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pippin-katz · 9 months

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6 Little Faces Alex Makes That I Love - Part 1

(not ranked in any order)

No. 1:

There is no other word for this expression than starstruck and it’s adorable. ✨

No. 2:

I’m completely obsessed with the way he watches Henry come closer. It’s so clear that he’s not done something like this, and he’s a little out of his element, but doesn’t care cause he’s so enamored with Henry. There’s just a bit of nervousness and curiosity in his eyes, like he doesn’t know what Henry is going to do next. I think he was already surprised by the way he pushed him.

One of the things that drew Alex to Henry in the first place was the sparks of personality he hadn’t been expecting from a prince. It looks like Alex was genuinely surprised by how forcefully Henry pushed him, like he wasn’t expecting something like that, and he probably wasn’t. Like he told his dad later, “he’s tougher than he looks” and you can also substitute that “tougher” for all the other traits that surprised Alex, like his sense of humor, his authentic and deep compassion for others, and his ability to stand up for himself.

There’s this little trace of awe within the surprise and curiosity. I see that expression and I can feel the way his heart is pounding.

And then of course he starts to get that smile on his face, that somehow still maintains a level of disbelief or admiration. It’s like he just had the brief thought of “I can’t believe how lucky I am”.

I am completely obsessed, how dare you Taylor Zakhar Perez, you adorable, talented, and attractive bastard.

No. 3:

This is like the look he had when Henry first arrived at the dinner, but even more unabashed. You can see the nerves, and the way he takes a deep breath as soon as he sees him. It’s like his mind is going, “wow, he really is beautiful, and now we’re alone”. It’s like he’s thinking “don’t freak out, stay calm” while also being completely blown away by how handsome Henry is.

It is so cute, I hate it.

No. 4:

It’s fast and a bit hard to see, but he gets this quick smile on his face that’s like “oh, okay, we’re doing this then”. He still has that little bit of surprise too, like “damn, alright”, cause Henry pins him hard against that wall.

It makes me think of that moment in the book when they first hook up and Henry tells him why he kissed him on New Year’s, and he mentions being jealous, and Alex says: “You were jealous. You want me.”

And he’s teasing him, so you know he has a shit-eating grin, but also he’s registering the fact that Henry has wanted him for a while, like he’s a bit surprised that he actually wants him, and that the kiss wasn’t just a drunken impulse, or Henry being lonely, but something Henry was wanting to do, with him specifically, even while sober.

That’s kind of the vibe I get from that smile, like “oh, Henry really wants me like this, alright, this is fun, I’m down with this”. I don’t know if I’m making any sense for this one, but hopefully you get what I mean.

No. 5:

This is a sweet moment because you can see the change in his eyes. Henry is explaining why he was a prick to him, so he's still primarily thinking about himself and how Henry's behavior bothered him. But here, you can see the moment he actually registers what he said about losing his dad, and the crown using him, and it's not about him anymore.

Even if you've never experienced the loss of a loved one, you can still understand the gravity of that situation. You may not know exactly what it feels like, but everyone knows it feels horrible.

You can see Alex thinking, and realizing that it had nothing to do with him. He's thinking about the fact that Henry had to deal with the loss of his father, which is already tragic and heartbreaking, but then on top of that, he hears that the crown used him for the attention his grief would bring them. Alex quickly goes from being mad about Henry's attitude to feeling so sad for him.

No. 6:

He laughs a little bit about Henry's quip about him being "ghastly", but it shifts into a small, almost unnoticeable smile. He's so content and happy to be talking to him. Henry probably is too, but both of them are kind of aware that there's no reason for them to stay on the phone any longer. There's a pause before Henry finally says he's going to hang up, and Alex, being the little shit he is, wants to be the one to hang up. Henry lets him, but it takes him several seconds of silence, and Henry making a comment about what the red button was for, before he actually turns over and hangs up. It's so obvious that he doesn't want to, but he subconsciously knows there's no reason to keep talking.

Sometimes when you're on the phone with a friend (or partner), you fall into this rhythm and comforting space of having a friend with you, even if they're not in the room. It's a nice feeling, and when you have to hang up, it can bring about this little wave of sadness. When you hang up, you're suddenly very alone again. I've had it happen to me tons of times after talking to friends on the phone.

The way he smiles softly tells me he's feeling that comfort and relaxation that I described. Then he's reluctant to hang up, because even if they're not talking, they can feel each other's presence through the phone, and that makes him feel like he's not alone.

That's all for now! I might make a part two, we'll see! Thank you for reading if you got this far! :3

part 2 | part 3

#red white & royal blue #rwrb #rwrb movie #rwrb thoughts #alex claremont-diaz #taylor zakhar perez #firstprince

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shmpxx · 8 months

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HE’S A STONER — k.k

⛤ kazuha kaedehara x fem! reader

smoking weed and having sex w. kazuha for the first time.

cw. smut. unprotected sex. oral (f. & m. receiving). riding. fingering. creampie. virginity loss. nipple play. tit-sucking. praising. groping. corruption. usage of drugs(marijuana). modern au. +18!

wc: 3.2k

a/n: I’m in-love with stoner kazuha btw.

Kazuha kaedehara was your classmate in some of your classes but not all of them, he was also your friend sort of in a way that your the only person he talks to whenever his friends aren’t in his classes. No he wasn’t a bad boy, a slacker or a jerk who teases. He was actually nice and friendly to others even mostly you and other girls. Though he was a heavy stoner, every time he walk past to say hi you’d always smelt a whiff a weed on him and his friends. The girls didn’t mind it, maybe they were smokers too.

All the girls wanted kazuha. When he walked into class, they stare and give him a small wave and giggle to themselves. You didn’t deny you also had a crush on him as well, it wasn’t a bad thing, he was cute and the small red streak that gives out from his platinum blonde hair and his intriguing smile he does you can’t resist. But you also heard from your friend that he hops around girl to girl. You never asked or talked about it with him still he never shy away from talking about which girl he had in his bed last night and ‘it was alright nothing special’ with his friends you overhear.

Yeah you did like kazuha but you doubt you ever confess anything to him, you’re pretty sure girls do that everyday.

You thought otherwise yet kazuha has it bad for you. Yeah he messed with other girls but it’s not like he wasn’t thinking of you. He writes poetry about you in private, some romance in his poetry writing class. His friends would tease him about his soppy poems though he didn’t care, he wasn’t a kind a guy to be afraid of showing emotions, they would even ask him when is he ever gonna ask you out or get him to fuck during their smoke sesh.

Kazuha didn’t let his friends get to him, he was just gonna let things go slow and by that he asks you to hang out with him back at his dorm just to hang and talk like friends nothing more, not like a date, not yet.

“Uh..are your friends gonna be there?” You ask him “No they’re gonna be a party, I didn’t want to go anyway not tonight that is cause I thought we could just hangout..” he shrugs

You did think about it, was he being genuine? Or get into your pants like every other girl? It could be both. He is not at all a bad person, even if you say no there could always be another time, he would understand. Since you liked him how could you say no to kazuha.

“Alright yeah lets do it then” you smile

Until then when you got to his room it was no surprise to you that it reeked of weed. It wasn’t unbearable it was tolerable, you didn’t mind it. The surprising part was that his dorm was cleaned, nice and organized and his roommate’s side as well. You never went into a boys dorm so you expected it to be messy, well kazuha made the most of it.

You both sat on his bed and talked as usual as you would talk in class but at least you get to actually talk more and have longer conversations this time.

During mid conversation kazuha pulled out a joint from a tin box that was already perfectly rolled up and a lighter out his pocket. You glare at him doing so stopping from what you were saying, watching him bring it up to his lips, lighting at the thick end of the joint and it burns and start to give out a strong smell as soon as he blew out a little smoke and try not to blow it in your face.

He chuckles to himself when you stare in awe almost like you never seen weed being smoked before but also he was a gorgeous smoker. “Would you like to try?” He asks as

Smoking weed was never something that came across your mind. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to try it or hated the fact that it was bad for your lungs, you knew it was but still it was never in your face for it to cross your mind for you to decide whether you wanted to do it or not. You weren’t gonna lie you were curious.

“I don’t know how..” you admit like you were the only one in the world who never smoked.

“I can teach you” he shifts himself closer to you.

“Okay” you nod but before he gave you it he asks

“Are you sure? I don’t want you doing something you don’t want to do”

“I’m sure” you were a tad bit nervous, only because you don’t know what it’s like to be high once you smoke it.

He passes you it and you bring it up to your mouth already, he lights it and blows on it so it can burn and a string of smoke emitted. “Don’t suck it just inhale and try to hold it” he tells you and you listen.

You ended up coughing really hard, a bunch of smoke leaving your mouth as you didn’t intend to inhale that much and kazuha couldn’t help but hold his stomach in laughter, watching you struggle to catch your breath trying to get the hot air to leave your throat.

“Ts- not funny!” You continued to cough and hit him in the shoulder.

“I didn’t think you would inhale that much-“ he wipes a tear from his eye still snickering to himself.

Kazuha takes another puff and passes it back to you after you stopped coughing. This time you tried not to make your last mistake again.

Only a few minutes go by, you and kazuha just sat there and laughed about your coughing still. It wasn’t even that funny but you couldn’t help yourself from restraining yourself to. You both had practically finished it, it became just a dud at that there was no more use to it.

You felt like your mind was stuck like you couldn’t form thoughts more than 5 secs, your fingers start to feel tingling and the bed you sat on felt like you were about to mold with it or sink in. It wasn’t a scary feeling it was more of a funny, weird and calm feeling. Kazuha can tell you were high in the clouds, it was so entertaining watching you like this for the first time knowing you never smoked a day in your life.

“I assume your feeling it by now” he lets out a small chuckle once again, since kazuha was more tolerable he was used to it and you being new you felt lighter like you were floating, tiny needles prickling at your skin. “yeah i jus..fewl weird..how long s’ this supposed to last?”

“-A few hours”

“Then…what do we do..now?” The way words fell out your mouth slowly like you couldn’t speak as fast as you use to.

“I know something that it can make your high ten times better” he smirks tapping his finger on his chin as if he had a devious plan.

“Hm?”

Your brain didn’t process faster than him pressing his lips against yours and his hand sliding from your knee high up to your thigh caressing it.

You started to sink into his lips, slowly drifting from reality to kazuha taking you so deeply in your mouth, it was slow but desperate you moaned into his mouth as he slide in his hot tongue inside between your lips. Colliding his tongue into yours, You try to pull away for air but he just leans in more deepening into the hot wet kiss with his hand inching higher now under your skirt you wore and his other hand groping your tit massaging it through your shirt. Maybe you were too high to tell if it were real or not but his lips felt so good with yours.

“Put your arms up” he pulls away from your lips.

You did, no questions asked as he lifted your top off over your head, revealing your tits to him as you weren’t wearing a bra underneath and he unzips your skirt from the side and dragging them down now showing your panties. You were so cute and high as hell being told what to do already.

“Ka-zuha..I’m a—”

“S’ okay i know” since you don’t remember by your mind being too clouded to think, there was a time you told him you were a virgin. You had nothing to worry about, it was kazuha after all. You trusted him and your trusting him with your body too and maybe or maybe not kazuha purposely intended this all from the beginning.

He takes off his clothes as well, he had very much pale soft skin and he took down his hair from a ponytail letting his platinum blonde hair fall down to his shoulders. He is so pretty, the only thought you could make out in your head.

his hand reaches between your inner thighs pressing lightly at your clit earning a small whine from you. An intense feeling growing as he continues to rub the pad of his fingers through your panties on your clit. your thighs start to squeeze around his wrist, squirming and grinding against his hand to apply more pressure, it just felt so good.

His lips latch onto your nipple, nibbling it softly and sucking on it, he tries to take your boob into his mouth. You felt how hot his mouth is on your tit, it was nothing but warmth, giving you more of a feeling than just the his fingers rubbing throughly against your dampen panties. Nothing but small noises came from you only.

“Do you want more?”

“Yes please” you whine

“Lay down for me then”

Again, you listen. Laying back down on your back on the bed, you lazily lift your hips up for kazuha to take down your panties off your legs. You were so obedient, so perfect in kazuha’s eyes. Right when he takes them off kazuha licked his lips at the sight of your pussy, begging for it to be touched. He only ran his finger along your clit and how your cunt twitched.

“Kazuha” you cry waiting to be touched again.

He couldn’t help smile to himself, how your literally so desperate for him. “You’ll feel so good baby i promise” he spreads open your legs. his slender hands pushing your thighs to your chest as his head sinks down and you jolted at the feeling of his scorching hot tongue being dragged on your cunt and over your clit letting out a cry.

Your hands grip the pillow your head laid on. Your back arched slightly, you tried not to move away, it became too much from the way he kept licking and using his lips to cravingly suck on your clit. Your head was becoming much fuzzier than it was. your breathing becomes quicker by the second, “ka-hah-zuha!” His name being moaned out from you.

His lips detach from your cunt and then his two digits slowly slid in your core. Your breath being caught in your throat, feeling your walls spread by his fingers. It didn’t hurt but it felt odd knowingly nothing was ever put up there except his fingers are the first. His fingers thrusting into you in a languid motion and he brings his lips back to clit.

Your hands couldn’t grip the pillow anymore, your fingers combed through kazuha’s soft hair and how much he ended up adoring it, his scalp getting massaged while you moan out with his tongue circling your puffy clit and his fingers pumping in and out of your hole at the same time, you were getting dizzy.

Your let out high pitched moans when you began to feel a some sort of electrifying sensation form in your lower region. “Kazuha! I-“ you squeezed your eyes shut seeing stars behind your eyelids. Kazuha can feel you nearing, he pumps his fingers faster and focus on your clit. Strangled noises from you making kazuha painfully erect, rutting against the bed. You came twitching around his fingers and a static feeling growing through your body as you were orgasming.

Kazuha smiles at you in your struggled state, kissing your inner thighs as your slowly coming down. He climbs over you and kisses your lips for a few seconds, parting from your lips once again.

“Sit up” You sat up, you don’t know if it was weed or he casted a spell on you but you were listening like a good girl to him.

“I need you to help me too” he pulls out his cock from his boxers and it springs to his stomach, the tip red and becoming leaky.

“I need you to use that pretty mouth of yours” his thumb swiping across your bottom lip. You nod looking up in his scarlet eyes filled with nothing but lust. You’d do anything he asked you to in your vulnerable state of mind. You went on your knees and kazuha’s hand cupped your cheek and gives you a faint smile before you could take him in your mouth.

You never done this before but somehow from the way kazuha took deep breaths and moans softly in pleasure, he was enjoying it. His moans start to turn into whines when you take him deeper, your tongue licking up his shaft. “You’re doing so well already—“ he hissed.

Your cunt began to ache again just from his whining. You wanted to touch yourself and suck him off at the same time but all your focus was on him and his cock throbbing inside your mouth. Your tongue swipes at his slit, the hotness of your mouth and being high all at once giving him a ten times crazy sensitivity. “Your so good..feels so good…ah!”

He started to squirm, his stomach muscles flexing and his hand travel to the back of your head, bucking his hips a bit into your mouth. The further you went down on him the more your eyes bubbled with tears, nothing went farther down in your mouth other than his tip nudging in the back of your throat. He had to cum inside your mouth, his pants start to get heavier and his voice became whinier. You can feel his cock shudder, bits on cum leaving onto your tongue and then a loud moan breaks out, he releases a hot string of cum down your throat you had no choice but to swallow though you didn’t care, as a matter of fact you enjoyed it, a lot.

“You did so well..” he brings your face up to his, giving you a kiss like a sweet reward. He can taste his own cum on your tongue.

He patted his leg, signaling you to straddle his lap and his already erect dick prods at your pussy, your cunt clenches onto nothing. The embarrassment starts to creep up your back “Kazuha I’m a little—“

“Don’t be nervous” he gives you a reassuring look. His hands on your hips and his positions his cock at your slit. “Think about how amazing you’re gonna feel” and without a hurry you sink down onto him, his cock spreading you open like his fingers did but much more. You both let out a small sigh as so. Your lips quiver squeezing around him tight already didn’t even sink down all the way yet with the strange pressure you were not used to.

“Almost there..” he moans and you whimper in response. Basically splitting you open the more you take in all of him inside you. Finally, your clit hits his pelvis and you’re trying to adjust to his size.

Kazuha’s hands that were situated on your hips rocked onto his cock in a rhythmic pace. Your body in motion up and down on his cock and your eyes flutter every time you can feel him working you open each time. Your hands gripped his shoulders as you let out a loud whine and kazuha’s head tilts back, letting out a deep exhale from his throat with your mushy walls swallowing him whole. “Ah!…your such a good girl..fuck! Feels amazing—you feel amazing..tell me how good it is”

“It feels..it-so good…“ you sputtered

It was like ten times better having sex while high, like the weed enhanced your nerves and sensitivity stronger than normal sex. It was clearly a great euphoric feeling. Kazuha thought he should’ve done this ages ago but it probably wouldn’t be the same with other girls, just you. why didn’t he have you before? It was like you both were becoming one, shaping together, his dick plunging into you and you became a mess over him.

Kazuha takes your hands and intertwines with your fingers, watches you bounce on his cock on your own without needing his hands to guide you and keep the pace steady. “Don’t stop-“ His lips find your perk nipples, sucking and biting on your bud, swirling his tongue around and went back to sucking hard until your bud became red and swollen making you break out a hissed moan until he moves to the next untouched one yet his hand massages your tit and his fingers nips and plays with your abused nipple.

You felt like you were about to crash. Your legs ached a bit and your cunt now being stretched out and scraped by his cock. You could feel it, you could feel every inch of his cock deep within. His tongue doing wonders on your nipple and his index and thumb pinching at your other. It was all too much for your nerves that you start to the feel the knot in your belly forming and time began to slow down, kazuha’s dick pulsing at your walls. You both were about to cum in a minute.

Kazuha couldn’t help but speed up the process, his hips jerking at a erratic pace and each time he hit deep you break out a cry still recoiling your hips against his dick. “I-I’m..about to—“ you whimper “want me to..cum inside?” He breath hitches, you nod hurriedly. You were experiencing everything at once, the lightheadedness like your mind was on clouds, your heart racing like it was about to burst out your chest, and your core ready to cream on his cock. Both of your sweat being combined.

He hit deep into your cunt, letting out harmonized moans together as he filling your inside with his warmth of cum and your muscles contracting harshly around him. Both shaking and trembling like everything was being pooled out of you even the air in your lungs.

Kazuha pushed you down back against the mattress, still trying to come down from your feverish state, separated your legs apart taking out his dick halfway staring at the mess you both made in amusement, cum coating your insides and his dick all together. He smirks to himself, grabbing another rolled up joint, lighting it up and take one huge puff before opening your jaw to kiss you, blowing smoke into your mouth. he lets out a sigh while you exhale the smoke he emptied in your mouth, stimulating your high again. “I’m sure we can go another round..what do you say?”

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istoleyoursk1n · 3 months

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Could I request a durge who, while they have more control of their urges than most other Bhaalspawn, will sometimes blurt the urges out in conversation to try and get someone to help them stop doing it just in case they try? It's half sweet and half chaotic, because on one hand, aw durge trusts them! But also, durge and the character were just having a nice evening stroll in a park when they turned to the character and bluntly said "Can you tie me down before I kill that couple over there?"

With Roland, Dammon and Wyll please!

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How would Rolan, Dammon, and Wyll react to a Durge who blurts out their urges?

Context: Durge starts blurting unhinged things out like “Can you tie me down before I kill that could over there?!” (I find this so funny)

: ̗̀➛ ROLAN

“Gods damnit again?! What is it, the fourth time this week?! Can you behave enough to whisper when you utter those violent little thoughts of yours? It's like you want every damn person here to hear you! You’re embarrassing us both y’know!”

You what?! <— His live reaction caught in 4k

He’s well aware of your urges by now but they never fail to startle him. You always seem to blurt them out during the worst times too. He’s spilled his drink once because of you!

He goes from having to quickly shush your mouth by placing his own hand over it, to not so subtly scooting you away from everyone, and then having to use every damn magic trick in the book just to keep you from lunging at people.

He seems more annoyed than scared to be honest, having to scold you once again about ‘not ruining happy couples’ and to ‘stop trying to bite that dwarves leg’.

The whole situation ends up looking like both of you play fighting or Rolan trying to tend to a rabid dog. Either way, it's absolutely hilarious to everywhere who may bear witness to it all.

Eventually, when he's managed to get you to calm down, he’d be able to help talk things out with you, finding out proper ways on how this ‘urge’ of yours could be tamed without the need of you hurting yourself or others.

To his dismay, he cares for you deeply and despite it all, he’d be willing enough to help you through each and every one of your urges no matter how much of a hassle it all is to overcome.

And hey! If someone truly does piss him off, he has you to rely on to immediately go chasing after the poor soul with bared teeth.

: ̗̀➛ DAMMON

“Hells, just hold onto me okay? We’ll get you home and away from this crowd if you think the urges are getting far too overwhelming. Don't you worry, we’ll be back in no time, just squeeze my hand and it’ll all be alright.”

He kind of just stood there awkwardly at first when he first heard you blurt out your urges. He’s so surprised by them that he needs to blink five times before actually processing what you just said.

It would be during the most unsuspecting times too like whenever the both of you were relaxing together side by side whilst eating a nice warm meal then suddenly you’d say something along the lines of ‘dwarf tastes better’.

He’s very much concerned about you and your mental state but he cares for you enough to listen and lend you a hand whenever you do decide to blurt out your urges.

At least then it gives him a clear sign as to when he should be tying you down or locking you in a room for the day.

He hates having to tie you up when your urges get worse, seeing you lash about and growl at him just pains him because he can't imagine the amount of stress you actually going through just to hold yourself back.

He’s probably been scratched by you a few times while he was trying to calm you down but he never once took it against you. Instead, those became his favorite scars all cause they came from you.

He would stay with you no matter how dangerous you say you are. He’d make sure that you’d have food and he’d feed you every time you’re mind was too scattered to eat yourself during the moments when you had to be tied up; for even the fear of dying by your hands does not scare him.

Though it does become an actual shitshow during the times he actually has to wrestle you down. It's funny to watch but Gods does it exhaust him.

: ̗̀➛ WYLL

“By the hells, Is it that time again? Alright, calm down, just breathe with me okay? You're going to be just fine. Now quickly, let's get you somewhere safe before the worst comes to show, I doubt you’d want that poor couple overhearing what you said.”

He goes wide-eyed concerned for a moment as soon as your violent urges suddenly come out of your mouth. He truly could never not be shocked for when and where you say such things.

He’s somehow extremely prepared for it though that it's mildly concerning.

The first step is to take you away from any person aside from him in sight, if you are close to home, even better! But ideally, he either takes you to a secluded forest or an alleyway.

Next, he very gently restrains you whilst reassuring you that everything is going to be just fine. Better to restrain you while you're still in control of your own thoughts rather than when you go full-on feral mode.

He even has a timer for it. If for an hour or so you don't act up and remain calm then he lets you go but if you start lashing out then he knows it’s time for him to probably pull an all-nighter just to make sure you and the others don't get hurt. Note that either way, he stays with you.

He’ll be your number-one supporter in helping you control and contain your violent urges, always giving you hope in times when all you can see is blood red.

He’ll always have a plate of food ready for you when the urges finally settle and you’re back in the right state of mind. Perhaps even a warm bath if you're both in the comforts of your home.

Truth be told, the real reason he stays by your side is not just cause he cares but because one moment he looked away for about ten seconds, and you suddenly disappeared. The poor man nearly had a panic attack.

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#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 headcanon #bg3 headcanons #bg3 x reader #bg3 rolan #bg3 dammon #bg3 wyll #rolan #dammon #wyll

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yuri-is-online · 2 months

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tragedy anon back again w u guess it!!! More tragedy!!! Im thinking rn of a Yuu who was always going to die in the end. Like being sent back to their world is the equivalent to a death sentence, and they can't stay in TWST because time always loops and they feel like shit for trapping everyone in a moment when they could all be living their lives if not for them.

Yuu who has always been doomed from the start.... Like maybe yuu has been framed for a crime back in their prev world and when they do come back their execution will commence or maybe it's the apocalypse and when they do come back it's truly only a matter of time when they die. Thinking of the TWST boys who goes to visit them only to find nobody..... But traces of them.... Though I feel like the first scenario is more brutal, imagine you go visit your friend and not only are they dead but they were sentenced to death for a crime you know damn well they did not commit and everyone else is rejoicing.

Rejoicing that they're gone. Rejoicing at the fact that they all had KILLED them. Did Yuu know this was going to happen? If they did why had they not told them?! (they will never know, no one ever will because no one ever asked when they were alive if they were alright and they sure as hell will never get an answer because Yuu is dead and they are gone. Forever. )

Ah tragedy annon, my Billy Shakes if you will, this made me THINK think. Doomed (hehe dyuumed) by the narrative is such a sexy trope. "If you were dead at the end of the story you were dead since the beginning" my beloved.

The main thing that made me think is that in country's that have the death penalty there's typically a lengthy appeals process + a ban on sentencing minors to it, even if they were charged as an adult, that makes it hard for me to see that being Yuu’s situation. That being said I agree that would be an awful, awful thing to come see. I could see someone like Malleus, who hates seeing other people happy when he isn't and is prone to causing storm with his magic, going full Netflix Castlevania and starting an apocalypse in Yuu's world while bringing their body home to be laid in state in Briar Valley. It's his right as King of the Abyss after all. Someone like Riddle might try proving your innocence, thinking about how restoring your good name is all he can do while the Octatrio extract their own kind of justice.

The apocalypse Yuu scenarios are ones I like but haven't played around with much just because post apocalyptic settings aren't my jam but! I could see there being a lot of anger at this Yuu for not telling them their situation. Of course now that the boys are older, they can reflect on their behavior and know why Yuu said nothing. But it's easier to blame Yuu at first than accept that they're grieving. It would take them a long time to work through that I think.

My personal preference for scenarios like these involve Yuu being mortally injured before coming to Twisted Wonderland, either in an accident or an attack, that results in their death when they return. I've also played around with terminal illness that's temporarily cured by going to Twisted Wonderland (my own health issues have made me like that less :/) that Yuu isn't recovered from when they return. Either way Yuu is dead when their friends finally figure out a way to get to their world and they have no way of being there for them. And they have no one to blame but themselves... unless.

Unless...

Maybe they could re-set time again?

#<3 asks #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst yuu #i like the idea of yuu being a murder victim whose case is currently going unsolved and they're just like #nonchalant about it #“i hope i get on buzzfeed unsolved”#“wait they don't do that anymore”#“hope i get on watcher”#“you hope you get what now”#I'm actually working on one cater fic that sort of takes that concept #and have a scene outlined with vil that deals with that too #but idk if i want that to be the point of the fic or if it would go in his “first impressions” fic #tragedy annon

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officerjennie · 1 year

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For a rainy day :)

Lambert hugging someone awkwardly? (3?) Whoever you want that someone to be 😉

No CWs. Lambert is a disaster. Lambskier. Taglist at the bottom!

Lambert didn't do hugs.

Namely, he didn't do touching. Of any sort. The thought made his skin crawl, his face twist into itself, and just the thought of all the gooey feelings that were usually attached to hugging made it all even worse.

That said, he wasn't sure what else he could do when Jaskier was giving him that look.

Somewhere along the way, the bard had attached himself to Lambert's side. A barnacle of a human, suction cupped to him, traipsing along the path in Lambert's wake despite the amount of times Lambert had thrown his boots at him. For all the years Lambert had made fun of Geralt for being stuck with him, destiny or karma or whatever bullshit must have been getting back at him, because Lambert could not shake the damned bard no matter how hard he tried.

And he mainly tried because he liked Jaskier's company. Didn't do for a witcher to get attached to a human, after all.

But he tried and failed, and hated every time Jaskier gave him that look - though there were a dozen 'that look's that made Lambert snarl or storm off away from the bard. Like the one where Jaskier's eyes lit up at whatever story Lambert was telling, or the one where Jaskier's face turned haunted and dangerous when someone said something snide about witchers.

Or the one where Jaskier's whole face softened, and his voice turned quiet, when Lambert stumbled back into their camp bleeding.

Right at that moment, he hated the tears in Jaskier's eyes, and he couldn't run away from them.

He'd caused them. Worst of all, he hadn't caused them by being mean. All he'd done was replace Jaskier's leather bound notebook, the one the damned idiot had dropped in the river the week before and had spent at least a good hour wading around in the water for. And it hadn't even been out of the graciousness of his heart, nor because he felt bad for him when all Jaskier had to scribble on were spare sheets of paper he picked up off of the streets when they passed through a town.

...okay maybe he had been trying to cheer the bard up. His moping was worse than his cheer, and it grated on Lambert's nerves in a way that was dangerously close to suggesting he was fond of him.

So he'd bought him a notebook. And Jaskier had started to sniff, and tear up, and barely managed to whisper out a hoarse "thank you", and Lambert didn't know what to do.

The first thing that came to mind was hug him. He didn't know why, he hated hugs, but it seemed like the right thing to do. Jaskier was tactile, always running his hands over soft things or worrying his thumbs over rough surfaces to feel their texture. Fuck, he'd hug a stranger if they were kind enough to him, and Lambert could see him squirming in place, hands clutching the leather notebook and his coat swaying behind him.

He wanted a hug. Was holding himself back from flinging his arms around the witcher because as much as Jaskier wasn't the greatest with boundaries he knew which ones to keep and which ones he could push.

And Lambert didn't know what to do except hug him. So he did.

Jaskier let out a small eep as Lambert put his arms around him, holding the bard loosely and glaring off to the side like the wall had personally offended him. He couldn't help but stiffen and grind his teeth, and Jaskier just held his breath, not moving an inch as they stood there in complete silence.

It was awful. Lambert hated every second of it. And then Jaskier slowly wrapped his arms around Lambert's back, and Lambert hated it for an entirely different reason.

"Thank you, truly."

Lambert growled, feeling heat building on his cheeks, and he wanted nothing more than to bolt and never see the bard again.

And also wanted to hold him closer, and wanted to kiss him until Jaskier lost his words and just shut up for once.

"Alright, that's enough, shut up about it." Lambert wriggled right out of the hug and bodily held Jaskier at arms length for a moment, glaring at him though it didn't even make the bard flinch. He then huffed and dropped his arms, turning on his heel and snatching up his swords to go find something to kill.

"Should I wait up for you?" Jaskier called out, his voice still touched with softness, and Lambert needed to run before that made him think too much on whatever feelings were rattling around in his chest.

"Don't make me knock you out," he snapped, and jumped out the window before Jaskier could say anything else.

He hated hugs. He hated touching. And he hated how Jaskier made him want to admit he was lying.

@fontegagrilledcheese @damnbert @mothmanismyuncle @geraltrogerericduhautebellegarde @jaskierswolf @oldandkinky @blooodymoon @kan0chan @silvermintnightprincess @flowercrown-bard @sharinalein @concussed-dragon @hayleynzlive @feral-jaskier @sweetiepieplum @stonedstargazer666 @deafeningnightcollection-things @luteandsword @kmuir1 @little-boats-on-a-lake @dani-dandelino @rurousha @renewlucifer

#lambskier #lambert #jaskier #the witcher #mywriting #fanfiction #witcher #lambert x jaskier #jaskier x lambert #lambert/jaskier #jaskier/lambert #witcher fic #witcher fanfic #witcher fanfiction #the witcher fic #the witcher fanfic #the witcher fanfiction

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red-dead-do-over246 · 1 year

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Okay, I LOOOOOVE your writing.

I feel like I check your page all the time for updates.

Can I request Micah x f!Reader where perhaps, micah and reader go on a trip and reader runs into Amos Bell? And it doesn’t go well. Like reader runs right into Amos and is kinda shocked by the family resemblance but it also makes reader anxious because she knows about the letter between the brothers. Whatever else chaos and fluff can ensue!

Thank you!

Thank you!! I'm sorry if updates ever take a while! Hope you enjoy!💖

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Amos Bell

You and Micah go on a supply run, and that’s when you run into his infamous brother. Things go south real quick.

You and Micah were in Saint Denis at the moment. Dutch had asked you guys to go into town and collect some things since Arthur was busy. You didn’t mind the city, but Micah absolutely loathed it. It was crowded, loud, and a hell of a lot harder to rob someone.

Plus, you never knew who you were going to run into to.

“I hate this damn place.” Micah muttered as you guys rode through the streets. You were sitting behind him on Baylock, the horse just as anxious as his rider as he moved through the crowded streets. He tossed his head every now and then, causing Micah to curse under his breath.

“We’ll be out shortly if you keep your mind to the task at hand.” You told him, not really minding Saint Denis, but also finding it a bit unbearable at some points. After all, you guys weren’t innocent people.

Soon, he halted the horse outside the gunsmith. It was ammo the camp was low on.

“You wait out here. I’ll only be a minute.” Micah told you as he helped you dismount Baylock. You nodded, placing your hands on his shoulders as you slid of the saddle and onto the stoney path. After looking around to make sure you were going to be alright, Micah gave you a kiss on the cheek and went inside the store.

You were left with the horse.

As you waited though, you decided it wouldn’t be so bad just to wander a little. You would keep Baylock in sight just in case he came out and wondered where the hell you went. But in such a public place, you weren’t worried about anything bad happening. You walked a couple paces down the street and looked around in awe at all the industry.

However, you were so in depth with your thoughts that you bumped into someone.

“You alright, miss?” A familiar sounding voice said to you. Looking up, you couldn’t help but feel Deja vu because the man before you looked like someone you knew very well. Blonde hair, blue eyes, and a tough stature about him. However, there was also a soft sort of glow, but there was no mistaking the resemblance.

He looked just like Micah.

“Yeah...who are you?” You asked him after he helped steady you from the collision. He was very respectful, and that was nothing against the man you were with now. But you noticed how thoughtful he was, making sure you were okay.

“Amos Bell.” He told you without hesitation. Very different from Micah, which didn’t surprise you. However, you were shocked to see his brother here at all. Didn’t he live in California? By the sea? According to Micah he did. Why was he here?

That caused another fear to rise in you. If he saw Micah...there would be blood.

“Bell...I know your brother.” You said without thinking. Yes, you knew about the letter. Yes, you knew all about the feud between them, and how Amos promised to kill Micah next time he saw him. However, they were still brothers, right? Perhaps things wouldn’t go so bad.

“My brother...? What did he do to you?!” The reaction from Amos is what you should’ve expected. He blew up, immediately pulling you close in a defensive manner. With a wife and daughters that he vows to protect from Micah, he figured that any situation his brother finds with a woman is not consented.

Amos doesn’t even know you or the situation.

“Nothing bad...we just kind of...well...” Your heart raced as you pictured Micah running into this situation. Seeing his brother (who wanted him dead) holding you back like you were some victim. Guns would be blazing for sure.

“You should stay away from him regardless...he’s a snake. He’ll stab you in the back.” He said to you, releasing you slightly and allowing you to move. Looking into his familiar eyes, you realized he was speaking from experience.

Perhaps this feud went deeper than you thought...

But before you could say anything, Amos reached for his gun and fired at something behind you. Your heart rate skyrocketed as a sickening feeling reached your stomach. There was only one reason he would fire in a place like Saint Denis.

And when you turned around, you realized you had every right to feel anxious.

As soon as that bullet was fired, several more were fired back. You quickly fell out of the way, and that’s when you noticed Micah had both his revolvers out and was shooting back, more so out of retaliation than by the assaulter himself. But when their eyes did lock, it was like two feral animals were released.

Several shots and cusses were shouted over the screaming of the public.

You were the only one brave enough to stay quiet and set yourself outside of the gunfire. All the hatred that the brothers, especially Amos, held for each other was shown clearly though this spectacle. Some bodies dropped, but a lot of blood was spilt.

“What the hell are you doing here?” Micah would shout as both sides seemed to run out of ammo. At that point, they approached each other, apparently ready to beat the shit out of each other.

“My wife wanted me to get her something!” Amos shouted back and Micah scoffed. They soon faced each other.

“Of course she did! That’s what makes you so weak, Amos! But...” Just as it looked like one was about to punch the other, Micah lessened his aggression.

“But I’m starting to understand...understand why you do it...” Micah couldn’t even believe he was saying this, and he was so ready for his brother to not care at all and punch him regardless of his words. However, Amos seemed to hesitate.

“What do you mean?” He asked suspiciously, eyeing his older brother. Micah huffed a little, looking away and so forth before finally making eye contact with you. He waved you over, and you sheepishly approached from your hiding spot to come towards him.

“I got a special woman of my own.” Micah confessed, causing you to blush as he rested an arm around you shoulders. Amos didn’t believe this one bit.

“He ain’t forcing you, is he?” The younger Bell asked you and you shook your head. Normally, Amos wouldn’t even believe that, but there was honesty in your eyes. Looking back at his brother, Micah gave him an offended stare.

“Wow...never thought I would see this coming...” Amos said and Micah bit back a scowl. But still, there was a warmness in his chest. This was probably the first time in years that he and his brother actually seemed to not hate each other.

But then angry shouts were heard coming down from one of the streets.

“Your wife ain’t gonna like this...” Micah chuckled when he heard the familiar sounds of the law approaching. Amos scowled at him, not wanting to have been brought back into a situation like this. He blamed his brother, with his personality making Amos wanting to kill him desperately.

Yet here they were, talking like normal.

“We need to leave. Now.” You told the men while eyeing around anxiously. The two of you were only supposed to get ammo, not have a shootout. Micah whistled for Baylock and Amos, who came without a horse, quickly snatched one that was nearby.

“Been with me for less than two minutes and you’re already stealin’.” Micah said with a laugh as you and him hopped on his horse.

“Shut up.” His brother replied as he himself jumped on the stolen horse. Together, you all began to ride out of town as the law pursued you. You held onto Micah tight as the horse galloped hard.

You knew there was still a deep rift between the brothers, but you caught sight of Micah’s bright smile and laughter as you guys ran out together. To him, this must feel like old times. You knew Micah really did love his brother, and you felt a bit bad that Amos couldn’t feel the same.

But you understood that the family has its problems that you shouldn’t intervene in.

When you guys lose the law, Amos and Micah will go their own ways again. At least, you hoped that Amos would just let him go this one time. You knew Micah would be a bit mopey after this.

But for now, it was nice to see him so happy to be back in the saddle with his brother.

#red dead redemption 2 #red dead redemption 2 x reader #rdr2 #micah bell #micah x reader #micah bell x reader #rdr2 micah bell #micah bell imagine

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romajuliettemai · 7 months

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The Archer-Rosalind Lang Lyrical Breakdown & Lyrical Relationship

Combat, I'm ready for combat I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

To me, this shows Rosalind always constantly prepping herself for some sort of battle, whether it's a physical battle or something mental that she has to fight. She's always kind of on her toes now and scared to do anything at all after the incident, since she doesn't want to accidentally screw up again. This is also kind of like her preparing herself to almost sort of fight Orion in FHH.

'Cause cruelty wins in the movies I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

Rosalind is a character who's relatively cold in a sense- it's just her nature. She's not a very warm person, she likes to be sarcastic, and we love it. But obviously a lot of it unfortunately comes from her constantly guarding her heart and being on high alert all the time, too scared to show kindness to too many people in case they take advantage of her again.

She had so many things she wanted to say to Orion, which were a lot of her just calling him dumb and such, but we know she wanted to say things after he confessed his love too. She just never got the chance.

Easy they come, easy they go I jump from the train, I ride off alone

It seems that almost everyone she loves comes and goes like it's nobody's problem. She is always left alone. Dimitri left. Juliette left. Dao Feng left. Now Orion is gone. So many people lie to her as well. As soon as she trusts them, they reveal themselves as some great actor. Which is kind of going to happen again when Juliette reveals herself, since a good number of people besides Rosalind knew.

I connect the train part to the train scene that opens FLF. She literally climbs to the top of the train. But she's alone there as well, alone to bear witness to the unforgiving night.

I never grow up, it's getting so old Help me hold onto you

She's permenantly stuck at 19. She doesn't age. But it's just getting old. She's stuck in a stage of her life where everything went wrong, and it's just an awful reminder.

Again, reinstating, that so many people she loves leave her.

I've been the archer I've been the prey Who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay?

She's been the hunter (assassin) and she's been the hunted (victim) in many different scenarios.

She's wondering why so many people seem to want to leave her. No one wants to stay with her anymore. They all just leave.

Dark side, I search for your dark side But what if I'm alright, right, right, right here? And I cut off my nose just to spite my face Then I hate my reflection for years and years

Rosalind is scouring for the bad in people often, because she's scared of getting hurt again. She's looking for something that will turn her away from them. Something that will give them away for being some sort of evil mastermind so she has a reason to walk away before it's too late.

We know she doesn't like to see herself much anymore, since she's stuck in her 19 year old self, trapped in time, and unable to escape all of her mistakes. She is simply self-destructive, and does not like herself one bit.

I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost The room is on fire, invisible smoke And all of my heroes die all alone Help me hold onto you

She doesn't sleep anymore- always awake, dwelling on how she could have changed the past. What she could have done differently. And the memories haunt her. Memories of an explosion- smoke and fire.

To her, her very on cousin exists now in a memory of ash and smoke. Juliette is long passed to her still, since she doesn't know the truth. Juliette was kind of a hero to her as well- even though she didn't 'die' alone. But Rosalind wants someone to be able to hold onto when she goes as well. She doesn't want to lose anyone anymore.

But it's too late. Orion is gone for now.

Screaming, who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay?

This kind of reflects her frustration with wondeirng why everyone always wants to leave and never wants to just stay in her life.

(I see right through me, I see right through me)

'Cause they see right through me They see right through me They see right through Can you see right through me? They see right through They see right through me I see right through me I see right through me

But so many people can see through her facade if they look close enough. She pretends she is okay, when she really is not.

This also reminds me of the scene with when Orion is seeing the similarities between her and Celia after he found out who she truly was.

This is also a reflection of her constant anxiety and worry about so many things. She's constantly on her toes, constantly anxious, constantly scared. It's trauma.

All the king's horses, all the king's men Couldn't put me together again 'Cause all of my enemies started out friends Help me hold onto you

She's like a broken vase. It's difficult to put her together again. She's broken to what she thinks is beyond repair.

So many people she thought as friends or loved ones ended up being enemies in a sense. Like Dimitri, who was only using her. Celia, who isn't her enemy, but is in a different political faction, the one to which her faction is fighting. Now like Orion, who was taken by her side and is now being used as an experiment.

Who could stay? Who could stay? Who could stay? You could stay You could stay

She just wants someone to stay with her. To be with her. To not leave her again.

Combat, I'm ready for combat

This is almost a full circle moment if we're going by the order of the story with the order of the lyrics. Because at the beginning she was ready to fight and protect her heart, and at the end, when Orion was taken from her, she's now ready to fight again. It's kind of like a restart to the cycle.

I also generally associate these lyrics with scenes in FLF, but I just didn't feel like stating them cause that would take too much time and make for a way too long post.

(I think I've been working on this post for around half an hour and I desperately need sleep so enjoy this lyrical breakdown!)

#chloe gong #these violent delights #our violent ends #foul lady fortune #foul heart huntsman #secret shanghai #last violent call #secret shanghai finale #secret shanghai series #rosalind lang #the archer #taylor swift #lyrical breakdown #lyrical breakdown analysis + relation to rosalind lang

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mymarifae · 2 years

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what do you think about the new girl page? seeing lots of divisive opinions on that one

mm. mmmmmm. hoooooooo boy ok let's talk about this. i guess.

to sum it up succinctly? it strikes me as bizarre. like, just bizarre. it's weird on multiple levels and fucks with established characterizations of susie, kris, AND noelle. it's messy and i think it was a poor choice. and for now i'm tentatively bonking toby over the head with a hammer (i will get into why it's tentative for now, rest assured) and i'm also bonking everyone praising it and immediately incorporating it into their views of the characters.

to break it down further...?

in and of itself, it's like. alright, we've got this indirect and yet very clear confirmation that susie was adopted/temporarily housed by (and is still bouncing around in the foster care system) a human family and has/had a "mother" who abuses/d her. so she's lashing out. she's redirecting her pain and trauma onto the one human in hometown. who was also adopted. by a family of monsters. a family that is kind and loving. that's not fair, why didn't she get to be a dreemurr, why did kris steal her chance, this isn't fair this isn't fucking fair-

she's a hurt, scared kid. and i don't necessarily think this is a. well i don't want to say "i don't think this is a bad scene to canonize" because it is a bad scene - it's uncomfortable and it caused me a lot of pain to read. but it's not like unforgivable, and it doesn't make susie a bad person.

i will never hold a grudge against a kid for lashing out when they were never taught love and kindness and acceptance. i will never hold a grudge against a child for being scared and hurt and so so so so angry at the unfairness of the world.

my issues with it arise from the way it just... doesn't... make sense. if susie was truly so horrible to kris, why were they so quick to trust her? hell, why was she so eager to be their friend? there should be a hell of a lot more tension between them. the things susie said to kris were genuinely pretty awful and can't be swept under the rug Just Like That.

it also completely contradicts the way chapter 1 is set up, where we slowly piece together that susie never actually bullied anyone. sure, the way the blog post is written makes it sound like she only went after kris when they were alone, but that kind of visceral hate isn't going to go completely unnoticed. i mean, noelle picked up on it before seeing the classroom incident, yeah? i feel like someone would have said something. and i feel like MK especially would have made one off-hand comment about how much susie seems to hate kris Specifically instead of just repeatedly saying that they've never seen her actually do anything bad, but, b-but, BUT she still sucks kris lol.

also, noelle's "i always thought susie can't be that bad!" comment makes noooooooo fucking sense if she saw this unfold. because she literally saw that yeah. she's that bad.

it puts kris and susie's current easy natural loving friendship in a very weird light, and i very much dislike how many people are jumping to accept it. yes, i also love depth in characters' relationships. i love layers and complexities and tensions.

depth =/= toxic. and that's what this blog post does. it makes it toxic. it makes noelle's crush on susie toxic and uncomfortable as well. (seriously: "maybe i should buy apple shampoo so she bullies me instead? XD" ?????????????)

now you will note that i said i am Tentatively bonking toby over the head with a hammer. there is another reason why i don't like people jumping to incorporate this whole mess into their understanding of kris and susie's friendship:

... how do you know this is a scene from our game's current timeline?

it's pretty obvious deltarune has some fuckery going on irt timelines and resets similarly to undertale. on that same note, i've always loved how quickly susie and kris Click, but it has always made me raise an eyebrow. because that is not two teens slowly realizing they have more common ground than they thought and slowly letting their guards down around each other. that is two already best friends reuniting.

the way i've come to understand it is this: in the very, very, very first instance of "deltarune", it took kris and susie a very long time to become friends. BECAUSE of what happened in the classroom and whatever else. they only began to trust each other a heartbeat away from the end of the world. and then they fail. and then the timeline resets. and they do it again.

and the... feelings, the vague memories and the déjà vu. they linger. distantly, susie remembers a time when they were almost friends. and as the timelines go on, again and again, they just build up. things begin to change. their stories become brighter and brighter, despite ultimately ending in the tragedy that [gaster] wishes to prevent. until we get to this point where susie feels like she should be furious with kris for Something, but she can't bring herself to. and thus our current timeline, the beginning of Our Game, is born.

i stand by my theory that kris and susie's friendship will be what prevents the roaring or the angel's heaven or whatever other apocalyptic events ralsei decides to tell us about later. the red soul's intervention has nothing to do with it. they have lived countless lives together. they know now, just intrinsically, that there's no one they can trust more than each other. they are best friends till the end.

and by god is it going to be a happy one.

toby still gets a bonk over the head if this is the case btw because i ultimately disagree with using "ogh. timelines." as character development but i'll accept it if it means this stupid blog post isn't real (anymore). otherwise, he is going to need to pull some fucking magic out of his ass to explain this properly to me because it literally demolishes 2 chapters of build up and development ABFNDBDKGKFGKFJKGKDG 👍🏾

#i love deltarune very much but i do think toby's writing in many aspects is lacking #ESPECIALLY in terms of timelines and the red soul and player involvement and like. whatever. perhaps he will tie it all in by ch7 but...#as of now that is both undertale and deltarune's biggest weakness. you can twist however you want #but a from a purely canonical viewpoint it doesn't make sense. it Doesn't. we are all extrapolating and guessing and it's annoying #toby is amazing at characters and character interactions and humor and relationships. he is not so amazing at the . meta nonsense.#i'm serious ddlc is the only game that i've played that handled the incorporation of the literal player decently #everyone else just does this weird unexplained confusing Mess and uhghhh. stop itttt stop trying to be 'cool' and 'smart'#just letyour stories be stories. they are real enough as they are. i promise.#anyways... yeah this wasn't it #mailbox

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libras-idol-hours · 2 years

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Fluff Alphabet - Chiaki Morisawa

chiaki is love, chiaki is life. and yes this is a Long Boi so here's a cut for you lol.

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Chiaki loves taking you on dates, or when you drag him off on one! He loves planned outings like amusement parks and ice skating rinks and hiking parks, but… he also likes the more casual outings: When you take him to your favorite cafe after work, hanging out with him after basketball practice, inviting him over at your place to cook and watch tv, and then there’s the silly texts late at night! … Okay, Chiaki just really likes spending time with you in any capacity. But there is something about the big “dates with a capital D” that give him tons of butterflies and nervous yet excited energy. It’s like a whole day thing — picking you up, deciding what you’ll do, getting some food afterward and the enjoyable walk/ride home.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

While he adores many things about his partner, Chiaki especially appreciates one who has a lot of kindness, energy and/or cheerfulness. He just feeds off of it and it gets him even bubblier. A more lowkey and quiet person ends up being someone he can wind down and relax with. Really, he’ll swoon about anything involving his s/o. Chiaki really appreciates a smile (even moreso if it’s rare for them, or if he caused it!) and a bright laugh.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

When he sees his partner in that kind of state, stress shoots through him. He immediately jumps into action, wanting to take his partner somewhere safe and private first (if they were in public) and while he'd begin to ask if they're alright... Eventually he'd just want to hold them. Chiaki would take their hands and squeeze and reassure them he'll take care of it... even if he has no idea what to do. He wants to stay close and really doesn't want to be sent away! And for days afterward, Chiaki will silently fret, texting his partner often and thinking of nice things to bring them.

If his partner is having more of a bad mental health day or just feeling blue, he'll immediately suggest going somewhere fun. Chiaki wants them to smile again! He'll be extra gentlemanly and it's obvious he's trying very hard to provide distractions.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

Well, once the relationship gets serious (which, Chiaki is really more of a committed longterm person...) then he's having all sorts of intrusive thoughts about living together and then marriage?? and just. His line of thought is very predictable. Chiaki thinks of how they'll be together to visit this place or that, how they can make breakfast for each other or do laundry together or watch TV late at night and fall asleep on the couch! The thoughts both fluster and bolster him because they just feel right. He starts to be unable to envision the future without his s/o.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

Chiaki is not 'passive' in that he doesn't care or make decisions, but that he's easily strung along by his partner and their desires. He wants to please them above everything, so he'll do as they say, even if his own energy and excitement means sometimes he's dragging them along somewhere. Overall Chiaki will put his own needs before his partner (for better and for worse) and tends to place them above himself.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Absolutely - Chiaki hates the few fights you get into and it makes him feel awful all day. He's nervous and obviously distracted and will just apologize immediately. He'll actually start to get stomach cramps! So please have mercy on him and talk over the disagreement/argument. He wants to make up and apologize as soon as possible.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

He's just grateful for his partner's sheer existence and love and just! Everything! And he says it very loudly and proudly. Chiaki loves whatever his partner does for him (even if it's something they might consider simple or average), because they did it! Especially thoughtful gestures get him emotional, like making a gift or surprising him with a homecooked meal after a show. He'll just give them a huge hug right there in front of everyone.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

He's pretty awful at hiding secrets in general, and this is doubly so for his partner. Chiaki will probably just say it without thinking while talking with them, or if he's excited about something and it just blurts out. If it someone else's secret he feels awful, but he's generally better about keeping those. And while he's good at sharing his positive feelings, sometimes he feels bad for sharing his gloomier or frustrated thoughts. It's good to remind him that those are important to talk about too, and he's not being 'troublesome' for venting.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

This might depend on his partner! Chiaki's bright and energetic personality could certainly help a shy or quieter person come out of their shell. He also unfailingly wants to help others when they're troubled, even moreso if they're close to him, so Chiaki would already be helping his partner with any problems they might have - even if they don't ask. I mean, he's absolutely going to help without anyone asking...

For the partner themselves, it would be beneficial if they could kept Chiaki slow down and gather his thoughts, especially when he's overworked. Sometimes he pushes too hard for the sake of others and he won't even consider the fact he's tired. A partner whose steadier and more level-headed could help him pace himself better.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Chiaki doesn't think he's jealous, but that's only because he struggles to put a name to the feeling he experiences when his partner is cozy with someone. If they're Chiaki's friend or part of Ryuseitai, no problem! But if they're a stranger or someone he just doesn't trust? Yeah, he assumes that gnawing, frustrated feeling in his chest is just bad vibes he's getting off the person.

He doesn't confront his partner or the person directly. Chiaki lingers close, impatiently waiting with a clearly concerned expression on his face (which he doesn't notice he's making, of course) and once the person is gone... he immediately brightens and suggest they go do something, or actually deflates and expresses his concern over that "suspicious person". Some days it really bothers him, especially if his partner has long-term contact with that person through a job or school.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Well, before his partner, he probably had zero experience ... they're likely his first relationship. Chiaki's first attempts are clumsy but the enthusiasm is there! He'll shyly listen to his partner's suggestions to improve and if they actually want to practice?? He's so red-faced it's not even funny. Give him a minute to recover from that request.

The first kiss was probably intitated by his partner, just because Chiaki wouldn't have the nerve to do it himself - but he'd often stand very close, watching their lips, anticipation in his eyes, cheeks flushing a bit - and he insists everything's fine! He's not thinking about anything in particular! It's a mix of not wanting to overstep his bounds and just generally being unsure of what to do. After the first kiss and time with his partner, he has no trouble initiating the kisses.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

First the dork would have to realize his feelings are romantic in nature and not just platonic or wanting to protect the person he adores. Then it's a long time of thinking what to do or say! Chiaki definitely overthinks it. He'd be pretty dense about if the person even likes him back (even if it's obvious...) so he's also worrying about that. It would probably take Kanata or Kaoru to help him settle down and reassure him that his crush definitely likes him too - it's just taken him forever to realize it, lol. As much as Chiaki attempts to play something, what'll actually happen is he just gets overwhelmed with his feelings and blurts it out to them one day when they're alone.

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

Chiaki would love to get married! Less because of any religious reason or serious planning, but because the symbol of love and commitment just makes him really happy. He knows his partner loves him and they don't need a whole song and dance ceremony, but he'd at least want to get a ring just to express his own commitment and feelings. This would be after dating for a while (probably several years) and only if his s/o is comfortable with it. Chiaki would have daydreams about it, get distracted about how cute his s/o would look in formalwear and probably run into a door. A wedding/bridal/groom photoshoot might actually end him because then it's all his daydreams right in front of him and he just. Can't even.

Even just getting the ring would be a lot of nerves, so Chiaki would appreciate seriously discussing a wedding or marriage beforehand. Again, he wants to make his partner comfortable. Regardless if he proposes or his partner does, he will be crying. He'll sniffle and cry through a ceremony, too.

Honestly even if marriage changed little between you two (still living together, still going on dates, still in the same apartment) he'd still get sentimental and sweet about any wedding photos or the rings or "your song" coming on the radio. He's just a sweetie like that.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

Initially, he used the usual "-chan/-kun" suffixes, something he already used when him and his partner were friends (but now it feels more... personal?? He can't explain why. Then it was the first name basis once they got more serious. But... he really can't resist cute nicknames. He actually short-circuits the first time his s/o casually uses "darling" or some cutesy form of his name. Like, he might run into something or just stare blankly before his whole face lights up. Chiaki does the usual cute nicknames (sweetheart and darling are his favorite!), though he texted them first because he was a bit shy about saying it out loud. Then he was able to say it when it's just him and his partner - it's important! Yes he's overthinking. Meanwhile he doesn't care what his partner calls him in public. He immediately responds and comes running to them, much to everyone's amusement and exasperation.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

Yes, it's actually possible for Chiaki to be even more energetic - he's practically bursting at the seams when his crush/lover is around. Sometimes it makes him more distracted, but sometimes (like before a big show) it gives him a boost to help him focus even better! It's like his partner is a battery, and he just soaks up all the love and encouragement they're willing to give.

Before he and his partner were together, that energy could be a lot more nervous, translating to Chiaki wanted to dote on them and help them as much as possible. There must be something he can do - carry something? Deliver something? And if he got a compliment and thank you, he's blushing even more. Yes, it's so painfully obvious. What's even better is when he doesn't realize his own crush, or that the crush is reciprocated! Yeah it's ridiculous to watch. Everyone knows it.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

It's not that Chiaki is trying to brag, but he just loves his partner so much and he's so proud of them! He'll gladly chatter on about them and show pictures and just. It can get exhausting, LOL. If his partner is embarrassed by such things, they have to remind Chiaki to dial it back, because he'll just keep going. It's why PDA makes him so happy; he really loves being able to openly express that feeling. Even if it's just handholding, or linking arms, Chiaki is really happy with affection. Perhaps the fact he's an idol and has to be careful with such things is why he's so clingy in private - sometimes it's frustrating when he's holding hands or hugging, and his partner separates suddenly because there might be a camera around. That's also why he doesn't mind cheek or forehead kisses in 'safe' places, like around friends or inside an empty practice room. He hates the idea of having no affection unless a place is absolutely private.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

Chiaki is very protective and perceptive to when his partner isn't feeling right or something is making them uncomfortable. He'll escort them places, text to make sure they're safe or feeling alright, and picking up when an interaction or place is making them nervous. For all the things he can be dense about, his partner's safety is certainly not one of them. Chiaki is certainly tall and strong enough to help them feel safe, too.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

As much as Chiaki worries he's not romantic enough for his partner because he's had so little experience in that department... Yeah, there's no need to worry. Chiaki is incredibly loving, considerate and protective. While some of his gestures may be clumsy because he's inexperienced, he's the definition of "it's the thought that counts". Getting his partner pretty flowers on a whim, taking them to a fun place they might like, sending encouraging texts when he knows they're having a bad day, ALWAYS sending a goodnight and good morning text (in addition to lots of affection in person!)... yes, he's very romantic and wants nothing more than his partner's happiness. While he likes to do things he heard are "traditionally" romantic, Chiaki also finds surprising things to do and places to be because his idol work takes him to just interesting places.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

Oh, he's his partner's #1 fan, even if they aren't an idol! He'll always believe in them and support them best he can, and he says it often! Doesn't matter if it's delivering a meal late at night or running an errand they need, Chiaki will always make time to help him partner and always tells them how proud he is.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Chiaki really enjoys finding new places and experiences, and wanting to bring his partner to them. It doesn't have to be anything big or fancy, it could be as simple as "Let's try this weird dessert!" or "I've never been camping here, let's do it!". Chiaki doesn't mind routine - it makes him feel cozy! - but he's generally adventurous and curious, and he likes experiencing new things with his partner.

Now, when it comes to 'spicing up' a relationship ... Yeah, he's so far out of his depth. He'll let his partner take the lead on that one.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

Oh, Chiaki is incredibly empathetic! Ironically he didn't realize his partner's crush before they got together, but he's always been good at noting when his s/o is feeling off or is upset. When they're dating, Chiaki picks up things they like to eat, to wear, what will make them smile... just without thinking, he remembers their preferences very well. It's great for birthdays or even just picking up things from the store - he's already got things they like.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

Oh, his partner is SO important to him. Chiaki adores them as much as Ryuseitai!! His heart is so full when he's around them!! And his partner will always know his feelings, because he's glad to express his love and pride and appreciation! Just like his dear friends, he'll do anything for his partner.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

Chiaki really likes when his partner asks about what book he's reading, or suggests something! It's a hobby he doesn't always have time for so it's fun to discuss it. When he and his partner eventually live together, he just melts when he stays up in bed to read and his partner falls asleep snuggled up to him. He might actually die from happiness. When he has to travel for something, he'll actually struggle to sleep because his partner isn't there to fall asleep on his shoulder while he reads.

Also, as much as he hates horror movies... It's not... terrible when he's watching one with his partner (as long as the lights stay on!!). He actually kind of likes clinging to them and being comforted... it's nice to be spoiled. It makes suffering from the movie almost worth it! .... Kind of.

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

A b s o l u t e l y. Moreso in private, naturally. Chiaki loves any and all affection! Handholding, cuddling, kisses! Being an idol and public figure means he has to control himself or not do it at all, which is just awful. Chiaki gets really attention-starved when he doesn't get his daily 200cc of physical affection from his partner. It's so comforting to be wrapped in a tight hug, to receive a kiss out of nowhere, or even getting his hand squeezed for a moment before having to part. He will absolutely open his arms while while his partner rushes at him and nearly tackles him in a hug.

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

When his partner is gone on a trip, Chiaki's like a dog moping at the door. He texts them so much, then apologizes for all the texting. He jumps at the opportunity for a phone call and feels terrible when he misses one because he's working. His unitmates and friends can tell his partner is gone because he's moping and distracted, or doing more things than usual to keep his mind off missing them. Going home alone after they've been living together just sucks. He knows his partner is busy, but he really hopes they'll be home soon!!! If his partner has a pet or plants he'll take daily photos "we miss you!!!! do your best!!! 💖💖🌈⭐"

If he's the one traveling, there's still plenty of texting and phone calls! Timezones are the devil. He'll take lots of photos and give updates on what Ryuseitai is up to! If his partner got up really early or stayed up super late just to call him, he'd just melt and die from happiness. He's also the type to RUSH at his partner at the airport when he's coming back or they're arriving home.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

Yes and yes!!! Chiaki already does a lot for those he loves, and it's doubly so for his dear partner! Though they need to make sure he doesn't run himself ragged or he's not too hard on himself. He keeps putting Ryuseitai and his partner before himself, so it's important he rest. He needs to know he's doing enough and he's a great partner!

#chiaki morisawa x reader #enstars x reader #ensemble stars x reader #tumblr formatting really gonna make me murder someone huh #anyway... BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS

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tgirl user on this site like last december who calls herself a baeddal: i cant believe were getting villified for making jokes about force fem, let trans people live

the same tgirl seeing a few tboys experiment with a similar kink in the same way: uh dont you know the term autoandrophile was once used by PSYCHOLOGISTS to god forbid CALL WOMEN CRAZY? do you think women are CRAZY? also since we All Know being feminine can only ever be lesser and humiliating by liking forcemasc youre basically a woman hating sexist for not only viewing gender roles as black and white. Oh and since youre a trans man you clearly have not matured at all mentally or sexually beyond that one annoying 14 year old trans boy i still hold a gurdge over. Over theres butch lesbians in the forcemasc community? Well theyre okay because theyre women.

Alright well don't take what I said like that hahaha like idk who tf you're talking abt and I do see a lot of trans men bitching abt forcemasc. And cis women which is umm kind of special.

I understand what you're saying and inter community transphobia pisses me the fuck off but I mostly see the "men are evil and transitioning to male is evil" from cis women and these neofeminist environments mostly like i really dont think the heat youre experiencing is a tgirl invention. Like thats a cis pioneer lol

I do see a lot of trans women that are transphobic toward men and don't trust transmasc circles and like I understand some trans male circles have UNIQUE issues but like baeddel shit from tgirls... if I get tired of it I just turn my phone off LMAOO like this shit just does not fly or exist in real life

My whole thing is if you're gonna do the baeddel thing and hate men and say being a man is unethical whatever at least take care of your girls. Like I think I've experienced maybe one "baeddel" circle irl and it was in like a sheltered city bubble and it was just pretty normal transgender female drama like all these liberated queer people say they hate men and dickride them anyway. theyd just be dicks to trans men and dickride cis dudes. And they were even awful to other tgirls like you couldn't do anything and anger the fucking clique without somebody being like oh my god she was such a bitch like it really is ur own people LMAO but like I understand it just blew trying to hack it in those tboy and cis people spaces cus everyone was horrible to u for being transfem. Like they werent any less misogynistic. But then even in the transfem circle they also were not less misogynistic even if tgey talked all this shit abt men. transgender people are awful mostly because they're neurotic, it was rejection from other trans people that had these girls reacting with bullshit like that, I just don't want you responding to these wolf notes with more anger. Like let the fire die out. Please. Lol.

Dont read too much into internet drama especially, like this shit isnt real I think it gets so cutthroat cause a lot of people arent really trans or have trans communities outside of the internet unfortunately like the real world resources are not there and people are too eager to subsitute with tumblr. And I'm the same way like I'm a hick like my closest trans friend is a half hour away. Like just calm down cus if ur not calm ur not thinking.

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Engage's villain deep dive : Rafal, depressive atoning dragon

Oh boi, do you'all actually hate me or ... ? anyways, let's break him down.

But because of rules, spoliers ahead !!!

Rafal is one of the other Sombron/Xenobron's child and possibly an alternate version to one of Alear's half sibling in Elyos (though it's a bit of a touchy subject) , even if in this world he isn't family to his Alear.

Like all of Xenobron's children, he had a twin but this twin died a long time ago and when he was too young to remember so he was the only Fell child to be all alone in an environnement surronded by pair of twins. He became friends with his half brother, Nil, whom he strangely ressembled a whole lot. But during the parralel war of 1 000 Nil died in a battle and Rafal switched his place with him, making believe he died as he promised dying Nil to watch over Nel and that's what happenend, 1 000 years of assuming Nil's identity. One day, Xenobron noticed he was able to awake Emblems and approached him, promising him that he would become his heir and additionally, took advantage of this to curse the dragonstone he shared with Nel. Then once Altlear and Xenobron killed each other, operation ressurection of Papabron began and then it unpacks with the whole Fell xenologue events until Nel dies to save him and him, remorseful ends up a ressurection session like Lumimi did with Alear until she woke up 1 000 as atonement and the two move in our Elyos.

Alright, let's begin

1- Rafal is a shetty written villain/forced antagonist

If you want to explain Engage's internal writing problem, Rafal is probably an empitome for it. While his support proves him to be an excellent character, the DLC story is so lame that he is forced to be the antagonist although his motivations barely makes him one. Not to excuse his actions (since he himself refuse it) but it's probably because he is such a sheety villain he works so well as a redeeming one cause if there is one thing you can give him is that 1) he is actually a threat in the DLC (brrr;;;;; map 5) and also 2) he is a well written character when HE IS ALLOWED TO BE HIMSELF but we'll go through it once I am done explaining the crime he commited.

According to the devs and his support with Ivy, he didn't killed everyone but only 1) The royals to turn them into Corrupted, the only consenting victims being Ivyalt

And he also admitted to have killed all his remaining siblings

And he ... well cause Nel to die but she came back so... does that count ? idk

One thing for sure, he did a lot of awful thing he himself is ashamed of and once you beat the sheet out of him, he goes on redemption arc

Now one thing a lot of people wondered is : isn"t it a bit easy that Alear forgives him like this when he say stuff like that ?

Well, let's find out !

2- Rafal's way of speech.

Ok, so there's something important about this guy when we speaks of transalation. The localization tended to make him seems more arrogant in the eng compared to the jpn version because the jpn version can use prounons to convey Rafal's arrogance whereas the eng version has to rely on a choice of words rather snobbish in order to make him seem haughty. You probably had noticed that Y.Chang switches between two tones to signify that he is Nil or Rafal. Well, Takuya Eguchi does the same, but he also swtiches prounons. I really wished I could share the audio of the JPN dub but tumblr won't let me so I'll just link two video so you can compare how he speaks differently when he is Nil and when is Rafal.

When Rafal speaks as Nil, he uses boku/僕 i kanji form to showcase it's an adult man speaking as opposed to young boys who either uses katakana or hiragana, which is Nil's case when we see the recollections flashbacks as he speaks entirely in hiragana. Boku is considered to be a masculine way of saying I but is less informal or viritliy assertive as ore/俺 which is used by both Gregory and Griss, it is also considered to be a form used by character with a kind temparement so Rafal uses it whenever he speaks to impersonnates Nil due to wanting to fit with Nil's kind nature.

However, when Rafal speaks as himself, he uses ware/我 which is a peculiar case when speaking of japanese pronouns. It's an archaic form of refering to one self since it's more common in old japanese and it's use is more literary if anything, but to be fair, japanses in anime and video games and sons is drastically different then japanese spoken in real life. Regardless, it's a form that is often used by character who consider themselves important due to either being 1 000 year old or having the statuts of a royalitie or a kami. Rafal being a proud character, there is nothing surprising as him using prounons that makes him looks arrogant. However... guess what ? Sombron uses the same prounons as Rafal. Yep.

And that's not all. If you compare Rafal's way of speaking using a lot of "zo" and "ga", to Sombron's, you'll realize that Rafal speaks the exact same way as Sombron. The way someone speaks is a reflection of his own mind and apprehension of the world. When i said : "when HE IS ALLOWED TO BE HIMSELF" I am refering to the fact that in the whole Fell Xenologue he plays 2 role, and his speech reflects that. During the great portion of the Fell Xenologue plot he pretends to be Nil like he did for 1 000 years. But he also wasn't being himself during the second part and begining of the DLC since he was possesed/cursed (literaly this time) and because of this... he really does speak like Sombron

Doesn't that remind you of someone ? And while Sombron and Xenobron are different person and that they might have different objective, they still speak in a similar manner hence there is nothing surprising as Rafal saying things that are similar to our Sombron even if he isn't his actual dad but just the alternate version (please bear with me ? ik that the Fell Xenologue's plot is downright stopid but hey). Rafal is definitely emulating his father and in the game, it is portrayed as being due to Sombron's curse.

In the game during those scenes, he has the animation showing him bowing, like for when Veyle switched her personailty.

Alright, not to be that "JPN dub is superior to ENG dub" person because 1) it's false, 3H and Engage gave us impressive VA and Y.Chang is doing an amazing job but.... can we talk about how in this scene Takuya Eguchi looks like he is at the verge of his life ? I am serious, his acting makes Rafal's possesion sounds even more obvious then in the JPN dub . Not to mention, that the localization sorta missed the point because in the jpn he says "My chest hurts, always, always !!"

Yep you guessed it, that's why his chest hurts.

The fact that he speaks like Sombron, bore HIS wishes rather then his own, that even the dragon form he had looked quite similar to that of Sombron as opposed as his regular Fell Dragon form more alike to Nel shows that he is indeed under Sombron's influence, even more then the simple case of possesion

3- Possesion as a metaphor

Look, I am not saying that Fe is the kind of series where I expect the writer to use "possesion" as a symbolic device rather then a way to explain why they force a traumatized kid to be a forced antagonist and other then an obvious trope beloved by Kaga except instead of another damsel in distress, it's a pretty boi. (#RafalistheLyonarchetypeofEngage) However with the elements I mentionned earlier, it's obvious that the Sombron's spell goes along to show how a victim of parental abuse can be robbed of their agency and ends up interiozing and emphazing with their abusers, and in the case of Rafal, he is like Veyle since his long lasting abuse, inferiority complex, self validation issues and lack of love lead him to feel alone. Must I remind you that once he lost his twin he was all alone for a long time in an environnement consistuting in Fell children comploting against one another, making him an easy prey and he like Nil was traited as a failure except that Nil followed pretty much the same thing as Alcryst that is to say that his belief in being weak, he accepted it as truth and was rather self depricating, whereas Rafal never wanted to accept it and as a result, sought to prove his worth in return for a proof of acknowledgment. Like I mentionned in my Zephia dive about Sombron sharing his definition of family was like a "curse" that sealed Zephia's fate, Sombron telling Rafal how he would be a suitable heir for him was the curse as it was the proof of worth, the acknowledgement he was desesperately seeking for and even Nel's love wasn't enough because ...

4- Rafal has identity crisis and syndrome of the imposter

Must I remind you that Nil died when he was a CHILD. This means Rafal had to see his brother and only friend died when he was CHILD but that he accepted to remplace him as a CHILD. He cast away his identity when he was still a CHILD. He accepted to be someone he wasn't when he was a CHILD. Do I keep going on or is it clear ? If you recall, he said "I made belived I was the one who died that day, I was in a way". And why ? 1000 of acting as someone you aren't, this might make you ask thousand of existential question; and this happening at the time he was still a kid, a person in a process of building his identity. But that's only the tip of the iceberg, really. The real problem, the reason why he couldn't accept Nel's love is RIGHT THERE

The reason why Rafal cherished and hate his time at Lythos at the same time is so obvious. The reason why he feel like Nel's love isn't for him is also obvious. Because he isn't Nil. Sure, he is Nel's half sibling, but he isn't her twin brother, her one true half, the one she cherished and wished to protect, the one for whom she betrayed her own Father even though it may have ended her life. All she did, was out of love but nor for him as Rafal but for Nil, her dead brother. And even though Rafal promised Nil to protect Nel and made her happy and even then wished for her happines since he came to think of her as her true neesan, he can't help but feel guilty because "It should be Nil not me who has that" is exactly what he means by "that treasure is a stolen one" even if it was Nil's dying wish. His inner self hatred, validation issue and so on and so on cannot make him feel like he deserves Nel's love since it's directed to someone else. He knows that when Nel looks at him, she doesn't see Rafal, but Nil. She doesn't see him as who he is and he doesn't have the right to be himself, not for Nil's sake, he can't be loved for he is because he has to pretend to be someone else. Which hurts even more as Nel, the person he love most doesn't acknowledge his existence since she think he is Nil. So of course, even with Nel to protect him and love him, in truth, he never felt more alone because he felt like she never saw him, which made him even more vulnerable to Sombron's machination and worsen his wanting to prove his worth. Because (yes I know it's not Xenobron, it's our Sombron but point still stand)

If you remember what I said commenting it, our Sombron knew that his children were feared and hated and entirely dependent of him. The situation in XenElyos being not so different (*cough, cough, the Firenalt sibling and other clearly having hostility to the Fell twins cough*) with whatsmore siblings hating each other and ready to stab each other's back and him feeling even more inferior due to knowing he will never be loved like Nil is and that each of Nel's gesture are actually directed at Nil made him even more dependent of his abuser. What'smore, remember Wounded Pride ? His personal skill ? Well, remember that even if he had this skill only when he was pretending to be Nil... it still representative of Rafal as a whole since his own pride got wonded many times. And this is because of this that he was under Sombron's influence on two level 1) the possesion spell 2) his emulation of Sombron. It's also quite the deal that the word Sombron told him as he was casting this spell on his chest makes it happen at the same moment, hence renforcing the impression that the possesion is here to show that it's not only because of the spell he is under Sombron's influence, but also because of all he's been through, Sombron's shadow still soar over him and the possession spells can hence be seen on a double level. He almost BECOME Sombron, having the same wish, same speech, same freaking dragon appearance. Even if he still had some of his agency and that unlike Veyle he doesn't got "what happened o - o ?" once the spell is broken, he was still essentially under Sombron's influence

5- Nel's breaking the spell on 2 level

Alright, if you recall to break the spell Nel had to break her own dragonstone which can only break because... she dies.

Ok now, remember all that I said about Rafal wanting someone to acknowledge his existence and all i said about how he gave up on Nel being this person. Well, Nel's sacrifice broke the spell AND on a second level definitely freed Rafal from Sombron's influence because this was literaly the biggest act that one could do for him. What's more Nel revealing that she always knew his real identity (andthusmakingeverythingthathappenedfallflatsaidshewithrepressedanger) made Rafal realized that all of Nel's kind gesture towards him were really genuinely for HIM and not directed at a Nil whose sister and identity he stole according to him, that Nel was seeing him and acknowledge his existence, that she always returned the love he gave her. All of this was enough to make Rafal realized he don't need Sombron cause remember what he said when he lost ? "If i can't carry out father's ambitions, I am useless". What's more;... he always had suicidal tendencies

He wanted Nel, the person he loves most, his sister to end his life. In truth, what he truly wanted was Nel's love but he still felt like he didn't deserved it because he is an impostor, he stole Nil's sister, he stole what belong to him etc.

That's the face he made as he though Nel was going to kill him. FREAKING SMILING. Dear God.

But Nel dying to free him from Sombron's influence made him realized he was indeed loved (Nelisbestgirldon't@ me); This made him come back to his sense when he could have gone as far has literaly becoming his dad and like I mentionned we saw him as both Nil and Evil Nil/Sombron 3.0 hence the actual reason why the DLC failed his characterization (unti the snap moment) is because he wasn't being himself in literaly all sense until Nel's stabbed herself, until he snapped. I mean remember whe first saw him as Nil, then as whatever creepy face he made in the nigthmare that is map 5 and even as he spoke to Nel we don't see his actual face, he is shown from behind, eyes closed, and then the spells begin to strike back until Alear pops up and we see his damaged face

Part 2 to see more

#fire emblem #fire emblem engage #fe engage #fire emblem emotional damage #fe rafal #rafal fire emblem

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spookyboywhump · 7 months

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hiya, how are you doing today?

9. How easily does your oc trust others? Any particular reason why? How trustworthy are they themselves?

10. What are some of your oc’s pet peeves? How do they handle it when the annoyance doesn’t stop?

11. Does your oc have a good sense of direction? Do they get lost easily?

12. How well would your oc handle being placed in a leadership position?

13. What is your oc’s confidence like? Are they self-confident to the point of being arrogant? Are they terribly self-deprecating?

14. What is your oc’s speech like? How loud are they usually? Do they have an accent or a stutter?

15. What is your oc’s memory like? Do they remember certain things better than others? Do they have any strategies to better remember things?

16. How affectionate is your oc? How do they convey their affection? By being touchy, or through more subtle ways?

Please and thank you!

Hello! I’m alright, thank you! How are you? So sorry about the delay on these, I’ve had a lot of fun though as I got to ramble about Jet and Alexei a bit akdjsjdhsk

9. How easily does your oc trust others? Any particular reason why? How trustworthy are they themselves?

Jet is like a sweet puppy dog he’s very loyal and very trustworthy, he’s an absolute sweetheart. He is. Incredibly distrusting of most strangers though. Anastasia has taught him that other owners are dangerous and other pets are bad influences so he finds it very hard to trust other people which is exactly what she wants. It will be even harder for him to learn to trust people who are neither owners nor pets but simply just, people.

Anastasia doesn’t completely trust anybody other than Jet. She’s very skeptical and critical of other owners, she doesn’t want them getting involved with her pets, and there are very few she even enjoys being around for matters outside of business, much less trusts as some kind of friend. She trusts Jet inherently because she trained him to be the way he is now, she doesn’t believe he could go against her or try to escape ever, and while she’s sure he’s capable of lying she really doesn’t think he’d risk the consequences of lying to her.

10. What are some of your oc’s pet peeves? How do they handle it when the annoyance doesn’t stop?

Alexei is autistic. He gets very easily irritated by loud noises, repetitive noises, things like that. Unrelated to the autism but he also really fucking hates listening to people talk highly of themselves when they’ve done nothing remarkable (so, spending time with Nicholas was god awful to him). He thinks the best way to handle any annoyance is to remove himself from the situation. The alternative is him snapping at somebody and he usually thinks they don’t deserve that. He will just get up and fucking leave. This caused him a lot of problems with Nicholas-

11. Does your oc have a good sense of direction? Do they get lost easily?

I like to think that Jet has a pretty good sense of direction. He’s very aware of his surroundings and very vigilant, and he’s usually with somebody else which helps him a lot. He doesn’t get lost easily, but when he is absolutely for sure lost, that’s when he starts to panic.

I always imagine Wren gets lost pretty easily. He doesn’t mean to, but he does get distracted very easily and sometimes he come back to reality to realize he don’t know where the fuck he’s at. He usually has to call someone for help in these scenarios.

12. How well would your oc handle being placed in a leadership position?

Truly most of my oc’s are not leaders. I feel like Jet would handle it better than others just because he’s used to having a certain degree of authority over other pets and he likes to use that position to help them in whatever little ways he can. He tries to guide them and help them as somebody more experienced in this situation. Alexei could’ve also handled it quite well prior to ending up with Nicholas, he wouldn’t have been particularly happy about it but if he’s placed in that position then he’ll do what’s necessary. Somebody like Wren would not handle it very well at all, he doesn’t like the pressure, he doesn’t like people having to look to him for answers, it’s just not his favorite thing in the world.

I think Cain is a fun example of someone who was just kinda. Placed in a leadership position though. It wasn’t entirely unexpected, he knew it was coming, just. Not as soon as it did. He didn’t feel ready or confident in himself at all but he adapted to it very well and while some people definitely have their complaints and disagreements about it, others really don’t think he’s that bad.

13. What is your oc’s confidence like? Are they self-confident to the point of being arrogant? Are they terribly self-deprecating?

Jet’s confidence is a lot lower than he likes to let on. He’s not exceptionally self deprecating, but he thinks of himself as inherently lower and worth less than other people. Even when it comes to the pets he has some slight authority over, it doesn’t make him feel good, he doesn’t enjoy doing it, and that just makes him feel worse about himself. He thinks he’s stupid, unfortunately this feeling only gets worse when he’s no longer a pet.

I think Nicholas is the. Epitome of arrogance in a character. That man is overly confident, he thinks very highly of himself, he thinks he’s the smartest man alive and everyone else should be aware of it whether they like it or not. He’s absolutely insufferable. At least Cain has the decency to only use that as a facade while feeling intense self loathing. Nicholas actually seems to believe he’s god’s gift to man or something.

14. What is your oc’s speech like? How loud are they usually? Do they have an accent or a stutter?

Of course Alexei doesn’t speak. Now. Vocally anyway. Prior to that incident however he was known to have a very monotone voice, he often spoke quietly, he didn’t like to raise his voice and he only would if he was overwhelmed or angry about something, he really just didn’t like to draw attention to himself. People often had to tell him to speak up or accused him of muttering things passive aggressively under his breath. To be fair, sometimes he was. He had a slight Russian accent, it was his first language and even after years of speaking English primarily it never really went away. He was often made to feel like he should be embarrassed by it so that’s part of the reason he preferred to keep quiet. It wasn’t uncommon for it to get stronger when he was excited or upset. Leon absolutely adored it.

Now he relies on ASL. They keep a small whiteboard and marker on their coffee table in case they can’t remember how to say something that way. I feel like Alexei would like some kind of AAC device but for now he and Leon are learning ASL together. Leon still adores this. He adores the way Alexei’s face lights up when they can communicate so much easier now. He’s happy to have him back.

15. What is your oc’s memory like? Do they remember certain things better than others? Do they have any strategies to better remember things?

Since being with Anastasia, Jet’s memory is. Not the best. He has large gaps in his memory that make it hard for him to remember just about anything prior to being with her, and he continues to forget things rather easily, but they’re usually smaller things he just needs to be reminded of. He is prone to setting things down and immediately forgetting what he did with it, and while he’s mostly used to it, there are times it hits him just how bad his memory is and he becomes extremely anxious over it. He relies a lot on repetition and routine to remember things. He keeps his own personal items either out in the open or in the same exact place so he always knows where to find them, and when he’s told something he knows he needs to remember he will repeat it to himself over and over again. This is how he learned his rules, he would repeat them every night to make sure he had them right. By now he remembers them perfectly but sometimes he starts repeating them anyway to help himself relax and fall asleep.

16. How affectionate is your oc? How do they convey their affection? By being touchy, or through more subtle ways?

With most people, Alexei shows affection by doing them favors or getting them little gifts. He doesn’t even like outwardly telling people he likes them and a lot of people have thought he was only doing this begrudgingly for one reason or another but that’s. That’s just how he shows he likes you and wants to be friends. He was raised to believe he always had to be useful for one reason or another so he tries to be useful for the people he cares about. Leon is one of the only people he’s ever been comfortable enough with to be physically affectionate towards, usually he doesn’t even like being touched at all but there are a few select safe people for him. He is very physically affectionate with Leon, he’s always clinging to that man, always touching him in some way. He just loves him very much.

Jet doesn’t seem like it at first glance but he is. Very affectionate. He knows he’s big and scary and threatening but his verbal expressions of affection are often very blunt and direct and he really prefers to just silently cuddle up to his loved one or hold their hand or rest his head on their lap. People are often warned to not get too close to him but with people he loves and feels comfortable with, he’s very lovey and touchy and just such a sweetheart. He knows he appears threatening and he’s capable of hurting people so he’s always extra gentle and cautious when touching his loved ones. He’s a good guy and he has a lot of affection to give.

#thankie!#long post #oc stuff #wren #Cain #Nicholas #Jet #Anastasia #Alexei #Leon #I. ended up fixating a lot on Jet and Alexei #I love them a lot I think about them a lot akdjskdhsk #I think they’re fun to ramble about #it’s got to be some kind of once in a lifetime event I don’t think I even mentioned zander for once #he can get a break. for now #thebewingedjewelcat

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lopsicle · 2 years

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hey can you please do some headcanons of el from stranger things :D

Hi lees, lers and everything in between! This is my first post back, and I’m just gonna do some headcanons. There is a Byler fic coming up so stay tuned for that, I may try and post it later today.

But for now,

El Hopper Headcanons

Lee:

•She would be a really sweet lee.

•She never understand tickling at first, until Mike just traced his fingers over her belly and she became a giggling mess.

•Didn’t know some people don’t like getting tickled.

•Definitely has trouble asking for tickles, but lers are usually so kind to her and pick up on her signals.

•Her favourite spot is her belly, it leads to high pitched giggles and squirming.

•And Eleven squirms around a lot, which she apologised for.

•Loves aftercare, especially hairplay, after tickles.

•Cuddly tickles are her favourite. Just her looking up at a ler, and then immediately knowing what she wants.

•Her hands are a melt spot, not just her palms. Just gentle taps against her knuckles, tracing along her palm lines, raking nails along her fingers.

•Her armpits are her worst spot, she’s kick around if they were tickled and have really loud laughter.

•also she defo hates how loud she gets when being tickled, and always apologised to lers afterwards and gets reassurance that it’s okay.

•Teases that get her are

‘El, I need you to keep your arms up.’

‘El, I can’t get my fingers out if you keep curling your arms.’

Lers that get this person: Mike, Dustin, Will, Lucas, Joyce, Hopper, Owens, Max, Jonathon, Steve.

Ler:

•She would be such a caring ler.

•She never forces people to ask for tickles, she just gives sweet teases and reassurance, and her tickles are usually messy and clumsy, but still gentle.

•Although, I can just imagine her not understanding a Lee signalling for tickles, and unintentionally makes them a blushing mess.

•She definitely gives reward tickles.

•Laughs with her lees.

•Gives a lot of aftercare.

•Never overdoes tickling, will even stop at the playful stops.

•Her tickling style is really random, sometimes it’s pokes, sometimes it’s clawing, sometimes it’s skittering, sometimes it’s fast, sometimes it’s slow.

•Teases she uses are

‘Aw, what a cute laugh!’

‘Such a good lee!’

‘You handled a lot of tickling, well done!’

•Lees she gets are: Will, Max, Dustin, Lucas, Mike, Joyce.

•Tickle scenario for Milelven.

Mike and El playing a game of snap. El likes snap, it’s simple, fun and helps you with your reflexes.

Anxiously putting another card in the pile, El saw two 7’s in a row, and bolted her palm onto the pile, only to clasp sharply onto Mike’s hand, causing him to yelp.

•’Mike!’ She cried, pulling his hand into her lap. ‘I’m sorry, are you alright, I-.’ She stammered.

•’El, it’s okay, you didn’t hurt me!’ Mike giggled lightly at the situation, but was slightly concerned and touched for how much his girlfriend cares.

•‘ No, I’m sorry.’ Eleven said, tracing her fingers along Mike’s arm soothingly.

•Mike twitched and stifled a giggle into his palm.

‘I did hurt you, you’re twitching.’ Eleven observed, removing her hand.

‘No, no, you’d never me hurt me, it’s just..’ Mike looked away and blushed, clawing at his trousers. ‘My arm is sensitive..’

•’Sensitive to pain?’ Eleven asked, not understanding.

•Mike internally screamed at her innocence, which was currently shooting him in the foot.

‘No, to..’ he covered his mouth ‘tickles…’

•’Tickles?’ Eleven asked, tilting her head. ‘What is tickles?’

•Mikes face flushed each time Eleven said the T-word.

•’It-it’s just..’ Mike was cut off by Eleven grazing her fingers over Mike’s arm, bursting him entire tiny giggles. ‘Ehehehehehehl!’ He whined.

•Eleven grinned happily at this new discovery, and trailed her nails down to Mike’s armpits, gently circling her fingers into it. ‘Tickles is fun, Mike.’ She said smiling, scooting closer to the squirming boy.

•Mike didn’t have the heart to ask Eleven stop, she was just having so much fun and was being so innocent. And maybe he didn’t want the tickles to stop.

•’Eeek!’ Mike squealed loudly, desperately trying to keep his arm up and still. ‘I-it sohahahahahrta is!’ He wailed.

•’Are people ‘tickles’ in other places?’ El questioned, trailing her nails down past Mike’s sensitive ribs and gently poking at his side curiously.

•Mike curled up his body, which only served to prop up his side closer to Eleven’s fingers as he gripped onto the bedsheets.

•’Ehahahahal, it tihahahahahckles!’ Mike panted, wiggling his side up and down.

•Eleven raised her hands elegantly from Mike’s side and brought them around his waist, pulling him closer.

•She looked at his giggling, blushing face and felt a giggle escaping her throat.

•‘Tickles is fun!’ She giggled.

•’Yeah, I’ll show you how fun it can really be!’ Mike grinned, before quickly skittering his fingers onto Eleven’s belly.

•’Eeh-Eep-ehehehehehehehehe, Miheheheheheke!’ Eleven moved her belly closer to Mike’s hands and tried her best to keep still, shaking her head and kicking her legs around in the process.

•’Yes, El?’ He teases, moving his hands down to her hips and drilling into them, causing her to squeak.

•’EEEK, ihahahahahat tihahahahahahahahckles!’ She wailed, bouncing her body around on the mattress, unsure on how to approach the new touch.

•’Really? I had no idea!’ He exclaimed, quickly shooting his hands up to the crevasse of her neck, wiggling his fingers around against the soft skin.

•’Ahuhuhuhuhuhuhu!’ Eleven giggled sweetly, a radiant blush on her cheeks from the previous teases. Her body succumbed to the squirming and rolled herself onto her stomach.

•Mike quickly pounced at the opportunity, and dug his fingers into the back of her knees, causing her legs to curl up around his hand.

•’Mahahahahahahahah, nahahahahahahahah!’ Eleven wailed, the tickles slowly becoming unbearable as she rolled back onto her back, panting for breath.

•Mike sat down at Eleven’s side and gently placed his hand on her belly, causing her to wince.

•’Hey, don’t worry, no more tickles for tonight.’ He reassured, gently rubbing his hand in circular motions.

•El scooted closer to Mike, allowing him to play with her hair, causing her to coo out small thank you’s.

——

Unfortunately, that’s gonna be it from me for tonight. I’ll defo try and post the Byler fic tmr, and may even tag on some Elmax scenarios. But I’ll see you tomorrow lees, lers and everything in between!

#sfw tickling community #stranger things tickle #stranger things tickle headcanons #tickle headcanons #mileven #lee! eleven #ler! eleven #lee eleven #ler eleven #lee! mike #ler! mike #lee mike #ler Mike

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skoulsons · 1 year

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you know what time it is. my scrambled thoughts. took me an hour and a half to finish the ep 🥴

TLOU EP2

people have said this ep is really good and intense so I’m excited

HERE WE GO

where are we

OH JAKARTA

we going back to two days before it broke out it looks like cause the 24th

Oooh police? What did she do

I think every ep is gonna start with a flashback so that’s cool

or is she like a doctor or something and knows something about the fungus?

she looks distressed?

Ibu ratna okay. Prof of mycology so they need her to inspect the cordyceps or something

I remember seeing a pic of her floating around

my episode froze why

Ophiocordyceps

A HUMAN?

cant survive in humans suree

oh dear is this person gonna be a clicker already or something

oh no okay it’s just her corpse

EUGH I hate surgery stuff and cutting like that

is she gonna wake up I fear

This is so gross please

OH MY FORHDKF that’s horrifying

bro I feel sick wth

FLOUR AND GRAIN FACTORY people were right

so she bit three people and they were all taken into observation

oh fourteen that’s a lot

listening carefully

“There is no vaccine” you’re damn right thank you joel

BOMB alright cool

it’s gonna be hiroshima all over again

was that too much im sorry

no she wants to be with her family before they all die :(

INTROOOOOO

oh the music. gustavo I love you

I cant skip this intro it’s too good man

and the little Joel and Ellie <3

alright back to reality

look at her sleeping. she’s so tiny

they really put butterflies everywhere in this show

her bed hair 😭

did they just shove her in a room or something and tell her to go to sleep

OH THEYRE STARING AT HER AOFHSKDHJER

I feel like I just experienced whiplash

oh cause she’s infected

sir that’s the second time you’ve aimed a gun at her in the last two days

im only 11 minutes in at this rate I’ll never get through this episode

“Don’t worry about that” “well I’m gonna” 😭

“there’s not gonna be anything bad in here” “just you” “oh funny” STOPPP I cant wait to get moments like these where they’re smiling

Joel :((

holy crap. “You need to stop talking about this kid like she’s got some kind of life in front of her”

“Guess not you guys” 😭

joel being scared of Tess going over to Ellie bc he doesn’t want her to get hurt :( the end of this ep is gonna suck real bad

“You must’ve heard that he wants to shoot you” :(

THE FACE PALM

“She told me not to tell anybody and now I’m telling the first people that i-“ this is so Ellie. it’s about the vaccine isn’t it

YUP

Joel knowing exactly what she was saying 😭

FUCK YOU MAN I DIDNT ASK FOR THIS THATS FROM THE GAMEEEE

Tess having to be their mediator

I GET IT!? damn no

her making the clicks 😭

I can’t believe I get to see my little comfort character in live action whisper an “okay” and throw his hands outwards. I love you joel miller

ILL JUST THROW A SANDWICH AT THEM

the chirping birds :)

I hope there’s a little instinctive moment where Joel protects her this ep. IM YEARNING FOR IT (I got it :D)

man those buildings look gnarly

I love how Joel just keeps walking while Tess indulges her questions. he’s so annoyed 😭

they’re such a little family 🫶🏻

oh I’m dumb I had captions this whole time and never put them on

GUSTAVOOOO

NO YOURE JOKING THE LITTLE GIRAFFE TOY. REALLY. REALLY NEIL.

Joel’s just causally eavesdropping cause he won’t talk to her directly but is also still curious

TESS IS SUCH A MOM

Riley :/

you got some balls on you sister 💀

I know I said this last week but Joel really has the “too tired for this shit” plastered on his face all the time and it’s delightful

the scenery is phenomenal

ooh mention of spores

they’ve really got the whole “Ellie bombarding them with questions and inquiring about every little thing” down

OOH CLICKER CLICK. that was loud too

AW LITTLE DUCKS LOOK AT THEM

and a frog too 😭

OH YEHA SHE CANT SWIM

“Have you heard of books?” 💀 he’s SO done with her

NO SMART ASS. his little jump to show her it’s not deep 😭

HIM REACHING HIS HAND TO HELP HER UP <33333333

HE PULLED AWAY SO AGGRESSIVELY

this whole set is so good

YOU TRY CLIMBING TEN FLOORS WITH OUR KNEES. they’re so old this is so cute

ARE WE GONNA GET HIM BOOSTING YHEM UP YES

he won’t even grab her shoulder to shove her aside. mans grabbed a fist full of her hoodie and backpack 😭

“I’m gonna need a few minutes” boy I hope this joelellie convo goes well

ELLIE STOP FLIPPING THE KNIFE

“The circus” he’s so tired

AWW HONESTY ABOUT WHERE HES FROM <3

he’s downplaying her knowledge so much I love this

NOT HER ASKING ABOUT THEM

“PASS”

“no more questions about me” :(

this direction is beautiful. neil I take back anything bad I’ve said about you

OH I THOUGJT YOU WENT TO SCHOOL. he’s so snippy

was that a hint of him smiling. was it. or is my brainrot convincing me of things. WAS IT. she said it’s a really shitty one and it cuts to him I SWEAR THE LOOK ON HIS FACE AND HIS EYES I SWEAR

“sometimes” :( he looks like he’s thinking abt sarah

their height difference bro I can’t wait til they hug

NO WAS SHE BIT BACK THERE?? or no

im trying to cut these into small sections so… next section I guess?

wow. that’s a lot of bodies

all the infected noises wow

wow that’s incredibly scary

ooh the fungus being like a hive mind sort of thing? Interesting

MUSEUMMM

ooh he was testing it

“did Marlene pack you one of these or just sandwiches?” 😭

“I HAVE A SPARE HAND” “CONGRATULATIONS” they’re so funny. if y’all could see the grin on my face

this is so spooky

that guy is messed up

JOELS FACE SHUSHING HER

“from this point forward, we are silent” yes sir whatever you say sir <3

this building is really falling apart

Joel turning back to look a them :’)

these first two eps have a lot of trailer shots which is good

the bodies look so gnarly

why did Joel look so soft opening that door. he just looks so 🤏🏻

oh look, a rare untouched room. not for long

CLICKER TIME RIGHT?

him helping Ellie up :’’’)

wow that’s a gorgeous shot of their lights lighting up the dust from the debris

oh my gosh dude

DUDE THE CLICKER ISBSO GOOD

joel has a tear in his eye telling her to be quiet. I might just 🕳👩‍🦯

ITS SO FREAKY

NOT A SECONF ONE?

it’s right there EUGH

they look so good dude

he sees Ellie he’s going over to get her

his backpack almost hit her in the face 😭

ITS SO CLOSE TO HIS FACE

CLOSE YOUR MOUTH JOEL

this is a serious scene but I can’t help but look at Ellie holding the flashlight on the clicker while joel fires and immediately being reminded of all the times my dad has had to fix something and I have to hold the flashlight over his shoulder while he yells at me to hold it better

HIM GRABBING HER TO PUSH HER BEHIND HIM

oh she was bit a second time I THOUGHT SHE WAS

“If it was gonna happen to ONE of us” mmmm not quite true

ROOF SCENE ROOF SCENE ROOF SCENE ROOF SCENE

“For once, maybe we could actually win” :/she’s acting like this bc she’s bit and she doesn’t get to win

WORD FOR WORD? WORD FOR WORD!

he looks sm softer looking at her :(

THE WATCH GLANCE

that ladder is so unstable

last ten mins

man she’s in such a rush to get there :/ Joel’s suspicious

EUGH was that crushing his head? sheesh

that bloods looking pretty fresh

oh here we go

oh that’s disgusting okay

Here we goooo

“That’s not my home” why does it look like that broke Joel.

OUR LUCK HAD TO RUN OUT SOONER OR LATER

SHE INFECTED

NO JOEL LOOKS SO

NOT THE BACK AWAY??

on her neck still wow.

OOPS RIGHT

she’s shaking already :(

YOU GET HER THERE YOU KEEP HER ALIVE AND YOUBSET EGRRYTHING RIGHT. ALL THE SHIT WE DID

HES CRYINGGGGG DONT LOOK AT ME HIS EYES ARE RED

we the tendrils are OH OH OH THEYRE WAKING UP OH THE WHOLE CROWD IS WAKING UP

joel baby you gotta go

NOT JOELS BREATH HITCHING

SAVE WHO YOU CAN SAVE *immediately grabs Ellie*

Tess :(

LH THRYRE SO GROSS

I hate that

joel :((

Tess went out like a hero tho what a champ

12/10 episode!! So freaking good

#it was so good. Even better than the premiere I’d say #what a fantastic way to hook people in on the show #tlou spoilers #the last of us hbo #joel miller #ellie williams

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unmecha · 1 year

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Alright folks it’s OC time welcome back it’s been ten thousand years

Welcome to Tellius, where healing isn’t free and everyone hates you!

Alright, it’s been entire months but I finally have motivation to actually write more about my ocs. Specifically, my OCs for Pokemon Empire, a game that defines itself by extensive reworks of moves, abilities, and pokemon, as well as through the complex ethical dilemmas and real-world themes the game’s story attempts to engage with. I don’t think the game always handles these real-world issues with the most tact, but I find the comprehensive gameplay overhaul incredibly interesting and I’m mostly following the story out of morbid curiosity about what the viewpoints of the characters say about the viewpoints of the creators.

Unfortunately, all these “complex dilemmas” require just a little explaining.

The primary conflict in Empire is between the Council, which took power in a revolution against Mad King Tobias some years ago, and Team Royale, an underground resistance led by Tobias’ widow, the former queen. To summarize them briefly:

Council: Expand business, increase profits, increase regulation, refers to official trainers as “Tellius League Operatives” (TLOs) and treats them as a police/military force. Publicly espouses ideals of progress, unity, and prosperity, but condones mad science and police brutality behind closed doors. The reason Pokecenters cost money.

Royale: Get the Secret Heir on the throne and a crown on his head by basically any means necessary. “Restore Tradition” and everything it implies. Pays lip service towards respecting and protecting the people, but views them as “necessary sacrifices” if it comes down to it. The reason a lot of people are dead.

Basically, both of these sides are awful!

While the game isn’t finished yet, the devs have indicated that the finished game will have three different endings—one Council, one Royale, and one labeled “Self-Rule” it’s unclear whether the devs mean that in an anarchist way or a libertarian way, and frankly that mystery is half the reason I keep playing this game!

So, due to the way that all three routes are range from “morally ambiguous” to “ghoulishly evil” my ocs for this game are generally a bunch of assholes. Also, I’ve decided they all coexist in the same timeline (and all went to school together), despite the issues this causes for canon, because then I can make two of them be as divorced as two unmarried young women can possibly be.

Unfortunately if I tried to do actual OC pages here it would take ages, due to using strategies/mons unique to Empire

To summarize once again:

Jeanne: Self-Rule. “What if Jeanne D’Arc was an anarchist?” Named after Jalter specifically. Primarily, uses specially offensive Poison, Fire, and Dark types to abuse the Empire-exclusive Smog weather type. Always tries to do the right thing, but somehow that just keeps turning everyone against her, so she’s slowly but steadily turning into a bitter, cynical asshole. No real naming scheme. Signature mons include Skuntank, Zangoose, and Magmortar.

Taylor: Council. “What if Junko Enoshima was a cop?” Named after Taylor “Skitter” Hebert from Worm to represent her ruthlessness, and Taylor Swift to represent Capitalism, Baybee! Primarily uses Steel, Electric, and Fighting types, and focuses on using Critical Hits, especially with the new feature of electric-terrain boosting crit chance and the Sadist ability (yeah) guaranteeing crits on enemies with most kinds of status. Says only what people want to hear, but she’ll do whatever it takes to gain power and fame under the council. Manages to have even more wrong with her than any other character in this paragraph. Signature mons include Flaminquent (new Fairy/Steel physical sweeper), Seviper, and Electivire.

Alexandria: Royale. “What if Indiana Jones was a monarchist” Named after the library, and also Alexander the giant robotcastle from Final Fantasy. An archaeologist who became a little too into history, and now wants to repeat it. She’s all about time, and so she uses a Sand/Trick Room team featuring mostly Steel, Rock, and Psychic types. Some of her signature mons are Claydol (one of the 9 starters, and one of the few sources of TR in the current episode), Caracoldron (Magcargo evo, features in the lore), and Escavalier.

The sharp-eyed among you will notice two of these characters use pokemon in matched pairs! They can’t stand each other.

Basically Jeanne and Taylor used to be friends (maybe…even more…), but when they fled the country during the first Royale uprising, Jeanne went off and read some funny books about capital, and she comes back to the region with high hopes to challenge the system and make life better…but Taylor, who kind of has her whole sense of self-worth and morality tied up in being this ideal champion/idol/celeb/cop for the council, just doesn’t feel the same.

Somedays they’re catty and petty, calling each other out for using each other’s types or stats. Somedays they just do their best to avoid each other. Somedays they come really, really, close to…something. Whether it’s kissing or killing is hard to say.

Even so, neither of them is really close with Alex. More than anyone, it seems these days she’s just a totally different person than the cheerful history nerd they know from school.

Ok, now that the introductions are out of the way, I’ll be introducing these girls and their full strats/mons/relationships in their own pages, but I wanted to provide a little context before I went in-depth. Plus I haven’t played Empire in a while so I needed to reignite the brainrot a little so I could really say what I wanted.

#unquiet text #unmecha's OCs #oc: Taylor #oc: Jeanne #oc: Alexandria

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