Having disabilities and mental issues has stolen my childhood. I was deprived of the precious and happy things that would have helped to positively shape my development.

I just wanted a chance to exist and be happy.

I'm struggling to exist in a body that keeps wanting to stop.

I feel like I'm losing.

this disability pride month, stop making jokes about people in wheelchairs standing up or walking.

can I stand and walk? sure, for a short while and with pain. the consequences for trying to be out all day without a wheelchair are that I'll be in bed for the rest of the week, too tired and in too much pain to move.

but the government won't give me my own wheelchair because they have the same attitude as these jokes - I can stand up, so I don't need one. exercise is good for you, you should walk!

it keeps me trapped in the house, unable to do anything more than short stints anywhere without borrowing or hiring a wheelchair - one that causes me pain to sit in and relies on someone to push me (usually with difficulty), because they're not going to have a high-end chair for that sort of thing.

it's not a miracle that a wheelchair user can stand or walk. it's something we should aspire to see more often.

Today I thought going jogging would be a good idea...

Oh well turns out I'm really kind of disabled and running is really hurting my body even more than just existing. Well, who could've thought... Jokes on me 🥴👏🏻

The worst thing about being chronically ill is probably not being able to spell my condition/J

I pretty much need everyone who knows damn well I have chronic fatigue conditions to stop commenting on how long I’m asleep for and what times I wake up. Even if its “just joking” it really pisses me off

A woman with fibromyalgia goes to the doctor.

Doctors asks her: "Where does it hurt?"

She replies: "Head. Shoulders, knees and toes, knees and toes. Spine. Hips, elbows, wrists. Elbows, wrists. And my feet and my neck and sacroiliac joint. Head. Shoulders, knees and toes, knees and toes!"

🎶

💞🔌Chronic pain + fatigue so bad it gives you deep, unrelenting depression playlist 🍧🩶

feel free to add on/gen

(and put your working diagnosis or suspected cause in the tags if you're comfortable)!!

Due to turning 32 and the world repeatedly nuking my ass with ailments so I don't become so powerful I overthrow god, I was recently diagnosed with PMDD. It explains the mood swings, the very bad thinky thoughts that last me 7 to 10 days, but the biggest thing that it explains is why it feels like something is consistently clawing its way out of me in ways I haven't experienced since my first couple periods in middle school. And it's every time I have my period.

Today it's particularly bad

My husband, the comedian, says it's because I got implanted by something after the Ospreay/Danielson match. We've decided it is Good Wrestling Spectation Disease.

So like. If any other wrestling fan gets bad cramps, no you don't. You have GWSD.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

"Fingerless gloves, are you going to rob me or something?"

Bro these are compression golves for fibromyalgia.

Immune systems of people with autoimmune conditions:

"Here's some inflammation for you, here's some for me"

waking up every morning just to roll a nat 1 on initiative

The absolute worst thing about fibromyalgia is being all achy from the rain and having NO ONE to cuddle with :(

Thinkin about the POTS episode I had at a weed shop once like 5 years ago (well before I knew i had it. I thought i was just dehydrated) in which I passed out in the arms of the cute desk clerk who actually happened to also be an EMT and he knew I was passing out well before I did.

I remember sweating and being embarrassed because of how bad I was struggling to get my sweater off, couldn't stand straight, I was slurring my words and not fully understanding him. Last thing I remember was him deadass leaping over the desk after asking me if I needed to sit down (really hot of him). I'm quite sure he caught me because when I fall I definitely feel it later

It's a super humiliating disability to have but he definitely knew how to make it easier and feel less awful. I was halfway through my sweater when I went down but it was folded next to me and he was holding a cup of water for me until I came to. He was really wholesome and just left the desk and sat with me, tried to make me feel normal about it and distract me from people's wandering eyes and was just really chill. I don't think I was out for more than a few seconds but I definitely would've eaten shit if anyone else was helping me check out. Most people would not in fact jump over the counter to make sure a guy they don't know didn't crack his head open. But he's probably seen horrible things happen to people who didn't have someone there to catch them

I hope he's doing well, I was way too out of it to remember his name but I remember him being really chill and funny, being lighthearted about it to cheer me up. I'd smoke a bowl with him idk. He seemed like such a genuinely good person, didn't go back to his shift until he was sure I'd be okay and even then told me to take my time and call him over if I needed anything (dispensaries are often very particular making sure you're in and out and control the amount of people in there at once). Told me how I should breathe, how I should sit, and it's stuff I do when I have POTS episodes to this day

If my right arms gonna cominue being useless can someone just rip it off at this point

me: I viscerally dislike Sanji because I discovered One Piece as a 13 year old coming to terms with mysoginy, and seeing a character refusing to fight women because "they're all so fragile and delicate" pissed me off SO MUCH

my friend: but you're fibromyalgic, you are fragile and delicate!

me: I am going to rip your face off

Man, being this sensitive is really tanking my credibility as a badass