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MICAH ✧ THE SUN : The star of our solar system ! The Earth and other planets orbit around the Sun , it provides us light and warmth . Sunlight takes 8 minutes to reach Earth !

PHOEBUS ✧ SATELLITE : Object that moves around another object . We mostly use this term to refer to a device sent to space to orbit around an object of interest , it can operate to collect information or for telecommunications purposes .

PHILOS ✧ BLACK HOLE : A region in space where gravity is so strong that not even light can escape from it . It can be formed from the collapse of massive stars .

PHOBOS ✧ ROCKET : Vehicle that moves by expelling gases produced by burning fuel . It is used for space travel , satellite launches , and other purposes .

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The main Starwakers with Snoopy 🤍

i am here with a small question ! (❁´◡`❁) what flower(s) or tree(s) would you associate with beloved micah ? and would micah ever be interested in having a garden, or maybe in growing vegetables and fruits in a tiny field ?

Hello, Bunstar! Thank you so much for this wonderful set of questions! (≧▽≦)ﾉ彡☆ ( A small question to a large answer, heheh . . . ) The Starwake System holds a special connection with nature because of Micah’s surrogate parent who is Incarnation of Earth who birthed xem through the soil and water, initially the Sun and Moon creating xem as a starseed. Due to this, a lot of the plants are meant to be associated with Micah, but I will list six most prominent flowers and trees that I associate with xem!

Before I start, though, I'd love to answer the plant association question with the other main Starwakers!

◜ ⟢ Phoebus ◞ Phoebus is associated with plants that bring vitality and healthy products, such as herbs, fruits, and vegetables. Phoebus is highly nurturing and solicitous in their own quiet and firm ways to their starmates, always wanting only the best of themself and the system since the moment they all existed, so plants that are known as culinary and medicinal applications best aligns with their main role of encouraging growth and providing care. Phoebus is a cooker and healer at heart, using plants for the system's meals, beverages, and natural medicines often, as well as they usually front to take care of themselves when sick. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Jasmine. ⁽ ² ⁾ Marigold. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Violet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ White Pine. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Apple Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Sugar Maple

◜ ⟢ Philos ◞ Philos is associated with plants that are known to be distinct and conspicuous, the kind that stands out from their unique shapes and / or features. Philos shares the similar attributes with these sort of plants by her alluring appearance and powerful personality, wanting to make her presence the most striking. However, he holds an essence that often makes him appear as more honourable than dangerous. Be closer to him and he may bring out what are the worst than best from another. They look into plants more based on their aesthetic and aroma appeal, the aspects Philos cares about with their self image the most in the system. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Rose. ⁽ ² ⁾ Bleeding Heart. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Passionflower. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Golden Chain. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Okame Cherry. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Wisteria.

◜ ⟢ Phobos ◞ Phobos is associated with plants that are carnivorous and poisonous, what matches with its sharp and stealthy nature. Along with Philos, it is dangerous, although rather than acting out of maliciousness, it exists as a defence or mechanism for itself and the system, harming those that tries to ruin them while giving themselves the resources to continue living. Phobos holds greater fascination in these plants than everyone else within the Starwake System─ some people don't believe this fact because of its harsh and careless attitude, but Phobos also takes wonderful care of them when it can. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Sun Pitcher. ⁽ ² ⁾ Flame Lily. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Angel's Trumpet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Manchineel. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Sandbox Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Milky Mangrove.

In regards to Micah now, xe is associated with the following six most prominent flowers and trees : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Shooting Star. ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flower. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Dandelion. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Rainbow Eucalyptus. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Cherry Blossom. These plants are linked to the concepts of hope, resilience, and love that Micah represents. Xe have memories with them since childhood while they present as personal and symbolic reminders to xem.

`˳⟢˚، ⁽ ¹ ⁾ When Micah as a starseed was brought down to Earth from the Cosmos in the grasp of Ilios and Fengari before xe was buried within Gi's existence and then be birthed, Micah rose from soil and water with Shooting Stars growing around xem. Since then, Solaris Kingdom with the Solar Pantheon considered Shooting Stars as Micah's main sacred flower. While the Shooting Stars flower doesn't have cultural symbolism, the namesake celestial events are generally perceived as a symbol of good luck and positive change, as well as of passion and aspiration; these being what Micah represents when xe always make good changes in everyone and everything around xemself out of love and hope. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flowers is another Micah's creation when xe was a toddler under Gi's care. Micah's celestial powers were still extremely strong at the time and having to spend excessive time with the plants near a lake, xyr cosmic light eventually bled into them, making changes inside of the flowers that would make them be able to glow in the dark and bloom during nighttime. Fireflies is one of Micah's sacred and favourite animals that symbolize the illumination, teaching that the light within is the power of life, and the heart and soul can always shine even in the time of darkness. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ³ ⁾ Micah's childhood neighbourhood and elementary school have a lot of dandelions. Xe always loved to play with this plant and blow their seeds, making wishes from them. ( Xe still does in the present. ) Whenever Micah returned home after a long day without xyr adoptive parents, such as being at school, xe would usually bring them dandelions, not realizing the mess of the white seeds scattering everywhere in xyr home from the excitement of seeing xyr family and giving xyr parents flowers. Xe didn't understand the concept of " messiness " until a year later since xe engaged in this tradition when xe was six, but xyr parents only accepted xem and xyr dandelion gifts while they never complained or scolded at xem for mess xe'd make with the dandelion seeds. Dandelions means hope, perseverance, and transformation; being a reminder of strength and freedom. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo is one of the Everlove family's famous symbols. Over thirty years ago, Micah's parents planted a Ginkgo tree in the middle of their backyard shortly after they moved to their home with a vow that they'd raise a wonderful and happy family together. This Ginkgo tree was the establishing point of the Everlove's existence. Ginkgo is known to be called as the " living fossils " because they have survived for million years. They symbolize longevity and promote rejuvenation, and they are the reminders of one's resiliency, vitality, and endurance; paralleling to Micah's own ever constant perseverance and willpower. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Micah doesn't have any direct experiences with the Rainbow Eucalyptus, although xyr parents did when they went to Hawaii to do film some scenes there before they had the time to admire the Rainbow Eucalyptus, sharing photos and videos of them to their kids. Micah dreams of having a Rainbow Eucalyptus in xyr large backyard one day when xe can figure out where to plant it. Rainbow Eucalyptus represents creativity, adaptability, and resilience by its myriad of colours on the barks. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Micah went to a park with Adoniram where the cherry blossom trees were blooming in one of their first few dates. Xe always have a deep liking in this sort of trees and finds them quite beautiful. Xe have several pressed cherry blossom petals on xyr journal and plant collection books that xe cherishes them dearly. While many is familiar with cherry blossom being linked to rebirth and new beginnings, because cherry blossoms are quick to die, it is also symbolized as loss and temporariness. Cherry blossoms is the life and death that Micah can associated with, being part of them both since the beginning of xyr existence. Although with everything, this tree is especially the representation of love itself.

Onto the secondary question re : Micah's gardening, for around ten years before the Antineon Hieraeon canon timeline, Micah had xyr personal garden shared with Adoniram's at the backyard of their home! ( In the present canon timeline, a close friend of Micah's and Adoniram’s, Father Lucas, have been taking care of their home along with the garden. ) The greenhouse, garden of flowers and natural food, and the treehouse were some of the things that xe most forward to having at xyr backyard when xe was house searching. Located at the secluded area where it is void of human related activities and disturbances, Micah's and Adoniram's backyard was as massive as their home, so they had plenty of space available to engage in gardening.

Micah sometimes donates xyr natural goods to the local food stores or food banks, as well as giving them and flowers to xyr friends and family relatives, also even strangers to make their days a bit more brighter. Phoebus highly enjoys tending to their plants and the garden is usually where they’d stay in more out of all spots at their home. Philos have a more difficult time handling plants, so he’d rather have Phoebus tend to them, but she does enjoy admiring their garden. Phobos had a " secret spot " somewhere in the garden where it could take care of a few carnivorous plants. Micah did discover them and question their existences, but didn't dwell on them for too long when xe also enjoyed carnivorous plants and believed xe did buy them, but forgot.

Micah's interest in gardening was inspired by not only the Ginkgo tree that their parents planted within xyr childhood home's backyard, but xe shared xyr mother's endless passion in the nature and art of gardening. Maria Everlove have always been most careful and precise taking care of their plants, and being able to sense how much the plants love her back, Micah deeply wished that one day, xe could have xyr own garden to love and care as well.

I’m sorry if this is disrespectful at all, but how did the cluster realize they were OSDDID?

Hello, Anonstar! This is a fantastic question, not disrespectful at all, no worries! Thank you so much for giving us an opportunity to talk about the Starwake System with xyr DID more! We have a post that entails general information of xyr condition here for an additional reference. While we will answer this question and cover few related topics around the Starwake System's DID, we will also be providing information with our own personal understanding and experiences with OSDDID to support certain details in the answer, as listed below:

 ⁰ Based on our own personal experiences and / or understanding with OSDDID.  ¹ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Basics: Presentation.  ² Boyer, S. M., Caplan, J. E., & Edwards, L. K. (2022). Trauma-Related Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Neglected Symptoms with Severe Public Health Consequences.  ³ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Origin: Synthesis.  ⁴ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Identity Alteration: Time Loss, Black Outs, and Co-consciousness.  ⁵ Encyclopedia of Psychology (n.d.), Dissociative Barriers.

* Content warning note : This answer mentions ableism, general child abuse and distress, car accidents; deaths, mental health related denial, misdiagnoses, and general traumas; so please read with caution.

Before we answer the questions of how the main Starwakers realized they have DID and were aware of each other's existences, it's important to first know the details of how the Starwake System's Dissociative Identity Disorder was formed, as provided from the study post that was shared above, along with the " basis " of OSDDID :

The first known alter is Micah Xenowake who developed Dissociative Identity Disorder when xe was five years old. Xyr mind fragmented from two to five due to the extreme stress Micah experienced in constantly moving between multiple foster homes, with the frequent changes happening in a short amount time of xyr life while feeling like a stranger in many homes, as well as xe faced every forms of abuse and neglect in several past families. From these events for three years, xe experienced episodes of dissociation and depersonalization before xe split off Phoebus, formerly known as Lyght, during a case when xe was trapped in a dark locked basement as forced to sleep there for the first time.

OSDDID is a mental condition that exists essentially to protect the individual from continuous distress and traumas while it can give them the necessities that people in the world have failed to provide. The quote, likely from this Tumblr post : ❝ I think ultimately you become whoever would have saved you that time that no one did ❞ is one of the best ways to explain OSDDID on its essential core.

Generally, in most cases, OSDDID have a covert nature and it is difficult to recognize in a person ( DIDR, n.d. )¹. This is to avoid danger and maintain protection within the system and the main fronting individual themself from traumatic events or external factors that is a threat to the system's and / or fronter's wellbeing ( i.e. abusers )⁰. Although there are severe health consequences that impact various life aspects in the long run from self identity and wellbeing, to personal relationship and academic studies, etcetera, OSDDID is meant to save the child, having symptoms like amnesia that acts as a defence mechanism to help them lose memories of traumas and dissociation as a form of psychiatric escape from traumas they can't physically retreat from ( Boyer et al, 2022 )².

Multiple alters exist in most systems, although depending on the alter's source ( that brought them into existence via splitting ), history, and role functions, as well as the system's level of amnesiac barriers and their current living conditions, they may not be partially to fully aware of some other alters or everyone else in the system ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. This is generally because of the dissociative barriers that exist between the alters, which are psychological barriers that obstruct an individual’s ability to access memories or emotions related to an event, usually of traumatic nature ( EOP, n.d. )⁶. The barriers may prevent one alter to be aware of another, but some alters can develop certain degree of co-consciousness, ❝ the ability for two or more alters to remain present in the body or aware of the outside world at once ❞ ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴.

| Explanation of " Co-consciousness Levels " from the Dissociative Identity Disorder Research ( n.d. ) :

❝ [ . . . ] Co-consciousness is not necessarily extended to all alters. It may be that Alters A and B are always co-conscious with each other, but only Alter A can be co-conscious with Alter C. Meanwhile, Alter D may be able to watch the other alters although the others are not aware of Alter D and their activities in return, and Alter E might not be aware of any of the other alters nor any of the other alters aware of Alter E! Finally, Alters F and G might be co-conscious with each other but have to leave post-it notes for the rest of the system in order to communicate, and Alter H might be co-conscious with Alter A only some of the time or under certain conditions while Alter I has the ability to allow or not allow others to be co-conscious with them as they choose ( para. 5 ). ❞

Even though an alter is aware of the fronting alter who doesn't know they exist, depending on the system's current living environment and circumstances, the alter may not reveal themself to the fronter for many reasons from protecting the fronter and / or system while avoiding jeopardizing them, not feeling safe and comfortable enough for their existence to be known, to not finding it necessary for them to be a direct part of the system's life while they only prioritize internally stabilizing the system.⁰ However, the fronting alter may experience " partial intrusions " without knowledge or understanding of the sources if that alter is also present ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. OSDDID having the covert nature in general explains why most systems don't realize they have OSDDID until later in life, especially at the age of twenties to even thirties.⁰

Re : The Starwake System's DID discovery and awareness, Micah was the one who got the official diagnosis from xyr OSDDID specialist and therapist when the system in April 2023, the time when Micah and Adoniram had a car accident from an unknown cause. Micah tried to save Adoniram who was trapped in the seatbelts as their car was upside down with the oil spilled out, but before xe could get him out, Phoebus fronted, seizing full control of their body, and abandoned him to protect the system and especially xem, forcing Micah to experience a blackout before xe " woke up " on xyr hospital bed, learning that Adoniram disappeared ( but was declared dead by the officials when his body couldn't be find a few weeks of search and rescue after ).

It's important to note Astereus / the Starwake System was misdiagnosed three times : ( 1. ) Borderline Personality Disorder at age fifteen, ( 2. ) Bipolar Disorder at sixteen, ( 3. ) and eighteen with Schizophrenia while being told Dissociative Identity Disorder wasn't real. In addition, when Micah was eight, xyr amnesia and time losses from the blackouts was believed to be linked to extreme fatigue due to sleeping poorly, having insomnia. There was little information on DID nor general dissociative disorders at the time when Astereus grew up, hence, not many non-professional and professional people could understand xyr experiences nor have the knowledge to see the symptoms are based on dissociation and dissociative identity.

Micah's close friend and occasional detective partner, Daniel Darling, have OSDD-1, a partial form of DID, and after Micah shared xyr experinces of time and memory loses to him, from sharing similar experiences, he said xe could have OSDDID. For seventeen years since xyr third attempt of diagnose, Micah believed xe have Schizophrenia and xe was hesitate to seek diagnosis for the fourth time, but from Adoniram's first death that Micah have painfully failed to prevent it from happening because of the blackout, this gave Micah the push to reach out to xyr art and music therapist, Alyx, who referred xem to the OSDDID specialist and then finally, at the age of mid thirties, xyr DID therapist confirmed xe does have DID after all.

With the other main earliest known Starwakers' DID realization and awareness :

Phoebus : They have always known Micah since they were created, being co-conscious with them as Micah was in distress from being trapped in the basement that was completely dark. Because Phoebus have the main responsibilities of ensuring safety and stability within the Starwake System, they were able to keep close track of the system changes and alter creations while their co-consciousness developed further over time. From this, they were able to learn Philos' and Phobos' existences. Before, Phoebus couldn't understand how they and Micah shared the same body, but they had a strange tugging feeling akin to protectiveness with Micah that made them focus more on being with Micah rather than dwelling on the wondering of " what they are ".

Philos : In the beginning, she didn't know other alters existed until some weeks later since she came into existence, she met Phoebus in their internal world, although Philos only viewed Phoebus as an " imaginary friend ". It was when Phobos came around, Philos then came to a thought that there was " something wrong " with them, but wasn't sure how to describe this position. Philos met Phobos some time later out of curiosity, being drawn to its sharp and aggressive personality. Philos learnt Micah's existence at the same time as Phobos.

Phobos : Phobos also had no awareness of the other alters in the beginning, but at a certain point met Philos who sometimes visited it via sharing co-consciousness. Phobos thought Philos was a ghost possessing their body, but didn't make a huge deal about it when Phobos thought it was cool to have a ghost, even though it thought Philos himself was annoying to be with. Phobos learnt about Phoebus and Micah when they were a preteen, Phoebus co-fronting to stop it from retaliating one of Micah's and Adoniram's bullies who hurt them. Phobos didn't care about what they are or have to make them share a single body as long as it can have some freedom interacting with the outside world.

Ultimately, Micah was the only main Starwaker in the system who didn't have complete awareness of having other alters until xe was in mid thirties. The reasons Phoebus, Philos, and Phobos kept their existences hidden from Micah, even after a point when Micah was fully independent and free of continuous stress and danger, are that Phoebus felt as it'd be best to give Micah the most " normal and peaceful " life as possible that xe couldn't have when xe was younger, originally seeing this life they share was Micah's rather the whole system's. Phoebus was also afraid if Micah knew about their existences, xe'd shun them and learning the fact xe have DID would distress xem, which was a case as xe was in denial for a few months, having strained relationships with the others and especially Phoebus, before xe came to terms with xyr DID and everyone improved on communicating and connecting with each other since.

Although it took a very long time for the Starwake System to finally have the answer to what they'd go through from xyr DID, and the answer was overwhelming for especially Micah, they're all still most grateful they would find the time when they could understand their DID and each other more to hold a healthier and stronger system.

Micah's attire style is a lot more based on comfort and casualness. Micah doesn't ever think about people's views of xem based on what xe wears and always prioritize xyr own comfort, as xyr skin is a lot more sensitive to textures of the clothing materials than the other Starwakes. Xe prefers outfits that are loose and flexible, not the tight and thick kind that would make xem feel like xe's suffocating beneath these layers. Xyr fashion style stands out a lot just as Philos' while it's as diverse, also, touching upon multiple colours and unique features such as xyr LED light shoes, and xe highly enjoys wearing a lot of jewelries and accessories at once, especially with xyr enamel pins. The ring was given from Phoebus as birthday gift on December 2023, Micah's 2023 month of celebrating xyr existence.

Phoebus' attire style also centres around comfort, but leans toward the formal side. Phoebus doesn't think too much about the clothes they use, unlike everyone else in the system, and go with the minimalistic looks of them. It's common for Phoebus to receive comments from the Starwakers and those outside of the system that they dress up like a " dad ". They are comfortable of wearing either loose or slim outfits while they tend to wear dark toned clothes because they don't like to stand out too much in the space. The star necklace was given from Micah as an appreciation gift on their first month of dating in September 2023.

Philos' attire style is highly diverse with a general flair to it. Philos is the only Starwakers who cares about people's views towards him based on what he wears. He likes to be seen as someone who have a great taste of fashion and people can come to him for clothing advice or suggestions. Philos' usage of specific attire types is random and unpredictable, as she can be wearing a formal suits or a skirt and crop top in most contexts that people won't expect her to wear for that situation. She seems picky, but she can wear any kind of clothes and everything as long as she can find that her outfit parts can compliment each other, though, they do usually wear expensive and high quality clothes. He is the only Starwaker who enjoys wearing makeup and along with Micah, he wears a lot of accessories and especially jewelries.

Phobos' attire style is simple, yet intense all at once. Its style generally makes it look as much more grim and standoffish with its harsh personality, though, it doesn't care at all what people think of its clothing preferences, such as it usually wearing black clothes. Phobos enjoys wearing clothes and accessories that appear rough and sharp, such as ripped jeans and spiked jewelries. Indeed, a lot of its clothes are black or dark gray when it doesn't find that other colours fit it well, but Philos did buy a few clothes in different colours that Phobos only wears in private casual settings. It often wears eyeliners and have black polished nails when it silently enjoys them.

Cryael's attire style is a lot formal and sophisticated. Generally fronting in professional settings, it doesn't care to branch out much of its fashion style and generally leans towards wearing suits and fit coats to appear serious and sophisticated. The least casual clothes that they will wear in personal settings are polo shirts and velvet pants that Micah and Philos encouraged them to purchase. Cryael is the only adult Starwaker who wears glasses because its existence shuts down a specific part of the system's brain that gives them poor eyesight when Cryael fronts, hence, it needs glasses to perceive better while being present.

To be honest, I really could've make Micah work in the astronomy field as an astronaut and other related positions, as xyr adoptive father inspired xem to be, and just make xem be incredibly intelligent as so many well known protagonists were, but there's something so... humanly realistic and painfully relatable in giving xem a dream that xe always wanted to achieve, but couldn't in the end because of xyr conditions, especially with xyr intellectual disability being the biggest barrier.

Micah was raised in the wild with very little socialization and learning opportunities for two years by the Incarnation of Earth who couldn't be and verbally communicate with xem in its vessel ( to protect Micah from forming deep emotional attachment with it in case xe got taken away ) before Micah accidentally burnt xyr home down and got taken away by the first responder team to the hospital. For three years then until the Everlove took xem in, Micah moved in between many foster families, with some being abusive and / or neglectful, and from the multiple stressful changes and treatments, this significantly impacted the Starwake System's social, emotional, and cognitive developments. In addition, developing Dissociative Identity Disorder, they experience dissociative symptoms that would hinder their learning and processing, such as amnesia and dissociation.

But the Starwake System having intellectual disability was especially difficult for Micah to accept when it prevented xem from being able to study in and entirely understand the subjects and knowledge that are required to work in the astronomy field. Micah had to leave xyr classroom to be placed in a special educational class when xe was nine years old and xe didn't understand why, but at ten, xe was appalled when xe had a discussion about xyr special education with xyr parents that led to xem learning about xyr dissociative symptoms and intellectual disability, and this was also when Micah was told xe likely couldn't be able to become an astronomer and astronaut like xyr adoptive father due to the complexity of the topics centred in astronomy.

As an attempt to try to prove xyr parents wrong, Micah secretly tried to take physics and chemistry on xyr third year of high school, but had to drop out a few weeks later when the school and xyr parents were concerned of xyr poor grades and performances. Micah had to take alternative courses and catch up with the weeks old lessons. The catch up game and the fact that xe couldn't do astronomy required subjects caused xyr depression to worsen since starting high school. It doesn't help that xyr childhood best friend, Adoniram, who also wanted to be an astronaut, was able to do and complete them even with the highest grades of his classes. Micah wouldn't even be able to become an aviator at least either, so feeling as xe was forever trapped in the world, xe held a highly strong self-hatred for xyr disabilities until xe was twenty two and accepted this part of xemself with the help of therapy.

Although Micah took creative writing on the third year and this increased xyr love in the art of writing before xe had a revelation xe could be a creator in arts, literature, and drama instead. Micah had to attend summer school of the same year to improve on xyr grades and took previous grade courses that xe didn't have before, so xe could be accepted in an arts university. Micah was able to enroll in one and get both of xyr associate and bachelor degree. Over time, xe became successful and was able to find joy in arts the way that outer space does. While xe may not be able to be with the stars, Micah has still been grateful that despite xyr conditions, xe could still create what would empower and inspire people, creating xyr own stars in the world that people can see only hope and love in.

STARWAKERS AS DRINKS ( top to bottom, left to right ) : Micah, Midnight Delight / Phoebus, Fruit Care / Philos, Sugar Kisses / Phobos, Ichor Rush

micah stands between reality and unreality, their expression blank and eyes void of light as there is a figure before them. white noises fill in heavy air with its soft muffled sounds — they try to listen more, break through the deep numbness that is drowning them whole — "you're bleeding —" their memories are in distortion, meaningless. they can't remember how they reached here. everything feels so far away. nothing makes sense. everywhere burns and burns and b — slowly, carefully, they touch their hips, palms bearing blood that is real and fake all at sickening once. you're bleeding — i'm dying —

"i'm okay."

a voice falls firm and sharper gaze lifts — phoebus stares at charlie, their grip against the wound tighten to keep the blood from leaving their sore body. "do you - do you have a medical kit around here ??" visions blur, they don't realize they're shaking, coldness embracing them entirely. phoebus steps into charlie's home, trying not to fall, despite the heavy weight present on their existence. they shouldn't be here to protect @goodheartt, but, micah — "just ... give me some time and space, and my hips will be f- fine all patched up." more blood takes over their skin, the floor, then all around them —

phoebus closes their eyes.

" I love you forever , Phoebus . " The line still echoes in their existence several days after the incident . It passes most softly , yet , it ever bears the infinite adornment that the gentle word hold close . Over thirty years , while carrying all of the memories that every Starwakers made since the beginning , Phoebus can't remember the last time Micah told them that xe loved them . They don't think they had never xem they do either , only dreaming that they would while being afraid of xyr rejection . They don't believe they can be loved by anyone — especially Micah . They don't think they deserve love even from Micah after everything that happened between them . With every bit of effort Phoebus would try to place in caring and protecting Micah , in the violent end , they feel like they are xyr greatest failure . . . ( So how can Micah love Phoebus for even a few delicate seconds , despite it all ? )

Phoebus can't stop thinking about these tender words — Micah . They want to discuss with Micah over what xe said to them and everything and more about them together recently and in the past , but then the fear builds over time — What if Micah doesn't mean it ? What if xe tells them not to ever love them back for everything that they had done and said and ruined xem ? What if all of the things that Phoebus tried to give to Micah only becomes nothing ? — Out of endless love , Phoebus knocks on the door and enters the room , made within their inner world while their body sleeps . They find Micah resting on bed , xyr face to the wall , though , they know xe is still awake . Their gaze lingers over the wound on xyr side and grimace , feeling the ache in their own . Phoebus takes a deep breath .

" Micah , " Phoebus whispers , " Can we talk ? We can have a walk at the Lovelake , if you - if you want . " Their voice soon falls shaky , held with anxiety . ( Phoebus just wants to tell Micah that they love xem , just as much and always . )

Me being so excited for December because it's Micah's "birthmonth" of this year !!!

It’s past 2:30am and I am having gay thoughts over the canon fact that Micah can actually drive a motorcycle, thanks to Warlock teaching them how and got them a fake license in season two / since around August.

Sense8's Senate cluster lore strikes once more having a big OSSDID moment ever

beloved, what is each main starwaker's opinion on hot chocolate? ☕️❤️‍🔥 🎤

Micah: Loves hot chocolate the most. Would have them at anytime, anywhere. They have the biggest sweet tooth of the Starwake System, so they'll certainly be more than delighted to have chocolate in hot beverages at any occasions. Burns their mouth with them often and more than other Starwakers because they get so eager drinking them. Enjoys dipping marshmallows or candy canes into them.

Philos: Loves hot chocolate as well as she would often buy them first thing in the cold morning and last thing in the late night. He also at times burn his mouth with them mainly because he forgets how hot they are, but unlike Micah who's willing to try to wait or blow their drink after experiencing pain, she'll just keep trying to take small sips of them consistently despite the burning.

Phoebus: Enjoys hot chocolate but have them occasionally. If someone offers them one or takes them out to get one, then they don't mind. They associate hot chocolate with Micah, and having that special connection with them, they can enjoy it especially because of Micah, but they prefer coffee over hot chocolate.

Phobos: Indifferent. Isn't much of a sweet lover like Micah and Philos. It would drink hot chocolate mainly for the heat with it having high tolerance and liking to feeling the heat. Wouldn't care or be much interested if someone offers it one or takes it out for one, but those closest to it, it can care and be grateful.

Cryael: It's neutral with hot chocolate. Not a thing it enjoys a lot but also doesn't hate as much either. They're used to having tea beverages more than anything else, so hot chocolate isn't one of the things they most look into under any occasions or weathers.

what are their favourite flavours of popcorn though?

Micah generally looks for sweet flavours like chocolate, caramel, and cinnamon sugar; although xe sometimes enjoy snacking popcorn with butter or salt for that extra hit of taste.　Philos loves to have them in savoury and sharp flavours. Sometimes, he enjoys eating them both sweet and spicy; honey mustard, bacon-chive, and sugar 'n spice popcorn are few of her favourites.　Phobos often leans toward spicy and cheesy flavours, as with the more cheese added, the better; enjoying such like jalapeno, cheesy spicy, and Cajun-spiced.　Phoebus doesn't eat popcorn as often as the three others who take popcorn as one of their comfort food, but when Phoebus co-fronts with any of them and the other insists them of having some popcorn with them on a movie night or whatnot, Phoebus goes with popcorn that involves fruits, spices, or / and herbs, like garlic-herb, veggie, and fruit based such as strawberry and blueberry.

Little Micah being so excited whenever there's an eclipse and xyr parents would take xem and xyr siblings out to the best viewing spot to admire the eclipse with their snacks and cameras. This happened until all of the kids ( except for Micah, of course ) reached at middle school age, but If the eclipse would occur outside of their home country, then you'll bet Maria and Caelum would let their kids have a one to few weeks vacation trip so that they could have the opportunity to catch the eclipse. Even though Micah's parents didn't understand why xe'd seem like xe had fallen in trance and stared above, even without xyr special glasses, whenever the sun and moon were together, Micah was always the most enthusiastic and delighted about this special celestial event, so xyr parents were happy for xem as long as xe's happy too.

It is sure knife to meet you . . . I hope to see you again , little star .

Gurgled sounds leave Micah trembling as it speaks close to them , its lips almost meeting their earlobe , teeth on skin . Their shaky hands have been gripping its own that hold a blade , with it pierced into their delicate side when they least expected the move despite their Awareness being active . It was too fast for them to pick up anything from its sharp existence . They just wanted to help — Micah had thought it needed assistance being protected by a wandering Metaeide , only to learn they bleed more that it is part of the Infernal Infinity . Sinner Grimgrin .

Wild pain tears Micah apart when the knife rips out of their body . Choking on own blood that rises from the back of their throat , they try to breathe through the horrible burns , collapsing to the surface . They feel warmth on their palms , their blood spreading beneath them . For a split moment did they think they were dreaming , still haunted by the massacre event that left many Antigods dead around them , though sensing a presence building in them — Cryael's — they fall into a horrible realization that everything is real — they are going to die —

Cryael lifts their right hand to shoot flames at Grimgrin . Co-fronting with them , Micah watches Cryael try to attack it in deep daze , unable to move from their end . Numbness broadens over their body from the stab wound , consuming the remains of their strength . 〔 Micah , it's going to be okay , stay with us , 〕 comforts Phoebus in mind . Micah doesn't listen . They only think about everyone who they knew most and ever loved — No longer able to grasp reality or themself in it , breath heaving , their body scrambles , runs to their closest sanctuary .