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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 4 years

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pls scream about Leo a lil bit cause my love for that man is neverending and i live for you guys' blog,,, and ur comte love fuels me??? head empty except for those two pureblood clowns

HNGNGNG I hope that both you and everyone that reads my shenanigans knows how utterly understood I feel when I see anyone stan Comte, if not both of those idiot purebloods bc good lord...I live for two tired fossil men that just want DOMESTIC BLISS. Literally they have no brain cells beyond respect women and we love that for us, it’s spectacular!!

Under a cut bc I went off and is long:

That being said I’d be happy to yell abt Leo!! Where do I even begin, this man was the reason I got into Ikevamp in the first place, and I’ve read just about every single one of his events at this point. He just makes me so TENDER!!!!!! For whatever reason the first thing that came to mind was this one time he lies about being jealous and MC is lolol u a fool if you think I can’t tell when you lie to me. And he’s so fuckiNG SHOOK?????? It’s even funnier because she’s internally like [I’m not 100% sure but for a second there he almost looked mad...time to test this theory even if it’s just A GAME T H E O R Y] And he’s so fucking pikachu meme that shit sends me. I can’t handle the fact that he’s so used to people just assuming he’s fine, that he can handle himself. That he’s lived for so long without really anyone noticing at all. (Comte absolutely notices and will lightly roast him, but doesn’t really push him about it or wants to overstep). And so when MC just actively pays attention and is so gentle with him he’s just floored???

God I’m crying now, but I will just never forget the funeral scene in his fucking rt. This asshole, this absolute moron, straight up tries to come at us with “yOu GeT uSeD tO iT aFtEr HaLf A mIlLeNiUm, i’M nOt SaD”. Like are you serious. Come here and let me hold you before I throttle you. Absolute clown. He’s just always trying so hard to get by on his own and it breaks my heart. How long...how long has he lived just getting by, nursing his own wounds and dragging himself up all by himself. HE LEFT HOME AT LIKE 14 (whatever the fuCK SOME TOO YOUNG AGE) AND RAN STRAIGHT INTO THE HANDS OF PEOPLE THAT HATED HIM FOR HIS TALENT. HE REMEMBERS HIS MENTORS DESTROYING HIS UTENSILS WHILE TRYING TO ESCAPE PARENTS THAT WHOLEHEARTEDLY REJECTED ANY EXPRESSION OF LOVE OR COMPASSION FOR HUMANITY THAT HE CHERISHED SO DEEPLY. I DON’T NEED SLEEP I NEED TO HUG HIM IMMEDIATELY FUCKING HELL.

Like.........there’s just........I don’t know how to explain it, but I once saw it explained so well in a post. It was basically talking about Castlevania, and how in that show Dracula sees humanity’s folly and develops so much hatred he just goes straight to murder rage. And while in some ways I understand that, I understand even more deeply Trevor’s response to humanity’s fear and violence. He says that he knows they’re short-sighted, that maybe we all just don’t deserve saving...but that he’s going to do it anyway. Leonardo just so much gives me that energy of knowing there’s so much pain in the world, but all we can do is keep walking--keep trying, even if we have to claw our way forward. Because if you only see the awfulness in front of you, you forget the way that strangers make silly faces at babies to make them laugh on the train, how a friend will put everything down to race over to someone and comfort them with some ice cream--do anything they can to distract them from the hurt. How the sight of a child crying will prompt careful cooing from a stranger as to their bravery, an offering of cool water, the gentle placement of a bandaid. How a pair of teenagers will spot a lost child in milliseconds and help them seek out their parents protectively. There is so much wretchedness, but also so much beauty in it all, and the older I get the more I see myself wanting to believe in the latter. I want to be hopeful, and easily impressed, and full of love. To be bitter and jaded accomplishes nothing, and only becomes a worsening self-fulfilling prophecy. The more you seek negativity, the more you will find it; and worse, create it.

I also scream a little bit bc like. I’ve gone on and on about how Comte is very obviously in love with MC all the time, and sure that may be true. But...I really don’t think Leo is exempt from that either if I’m honest lmfao. Only because what does Leonardo do when it isn’t his route? He almost never shows up. Once in a while he might appear for a split second in a scene, but he almost never converses with MC beyond those short moments. While Comte is the one to pine openly, I’d wager Leo is the opposite. He pines in absolute silence, because he knows that if he gets any closer--he’s going to fall. He’s going to enjoy it too much, going to keep seeking out more before he can stop himself. And losing another person he loves...he just can’t do it anymore. In his first meeting story he talks about seeing MC’s eyes and feeling like he’d known them all his life, and even in his MS he speaks to just being completely fascinated by and enamored of her. She doesn’t hesitate, always does her best, meets people head-on and without much hesitation. After a lifetime of people that are probably just immediately interested in him for his talents, or always seeking out his company for the novelty, this is someone that doesn’t give a single fuck if he’s Leonardo da Vinci. Sure she’s aware, and sure she’s impressed to some extent, but her respect--her attraction and admiration--is something that has to be earned.

There’s something so refreshing about how their love was written. Sure it’s the whole fake marriage to a real relationship, but it’s also a kind of subtle enemies to lovers pulled off masterfully. MC is 100% minding her own business, just wants to do what she must in order to get home, tries to focus on her work to keep from thinking about how much she misses her old life. She doesn’t rely on anyone, doesn’t talk about how hard it is or how scary it is or how confusing. And even Leonardo forgets in his curiosity, is just chillin and also just trying to do the bare minimum to keep from getting too attached--figures he can admire her from a distance. And then he sees her staring at the hourglass. And suddenly, he can’t just watch her do that herself. Just wait for the hard times to pass, just sit with her own loneliness--that hollowing silence. There’s something so moving about it because he reaches out precisely because he knows that feeling to his fucking marrow, and literally just cannot watch somebody else do that to themselves. Sure he’s been dealing with it for three hundred years, BUT THIS GOOD BABIE CHILD DOES NOT DESERVE THIS. SHE WORKS HARD AND DESERVES NICE THINGS!!!!!!!! And so he drives her crazy as he races ahead of her, intercepting any attempt for her to preserve that silence and hide. She doesn’t see any pattern to it, and that’s just how he likes it--he doesn’t want her to worry about the how or why.

Like I fully remembering playing in Japanese and being like oh my fucking god this is hilarious, this man is just a wild fucker and I love this. I was enjoying myself, mostly laughing and shaking my head. But then it just gets so, so serious. I was having so much fun that I, like a fool, forgot the anime effect. If you’re having fun, it’s going to come crashing down without mercy soon enough. And it does. He helps a little girl without any hope play her violin again, and maybe I’m just too English major but I was fucking FLOORED when I realized I didn’t see that that was straight foreshadowing. That little girl without hope? That was MC (and by extension depending on how you play, us). Though the metaphor isn’t quite so easily mapped without a physical space, the connection is clear when you think about it. With his careful social awareness, he makes a place for MC to exist in the mansion so naturally--as though she was meant to be there from the start, crafts a positive impression of her presence with each of the residents. And he does it with zero expectation of anything in return; he’s just happy to see her not stressing herself out anymore or trying to do everything alone. MC doesn’t fall in love with him despite their differences, she falls in love with him because they are the same in a singular and all-encompassing way that matters; they both care about other people so deeply, to the point where they will forego any personal needs in order to make that person’s life easier. Whether it be muting their own hardship, or working to involve another person in a new space (or opening up to the point of self-destruction to keep a person from feeling alone), they go above and beyond what anybody asks of them--perhaps strong to the point of their own detriment, in some cases.

It’s why I always laugh when he says to Sebastian “That cara mia, she has a good heart.” Of course she does, Leonardo; it certainly takes one to know one.

And because I literally have no brain cells beyond being in fucking love with Leonardo THE LAKE SCENE IS AN AFFRONT TO MY DIGNITY AND SELF-CONTROL. HOW DARE YOU, SIGNORE. HOW DARE YOU ASK ME TO SIT THERE AND WATCH YOU OPEN YOUR HEART TO ME AND NOT BAWL MY EYES OUT AND TRY TO KISS YOU ALL AT THE SAME TIME. SIGNORE “hAhA yOu’Re So SmAlL yOu LoOk LiKe YoU’rE DrOwNiNg In My CoAt.” I WOULD DROWN AND DIE HAPPY--BITCH I TELL YOU THAT.

Like. I can’t think of another route I’ve ever done where I spent a good amount of time like “lmfao this guy is so wild im gonna punch him” to just be in a whirlpool of my own tears, regretting my entire fucking LIFE days later. Like Leonardo’s cultural impact???? Fucking immeasurable, I wish every white man disaster I ever met had a hidden heart of gold in all of his boyish dumbassery, an ICONIC himbo of our time.

Also because I remembered it before posting and I am Dying^TM. The event where MC was a pureblood and he was human. That entire fucking event. I literally can’t think about it without screaming and crying. Her just so flustered at his reaction to her like “oh look, free real estate” as he plops her in his lap, absolutely no fear, treating her like a princess because of her noble title despite NO NECESSITY BEYOND PLAYFULNESS BUT ALSO STILL MEANING IT IN AN EARNEST WAY, being charming to no END just to see her laugh or look away shyly.

WHEN HE SAID. WHEN HE SAID “...Can’t leave you alone, or you might go off someplace I can’t follow.” I. CONGRATULATIONS, YOU STRIPPED DEVOTION DOWN TO ITS BARE ESSENTIALS!!!!!! GAH HOW MC HERSELF SAYS “I would tell him the truth but...he’s much too generous for a human. I know he would offer his life without a moment’s hesitation.” How Leo describes the aftermath of her biting him: “Lucky for you, I’m a true gentleman, Unlike my principessa, who took me like a storm” HELLO??????? H E L L O ???????????????????????? ARE WE JUST GOING TO SLEEP ON THE FACT THAT HE LOST HIS ENTIRE SOUL WHEN SHE BIT HIM???? I--

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

(Also as much as I love him the cigarillos have got to go at some point, boy do you have any idea the shit secondhand smoke does good lordt)

#asks #ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp comte #can you feel me going through 800 different emotions in the course of writing this #fucking hell #he absolutely kills me i love him so much #would do ANYTHING for him #if you listen v closely you can hear the soft sound of me grabbing tissues #god i was just rewatching some of his events and i just #THE SHEER WARMTH OF HIS PRESENCE HOW IT WASHES OVER YOU WHILE READING #IM SHAKING AND CRYING I LOVE HIM SO MUCH #SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like leo is just one of those routes where its like 'my life was before and after this moment'#otome is honestly destroying my standards OTL #he just makes me feel So Much my coherence disappears #brain cells???? don't know her only Leo tiddy #in conclusion: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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adarlingsnightmare · 5 years

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Chuuya Nakahara Yandere Alphabet

Anonymous said:

Sounds good! How about the alphabet for chuuya? :3c

accidentally posted this to my main blog after writing a huge apology for my lack of posting :/ i keep doing that unfortunately. anyways, ive had a full week exams which is why i havent been posting. im extremely tired and stressed but i will try to get more requests done this week, though i have another week of exams. i do apologise, but itll be over soon. i hope you enjoy anon, this short bastard is one of my favs. <3

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Chuuya would gladly smother you in endless kisses and cuddles, but if you tell him to back off, he'll stick to just having an arm around you (because god forbid he isn't touching you in one way or another). You'll often hear him whispering how much he absolutely adores you when he thinks you're asleep, and when you're visibly awake he'll be showering you in compliments.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Oh, Chuuya will undoubtedly do whatever it takes to keep you safe, even if that results in bloody murder. He's in the mafia after all, what's a little blood on his hands, especially in the name of love?

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

Chuuya would only mock you if you consistently failed to escape or were getting punished by him. Otherwise, he is generally loving and as romantic as possible. He will always make sure you're eating and sleeping properly, snapping at you if you refuse to eat as he gets awfully worried about you sometimes.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling's will?

No, not really. The only instances where something's against his darlings will is when he's punishing them. Other than that, it's mainly abduction and the lack of freedom to talk to people.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Chuuya confides in his darling, and will show a side of himself that no one else ever sees. He'll ask for advice on work matters and will constantly seek love and reassurance from his darling. While outwardly he may still appear tough and cocky, he's really soft for you.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

He would be pretty irritated and though he'd never admit it, quite hurt. Why can't you just love him, goddamnit?! He'll try not to hurt you too much, but if you're not backing down he will use force to get you to stop.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

Chuuya doesn't enjoy it in the slightest. His love for you isn't some 'game' and seeing you try to escape both infuriates and saddens him. All he truly wants is to be a happy, normal couple so your refusal to love him is not something he enjoys.

Hell: What would be their darling's worst experience with them?

Chuuya isn't always fully aware of how strong he actually is, especially when he uses Corruption and becomes out of control. This can lead to a terrifying situation where you're worried for your life as a monster in your boyfriend's body goes on a rampage and destroys everything around him. It rarely happens, as Chuuya really doesn't want to hurt you, but when it does it's a living nightmare.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

Honestly, Chuuya doesn't really know what kind of future he wants for him and his darling, but ideally you two would move to some beautiful island — somewhere in the Caribbean, maybe? — get married, possibly start a family and live out the rest of your days in bliss.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Luckily, Chuuya isn't insanely possessive and doesn't lash out just because you looked at someone else, but he is paranoid. He has to keep you away from other people because, what if they attempt to hurt you? The only instance where he would genuinely become jealous is if Dazai was involved. This is when you'll see his full yandere side come out and it will be extreme: locking you up in highly secure room, restraining you, putting tracking devices in everything you own, anything to ensure your safety. If you were to show an interest in Dazai, whether platonic or even worse, romantic, his paranoia and jealousy would spike up tenfold — essentially guaranteeing you'll never see the light of day again.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

Chuuya is generally really loving and calm towards his darling, still messing with them and lovingly calling them an idiot, but always so soft when speaking. However, if you were to be a brat, his rougher, more 'mafia' side would make an appearance— any soft words of reassurance thrown out the window.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

The 'traditional' way: flirting with you, taking you out on fancy dates and gifting you jewellery and flowers. He may seem smooth but he usually has to ask people (Kouyou) or the internet for advice on how to win someone's affections. He's also very observant to what you're interested in, so if you mention preferring movies to fancy dinners, that's where your next date will be.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

Yes, but in a good way. Instead of being his 'tough executive' persona, when he's around you, he'll reveal a much sweeter and softer side of himself. He's also surprisingly affectionate, taking every opportunity to be as close to you as possible.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Chuuya doesn't generally plan out punishment, he tends to go into a fit of rage and attack you with whatever is nearest. Usually it results in you being choked, slammed repeatedly against the floor or him almost breaking your ribs with his foot. Once he's calmed down is when he will decide on a proper punishment, such as keeping you restrained to the bed, taking away certain privileges or maybe if you've really done something bad... a more permanent solution will be used.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

As long as his darling was relatively compliant, Chuuya's only real restriction would be the ability to go outside alone without the safety of his watchful eye. Of course, if you betrayed his trust, any hint of freedom you had previously would be stripped away.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

Chuuya tries to be patient, he really does, but he's just so hotheaded that he often ends up snapping at his darling whenever they act up in the slightest.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

To put it simply: no. No one else can make Chuuya feel this way, and without his wonderful darling, he feels distanced from the world. It is likely he would continue working for the Port Mafia (unless they were involved in your escape/death), a mere shell of his former self only existing to serve the mafia rather than actually living.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

Chuuya would feel a small amount of guilt if he had to kidnap you, but his belief that it's necessary for your protection would overrule the guilt. He would absolutely never let you go, you're like the anchor that keeps him human; he cannot lose you.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

Like Dazai, Chuuya feels almost inhuman, like he is a foreigner in someone else's body, yet when he brushed hands with you, he felt something real. This is what drives him to get to know you: the desperation to be human. The more he spends time with you, the more this feeling increases — leading him to be unable to just allow you to leave him. Ironically, he becomes less human the more time he devotes to you.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

Chuuya really doesn't like seeing you upset, and it hurts his heart having to punish you when you're so upset, but some things are just a necessary evil. If you've done something he considers to be really bad, he will be apathetic to your tears, believing you deserve whatever you're suffering.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

Unlike a lot of yanderes, Chuuya does respect your boundaries to a degree, and won't force you to do anything you really protest against (aside from letting you go, of course).

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

Chuuya has to leave for work nearly everyday, so if you're smart and able to break locks, you have a fairly good chance of escaping. However, even if you do escape, Chuuya will find you again, and he won't take the betrayal lightly.

Wit's end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Chuuya has a pretty short temper, especially when it comes to the safety of his darling, so if you persistently tried to escape or "put yourself in danger" (interacting with Dazai, refusing food), he may snap. As stated previously, he doesn't enjoy your pain, but sometimes it's necessary to get you to listen.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

Despite his sometimes arrogant nature, Chuuya sees his darling as on an entirely separate level to himself. He practically worships you, though he doesn't always like to show it (he's got to keep up his tough guy persona after all) and would gladly do anything you asked. His loyalty to you is even able to override his loyalty to the Port Mafia.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

Chuuya would make an effort to woo you, buying you flowers and taking you out on fancy dinners, hoping that you'll end up wanting to be in a relationship with him. He'll vehemently deny being so desperate to be with you, but it's pretty obvious he's hopelessly in love. If you were to continuously reject his advances, he may eventually end up kidnapping you, but only if he thought you were in danger (or that another person was making a move on you).

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

If he did end up breaking you, it wouldn't be intentional. All Chuuya wants is your unconditional love and affection, but he can get desperate if you're not showing it and will make you say how much you love him, even if you have to be put through hell to achieve it.

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bensakindofmagic · 4 years

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As Hard

(gif creds to @queenmercurys)

okay i wrote a thing, cause apparently i can't stop writing at the moment (it’s all this goddamn fresh content). i hope yous aren't complaining. it’s for courtney’s writing challenge (@ijustreallylovezebras // @writingfortoomanyfandoms) and I KNOW THE DEADLINE WAS SUNDAY BUT IM A LAZY HOE so you can have it now <3

(also know this isn't the lovely fluffy content that usually surfaces this time of year but there you go. hope you like it anyway)

Warnings: ANGST, mentions of death

w/c: 2.6k+

based on this prompt:

“I should have made it as hard for you to leave me as it is now for me to leave you” - Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë

(ALSO i went a tiny bit abstract with the prompt, cause my initial idea was basically the same as a chapter i just wrote for my series [but you’ll have to wait a wee while to read that ;) ], so i went with this instead. anyway, i’ll shut up and let you read now)

Begins below the cut

Ben looked in on his sleeping daughter and decided to let her lie in a little longer. He smiled at the sight of her; she was the light of his life, the most precious thing in the world to him. She was sleeping soundly, her face the picture of serenity. Those moments were like gold to him. He never wanted to see her cry again.

Lily. His wife had chosen the name. He recalled the moment she told him she was pregnant. She’d been nervous; they weren’t married back then, but it was one of the happiest days of his life.

“Ben, love, can I talk to you?”

The tension in his shoulders was involuntary. Those words made him nervous. “Yeah, of course. What’s wrong?” He tried to act nonchalant.

She sat down beside him on the sofa. He could hear the shallowness of her breathing. She looked mildly terrified and instantly Ben’s nerves on his own behalf switched to worrying about her. Her skin was pale and clammy — was she sick?

She breathed out slowly. “Okay look, here’s the thing… I’m pregnant.”

His whole world stood still, the word bounced around in his head. Pregnant.

Vaguely he heard her muttering something and forced himself to tune back in.

“… understand if you’re not ready to have a baby, but I don’t think we should just jump into getting rid of it—”

“Getting rid of it?! No, angel, I don’t want to get rid of it,” he grinned, finally letting his joy shine though his face. “It’s your choice and I’ll support you whatever, but baby there is nothing I want more than to start a family with you.”

Her relief was palpable, as her lips spit into a smile and she collapsed in his arms, letting him pull her close. “Thank god,” she whispered.

Ben pulled back and wiped away a tear with his thumb, before kissing her with all the strength he could muster.

“We’re having a baby,” he chirped, elated and overwhelmed.

She bit her lip as she smiled — he always loved when she did that — and hummed, “You’re gonna be a daddy."

Lily had been born healthy and beautiful, and he had fallen in love with her instantly. It was a moment unlike anything he had ever felt before, sitting next to the love of his life on the hospital bed as she held their new baby in her arms. She had sobbed, exhausted but overjoyed, and he had kissed her forehead and told her how well she had done. It had been a tricky birth but she was a trooper. He couldn’t have been more proud of her.

He had proposed a couple of years later, on their anniversary, and when Lily was two they were married. She had been a flower girl for them — she loved dressing up in her little frock, and was very pleased to take as much attention as she could away from her mum. Luckily Y/N had loved every second of it, and smiled constantly. She had never looked more beautiful.

Ben stumbled as he thought of that day, and he had to grip onto the arm of the sofa to stop himself from falling. It still felt like a knife wound in his chest. Most of the time now he could think of her and carry on, but their wedding day? That was too much. Ben was tired, he ached. He sat heavily on the sofa and let his bones sink. He didn’t fight the tears that fell from his eyes, he had learned long ago that there was no use in fighting, so he let them roll solemnly down his cheeks.

But he heard the gentle patter of little feet on the floor and sat up, wiping his face.

Much against the wishes of his body, Ben had hauled himself out of bed. He could have ignored the muffled cries of his baby daughter coming from the kitchen and Y/N’s gentle lullaby, it was the gnawing anxiety at the fact that she had been trying to get Lily to sleep for nearly an hour that kept him from sleeping. He squinted against the light, but heard how frayed Y/N’s voice was. She sounded tired, and a little frazzled. When his eyes adjusted he saw her disheveled hair and panicked eyes.

“Love—”

She spun on her heel; her fear was written all over her face.

“She won’t settle. I don’t know what’s wrong with her, she just won’t stop crying.” He could hear in her voice how close she was to tears.

“You’re stressed love, and tired. You know how babies can tell when you’re anxious.”

“I don’t know if that’s it, Ben.”

“I’m sure she’s fine. Give her to me darling, go get some sleep. You need it.”

She was clearly still a little unconvinced, but relieved to let him take over. He knew she was struggling with being a mum more than she had admitted. She had wanted a baby for such a long time, Ben didn’t suppose it had ever occurred to her that she might find it hard. Of course, he knew she was doing an incredible job, but she beat herself up too much over the little things. He’d have to talk to her about it, or maybe ask his mum to. She’d listen to his mum.

She carefully placed the little bundle in his arms and kissed him. She whispered, “Thank you,” and wandered back to the bedroom, half asleep already.

Ben looked down at the tiny face of his daughter. It was contorted in mid-wail, but he sat down on the sofa and laid her on his lap while he pulled his tshirt off. Then he unwrapped Lily from her blanket, took her baby-grow off, and placed her on his bare chest before covering her back over with the blanket. She still cried, though a little quieter when he started rubbing her back with a hand that was almost the same size as her. She nuzzled her cheek into his chest and started to settle with a little groan and a gurgle. He nestled his finger into her closed fist, and she latched onto it, squeezing it with all the might. He smiled; he would never get tired of that. He hummed a gentle lullaby until her eyes drifted closed and her could lay her back in her cot.

When he went back to the bedroom, Y/N was fast asleep. Contented to see his two best girls both sleeping peacefully, he climbed into bed and pulled Y/N close, kissing her cheek and whispering that he loved her.

“You didn’t wake me up daddy,” said Lily, stifling a yawn.

“I know petal, I thought I’d let you have a lie in.”

She clambered up onto the sofa next to him and latched her little arms around his neck. “But we’re going to see mummy today. You promised.”

“It’s okay, she’ll still be there. Go get dressed and do your teeth, then we’ll go see mum.”

She planted a delicate kiss on his cheek and raced off to to her bedroom. His heart swelled; thank god he still had Lily.

She was ready in record time and appeared from her room with a few bits of paper in her hands.

“I’ve done some drawings for mummy. Please can I take them?”

“Of course you can, darling. I think she’ll love them. Have you got her letter, too?”

She nodded; she always took a letter.

She was quieter than she used to be. Her mother had been strict on manners but she used to have a naughty streak to her; Y/N always used to laugh that she got that from her dad. That was gone now, or at least subdued. Ben prayed that she would get it back, in time.

He picked up the flowers he’d bought the day before and took his little girl’s hand, leading her to the car.

It wasn’t a long drive, and they soon parked. Ben and Lily walked hand in hand down the path that ran alongside the church. When they passed the big oak tree Lily knew the way, so he let her run ahead.

“Be careful of the big roots Lily, mind you don’t trip!” he called after her, but she wasn’t listening.

When he caught up with her, she had already laid her drawings down against her mum’s headstone.

“Is that mummy?” he asked, pointing to the woman in the drawing.

Lily nodded, “And that’s you and that’s me.”

“We look very happy.”

“I thought that’s what mummy would have wanted.”

“It is petal, it is.”

He took the old flowers out of the vase and put the new bunch in — lilies of course — before taking his daughter’s hand once more. It was still so tiny, engulfed in his large one.

“Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday dear Lily,

Happy birthday to you!”

Ben and Y/N cheered and Lily blew out all four candles on her birthday cake in one go. Ben lifted her up and twirled her round the room, her dress flaring out behind her. She giggled in that joyful way that children do, and Ben grinned. He could hardly contain his glee.

She hadn’t wanted a birthday party, saying that she only wanted her mum and dad there. Ben had felt guilty: he’d been away a lot filming just lately and he knew the girls missed him. Y/N would never say but she wished he didn’t travel so often, and Lily was always happiest when they were all together. Spending her birthday with his beautiful little family reminded him how lucky he was. As he watched his wife cut his daughter’s birthday cake, he promised himself he would make for time for them, be home more often. He would be the best dad he could.

Lily merrily ran off to get her new toys once they’d eaten their cake, and while she was occupied Ben pulled Y/N onto his lap. She squealed and laughed and it was music to him. He threaded his arms around her waist and let her lean back, resting his chin on her shoulder. She hummed contentedly when he kissed her neck.

“I’m going to be home more this year.”

“It that right?” she pondered.

“I promise. I want to spend more time with you two.”

“That would be nice.” He could hear her smiling.

“And I’ve been thinking—”

“Dangerous.”

He chuckled, “I adore our little family, but how would you feel if it got a little bigger?”

She turned to him, eyes wide. “Really?”

He nodded, gnawing at his lip.

She beamed, “I would love that.”

As Ben kissed his wife he let his hand trail towards her thigh, and felt her smile against his lips.

It was only a few weeks later that Y/N had collapsed one Sunday afternoon and he’d rushed her to hospital. After that everything was a blur. They knew from the start that it was terminal but when she slipped away two months later it still came as a shock. It had all happened so fast, Ben had barely had time to process it, let alone Lily. She lost her mum at the age of four. He worried constantly what that would do to her, and how to be both mum and dad to her. It was an endless struggle, mourning for the death of the only woman he had ever loved, and learning to be a single parent. The last two years had been hell, but he finally felt like there was some light in his life again.

“Do you want to read your letter to mum?”

Lily shook her head, “She knows what it says,” and lay down the letter next to her drawings. For a while they both stood, quietly grieving in each other’s company. When Lily sighed and started to fidget next to him, Ben knew she was ready to go.

“Why don’t you go and wait in the car, sweetheart? I want to talk to mummy in private for a minute. I promise I won’t be long.”

She nodded and set off. He watched her until she was safely back in the car before turning back to the headstone.

He read the words he had chosen:

Unable are the loved to die. For love is immortality.

They were Emily Dickinson’s words. He trusted her to know what she was talking about, despite the fact that at the time he didn’t believe them in the slightest. Now, perhaps, he was starting to see what she meant. Perhaps.

“Oh love, my darling girl…”

He broke down, sobs wracked his body. He just missed her so goddamn much. She had been his whole world, the love of his life, she had given him the most precious gift in their beautiful daughter, and she was gone. Forever.

Eventually he composed himself, and placed a hand on her grave. The stone was cold beneath his fingers.

“God, I miss you. I thought it would get easier but it hasn’t, I’ve just got better at living with the the hole that you left. I’m still mad at you, you know. For leaving us. That was a real dick move.”

He sighed, shaking his head with a small chuckle.

“Not that it was your fault. I know you’d still be with us if you could. But Lily’s doing well, you’d be so proud of her, baby. She’s still a little quiet but she’s getting more confident these days, you can see it. And she’s so smart too, she really got your brains. She’s cleverer than me already, it’s embarrassing. She gets more and more like you every day.” He took a deep, shuddering breath.

“I suppose you want to know how I’m doing? Ha, well I’m okay. I miss you, but I already told you that. I think I’m doing better though. For a while there it was really just Lily that kept me going. I don’t know what I would have done without her. I was just trying to make to the next day, so that I could be there for her, but I think I’m ready to start living for me again. She’s everything to me, you know, but maybe I’m ready to get back into the world a little bit.”

Suddenly Ben was able to unload all the thoughts that had been swirling around in his head, weighing him down. You always made it so easy for him to talk to you, even when you weren’t there.

“I feel kinda guilty though, like I’m leaving you behind. I don’t want to forget you, I don’t want to move on from you, I just want to move forward. I can’t keep living in this pit, I… I don’t know. Not that you need me to tell you any of this. I know you wanted me to move on, find someone else. I don’t know about that, but I think I’m ready to start embracing life again. But you should know that there’s no one in the world like you, no one else I could ever love the way I love you.”

He felt tears prickle at his eyes again, and he knew it was time to go.

“Christ Y/N, I should have made it as hard for you to leave me as it is now for me to leave you. Maybe then we’d still be together.”

His head dropped, his shoulders fell heavy. He kissed his fingers and pressed them against the name carved in the stone. His wife. His rock.

“I have to go, Lily’s waiting, but I'll see you soon. I love you.”

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fornarniaandforthefandom · 6 years

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11 Questions Tag Game

I was tagged by @jhopespanda Thank you baby!!!

I tag @suga-daddy-69 @merlionmen @animeotakupooh @chronicfangirling @noona-clock

Round One

1. Which fictional character do you relate to the most and why?

fictional character, hmm I don’t know why this is so hard... hmmm...

When I was younger, mayber Lucy from Narnia? I just remember reading the lion the witch and the wardrobe when I was younger and I always agreed with her mindset and always thought I would do the same thing in her situation.. I was a very very very honest child, like I had to tell the truth always, even if I got myself in trouble, so the part in the book where it said how Lucy would get on better if she lied and said that she didn’t see narnia, but couldn’t bc she felt it wasn’t the right way, I was like I UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING,,, and as a kid, if I believed in something I believed with everything in me

1-2 years ago, I felt like I related to Kim Bok Joo from weight lifting fairy alot,, because since I worked at a barn, I felt masculine and unpretty because I was very strong and had big traps and biceps,,, LOL I WAS SO CONCERNED ABOUT MY MUSCLES I CANT

now? I don’t really know... I’m not sure... XD

2. What’s your biggest pet peeve?

People who don’t care about others feelings. Also laziness XD

3. Forget about the salary and all the stuff for one second, if you could have any job which one would you choose?

I’m not really sure... Maybe a writer....? hahahaha

4. What’s that accessory/piece of clothing that you put the most effort in or that you afford the most attention to?

huh, honestly I think it’s my shirt! Maybe it’s because my upper body has a non-conformative shape, but I usually stress about my shirt the most XD XD

5. You gotta choose one song as your all-time favorite. Which one is it?

OH MY GOODNESS WHAT HOW- UHHHHHH- THIS IS SO HARD!!! maybe so far away by suga, jin and jungkook? I DONT KNOW SAVE ME

6. What’s your happiest memory?

Oh thats hard... I feel like it was a small thing, like driving in the car listening to music with my sisters XD

7. What are your phobias?

Being unloved, being alone, horror movies, never being good enough LOL WOW SORRY FOR THAT DOWNER

8. What’s your favorite quote if you have any?

I have a few:

“Do not run from who you are” -Aslan, Narnia

“Be brave enough to be yourself” -??

“my tiny human body isn’t big enough to hold all the love that’s inside me and that’s why I’m always crying” -??

“God made you just exactly as He meant to” - ?

(this one cracks me up) one time I came home crying, snot dripping, eyes red,,, the works... bc my crush had insulted, mocked and picked on my 13 year old insecurities and my little brother said, “He isn’t worth or worthy of the boogers that are coming out of your nose.”

9. You have a free trip around the world but you’ll never meet your “soulmate”. (or anyway that person who’s supposed to make you rly rly happy ok would it be romantically or not) Do you accept that deal?

No, for me it’s the people i’m with, not where I am. :)

10. What kind of teenager were you? Or if you’re a teenager now, what kind of kid were you?

hmmm, I’m 18, so I was a very very upright child. If i did something slightly wrong I’d hate myself, I always told the truth, I was called a prude a ton haha so i guess a goody-two-shoes???

teenager years I started breaking out of that, I became more normalized by my rebel sister XD I still blamed myself for everything wrong that happened and hated myself if I did something slightly wrong I’m trying to break out of that mentality, and it’s been getting better :) I love alot of people and I have become the mom of kids from younger grades, and the kids in my grade and those above me I openly adore to their faces XD XD

11. Your idol?

I look up to a lot of people, but.... not famous I think my mom.

She always tries her best and she’s think so hardworking and wonderful and she’ s always inspired me

famous? I think maybe Jimin (BTS)

he’s so hardworking and loving and he always finds a way to show he loves his members

Round 2

1. Do you agree with what is said about your astrological sign a lot of the time?

hahaha yeah most of the time (pisces)

2. If you could have any mythological creature as a pet, (and lets say it would be safe for you, the creature, and the people around you to have it as a pet, and you would have all the right knowledge and resources for it) what would it be?

first thing that came to mind was a dragon UWU maybe a unicorn?

3. What’s your favorite book?

When I was a child: Goodnigt moon or bearanstain bears

As a pre-teen: the phantom stallion series (All 24 of them XD)

As a Young Adult/Teen: beauty by robin mckinley

Now: beauty by robin mckinley still ;)

4. What album could you listen to for 24 hours straight and not be tired of it?

BTS “Love Yourself: Her/Tear” taylor swift fearless :)

5. What’s your favorite flower and why?

peony, so full and happy and pretty

6. What’s your favorite season and why?

SUMMER BC NO SCHOOL AND LESS CLOTHES(the last part sounds weird lmao, I jsut don’t like wearing tons of layers :D) plus swimming, tans, beauitufl healthy nature, flowers, vacation, vacation boys, fresh cut grass, hair highlights from the sun, boys in swimming trunks HEH

7. Guilty pleasure tag on tumblr, like the one you can’t believe you find yourself strolling through?

movies I dont’ even know or like actors, or like a movie i want to see, but i’m just scrolling through the spoilers LMAO

8. What is the best advice someone has given you directly?

Just be yourself.

Take one day at a time.

Take care of yourself with the same concern you have for others.

Focus on the positive.

9. Favorite drink and why (non-alcoholic)?

hmmmm, maybe rasberry lemonade? or coffee?

rasberry lemonade bc it’s sweet and reminds me of my childhood and summer

coffee because it feels like home and fills me with warmth

10. What’s your favorite tv show and why?

Rn Im not consistently watching any. But I do love:

Scarlet Heart Rhyeo

Weight Lifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

Five

Coffee Prince

She Was Pretty

11. What is something you can do that a lot of people don’t know you can do?

Most people don’t realize that I could lift alot more than I look like. Since I work at a barn, I can deadlift and throw a lot of heavy things. I don’t like to be weird or showoffish so I never say I’m strong or anything, but if their are physical challenges, people are usually surprised when I win.

Well, if you read through this you are amazing and wow. Perseverance baby <3

#I love you!#tags!!!!#be happy today please :)

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carlgrimeschandlerriggsimagines · 6 years

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Orphaned (Chandler Riggs x reader)

TRIGGER WARNING MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING!!!!

Word count:3654

Requested by anon

(I originally had this on AO3 but I edited it)

Summary:You lose your parents and little brother in a car crash and become very depressed and anorexic one day the pain and stress is too much so you attempt suicide.

Let’s begin where this started All of this shit It was December 14th, 2014 Was the day that car crashed, killing both of my parents and My little brother, I was moved in with my brother I remember everything So does Chandler my boyfriend, yes I’m dating Carl from the walking dead anyways Here is the night it happened.

I was in the car heading home from Dance class it was freezing outside and it was dark Considering it was 8:30 We were going down a road to our house I was Scrolling through my Instagram checking my likes on a video I posted of me practicing my solo I saw one comment from my boyfriend Saying “This solo is almost as beautiful as you. I love you!” I smiled when all of a sudden I heard screams “Mommy!"My brother screamed then All i felt was pain and All I saw was blackness I hear glass shatter and i felt something hit me The ground I felt pain everywhere and I felt warm liquid all over me blood I felt it on my lips and I tasted it It felt like the world stopped all I saw was darkness All I heard was Sirens and Muffled talking Then My mind went back to my dance class today I Had ballet and then Pointe and then solo work I though back to pointe They where playing the song Ocean eyes By billie Ellish and I though about chandler the entire time Those beautiful blue eyes I hear people yelling to make sure I was alive I felt someone touch my neck "She’s alive!"I hear a muffled voice yell People pick me up and put me on something "Sweetheart can you hear me"Someone asks "Y-Y-Y-e-e-e-s-s"I say Quietly "Ok sweetheart I need you to think of someone One of your friends or family members and say there name"She says "James"I say quietly "Ok And what is your last name and Your relationship to james"She says I felt something enter my arm something cold "L/N and Brother"I say quietly "Ok anyone else you would know"She asks "My boyfriend"I say quietly "Ok and what is his name"She asks "Chandler Riggs"I say quietly "Ok sweetheart is the iPhone 6 with the purple and black case on it yours?"She asks "Yes"I say quietly I felt her grab my hand gently and open it with my fingerprint "Call his mom Its late"Another doctor says "Ok sweetheart we are going to put you to sleep now Ok"Another doctor says "Ok"I say I felt something cold go into my bloodstream so cold it burned I felt light headed and I pass out

(Chandler’s pov)

"Chandler!"My mom calls out I get up from my bed and I walk down the stairs she is at the table Tears in her eyes "Go get dressed"She says "Why?"I ask "Y/N’s Family got into a car crash and Y/N is the only one left alive"My mom says Chocking on a sob I stand there in shock "Is she ok?"I ask frantic "They said she has a few broken bones and a broken rib"She says "Ok is she in the hospital?"I ask She nods I run upstairs and go get dressed I change into some jeans and a throw on a jacket and some shoes I grab my phone and I run down the stairs "We may be gone all night So get Grayson to school!"My mom says "Chandler grab my keys"My mom says I grab her keys "Tell Y/N I said get well soon"Grayson says "I will!"I say running out the door and to the car

(Your’s POV)

I open my eyes to see bright lights and medical equipment all around me And When I look to my side I see Chandler I smile still a little tired He smiles back his eyes puffy from crying "How ya feeling?"He asks moving some hair away from my face "Everything hurts and tired"I say "What time is it?"I ask "2:00AM"He says "Why are you here You need sleep"I say Yawning "Are my parents ok?"I ask He gives me a synthetic look And looks at his mom He cups my cheek with his hand "Baby Im so so so sorry But they didn’t make it"He says It felt my heart shatters He kisses my head I let my tears fall "I’m sorry baby girl"He says "Wheres Jackson?"I ask "He didn’t make it either"He says quietly "No"I whisper I felt like i was dead The only person I have left is someone I hate and despise God I hated my brother he was always out with friends or with girls but I guess it was my only option

(Present time)

A lot has changed I died my hair black and I pierced my nose and I got a cartilage piercing and I stopped dancing Something I have been doing since I was 2 I stopped Because of one fucking night! and I started Cutting Every time I cut it felt like that night of the crash and I would just want to cut more It was my stress reliever anyways I Put on my jacket I was wearing Black torn at the knee jeans a black shirt and a dark green jacket with Black combat boots and Eyeliner with some mascara and I grab my backpack and I rush down the stairs It felt like my stomach was eating itself I was so hungry I haven’t eaten a full meal in around 3 days I did grab a banana and I cut around 2 inches off it And I eat it I throw the rest of it away I hear My phone go off Chandler’s Calling me I answer it and I Put it on speaker "Hey baby Im pulling up into your neighborhood You ready?"He asks "Yeah I am"I say "Ok bye"He says I hang up the home and I walk outside And I see Chandler pull up in his car I hop in the car "Morning baby"He says He kisses my head "Morning"I say He brushes his thumb against my lip "Still there?"I ask I now have a scar on my lip and by my eyebrow "Yeah Just a little"e says He kisses my lips "I love you"He says "I love you too"I say He begins to drive Holding my hand while he does Brushing his thumb on my hand He turns on the radio and Tag your it By Melanie Martinez is playing "Running through the parking lot He chased me and he wouldn’t stop "I sing quietly Chandler chuckles "You’re so cute"Chandler says I smile "Hey uh what do you want for your birthday"He asks My birthday was in 3 weeks I shrug "Maybe Just some gift cards"I say "You still going to get your belly button pierced?"He asks Chandler doesn’t knows I cut And I don’t want him finding out or Im not telling him "Probably not"I say "Why?"He asks I push on his belly button and He laughs and twitches "See it tickles"I say "Yeah your right"He says We pull up to the school and He parks the car and turns off the engine I hop and We walk to the front door hand in hand We walk to our lockers which are next to each other I grab my Textbooks and we walk to class We sit in our desks and the bell rings

(35 Minutes into Class)

Memories of the car crash Take over my mind I raise my hand "Yes Y/n?"My teacher says "May I be excused?"I ask She gives me a sympathetic look "Of course"She says I stand up and I walk out of the class and into the bathroom Luckily my eyeliner is waterproof I begin to cry I sit on the toilet and I push my jeans down exposing my thighs with atleast 12 cuts on each some are fresh and some are fading I pull a razor blade out of My pocket and I place it on my thigh I And I begin to cut I make 4 more cuts the blood drips down my thigh I remember the day I looked in the mirror after the crash I had a huge gash on my forehead and a cut on my lip by my eye and I had a huge gash on my stomach along with a few broken ribs I wipe my tears and I pull my jeans up putting the blade back in my pocket I walk back to class wiping my tears while walking back To class

I walk back in and I sit down

(After school)

F6irst, lets quickly talk about lunch Chandler and I walked outside to the picnic tables We sit with chandler’s Friends We sit down and chandler pulls out his lunch "Wheres your lunch"He asks "I Forgot it”I say “Here you want half of my sandwich"He asks ”Im not hungry I ate a big breakfast"I say I was starving but the thought of eating almost made me vomit

Anyways chandler drove me home “You wanna come in?"I ask "Sure"He says We both walk inside "James!"I yell "Not home as usual"I mumble we walk up to my room and we both lie on my bed I take off my boots Chandler makes off his shoes I lay my head on his chest "Im tired"I say I hear my phone go off Chandler hands it to me James is calling I roll my eyes and I answer It "Hey Y/n Im not gonna be home tonight I have work till 10:30 and then Im staying over at Miley’s House"He says "Ok"I say "Alright bye"He says I hang up the phone "You wanna stay at my house?"He asks "Please"I say He smiles "Ok on the way we can get Smoothie king"He says I did want a smoothie But I knew I would probably throw it up "ok"I say I stand up and I grab a small overnight bag from my closet "You wanna help me pick my outfit for tomorrow?"I ask "Hell ya"Chandler says I smile I show him a shirts "That one"He says I put it in my bag and I put another pair of Black jeans I put some clothes for tonight in there and I put my makeup bag in there and a couple of toiletries "Ready?"He asks I nod I grab my bag and We walk downstairs I grab my house keys and We walk out of the house I lock it back I hop in the car and chandler drives to his house but first we stop at smoothie king I get a berry blast and he gets a mango smoothie We pull up to his house We walk inside "Mom Im home!"He says We walk to the stairs which are in the kitchen "Hey mom can Y/n stay the night her brother has to work"Chandler asks "Of course!"Mrs riggs says

We both walk up the stairs I place my bag down and Chandler wraps his arms around my waist and kisses me I wrap my arms around his neck He begins to slowly pull up my shirt I slap his hand away I pull away And I lay my head on his shoulder "Sorry I just Im not really ready"I say "Its ok Its ok"He says he kisses my head "Hey its ok if your not ready"He says "Come here why don’t you go get changed into something comfy and I will turn on youtube"He says "Ok"I say I grab my clothes from my bag and I walk into his bathroom I brought some pajama pants and a sweatshirt I change into that And I walk back into his room He is lying on his bed and I climb in next to him "You know what I should get you for your birthday"He says "What"I say "That cartilage earring you wanted at the mall"He says "The arrow one"I say he nods I smile "Perfect"I say I cuddle as close as I can with him and we watch youtube on his T.V We were watching shane damsons Newest video "In 1 week it will be the day Jackson and My parents died"I say I burry my head in the crook of chandler’s Neck "Its ok"He says gently he kisses my head "Did you take your anti depressants?"Chandler asks He knows I have been diagnosed with depression be he doesn’t know I cut or starve myself "No I forgot"I say "What am I gonna do with you"He chuckles I peck him on the lips and I lay back down I end up closing my eyes and falling asleep

(1 week later)(I know lots of time skips)

"It’s Been Two years get the fuck over it!!!"My brother screams at me "That was our parents!!! Our 4 Year old brother!!"I scream "So fucking what maybe they should of learned how to drive!"He screams "That car came out of no where!!"I scream "Well, maybe they should of been going faster"Miley his girlfriend says "Yeah, and this isn’t something you should be Slitting your fucking wrist for!"James says I take a step back "Fuck you both!"I scream I run up the stairs and I lock my door "Get the fuck Over it Emo girl! They’re gone get over it and whore around with your boyfriend!"James yells I choke on a sob I had to now I had to I walk into my bathroom Grabbing my blades And My painkillers After the crash, they gave me painkillers I never took them because I was saving them, I sit on the floor and I wanted people to know I wanted them to know I wanted Chandler to know and James, I take a picture of the bottle and the blades and I post it on Instagram with the caption

"The last 2 years have been hell for me, I lost my parents and My little brother Truth is I started Cutting and starving myself Today is the anniversary of my parents and brother’s Death and I can’t fucking do it anymore, I can’t Antidepressants or Happy movies don’t do it @Chandlerriggs5 makes me happy But I can’t keep pretending to be ok I’m not ok I will never be ok 1 night changed my life 1 night! And I want everyone to know I’m doing this because My brother is a asshole I’m a social outcast and I hate pretending So this Is Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N saying Fuck you universe I’m leaving this shit”

I post it and take off my bracelets I grab my blade and I just cut I don’t even care where on my wrist I just cut All I saw was blood on my wrist I grab the pill bottle when I heard my phone go off chandler I ignored it and I took a handful of pills and I shove them into my mouth swallowing them I felt lightheaded and I fell unconscious

(Chandler’s POV)

“Answer the phone Y/n!"I say Holding my phone to my ear It goes to voicemail "Shit"I say My mom pulls into the driveway I get out of the car and run inside "James!"I yell He walks into the foyer "Chandler what’s wrong"He asks "Wheres Y/N?!"I say "Upstairs"He says I run up the stairs followed by James I run into Y/N’s Room I kicked open her door and I ran into the bathroom I saw her lying on the ground bottle of pills in her hand I rushed to her side "Call 911!!"I yell I feel her heartbeat And I take off my flannel and I tie it around her wrist I sit her up "Come on baby girl Please stay with me Please"I beg I shoved 3 fingers down her throat causing her to gag and throw up She coughs and coughs "Come on baby Breathe Breathe"I say Before I knew it the ambulance was here they rushed her to the hospital My mom and I followed in the car

When we got there They took her in for surgery And then we got the news That made me almost kill James

"All she had in her system was pills nothing else. And I have never seen that many cuts on anyone. Do you know why she would do this?"The doctor says Im sitting there in shock "She lost her parents 2 years ago along with her little brother"My mom says "Alright well She should be waking up soon So follow me"The doctor says We stand up and follow him Into a room and I saw her she lied there Her skin pale as always Her piercings are out "We had to take out her piercings for a x ray"He says I nod He hands them to me I sit in the chair next to the bed and I place them on the nightstand And I hold her hand Running my fingers through her hair "Its good she is alright"My mom says "Yeah"I say Her wrists wrapped in a bandage "I never knew She always said she was fine She always told me she took her antidepressants and that she ate"I say "Maybe she was scared to tell you"My mom says "Maybe"I say barley above a whisper The door opens and James and Miley step in "She alright?"He asks I nod "They said she had nothing in her system except for the pills"My mom says "I just got off the phone with my aunt y/n is gonna move in with her"James says "But she lives In California"I say Looking up at James "Its better than her being here"He says "But that's halfway across the country!"I say "Well Chandler What else do you expect me to do"James says "Actually take care of her Every single time she comes home your gone every night your gone!"I yell "James I thinks its best she stays here her friends are here Chandler’s Here if we make her move it will make it worse"Miley says "Well Im not quitting my job just because my sister is a depressed brat"James says I clench my fist fighting punching him in the face "She can live with us"My mom says I unclench my fist "Yeah she can I will take care of her I will make sure she eats and that she is happy"I say James Bites the inside of his lip looking angry "Fine"He says Rubbing his head I hear a quiet cough and I turn around to see Y/N opening her eyes I sit back down in the chair and I grab her hand Running my fingers through her hair

She coughs again "Chandler"She says quietly "I’m here baby girl I’m here."I say "Am I dead?"She says quietly "No Baby girl your gonna be ok, I promise"He says "What happened"She asks, "They pumped your stomach baby girl, why didn’t you tell me?"I ask "Because I was afraid"She says Weakly She looks at James "I hate you"She says "You did this to yourself"He says "You made me do this to myself"She says I glare at him "What did you do to her"I demand "I told her the truth! They’re dead, she should just deal with it!"James says "You’re not the one who was in the crash"She says strictly

3:00AM

It was 3:00Am everything they gave Y/N to eat, she Threw it up She was asleep And she was so cute, I pulled out my phone and I took a picture of her for instagram with the caption

"She is Ok. She is gonna be ok, she is moving in with me and Right now they are trying to keep her food down And if you where wondering, I didn’t know she cut I didn’t know she had anorexia I never knew I knew she was depressed, but If you can go give Y/N some love that would be great @ThatBitch5” I posted it and I grab take her phone I open it and I open her instagram I take a picture of her and I put the caption “She is ok” And I post it I kiss her head and I lay my head On the bed I close my eyes and fall asleep

1 Week later

Y/N’s POV

Chandler picked me up, bridal style He closed the car door this his foot and Carried me inside as His dad carried my suitcase inside I hid my head in his neck, avoiding everyone around me, I wanted to be dead I still do I don’t want to be here Chandler carried me upstairs into his room and placed me on his bed he kneels down in front of me “You know I love you, right?”He asks I shrug “I do Y/N I do And I stopped you because I can’t live without you”He says “Theirs over 7 billion people on this planet you can find someone else”I say He opens his mouth barley like he was going to say something But he just kisses my head then sits next to me “You are perfect and beautiful in every way and your pass does make it any different I want you and only you..I love you so much Y/N”He says I try to stay mad at his but I can’t “I love you too”I say he rests his forehead on mine and slowly he says “You are the best thing to ever happen to me Y/N without you I don’t think I would be who I am today”He says He runs his fingertips over my bandaged arm “These are beautiful they happened should they have happened no but they did and you are gonna recover from it I believe in you”He says I smile Biting my lip to hide back tears I throws my arms around his neck and hugs his he hugs back then picks me up and again pulls the comforter back and sits down against the bed frame cuddling me in his arms he strokes my hair and hums quietly My eye lids fall heavy and a fall into a peaceful sleep

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followthesavlife · 7 years

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Stress, Eat, Stress, Sleep, Stress Stress Stress.

Im back... after a few long LONG weeks.

In these past few weeks my time has consisted of

-Traveling across the country by car, again.

(This including a 20 hour consistent drive to Colorado from California but totally worth it due to the beauty.)

This is the Great Salt Lakes. I was so amazed by them and the beautiful reflections they create of the surrounding mountains. Very tired at this point though.

And this is Nick and I at the last leg of the drive, exhausted and actually more ready than ever to see SC and our homes again. :-)

-Living with my boyfriend and his parents for a week.

This wasn't all that bad but crashing at someone elses home is always a different type of thing, especially when you haven't been in a comfortable place in a while anyways. This also included all of my clothes and everyday life stuff in my car still packed, so basically living out of my car and two backpacks.

Applying for Jobs. Which I thought would be a lot easier process... but we are always proven wrong somewhere, right?

Moving into an apartment and trying to get everything together.

Our living room once we actually got everything set up, both are very pleased with its simplicity.

Stressing.

Applying for jobs.

Celebrating Nicks birthday!

And also a nice get away to Columbia with Nick’s Father and family. The sunset was beautiful and so was the day on the lake.

But soon, back to stressing and applying for jobs.

so you know.... it doesn't seem like much. But for the life of Sav it has been very very eventful. It seems though, that Im too quick to stress but I often notice this isn't just something I alone struggle with. We get so caught up in the plans that WE want, the things that WE expect, its all about OUR plans.. but as a follow of Christ, it doesn't really work that way does it.

Every time I even begin to mention to someone, no matter who it seems to be, that I am stressed due to the fact that I still haven't found a job and thought this process was going to be a lot shorter and easier.. they don't even let me get a full sentence out before they tell me “not to stress, it will come”. I just sit there and in my mind I'm freaking out screaming “ Do you not understand!!! My money is running low!! My boyfriend is working his butt off to support both of us and that isn't even his job!!! I need a JOB!!!! I HAVE TO STRESS!!!” but I can't help but look at them with honesty and say “you are absolutley right.” I often get the response to pray or to keep my eyes on Gods plan instead of mine. Each time I see that I’m starting to fall off of the track and that is exactly what I needed to hear, yet again.

Ive heard so many times in peoples testimony that they go through a time period when they feel as if God has abandoned them and if I were to believe such a thing as Him abandoning me, I would have to say this would be my time.. and I’ve heard the story so many times that I know it isn't true that instead this is a test of my faith and instead of “abandoning” me he may instead be sitting back and allowing some test to come my way.

So I keep trying to focus, trying to feel in the blanks and attempt to make sure that I don't get mad at God for me being stressed and things not going MY way.

(Instead I seem to be getting frustrated with either myself or worse.. Nick. Neither is fair, so my attempt to stay level headed and upright has been upholding.)

It makes me wonder though and my brain begins to rack the idea of if I am on the right track in life. I like to think I am. I mean...

Im back at home, near my family. Im with the guy who was put in my path that I have no questions if he is the one or not. I’m moved into a safe place that seemed to have had many blessings come along with it. I feel as if I’ve followed all the right steps you know?

But the voice is still quite. I still hear silence when I pray. Or do I?

I see so many beautiful things come. Nick and I have yet to struggle with finding the things we truly wanted or needed for our apartment. We had an overwhelming and abundant amount of love and support from both sides when it came to moving into the apartment together. It was all provided so quickly and effortlessly that I think it left us both speechless.

Both of our families are so accepting and open to one another and the learning of two completely different households is an interesting process but it seems to be working.

When life is like that, its so important to not forget the small blessings. Such as cleaning supplies, a couch, a Kuerig, or anything in between. Literally those things seem so unimportant but they are things that we became so grateful for.

Though I do spend my day times alone due to the lack of a job, and Nick working hard each day to provide a good income, I have a ton of time to stress and think of all the negatives as I apply for countless jobs. I can't allow this quite time for the enemy to sneak in. This is my time to be talking to God and asking him to guide my way.

Currently I am waiting to hear back from a job, and Lord knows that if he blessed me with anything, he didn't bless me with much patience when it comes to things that are priorities to me. But I am testing it, and attempting to remain patient. The east coast is undergoing Hurricane Irma who has brought us tons of rain and wind.

As I continue to wait I would love to hear from anyone. I know my blogs are still a mess, but Im starting and trying. So if you've read this and would like to talk or ask questions please feel free to do so! Also share or like or anything you feel you should.

Thanks for reading! Ill try to get back soon.

Love,

Savannah, TheLifeOfSav

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kcrbyn-blog · 7 years

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hiya babies ! my name is emma, i’m 19, i’m from the est timezone, and if kesha doesn’t stop all this releasing new music without any kind of warning business, i’m going to have a heart attack. this is my lovechild, korbyn el-amin — works at musicology by day, is the lead singer/guitarist of saturdaze whenever she’s not working (occasionally at night). i have been itching to plot with all of you and your beautiful muses already, so pretty please swing through my ims or just like this post for me to magically appear in yours! prepare for rambles beneath the cut.

so, a little info on k:

ever since she could remember, it’s always just been her and her father; the backstory on her mother has always been hazy since she could never get much out of her dad about her, other than that she was no longer in the picture. korbyn knows she’s alive and that is as far as her knowledge goes, she’s not looking to expand it any time soon, either. she’s content with it just being her and her dad — they got along well, settled into a nice little routine that worked well for them, all that jazz

she’s always been incredibly independent mostly because she’s used to being alone and it’s never really bothered her?? her dad worked his ass off when she was a kid, working for an internet marketing company that demanded he travel quite a bit, so while it’s just the two of them, once work called it dwindled down to just korbyn. she never was one to follow a crowd or try to fit in, she did her own thing and didn’t really give a fuck who liked/approved of it or not?

was also totally the new kid, she didn’t move into newcastle until she was thirteen after her dad quit his marketing job because he was tired of constantly traveling and this didn’t faze her any; she didn’t necessarily enjoy the sleepy atmosphere of newcastle but she wasn’t packing her bags and running back to upstate new york, either

probably came off as rather terrifying/broody but she’s not, really?? like...she’s actually pretty outgoing and charming but she doesn’t take fucking shit, and isn’t about to go chasing after something she’s not really all that interested in anyways

music was the first real, true love of her life; her dad was a huge classic rock junkie and brought her up on it, and the older she got the more and more obsessed with the concept of music just in general?? she listens to just about any genre ( her least favorite is country ) and she started growing quite the vinyl collection after her dad got her a record player for her twelfth birthday. korbyn loves to take apart music and analyze it, from the instrumentals to the lyrics to the production value, all of it, it was her biggest hobby.

when she was younger, she’d sneak into her dad’s room whenever he wasn’t home and would get his guitar out and teach herself as best she could, and he promised that when they moved, he’d set her up some real lessons (hello musicology)

the cosmogyral has always been one of my favorite labels and i haven’t put it to use in a really long time (thank god for this rp giving me the opportunity to tbh) the definition of the word cosmogyral is ‘whirling around the universe’ and that’s certainly korbyn to a t. she’s never content with stagnancy, she likes to constantly be thinking and doing and moving and striving to be all the things, essentially. korbyn’s a very strategic, take no prisoners kinda girl who acts first and asks the questions later; opinionated, pretty fiery, and often doesn’t have a filter, but she’s also a huge dreamer with a big heart that often gets shadowed by all her steel. she tends to live in her head quite a bit, which comes at its costs. the big part that i usually read into with the cosmogyral is that they are incredibly volatile, they’re easy to flip or turn in their moods and are pretty fickle. korbyn is the type of person who will change her mind a lot about something and she’ll be hella stubborn about it. she sticks to her guns, this one, even if she’s constantly changing them up

is a highkey rebel, does whatever she wants, says whatever she wants, has probably got into quite a bit of trouble for this but doesn’t really care, she’s your girl if you’re looking to cause some trouble

has evaded the law more than she cares to admit, i’m sure, but she’s hella smart and she’s a charmer

bisexual as fuck, total softie when it comes to romance...like, expect for her to write a fucking song about u

entj, that’s her basically

perfectionist as fuck, it will either be endearing or irritating. a lot of time it dictates how she acts, and she can kinda drive herself over the edge and get so frustrated with herself she’ll just.....riot

also probably smokes a LOT because she’s great at stressing herself out

saturdaze is the fucking love of her life at the moment and the only one she needs, truthfully; she pours every little ounce of herself into the band because it’s what she’s passionate about and the music they play makes her feel so fucking good and happy and it’s not something she wants to let go any time soon

also pretty supportive of all the other bands in town?? she’ll go check them out on nights she doesn’t have practice/work/a gig/plans, girl likes good music and doesn’t care where it comes from

korbyn’s in her last few years of school and she fucking loathes her major now, it was a basic one she just decided on and never changed it and doesn’t really want to do anything with it, and school is driving her off the edge, to the point where she’s on the verge of dropping out and just playing her little local gigs w saturdaze and working the ropes at musicology forever so she doesn’t have to make a decision

this however, is not an option, because her dad is the one paying her way through school and she knows giving a big fuck you to that is a one-way ticket to a conflict she doesn’t want (after years of not having any conflict w her dad, it’s bound to arrive at some point and korbyn believes this will be it) but she just so desperately wants to be happy and live her life the way she wants to that she’s pretty much pulling herself apart at the seams, fun times!!

wanted plots !

these are all just ideas that i’d love to see for k, we obviously can flesh these out as our hearts desire or do spins on them or do something entirely different, i’m open to literally everything but these are pretty much a starting block

ride or die (1/1) — korbyn would literally do anything for this person; she probs gets into all kinds of trouble with them, but they are her Best Friend and she’d trust them with her life if it ever came down to it

awkward ex (0/1) — the two of them dated a little while ago, and the relationship lasted longer than they’d anticipated, and for whatever reason, they decided to go their separate ways. awkward bc korbyn is a fan of their band and still goes to shows when she can and therefore, they see each other quite a bit

skinny love (0/1) — at some point, korbyn realized their friendship was more than just friendship-like feelings on her end but she’ll be damned if she’s the reason she loses this person, so she tries her best to act normal around them but it probably...doesn’t work lmao

enemy she fuckin on the low (0/1) — lmao now THIS person, they get on korbyn’s last fucking nerve and she really can’t tolerate them, but one night they fell into bed together and decided y’know....angry sex really is the best, so while they’re pretty open about their disdain for one another in public, they be hooking up on the down low

sworn to secrecy (1/?) — korbyn enjoys doing stupid shit that attracts trouble, and she and i’m thinkin like maybe two or three other people?? yeah they all did something one night that was FUCKED, and they’d be fucked if anybody ever found out about it so they’re all incredibly close mostly because they share this dirty lil secret

sexual tension (0/?) — they’re all musicians, ok. there’s BOUND to be some sexual tension, whether it’s acted on or not is up to us but korbyn turns on the charm when she sees them at shows (theirs and her own, so someone from a diff band works swell for this), they probably flirt a lot in public...such fun

bad influence (0/2) — korbyn can be a lot to swallow sometimes lmao, and yet this person doesn’t really fucking care, they’re who she can go out and get into fucking trouble with and they encourage her to do shit or! korbyn’s basically corrupting your muse and is bringing them outta their shell

good influence (0/1) — this person balances out korbyn very well, keeps her outta trouble and tones her down when she gets fired up as best they can, is essentially the little tiny angel sitting on her shoulder

i’m really open to whatever okay just throw it by me if you have a different idea, i’ll probably say yes

i have this queued to drop as soon as we open so i may be off eating dinner, but please don’t hesitate to come message me? like i said, i am dying to write korbyn and get to know you all in the process so please, love me, i beg of you. i’m so fucking excited about this roleplay, guys, i can’t wait to get started x

#「•• heroin(e) ; out of k.#ncvt:intro

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mylovingbouquetearthquakewo-blog · 6 years

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Car insurance for a day/week for a learner

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Hey, basically i am going to take my practical test in a couple of weeks (14th) and im taking it in my car, i was just wondering if there is any companys that specialise in car insurance for just a day or a week for learner drivers. if so what companys and how much am i looking to have to pay, thanks

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I just finished drivers ed today and I want to go ahead and get my drivers license because also Lowes called me and want me to come in for orientation! Crazy day right? 2 good things in 1 day. But anyways the Lowes that I should be working at is maybe 15 minutes away and the position I have should be a night position. I'm sure my mom doesn't want to drive around at night so I told her she can just give me the car at night. Here's the thing my dad said he'd have to put me on his insurance. I would like to get my own insurance so they can save some of there money. So can anybody point me in any direction or give me some tips. Because im clueless when it comes to car insurance. Right now my mom is asking me do I have to work there. I plan on grabbing this job because I've been looking for awhile and I finally got 1. Ain't no telling when I'll get another one

Why should we pay CAR insurance?

I know it is made to protect us from being sue, I understand this. BUT if we are MADE to pay insurance to drive a car then the Car insurance companies should be MADE to include Car replacement as a STANDARD pack for both Full and Liability coverage(Why should I lose my car because of a BAD driver) If your car is totaled and you are still making payments then you lose a car. If you paid off your car and it is totaled, you lose a car. Lastly, we who pay insurance and don't have an accident in six months(or one year)should be given a choice of a lower premium, cash returned or a loan.""

Car insurance for a day/week for a learner

How much would insurance be for me if i have kawasaki zx10r and im a newbie?

Average Insurance rate for teenager in ontario?

Hey, Im gonna be getting my g2 in a couple of months and i've saved up about $6000 for a half decent car for school so i can stop taking the **** transit service brampton has. My parents agreed to pay for insurance as long as its not too expensive. I will be going under their name i guess as i heard its cheaper but the only risk is that if i mess up the car, their insurance will go up so ill have to be extra careful.. Whats the average rate for insurance for a 16-year old male with pretty good grades (if that matters). the car wont be something expensive obviously but im also 16 so its gonna be something cool of course ahaha. most likely wont have turbo installed but comestically modified (body kit, sound system, exhaust mods etc.) All insurances are through RBC with my parents so i know thatll make it cheaper for me since they basically bank with that only bank thanks !""

Will my car isurance be cheaper if Im a second driver on someone else's policy?

My insurnce got terminated due to ONE missed payment, I tried talking to my previous insurers but to no avail, I have a claim still to be resolved, hence any new quote is coming bak with ridiulous premiums. So I was wondering if I add my name as second driver on someone else's policy will it be cheaper? Please help. I need to get back on the road as soon as possible, my job depends on it.""

Someone backed into my BMW 325ci and pushed in the door. Does anyone know how much it will cost to get fixed?

Someone backed into my BMW 325ci and pushed in the door. It looks like the door will need a new skin and paint. I am debating whether or not to go through insurance. Does anyone know what it will cost to replace the door sheetmetal and have it painted?

Need condo insurance in Florida?

Hi, can anyone point me to any web sites or insurance agents in Florida that are still writing insurance for condos? Thanks!""

What is general insurance?

i want to know abt general insurance.

What is the lowest payment for a car loan?

I want to get a Camaro when im 16. Theyre about 35,000 new. Its a lot but yet not. My parents wont buy me a new car as my first. I understand why, but im not reckless or anything. Also what is the insurance for a 16 year old (great grades) driving a Camaro? I think my family has progressive. Anything cheaper? Loans are very risky I know but the job that I will be getting pays a decent amount every 2 weeks or so. I do good with money, every know and then a girl needs to shop :). My mom usually pays for all that stuff though. I dont know anything about loans and banks. How does it all work? Can you tell me like what I would be about paying each month or week for a Camaro? Dont call me stupid, Im just thinking about it. I want a sports bike instead because then I wouldnt need a loan but I need a car for the winter...""

Short-term car insurance?

Im looking for a company that will do short-term (preferably 3 weeks but a month is fine) car insurance for a 17 year old male with a provisional licence, can anyone recommend one?""

Car insurance tricks to make it cheaper?

Im getting a car but my insurance is going to be 8000 is there any tricks to make it cheaper? my friend told me to use Learner Driver Insurance and use it for a year and it will cost me 1000 pounds should I do this or not?

When do you have to buy car insurance?

When do you have to buy car insurance? I've just bought my first car privately and expect to drive it home next Tuesday. However, I'm confused about the insurance. When should my insurance policy start? Does it have to be next Tuesday, too?""

Car Insurance?

If I hit a car that is totaled and the owner does not have insurance should I still go through my insurance company?

I live in SC and I need to get my own Insurance Policy to buy a car. ( I'm 17) Can I get coverage alone?

My Parents don't want to add me to their insurance because we have several vehicles already and adding another car and a teenager will cause their insurance to be even more outrageous. Can I get my own insurance policy without effecting my parents at all? (With their permission of course.)

Acura integra insurance?

im about to buy a 95 integra 2 door coupe stick shift... and my parents want to know the the cost of insurance before i buy it. but state farm is closed today and tommorrow. So are there any teen guys that have this car or similar one, and how much does your insurance cost. and im going to need collision coverage as well... and i will be listed under my parents with good student discount and safe driving stuff... so yeah just give me your thoughts on how much""

Whats the best way to get the best insurance rates for car and home?

Whats the best way to get the best insurance rates for car and home? I have a 25,000 truck from 2010 that I'm paying 1500 a year for and a house which I'm paying 1400 a year for. I live in Colorado. I bought my first house this year and I'm thinking that I'm paying way to much for my house and truck? I'm thinking of going to an insurance agent although i'm not sure how to source a good one. Another big problem is I never have access to my service so I have a really hard time comparing policies. Anyone have any insight as to how I can get better control of this situation?""

Insurance? Renting a car?

Hi, this is my first time renting a car. I reserved a car from Enterprise to be picked up at the airport this Thursday. It's like $15 a day. I owned a car in the past and, of course, had car insurance. Now, I don't have a car. When I pick up the car at Enterprise, what should I do with the insurance? I don't think you can drive a car without insurance, right? How much does it cost?""

Old car insurance help?

just bought a new car and part exchanged my old one but the old one still had some months of insurance, can i get my money back for the un-used months? this ill help fund the new car's insurance""

Roughly how much is liability insurance on a kawasaki ninja 250 (motorcycle)?

Why is my car insurance so high?

Just finished paying a year of car insurance at like 125 a month. Just got my new bill for the year. They want 195 atleast first month. Are there cheaper car insurance companies out there?

""Car Insurance, passed test today, 18 years old, cheapest insurance?""

Hi, I passed my test this morning and I live in Birmingham in the UK, I was wondering if there was any companies that do cheap insurance for my age group.. The car I have is a 1.4 Ford Fiesta Zetec, and was looking on paying 2500 maximum. Thank you!!!""

I got my first DWI i ll be getting my license back soon how much will my insurance go up in the state of mo?

in the state of missouri how much will my insurance rates go up after my first dwi? (and LAST)

When will health insurance become affordable?

If the insurance companies and pharmaceuticals won't reign in costs, then we need to go to socialized medicine. It is ludicrous that insurance costs so much for individuals.""

EMPLOYER INSURANCE VS OUTSIDE INSURANCE?

I work for a company that provides insurance through Health-net. Since the rates aren't that great (ya, what a surprise for Hyundai) I was wondering if could I deny the company insurance and just go with an outside provider? Or if I half to take what ever my company provides me.""

Best places to buy gap insurance and extended warranty for new cars?

either online or in the real world, where is the best place to purchase gap insurance and extended warranty on a new car? i would like to get rate quotes from different places and choose from the best ones. i hear the ones the dealerships offer are too expensive and give them a chance to adujst the overall price of the car in their favor?""

Cheapest car insurance? Don't care if my car gets damaged.?

Hi, I have a really old car that I just want to use to get around town. I don't care if it gets damaged in a crash or whatever, because it already looks terrible. SO, how do I get the most basic and cheapest car insurance? Does anybody know what company will charge the least for insurance?""

Motorbike insurance cost?

hi all i have just passed my bike test and was wondering how much insurance would be for a 125, 250 range engine im 18, 0ncb any suggestions would be good cheers""

Car insurance for a day/week for a learner

Premium tax rate on car insurance cancellation?

I want to cancel my insurance policy. I am currently paying monthly with insure to drive. I have had the policy for 3 months and reading the cancellation points it says a 35 cancel fee and premium tax rate. I currently pay 133 pounds a month for insurance if that means anything (totalling 1600 a year)

Whats the name of the song on the geico motorcycle insurance commercial with the cavemen?

whats the name of the song on the geico motorcycle insurance commercial with the cavemen?

Libs the challenge is still open Find a reputable source that states the AVERAGE premiums/deductibles...?

Have gone down AFTER the Affordable care act aka Obamacare. All I'm seeing is that its cheaper for a few but, going up significantly for the majority. On top of that millions of people are losing their current plan and being forced to pay more. CBS: ObamaCare forcing millions to lose their insurance http://hotair.com/archives/2013/10/25/cbs-obamacare-forcing-millions-to-lose-their-insurance/ I ask this earlier with no success http://www.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20131026173956AAYY3AC""

Auto insurance?

what is the best auto insurance out there and why

Classic car insurance companies?

anyone know any classic car insurance companies that will have 17yr olds??

How much money would I save on car insurence?

I have a 16 year old who I am debating whether I should put him in driving school to save money on insurance when he turns 17 and gets a licence. It would be added to my insurance. about how much money would I save on car insurance with a behind the wheel driving school in New Jersey? Please dont give me wbsites with a free quotes.

Is there any way a 16 year old minor can get car insurance in his own name in SC?

From what I have read it seems like all I have to do is get my parents permission to get my own plan in my name and that's it. And if you can please give me some car insurance agencies that will give minors car insurance. thank you

Insurance website says differnt car?

Ive been looking at cars on eBay and looking how much insurance would be for them and I found one car, but when I put the number plate in the insurance website it says that the car is a different make all together. Is this just a glitch in the system or something illegal and I should stear clear of?""

Do I need my car to put insurance on it?

My car got impounded last night and I need to register the car in my name in order to put insurance on it, Im going to the DMV Monday morning to register it then head over to put insurance on it but need help on knowing whether I do need my car with me. Do i need My Car to register it and put basic cheap insurance on it too? Please let me know. My state is California. & i do have a valid driver license too. Thank you :)""

""How much would you expect a family of three making 40,000 a year to pay for health insurance?

This should be interesting. How much?

Motorcycle insurance?

I'm young (21) looking for motorcycle insurance in MA and I was wondering some of the better options. Btw I'm looking for full coverage quotes. I have had a regular drivers license for about 4 years and I live in a rural area, not a lot of theft. I know it takes much more personal information than that but again I'm just looking for estimates. Just looking for good (preferably local) insurance companies and estimated quotes.""

How much does car insurance cost for a new driver?

How much does car insurance cost per month for a new driver (16 years old) in california?

How much does insurance usually pay off if your car is deemed totaled?

Ok, so, my car incurred some damage due to the recent flood waters of hurricane Ike. A person from Safe Auto insurance company is coming out tomorrow to assess the damage. When we spoke to him over the phone, he said it sounded like our car would end up being deemed totaled. There is still amount owed on the car. If we were to pay it off tomorrow it would be $3100. The value on the car varies from tprivate party value in good condition being $3900 to retail value being $5600 in our area. We have a $500 deductible. Now, if the car is infact totaled, how does the insurance pay out?""

Need help with Car Insurance?

I am a 17 year old in california, who just bought a 92 Buick Skylark and I need to no what would be my best bet when it comes to getting insurance, I would like cheap insurance, as ...show more""

Expensive insurance. why?

I've never been in an accident or recieved a ticket before so why is my insurance so expensive. Yes I am male but I am 25 ... It should have become cheaper a while ago but I'm paying about 50$ more a month than all of my friends and some have the same company.. I have liabillity as well.. how much cheaper should your insurance be if you never been ticketed or been In a crash? Thanks.

How much does the average person have in their checking account?

NOT including 401ks, etc. Just cash you can touch and spend. And how much should you have if you have like 1,000rent +utilities +car insurance +credit cards + cell phone, etc.""

Can a change in surname increase car insurance prices UK?

I obtained a quote for a car a couple of weeks back by putting in some fake details that were relatively similar to mine so I wasn't inundated with insurance company spam. The quote was for my mum and I was to be a named driver. The only thing that was noticeably different from reality were the names and email I used. Today, I went to get the quote again, this time for real and so typed in our real names and the quote went up by 600! I then changed the names back to the fakes but kept everything else the same and it went back down!! What's going on? Or do Aviva have something against people with Celtic surnames - I sincerely hope not! Just to clarify, I have previously never obtained a quote in my name with Aviva before this nor have either of our marital status' changed from the fake details. Any help would be great! Thanks in advance!""

Insurance for a motorcycle 125cc in ireland?

I am 19 and I would like to find out how much insurance would be for a motorcycle 125cc. What about a Honda CBR 125 insurance. I would be a beginner. From dublin ireland If anyone could recommend a 125cc that would have cheap insurance? Thanks

Help insuring a Car?

I am 16 years old and from the UK. I will be turning 17 in november and getting a driving licence. I was offered a car from my step dad. It is a 1996 Honda Civic Coupe LSi in green/blue. It has a 1.5 litre engine, and although not very powerful, it is very desireble to steal. It might be important to mention here that it has an automatic transmission. Here is a picture of the same kind of car. http://www.auto.vl.ru/catalog_photos/honda/civic_coupe/honda_civic_coupe_11787.jpg This car has a sentimentle value and it is the first car I ever drove. I have tried online insurance sites to see how much it would be to insure. All the prices are very high. I just wanted some advice on how to insure this car cheap. Or at least cheaper then the quotes I have been getting. I am willing to keep it in a garage, it has an alarm and I will use a steering lock, but the quotes are still expensive. .Thanks for any help I get

Cheapest Auto Insurance Online?!?

Im trying to find cheap liability coverage. My contract ends this Friday and Im trying to find a cheaper rate, has anyone had any luck with sites like Esurance.com, etc? Thanks for any advice!""

Car insurance... ways to lower it?

I know there are many variables but I've found the cheapest insurance company for me and adjusted various thing to lower it, all things are still true to me, but I'm currently looking to pay around 2400 I have found cheaper insurance for around 1400 bit then looking to pay around 1200 for the car, I bought my car for 80 as it was a family members car and needed work, but its all repaired, so the money id spend on a car wouldn't make up for insurance, also I've found insurance cheaper for my car but has a black box fitted to the car if I do that, but I may want to drive later than 11.00pm""

Car insurance question?

I currently own a Peugeot 206 on which the insurance is due for renewal at the beginning of December and is going to cost me somewhere in the region of 800. I am now, however looking into buying a Golf which would cost me around 950 to insure if I was to start the policy from scratch. My question is if I go on to insure my Peugeot for 800, if I buy a Golf say, a month, afterwards will it cost me a lot more to change the car over or will it just be like the diference between the 2 quotes for a year? I really don't want to waste hundreds of pounds by changing the cars over a month or two into the policy.""

Using a po box in license for cheap car insurance?

I live in the bronx but car insurance for me is like 660 a month... that's impossible to make... I wanted to go with Statefarm... I was using a po box in Yonkers, tuckahoe 20 mins away and it dropped to 220 a month with more then just liability coverage ... the po box isn't on the street it's a ups street address.. the guy told me people do it all the time but I just wanted to be sure.. does Statefarm ask for proof of address.... like bill of con Ed which Im only 17 btw.... I work so I was going to change my address on my check I receive to the Yonkers address and my debit card address also.. and ofcourse I was going to make that my address in my license.... I know brokers will give you insurance with any addres but will it be good the 6 months or will they contact me a month or so with asking for info abt my addres... will it work is the question if it's in on my license and I say that's where I live.. I'm 17 so I don't have credit... also has anyone ever done this?? no stupid answers""

How much is insurance for an Eagle Talon?

I need a new car, and I found a great deal on a 95 Eagle Talon, but my dad says that the insurance would be too high since I recently got into a car accident, and I'm only 19 years old, and because of course, it's kind of a sports car. Does anyone know about how high the insurance would be for someone living in Missouri? Any help appreciated.""

Whats the best auto insurance for a 20 year old girl with a 2006 Jeep Grand Cherokee?

What would be the best and the cheapest auto insurance for a girl 20 years old with a 2006 Jeep Grand Cherokee Laredo with 6 cyn 4X4 and a security system???? Which one would you consider the cheapest auto insurance?? She got a speeding ticket on 8/8/08 too going 45 in a 30.

Car insurance for a day/week for a learner

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