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scarasbaefy · 10 months

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when they lie

he lies, not knowing you already know the truth.

chars; kazuha, wanderer/scaramouche

; mentions of cheating, f.reader but can be read as g.neutral, not proof-read

note; DOING SOMETHING NEW!!!!! REQUESTS R OPEN BTW!!!!

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.kaedehara kazuha

“i’m so sorry, y/n. i wish i wasn’t the one telling you this, but i wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if i didn’t say anything. i’m extremely disappointed in his actions.” beidou said with a sorrowful look on her face.

she had explained to you moments prior about what she had seen on the deck of the ship while everyone was unloading cargo. kazuha had been kissing another passengers cheek as they held each other lovingly.

“i need to talk to him. thank you, beidou. i know you would never lie to me about something like this, but i have to hear from him myself.” you told the captain before heading to the location kazuha had told you he’d be at.

you arrived at the top of the hill. kazuhas back was facing you, but he turned to face you once he heard you approaching.

“i knew it was you,” he said with a smile, “my love, i’ve missed resting on land with you. come sit with me. the air feels lovely.”

“kazuha…” you ignored his request, “i feel as if something is wrong. is there someone else thats taking your attention? perhaps someone you’ve grown to like better than me?”

kazuha softly gasped, taking a step back before collecting his composure. he didn’t think there was any way you’d find out about him cheating. he loves you— but he loves this other woman as well. he had taken great precautions to make sure no one knew anything.

“of course not, darling,” your heart sank at his words. you didn’t know he was capable of lying. especially to your face. although you looked like you were going to be sick, he continued, “why would you even ask a silly question like that? you know i’d never do something like that to you. i love you and only you.”

“beidou told me everything.”

this time, his heart sank.

scaramouche

scaramouche is big on betrayals. he’s the last person who would commit such an act on you. or so you thought.

you and nahida were secretly looking out for scaramouche as he had left sumeru city to join a research team on their exploration. it’s something nahida had persuaded him to do so he wouldn’t be cooped up doing nothing.

the two of you giggled as you watched your boyfriend walk along the river, unknowing of yours and the archons presence. the laughter immediately came to a halt when nahidas eyes widened, a look of horror replacing what was once happiness. you followed the direction of her eyes, your smile dropping as you saw scaramouche greet another wanderer with a passionate kiss.

nahida was quick to release the spell on your out of body experience. tears flooded both yours and her eyes as the realisation started kicking in. who was that other person? why did neither you or nahida know a thing about this? did he really keep this under the radar to the point neither one of you grew a single speck of suspicion? a million questions flooded your brain, but nahida was there to comfort you.

the day scaramouche returned, you were ready to confront him. though, nahida had convinced you to put him to a test. would he lie to you or would he confess everything and be honest?

“hey, i’m back.” scaramouche hugged and kissed your forehead, “did you miss me? you better have. i missed you while i was away from you, so it’s only fair that you missed me as well.”

when you didn’t respond or reciprocate affection, he knew something was wrong. you bit your lip, contemplating on how to ask him about everything. your trust on his honesty wearing thin the more you would think about it.

“i doubt you missed me!” you faked a playful smile. “i bet you were out kissing other people or getting another girlfriend or something.” you rolled your eyes at him, pushing him away from you.

he laughed at your words as he tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear. “as if. you’re the only person i need. everyone else… i can’t trust.”

it was your turn to laugh. “don’t amuse me. you? can’t trust anyone else? i should be the one who can’t trust anyone. including you.”

scaramouche looked confused, so nahida cleared up his confusion by replaying his memory of the stranger over and over.

“you’re such a hypocrite.”

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greatestwizardofthisage · 10 months

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The Bad Kids and their taste in music:

Gorgug: I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again - Gorgug will listen to anything and everything. I feel like at the start of freshman year he would definitely be listening to more of the angsty stuff (evanescence no doubt…) but as he gets more into music with Fig i feel like he’d just be listening to anything he can get his hands on and finding something to love about every song he hears. He would find the most obscure bands and by merch for bands that literally no one has ever heard of, but he would also love a lot of mainstream music as well. Nothing is beneath him, he has respect for all of it. (basically he’s fantasy james acaster). I also feel like he would be the kind of person to change up what he’s listening to depending on who he’s with? And he would definitely have hundreds of playlists made to fit whatever other people want to hear for when he’s allowed to choose the music. He would also probably be the only one whos allowed to choose the music when the bad kids all hang out just because hes the only one with music in common with each of the bad kids, so they know all their favourite music will be included. But when it’s just him alone he’s for sure just playing all his music on shuffle, jumping through genres like nobody's business, and everyone else thinks hes crazy for that.

Fig: definitely starts freshman year with a complicated relationship to music. I like to think that pre teifling discovery she would be very into pop music - but not just whatever was on the radio. I think she would have still taken pride in having great music taste, it just would have been more poppy and cheerful than what she’s starts listening to at the start of the freshman year. She would then make the transition to punk music and i think she’d be one of those ‘i was born in the wrong generation’ people for a little while. But later on, when she starts becoming more comfortable in herself, and she starts to forgive her parents, i think she’d become nostalgic for the music that used to mean so much to her, and she’d start introducing back into her playlists. (She would LOVE punk covers of pop songs). I think for Fig sharing her favourite music with other people would be a really big deal. Like I think she would always be trying to get people to listen to obscure punk bands, and would be doing it in a kind of jokey way, but once she actually starts to trust you and form a bond, thats when she starts recomending her real favourites, and thats when it becomes more serious. She would for sure be the kind of person to take it personally if you dont like her favourite song. (for this reason Gorgug is her favourite person to share music with) She would absolutly LOVE introducing Ayda to all her favourite bands. Ayda is the only person who can tell Fig she doesn't like her music without it being an issue.

Kristen: Like Fig I feel like she would end up with a very complicated relationship to music. She would start the year listening to nothing but helioic music - she would know all the 'cool' helio songs, as well as the cheesy kids songs they sing at camp, and the more traditional songs they sing at church. For a long time that would be the only music she knew. As she starts to lose her faith, she would probably just stop listening to music entierly, finding it hard to figure out what she actually likes to listen to. When she eventually starts listening to music again she would 100% be the kind of person to find a new song, fall in love with it, listen to it a million times, and then never listen to it again. She goes through songs quicker than she goes through new deities. She is consantly asking her friends to recomend her new music because shes sick of everything shes currently got downloaded. I think sometimes she would get nostalgic for the old helioic music, but then she'd listen to .5 seconds of a song and realise just how god awful it really was and it would leave her feeling just really lost and dissapointed for a while. It would be just another thing from her childhood that has lost all of the usual warmth nostalgia brings and instead just leaves a sour taste in her mouth.

Riz: Riz would start the year claiming to be one of those people who just 'isnt really into music'. He doesnt have time to be listening to music when there are so many mysteries to solve. He would probably tolerate other people playing music around him but probably wouldnt enjoy it. Fig would be absolutly outraged to hear this and would make it her mission to find something he likes. She goes through like every genre she can think of and hes just indifferent to all of it, then one day gorgug would reccomend something really bizzare and obscure (like fantasy drowned shrimp) and Riz would just lose his mind over it, just immediatly obssessed, and Fig would just be absolutly baffled. (i can also low key see him really like fantasy Canterbury Scene, specifically fantasy Caravn)

Fabian: I'm sorry I feel like I'm always shitting on Fabian but he would absolutly have the worst taste in music out of all the bad kids. He grew up on a combo of weird elven music, sea shanties, and whatever was playing on the fantasy radio. I fully believe he would be the kind of person who couldnt tell the difference between good music and shitty cash grab music if it hit him in the face. This would cause endless arguements between him and Fig where he would defend his taste in music to the death while Fig gets more and more frustrated trying to show him actual Good Music only to be met with complete indifference. HOWEVER this would completely change in sophmore year, after his journey of self discovery. He would have to learn more about music to facilitate his dancing and i feel like he'd have like a full on epiphany of like 'oh that music really is shit...' He would stubbornly not admit it to Fig, just discreetly ask Gorgug for some recomendations of good High Elven music that he can dance to.

Adaine: Similar to Kristen and Fabian in that she only ever listened to what her parents played her. She grew up exclusivly on Classical Elven music. I feel like she probably wouldnt even really know that there was other music out there? Or maybe she was aware but just felt decision paralysis trying to find something new to listen to. I think her transition to other music would be very slow, and she would always use Classical as her background music for when shes studdying. I can see Adaine loving songs with complex lyrics (I'm thinking fantasy Mitski, and fantasy Hozier type lyrics.) Then one day shes invited along to a cig figs gig and she would discover a whole new style of music and fall slightly in love. Punk deffinitly wouldnt be her favourite genre, but it would be so perfect for the days when shes feeling particularly bad about her shitty childhood, and Fig would absolutly support that. Adaine definitly wouldnt like anything too heavy, the proper loud, screamy songs just a bit too jarring, so Fig would take the time to hand pick the most low key punk songs she can find for Adaine. (she has definitly made her more than one mix CD, Adaine treasures every single one)

#aka my dad and i have been recomending each other music all evening so i had to make it about the bad kids #sorry this post is so long i love them all so much #i honestly could talk about this specific topic for hours #the bad kids #gorgug thistlespring #fig feath #kristen applebees #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #adaine abernant #dimension 20 #fantasy high

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gemini-sensei · 1 year

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Hawk Moskowitz x Best Friend!Reader Angst

Chubby!Fem!Reader ○ Blurb

CW: insecurity, thats about it.

I woke up and chose violence, aka I made myself cry with this one 🥲 is it cliche? Sure, but I don't care. I can always make more of this and subvert the trope if anyone is interested 👀

It was the summer of change, the summer of possibilities. What more could a teenager ask for? After all, there was no better chance to do something scary, to do something completely terrifying. It felt like one of those now or never moments, a moment that was going to change the course of Reader's life forever.

As she walked up to her best friend's door, she felt all the butterflies fluttering around in her stomach. She took a deep breath and rang the doorbell, knowing Mrs. Moskowitz's schedule well enough that she knew there was only one person home to answer the door.

When it opened, Hawk looked surprised to see her. "Reader, what are you doing here?"

"I came to tell you something," she told him, ensuring that she wouldn't back down. There had been plenty of times before where she thought about it, but never did it. She kept reminding herself, it's now or never.

He licked his lips. "You couldn't text?"

"No, it's too important," she giggled. She composed herself, the words ready to burst from her chest, but that wasn't how she wanted it to go. She didn't want them to just fall out, she wanted them to be meaningful. "I should have told you this a while ago, but I love you. I've loved you for a long time and I just can't hold it in anymore. Since you joined karate and you guys won that tournament, I've wanted to tell you really bad, but then I got scared and then I thought that there was nothing to be scared of. I mean, if you could become a karate badass, why couldn't I tell you how I feel?"

She laughed softly, something between nervous and light. She smiled at Hawk, heart facing, but he only stared back. He was unreadable, which was new to Reader. For as long as she could remember, she'd at least been able to read his eyes, but they were hard and guarded now. She was confused and his silence only fueled her fears.

"This is the part where you say something," she said, still keeping and upbeat attitude. However, her smile became nervous and she pushed harder to hide it.

"I don't love you."

She cracked.

"What?"

Hawk saw the utterly broken look on her face, the pain. He'd hardly ever seen that look on her face, hardly imagined what it would look like. She searched his face, looking for a better answer, or an explanation. Neither of which he had for her.

He bit his lip and he shook his head. "That came out wrong. What I mean is-"

"Hawk?" a voice asked from behind him.

He looked at Reader, but she wasn't looking at him anymore. Her gaze was looking past him and the longer she stared at the figure behind her, he watched her deflate. She stood at his door defeated and her face quickly became blank. Everything except her eyes, which slowly welled up with tears.

Moon made gentle footsteps as she walked over and saw the tears. "Oh no, Reader, what's wrong?"

Reader shook her head, her throat tight. She didn't know what to say, her brain and heart disconnected. "Nothing. Um, I shouldn't have bothered you guys... I'll just uh... I'll just go home."

She quickly turned and rushed back down the walkway that ahe had walked up and down a million times, but for the first time it felt like a whole new experience. She wasn't leaving with a happy memory or even the idea of coming back.

Hawk called out to her, but she didn't turn back. She didn't want to see him and Moon together, a memo she missed or was left out of the loop on. However, she couldn't say she was very surprised.

Moon was gorgeous. It was an undeniable fact, she was conventionally attractive and had a big, beautiful smile. She was kind and sweet and outgoing, so what wasn't there to like? She was everything Reader wasn't - thin, pretty, confident.

In her mind, there was no competition. It was going to be Moon no matter what, always, so it didn't matter how or when she told Hawk about her feelings, because his were never going to change. She was just his best friend, at least she was until that stunt probably obliterated their friendship.

She wiped her eyes as she walked home, sniffling hard as she tried to suck up her emotions. However, everything poured out like a broken fountain beyond repair. She sobbed almost violently, failing miserably. "I knew I should have kept my mouth shut."

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badxsshottiexllie · 5 months

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Plotted starter for @spoocys-glade-of-dreams

Ellie, riding her hover bike, was on her way to her rebellion groups hideout which was located outside of Eden. She needed to discuss what had happened to her the night before at the United of Eden. Originally, the woman had gone there to relax. However, there would be a series of events that would occur that said otherwise. The woman not only got to rescue Eden's biggest celebrity, but also got herself involved in trying to help his friend who was in a situation that was beyond her control.

"Whats the password?" A male voice said behind the door.

"Cabbage is perfect to eat in the dry heat." Ellie responded.

"Hey! Hows my favorite isekai protagonist doing?" The door opened to reveal a panda hybrid named Steven. Since he was a big fan of anime, he often referred to her as an isekai protagonist, someone who is randomly sent from one world to another.

"Oh hey Steven, pretty crazy shit happened last night. I wanted to see if mostly everyone was here to talk." The woman replied.

"Yeah, unfortunately, most of us are just doing are own thing today. So its just Cody, the boss, you and I here today." After Steven said who was here, you could see a teenage human named Cody playing a gaming PC. You could also see the boss, a human woman around Ellie's age named Natalie, reading a book.

"Sup Ellie, how did last night go?" Natalie asked, putting her book down.

"Hey boss, uh...well...thats what I wanted to talk to everyone about..." The redhead scratched behind her head.

Natalie got up and gently nudged Codys shoulder so that he could listen too since he was wearing headphones. "Ellie's got something to tell us."

The teenager took off his headphones and looked into Ellie's direction and gave a brief yo in greeting.

"So last night, I went to the United of Eden to relax. Well...I thought that was going to happen. I stopped a fight from happening there. You'll never guess who I saved..." There was a bit of a pause before she revealed who it was due to awkwardness. "It was none other than everyones favorite poster boy himself....Rayman..."

"WHAAAAAAT?!?!" Steven, Natalie, and Cody said in unison. They couldn't believe what they just heard.

"But why? You do know the risks involved in associating with him right?" Natalie told her.

"Like that hasn't been drilled a million times in my brain before. But I couldn't just stand there and do nothing. He needed help. Anyway, theres this other part of it where he asked me to help his friend Mona Lisa, whose in a situation thats beyond her control."

"Mona Lisa as in...the famous painting? That Mona Lisa?" Steven asked confusingly.

"Not to be confused with the painting of the same name." The redhead corrected. "Its her stage name and believe it or not shes a limbless like Rayman. But thats not the important thing right now. Shes in a situation involving Hoyt Volker. Do you guys know who he is?"

The trio had a mixture of pale expressions and disgust. Natalie, however, was the one to speak up between the three.

"Human trafficking." Natalie spoke softly. "Murphy told me about it. Its really gross."

"Murphy? Whose that?"

"Hes someone who works with us but hes from another resistance group like ours. Hoyt Volker offers good paying jobs but its disguised as selling them to Eden for work or other crime bosses."

"No way..." The gingers eyes widened at this new discovery. She needs to tell Rayman this asap! This was huge! "Boss! You are a live saver, thank you!" Ellie gave her boss a big hug and stormed out the door.

The rebel hopped on her hover bike making her way back to Eden. Once she got back safely and into her apartment, she made sure to give Rayman a call. "I wonder if he'll pick up..."

#spoocys-glade-of-dreams #this was extremely long due to multiple npcs but you do not have to match length #human trafficking tw #long post #cut for length #captain laserhawk au #let me know if you want me to change anything!

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spidercrusadersworld · 6 months

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i don't know what this is but i just need to write this down and show people.

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peter B Parker (Mayas unofficial found father figure) finds Maya passed out beside a standing desk, where she does her research and learns about her sleeping patterns. the link leads to the exact color of green i imagine her bus being painted. also i'm tagging @pokers-ocs @kaidacresto @i-put-the-wit-in-dimwit and @persialiu because i want feedback! i have no fucking clue how to wright and I did this in one sitting but I want to know what you think!

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I was helping Miguel scope out new spiders to recruit when we eventually landed on Maya, I was able to see her life and, it was hard to watch. this poor kid has been through hell, and all on her own too. so when I watched Miguel manipulate her into joining, I saw just how lonely she was, and just how desperate she was to have someone to talk to, and yet how terrified she was to open up.

but somehow, I gained her trust. it started with a hello, she said hi, and reluctantly kept up surface level small talk with me . she's very nice, just incredibly nervous.

I made an effort to keep up appearances, and one day, when she saw me with mayday, a part of her she usually kept hidden bubbled to the surface. a genuine desire to actually talk. i guess she finally saw that not everyone there was a loner. or maybe she just likes kids. but what i really think it was, is a desire for innocence. maybe, she thought if i could bring that to the table, bring her, into the world, i was someone she could trust.

so soon after that, she would come to me, make the first move, and the more she would talk, the more comfortable she would be around not just me, but everyone.

so when today, she didn't show up at the society, i called and texted, something she would usually respond to immediately, but there was nothing, and i was worried, the day before, i had told her that i was involved in her recruitment and was there when Miguel looked into her past. and she said "well i assumed something like that would have happened, seeing as whenever I recruit someone, I'm given all the information about their past. I knew Miguel was involved obviously, but usually the info is passed down to someone else, and then to me, so clearly theirs more than one person involved, I've wondered, who else here knew about me, so honestly, if anyone in the entire society could have seen... my past... i'm glad it was you..."

'What if I had lost her trust, what if shes avoiding me, I probably hurt her feelings, I have to go apologize!' I decide to go over to her dimension to say sorry, when I arrive, i'm in a deep part of a forest, with the biggest trees I've ever seen, i"m talking at least twice as big as the empire state building, its foggy, and fireflies and moss carpets completely engulf the area, it's gorgeous, and i let myself be lost in fantastical wonder for a little while when I finally snap out of it.

i see a shape through to mist that has light coming through it, i come closer to it and i find that it's an old school bus, obviously renovated into a cozy living space, painted a nice soft earthy of green. the moss roots and vines spiral around the bus, this thing has been here a while, and it's not leaving any time soon, it looks like the magical spirit of the woods has claimed it for itself, giving it the blessing of it's beauty.

i walk over to the side of the entrance, and thats where i see it; two grave stones. well large rocks with names crudely etched into them. one covered in flowers and pictures, the other with a lanyard draped across it, the one with all the flowers reads Jade Maverick, the name on it etched much more neatly on it, below the name it reads i'm sorry. my heart breaks in a million pieces at the makeshift burial, i know who this is.. Mayas fiance, the one she lost in the explosion, i saw the accident when we where looking at her past to see how to recruit her, but to see this, it's different.

the other stone is more weathered and cracked, obviously less care has been taken in maintaining it. if any. This one reads Maya Maverick. For a second I'm confused, but then I remember, Maya survived the explosion, but she never told anyone. to the rest of the world, Maya Maverick is presumed dead. I look at the lanyard on the rock, and it has her old ID badge from Alchemax clipped on it.she looks so young, and happy, and somehow, more innocent. her hair is different, and she's wearing glasses, though only half the picture remains intact, the other burned, presumably, in the explosion.

the atmosphere is no longer pleasant as i look at this scene, the fog making the grave sight feel somber and cold. I look back at the bus, and I no longer see the once cozy looking hideaway i first saw, It now looks desolate and lonely, a place of grief and solitude, a place to wallow in what once was, and, as i see the M+J carved over the entrance, surrounded in a heart; a place of what could have been but was stolen.

I want to leave this place, it feels wrong. I can't believe I just flipped through this part of her life like a damn power-point presentation, taking notes like it was some sort of fucked up character study! this is so personal, I feel like I completely violated her space... she lives here alone, no wonder she is so closed of, this.. this must be terrible.

I finally realize I have heard nothing from inside the bus, not a sound. and now i am concerned, is she okay? I hesitate on opening the door, I feel like I have violated something so personal, it feels wrong to enter, i fear like I've already seen to much that was not for my eyes too see. should I really be entering her living space? what if shes completely fine and I only make things worse?

As I turn away i see something in the corner of my eye, through the window of the bus door, I see a hand lying limp on the floor. and I go back and enter the bus, concerned. when i go in I see her lying limp on the ground, a cup of coffee split on the ground, shattered just a few feet away. beside her is a standing desk with a computer open, and notes scattered across it, and pined on a wall, I start to piece together, what I sincerely hope, was what happened here. but it can wait, i go to Maya and try to shake her awake.

"maya?, MAYA! come on kido, wake up and talk to me!"

but she doesent, I try for a long while longer and decide that I need to get her someplace safe, where she at the very least won't wake up alone and confused. so I open a portal to me and MJ's house.

I step through it and MJ walks in happily.

"honey your home early, what's the occa-" she trails of at the sight of me carrying Maya. "whats going on?" she asks, now concerned.

"MJ, meet Maya, the girl i've been telling you about".

she looks at her concerned "is she okay?" she asks nervously

I explain to her what happened, and how she seems to be fine, just exhausted beyond belief, and in an extremely deep sleep because of it.

"is it okay if she stays here tonight, I.. I couldn't just leave her there alone, and, I.. I need to know if shes okay. please, I'm ... I'm worried about her"

she looks at me sympathetically and puts her palm against my cheek, I lean into it, tired.

"alway thinking of everyone but yourself peter" she says lovingly.

"well I'm afraid that might be her problem exactly, I promise it will just be for a ni-" she cuts me off before I can finish.

"that wasn't a no! of course she can stay Pete, she can stay here as long as she needs" she says kissing me softly on the cheek.

"you really are incredible" I tell her

"not as incredible as you; caring about someone like this, that's something only my Peter Parker can do." she says, "I'll go get the couch ready for her, wait one second while i make it comfortable for our guest." she says, leaving to get the blankets.

Looking down at Maya, asleep in my arms I realize I do care, I care a lot actually, I wonder if she's met miles yet, she reminds me of him. I want to protect her, in a a way that's different than how i want to protect miles, or anyone else really. she's just been through so much, all I want is for to wake up so that I can tell her it's all okay. she doesn't though, and I I don't think she will for a while.

I put her down gently on the couch i try to let go but her grip sub consciously tightens on my arm, and she tosses around a little, but eventually, exhausts herself and goes limp again, her chest rising and falling gently. my room is right across from her and I leave the door open so that i can see her. I lie down and after a lot of worrying, I eventually fall asleep myself.

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mayas pov

I feel myself wake up, but not wanting to, it's warm and confortable and I'm extremely drowsy.

that feeling lasts for about two seconds when I realize that I fell asleep in the first place and I panic a little at first, and then a lot when i realize three things.

A: I don't know how i got here.

B: Here is comfortable but it's definitely NOT my bed.

and maybe the most concerning;

C: holy shit. someone else is here and i definitely don't have my mask on.

I quickly bolt up and web up the closest moving object, my vision freaking the fuck out trying to adjust to the sudden intake of bright light, leaving my eyes completely useless on figuring out what the fuck is actually happening

"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU AND WHAT DO YOU WANT WITH ME?!" I demand.

whoever is there calls for someone but my senses are so overwhelmed i don't quite catch who.

another blob runs in from another room and i try to web them up but they doge and web me up instead.

wait, hold up. if someone else is webbing me up, that means it's another spider, which means I should probably stop freaking out and wait till I can actually read the room and see what the hell is happening, before I hurt someone.

my senses slowly come back and I hear someone talking to me, and referring to me by name.

"....aya, .... alm dow... It's Oka... your Okay, It's me peter."

I blink a few times and my vision calms down and i can see whats happening, and it is infact peter.

the panic, anxiety and adrenaline completely drains out of my body when I see him. I realize in that moment, I actually trust peter. it's odd, but it's comforting, and it's welcome, so I guess that is thing that happened.

"peter?" I say, letting my voice crack with emotion, for the first time in years, not even caring on how pathetic i sound.

"hey kiddo sorry about that It, well, it didn't feel right leaving you on the cold hard floor, are you okay? do you need anything?" he said.

on the floor? wait.

"did I fall asleep?" I ask

"yeah, you did".

I feel dread bubbling up inside of me. "nonononon NO" I scream, tears building up, "wha- what happened is everyone okay?" I stammer.

peter seems confused. "kid no one is hurt, except maybe you, i'm worried, how.. how often do you sleep" he asks me.

I stay there, and I think really hard, and finally I say"

"I usually pass out after... five days, but I.. I try to avoid it for as long as possible"

Peter looks at me as if I had just died in front of him. I don't know why.

"kid..." he starts. "you gotta let yourself sleep,what do you do at night?" he asks

that when I realize that my sleep schedule is not a normal one that spiders have.

"I- I go out on patrol, don't... don't you?" I ask, nervous.

"oh my god kid, you.., you need to sleep." he says.

i'm confused. "but what about everyone else, I can't sleep if someone needs my help!"

peter approaches me, and does something unexpected,

he hugs me...

and I don't know what to do...

the last person who hugged me was... her.

my knees buckle, he catches me and hugs tighter...

and that's when I start to cry.

"Maya, you can't do that to yourself.." he says

In the back of my mind I know, I know hes right, I always did, but I couldn't.

"you can't help anyone if you don't take care of yourself" he says

"I.. I can't, It's too hard" I admit, sobbing into his shoulder.

peter is silent for a while, "then let us help" he says.

I pull away, confused. "what?" I ask.

"say here with us, and we can help" he says looking at me with caring eyes. "Mayday would like the company, she really likes you y'a know, and, well.." he looks over at a woman, who I assume is MJ, across the room who gives him an approving nod, and back to me "I guess me an MJ can tolerate you for a little." he says teasingly.

"Yes" i sob out.

"well while your here could you release our breakfast? I think it's ready to talk" he jokes.

I look over and realize that the closest moving thing that I webbed up after waking up, was one of MJ's pancakes in mid-flip.

I laugh, and cry at the same time, and for the first time in years, I have a family.

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#god I suck at writing #spider man #spidersona #across the spiderverse #spider man across the spider verse #spider sona #spiderverse fanart #spider man oc #spiderman into the verse #into the spider verse #fanfic #spiderman fanfiction #spidersona fanfic #oc fanfiction #oc fic #bad fanfiction #but I'm actually super proud of this

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*cracks knuckles* sooo have you ever heard about Hytale?

This Game has been my neurodivergent obsession for a few years now, despite having never actually played it, since its not even out lol.

If you dont know what Hytale is, buckle up because you are stuck with me here and will have to listen to me rant about it >:)

Hytale is a Game being made by Hypixel Studios, an offshoot from Hypixel inc. who run the Hypixel minecraft Server. The Game has been in developement since somewhere around 2016 and has yet to release. Why so long, you might think? Well, its complicated.

Back in the ancient year before memorial (2016), Minecraft was at an all time low in terms of player numbers due to many factors, both a lack of interest in the games updates, minecraft being considered cringe and other games such as fortnite having pulled both players and creators away from the Game.

Dont get the wrong impression though, Minecraft was still being played a lot, but not very much talked about, and especially java editions days seemed numbered by a lot of creators, including the owner of Hypixel, Simon, as well as Noxy, who will be important later.

Simon, as far we know is a cool guy, and has made stonks with the Servers revenue during Minecrafts peak, but these times seemingly would never be coming back.

Minecraft just lacked the aspects nececarry to sustain its community, be it the lack of content updates, creator support through a modding api or freedom in policy through recent eula changes.

Due to these and other factors, the Hypixel Team realized that running their business long term in an enviromen, where so many sweeping large changes outside of their control could end their entire livelihood, they realized that there was basically nothing stopping them from just making their own minecraft, free from the restrainst of their creativity, community and buisness, and thats why Hypixel Studios, the Game company, was born.

As stated by noxy and Simon back in 2016, they had over 25 people working full time, funded by simon in an aruably risky move to build their own legs tto stand on, and by 2018, they were far enough into developement to share their project with the wider Hypixel community, and mabe even the entire Minecraft community...

In late 2018, Hypixel Studios released a Trailer on their Youtube channel for a new Game they had been working on for over 2 years called Hytale:

Hytale was advertised as a Blockgame Sandbox RPG, utalizing simmilar voxel based terrain as minecraft, but other than that completely different: Where Minecraft was an open-ended Sandbox for the player to shape the way they like, Hytale was designed to be an Adventure RPG with a Story/Campain, Lore, more in depth combat, a fully realized fantasy World with Bosses and dungeons and content galore, but also open for other people to create their own experiences inside the game using modding support, live scripting a model maker and so on. Not to mention an upgraded version of their minecraft server, now unchained from minecraft and let loose on a Game under their full control.

Simon and the others new that there was interest for that kind of game, but the response from the wider Gaming community was beyond their wildest Expectation:

Their Prediction laid at around 100, mabe 200 thousand views on their first look trailer, but boi did they underestimate:

The Trailer now sits at 60. Million. Views. 60. MILLION.

Many AAA Studios wuld dream of that kind of success, and now they were sitting there, with the pressure to perform in front of the entire Minecraft community, they were harolded as the bringers of Minecraft 2, the ones who would give them what minecraft was sorely lacking, they were now asked to bear a community of that size on their shoulders, and well, they marched on.

On their Twitter Account, they said they were aiming for the game to be in everyones hands by 2019, but as we all know, that never happened, but why?

They decided to delay the release until 2021 to try and reach the expectations now put on them, expand the team, explore new possibilites and see how they can harness the attention the game had gotten.

Over the course of the next two years, they would release blogposts after blogpost updating exited fans on the developement of the game, sharing details on how the game shaped up, and sometimes announce new hires, along with simon handing of the torch to noxy as head of the company.

At the Start of 2020, theythen announced that Hypixel Studios had been aqquired by a major Studio called Riot Games, that would be funding the further developement as well as oversee and give advice to the rapidly growing Team. For many, me included this sounded dangerous, since as gamers we were well to aware of the many cases where studios like Electronic Arts have acquired smaller studios, only for them to ruin their future games and close the studio after a small failiure.

But as we now know, this did not happen in this case, in fact, riot is built on very simmilar ideals and spirit of entrepreneurship, their flagship title, league of legends, was inspired by Dota, a popular warcraft 3 mod - a journey not too dissimilar from what Hypixel went through with minecraft.

If we now skip until today, Hypixel studios has grown from somewhere around 30 employees to over 130, they have hired talent from the minecraft community, like the developer of sodium, they hired people from the pre-release hytale community, they have hired people they themselves grew up playing games made of, and as stated by their Game director John Hendricks, a former Mojang employee, they have now largely ,,Charted the iceberg" in terms of what is now in their scope to expand hytale into: Hytale is now not only a big game, its a Plattform for People to come together, explore and create, for people to go on the same sort of journey they themselves took initialy with the project.

This has obviously meant that, to utalize the immense amount of talent, reccources and experience, they need time, and this has pushed a possible release farther and farther back.

The Game that was being developed back before 2020 is now left to be an overengineered prototype of their full vision, while they rebuild the games technical side from the ground up to have an engine durabe enough for over a decade to come, and take their time doing it, not under pressure from riot to crunch developement, as other publishers and parent companies have done in the past.

As for me, I have been exited for what they do with the Game since that announcement back in 2018, and I have hopes and dreams of what playing and creating in hytale will be like. I cant wait to explore the world of orbis, play minigames and explore what others may create, or create myself.

The Game Industry is a tough place, where funding, good management, talent, experience, and an exited playerbase cannot guarantee a good game, but mabe, just mabe, lightning will strike exactly where I want it to, and mabe Hytale will be the game I have hope it has the potential to be.

If you have read this far, thank you. I may post more in the future about this kinda stuff, but for now I hope to have relieved myself of some of that hype that has been pressure sealed behind my fingers. I hope you have a great day, and may this post age well ;D

#Hytale #Rant #gaming #hyperfixation

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Can we hear atleast one of the takes thats in the bracket please op ill never ask you for anything ever again please please please

BEHIND THE SCENES DETAILS BELOW THE CUT;

I didn't actually let any takes qualify automatically, for a couple of reasons.

The main one is that I made a rule that there would be no seeding, and no creator bias whatsoever.

I don't know if this is a hot take, but personally I feel that tournament pollrunners should be allowed to have as much creator bias as they want - if the mod of a character poll wants to include their blorbos, I think they should absolutely be allowed to that!

(Though I know from some of the previous polls we've done and submissions I've received, a lot of you disagree, and having read your justifications, I totally understand that viewpoint.)

But because this tournament specifically is about hot takes, I think the rules are different.

I felt that whether I personally agree or disagree with a take, or whether not I even understand what it's even about, shouldn't have any impact on whether or not it made the bracket.

I also thought that if I chose takes based on something like highest ratio or amount of discourse, even though that would make the bracket more spicy, niche fandom takes would have no chance of making the bracket - and those are some of the takes people are most passionate about.

On the flipside, the bracket would be dominated by food takes, and pretty much nothing else.

So, I wanted every take to have an equal chance of making it into the bracket, no matter how popular it was - and that's why I decided to make the rule that all takes in the bracket would be chosen entirely at random.

I ended up using a random number generator to decide which takes would be included, so every take would have the exact same chance of making the bracket.

But because I didn't understand a lot of the takes, and I have a terrible track record at guessing which way you guys will vote, I eventually polled every take that the randomiser selected, to make sure they were actually hot takes.

For example, knowing nothing about vocaloid, never in a million years would I have guessed that the vocaloid take would be the hottest take on this blog by far, and I'm guessing OP didn't either.

So, because every submission in the bracket was polled, you wouldn't actually have seen anything new.

That's also the main reason the bracket took such a long time to put together - most of the fandom takes that the randomiser chose ended up being validated, and they had to be disqualified because they were cold takes that would've swept the bracket.

(the one that sticks out in my mind is the Morrowind take, which the randomiser became obsessed with and picked like thirty times for some reason - and then you guys disqualified it the randomiser got mad and immediately picked a string of cursed food takes lol)

And in the meantime, I had to make other polls so you guys wouldn't be able to guess which submissions were actually being polled for the bracket, and which weren't.

So it took a lot longer than I had planned.

I did make two exceptions to the 'no seeding rule' - which were two takes that did make it automatically.

Out of the 32 takes in the bracket, I set aside two spots;

The first was for a take chosen by you guys. Originally, I had planned to let you guys choose one take to make it automatically - but then you guys said that the vocaloid take should make it by default before I made the post asking you guys to choose a take. So that take took the first spot.

The second was a special 'wild card' take that I threw in to be a little spicy - it wasn't actually a submission, but a take based on one of the other polls we've done. That would've been the only actually new take that you hadn't seen before.

Anyway, that's what went on behind the scenes <3

#asks #not a poll

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dts s5 e6-8

e6: -having flashbacks of having to defend oscar to my mom for this why does the show try to lean into otmar's perspective so heavily GROSS -nah im full tinhatting i do not remember this whole bit where everyone hypes up oscar in interview before he has his lil chat with mark netflix u slimey lil bitches -oh if i was here when this news broke summer break 2022. i would've been inconsolable. i'm sure it was nuts, ballistic. maybe it was good i wasnt there. idk if i could've handled it akldkfjadslkfjasdkfj -lando saying "i already am (leading the team)" was not that rude it was just the TRUTH sorry -daniel speaking italian is so important actually -"ive been in this sport for 25 years i know what im doing" king that only makes the fumble THAT much more embarrassing COME ON -otmar talking abt how well oscar took all the shit we offered aren't we owed a contract? reminds me of timeshare schemes like actually just u paid for xyz if you dont have a contract in place he doesnt owe u anything maybe do contracts better next time :) -unfortunately zak brown is right!! its a pr disaster is the 5 million worth it!!! and they didnt even get the 5 mil!!! how do lose ur job speedrun masterclass here!! -i do wonder how much netflix inflated daniel's chances for the alpine seat, bc from what i've heard it wasnt really in the conversation. idk i wasnt there but it would make sense for netflix to lean heavily into this narrative -did not realize liam was sitting Right There when pierre was askin abt the gossip aldfjaslkfjaksjdf -the way how in season 1 its like NO DANIEL DON"T LEAVE RED BULL i feel the same way abt pierre going to alpine. like ofc it made perfect sense at the time and you cant fault him for it but like no babygirl its bouta implode PLEASE -rip all the tiktok edits that were muted in the umg purge that paired "good luck to oscar" with "if a man talks shit then i owe him nothing." thank u taylor couldn't have said it better myself -"do you regret anything that's happened?" "um. no :)" U TELL EM BABY

e7: -i'm sorry but geri seemingly getting boiling water from a tap to make tea is so fucking insane rich person cursed -was originally gonna include this funny shot of christian standing looking out a balcony like sharpay evans in high school musical in my s5 gifset but due to recent events i will not :) -i just think. that including this whole bit abt how much checo loves his family in the same episode as the monaco gp where he allegedly cheated on his wife was a CHOICE. interesting. -lewis's monaco 2022 outfit is one of his best outfits ever. its so iconic 2 me -HI ALEX -so many cinematic parallels to discuss. s1 max putting it in the wall in practice and ruining his race to prove he was faster than daniel. known parallels to brocedes ALLEGEDLY trying to sabotage eachother by crashing in that corner in monaco. hmm hmm hmm. much to think -im sorry the sainz collision is just so goofy. i remember watching the replay of this quali and being bamboozled. befuddled. deeply amused. what a stupid fucking sport -'for fucks sa-........okay this is typical monaco isnt it" MAX GETS IT -i honestly dont mind wet monaco races just bc by nature of the track its on average slower therefore less dangerous. i'll take a wet monaco over a wet spa any damn day -ferrari's double pit fuck up is PEAK embarassing ferrari strats. like to do a bad strat is one thing but to just mess up the strat ur trying to do. peak biblically cursed charles leclerc moment

e8: -god i wish i got more into yukierre. i see the appeal. unfortunately they just dont give me brain worms -many thoughts. um i think focusing on yuki's temper is just. unfair. like sure he should work on it but thats an issue with many young drivers its not a unique failure on his part -i have given thoughts on japan '22 before i'm not rly gonna rehash but i really wish the didn't gloss over it on dts. i think it was an important moment in the sport to have a big conversation abt rain safety. -oh this nyck supercut is gonna be painful knowing where it goes :/ -god remember when ppl thought nyck was gonna lead the team? leave yuki in the dust? even /i/ had him above yuki in my preseason predictions isnt that insane? -"im happy, i'll take that, that you'll miss me at least 2 or 3 minutes" god forgot the most romcom ass shit since sebchals we'll start by holding hands -nando n lance having this crazy crash and now a year later they're fucking on the reg. happy 4 them

#i'm ahead of schedule now on purpose so i dont have to worry abt it when pst starts!#i will likely finish 2moro WOO #she speaks #dtsrewatch

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sofa. I'm trying to think of another question but im not sure. would you list some of your top 10 favorite cartoons of all time

DAMN ANOTHER TOUGHIE.. ive watched a lot of cartoons... i feel like its easy just to list more current ones/cartoons ive very recently watched but im gonna try real hard not to do that. so in no particular order:

adventure time: probably an obvious choice to ppl who know me personally. im pretty sure ive said this before but i quite literally grew up with this show, like i watched the pilot on nicktoons when i was like 9 and freaked out when the first episode of the actual show aired, and ive still regularly and enthusiastically kept up with it ever since, even to this day. i have to be honest and say the inclusions of distant lands and fionna and cake had me worried in a very cynical way about wringing the franchise dry or it succumbing to nostalgia bait but ive been happy to have had those fears handily dispelled every time. it makes me really happy to see that the cast and crew that have stuck with it just seem so genuinely excited to continue to tell new stories in the expanded universe and explore the land of ooo and new characters who live there, i think thats a good way to keep an ongoing series with spinoffs or limited series or what have you to keep from getting stale

ducktales 2017: once again anybody who knows me personally or follows this blog knows why this is on the list. i. fucking. love. ducktales 2017. ive said a million times before that i think its like a perfect encapsulation of what a reboot should be, something that obviously has a lot of love and respect for the original that its rebooting, but isn't afraid to incorporate entirely new ideas or deviate from pre-established "rules" or roles of the previous installments/versions of the characters and story, so on and so forth. i think it blends the family sitcom and action adventure elements really well together, its got a great ensemble of charming characters, i think most of the over-arching storylines it sets up are executed really well and it has a lot of fun one-off stories. its not perfect but its damn near close, in my opinion. also as much as i hate disney the corporate i do still love donald duck hes the best legacy disney character ok american moment over

the secret saturdays: i was a HUGE fan of the show as it was coming out but didnt remember much of it as i got older until i rewatched it, whereupon i found out just how much it fucking holds up, oh my g0d. i genuinely cannot believe its not more popular considering its premise, and again i think the story and character writing really hold up !!!!!! it has fantastic twists, you are immediately endeared not just to the saturday family but a lot of the other supporting characters, its overreaching storyline is executed so so well especially when you consider it was unfortunately gutted and prematurely cancelled by CN. some parts of it may be a little dated but again i think for the years it was developed and coming out there are some elements that were kind of ahead of the curve. if you havent watched the secret saturdays PLEEEASE please do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im fucking begging you. its good

ben 10: i think ben 10 might be my white whale. for important context i was scared to death of the original series as it was actively coming out when i was like, 6 years old, only to get extremely invested in it and the "original universe" franchise in like late middle school/early high school, and then they fucking got my ass AGAIN as a current twenty-something. every time i think im out they fucking pull me right back in. i know its a dumb meat headed action cartoon for little children but the wasted potential in this franchise is nothing short of insane, i wouldnt be saying this if they didnt literally bring up certain threads and ideas in the show only to be like, actually who gives a fuck ! that being said its a premise that sticks with you forever. to quote that one post

justice league unlimited: i dont post much about superhero cartoons on here but make no mistake they were hugely influential to me when i was a kid, my dad was and still is a huge marvel nerd but unfortunately for marvel (and my dad) their cartoon game was (and honestly, still kind of is) just aaaaabsolute trash, except for the ones about the x-men, but thats a ramble for another day. it wont surprise you to know a lot of the writing staff for the justice league and justice league unlimited cartoons would go on to work on the original ben 10 continuity so they have a lot of the same issues, but i would be lying if i didnt say jlu had a huge effect on my little baby brain, arguably maybe more than ben 10. why unlimited and not the original justice league cartoon of the aughts you ask ? well because jlu is hornier, and also booster gold is there

discovery kids favorites: this is technically cheating cuz its 3 cartoons, BUT ! i dont remember them enough on their own to put any one above the other. as a kid my mom hated cartoons (and honestly most tv programming aimed at children) and hated me and my sisters watching them in the room with her, or in general, for more than like 15 minutes a day, unless they were educational, and so i felt extremely clever for exploiting the discovery kids loophole bc they were cartoons made to teach you stuff. the ones i remember the most vividly and fondly were tutenstein, grossology, and growing up creepie, which i feel like honestly. says a lot about me. i should rewatch those sometime.

samurai jack: i will not argue against the fact that genndy tartakovsky is a tremendously talented individual, and a lot of his work has been extremely inspirational to me, that being said, if given the chance, i would drop an anvil on his head. i probably shouldnt say that but i cant express to you how much a lot of his work frustrates me and samurai jack really takes the cake. i cant even talk about season 5 but a lot of stuff in seasons 1-4 has problems that i feel like should be addressed, THAT BEING SAID, in spite of it all, i still fucking love samurai jack. i have fond memories of it from when i was a kid and during the collective resurgence it had as the 5th season was coming out, i cant argue that it doesnt have a lot going for it or pretend that again it isnt responsible for a lot of my own personal artistic inspirations.

class of 3000: I KNOW IVE BEEN POSTING ABOUT THIS A LOT LATELY BUT ITS NOT JUST CUZ OF THAT ! this last rewatch hasnt been my first, ive genuinely brought up this show to a lot of people both online and irl in the desperate hope other people remembered it because it was one of my absolute favorites as a kid and i remember the visceral feeling of how unfair it felt when i found out at like age 9 that it had been cancelled and there would never be another episode of it again. i think it just came into my life at the right place at the same time, i was both getting really into drawing and coming up with little stories myself and so the art and the cast really drew me in, and i had a music teacher at the time who was really into jazz and blues music and seeing that reflected in a cartoon i was watching was so cool :v] and again i just think so much of it holds up. its a gem i dont think should be hidden

spongebob (but only the first four seasons and the movie): im almost 25 so this is supremely unoriginal. its not that i think the newer/newest stuff is all bad its just that everybody gets one thing to be unreasonably blinded by nostalgia about and for me its early spongebob. the userbase on here is aging you all know what im talking about i dont need to explain this pick

the owl house: i really like the owl house for what it is ! its not for everybody, i know people tend to think it kind of skews towards "children's cartoon that is targeted for adults who still watch that stuff" but i think thats kind of cynical and not very generous to the cast and crew, i know the show got pitched around a bit before disney picked up on it but i dont think its fair to exclude the care and thought that went into re-adapting it for a broader and therefore younger audience, and the care that went into it in general ! i like its take on the fantasy setting, both the main and minor cast clearly have a lot of love and thought put into them, genuinely i think luz is maybe one of my favorite cartoon protagonists ever, the messaging it tries to get across i think comes from a personal place and is thus very earnest and sweet, and much like the secret saturdays i think its able to accomplish a lot in the limited time it was given. the whole show just feels like a labor of love to me and i just like the way that comes through !

since this was hard here are some honorable mentions:

batman the brave and the bold: wouldnt be fair to bring up a superhero cartoon and not mention this. i was pretty obsessed with this rendition of batman as a kid, unsurprising since i unironically loved the joel schumacher batman & robin movie and liked to catch the adam west batman re-runs they would play at the wee hours of the morning when i couldnt sleep, i think brave and the bold channels both of those a lot, its deeply stupid and kind of sucks in a lot of areas but thats also kind of part of the charm

3below: so i watched the first season of this before ever watching trollhunters, and while i recognize trollhunters is on a lot of levels the superior tales of arcadia cartoon i just like 3below the best. the stakes of trollhunters can get a little exhausting and i think 3below lets itself get a bit more goofy, plus its about a little group of "fish out of water" aliens !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love fish out of water stories AND aliens, what do you want me to do

fangbone!: real sofa fans remember my fangbone phase. ongoing actually cuz hes still my icon. its one of those cheaply produced flash canadian cartoons but from my perspective i think it was made by people who actually put more effort than was expected of them, which i like, and again its another fish out of water story, and the graphic novel its based on is also very cute

dwampyverse cartoons: phineas and ferb and milo murphy's law mostly ! pnf was very impactful on me as a kid and i loved the first season of mml. i think theyve reached a kind of oversaturation maybe ? that has made me juuust a little bit jaded about them, but i cant pretend like i still dont hold plenty of fondness for em in my heart

unicorn warriors eternal: see the above points about genndy tartakovsky in the samurai jack bulletpoint. the premise is a really cool one and the first season managed to be really good in ways i didnt think it would be but theres still the second season, so im scared. i hope its good. ive got the clown make up ready to go just in case though.

lastman: don't watch lastman. we all have our own cross to bear, alright, and this one's mine. i watched lastman, so you don't even have to worry about it, i mean i haven't finished the second season yet so i will, so don't watch lastman, please. im telling you as your friend, don't watch lastman. we all make mistakes sometimes, like for example, i watched lastman, both in french and english. if you watch lastman than my sacrifices will have been for nothing. don't watch it, and don't look up the comic either. im completely serious.

big city greens: im very picky about sitcoms and sitcom-type faire, but big city greens takes i think a very flat and tbh cynical gimmick and explores it with a lot of heartfelt earnestness, its hard not to be charmed by it. just pure comfort food tv to me.

danger & eggs: fun fact !!!!!! the cartoon that made me decide to make this sideblog !!! i keep meaning to revisit it, i would recommend checking it out if you havent before, both its premise and humor is very idiosyncratic and sweet to me, again its just another show that feels like it came very a place very near and dear to the creator's heart and i just always love to see that. if i had kids of my own which i never will i would definitely show it to them

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I agree with what you just said about this place, basically Bill's fandom and I use that word loosely, being dead AF. It's, he, is so boring lately. It took me awhile to really mean that bc I wanted to hope his light would come back again. But he doesn't seem to care about his fans or even himself anymore. Have you noticed he wears the same black outfit (black shirt black pants or jeans) all the time now? He only manages a smile when he's not with you know who. And yet he keeps showing up with you know who. If he can't bother to care why should his fans? I just hope his acting hasn't suffered like his life has. I loved watching him in pretty much anything. Dude can act and it comes naturally. That's something other actors would kill for.

I see hes trying to give some content and trying to look good, younger ( thus the rings and earring , and all that dark clothing) BUT is not enough. He is always hiding , the news that get to come out its because fans are looking for them ... his team is most of the time silent. There is no hype around him , not even in this fandom ( not as it may have been 4 years ago x example) and next year is key , he will have at least 3 movies out in different times of the next year.

Sorry for the following rant it's just to get it out of my chest. I won't talk about that anymore from now.

I want to also say something since sometimes I get some ask that I later erase with the typical " you just hate you are not with him".

Im not stupid , I'm not in love of someone I DONT KNOW. Also I have nothing personal against Alida M, I don't know her personally to hate her. But I DO HAVE A PROBLEM with wasted privilege.

The reason why I started to like Bill and - why not- his family is because you can see they all worked to get what they want. They may have had it easier in some ways but they always wanted to go beyond , try something else to make a name on their own. I admire that. They are not the classical nepo rich kids.

A is the very opposite. She wanted to be a public persona and that's fine but only promoted her rich kid personality while traying ( in interviews ) to portray herself as a working woman. I hate fake humility. It's ok if she just wanted to be a socilite ... why lie ? why say you are an actress but don't look for more projects? why dont take classes? and if its not for you then why not USE THE POSITION you have to build something else? There is alot to do for the industry : casting, writing, make up, production, etc. She bragged on her personal social media acc about the wrong things. Contradiction at it's finnest

A contradiction that reflected onto Bill later on , the humble funny likable guy aware of his upbringing disaspeared before our eyes , he sounded in interviews more and more cocky and selfcentered. He claimed being private but at the same time was being recorded on intimate moments very often. We started to see him stressed , tired ,a shadow of who he was.

There were no changes... 'till now. I gotta acknowledge her attemps to change, also what Bill is trying to do to save - idk - his image and maybe his family too ¿? . Still the damage has been done

Anyway i'm just one among millions in the world , if I or all the people in this fandom leaves , new ones will arrive. We are replaceable.

I wish him luck in whatever he is trying to do.

And yes he can act , thats the only things that keeps his fandom slightly breathing.

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Loveing Thy Enemy

This is going to be a Felix x reader imangine because I’ve been neglecting my man. ( I forgot this shit was in my drafts woops ��)

I was part of the pack for a while now, I moved up here from Canada 3 months ago. Jaccob was kind enough to take me in after my pack was massacred by new newborns and the cullens moved back once agian to forks. It was quite unusal though new people new faces. I got along well with the rest of the cullens never had problems with them but it did bother me that whenever they were around trouble would deffiantly followed. Of course the Volturi were involved , to have honestv their rules made sense it wasnt or didn’t seem that horrible. Just live your life and nothing happenes but after the whole fiasco everything went back to normal. But it wasnt the volturi came to vist for bussiness unknow to them, as far as they kne wthey haven’t broke anyrules.

It was surpiisng the Kings themselves didn’t show up this time but made a formal request to see me and that was somthing I didn’t want, it made my wolf on the inside on egde something wasn’t right and do they even know abotu me Alice maybe well it doesnt matter, so many thoughts ran throught my mind Jaccob intruppted my inner monolauge, while we were transfomedx.

“ Y/n, you know your not obligated to meet thewm if this isn’t what you want you donm’t have to.”

As the pack ran through the forest heading towards the Cullens it was full of growls and multiple cvonverstations flying off as million miles perminute but i blocked the rest of the pack ewith their playful banter out to talk to Jaccob.

“No Jake its, okay I just want to get thias done and over with. I really dont want to have any problems really it might be because they thought i was human and were going to sort out.”

“ Alright, if your sure, i can tell in his voices that thewre was unease but it was to late we were already arrived at the cullens.”

As I took my human form, I smelt the most amazing scent and i knew it was him my mate, he semlt absoultley wonderful like fresh Pine and oold spice the scent was intoxicateing and I wcouldn’t be more happy. I ran ahead of everyone and could hear Jake call my name.

“Y/n wait, you need to-”

I alreadly ran towards the cullen door and was ready to meet who he was, I could see the cullens but when I was going up to carlisle. I bumped into someone and fell back. He was tall and ominious,didn’t really appear friendly which made me nervous, but his senct was he really mine? this wasnt how i imagined him to be let aloine... a vampire and he wasn’t like the cullens he drank human blood he’s blood red eyes made him all the more friegthing with his terryinfg hieght, the way he loomed over me. I was conflicted with myself my heart couldn’t be more happy but my heart also filled weith dread. We couldn’t be togther we shouldn’t. Yes trhewre was Jaccob and Reneseme but thats different, how could I possibly love the one thing that massacrewd my loved ones. A... vampire, well I guess its not really fair to jugde them but what i’ve heard they ruled with an iron fist and you can’t be both volf and vampire...would they force me to transform? will I have to die? I don’t want to, I had a whole life ahead of my and I won’t let anybody not h=even him, stop me.

“So I did thew only thing I would think of was to run away as a sign of rejection.”

“Felix your scaring her.” the short blond said.

“Well sister what did you expect? She the enemy and to top it all off she finds that her mate is a towering blood sucker, what aperdicatment she in. i wonder how master Caisus would react he will surly blow a fujse.”

As all of this went on the man before me felix crouned down to seem less intimidating, his face softened and a smile appereaded on his face. I guess he did look rather sweet and the eyes didn’t really bother me but i just couldn’t bring my self to love him

#felix volturi #felix+volturi+imagine #volturi #vampire #felix+volturi+x+reader #twilight #the volturi #wolfpack #jacob black

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mumbos-waffle · 2 years

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day something fictober prompts!

today is “do i frighten you?”

The hermits watched as grian spawn in, he had previously taken a tour on the server and been interviewed. Everyone had met him, so when he spawn in, not a human but with wings almost 5 times the size of him and eyes spread over his body, they were surprised. Grian looked around at the scared faces, most with their hands on the swords that sat on their side. He nervously chuckles “hey guys'' he stuttered looking down at himself. Xisuma makes a ‘back off’ motion with his hand towards the group, “grian? You said you were human mate?” grian scratched the back of his neck,

“Well about that,” he folded his wings as close to his body as he could and closed the extra eyes, “I'm not.” xisuma noticed his shaky hands and shallow breaths, he needed to de-escalate this. “Okay, thats okay, we just would've rather known incase we need to change anything around the server!” he smiled trying to get ‘it's all good!’ across “like when etho joined,” he pointed at the robotic man “we needed to know so we could tell everyone to be careful with water around him!”

“Huh” he frowned “sorry i guess- i just thought you guys might be put off by the whole” he motioned to his eyes “thing…” Xisuma smiled and assured him it was fine.

He sat by mumbo admiring his bat wings, “youre so cool mumbo!” he giggled, “oh gosh, stop it, i'm turning pink!” They both laughed a bit and continued talking about whatever, grian had been on the server for a few months by now, he hasn't taken his wings out again, even though the server assured him it was fine he was afraid he'd get called things or he'd scare people. He trusted mumbo though “mumbo? Can I uhm- show my wings?” he felt silly asking it, and he sounded like a child asking their mother for sweets. mumbo looked frightened at the subject but immediately agreed. Mumbo watched in awe as his friends' wings faded into existence, the night sky building them out of nothing.

Mumbo thought they were beautiful but a million ugly words came flooding into his mind simply because he knew what grian was. He didnt voice any of them, instead settling for a ‘woah’ he was afraid silence would speak volumes. They continued talking but mumbo couldn't get it out of his mind, his new friend was a watcher, the most feared, and definitely not supposed to talk and live with people. “Are you afraid of me?” grian asked out of the blue, mumbo panicked a bit “no- of course not! There's tons of non-human people on this server! Me included!” grian looked skeptical

“Yea but none of them are watchers'' the words hung in the air, “okay- fine, yes, you do scare me a bit, ive never seen a-” he swallowed his spit, as a kid he was always taught not to say the word, it was childish to still hold on to this sentiment. “Watcher before, it's just kind of shocking” he cringed at his own words feeling worse when grian looked a bit down

“its something I need to get past. I'm pretty feared myself, you know?” He smiled revealing the sharp teeth in his mouth “i'm a vampire! Only a few people on the server know, when I joined we were still being hunted! Xisuma is a kind man though”

Grian looked comforted by mumbos ramblings, mumbo was glad. They had both learned a few things that day.

1: they could trust eachother

2: they could trust xisuma

And 3: they were both wanted criminals

#mumbo #grian #grumbo if youd like #tw fake racism #hermit fic #hermitcraft #fictober #god i hate this #help me lol #light hearted #minor hurt/comfort

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mirror-is-distured · 1 year

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always (angst, hurt/comfort)

[{A/N} hey ghesties, this is my first post like, ever so plz give me some feed back!! ok, some quick TWs, dont read if you are sensitive to: parental trauma, sh, or bl00d . this is a reader X aether ghoul mini fic bcs hes my favorite. WORDCOUNT: 757 words]

I sat in my bed, i just dont know… i thought to myself. The past six months had been very hard. Even though i new i was finally safe, i still listened for the footsteps of a drunk parent or the argements that would ensue when my dad came home from work. I still waited for my mom to toss open my dorr to yell at me, it felt odd finally being free after all the years that i hid away. Dramatically flopping back onto my silk pillow, my nightgown floating down in pursuit of my body. Staring up at the red canopy that covered my bed, the blazing eyes of lucifers likeness stared back. My head dropping off to the side, i saw the dim light from my phone and heard the soft buzz sounding at a new message. I begrudgingly picked it up, it was a text from aether. Hey i can hear you crying through the wall, is everything ok? Was i really being that loud? I knew the walls were thin but i didnt know they were that thin. Yep :) i typed back. I didnt mean it but, well you should never tell another your troubles unless they request that you do so. I tossed my phone aside and simply started to cry. Out of anger, out of sadness, i cried at the thought of my parents, i couldnt pinpoint my emotions but i did know it was making me relapse. Even though my vision was blurry, i still managed to find the drawer containing my ritual materials. I knew what i was doing was wrong but in that moment i didnt care. Grabbing the blade and removing the sheath, i lifted up the hem of my dress. I closed my eyes as i slowly dragged the blade across my thighs. One after another, red lines appeared across my thighs. I thought about all the things that went wrong in my life. As i cut particularly deep i winced. A tear fell into the exposed flesh and i cried out. Before i had time to cover my mouth, there was a knock at my door. Shit. as i rushed to put my stuff away, i heard the door handle turn. I managed to pull my dress back down just as the door opened. Standing there was a ghoul, he was almost as tall as the doorway. “Aether? Whats up?” i asked, trying to subtly trying to wipe the tears off my face. He didnt say anything, he just looked down at my thighs. I followed his gaze, and froze. There were multiple lined of fresh blood forming stains on the light link dress i had been given for my night clothes. “Sister, mia bella… what have you done.” he spoke, breaking the silence. “Its nothing, i just… i spilled my eyeliner.” thats what i come up with??? Om my satan am i stupid. “Sister we both know thats not true. Tell me whats going on.” he said, sitting next to me. “Its nothing i promise.” he grabbed the bottom of my dress, lifting it up and exposing my wounds to the air. “Aether-” without saying a word, he just got up and left. Why. why do i hurt the only people who care about me. Why di i drive everyone away… a million thoughts flooded my head, it was unclear how mush time had passed, it couldnt have meed long, i was still bleeding profusley. When my door opened one again, this time with aether, who was holding a roll of bandages. “Sorry it took me so long, i had to go find them as the nurse is sleeping.” he said, kneeling infront of me. He gently started to wrap my thighs before he got up and once again sat next to me. “If you dont want to talk about it now, that is ok. But i am here for you sister, always.” i tossed my arms around him, softly crying into the soft coton of his shirt. He pulled me down so we are laying together in my bed, his arms around me, in a way that only he could. When i was near him i just felt to… safe. It was unexplainable. “Thank you aether..” i managed in a soft whimper. “Of course mia bella. And if you just wish for me to hold you, just say so. I will stay with you for as long as you need.” he rubbed my back as we slowly fell asleep in eachothers arms.

#ghost #aether ghoul #idk what else to put in the tags

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hastings727 · 6 months

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I'm always creative when I get baked:

When I look back on 2020, all I really remember was horrible fear. I was terrified for my family and after a month and a half of being at home, I finally went out to a grocery store and was still terrified. Going anywhere made my anxiety spike, and being at home was painful because I was glued to the internet.

And I think thats an honest view of that time, because I think alot of people felt that way.

But I think remembering ONLY that part of the event hides the start of so many things that are still being felt right now. We got stripped of normal life, forced to stay with only those closest to us for fear of a virus that we didn't know much about. But when you tear the cloth off of your eyes, you start to see things differently.

Remote work? easy, webcams, phones, etc. Not having to leave our houses for a useless commute meant we were happier being with our family. We had way more free time, and spent it learning hobbies and doing things we'd said we could only do "when we had the time."

Alot of people became more consciously aware of social justice due to the George Floyd protests. For a lot of people, (whether willfully or ignorantly) had their eyes drawn to an injustice shared by millions of black people and other minorities. White people couldn't easily ignore the truth, and either went full fascist or further left.

People millenial age and younger started to have political ambitions due to seeing how fucked our world has been under corrupt baby boomers. The surge of younger candidates in the political class is entirely due to how people saw how our govt. treated us like shit.

We got to see a world devoid of the constant grind of hyper- capitalistic human life. The polluted haze over California, gone. Venices water, clean and devoid of trash. We watched as a window into a completely different way of life opened before us. What could the future even look like if this is the present?

That window before us became a dream, because as soon as possible, the gears of capitalism had to start again. Our clearly corrupt govt full of rich political class old men and women looked down on us and dropped a bare pittance of $1200, all of 3 times. We got a clear look at the summit that our officials thought they were on, and we began to tear at their pillars.

Of course, nothing can stop The Machine. So we were dragged, kicking and screaming, back (at least somewhat) into the lives we'd had before 2020. But the change that 2020 had wrought wouldn't be forgotten, and so the labour class began to war with their bosses. Social media became host (as it always has since its inception) to political discourse, and the ever growing divide of right and left, authoritarian vs anarchism.

The news became even more obviously a propagandist machine. The overlords running our papers, felt threatened by the emergence of the far left and the explosion of unions forming between workers. Social media coverage became the only real place to see news as soon as possible, because the news stations were being told not to cover it.

We have become attached to our devices even harder than before. People became addicted to screen time. "Touching grass" became a meme about people too zoned in on social media. Social media was a game, and young people were at the forefront of it. Generation Z had touched down and their demographic became one of the most scrutinized. What had started as criticizing the Millenials quickly morphed into an ever present disdain from older generations for younger people. We had begun to question the authenticity, the validity, of the American Dream.

We had seen what the grind of the American Dream had done to those older than us. Even as so many of our parents and grandparents regarded us with disdain, they couldn't see what we could: That the American Dream had destroyed them.

Countless families and communities exploded with stories of abuse. What had been kept quiet out of fear began to bubble to the surface. Controversy after controversy, be it private or public, close-knit or widespread, came to light and had to be examined.

But the pain of that time was entirely necessary to be where we are now, in 2023. We wouldn't have so many people fighting if that collective horrible moment hadn't happened. The constant grind of our lives ground to a snails pace and we were left to look at what really mattered.

It's easy to look at every day and say nothing really changed, we're back to where we started. But the system stops for no one. But you can't stop it, I can't stop it. Even the ones benefiting from it can't stop it. The only thing that would end The Machine is itself.

For all the animosity between rich and poor, left and right, oppressed vs oppressor: We, the younger, poorer, more further left gen Y and Z, still wouldn't throw a punch. We won't fight, but we'll push. We'll push and push and grind and grind for the day we can look back at that window to a better future for ourselves and those who come after. Because we got to see those above us force that window shut. We got to see as those closest to us willingly shut the window to appease the system.

That is what 2020 did to us. For some, we looked up in hope at an Uncaring, Unmoved God; and for some, sat with the fallen angel, staring scorned, up at a heaven that had rejected them.

#2020 #quarantine nostalgia #pandemic #covid19

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topconfessions · 6 months

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im kinda a newbie when it comes to these stuff but regarding jennie’s yacht thing, why would she accept being sold by her company AND only get a small % of it? like id get if she got the whole 2 million (i doubt she needs it too at this point she’s making sm more from other gigs) but to get p1mped while also being this powerful and famous? if she did it for yk connections or an opportunity id understand but money? esp as a nepo baby dont think shed sign up for that.

Honey.

You have a lot to learn.

I understand your point but you are sorely mistaken if you think being a celebrity and peaking i.e finally becoming established with so many deals & noterity expels a celebrity from mistreatment. Did we not learn from TLC, the biggest selling contemporary girl group before destiny child's who got fucked over contractually and were just as broke as a regular person despite just getting off a tour and winning grammys? All they had were company planted gifts and styling that they were billed for like Korean idols and had to announce being scammed at the grammys publicly. It's not related to sex but this example sheds light on how celebrity life is NOT what they show you and tell you at all. It just isn't.

did we forget that one Korean male group like 5-6 years ago who were beaten and abused under their agency?

Did we forget boys over flowers major scandal where that actress was practically pass around to get SA'D severely and had nothing despite being on the biggest show of that decade?

there are so many celebrity names I could drop and even models who have sold out selling pussy to make ends meet.

This all speculation with Jenny i.e allegedly. You don't know what she would sign up for just like I don't. That lifestyle they are living is not a regular societal lifestyle like ours. Power dynamics are severely imbalanced especially over there .

She's not jun jihyun or Lee hyori not even hyuna so why wouldn't she be given a small fraction of it? some of the tea the anon spilled to some degree does seem implausible but I do believe she may have been exposed to or brought into something unsavory. No offense but from how you're explaining it, I can tell you are a newbie. Thats okay. We all get into the scene as newbies.

When you see celebs these days on yachts and mega sail yachts or boat parties, do you genuinely think they are hanging out and vacationing? Cause if you do? The discussion is already over. Jennie is extremely blessed to be young in the new advanced tech era and where social media unites us all for her to have such access to everything she has and I'm happy she's doing the damn thing and it's a win in general but subjectively speaking, I truly don't believe in my opinion one can rise to this magnitude at her talent level and media train alone surpassing others who should have rightfully been there without something underlying there. I'm willing to be fair and say she is where she is cause she's benefitting off the times today cause Korean music was isolated and sparingly promoted here. Korean industry is now on par with America but just a few steps behind.

Anyways, I still remember that random rumor YG shut down with a quickness (which is abnormal for them and him) saying he was having a sexual relationship with Jennie. Then the same rumor was said for Teddy. The media is vicious and can make up crap out of nowhere for sure but sometimes not all of this rumors just come out of nowhere and do stem from some real behavior, even if someone saw something and exaggerated it to the internet.

Remember that.

I don't ever remember a back to back rumor like that floating around about a girl group member and an agency head like that since Yang Sun Huk (It's been so long, I forgot his name but the former owner who wore the hat during BB and 2NE1 days) dated and married one of his girl group members which well is truth.

That's all. You have to tell me this cause you find it illogical and farfetched, not because you're a fan and you don't want to phantom that for her. Again, minus the fact she speaks English well and YG promotes them / books them gigs into over time, you've got to ask yourself why her of all people especially out of everyone in BP landed the idol gig with the weeknd and has opportunities no other idol has gotten to that magnitude? Lisa has great gigs and so does Rose but look closely..m

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