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well-shit-im-a-morosexual-now · 3 years

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I'm here, queer, and I want a summary for the new lesson (whenever you get around to playing it of course)!

-35 Anon

NEW FIC + LESSON 44 SUMMARY

Hii! I'm sorry this took like a week BUT as an apology/compensation I wrote a lil' something based off this lesson :D ;

Familiar Strangers

Mammon gets a little more time with the strange angel his little brothers picked up and picks up a few things of his own.

ok ok so this lesson holy shit??? This is probably one of my favourite lessons!? It just gives so much and ahhh it was so good! It gives more angel backstory and lore, shows what got Levi into anime in the first place and answers the question I asked in the previous lesson summary; about why Mammon made a pact with MC in the first place when he said in lesson 43 that he wouldn't make a pact with a random human. And look i'm too excited to wait to reveal this in the end (plus with the way om lessons are structured there won't be a big reveal, just a gradual realisation) so im gonna reveal it here immediately.

LESSON 44 SPOILERS

MC once again fucked up the timeline :')

MC's the one who got Levi into anime in the first place. (but the only reason they got him into anime was cause they already knew he liked anime but he liked anime only because they got him into it and so on and so on, one whole horrid circle)

A time paradox was already in play at the very beginning of S1, meaning MC's first meeting with the brothers was never in S1 but instead thousand of years before the main storyline even began. Meaning MC was never a random human and holy shit???????

I'll talk more about MC and Mammon's pact after I summarise everything, as well as about their sins and their lives in the Celestial Realm Vs the Devildom cause everything is blowing my mind . Additionally, even though Mammon shares more or less equal screentime with his brothers in this lesson it adds a ton of character depth to him and i adore it.

Ok so the lesson starts with;

Mammon, Beel, Satan & MC bursting into Asmo's room. Mammon yelling about how he's gonna kill Asmo cause of the leak, only to find his room empty. They check his bathroom (which in my humble opinion is the first place they should have checked, but then again this is asmo so maybe they wanted to keep that as the worst case scenario option), MC says they should turn the water off immediately and mammon confirms that yeah if lucifer is actually still alive and finds out about this all of them will be murdered on the spot. They find Asmo passed out in the bathroom. MC uses the healing spell they learn back in s2 to take away some of his pain. All 3 brothers seem very worried and when Beel asks Asmo if he's okay, he says that he's not but that MC kissing him may make him better (my man's on his death bed and still tryna smash, an absolute icon). Mammon immediately tells Asmo to go die, and Beel says he shouldn't have worried about Asmo cause it was a waste of energy. and look that instant turnabout is peak comedy :'). Asmo calls them out on being assholes and that he does still feel dizzy and Satan says that if he's able to joke about he's fine. Asmo says that he still wants to sleep it off and that he wants MC with him. Satan once again proving that he's the best brother says that him and Mammon will go make soup, Beel will clean the bathroom and that MC can take Asmo to bed. Asmo gushes about how good Satan is and Satan blushes (a year ago this sentence would have been so messed up wtf happened). in bed MC ends up telling Asmo all about their day and Asmo gets sad about not being able to go to the cafe, MC complains about Simeon being a sadist who put them to work (or they can invite Asmo to come the next time) and Asmo says he's jealous that he wasn't there to see them all suffer. Asmo says that while he was asleep he had a dream that he was still an angel and that it's been so long since he's seen Michael who was stunningly beautiful and who was gushing about lucifer, and that he was glad he didn't run into raphael cause he scared him. MC falls asleep while Asmo talks.

MC is woken up in a bright forest by angel Asmo, who asks them what they were doing sleeping in a place like that and says he has never seen MC before. MC can ask him what he's doing dressed like an angel or can ask him if he's actually asmo. He basically says either i've always looked like this unless you're talking about my nails which i painted a different colour or duh obviously you know who i am, who doesn't. He then asks MC who they are. They can ask him if he has forgotten them or if he's kidding. He says either that if they'd met before he wouldn't have forgotten them or that he always means what he says even if people think he's kidding and then asks for their name. MC can ask if they are dreaming - Asmo takes it as them flirting with him/using a cheesy pickup line which he thinks is adorable - or they can ask where they are - the celestial realm. Asmo asks them if they work for Raphael cause Asmo had snuck into the human world to go to 'something called a party' which he had never been to before and that he'd had a lot of fun. But that raphael says 'it's a wicked and immoral thing'. He then asks MC what they think. MC gets to either say that it's up to him to decide or to agree with raphael. If you choose the first option Asmo is suprised, and then says that since it was so much fun it'd be a tragedy never to experience it again and that he thinks he should be allowed to have fun. Asmo had found MC while he was hiding from Raphael who was pissed about the party. Asmo goes to propose something to MC but gets cockblocked by Beel. Asmo asks beel if he could open the celestial realm gates, beel says no and then asks who the fuck MC is. Asmo introduces Beel as a cherubim and a guardian of the gates of the Celestial Realm. And says that Beel is a very famous angel, and that there's a rumour that lucifer recommended Beel to be promoted to seraphim. Beel says that lucifer hasn't mentioned it to him and that it's just a rumour. Beel asks MC if they are okay and if Asmo has tried anything on them cause Asmo hits on anything that moves. Asmo gets pissed and says that it's not that he'd happily sleep with anyone but that he cares about who they are and that he feels love towards everyone he meets. And that the reason everyone loves him so much is cause he loves everyone due to his ability to see the good in people. Beel changes the subject by telling MC they look hungry and offers them a few sweets he got from Michael. MC basically goes wtf why aren't you eating them. He says he's not hungry and that he has eaten too much recently and gained weight and is now on a diet. MC probably looks like they had a stroke cause Beel asks if they are okay. MC tells him that they like the fact that he eats a lot. Beel blushes before asking Asmo if that's a compliment and if he's supposed to thank MC. Asmo who's pissed off snaps at beel about MC and Beel flirting while ignoring him. Beel says he came here looking for belphie.

Beel proceeds to shake a tree until Belphie falls out... Belphie takes one look at MC and asks what the fuck a human is doing in the celestial realm (i forgot that this was back when he still liked humans and thought we were back to square one and he was about to start throwing hands). MC can say 'You think I lool like a human?' vs "Excuse me? What are YOU doing here?'. for the second option Belphie just says screw you I asked first. For the first he's confused that they are not, Asmo saves MC's ass either by telling Belphie to go get his eyes checked while Beel says MC's an angel. Belphie says he does detect angelic vibes from MC (Lilith's bloodline???) but also something humanlike. Asmo says Belphie probably senses that cause all he ever thinks about are humans and Belphie says it's cause humans are interesting and wishes he was born as a human. Asmo yells at Belphie not to say things like that cause if Raphael finds out they'd be in trouble. Beel asks what they are gonna do about their new lost angel and Asmo asks if they can keep MC. Belphie says no cause they're supposed to bring lost angels to Lucifer (how often do angels get lost????). MC gets to choose whether they want to go with Beel, Belphie or Asmo to find lucifer. I chose Beel cause he was anyway going back to Lucifer with Belphie (⚡⚡Efficiency🌟🌟) which is when belphie finds out lucifer's looking for him cause he skipped a meeting. '???' cuts in with a "Mmhm, I THOUGHT I heard some awfully familiar voices..." it turns out to be Mammon who's been looking for all of them (minus MC for a change and isn't that the weirdest thing to happen in all this).

Asmo scolds Mammon for scaring him and tells him not to appear outta thin air like that (that's such a 'Lucifer Trait' tho that i don't think we've seen from Mammon before?) - Mammon says he'll do what he wants. He then asks if MC is Asmo's 'newest plaything'. Asmo says no but can you imagine tho😍 After Belphie and Beel introduce MC as a lost angel, Mammon sounds oddly skeptical and says he's never heard of an "MC" before. Beel introduces Mammon as a throne who acts as Lucifer's assistant. He says that Mammon can be trusted cause outta all the thrones he's Lucifer's most trusted. Asmo says that Mammon used to be a troublemaker and that Michael hadn't known what to do with him but that he's grown into someone who, more than anyone else in the Celestial Realm, can do anything he puts his mind in to. Mammon says he doesn't like the way Asmo introduced him and Belphie says it's true though cause they all thought Mammon was just a step away from being cast out (fdshgfwdygds explains why Lucifer worries so much over Mammon in the present cause he's gone back to being a troublemaker). MC can ask about 1.) the being cast out thing - Mammon says the others are exaggerating even though things have changed. 2.) being a throne - blushing Mammon says that he was an archangel and that Lucifer recommended him as a throne. 3.)question him about being able to do anything - he snaps at them for looking disbelieving and says he's talented. Belphie says mammon used to be awful and ngl these made me laugh - mammon brought back pigeon feathers from the human world and tried to sell them to the lower rank angels by telling them they were Raphael's feathers, he also ordered around the army of angels for fun and said he was playing angel chess. Mammon says they were just innocent pranks and were no big deal and MC ever the enabler agrees with him. Mammon says it seems like MC's actually got some sense and says he likes them and that they're cool. Mammon then stutters and asks MC why they're staring at him 'like that' and imagine the amount of shit going through MC's head at seeing Mammon like this? From all the brothers he's arguably the one they're closest with (even if it's not in a romantic sense) so seeing him in a world where he's respected by his brothers and has this kinda calm confidence that he doesn't have as a demon, imagining what must have happened between then and the present for things to change the way they have, finding out he's still a troublemaker, still wholly Mammon, and just has to squash down those urges here, remembering all the times the more responsible side of him came out as a demon and getting to see a version of himself where that side is more prominent. Seeing him so easily say that he likes them without any of the protests he had as a demon. Realising that Mammon's more 'tsundere' characteristics are all a defense mechanism to protect himself from opening up and being hurt and that in the present after realising they genuinely care about him he starts dropping them. realising that as both an angel and a demon he took a look at them and thought 'this one, i like.' Just!??? Ah. :). Anyway back to the chapter- He starts blushing and tells them to stop staring. Belphie asks Mammon if he wants to be like Lucifer, blushing Mammon asks so what if he does. Belphie says that's never gonna happen so he should give up while he's ahead (made me wanna punch him) and that Mammon is not Lucifer and is instead Mammon and that he can't become something he's not (made me wanna hug him). Mammon tells Belphie to shut up and asks why he cares anyway and that with enough time one day he might do it and that he doesn't care what belphie says and that they should just watch him. and isn't it sad that Mammon will never get that time, and yeah it's a good thing that now as a demon he's just being Mammon without trying to be lucifer but he was never given the time to figure that out for himself and it explains all the issues/complexes Mammon has regarding Lucifer and shit imagine losing MC to the man he respects and loves but who he will always see himself as second best to and who he was always trying to reach, the man he believed he could have become until the fall and until he gave up and let his sin and his more real self takeover?? Since Mammon never had the time to realise that it's better to be yourself than someone else if MC ends up choosing Lucifer he'll always have that 'what if' in the back of his head and that shit hurts dude. MC can then say something about them all really loving Lucifer, Mammon blushes and stutters and said that nobody said anything about loving lucifer. Beel, Belphie and Asmo all say they love Luicfer (but not his lectures). Mammon growls and says he hates them and Asmo calls him out on being really obvious about loving lucifer as well, Mammon blushing says he doesn't. Or they can tell Mammon they're rooting for him. He's suprised and then stutters and blushes and asks if they really will. Then still blushing and stuttering he tells MC to stop staring at him like that again. MC's such a pining idiot i can't handle it. Beel changes the subject and asks why Mammon was looking for them. Lucifer had sent Mammon to find the twins cause Beel never returned with Belphie. He also tells Asmo that Raphael was walking around with his spear looking for him. He then calls them to head to the Celestial Palace. Asmo says that if the Seraphim find out about MC it'll make things worse and who knows what they'll do to all of them. They decide they should hide MC someplace.

Inside the palace Mammon yells at MC to stop looking at everything with wide eyes (did this happen before? when he was showing them around the devildom during the first lesson? I can't remember but my love for parallels is praying it did) cause they're already sticking out by being a bunch of high ranking angels gathered together. Asmo tells Mammon he needs to be nicer. He says that there's no reason to worry cause Lucifer and the others are on the higher floors. Belphie says that this makes it the perfect spot to hide when they wanna skip work. MC says that even angels need a break sometimes. Asmo says the seraphim are bossy and never cut them any slack. Beel asks MC if they are close to any other angels. If MC says Luke no one knows who that is cause the baby hasn't been born yet🥺. If MC says Simeon, Belphie's surprised and Beel says that outta all the Seraphim Simeon's the most easygoing. AND holy shit??? During the last lesson Simeon said he was an archangel which means that he was demoted at some point?????? And considering how close he was with Lucifer and possibly the others as well,,,,,,,,,,could it be possible that he was demoted after the fall? That though he didn't come with them he helped them escape in someway? or looked aside while they escaped? or knew about Lilith and her human? Or knew Lucifer was becoming more disillusioned? Belphie says it's not that Simeon's easygoing but rather that the others are too intense. Mammon asks if they should hand MC over to Simeon and Asmo says another Seraphim would spot them before they reached him. They stop outside their secret room aka the slacking off room. When the door is opened MC and possibly Beel get drenched in water while Belphie, Asmo and possibly Mammon manage to jump away. "???" says that to get entry they need to say the secret phrase.

belphie asks if they really need a secret phrase and levi says they never know when the seraphim will show up, mammon says that if they do show up a secret phrase wouldn't stop them from coming inside. Levi says whatever and asks who MC is. Asmo scolds him for the way he worded the question but still introduces MC. Levi suspects that MC is one of Michael's agents who was sent to verify that levi is 'as much of an useless waste of space as I seem to be'. MC snaps 'That's not true!' and Levi is startled and blushes. And Mammon, holy shit Mammon says what in my humble opinion is one of the funniest lines in the series,: "That's right, Levi. It's not true. I mean, just look at MC's face... See that absentminded stare... like there's nothin' going on upstairs? Does that look like the face of one of Michael's agents? I don't think so." WHY did he have to come for MC so hard!???? this came literally outta nowhere and it made me laugh so hard??? Worst of all? it made me realise a horrid horrid truth; Mammon considers himself a morosexual I'm in tears???? Levi says it's better to be absentminded than to be a waste of space. Belphie says that Levi commanded Lotan and the army of angels in the war against the demons and was basically their general. Beel says that now that the Celestial Realm is at peace Levi feels like he has no purpose. Asmo says that someone from the younger generation took over the Devildom which is why the war ended, though Mammon says the transition isn't official yet. Levi tells them to shut up and Mammon tells him that sitting around being grumpy wouldn't do anything and that he should at least enjoy them being at peace. Levi says that he doesn't wanna hear that crap from Mammon cause Mammon being Lucifer's favourite means he can be an airhead and still have his future secured, while levi would be a dead weight, a leach and a burden to the entire realm without a war to fight (and i mean a lot of what levi said is pretty messed up but Mammon did get promoted from a warrior to Lucifer's right hand possibly after the war was over? while Levi's still a general in a realm at peace). When mammon gets pissed off at Levi's comment the others say that considering this isn't the first time that levi got into one of these moods mammon should just ignore him. Levi immediately latches onto that and says that they shouldn't interact with an useless bore of an angel like him cause it's just a waste of time. MC suggests that Levi find something else he can be passionate about and he says that there's nothing else for him. MC can recommend either anime or manga. since he doesn't know what these are MC then explains it to him in detail. he's interested but doesn't think a boring angel like him could actually get interested in anything like that (oh baby...). Belphie and Asmo are surprised that MC seems to know so much about the human culture when even Belphie doesn't know this much. '???' voice finds them and says it's interesting how much free time they seem to have. Kinda sad to find out that Levi got into anime cause he needed something to make him feel less useless in the aftermath of a war...

The brothers all freak out about being found by lucifer, who yells at Mammon for not bringing the twins to him and at Beel for not bringing Belphie and then at Belphie for oversleeping and missing the meeting and at Asmo, who he says should take care of the situation before he finds himself at 'the pointy end of Raphael's spear. do you think the Seraphim have divisions that they each head? Lucifer doesn't seem inclined to punish Asmo for breaking the rules like he would have in the Devildom and rather lets Raphael take care of it. Mammon trained under Michael before he met Lucifer - so when he was an archangel. And now as an archangel Simeon works for Michael. It's implied previously in this lesson that Lucifer had other thrones working for him. So? Lucifer then asks who MC is. MC says 'I know you' which makes Lucifer's affection meter go up but he says duh obviously you know me, everyone does (and I mean this in the most affectionate way possible but like what a fucking asshole). Asmo introduces MC as a lost angel and says they were planning to find Lucifer. Lucifer asks if they decided to hide MC cause they were scared the other seraphim would find out and this brings up so many questions - How mean exactly are the other seraphim? We know that the brothers are scared of Lucifer but comparatively Asmo's terrified of Raphael and Mammon of Michael. What exactly would the others do to a lost angel? Ik they said simeon was the most easygoing but is it possible Lucifer's the nicest? I mean he did adopt 6 oddball angels, he seems to be trying to help them rise through the ranks, he seems to deal with lost angels regularly, he knows about their slacking off room and hasn't told the others (to be fair tho if anyone needs a slacking off room it's lucifer), they trusted him not to get mad about their room and about the weird 'angel' they found... Mammon changes the subject by asking Lucifer if he was supposed to be heading down to the devildom, when Levi asks why he'd go there, Lucifer says the price is asking to meet with him. Lucifer's says he doesn't like going but that it's his job and that he doesn't have a choice. with the free 50 pulls I got the devilgram about this first meeting and holy shit?? Lucifer was such a bitch and Diavolo STILL took one look at him decided 'damn I'm gonna love this man'?????????? Also the prejudice the angels have against the demons is just??? Lucifer was surprised that education was a thing in the devildom????? The fact that diavolo wanted not just peace but to build a bridge between the three realms and lucifer didn't believe him cause 1.) ew demons are evil but more importantly 2.) 'if that was possible why hasn't my father tried to achieve that?' - just them showing lucifer slowly starting to question everything he was brought up with and his father who looked up to and practically hero-worshipped?? The symbolism of Lucifer finding the devildom clothes he was provided with more comfortable than his angel's armour? Lucifer warming up to diavolo in the end and i dunno guys it was such a good devilgram. i also got the devilgram where lucifer gets jealous of Barbatos, sulks about it, then whines to MC and finally tries to bake cookies for Diavolo... it's not significant to anything i just needed to say that out loud. Back to the main storyline; MC can ask him whether he doesn't like demons or whether he doesn't want to go the devildom. his answer to both is basically 'ew of course not'. He then tells MC he'll ask Michael to help them. MC tells him to have fun with Diavolo and to be friendly. Lucifer is shocked cause it almost sounds like MC knows Diavolo, and he says they're odd cause he feels like even though he just met them it doesn't really feel like that. Asmo agrees and says when he talks to MC it feels like he's talking to someone very dear to him. Mammon's surprised it's not just him who feels that. Belphie says it's a mysterious feeling and Beel says maybe they've all met somewhere before. Levi says maybe MC reminds them of someone they know. Belphie says: "Hey, wait a second. Does MC remind you of Li-" He's cut off by the whole screen going white and '???' saying 'oh dear, what a mess...'

The voice laments about how often Solomon messes shit up, and asks how he could possibly create food that has odd effects on both humans and demons, and that it can't even be classified as food anymore and should be considered a magic potion. They say that Solomon doing these kinda shit without even realising is the worst part. The voice says that MC's consciousness was sent to the past through their dreams cause of Solomon's cooking and that solomon had created an immortality elixir by accident too once. the voice says that despite being a decent human with a good head on his shoulders Solomon can sometimes be more troublesome than the demons cause despite the way he acts he doesn't actually understand his own power. The voice says they'll send MC back home and that they'll forget everything that happened but the effect they had on the brothers as angels will carry on to the future and that in order to ensure the effect doesn't have negative consequences someday the voice will keep an eye on MC from now on. And that the voice will have to think about Simeon as well. They say goodbye until they meet MC again. MC wakes up next to a sleeping Asmo in his bed. When Beel tells them they're finally done cleaning up the bathroom MC tells him they had a wack dream but that they can't remember what it was, Beel says maybe it's something they're better off forgetting. There's a locked chapter that i can't open :')

The lessons over but I've got notes so hear me out!

1. ) The paradox of Mammon and MC's pact- in the previous lesson Mammon said he doesn't make pacts with random humans except as far as we knew then MC was a random human when he made the pact with them. Mammon being the fastest of the brothers also means he could have easily gotten Goldie back without making the pact. This lesson reveals that MC was never a random human and that they'd met thousands of years prior to their 'first meeting' and though neither Mammon nor MC would have remembered that meeting the effect of it would have still carried on. The effect of MC supporting Mammon's schemes and his dreams, the effect of him being flustered by them, of them staring at him in a way that made him blush, of him deciding he liked them, of him feeling like he already knew them and being able to comfortably tease them. And it's probably all of this that led Mammon to make a pact with them. Except MC was stared at him and supported him as an angel cause they already knew him and cared about him as an angel cause they had a pact together and were friends. tldr; the only reason Mammon made a pact with MC was cause they were familiar to him, the only reason they were familiar to him was cause they were nice to him when he was angel, and the only reason they were nice to him as an angel was cause they already had a pact with him and were friends and so on and so on.

2. ) They have so much freedom in the Devildom holy shit??? They went from having a council of scary vaguely sadistic control freaks to just one. They can do whatever they want without any real consequences while in the Celestial Realm a party was seen as something evil? None of them have any real duties in the devildom while they were so busy in the celestial realm they needed a secret room to slack off

3. ) the seraphim seem so much more controlling than diavolo? I mean the man takes any excuse to throw a party and is currently whining about not being allowed to go the human world. While in the celestial realm just talking about wanting to be human is a punishable offence. And yeah sure you could say that I'm comparing the past celestial realm vs the current devildom and that the current celestial realm has probably eased up a lot EXCEPT 01.) in the devilgram with Lucifer's and Diavolo's first meeting Diavolo seems exactly the same as he currently is. 02.) Luke - who is a fairly new angel- 's attitude when he first arrives in the devildom is scarily similar to Lucifer's attitude in the devilgram where he first meets Diavolo 03.) the angel event proves that the Celestial Realm still has a set view on what angels should be like and that the brothers never fit this view

4.) Forming of their sins - the brothers were definitely the odd ones out in the celestial realm even if they were pretty famous and they all had less intense versions of their sins even back then. MC who knows them for only their sins, reinforced them when they were angels which probably led to them embracing these sins more, which would have helped with their fall and with fully developing their sins

5. ) I feel like we might actually get to see michael???? They've been dragging and teasing about finally meeting him for so long.

Pls come talk to me about this lesson! I'm desperate rn i need to hear more thoughts and theories!

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Teeth Marks, Empty Nest, Picking Ritual | Writing Update

Hey People of Earth!

It’s been a hot minute since I last wrote a Moth Work writing update, and so here we are again for the final countdown! Today’s post will be covering everything related to chapter 12, 13, and 14. Let’s start with Teeth Marks, which I wrote probably sometime in February.

Teeth Marks marks the third part of Moth Work, called Wings, and the first chapter back in Harrison’s POV. I honestly can’t remember much of the writing process as it’s been a while, so let’s dive straight into the scene breakdown!

Scene A:

We start in the doorway of Eliza’s apartment where Harrison stands shook because a) his boi Lonan has answered it (scandal) and his mother, who he has been estranged from for the last four years, is also in this apartment (EXTRA scandal). Eliza ushers Harrison inside (and this is probably the only *nice* interaction they ever have, spoiler alert!)

Harrison is very shook, and also a little angry, and also a little confused! He doesn’t know why his mother is here, and doesn't understand why Lonan wouldn’t contact him to tell him she is here.

Him and Eliza get into a bit of a scuffle where Eliza is protective of Lonan and is like “who are you mate” and Harrison’s like hahahHA pardON. This leads to Lonan kicking them both out even tho this ain’t even his house!

Scene B:

We now move to the stairwell right outside Eliza’s apartment where she and Harrison have been sitting in awkward silence! Harrison notices she’s wearing his guardian angel necklace (which Lonan mistakenly took back in chapter 6).

This scene is instrumental in setting up how these two interact, which in short, is not! fun! for! either! They try to be civil but can’t help but be protective over Lonan for different reasons. Eliza because they are now sort of in a relationship, and Harrison because hahaha he’s been there, and also because Eliza is Lonan’s father’s ex! Why!

Lonan interrupts this conversation and him and Harrison have a lil private moment even tho Eliza is standing right there aahaha. Eliza leaves which prompts Lonan to go after her, and we end with Harrison all alone in the stairwell like a proper sad boi.

Excerpts:

I previously wrote some mean things about this chapter and am editing it out cuz we tryna be positive! Here’s some tender romance because why not! For context, Harrison has asked Eliza how much she knows about the nature of the boys’ relationship (she knows nothing!!)

He could tell her the truth. About the polaroids left back in Boston. What it felt like to kiss him underwater. What it felt like to dance with him, his clumsy instep. What it felt like to trace each notch of his ribs in the off moments he’d sleep and how wonderful it was, to touch the places his hunger would go.

Some more romance because yesss:

He pretends they’re alone at the cabin, somewhere on the water, sharing a sleeve of crackers, looking at the moon like it’s the other’s iris, somewhere where constellations read less like hieroglyphics and more like sonnets.

Let us move onto chapter 13, Empty Nest!

Scene A:

Harrison sits alone at the dinner table watching a TV show in a language he doesn’t speak. His mother interrupts this *chillin* and they get into a heated conversation.

This ends badly for Harrison, to which Lonan (who is presumably arguing with Eliza in her bedroom) comforts him and yeets the two of them outta that apartment! Knight in shining armour babyyyy

Scene B:

Lonan takes Harrison to chapter nine’s beautiful place (the cove).

They chat about their (fallen) relationship and Lonan + Eliza’s relationship that is apparently now flourishing (hahah it actually isn’t)

This turns romantical very fast!!! I am guilty of self-indulgence!!

Excerpts:

EDIT: I originally had an edit in here saying I didn’t have the mental spoons to edit this chapter which is why I wouldn’t share a lot of excerpts! This was very true haha, as I was amidst the worst mental health week I’ve had in years, but guess! who! tried! to! edit! anyway! This obviously was not the best idea and I pushed myself too hard. This led to me doing some crying and beyond that, a decision to take a few days off of writing (despite the fact that I didn’t want to). I’m feeling great now which I’m so grateful for, but just a note! Anyhow!!

This excerpt makes me laugh because it gives me “lonely man sitting on his porch in the prairies” vibe:

No one eats together. Lonan and Suzanna have already taken their pick, and Eliza eats in her room. Harrison hasn’t seen Lonan since he followed Eliza’s empty trail back into the apartment, and he hears him now, between the drone of infomercials and advertisements on the Spanish TV station he doesn’t even understand. Coming from her room, he can picture him, the way Lonan argues, competitive like he’s trying to win something. Suzanna sits on the balcony, maybe hiding a smoke, or something more ridiculous, new age, like an essential oil pen. Ribbons of grey luminescing in the neon lights. Maybe it’s more accurate to say Harrison eats alone.

This is the excerpt that I had a breakdown editing lmaooo I think it’s cute tho!!

Somewhere better is a beach. Hidden in a cove, the stones arched over seafoam. In the moonlight, sand glitters, water trills, a night owl in the distance wails. Lonan leads him to the cove’s heart, a bullet of clearing that reveals constellations neither recognize. Lonan’s brought a basket with him, unfolds the checked blanket across the shore. Harrison sits first, and observes as Lonan travels the cove’s perimeter, collecting driftwood as he goes. He stacks them into a pyramid at the shore’s lip, pulls out a lighter.

He starts the fire easily, cups the flame like it’s a jittering organism, coaxes it until it expands. The flame tints his jaw gold, glares in his eyes so they look like blue fire. The night halos around Lonan, burnishes the cove walls, turns the sand into a mirage. As Lonan nurses the fire, Harrison traces his face, the violet impasto around his eye. Lonan has always looked like a masterpiece to him, damp black hair that almost looks navy blue, a smile so subtle, it’s almost acquired. He holds the fire so it toasts his chin, his focus a delicate, paternal thing.

Picking Ritual is chapter 14 of the book! I wrote this during reading break, and it’s one of my faves a) because of the title and b) because Harrison and Eliza FIGHT (I’m here for the tea).

Scene A:

Lonan and Harrison get back from their self-care-gone-romantical escapade to drunk Eliza creepily sitting in the dark!! Harrison’s mother has left, which Eliza uses as cruel ammo (don’t we love her)!

This is where we really get to see Eliza’s other side as she gets gaslighty as a response to Harrison’s very true callouts

Scene B:

Later, Eliza may or may not purposefully leave her bedroom door open while mildly unholy matters occur that’s all I’m gonna say about that!!!

Scene C:

Eliza leaves her room to “get some orange juice” (she’s trying to get a rise out of Harrison, which works). They roast each other endlessly until Harrison asks her to play a game with him.

Scene D:

This game is a game of cards, which is actually Harrison choosing four cards (king of spades = Lonan’s father, queen of hearts = Eliza, the joker = Lonan, and a jack = Harrison) so he can learn more about each one he chooses for her.

This is where the chapter title comes from!

Excerpts:

The following is a self-roast because my house does all the following (besides magnets on ALL four corners of dishcloths, there’s currently just one. ;) Lonan in this scene is Fiona in that scene in Shrek 2 where Shrek and King Harold are arguing over dinner (CW: there’s a description here that could be potentially triggering for self-harm!).

Suzanna is gone when they get back to Eliza’s apartment. No jacket on the coat hook. No shoes on Eliza’s straw-woven welcome mat. The kitchen has been picked over, each plate, fork, back in its strangely correct place. Eliza keeps her cutlery in jars, and her pans in the oven, her dish cloths magnetted to the fridge by all four corners, a pristineness that feels chemical.

Just as he’s about to comment on it, a light from the living area flicks on, and underneath sits Eliza, paging through a book in the dark. Spots like wine stains on her cheeks shine glassy under the harsh lightbulb.

“She has a place twenty minutes from here. By the public gardens,” she says, running her fingernail against the ribbed spine of the hardcover. Harrison can’t make out the title. When he stares blankly at her, examining the patches on her skin until he’s memorized of their surface area, she clears her throat and shuts the book. “Your mother?”

“I know,” he says.

“That your mother has a place twenty minutes from here?”

“That you were referring to my mother.”

“So you didn’t know?”

ugh I love Harrison and Eliza arguing it’s my fave dynamic:

Eliza stands, and smooths the silk of her night dress, though one crease continues to bunch. She folds her hand into a fist, and brings it to her mouth, biting on her knuckles as she paces. Harrison and Lonan watch her, and Lonan’s about to step toward her when she nods and directs her gaze straight at Harrison. “Did that upset you?” she asks, peeling a sliver of skin up between her teeth, letting it snap back. “The way I spoke of your mother.”

“I don’t care about anything you have to say.”

Oof oof tensions be RISING:

Lonan knocks on Eliza’s door a half hour later and doesn’t come back out. Harrison watches the shut door like he can break through it from the couch, how heavy it sits in its frame like they’ve taken turns smearing caulking in its seams.

The nightglow decolours his chin, his eyes, and he stares at the stars as he did an hour ago with Lonan. He touches his lips, hoping something divine will reappear on his fingers, something divine enough to anoint himself with. Nothing does, of course, but he tries, dappling each groove of his mouth.

Here’s some Eliza being Eliza :)

He should tell her to buy some curtains. The sliding door’s glass opens to her balcony where his mother stood, pouring onto the busy street below her apartment complex. He can almost perfectly replicate the image of his mother with just his fingertip, a familiarity of her unknown, but unconsciously memorized by him. Suzanna has traded her only pair of shoes—a dingy set of floral flip-flops—for boots with silver zippers, steel toes, heels perfected by a designer she has a connection to. He thinks of his mother with sour precision, a sugary glumness that makes his mouth heavy.

He still wears the angel Lonan re-fastened around his neck and examines it against the belly of the two-seater Lonan once slept on.

She’s lost a stone from where he threw it, almost unnoticeably in the corner where her wings meet her back. He runs his finger over the empty spot, a nearly undetectable groove, and wonders how difficult it would be to find it in the tooth of Eliza’s hardwood.

Just as he’s prepared to get up and find out, the heavy door jars open. Wider than he’s expecting, so he can see Lonan from the couch. Arranged against a pillow, his hair disappearing into the dark wood of Eliza’s bedhead. His eyes closed, a tremor that rocks through his forehead every few seconds. And then quickly, Eliza shuffling through the opening. She wears a kimono patterned with koi fish, the fabric rustling against her bare thighs as she enters the kitchen.

Harrison watches her through his eyelashes, her half-up hairdo falling toward her face, the flash of skin pale, like the peel of the moon.

She grabs a glass he washed and fills it from the sink. Once a bulb forms across the surface, she tips it to her lips, and swallows deliberately.

Harrison watches as she checks the sink for unwashed dishes she knows aren’t there. As she adjusts a placement on her table that doesn’t need adjusting. As she spins herself on her toes around the kitchen island, her kimono splaying so he sees flashes of her thighs again. She dances like this back to her bedroom, where she sets her water glass on the dresser, and keeps the door wide open.

I can’t not share this part I apologize there is some spice but also Harrison’s iconic Gay (TM) takedown at the end brings me so much joy:

Eliza exits the room a half hour later, except this time, doesn’t dance. Still, she steps carefully, her toes taut as she patters against the floorboards. Harrison watches her with his arms crossed, and stays like that, even when they make eye contact.

She startles and re-adjusts her kimono, so the clip of her skin disappears. She’s combed her hair since she and Lonan finished, and it sits gauzy over her forehead.

“Have you ever thought of buying a deadbolt?” he says, watching carefully as she turns and grabs a glass from a cabinet.

The refrigerator thrills when she opens it, a wash of gaudy tungsten yellowing her face. She sucks on her lip as she pulls out a bottle of orange juice, glugging a cupful into her mouth first, and then into a glass.

“A deadbolt,” she says, a lightness in her voice—false innocence. “Why?”

“I’ve heard good things. Security. Privacy. You live alone, don’t you?”

She juts the orange juice to her lip fast, her chin bucking like she’s taking a shot. “I do.”

“You’re planning on keeping it that way?”

Eliza drains the last of the orange juice and rests the glass in the sink. She flicks on the tap so a stream splashes into its mouth like somersaults, diluting the juice until the glass cleans.

“There must be someone,” Harrison elaborates. He shifts, so his legs hang off the couch’s edge. The hardwood is cold, and for a moment, he feels like he’s stepping on water. “You’re seeing people, aren’t you? You live in Las Vegas. Good job. Decent apartment.”

Eliza shakes off the wet glass and sets it on the drying rack. “Are you interested?”

“I’m gay, but thanks. How does that work, anyway? Dating you. Would I send in an application? Self-addressed stamped envelope and all? Email?”

ugh more iconic Harrison I love him:

Harrison’s eyes focus on the lip balm and he imagines Lonan putting it there, his finger moving across her mouth and then down, like an anointment. “Isn’t that such a coincidence, then? You’re so selective, yet you manage to date two members of the same family.”

Her smile fades. Eliza clucks her tongue and wipes her mouth quickly with the back of her hand. Thoughtlessly, she refills the clean glass with more orange juice, and only realizes her mistake after the liquid sits precisely at the rim of the cup.

“Shit,” she says, wringing her hand out. “Shit.”

“I’ll drink it,” he says, and is already up and at the kitchen island before she puts another hand on the glass. Eliza almost scowls, but chews on her gums when she catches herself. She slides the glass across the granite, and a blip of orange juice jitters onto the surface. Harrison dabs his pinky in it and sucks it into his mouth. “I want to ask you a favour.”

“I’m not doing anything for you.”

He puts a hand against the fridge before she can move past him, and Eliza sighs, weaves her arms haughtily over her chest. “Cards.” The fridge rumbles to life under his fingertips, and Eliza jumps. “Play a game with me,” he says.

Sharing because of Harrison’s roast at the end, it’s really just one of those days:

Eliza’s a good shuffler. Easily, she dices the cards, the hard split of their edges when he usually shuffles almost non-existent. He’s only ever met one other person who can shuffle like her—his mother.

Harrison sips the orange juice as she shuffles the deck. In all truth, he doesn’t need the cards to be shuffled—he knows exactly which ones he needs. But her ease intrigues him, and he can’t help but feel mesmerized with each flitter of the deck.

“Where did you learn how to do that?” he asks after another long pull of juice.

She cuts the deck and continues. “My father.”

“I didn’t know you had parents.”

“I didn’t know your mother had children.”

“I don’t think she knows either.”

Eliza rests the shuffled deck onto the countertop and nudges it toward him. He hasn’t told her what game they’re going to play, and as Harrison searches for his necessary cards, the prickle of her gaze deadens. He keeps at task, combing each card and pulling out the needed.

“I would’ve liked to know.” Eliza says this nimbly. “You look like her.”

Another pick. “Every son wants to look like their mother. What a dream.”

“I meant that as a good thing.”

“And I meant what I said as a bad thing.”

What a way to end this update lol!

I’ll be back soon with an update for the final chapter in this book! I hope y’all have been okay in these times, I know it’s not easy. Let me know what you’re working on!

--Rachel

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jimins-melaninfilter · 4 years

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🔥 PINK PANTHER 🔥

** SMUT WARNING **

After a long busy day at work Y/N just finished up the last bit of paper work for her annoying boss Mr.Scott .

Y/N : Ughh finally now he can get off my back about this damn work .

Y/N gets ups from her desk with a pile of papers and heads to her boss office

Y/N : *knocks on Mr.Scott office door * Hello Mr.Scott I’m finally done with everything you asked me to

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here you go .

Mr.Scott : Ahh yes thank you Y/N you know you’re my best worker in the office you’re really amazing you worked really hard go enjoy your weekend

Y/N : Thank you Mr.Scott I really appreciate that I will you enjoy yours as well

Y/n turns around and rolls her eyes while walking out Mr.Scotts office closing the door

Y/N : * starts mimicking Mr.Scott * Blah Blah anyways * Y/N cell phone starts ringing it’s her bestfriend Michelle *

Y/N : Hello

Michelle : Hey girl you off yet or you still being a lap dog for Mr.

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cott

Y/N : * starts laughing * I’m getting my stuff and leaving now and it’s Mr.Scott your crazy ass

Michelle : Girl you tryna

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hang and do something tonight

Y/N : And whats that ?

Michelle : GO TO THE PINK PANTHER BITCH DUH !!

Y/N : ahh I’m to tired I’ll see plus I don’t have nothing to wear

Michelle : Girl you say that boring ass excuse every weekend I’ll be to your house in about 15 mins so hurry up take a shower we are going to find you something to wear !

•

Clicks the phone hangs up *

Y/N : Hello ? Hello ? Ughh Crazy bitch Fine !!

•

Time skip to Y/Ns House *

Y/N : ughh my nice comfortable bed I should really get my ass up and get in the shower because 15 minutes for Michelle means 5 for me the girl drive like a bat out of hell

•

shower time *

Y/N : now I feel a lot better

•

knocking at door *

Y/N : nobody but Michelle * walking towards front door * Comingg

Michelle : Why you not dressed yet girl did you lay down first

Y/N : yes you know me to well , just sit right here and I’ll be ready in 5 mins

Michelle: yea sure grandma Daisy

Y/N : I am not a grandma shut up

Michelle : Hm whatever anyways whatchu got to eat in here * checks cabinets and fridge * just absolutely nothing that’s great girl you need to be in jail cause you aint got shit to eat what the hell you be doing ? starving your damn self ?

Y/N : No I don’t starve myself dumb ass I cook when I feel like it

Michelle: Ugh girl anyway

Y/N : I’m ready let’s go

Michelle: Finally lets go Miss Daisy so we can hurry up and find you something sexy

•

Time skip to the mall •

Michelle: oohh lets go in Agaci they got some cute ass clothes

Y/N : yess thats my favorite store lets hurry so we can go to the food court

Michelle: yea I bet you are hungry cause you aint got shit to eat in that house but crumbs and dust

Y/N : Girl shut up, I do got food it’s just i haven’t cooked it yet , but you wouldn’t know about that since all you do is burn ramen

Michelle: get out my business

•

both girls started laughing •

Michelle : Ouuu girl that rose gold dress is sexy as fuck hold it so you can try it on and this and this and this

Y/N : ok girl damn

Michelle : Oops Sorry

•

both girls start laughing •

Y/N : * stomach starts growling * Uhh * giggles * let’s just try these 5 dresses on

Michelle : Excuse me maam don’t be so rude umm , excuse me do you have any dressing rooms open ?

Store clerk: yes right this way

Y/N : thank you

Michelle : here call me if you need help

Y/N : Will do

•

Starts trying on clothes *

Y/N : ouu this fits nice but I really don’t like it

•

Next dress •

Y/N : Nope hate it

•

next dress •

Y/N : now this is the dress this is damn perfect ! And I have the perfect heels for it

•

Y/N picks the short skintight spaghetti straps that crosses in the back draw string on one side Rose Gold Dress

•

Y/N : Now let’s take this off so I won’t mess it up

•

Gets dress and exit dressing room •

Michelle : took you long enough and I’m shocked you didn’t call me

Y/N : I was fine anyway let’s go check out I’m starving

Michelle: Yea lets do that

•

leaving the store •

Y/N : So what are you wearing at the Pink Panther

Michelle: ouu girl I got this nice ass red dress with some cute ass black heels and my makeup is going to be hitting its going to be a sight for the boys

Y/N : ayeeee yess maam we definitely gonna bring life to the party I can’t wait can you do my makeup too ?

Michelle: you know I gotchu girl cause you need a man in your life all you do is work and go home do you even talk to niggas , no sneaky links , like damn you need to get back out there bestfriend you need to get them cheeks clapped for god sakes not a fuck buddy in sight just you and your damn cat

Y/N : Uhh you in my business , dont do that * starts laughing * anyways when I find someone again then I will right now I’m just chilling and leave my damn cat alone

Michelle: girl all I’m just saying is that that just chilling mess waits for nobody next thing you know yo ass just chilling in your damn rocking chair patting that damn cat and watching Golden Girls

Y/N : Aye bitch now wait cause aint nothing wrong with Golden Girls !

Michelle: I know it ain’t cause I watch a couple episodes here and there

•

Both girls start laughing again •

•

while walking to the food court Y/N kept hearing this laugh from somebody a happy cute laugh so she looked and she saw these 3 boys sitting at a table chatting and laughing

•

one of the boys caught her eye but she didn’t want to stare and make it obvious so she kept walking once Y/N and Michelle got their food they finally sat down and ate

Michelle: bitch this food was life a lady was hungry I don’t think I can get my ass up

Y/N : * laughing * you so damn extra this food was hitting but we do need to get up before we be sleeping at the damn mall cause they are about to close girl lets go .

•

time skip back to y/n house •

Michelle : Wheew bitch Ima take a nap before we start getting ready

Y/N : you know that don’t sound too bad I am a lil beat girl

Michelle : * snoring sounds *

Y/N : Ugh she get on my damn nerves

•

while Michelle was sleeping Y/N started to doze off as well but she couldn’t help to think about what Michelle was saying in the mall telling y/n to get back out there and have fun . Previously Y/N had bad luck with relationships and guys although her last fling wasn’t but 4 months ago so it wasn’t that long ago since she had sex or anything •

•

Alarm starts going off @10 pm •

Michelle: Ok bitch wake up lets get fine cut some music on lets go

Y/N : ouu you heard that new Megan

•

starts playing Megan the Stallion •

•

Time Skip to wear Y/N is putting on her dress and heels both girls are done getting ready •

Michelle: Ouuuu bitch now you know you know damn you aint got no business being this fine and I’m serious girl you look good

😌

Y/N : you see me bitch

😜

Bitch that red dress is cute as fuck omg we did a bomb ass job with everything we need to take pictures !

Michelle: a wise man once said A Beat Face starts a Case , Free The Titty Protect The City

Y/N : * starts laughing * Girl who the hell told you that crazy ass shit anyways lets go

•

Club time

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Purpleish Pink lights , Loud music playing and people everywhere •

Michelle: Girl this shit is hitting lets go get a drink and a booth

Y/N : Yes I need a good drink

•

while at the bar Y/N heard the same laugh from the mall earlier and thought is this the same guy Y/N turns around and sees a group of guys the same 3 dudes from the mall they just added 4 more

•

dudes to the group and she sees the same cute guy and they met eye to eye a cute , bunny smile bright eyed guy who was wearing some black pants , black shirt , black leather jacket and and some black shoes Y/N was staring so hard the guy winked at Y/N

Y/N : Girl dont look too fast but its 7 fine ass boys behind us and I caught one their attention and he winked at me

Michelle: omg bitch where

Y/N : behind us !

Michelle : do one of them got on all black

Y/N : yea and he got a cute bunny smile

Michelle: yea

Y/N : yes bitch thats them

Michelle: ouu girl they walking over here

Y/N : well bitch quick turnaround so staring

Michelle: okokok just act normal

•

the 7 boys walked to the bar where Y/N and Michelle were bunny guy leading the pack and approached Y/N

? : Excuse me maam I couldn’t help but to see you looking I think I saw you at the mall earlier

Y/N : uhh yea sorry I didn’t mean to stare , I think I saw you too

? : No its ok I dont mind I was staring back myself

Y/N : Ohh * starts laughing and playing with her hair *

? : I’m sorry I’m Jungkook and these are my friends Tae , Jimin , Hobi , Namjoon , Yoongi and Jin

Y/N : Well hello nice to meet you all I’m Y/N and this is my bestfriend Michelle

Michelle: Hey yall wassup nice to meet you all

•

Michelle and Tae had been blushing and smiling at each other for a while until Tae came and sat by Michelle at the bar •

Tae : can I buy you a drink or something

Michelle : Sure that would be nice thank you

Namjoon : Jungkook you should invite her over to our booth to sit and chill

Jin : Yea go back to our booth before it gets taken , Hobi do you want to dance I made some new dance moves

Hobi : Shit wassup I’m down

Jimin : I’m coming to watch you make a fool of yourself so I can laugh

Namjoon : Yea I think I’ll go to , Tae you coming? Tae , Tae

•

Tae wasn’t paying attention to anyone but Michelle they were flirting at the bar •

Tae : Huh ? No go ahead

Namjoon : * shakes his head * whatever , Yoongi ?

Yoongi : Yea I’m coming to watch ans make sure Jin doesn’t hurt his self you know how he is

Namjoon: Yea you do have a point

•

Y/N and Jungkook began laughing at Namjoon and then Jungkook turned to you and asked •

Jungkook: Do you want to come sit with me at the booth and we can get to know each other

Y/N : Yea let me let Michelle know

•

Y/N looks to the side and see that Michelle and Tae are too focused on each other that they not even paying attention so Y/N taps Michelle on the shoulder and says •

Y/N : sorry to interrupt but I’m going to go sit with Jungkook at the booth maybe y’all need to go sit and mingle in private to so y’all can get away from the bar

Tae : * looks at Michelle * how would you like to go sit at booth by ourselves * Smirking licking his lips with his glossy eyes *

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years

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Indie & Rio

Indie: [sends her the posts because no other way she'd see them] Rio: Shit, girl Rio: I was worried it might go down like this Indie: she's so extra Indie: never should have let him in the door Indie: the feds are gonna be hardcore @ it now Rio: Surely she let him out Rio: stupid woman Rio: but that's gonna pale in comparison now so Rio: What's Drew doing about it? Indie: boy was begging for a sick time & i gave it but its on me not him 😒😒 hold ur liquor u tourist Indie: hes flat roofin but other than that no thing to 👀 Indie: it b early tho & we all had a late Rio: They're a 24/7 services though, babe Rio: he'll be wanting to move his stash and generally clear his act up for the visit Rio: you too Indie: is it? on hols too thats a madness Indie: yeah the drum be clear of all his goods like that Indie: idk man mayb its chill like she gonna post that & not post up no harder than Rio: They might take xmas day off maybe but you know Rio: business as usual for all jan 1st Rio: well that's something Rio: maybe, but bitches like that LOVE making complaints about everything so maybe not Indie: she do have that talk to the manager vibe Indie: i done fucked up real didnt i? Rio: big time karen Rio: nah, in the eyes of everyone it's Drew that did Rio: but they won't be able to prove the drugs bit if they're gone so it's not enough to take you, a party gone wrong, bad judgment but maybe we can swing it that he was here somehow Rio: hmm Indie: but like he had mad trust for me & i brought him mad problems Rio: they're grown problems, he's big enough to fix 'em Indie: u too making ur nite go off on a real turn Indie: bet ur boy is bare vexed Rio: you know i'd rather you ring me than let it go more tits Rio: what are big sisters for Rio: but yeah, didn't even see him in the end so he ain't stopped Indie: innit Indie: tell him he can hit me up for something to take off that edge Indie: debts be paid around here Rio: um you ain't supposed to have no thing 'scuse you Rio: there's a plan here Indie: i gots places & heads to trust in Rio: nah, I'll make it up to him, don't worry 'bout that Indie: 😉😉😉 Rio: 😏 shush lil girl Indie: grown problems ur big enough to fix i kno 💋🤤🤤 Rio: so thirsty, go hydrate Rio: know you need to 😘 Indie: rude i got lipsed by bare boys last nite they were rigging dem bottle spins cos im 🔥🔥 dont b tryna put me out Rio: you need to cool off for a minute, bitch Rio: you in trouble Indie: not wit u Rio: yeah, don't push it 😉 Indie: 💔😢😢 dont do me like that on day 1 of the year 🙏🙏🙏 Rio: it started HOURS ago and I was still here with you cleaning blood out the carpet Rio: don't talk to me about day 1s when I'm clearly ride or die Indie: u kno im good for ious & i got mad love Rio: 🧡 Rio: i'm good really Rio: let's sort the actual situation Indie: u gonna charm the social for me? Rio: give it my best Indie: safe ✌✌ Rio: probably the straightest middle-aged lady Rio: so more likely your da will have to get on it Indie: 😂😂😂 Indie: what drew b good for Rio: init tho Indie: we all been knew Indie: he better werk so it works Rio: Sure it won't be too hard, like Rio: even if she ain't all that 😂 Indie: she aint gon b bangin but his exes show he aint need that to chirp on Rio: 👀 Indie: 😂😂😏😏 Indie: can u roll up wit eats im about to die Rio: bit rude to both our ma, like lmao Rio: 'course Rio: bring leftovers Indie: ur ma dont count as no ex cos she ✖ed him out Indie: & my ma got that permanent ✖ so bigger problems than my shade innit Rio: no problems when you an 👼 Rio: fucking hopefully Indie: u my 👼 bringing that energy Indie: that means u can jam Rio: is it? Rio: 😏 Rio: let Ryan know eh Indie: he kno u a 😈 too Indie: how he be livin Rio: mhmm Rio: well he gon' have to wait for now Indie: he gon have beef wit me Indie: soz boyyy Rio: nah we was already beefin' 'fore this Indie: yeah? Indie: what he do? 👀 Rio: nah, what I do more like Rio: you know I'm 😈 Indie: o shit Indie: gimme that 411 Rio: nothing exciting Rio: just be looking too bad to be giving him that much air, you know the drill Indie: hes so hyped for u Indie: its been weeks boy no u cant cuff it Indie: who u think u is Rio: can you blame him Rio: hot property, baby Indie: u did look 💣💣💣 last nite my bad Indie: theres a boy @ school tryna chat @ the rest hes my bf so i feel it fr Indie: boy please DO I LOOK LIKE Indie: not tryna hold ur damn hand Rio: is he cute tho Indie: if he werent he wouldnt be able to chat no thing Indie: 💪 fuck him up Rio: 😂 Rio: gotta 'tect the rep Indie: he kno it tho & its like tell me how 🔥🔥 i am dont b talking on urself all the time Rio: not a mood Indie: innit Indie: dry as Rio: that's boys for you Indie: & he didnt show last nite Rio: playing hard to get or just got parents who give a fuck Indie: year up x 2 so he could come thru the ends whenever Indie: but i 💋 all his mandem so itll hit back Rio: play @ his own game alright Indie: do u think i went too hard tho? Rio: do you want him to be your mans or nah Indie: idk Rio: then it depends Rio: beyond knowing he loves himself, idk how he's vibing Rio: might be too far Indie: hes vibing like hes about me but i Rio: but you? Indie: how do i live that Indie: trust it Indie: drews meshing a new every week he says u gotta keep free on it Rio: works for him Rio: everyone's different Rio: you don't have to trust him yet Indie: mayb hes only about me til i give him something & im not tryna be a show like that Rio: that happens, not gonna sit here and lie and say it don't Rio: you're too young to be thinking on that or worrying Rio: keep him and the rest waiting Indie: yeah okay Indie: gimme a few to have puberty roll up Indie: still waiting on that Rio: it'll happen Rio: not that it's a barrel of laughs, like Rio: nothing to be hyped about Indie: i dont want it Indie: freaky shit going on Rio: unless you gonna stop eating, which unlikely Rio: you fucked, babe, we all are, soz Rio: get boobies though, perks Indie: that best not be you tryna skip on bringing me a meal bitch Indie: bout to hit the afterlife running here like Rio: 🙄 omw you rude ass hoe Rio: like you said, none of us had earlies Indie: omw fr or like when u tell ur mans u @ the club but u still tryin on fits in ur room Rio: like fr when I ever done you like that Indie: dont b starting Indie: ily Rio: 🤞 never Rio: ily more Indie: drews back if u wanna spit at him how to sort his life Rio: i will Rio: he ain't ready for this Indie: resolutions b dashing past this postcode we all avoidin that change Rio: you gotta Rio: sort you both Indie: hey swerve me im good Rio: 😏 Rio: fine i'll focus on your daddy Rio: no love for you Indie: 👼👼🤞🤞 Indie: call him that when you give it & he'll give in Rio: oh you schooling me on how to get blokes to do what I want now Rio: ok miss thing Indie: just him i 👂 what i hear & i kno what i kno Indie: hes here for all that Rio: you poor child Rio: anything grosser than parents going at it 😬 Indie: nah man its nasty & long being under this roof sometimes trust Rio: 🤢 Indie: some of his girls got me tempted to 📱 the social my own self & my ma looking like a saint Rio: that ain't right Rio: negates any buffness he got going on Indie: why lads wanna get on or under ANYTHING?! Indie: true madness Indie: 😂😂😂 Rio: friction 🤷 Indie: yeah but like theres girls out there bringing it & you're gonna hit that Rio: he probably ain't got as much choice as he fronts Rio: lots of grown women ain't about his lifestyle so that leaves him w the younger ones who is Rio: stick at it too long, you get busted, just facts Indie: when you old & so is your baggage 😂😂✌✌ Rio: I mean Rio: I ain't say nothing 😉 Indie: keep that ☮ mama Rio: least he looks p young still Rio: nothing worse than an actual creepy old man dealer Indie: do he? 👴 to me Rio: nah Rio: he only what, 31 Rio: that's no thing to me, gurl Indie: mayb im just 🍋 cos he aint tryna gimme no 💸💸💸 Indie: & he aint caring my head hurts Rio: aw bb Rio: 'round the corner Rio: I'll look after you Indie: 💖💖💖 Indie: u didnt tell me it b like this tho partying Rio: didn't think i had to be that quick with the warnings Rio: next day hurts Indie: always? Rio: 'less you prepare and do it right Rio: it can be bearable Rio: better than you feeling, no doubt Indie: how i do that? school me yeah Rio: 'course Rio: on the to-do list now Indie: we doing the next as a back to school thing so you got a few to bring me up Rio: you best be doing it at some other fucker's gaff and all Rio: giving me grey hairs 🙄 Indie: 😂😂✌✌ Indie: imma make that boy host it Indie: if he love me Rio: You're getting a chaperone regardless Indie: serious? Rio: yeah Indie: 💔💔💔 Rio: don't start like you don't know why Indie: i aint trippin you are tho if u think i want a repeat Rio: what, you too cool for me now? Indie: innit 😏😏😏 Indie: but nah just Rio: you so is Rio: you think imma embarrass you in-front of your mans Indie: he aint gon b my mans if u there Indie: whos 👀 me over u Rio: nah don't be silly Indie: im being real Indie: ur 💣💣💣🔥🔥🔥 Rio: so are you Rio: and I don't think a lad who likes you will be into me Indie: every lad b into u they all chat on u fully 😍😍😍💘💘😍 Rio: sounds like plenty are into you too Indie: 😂😂 it was for the spin Indie: cant pussy out Rio: 😏 mhmm Rio: well I promise you I won't be joining in, like Rio: now come let me in if you got strength to get the door Indie: 💪💪 babyyy Indie: [lets her in cos fuck know what drew is doing, flexing in the mirror probably] Rio: [lol watch him rush out when he realize] Indie: [hears her voice & runs out pretending to be casual] Rio: [oh boy, do not deserve her sorting your life, temporarily, but it's for Indie so] Indie: [bless her she's dying rn & just wants to be snuggled cos literal child] Rio: [give them a sec 'scuse you sir] Indie: [I hate everything about this, Carly didn't die for this] Rio: [just making leftovers] Indie: [drew chatting to her like she's here to hang with him & we all know] Rio: [don't you touch caleb's food bitch] Indie: [is nothing sacred you slag] Indie: [indie just fully lying stretched out on the counter like its a bed like let me die] Rio: [getting a bag of peas or some shit in a tea towel and putting it on her head] Indie: [such a good mum but that don't mean you can step ma her drew] Rio: [not her fault she can converse more like a grown-up than you Indie: [we should send Indie running off to the bathroom no offense Caleb but I'm evil & wanna leave them alone for a sec for the mood] Rio: [shoulda gone to hold her hair but now you can level with him and he can pretend he's a responsible adult lmao] Indie: [& Ryan can be highkey & he can pretend he cares] Rio: [ah the joys]

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theblackandgold-series · 6 years

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The Prince and The Boy (5.1)

Chapter 5.1: The Way

A College AU

Texas Southern University (Houston,Tx)

Ship: Chiron Harris x Erik Stevens

Warning(s): fluff, slight angst…. (;

A(s)/N: It’s late as fuck and poorly edited but here it is! The first part of chapter five. This one took some hair pulling to get out, but it’s finally here! We’re taking a breath of relief, but you may not be...

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4

“If you don’t calm yo ass down, sir.”

Bryson is tired of watching Chi run around like a chicken with its head cut off. He’d been running around for the past hour, nervous energy falling behind him as he went. This was the most nervous he’d ever been. “Nigga, you making me nervous.. Chill out bro.”

“I can’t! First dates mean something, right? What if I fuck something up?”

“You’ll be fine, you’re overthinking this shit.” Bryson looks up at Chiron who is almost frantically looking through the shirts in his closet.

“Just go with the green one.”

Chi takes the shirt in question out of the closet and holds it to his chest, “This one?”

“Yeah. I heard it was gon be cooler today so long sleeves is a better option.” Bryson points while eating some Cheez Its. Chi nods as he puts the green shirt on the bed along with pants he has laid out.

Chi claps his hands once rubbing them together, “Alright, now help me pick out shoes.”

Bryson throws his hands up in exasperation, “C’mon. Nigga. Seriously?”

Chi gives him a look that has Bryson blowing out an agitated breath. He gets up to help his friend search for the perfect pair of shoes.

“Go with the white ones,” He says as he picks up a shoe box, “you haven’t even worn these. They still in the box.” Bryson gives the box to Chi and turns around to leave, he stops at the door. “You need me for anything else nigga?”

“Yeah, actually—”

“Don’t care,” Bryson waves Chiron off as he walks out of the room not looking back.

Chi rolls his eyes at his best friend and goes to shower and freshen up.

Once Chiron is done with his shower, he takes a deep breath. Stepping out and drying himself off he grabs the lotion and moisturizing his body. In his room he looks at the outfit one more time before putting it on.

He goes into the living room to find Bryson. Stepping in front of the tv he holds his arms out at either side of his body.

“So….how do I look?”

Bryson has a pensive look on his face and motions for Chi to give a turn with a twirl of his index finger. Chi spins around slowly as Bryson inspects his outfit, nodding in approval. “Calm down Chiron. You look good, you’re going to be fine when you see him,” Bryson sits back down on the couch and signals for Chi to move from in front of the tv. “What time did he say he was coming to pick you up?”

“He said 12.”

Bryson wipes his hands and checks his phone, “It’s 11:30. He should be here soon, you got everything?” Chi checks his pockets for his keys, his phone, and wallet.

“Yeah I got everything.”

“Then sit down and chill out nigga.” Bryson offers him the box of Cheez Its from Chi’s snack cabinet.

“You always eating my snacks like you live here.” Chi pushes the box away from him.

“Look, you asked me to come over and help yo hyperactive ass, so I’m here.”

Chiron sits down on the couch with Bryson trying to stay calm as he waits for Erik. He mentally goes through everything he needs and his eyes widen. He did forget something. He gets up and makes his way to his bedroom, attempting to calm his nerves in the process.

Getting to his room, he immediately searches his dresser for the forgotten items. He can’t believe he’d almost forgotten the two things he never leaves the house without. He lets out a breath that he didn’t know he was holding as he put his chain and watch on. In an attempt to release his nerves he runs his hands down his face and takes a slow breath.

“Yo! Chi!” Bryson snaps him out of his brief feeling of relief.

“What?” He answers, making his way down the hall and into the living room freezing like an antelope in headlights when he sees Erik standing in his entryway on his phone.

Erik looks up and smiles at Chi, putting his phone in his pocket.

“I texted you.” Chi digs his phone out of his pocket to look at it and sure enough he’d gotten a text five minutes ago letting him know that Erik is on his way.

“Oh,” Chi whispers softly. “My bad,” he says with an apologetic smile and a shrug.

There goes that smile. Erik thinks.

“Nah, you’re good.” Erik replies with a smile as his eyes scan Chi’s frame.

Damn, he looks good.

Erik nods liking what he sees as Chi stands there awkwardly. Both gazing at each other in timid excitement. It feels like hours before Bryson speaks, his voice cutting through the silence and tension.

Bryson side eyes them as he asks, “Y’all niggas leavin’ soon, or…?”

The two men snap out of their haze. Chiron gives his best friend an annoyed look that says “Nigga, if you don’t shut the hell up”.

“Y’all just gon stand there? Don’t you two have mummies to go see and shit?” Bryson asks, wondering why the two men are still standing in the living room.

“Y-yeah, come on let’s get out of here, I already got our tickets.” Erik steps to the side to allow Chi to lead the way out of his apartment. He follows close behind as they quickly walk to the car, attempting to leave the embarrassment of being caught behind them.

Erik walks around to the passenger side of his blacked out Acura Nsx, and opens the door for a surprised Chi. He waits until Chi is seated, shooting him a grin, before going around to the driver’s side.

Chiron looks at the luxury car in confusion, wondering how a college student is able to afford something this expensive. He pushes his curiosity down not wanting to assume or ask too many questions. He figures if Erik wants him to know he’ll tell him in his own time.

Erik turns his music up, connecting his phone to the bluetooth and chooses a playlist before pulling out of the parking lot. Cartoons and Cereal by Kendrick Lamar and Gunplay fills the air and Erik smiles, putting the car in reverse to leave Chi’s apartment.

Chi nods his head to the beat, rapping the lyrics under his breath. Erik notices and smirks. “You fuck wit Kendrick?”

Chi shrugs and gives him a small smile, “Yeah, he aite.”

Erik snaps his head to Chi a look of disbelief on his face. “Aite?! Kendrick is the goat nigga the fuck you mean?” Erik turns the music down as Gunplay’s verse comes on.

Chi slightly smiles at Erik’s excitement. “He cool, I guess.”

“Cool you guess.” Erik mocks Chiron under his breath with a shake of his head. He couldn’t believe it. “Okay, if Kendrick is ‘cool you guess’ then who you got on repeat these days?”

Chi ponders for a second, looking up towards the roof of the car. “Mostly niggas from the south. Lil Wayne..Outkast...Gucci….Three 6 Mafia.” Erik nods in approval, impressed with his taste in music.

“Word? You rock wit Outkast?”

“Yeah, they cool.”

“Alright I see you. Let me find out little Chiron know something about rap.”

“Man chill out, you don’t know what I know.” Chiron chuckles.

“Shit, I’m tryna find out if you let me.”

The two men share a heated look and Chiron holds his hand out for the aux cord. Erik smiles as he hands it to Chiron.

He connects his phone, going to his music library and choosing one of his personal favorite Outkast songs, Da Art of Story Tellin’ Pt. 2.

“Now THIS shit? Fire!” Chiron says with a bright grin on his face. Erik looks at Chi while he’s in his own world. His eyes crinkle at the sight of Chi letting loose for the first time around him.

Erik reaches over to turn the music down just a little bit which causes Chi to look over at him. “What made you like southern rap so much?”

“I’m from Atlanta, this is gospel at home.”

“Word?” Chi nods and turns the music up again. The two go back and forth exchanging anecdotes about their favorite songs and comparing their music tastes. The fifteen minute ride to the museum flies by as they enjoy each other’s company, getting lost in conversation.

Erik turns the car into the parking lot of the Houston Museum of Natural Science, a place Chi had earlier admitted he hadn’t yet been to.

They park then show their proof of tickets and as soon as they walk in Erik makes a beeline to King Tutankhamen, Chi following closely behind.

Chi is amused as he follows Erik past the other exhibits and asks, “Yo, what’s your fascination with this stuff?”

Erik’s eyes light up, his dimples deepening. “Ancient Egypt is one of the most advanced civilizations to this day. Their methods were way ahead of their time.”

They come to a pair of solid gold sandals with individual toe shaped tips all gilded as well. Chi looks at them pensively with a scrunched up nose.

“The fuck are these for? Niggas was wearing grills on they feet back in the day?”

Erik throws his head back in laughter his own gold slugs on his bottom incisors catching the light, the vein in his neck making itself known. Chiron tracks his movements, taking notes. He momentarily forgets what he’d said to make him laugh like that and wonders how he could get him to do it again.

“Nah, they’re toe guards. They were put on the fingers too. It was a way to protect those parts of the body after mummification. The Egyptians believed that after death you would find your body again before actually crossing over so they developed a preservation process to keep it recognizable to your spirit.”

Erik’s voice fades into the background and Chi bites his bottom lip. His eyes focus on the way Erik’s lips form around certain words. He briefly wonders how said lips would feel against his own. His mind drifts to the wishful moment and he misses it when Erik stops talking.

Erik smiles slyly when he notices the faraway look on Chi’s face. He waves his hand and laughs when Chi blinks out of his trance. “You good?”

Chi looks at Erik and for a brief moment time stops. Unspoken words fall between them as they gaze at each other.

The moment leaves as quickly as it comes. Chi clears his throat and looks to the side. “Yeah. I-I’m good. What’s next?”

They walk side by side looking at the different displays. Both of them paying more attention to each other than the exhibits. They stand close together at each stop, arms brushing against one another, sending chills down their spines. They reach the end and Erik turns to Chi.

“You down to go eat? Or I can take you home...” his voice trails off as he looks at Chi in question.

“Yea I could eat.” Chi answers.

“You sure? We could look around some more…”

“Nah I’m good. I was mostly paying attention to you anyways.”

Chi stops himself short, not believing he let that leave his mouth. It wasn’t a lie though and it’s too late to take it back now.

Erik smirks and gives Chi a heated look. “Good to know.”

Walking out of the diner Erik and Chi feel light on their feet. The conversation at lunch flowed easy, both men letting their guards down and slightly opening up for the first time.

On their way back to the car they continue their conversation about school. Erik talks about his love of computers, math, and science, but mentions his actual desire to do something involving international affairs.

Chi reveals his goal of becoming a substance abuse therapist and his want to help people struggling with addictions. He also wanted to find a way to offer support to the families of those fighting addiction.

“What made you choose that field to go into?” Erik turns to Chi and he shrugs.

“I’ve seen how that shit can affect people and others around them in my home city. I want to help people in that position have a second chance to live without an addiction.”

Chiron half answers the question his body tenses at the memories, not wanting to go into detail of his childhood. He knew first hand how damaging addiction can be.

Erik stops walking and turns toward Chi.

“You okay?” He asks, trying to figure out what made Chi freeze up.

“Nah I’m fine.”

Erik doesn’t believe him but decides not to push the issue. He turns to start walking again, gently grabbing Chi’s hand, linking them with his.

Chi looks down at their joined hands his shoulders immediately tensing up not sure how to process what was happening.

Erik can feel Chi tense up.

In an effort to ease the tension Erik brings up Chi’s hand and kisses the back of it gently. Chi watches as Erik brings up his hand and kisses the back of it gently as they continue the walk to the car.

The following Monday, Chi finds himself walking through the building that houses his psychology classes. As he’s about to put his earbuds in, he overhears a feminine voice speaking loud as hell.

Kayla had been posted up outside of Chi’s classroom for 10 minutes before finally spotting him walking out. She sets her plan in motion as soon as he’s within earshot, raising her voice and fast forwarding to the part of the story she wants him to hear.

“Yeah, girl, that nigga Erik is a dog.”

Chi perks up at Erik’s name and slows down to a stop, pretending to read a flyer nearby.

“That nigga is one of the biggest hoes on campus, you can’t trust these football niggas. Walkin around here like they’re Gods gift to earth,” Chi raises his eyebrow in confusion. She can’t be talkin about my Erik. Can she?

“Y’all were cute, too. That nigga don’t deserve you, sis.” Her line sister eggs Kayla on.

“He’s never interested in a relationship, that nigga always wants to fuck and my dumbass fell for it for a minute.” Kayla adjusts her pink and green line jacket as she rolls her eyes.

Kayla gives one last look to make sure Chiron was listening before she leads her friends away.

Chi is left there dumbfounded. How could he have been so wrong about Erik? Sure, he was confident bordering on cocky, but he never pegged him as the player type.

Chi shook his head and turned to walk out of the building. Is he using me for just a quick fuck, is that all he sees me as?

The whole walk back to his apartment, Chi couldn’t get his mind off of what Kayla had said. He didn’t want to believe her, but a guy like Erik actually wanting him, seemed too good to be true.

Once he gets home he puts his phone on silent and spends the rest of his day wallowing around his apartment. He goes over every moment he’d spent with Erik, reassessing his tone and body language. Was it just lust? Chi wasn’t sure but he needed some time to find out.

Slinging his track bag over his shoulder he makes his way towards the door. Taking his phone out of his pocket he sees a text from Erik. He pauses in the doorway and stares at the name before sliding the phone back in his pocket and leaving.

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dclly · 5 years

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hello friends !! it’s ya gal moose (she/her, 21, cst) & i’m finally home from work bless!!! i’m just ur local…..run of the mill bug-loving canadian. this intro is gna be messa af but…it be like that sometimes. i am so very thirsty so pls if u wanna plot just hmu or like this and i’ll come to u! u can also catch me on d*scord @ bug lady 🦗#8530 if u prefer that!

pls be advised that there are mentions of: trauma, sexual assault, ed, drug use & addiction below!

#KRISTINE FROSETH | CISFEMALE | SHE/HER | BISEXUAL - DOROTHY LINDVIG is a TWENTY-ONE year old ICE SKATING INSTRUCTOR that moved into apartment A2 a good TWO YEARS ago. the AQUARIUS has been in town for TWENTY-ONE YEARS overall and is well known around seattle ridge for being +VIVACIOUS +CLEVER, but has a reputation of being -ALOOF and -FACETIOUS. guess that’s why they call them the AMARANTH around these parts! (moose, 21, she/her, cst.)

ok so !!!! first thing’s first, she usually goes by the nickname dolly. but she doesn’t care too much abt what u call her u can call her fuckass and she’d just be like what’s up

she’s a town native !!! grew up in a shitty area w a kind of shitty family. parents were never around, always off on benders or just….generally bein shitty parents. dolly & her older brother had to learn how to take care of themselves when they were pretty young and they’ve always done just fine. they didn’t have a lot of money so dolly got pretty good at playing up the cute lil girl role and getting free stuff out of ppl

as much as she claims she relies only on herself, she also relies heavily on the kindness of strangers bc without them she definitely would have gone hungry for real

in order to stay away from her house as much as possible she would hang out at the skating rink as a kid & eventually after stealing a pair of skates from the lost & found she taught herself how to skate & eventually figure skate as well. she’s always wanted to go pro but…..obviously couldn’t afford the training or put in any of the effort required to go all the way.

her brother used to throw pretty big ragers in their place when their parents were gone so……she started drinking & doing drugs at a pretty young age & just generally hanging out with ppl who were much older than her & v bad influences.

trauma tw & sexual assault tw !! it was at one of these parties that she had a traumatic assault experience w one of her brother’s friends when she was a teenager. to this day, she still hasn’t told anyone about what happened. it happened on more than one occasion and her brother is still friends w this boy so she just…..does her best to avoid him & pretend that nothing ever happened bc she refuses to acknowledge her trauma

she was pretty popular in school but never rly felt like she had any true friends ??? none of her relationships were all that deep and she mostly just hung out with people to get free stuff LMAO and like rides places i guess

but she does have her lil group of friends that she truly cares abt and when she actually cares abt u…….she’s around for LIFE u cant get rid of her sorry

she got emancipated when she was 16 and has been living on her own ever since. at first she’d would just stay at friend’s houses and sleep on their couches, but that stopped when she finally got a job at the skating rink teaching kids how to skate & got a new place to live. she’s been chillin working there and living in the apartment building for a couple of years now

definitely has had……many sugar daddy-type relationships in the past bc she would much rather have money handed to her u know

that is…..a v brief outline of her life up until this point but imma talk a bit abt her personality now

she is…..very magnetic tbH. knows how to draw in a group and keep them interested

knows how to bat her eyelashes and flirt if it means she’ll get something out of it

she’s kind of mean, kind of not ??? she is v moody a lot of the time tbh like it’s either hit or miss with her. sometimes she’ll be in the mood to have a big long chat and in a split second she’ll be telling u to fuck off

likes to know everyone else’s drama but doesn’t like having drama of her own

kind of does her own thing ???? marches to the beat of her own drum. doesn’t rly follow any rules. she’s just out here

does most things out of spite. even if she doesn’t want to do something, if someone tells her she cant do something she’s gna do it no matter what

very animated and lively. the type to dance in the middle of the grocery store if a song she likes is playing

also the type to dance on tables at the club

doesn’t rly care what ppl think about her but…..does at the same time ??? if ur important to her she cares deeply abt ur opinion but if not……..she doesn’t give a FUCK

she always has to keep herself busy or else she’ll lose her mind :))))

will do…….literally anything to get something for free ??? doesn’t matter what it is or who u are. she can HATE u but…..she will still give u head behind the 7/11 for a free slurpee u know :/

i wouldn’t say she’s hypersexual but she is highly sexual thx to her trauma !!!

she is friendly yet distant at the same time so like……while she will happily talk to u and hang out with u and whatever she avoids deep conversation topics ig ??? she always finds a way to leave or change the subject when it gets serious or make a joke out of things bc she can’t………talk abt stuff ajsdfjkgdjgk

a very witty & clever girl. she’s v smart and would have done well in school had she had a slightly better life & didn’t have to worry abt whether or not she would starve

some extra tidbits abt her !!!

a good portion of her clothing is vintage/thrifted. she would describe her aesthetic as a 70s teenage boy’s wet dream. shoes are her fave & she’s always wearing some funky type of boot or platform shoe

just a real fashion bitch !!!!

catch her online shopping at almost any given moment

mental breakdown haircuts at 2am are her Mood

she loves going to cute lil vintage diners & drinkin a cherry coke 4 the aesthetic u know

can’t keep a relationship to save her life. will date someone and put herself FULLY into the relationship but…….will either get bored or cheat on them or put them up on a pedestal so it’s destined to fail after one lil mistake or do something to fuck it up

she is a self-sabotager like that bc she doesn’t believe she’s deserving of love or any good things really :///

smokes too many cigarettes

drug use & addiction tw !! smokes a lot of weed as well. catch ya girl doing fat bong rips all day long. also does a lot of cocaine. has a coke addiction, in fact. also catch her running away to the bathroom for a bump 12 times a day. she rly just…..doesn’t like being sober, she tryna run away from shit

her fave colour is red

she has a cat named freddie who she adores more than anything else on the planet

likes to play poker & gamble

will literally try anything once

hates herself & is rotting inside!!!!!!!!!!!!

eating disorder tw !! another symptom from her trauma is the eating disorder she developed as a teen. food is…..one of her few things in life she can fully control so she controls it a Lot.

just wants to have fun and forget abt how disgusting she feels on a daily basis & how much she hates herself :))))))))))

generally just………….a messy bitch

this is……a LOT. i don’t have a full wc page or anything atm but here are some lil connection ideas for her!!

friends !! ppl that don’t actually know her all that well but she pretends they do anyway

perhaps………………a best friend……….

exes !! ya girl puts her whole entire being into relationships even tho she runs away from them right after bc self sabotage ???? so she prob isn’t on good terms with any of her exes but……she’s my bi queen so this is open to anybody!!!! would prob b really angsty which is grand

a drug dealer perhaps??

party buddies, drinking buddies, w/e. bad influences. let them influence each other to be Worse

previous fwbs & hookups, that kinda thing, she prob has a lot

maybe someone she cheated on a partner with ??? for Drama

or like….someone who’s relationship she fucked up idk

maybe someone who has a crush on her or something & she’s like…….pls don’t what r u doing……..gotta Jet

a good influence??? someone please help her.

idK i want angst & cute fluffy stuff so just everything is good rly

tbh i will prob do an actual wc page at some point but here is what i have for now

this was a lot i am sorry. bless u for reading this far thank u.

#srhqintro #this is messyyyy im sorry

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reesegetslost-blog · 5 years

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Eat, Pray, Love...In China??

2018 was a rough year for me!

My final year in University began in Fall 2017 with a study abroad semester in Spain. Within the first few weeks of my study abroad my then boyfriend and I had broken up. Having previously gone through many breakups with him throughout the years, this was nothing new. That is to say, I was fine with everything, and I was in a really good place in my life.

Spain was a magical time and experience for me. I fell in love with the country. I fell in love with the fact that all my academics were in a foreign language that I knew well. And most of all I loved my beautiful and wonderful host families with their beautiful and wonderful children!

Gosh! I can’t wait to live there one day (because it’s gonna happen)!

After my long-time boyfriend and I broke up sometime after my birthday, I reminded myself that I was living in Madrid and should not let this rain cloud ruin such a wonderful life opportunity.

Therefore I rallied. I began using my time to focus on myself and continued to develop my language skills. Beautiful Spanish city, with beautiful Spaniards? There was nothing else to do but live my best life.

But I also used this time to focus on getting back to myself and learning how to be alone again. Exploring different parts of Madrid, making new friends and eating tortilla española with a good book on every terraza possible were how most of my days went. I got back to being the happy, care-free, stress-free me that I lost for a very long time.

I felt happy. And light.

And then….the bullshit.

I returned to my University campus in January of 2018. My school was a small, predominantly white liberal arts school in the middle of nowhere. As this was my last semester in school I just wanted to eat my fruits, drink my water, go to the gym, and mind my business!

But upon my return the happy and carefree me struggled with maintaining my happy. School work always provided a way for me to drown out the trash happening around me and just focus on concrete things. But, alas, it was my senior year so my course load was the lightest it had ever been. I couldn’t drown out the bullshit.

Upon my return I was immediately welcomed back with open arms from people I knew. They were quick to ask me about my time abroad and how great it was. Ya know. The usual talk. Then it quickly turned into questions about my relationship. Kinda went like this:

They: “So are you guys still together?”

Me: “Nah. Didn’t work out. Ya know. Shit happens.”

They: “Oh girl. Sorry to hear that but you’re better off.”

Me: “….I mean it wasn’t a bad split….why am I better off?”

They: “Well you know cause you deserve better. Especially after what happened over the summer.”

Me: “….Summer?”

They: “Oh you know last summer when he was here.”

Me: “….Over summer?”

*Just for clarification: Ex-bae was a year ahead of me so he graduated May 2017. So this refers to Summer 2017*

And it’s clear from this conversation that the proverbial tea was spilled. Cold tea for them. Scalding hot—burn your tongue cause ya drank it too fast—tea for me.

Here it was I was hearing so much SHIT (ALL THE SCANDALS! OK?) about him that all these people—people who loved chilling, and hanging out with me, who had the AUDACITY to call themselves my friends and smile up in my face!—knew whatever they knew for MONTHS (SHIIDD maybe even YEARS) and no one told me shit.

LOL Ain’t that some shit?

Anyway.

Needless to say that it was a very dark semester for me. Spiralling from shock. Confronting said ex-bae and still not getting any solid answers. (Sometimes ya just don’t need closure!) Not knowing whom to trust.

I cut a lot of people off that year! If you used to say Hello to that young man you were out!

Lol kidding… maybe…

ANYWAY!

The worst thing about it was that I saw myself turning into a person I did not like very much. There were months where everyday I would wake up in some combination of pissed off and sad. The light, care-free me from Spain was no where to be found. Which made me even more pissed off and sad because I was in a seriously good place before I went back to that Blackhole of a University.

But like a worker bee, I had to keep moving forward. Grad school applications were either in progress or submitted so at least I had that to look forward to right? I would be onto a new future soon right?…….RIGHT?!

Haha…

I was the type of person who always had a plan. Then a back-up plan. Then a back-up to the back-up. And as a last resort an emergency or exit strategy. So grad school was always the #1 plan for me after graduation.

LOL So funny.

EVERY. SINGLE. SCHOOL. Rejected me. Except 1 program at this amazing school, but that was my Safety Programme. But in those weeks I saw my top plan drifting off in the wind, taking what little sanity I had with it. *eye twitch*

So onto The Back-up Plan right? Right. Grad school wasn’t an option for this year. So that presented an opportunity for me to go out there and get some work experience. As an international student with an F-1 visa I could apply for OPT and work in America for a year. Ok. Cool. That was the new plan. Great.

Haha. I spent MONTHS applying for every job out there. Undergoing multiple job interviews over these months. Passing many rounds. But never got a single job offer. Haha what a time.

Thus, when graduation approached I was happy to be leaving the Sinking Ship that was my University days. Honestly I wanted to run away. If you spoke to me in those days I would tell you that changing my name and moving to a foreign country where no one knows you is a form of self-care. I stand by that.

But I needed to get away from EVERYONE and EVERYTHING that I knew. With going back home to The Bahamas as my emergency/exit strategy, I wasn’t too happy with that plan. I wasn’t done with the world, although the world was showing me that it was done with me.

But before graduation came an interesting opportunity to teach English for a year in China. China rang bells in my head because it was literally so far from everyone I knew. This was going to be my new fresh start. I would know nobody and nothing. Not even Chinese, because I studied Spanish and Italian for the last 4 years.

Thus, having The Discussion with my family led to many blank stares and confusion on their part. My mother would come to me every few hours just to make sure.

Mum: “China?! What in China you wan see?”

Me: “I just need to go far for a bit…”

Mum: “But China? What about Spain? You did like Spain!”

Me: “Not far enough.”

Brother: “What you tryna run away from? Come tell ya brother. Cause I need to understand!”

Me: “ *laughing tryna hold back tears* Gee y’all. I am a world traveller! Why I can’t go to China?”

Mum: “Cause it so far! Who you know over there? He (Ex-bae) hurt you that bad that you wan go that far?”

Me: “Yes! Gee! Let me just run away in peace! Y’all lucky ine dropping off the planet! China is happening ok??!”

Brother: “…well make sure they don’t steal ya passport please…”

This exact conversation happened literally almost everyday over the summer months.

But I would not be deterred! This was my chance to get back to myself; to find myself once again. Cause this new, unfamiliar Reese was not working for me. This was my fresh start.

As my brother would put it: “You tryna be on ya Eat, Pray, Love tip aye?”

Basically yeah.

So this is some background on how/why this blog was created. Or how/why I ended up in China.

This blog is going to be about my new travel/life experiences, as I go about trying to get back to Me.

So cheers to getting lost!

XOXO

Lil Reesey

P.S. Whoever put Obeah on my 2018 or whoever playing with my voodoo doll…Can ya ease up and let me live for a bit? Thanks!

#ReeseGotLost #LostInTranslation #ReeseGotTheJuice #WheresReese #Travel #Lifestyle #Mood #BigMood #ReeseBoughtACamera #ReeseGetsLost #BlackGirlInChina #BlackGrilMagic

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cryinggameff · 6 years

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Sixty-nine

Randi

Cayden and his friends were drinking and doing god knows what else while watching the game. I had agreed to let him host the party here, which i was kind of regretting because they were loud as hell and it made it hard to take my mid day naps. I had left for a bit to go and pick up some groceries so i could make some food for them to eat plus some snacks and such and now i was back home. I walked past going to put the stuff in the kitchen.

“Baby, you back?” Cayden said, getting up and coming to the kitchen.

“Yeah, just went to target,” I said, taking stuff out of the bag.

“How’s my baby?” He put his arms around me to grab my belly.

“Active. He’s been jumping around all day,” I sighed. He moved his hand around.

“That’s because he’s a little baller. Or maybe a gymnast if it’s a girl.”

“Mmhm,” i said, putting my hand over his. Somebody scored and the guys got all excited. We both looked over. I started taking stuff out the bags. Cayden removed his hands and started going back to the living area. I glanced at him and saw his jaw was locked and arms flexed. I was confused. He walked up to Rambo and smacked him on the back of the head.

“Damn man!” Rambo jumped. He turned around and Cayden grabbed the blunt that he must have just lit out of his mouth.

“I told your slow ass not to be smoking in my house when my wife is pregnant. Are you dumb? That’s my kid you fucking with bruh,”

“My bad Cayden, I forgot,” he said quickly. “I’m sorry man,” he said. Everyone else looked to see what Cayden was gonna do. I already knew what he was planning to do and considering he was China’s man and what not i couldn’t have them falling out or that would make things awkward for all of us. I put the milk I was holding down. I reluctantly intervened.

“It’s ok baby,” i said to him from the kitchen. He looked up at me and I gave him a look to calm down and of course he listened and backed down. He just put the blunt out and came to throw it out in the kitchen. He came up behind me and wrapped an arm around me again.

“Sorry,” He said by my ear just so I could hear.

“It’s ok,” I said, leaning up to kiss him. I wasn’t mad, after all he was right, it was bad for the baby. Cayden had stopped smoking, around the house anyways, all together. It was cute how concerned he was about the baby. He kissed my shoulder and I giggled.

“She’s already pregnant dog, give it a break,” ty said as he came strolling in to the kitchen to open the fridge. I blushed but laughed.

“Hey! I just got those,” I complained. But nobody was listening. He was long gone and they had broken into a play fight, crashing on to the floor and rolling around like children. “You’re 26 years old,” I grumbled, picking my rolls off the floor.

I made some stuff for the guys and then took my food upstairs to eat and watch some shows.

I ended up falling asleep after eating, but woke up a few hours later with terrible heart burn. That was happening a lot now. I would take it over being nauseous 24/7 like in the beginning, but it was still very uncomfortable. I went downstairs to go find some tums and realised Cayden and his friends were gone. I looked at my phone real quick and Cayden had texted me saying he was gonna go in to work. I got some tums and some milk and went back to the bedroom. I decided to give Cole a call because i hadn't talked to him in a while.

"Hi Colebear,"

"Hey lil mama. How you doing?" he asked.

"Im ok, just tired and sick all the time," i complained.

"That sounds horrible," he said. "How much longer you got anyways? Tryna make sure im there when the baby gets here."

"Still have like 4 months. Im ready for it to be over, and i just wanna hold my baby already." I groaned in frustration.

"When we gon find out if its a boy or girl? How am i supposed to buy them some swag if i dont know?"

"I was supposed to find out a while ago but i kept missing my appointments. Im going in a few days, should find out then."

"Word? aight keep me posted."

"I will," i said, "so whats up with you and Ty. He came to my house a week ago and from what he said yall had some drama when he visited." I was being nosy as usual.

"Aint no drama," he mumbled.

"What did you do?" i asked in an accusing tone. He sighed.

"I may have iced him out a little."

"Why?" i asked, confused.

"Things were getting...intense."

"Thats how a relationship works Cole," i pointed out.

"I know," he said simply. I smiled a little bit.

"I get it. I was the same way when Cayden and i started getting serious. It terrified me. It's scary to love someone."

"So what did you do?" He asked.

"Well Cayden didn't really give me an option to run. He followed me every time, " i laughed. "Eventually i just got tired of trying to run away and i just dove in. Now i'm married to the fool and carrying his baby."

"Diving in sounds terrifying."

"It is," i bit my lip, thinking back to when Cayden and i were still dating. "But its worth it."

"Ugh. I cant with this sappy shit right now. Im bout to go to practice and i dont need to be in my feelings while tackling a bunch of dudes."

"Okay fine, ill drop it for now. But you need to just accept you love him and move on. Don't overthink it," i said seriously.

"okay mom."

"Oh God, can you imagine someone is gonna be calling me that soon," i said, more to myself.

"I can see you as a mom. You always taking care of people or helping them fix their lives, even when they didnt ask," he laughed.

"What can i say, i dont know how to mind my business," i shrugged.

"Lowkey im the same," he said. "But i gotta go."

"Okay babe, have a good practice. Ill talk to you later." He said bye and then i hung up.

Cayden

"Yo, How's the shipment going?" I asked him, referring to a deal i had going with Sean. He was organising the order while i handled the logistics and such.

"Man i don't think we have enough here. We gotta bring some from the other warehouse. I was gonna call Pat but i wanted to run it by you," he got up and i followed him out to the balcony looking down to the rest of the warehouse. It was busy with niggas at work like usual, organised by product.

"What he want?" i asked.

"Coke mostly, but he talking about he got some guy wants a bunch of crystal. We got 10, 20 pound max here," he said, nodding at the back of the room where the guys were breaking and weighing a fresh batch.

"Who the fuck wants to buy that much crystal?" My brows came together.

"Man who knows, thats your boy, ask him. Im just saying, thats pretty much all our supply from both warehouses, and we have one cook" he said. I nodded because he was right, but that wasn't my biggest concern. It was just weird to me that Sean was suddenly moving crystal when he had never before. I couldn't help think back to the time Randi asked if Sean could be trusted and wondered if she was on to something.

"Dont call Pat. Not yet anyways. Imma have a little meeting with Sean first," i decided.

"Got it," he nodded.

"By the way, thanks for checking on Randi while i was gone," i said. He shrugged.

"Uncle duties and what not," he smirked, "how she doing anyways? You weren't playing when you said she was emotional."

"She tired all the time, i feel bad. She go off on you?" I laughed.

"Nah, just crying and shit. I don't know how you do it."

"Ill take crying over when she gets angry."

"True," Ty nodded. I checked my watch.

"I gotta go find Keisha, i need her to get Sean here. I aint going to Cali, i just got back," i looked around a bit.

"She was here with Kassie earlier, training and what not. How you get her to come back anyways?" he raised a brow.

"I begged," i chuckled. " Why? you still got a crush on her? Thought you were all about the D now."

"Fuck you Cayden," he said, turning to go back to his office. I laughed and went off to find Keisha.

I ended up just calling Keisha from my office and she came up.

"Hey, sorry, Kassie was showing me around. She just left," she said.

"It's all good. I need you to do something for me though. 2 things actually."

"Sure, what is it?" she pulled out a pen and notepad.

"I need you to get Sean here. ASAP."

"Got it," she nodded.

"Also i need you to book me a trip, for 2. Jamaica, not business. Anytime in the next month or so," i looked up from my phone calendar.

"I'll get right on it..." she paused. "It's sweet. I mean, im assuming it's for your wife."

"Yeah it is. Gotta keep her happy," i shrugged. She smiled. Then she seemed to remember something and pulled out her phone

"Oh before i forget, the accountant is coming tomorrow. Just a reminder. Also, your calendar says its Ty's birthday soon, do you want me to arrange anything?"

"Remind me an hour before tomorrow. Get a gift for me, Randi is doing the rest. She throws unnecessary parties, its kind of her thing," i rolled my eyes.

"Okay then. Ill go start on this," she said, turning for the door.

"How was the training by the way?" i asked. Kassie had been here the whole time i was gone, showing her the ropes

"Good. She was really nice. She had a lot of great things to say about you. But i'm not surprised, you're a nice guy Cayden. I cant tell you how much this job means to me, my son too," she brushed her golden curls aside. "I mean i made decent money at the club, but...this is a lot better," she bit her lip. I nodded.

"You should have called me, I always cared about you Keisha," i smiled at her gently seeing her get emotional. She was all tough exterior, it was rare to see this side of her.

"I was embarrassed," she shrugged.

"You aint gotta be. How people make money is none of by business. Bur don't worry, i pay my assistants a lot. You gotta put up with my ass, just wait, you'll be sick of me soon." She laughed.

"Thanks Cayden," she smiled.

"You're welcome," i said simply. She left and closed the door behind her.

Once she was gone i called Randi to check on her.

Randi

Cayden called me just after id gotten off with Cole. He asked how i was and then he was telling me about what he was doing and when he would be home. Then i heard someone talking in the background, it wasn't a guy though, it was a female voice.

“Who is that” I said.

“Who’s who?” He asked. I sat up straighter in the bed chair.

“The chick talking in the back ground,” i said. I couldn't think of any reason for there to be a girl in his office at the warehouse. I knew there were a few girls who were involved in selling and what not but Cayden didn't spend time talking to pedlars or people lower in the chain, he handled all the big time stuff. I started to wonder if he wasn't really at the warehouse but i didn't see why he would lie.

“Keisha,” he said, as if that meant anything. “My assistant.”

“When did you get an assistant? You don’t like anyone, how’d you even pick someone.”

“I told you months ago that I needed an assistant baby,” he reminded me. This was true but still.

“Hm,” I said simply.

“So we good then? I’ll see you in a few hours,” he said.

“Okay,” i said, hanging up. I had been too annoyed to say bye or I love you.

Why would he get an assistant without telling me? If that even was his assistant. I knew there was always random girls walking around that definitely weren’t assistants, the business kind anyways. I wondered what this Keisha girl was assisting Cayden with and my blood started to boil. I tried to not be this person but pregnancy also had me a bit mentally unstable and I wasn’t particularly confident right now. Was Cayden fooling around with another girl because i was becoming the size of a whale? I panicked and started to get up off the bed and pulled on a sweater.

I wasn’t really sure what I was doing until i was driving for 20 minutes and leaving the city to go towards the warehouse. I never came here on my own and I started to second guess myself as I pulled up and security immediately posted up. I got out of the car and locked it. One of the guys looked familiar though and I was pretty sure I’d seen him before.

“Are you lost shawty?” Another guy said, licking his lips in a disgusting way and looking down at me. I was about to release all my fury on him when the familiar guy spoke up.

“That’s Cayden’s wife you idiot” he said. The previous guy shrunk back.

“My bad,” he said quickly, head down.

“Should i get Cayden for you?” The familiar guy asked. I shook my head.

“I know my way,” I said, motioning to the door. They paused but moved out of the way. I adjusted my cardigan and went in. People stared at me because i rarely came period let alone on my own. Also I was pretty pregnant now which drew attention. I went upstairs to the offices and stopped in front of Cay’s. I debated whether or not to knock then decided against it. I opened the door and walked in.

Cayden looked up and his face went very confused when he saw me. He was in the chair and a girl stood beside him, bent over and pointing to the computer screen.

“Randi? What the fuck are you doing here?” He said. My face must not have looked happy because he quickly got up. “I mean is everything ok? Is it the baby?” He came over and put a hand to my lower back. I immediately checked his hand for the wedding band which was there.

“The baby’s fine,” I said, looking him over for lipstick, makeup, anything.

“What’s going on then?” He asked. I looked up at the girl standing and starring at us. Cayden looked up. “Keisha can you give me a minute with my wife,” she stood for a minute looking which was strange but then she shuffled out. I was looking around his office looking for any signs of anything messy when Cayden put a hand to my cheek. “Baby, What’s going on?”

“Nothing,” I mumbled, feeling like the biggest fool.

“You drove all the way up here for nothing. Nah,” he shook his head. I choked up, I couldn’t say I came because I thought you were cheating.

“I don’t feel good,” I lied. I did feel sick to my stomach all of a sudden but more out of guilt. Guilty that I’d thought he’d do something like that and also because the way he looked worried now that he thought I was sick.

“Maybe I should take you to the hospital,” he said, feeling my forehead.

“No I’ll be okay,” I said quickly. “I think I just need to go home,”

“I’ll take you,” He said “someone will come pick me up after.” I agreed. He held me all the way out of his office and down the stairs. Once we got in the car I was still thinking about the fact that he got an assistant and didn’t tell me. That was still sketchy, cheating or not.

“How do you know her?” I asked.

“Keisha?” He asked. I waited for him to lie because honestly I already knew the truth. I was simply testing him. “Being 100, we used to fuck but it was a long time ago, and we were actually friends.”

“So is that why you didn’t tell me?” I asked.

“This about to be a problem isn’t it?” He asked. “Wait? Is that why you drove all the way down here?” Well shit.

“Well I heard a girl in your office,” I said, defending myself. He turned to face me then.

“And you automatically assumed I was what? Cheating?” He looked upset. I was supposed to be the one angry. “You don’t even trust me huh? Still,” he shook his head. When he put it like that he made it sound bad.

“It’s not like that-“

“What’s it like? You came running, so that’s what you thought.”

“Well...” I started. “Normally I wouldn’t be scared but look at me,” i gestured at myself. “I don’t look tight and right at the moment. And don't eve play me like you didn't just hire a girl you used to sleep with and not tell your wife about it.”

“You’re insane Randi. You’ve lost your mind. I ain’t even gon fight you cause you carrying my kid.” I got frustrated and was fighting the urge to break into tears so i just glared out the window for the ride home.

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lildirtbike-blog · 6 years

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At least you're not my problem any more I don't care bout you so why you worried about me Starbound You niggas ain't got shit on me You can leave but you can't forget You can't forget us It's 3 AM and im thinking about you My niggas been with me since day one My nigga I been a1 since day 1 So pretty but but so hard to catch Shooters on deck all of em boba fett yah I wanna bih I just want a bitch Got ny shades on in the club All of my shootas wearing camo so you won't see shit coming I honestly just wish I could be, like you I make money not friends Bih we do not play pretend I wouldn't have you any other way I swear I love every single inch of you Like why you worried bout me hoe mind ya own damn business Id love you any fucking way You was rubbing your fat little ass on my dick I let you be you and you let me be me She cuddle me harder, I gave in With her i never win She the only one that knows my sins Fuck what they say i'm the best Truth is I always liked you more I know I fall in love too quick, but this time I think it's real I see a little bit of me in you and a little bit of you in me I wanna play with you I done waited way too long for this You niggas played enough it's my time Feeling fine I'm feeling Feeling fine I'm feeling myself I'm feeling myself Homeboi a shooter Tagteam on my tutor Shawty go down for the team Touch her you gon bleed I want us to be something more Get off work so I can love you We could've got caught but that only makes shit more fun You might be the one Tear down her walls I kinda feel bad for the next nigga I gave you my heart now it doesn't even beat I'mma have to pick up every broken piece I'm with my bae she so poppin Hop out da coupe everybody stopping I wanna spoil you Ou damn she like sneakers more than me Got yo bitch on lock With my glock You're my heaven You make everything seem alright For s moment until I open my eyes I just wonder how high we can gouuo I don't just wanna fuck I also just wanna make you mine I know this shit take time But just rolllll with it But gooo with it I still see you when I open my eyes And I swear, these niggas talk to you just to talk about you All they want to know is how much you are of value I'm in the mood for taking a nigga bitch He don't care about you He don't treat you right You don't know what you do to me So nice to look at even better to touch/fuck I'd give you the world if I could too I'd give you everything if I could too I'm sorry if I upset you We ain't getting any further Fuck you/blow out your back and kiss on her freckles After cuddle the fuck out you and eat fruity pebbles I wanna cuddle the out of you I just wanna know you Fuck them other niggas they don't deserve you Stomp a nigga out in my Jordans shit I let my girl get too thick I mean there's just something about her What's happening to me unknown powers We talked for hours Hide n seek They/you don't even know my like that I won't cry over you I want you now I miss you so fucking much I'm so damn impatient But you're so damn important Leave that nigga he a loser and you know that It's wrong but it feels so right I'm sorry I'm too indecisive I can't choose Is it you or is it you I do it all for you So what you wanna do Do you even love me anymore? A lot can change in a year I wonder were we're going from here He don't even deserve you I got a lot on my mind She said she was thinking about a kid I'm like shiit Then she said she wanted to know what it would be like I'm like psych You get me/ the most You're the only one that gets me Sorry in advance if I get clingy Don't give a fuck about what they say they say I chase bags not bitches Rags to riches I chase money not bitches cuz all that shit will come later I wish I never opened up to you because you're just going to use it against me anyways I don't wanna wake up from this dream Now I gotta clean up the mess you made Fuck trying to fit in/ fitting in Why does my heart still beat for you when you destroyed it? Why you so worried bout me mind yo business You live in my head You live in my head Even though you probably want me dead I need you to pray for me cause nobody else is Whats it like on the other side Fuck them other guys Being with you is bliss even in the silence Tell me is there a bright side to all of this? I don't think I'll ever get over you Why do I feel this way You make my bad days better Strangers - Accin like you don't know me that was my fear Now we're just strangers Back to square one I was just a fool in love It wasn't even love You were my angel Now you can burn in hell You really weren't shit Going my own way Doing shit my way fuck what they say She said be gentle I said I'll try Oooh she make me nervous I'm tryna make you mine I'm running outta time You know better than to come around here Bitch niggas on my back Get the strap She knows what she's doing Killing it with my bestie/best friend I'm tryna be my best me Iloveeverythingaboutyou You know how to get under my skin I miss you already I'm trying I really am I'm holding on Hold on Bear with me I'm picking up the pieces Just let me know how you feel Be real I see/saw you in my dreams You were the only one for me It just keeps on going and it never stops Life's what you make it Don't take shit for granted I'm just tryna make it out alive I just want a bitch that get my vibe She's trouble/ but I don't mind Hate only makes me go harder All we know is bands can you really blame us? Keep a thang up in my camo pants bitch you can't tame us She sat on my lap She jumped on my dick almost bent that shit She gave me head relieve me from my stress For a little while, straight outta work and she undress (Daddy's bday flow hook) I go hard for you you go hard for me I can be anything you want me to be I want to kiss ur freckles She sent me nudes ion even know her tho Bitches talk and talk I'll be here when you come home Don't know why she got so wet Ion even think I did shit All she did was see me Split her like a kiwi She called me her husband Shawty I ain't buying no ring Kill4me Would you kill for me? Keep it real I miss/the smell of your skin I need someone who's on my level You moved on but im still here Still ain't gonna waste my tears You was just using me to pass the time You was just using me to fill a void You're my favorite part/the best parts Cuz mama told me no no no no I fucked her first you was kissing Dip on a bitch and go missing I got some Molly she itching Young Ramsay with the wrist in the kitchen Girl don't play with me Bitch don't play with me yah I'm trying not to get to used to you Cuz they always leave Just/not for you And I forget how to breathe when I see/with you Ooh you make my mouth water I can't explain it I just can't explain it Just love me honestly Love me responsibly Keep it real Im hungry for you I'm hungry need some food What do I gotta prove You cannot come to the crib I want more I want more I want more You know I gotta have it Bad habits I love her flaws and all She love me flaws and all You never tell me you love me anymore They think I'm crazy for loving you But I don't care / Jason Joseph Password : lilnibba666 Apple ID : [email protected] Password : lilnibba6 / Eyes - Brad Pitt, X Nose - Billie Eilish, Cindy Kimberly Forehead - Mehki Alante, X Jawline - / Eyes - Brad Pitt, X Nose - Billie Eilish, Cindy Kimberly Forehead - Mehki Alante, X Jawline - / Shorty gave me top in the movies Put frosting all on her boobies Reach under the seat grab the toolie For any nigga tryna act a foolie Fuck what they say I'm doing shit my own way I could do this shit all day Tear that ass up when we stressed Straight outta work made the biggest mess Fuck what they say I'm the best Well these niggas plottin i know that I ask () where the fuck that pole at You don't got cheese but you still a rat I'm doing shit my own way Nigga get fold like clothes / You can't catch me Nigga you can't catch me ( 21 Savage - X melody) Oh that's your girl she fuck with me Oh that's your girl think imma keep Pull up mobbin 30 deep Talk your shit send you to sleep Hop straight out the fucking jeep Hit up yo bitch then i dunk Bitch im dualied up, pop the trunk Nigga you lame you a chump We got lotsa bricks, we got lotsa skunk Its not for the using tho Shawty be a lil hoe, but she always stay ten toes We smoked dope then hit the store Dicked her down she want some mo Bitch ill flex on the pope Chop a kilo McDonalds I feel like Pablo / You know my boys gon go all out You niggas gonna know Pull up you home alone Air force 1s on my toes Whipping foreign like im grown Whipping foreign like im grown Main bitch whip the stove Side bitch whip the pole Whipping foreign like im grown Whipping foreign like im grown / White converse white socks Plaid long sleeve shirt down to shoulders Black spaghetti strap crop top Black shorts or skirt Dark skin Asian or Hispanic White Nike tennis shoes Long white Nike socks Black shorts Black hoodie Black Nike hat Pink hat Blonde long kinda wavy hair Black shorts White label shirt White Nike tennis shoes / Them drugs hit the spot Kiss me in that spot Them drugs hit the spot Kiss me in that spot Pull up finnesse on the whole lot Some feelings were caught Won't hold back on you tonight Get at my baby you might meet yo plight Won't hold back on you tonight Get at my baby you might meet yo plight / You changed you don't love me in the same way You changed We don't fuck just like we used to You changed you don't love me in the same way You changed We don't fuck just like we used to You changed Nothing will ever be the same If you don't love me no more you could've just said it I made you happy at least give me some credit We ain't getting further Cuz I ain't tryna hurt her Your love was just a lie Do you got better niggas on the side? I can see it in your eyes You switched up you changed sides You changed you don't love me in the same way You changed We don't fuck just like we used to You changed you don't love me in the same way You changed We don't fuck just like we used to You changed Nothing happens when I touch you there Shit got cold I can feel it in the air / Remember when we stayed up all night That was the best night Promise ill always be by your side But baby will you be by mine Ijusthopeshitwillturnoutright

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hopeishappinessff · 6 years

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Holding Onto Hope: Chapter 1

Hope

The glass was a translucent barrier to the lush greenery zipping by along the edges of the wide Georgia roadways. I was starting to make myself dizzy just by trying to steady my eyes on at least one robust tree or a vibrant flower sprouting from the ground. After nearly vomiting from a dire combination of dizziness and motion sickness, I shut my eyes and allowed myself to succumb to the melodic sound of Smokey Robinson. I assumed my dad was a fan of the man and I honestly couldn’t blame him… his voice was so rich and just soothing enough to put a baby to sleep.

Just as I neared the edge of an ensuing siesta, an incessant vibration against the side of my leg startled me and my initial reaction was to flinch… causing my phone to fall haphazardly to the floor. I hastily reached to pick it up, being careful not to move Destani’s foot, which was stretched comfortably along my front seat armrest as she slept soundly in the backseat. I couldn’t fight the urge to nibble into my bottom lip even if I wanted to as I gazed down at that familiar grinning and gorgeous face and my own beaming smile staring up at me. It was a picture we’d snapped cuddling in my bed just days before he left for New York. Breaking out of my daze just before the vibrations stopped, I swiped my thumb across the bottom of the screen and quickly pressed it to my ear, closing my eyes without thought to brace myself for his steadily deepening baritone.

Ya’ll made it there yet?” From the moment Destani and I had left Virginia around nine this morning, he’d been greeting me with something along the lines of ‘Where ya’ll at’ rather than a cordial ‘hello.’ I smirked at the sound of his addictive voice and giggled as I lowered my head and pressed my left index finger into my ear to ensure that I’d hear him crisp and clear.

“No, we’re almost there though. You know… it would be kind of nice if I could get a hello next time.”

He chuckled and I imagined those handsomely deep dimples caving into his plump cheeks along with the tiniest dimple that crept into his chin whenever he smiled or laughed “I’m sorry love. I’m just tryna make sure ya’ll get to the school alright and that’s like, literally the only thing I been thinking about all day.”

I swiftly raised a hand to wave my dad’s extended hand away from the volume knob of the radio. He’d finally taken notice of the phone pressed against my ear and he was attempting to show consideration by trying to turn down the volume, but I figured with me being on the phone with Chris of all people, it would be best to keep the radio up as loud as possible. I smiled sheepishly at him after he raised that hand in a surrendering manner and returned my attention to my conversation.

“Well stop worrying so much. Like I said, we’re just about there and you know I’ll call you as soon as we get to our dorm.”

“Aiight… well how ‘bout I stop worrying when I get that call then?” He suggested smartly. I rolled my eyes and said a quick silent prayer that we would indeed reach the school soon so that I could calm his worried mind.

“Other than worrying about our exact location on the map of the world, what are you doing right now?” I asked, discreetly cracking up at my own joke.

I could tell he was laughing as well and I strained my ears to listen closely… I’d always adored the way I could easily tell that he was genuinely laughing, even if I weren’t directly in his face to see.

“I actually just got back from a three-hour drill. I was on my way to getting in the shower and when I was taking my shirt off, I thought about you and decided to call and check in again.”

I smiled and playfully contorted my face into a frown as if he could see me “So… your sweat and funk makes you think of me?”

“No, I just… wait, who said I was funky girl?”

I cackled aloud and tossed my head back against the headrest theatrically “I’m sorry, you’re not funky… as a matter of fact, I bet you smell exceptionally nice right now.” “Hell yeah I do. Aye… and you know what’s even better,” His voice dropped to a noticeably more seductive octave and my brow raised with intrigue as I listened to him, “My body is still dripping with sweat, right… and I’m just standing here in the mirror now and my shorts are kinda low, like sagging so I can see this dope ass V cut I been working on… so I’m just watching this sweat drip, like you when I make that puss…”

My eyes bulged and I instinctively gasped and raised a hand to the receiver of my phone, peeping discreetly at my dad to make sure he hadn’t by chance heard any of what this freak had just muttered in my ear.

“You know you should stop right… I’m still in the car Chris.” I kept my voice as low as possible as I reprimanded him quickly. He chuckled, with that same seduction even wrapped up in his laugh, and I rolled my eyes and fought the urge to bite into my bottom lip. After an entire summer of absolutely no physical contact with him, the slightest rise or fall in the pitch of his voice was just enough to send my body temperature rocketing within seconds.

“Aw, I’m sorry Ms. Pretty Pussy… I can’t help it. But I’ll stop… wouldn’t want you leaking all over your dad’s seat.” He whispered huskily. I smacked my lips and subtly rubbed my thighs together, clinging to the sound of his seduction and praying that I wouldn’t squirt right through my pants just from the sound of his voice. I decided that instead of giving myself away and perhaps dealing with an interrogation from my dad, I should probably go ahead and end the phone call before Chris got me too carried away.

“You know what, I think I should just call you back a bit later. We’re almost at the school and I really have to go now.” He went silent for a moment and I instantly felt terrible… I didn’t want him to think I was rushing him off the phone. We were literally only about ten minutes away from the school and knowing that I needed each of those minutes to get myself together after that panty wetting exchange, I knew I needed to end the conversation now.

“Aiight, just don’t forget to call me as soon as you get there.”

“I won’t.” I promised, ending the call with an I love you.

With an exhausted huff, I dropped my last bag on my extra-long twin size bed and plopped down right beside it, sighing tiredly and sliding my feet out of my sandals before crossing them up onto the bed. We’d been either walking or standing just about all day and it was starting to feel like my feet were on fire. Destani, who’d been struggling to pull one of her larger bags through the doorway, gave one final yank and got the bag through the door then tossed it over onto the floor near her bed. She was mumbling under her breath and I laughed only because I knew she’d be expressing herself loud, clear and without hesitation if it weren’t for my dad stepping though the doorway behind her. He and I both laughed at the expression on her face as he placed one of her heaviest trunks and a duffle bag on the floor with ease.

“Was it really that heavy Dez?” I asked, pointing over at the bag she’d practically thrown out of her grasp. She rolled her eyes and stomped her way over to her bed, muttering a small ’thank you’ to my dad for his graciousness. I locked eyes with him, we both peered over at Destani, then simultaneously burst into boisterous laughter at her expense. She looked absolutely upset that we were laughing, but her expression only made it that much more hilarious.

“I’m glad ya’ll find it so funny that I almost broke both of my arms and my back tryna drag this bag up here.” She said with a roll of her eyes.

My dad stepped to her, pulling her to him and squeezing her with a one-armed hug “Aww, I’’m sorry Destani… I really didn’t mean to laugh at you. I was only laughing because, well… Sy laughed.”

My jovial expression instantly dropped into a frown and I looked from him to Destani to see her standing there with her hand on her hip and a smirk resting on her face “And I’m glad you find it so funny that I almost hurt myself, Sy.”

“Actually I find it funny that you were too weak to carry that bag. With your scrawny arms, you should have just dragged it.” I pointed out, raising a brow with a knowing smirk on my face.

“Whatever Sy’Diyah. Smart a… butt.” I smiled at her, knowing that she wanted so badly to let a curse word slip, but she was struggling with my dad in the room.

“Well, do you girls need me to help with anything else? It may be easier to set everything up with six hands instead of four.” My dad said, picking up one of my trunks and moving it closer to my bed.

I stopped him just before he attempted to move on to retrieve a suitcase and smiled “No, I think we can handle it from here… you’ve done more than enough for us as it is and I can’t thank you enough for that.”

He tapped a hand against the top of my trunk then pursed his lips and released a sigh through his nose “Alrighty, then I guess I’ll uh… start making my way back down to the car then. And you’re absolutely positive that you two don’t need anything else? Something from the store… something to eat… anything?”

I chuckled lightly and glanced over at Destani who was shaking her head, letting me know that there was nothing she needed “Nope, I think we’re good for now.” I assured him.

“How about we walk you downstairs so we can have a lil more time to think about if we really need something Mr. D?” Destani suggested.

“That sounds like a plan Destani.” He chuckled.

We walked him out to the parking lot to his car and conversed for a bit, asking several questions about areas of entertainment in and around Athens. He didn’t give us much info on that question in particular… he claimed that’s not what college was all about and that we should solely be focused on the education aspect, not what’s going to keep us entertained. He did, however, tell us that if we ever felt the need to get away from the city, he was only a phone call away.

After my dad left, Destani and I made our way back into the semi crowded lobby of McWhorter Hall, our dormitory. Though it’d crept well into mid-evening, several families of students lingered around the lobby and activity center, some biding adieu to their student and some just simply hanging around for the heck of it. Our particular dorm was coed. When the decision was initially made that I would attend this school, I wanted to reside in a female only dorm, but with Destani getting accepted into the same school as I and the two of us immediately choosing to room together, she figured it would be much better to live in this style dorm instead. The only good in it for me was the fact that our floor consisted of all females and the floors above and beneath us were only males. Destani didn’t seem to fully understand the fact that for me to tell Chris that I lived anywhere near other guys was equivalent to me telling him that I lived in an actual room with a guy… and that was simply a death wish.

A few days before Destani and I left, he even forced me to agree to a ‘conference call’ with him to discuss the terms and conditions of this newfound distance between us. Any other time I probably would have gotten upset with him for trying to set rules for me, but I couldn’t get mad… I’d done the exact same with him before he left for New York. I realized that if we were going to make this thing work, there would have to be several ground rules for the both of us to always abide by to ease all temptation. For whatever reason, he even felt the need to leave me with his Charlie Brown necklace, believing that it somehow held the power to keep everyone of the male species at bay.

With my index finger and thumb, I picked up that very pendant that rested in its new home idly against my chest and looked down at it. Ms. Joyce had given it to him as a gift for Christmas when he was about thirteen because of his infatuation with the comic book character and since then, not a day had gone by that he took it off… until now. I was utterly stunned the moment he slid the thing from around his neck only a few days before he left for New York and completely blown away when it placed it around my neck instead, instructing me to keep it on no matter what because he expected to see me wearing it the next time we saw one another.

Destani and I continued our trek through the lobby, the activity center, and up the first flight of stairs to our room and I kept my head down, mesmerized by the small colorful diamonds embedded in the pendant. I failed to realize that we were rounding a corner to head up another flight of stairs to get to our second-floor dorm and because I so foolishly kept my head down without thinking to look up, I didn’t notice the figure ambling directly toward me. The person must have been at least six feet tall because when I bumped into them, my head instantly collided with their chest. I stumbled backward a bit, only catching my balance after I felt a hand grip onto my wrist, grasping tightly to prevent me from clumsily slipping down about six steps.

“Damn girl, you straight?” I quickly raised my head and lifted a hand up to massage the top of it after running into this person’s chest. I was immediately taken aback when I found myself gawking up into the deepest pair of chocolate brown orbs. It actually took me a few seconds to realize those eyes weren’t the only beautiful things in front of me… there was a beautiful face and a beautiful body too. But whoever he was, he was making me extremely uncomfortable only because I knew I shouldn’t have been staring at him, thinking about how inexplicably gorgeous he was.

“Baby doll… you good? I mean, you did just almost fall down a flight of stairs… I’m just tryna make sure you okay.” Even his voice made him seem more like the God Zeus standing there in front of me. And what was even more appealing was that he had yet to call me ‘ma’ like most southern guys tend to. Don’t get me wrong, I’d never seen anything necessarily wrong with the pet name, especially when Chris said it, but I found that it grew old after a while and just hearing baby doll roll off his tongue was oddly refreshing to me. I could feel someone easing up behind me and seconds later, a hand nudging me in the back. I glanced back to see Destani standing there, staring at me like I had two heads.

“What the hell are you doing? Talk to him girl?” She mumbled through gritted teeth just loud enough for me to hear.

Clearing my throat, I swung back around to face him and blinked a few times as I licked my parched lips “Um, yes… yeah, I’m okay… I’m really clumsy and I’m so sorry for bumping into you.” I explained sincerely. He smiled, flashing a perfect set of glimmering whites that left me, once again, stupefied and it took another nudge in the back from Destani for me to realize that he was speaking to me.

“You straight doll. I know these stairs are pretty damn cramped, so you can’t really help but bump into people on ‘em.” I instantly noted the country or perhaps even Louisiana accent that oozed from his words and smiled inwardly… he’s even more country than Chris… snapping out of my daze suddenly, I gasped softly and realized in that moment how much of a good idea it would be for me to go on and make my way past this guy, just in case he decided to go in for the kill… an introduction…which according to Chris was number one on the list of terms and conditions.

‘No formal or informal introductions… that’s how them niggas trap you. Trust, ya nigga used to be like, the king of that shit.’ He preached to me just a few nights ago during a late night chat.

I dropped my gaze just in time to see his large, caramel coated hand jetting out toward me “I’m Benny by the way.”

My eyes held their stare on his hand for what seemed like several minutes before I sucked in a gust of uncertainty and stuck my hand out to firmly grip his.

He graced my eyes with that smile again and it took everything in me to tear my gaze away from his lips “You live here?”

I nodded and licked my lips, imagining just how pale and dry they probably looked right now due to my jittery nerves.

“Well I’m down at Rooker Hall if you by chance… ever need anything or something, uh… what’s ya name?”

Blinking a few times, I shook my head slowly in complete disbelief that I was so transfixed by this guy’s presence, his voice, his eyes… his entire existence, that I suddenly forgot my own name.

“Sy’Diyah… her name is Sy’Diyah. And I’m Destani, her roommate.” Destani quickly intervened and eased around me to stick her hand out to shake Benny’s, saving me from further embarrassment.

Benny chuckled and Destani smiled and leaned back, wrapping her left arm around the back of my neck and leaning against me “Don’t mind her, I think she’s just… really tired and kind of out of it.”

“Nah, nah… I completely understand. I think everybody in this building is prolly exhausted as hell right about now…” He paused briefly and peered behind Destani, quickly motioning for whoever he was looking at to come forward, “I want ya’ll to meet my boy Taylor… come ‘ere man.” I glanced to my right just as a chocolate toned guy with braids waltzed past Destani and stopped just beside Benny, slapping hands with him as a friendly greeting.

“Wassup my nig…” He stopped mid-sentence and blatantly eyed Destani and I, swiping his tongue out over his lips with a smirk as he did so before turning back to face Benny, “I see you my nigga. Catching the flyest honeys on the first day dawg.”

He slapped hands with Benny once more and I glanced over at Destani with a discreet grimace only to see her smirking and openly gawking at this Taylor guy.

“Nigga ain’t nobody catching nothing. I just bumped into her,” He explained, pointing a finger at me, “And I was just introducing myself to her and her roommate, Destani.” “Oh, so ya’ll are roommates, huh? Well my name is Tay or T-Low… don’t nobody call me that Taylor shit,” He chucked, cutting his eyes over at Benny, “But anyway ya’ll residing here?”

“Yeah, we’re on the second floor actually.” Destani said and it only took a few seconds for me to realize that she’d switched on her charm and boy did she turn it on full force. I scoffed through my nose… the girl was such a character sometimes.

“Well uh… I don’t know if my boy told ya’ll or not, but we over at Rooker Hall if ya’ll ever wanna… chill or what not.” I wanted so badly to tell him that we could never chill or what not because I had a boyfriend and so did Destani, and even though that part would be a tad stretch of the truth, I would claim it any day just to get this guy to lay off. I couldn’t lie, the boy was cute… him and Benny both, but just looking at the both of them made me feel so culpable and the Charlie Brown pendant dangling against my chest wasn’t really helping me feel any better.

“Okay, well as soon as we figure out where that is… we can definitely chill whenever.” Destani said in the most alluring tone, making me sick to my stomach. Taylor laughed, along with Benny, and reached back into the pocket of his jeans to pull out his phone.

“It’s like, right down the sidewalk from here. This dorm, Rooker Hall, and the other two beside ours are all basically connected without actually touching… if you know what I mean. But just in case you can’t find it, why don’t we exchange numbers.” He suggested smoothly, handing his phone off to Destani and waiting for her to give him hers.

“I actually left my phone up in my room. Why don’t you two come up so I can get it and we can exchange there.”

Panic hit me like a ton of bricks as I stared astonishingly at Destani… was she seriously inviting these two strangers up to our room just to exchange phone numbers? What was wrong with her just giving Taylor her number, him calling her phone, and her saving his number? I swear the girl was just on a mission to ruin my nerves. If we were going to get through this year as smoothly as possible, this would definitely be on the list of topics to discuss with her and it’d be on the top of my list of things not to do to make our experience as roommates much easier… DO NOT BRING RANDOM PEOPLE IN THE ROOM WITHOUT ROOMMATES CONSENT! Until I could get around to informing her of this issue, I’d just have to make my way up to our room with both Taylor and Benny in tow.

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wholetmewrite · 6 years

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high school tech crew!monsta x: spotlight technician!hyunwoo

the one who’s been doing theatre tech since freshmen year

is also the one who convinced everyone else to join too

has been offered more leader-like positions just bc of his commanding presence and stature but like

poor dude gets shy

so he leaves it to stage manager!minhyuk and assistant stage manager!kihyun

technically hyunwoo could be a good stage hand too like hoseok

but like just imagine this:

sweaty hyunwoo in just a tank top bc it gets hot as hell on the catwalk

moving the heavy ass spotlight around like it’s no biggie

...nut

doesn’t really talk much

kinda just grunts into his headset whenever minhyuk or kihyun check in with him

was originally supposed to be a stage hand w/ hoseok but he heard you were joining tech as a spotlight technician

you two have homeroom together, and actually have had homeroom together every year

in your first year you were sat across the room from him and he thought you were the cutest thing he’s ever laid his eyes upon

you thought he was hot as fuck tbh but also kinda thought he was out of your league so you just paid more attention to your friends

but like every day you guys would make eye contact and maybe share a small smile or roll your eyes together at some point during announcements

in your second year of having homeroom together you got sat next to him and you started calling him homeroom buddy in your head

sometimes you would chat a little about school or the weather but the conversation never really went anywhere bc your friends always somehow managed to steal your attention away

and oh wow would you look at that suddenly hyunwoo is ALSO a spot what a coincidence !!!

bless this poor man tho he has absolutely no idea how to like,,, actually talk to you

you sometimes think he doesn’t really like you bc he doesn’t talk to you that much

tbh sometimes it seems like he doesn’t like anyone really

but then you see him do the smallest favors for his friends

like helping sound technician!hyungwon move the soundboard from the booth onto his lil table in the back of the house because that shit’s too heavy for only one person to move it

getting minhyuk’s favorite snack from the vending machine for him because he’s getting frustrated

helping stage hand!hoseok move some set pieces into their designated spikes for the first scene before he has to go up to the catwalk

it’s actually the least he could do for hoseok after ditching him for you but you dont need to know that

turning the projector on for projections technician!changkyun because he’s taller and changkyun's too lazy to leave the booth

letting assistant stage manager!kihyun and mic crew/stage hand!jooheon rest their heads on his shoulders during rehearsal notes even though he doesn’t really like skinship because these poor babies are tired and lowkey on the verge of stress tears

and OUCH that’s your heart!!!

who knew he’d be such a gentle giant bc maaaan you really didn’t

you really got to know a different side of hyunwoo which just made your crush on him so much harder to ignore

you’d start talking to him about tech and the production during homeroom and you guys would get so invested in it that your friends started noticing you talking to your cute seatmate and leave you two be

they did interrogate you about it during lunch and you would flush but didnt wanna say anything in case he or his friends were nearby

granted you weren’t extremely shy or anything but you were definitely afraid of rejection so you never talked about your feelings in public

you’d always brush off your friends and it didn’t seem like a big deal to you but yo

hyunwoo’s friends are all up on it tryna figure out if his crush likes him back or not!!!

but you’re so! fucking! secretive!!!!

they literally report back to him all frustrated n shit and he’s just sitting there like ???? bc he didn’t even ask them to find anything out they’re literally just like doing this on their own

but how can they not when hyunwoo has literally never had a crush on anyone??

he won’t even admit that it’s a crush tbh bc feelings are confusing and a lil scary he just knows he cares about you in a different way than he does his friends

and he’s also a lil,,,, protective over you?

like minhyuk or hoseok will jokingly ask if you’re single or what are the odds that they you’ll say yes if they ask you out and he just gets this dark aura and his knuckles turn white and he sends them a glare so icy that minhyuk almost cries on the spot and hoseok literally sees his life flash before his eyes and they literally have to tell him they’re joking

and he’s just like

my b

and hyungwon’s just watching all this in silence but before he leaves for class he’s like bro,,, u better step tf up before someone else snatches them away

and hyunwoo kinda sits there expressionless but inside he knows that hyungwon wouldn’t say anything unless it’s true

so he starts doing random acts of kindness for u bc actions speak louder than words and he’s shit at words

like when tech week comes around he starts bringing you trolli eggs for you to snack on at the catwalk bc he saw you eating them in homeroom a few times

and you’re like :o ! thank u!

and he’s like no problem and gives u a smol smile

u just kinda stand there like :o my heart. it’s. going to. bu r s t.

and he’ll save you a seat at dinner but is too shy to actually let you know about that but it’s cool! his bois got him! they call you over for him!

and you’re like :D thanks guys! & even tho there are a few other empty seats around the other boys u kinda automatically go next to hyunwoo and his heart starts accelerating

and then u accidentally call him homeroom buddy out loud instead of keeping it in your head and all his friends start screaming and cooing and you two are just sitting there blushing

and sometimes you get so stressed between scenes that u kinda just tear up a lil but then u hear a lil crinkling and hyunwoo’s got a travel pack of tissues and furrowed brows and ur like omg??

and hyunwoo kinda flushes and is like jooheon cries a lot i just carry these so he doesnt get snot on his or anyone else’s clothes

u honestly might actually combust at this point but that would be embarrassing and a bit inappropriate in this very moment

so u just say thanks and take the tissues but ur hands brush and hyunwoo almost drops the tissues and ur hand is on FIRE

and you’re thinking about all these small things that he’s doing for you and u kinda gush to ur friends in ur lil group chat and they’re just like

KISS HIM

KEEP HIM

CHERISH HIM

but you can’t tell if he actually does like you bc he goes out of his way for his other friends as well

which you express to your friends

the same friends who are secretly in cahoots with hyunwoo’s friends bc honestly everyone except you two can tell you're in love

and his friends pull him aside in the theater lobby during a rehearsal break and they’re like dude you needa confess you’re too kind to everyone and they can’t tell that you like them

and the color kinda just drains from his face bc

hyunwoo??? has to use his words???

and he’s like ,,,noah fence but i would rather be stage manager for the rest of my life than tell y/n i have an embarrassingly unrequited crush on them

and he hears a lil gasp behind him

GUESS WHO’S THERE

YOU

all of his friends are s h O o K and hyunwoo whips around like o FUCK

and you’re just like ,,,can i talk to hyunwoo alone for a sec and his friends literally RUN off (but not too far bc they wanna hear)

and hyunwoo’s just like sweating and avoiding your eyes and he’s like

“i’m sorry. i’m really not good with words and i- um- well clearly i just said kind of a harsh thing that i didn’t mean but you’re just- ugh- you’re really cute and-”

and your heart is swelling and without thinking one hand takes his and the other gently grasps his chin to make him look at you

and he stops talking and finally looks at you and you just have this smile on your face and you’re like

“that’s funny, bc i’ve had this huge crush on my incredibly hot and kind homeroom and spot buddy and i thought he would never like me back bc he’s way out of my league”

and he just gives you this look that’s like are you fucking kidding me bc if anyone’s out of anyone’s league, it’s you who’s out of his

and you’re like i’m serious!! and start going off about all the things you’ve noticed and he’s blushing like crazy bc his crush!! notices him!!! and you notice he’s blushing and you realize you needa shut up but you can’t stop so you kinda give him a look like pls help me stop talking

and he does

with his lips

bc we all know he can’t use his words

#this was long overdue and has been sitting in my drafts for months #enjoy the pain #shownu #son hyunwoo #monsta x #monsta x headcanons #monsta x scenario #monsta x imagines #monsta x scenarios #technical theatre au #technical crew au #my writing #shownu scenarios #shownu imagine

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baby-n-boo · 4 years

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Hehe The Order (Netflix) agere bullet fic, just cuz i cqn

Hamish, Lilith and Randall force Jack into getting claimed by Silverback like in canon, but turns out that being new to the claim... Is like being a new wolf pup in a pack. Jack smells just like a pup, instead of the powerful, age old wolf he's been claimed by Because Silverback has been in hibernation for years, he sort of takes a while to settle into his new champion too, so Jack does start acting a bit like the new cub too. So, accidentally, pack instinct kicks in slowly, and they all start protecting him a little more AU where Lilith always knew she knew magic but never talked about it, cause the wolves looked down on it, and she couldn't afford to get kicked out again (and where her, vera and Alyssa are all fine, Gabby doesn't become midnight and Kyle is still alive) It gets to the point where Randall is lending out his clothes to Jack, not just so he's not nude, but so he has some element of control Obviously stress means he slips at points that aren't helpful, so he's usually accompanied everywhere by at least one of the pack, who have things in their bag for just an event. Hamish is most common, cause he makes everyone around him look sloppy anyway so people are less likely to notice Jacks behaviour... Also cause he loves his little one. Remember that part where they're feeding jack the potion so he doesn't die cause silverback ks tryna yeet outta there, and they're all like "sippy time" and "yum yum" and that stuff? Yeah. He slipped further than ever before cause of all the drama and he can't get back up again, so they have to look after him. The potion was a bottle of formula, and he was putting up a token resistance though all he wanted was to be held and fussed over. Jack never got a room in the house, cause he had a dorm room. But in this version, he has a nursery, decked out to his every need and/or whim (thanks to that sigil thing that Lilith uses to get the stuff for him though Hamish disapproves) None of the others know what's going on or why, but they presume its something to do with the fact Jacks mind wasn't open to the idea cause he didn't get the choice to be claimed. They make sure to give him a decision in everything now, even when he's little, because it's so important Hamish does have to move his bar to the baby gated kitchen though, and eventually to an empty office/study, cause uncle Randall kept conveniently forgetting that babies can't have alcohol in their sippies Shocker, Randall can cook. Hamish cant, though they assume that's cause he drinks the cooking wine and gets distracted. Even more of a shocker, Lilith can cook. She doesn't let her little bro eat mac n cheese or dino nuggets all the time, though she did once make them from scratch, which prompted a two day tantrum when Jack was told no more. (Alyssa's timeout sure put an end to that) They may be sfw caregivers, but Hamish and Alyssa aren't ashamed or afraid to give their little pup a swift spanking if he's earned it, especially toward the end of the season. They know his limits, he has a safe word, and they've never hurt him yet, but they cant afford to be bleeding hearts. Randall falls for the puppy dog eyes everytime without fail. Jack wears pullups to start with, because nobody can argue, he's getting a bit incontinent with all his passing out. Eventually he graduates fulltime to diapers, and its always a short straw as to who has to clean up. Lilith always vouches that Alyssa, as the only one of them without a heightened sense of smell, should do it, but it's amazing how many times Lilith seems to miraculously draw the short straw after that. One would almost say its magic . Baby jack does not like real magic. A bit cause the sound hurts his head, but mostly cause its icky, and too much thinking. Give him a good old fashioned card trick anyday, he'll be giggling and playing with rogue cards in no time. Wolves are strong, and Alyssa has a sneaky enhanced strength charm, so anyone and everyone in that house can lift Jack, for diaper checks, or surprise hugs, or to stop him trying to crawl down the stairs after climbing out of his crib again. Everytime it makes him blush, even when big There's one surefire way to keep Jack smol (or get him there), and that is to be picked up and cradled. Doesn't matter where it is, or what else is going on. You pick him up, and cradle him to your chest, especially absentmindedly, or whilst rocking from foot to foot, you'll have a tiny baby Jack on your hands in no time Hamish is the best at that kind of regression for Jack. He likes to get involved in Serious Conversations With Important People About Important Things (mostly with Alyssa about real magic, cause he knows Jack won't listen), and then just suddenly smile, picking Jack up from where he's come near, cradling him, and pushing a pacifier into his mouth whilst nodding seriously. Bonus points if he whispers "Hi there little one/baby/my little wolf pup" in that accent of his. Nap time is a strange calm affair. One can just turn to him, usually the more parental types, and say "Awe, does my puppy need some sleepies/nappy time?" And he'll melt into that crib, happy to do as you ask. The sibling types have a harder time but not by much, they'll usually slip and be like "come on, wolf-dad said nap time. Ill tuck you in." And that's that Hamish loves and hates being called wolf-dad. It was Randall's fault first When the temple magus came around, they all tried to hide it, but she quickly found one of jack's deco-pacis and threatened to give everyone one until they owned up as to whos it was. Lilith and Randall challenged her on that and tried to call her bluff. They were quickly silenced and sentenced to sit on their miraculously padded, exposed butts in timeout for that. Hamish, however, saw sense, and asked Jack if it was okay to share the secret, to which, the already stressed boy simply broke down into tears, falling into headspace immediately. For the rest of that afternoon, they had two fussy babies, and a very quiet, reserved toddler to deal with. Hamish asked Vera about the spell, and she waved him off like "It's only a temporary regressive effect. They're still fully awake jn there, just...without their usual bodily control." And laughs, watching happily as Lilith tries to stand to fight the spell and ends up falling onto her padded butt again, in a cloud of pink lace from her socks and dress, paired with squeaks from her maryjanes Randall was luckier cause he didn't cuss her out when calling her bluff, so he got snappy overalls and a puppy print shirt, though still about as much control as Lilith. Jack refuses to come back out of his regressive state for about a week after that, not even crying for attention through the baby monitors, just waiting for someone to come get him, until one day they find him whispering a story line to himself whilst wheeling some cars back and forth on the floor of the front room. The older siblings rue the afternoon they spent in baby jack's shoes, and try their hardest to be there for him, anticipating his every need They also admonish Hamish for being so patronising to them whilst they were like that, since he took particular joy in offering them bottles of formula, and giving them "age appropriate" toys to play with, but he shrugs it off, going to get another drink Randall finds a onesie that'll fit their little pup, that says "Daddy's drinking buddy" and gets it edited to say "Everyone's drinking buddy", and Hamish instantly loves it Sometimes they sit Jack on the bar when they're drinking, and he'll raise his sippy in toast like everyone else, not quite getting it Turns out, after about a year or so, he actually lost the new cub thing a while back, having learned to control silverback and everything, but he just enjoyed being looked after so much that he let it carry on Lilith and Alyssa are betrayed for a while, but eventually come to their senses, realizing all Jack wanted was a family, as ragtag and weird as it is, and they come back with even more resolve to care for their little wolf pup than before Hamish is quite grandfatherly, he even says he's geriatric, but we cant have Pops as his nickname cause of pete, so...lets say hes..... PawPaw (which matches the wolf thing) or "Mishy" (tundra) Lilith, being the only were-woman, should fall into the motherly role but she's...really not the type. Instead, she's a big sister type. So she's "Sissy" or "Lee" (timber) Randall, however. Maddox exists, so jacks gunna have issues with the brother thing, naturally. So, it's sorta good he's good with being the cool, almost too young uncle. We cant gloss over the gay with Hamish, though ik it's season two..... Its great. We're having it. Nicknames like "Unca 'ndie" or just "Randy" (which is dirty in a way lil jack doesn't get)- (greybeard) Alyssa, on the other hand, is absolutely Mommy. She finds she much prefers Jack when he's playing with his toys on the floor, and babbling behind a pacifier, to when he's trying to be smooth, and its a natural progression from there to her being Mommy (mostly due to some nightmares at nap time and some stern timeouts). Other nicknames include "Liss" or "Ally" if he's trying to hide it in public. It helps him process the loss of Chloe a lot more, and, when they beat Edward, it's a lot easier to turn to Alyssa and regress that way, made even better when his PawPaw can hold him close and make him feel small again. Clay...exists. And knows. He is actually quite cool with it, though he does seem to think Jack's more than a little high. He actually volunteers to babysit when Alyssa's on order business and the rest of them are on Patrol, but Hamish politely turns him down. Clay calls Jack "lil dude" a lot, and also "squirt", which Randall loves cause woo finding Nemo. Vera is a grandmotherly type, the type to just drink all day but loves her baby grandson. She also thinks she has a thing going on with Hamish but Randall is much more important to him, so its never any further than a beard/heteronormativity...plus she has money so can get all of Jack's stuff legit. Lots of incredibles references with JackJack Baby Jack calls the wolves the Paw Patrol, and nobody wants to stop him cause he's so cute about it. Canon divergent at the end. Alyssa takes him to his grandfather's grave, after he dies peacefully in his sleep, and they have a good wholesome conversation, where he ends up slipping at the end, leaving her to hold his hand and help him out of the public area.

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cleocazo · 6 years

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ruth & xander ( lucy i cant do all of those ships in 1 ask ill resend aLL of them to myself )

send me a ship !!

who cries when someone dies in a movie : ruth is too much of a badass btch to cry over smth so small we both know its xander

who wears the ugly holiday garb : its a tradition that they BOTH wear ugly holiday sweaters and that’s how they like it

who pays for the meals : xander always has. even when he didn’t have the money to waste, he always found a way to pay, bc there was no chance in hell he was letting ruth

who slams the oven door and who plays the trombone : xander slams the door and ruth plays the trombone

who brings home stray animals : xander resists the urge, ruth would let their house be overrun with twenty dogs before leaving a single one out in the cold

who leaves the bathroom door open : both of them bc they’re that bad

who tells the ‘dad jokes’ : they’re the only jokes xander knows

who wants kids more : my initial reaction was ruth but now i think abt it. probably xander?? he wants a family, bc he wants to raise kids in a better way than he was raised

who travels more : ruth bc. u know. she’s from england. xander had only been out of the country once and that was when he went to mexico w his momma that one time

who spends more cash : xander’s more frugal, so ruth

who buys the things in infomercials : again. it’s prob ruth, thinking that some weird head scratcher is actually smth they both need in their lives

who draws in the dust on their cars : ruth draws really crude pictures on the back of xander’s car, like squirting penises and boobies. xander leaves a heart on hers. that’s why they Work

who starts the snowball fights : looks at lucy. its your demon child

who throws away the directions to things : xander bc he’s a man who thinks he knows everything

who puts up holiday decor : they do it together like all good couples

who is more likely to forget to bathe : this is yuck but xander ? is a man

who gets more obsessed about things : sigh. xander

who sings in the shower more often : they duet

how they comfort each other when one of them is upset : xander gives the best bear hugs and lets her cry on his shoulder for as long as she wants. ruth gives really good head

who asked first : asked what ?

who says ‘i love you’ more : they’re a gross couple they both say it at minimum 50 times a day

kisses more : xander bc he’s tall and she’s small and he can lay loads of kisses on the top of her head n stuff

hugs more : ruth makes him give her hugs because he has strong arms that she loves to be enveloped in

drinks more : tragically, xander

who’s more outgoing : ruth tbh she’s always been more the get up and go type whereas xander is a ‘im gonna stay in this house until i die’ type

who eats more : xander

who’s more needy : xander

who’s more kinky : ruth is kinky af we know it

who cooks normally? : my boy is a CHEF so him he takes care of his woman

how often do they fight? : they have disagreements, but they don’t tend to actually fight all that much. like. once every six months they’ll have some kinda major falling out, but it’s usually smth they can talk through once they both calm down

what do they do when they’re away from each other? : ruth schedules face time calls and sends him snapchat updates and posts #tbt pictures on instagram. xander masturbates

nicknames for each other? : ruth has been tryna nickname his nickname for yrs and has yet to succeed, so she mostly just calls him ‘babe’ if she’s not trying ‘xand’ again. he’s always called her roo

who is more likely to pay for dinner? : he will not let her pay

who steals the covers at night? : ruth but like i have said before n will say again, he lets her

what would they get each other for gifts? : on birthdays and holidays, they’re mostly goofy gifts that neither has much need for, but both are highly entertained by. the sentimental gifts come randomly, n they’re always like. lil things that reminded them of each other. or a framed picture, if they’ve took a real cute one

who remembers things? : i’d hope they both do

who cusses more? : xander has lots of PG rated cusses because he’s gotten used to censoring himself around the kids. ruth drops f bombs like they’re candy

what would they do if the other one was hurt? : one time ruth slapped xander’s mom bc he was on his death bed n she was mad

who kissed who first?: ruth kissed xander first and it was counted as a true victory

who made the first move? : xander, and it was a bad move

who started the relationship? : it was ultimately up to ruth. he wanted to be with her, and KNEW he wanted to be with her, but it wasn’t until ruth decided that she wanted to be with him that they actually got together

#answered #ship: i just needed you #c: xander solis #opp: ruth pickett #Anonymous

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mrskandiibaby2269 · 7 years

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For Old Times Sake

For Old Time Sake

Pt.1

Damn what’s it been about over 10 years

You look well

Real well and good

Yeah it’s cool if we text

But on a friend level

Because I don’t want upset your wife

And my man on my side

He crazy but it’s all good

And innocent

Yeah that’s what we say now

But what about later on

Our intentions is gonna make the next move

Bored at home no one to talk to

Your voice on the other end

Is still just as smooth I mean damn

I’m not suppose to feeling this way

Feelings from way back when

When we had something

Flashbacks making me hot

Thoughts of what we did in

High school got me melting

And quietly actin a fool

Over this phone I gotta play it cool

Damn boo… I mean dude

Again that smooth voice

Is making me ache

Say what ?

Yeah I remember when I said this

And when you said that

Hell yeah our phone sex convos

Was crazy just thinking bout em

Got me playing with my—

Damn please tell me I didn’t say dat

Out loud I’m sorry if I’m making you

Feel uncomfortable I’ll hang up now

No wait do you still have that sex ache

No I don’t

Stop playing be real do you still have

That sex ache

Yes, ok yeah I do

Close your eyes and image me

Right there

Rub your clit nice and slow

Hold on are we really doing this ?

Yea we are for old times sake tho….

To Be Continued

Damn you sure ain’t making this easy

I’m over here getting wetter by the

Minute

Wait hold up

Am I hearing what I think I’m

Hearing plies talking bout his girl

Who got a pretty pussy

But he put a “Ms.” in front of it

Excuse me sir what are you trying

Do to me

Just tryna make you hot and wet

Like things use to be

We can’t do this this is so wrong

But you know it feels so good

Mmm tell me what you got on

Really, I can’t do this

Come on please tell me what you

Got on

A white tank and some shorts

Take it all off

Nice and slow

Now there goes usher throwback

Playing on the radio

That better not be chris brown

wet the bed

Yeah it’s is and you about to do the

Same thing in a few

Damn I want you so bad

I really do miss you

I miss you and I want you too

Can you feel me spreading you legs

Apart and kissing your thighs

Slowly making my way to your

Pretty Pussy damn you still taste

Sweet as fuck

Can you feel my tongue traveling

All over your lips

Yes I can mmm shit

Keep going baby rub that clit

While I go in circles

Over and over

Kissing and licking and slurping

On your lips

Non stop

How am I doing baby

Mmmm real good

Good go ahead cum in my mouth

Mmmm got me moaning your name

Keep going while I go inside you

Deep deeper and deeper

While

your legs get weaker and weaker

Damn now 2012 by CBreezy

Got me wetter like crazy don’t stop

Don’t worry I’m not

Can you feel me going in and out

Hitting your spot

Looking into your eyes

Kissing you

Mmmm yes yes mmmm Ahhh yes

Tell me you like it baby

I like it baby ohhh I like it

I’m flipping you over

Ride me mommy

I’m going up and down

Grinding my body back and forth

Squeezing my pussy tighter on

Your dick

Damn, that feels so good

don’t stop

Put your hands on my hips

While I bounce you up and down

Harder and harder

And you go

deeper and deeper inside of

You

While I feel your juices sliding

down my

Dick

Mmmm aghhh

Fuck shit

Go faster

While you smack

Yo ass

Mmmmm ooouuu yasss daddy

I like it rough

Flip you over on your knees

Put that arch in your back

While I hit it hard

Rough and deep

Smack my ass and repeat

Soon as we get started

Making love going hard

I hear ….

Trey Songz got the neighbors Knowing his name

Home alone so I can do the same

Me too

Fuck __________

Damn__________

You feel so fucking good

Cum on my dick

Not until I suck it

Push you down on the bed

And take you in my mouth

Whipping my tongue in circles

From the tip down to

the whole meat a lil bob

And spit here

A lil bob and slurp there

Add it all up and I’m going crazy

Bobbing my head up and down

While you pull and tug on my hair

How does it feel daddy?

It feels amazing mommy keep

Going kee– keep going fuck

Shit I’m fucking your throat

As I deep throat you

Yesss shh-shit

Just like that

Fuck fuck

Fuck it let’s

69!!!!!

I’ll suck you nice and deep I’ll lick and kiss that sweet pussy

Till you nut in my mouth Till you cum in mine

Cum on daddy it’s game time I’m ready baby

Shit don’t stop Take this dick

Take this pussy

Damn I miss this pussy Fuck I miss this dick

So fucking good

I’m biting my lip and the pillow

I’m gripping the sheets

While you ride

Now I’m on top

Got your legs in the air

Beating this pussy up

Yes you is

Baby we don’t need no script

For this

Twista and Chris

Got us cutting up and acting out

Like a camera is following our

Every move

I’m not tired yet how about you

Hell no let’s do it baby

Round 2

Pt.2

To be continued

You good

Yea I’m straight boo

What about you

I’m ready to take this action

To the kitchen

Oh forreal bring it on baby

Take me daddy

Put you on the counter

Lay you on your back

As I kiss you and rub you pussy

Mmmm I love how that pussy

Sounds let me get the whip cream

So I can eat you like a snack

Mmmm damn daddy it’s so cold

But it feels good tho

Ha yea I know it’s about to feel

A lot better once I countdown

You gonna get wetter

I’m calling you daddy come And make it rain down on me

See there twista again actin up

Moving yo tongue to rhythm of

The beat

Damn you doing it so smooth

Got me scratching up the marble

Counter top and my toes curling up

My hands palming your head

So you can get all can eat and get

Full like a buffet

Damn daddy you my pussy

Like it some birthday cake

Mmmm aghhh fuck ooouuu

You like that baby ?

Yes ohhh yes I do I mmmm damn

I'ma let my tongue keep traveling

your sweet pussy like a journey

Damn baby you taste so delicious

Mmmm fingering you while

I’m licking your clit

Ohhh shit don’t cha stop or quit

I’m about to squirt mmm ahhh yass

Go ahead do it in my mouth

Mmmm ahhhh oouuu fucckk

Mmmm damn mmm you taste

So fucking good I can eat you

For days

Now let me do you

Flip you over and crawl down

Shake up the whip–

Nah matter of fact

I’m in the mood for ice cream

Take one scoop and put it in

My mouth brace yourself

It’s gonna b cold but whatever you

Do try not to shout

Holla or —fuck it

I scream you scream we all scream

For ice cream

Placing ice cold sugary mouth filled

On you dick

Taking my time stirring up the treat

With my tongue around you dick

Slurping It off like a slurpe

On a hot summer day

Gotdamn!!! Mmm shit ______

Keep going

Yea daddy pull my hair if you got to

I don’t mind if you that

🎶It’s five in the morning And I’m up having phone sex With you🎶

Damn fuck

Ahhhh mmmm

Agggh

Hell yea ________

That’s one of our songs

The sounds of slurping

Sucking licking smacking

My lips and Choking my throat

On dick

Is making you even more harder

Ooouuu shit I love it when you say

Fuck!!! Suck this dick yea take

This dick _____

🎶Woah Lover when you call my Name no other can do that the Same🎶

Yeah yes hmm hmm yasss daddy

That’s it be my motivation

While I pick you up

And bounce you up and down

On my dick

Putting you against the wall

Fuck daddy right there that’s my

Spot mmmm got damn

How it feel baby

So fucking good shit mmm

Ahhhh fuck fuck

Damn daddy

Pt.3

🎶You should stay over the night with me one night stand all I need Just you and me 🎶

Aghhh shit you got my pussy

So wet it’s soaking your dick

Hell yea and I love that shit

The word “Damn” and sweet

Moans falls from our lips

As we stare in each other’s eyes

And kiss the electricity between

Our bodies

I mean the mutual

Sensual seduction , Lust and

Infatuation got me

Scratchin’ up your back

And you

Gripping my thighs and stroking

Me harder and deeper

And I got your eyes rolling to back

Of your head and vice versa

Doing the same thing

Shit

Mmm yea baby

Oooh damn

Are you tired ? Had enough

Ha not even close

Oh ok let’s make our way to the

Shower

You read my mind

Let’s slow it down a little this time

Just slow grind on my dick

While you lift me up

And put you against the wall

Hitting your walls

Going rough and deep

Inside of me While the water is glides down

And hits our bodies

I’m Kissing you on your neck

I’m Kissing you on your tits

Mmmm shit

That feel good baby

Hell yes sending chills up my spine

Ooouu yasss daddy do it

Take your time

Damn this feel so damn good

This pussy is amazing

This dick is insane

Bending you over

My hands on the walls

I slide in slow and deep

I gasp for air and play with my tits

While I shed a tear and weep

Damn so fuckin good making me

Cry

Mmmm ahhhh shit

Fuck yea throw it back just like

That mmmh hmmm

Got me biting my lips

Smacking yo ass so hard

Ouiuu i think you left a hand print

But I love it daddy

I know you baby

🎶No teasing you been waiting long enough go deep. I'ma throw at cha can’t catch it. Don’t hold back you know I like it rough🎶

So let’s take it to the bedroom

Lay you down on the bed

And take a lustful look at you

Playing with yourself

I’m jacking off watching you

Mmmmm ahhh shit

Go deeper finger yourself deeper

Ima go faster

And rub that clit till your squirt

Ahhhh shit damn daddy

Giving you the signal to come here

I want some more of Daddy dick

Ohh shit here he come baby

I’m right here

🎶we ain’t gonna stop till 9am if you can’t take it all, baby say when make you cum over and over again and Ima leave it in when we do it all night🎶

Are you sure you not tired fuck that

Let’s go

How you want it baby fast or slow

It feel so good daddy I want both

But for right now tho

Speed it up do it faster.. faster and

Faster ahhhh mmm shit!!!

You like that baby?

I love it daddy I love it

Mmmm damn you got some

Good pussy

And you got some good dick

Flip you over and ride you for

A minute

Ohhhh shit!!!! Got damn________

Yeah daddy wassup

Talk that shit talk dirty to me daddy

Take this dick bitch take it

Fuckin take this pussy nicca fuccck

We go back and forth

Tumbling on top of each other

Me on the bottom

You on top

You the bottom

Me on top

🎶Cause we having sex on the ceiling take me higher, taker me higher me boy. Switch it up one time 180• drive me crazy me Baby🎶

Damn daddy the mirrors on

the ceiling got me feeling

Myself got me feeling sexy

Like a model and a pornstar

Got me showing off for the camera

Mmmmm shit I love this

Gotdamn don’t stop

🎶It ain’t my first time but baby girl we can pretend hey let’s bump and grind and girl tonight we’ll never end let me take you down🎶

Damn

Shit

Fuck

Ahhhh ahhh mmm

Ahhh fuck

This has been one hell of a show

Both of us getting ready to each

Our climax the grand grande finale

You pull your body closer to me

Kissing and touching

Gripping the sheets

Headboard banging against the

wall

Sweet wetness from my pussy

Is about to fall down on you

Damn I’m about to nut too

Fuck my pussy is so wet

Like a typhoon

My mouth is open wide

To catch it all

Let’s do one last 69

So I can swallow of your nut

And you can lick my wetness

We’ll clean each other up

And enjoy the bliss of this

Awesome moment

Damn what just happened

Idk but I enjoyed it

I got to go tho I’ll call you

Tomorrow

Received a text on my phone

“We gotta do it again tonight text me when you can miss you already ”

While I’m laying down in my bed with a smirk on my face like damn…

What now what I should do

Well I guess it’s another

To be continued….

MrsKandiiBaby💋🍭👅💦😏😘😜

#foroldtimessake

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Celebrity Cherub

A spin-off of an AU?!

Seven billion people and not enough cherubs.

The Cupid sat patiently, watching the clock tick as their latest appointment woke up. The Cupid had been working in this neighborhood for almost three months and finally their planning and waiting was about to pay off. They slipped the kids phone between the couch cushions, putting a sigil for it to pop back out in about twelve minutes; then to the kitchen to open the blinds and draw another sigil. The symbol glowed in the air for a moment before moving towards the house next door and fading.

A noise upstairs. They're awake. The Cupid leaned against the kitchen counter and waited.

Down the stairs came a disheveled and sleepy looking adult. Not a child, but just on the cusp of adulthood and already waiting to die.

The Cupid waited.

Isabel Rodriguez, 22, was looking for their phone. They began pacing up and down until a noise outside forced them to stop. Peeking out the window, they saw their neighbors, a young couple, walking their two year old outside and playing in the garden. One of the mothers noticed Isabel and waved.

C'mon Isabel.

But she closed the blinds and ran into the living room. They clutched onto one of the pillows and buried their face into it.

Eight more minutes. The Cupid phased through the door and drew another symbol.

A moment later a man with a package arrived and knocked on the door. Between him leaving and opening the door the Cupid moved the package towards the edge of the steps. When they opened the door, they had to step out into the sunlight to grab their order, and that’s when the symbol on the door began to glow.

It’s nice outside for once. Cool enough for a walk.

This was the tricky part. Nothing but suggestions and moving things around, but at the end of the day a cherub couldn’t actually force a human to do anything. If things didn’t develop naturally enough then it wouldn’t follow through. She knew from experience.

It looked like it wasn’t enough. Isabel shook their head and went back inside. Putting the package down, they went back into the kitchen to get something to eat. The Cupid had a sudden idea and dashed passed them and covered the microwave clock.

Isabel stared into the fridge, plenty of food but all of it took more effort than they could spare, before closing it.

There’s a Dairy Queen just a block away. You have money and it’s quick. No one you know is there.

Isabel sat on the kitchen floor for a while, staring at nothing, but eventually hunger won out. They found some pants and some shoes, grabbing their keys and marched out the door.

Three more minutes

There’s more trees, and more shade, if you go left. Highway and noisy cars and probably people if you go right.

Isabel went left.

For the first time in almost two months, Isabel felt the sun on their face. They got to see the sun filtered through the leaves and breath fresh air. When they put on their headphones the Cupid used a little magic to mess with the shuffle of their music. Chances of them skipping until they found whatever music they wanted was high, but it didn’t hurt to at least try. And they needed to wait a few more minutes.

Isabel stopped. Between them and the Dairy Queen was a school, and they hadn’t noticed that it was around time for school to be let out. They clutched their mp3 and made a sharp turn around. The Cupid yanked one of the ear buds out.

At that moment Isabel saw three kids by a sewer grate, one of them on the ground and leaning dangerous far into it.

“What the hell you doing?!” they ran and pulled them out just as they were about to fall. “What were you thinking, kid? You coulda gotten hurt.”

The little girl wrenched out of their grip, rubbing their arm and looking away. None of her friends would look at them either.

“Well?” then they heard it. A soft, pitiful sounding mewing coming from the sewer drain. Isabel crouched down and saw a kitten in there.

“Oh…”

The girl - Masami, twelve- sniffed. “We, we just wanna help it is all.”

Isabel sat there frozen, guilt settling in their stomach. They felt like they were gonna throw up, they just grabbed a kid, a stranger who was just trying to do a good thing. They felt gross, they probably looked gross, oh god why did they leave their house this was such a bad idea--

The Cupid stroked their head. It’s ok, you still tried to help. That’s a good thing.

One of the kids -Kiri, nine- sat down next to Isabel and rubbed their back. “Hey, ‘s’okay, you didn’t know. Mimi’s just embarrassed, that’s all.”

Isabel gave her a shaky smile. And they actually started to talk. The kids had seen the kitty this morning and were planning on sharing it. They’d take turns taking care of it and it’d go to each of their houses. Isabel told them that if it’s still there it might be for a reason and had them move a little ways away from the sewer drain. Sure enough, they watched a grey tabby dart out of a bush and slink into it.

“That must be its mother,” Isabel said.

The kids visibly deflated.

Isabel rubbed the back of their neck. “Look, um, y’know...I live just a block away from here and, uhm...what I’m tryna say is I had a cat for a while.”

Mimi looked up at them suspiciously. “Whatdya mean ‘for a while’?”

“Well they’re dead ya lil’ punk.”

Kiri and their other friend (Shauna, twelve) giggled.

“Look, what I’m tryna get at is that we still got his old dish and some food. I’m not using it anymore, so…” they shrugged. “How about you guys look after ‘em? Make sure they get clean water and food twice a day an’ all that.”

All three of their eyes went as wide as saucers.

“You’d really do that?” Kiri asked.

“What’s the catch?” Mimi asked.

“The catch is that you gotta promise not ‘ta try an’ pet them again. They’re wild cats, and you could get sick if they scratched or bit you.” They tapped their chin before adding, “And you have to do it every day. Like I said, they’re wild and don’t understand things like kids getting bored.”

“What, cats don’t get bored?” Mimi scoffed.

Oh please pull their cheeks.

But Isabel showed more restraint and only glared at her. “If you decide to feed them, they’ll be dependent on you for food. If you get bored and stop, they won’t understand why. And they could get aggressive with you.”

That quieted them down a bit. Shauna, who hadn’t taken her eyes off of Isabel since they started speaking, nodded seriously.

“I’ll do it. Will you be here to give us the food.”

“Is that ok?”

She nodded again.

“Well, ok then. Be right back.”

Isabel dashed with more energy than they expected back to their place, frantically searching for Salazar’s old water and food dish, and thank god it was on top of the food bag, so they’ll just grab that, and oh maybe they’ll want some books on cats maybe they should grab some of their old books--?

“Where you going with all that stuff?”

Isabel looked up. They were desperately trying to balance all the stuff on their knee and arms while trying to also lock the front door and happened to grab their neighbor’s attention.

“Um, some kids are taking care of a, uh uh uhm...they found a cat.” they looked down.

She clapped her hands together. “Oh that’s so wonderful! Did they just get them.”

“It’s a stray.”

“Oh, well-”

“I”m sorry I gotta go.”

“O-oh, ok then we--”

Isabel dashed off, their face burning and wanting to cry. They couldn’t believe how rude they were what even was that? They were just being polite and they brushed them off like an awful person.

They slowed down and took a deep breath. They didn’t want the kids to see them upset. The Cupid touched their shoulder in sympathy.

You care so much about other people and their feelings. It’s an admirable quality and nothing to be ashamed of.

To their relief, the kids were still there.

By the time they’d set up food and clean water in the dishes, the kids parents were there to pick them up. Isabel introduced themselves and explained the situation, giving the parents their address and phone number. All the kids, even Mimi, waved goodbye to them.

“Well,” Isabel muttered. “Guess I have to get up early now.”

Success.

Over the next few weeks, Isabel got up at 7:30 every morning and every afternoon to feed the cats and chat with the trio. They told Isabel all about their classes, Shauna asked them all sorts of questions about Salazar and what being a grownup was like, Mimi talked all about their AP classes and showed off her magic kit, and Kiri devoured every book like a starving man. Isabel never particularly cared for kids, but they remembered how quiet and alone they were as a kid. And it didn’t matter to them if they wanted to talk to them about moss or dung beetles or whatever, they were going to be involved and make them feel good about their interests dammit.

After seeing them off in the morning, Isabel got into the habit of walking around the neighborhood. It was cooler in the morning, and a lot less people.

Two days after they first started meeting with the kids, Isabel wrote an apology letter and put it in their neighbor’s mail slot. It didn’t excuse their rudeness, but it felt right. The very next day They got a letter asking if they’d like to join them for dinner. Isabel never turned down free food, even if it came from an anxiety prone place.

After that, Isabel started getting work. The kids absolutely adored them, and eventually the parents did too. They asked them to watch the kids, and the neighbors asked them to house sit on occasion. They learned how to watch babies too, and how to cook, which Isabel grew to love.

The Cupid flipped through their book to check on the kids. Mimi was getting validation for her magic tricks; Shauna felt responsible for something, and this maturity was opening doors with her parents; Kiri had found a surrogate sibling in Isabel. That influence and kindness was going to go far.

The Cupid’s mouth twitched. It wasn’t a lot, and it wasn’t going to make everything in all of their lives better, but it was a start. Laying the foundation was all they could do for now.

Seven billion people and not enough cherubs.

But that was the beauty of humanity. A small nudge and the right circumstances, and they could do both wondrous and terrible things all on their own. That’s all She could hope for.

The Cupid pocketed their notebook and went to the next on their list.

#writing lines #i'm a wordy mother f**ker who just HAD to set things up before actually #y'know #GETTING TO THE GOOD BIT

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