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ojibwa · 1 year

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#weirdcore #dreamcore #words #spilled words #mine #derealization cw

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liminal-spaced-out · 6 months

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Skipping

#tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #stanley parable #art #tsp narrator #tspud narrator #tspud stanley #tsp stanley #skip button cw #skip button ending #cw skip button #derealization cw #cw derealization #artwork #artist

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scytheral · 1 year

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ㅤ⸝⸝ㅤ⬧ㅤNEUROSTTㅤ⦂ㅤA Gender under Ocularic && Soporine — Related to Unreality && Derealization. The terrible Truth Beyond man ' s Comprehension. Witnessing it is Too much to Handle. The distressing Feeling when One realizes One is Having a Nightmare and Suddenly one starts Feeling it when One is Awake as well. It is All a Dream ?

—ㅤCoined by The Prince , Coined for This Anon.ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ—ㅤTagㅤ:ㅤ꒰ @dreamythism ꒱ㅤ!ㅤ

[ PT / Neurostt: a gender under ocularic and soporine- related to unreality and derealization. the terrible truth beyond man's comprehension. witnessing it is too much to handle. the distressing feeling when one realizes one is having a nightmare and suddenly one starts feeling it when one is awake as well. It is all a dream? / END PT. ]

Pronounciation: nhew-ou-rhos-t

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solarisgod · 10 months

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▌ ANHABUILDING.EXE ／／ : AWARENESS ᐟ ᐟ * [ CW ] MENTIONS OF DEREALIZATION, DEPERSONALIZATION, DRUG USAGE & ADDICTION, SELF-HARM URGES, SUICIDAL IDEATIONS, & UNREALITY.

› GENERAL ᐟ ᐟ ⑉ AWARENESS IS A KNOWLEDGE ANTIGODS OBTAIN AS THEIR EXITALE EVENT ENDS OF BEING A CHARACTER IN A FICTIONAL STORY AND UNREAL UNIVERSE THAT WERE MADE TO ENTERTAIN THE AUDIENCE.

› AWARENESS_LEVEL ᐟ ᐟ ⑉ The Order System can can be used to identify the general level of Awareness an Antigod have.

་ ، 𖥔 ORDER 1 : The character who knows they are in a story, but not the specific nature of that story.

་ ، 𖥔 ORDER 2 : The character who not only knows they are in a story but knows the nature of that story ( i.e. is aware they are in a horror story, therefore, can predict the possibilities based on general horror centric tropes and plotlines ).

་ ، 𖥔 ORDER 3 : The character who is not only aware of the story’s form and genre, but everything of the events and details in order.

་ ، 𖥔 ORDER 4 : The character who is not only aware of everything within the story, but also the Audience’s existence beyond the Four Walls of the Narrative while they are able to see and directly interact with the Audience.

› SIDE_EFFECTS ᐟ ᐟ ⑉ THE FOLLOWING SIDE EFFECTS OF HAVING AWARENESS ARE, THOUGH NOT LIMITED TO : ANXIETY, DECLINE IN SANITY, DEPRESSION, DEREALIZATION-DEPERSONALIZATION, HOPELESSNESS, PARANOIA, SELF-HARM URGES, SUICIDAL IDEATIONS, TIME BLINDNESS, VERTIGO, AND FREQUENT FEELINGS OF "BEING WATCHED" AND "NOTHING MATTERS IN THE END".

› EXTRA_SENSE ᐟ ᐟ ⑉ Awareness also functions as a "extrasensory perception" that Antigods can receive precognition of a future event in a few seconds to minutes, even hours to weeks before the actual event occurs. The precognition of the Awareness can be taken in a shape of dream, vision, or fact. The stronger the Antigod is, the sooner the precognition aspect of their Awareness will become active. When the Awareness gets triggered by the upcoming event, the Antigod will generally experience a head splitting pain. Other symptoms that are commonly experienced when the triggers happen excessively at a time are blurred visions, headaches, fatigues, and nausea.

› ATARAXIA ᐟ ᐟ ⑉ Ataraxia is a consumable herbal medicine that Antigods, mainly those who are over Order 3, use to temporarily dull or reduce their Awareness, given that having this special knowledge can form a variety of undesired effects to them. Sinners and especially Martyrs are known to create and sell Ataraxia across the Antigod community. The herb is palm sized in various colours and sizes that is absorbed with an Antigod's anthaima, which is a bodily liquid that appears and functions similarly to blood for human and ichor for the divinity, tasting as sweetly iron. ( * VISUAL REFERENCES : 1, 2, 3 // ). One take of Ataraxia makes a single hour of reducing the Awareness, although depending on how weak the user may be, taking at least four to eight times in a day can be dangerous, leading to coma or even death. Heads of Break Beyond Force highly discourage Antigods to use Ataraxia due to the side effects and addictive potentials, instead suggesting resilience trainings in order to develop better endurance of Awareness and management of its side effects, though some Antigods have no patience to engage in the trainings, finding Ataraxia the only best way to cope with their Awareness.

#ADDICTION CW #DEREALIZATION CW #DEPERSONALIZATION CW #DRUG USE CW #SELF HARM CW #SUICIDAL IDEATION CW #UNREALITY CW #𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ WORLDBUILDING . ›#[ ✨ : this is actually a very important thing with Micah ]#[ who will know about certain aspects the individual they interact with and the event around them both as time goes on ]#[ nothing too significant to avoid powermodding of course unless given permission but ]#[ yeah nodsnodsnods ]#[ anyways Micah doesn't like to know things about others via their Awareness rather than being told by them hence ]#[ they attempt to block it whenever it gets triggered and just. they are so. :< ]

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gravitysalie-soisthesky · 4 months

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*[(There is a journal lying on the ground in the middle of the anon village.)]*

*[(Anyone can read it. Anyone can pick it up. They can even take it, if they so please.)]*

*[(Do you want to read it?)]*

*[(Although, before you decide, I must warn you that this does contain derealization, repeating text, and implied Capgras syndrome, although, as you may come to realize, the first and final ones in that list are not what is actually happening.)]*

* Yes.

* No.

* Yes.

* No.

*[(The first few pages are missing.)]*

Entry Fourteen—

Summer break!

God, I fucking hate school. So glad it’s over.

Entry Fifteen—

I think I’m sick. I feel weird.

Entry Sixteen—

My friend is coming over to see me today!

I hope she doesn't get sick too... Hopefully it’s not contagious! Did I spell that right?

Entry Seventeen—

...

I don't think that was her. It couldn't have been. It had to be someone else pretending to be her.

Entry Eighteen—

Nobody is acting right.

They’re all fake. They have to be.

Entry Nineteen—

I’m the only real one.

*[(A few pages are missing.)]*

Entry Twenty Five—

...Am I real?

I feel weird.

*[(The handwriting in the next entries slowly gets sloppier and harder to read.)]*

Entry Twenty Six—

Something is wrong.

My hands.

What is wrong with my hands.

Something is wrong.

Entry Twenty Seven—

This is all fake, isn’t it?

Just words on a screen.

Lines of code.

Entry Twenty Eight—

It’s spreading.

Entry Twenty Nine—

It hurts.

God, it hurts.

I just want it to stop.

Make it stop.

Please.

Just make it stop.

Entry Thirty—

Please.

Entry Thirty One—

Please.

Entry Thirty Two—

Please.

Entry Thirty Three—

Please.

Entry Thirty Four—

Please.

Entry Thirty Five—

Please.

Entry Thirty Six—

Please.

Entry Thirty Seven—

Make it stop.

Entry Thirty Eight—

It hurts.

Entry Thirty Nine—

Why?

Why me?

What did I do wrong?

Entry Fourty—

Please.

I know you’re there.

Entry Fourty One—

...

Entry Fourty Two—

It won't be alright, will it?

Entry Fourty Three—

Don’t lie to me.

I know it won’t be.

You just want to use me.

Entry Fourty Four—

Shut up.

Entry Fourty Five—

Why?

What do you gain from this?

Entry Fourty Six—

So it’s just because you can?

Just because you want to?

For your sick amusement?

Entry Fourty Seven—

Don’t lie.

Entry Fourty Eight—

Why did you do this to me?

Entry Fourty Nine—

Who else could have?

It’s only you.

Entry Fifty—

What’s happening to me?

Entry Fifty One—

What the fuck do you mean, you don’t know?

Entry Fifty Two—

No, no, no.

You are the creator.

You have to know.

Entry Fifty Three—

How the hell could I have done it to myself?

I’m not even real!

I’m just something you made up!

Entry Fifty Four—

...

Entry Fifty Five—

Am I dying?

*[(The rest of the pages are blank, save for the final one.)]*

*[(The handwriting is much neater, better than it had been at the start.)]*

I hate you.

But without you, I wouldn't exist.

I know.

This is still your fault, even if you didn't do it.

Or, rather, didn't mean to.

I still don't believe you didn't have a part in it.

I know.

I don't feel sorry for you.

I know I should.

But I don't.

You didn't deserve any of it.

But it doesn't excuse your actions.

I know.

*[(Ominous, is it not?)]*

#[(A stranger.)]#derealization #derealization cw #cw derealization #repeating text #repeating text cw #cw repeating text

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sakakisilverlining · 2 months

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Fuck it. Time is an illusion. Time is an illusion and I'm actually neither in the past, present, nor future fuck this shit.

#♤hmph. naturally. [×silverpostings×]#derealization cw

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dogt-eeth · 5 months

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My derealization is like. Almost Cartoonishly bad, I think. Like I'll walk through any location and it's All Liminal Spaces for me, (almost) all the time. Prolly why backrooms horror doesn't irk me. For me they're just the Normal Rooms!

#more in depth stuff in tags do NOT read these if uts potentially triggering for you #derealization cw #talk of derealization #derealization tw #its esp bad walking outside for some reason?#My brain starts wondering too actively abt the nature of the skybox (video game graphics and physics rules #I.E NOT REAL LIFE)#and you might say “but steel! what abt when there are creatures too?”#the creatures arent meant to b there! the liminal feeling IS the horror! they arent called the Creatures Rooms!

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wibble-wobbegong · 1 year

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extremely common bar3lyth3re W

#faves of all time #will byers #derealization cw #eyestrain cw #analog horror cw

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stardustaces · 7 months

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"You? … At first, you were a being accidentally created by an Aeon, with a body but no soul. Elio guided me to you, and you were given a soul. That’s nothing to say about your past. You only remember me because I was the one with you when your soul was born."

Was that the answer he'd been searching for?

"You have no past," whispers his void-faced reflection in a nearby window. "You were no one- you are hardly even real right now."

The revelation weighs on Sei- visibly so, as he suddenly struggles to stand. It's as if a weight pushes down upon him, tugs down on him from his chest, from the very core of his being.

The soul he'd been given- did K.afka mean the S.tellaron? This absinthe star inside his ribcage, this thing inside him that others had called a Cancer of all Worlds- was that the soul he'd been given?

Is that truly all that he is?

"Your past is nothing- empty. "

His specter's hand clasps itself firmly- painfully so- upon the Trailblazer's shoulder, wrenching his body upward and forcing golden eyes to gaze into the bottomless abyss where its face ought to have been.

"Look into my eyes. See that this is all that you are. There are no answers to seek. In the end, a universe devoid of life is what you will leave behind."

It hurts to look into the endless black- it hurts to keep his eyes open. Despite that, his eyes will not close- they simply refuse to close.

The Trailblazer stares daggers into the face of a reflection he has not seen in some time- into the face of a reflection he'd almost forgotten.

Dark, darker- yet darker is the chasm in its head where eyebrows, a jaw, lips, cheeks, and eyes should have been- though, for the first time, he swears he can see something else.

A light.

It's not quite the same as the one behind his eyes- it scares him to gaze into. It sears into his vision, demands he not close his eyes despite every instinct telling him to run, to look away, to not dare to gaze for a second longer.

It's the same light that gazed back from behind C.ocolia's eyes- from behind the eyes of the Ebon Deer. It's the same light he almost relished in snuffing out.

It's the same light he's learned to fear- to hate.

"It's me, Sei. It's been me all along."

He falls to his knees, as the form of his specter vanishes, retreating to the window's reflection.

You're overthinking.

#ꜱᴇɪ. [m!trailblazer]#ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇᴋ ꜰᴀᴛᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴡʜʏ. [in character]#ʙʀᴇᴀᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴜʟᴇꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ. [main verse]#ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʟɪɢʜᴛꜱ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ ᴀʀᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀꜱ. [headcanons]#{ is this the voice of the stellaron or the voice of his insecurity? }#{ consider this part one of two }#derealization cw

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the-mechanisms-system · 8 months

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Feeling very weird because for the past few days it's been like. I feel the same way I did in like 7th grade??? In a way I cant explain. And idk if it's a prolonged emotional flashback, something in my environment triggering really strong sensory associations that are bringing me back there, or if I'm somehow a system member who hasn't fronted since then, but whatever it is, I Do Not Like It. It's making reality feel kinda wavy and my brain feel Wrong and its not fun

#plurality #tw derealization #derealization cw #cptsd #emotional flashback tw #idk what all trigger tags this needs but yeah

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fictionkinfessions · 10 months

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not sure how to read the rules sorry if I break them. I mean tw for dissociation, and derealization, not sure if that's what I'm experiencing but can't be too safe. coming here to confess this because I am not sure if I want this on my blog where my friends can see it, but I'm extremely worried I'm starting to get worse, not better. some background before this, I am unsure if I've ever experienced anything like this, but my memories always been awful/blurry af. So take that with a grain of salt. Recently I've been Flickering as Missy from Doctor Who which is actually alright, nothing too out of the ordinary for me and nothing too awful, but then I started to wonder if I AM HER, in a since I am one of her regenerations and I'm in her reality, and I believed it, not entirely I tried to keep it at bay with reminders such as: "THIS IS A FLICKER YOU ARE A FICTIONFLICKER CHILLAX" but it still remained in the back of my head, and I don't entirely believe the "I am a fictionflicker" mantra, I'd say I'm scared but I'm surprisingly neutral about this only... concerned, and that should be terrifying but it isn't. -Missy (fictionflicker)

#fictionkinfessions #fictionflicker #dissociation cw #derealization cw #kinsidering #mod party cat

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ojibwa · 1 year

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#trauma #actuallytraumatized #weirdcore #words #mine #derealization cw #unreality cw #paranoia inducing cw #delusion inducing cw #<- idk if this counts as that but just in case

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artekai · 2 years

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Horizon: Zero Dawn (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Characters: Original Male Character(s), Fross van der Meer (Original Zenith Character) Additional Tags: Tilda is also there and Stanley Chen is mentioned but this isn't about them, Pre-Canon, Canon Compliant Minor Character Death, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Panic Attacks, Dissociation, Depersonalization, Derealization, Stream of Consciousness, Original Character-centric, Whumptober, Whumptober 2022

Summary:

On how Fross was feeling in the immediate aftermath of the destruction of the Sirius colony.

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tempesttragedya · 2 years

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human nevermore!

a horror based oc presented by TempestTragedy.

#blood cw #eyestrain cw #derealization cw #that's what the middle pic is more meant to show #is this a self promo?#we may never know #aesthetic: cronus #knife cw

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solarisgod · 10 months

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Micah has been slipping in and out and back of the cold reality , constantly , painfully . There is the familiar sensation of burning whenever they try to take a breath , and somehow , it hurts even more after they let it go , reminding them of the aftermath they faced . After the massacre , Warlock took Micah back to its home so they can recover better with its presence near , rather than letting them heal at the medical room of the Kaileidom Division . The Break Beyond Force had wanted to take Warlock to interrogation , although it didn't give them a chance to catch it before it vanished with Micah and Kaitsukuroi , Adoniram following them .

Sitting on Warlock's bed in the early morning , as the Antigod in mention and Adoniram are giving them some space to rest , Micah lightly places their face against their palms with a shaky sigh , trying to be mindful of their healing injuries . Kaitsukuroi were able to rewind most of them , although their Techne can't remove the pain that continues to dwell across their limbs and body , their mind having to be deeply latched onto the terrible memories behind the wounds . Nothing feels as humanly real anymore . Everywhere hurts so much . Micah's eyes burn and they wince , hot tears falling over their cheeks . Everything just hurts so much .

#ASK TO TAG CW #DEATH CW #DEREALIZATION CW #MASSACRE CW #///#//#/#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ IC . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ CYOA MODE . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ V : MAIN / ACT I.II. . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ MICAH . ›

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sakakisilverlining · 3 months

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You aren't dreaming.

I promise you, you aren't dreaming.

It's all going to be okay.

Everything is going to be fine.

okay. Okay, I trust you..

#I'm sorry #♤hmph. naturally. [×silverpostings×]#derealization cw #cw panic attack

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