Being ugly actually ruins your whole mood, I can't even sit in peace without thinking about how disgusting I actually look.

My brain so cute, it does this lil thing where whenever something goes wrong it thinks de@th is the best and only option🤩

People don’t understand body dysmorphic disorder is a disorder. I’m not just a little insecure. My brain will tell me I look like I’ve gained 10kg and I will not leave my house for days cause I believe I’m obese. But wait that’s not the best part of this disorder… after believing I’m obese for days suddenly I look in the mirror and I’m skinny and I believe I’ve lost 10kg in matter of seconds. And it’s this cycle over and over and i believe it every.fucking.time.

try to get dressed without crying challenge

This is how you should be looking at the photos of every influencer’s body when you log onto Pinterest, Tiktok or Instagram.

Ladies and Germs, I saw a video the other day that fxcking blew my mind. This is really important.

https://www.tiktok.com/@thefemalelead/video/7179284617063681285

This woman explains just how easy it is to warp, tuck, reduce and enlarge areas of the body IN REAL TIME while she is recording.

As the video progresses she’s editing her appearance at the same time, while educating us about how easy it is to exist in photos AND VIDEOS online with a body that she (or anyone using these tools) does not possess. By the end, she looks UNRECOGNISABLE. She switches the filters on and off, like a before and after shot. The way the obvious clues such as suspicious looking bathroom tiles and stretched backgrounds are NOT noticeable (because it’s not a still image) is fuxcking dangerously deceptive.

Filters/editing tools are getting more and more advanced and it’s infuriating how these technological advancements are further feeding the beast of unrealistic beauty standards. It’s getting near impossible to to tell what’s real and what’s fake, even on video.

You know that quote ‘’Don’t believe everything you read online’’?

Disbelieve most pictures of bodies you see online

Go to the park, the supermarket, the gym or any public space; That’s what real people look like. 

Please share the hell out of this post or the link to the video above. There’s no such thing as too many people being aware of this BS 

Since relapsing , I have most of the restrictive behaviours of before but not the ideology .

Nothing that I used to belive I have kept .

Such as :

I don't think being thin or extra thin is any prettier than curvy or bigger women or average.

I don't want people to worry for me , I am an not dependent on others care and attention .

I don't want to feel dizzy or have grey skin or be unhealthy. It's too much of any inconvenience for me .

I don't want to go to hospital like I used to so badly . Cause I honestly don't care .

BUT I still have all of my behaviours of restriction and starvation back so I'm kinda in this limbo of not eating but not actually caring about the end result .

worth a try ..

this 🌟

gym people really don't understand what body dysmorphia is don't they?

tw body image issues

realized I had to try on my swimsuit before I go to Greece and hoo boy do I still have terrible bdd, but in my experience exposure is key, so… 🌝🐟🧜🏽‍♀️

i wish my body was worth loving.

Increasingly anxious bc in a few weeks I'm going on a blind date (fine, easy, I have been on many dates) that is also a photoshoot (horrifying, scary, taunts my body dysmorphia and general awkwardness)

anyway, what do I do with my limbs

uses the tiktok girlies “adam sandler summer🤪” to blend in my body dysmorphia with harmless trends

Its great to be the skinniest one in the family but then you realize you family are all morbidly obese. 

How Body Dysmorphic Disorder can affect you and your workplace  A study in the UK showed that 50% of people with BDD were currently unemployed. BDD can have a huge impact on someone’s working life because when the condition is at its worst, it can make regular employment, education, or family life impossible. The high levels of anxiety and intrusive thoughts often coincide with time consuming behaviours such as grooming, concealing perceived flaws, mirror checking (just to name a few) which can make working life very difficult. Those in regular employment or who have family responsibilities would almost certainly find life more productive and satisfying if they did not have the symptoms of BDD.

Some days are quiet and monotone. And some days are loud and shrill. Filled with the noise of hatred and self loathing. Today I hate myself from top to bottom. From the way I look, to how I sound, to the tan lines on my feet.

Where does all of this hatred come from? The people who have wronged me have never been met with such contempt and disgust from me. I'm my own worst enemy. The power it has, the hold it has, it's unparalleled.

I wish I could be kind to myself. I wish I could could be gentle with myself. Soft and hushed. She's wounded after all. Best would be to tend to her and mend her rather than berate an already battered and bruised soul.