still thinking about fabian trying to talk to his dad, actually. and not to drop lore on main, but my one of my dad's special interests was ham radio so the imagery of fabian calling his dad on a radio?? and getting no respone?? that message just going into the ether, radio calls don't get voice mail, it exists only while it's being broadcast.

just damn. the first thing this season that made me cry.

the thing about grief is everyone’s like “it’ll never get smaller but you’ll grow around it” and yeah that’s true. i definitely have grown around my grief and it’s not constantly all-consuming anymore. but it hasn’t gotten smaller, and i don’t think people realise what that means. i think people figure it’ll feel smaller because they did grow around it, but it just means that it’s on the back of your mind now instead of at the forefront. you can do things and live your life without constantly only thinking of your grief. but sometimes it will also make itself known and the sheer enormity of your grief will overwhelm you because ultimately it’s the same size as the day it arrived

Happy for Charile but like I dont even have one dad 😭😭😭

Like hes not getting the milk

over the last 11 years i’ve come to almost numb myself when telling people my dad is dead. people don’t know what to say. they get uncomfortable. i feel bad that me sharing this fact about my life makes them uncomfortable. i almost forget that it’s sad information because i try to move past the interaction as quickly as possible. and besides, i can’t get Sad every time i have to share this fact with someone. but today my coworker made me feel so seen. her genuine reaction to my loss made me remember that others can, in fact, see my grief. i am grateful for it. and i am grateful to others who trust me to hold their grief. i cherish your sharing.

looked in the mirror today and realized my face will always be a reminder of the person i miss the most

sometimes i come to the realization that ive been through alot of absolute shit in my life and i just kinda have to go lie down cause what the fuck.

As a kid whose dad died when he was 6, this Christmas Special was absolutely wonderful.

I hope my dad is haunting my mum's house together with the most unlikely bunch of people. I hope he's seen me grow up and is proud of how much I'm like him. I hope he's still got all his silly phrases and habits and I hope it's rubbing off on everyone around him.

his dad's dead his teammates are all he haassssss you're killing me 😭

OK BUT LIKE imagine your dad's not here to see all his hopes and dreams for you come true but you've got Chris feckin Kreider leaping into your arms after your first NHL goal IT'S VERY SWEET AND I'M GLAD BABY GOON HAS THE TEAMMATES HE HAS IS ALL I'M SAYIN

i will forget the sound of your voice one day, but i already have. it’s been 3 years and i’m forgetful. never will i hear you laugh or say good night again. i strain the muscles in my brain just trying to hear something similar to you. i hope ill remember one day but truth is, once something like that is forgotten its not something you can undo.

@ashlamsms <33

i don’t actually believe in reincarnation.

But i hope my father became something beautiful after all.

I love having a dead dad. I can make so many dead dad jokes

my brothers laugh is the same as my dads was. sometimes when i hear him, it feels like dad is still here.

When someone hacks your account and gambles on the name... the odds were not in their favor...

Grief is so wild. I didn't cry when my dad died 2 years ago, but now in my junior year i find myself writing him letters and telling him how much i need him and about everything he's missing.