and a teddy bear while in PERIOD stylized clothing and setting where those two things are more modern / contemporary in origin (but also not modern enough bc ,,, it’s a flip phone LOL) like 90s kid vibes ? you know but as an emperor in the joseon era haha :p while eating shrimp chips and reading a (comic ?) book, like idk too much of what it means but it’s a cool dichotomy LOL, think it might also tie into actor ! hoon bc it’s make your own classic and i think acting has become a very important aspect to him :o after seeing what he’s capable of in love revolution and his atbz video so it’s interesting u.u (need help w/ this one)

JACOB - think my explanation in han’s set’s tags didn’t really make sense so lemme ... reexplain LOL,,, so ! similar to his gen z video ? like he’s talked about how difficult it is to open up about his own feelings etc. and he said it’s less bc he realizes he needs to but rather just to make other people feel more comfortable when it comes to understanding him, and like the whole breaking the mirror with his reflection in the wanna be angry jacob, it’s about freeing himself to the point he can express the emotions he wants to ! in gen z it was about being able to be angry when he felt that way instead of being tied by his image of being just nice ? and in the video with his pilot uniform not only does he control the ride but he also rides on it himself ! quite literally making his own freedom (symbolically), a sort of realizing he can free himself ? from what’s been tying him down and i think the really big smile he has while riding it just comes to show how he wants to feel :,))) (jacob bae i care you)

ERIC - last one :p AHHH this is one of my favs too, the quite literal “make your own pride” I LOVE IT ! sooo i think the biggest takeaway i got was that of course in this video his “pride” is symbolized by the hot pink car (that he’s going to pick up his christmassy date in of course u.u if he has a license which he does n- his driver’s license in this was literally his aaa / boy version of reveal photo which in no dmv anywhere would a license picture be allowed to look that good-) and LITERALLY when he finished and takes it for a joy ride while sitting on the roof he’s STILL covered in the dirt and grime stains ! from working on it ! which i think is so symbolic ! it’s my favorite detail actually, he literally put sweat into this car which is his pride and now that he’s finally riding around in it, it feels accomplishing ! his pride ! love that, also when he’s grabbing a stub from that flyer i noticed he chose “youth” over the others (which was like .... ca$h, beauty, ice cream, hamburger...) which i think also just indicates that despite all this hard work he put in he still cherishes his youth and still lets that be a huge part of who he is (i mean pink car so of course) so idk i think it’s very neat go bestie mwah

#sunnew #anon #asks #not tbz #jess.replies #be your own king analysis #I WROTE SO MUCH PLS #even more than my gen z analysis i think #anyway if anyone reads all of this oof thank you #HHHEEELP #i just did all of them ....#my weakest ones are def hak sunwoo yh #idk but i like what i came up with for the others ! ^^#i've seen a few twt threads but haven't read any lol #wrote the most about chanhee but no one is surprised of course

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seijch · 3 years

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ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

#did i have an announcement tag #announcement #also regarding work hsjkdfsd the company i work for didnt give my location the opening for the full time position i wanted #my managers all agree id be promoted if we had it but we dont so i . hee .#anyway um i hope everyones doing well #some of my moots changed urls while i was away and now i have no idea who anyone is #its like when you see your familys friends and theyre like omg youre so big now! i remember when you were a baby and youre like 🧍‍♂️#and you have to play along bc apparently they remember you hskdfsd #im not very funny in this post but i figured id rather be honest considering my lengthy absence #consider this my comeback stage

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mimiri22-6 · 3 years

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I HAVE SO MANY WORDS AND I CAN NOT HOLD ONTO THEM ANY LONGER(I rbed this twice so look into those for more)

ok I think ill be doing two posts one for cc apreciation and one fore lore-this is lore bitches!

okokokokokokoksomanythoughtsfuckok

WHERE DO I START?!!?!?!!? IT'S SO FUCKING INTERTWINED AND I LOVE EVERY BIT OF IT

THE EGG THE TALES FROM THE SMP KARL JACOBS AND JUST ALL OF THAT- RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOT

dive motherfucker dive

WE WERE RIGHT IN SO MANY REGARDS!!!! though some of the creatorrs might have just seen some of our theories and said "we can make that cannon" and then they did, BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS THAT SO MUCH WAS-UH-RIGHT! I'm still thinking that the red eyed whatever the fuck wars is attached to the egg somehow, and with how it acted and worked in the masquerade it sounds like something the egg would be able to do. ie create a war to feed itself. it could be conected to so much of the violence on the server, along with dream. hes a solid input when it comes to violence on the server. his worshiper at mizu killed anyone that edventures too close, he's been in nearly all the wars in recent history, his main thing is pvp, he can goat someone else onto doing vilence with him.

the egg grows, not quick, but people have been saying it's more of a plant, so take that as you will. because it is, it's like-what's a good natural comparasin? OH MY GOD THOSE FUNGI FROM GAME THEORY'S FEAR TOAD EP FROM ALMOST 6 YEARS AGO!!!! it would take to long to explain, go watch it. it's not exactly the samebut-*watches entire video again just to make sure*-.......

OK SO THE 'FEAR TOAD' VIDEO FROM GAME THEORY IS ACCTUALLY PRETTY CLOSE TO WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH THE EGG! NO BIG DEAL, JUST FUCKING GROSS SHROOMS GROWING OUT OF YOU AND TAKING OVER YOUR BODY WHILE BEING IN CONTACT WITH 99% OF THE PLANT POPULATION-YEAH THAT'S NOT TOO BAD

*GASP* oh FUCK-WHAT IF THERE'S MORE THAN ONE EGG!?!???!

(this is the me talking to my ADD, can you please chill so I can finish this????)

Anyway, not going to think about that haunting thought.

so, the egg. the egg and violence. it speaks to people, tells them it can give them anything they desire. there's a great post about how the egg doesn't effect those surrounded by love, or just in contact with any kind of love. i know, cleche, and tooth rotting fluff, but it's good shit. the egg gains trust by being seemingly unviolent and just asking for food, in terms of badboyhalo, and then something may go wrong in the life of their main handler, ie skeppy sacraficing himself to 'snap' his friends out of it. which did not work. we can only assume the first encaounter went and how the egg got billioum(how the fuck do we spell that??)to take care of it and feed it full on people. from the sounds of it, he was already rich when he found it, so it didn't have whispers of succes in forms of gold blocks in his ears. we can only guess with contex clues and lines techno said throughout the stream. SPEAKING OF TECH

Technoblade. the pvp legend, the undying, he never dies, and He Has Violent Voices In His Head-do you see where this is going. Technomate, another near constant presents of violence on the server ever since he's joined. "the voices demand blood" "the egg demands poor people" it might just be because he's already so used to saying the blood god line, but let me overanilise in peace(I looked at the begining of the stream for billioum?'s pronounciation and noticed the carpet being red and the chandelier being soulsand-I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT THAT!!!)something people keep mentioning when it comes to the tales from the smp is how technoblade was mentioned and promently known as an orphan killer in the town that went mad. which was set Years in the past, hundreds of years. making the theory that tech is the/a blood god. well i bring you this. techno didn't change much to his skin, well, he did, but i'm trying to get at that under thar mask, he still has thesame face(better throw those old tech theories out because im about to fuck them up big time). billium could be techno, we don't have much of a techno backstory-WE DON'T HAVE MUCH OF A RANBOO ONE EITHER AND MY BRAIN JUST HAD ANOTHER THOUGHT THAT NEEDS TO WAIT HOLD ON ADD-it could be that techno fund the egg-don't ask me how he rich, he just is i guess-he found the egg and that's when the voices staarted. the egg was the first voice, but being immortal or whateverthefuck, he gained Somthing else, chat. im not sure exactly how why or when, but they know things techno doesnt, their omnicient. something could have happened that he got seperated from the egg and the egg influence went away but chat stayed and he's become a different person now-could be a reason for hating gov. it being a reason to see certain people as less than others. I am seriously thinking about bellium and techno being the same people, like this fits in a great twisted way-I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO KARL YET FUCK-also if you guys still diss these people's acting after this i will hit you with a planet

KARL JACOBS!!!!! truly a legend, like, holy shit, dedication to a craft and just all around amazing. but that's a post for future me. this man truly saw someone make timetravel karl fanart and said "that's cannon now" and full on Marothoned with that, this man did not run nor sprint,

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I genuinely don’t understand people who say aspecs are queer BUT NOT kinky people. If you’re into BDSM, if you’re polyamorous, if you’re celibate, if you’re hypersexual, if you’re in an interracial relationship. It’s all related. These are sexuality/relationship/lifestyles that don’t meet our society’s standards and are underrepresented or represented negatively and so i think they are all queer

Anon I am having thinky thoughts but also I lowkey don’t want to get into this too majorly bc I got into this several years back during said campaign I mentioned in the tags on that rb post lmfao and it resulted in a whole Thing and I like... don’t have the energy to get into internet arguments with people anymore because I’m old and tired and can’t deal with the back and forth of me making points, them ignoring the majority of my points in favor of some strawmen or appeal to extremes, me addressing that and also some points including maybe where they DO have a point about some facet I failed to consider but have now, them ignoring that and repeating their same talking points, me addressing their points again & pointing out their ad hominems that usually have come out at this point and other logical fallacies, them ignoring that to repeat- and ultimately, we’re kind of talking past each other and I’m mostly appealing to whatever audience might be around. (I think I might have priv’ed or deleted a bunch of posts from back then but some may still be up somewhere in my archive lmao.....).

So on that kind of note I don’t... necessarily want to get into an argument or debate (not necessarily with you, possibly by some other anon passing through who is much more inclined to picking a fight with me about the Affront to Them Personally as well as the sanctity of the movement) on whether or not being kinky itself constitutes being “queer” per se bc I think the terminology is a sticking point and I do kind of see the perspective of “kink doesn’t make you automatically queer” **HOWEVER** yes I do also agree with that post I rbed that like kink/fur do rather constitute “queer subcultures” even though not every single person in there is LGBT+ in a more “traditional” sense - such as speaking more towards like sexual orientation & gender identity - and that these kinds of “alternative” lifestyles do present a “queering” (*a* queering) of ^ sexuality/relationships/lifestyles or whatever we might term that. And maybe that’s what I was struggling to articulate all those yrs ago lmao, when I was young and full of the energy of the Youthe and could get into internet arguments with ppl. The like respectability politics of trying to be sanitized enough to be “acceptable” to a hostile and rigid mainstream while alienating queer subcultures, which just results in the queer community at large cutting off parts of itself to try to be/remain “acceptable” but that just leads to self-harm to the community at large vs addressing more global/bigger picture issues.

Hrmmm okay I think what this whole issue of terminology and what gets to be called “queer” kind of gets to: they’re related, as you say, but that being varying shades or scopes of marginalized, but that doesn’t necessarily make it all “queer”? Because.... tbh I can see why the full-stop is a sticking point for people, and I do kind of think operationalized terms have more value when they ARE applied with scope instead of trying to generalize it too broadly, and queer does mean something quite specific (or.. maybe not specific, but rather that “queer” DOES have parameters, tho they may be more of like a soft-shaded parameter as opposed to some kind of hard fence)?

But I do agree that usually a lot of the language people against various other kinds of marginalized identity aspects uses, mirrors, & parallels language used against other things, like language against queer people/queer relationships & interracial relationships, and that communities would be served better with solidarity rather than trying to excise or disavow other communities - ESPECIALLY communities which have a lot of overlap with the queer community and also are historical and current allies - in a futile attempt to be “respectable” enough for the hostile mainstream and its evermoving goalposts.

..But maybe I’m just quibbling a point here, because while I don’t know if I’d call kink/fur/etc “queer” and the term “queer subcultures” seems to fit better for me, this does point to “these subcultures have room within queer spaces and in fact were there at the inception of ‘queer spaces’ as we kind of conceive of it today in USmerica” (idk fur but the kink community was definitely there). And then this gets into a more philosophical question of “well if it belongs in queer spaces is it not then ‘queer.’” This may be a “this topic is complicated and multifaceted an these different arguments based on different needs and with different axes of foci can coexist.” Ultimately, I think it does come down to “exclusionary rhetoric against a marginalized identity/community - especially one that is aligned, if not overlapping or otherwise part of the “core community” at the heart of this issue - is more harmful than helpful because the goalposts of respectability will never stay put and the language used by the hegemony against one group often is reused/paralleled/mirrored in language against another marginalized group, and can very easily be turned again back against you.”

Speaking more towards the arguments re: the 'coming out' campaign backlash, like back then I was fairly active in the m/m romance GR community & more in touch with ppl who were part of kink communities who were part of the m/m GR comm, and like based on what they told me/we talked abt following the whole backlash against “coming out kinky,” is that ppl DO in fact lose their jobs get disowned get evicted etc if they're 'outed' as kinky. Which then directly parallels the vanilla queer experience. I think a sticking point back then was that 'born this way' rhetoric was more prevalent back then, and ppl see kink as more of a 'lifestyle choice' and less about something 'inherent', and also some ppl were just flat-out like 'um ew it's sexual harassment'. But I think if you look at various dynamics of kink there's like lifestyle kink which isn't necessarily inherently or always sexual so like I don't think it's automatically a sexual harassment thing, ig for me it's like... ppl reacting with SUCH backlash against the idea that kink could/should be allowed within the concept of queer spaces and that echoes that post about assassination of queer subcultures, and like coming out isn’t always “I fuck xx” or “I fuck in xx way,” like if you come out as gay you’re not necessarily describing in explicit detail to your mother the ways fuck, you know? I think for me the “coming out” thing also was kind of like... is it safe for you for people to find out x aspect about you? And I do rather think there’s greater hostility towards these kinds of subcultures, which would then perhaps elicit or illustrate a reason why we might want to normalize or educate people better on what exactly constitutes the precepts of the subculture, vs whatever popular idea of it is prevailing at the time?

..I think ultimately we go back again to “this topic is complicated because there’s many intersectional issues as well as competing needs so there’s not a one-size-fits-all ‘answer’ to the questions/issues brought up”

#queer tag #Anonymous #asks answered #long post

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system-of-a-feather · 3 years

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That ask game you rbed, how bout 3 lol

“3. Rant. Just do it.“ - The Other Anon

(tw; positive cursing, bloodborne images so moderate gore)

OKAY HERE WE GO. I GOT ANOTHER THING TO RANT ABOUT. It took me time to get the topic and info dumping / rambling urges for something that I was comfortable posting here. So anyways

Our system has a bit of a thing with gaming and between our system, we have a pretty wide taste that includes a lot of things other than MMORPGs and those multiplayer stuff (Battlefield and COD); so we have like everything from Stardew and Harvest Moon, to Souls-borne, to Management Simulators, to Stealth Games, to Casual Garden / Plant / Animal Sims to Visual Novels to RPGs to some Horror to Minecraft and all that.

Me, Ray, and another part we don’t talk about here really take an affinity to gaming. I typically prefer more story-driven, management games, and more casual farming games. Ray on prefers a lot more AAA action titles. You know those games you bank hours and hours into and BARELY finish the main story - yeah those, I can’t play those for the life of me XD

But anyways, I usually REALLY love me some Bugsnax (lowkey a slight obsession lately), Stardew Valley, Pokemon, Harvest Moon, Hakuoki, Amnesia: Memories (even though they have a problematic “DID character”, its a guilty nostalgic like), and all that but like....

My absolute favorite is probably Bloodborne. A lot of the other ones have a nostalgic pull and/or I REALLY like them, but I think at this point Bloodborne and similar games have become my genuine favorite genre even though it stands out because firstly, they tend to have legit music, secondly, they tend to have legit aesthetic, and thirdly, they are so frustrating and well managed in combat that it is so much fun to just analyze it all and try to figure out the best way to go about doing things.

So like, lets start with Bloodborne in this - because believe it or not the original intent of this rant was not it, but I really do have to establish this.

Reason Bloodborne is Awesome, lets go

One, the story - if you can follow it - is really interesting and well scattered, but I very very much particularly love the theme / question / moral of “Would you rather return to a world blissfully unaware of all the horrors you have seen and learned and live innocently unaware” or “Live in the horrors and be aware of the rest of eternity but at least you know the truth” cause honest to god, if that aint a fucking mood I don’t know what is.

Secondly, GOD do they have the aesthetic down on point. Theres another ask below this asking about my aesthetic, and part of that answer is just fucking Bloodborne now. Like at one point I went “Man I would look cool in Bloodborne aesthetic clothing and shit” and I guess I accidentally ended up with bloodborne armor in the inner world and at first I didn’t know how to revert back to whatever I was wearing (I don’t even remember at this point) and I was like “Uhhh” but HONESTLY I don’t want to change it? I have not found something that is such a solid aesthetic that I love that makes me feel cooler when I’m running around in the inner world so why drop it? And also lowkey now I want to actually adopt that into my IRL life if I ever get the time and money so..??? I mean I’ll go more into that on the aesthetics post but dude look

Are you really going to tell me that isn’t a solid dark aesthetic? And then the bosses are legit af?

And then the clothing and Lady Maria???

Okay and then say all of that is just average or not selling you. Okay okay thats fine.

Like there is also how absolutely frustrating, meticulous and well planned the game is yeah yeah we all know that its Souls-borne genre, but sure - give that number three as a reason.

But number four, oh god NUMBER FOUR. I don’t know how much this has been made apparent on our blog, but our system is VERY in love with music as an art. We were raised with musical instruments (both older siblings played instruments from elementary to highschool, we still continue into college), growing up we were exposed to a lot of instrumental music, and we developed an EXTREME reliance on music to deal with both our abusive family / trauma, to help regulate our own mind, emotions and all, and to also deal with how uncomfortable silence is for us.

So music has been a HUGE developmental factor in our life and we REALLY love and appreciate it and its sometimes painful. But the composition of Bloodborne music - it is BEYOND words for me. I could probably write pages and pages of appreciation for how masterly crafted, perfect and well put together almost EVERY SINGLE piece of the game is and how - after years of listening to them on repeat - I can still find new aspects of it and a new technique or aspect I hadn’t noticed or thought much about to still adore.

I legitamently have screamed over how certain parts just click together perfectly. I can get so much positive overflowing joy and excitement from how well the parts interact and how perfectly dramatic the music flows and how active and physical the experience is that I feel the need to SCREAM internally and sometimes externally.

I obsess over orchestral music and OSTS and film music and trailer music and video game music and all of that and I have to say with almost complete confidence that I’m pretty sure Bloodborne is - in my opinion - one of the best crafted orchestrated units.

Even from my own source, one that I love, have they only recently been able to produce a SINGLE track that echoes similarly in the intensity and amazement that I would consider it around par.

I will DIE internally everytime I hear it and sometimes I have actually had to turn it off because it was TOO overstimulating to listen to because of how much UGH it brings me.

More than it is fun to play, Bloodborne is AMAZING to listen to and I can’t state that enough ugh XD

But anyways, before I go on THAT too much, I love Bloodborne. Joke is that as a fictive it is my “second source” even though it makes no sense. I have adopted it, I have claimed it. I love it and I will die for Bloodborne

So LATELY I’ve started a new game I just bought called Code: Vein and its apparently Anime Bloodborne or something like that and so far its really legit and while the music will never compare to Bloodborne - at least from what I’ve seen - I’ve REALLY been enjoying it and its music isn’t half bad itself

It also hilariously talks about “hearts” and loosing them and also memory issues and I’m dying cause they legitamently took Bloodborne’s Aesthetic, put anime on it, gave it a dark story with memories and indepth characters and served it on a platter for me?

And like dude I love games that comment on memory and emotions and stuff like that and I love the aesthetic and that I can kind of look like myself AND wear cool clothes like?

Man I’m enjoying it and I’m realizing that Souls-borne is probably my favorite genre officially and I’m embracing it. Good game play, good aesthetics, good fighting, and good stories. I love it.

Anyways to finish this rant, here is the first photo I took of my avatar.

-Riku (Host)

#alter: riku #bloodborne #bloodborne tw #gore tw #cursing tw #code: vein #video gaming #ask #asks #system asks #system ask #rant #ramble

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riddlerosehearts · 5 years

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about that last reblog if anyone is curious (do NOT open the read more if you don’t want spoilers for the upcoming tangled the series episode “be very afraid”):

i read everything in that reddit link and the summaries for beginnings through day of the animals were completely accurate (and the person i rbed the post from confirmed that the summary for beginnings was correct and that they saw the post before the ep so it couldn’t have been edited after), so i have no reason to believe that the one for be very afraid isn’t.

now, here are some tags i left on a post about be very afraid yesterday:

and here’s part of the episode summary on that reddit page:

so. turns out i was right, what varian is looking at IS going to kill me and i can’t wait to see it! but of course eugene’s worst fear IS JUST A GODDAMN BAD HAIR DAY. varian’s worst fear is the very understandable and realistic fear of his dad never having been saved and everyone hating him for his past actions. and eugene’s. is. a. fucking. bad hair day. and i’m sorry but i’m starting to get genuinely upset and angry about this sort of thing, you can say “eugene already had his character arc in the movie!” all you want but that doesn’t mean he has to be reduced down to 45% comic relief, 45% trophy boyfriend (and a very good one! but still!), and 10% serious character for the show. it SHOULD NOT mean that.

eugene fitzherbert was an orphaned child who could have never escaped his miserable life. eugene fitzherbert could have lived his days out never truly feeling happy and fulfilled and just remaining as a criminal forever if rapunzel hadn’t shown him another way. eugene fitzherbert was nearly executed for his crimes. eugene fitzherbert had to watch the love of his life being tortured by gothel and begging “just let me heal him and i’ll never try to run away again”. eugene fitzherbert goddamn died and i guarantee that in what could’ve been his last moments he didn’t think rapunzel could magically bring him back considering he just chopped her hair off. his worst fear should NOT be a bad fucking hair day when varian’s actually gets to be something absolutely heartbreaking and i could excuse it if this wasn’t what happened nearly every single time eugene got used for anything, but are you kidding me. why does one of the original characters from the movie not seem to actually matter in this series. why are almost all of his scenes comic relief, i mean even his backstory episode was mostly comedic (and yes it was funny and i enjoyed it but i have no hope that we’re getting a serious backstory ep at this point and that really sucks imo) and also messed up his character anyway so WHAT IS THE POINT, I--

okay i’ll stop now but i’m just. i love this show so much but i’m so tired of the way eugene is treated and i cannot believe i came up with the dumbest possible idea for what eugene’s worst fear could be and it turns out that’s what it actually is. it seems like so much media lately has one or two characters that, even though these characters actually have a ton of potential, they tend to only treat as comic relief and never treat seriously except for maybe very occasionally because they either don’t know or don’t care how to balance that and i’m just so sad that eugene, along with his best friend lance, became that for this show. and look, i get that they wanna balance out the serious shit with comic relief, but you know how else they could’ve done that besides making eugene a fucking joke (and lance, but i’m slightly less mad about that if only because eugene is from the original movie and we know that much much worse things than bad hair have happened to him)? show us ruddiger and pascal’s worst fears and they’re, idk, whatever the fuck silly things racoons and chameleons could be scared of. just not eugene being scared of not having perfect hair as if he wasn’t a master criminal who was almost hanged and literally died jfc

#look i know i'm overreacting here but if anyone tries to TELL ME i'm overreacting i'll fight tbh #because this is so damn stupid #and if this isn't actually correct then i'll eat my words tonight but i have no reason to believe it's not #believe me though i sure hope it's not!#creme dont look #ali dont look

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