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sunshine-scented · 1 year

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Hehe Hello hello Can i request Wukong, Macaque and Mk ( platonic on Mk one, because Wanna make Reader being a mother to him )

A goddess Reader that's well Tf so gorgeous so handsome they can cook they can do anything so basically How they Thought and say like " Hm? Oh reader yeah i know him they blablabla " On reader just wanna seee i might love this one

Olso have a great day luv your Work And take a rest and drink a lot of water

- ✨ Yuzex ✨

Cute~ I've definitely heard about these type of concepts before, I'm glad I get to make one of them!

❀ Tell me more, don't be shy ❀

: Them talking about their s/o when asked, voice lines hc!

: Sun Wukong, Macaque, MK(platonic) x reader

: Fluff!!

Sun Wukong

About (Name); showing off

"You've met (Name) already? I mean, that's great and all but I was the first one to meet them so hah! What do you mean that it doesn't matter? Uh, duh? It's (Name)?? The best person you will ever meet in your entire life until you die???? Keep up bud"

About (Name); hidden secret

"Wh...what are you doing touching me like that? Huh? (Name) told you I liked scratches on my fur? Wha— ughhh, I told them to keep it a secrettt...whatever, you're not allowed to touch me, only (Name) is allowed in that, hmph"

About (Name); Adoring

"If there's one thing I absolute adore about (Name) that isn't them existing, it's them in general. No really, I mean it. I love how they make me feel better by just talking to me about the weather, I love how easy it is to be myself with them. I just love them so much you know? It's hard to explain but basically, if they were to disappear in this world, then I would flatten mountains, empty oceans, and flip the world upside down until I get them back into my arms."

About (Name); Facts

"Did you know (Name) liked that color in their shirts? I always see them wear those kind of clothes with that style. Oh! Those birds over there yeah? They think they're cute and often stare at them when they're zoning out. And that one over there? That's their favorite place to eat. Also— MPHH?! Ack- why did you cover my mouth all of the sudden?! Yeesh, have some respect, anyways, did you know that (Name) really liked those kind of shoes—"

Six eared Macaque

About (Name); first impressions

"To be completely honest, I didn't think I'd like them as much as I do now. I thought that they were just some ordinary being not worth my time, yet when they talked to me over and over again, suddenly, I felt rather...lonely whenever they're gone. Heh, how annoying of them♡"

About (Name); soft spots

"...You won't leave me alone until I tell you more about (Name) huh? You're lucky I like talking about them so much. However, if I did try talking about them more we'd be here until I decide to stop holding grudges..Huh? I'm going soft? You seriously just realized?"

About (Name); voice

"(Name) once told me that they found my voice soothing to listen to. I'll admit, it took me by surprise the first time they mentioned it, yet that boldness they showed at that moment was attractive of them. Telling me something I never knew people liked about me? And told by the one person you'd kill a whole nation for? Sends shivers down my spine"

About (Name); Sleep

"Knowing me, I never got a lot of sleep. And even if I did it's probably somewhere about 4 hours and then boom, a nightmare to haunt my life until I die. Twice. As cliche as it sounds, I sleep better when (Name) is with me. Something about their arms sharing their warmth into mine never fails to lull me to sleep. Perhaps it's also the fact that they sometimes hum small melodies or run their hands onto my hair to sooth me from whatever's on my mind. It's now mandatory that they stay with me everytime I'm going to sleep, hopefully they don't mind~"

About (Name); excitement

"Huh?! You know about (Name)?!?! That's so cool! (Name)'s so cool!!!! They're so nice and caring and amazing and caring and nice and caring you know? I want to grow up to be just as nice and caring and amazing and caring and caring and nice as them!"

About (Name); injuries

"Look! I'm a mummy! Hehehe I'm not actually one, it's just that I got into this hugee battle with a demon and the aftermath got me all these scars and bruises. (Name) was not happy, gosh, the look on their face when they wrapped bandages on my body while they gave me a whole hour long lecture was so..*shiver* remind me to take better care of myself please"

About (Name); snacks

"My bag is a little bit heavier than usual, maybe it's because of the multiple snacks (Name) keeps inside it. I mean, I'm not complaining, I like the snacks they give me. But a hero's gotta have agility too you know! How am I gonna heroically jump on buildings and beat demons with a heavy bag of super delicious extremely amazing and over the top golden snacks that (Name) gives me?"

About (Name); Lessons

"I think (Name) saw how stressed I am with this whole hero thing, first it was DBK, then spider queen, LDB and now this Asare Leon guy or whatever his name was. It's like I can't keep anything from them. Yet, they still treated me gently and talked to me about how everything happens for a reason, I'm living this life because I'm strong enough to live it. Honestly, I'm glad they told me this, if it weren't for them, I would have been eaten alive by some stinky demon, ewww"

I'm trying so hard not to make another Nezha fic it's literally mental torture

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lesbioniccommando · 1 month

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Hey guys, just taking a dip over here because twitter doesn't have a 'dislike' button and i don't wanna hop in someone's replies all "come on.. knock it off" to them and I'm taking a break from my game. But this 'girlstink' thing. It's no good. Drop it. It's not appealing. I mean, it clearly is to some people and that's whatever. Live and let live, blablabla. Yeah right. In a time of oppression and hyper scrutinization against gays, against transgender women, against the rest of the rainbow mafia, it is important to not scold and put down and shame and whatever. Something like that. Sure. Uh huh. Of course. Expression and identity and desire and all that, very important. I know. And you shouldn't have to qualify your each and every thought or scattershot post with some little thing just 'cause. BUT. Fucking grow up or whatever. Get a good fetish. Be decent about being indecent. There's nothing even hot about being smelly - about being fetid. Get the fuck outta here with this puppygirl corndog bullshit and pretending it's actually hot to sit in a chair for 28 hours straight without the aid of running water, deodorant, or soap, stacking up trash and dirty dishes next to your monitor. It's about sweat-stricken bodies from exertion, from labor - rivulets and driplets running across a brow, across a bicep, pooling in the shallow of an abdomen, sliding across a back or sticking to the front of a shirt.. out of breath, ragged and heaving, a weary and worn smile - hearts thumping out of chests, overbearing heat radiating across two bodies - or even just a couple of particularly explosive shared glances. "You look like hell. Let me get you a water." Hair frizzed up.. that's good. That's what it's about. But that's not what people mean when they say 'girlstink'. That's what I think. How are you?

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lillysilvermoon · 1 year

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Messages from your guardians

Pile 1

Signs: mentors, spiritual guides, ancestors (old woman), dragons (I heard "dragon soul" but I don't know much about dragons so,,,, takes what resonates), guardian angel, Archangel Raphael, green color, rivers, 1111 (I heard that you should read about this number's meaning and also to pay attention to how you feel when you see this number, it's important because has some kind of message in this and will be different for everyone!).

I feel like some of you has been through some kind of "spiritual awakening", it's like something has happened and now you understood what was necessary and a change of some kind is coming. Wait this is the message of someone: yes you understood and yes the change will happen - well, actually already is lol - and that's your confirmation. Also: there will be a "crisis" of some kind, or happened already, it's to remind you what YOU truly want and what's need to let go, it's kin the way of the Universe test you (I know it's sucks, believe I know......... but, this kind of situation teaches A LOT so me EXTREMELY aware, try to take notes because I swear to you, helps!).

Humm, some of you need to do little adjustments here and there and have a moment of rest, you know when we start our spiritual journey and we read about so many things, we wanna try it all but at some moment just feels like you are stuck? That's it here, it's like you are a vessel and you have been filled more and more and some of this was good but some wasn't and you need some time to "take the trash out", you need to stop and look at all this and see what servers you and what not.

If you are going through some hardships your guardians want you to know that first: you are not alone (please call upon them when you need, I promise they will help. But you need to ask guys😭💗) and you need to have trust to move forward of this situation.

"What you believe it's true becomes true, kid. You are halfway of your goal but you need to be more disciplined and put effort. Commit yourself to what you wants and don't give up." Alright for you all I need to say this: remember the thing about the universe test us? It do this to see if we have learned our lesson, so any dramas that may happen you need to see just as a stepping stone to where you want to be/your goals.

This is now just my own advice: call them, talk to them. It can be ANYTHING. Light a candle, write a letter to them and read out loud, pray, meditation. Can whatever y'all want to be. They are with you and really want to help.

You shall receive good news because abundance is coming at waterfalls to you, give abundantly and you accept with gratitude if you are given (I feel there is people here that just don't know how to accept things, either material or emotional help and your guardian wants you to learn this).

For anyone trying a business: it's gonna be blessed!! Expect thing to work really well because I can tell you: wealth is on its away to you.

Please have more faith in yourself Pile 1, seriously you guardians see you like someone SO capable (king of Wands) you can do it! (Whatever this "it" means to y'all, know that YES U CAN! and I believe in you👽🙌)

Last but not least: When was the last time you heard your feelings? You give them some kind of, you know, attention?..... pretend you are fine, you are strong, a warrior blablabla it's needed sometimes, but if this is your normal it's bad, blocks your heart center and the energy which can make you feel sick and warm you hole body. You need more balance when related to your emotional and self-care. Take more care of your spiritual body. (People who likes crystals: rose quartz it's good for you!)

Pile 2

Signs: green color (pile one had this too lmao maybe y'all need to work on your heart chakra just saying 🤷‍♀️), leo, fire signs and fire placements at your big three (so weird when I receive this things because it's very specific and because I don't even know too much about astrology so I was be like "damn... its really specific" lmao never mind ignore me), aquamarine (loved this because the picture of this Pile is a mermaid🤭🥺), color pink, pisces, 111, 444

Humm okay, first of all your guardians want you to know that some things need to comes to a end because teaches you what was supposed to teach and now it's just time to end, and you don't need to be sad about that because ends also means create space for new things, people, experiences. I feel like this is Love matters, well there is 2 options here: the first one it's all that I said, and the second one is that you are ending this to meet your "special someone" (since there a increase of Twin Flames on earth this time, maybe you are ending this relationship because you gonna meet them soon and you learned the lesson with this person). But for some of you is a friendship. Yeah, it's right, nothing will come of this situation (its literally what the card says), meditation, time out and you know, just be a little contemplative will help you. Surrender to the Divine (whatever The Divine are for you) will help, believe that you will get what you need (I thought this were for the people that are working on there skills but your guardian was like "NO! IT'S NOT!!!!!!) and I came back here and yes it is for you really).

If you are into mantras I recommend "Om Namo Narayani" which basically means I surrender to the Divine.

(I think this is for a really small group: don't let your pride get in your away okay? You need to work in group and balance your needs with the needs of others. Its important and you need to work on this!)

The other message here is that: you are doing SO GREAT at your job/craft. Really, your guardians are proud of you for better your skills and know that you are doing a really good job!

And you need to hear you on thoughts, someone here has been anxious as and your guardian wants you to calm down, repeat to yourself "this thought isn't mine" and start to calm yourself, your guardian wants you to know that you are not alone, but you need to take better care of yourself especially related to your anxiety!

Pile 3

Signs: male guide, trans men (fo explain: someone here reading this are and this is the sign that yes, this is your Pile Hello😙💗), seashells, collect rocks (I don't who you are but you have such a good and fun energy lmao you know this person who just looks like a really good friend and person? It's you), color read, Divine Feminine path (or something related to the topic), life path number 3? (You got FIVE number 3), 666, number 9, pink hearts, Grenade and red jasper (it's more likely you should try to use them, will help you have more energy)

This pile have STRONG feminine energy and also priestess energy (which means that you can be one, become one in the future, was one in some important past life or just have the characteristics of one!)

Okay, some of you has Mother Mary as one of you main guardian (She and Archangel Mary are not the same! I can talk more about this if y'all be interested♡) and I feel a lot of you are working on something new and she wants you to know that: it's worth, this project is important, the world deserves to see the incredible person you are. And also to know that you are entering a knew phase and will bee FULL of good things and blessings, omg I can't calm myself its SO AMAZING really there us so many blessings, so many good moments. Okay I need to calm myself down or things gonna be all messy lol sorry I get really excited with this messages, your faith will be renewed, you are entering a peaceful loving phase, filled with calm energy and personal growth. Your belief that your dreams can manifest are working well, there us a big "yes" coming your away (I'M SO HAPOY FOY YOU, HERE, TAKE MY HUG). Whatever situation this is: is blessed, if you chose this pile probably you are starting all over again in some away, can be on a new/better course or just feeling more positive about archiving your goals.

(Very small group who are feeling stagnant: life goes on cycles and you are going enter a new one now! Likely our friend Pile 3 it's a moment to you to trust in the Divine (again: whatever the Divine is for you). Your guardians want you to trust your feelings and intuition (because logic won't work right now) and speak positively because "your words have power. Say what you want will work, and believe in it" (someone guide said and it's a man).

I need y'all to take care of yourself, your guardians want you to be more in touch with your intuition, your body (dance, yoga and stretching can help) and on do creative things, also try to just go more with the flow, be less controlled (some here are control freaks help) and just... take better care of you, u know?

Oh, I almost forgot: Its time to spread your wings and fly, universe is supporting u right now (your guardians want you to know that because apparently you don't have much physical support so ita important to you to know that). Youe hard work will pay off, I promise you (and for anyone who was wanting to travel: can happen soon)

Pile 4

Signs: aries, pisces, waterfalls, Mexico, ireland, 333, 6666, Angel's, Saint Mary (it's a place in Jamaica).

"You need to take a break" that's what I heard, for some of you I feel like you have to much energy, and you are doing to much things and it's time to get inwards and have some time of to chill, I think you don't like to open up to others because what I'm feeling is that you guided are talking but I just can't understand (like you didn't want help from other person, or that anyone no one knew what going on...) okay I assume its related to your job, or group you live with, looks very...heavy, a sense of hostility and conflicts. Your guardians want you to know that: first isnt your fault! Sencond: try to find common ground and focus on mutual collaboration rather then the competition. You need to focus in maintai you inner peace and don't let the environment you are get the best of you.

For other group here: your guardians always you to take action, to do you best and BE HAPPY (and proud) WITH THAT! (My perfectionist group, maybe?). I think there is something you want and this is a huge YES, but you need determination (and probably a long term plan).

And our last group (but I think this applies to the one before) you need to balance spirituality and practicality (I feel you, same boat here 🤡) WAIT A MINUTE BECAUSE I'M A HOPELESS ROMANTIC SIR, the card says "a new male is coming into your life" nd the other one (the one about balance) SAYS THAT THE PERSON CAN BE A SOULMATE OMG GUYS THE CARDS COMPLEMENTS EACH OTHER THIS IS SO CUTE I CAN'T I'M SORRY-

I couldn't help myself to freak out sorry Pile 4, getting back to what I was saying: Your intuition won't let you down and you need to trust it, and your guardians also wants you to know that you need to take more practical steps and be with your head in the clouds less, they ask you to find balance between your responsibilities and your dreams (maybe you have to work but are trying or want to try your new business, stop dream about it and think "what can I do NOW to make my dream happen?" Or "What step can I do NOW with what I already have to start my business?" Questions like this will help!.

This is coming so strong omg: Your soulmate is coming guys, I mean really appeared 3 times in 2 cards (besides you got The Emperor which can means Divine Masculine depends on the topic. Anyhow just takes what resonates).

COME HERE: When things get hard you have emotional balance? Your guardians want you to work on this, because sometimes the solution is right in front of you but you are to angry, sad or agitated to realize.

I hope this message reaches everyone who needs. Bye bye from me and your guardians 🤣🤭 see y'all soon.

- Lia

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overdicebro · 6 months

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continuing my rant about wanting a mermaid princess

Okay I've thought about making it it's own chapter but then that would mean there will be another Voice so instead I made it another subroute of “The Prisoner”

The thought process and perception of the Princess should be somewhat alluring, seductive, mysterious yada yada yada

That the Protagonist just find her nonchalance and ambiguous answers somewhat attractive. It'll end up with the princess beheading herself and the hero just traumatized to the point where the "can we put it back?" was actually considered. The Skeptic could've also just questioned the entire being of the Princess and perceived that putting it right back didn't seem impossible. So walking right up to the head and trying to salvage(?)😭 it back. She'll be stunned and she'll beat the shit out of you still without her head andddd you die and transition to next chapter.

I don't even know where you'll get siren from that scenario but STILL hear me out. *Perceived her as mysteriously seductive and soothing from the start and downright horrifying the moment after (?)??()?((

Chapter III : The Siren

Voices: Hero, Skeptic, Smitten, maybe even Paranoid

The cabin's interior has changed into a more intimidating, submerged in water similar to the Grey. The blade the mirror everything is still there blablabla. Going down the stairs nearly opaque and almost filed with water it's difficult to even step in it. The Princess has a siren-y voice. Thats it.

She's resting on a stone and the basement is kinda filled with water just enough to hide her tail. She'll have more flowy hair, tattered dress, fins and stuff, and some chains shit. The Princess will have disdain towards you for trying to put her head back instead of helping her get out of the cabin but she's still chill. Basically Specter underwater edition, she's still has her chains but its useless now since the metals been in contact with water it might be easier to break it idk. The scene might play as to how can she even end the world when she literally can't walk rn. Shes more helpless since there isn't enough water to swim her way out of there; crawling her way out won't work in her favor because the tails heavy as fuck. So it's up to you if you're willing to carry her up outside the cabin or just slay her. Idk what happens if you slay her. But choosing to carry her all the way up will just let her be eaten by the hands and turn into a vessel. She'll be an “Enchanting heart” I think

“She who has never found support even in her darkest time still finds herself in a better judgement than those who put her in this the first place”/ Do not mourn her for she now has all the help she needed/ kinda shit

You can choose to leave her behind I think and I think that's where she'll begin to plead and be more desperate. Andd maybe her theme can have her singing?

This shits rough man but it's all I can think off, been here some days on my drafts but welp

#slay the princess #stp #character concept #art #black tabby games

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icantdothistodaybruh · 14 days

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just watched the first episode what the fuck I have so many questions

If you liked the episode pls don't read underline I don't want to ruin your day with my negativity

why the hell ending looks better then the rest of the episode??? I love it and all, they floating in the sky romantically and it's cute blablabla but why here they look decent and the whole ass episode they look like yassified versions of themselves who decided on that😭😭😭😭 the lashes are killing me the most I think I cannot look at them in close ups for the life of me they remind me of a fucking metalic shifer roofs

the opening I don't even want to talk about bro just wtf happend when they were making it. did ten different people with no idea of what kuro is about were pushed in a room and each made a part for a youtube mep? who was supervising stylistic choices?? was they ever even there????

I can tell that money was not the problem, in a sense that nothing about the episode looks cheap, there were no problems with the budget... so where so many poor artistic choices came from? There is nothing dark, gothic, mysterious or victorian left. And looking back at the opening for all I know I could be just watching some fantasy avatar anime with no clear identety. One episode is not much to judge by, but still is it even black butler anymore??

thank you for coming to my ted talk, that's all for now, I'll be crying and rewatching first seasons if you need me

#no tags its just my rant for whomever unlucky enough to see this #at least I have yana's new art to heal me.....

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psychelis-new · 2 years

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pick a pile: "Dark shadow"

take a breathe and choose the photo/number that calls you the most to read about the darkest parts of your mind and soul, and what type of shadow work you may be called to do. -it'll probably be followed by another reading that will give you a different insight on the same subject-

This reading may be triggering for someone.

don’t take the reading too seriously. only take what resonates with you and leave the rest. remember that is a general reading and some things may not resonate with you. Also, you're in charge of your life.

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As in your pic, you may still not feel able to fully live and enjoy. You feel like you're watching life from a window, really not taking part in it or being the real protagonist of your experience. This may have something to do with a past trauma, maybe related to your childhood: e.g. you may have grown up into a difficult and/or emotionally unstable household, in which you had to be (even unknowingly) in charge of your caregivers' emotions, and to avoid bad reactions from them or being harshly judged by them or someone else, you may have even started renouncing to experience some parts of life that you would have loved to. This is making you feel alone and "put aside" even in your friends'/colleagues' circle (if you have). This has nothing to do with you, it's just something you need to understand, deal with and heal. Try to be more open with yourself about your feelings, and also with others: let them know what are the deepest reasons you're declining their invitations (it could be this trauma, it could be you're not feeling good, it could be social anxiety... anything -the situations here may vary, take accordingly-. Just don't be scared to open up and scare others or make them worry. It's okay. Ofc, if you don't feel like being this open with someone you're not comfortable with it's fine too, but at least be it with yourself and work on this, even with a professional if that's the case). There is this need to start looking at your emotions and feelings differently from how you've been (unknowingly as well, maybe) taught to, maybe sit with yourself and check from where this emotions, this avoidance feeling, this fear, has been born from. What is it really scaring you? What are the reasons? And would it be really so dangerous (as your anxiety/trauma/fear wants you to think) to just try to be your life's protagonist for once? Evaluate objectively the pros and cons, and make your decisions. I do think our minds and emotions, when they get the best through overthinking, twist our life experience a lot. So trust me when I say things aren't half as bad and impossible or difficult as they look to you right now. Give it a try, you have no idea how well thing may turn out to be in reality. Give yourself the chance to get out, be you and have fun, you deserve that. Teach your mind and your anxiety, that there's no real danger in that. That you'll be able to survive. You deserve to try, to live fully, to enjoy, dear beautiful sweet soul. You're not your trauma. For some, it may be related to romantic relationships: you may be scared of intimacy or scared to be vulnerable. Sadly, that's what is required to be, to have an healthy and safe relationship. Trust your guts. And also, take your time: you don't have to rush things just because you want to try something and you have the chance and blablabla. Sit with yourself: regrets can be hard to deal with (and you know, seen how many times you may have renounced to things instead of speaking up and ask to try).

songs: diving | art school girlfriend; forward motion | daya

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Pile 2, are you maybe wearing masks? To adapt to the people you're around? I'm getting slightly manipulative energy from you; not with a bad intention ofc, you just want to fit in, feel acknowledged, feel accepted. You probably missed this in your childhood, or had to fight/be perfect to get praise. You probably couldn't always get what you wanted, and may also have a difficult relationship with money (you may have been taught how important they are, that you need to save them and not waste them on unnecessary stuff). Truth is, others cannot say what really is unnecessary for us: when it comes to recognizing our worth and the work we've done, it's okay to give ourselves accolades, no matter if we have to spend a little (I mean, ofc be mindful about how much you're spending - I'm not telling you to go out and use all your money on random stuff; but a small self gift every now and then could simply increase our self confidence and enhance our focus towards our goals. I mean, it makes us feel good, right?). Take time to look inside yourself, look at your fears, end the conflict you feel inside. Some of you may be scared of being known for the person they really are: there may be sides of you that you don't accept or don't like, or even better, that you think others won't accept or like cause they are "socially awkward" (I mean, what is that even? Aren't all we a bit awkward? That's okay, it's what makes us different :)) Anyway, take time to check what are these sides of you about, if they're really that bad (heal/change them, if you need so -for yourself, not for others-), or if they're just okay and only give more character to your person. Start following your heart, your passion, be you, with no fear of sorts. You're given this chance to end this conflict, to end this trial and be free, do you accept it? It's gonna be great, trust me. Find your emotional balance and just end this cycle. Isn't it stressful as heck to keep thinking how to act with each person, and having to check them in fear of judgment before opening your mouth? I mean it can be a useful tool in some occasions (maybe work), but not when you have to deal with your personal life. This doesn't scream "healthy relationship" (especially if you ask for truth to the other party), don't you think? Some of you may have a dark side related to love/romantic relationship/18+ stuff. Maybe use that in a manipulative way. Please, try to understand that that too is not very healthy (it's not a matter of likes and dislikes which ofc it's something between you and your partner, but the manipulative factor I'm talking about) and keep it under check. (Also, this is true the other way round: don't let anyone manipulate you or force you into doing something you don't wanna do cause that's a way that leads to self betrayal and hate: you don't deserve it. Stand your ground, don't let others get the best of you: you're not being unkind or selfish, you're respecting yourself and others need to respect you too).

(there might be a message in pile 3 as well, check it if you feel so)

songs: babydoll | ari abdul; i wanna be yours | sofia karlberg

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You may be feeling like your efforts aren't paying off. No matter how kind and avaiable to others you are, deep down you don't get back what you are giving. It's becoming kinda stressful/unbearable. You don't know what you're doing wrong, cause you're giving all you have and others still not evaluate you the way they should. I think this may have to do with a generational/ancestral trauma, probably on your "females" side of the family (could be simply related to the feminine energy). You've been taught that is good to give, understand others, be nice, be a good person ("good girl" I heard, but take as resonates though), and be respectful of others, to the point of even giving up/neglecting your needs. But something is now coming up inside of you, you need something back, you need acknowledgment (and it's right, you're not asking for too much: you're a human, you need that, as everyone). Probably feedbacks on what you did and an healthy emotional household wasn't really the place you grew up in. This made you insecure, and in need of searching for those outside your family (probably privacy too isn't/wasn't on the list). I think you should stop being so present and avaiable. Doing this, you teach others that no matter what they do, you're gonna be there for them. This ofc from you is an act of extreme kindness but honestly... it shows you're not respecting yourself too much, and so why do they should respect you and give you? Many of them don't give you back or simply use you, because you won't be mad at them for that, because you're letting them do that to you, not just once but maybe even twice or thrice. Why are you doing this to yourself? This is only causing you pain. And adding to your childhood pain. Don't let others do what they want with you, you deserve better, you deserve accolades, you deserve to get back too. Start giving to yourself first. Put yourself first. If they leave, let them: people that use you aren't worthy of being kept in your life. Keep with you only those deserving of your energy, those who give you back, those that understand where you come from and aren't scared of your darkest sides and secrets or fears. Those that appreciate the kindness you have and give. Keep your mind under check: don't let your fears and inner turmoil take over. Give to yourself first, always. So to have energy and strenght to give those deserving too. Keep sharing your light and love ofc, but do it wisely. Don't waste it all on the outside. Even if it seems complicated, and difficult, be true to yourself. Stop giving others the power to hurt you and, first and foremost, stop hurting yourself. You deserve much better, especially from yourself. If you don't wanna do something, say "no" don't be scared of the others' reaction or labelling you as "boring" or something. Be true to yourself. You only have this life, why speding it doing things others want you to do, instead of doing what you really want to do? Check this with yourself, find your road, your path. Be yourself, even if it's hard. It takes time, don't worry if you won't be able to make it right away. But start putting yourself first.

(there might be a message in pile 2 as well - especially towards the end, check it if you feel called to)

songs: sweet virginia | the rolling stones; the end | jpolnd

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Maybe your house is being a bit too claustrophobic right now? Or your town, your nation, your family... There's some pondering about leaving, or at least talking things out, being real, standing your ground, changing your behaviour... not letting others taking advantage of you anymore. You may have realized how much your environment has been toxic only now and probably resentment is still pretty high. You are still in an energy of doubt, uncertainty... I cannot read you properly, you may be just very hurt now. And wondering what is gonna be about you, what to do now. Start breathing. And grounding yourself. Don't let your mind take over, we both know that's not good. It may take you to places that don't even exist. Be present, okay? Don't let your pain and emotions get the best of you. You have the right to feel hurt, to feel angered, and whatever other emotions you're experiencing now. But don't let them change you or get the best of you. Write them down, it can be of help in calming yourself. Write your experience, how you feel, everything. Process those. And remember half of the times, other people in our life aren't really aware of the pain they're inflicting to us: they're just "used" to act in a certain way - it's the generational trauma going on. They learnt a thing from their parents and think that that's good. And may also have inherited some trauma from that, that they do not recognize and therefore haven't acted on. Just because you can see it, it doesn't mean they're willing to inflict that on you. Shadows act so subtly many of us aren't aware of them. Not when we judge others for the fear of being judged, not when we treat poorly those who are younger/in a lower social or working position cause we've been through the same, not when we point out others' flaws (which actually are things we're insecure about in ourselves)... there are so many demons we have to deal with, and we can only learn to live with them embracing them, not scaring them away or avoiding them. Don't let your ghosts scare you nor push them away, talk with them. They may be even more scared than you and that's why some things triggers you so much, or some experiences feel so painful. Let your emotiosn out, don't store them inside or they will just poison you. And you don't deserve this. Ofc you didn't deserve the pain either, but it happened: now you can learn from it and heal, and stop it from going through your family or keep holding resentment to your family for it. It's up to you. Take your time ofc to digest it all, and be patient with yourself and others in the process cause it may be long and hurtful, but then, take action. And do it for yourself, to live better your own life. You can change your life, your story, and maybe your family's view on this matter too. Talk it out, if you feel so. Or at least find your happiness. A new start is there waiting for you. You can also be an example for many others in your same situation, but it's up to you to make a move in the right direction. Be balanced and determined. And even if things now don't look clear, stop holding onto the past. Let it go. Learn the lesson, heal, and go on (it's not that easy, I know). You cannot see what's in store for you yet, but... don't worry, you're gonna be taken good care of. You'll find your own happy family. You will be able to make it once you'll end this cycle of healing. And it's gonna be so abundant and good. Move to make your dreams come true, you're not doomed because of your past and all the pain, at all. See those as blessings to make your life better, from now on. Decide for yourself, be the planner of your life now. And keep being good as you are, the world needs that.

songs: open your eyes | guano apes; never get out | brad sucks

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vanalex · 14 days

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People who say

they're a Type O Negative fan

but hate Peter Steele (!? I know right ?!)

because, .... - wait for it - according to those ignorant fools, he was :

A racist,

B sexist

and C homophobe...

obviously these people aren't Type O Negative fans.

In the latter case they would have heard and understood the lyrics (which they obviously didn't).

Lyrics written by Peter and noone else. (They love the music and lyrics so much and blablabla... the music and lyrics = Peter)

I'm not even going to try to explain to them why they're wrong. There's no reasoning with people with no IQ and no knowledge of Type O Negative, Peter, the 90s and 2000s zeitgeist, etc.

Everyone's entitled to have their own opinion but do not call yourself a Type O Negative fan 'cause you're obviously clueless and not a fan. Maybe you like a few songs, that's it.

Oh, and they voice their opinion in the weekend that marks Peter's 14th memorial... could you be more disrespectful ?!

I strongly believe Josh, Johnny and Kenny would not want those people in the Type O Negative fan scene. They put a bad stain on Peter's remembrance.

Rest in peace gentle giant 🙏🏻💚 You were and are loved by your true fans and your genius in songwriting and music making will always be missed 💚

PS: if you recognize yourself in the above description of being a fake TON fan please remove yourself from my blog and go FY - Thank you very much.

#peter steele #type o negative #peter ratajczyk #fake fans #I have to get this off my chest

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zeglythofficial · 3 months

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Rant incoming because I finally found a place where I can do it without people throwing stones at me.

I'm not here to determine whether or not there are feelings between T and Z mainly because I can't read minds, however I am psychologist and I have a good grasp on human behavior and I do think T provides Z something J doesn't.

I'm not saying J is a bad boyfriend at all, he seems quite lovely but I'm not at all comfortable with how old she was when they met.

R seems to get close to multiple people but correct me if I'm wrong she seems to be more attached to T than to most people I've seen her interact, especially men. That in and on itself doesn't mean anything but it's important to note.

Sure, it may very well be friendship, but whenever T would talk about her in interviews and would compliment her she'd get so awkward and bashful in a way it was cute but almost kind like she didn't know what to do with it. I'm not sure she's used to getting compliments, especially these days because the poor girl can't catch a break.

And yes, yes, we could argue (as I've seem some people do) that it was just for PR and for the movies and blablabla but I don't buy it.

And about J and Z... Not sure how you feel about it, but considering their age gap and some things I've noticed during the whole press release I'm just not sure it's going to last. It may last a few more years, but something about it just feels off to me and it doesn't scream: for the rest of their lives

God I love psychologists lol. I always get along great with them for some reason.

Anyways, I love your rant because I agree with you on everything.

Here’s my own rant lol:

One thing I notice is R always compliments people. It seems to be her love language. Words of reassurance and constantly touching to feel close to people. Especially with men. T would always compliment her whenever he could and she would always get giggly about it. I don’t know if she’s use to receiving compliments but she also met T during a very difficult time in her life. She had a lot of hate coming towards her, talked about wanting cosmetic surgery to change her looks, etc so him complimenting her probably meant the world to her.

And then he defended her publicly which I think made her appreciate him even more. Since then she liked multiple tweets about how he was the only one to defend her publicly and that made me sad for her. It was pretty much a sign that J needed to step up and do the same but he remained silent. She said J was there for her in private but it’s not the same thing as sitting your neck out for someone publicly.

I don’t buy the PR angle either. I’m sure they took it up a notch for the cameras but the constant touching and flirting is not PR.

To me, R and J aren’t going to last (I’m bias though hence the blog lol) but maybe a few more years and that’s it.

#my answers #about r + j #about t

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chaoticevilorange · 2 years

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Haikyuu x reader

Boys reacting to his s/o calling them petnames for the first time (only nekoma's boys)

Kuroo Tetsuro

The first time you called him "love" he could feel his grin spread on his face quickly

He turned towards you with the most sickenly sweet voice ever "yes princess?"

Amongst the various petnames he had given you over the days you can feel your face grow warm

Totally teases you right after

He demands you to call him "love" for the rest of his life

Cheesy dork now calls you "paradise"

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Yaku Morisuke

You needed his attention and a "honey?" escaped your lips

He looked at you with wide eyes, blushing face and the biggest smile you've ever seen

You can almost hear him purring "yes y/n?"

You didn't even noticed you called him that, moments later he holds you from behind his face nuzzling the side of your head

"should I call you honey too or it's a pet name just for me?"

You blush bright red

Local chaotic good calls you "darling" in front of everyone

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Yamamoto Taketora

One of the biggest mysteries of life is how you make it for him to talk to you in first place

The second one was for him to date you

After a couple of weeks you decide to start calling him "babe"

He almost dies, thanks God for this blessing

After a couple of days and reassurance now he calls you "princess"

His first choice was "Goddess" but you declined rather quickly so he scratches that from his list

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Kenma Kozume

He was playing on the couch when you called him several times from the kitchen

Gamer boy didn't noticed until he heard something that wasn't his name

"Kenma, Kenken, Kozume--- Dearest" his head turns to look at you immediately

He is blushing bright red, blinking a couple of times before asking what do you need

"sorry didn't hear you... Beautiful..."

> Kenma has used "pet name"

Critical hit

> Y/n Is out of combat

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Haiba Lev

He was talking really fast

Obviously he was excited to see his 'rival" Hinata again, he was pumped

You tried to slow him down several times

"Lev slow down--- Lev? Darling?"

Stops right there, his eyes brightening

"are we using petnames? Can I call you cupcake? Because you're sweet, but there is a lot of things sweet, maybe honey? No, my grandma calls my sister that 🤔 oh I know! I can call you blablabla"

Good luck trying to stop him again

Decided to call you "muffin"

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Inuoka Sō

Underrated best boy is watching a game on his tablet when you ask him something

He half pays attention to you

Trying again this time you call him "sunshine" and he turns his undivided attention to you smiling brightly

His smile it's like looking directly at the sun

Blinded by a ray of sunshine named Inuoka Sō

He hugs you close calling you "cutie pie"

Thanks for reading!🐨💖✨

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu scenarios #🐨 imagines #hq kuroo #hq kenma #hq yaku #hq yamamoto #hq lev #hq inuoka #hq scenarios #hq fluff #tag your boy

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deerangle3 · 1 year

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OMG CAN YOU CAN YOU please pretty please write headcanons about how you and I and Barou, Shidou and Karasu beat up Igaguri!!! And then we call Saul for legal help

Ich werde eine sketchy fic schrieben statt headcanons weil das hier sich passender anfühlt (3rd person :D)

"Shiiiittt he's all bloody..." Shidou gritted his teeth with a sharp-ish inhale. He licked the blood from his fists. Barou looks down at the beaten and bruised boy. "If he tries anything we just coerce him, right?"

"But you know his playstyle in soccer, faking Fouls... I don't think we'd get away with this so easily. Maybe we should get a lawyer or somthin'" Karasu looks at everyone, stopping at Claire and raising an eyebrow when their expression brightened randomly.

"I know! Hold on-" they desperately search for something in their pocket, eventually finding it, judging by the facial expression.

Barou snatches the little card from their hand. "Saul Goodman? Attorney at law... in legal trouble? call blablabla- this guy looks so sketchy"

"But he's affordable!" "But we're all fairly well off, we don't need to cut corners..." Mao said, giving Claire an 'ehh!!?! ggrhrh!!?!'-look.

"Plus!" Claire raises a finger, eureka-style "i know him! he owes me a favor, we're basically married." a proud look on their face.

"Tch, fine" Barou looks down at Igaguri "What about him tho? do we just leave him here? do we take him somewhere while he's still out cold?"

"We should kill him!" Shidou chimes in, with a happy, lovey-dovey tone.

"Naahh that's just gonna make our situation more complicated." Mao and Claire nod in Agreement to Karasus statement.

"How about, we just go to this Saul-guy, we take Igashitty with us and see what advice he can give us." Mao nudges Igaguris flaccid body with her foot.

"Fiinneee~ who carries him tho?" an eerie smile rests atop Shidous lips.

Barou looks at Shidou "I guess you since you asked."

The situation settles and Shidou ends up carrying Igaguri. The group takes the train to Saul's office, if anyone asked what happened to Igarashi they'd say something along the lines of 'our friend fell down the stairs'.

The six of them sat in the fairly small waiting room, all squashed together in one of the Sofas, Mao on Barous Lap and Claire practically on Karasus. Igaguri Was hanging over the side awkwardly, like a Kadaver or something.

The others in the waiting room were looking at them a bit... weirdly, you could say, but wouldn't dare ask any questions. Not after seeing Barou and Shidou being intimidating as always.

Some weird, bald man with a beard walked out of Sauls office. A suspicious duffle-bag in his hands.

"Send in the next one." Saul poked his head out of the door, before disappearing again. The woman at the front desk nodded. "Alright, next up is... uhhh, you guys!" she points at the group of 6.

They get up, Shidou throwing Igaguri over his shoulder, and enter Saul's office.

"Helloooo you guys!!" Saul greeted them enthusiastically. "Great to see ya again, Claire! Are these your friends?" a wide smile on the attorneys face, until he saw the bloodied Igaguri.

"Likewise! Yeah, so, uhm," she pauses, looking at Igaguri and then back to Saul. "We beat up this piece of shit and now we don't know what to do, since it is a felony, right?"

"Well yeah, beating up someone isn't necessarily very friendly." Karasu chuckled.

"True that!" Saul pauses for a moment "Sooo, did anyone see you guys beat him up? Any cameras?"

"I don't think so." Mao looked at Saul. Then taking a moment to look around the office. A sketchy looking sofa on the side. A bookshelf to it's right, and next to the bookshelf, a pillar. Material unknown, but more pillars in the room, forming a semi-circle. In the midst of this semi-circle was Saul's desk, probably made of Coco Bolo. Two Leather Chairs were infront of this desk, for clients to sit on. Between the pillars were muddy-orange colored walls with writing. Mao started reading the text, getting distracted fast.

"So, what do we do?" Shidou got sick of carrying Igaguri and let him flop onto the floor.

"Make sure he doesn't leave any stains on my pretty carpet." He gave shidou a Stern look. "But, uhm, if he doesn't have any direct proof of you guys beating him up, well besides his bruises and whatnot, it's word against word. Plus it's five against one, so in any case he'd be dumb to try anything."

"But the thing is, he's really dumb." Mao said, emphasizing the 'really'.

"Hmmm... well in that case, I think the best idea right now would be to wait until he does anything. Maybe, I dunno, give him a scare, threaten him a little so he doesn't try anything."

"We were gonna do that anyways." Shidou smiles and Barou nods in agreement.

"Well in that case, I think you're fine. If he does try anything tho, reach out to me right away!! 10% discount if you bring my card!"

"Alrighty, Thanks Ji- uh, Saul." Claire jumped up and hugged Saul with vigor.

"Well be leaving then." Karasu smiles at Saul and then looks to Barou and Shidou, signaling they should carry Igaguri.

"Barou, grab his legs." Shidou spoke, after firmly gripping Igaguris hands. Barou understood the plan and carried Igaguri by his Legs, Together Shidou and Barou carried him out of there while Mao held open the door.

"Byeee! Have a good one!" Claire waved at Saul as they left the office. "You too." the attorney said as they all left.

"Sooo, we just drop him off somewhere and wait?" Mao asked. "Yea pretty much." Karasu replied before looking at Claire. "Whats your relationship with that guy anyways?" he questioned.

"Good question..."

They dropped Igaguri off in a place he was, at least somewhat familiar with. It was surprising he was still unconscious, but oh well.

The five of them went out to eat someplace nice afterwards.

Ende Gelände weil ich sonst nicht weiss was ich schreiben kann/soll

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jagungrebus · 2 years

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Orang mah ya, kalo bukan ibu-ibu dengan bayi kayak kita, mungkin ga paham betapa kita butuh diakui bahwa kita sudah melakukan yang terbaik. Kalau misal hasilnya masih kurang disana-sini, ya memang butuh perbaikan. But once again,

"kita sudah melakukan yang terbaik yang kita bisa."

Yah anak-anak mah banyak persoalan yah. Yang GTM lah, belum bisa ini itu, kurang BB, oh em ji, sungguh anak-anak ini bawa banyak ujian yang harus dipecahkan. Tapi banyaknya persoalan bukan selalu karena kita kurang baik berupaya. Meski ibu-ibu mah ya, persoalan anak pasti udah nyalahin diri sendiri yang kurang ini itu.

Sedih banget dah pas mencoba menghibur diri dengan berkata bahwa diri ini sudah berbuat maksimal, eh terdengar sebuah jawaban

"ya tapi masih blablabla..." Lalu gw nge blank. Pingin nangis, nangis kenceng, sambil meluk teman imajinasi kala muda dulu.

Ya Allah, bisa ga sih ya kalo ada ibu-ibu mencoba menghibur diri diantara kelelahan jiwa raganya itu, mulut diem aja. Tinggal peluk erat, usap-usap kepala kite, terus hibur dengan kalimat surga,

"you did the best that you can, and I know you'll always be...you can do better tomorrow, so you can take some rest for a minute."

Sungguh, ibu-ibu dengan bayik itu haus akan pengakuan. Pengakuan bahwa dia capek, bahwa dia sudah melakukan yang terbaik yang dia bisa. Karena rasanya, kalau dianggap kurang ini itu tuh, rasanya kayak emang gw tuh ibu yang buruk banget dah!!!

Ya Allaaaah, tenaga dan jiwa ini memang lemah. Dikasih ujian berupa banyak pikiran aja ga kuat gini. Tapi benar, kelemahan ini nyata, dan obatnya kadang hanya kata-kata.

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arigatonamuse · 8 months

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continuing with my A3! re-read, this week it was time for

Act 3 - Bad Boy Portrait (pt1)

this re-read really solidified their arc as my fave, i apologise in advance for how long this is gonna be

warnings: i will vaguely discuss violence this time around, as well as call Banri names (i show my love for him that way)

Chapter 1

aight here we go two words in and i’m already overwhelmed with feelings

i am normal about Banri Settsu i swear

can’t bring myself to press play because i am having so many feelings already

deep breaths deep breaths

this is totally not stirring any emotion inside me wdym

i don’t think i’d paid that much attention to his voice back when i first read this but whew he sounds so… dead inside when he’s narrating all this? like there’s no emotion to it but there’s some sort of… heaviness in it? that we don’t normally hear in Banri now that i know the context behind the portraits, i am trying to pay attention to (and understand) the tone because Banri’s acting this monologue out, the voice and every word are intentional so he’s most likely portraying how he felt about all this with his voice and i’m feeling things (don’t take this at face value, i’m not good at understanding tone)

ah these lines [comment redacted bc i still have got some self respect tyvm]

oh this bitch is so depressed

the way that a mention of Juza Hyodo is what changed Banri’s life but also what immediately made me perk up and smile

the way Banri makes a point to say that he’s not “buddy-buddy” with… basically anyone pre-Mankai is really telling about his own loneliness but also about his not wanting to change that loneliness

he really sounds so dead inside, more so when he’s acting out his lines of dialogue, i can’t

“a quick hunt” is such an interesting choice of words it reveals so much about his expectations of this fight (it was gonna be quick and ofc easy) and about how he was so sure he was gonna be the winner, but also about how he’s the one seeking this whole thing out in a completely one-sided way and how this “hunt” continued into Mankai and still seeped into Banri and Juza’s early relationship

ah yes, the exchange that started my own obsession with this fucker i’d say more about this but i’d just be quoting myself here so uhhhh yeah

okay i did NOT point this out in my essay but now i’m thinking about it and his explicit use of the word alone (i’m pretty sure i heard a hitori there) is making me feel like that’s important something something the fact that he’s alone with the incapacity of understanding himself and how that means it’s harder for him to process… himself? Maybe? i don’t wanna get ahead of myself but i’m kinda connecting this to my “‘til this moment i never knew myself” pseudo essay on the impact of Juza’s portrait in Banri, he NEEDS the company and coaxing of Izumi and to see Juza’s portrait, to see his foil as he is, until Banri can finally start to figure himself out or maybe i’m just reading too much into a single word but hey, who am i if not the person who reads too much into anything and everything Banri?

the smug ass smile i just gave with Banri’s loss

not me getting all smiley and giggly at just hearing Juza

I SHOULD NOT BE ACTING THIS SMUG AT A COUPLE LINES BUT JUST READING ABOUT HIS DEFEAT AND THOUGHTS ABOUT IT MAKES ME FEEL SO EXCITED BECAUSE THIS BITCH HAS NO IDEA OF WHAT’S ABOUT TO COME

yeah well what’d you expect dude? for him to keep fighting you despite not being able to move? or what else were you hoping for? the fight’s done lmao

there’s a first time for everything also no one can’t tell me that the taste of defeat is not important to Banri, not just because it led him to Mankai and blablabla we all know the rest, but because it showed to him that there was more to life, more to experience and more to live in general

yeah his obsession with beating Juza kinda proves my point… the two weeks it took him to heal he finally had something to look forward to, fucked up as it was

the way Juza’s dismissal of Banri wanting a rematch is so important and so telling for them both

god, Juza could see right through him from the start, he saw the empty, no ambitions Banri and called it as it was right away i can only imagine how much that stung Banri back then

something something, the same thing that made Banri actually feel something for once getting absolutely no reaction from Juza

they’re so narrative foils i swear

eheheheh it’s coming

Banri your obsession may be getting out of hand

thank you, Matsukawa, for forcing him in, he needed that push

Chapter 2

oh i’d forgotten Taichi was the first one to arrive to the audition considering that he’s the only one who we don’t know how he got there (yet) should’ve been suspicious the first time around huh?

OMIMI’S HERE

yes and it’s one of my fave nicknames in all of Mankai (<- likes repetition)

i’d forgotten how lost he acted with Kazu at first but tbh? same, Omi, i feel you

something something the wanwan duo hitting it off through their personas while not knowing the other’s putting up a front

Taichi’s reaction to Yuki roasting him is SO funny i’d forgotten how he’d immediately gone into simp mode

it can still happen, Taichi! don’t close yourself to the possibilities lol

I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN ABOUT OMI’S EXPLANATION he sounds so unsure with the “i guess” you can tell this man still has a lot of shit to process and i’m gonna cry just at thinking about it

Izumi, Omi’s not gonna traumadump about his dead best friend during his audition

JUZA MY BELOVED HE’S HERE NOW AND I CAN’T STOP SMILING

heheh Muku recognising his cousin :3

aaaaaaah the start of Juza pushing Muku away (for what he considers to be the best) and i’m emo already ough his words sting so hard ;-; i’m so sorry Mukkun

KAZU NOTICING AND GOING TO COMFORT MUKU RIGHT AWAY

THE WAY BANRI LITERALLY HAD TO BE PUSHED IN SDKBVHDFBV boy needs a push in more than one way for him to get into this tho

Banri really had a one track mind with fighting Juza lol, all his bitching to Matsukawa stopped the second he saw him and he went right to confront him instead lol

i’m so sorry Izumi… you’re not gonna go back to not being Fight Club for a while now

that’s a way to put it, Omimi

yes, Sumi, you’re right, Juza has the prettiest triangle eyes <3

i was gonna comment on Juza and Banri fighting but if i start doing that, we’re gonna be here for like a month so i’ll only mention it when i consider it Important

Chapter 3

Misumi’s too cute

okay i said i was gonna talk about it but the fact that Juza could’ve easily just pushed Banri away but he didn’t because that’s how hard he’s avoiding fights with him, he won’t “throw the first punch” even though this asshole’s been harassing him for a while now, he could beat him just as easily as he did in the past but he doesn’t want to be that person anymore so he won’t even try and aaaaaaaaaaah

kdjsbvhsdvbd that’s a way to put it

SAKYO IS HERE

Also i love how Izumi has come to care so much about Sakyo’s love for the theatre, so much that she wouldn’t start the audition without him ;w;

god i love akigumi so much they’re MY punks

hm do you think Taichi was maybe rethinking what he had to do just by seeing who his potential troupemates were? bc i think he has reasons to be scared for real here instead of just acting inoffensive

OMI MY BELOVED he sure knows what he’s talking about, isn’t he?

hell yeah Izumi, expose Sakyo for how caring he is

awwww is the tsun feeling a bit too seen?

Omi’s tone is so neutral in the audition, one must wonder how much time and effort he’s invested in keeping his tone (and all of him) under control after… y’know so it makes sense he doesn’t really know how to use his tone to act yet, his whole act for the past couple years has been suppression

heheh i love how easily Izumi sees through Taichi, even if she can’t put her finger to it yet

something something while Omi’s struggle comes from not putting himself out there, Taichi is now starting to try to hide the actor part of himself and struggling with keeping it hidden

Chapter 4

oh Banri really just wants to be a nuisance here, huh? he had no reason for saying he’d go first for the audition other than not letting Juza go? i’m once again reminded of the anime, where we see Banri volunteering as the leader as soon as he sees Juza hesitate to volunteer himself

i hate him so much i hate him i hate him i hate him why is he like this (i would’ve acted out the dialogue with the same intonation, pauses and additions like laughter)

why, thank you, Izumi

huh this line right here… i’m now thinking about Fallen Blood and how Banri’s acting is explored and approached there

oh Juza… my beloved daikon Juza… i’m so emo hearing his acting here, he’s come so far and worked so hard and aaaaaaaaah ;w;

Banri fuck off

and there’s the passion and determination that make Juza the heart of akigumi

Juza’s so fucking lovely, he’s so earnest in his plea tbh that alone makes him one of the best candidates to be part of the troupe

THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING! THANK YOU IZUMI!

Sakyo saying exactly what was on my mind

i’m so sorry, Izumi

Sakyo sounds SO SOFT during his audition reading thingie ;w; i’m now thinking about how this is how he’d probs talk to his real mum and aaaaaah

Yuki, need i remind you that one of your troupemates literally broke into and squatted at your dorm AND has stolen government property?

i think one of the reasons that i am not as annoyed with Banri as i was with Tenma is that Juza can and does dish back and he can hold his own while, say, Muku just crumbles

thank you, da- i mean Sakyo

Chapter 5

i’m sorry, i know that he’s an annoying little shit at this point but i can’t help but laugh at how utterly obsessed Banri is with Juza at this point

huh i just realised we never really got a followup or a call to the parents for Banri, Juza or Taichi’s stay at the dorms it kinda makes sense with Banri given… y’know, how his family is, but now i feel robbed of hearing and reading a call with Mama Hyodo

yeah i’m not even gonna stop myself at this point, Sakyo’s such a dad, and he cares for the theatre so much and wants to help so bad he’s too cute

Omi eldest daughter syndrome?

good on you, Omi, you shouldn’t spend all your life looking after others (and yes this means at Mankai too)

Sakyo writing history right here

i’m sorry i keep smiling to myself at all the Juza-Banri bickering bc reading these makes me so nostalgic ;w;

Omimi so respectful (but also this makes me double down on him having eldest daughter syndrome)

heheh Sakyo is too cute

AAAAAAAAAAAAANIIIIIIIIIIIIKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Sakoda my beloved

i love him so much he’s so puppy

ngl i know Omi and Taichi rooming together was a “by default thing” but with how much that arrangement’s done for the two of them it kinda feels like it was meant to be

Chapter 6

heheh the start of Omi being the cook at Mankai Omi my dear, just last chapter you were talking about how he didn’t want his family to need his looking after them all the time and now you’re adding to your responsibilities in this new place

huh i’d forgotten that Juza was the one to initiate their conversation at room 104

honestly Juza’s approach to this makes it noticeable how much he respects theatre as an art, even before he ever stepped foot on the stage as an actor himself he’s annoyed at Banri following him around, yeah, but that much he can manage and ignore but joining the troupe with no interest? that’s where he finally confronts Banri

Banri’s reasoning is so funny ngl like my dude if you don’t give a shit at theatre what satisfaction are you gonna get from winning at it? is your ego really that delicate that a random win at something you don’t care about will heal having been defeated in a fight? come on

also the way Banri deflected the questions and made them about insulting Juza? this boy is a mess who’s scared of being vulnerable in any way and, once again, it shows that not even he knows what he’s thinking

oh the localisation team sure knew what they were doing here

i love Juza so much everything he says and does makes me smile like a fool bestest boy

Omi’s smile-sweat expression hurts me when he sees Banri and Juza fighting and i don’t think i understand why, not entirely at least

the way Omi just walks in and restrains Juza like it’s no big deal I’m curious about this because yeah, he was with the Wolves and all but they disbanded years ago so can he do this while being rusty? or did he somehow keep himself fighting / training?

also i find it super interesting that he restrains Juza out of the two did he somehow know that Juza was the strongest out of the two / the one who could cause more damage? or maybe he’s seen their interactions enough to know that Banri just does shit to rile Juza up so if he restrains Juza then Banri won’t be that interested in fighting at the moment? idk but i think about it often

also the fact that… yeah Banri did not have any interest in fighting Juza while restrained He did try to fight Omi for restraining Juza but not Juza himself, which is honestly so interesting to me he wants to beat Juza, yeah, but he wants it to be a real victory because that’s what his bruised ego needs (and also, maybe subconsciously, the emotions/excitement he’s been craving) which brings me back to the point of him beating Juza at theatre not being that meaningful, not yet anyway, what he craves is something that he will not get if things remain as they are

Taichi trying to drag Banri away is so cute and funny

THE ATTITUDES AFTER THE FIGHT ARE SO DIFFERENT I WANNA SCREAM

Juza is so ashamed for doing what he did while Banri craves more fight

this is SUCH a gesture of trust and now i’m having so many Juza thoughts

the way Juza can trust Omi when they’ve known each other for so little shows how ready Juza is to commit to his troupe, and also how he tends to see the good in people despite having been ostracised and hurt… basically through all of his life also him ASKING for help shows how humble he is and how he knows where he isn’t doing that well and wants to work towards improving in those areas, he’s not afraid of showing said vulnerability to someone he met a couple hours ago and who literally just restrained his wrists and aaaaaaah something something Omi proving that he could’ve hurt Juza yet Juza trusting him with this but also trusting him not to hurt him and aaaaaaaah

and here we see Omi starting to see Nachi in Juza ;w;

oughhhh the fact that Izumi assumes that Sakyo knows more about her father than herself hurts so bad

Chapter 7

oh okay we’re here already… cool just let me get some tissues real quick

i’m too scared to press play i know this is gonna hurt like a bitch

deep breaths (is 8 words into the portrait)

his opening words are brilliant and i don’t think i appreciated it enough on the first read this is a self portrait, he’s showing who he is to the audience, but he starts what’s meant to be a self introduction by saying he wishes he wasn’t himself, and that already says so much about who he IS, about his self-loathing and about the work he’s put into the portrait itself and into himself as an actor yeah, he wishes he was someone else, but he’s now starting to accept himself as he is, enough to admit these things out loud

something something we are taught to hate ourselves for our differences

the world has been so unkind to Juza and THAT’S why he wishes he was someone else, not because he didn’t like who he was (at the start at least), but because others didn’t and that led him to the fighting that now make him resent himself

i need Juza to read Frankenstein so bad i know it’d resonate with him in his soul

also i’m gonna fight his teachers like wtf what problem did they have

Juza’s story is so heartbreaking he was literally just a kid trying to exist and people had a problem with it? and began picking fights with him? and while i’d like to say that that’s an odd thing to do… is that not what every single school bully does? picks up when someone is different and then makes their life hell for it and i think its closeness to reality is one of the things that makes it so heartbreaking Juza’s just a bullied kid who fought back and got a(n even worse) reputation from it

Juza seeing theatre as salvation from… being himself will always hurt, bc what he needed to do was accept himself (and THAT’S what he learns when putting himself out on stage but y’know, not yet)

honestly i hate Juza’s teachers

i’m so glad he didn’t give up on theatre after what happened in middle school tho

oh i had NOT taken in this line in completely the first time around, but it sure does support my point Muku didn’t become someone else, he just grew more confident in himself as a person and as an actor, he’s enjoying himself with friends who know and accept him as he is and that’s why he’s “completely at ease with himself” maybe Juza knows in some degree that that’s what he wants too, bc i don’t see why he’d use those words otherwise

okay yeah at this point he DOES know that he doesn’t want to be someone else, not really

and then, after this, we go back to the self loathing sobs

I love that we see the pieces for his character development there, but they haven’t yet clicked together, there’s still work to do and it’s something that takes him a lot of time, and i love how real that feels

he says he wants to come out of his shell but he also says he wants to be someone else, anyone else and i think that’s such a complex and interesting struggle

i’m so emo about Juza Hyodo

also i have more thoughts but i don’t wanna be redundant so i’m just gonna link y’all to a lil something i’d already written about Juza’s portrait (in the anime):

screaming Juza really works so hard

Muku trying to approach Juza again ;w; and Juza not knowing how to react to that ;w;

i’m not ready for what comes next

I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN

even when i know this scene by heart it hurts me so much and both of them having it as fuel for their own self loathing makes it so much worse

sobbing sobbing so much

JUZA LOVES HIS FAMILY SO MUCH AND HE JUST WANTS THE BEST FOR THEM BUT HE DOESN’T CONSIDER HIS PRESENCE IN THEIR LIVES TO BE PART OF “THE BEST” AND I’M SO EMO

Juza my beloved, you’re ALREADY someone people should be proud of, and i’m so sorry that you can’t see it yet

Chapter 8

Banri trying to pick a fight over him and Juza choosing where to sit is so funny to me

Omi and Taichi taking separating Banri and Juza as their personal task is also so funny

huh Taichi could’ve just… not helped… he could’ve pretended to be scared or something and not helped, which would make things worse overall for the troupe which… was his goal yet he helped and now that has a whole other meaning for me

heheheh i love this part so much

Sakoda is so proud of both Sakyo’s idea and his work, it’s too cute

hmm

evhbhbcksd Matsukawa why are you like this

eheheheheh Syu-san hi~

Sakyo cares so much about this troupe, really, he has thought so much about… well everything

huh so Yukio disappeared either when Izumi was in middle school or in her first year of high school?

Chapter 9

KAMEBUNS

ksdbvhbdf Sakyo’s reaction is hilarious

kdbevhfdbvfd Kamekichi you drama queen

JUZA BELOVED i’m smiling so wide he’s so cute

Banri you have absolutely no right to say this

ngl i’m kinda curious about how exactly those taste but also i know myself and i know i wouldn’t be able to stand the sweetness

Juza’s so unbothered by everything going on around him and just enjoying his kamebuns, it’s cute

Juza you don’t have to lie about you liking sweets ;-;

oh Omi’s such a little shit for this i love it

huh Banri could see through Juza here interesting

SAKYO YOU’RE 30 YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH OF YOUR LIFE AHEAD OF YOU

OH FUCK JUZA’S HESITATION IN THE ANIME IS ALSO HERE? JUST NOT AS EXPLICIT?

Banri’s such a nuisance

AND IZUMI CONSIDERED JUZA TOO SHE SAID HE WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE EVEN AFTER BANRI STEPPED UP

huh even when Izumi looks at him to give him the chance, he doesn’t take it i’d forgotten about this, this makes Banri becoming leader a bit less infuriating (i am not actually infuriated)

also ngl while he is the heart of akigumi, Juza’s self doubt would have been a problem for his leading, at this point of the story he’s not ready to lead a team, so despite everything… Banri WAS the better choice, huh?

see, i wanna bitch about Banri’s behaviour because it IS annoying and he’s a brat but anything i write ends up sounding / feeling insinceres so just know i’m annoyed at him

i love how Sakyo sensed Izumi’s hesitation and explained his reasoning to her heh

oh Izumi you have no idea just how much

Chapter 10

sobbing about Juza turning down the offers from Taichi and Tenma just because he doesn’t want those two to have their reputations affected by his own

i’d say something about Banri skipping but honestly i can’t fault him for it, being in classes where you already understand everything is boring and unnecessary as hell, might as well spend that time in better things (i had a rant here about the school system but that’s a rant for another day)

i’m sigh-laughing and shaking my head with a smile on my face at Banri’s explanations

OH THE TARUCHI NEO REVEAL WAS HERE?

it’s been done before and it’ll be done again, Izumi, it’s really not that big of a deal

sorry Izumi, but i’m with Banri in this one

still, i AM looking forward for the verbal beating Sakyo’s about to give him

hell yeah you tell him Sakyo

i have talked about this somewhere (maybe in my Banri Essay? But i’m not sure) but it’s so telling how Banri doesn’t say anything back to Sakyo because he KNOWS he’s right, he can’t say anything because there’s nothing he can say in his defence and it’s only after Sakyo leaves that he bitches about it but still doesn’t contradict him or anything

honestly if i was Banri i’d just walk out the door and then go somewhere else to chill lmao (totally not talking from experience or anything wdym)

you hit the nail, Izumi

Chapter 11

sighing at Banri

heheh i love that Izumi gives Juza some special treatment, it’s what he deserves <3 she sees his passion and determination and she will recognise that as it should be

periodic reminder that Tsuzuru writes RPF

GAMER BOYS! i love that they include Citron in this scene, he deserves to be recognised as part of the gamer group ;w;

Omi taking care of the food for the first time holy shit

also something something Sakyo saying he will eat whatever because he doesn’t wanna be a burden, neither financially nor in terms of doing things for him

aww Sakyo so mean! you just said you’d eat whatever! why not curry!

Omi and Juza being the first ones to be on alert and worry about Tsuzuru older siblings behaviour

now that i’m saying it… isn’t all of (act 1) autumn troupe older brothers except for Banri?

“just passed out” guys come on, this is not normal

as a Spanish golder century lit nerd, i will forever be upset about the localisation taking away the word “picaresque” from the title

huh i’d forgotten that Itaru offered to carry Tsuzuru to his room first he’s got to have some strength for that

why is Citron so cute ;w;

A3!EN Iconic line right here

TSUZURU’S POWERS DRIVE ME CRAZY SERIOUSLY

what was that again, Banri? something’s a “tall order” for you? huh

heheheh handcuffs incoming

sdkbvhdfbv i love how cryptic they are about the handcuffs in the dialogue

Chapter 12

this is the second chapter in this ep names after a song (that i know) and now i’m curious

i love this CG so much i’ve been just staring at it for a couple minutes now

i’m obsessed with this chapter you guys don’t understand i know the dialogue by heart

Sumi and Kazu just commenting on the handcuff situation is so funny

Kazu so helpful <3 do you think he offered to help (at least in part) because he's scared of conflict and he saw one incoming and decided to try to avoid that?

Sumi baby… that’s not how that works he’s so cute and he’s just following Kazu’s example but it’s so funny

CHASE SCENE

i can’t stop smiling i love this chapter

Juza just jumping into action to help at any moment is so important to me

heheh they’re working together now~

i actually hadn’t paid attention to the details in this part but for once, Banri’s leading and communicating his plans, and Juza follows along because he knows they both have the same goal in mind and he is actually trusting Banri to take them there and idk that’s actually so cool to me? it’s not just that they bonded over beating that rando up, they were already working together since before they did

heheh i’m so excited for what’s coming

Banri’s so smug his smile is contagious

Banri’s so happy he finally gets to fight

honestly knowing how he is (was) with fights, this must be the most excitement he’s been feeling in a while and the fact that he has someone to share that moment with may make it better for him, given how lonely he usually is so what i’m saying is that now he has two instances in which Banri’s feeling something that’s possibly new and exciting, and both are tied to Juza fucking Hyodo

okay so they didn’t quite kill that guy, cool, i’d forgotten about that

also i think this is the first time that Juza gets praised and thanked for… this part of himself, and maybe the first time where he sees it being good for those around him right away and i’m emo now

“ONE OF MY OWN” i am feeling so very normal about this line, i’m not crying about Juza being an extremely group oriented and protective guy, i’m not crying about Juza finally having a place for himself and him protecting it however he can

and then he gets so shy and flustered at Izumi acknowledging his words i love him

i love how in sync Banri and Juza are when it comes to playfully lying about what they did to the dude it’s so funny

Sakyo so protective and caring too

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