eddie saying "to be fair, you had just died" and then moving to put his thumb on buck's pulse i see you eddie diaz

this is realer than ever

“It was originally, possibly going to be with Eddie and Tommy, but that fell through.”

I really feel like we didn't have this because Ryan refused, and I completely agree!

Ryan really understands Eddie like no one else.

How would Eddie go out in less than two weeks with a man he just met?

Eddie Díaz, who grew up in Texas, in a complete Latin Catholic family.

Eddie Díaz, whom he told from a young age how he had to be a "real man/family father."

Eddie Díaz, who was only in a relationship with three women in his life and only loved one of them in a relationship that he tried to escape from and only held on to because he truly loved Shannon and the idea of ​​a family for his son.

Eddie Díaz who preferred to go to the army before facing his feelings.

Eddie Díaz, who is capable of destroying his room, losing sleep, having panic attacks, changing jobs leaving behind one of the things that makes him feel alive as long as the people he loves are happy and don't worry about him.

That Eddie Díaz needs much more than a pretty man with a helicopter to realize that that feeling of pretending, of never fitting in, of always following his instincts but never what his heart wants, are actually all the things that happen to him because he doesn't want to see that he loves other men the way he was told all his life to love women.

That Eddie Díaz, who just needs to look inside himself for a while longer, make more progress than he already does, and realize that he already loves another man and has a perfect life waiting for him if he's willing to take it.

911 give eddie a gf he wants to be around challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)

EDDIE DOES REMEMBER BUCK

Aka Eddie’s “oh” momemt

Cuz we all know there was so much more in between, right? The staring, the reaching, the desperation, the physical contact. That was probably their most intimate moment to date. He remembers a searing pain as he looks at Buck. He remembers falling while holding his gaze on Buck. And he thought this was the last moment of his life which he spends reaching out for him. But what about the whole ass scene in the firetruck on the way to the hospital that Eddie claims to not remember???

Some have indicated that Buck was wearing the same shirt in his coma dream from the shooting. There actually was an earlier cue of it’s significance. In 5x01, the only indication of Eddie’s panic attacks that didn't directly involve Ana (cued by the music) was seeing a man knocked out, with a similar shirt (& facial structure) as Buck. The same Buck from the shooting specifically, where he was in so much pain that he couldn't think clearly and thought Buck was the one who was shot. This is an important detail I'll get back to momentarily.

Eddie looks away whenever he lies/doesn’t want to confront his feelings, avoiding eye contact when the conversation gets too real. Buck looked him dead in his face in 5x11 and said he doesn’t have to pretend with him, and Eddie walked away. Where Eddie spent 4x14 looking at nothing BUT Buck, in 6x11 he can’t even glance at him. This is important. Eddie is the only one who doesn’t visit Buck on his own time. He doesn’t want to deal with his feelings over the situation. It’s just all too familiar. This is the exact same setup as Shannon. Only now it’s Buck, and he’s actually dead too.

In 6x10 his fears eventually become a reality. Eddie suddenly has to picture a world without Buck, & he didn’t like it. We finally got Eddie screaming for Buck in the same way the ladder does, & it was brutal. Way different from a regular friend being worried. The calm compitent Eddie Diaz was frantically pulling Buck towards him knowing the effort was useless, shoving his captain out the way to reach him, yelling at doctors to do more????

The writers portrayed a hypothetical that if Buck never met Eddie, he would have lost everything. He would have been deemed unfit to be a firefighter and a single father, eventually losing both. Eddie is aware of the impact Buck has on him & all the things he's done for him. Eddie is aware of his feelings for Buck but doesn’t want to take the time to realize what that means for him. Which is why he omits. Cuz you see, Eddie's panic attacks weren't really about Ana. I mean yeah they were triggered by her, but it wasn't really the thought of being married to Ana, it was the thought of losing Buck. Committing to a relationship with Ana means that the fantasy he envisions with Buck can never come to light. He then decides to cut ties with her with encouragement from Buck. That then leaves the question, why now?? It seemed like Eddie & Ana were doing fine? Why is he suddenly having doubts?

The Shooting. As May said in Eddie's presence in 5x15, it took a near-death experience to appreciate what (he) actually had & is encouraged to not hide WHO HE IS. Because of heteronormativity, Eddie spends Season 4 chasing a relationship he never really wanted just so Chris could have a mother figure, failing to realize he can satisfy both their needs with Buck. Eddie didn't start getting panic attacks until after he got shot, where the main vision he had in those moments was of the one he wanted most, Buck. Dying now meant that he could never have Buck, so he spends the last moments of his life reaching for him. That's why one of Eddie's first triggers is of the white-shirt man along with Ana. He remembers.

Also, why Eddie left Mariasol hand when he calls Buck so loud? 👀👀

I NEED THEM TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE ‘COWBOY’ COMMENT PLEASE

it would also be great if Eddie was referencing Brokeback Mountain but like it doesn’t have to be

What changed in you (are you gay now)

thinking about eddie's soft, fond, "show off." in 4x05

i’m sorry but that man is GAY

eddie diaz being terrorized by a naked women in the promo like im sorry but that's hilarious actually.

there is not a single heterosexual man in the world living or dead who can deliver that caliber of side-eye, case fucking closed

damn i cant believe we've seen buck start and end two relationships, cheat on his gf, become a sperm donor, get struck by lightning and die, come back to life with temporary math superpowers, deliver his biological child, and discover he was bisexual all before seeing eddie kiss a woman again

Eddie honey what was that face??

eddie freaking out about being married to a woman and shannon maybe having another baby ok