WHAT IS YOUR COSMOS PERSONA ? TAGGING : @lunarisdog , @jackdup , @cosmicangsts , @narrated , @vulpesse , @deadcmd , @lifesver , @primordyalsoul , @nosp1n , @divinehr , @0brighta , @carbondated , @notmedizin , @moonsworn , @knghted , @doomedfist , @maidmyth + you !

MICAH ✧ THE SUN : The star of our solar system ! The Earth and other planets orbit around the Sun , it provides us light and warmth . Sunlight takes 8 minutes to reach Earth !

PHOEBUS ✧ SATELLITE : Object that moves around another object . We mostly use this term to refer to a device sent to space to orbit around an object of interest , it can operate to collect information or for telecommunications purposes .

PHILOS ✧ BLACK HOLE : A region in space where gravity is so strong that not even light can escape from it . It can be formed from the collapse of massive stars .

PHOBOS ✧ ROCKET : Vehicle that moves by expelling gases produced by burning fuel . It is used for space travel , satellite launches , and other purposes .

THE WRITERS [ @SOLARISGOD ✧ BLACK HOLE + @LUNARISDOG ✧ ROCKET ]

[ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : angelparadox is weird as fuck @ cry [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : we were hoping we could come to la to spend our breaks with you but he was very against it [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : wait is la one of the places you have to go for work? [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : are you even going to get a holiday break? [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : christ

 Micah have been staring at the text series sent from Steelstorm , gently biting their lower lip . Three minute passes ⅋ they are still trying to figure how they can respond to him . The fact that Angelparadox let them do this Miracle alone for two months when it seems a lot better to work with their Hieroquaternity instead . They recall the doubt ⅋ suspicion expressed from their other Starwakers . If it were not for Warlock accompanying them while ignoring Break Beyond Force's order of it not getting involved with their work , Micah is certain they would fall in a lot of difficult positions , including the time when Cosmochoice tried to kill them in late November . Micah then remembers the time when Angelparadox made them have a spar with Adoniram while encouraging the pair to fight each other as a test . Their hand shakes .

 [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : He actually warned me not to visit my family.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : It must be his Awareness that told him I was planning to, but I stood up for myself.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : I demanded for at least one week of break.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : He just hummed ⅋ hung up without a word.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : I guess I do have a break, but I have to be very vigilant with it anyway. Los Angeles is my last visit.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : After I became an Antigod ⅋ moved to D.C. to work for the Force, I didn't get to see my family. Seven months. I miss them so much.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : But I will not let anything with my work happen to anyone of my family.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : I swear to the stars.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : I do think he's not letting you guys visit me for very specific reasons. I don't know what, but I don't trust his intentions.  [ 📲 ⦿ THE UNHOLY QUATERNITY ] : What do you guys think? @oncehunted @oncehaunted @fatefire

In summary: You should take Micah to pretty places and stargaze with xem and maybe even end the night kissing xem. ♡ ✧

This is literally how Micah interacts with Warlock

 Micah still haven't been able to find how these shadows ⅋ reflections can turn into multidimensional shapes , being able to wander without being bounded to their respective sources ─ they can be fully free now . It almost seems as they would evolve over time the longer they exist as sentient . They recall the goals Lux ⅋ Nox hold of wanting the shadows ⅋ reflections to have their own freedom . There is a greater likelihood now that they are responsible for the high activity of the shadows ⅋ reflections based on their observations , though , they still can not help but grip onto the possibility that the Infernal Infinity have to do with the occurrences , placing a target on the Martyr pair for them to go after instead of the Infernal Infinity .

 While searching for Fengári , Micah has been travelling through the woods , believing they will likely find the Moon in an isolated area instead of the populated . She and Ílios are always moving across the world , but , surely , they will find one of the pair soon . If Micah can meet either sooner , maybe they can help them share any new knowledge of the sentient shadows ⅋ reflections based on the experiences they may see or hear from their worldwide travelling . Micah feel like they are close to the conclusion , yet , so far ─ A hiss escapes Micah , stopping as their Awareness fli- fli- FLICKERS ─ ( A FIGURE STANDS AHEAD OF MICAH , WATCHING ─ ) Their heart nearly freezes at the striking familiarity ─

 One hundred fifteen corpses flash ─ infinite hands reach ─ Polarispride , Byte , they're dead ─ Micah growls , narrowed eyes glowing cyan ⅋ red with their hands clenched , celestial horror held . ❝ Cos ─ ❞ One hundred fifteen Saints dead ─ too many innocents g o n e ─ ❝ C O S M O ! ─ ❞ Flame bursts wildly in Micah's hand before they FLING it towards @cosmogaze .

The main Starwakers with Snoopy 🤍

   I .   Who am I? Who am I? I’m awake when you sleep at night. Who am I? I’m the dark underneath the light. Who am I? I’m the space living in between. Who am I? I’m the one thing in everything. I, who am I? I’m a saint, I’m a sinner. I’m a God, I’m a killer, I’m the end and the beginner. Who am I? ( Who am I? ) Watch and learn, then you live and die. ( Who am I? ) I’m what’s waiting on the other side. ― Tony22, Who Am I?

   II .   Shall we look at the moon, my little loon? Why do you cry? Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light. Well, you do enough talk, my little hawk. Why do you cry? Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We're all gonna die. ( We're all gonna die. We're all gonna die. We're all gonna die [ ... ] ) ― Sufjan Stevens, Fourth of July

   III .   I am alive, I am awake. I am aware of what light tastes like. The curtains drawn, the table's set; I wanna be, I wanna be, at my best. It's bittersweet, it's poetry. Careful pruning of my dead leaves. It's holy ground, a treasure chest; I'm on my knees and only scratch the surface. Like fists unraveling, like glass unshattering. Breaking all the rules, breaking bread again. Swallowing light, 'til we're fixed from the inside. ― Sleeping At Last, Taste

   IV .   And everything that's here is rising in tone and saturation. It's an aching, it's a violence. It's a longing to erase the separation. [ I DON'T WANT TO BE HAPPY, I DON'T WANT TO BE GOOD [ ... ] I WANT TO BE REAL. ( I WANT TO BE REAL. ) ] Looking up at me with hearts around your eyes, stretching arms to beckon me back to that bed. It's the quiet place where everything that's warm and real inside of me still lives. Break your crown and throw it tumbling to the Earth. Burn the gates of heaven down if it's real. Soak me in my mother's blood, show me that your arms can hold me, dive into the dying light and find me here. ― Crywolf ft. Emalyn, TENEBRESCENCE

   V .   The ashes call my name. Pouring the fuel, fanning the flames; breaking the habit and melting the chains; embracing the fear, chasing the fight. The glow of the fire will light up the night. The bridges are burning, the heat's on my face. Making the past an unreachable place. Pouring the fuel, fanning the flames, I know this is the point of no return. It's uncontrollable, such a beautiful desire. There's something sinister about the way it hurts when I watch it burn ( higher and higher ) because I can't go back. ― STARSET, NO POINT OF RETURN

   I .   When I choose to see the good side of things, I'm not being naive. It is strategic and necessary. It's how I've learned to survive through everything. I know you see yourself as a fighter. Well, I see myself as one too. This is how I fight. ― Waymond Wang, Everything Everywhere All At Once ( 2022 )

   II . I’ll rewrite this whole life and this time, there’ll be so much love, you won’t be able to see beyond it. ― Warsan Shire, Backwards

   III .   Part of heroism is being able to see the future and still remain standing. If you don’t believe in God or Fate, you still must believe in Narrative. ― Richard Siken, Four Proofs

   IV .   My God, my God, whose performance am I watching? How many people am I? Who am I? What is this space between myself and myself? ― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

   V .   God said: GOD MADE YOU. GOD DOES NOT CARE IF YOU ARE " GUILTY " OR NOT. I said: I CARE IF I AM GUILTY! I CARE IF I AM GUILTY! [ ... ] God was silent. Everything was SILENT. ― Frank Bidart, Half-light: Collected Poems

i am here with a small question ! (❁´◡`❁) what flower(s) or tree(s) would you associate with beloved micah ? and would micah ever be interested in having a garden, or maybe in growing vegetables and fruits in a tiny field ?

Hello, Bunstar! Thank you so much for this wonderful set of questions! (≧▽≦)ﾉ彡☆ ( A small question to a large answer, heheh . . . ) The Starwake System holds a special connection with nature because of Micah’s surrogate parent who is Incarnation of Earth who birthed xem through the soil and water, initially the Sun and Moon creating xem as a starseed. Due to this, a lot of the plants are meant to be associated with Micah, but I will list six most prominent flowers and trees that I associate with xem!

Before I start, though, I'd love to answer the plant association question with the other main Starwakers!

◜ ⟢ Phoebus ◞ Phoebus is associated with plants that bring vitality and healthy products, such as herbs, fruits, and vegetables. Phoebus is highly nurturing and solicitous in their own quiet and firm ways to their starmates, always wanting only the best of themself and the system since the moment they all existed, so plants that are known as culinary and medicinal applications best aligns with their main role of encouraging growth and providing care. Phoebus is a cooker and healer at heart, using plants for the system's meals, beverages, and natural medicines often, as well as they usually front to take care of themselves when sick. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Jasmine. ⁽ ² ⁾ Marigold. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Violet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ White Pine. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Apple Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Sugar Maple

◜ ⟢ Philos ◞ Philos is associated with plants that are known to be distinct and conspicuous, the kind that stands out from their unique shapes and / or features. Philos shares the similar attributes with these sort of plants by her alluring appearance and powerful personality, wanting to make her presence the most striking. However, he holds an essence that often makes him appear as more honourable than dangerous. Be closer to him and he may bring out what are the worst than best from another. They look into plants more based on their aesthetic and aroma appeal, the aspects Philos cares about with their self image the most in the system. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Rose. ⁽ ² ⁾ Bleeding Heart. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Passionflower. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Golden Chain. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Okame Cherry. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Wisteria.

◜ ⟢ Phobos ◞ Phobos is associated with plants that are carnivorous and poisonous, what matches with its sharp and stealthy nature. Along with Philos, it is dangerous, although rather than acting out of maliciousness, it exists as a defence or mechanism for itself and the system, harming those that tries to ruin them while giving themselves the resources to continue living. Phobos holds greater fascination in these plants than everyone else within the Starwake System─ some people don't believe this fact because of its harsh and careless attitude, but Phobos also takes wonderful care of them when it can. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Sun Pitcher. ⁽ ² ⁾ Flame Lily. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Angel's Trumpet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Manchineel. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Sandbox Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Milky Mangrove.

In regards to Micah now, xe is associated with the following six most prominent flowers and trees : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Shooting Star. ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flower. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Dandelion. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Rainbow Eucalyptus. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Cherry Blossom. These plants are linked to the concepts of hope, resilience, and love that Micah represents. Xe have memories with them since childhood while they present as personal and symbolic reminders to xem.

`˳⟢˚، ⁽ ¹ ⁾ When Micah as a starseed was brought down to Earth from the Cosmos in the grasp of Ilios and Fengari before xe was buried within Gi's existence and then be birthed, Micah rose from soil and water with Shooting Stars growing around xem. Since then, Solaris Kingdom with the Solar Pantheon considered Shooting Stars as Micah's main sacred flower. While the Shooting Stars flower doesn't have cultural symbolism, the namesake celestial events are generally perceived as a symbol of good luck and positive change, as well as of passion and aspiration; these being what Micah represents when xe always make good changes in everyone and everything around xemself out of love and hope. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flowers is another Micah's creation when xe was a toddler under Gi's care. Micah's celestial powers were still extremely strong at the time and having to spend excessive time with the plants near a lake, xyr cosmic light eventually bled into them, making changes inside of the flowers that would make them be able to glow in the dark and bloom during nighttime. Fireflies is one of Micah's sacred and favourite animals that symbolize the illumination, teaching that the light within is the power of life, and the heart and soul can always shine even in the time of darkness. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ³ ⁾ Micah's childhood neighbourhood and elementary school have a lot of dandelions. Xe always loved to play with this plant and blow their seeds, making wishes from them. ( Xe still does in the present. ) Whenever Micah returned home after a long day without xyr adoptive parents, such as being at school, xe would usually bring them dandelions, not realizing the mess of the white seeds scattering everywhere in xyr home from the excitement of seeing xyr family and giving xyr parents flowers. Xe didn't understand the concept of " messiness " until a year later since xe engaged in this tradition when xe was six, but xyr parents only accepted xem and xyr dandelion gifts while they never complained or scolded at xem for mess xe'd make with the dandelion seeds. Dandelions means hope, perseverance, and transformation; being a reminder of strength and freedom. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo is one of the Everlove family's famous symbols. Over thirty years ago, Micah's parents planted a Ginkgo tree in the middle of their backyard shortly after they moved to their home with a vow that they'd raise a wonderful and happy family together. This Ginkgo tree was the establishing point of the Everlove's existence. Ginkgo is known to be called as the " living fossils " because they have survived for million years. They symbolize longevity and promote rejuvenation, and they are the reminders of one's resiliency, vitality, and endurance; paralleling to Micah's own ever constant perseverance and willpower. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Micah doesn't have any direct experiences with the Rainbow Eucalyptus, although xyr parents did when they went to Hawaii to do film some scenes there before they had the time to admire the Rainbow Eucalyptus, sharing photos and videos of them to their kids. Micah dreams of having a Rainbow Eucalyptus in xyr large backyard one day when xe can figure out where to plant it. Rainbow Eucalyptus represents creativity, adaptability, and resilience by its myriad of colours on the barks. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Micah went to a park with Adoniram where the cherry blossom trees were blooming in one of their first few dates. Xe always have a deep liking in this sort of trees and finds them quite beautiful. Xe have several pressed cherry blossom petals on xyr journal and plant collection books that xe cherishes them dearly. While many is familiar with cherry blossom being linked to rebirth and new beginnings, because cherry blossoms are quick to die, it is also symbolized as loss and temporariness. Cherry blossoms is the life and death that Micah can associated with, being part of them both since the beginning of xyr existence. Although with everything, this tree is especially the representation of love itself.

Onto the secondary question re : Micah's gardening, for around ten years before the Antineon Hieraeon canon timeline, Micah had xyr personal garden shared with Adoniram's at the backyard of their home! ( In the present canon timeline, a close friend of Micah's and Adoniram’s, Father Lucas, have been taking care of their home along with the garden. ) The greenhouse, garden of flowers and natural food, and the treehouse were some of the things that xe most forward to having at xyr backyard when xe was house searching. Located at the secluded area where it is void of human related activities and disturbances, Micah's and Adoniram's backyard was as massive as their home, so they had plenty of space available to engage in gardening.

Micah sometimes donates xyr natural goods to the local food stores or food banks, as well as giving them and flowers to xyr friends and family relatives, also even strangers to make their days a bit more brighter. Phoebus highly enjoys tending to their plants and the garden is usually where they’d stay in more out of all spots at their home. Philos have a more difficult time handling plants, so he’d rather have Phoebus tend to them, but she does enjoy admiring their garden. Phobos had a " secret spot " somewhere in the garden where it could take care of a few carnivorous plants. Micah did discover them and question their existences, but didn't dwell on them for too long when xe also enjoyed carnivorous plants and believed xe did buy them, but forgot.

Micah's interest in gardening was inspired by not only the Ginkgo tree that their parents planted within xyr childhood home's backyard, but xe shared xyr mother's endless passion in the nature and art of gardening. Maria Everlove have always been most careful and precise taking care of their plants, and being able to sense how much the plants love her back, Micah deeply wished that one day, xe could have xyr own garden to love and care as well.

Q : WHAT EMOTION DO YOU CREATE FROM ? / A : LOVE

 IT IS AN OVERFLOWING LOVE THAT SEEPS OUT OF YOUR HEART & INTO ALL YOU CREATE . You couldn't possibly contain it inside yourself , & so you dedicate yourself to depicting it through everything you make . Your art is a celebration of what you cherish most , a loving tribute to everything that captivates you . There are things too wonderful to be appreciated in silence , & so you sing of your love time & time again . You are determined not to let your vast love go unnoticed or forgotten . That's why your work is a declaration of affection , an expression of fondness for EVERYTHING that makes your life worth living .

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It aren’t about anyone here, but while it's already been stated on guideline, to make a personal psa in depth, if we notice the Starwake System and especially Micah are being infantilized / overly sexualized / excessively underestimated, it's a hardblock. A prominent pattern we notice is when most prompts we're given from a mun involves Micah being comforted / assisted, which we personally find it demeaning. Especially as an Asian individual who experiences all of these three aspects in the rpc / on the internet and especially in real life, I'm really not in the mood to let our muses, especially my most beloved Asian OCs, be subjected to such treatments.

With Micah in this case when it comes to infantilization and the underestimating, they are extremely emotional and sensitive as they can be childish and dependent, just as I am too, but no muses should be always babying and underestimating them. Micah is quite powerful and skilled, and they were quite known to be highly aggressive and wrathful when they were younger--- they CAN be so as wrath is actually their biggest vice, believe it or not, it's just they actively choose not to / try not to due to experiences and mindsets while they had gone through sessions with both their personal therapist and alter therapist with Phoebus who helped them find ways to manage their anger issues and intrusive thoughts. There's just so many layers and factors to their "childlike" traits that I can write essays on, but basically, their traumas and lack of certain experiences and treatments and having certain needs make them the way they are. I'd never write characters as silly or childish to poke fun or coddle and people shouldn't either nor narrow characters into one trait because they happen to have foolish or childish traits.

Being small and petite or emotional and gentle, what have you, should not make one a weak person and I really wish more folks can understand that, truly, speaking out for both characters and people.

I’m sorry if this is disrespectful at all, but how did the cluster realize they were OSDDID?

Hello, Anonstar! This is a fantastic question, not disrespectful at all, no worries! Thank you so much for giving us an opportunity to talk about the Starwake System with xyr DID more! We have a post that entails general information of xyr condition here for an additional reference. While we will answer this question and cover few related topics around the Starwake System's DID, we will also be providing information with our own personal understanding and experiences with OSDDID to support certain details in the answer, as listed below:

 ⁰ Based on our own personal experiences and / or understanding with OSDDID.  ¹ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Basics: Presentation.  ² Boyer, S. M., Caplan, J. E., & Edwards, L. K. (2022). Trauma-Related Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Neglected Symptoms with Severe Public Health Consequences.  ³ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Origin: Synthesis.  ⁴ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Identity Alteration: Time Loss, Black Outs, and Co-consciousness.  ⁵ Encyclopedia of Psychology (n.d.), Dissociative Barriers.

* Content warning note : This answer mentions ableism, general child abuse and distress, car accidents; deaths, mental health related denial, misdiagnoses, and general traumas; so please read with caution.

Before we answer the questions of how the main Starwakers realized they have DID and were aware of each other's existences, it's important to first know the details of how the Starwake System's Dissociative Identity Disorder was formed, as provided from the study post that was shared above, along with the " basis " of OSDDID :

The first known alter is Micah Xenowake who developed Dissociative Identity Disorder when xe was five years old. Xyr mind fragmented from two to five due to the extreme stress Micah experienced in constantly moving between multiple foster homes, with the frequent changes happening in a short amount time of xyr life while feeling like a stranger in many homes, as well as xe faced every forms of abuse and neglect in several past families. From these events for three years, xe experienced episodes of dissociation and depersonalization before xe split off Phoebus, formerly known as Lyght, during a case when xe was trapped in a dark locked basement as forced to sleep there for the first time.

OSDDID is a mental condition that exists essentially to protect the individual from continuous distress and traumas while it can give them the necessities that people in the world have failed to provide. The quote, likely from this Tumblr post : ❝ I think ultimately you become whoever would have saved you that time that no one did ❞ is one of the best ways to explain OSDDID on its essential core.

Generally, in most cases, OSDDID have a covert nature and it is difficult to recognize in a person ( DIDR, n.d. )¹. This is to avoid danger and maintain protection within the system and the main fronting individual themself from traumatic events or external factors that is a threat to the system's and / or fronter's wellbeing ( i.e. abusers )⁰. Although there are severe health consequences that impact various life aspects in the long run from self identity and wellbeing, to personal relationship and academic studies, etcetera, OSDDID is meant to save the child, having symptoms like amnesia that acts as a defence mechanism to help them lose memories of traumas and dissociation as a form of psychiatric escape from traumas they can't physically retreat from ( Boyer et al, 2022 )².

Multiple alters exist in most systems, although depending on the alter's source ( that brought them into existence via splitting ), history, and role functions, as well as the system's level of amnesiac barriers and their current living conditions, they may not be partially to fully aware of some other alters or everyone else in the system ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. This is generally because of the dissociative barriers that exist between the alters, which are psychological barriers that obstruct an individual’s ability to access memories or emotions related to an event, usually of traumatic nature ( EOP, n.d. )⁶. The barriers may prevent one alter to be aware of another, but some alters can develop certain degree of co-consciousness, ❝ the ability for two or more alters to remain present in the body or aware of the outside world at once ❞ ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴.

| Explanation of " Co-consciousness Levels " from the Dissociative Identity Disorder Research ( n.d. ) :

❝ [ . . . ] Co-consciousness is not necessarily extended to all alters. It may be that Alters A and B are always co-conscious with each other, but only Alter A can be co-conscious with Alter C. Meanwhile, Alter D may be able to watch the other alters although the others are not aware of Alter D and their activities in return, and Alter E might not be aware of any of the other alters nor any of the other alters aware of Alter E! Finally, Alters F and G might be co-conscious with each other but have to leave post-it notes for the rest of the system in order to communicate, and Alter H might be co-conscious with Alter A only some of the time or under certain conditions while Alter I has the ability to allow or not allow others to be co-conscious with them as they choose ( para. 5 ). ❞

Even though an alter is aware of the fronting alter who doesn't know they exist, depending on the system's current living environment and circumstances, the alter may not reveal themself to the fronter for many reasons from protecting the fronter and / or system while avoiding jeopardizing them, not feeling safe and comfortable enough for their existence to be known, to not finding it necessary for them to be a direct part of the system's life while they only prioritize internally stabilizing the system.⁰ However, the fronting alter may experience " partial intrusions " without knowledge or understanding of the sources if that alter is also present ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. OSDDID having the covert nature in general explains why most systems don't realize they have OSDDID until later in life, especially at the age of twenties to even thirties.⁰

Re : The Starwake System's DID discovery and awareness, Micah was the one who got the official diagnosis from xyr OSDDID specialist and therapist when the system in April 2023, the time when Micah and Adoniram had a car accident from an unknown cause. Micah tried to save Adoniram who was trapped in the seatbelts as their car was upside down with the oil spilled out, but before xe could get him out, Phoebus fronted, seizing full control of their body, and abandoned him to protect the system and especially xem, forcing Micah to experience a blackout before xe " woke up " on xyr hospital bed, learning that Adoniram disappeared ( but was declared dead by the officials when his body couldn't be find a few weeks of search and rescue after ).

It's important to note Astereus / the Starwake System was misdiagnosed three times : ( 1. ) Borderline Personality Disorder at age fifteen, ( 2. ) Bipolar Disorder at sixteen, ( 3. ) and eighteen with Schizophrenia while being told Dissociative Identity Disorder wasn't real. In addition, when Micah was eight, xyr amnesia and time losses from the blackouts was believed to be linked to extreme fatigue due to sleeping poorly, having insomnia. There was little information on DID nor general dissociative disorders at the time when Astereus grew up, hence, not many non-professional and professional people could understand xyr experiences nor have the knowledge to see the symptoms are based on dissociation and dissociative identity.

Micah's close friend and occasional detective partner, Daniel Darling, have OSDD-1, a partial form of DID, and after Micah shared xyr experinces of time and memory loses to him, from sharing similar experiences, he said xe could have OSDDID. For seventeen years since xyr third attempt of diagnose, Micah believed xe have Schizophrenia and xe was hesitate to seek diagnosis for the fourth time, but from Adoniram's first death that Micah have painfully failed to prevent it from happening because of the blackout, this gave Micah the push to reach out to xyr art and music therapist, Alyx, who referred xem to the OSDDID specialist and then finally, at the age of mid thirties, xyr DID therapist confirmed xe does have DID after all.

With the other main earliest known Starwakers' DID realization and awareness :

Phoebus : They have always known Micah since they were created, being co-conscious with them as Micah was in distress from being trapped in the basement that was completely dark. Because Phoebus have the main responsibilities of ensuring safety and stability within the Starwake System, they were able to keep close track of the system changes and alter creations while their co-consciousness developed further over time. From this, they were able to learn Philos' and Phobos' existences. Before, Phoebus couldn't understand how they and Micah shared the same body, but they had a strange tugging feeling akin to protectiveness with Micah that made them focus more on being with Micah rather than dwelling on the wondering of " what they are ".

Philos : In the beginning, she didn't know other alters existed until some weeks later since she came into existence, she met Phoebus in their internal world, although Philos only viewed Phoebus as an " imaginary friend ". It was when Phobos came around, Philos then came to a thought that there was " something wrong " with them, but wasn't sure how to describe this position. Philos met Phobos some time later out of curiosity, being drawn to its sharp and aggressive personality. Philos learnt Micah's existence at the same time as Phobos.

Phobos : Phobos also had no awareness of the other alters in the beginning, but at a certain point met Philos who sometimes visited it via sharing co-consciousness. Phobos thought Philos was a ghost possessing their body, but didn't make a huge deal about it when Phobos thought it was cool to have a ghost, even though it thought Philos himself was annoying to be with. Phobos learnt about Phoebus and Micah when they were a preteen, Phoebus co-fronting to stop it from retaliating one of Micah's and Adoniram's bullies who hurt them. Phobos didn't care about what they are or have to make them share a single body as long as it can have some freedom interacting with the outside world.

Ultimately, Micah was the only main Starwaker in the system who didn't have complete awareness of having other alters until xe was in mid thirties. The reasons Phoebus, Philos, and Phobos kept their existences hidden from Micah, even after a point when Micah was fully independent and free of continuous stress and danger, are that Phoebus felt as it'd be best to give Micah the most " normal and peaceful " life as possible that xe couldn't have when xe was younger, originally seeing this life they share was Micah's rather the whole system's. Phoebus was also afraid if Micah knew about their existences, xe'd shun them and learning the fact xe have DID would distress xem, which was a case as xe was in denial for a few months, having strained relationships with the others and especially Phoebus, before xe came to terms with xyr DID and everyone improved on communicating and connecting with each other since.

Although it took a very long time for the Starwake System to finally have the answer to what they'd go through from xyr DID, and the answer was overwhelming for especially Micah, they're all still most grateful they would find the time when they could understand their DID and each other more to hold a healthier and stronger system.

 Hours later at the amusement park with Evangel ⅋ Warlock , as Micah told the former that they would for their birthdays , with the sun gently falling behind the trio , they have been exploring the corner of the park . Micah ⅋ Evangel are eating their cotton candies while Warlock looks ahead , its body tensed since their arrival . Evangel keeps giving it concerned looks ⅋ at few points asked Micah if it's okay . Micah can detect Warlock's emotions ⅋ thoughts from the special link that was established between them . Assuring their sibling it wasn't used to being in an environment like here , Micah senses it is on high alert for Lux's ⅋ Nox's ambush . Along with Angelparadox's warning , the pair lingers at the back of their own mind , too , but they try not to let them ruin the plan . Evangel have Warlock ⅋ themself .

Micah's attire style is a lot more based on comfort and casualness. Micah doesn't ever think about people's views of xem based on what xe wears and always prioritize xyr own comfort, as xyr skin is a lot more sensitive to textures of the clothing materials than the other Starwakes. Xe prefers outfits that are loose and flexible, not the tight and thick kind that would make xem feel like xe's suffocating beneath these layers. Xyr fashion style stands out a lot just as Philos' while it's as diverse, also, touching upon multiple colours and unique features such as xyr LED light shoes, and xe highly enjoys wearing a lot of jewelries and accessories at once, especially with xyr enamel pins. The ring was given from Phoebus as birthday gift on December 2023, Micah's 2023 month of celebrating xyr existence.

Phoebus' attire style also centres around comfort, but leans toward the formal side. Phoebus doesn't think too much about the clothes they use, unlike everyone else in the system, and go with the minimalistic looks of them. It's common for Phoebus to receive comments from the Starwakers and those outside of the system that they dress up like a " dad ". They are comfortable of wearing either loose or slim outfits while they tend to wear dark toned clothes because they don't like to stand out too much in the space. The star necklace was given from Micah as an appreciation gift on their first month of dating in September 2023.

Philos' attire style is highly diverse with a general flair to it. Philos is the only Starwakers who cares about people's views towards him based on what he wears. He likes to be seen as someone who have a great taste of fashion and people can come to him for clothing advice or suggestions. Philos' usage of specific attire types is random and unpredictable, as she can be wearing a formal suits or a skirt and crop top in most contexts that people won't expect her to wear for that situation. She seems picky, but she can wear any kind of clothes and everything as long as she can find that her outfit parts can compliment each other, though, they do usually wear expensive and high quality clothes. He is the only Starwaker who enjoys wearing makeup and along with Micah, he wears a lot of accessories and especially jewelries.

Phobos' attire style is simple, yet intense all at once. Its style generally makes it look as much more grim and standoffish with its harsh personality, though, it doesn't care at all what people think of its clothing preferences, such as it usually wearing black clothes. Phobos enjoys wearing clothes and accessories that appear rough and sharp, such as ripped jeans and spiked jewelries. Indeed, a lot of its clothes are black or dark gray when it doesn't find that other colours fit it well, but Philos did buy a few clothes in different colours that Phobos only wears in private casual settings. It often wears eyeliners and have black polished nails when it silently enjoys them.

Cryael's attire style is a lot formal and sophisticated. Generally fronting in professional settings, it doesn't care to branch out much of its fashion style and generally leans towards wearing suits and fit coats to appear serious and sophisticated. The least casual clothes that they will wear in personal settings are polo shirts and velvet pants that Micah and Philos encouraged them to purchase. Cryael is the only adult Starwaker who wears glasses because its existence shuts down a specific part of the system's brain that gives them poor eyesight when Cryael fronts, hence, it needs glasses to perceive better while being present.

　◜ 𝑰 . ◞　The first time when Micah met Ahri in the dream where there's only kindness in shining stars ⅋ blooming flowers between them , deep within their exchange , xe could sense her gaze lingering over xyr body : Bare appearing , all bearing scars ⅋ unhealed bruises ⅋ deep burnt tales ▬▬▬

　　　　　　( You are used to diverse reactions that you'd get seeing your damaged body , unloved by the world . At five years old , you viciously refused to bathe for the first time at your new home , not wanting your new wounds to be seen , still uncared for . You expected responses of anger , wild burning through you , but there was a woman who didn't do anything to you . She only sat in the tub , her clothes soaked . The bathroom door was open . She wasn't trapping you as you had a choice to leave . Eventually , you stayed with her . You stayed with your pain hidden , ⅋ when she saw it one day ▬ everything ▬ she still stayed with you . The man she loved , he didn't get to see until few months later , yet , he also stayed with you . Your parents never saw you as a tragedy . You have always been their beloved star child . )

　　　　　　Ahri didn't say anything about Micah's scars in the end . Instead , while it seemed like she understand xyr state most painfully , as a tender whisper : ❝ ⅋ I wish I could tell you that the aching was a beautiful rebirth of some magnificent kind , but there is no beauty to be found in this kind of survival . ❞

　　　　　　Micah breathed with the burning stars above , even through the long ⅋ deep felt aches , the brightest could think ▬ say : I am still here , I am still here , I am still here ▬ ( ⅋ isn't that terrifyingly beautiful enough ? ) ❝ As long as I am still alive , trying to love the universe as much as myself , I think that will be always beautiful enough to me . ❞ This God eating hope , it is beautiful / horrifying / everything at once .

　　　　　　Xe smiled ⅋ held Ahri's clawed hand , like the moon holding the sun .

　◜ 𝑰𝑰 . ◞　Micah gave Ahri a bracelet on the second occasion where xe met her in person a near month after meeting her in the dream . When xe finally found her outside the dream realm that gave xem a map to Ahri's residence , the kindness that xe held for her despite knowing in a short time was infinite . This created trails of flowers xyr footsteps left behind until xe reached to the forest that welcomed xem home .

　　　　　　❝ I wanted to gift you a flower, but . . . please , have my garden . ❞ / ❝ Oh precious star , I do not need a gift , not when you have come to me . ❞

　　　　　　Rosy blushes formed in Micah's warm cheeks at the recall , though , how xe kept shining more as xe gently took Ahri's hand so she could slip into the bracelet . ❝ I love making arts so much , especially for those I care about . ❞ The people who I love . Micah softly smiles . The bracelet Ahri wears is a silver chain with lavender crystal spheres , carrying the pendant shaped as a fox , sculpted by the kind hands of the everbright constellation .

　　　　　　In great care , xyr hands guided the bracelet to Ahri's wrist , ⅋ , from watching closely , she could see black spots on certain areas of xyr left , skin parts void of blood / life . Yet , even though these cut scars across them existed , all agony bearing , xyr gentle hands felt like coming home . ( What possessed such unbearable light , light , light ▬ ) Ahri's gaze lifted as Micah raised her hand .

　　　　　　Xe kissed her wrist that carried the bracelet , this endless love .

　◜ 𝑰𝑰𝑰 . ◞　Micah have stayed over at Ahri's home for one night . They shared a tender evening that soon formed a rainy weather , ⅋ Ahri insisted xem to stay or xe could get sick from the rainfall . The weather continued at past midnight when Micah was finally going to bed , xyr body once restless from xyr insomnia . Sensitive to clothing materials , Micah removed xyr shirt for better chance of quickly falling asleep ⅋ lied down on the cool sheet , softly wishing Ahri goodnight .

　　　　　　Several minutes passed before Ahri noticed , as much as Micah tried xyr best to appear as otherwise so xe wouldn't disturb her rest , that xe was still awake from hearing the occasional shuffles , seemingly in an uncomfortable position .

　　　　　　Concerned , Ahri planned to ask what's wrong before Micah whispered ,

　　　　　　❝ Ahri , can you sleep next to me , please ? ❞

　　　　　　She learnt xe usually couldn't sleep without having something to hold , like a soft blanket or plushie . Micah sought comfort in her presence , a hunger shaped as vixen teeth ⅋ claws , sweet sanguine ⅋ deadly lavender wild nature . In Ahri , through man massacres born from animalistic instincts , xe saw a friend .

　　　　　　Ahri carefully held xem , watching the stars slowly dim in her embrace . Micah kept giggling , xyr eyes squinted . Sleepy giddiness built in xem from hugging Ahri's arm , nuzzling her shoulder . From this position , she could see finer details of xyr scars ⅋ tattoos across xyr body . Beauty ⅋ horror stared back at her .

　　　　　　She didn't touch them . She couldn't .

　　　　　　Micah soon fell silent ⅋ still .

　　　　　　Ahri held xem closely to her chest , protecting her stars .

　◜ 𝑽𝑰 . ◞　On the full moon , Micah ⅋ Ahri were bathing in the lunar light together , the stars shining upon their existences with the motherly moon . Rested against the open field on their backs , they exchanged personal facts ⅋ stories , finding joys in the smallest details of each other .

　　　　　　Ahri's gaze softened at the sight of Micah , xyr facial expression lax while xyr body radiates silver serenity . She sensed waves of tenderness rolling over from xem . Micah made a happy squeak ⅋ leaned closer , xyr face pressed into the warm curve of Ahri's neck .

　　　　　　Between them , only love lived freely .

　　　　　　Upon midnight , Ahri saw faint light ⅋ glanced down , seeing Micah's scars glow gently with the moon ⅋ stars . Xe didn't seem to notice , xyr focus had been on Ahri's hands that xe's playing with , finger lightly tracing along the palm lines . ( Maybe Micah already knew , but didn't want to bring so much attention to them . )

　　　　　　Her fingers hovered over the glowing scars . She still didn't touch them . She wanted to know who could hurt xem like this . Who would desire to inflict Micah while xe had brought kindness to this world . Who did she have to kill ▬

　　　　　　❝ You can touch them , ❞ Micah's whisper broke the silence , xyr soft gaze on Ahri's palms not once breaking . Xe held her hands to xyr chest , xyr open heart , ❝ I trust you , Ahri , ❞ I love you .

　　　　　　Ahri's hands slowly lifted to hold xyr cheeks , her thumbs brushing skin .

　　　　　　Her lips met Micah's scar on the bridge of xyr nose .

　　　　　　Between the cerulean sky ⅋ sanguine wilderness , love still stayed .

　◜ 𝑽 . ◞　Ahri stared at the new slow healing wounds ⅋ scars that Micah's body held , the most prominent being a deep line around xyr neck . It had been a while since she last saw xem ⅋ finding Micah once more in a wounded state , the sight hurt Ahri . This pain have worsened when Micah greeted her like nothing happened to xem . Micah kept shining , even in the abyss . The world didn't love xem enough as it seemed since a very long time , yet , Micah only kept loving it .

　　　　　　The world should be horrified by xyr impossible endurance .

　　　　　　Ahri found a warm smile on Micah's face , xyr eyes bright as always , before she was embraced in xyr arms ▬ what felt like home , home , home ▬ Ahri returned xem the gesture , but didn't let go of xem .

　　　　　　She held Micah close with all of the stars in xem ⅋ these scars on xem .

　　　　　　❝ Thank you , ❞ Micah softly said to Ahri , xyr gaze meeting hers ⅋ everything in her shattered at the gleams across the eyes , tears bearing . Xyr grasp around her tightened . ❝ Thank you for being kind to me , Ahri . ❞

　　　　　　Her heart ached deeply at the gratitude that xe didn't need to give , not when xe had only ever been kind to all . She wanted to ask what happened so she could tear everyone who laid a finger on Micah , DEVOUR / DEVOUR / DEVOUR ▬

　　　　　　A feeble cry left Micah shaking terribly , broken apart into stardust .

　　　　　　Ahri found it was not violence or vengance that xe needed . Xyr body shook ⅋ she saw it was begging to be held , to be loved still even after everything .

　　　　　　She kept holding xem , reminding Micah that xe was still loved ▬

　　　　　　She loved xem .

　◜ ⁺𝑰𝑽 . ◞　Micah stares at Ahri , their presences pressed against each other at her abode . Much time was taken for Micah to find xemself back to reality , to Ahri , ⅋ found calmness . Micah's hand held Ahri's , loved hand in loving hand .

　　　　　　❝ Most of what we have , the older ones , they came from our childhood , ❞ Micah quietly shares to her . Ahri didn't say anything , but the way she has been looking at xem , her gaze of sorrow asked xem everything . When Micah said , we , xe meant the Starwake System . She may not understand human health conditions that are as complex as Dissociative Identity Disorder , but even as sharp ⅋ stealthy Ahri is , a fear to man , xe trusted her more than enough to disclose xyr DID ▬ I am not one / I am one of the many / We exist so none of us could ever be all alone ever again ▬

　　　　　　Micah doesn't say more . The word , childhood , said painfully enough . Xe gently guides Ahri's hand to touch xyr arm , most skin being burnt . Xe feels nothing when she touches this part , but the memories burn all deeply through xem . ❝ I did this to us when I was five years old , after I killed my latest foster family who did really bad things to us . . . ❞ Micah grimaces , but xe still lets Ahri hold xyr burnt arm . ❝ I can't remember why I did it . ❞ Maybe I did it because I wanted to know if this was all real ▬ if I was real enough , even in all of these white noises . Mama , I lived , raised by the ghosts in my head .

　　　　　　❝ There is no beauty found in this kind of survival , ❞ Micah echoes the words Ahri said to xem when they first met in that ethereal dream , xyr voice gentle . ❝ But we are still here , I am still here . I still love . ❞ ⅋ that has to mean more than shattered selves ⅋ faint shadows ⅋ dead dreams . Tears roll over Micah's cheeks , but xe doesn't stop speaking from the bottom of xyr celestial heart . Micah never stops trying to love . ❝ I want that to be good enough . ❞ I am trying everything in me to make my constant existence mean good enough .

　　　　　　Micah softly smiles at @vulpesse ▬ despite , despite , DESPITE ▬ ❝ I am forever most grateful that I still exist so I could meet you . ❞ Xe leans further against her , head on shoulder . ❝ I love you , Ahri . ❞ This is a promise made by the endless brightest stars , gently given to the she - fox with sharp claws ⅋ wild eyes ⅋ sanguine teeth . This endless love of Micah's for Ahri , it does not flinch at the thousand raging suns in her wild heart .

　　　　　　Her clawed hand in xyr burnt hand , love stayed , becoming home .

 It has been harsh for the past few weeks since xyr resurrection . The aftereffects of it still linger while Adoniram leaving everyone from Father Lucas' home adds the pain , although Micah tries to continue holding some light in xemself as time quickly ⅋ slowly passes into February , the month of love . The thoughts of Adoniram keep flickering in xyr mind . ( Micah misses him dearly , but xe can not force Adoniram to stay where he could mentally worsen by xyr presence that was emotionally hurting xem , so Micah can only most hope he'll find peace on his own . ) ⅋ then , there is Warlock . . .

 Strange asking xem to be xyr Valentine makes Micah remember that this month's holiday can be the first time spent with Warlock . Xe hoped to try to spending Valentine's Day with it ⅋ Adoniram together at once , but as the latter is absent , xe wonders if Warlock will accept xyr invitation to be xyr Valentine , especially given the latest events . . . ❝ Warlock ? ❞ Micah softly calls at the backyard , watching it inhale its cigarette . @lunarisdog quirks a brow at xem who stops by its side . Xe rubs xyr numb hand . ❝ I know this is a lot to ask , but . . . ❞ Micah takes a deep breath , ❝ I was wondering if , um . . . ❞

 Micah tries to focus on its hand , xyr own burning deeply to hold it close , ❝ We can spend Valentine's Day together ? I - I get things have been intense for a while , but I'd really like to spend this day with you for our first time . I don't want anything to hold me back from . . . ❞ xe considers xyr choice of phrasing , ❝ Having a special time with you . ❞ Silence takes over the atmosphere ⅋ Micah glances away , xyr whole body flushed .

To be honest, I really could've make Micah work in the astronomy field as an astronaut and other related positions, as xyr adoptive father inspired xem to be, and just make xem be incredibly intelligent as so many well known protagonists were, but there's something so... humanly realistic and painfully relatable in giving xem a dream that xe always wanted to achieve, but couldn't in the end because of xyr conditions, especially with xyr intellectual disability being the biggest barrier.

Micah was raised in the wild with very little socialization and learning opportunities for two years by the Incarnation of Earth who couldn't be and verbally communicate with xem in its vessel ( to protect Micah from forming deep emotional attachment with it in case xe got taken away ) before Micah accidentally burnt xyr home down and got taken away by the first responder team to the hospital. For three years then until the Everlove took xem in, Micah moved in between many foster families, with some being abusive and / or neglectful, and from the multiple stressful changes and treatments, this significantly impacted the Starwake System's social, emotional, and cognitive developments. In addition, developing Dissociative Identity Disorder, they experience dissociative symptoms that would hinder their learning and processing, such as amnesia and dissociation.

But the Starwake System having intellectual disability was especially difficult for Micah to accept when it prevented xem from being able to study in and entirely understand the subjects and knowledge that are required to work in the astronomy field. Micah had to leave xyr classroom to be placed in a special educational class when xe was nine years old and xe didn't understand why, but at ten, xe was appalled when xe had a discussion about xyr special education with xyr parents that led to xem learning about xyr dissociative symptoms and intellectual disability, and this was also when Micah was told xe likely couldn't be able to become an astronomer and astronaut like xyr adoptive father due to the complexity of the topics centred in astronomy.

As an attempt to try to prove xyr parents wrong, Micah secretly tried to take physics and chemistry on xyr third year of high school, but had to drop out a few weeks later when the school and xyr parents were concerned of xyr poor grades and performances. Micah had to take alternative courses and catch up with the weeks old lessons. The catch up game and the fact that xe couldn't do astronomy required subjects caused xyr depression to worsen since starting high school. It doesn't help that xyr childhood best friend, Adoniram, who also wanted to be an astronaut, was able to do and complete them even with the highest grades of his classes. Micah wouldn't even be able to become an aviator at least either, so feeling as xe was forever trapped in the world, xe held a highly strong self-hatred for xyr disabilities until xe was twenty two and accepted this part of xemself with the help of therapy.

Although Micah took creative writing on the third year and this increased xyr love in the art of writing before xe had a revelation xe could be a creator in arts, literature, and drama instead. Micah had to attend summer school of the same year to improve on xyr grades and took previous grade courses that xe didn't have before, so xe could be accepted in an arts university. Micah was able to enroll in one and get both of xyr associate and bachelor degree. Over time, xe became successful and was able to find joy in arts the way that outer space does. While xe may not be able to be with the stars, Micah has still been grateful that despite xyr conditions, xe could still create what would empower and inspire people, creating xyr own stars in the world that people can see only hope and love in.