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You know I think the SAMS fandom should reference Cain and Abel more with Eclipse and Lunar because even outside the sibling murdered the other thing it fits pretty well at least initially

I was raised Catholic and while I’m not really practicing the stories were taught to me and generally fascinate me so time to ramble

Obvious stuff out of the way, Cain being the older sibling and Abel being the younger, Cain killing Abel. Eclipse being the older sibling to Lunar and killing him.

For the more fun stuff, let’s start out with Cain and Abel’s sacrifices to God

Cain, brought undesirable parts of his harvest (as Catholic teaching, the verse itself doesn’t mention the quality) and was therefore rejected by God. Abel brought the best things from his job and was accepted.

Eclipse was an undesirable part of Moon, so he was rejected and abandoned. Lunar was the best parts of Eclipse (irrc) and he was accepted by the daycare fam.

”you will be a restless wanderer upon this earth” is part of Cain’s punishment. Eclipse doesn’t get to rest, he will constantly be brought back.

”anyone who kills Cain will suffer vengeance seven times over” Every time they’ve killed Eclipse things end up getting even worse (and it doesn’t even stick), I wouldn’t say seven times over, but things get worse.

Now I also want to bring up Seth. By Catholic school teachings, Seth is the replacement for Abel, and Abel was meant to be the ancestor to Jesus. That means Cain was already unfavored before he had actually done anything wrong. Which I feel like rather fits with how Eclipse was judged before his severe wrongs.

Anyways this is all for fun I don’t think anything about it is intentional I’m just autistic

Uhhh

So i haven't been consistent at all with uploading here and i'm sooo o sorry! >.< I've been having trouble dealing with so much social media. Having more than one becomes so stressful when i have so much to upload. Plus, dealing with which place is best to post.

Twitter is where most of my followers are but it's just a horrible place. Most of the artists i love are there.

DA is on it's A/I bullshit but a lot of artists i love are still there too.

Instagram is ok but the engagement for artists is trash.

I'm worried Sheezy will die again so i don't want to put my trust in it.

Tumblr has a similar feel to DA where it feels empty to me. Idk

I'm just rambling. I'll try to post here more ;-; maybe

What should have been

(CW: Anti-Indigenous themes mention, racism, genocide)

This is basically a ramble about the effects of how my grandmother did not grow up in the Ponca Tribe of Oklahoma

We're doing a weaving project in my art class and I'm feeling this emotion that I can't describe-

It's a positive emotion, I know that, it comes whenever I'm beading, smudging, learning Ponca, or at Pow-Wow's.

I can only describe this emotion as a mix of euphoria and feeling like I'm floating.

Is this emotion positivity? Joy? Or happiness that I'm reconnecting with something that was stolen from me.

My grandmother and her brother, my uncle, could have grown up in the Ponca Tribe, could have been adopted by a family in the tribe, yet my grandmother was born a year before ICWA was passed, and my uncle two years before ICWA was passed, so they were adopted by a white family. They were a good family from what I heard, but that doesn't change that we were robbed from growing up in the Ponca Tribe, our tribe, our family.

My grandmother and uncle wouldn't know about their biological family until around 2018, when I was eleven.

My grandmother and my mother took DNA tests, and that's how we found out.

My grandmother had a Ponca father, and a white mother, and many siblings and cousins, all of whom were still alive.

We would be able to meet up with them, although my uncle only met them via video call.

At first, I thought this was normal, didn't think anything of it.

I realize now exactly how much was stolen from me.

I should have grown up with my culture. I should have been beading, and weaving, and learning the language, and attending Sundance, and going to Pow-Wow's, yet I didn't.

When I attended Sundance last year, I ended up crying. How couldn't I cry? After all, I was doing something I should have been doing my whole life.

I should be able to enroll in the Tribe, yet I can't, neither can my mother, because of blood quantums. My grandfather is a white man, so is my father. Although the elders are discussing letting people of lineal descent enroll.

... Then there's this other side of me.

Every time I wear my ribbon skirt, or smudge, I have this voice in my head, it says to me "You will never be indigenous enough. Look at your skin, you're too white, Rian. Your name is also too white. And look at your hair! You have your father's hair, and he's white! And that ribbon skirt, it's just cosplay! And you only bead because you just like the colors and textures!"

Would I still have that voice if I had grown up with my culture? Definitely not, this voice is the result of having the life I could have lived stolen from me.

The white people, the land stealers, they wanted the Indigenous Americans gone, so they took our children and tried to force us to be like them.

Of course, they failed.

... They can try to apologize for the things they done, but no amount of apologizing will change the fact that they stole from us, and how we are still digging up the bodies of children at residential schools.

When they say "America is the land of the free!" Don't forget the Indigenous Americans, and how we're still being oppressed, and never forget how what the white people did still affects the children that didn't grow up in their culture, and how it affects their children, and their grandchildren.

And don't forget, the genocide of Indigenous Americans is still going on.

✨comic✨

Making a comic can be super fun, drawing is a super entertaining thing but sometimes your past self can suck. Like why did I make certain designs so complex of why don’t I proof read.

Whenever I work with lepidolite I’m always like “does this have fucking drugs in it or somethin? Like…bro” (feels suddenly like I smoked weed)

And then I remember it literally has lithium in it

girls be like

11:11! make a wish! a shooting star! make a wish! the full moon! make a wish! we’re so wishful

Well well, if it isn’t this account

Hi. It’s been a while. I have done years of growing and growing older since I was last on here, and a lot of stuff has happened. I will say I am coming here cause of Twitter blowing up lmao, but also I want to use this as an opportunity to see if others want to still connect. I realize that I hurt a lot of people before I left, and I fully understand that many will want me to follow no longer/you want to block me. This is fair, and I am posting this now to give heads up to do so. I fucked up in a lot of ways that I would offer apologies for if wanted, but I also understand that some may not  want that apology either. I do not believe I have earned to be forgiven for the pain I have put you through, but if it brings you comfort and healing, the least I could do is offer that out to those who do want it. The least I can do is stop living in the past and try and move on with my future. That being said, I will be making this account more active in the near future as well as my sideblogs. If you’re a streamer, hi! This is my main and I’ll be following from here. I’ve also decided to move all of my art to an art-specific blog. I’ll be cleaning up in the next few days, so pardon the ancient mess until then. Also I use xe/xem/xir and avi/self still, but I’ve dropped they/them and adopted ae/self and cele/self instead. I’ve become physically disabled thanks to retail work for 12 years, and I’ve begun taking my BPD/other mental health/disorders more seriously. I think I may be a system? I don’t know enough to really put the nail to the head but aspects of it fit my mental health in the past so...we’ll see. Anyhoo I’ll see you around- I have other accounts I have to clean up/make proper cause of Muskrat’s mess.

ok im gonna do it im gonna write an acs oneshot. i will set a deadline for myself. if i dont finish it by this thursday feel free to stab me

Pokemon redesigns

I like Pokemon redesigns. But I wish some people would let Pokemon be quirky. Most Pokemon redesigners take everything that was "bad" about said Pokemon (take Carnivine for example) and turn it into a watered-down, marketable version of itself.

What those people need to know is that not every Pokemon is gonna be perfect. If we only had beautiful queens and amazing dragons for Pokemon it'd get boring quickly. And if we only had marketable Pokemon it would be much worse.

No quirkiness means no perfection. And we need more of that in the Pokemon world.

A quick note!

I'm planning on posting links to some of my older works on my writing site over the next few days!

In hopes of keeping my blog from becoming too cluttered with a lot of longer posts and to keep my writing on a more isolated platform, I'm going to continue to post on my writing site (or start posting on it again) and post the links here! I have a few shorter pieces lined up in my queue already!

the four horsemen of the apocalypse

Give me your au lore, NOW 😌🫵

Alright you’re getting CV lore since that’s the main one and where like everything branches out from

Crystalverse, or CV for short (named that because Crystal is one of my names) is a FNAF SB AU surrounding DCAs

It starts off before the creation of the plex, with a building for Solar Eclipse’s Fire Show in the future location of the Pizzaplex. It was an attempt by Faz Ent to both cover up previous fires and make a bit more money. The show had a single animatronic, its namesake Solar Eclipse. Built with fire shooters in his hands and a large intimidating frame to impress people during his shows.

Construction of the Pizzaplex however, soon started. At first Solar was tasked as a guard of the construction site at night, a job he did pretty well. The Plex was almost complete, and the fire show arena needed to be fully taken down now. The fire show while fine on its own was too much of a hazard with the big building especially considering the fates of the last Fazbear locations.

However, why waste a perfectly good animatronic? They told Solar that he just needed some updates to add him to the Pizzaplex’s network. He was thrilled, he had watched the construction of this place and was so excited for it.

At the very least he never knew what they did to him I suppose. They wiped his memories, keeping the body and modifying the base AI with the daycare protocols, as well as security guard ones.

Solar was, unsurprisingly, not too great with children. Despite DCA programming, he was still extremely intimidating and not built to work with small children running around. Many complaints about children being scared by him later, the staff decided to make a new DCA

Lunar Eclipse, the new daycare attendant (and Solar’s sister) was created. She was much less frightening and a bit shorter to be sure of that. Her daycare programming was better and she generally became really well liked. Even the staff liked her better, as DCA Solar always had an inherent distrust of the staff.

Solar was initially happy, he was rather lonely when the kids were gone and he saw how great the siblings in the daycare were with each other. Unfortunately for him, Lunar would paint him out to be terrifying to the children, and then yell at him, use a shocker she stole from parts and services on him, or hit him when kids were scared of him or when he messed up at his job.

It went on for a long time, when Solar brought it to staff he wasn’t believed since they all trusted Lunar much more than they trusted him. Staff got fed up with his constant repairs so he began repairing himself, using his fire shooters and scrap staff bot casing.

It all did end eventually though, with what I call “The Wire Incident”. The daycare had recently opened, and both siblings went on their own ceiling wire in the daycare to go down. As Solar was hooked on and his feet were off the ground, Lunar cut his wire. There was no ballpit there at first, and Solar hit solid ground, destroying his back, detaching his legs, and instantly knocking him out. Had his chip not survived, he’d definitely have died.

Solar was rebuilt, although part of his internal back was severely mangled by the wire hook and not repaired. The incident is what led to Lunar being held for decommission, although the staff didn’t get the chance to do so as Solar killed her in a violent rage after they were given a chance to talk to each other.

A few months later, Sun and Moon were created. Solar was of course extremely nervous to even talk to his new siblings, it’s not like the last one was great. Eventually they began getting along, and got to the point of Solar being extremely protective of them.

thatsss most of it for CV I think. I have other AUs that branch off CV but it’s definitely the most developed (it better be, I’ve had it for 2 years)

Guys.

Cybertron, but the surface and the buildings are shaped like bismuth crystals...

Look at how pretty it is please!!!!!

I love this cutscene so much. Why did Adeleine start throwing rocks at the ocean. She wasn’t trying to skip them. She just threw rocks at the ocean for no reason. Dedede’s face in this frame is just… perfect. He is so confused about what she’s doing. And then everyone just joins in throwing rocks. They must hate the ocean

Or maybe Adeleine was throwing rocks at it because she’s never seen a huge body of water that wasn’t frozen before so she didn’t know what to do. That’s also a possibility

i have a new art piece to share it’s called ‘friendship’ i hope you enjoy it