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antichristual · 4 months

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I Deserve It, Don’t I? —

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Johnny began to kiss down his neck, lovingly, gently. No malice between his lips, no teeth coming out to nip. It was simple, adoring intimacy, and it made Simon’s skin burn. The type of burn that trickled down his throat when he got from shooting alcohol in lonely bars. It was a familiar, knowable feeling, but still it hurt with how addictive it was. He knew what the sensation came from, he knew what it meant. Simon hated it; he chased it.

As he sat back against the bed head, he tried to ignore the little voice in the back of his mind that whimpered about how terrifying this was. To be so open with someone else, so pliant and available. He blinked as he stared up at the ceiling, suppressing how his eyes fluttered with each warm puff of Johnny’s breath against his throat; and how it made his heavy hands grasp at his old sheets a little bit. The rise and fall of his chest stuttered with a devilish anticipation, faltering helplessly when a smaller, but equally as strong palm cradled the curve of his rib cage. Supporting him like he needed it. How he needed it.

A shitty apartment flat that had been left to gather dust while Soap was away on duty, now was home to a little sparkler in the midst of creamy-grey walls. A crackling burst of gradients; pink, blue, purple, yellow, orange. Bleeding outwards on the canvas of John’s bedspread, staining with a liminal permanence. Simon felt a tingle of sickness in his gut when he realised changing the sheets wouldn’t wash the experience out of the room. It wouldn’t change how he splayed open like a morning flower in the sunshine that it had been waiting in darkness forever for. Before Johnny. Knees knocked around his waist, almost hesitantly.

He was allowed to feel this way. Simon was allowed to feel love like this. Deserving, deserved. Not in the way he believed that evil people deserved discomfort— but in the way hurt people deserved partiality. Though, despite his doubt that what he was doing was entirely ethical for the dark part of his brain, he felt safe. The tingle of stubble on his own jawline brought him a security that he’d thought previously would be dangerous to embrace. For the first time in a long time, Simon felt as though he was real. He was in the forefront of his head, in control, but still letting it be.

Tell Ghost two weeks ago that he was doing this, he’d have felt the unadorned urge to shank you. Remind Simon, now, that a man was pouting against his jugular, and he’d sigh in admittance.

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motherdom · 1 year

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Tomura Shigaraki

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ghost-bard · 4 months

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Me when guideau is an unreliable narrator lmao

#the witch and the beast #majo to yajuu #mty #guideau #in the sense that. they are so so so heavily biased it’s actually hilarious #like are you really gonna look at guideau and take them at face value?#like obviously not all witches are bad lmao in fact id say most witches modern day are like. morally grey/leaning good #idk i cant wait for ppl watching the anime to meet phanora and johan #ALSO I SAW SOMEONE SAY THAT GUIDEAU AND ASHAF ARE YAOI CODED? LMAO????#ik its not a super well known bit but i will say it until the day i die #GUIDEAU IS CANONICALLY NONBINARY #QUOTE #GUIDEAUS TRUE BODY DOESNT A CONCEPT OF FERTILITY #NOR A CONCEPT OF GENDER #END QUOTE #although thats not to say guideau/ashaf cant be yaoi #i just want ppl to be aware that no matter how it goes. the tension between angela/guideau/ashaf #is and always will be. homoerotic #sorry went silly mode in my tags lmao

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ribbonpinky-art · 3 months

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listen up, i got tarantula as an amazing option for unnamed JSDLJJFAFK thank u dharvy

#dharvy wrote:#A tarantula. I remember an art piece of her opening a portal to grab you and it reminded me of how those spiders would hunt by ambushing ou #so her hat could be one (or you).#end quote #screams. jus. screms #i love my wamey did u know? did u all know im very into her

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kissing-by-the-sea · 5 months

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i love lesbians who look like this: 🤓

#lesbian #lesbian yearning #lgbtq #lgbt #i want you to be afraid someone is going to steal your hard drive #because it has #quote #really good data #end quote

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oldfacesnewdawnoffical · 1 year

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I think I've told you before but you made me give my cats crowns to wear during gatherings

>:3c it’s my personal agenda

@cryptidclaw and @fatal-rewrites-warriors are next >:333c

#old faces new dawn #ALL HAIL KITTY CROWNS #if y’all get nothing else from OFND let it be:#kitty cat crowns #end quote #ask #wandering-woods-au

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agenderanarchy · 4 days

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i’m rambling and it’s late rn but hear me out. i have a bimbo lumberjack having allergies and huge sneezes stuck in my head and and and

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modmad · 2 years

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Did you hear about the CSPaint update subscription thing?? Would love to hear your thoughts on it cause up until this I was considering picking it up...

wait what I literally just woke up what the fuck happening NOW

EDIT: I now what the fuck happening now

#my thoughts are #im too tired for this shit #end quote

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horsegirlcastiel · 1 year

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cleaning my room and have to keep reminding myself of two things. one: progress isn't always pretty. there are going to be things on the floor or the desk while you clean a different area and that's okay. you're so much closer to the end goal than you were when you started!! and two: you don't have to finish everything in one sitting. you can take a break. you can take several days or even weeks. it'll get there. you're building your home. just like a bird collects downy material and grass for weaving etc etc you have time. make it work for you. make it cozy.

#me in my adhd cleaning mode like 'hey everyone welcome to my video about cleaning with adhd. this is the part of the cleaning where i #pretend im making a video about me cleaning. and this is where i give a thumbs up to the camera 😄👍🏼#anyways guys thanks so much for making my channel blow up #it's been really cool to see the community grow!#end quote #and then all the socks are matched and out away and i dont remember doing it bc i was busy making a fake video about cleaning

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bee-in-a-box · 1 year

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more marcus headcanons?

Thank you for asking, Anon! Yes I do have headcanons >:)

(prepare for me looking way too deep into things)

I'm a very big fan of the theory/headcanon that Marcus' eyebrow raise is him turning off the safety on his heat vision

I really like how it changes the context of his eyebrow moments from

"haha I'm so smug and evil >:)"

"This situation is escalating, so I'm getting ready to attack you if you become aggressive + haha I'm so smug and evil >:)""

it kind of gives off the idea it might be out of anxiety

because him raising his eyebrows is a survival reflex.

okay next one

I think Marcus' body is made of aluminum

because

Marcus is waterproof in canon and aluminum is resistant to corrosion

Marcus' body uses hydraulics to move and aluminum is used often in hydraulics and robotics because it's lightweight

he has heat vision and fireballs/energy spheres that come from his hands and aluminum can withstand extreme temperatures

NOT ONLY THAT, but Metal detectors need to have certain settings changed to detect aluminum over other metals, so that's why Leo's metal detector didn't detect Marcus

on that note, I like to think he's like a terminator and that he's got "living tissue over a metal endoskeleton" so his outside is flesh and blood, and the inside is all robotic

because I would honestly HATE to think he has plastic skin and artificial hair. That really bothers me fhdjfjk

The living parts of Marcus are Douglas' DNA for sure

Which goes really well with my headcanon that Marcus was designed to look like young Donald

Douglas just, casually reverse engineering his genetic code in order to make his surrogate robot son look like his brother

I also think that Marcus' bionic intelligence is what gives him his sentience. Like, a lot of himself comes from his programming, but I think the bionic intelligence gives him the ability to learn and adapt, and have negative emotions.

There's no way Douglas would design one of his creations to defy him, but he can't really control how Marcus uses his bionics. So that's kind of my reasoning for that plot-fix

I have more headcanons, but these are the ones I was thinking of off the top of my head since it's been a while since I thought about Lab Rats lore. Let me know if y'all want another of these! Or headcanons of other characters!

#he is fun to talk about when I'm not actively watching the show and then I watch a marcus episode and I'm like #'oh right he's the sitcom equivalent of boba fett'#I.E. his potential was amazing and then he died pathetically #gonna quote myself here:#when I actually rewatch Marcus episodes I'm always a little disappointed when I remember that in practice #his character falls flat compared to everyone else.#He's kind of a one dimensional villain that only becomes interesting in the moments leading up to his demise #or in lore bits that we have to infer from throw away lines.#end quote #still stan him though #we love a guy who dies again and again and again #lot of t-boy swag you can fit in that guy #marcus davenport #lab rats #please don't take this too seriously! these are just my scattered fun little thoughts that are subject to change!

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wavesmp3 · 5 months

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hi! I read your 8000 layers of inyun yesterday. so it took me a whole day to digest it. Originally i was going to comment but realized i have too much to say so i went ahead and just did an ask, i hope you dont mind! This left me so breathless so i hope my review makes sense. I also apologize for the length but to be fair, your wonderful writing did this to me! i havent seen the movie yet but after reading this i just might. i was initially worried this will turn to something like a cheating situation or close but wow it went deeper than that. even if y/n is in a happy and healthy marriage, theres that grief over that inyun and wondering if a little more time with jeonghan would have been 8000.

The layers of this story is so beautifully laid out in details and the legend of inyun. As someone who had moved countries alot, i am so glad you captured the complexity of leaving home. From not understanding why y/n liked tompkins square park initially, the statue of liberty, and being that person that was always meant to "leave". The way jeonghan poses questions and seems to both understand y/n and also not is such a good take on long distance friendships. I like how its jumping between knowing each other so well but also knowing that you may not bc of the distance and the fact they havent spoken in years. I love how reading this story made me feel melancholic, hopeful, and also satisfied. Melancholic because of the what could have beens, hopeful because sometimes the differences and distances won't fully sever ones connections with each other (in this case inyun if im understanding it correctly) and satisfied because each character had their own maturity and understanding over each other. That mattered to me cause well, drama is very prominent nowadays, no? Is it weird to say that they acted the way 30 year olds should? jhgkdf so this was great! My favorite parts: you don’t remind him to do so once you finally find your keys. instead you slip off your old, faded sneakers, drop your keys on the counter in the lime green dish you made in a pottery class two years ago, and greet him in the kitchen, kissing the side of his chin and reaching over his head to turn the exhaust fan on. he kisses your forehead as an apology, or at least he tries but you’ve already moved and his lips end up catching on the corner of your left eye.

i love the tiny details that are a testament to a marriage.

but beneath the straightforward request feels like a million subliminal ones. like he wants you to prove to him that you’ve made a life worth living here. like he wants to gallivant around new york telling you about a country that used to be home and asking you what would have happened if you didn’t go all those years ago.

ngl, this hits close to home again bc when you leave home, people will always wonder the same thing.

there used to be oceans and countries and cultures and decades standing between you and him, but somehow now, all of that has compressed into four squares of broken concrete. you were never very good at maths. jeonghan, the one who comforted you whenever you cried over it, knows that best. but even you know that there is no way 20 years can turn into 20 feet.

this was just so damn poetic, i actually had to pause and BREATHE.

and the call ends in 4 minutes.

this was really short but captures how your world can turn upside down in just a few minutes.

“i came to see you.”

you don’t take your eyes off his. what is it they say about eyes again? windows to the soul?

“but you and joshua.”

you flinch.

“you guys have those layers of inyun.”

“all 8000,” you whisper back to him, like the world might burst if you spoke any louder.

its like toeing between a confession or congratulation sdkjhfdkjgh

“how many layers do we have?”

a number hangs off the tip of your tongue. but the world will burst if you say it outloud. so you don’t. for the world, for yourself, for joshua.

y/n was very real for this and honestly not everything has to be said. i really love this part because it shows y/n's integrity and also her wisdom.

“you’re it for me.” joshua tells you quietly. “you make my life so much bigger.”

my gosh, the way i nearly cried here. WHY SETTLE FOR I LOVE YOU WHEN THERE'S THISSSSSS???!!!

“but i-” he hesitates here, mouth opening and closing like he can’t decide what kind of conversation he wants this to be. “it’s like there’s this whole portion of your brain that will always be out of reach. like i can see it there in the distance, but i can’t get to it.”

this makes total sense but i cant explain it. its like you want to know every version of someone before they came to be what you know but you know you can't but theres still that grief.

“i didn’t think liking your husband would hurt this much.” (almost). “i can tell he really loves you.”

bc how can you not like him? it def hurts to like him bc that means he's already won anyway.

“yesterday, you asked me why i didn’t try to keep talking back then.” jeonghan continues. “the truth i learned here is that it wouldn’t have mattered how hard i tried even if i did. you were always going to leave because you’re you. and i liked you because you’re you. and who you are is someone who leaves.”

THIS DID MAKE ME TEARY EYED. I was told the exact last sentence before. And i understand how you can't really help it..life is so big and for some, life outside your home country is even bigger.

“but for joshua,” jeonghan says, eyes scanning across the bar, staring at every bartender and every customer before finally, finally, landing on you, “you’re someone who stays.”

no words. really. you blew my mind.

“i haven’t been that kid for a long time now,” you frown, watching jeonghan’s pupils dart back and forth between yours, “but they still existed. they were still real.”

this is very important bc connections and who you once were in the past are very much real...they just don't die because its past. This does circle back to the inyun theme too.

he smiles. and you feel something break apart in your heart.

“i’ll see you then.”

in another life, jeonghan is more than just a series of goodbyes. but in this one, he gets in the uber, and you don’t imagine seeing him again. you don’t think you will. because for the first time in this life, you're not the one that left–he was.

In another liiiifeeee, I would be youuuurrr giiiirrllll

“i’m sorry,” you finally say, before falling into his arms. the sob that’s been waiting in the bottom of your soul for the past 20 years comes bursting out of your throat. you cry into your husband's shoulder. you feel the weight of all your past lives and all your future ones like they aren't in the past or in the future, like they're now beside you begging you to imagine what could’ve been and what was.

joshua holds the back of your head. he doesn’t say anything. he doesn’t need to. it’s all been said before. instead he kisses the corner of your eye and takes you home.

at this point i posted the whole fic. this ending? damn. I really had to take a break from my phone. This was wayyyyy to fitting of an end. I loved joshua's response and the corner of the eye? way to circle back! It's the grief over something you can't truly control but also the happiness of where you are now. I'm not sure how you wanted the end to be if its like a missed connection between jeonghan and y/n or if its grieving over what could have been, or the hope that maybe in the next one its them, or that joshua had always been it but theres that almost with jeonghan. Or it could be all of the above, still this was beautifully written. I apologize for the long review but i just had to express my awe and love for what you've written! Please don't feel obligated to reply just as long or at all! I just wanted to let you know how much your work stuck with me. Thank you for sharing this with us <3 I hope you have the bestest day ever! P.S This unreleased song of woozi fits too! What Kind of Future

i don't mind you leaving this ask at all and the length is more than fine, it's encouraged even!! when i got this ask, i started scrolling and gasped when i saw how long it was. and not in a bad way but in a-i can't believe anyone would take the time to write all this out-way. so thank you thank you thank you!!!

i am going to put the rest of my response under the read more :)) (warning my response is very long lol)

when i was watching the movie/the trailer for the movie i also had very similar concerns that it would be a cheating plot, and i don't really enjoy cheating plotlines much so it was such a pleasant surprise when it was the opposite almost?? i was in awe. and the last sentence of your paragraph here, really hits the nail of what i was trying to do with this piece and what i think the film was doing as well. the sadness over what could have been but what isn't, while also appreciating and enjoying what is. you should most definitely watch the movie though! especially since you also immigrated countries. the story of the movie is based off something that actually happened in the director's life and it's just such a raw beautiful story that is so so real and authentic. i have never actually migrated to another country before, so everything about that was either from the movie or just me imagining what that would be like based on either my background (my parents are immigrants) or other media. anyways, im being extremely wordy, but basically, the experience of the main character here isn't one that i share with them, but the director of the movie does! so you should check it out !

i really liked how you brought up the tompkins square park part and how main character doesn't like it anymore because it almost feels like another reflection of them leaving a place they used to call home and not really feeling like they belong there or like they're that person that lived there anymore. kind of a mirror of how they feel about their home country.

everything you've said here is just sooo spot on!! you understood this piece wholly and completely.

and it's not a weird thing to say at all that they acted like 30 year olds haha in my head i actually imagined them as around that age lol, like early 30 somethings

and what you said about drama... yes! i think this piece would be considered a drama but it's not dramatic. it's such an understated and subtle drama that feels like it's happening in the silences of conversations. (this holds true for the movie especially. i think in interview or something the director said that this story is told mainly through by what isn't being said, it's told through the silences)

abt your fave parts:

i love adding little details like that in, details that make the characters and their lives feel like they go off the pages of the story,, so im really happy that you liked that

abt the line that goes "there used to be oceans and countries..." -- im so so so glad you liked it, i put a lot of effort and made a lot of different versions of this line. so im glad it hit for you the way i hoped it would

and what you said about toeing between confession and congratulation... yup! yeah! exactly!

the line that goes "you're it for me... you make my life so much bigger" was a mash up of a line from the movie and something someone said to me irl :) and it was indeed a very beautiful way to confess love

dang someone actually telling you that exact sentence before is absolutely insane!! im starting to think that maybe you should be the one to write this piece seriously! but also, you have GOT to watch this movie

im so glad you enjoyed the ending!! it's my favorite part as well!! the corner of the eye thing!! so happy you picked up on that. as for what i wanted to the end to be like.... i am a sucker for an open ending and although this ending is less open than others i have written it still is pretty vague... so to your answer your question, the ending is whatever you want it to be. honestly, i don't even know what the ending should be like. but the options you listed (missed connection, or grieving what could have been, etc.) are all ones that were also bouncing around in my mind as i watched the movie and wrote this piece. (for me, i think its mainly grieving what could have been, but also just a mesh of all 4 of the ones you said. emotions can be quite complex huh?)

again, pls don't apologize for the length of this review. it's a dream come true. thank you again for reading this piece, thinking so highly of it, and taking the time to leave this review for me. it makes all the brain rot i had over this film worth it. jk but again thank you. this review made my day and put the biggest smile on my face :))) i hope you have a wonderful day

#asks #8000 layers of inyun #another small note about the line at the end where joshua kisses the corner of reader's eye which was a comment i left on my google doc lol #start quote #'its said a little bit ago that joshua wrote an article abt how eyes are the only exposed part of someone's nervous system #how it's a direct line to someone's head and heart. so this kiss he places on your eye is more than just that. it's more.#and it also calls back to that scene from the beginning... did he really miss your cheek? or was he always aiming to reach your heart?'#end quote #anyways again than you for this ask!! i will be rereading it for days #:)))#OH also I will def be listening to that song thanks for the eec #rec*

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