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snoozingredpanda · 1 month

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felt the urge to write something but idk

kinda yan goddess of death x gn reader (mentions of suicide, depression, just general sad stuff, but happy ending ig)

you met her on the darkest of days. floating in and out of consciousness, the walls of your bathroom turning black and grey as spots danced across your vision. the floor was wet — with what? you couldn’t tell. it was sticky and metallic and it made your head woozy.

slowly the black spots started to form a larger shape. with each slow blink it grew bigger and bigger, the gleam of something silver and the soft, cold breeze that you knew couldn’t come from the closed window.

“why?” a voice, muffled. you open your mouth but no words come out, no excuses fall from your pink lips. “you are… too young.”

a gurgle comes from your parted lips, and you hear a soft sigh, and suddenly you feel like a weight had been lifted. you felt like a cloud, floating up from your slumped position against the tub. opening your eyes, you could see clearly, see clearly the figure that had pulled you out of your body with a scythe.

she was hidden in a black cloak, her ruby red eyes piercing through the darkness of her hood. the hand that held her weapon was almost transparent, ivory-coloured bones faintly outlined. tilting her head, you see her face — stoic, yet confused.

looking down at your mess of a body, you swallow, before glancing back at her. she repeats, “why?”

knowing this was the fabled grim reaper, and that you were dead with nothing to loose, you instantly come clean about everything that had been hurting. how each tiny stress piled up until you couldn’t take it anymore. how life wasn’t worth living anymore. all the while she’s silent, staring.

finally, once you were done, she murmurs, “too many young people die. i have to rip their souls from their bodies, just like i had to for you…” her gaze travels down to your corpse. “but when it is someone’s time… there’s nothing i can do about it. even if it’s a child… i have to. i have to take them to the afterlife.” you cannot open your mouth. her crackly voice has you in a chokehold, a trance.

she sighs quietly. “you were not supposed to die today. it was written in the stars that today was not your day, but my brother has been lacking on his duties. as the god of luck, he should have given you something to live for. however it seems… you have nothing.”

her eyes glint, reflecting her sharp blade. “i would escort you to the afterlife, but i cannot watch someone so innocent die. you indeed have nothing to live for, but neither do i, except the title of goddess of death i inherited so long ago.” she slowly hooks your whispy soul with her scythe. “you must keep going. i shall give you something to live for… i promise you.” with that, she pushes you back into your body.

every night she visited you. at first she was silent, standing in the shadows. no matter how you tried to communicate, she wouldn’t talk or move. but when you came home from your stay at the hospital, she began to speak. only a few words, every now and then, but she never stayed long. too many souls to guide to the afterlife, you assumed.

months pass, and you start to look forwards to her visits. some nights she doesn’t come, but some nights she stays for hours. she explains that she had minions to carry out the soul collecting, and that her main job was to take the masses of souls to the afterlife, but that could wait.

luck came your way. she never said a thing about her brother but you were sure he was the cause of it. you’d caught a glimpse of a blonde, curly haired man with golden skin a few times, and within hours something brilliant had occurred: a promotion, the gas prices being lowered, or even that a pizza was delivered to your address by accident. grim pretended she didn’t notice, but you saw her soft smiles each time you told her about it.

you got close to her. she allowed you to see her cloakless, her semi-see-through skin so fascinating. her dark hair lifeless yet so, so soft. and of course her beautiful red eyes, which held so much emotion that her body never showed.

a few years passed and despite going through rough patches, you never returned to that state of mind you were in when you met grim. she made sure of this, arriving just on time when the world seemed to be crashing down. she always put you first, even if she knew her father, the god of the sun, would punish her for abandoning her duties. she didn’t care — you were her reason to live, and so she promised to be yours.

the closer you got over the years, the more you discovered about her, emotionally. she was a young goddess, only a few hundred years old. she was the black sheep of the family; the only deity that was seen as truly evil. yet her brother and father never disowned her like the rest of the gods urged, even her own mother, the goddess of health.

grim explained that she had to do what she did, or the balance of the universe would come crashing down. she didn’t decide who died — the universe did, and yet she was blamed for following instructions.

she tells you the times that were hardest, having to walk the silent streets where something horrible took place, having to carry a tiny baby to the afterlife, waking up one morning to find thousands of people dead due to something horrendous. there are times she does not speak about, times that she cannot speak about. wars, genocides, heartless murders. they make her sick to the stomach, yet at least she could promise these people a better time in the afterlife. she just wishes she had someone to hold after seeing such horrid things.

that person became you. every time something bad happens, she came to you, holding you close as she silently weeps for the lost ones. it does take long for her to become attached, too attached to let you go.

and so, the moment she hoped would never come, she tugs your soul from your body once more, before ascending to the place she calls home, forever. to be always known as the goddess of death and her promise.

#yandere #oc #x reader #oc x reader #yandere x reader #fem oc #gn reader #tw depressing stuff #tw blood #idk man #help lol #don’t look into this i’m fine

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solarpunkani · 1 year

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Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

#solarpunk #anti pesticides #ani rambles #this is coming from personal opinion at 4am keep that in mind but like #I’m scared of roaches. i’m fine with them outside though #my parents dont like roaches and for good reason. they spray Ortho Home Defense along the veeery edge of the concrete by the doors to #keep roaches and shit from coming in because yknow. Florida.#if I tell them ‘hey actually we shouldn’t spray pesticides inside (ie raid spray) or outside (ie home defense)#theyre gonna ask wtf to do instead to prevent roaches #and if I tell them ‘nothing suck it up buttercup’ they’re gonna laugh and then double down on the sprays #we gotta have an alternative ready and honestly maybe I’m not looking in the right places but I genuinely don’t know of any #like one online friend told me leaving brush piles around the yard decreased the amount of bugs trying to come in but like #thats one person. anecdotal. and I haven’t seen anything online confirming that as a thing (yet)#idk man I’m going to bed.#might delete later #house pest saga

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dingledraw · 3 days

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Lady Antonia J. Crowley

#everyone at court is a little afraid of her #she’s always looming and scheming 😈#but the kings favorite mistress loves her so they can’t do anything about it #also she’s fine to be around as long as the lady fell is near #I still don’t like making backgrounds but I tried to emulate the one with the text in the famous Anne Boleyn’s portrait #good omens #crowley #fem!crowley #I got sick… again #I’m so over it #also the second one kinda looks multimedia #which was fun #my friend drew the roses 🌹

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stuckinapril · 6 months

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used to daydream about fairytale reconciliations after pretty much every platonic or romantic fallout i ever had, but sometimes it’s healthier to just accept that someone will never own up bc they don’t think you’re worth the trouble. anyone who truly cares would move mountains just to make sure that they communicate w you if they truly want to rectify the situation. but sometimes it’s their ego getting in the way, sometimes they have a narrative of you in their head they’re determined not to break, and sometimes they just don’t care enough about you to even consider it. they don’t have respect for the friendship or relationship in its posthumous state bc it was nothing to them, or at the very least it doesn’t eclipse their pride or their desire to appear correct in a situation or just outright the need to be done w the situation rather than be a good person. still guilty of this but i’ve been getting better at just nipping the delusion in the bud and just being okay w accepting that someone truly does not care. until they prove they do that is the assumption i go w every time. and it is saving me a lot of heartache

#i held out on my ex for MONTHS after we broke up thinking he’d hit me up and be like yo sorry #u did not deserve the way that went down. i should’ve gone about it better #i should’ve taken ur feelings into consideration bc if nothing else the time spent together meant something #even if in the present moment it’s done and i don’t see us going back #i think i owe u that. at the very least in honor of what we had #but did he say any of those things #NO #i’m fine #i’ve had this happen w friendships too like people are just ruthless sometimes and they justify it or just don’t care enough to be better #trying to microdose on delusion less and accept things for what they are #these tags are a roller coaster but i’m keeping them in anyway bc i need something to look back at this weekend #p

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nounaarts · 9 months

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I’ll finish this another day is what I’ll keep telling myself for the next week or so

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formulanni · 1 month

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Taglist (?): @st-leclerc

#UGH #I’m flopping but it’s fine #don’t ask me why he looks like Christ lowkey #f1 #formula 1 #f1blr #f1 fanart #formula one #f1 art #annie’s art #formula one fanart #formula 1 fanart #max verstappen #mv33 #mv1 #red bull racing #red bull f1 #formulanni

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turtleblogatlast · 2 months

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I honestly love the clothing styles of each of the turtles in this show and I love how these styles really incorporate their personalities as well.

Like, obviously Donnie has the best sense of style, yeah? Think that’s something pretty agreed upon here. Everything we see him put together is very meticulously crafted and clean. That goes with his personality because Donnie is a very meticulous person in general, and he knows what he likes very, very well, and knows how to flaunt it in turn. Him commenting on colors he enjoys or disapproving of outfits that the others see no problem with also shows how he just generally has an eye for this kind of thing. He doesn’t just know what looks good on himself, but also what looks good on others - and I think this ties into his love of gift giving too. Donnie also has a flair for making sure that his things have his “mark” on them, and his clothing is no exception. All that he wears and how he wears them screams “Donnie.”

Mikey is really fun because his styles are honestly a pendulum between super simplistic and incredibly out there. And often, you’re going to see a lot of color or patterns to both. And in my opinion I think that all reflects really well on Mikey’s character - he’s got a colorful personality but even more than that he’s incredible sure of who he himself is. Mikey’s style, I feel, is less what looks good as clothes and more what sparks joy in Mikey himself. His bright stickers he wears are a testament of that! He’s comfortable in his own skin and his style reflects this perfectly, whether he goes for a more out-there look or a more toned down one.

Now, for Leo. Okay, I think I’m actually in the minority here I feel because Leo’s style isn’t really that bad? Hear me out- if you actually look at what he wears, try taking out, like, one accessory. Suddenly, that outfit works! He even manages to put together many good outfits in the series, but his “bad” ones are the ones that tend to stand out, alas (just like how his mistakes tend to be big ones oop-) Basically, my personal look at him is not that he’s inept at styling at all, but that he has a “too much” gene. And like everyone else, this sense of style is completely like him, too. Going too far to impress when all he needed to do was slow it down some to think things through. (And funnily enough, a lot of his outfits take random aspects from his brothers too - “nothing without them” huh?)

For Raph, I feel bad for him since pretty much all of his clothes are inevitably going to be ripped, but he makes them work pretty much each time. Like Leo, Raph tends to go more sporty with his looks, but I also noticed that his stuff often goes in that in between of comfy, cool, and cute. His pajama suit in particular comes to mind in terms of “cute” as it’s more something you’d see younger children in rather than older kids, and I think it can be a subtle nod to the fact that for all Raph tries to seem older, he’s still just a kid too.

I could probably go on, but these are just all off the top of my head - I love how the boys’ personality’s come out in so many different ways.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rise donnie #rise leo #rise mikey #rise raph #I love fashion actually #if you’re wondering where this came from it came from me watching hours of outfit creation vids #but yeah! I honestly could probably go more into it #but I’m going off my memory for the most part rip #Leo in particular makes me sad because I disagree with like 99% of the fandom about his fashion sense LOL #I don’t think it’s bad but it’s def not close to Donnie level #Donnie is his own category #Leo though he’s not just jerseys and ripped sleeves #he wears full eye makeup as a granny and kills doing it #his pirate costume was very well put together imo #even his regular weird frog like disguise is perfectly fine when you get rid of the goggles #I ALSO don’t think Raph’s style is bad either #my boy has more difficulty with clothes since he’s limited to the stretchier stuff but like #he’s got good style!!#I’m def looking more into this all than necessary but #watch me come back to this and change it like fifty times #if you’re wondering what I mean about Leo’s outfits taking from his brothers #look at Raph’s standard disguise (the one they go out to play basketball with)#ripped sleeves and a backward cap #one of Leo’s main outfits in The Clothes Don’t Fit the Turtle?#ripped sleeves and backwards cap #incedentally these borrowed aspects actually hinder his overall look!#his outfit without them is more HIM y’know? which says a lot about allll their individual styles

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araindropshallfall · 8 months

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everyone was like “Ed is going to think Stede is dead” and the writers were like oooh so close

#don’t look at me I’m fine #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd #our flag means death #no because the Kate bush of it all

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dazednmatthews · 25 days

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this haunts me in my sleep

#what the fuck is he so fine for #this is crazy as fuck rn #i swear i’m a matt girl #chris jus so damn fine like LOOK AT HIM #LORD please help me #give me 5 minutes.#cherriespeaks #matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #christopher sturniolo #chris sturniolo #he needs me #matt don’t look #like FAWK

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darkleweather · 9 months

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‘Tis the night before Decked Out, and all through the server

All the hermits are stirring, there is quite a fervor!

Tango of the Tek variety is asleep in his bed

Dreaming of hoppers and redstone and playtesting with Zed

GoodTimesWithScar is lined up outside

With Cubfan, they await morningtide

When the gates will arise, and with a ominous beat

The heart of Decked Out comes to life, it’s time to bring the heat!

They’ll go dashing and sneaking, and screaming with fear

Tango will stand watch, grinning ear to ear

Ravagers and wardens and witches and vexes

The dungeon awaits with curses and hexes

And boons, sometimes, treasures and coin

And maybe an artifact the hermits dare to purloin

All to buy books that may win them fortune and fame

And it’s all in good fun, the Hermits love a good game

Decked Out might be crazy, but at the end of the day

They work hard and play harder, the hermitcraft way

#look I know the syllables don’t quite line up in places #it doesn’t quite match the rhythm of ‘Twas The Night Before Christmas in spots #but I’m a writer not a poet #that said I had much fun with this #hermitcraft #decked out 2 #not entirely happy with the ending but eh. it’s fine.#tangotek

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garfield-milk · 8 months

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best sisters ever

#no one can stop me from doing transfem zuko propaganda #look at her!#not really sure if I like azulas design but I don’t hate it so it’s fine #she looks really gay so that’s great #atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #atla azula #princess azula #lesbian azula #I love how is that a tag #transfem zuko #!#zukka #(not really)#(but in everything I do zukka is a thing so)#ALSO IDK WHAT TO NAME ZUKO #if anyone has any ideas I’m all ears #my art

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whereismyhat5678 · 4 months

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Guys I have done it- It took me a while to cook up but-

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!! 💝💝💘💘💓💓✨✨🍫🍫

I unfortunately couldn’t finish it yesterday cuz I had a hair appointment to attend too 💇‍♀️💇‍♀️✨✨

But other than that I made these two guys:

Btw I think I got a new headcannon (kinda-)! When Peppino is feeling anxious, annoyed, stressed, etc: his mustache is down and just looks flat or stretched. When he’s either happy or around Gus and genuinely feels safe: his mustache curves like shown here 💞💞☝️☝️

Hehe, these two love each other so much 💗💗

But don’t think that’s all!! I I did this for fluff….

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But I also made something spicy..

(Tw(?): It’s that one shirtless Peppino sprite- 💀)

Look at your own risk-

(I can’t do backgrounds FOR SHIT but I love how this came out it took me HOURS-)

*clears throat* Happy Valentine’s Day guys 💕💕

#Pizza Tower #Happy Valentine’s Day 💝💝#For that second drawing I had no idea where to place Gus. It looks awkward af- 😭💀#It’s fine tho- I do generally like it I think it looks good-#THAT PEPPINO RIZZ #The first pic I think is adorable. Let them be together and happy and sweet and cuddly and just in general lovey dovey OKAY?#It’s mushy but I like mushy stuff it’s cute 😤💓#I think I’m getting more comfortable stuff like this under the cut- I don’t think you guys mind right?….RIGHT- 👀💧#Still. Hope you guys had a good day yesterday 🫶🫶 Cuz sure as hell it was a mix of feelings for me-#Peppino x Gustavo #Pepstavo #Peppino #Gustavo #SPICY #Fluff

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noyoudidntbye · 8 months

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Day 3: Outside 🌌

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zenon-karr · 27 days

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For every multiship post that exist I’m going to put a mono ship post because mono shipping is okay!! Multi ships look away!! Diaz-Buckley family post incoming!!

Buddie endgame!! Please I need to see their family complete!! Eddie and Buck hugging their son because how can I root for anything against this family as endgame? 😭

The way he trusts Buck and he can’t trust Shannon

Gonna need his grandma/abuela to tell him his own words that he is possible for him to have a second chance while Shannon is gone bc she is dead love is possible and that he has it right here already. That he is already ready to move on but just allow himself to do it and he wouldn’t have trusted Buck to be Christopher’s legal guardian otherwise and to go tell him he loves him. 🥹 of course Eddie will say he’s with someone else and she’s says to tell him before it’s too late and Buck gets too invested! His heart already knew he was ready to move on and he just doesn’t accept it yet!

Buckley-Diaz family endgame you are so loved!!!

Sincerely

Brand new Buddie 😌✨💚

#buddie #this is the buddie zone #buddie only #is fine if you multi ship but accept some people don’t #I hope you know it sound condescending like u kNoW mUltiShiPpInG eXiSts!1!1 #yes I know this but I don’t multiship #is not as friendly as you think it is #multiship look away #this isn’t saying don’t multiship!!#you do you I just need more mono ship Buckley-Diaz family posts #buckley diaz family #Buckley Diaz family you are so loved #no I’m not shutting up

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axolozzy · 7 months

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statement begins…

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prima-donna-worm · 1 year

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next week is going to be insane bc like. two (2) pcs have more than 11 hit points. half the party have negative strength mods. the tank is a child. two pcs are like 2ft tall max. the ranger is rolling every attack with net 0 modifiers. the bards only offensive spell is sleep. brennan told them they would be slaughtered in open combat and their only advantage was surprise and they immediately started loudly arguing about their plan and then failed the group stealth check like GREAT season for little guy enjoyers TERRIBLE odds of making it thru ep 3 without a pc death

edit: ignore the rosamund thing I wrote this at 2am i forgot bow was dex I’m just silly goofy

#neverafter #d20 #dimension 20 #i love them so much #a lot of this is like. normal first level stuff but I do feel like they are Extra Poorly Equipped for combat lmao #like to be fair we haven’t really seen what lou can do and I’m assuming zac is using a finesse weapon so #conceivably they could both be fine in combat but uhhh we’ll see lol #also ig Rosamund’s briar bow might be magical and have some bonus but otherwise -2 str and +2 proficiency cancel out 😭#also I don’t actually think someone will die it’s just looking rough out there

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