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The Demons in the Details (707 x Reader)
Word Count: 1.2k
Author's note: This is an entry for @mysticmessengerenglish's fanfic contest. The theme was weddings and I had an idea to try playing with. Hope you enjoy! ^^
You paused in your inspection of the current venue and glanced back over at Saeyoung to gauge his reaction. He looked deep in thought as he scanned the building. You wished you could hear his thoughts… He looked like he carried the weight of the world on his shoulders.
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Wedding preparations are always tiring. They become even more so when expectations or standards are a bit too particular. Saeyoung was by no means a very picky person. In fact, you often had to nag him about keeping his preferences quiet for the sake of others. So it was a bit out of the ordinary to find that Saeyoung was so critical of every venue you visited. There was always something. It was too public of a spot, it was too closed off, it didn’t have enough exits, and the list went on. Nothing was quite right. You got the feeling that if it were solely up to him, he would just have the whole thing in his bunker.
His mind was racing with every possible worst-case scenario. He had to. After all, he had finally gotten everything he ever wanted. He was reunited with his brother. He had found a new family in the RFA members. He had even found the love of his life. He had…everything to lose. With his father and the agency still out there looking for him, he had far too many enemies to take any chances.
Finally, Saeyoung seemed to reach a decision. “Hm…yeah…this place is nice and all, but I just don’t think it’s us, y’know? I mean… we can definitely do better,” he said with a slight chuckle, attempting to keep his voice light and casual.
You couldn’t help but let out a small sigh. “This is the fifth place we’ve seen today. We’re kind of running out of options…” You tried to point out as gently as possible.
Saeyoung let out a small sigh of his own as he ran a hand anxiously through his hair. “You’re right, you’re right. How about we just…sleep on it for now? I have some more research to do anyway.”
You knew this ‘research’ probably involved running background checks on all the venue’s staff that would even breathe in the general vicinity of the event.
“...Okay. Yeah… It’s getting late anyway. We might as well go back,” you relented. You wanted to try your best to be accommodating. You knew that he had to do whatever he could do to feel safe.
Spirits were low as the two of you returned to the bunker. There was a certain unspoken tension that neither you nor Saeyoung wished to address. You both made light small talk about the day as you had dinner with him and Saeran as usual, but you could tell Saeyoung was still worried. As much as you wanted to try and talk through things, you didn’t want to push him before he was ready…. And so, even as you retired to the guest room for bed, the topic was avoided entirely for the night.
You awoke a few hours later. After a quick glance at your phone to confirm that it was indeed the middle of the night, you decided to get up and check in on Saeyoung. Experience told you that there was a good chance he got caught up in something and would need to be talked into actually going to bed. However, rather than a chance for playful teasing between you two, what you found when you peeked in was much more concerning.
Saeyoung sat on the edge of his bed, hunched forward with his head in his hands. Without thinking, you entered and quickly crossed the room towards him.
The sound of your footsteps jolted him out of whatever state he had been in and his head whipped up to lock eyes with you. “…Y/N…?” He asked quietly as if your presence had surprised him.
“Saeyoung! What’s wrong?? Did something happen?” You asked worriedly as you came to a stop by his side.
He took a moment to register your words, still lost in his thoughts. “...Um…yeah…I-I mean no.” He stammered out, pausing to rub tiredly at his face and try to recollect his jumbled thoughts. “Everything’s fine. I just…had a weird dream, hah…” He breathed out quietly.
You frowned deeply and sat down beside him, placing a light touch on his arm. “Do you want to talk about it…?” You asked softly.
He didn’t answer, so you continued. “Whatever it is…you can talk to me. We promised to handle things together, remember? You don’t have to talk about it right now, but I can tell you’ve been worried about something and it’s more than just whether we get married someplace with or without windows, so-”
“Are you sure this is what you want?” Saeyoung suddenly interrupted your ramble.
“...What…?” You replied, caught off guard by his words.
Saeyoung took a deep breath in and let it out before he looked over at you. “Things aren’t going to be easy, you know. Living with me…won’t be easy.” He paused, glancing down at the engagement ring you wore on your hand. A sign of your connection to one another.
“...What? What are you talking about?”
He sighed again and gently took your hand in his. “I still have a lot of enemies. You could get caught in the crossfire of any one of them.”
“Saeyoung…”
“Every time I close my eyes… I see everything that could go wrong. And every time I open them again I think about how I’m not ready. If I fail to account for even one possible threat, you could get hurt…or worse…"
"Saeyoung." You called out a little louder, hoping to get his attention off of his spiraling anxious thoughts and back onto you. When he looked back up at you, you continued. "You don't have to bear everything alone anymore. Everyone in RFA has your back. Saeran and I too. We're all in this together. And if dealing with Mint Eye has taught us anything…it's that we're stronger together." You said with a soft smile, giving his hand a gentle squeeze.
You brought your other hand up to gently touch his shoulder. "And to answer your question…yes. This is what I want. You are what I want, and nothing will change that."
The both of you were moments away from tears. Saeyoung quickly pulled you into a tight hug, burying his face into your shoulder and sniffling softly.
"I love you so much, Y/N." He murmured, his voice muffled by your shirt.
The second half went unspoken but you could hear it loud and clear. He was afraid of losing you. No amount of mere words could quell those fears entirely. They lived so deeply in his heart and you couldn’t chase them all out no matter how much you wanted to. All you could do was try to support him.
You let out a sigh as you hugged him back and let your own tears fall as well. "I love you too.”
Your happily ever after wouldn't be as easy as the fairy tales made them out to be…but you two would be okay so long as you stood together. You weren’t about to let go, and by the looks of his grip right now, neither was he.
#mystic messenger#mysme#mystic messenger x reader#mm 707#saeyoung choi#707 x reader#saeyoung x reader#707 x mc#reverse hurt/comfort#mmed#possibly not my best work but eh I was pressed for time and did me best#this went through several different draft iterations hhh#credit to sapphyra for giving me the idea needed to help me reorient my approach and get the fic flowing better#whew it's been a while since I've written for my boi#hope I'm not too rusty#anyways#back into the void I go o7
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Missa's deaths in ME (Minecraft Extremo)
(This was a 2 weeks series, he survived for 5 days until he lost his 3 lives, he survive with 1 life for 3 days.)
1st Death: Creeper (pushed him out the water and fell).
Missa, rubius and quackity were in a cave and quackity was messaging shadoune.
Shadoune: "Are you looking for caves?"
Quackity: "Looking for caves with rubius and missa"
Missa: *Dies*
Quackity: "Well with rubius"
2nd Death: Enderman (He didn't know that he shouldn't see the enderman).
The team was together
Rubius: "I'm going to try to kill this enderman"
Spreen: "No, it's boss, he has powers"
Missa: *Looks at it and the enderman starts chasing him*
Spreen: "Who look at the enderman?"
Missa: *Dies*
And guess what happend! he saw another enderman at spawn!! it was so funny from spreen pov, missa walking fast because he couldn't run while he screamed "I'm gonna die!" and the enderman behind him. XDDDD
(He's team were waiting for him at the entrance, but spreen decided to look for him.)
2.5 Death: The admins put a zombie in missa's cage, but he lagged so it didn't count. (The admins can spawn mobs if the players are just chilling)
His teammates built a cage for missa to protect him when he was left with one life, he had an opening so he can fish.
They had already made a grave for him.
"Missa, 2023, was left without a symphony" (Pun?: sinfonia=symphony).
They were acting as if missa was still dead.
Rub and sp: "This is your fault quackity, you leave him alone!"
Missa: "I am alive!"
Quackity: "Why did you cage him?... I still see him!"
Rubius: "I still hear him"
Spreen: "Let's put the day he died."
Quackity: "Tree seconds of silence, 1,2,3"
Missa: *Stands infront of his dead body*
Quackity: "Hey dude! move away, you are infront of our friend!"
Missa: "Oh! Sorry, sorry"
Rub, sp and q: *arguing who let missa die*
Shadoune: *to missa* "Welcome back"
Missa: "Thank you, shadoune"
And 3rd Death: Witch (he left fighting and protecting his teammate o7).
This was a silent death.
Spreen saw a clip of missa tanking zombies, eating a enchanted apple, saying that he did well (missa was so happy) so he gave him another one, he had that apple in his inventory but didn't use it. )8
Shadoune and Quackity made a homage, "MissaSinfonia 'The most crazy, ready to fight and badass'" (this is the closest I could think of a translation for that sign).
Shadoune: "Who are we gonna adopt now?"
Spreen: "No, we are not gonna adopt anyone, we adopt and then I am the one to suffer"
(They do adopt other friend of them.)
End of Missa in ME 1
Fun Facts?:
Their team name was "Vacio Legal"/"Legal Void" (They found legal loopholes in the regulations).
Missa died 3 times in front of spreen (enderman, zombie and the witch).
For the people that don't know c!missa sees c!spreen like a brother, they protect each other.
When he is fishing he puts this song: https://youtu.be/3K8lPynChZY?si=_fa06dhOOb6sTS29
Qmissa has already mention team vacio legal to chayanne and tallulah, but he just said small things.
In this series was when people started doing more fanart of his cubito and he was really happy, he loves the fanarts and the way everyone have his own creativity to draw his mc skin.
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yomo my friend yomo haaiiii hihi so like. im never really sure where t start w asking setting questions so im placing this down as a free pass for u specifically to talk abt whatever u want about your funny guys :] tell me your favorite bit or concept! or a character you really wanna get to but Havent Yet! or little fun facts! maybe all of the above if youre feeling spicy 👀 free pass to infodump, go crazy!! o7
EHEHAHSHEHEHRHEHAHRGWKRHWKEH THAMK YOU. THAMK YOU SO MUCH I AM ABOUT TO EXPLAIN MOST OF THE SETTING AND THE MECHANICS BEFORE I EXPLAIN ABOUT THE LITTLE GUYS AS BRIEFLY AS POSSIBLE AND IF YOU HAVE ANY FURTHER QUESTIONS, LET ME KNOW AND I WILL. GLADLY ELABORATE ON THEM MORE :33 (big rant below the cut) (ALSO WARNING THERE ARE LIKE. MENTIONS OF BLOOD AND STUFF. IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE BY THAT I AM SORRY)
So if we are are talking about the setting- It is more a fantasy world set back in 800s to further into the 2000s (not like our world 's history but i can't name any of the fantasy locations on Earth itself as i am not focusing on that so expect pretty much the exact same country names). And the focus is actually on the Afterlife itself, and how it works, what worlds exist out there and etc etc. The original timeline crew (Yaku, Amor, Apollo and others) are all from the world of "Ortu Lunae" (Translator's note: It is Latin for "Rising moon"), the world that is supposed to be what mortal people would perceive as Hell. Aside from Ortu Lunae, an another world exists that is supposed to represent Heaven, called "Descensu Solis" (Translator's note: It is Latin for "The Descent of the Sun"), and the other third world being "Cruix", a forgotten third thing. Both Ortu Lunae and Descensu Solis have their own perspective god - Ortu Lunae having Achlys, the Moon God and Descensu Solis having Nahara, the Sun Goddess (Which is why the worlds are named after the sun and the moon). There is something else that is not a world, which is the Outskirts. Outskirts are unclaimed, unexplored and unstable lands, that are able to heavily affect the mental state and sanity on everyone who steps into them unprepared.
The worlds exist because the humanity still believes in their existence, and the people still keep the concept of their worlds "alive", but unfortunately Cruix was more of humanity's first "prototype" for what lies beyond death and with the existence of the two other worlds representing Heaven and Hell, Cruix had no more believers. Therefore Cruix had no reason nor right to keep on living, so it is only a forgotten land below everyone else (with none of its residents making it out of its borders)
To be quick, the company the crew work at is responsible for most safety of the entirety of Ortu Lunae, hence why they are "Warriors" and are "Company's most valuable employees". They are fighting and working for their own existence, for the existence of everyone in the Afterlife and their right to keep on walking on the ground, despite never being let outside back on Earth by will, even with their new physical bodies. Amor and Apollo even became the creators and the founders of the laboratory branch of the company to utilize science to create technology and innovations for the company, creating bionic gear and etc, being originally mostly the lead scientists and not all that much of fighters. All of this work the warriors do is why the company itself worked on how to make them "immortal" as to keep their employees to keep protecting the world. And that is where God's Blessings and "Sanguis Vitae" come in
Quick explanation of the two: God's Blessings are specialized powers, usually having origins from an element or something specific (Example: Thunder and Lighting for Yaku, Void for Amor, Time for Yi Dal/Ken and Kenix and etc) that are granted to the warriors by Achlys himself. There is an equivalent of that made by Nahara, where she lends her powers of the Sun and the Light to her soldiers, but the main difference is that it is but fraction of her powers and therefore her element, so every of her soldiers is pretty much set with the same skills, only differences being how they utilize the powers with their own weapons.
While "Sanguis Vitae" is an unknown liquid that is a back-up for God's Blessings, as it is the most essential part for preparing the warriors. It is an incredibly toxic and acidic magical replacement for the insides of the warriors. It is everything - for blood and organs that make the human bodies a functional thing, the skeleton and pretty much everything on the inside. It is also a massive to the warriors' starter strength as to help them get on the level of their comrades faster, and it also eliminates the basic human requirements for living. Which is eating, drinking, the hygiene needs, breathing and ,,,, only technically sleep but they still pretty much sleeping from time to time (Not Apollo anymore though, but that's for when i get to his character). As Sanguis Vitae replaces everything in their bodies, it also replicates some of the functions and fluids our bodies make (and by that i mean saliva for example, because i cannot imagine living with a dry mouth for all eternity, i am not that cruel to them)
Last thing would the Curses that i have mentioned when last talking about Kenix! Curses come from Cursed relics, that have originated from the Alternate timeline, and they oppose God's Blessings. Cursed relics and curses have originated exactly from AT (abbreviation for Alternate timeline, as to make it easier for me to write all of this) and they don't have an exact origin, all that is known is that the Cursed Relics are either manifested into being by twisting one's wish into something more of "an unachievable desire" that exactly requires the help from the above to get while tricking them into committing sins, or they are manifested into being after the death of one who has been cursed - someone's history of despair and sorrow being shaped into a physical object as their "legacy", that could resonate with someone once they are physically weak enough to have their own wish be twisted into something more disturbing and force them to turn into something strange and horrific while scarring their mind if they do break free. Originally the curses were opposing to the blessings because they had the same concept in theory, but the main difference is tha the curses not only grant the powers to the user, they exactly twist the user as a person, they are denied remorse for their actions and are constantly forced to look out for more violent and cruel ways to achieve what they wanted originally, while also depleting their sanity to the point of no longer having any control over their actions, turning into all sorts of monsters. There are 7 (known for now) cursed relics based on the Seven Deadly Sins and they all belong to the AT crew that consists of Kenix (Lust, but not THAT kind of lust because there are specific interpretations for each of the character), Azrael (Envy), Maude (Wrath), Aridam (Pride), Liliosa (Gluttony), Artemis (Sloth) and Agatha (Greed). Since all the timelines exist within this one universe, the curses and the cursed relics seep into the OG timeline right into the Outskirts where new relics are created into being with the the lost people who have lost their sanity and dying, leaving behind cursed relics made out of their desperation and madness.
Holyshit how did i write the concept of the Curses and the Cursed Relics before knowing about the Abnormalities, E.G.Os and Distortions from the projmoon universe HELPP. Also quick note that the cursed relics and the curses play a big part in the story as they are. a huge part of each of the character's Peak Insanity chapter, which a story chapter focused on them where they resonate with an existing relic that basically fucks them over for the rest of the narrative and they learn how to deal with it and how to heal from their trauma (ALTHOUGH INSPIRATION'S AND ARAI'S PEAK INSANITY CHAPTERS REALLY FUCK BOTH AMOR AND APOLLO UP FOR LIKE. A LONG ASS TIME BEFORE THEY REACH THEIR PI CHAPTERS TO FINALLY HAVE A RESOLVE TO THEIR PROBLEMS)
I think this might be everything for now, but the again, it is the shortened version of the lore so if you want to find out all the details (Like how the worlds' societies live, more about the curses and the cursed relics, specific stuff about the blessings for the crew and etc), you can freely send an ask or ask more questions anywhere else as i am free to answer them i enjoy answering them so much :33 i am. very normal about my ocs and their lore they definitely did not cause a 2+ years long brainrot for me
#YEA THIS IS A LONG. LONG POST#BUT I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE ALLOWING ME TO HAVE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO EXPLAIN MOST OF THE SETTING#yomo ocs?!#yomoposting#ocs#oc rant
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… I knew this chapter was going to hurt too but…
Usually I’d be like everyone in that “THIS HURTS SO GOOD I HATE/LOVE YOU I NEED MORE” but… once I finished the chapter I’m just, sitting here. Quiet. I’m numb. Just nothing. Hollow. Just. Only the pain in my chest and real tears falling down my face.
I can’t I
With this sentence, I just back using the bathroom (tmi I know), got myself a snack and drink and feeling a bit more grounded now. I was having a hard time trying to pull my thoughts from the void and into words, but I’m a bit clearer now. I definitely need to be in the right headspace before I read next time. I not going to change anything I wrote before to show the state I was in.
I don’t know why I feel to need to tell you all this. I guess the point is that this chapter devastated me to the point of a significant depressive episode and that shows just how amazing your story telling is.
Even though this is a reader x donnie fic, I’m a Leo girl through and through. So I’m gonna try to find some reader x rise!leo fics to continue with my self care while cuddling with my puppers as I read.
Drink your water, remember to eat, keep your sleep schedule, remember you wrist stretches and to ice it as well.
Until next time O7
a powerful message, thank you so much for sharing!!
that same numbness is what viola-chan experiences at the end. and will experience for a while (until a more powerful emotion cuts through it). hence why, even though there's a clear answer for the chapter song with the barber adagio, i went with [silence] as the representative for the vibes. because there is nothing there. nothing but, as you say, a void.
i wish i could help you with the rise!leo fics but, oh my god, somehow even though he's my second favorite character of all time i have HARDLY ANYTHING FOR HIM????? and what i DO have is almost completely miserable. (except blurple villain au, i suppose. he's happy in that one.) i swear i love him. i swear. he's just... such a pretty punching bag.
#ask tag#symphony tag#man. i've really gotta step up my leo game. my RISE leo game. beats bay leo with a broom
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Q!Max being right where you left me by Taylor Swift coded
Okay so I have a bit of time to write the highly anticipated (I doubt literally anyone cares but I neeeeed to talk about this even if i'm just screaming into the void) breakdown on how right where you left me by Taylor Swift is so q!Max coded it's actually outrageous.
"Friends break up, friends get married
Strangers get born, strangers get buried
Trends change, rumors fly through new skies
But I'm right where you left me"
RIGHT OFF THE BAT, When the Spanish and English speakers arrived at the island, Max was one of the first islanders to begin building his base. He was, if i'm not mistaken, the first one to have the revolving base and had used the create mod for his windmill VERY early on. (Back to this later)
"Friends break up, friends get married" The Spanish and English speakers had barely settled in before Marianna broke up with Foolish on the very first day on the island. However, pretty much from the first day on the island there was a vibe between Foolish and Vegetta. There was a mutual respect and admiration for the building skills and a budding friendship blossomed that then became something more. Vegetta himself even saying that after they got paired up to take care of Leo that "you and me are predestined!" and Max has been very close friends with both Vegetta and Foolish since their first day on the island and so has been there for it all. He has also watched as Roier and Cellbit fell in love and got married. And was the judge at the Marianna and Slime trial for Juanna Flippa so had a front row seat to the MULTIPLE make-ups and break-ups they had just that day. All whilst he's just been on the sidelines, watching.
"Strangers get born" Then the eggs were introduced! "strangers get buried" Trumpet, Juanna flippa, Tilin and Bobby have since sadly passed away and despite the immense love the islanders feel for the eggs now, they were strangers, effectively dropped in their laps and told "here these are your responsibility now" Max experienced being given the responsibility of caring for this little egg and then the tragic loss of them. Alone. (RIP DanTDM who wandered away and was never seen again o7) Of course he had the support of his friends but they still had their eggs, the only people who could understand were grieving in their own ways so Max had to grieve through it alone.
And through all of this, Max is in his house with the windmill that he built so early on that became Trumpet's home and nothing has changed or moved except now the grave of his son is there too. Max is essentially "right where you left me"
"Still sitting in a corner I haunt
Cross-legged in the dim light
They say, "What a sad sight"
I, I stayed there"
When Trumpet died, Max turned to food and alcohol to try and cope. BBH and Dapper were with him a lot, tried to help him and understand but grief is complicated and complex. Every time a loved one visited him there was such sadness having to see someone they cared about living this way "They say, "What a sad sight""
Once again going back to my first paragraph about Max being one of the first to completely build his base. After everything he has been through the past few months on the island. The loss of Trumpet, the forming of The Theory Bros, being visited by an unknown stranger on the island with blueprints, being killed by the code, building Sofia and bonding with her and beginning to see her as his daughter, losing her to Cellbit changing the access code, her then blue screening with no explanation or way to get her back, starting up his TV show, having to blow up the set for the tv show and along the way losing more eggs that loved him and called him Tio. Through EVERYTHING he still lives in that base from start. Where he bought Trumpet home and then lost him, where he was killed by the code and visited by the stranger and formed his base to theorise with theory bros.
At first I know it's like "well why wouldn't he stay there he put so much time and effort into building it" and that's true but let's look at the other islanders who have experienced significant loss/terrifying events. Slime moved SO far out to exile himself but has now made it a home and built a base there. He's been back to his original base once (I think) to grab some things from Flippa's room and that was an incredibly emotional and tough experience for him. Jaiden, similarly, moved incredibly far away after the loss of Bobby to build a new base as a way to both honour Bobby and allow her to heal. Roier moved in with Cellbit and has only recently (literally last night) went back into the tower he built with and for Bobby to show Richas some of the art in there. Even Cellbit and Forever moved out of the Favela after their big fall out over Richas' custody and Cellbit and Felps being kidnapped. All of these places were built and laboured over for hours and so much care and time went into them but they were attached to incredibly painful memories and grief. Yet. Max stays right there.
"At the restaurant, when I was still the one you want
Cross-legged in the dim light, everything was just right
I, I could feel the mascara run
You told me that you met someone
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on"
Max was caught so unaware by the Festa Junina wedding with Forever not being real. Max has very real feeling for Forever and he thought, and hoped that they were reciprocated and believed the wedding was real and meant something real for both of them. Afterwards he was told a couple of times by different people that the weddings held on that day aren't real but he still held onto hope that perhaps Forever felt the same way he did. He had to watch Forever pine after Phil and flirt with BBH. All whilst he is right where he was left, with his heart on his sleeve, just waiting to be loved back.
"You left me no choice but to stay here forever"
Everybody on the island seems to be moving, whether thats changing bases and building new things, and their life changing constantly. Max is still in his house, with the windmill that he's been at since day 1. Almost as if he is holding on to what life was then. There was no grief, no loss, no death. It was the beginning of a vacation and a new start! So he's staying right there, where he was left.
If even (1) person reads this entire thing, I'm sorry for how long it was but i hope you enjoyed it in some way!
#qsmp#qsmp maximus#qsmp rambling#AND HES NOW BEEN KIDNAPPED#LET HIM CATCH A BREAK PLEASE#this is so long im so sorry#taylor swift
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Hello!!! Obligatory intro post~
I go by Mad, but nicknames like M or anything else are fine!
(Don’t let the name fool you, I’m a pretty happy person haha)
I am in my 20s just as a heads up, queer, she/her
This is a side blog for my writing, doodles, and general chatter. Unfortunately I'm not likely not to follow/like anyone/anything back because of that, but I still see ya!! prommy o7
The current source of my frustrations and fixations is the QSMP, so expect that more than anything, but I post general writing/fandom stuff too
Ao3: mad_cloud
Feel free to drop an ask or speak into the void of my ask or submission box if you’d like!! Both are always open for anything you want to throw my way!
Cheers!
-Mad
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its 1:37am its time for me to b incoherent again /j
(im horrible at explaining, and a lot of my hcs aren't 100% fully thought through so this makes more sense in my head i am so sorry o7)
All vessels are born from within the Abyss, as such all of them contain shades
Vessels aren't necessarily separate from their shades in this verse, when taking enough mortal damage they revert into their shade and move to wandering until their physical form recovers fully after however much time is needed. Shades sort of exist in the background as the 2nd voice in their vessel's minds by default, but some are capable of overtake due to something like intensely strong emotion, self protection ect. Shades' appearances match the vessel they're from. Except more wispy and ghost like.
(Mod note: an example of "this makes more sense in my head")
While in a shaded state the vessel is not 100% conscious, being aware yet not at the same time and taking the back seat in watching their actions- mostly staying to simple courses of action and/or emotion if any at all. Most of the time they prioritize not experiencing further harm. Capable of fighting back, and actually can be quite dangerous in some cases. Many vessels won't remember anything that occurred during this period, if they do it will be in blurry or spotty bits in memory. The time leading up to whatever caused it may or may not be affected.
Shades have been observed to be relatively violent to any entity in its proximity, sometimes even other vessels. Though, for many, staying a respectable distance away or backing away slowly if spotted is enough to remain out of harm’s way. However, some shades can be extremely violent. It’s unknown what causes certain shades to show extreme agitation to anything within its area, but it’s suspected it may have something to do relating to the vessel’s personality, tendencies and other factors amplifying whilst as a shade.
Void by nature is somewhat violent, having only grown more agitated after the infection started. It'll overtake whatever it can grasp, and consume those who get too close which can include beings of its own creation at its worst. Most of it has stayed contained within the Abyss, but traces can be found within the basin above, and curiously enough in a small section within Deepnest. It's rumored in the hushed whispers amongst the siblings an escape through Deepnest is possible from the Abyss.
Death is. weird. when it comes to vessels. Admittedly I haven't even figured this part out myself.
Though one reasonably could choose however to return back to the void, if they put their regrets to rest. Most exist still, keeping their conscious and just exists within the mass that is some kind of shared hivemind of some kind. Just existing as passing whispers in the darkness. But if one wanted to fully return to complete unconscious all attachments and ties must be fully severed otherwise they go into... something. A purgatory state? Where the physical being exists but the mind no longer is attached? They just go into a coma i guess??
(Mod note: i definitely was thinking about RW in the back of my mind when i first thought of this)
Void is generally used as a more obscure source of magic, and its thought currently only the old snail shamans and vessels are capable of using it. Some uses include minor teleportation (Echo has shown capability of this), offensive spells (Ghost mostly just stole these, but Azu is capable of this) or self defense (all 4 vessels on this blog use their capes as void tendrils when needed to defend themselves. but that's only because its easier that way. Echo is capable of using their missing arm to form tendrils)
Ghost has been observed being capable of shading themself for More Power at will, though is required to be fueled by desperation and seen as a last resort (this is completely unrelated to the fact they get more aggressive as they take more damage)
Pre-Voidheart this state was mostly uncontrolled and kind of just... happened sometimes. You can reasonably say they kinda just go a bit feral, and while they do have some extent of influence on their actions a lot of it isn't fully conscious. They do not remember much, if anything at all when it happened.
Post-Voidheart it's a lot more controlled, though memory is still somewhat fuzzy afterward they remain conscious and aware of their actions.
The constant in both periods of timespans is it's extremely draining in all aspects and usually results in them being left unable to fight once they're out of that state. They try very hard not to fall into this, and while other vessels are maybe capable of this only Ghost has been observed so far to be able to willingly do this. May have something to do with the fact they're Lord of Shades in present time.
#long post#i am so sorry. please do not think too hard abt these. i am not coherent in my writing im still figuring things out#my brain is scrambled at all times and connecting the simplest of lines is a struggle so! im trying i promise#sorry having anxiety/insecurity in the tags o7#; text posts ✏️#; headcanons
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HMMMM.............. to do artfight or not............. yartfight or nartfight........... *thinking intensifies*
#ascelchat#hgdjfkhgjk I go through this loop almost every year whenever I see it come around ghfdjkg#cause on one hand..... making art of ppls ocs cool and fun....#but on other hand.... my own ocs confuse me and idk how making good refs work ghdfjkgh#at the same time tho I don't rlly care if I get art of my ocs ghjfdk- more focused on making art of others ocs aaaaa#cause ppls oc designs and lore are always so epic...!!!!!#and!!! making art of ppls cool ocs always fun feeling!!!!#....hmm tho theres also the fact that I can take forever on just one drawing hgjkdfhgk#art..... hard.......#maan this event always intimidates me fhsdkjfh#may prob end up not doing it cause time go brrr and I have no braincells shgjfdfs-#o7 welp back to the void to do cooleg work I gooooo
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absolutely buckwild shit that has happened on the mcsr corner(s) of r/place: a collection
- the war against the bronies: we tragically lost, then proceeded to annoy them for like an hour by griefing their pony (drew an L on its face & made it cry blood)
- moved because of the bronies, completely took over someone else's space (resulted in this beautiful clip) then got annihilated by south africa
- relatedly, tekniik realizing he now has control of a small army and going on a power trip
- the new location is at (1436; 1436), which isn't particularly crazy but i wanted to include it cause FeelsStrongMan
- we were overlapping with warrior cats of alll things, which caused fein's chat to split between calling for diplomacy and calling for blood. shoutout to aloe for being the voice of reason & initiating a peaceful negotiation, we may have gotten destroyed by the cats otherwise
- peace treaty with warrior cats, during which feinberg had to do diplomacy for us and was somehow more polite than the other guy (don't tell them i said that). miraculously it worked (the whole r/place section of fein’s vod is hilarious, but if you only watch one bit of it i recommend the warrior cats negotiation that shit was wild). notable moment: the wc streamer asking feinberg if he's "number one in minecraft", then looking it up to check
- the 1.15 world record getting broken, which no one pacepaled cause pacepalscord was too busy with r/place. this caused us to have to scramble to replace doug with isgar on the wr holders mural (rip doug's face you will be missed)
- the ever-present, looming threat of xqc
- we got very scared when ludwig started making something right next to us but ludwig respects art and small communities so we're chilling
- the frenchification of feinberg and matthew bolan, in a coordinated attack by antoine
- the not one but two occasions we were attacked by anime booba. related: the mizkif/xqc vs anime girl war that went on right the fuck next to us
- our fastion pixel art was tragically lost to the anime booba. fs in chat it was so good
- a series of events: 1) an area directly above us got voided. 2) we took advantage of the situation to build an end crystal there. 3) a representative of the area's previous occupants contacted us to ask for their space back. 4) fulham (our general at the time o7) was willing to negotiate until he realised they were league players. cause fuck those guys in particular (our end crystal survived <3)
- the looming threat of sapnap (he wanted to fuck us over but his afaik his chat saved us)
- another fun fact: the end of r/place came at the exact perfect moment, because apparently xqc had plans to overtake our entire area. it is by sheer dumb luck that we're still alive but by god we made it
this is the end result of the mcsr corner (ft our beloved allies the warrior cats):
pictured above: the minecraft loading screen, hbg YEP, faces of world record holders + other important runners/strat developers, ender eye, end crystal, big cactus (in honour of geosquare & the seed finders), taffelBorpa
IN CONCLUSION: it was a blast fighting alongside y'all, so glad we made it to the end o7
#mcsr#mcsrblr#r/place#this is by no means a full recap#only the parts that i personally think are funny#if anyone wants to add shit by all means feel free to#lumi talk tag#long post
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hey. hey psst. grian & purpled friends au is a banger. you um, you got any more? mayhaps?
Ok so you're gonna have to bear with me for aa few moments since this au is made by someone who hasn't watched Evo in a hot second and someone who I believe hasn't yet finished watching it, so we are mostly working off of fanon and my terrible memory for Watcher stuff
With that said, you've heard of Watcher!Grian, now get ready for Watcher!Purpled too :D
So you’re probably wondering how in the world we got here. It started with Peggy mentioning that Purpled got a clean view of both Tommy’s duel with Dream and Phil taking out Wil. That’s enough for me to start the Watcher propaganda babey!!!
“They watch but cannot be seen”
I'm pretty sure I yoinked this quote from a sign that showed up in some Watcher thing at some point. Purpled sure does watch. I also believe he has done some messing around with replay mod to see inside the prison or something? So yeah, Watcher boy be looking. And the “cannot be seen” part? He’s constantly falling into the background, almost forgotten, and maybe it's in his very nature.
Grian and Purp were both Watchers, though their time as Watchers only briefly overlapped. Purpled was already a Watcher during Evo times, having been picked up by the Watchers while traveling the void in his spaceship. They had promised him he would become something greater than himself, he would be part of something important, he would have a legacy. Purpled went along with them, at first, it wasn’t like he really had anything better to be doing. Besides, the magic and wings he got out of the deal were pretty cool.
It was when the Watchers started looking to recruit Grian that Purpled started to question why he was there. That legacy they promised him, he wasn't sure if they ever delivered on that. If anything, it was the Watchers that were benefiting off of him. The Evolutionists were the only people who were confident in their existence, and even then, they only knew of the group as a whole. They had no idea how many of them there were or of any of the individuals within. He doesn’t think that was ever what he wanted out of joining the Watchers... He wasn’t actually sure what he had wanted out of them.
Purpled noticed the Watchers focusing their attention on Grian, he saw how they worked to break down his will to rebel. Sure, he had joined them, but it wasn't like he had been told all their rules upfront. Naturally the guy who had continuously tested the limits of their patience when they had been some unknown power wouldn’t stop that just because he was one of them now. Grian would push the limits of what he was allowed to do, finding loopholes, dancing around the rules, and even outright breaking them at times. The two interacted a few times and Purpled liked the guy well enough. He liked him enough to break the rules himself and not report Grian when he caught him breaking some rules, he even pointed out a few spots in the rules where the phrasing could be exploited. Still, he recognized the opportunity Grian’s presence provided him. Purpled was no longer the newest Watcher, no longer constantly under their gaze. He could just leave, and if he was smart about it, he could get away and have plenty of time before anyone noticed.
So he did. With a final o7 to Grian, Purpled left. Their final encounter within the Watchers domain went something like this:
Purpled: Hey do you want some advice?
Grian: Sure
Purpled: *walks away never to be seen again within the Watcher’s domain*
It was only later that Grian realized what the advice was, long after he began sneaking out, began testing the limits of what he could do. It was long after he figured out that an eye couldn't really look within itself and he could use the very powers the Watchers had given him to hide himself from them, long after he'd made his own domain, long after he'd slipped away to a land he created specifically to stay out of their sight and reach that he realized what the advice was. Purpled had left. His advice was to leave. Grian had—albeit unknowingly—followed that advice.
Purpled had taken a much different method to getting away. Instead of making himself untraceable, he hid in plain sight. He went to Hypixel and made a name for himself playing Bedwars. With each game he won, with each game he clutched, he amassed supporters. Players, believers and doubters alike, began to bet on the outcome of his matches. Purpled had made himself seen. He knew the Watchers knew he was there, but that was the point. They couldn’t reach him, not without breaking their own rules, at least. Unlike the two Players turned Watchers, the original Watchers cared deeply for and were bound by their rules. Even if they had tried anything, Purpled managed to create his own legacy, making for himself what they never could. Beyond that, he'd found friends, he'd built a community, surrounded himself with people who would look for him and make themselves a problem for the Watchers if they tried to make him go back. They were forced to sit by and do nothing as he continuously broke their most important rule.
Purpled didn't need the Watchers, he never did.
Grian didn't really know how he felt about the Watchers. He didn't think he hated them, not really. The Watchers had given him a taste of true freedom then immediately began to restrain him. They'd given him wings and the power to create worlds in mere seconds, something which would not only take a regular Admin a much longer time, it would require a significant amount of preparation. He was given the world at his fingertips but was limited by the long list of rules the Watchers enforced. He doesn't regret joining them—he wouldn't give up his wings for the world—but they just weren't enough. The more they tried to make him fit their mold of a perfect little Watcher, the more sure of that he became.
It was almost funny, the Watchers had become stricter in order to prevent another Purpled situation. They were trying to ensure Grian wouldn’t leave them too, but in doing so, they had given him reason to. He was a bit curious though, he wondered what Purpled was up to now. Grian hadn’t gotten news about him since he’d left the Watchers.
So Grian went to Hypixel, he wanted to see if he could track down Purpled. He knew the other was there, judging by the leaderboards, but he couldn’t seem to catch him around the hub. He managed to track down gamblers betting on Purpled's victories. Grian followed that lead, tailing the person who was updating them on the results of Purpled's matches. Somehow that person continued to find intel without Grian catching where Purpled was. It made no sense, and if he was being honest with himself, it had long since reached the point of being frustrating. Eventually, after an infuriating amount of dead ends Grian decided he may as well play a few games before calling it a day and heading home. He tried a few solo matches of bedwars and while PvP wasn't really his thing, he had to admit throwing fireballs at people was pretty fun.
Grian finding Purpled wasn't even intentional on his part. At that point he wasn’t even actively looking or playing the game properly. He’d simply started building houses after politely asking people to leave him alone with varying levels of success. After a few games, he received a friend request from the person who had won the last match with a message inviting him to join them for some doubles. Grian accepted after a moment of thought, they seemed polite enough. They had left him for last when it would’ve been way easier and much more convenient to just continue their clockwise sweep.
It didn’t take Grian long to realize that his new companion was nicked, though to be fair, he was too. It’s not that he particularly cared when someone was nicked, but his curiosity was getting the better of him. There was something about this person, the way they held themself, the general energy around them, something that just felt so familiar. Try as he might, though, Grian couldn’t quite figure out what it was.
It was when he noticed the absolute confidence and ease in which his companion threw themself into the void that Grian finally gave in to his curiosity. Players usually avoid the void, and even if they did jump into it for strategic purposes, he's never seen anyone
recover as fast as his companion did. While they ran off to go stab someone who was getting too close to their area for comfort, Grian tried to look past their disguise. He was met with resistance, surprisingly. Usually looking past a Player being nicked was no issue. He pushed harder, it was more than just curiosity at this point, he needed to know who this was, why they were able to resist him. Somehow the results were worse this time. Grian realized with increasing bewilderment that he could no longer even see his companion. His teammate was just gone, there one moment and gone the next.
Grian blinked away the purple in his eyes, focusing on his surroundings. There were no new bridges leading away, his teammate was still in the game, and they hadn't died. Where could they have gone? He continued to scan the island when he was suddenly hit with the overwhelming sense of being watched. There, standing beside him was his teammate, eyes glowing the same purple Grian's had moments before.
"Something wrong, Grian?"
It all clicked for him then. His nicked companion was the guy he had been looking for the entire time, he’d only just now decided to reveal himself. Of course Grian’s Watcher abilities hadn’t helped, Purpled had way more power here than he did. He was just a guest in the other’s domain, he never had a chance of finding him if he hadn’t wanted to be found.
“Y’know, you could have been a lot clearer.”
“Rule 7. Besides, you figured it out, didn’t you?”
Once they reunited, the two realized they still got along well. They agreed to keep in contact, and they did. Grian would sometimes hop onto Hypixel to join Purpled for a few games—always nicked, they didn’t want the Watchers to realize they were in contact— and other times he'd drag him off to a creative world to challenge him to a game of build swap or various flying courses he’d created. The two often swapped tips and tricks for things they were good at. Grian would give Purpled lessons on building, block palettes, and flying (he argued the other only ever really using his wings while voiding didn’t count). In exchange, Purple would try to give him advice on various things he’d picked up from playing bedwars: block clutches, speedbridging, and general PvP.
When Purpled was invited onto the DreamSMP, he was fairly excited. He loved what he had going on with Hypixel and his friends there, but part of him had always wanted this. Ever since he was with the Watchers, overlooking everything on Evo and worlds before that, part of him had wished to be on the other side of things. This desire only grew stronger as he heard the tales of what Grian got up to on Hermitcraft.
The Dream SMP was nothing like he expected it to be. It turned out to be a hardcore world, only 3 “lives” allowed per player. There were also seemingly infinite respawns, though, which made no sense. He wasn’t sure which was more annoying: the unclear respawn rules or the fact that he was never told about them before he agreed to join.
Besides that, there was also some entity with a great amount of power, even more than the admin himself. Purpled had noticed their presence fairly quickly upon joining and he was immediately on edge. He had no information on the being, their power, their motives, nothing. And that felt dangerous. Purpled had unintentionally ended up falling back into old habits from working with the Watchers as he tried to establish himself in this world. He claimed land for his own, carving out his own domain within that of the unknown god while trying to avoid catching their attention. Eventually, once he was comfortable enough within the world, he began trying to reach out, trying to get involved in the things that were happening. He heard there was a war brewing, and if he learned anything from Grian, things were about to get really fun.
They didn’t.
His attempts to involve himself mostly failed, so he went back to doing what he had before. He claimed more and more land and continued watching over events from the sidelines. Things got serious, conflicts got personal, and unless he was directly pulled in by someone he considered a friend, Purpled just watched.
Anyway my excuse for whatever is going on with their designs is that Watchers can control how they are perceived. This is my city and I want them to have cool wings. Also Peggy was supposed to be my impulse control but the memo got lost in the mail and she never got it, so she enabled me instead. Now we have both funky dragon/parrot vibes on Grian and vague alien/phantom/vex vibes on Purpled
#ask#mcyt#grian#purpled bedwars#dreamsmp#hermitcraft#marsh tries#says marsh#writing is pain#gonna go play mc now to cope#au hours#ill come up with an actual name for this au at some point#but that is not now
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Good morning whenever you wake up and hear about the void attack lmao, I could probably provide some amount of summary but I left in the middle to go make hot chocolate so I'm not the best source of information.
Ngl, all I know is that xQc went right though the Hermitcraft logo and kept doubling back while we were rebuilding so we had to hold for quite a bit before we could repair. Oh, and a bunch of rogues were building the Hermitcraft logo too far to the left.
(From the MCSR side of things, Ludwig took over the France/Spain flag war to make an ATLA tribute and so there's a chance that we might be protected from a future void's path by virtue of being near Ludwig? I'm not counting on it but we can hope.)
o7, I'm off to bed, hopefully I don't wake up to disaster. (Oh, and in case anyone didn't know about this, please don't add blush to Pete's skin! He's said he doesn't want it there 💚)
Ahhh tysm for the recap! I woke up and saw that everything was normal, did not know about the void immediately shdhjwdj
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Favourite Stream Moments!
Streamed by Philza on Twitch on Sunday 10th of January
Dream smp
Time to (attempt to) revive wilbur!
eret has a plan but phil does not know what that plan is exactly
tommy is messaging him lmao
he does not appear to be aware that phil is streaming lol
phil both hates and loves the different pogchamps
there’s another enderman and a bunny in a boat now
RANBUN IS SO CUTE
lmao ranboo got that god-sword from tftsmp but it’s actually exactly the same as his usual sword
Lmao ghostbur keeps falling down the hole of l’manberg
phil is suggesting that the friend that died during doomsday, which was actually gifted by dream, might’ve been a fake friend lmao
“are you saying that the dream smp is full of unreliable narrators?”
phil is still figuring out the perfect angle to trident pearl to l’manberg
“is this friend?” *is a literal polar bear*
“cows are just like sheep but bad”
“you cant dye a chicken blue, and i’ve tried”
“i’m pretty good at opening cans! i bite them with my teeth”
(i’m not mentioning who is saying these but i bet yall can figure it out)
“swiss multitool wilbur”
“you just ram my face into a bottle and eventually it’ll open”
“can i go inside the prison?” “i don’t think you want to go inside the prison”
“i’ve never been inside the prison” “i have, it’s terrifying” mood ranboo
HOLY- I JUST REALISED THEYRE GONNA DO THIS IN THE BUTTON ROOM
rip wilbur never got a funeral, as opposed to schlatt
“not yet, phil, not yet” -after phil accidentally tridents wilbur
SALLY IS IN THE SHRINE AND GHOSTBUR DOES NOT RECOGNIZE HER
also there’s brewingstands and tnt
LMAO SALLY GLITCHED THROUGH THE FLOOR AND ALMOST DIED
ghostbur remembers his death really clearly and is suggesting reciting the exact same words
tommy is here rip
ghostbur assigned ranboo the role of tubbo, and eret is eret
wilbur can’t concentrate because tommy is here
“there’s a part here and sad-ist animated it”
oof the lines
chat is just all o7
ghostbur went from reciting his lines to coldplay lyrics back to his lines
rub it in that eret was the traitor will ya wilbur
ghostbur did not actually like the sword and is delaying it lol
tommy is only now finding out they’re resurrecting wilbur today lmao
CHAT IS SPAMMING WRONG SWORD
also ghostbur doesn’t want to go awww
now he’s asking tommy if he wants wilbur back
AHDHJFKLDFLK PHIL IS AT 133K VIEWERS RIGHT NOW WHAT
phil did it.
ghostbur is gone???
phil is only now mentioning the books that talk about totems
tommy is mad at phil now
ghostbur is back but he’s still ghostbur
tubbo is here now?
ranboo lost his role now aww
ghostbur is now gghostbur, aka double ghost, and is very mad at that
there were two people in the dark where gghostbur went before he came back???
(alivebur and schlatt?)
option b: totem of undying pog?
none of them have one
gghostbur is willing to go back to the void bc the people there are lovely apparently
techno has a totem :eyes:
SALMON IS GGHOSTBURS FAVOURTIE FOOD?
“i dont think i’ve ever seen a salmon and not eaten it” WILBUR NO
they’re looking for friend now before they’re gonna rob techno
ghostbur will just get another g at the front of his name every time he dies lol
phil is concerned about the people ghostbur saw
“when i see people it doesn’t go well, just in general” MOOD RANBOO
phil still really has no idea where anything is on the server lmao
wilbur just left the game???
they found friend!
ghostbur is still gone tho
phil complained about the ruins on the server and ranboo is just like “well one of those is your fault”
lets play the game called “is this pc-issues or actual roleplay” again
WILBUR CANONICALLY KICKED HIS ROUTER, HIS ROUTER HAD A CANON DEATH LMAO
uh oh fundy is asking what they’re doing
“wilbur’s router is now canon, it’s got to have it’s own wiki page, it’s got two canon lives left”
fundy is here now uh oh
tubbo is pillaging l’manhole for granite???
gghostbur is back!
it is indeed friend!!
time to speedrun murdering gghostbur and resurrecting wilbur
DUDUDUDU
gghostbur is now just butchering the “it was never meant to be” in all ways possible lmao
and now to not pull friend off a cliff
they don’t actually know if friend has infinite canon lives?
“but we’re all reliable narrators here”
fourth wall? what fourth wall
“im not even sure if the button works! strokey strokey~”
TECHNO IS IN CHAT LMAO HE SAID HE’S SEEN THIS EPISODE BEFORE
GLATT IS HERE WHAT
UH OH
he does not want to go back lmao
GLATT DOES NOT WANT TO BE NOT CANONICALLY DEAD
ranboo doesn’t actually know schlatt lmao
ah it’s ggghostbur rip
ggghostbur is sick and tired of this not working
they’re going for the totem option
tubbo suggested the outpost but it doesn’t actually work on easy
GGGHOSTBUR WANTS A CIGARETTE
AND WHISKEY AND PROTEIN POWER
GLATTBUR IS COMING YALL
glatt is still in vc lmaooo
ohhh glattbur is happening already lmao
ggghostbur blacks out when glatt speaks
they really need the totem
glatt is just occasionally popping in lmao
is it ggglattbur now?
now they’re theorising about who the third person is
TUBBO SUGGESTED MEXICAN DREAM LMAO
as does chat the entire time already lol
“a voice from the heavens?” tubbo isn’t physically here lmao, apparently he’s skyping eret
fundy thinks it might be alivebur
chat is now spamming MEXICAN GLATTBUR which, imagine those three locked in a room together
they’re gonna research some more now?
fundy is gonna get started on full metal alchemist lmaooo
fundy and ranboo are telling eret to hang up on tubbo lmaooo
fundy threw away eret’s “phone” lmaooo
rip tubbo
PHONE IS GONE CRAB RAVE
ranboo and phil are heading back, eret is following them, fundy is not following them
“just gonna head to the gas station real quick” “i’ll see you tomorrow?” “yeahhhhh”
ranboo is gonna get a map because he’s already been to the one techno went to, so it should give him a different one
420 SUBS POG
“i believe this is my first time here” “....how do you feel about government, eret?”
“what do you think is the best way to run a country? “uhh, mild anarchy” “aren’t you a king?” “uh yes, that’s why it’s mild.” “L E A V E. N O K I N G”
eret took his crown off but his sunglasses are gone as well and it’s actually just more creepy
chat is spamming eretbrine
“at least i can look at him for a longer time” you go lore boy
THERE’S ALMOST 140K VIEWERS STILL WHAT
SNOOP DOG WITH THIS MANY PLEASEEE
heavy plot is over now, but they’re still gonna get a totem today, then reschedule for a new attempt at resurrection pog
phil tried to play it dumb when meeting schlatt bc he’s not supposed to know him but he kept (almost) losing it lmaoooo
PURGE THE WEAK LETS GOOOO
he’s already lost 10k lol we havent even started yet
“yeah welcome to the stream guys”
he’s actually gonna email his partner manager again if it’s still allowed
only an additional 5k lost lmao
oh tubbo is in vc again
phil was like “my voices demanded something”and tubbo immediately went “IS IT BLEND W” lmao mood
rip tubbo is gone crab rave
oh there’s a new cowpen?
PHILCHAT IS NOW CANON POG
TECHNO JUST LOGGED ON!!
totem time??
he’s begging for someone to stream with him
IN THE GAME CHAT
phil is like just dm me dude
he logged off again but he’s in vc lol
“silence government”
“you guys found orphan’s parents” lmaooo
techno messaged dream “hey what's going on with the plot” and got left on read lmoa
he’s just gonna do his own arc and it’s not his problem if it doesn’t match with anyone else
phil is suggesting he join them today
techno is going “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” and is not prepared to start streaming rn lol
the struggle of content vs not wanting to stream so last minute
“this is no peer pressure, chat is not manifesting a techno stream”
also it’d be like half a stream at this point
time to trade paper to unlock the map!
lol phil placed down water so he could trident and ranboo was so confused for a bit
three phones have canonically died so far
...why does phil have four buckets of water on him?
rip someone tried the 5,55 dono but alerts are muted bc talking to other people
chat is spamming technosupport because they don’t actually want to pressure him into streaming if he doesn’t want to awww
phil and ranboo talking about schlatt (glatt) and having to pretend they don’t actually know him
it’s a different mansion pog
time to take a portal on the netherroof and see where it pops them out again
lmaooo ranboo make a flint and steel with unbreaking and mending for the mr beast challenge
phil is losing his mind at that a lil bit
chat is spamming unus annus?
tubbo is blasting copyrighted music and making a “disaster basement”???
and is attempting to craft weakness potions
eret and tubbo have been attempting to get a map as well?
tubbo said to come to snowchester and phil and ranboo are like “bruh we’re gonna use nether travel”
tubbo thinks that’s very unfair, but ranboo has a good point in that he would probably died if they went over the overworld
ponk blew up a part of the nether before the mr beast challenge started and didn’t even stream while doing it lmao
tubbo is going on a villain arc this journey?
phil zooming in on his face lol
SUB ONLY POG there was too much spam lmao
tubbo is in a Mood lol
“the way this journey is going i might have my first canon kill” lmaooo ranboo is so done with tubbo already
jack manifold is online as well but they’re ignoring him because he’s too far away and they’re not going back again
tubbo asking if they could trident in the nether if their characters could pee
“this canon kill is just getting closer and closer”
phil is about to kick tubbo out the car
“chat are you seeing why tubbo got kicked out the car???”
first portal attempt
eret and tubbo went through first and ranboo immediately went “run phil run”
phil actually ran the wrong direction in an attempt to escape tubbo lmao
ranboo and tubbo need to save michael? who’s that
“he’s not a hostage, he’s an old friend” w h a t
how are they all faster than tubbo???
they’re making short jokes now lmao tubbo’s legs aren’t long enough
he’s falling even further behind
it’s far out, but still not as far as when tubbo and phil went to 69k
portal attempt number two
too far north, but that’s actually useful
eret gave tubbo some enderpearls aww
ad time because this is just running lmao
lol he actually got a bunch of primes out of that
oof apparently you can do sub only streams? which, did not go down well when twitch added it
lmao tubbo is dropping frames because he doesn’t have optifine lololol
EMPTY BRAIN MOMENT PHIL SWITCHED AROUND THE DIRT AND OBSIDIAN IN THE PORTAL
attempt number 3
ranboo threatening tubbo with two swords meanwhile phil is trying to figure out where the location is
tubbo just now figuring out that riptide uses durability and that his trident has mending, which is why he didn’t notice
TUBBO IS CANONICALLY SHORT
BADLANDS POG
tubbo complaining about phil’s latest video but it’s a 1/10 so phil won’t change it
hardened clay
phil is putting everyone who thought that was funny up for adoption
lmao tubbo punched ranboo but he has thorns so now tubbo is further behind again
they spend a lot of money on phones bc they keep dumping them in water lmao
still far away rip
eret lost them for a bit oof
tubbo isn’t allowed to go get snacks and phil is threatening to turn the car around if ranboo doesn’t share his gummy worms
ohhh ranboo could see the dot because phil was holding his map in the overworld?
chat is spamming “are we there yet”
tubbo has started as well
“alright that’s it canon kill come over here tubbo” RANBOO LMAOOOO
phil cleared it up: no canon deaths happened during doomsday (aside from like, l’manberg itself) none were written into the script.
they’ve found TWO badlands but still haven’t found the mansion lmaoo
why does ranboo have two five pounds bags of gummy bears and they’re all the same flavour?
they’re at the different corner of the map again?
they’re walking the rest of the road, with a checkpoint for tubbo now because he doesn’t have feather falling f
tubbo checkpoints!
pog the maps are synced up so ranboo can see where phil is
TUBBO IS GONE CRAB RAVE
server crash rip?
jack came to ask who he could blame for the server crash lmao
“hypixel time”
time to ping sam/dream (bad isn’t online)
or calalhan pog?
apparently unity saved tubbo’s stuff?
“i broke the car” lmaooo
SMP IS GONE CRAB RAVE
it’s back!
tubbo found his things!
ranboo found a tol boi mushroom pog
TUBBO DIED AGAIN
“there might be a problem but i’m not gonna say it until there’s an actual problem
ITS A THICC BOI
tubbo is still finding his stuff lmao
the rest are taking the mansion!
THERE ARE SO MANY VEXES
TUBBO DIED AGAIN WHYYY
tubbo’s stuff is like right outside the mansion at least
eret found his stuff!
phil yoinking the bookshelves now lmao
he’s got several totems, as do eret and ranboo?
sam came on to express his surprise that the server isn’t dead
jack manifold revived it just like he brought back himself
phil set the illager statue on fire lmaoo
chat is spamming ARSON
phil checking ceiling chests (which have a chance of spawning god apples)
lmao the rest have discovered the fire
phil is now just setting everything on fire
phil’s flint and steel ran out so now they’re just watching the mansion go up in flames
“we didn’t start the fire, except we did”
it’s actually kinda impressive how fast the mansion is just,,, gone
tubbo is wailing in despair now
eret loves how phil just laughs in the background sometimes
(same dude)
quick obs reset so the stream doesn’t lag anymore rip
dad is back pogchamp!
tubbo attempted to put him on fire in revenge
there’s a village just right next door lmao
they’re completely wiping out the mansion
ENCHANTED GOD APPLE AND DISC POG
lmaooo the god apple is going to dream because he still owes him one for the trident phil got from him
it’s still so funny bc fundy had to pay eleven netherite ingots that exact same moment meanwhile phil just had to give him a god apple if he ever came across one
the map just not shows all cobble lmaooo
“okay the village is gone, anyway…”
eret is just watching bunnies jumping to their death?
nobody noted down the coords form the portal lmaoooo
tubbo knows but won’t say bc he’s having a villain arc
“the forst nearby is just in flames” “yeah i wonder who that could’ve been, it can’t have been me” eret why lmao
it’s all tubbo’s fault now
#blametubbo
ohh imagine if techno had set up the stasis chamber with phil lmao
he would’ve been home by now
tubbo claims to have broken the portal and outsmarted all of them
ranboo is really looking forward to the canon kill lmao
phil found the portal!
tubbo is lagging lmao, he’s standing in lava and not burning
tubbo broke the portal on the netherroof lmao
TUBBO LAVACASTED THE PORTAL
they made it out lmao
it’s kinda awkward now
1000SUBS POGG
the map is so cursed now, it’s just cobble and some lines from the village roads
14K SUBS POGGG
MOMZA IS HERE FOR THE WIG
GIRLZA
HE’S WEARING A BRIGHT ORANGE WIG NOW
it actually looks frustratingly GOOD
phil used to have hair this length and it’s visible in the way he side sweeps it lmaoo
“wigs or we riot”
tubbo’s chat is constantly in riot
bonezone is enabled in phil’s chat!
it’s up there with catJam
tubbo almost said how many youtooz he sold but he’s not allowed to do that so he’s dm-ing phil now
tubbo is threatening to buy a ferrari
phil is remembering why he cut his hair lmao
15k subs long haired phil pics?
they’re back at the nether hub and want to go home but tubbo refuses to let them until they know how much a ferrari costs
chat is suggested maid dress lmao
...tubbo just asked them how old he is
phil’s screen is glitching out rip
it won’t go out from his full facecam
HE’S JUST GONE NOW
NO FACECAM ANYMORE
okay it’s fixed pog
phil is gonna round up his stream, ranboo is gonna go for another woodland mansion pog?
okay he figured out why it was scuffed
ANOTHER 420 TO PURGE SO PHIL CAN ACTUALLY RAID
THERE'S TOO MUCH VIEWERS FOR A RAID WTF POGGGG
“long hair, don’t care”
wilbur resurrection next stream pog?
he lost 30k poggg lets go raid ranboo!
“he says it’s gonna be easy and not take long at all, d o u b t”
GARBAGE DAY
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Tommyinnit 29 APR 21
Delayed Liveblogging Breaking into the prison Part 1/1
Alright I saw ghostbur so I’m watching
Ghostbur is avoiding being sus?
Poor Ghostbur having to get in the water.
Aww. Poor sweet Ghostbur. I don’t even care about Tommy being sneaky.
Two minutes of invis. Is he going to make it?
Oh was he caught with the potion? Almost?
Like a bottle being drunk. Ghostbur sweetheart.
Ghostbur isn’t temporary but he sure as heck feel like it with how little we see of him.
Tommy doing his absolute best to not make extra noise.
Through da lava.
I love Tommy just miming yelling and such.
We sneak and sneak sneak sneak.
Is this going to actually work?
Sam sounds so bored with the ghost.
Gosh hurry up please. I am so anxious.
Everyone doing o7 for the anthem
We all cry so easily.
Dream waving at Ghostbur lol.
Oh whoops.
Tommy done got caught.
Ah. Tommy was caught.
He tried.
Wait you forgot Ghostbur.
Sam seems surprised.
Chat seems surprised. Was chat not expecting this to happen.
I mean. That’s a good loophole.
Sam please don’t murder Tommy.
Hi Dream.
Hi Ghostbur.
Oh wow. Pulling the “killed him” card.
Dream threatening to revive Ghostbur.
Poor Ghostbur.
Wait are we getting the revival this time?
I can’t wait to check that blog or whoever does the thing that says if Wilbur is revived.
Dream has left. What is happening. I’m scared.
I want revivedbur as much as anyone else. But I’m stressed.
We’re waiting for Dream to reappear.
Why is Dream back?
Why are we threatening to revive Ghostbur?
Book???
Nothing happened after the count of 10. I expected something to happen.
Ooo channel points. Anyway.
No. Ghostbur.
Dream slayed him.
Wilbur left.
We’re getting revivedbur today. I’m betting on it.
The ghost died.
Wilbur... I’m going to cry.
Oh no. The chat is saying Wilbur’s skin changed.
Who checked the skin website?
Why is chat saying kill Sam. Sam did his job.
Everyone’s done everything.
Tommy please don’t kill Sam.
And yeah Sam is corrupt.
The fact Tommy does all this with a facecam. It’s impressive with the acting with it.
It is Tommy’s fault. He did sneak in against the rules.
Everyone saying Wilburs back in chat.
Sam just repeating that Tommy should be dead. That’s spooky.
I saw someone say sadists animation for this is going to slap with this. Yes Yes it will.
He’s got Ghostburs lead and cod.
Friend. Come on. Let’s go home.
Tubbo and Ranboo waiting for him.
Not that Ghostbur is dead but that Wilbur is back. Wow that was a good line.
OH NO WILBUR JOINED.
I’m excited for this but I am so nervous.
So stupidly nervous.
Tommy leading his crew of men.
Ranboo wasn’t there for Wilbur. He doesn’t fully understand.
Vilbur my beloved in chat.
I’m excited for Vilbur. There is going to be so much new art.
The Vilbur art and Revivedbur are is going to be nice.
Extra armor. Tommy is so traumatized.
The therapuffy is too busy with her own issues for this.
Just a nice long walk to the shrine.
And there is conveniently a lovely shrine made by the King.
Goofed up the timing.
Oh we’re almost there.
And see taking friend. 😢
Oh. Oh. I think I saw a moment of name tag.
Oh no. Oh no.
YESS NEW SKIN.
And it has the white streak all the artists were talking about!
He seems so confused.
HE DOESNT REMEMBER FRIEND!!!
I’m going to cry for there being no memories of friend.
Oh he thinks he did that. The predictors did well.
Oh the people who predicted that he thought he did it.
Wow. Wilbur is still crazy.
13.5 void years. Remember that.
Revivedbur is just excited about the destruction. You know I’m proud of him.
Sunrise. Nice very cinematic.
The new skin looks so nice.
I’m glad he doesn’t know who ranboo is. That’s impressive.
Quit dodging the blue. Rude.
I’m so excited to see the tumblr update that he was revived.
HES EVEN INCLUDING THE TRAIN STATION!
I heard that idea with the fan community.
He incorporated so many of the fan ideas into this.
A train coming in...
Ghostbur, he was sad.
Dream running the train.
Oh come on Wilbur don’t you do absolute reciprocity with Dream.
Oh the Ghostbur memories are coming back.
Threatening him with the Axe.
Wow. Just being manipulative already aren’t we.
Off he goes.
Cant wait for the fanfiction.
“what the hell did you do” -Ranboo
Then the stream just ends!?!
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PRISON BREAK LETS GOOO (liveblogging)
someone give my meow meow a hug or i'll do it myself
if i don't see either dream or wilbur today i'm quitting, o7 to my seven followers here it's been real
the fact that i'm not even convinced we'll be getting c!dream content but my monkey brain said "but kale what about c!rivalstwt wouldn't that be neat??"
he's live he's live he's live he's live
EVERYONE SHUT UP HE'S LIVE NOW
i can't stop laughing at the music this is so dramatic
ok but for real what is this song from i recognize it
any bets on how many camera deaths we get
LMAO the rain starting like that was so good
ghostbur sussy
my internet p l e a s e
THE MUSIC WAS THE DOCTOR WHO THEME. FUCK.
anyways my internet is back ghostbur my beloved
"where's your backup plan" "my what"
"whisper it in my ear" UEUEUEUE
"when i come out later" mhm bc that's Definitely What Will Happen
POP OFF KING
ueueueeue ghostbur's CRYING bc of the water
what's tommy's plan to drink more invis when it runs out
ghostbur is canonically s m a l l
TOMMY COME ON DUDE
tommy you are so bad at incognito jesus c h r i s t
wait why doesnt ghostbur want to be revived anymore
UM HELLO
tommy p l e a s e
TOMMY LOOKS SO SCARED HNGNGNGN
this is the worst part my anxiety is through the ROOF
why did sam allow ghostbur in in the first place
GHOSTBUR I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE I CANNOT DO THIS TODAY BESTIE
OH
no tommy stay by the cell
why didn't he stay on the thing
HE HAS A WHAT?
HE HAS A HOSTAGE FF;LKJEKRGH
el em aye oh
this is the SAME SHIT
C!SAM MY DETESTED
this is so fuckign sad
dream has canonically travelled to the void to collect wilbur
wtf is going on is this a blooper
wimblr
do it. dream do it. dream revive him
sam you're just bitter because you don't have healthy coping mechanisms
PLEASE MY VILBUR MY MEOW MEOW
YEAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
"what have you done tommy" BITCH THIS IS YOUR FAULT TOO
ok but if i don't physically see wilbur again i will end it all
WHITE HAIR STREAKS CANNON EVEYRONE SHUT UP THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE
ok wilbur wouldn't have changed his skin if we weren't gonna see him again right
let me see my meow meow let me see him let me see him let me see him
W H E R E I S H E
ranboo and tubbo have no fucking idea whats going onnnn
"no one else was going to come in" oh ok so why is ghostbur allowed
this conversation is not good for c!tommy's Mental Health
c!sam is acting like a 2 year old
ranboo and tubbo please
le t me s e e h i m
gogogogoggogogogogoog i want to s e e h i m
THERE HE IS!!!!!!!!!! MY MEOW MEOW MY BELOVED MY FAVORITE LITTLE BOY
ueueueueeueuueueue my beloved im gonna SOB
IM SOBBING PLEASE
"i need to watch the sunrise" PLEASE I-
"i cherished that" IM GOING TO BREAK DOWN
THEIR OWN PERSONAL LIMBO HELLO
DJLUFAELRGJKLERH.G
YCGMA REFERENCE???? A TRAIN WHAT THE FUCK
"MY HERO" IM GOIGN TO LOSE TI DFKJAHGR
tommy let him speak
WILBUR COME BACK
i am in shambles this is the only thing i will think about for w e e k s
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Ten Things to Promote Long-Term Sburban Survival
So you’ve settled into your session over the past few months, probably had your first brush with death already. The frenzy to adjust to your new life is over. You’re in it for the long haul now; what do you do?
Sessions can take years to complete, not to mention lengthening factors like postsessions, ring voyages, and various flavors of extenuating circumstances. Most likely, you’re trapped in a relatively small space with a small handful of other people and not as much imminent pressure as you’ve become used to. (Yes, a Medium counts as relatively small once everyone’s able to fly. It gets cramped.) However, there are some things you can do to stave off boredom and murder alike.
(Note: the author lives in a stable postsession after a full-length session. Not all experiences will be applicable to everyone.)
Garden. And I don’t mean ‘use magic to grow plants’, I mean ‘actually garden with your hands and soil and real, linear time’. I can’t speak for other species, but human moods are drastically improved by the presence of live plants, and you can sometimes eat what you grow! Don’t worry if you don’t have a green thumb; I once killed an “unkillable” succulent, but after two years, numerous texts to my Life player about watering frequency, and patience, I recently graduated from cactuses to bean plants and tomatoes. If your environment doesn’t have sunlight, you can alchemize quite effective sunlamps, especially by enlisting a Light player. If you don’t have seeds, you can alchemize them from most juices and depictions of plants. Fiddle around with XOR a little.
Keep a consistent day/night cycle. If you’re anything like the average Sburb player, you’ve always wished for an opportunity to stay up as long as you want. It turns out that this is terrible! You may no longer be beholden to the Sun, but it’s in your best interest to stick to whatever you and the people around you define as ‘day.’ It helps your mood and energy, and lets you actually have time to see the internet friends you used to stay up chatting to face-to-face every once in a while.
Continue having regular team meetings. (If you don’t have regular team meetings, this might be part of your problem!) It’s important to have a goal, even if it’s just research for the long term. Besides, it’s good to have mandatory check-ins with everyone. If you don’t see someone for a long time, they could be having a rough time, up to something dangerous, or worse. Better to just make sure everyone’s alright.
Keep up your friendships. No, I’m not kidding. Obviously, there are going to be some extenuating, irreconcilable circumstances, but I promise you that they’re rarer than you think. Don’t ever write off a relationship with a coplayer before you genuinely try to repair it or have concluded that they are seriously harmful to you. Someone may have been grimdark or rash or murderous, or perhaps you have, but time changes a teenager. You need not forget wrongdoings against you, but for the sake of your sanity, forgive what you can. Isolation can hurt you as surely as hunger.
Continue your education. You were most likely cut off from whatever educational institution your society had when you started playing, and while you may be enjoying the lack of homework, you’re still missing education. There’s a lot of resources online, and stuff behind paywalls should be easily accessible from Medium internet. Study what interests you, and on your own schedule. Even if it makes me sound like a teacher, I can say with confidence that you’ll be better for it. On a related note, first aid may seem redundant, but it’s still remarkably useful in more situations than you’d expect. The Red Cross or equivalent has free tutorials of all kinds.
Make your house make sense. This has to be a group project, because you probably can’t build your own home. The bottom of your dwelling spire is almost definitely a Fucking Mess, which sucks because you’re the one who has to live in this real-life-Sims abomination. So if you spend a little time and build grist making your client player’s house actually functional, and maybe nag in the group memo a little, they’ll pay it forward and you’ll be able to live into an easily-navigable abode. Just be careful your house design doesn’t let consorts use the gates. (side note: if you’re still reading this, another one of your nakodiles got in again PLEASE fix it you know who you are)
Quests and dungeons. Especially important if you may leave your session in the future, and can net you a grist safety cushion if you won’t. Assuming you have completed your full major questline including Terraforming and many of your land’s dungeons, here are some of the most viable options:
Double dungeons: If a dungeon settles back into the ground or similar after it’s done, it most likely has a Super Secret Second Dungeon inside. It’s a video game thing! It has more loot! Check ‘em out if you’re bored; I promise you missed one somewhere.
Escort quests: I’m so, so sorry. I know they suck, but they’re renewable and a good source of steady grist income, plus the harder ones are a pretty good way to improve your land reputation. Try to do some on other Lands for a little variety!
Mail delivery: only for the bravest o7
Visit ALL the villages (or wherever the carapaces live): You may be sick of them, but they always have some sort of relatively easy problem that makes good exercise when you’re bored. Listen to a podcast or something while you’re doing whatever trivial tasks they want; just make sure to alchemize wireless earbuds so they don’t see.
Practice your aspect powers. You can do cool things because you live in a fantasy world now! ...Says no player for a long, long time after they enter. The only way you can truly discover your limits is to test them. What does your aspect really mean, and how can you apply it? Go back to your base understanding, the one you began to think about when you first started exploring. Think outside the box and believe in yourself; your classpect is probably more flexible than you think. You have the potential for an infinite supply of party tricks.
Connect outside your session. If you’re reading this guide, you already know how to, in some way! However, there’s a lot more out there than wayward guides in the void. For instance, there are wayward guides in the void from other instances of the Game! I’m kidding, guides are the tip of the iceberg. Tumblr, for some reason, is one of the most reliable websites in the ring. (My url is enamoredencoding. Message me if you have game advice and I can either answer you or find someone who can!) Similarly, there are a handful of stable-to-various-degrees Discord chat rooms that you can connect to with Pesterchum until you get a better client. In the physical world, there are scattered player settlements and benevolent moving ships that are happy to accept people.
Get wasted. And no, not that kind of wasted. The term originates from the Waste class, which may or may not be present in your session, but anyone can become an honorary Waste! I can’t say very much about it, but I can ask you this: where is everything better than expected?
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i will show you something different from your shadow.
a few moments, over a lifetime.
o1. she sits alone on a chair outside the office. Dad’s voice is muffled but she doesn’t need to know what he’s saying to the principal to understand the point of it all. her hands still throb, and little shadowy constellations of bruises are blooming across over over-small knuckles. she pointedly and determinedly watches her hands when the door opens and Dad comes out and tells her let’s go home. she watches them instead of looking up at the principal, instead of looking at dad in the car, instead of saying a word. dad doesn’t say anything either.
not until they’re back home and he stops in the living room. he could yell at her. he should yell at her. that would be okay -- she just hit someone. again. but then he turns to her and lowers himself to one knee and takes both of her small hands into both of his large ones.
please, Cami, he says. you can’t do this.
it’s so soft and so tired and in that moment she wishes with her whole, whole body that Mom was there to hug him. but she’s not and all Cami can do is give into the burning in the back of her throat. ( her willpower is strong, but she is still only six. ) she cries and it’s so scary and so confusing when she says,
I don’t know how.
o2. but you hate heights, Jaime says.
Cami doesn’t look up from her textbook. it’s not all about heights, she tells him.
literally it’s a school for going to space.
and who do you think gets people into space?
so you’re saying that if they told you to go to space, you’d just say no? and that’d be cool?
he’s starting to sound a little too smug. so Cami reaches over for a piece of her scrap paper, crumples it into a ball, and hits him square in the head without looking up from the page is on. when he squawks, she lets her lips curl into a grin.
they’ll have to listen to me, she says, lighting up when she finally arrives at the answer and scribbles it down. I’ll be the best.
or you can tell them about the time you climbed a tree and got stuck and cried, Jaime says, nursing his forehead.
o3. she hates it. everyone is so stiff and the jacket is so itchy and it’s all yessir, nosir, and she has to learn so much about flying even though she’s never going to really actually fly. every group drill is derailed when she loses altitude and freezes the simulation. one night she slams the door of her dormitory closed, grabs all the covers off her bed, and drags them into her closet. she shuts that door too, fumbles for a moment with her phone until it casts a shaky, strangely piercing light all over her face.
her thumb hovers over Jaime’s name but then she stops and thinks about what it would take to form the words. to say I can’t do this, to say everything sucks, to say I’m failing. Jaime is her friend -- Jaime won’t be mean. she knows this. but the words get stuck in the back of her throat like so much bile and she winds up throwing the phone onto the floor and burying her face in the blankets in her lap and pretending that because it muffles the sound, she’s not really crying.
o4. love, love, love, it’s love. spring is in the air, and it’s brought love. spring might be the death of her. Cami needs to watch the engine but how can she watch the engine when Moira is right there ? with her soft voice and her soft hair and the way she’s so quiet but so steady behind the wheel ? so much better than Cami ever accomplished even after she got herself together and passed her first semester. what a cosmic joke, to make Moira so pretty and nice and then confine Cami in an eight by eight fake cockpit with her.
but when Moira gives the order to fix the wiring, Cami does it. hormones are not going be the reason she’s not the best, thanks. they will, though, cause her to walk right into the door on the way out and play it off like she’d meant to do that -- ha, a paragon of physical comedy.
honestly, the endless void of space is less terrifying than this.
o5. they walk together like they’d been practicing it, even though it’s only been a few runs together, barely a few weeks. even though Iverson levels a look at them that holds the lecture he can’t rattle off when their scores are just that good. and it could sit under her skin, because she knows that it wasn’t just her that’s put them leagues in front of the rest of the class. she knows that in this case, she isn’t the best.
wow, Flyboy, she says, pressing her elbow against Shiro’s side as they make their way to the commissary. the grin at her lips is nothing more than the subtlest pulling to the side and the motion, perhaps, is a little sharper than it could be. I’ve never seen Iverson speechless before.
is that really the name you’re going with? the lilting whine in his voice almost startles a laugh out of her.
you can veto it, she replies diplomatically, but only once.
don’t do it, Lucas says from her other side, voice dry. good, Cami thinks. no matter how short a time it’s been, she’s never known Shiro to back down from a challenge.
and he doesn’t disappoint. veto, he says. Cami smiles, and watches the nerves flicker across his expression.
ok, Big Guy, she fires off. then laughs properly at the strangled sound Shiro makes. but he keeps pace with her all the way to the commissary and sits next to her and gesticulates enthusiastically when he talks. and he does the same every time he sees her -- the both of them do.
later, when she elbows him in the side, it’s gentle.
o6. the first time she sees Adam sitting with them at lunch, Cami spends most of the break watching him. she’s not nearly as stupid as the big guy seems to be -- there is nothing more painfully obvious than the infatuation in his gaze and his voice as he spends most of the hour filling every silence with stories, ideas, questions. anything, she supposes, to make things less -- awkward. or maybe he’s simply caught in the tide of his feelings. maybe he can’t see how stiff everyone is, now that their balance ( the balance the three of them have, easy as breathing, something she knows how to work with ) has been thrown off.
maybe he doesn’t see the way Adam looks wary and not nearly as fun, talented, awesome as Shiro has been describing him the past few weeks.
at one point, Adam makes some comment about the homework Cami has in front of her and she can’t help it. when she snorts she feels Lucas sigh next to her and sees Shiro glance at her with wide eyes.
oh please, she says, like I’d trust anyone else’s math.
--- then Adam snorts, too, and he says, you might change your mind when the numbers start disappearing.
she’s rising to the challenge before she notices the glint in his gaze, I never change my mind. I’m always right.
but then she recognizes it, the way his lips pull up a little at the side, when her own do the same.
o7. they don’t talk about it, but they come close. the three of them ( somewhere along the way they must have recalibrated for Adam -- the balance feels wrong, now, when it is only them ) curled up on the couch as they watch mindless television until dawn breaks. Shiro only ever says one thing, and even though she wants to cry at the doubt and the hurt she hears in his voice -- unmasked in a way she is unfamiliar with -- all she does is place her hand on the side of his face until he falls asleep. they don’t say anything more.
o8. she wants to be mad at him, but she never stands a chance. it only takes a single strike for her words to find a crack that she then watches spiderweb over Adam’s expression -- hurt and angry and frustrated, and that’s all it is. all it is is her friend in pain so she sits beside him -- a little bit of silence, a little bit of broken off conversation, a few impasses that they can’t clear because feelings are hard, dreams are hard, wanting is hard. everything is hard. she covers his hand with hers, and hopes that hers is warm enough.
months later they get the news and she’s numb enough that she doesn’t feel her tears. she only sees him that evening, and his voice is cracked all the way through when he tells her, I guess the universe doesn’t care what I want.
I’m sorry, Ace. she throws her arms around his neck. whether it’s for his sake or her own she can’t say. and even though she doesn’t regret any of the advice she’d ever given him, she says it again. I’m so sorry.
months after that, she shows up at his door at six hundred hours, red faced and crying and tells him that Keith slipped away again but he came back. what she doesn’t say is that it’s so confusing -- the elation of seeing him, the stabbing of her own failure to keep track of him slicing right through her gut. wrongs and rights and so much grief and relief she’s dizzy with it. but she doesn’t need to say it -- whether or not he understands, he lets her hang onto him.
o9. these fucking purple aliens are not going to be the death of her, thanks. they should have given up this particular tunnel system ages ago, she knows that. but neither she nor Reiner could bring themselves to agree -- not when they’d manage to pick up more people from this nearby camp than they had at any other. they can’t -- they can’t do nothing when they’re already doing something.
Reiner sees it first, and everything happens all at once. it’s: his arms around her, picking her up to throw her as far as he can across this length of the tunnel. it’s: the sound, first, that doesn’t actually sound like anything until it roars and rips through her bones and digs claws into her heart. it’s: then the fury, heat that chokes her, fire that sinks its fangs into her thigh and laces up and down her calf, her hip, like so much lightning. it’s: she’s slick with something, with blood probably, but for a delirious moment she imagines holding the sun in her hands like burning, liquid gold.
it’s: the smell of burning flesh and she knows, instantly, even as her ears ring what happens to a body that falls on a landmine. and she knows, instantly, that the choice is to go back for his remains or run.
something is embedded in her thigh and she is crawling more than anything, but she goes. with her heart in her throat, with ash in her mouth, with blood on her hands. deeper into the warren of offshoots, blindly searching out the turns, consumed with a pulse that seeps into her bones, her marrow, the soft flesh of her lips, go, go, go.
go, go, go, she tells the rest of the group when she gets there. I can’t -- I can’t walk. you need to go.
no, Angelique says, taking her by the arm. all of us. that’s the point.
they’re going to be coming! you need to run!
no.
please, Cami says. she doesn’t feel her tears. you won’t make it with me, just go.
let’s try.
in the end, none of them are doctors. they are whoever the fuck they are -- some ragtag crew running from purple aliens in a war they never signed up to fight in. they pull the -- whatever the shrapnel’s made of out of her thigh and they try to cauterize it, but it’s just one more burn on top of another on top of another. still, though, when they leave, they leave together.
and they make it to the end.
1o. what’s injured, she asks him, brokering no argument. but Shiro is Shiro, so he tries.
Cami, I’m fine.
I didn’t ask that.
he sighs, but his lips are set softly. chest and shoulder.
head’s good?
head’s good.
so she pulls him to bend down and knocks the flat of her palm against against the back of his skull. it’s harder than a gentle swipe, but he huffs a laugh. and then she throws her arm around his neck.
no note, cadets gone, she says roughly, and they both sort-of laugh.
I know, he says.
fuck, Big Guy, she says.
I know.
with Keith she is gentler, pressing his face between her hands, mourning how much taller he’s gotten. the biting, guilty, mourning voice of failure that has howled in the back of her mind for years quiets.
when she sees Adam, she marches over to him with no warning and no fanfare and wraps her arms around him.
god, Ace, she says, that was fuckin’ crazy.
in the days and weeks that come she sets up shop in one of the offices and throws herself into the refugee efforts, scanning through lists and lists and lists of the missing, trying to reunite any family members that the Garrison has registered. it is one drop in the midst of a vast and stormy ocean.
but she knows how to do it, one step at a time.
#( camila. )#( camila hc. )#( writing. )#death cw#injury cw#can yallmst believe ............#i did it .....
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