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barbiegirldream · 1 year

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dreams relationship with his dad is actually really comforting and inspiring to me. like he's talked about how it was strained when he was younger and even has that tweet about thinking he didn't love him but now he's showing these sweet texts and he's clearly super close to his family. it may be parasocial of me but it really makes me believe that I could get there with my mum one day.

When Dream talked years ago about rebuilding his relationship with him mom I really took those words to heart. And I began to understand her. She is my mama and I love her soo much while still understanding she abused me and my brother for years and at some point I just had to understand she is never going to apologize for it I just need to decide if I can live with it. And I can cause her new husband has really changed her for the better. And I see a woman worth knowing and loving and Dream really inspired me to reach out and try. So I say he shared these things with us on some level for this exact reason. So just know that anonie and go forward with it

#like with my mom I had to speak to my great aunt to really get it #my grandmothers parents abused them #so she abused her children #and my mother abused me #but in all cases they were very young women tasked with raising 6 3 and 2 kids #esp in my moms case she didn’t want kids she wasn’t married to my dad in fact they’d broken Up when she figured out she was pregnant #and suddenly she’s married with a screaming crying baby after a stint of serious illness and her husband is in the military in 2002 #he could deploy out and die at anytime leaving her alone and there’s no way she can go to college like she wanted and her live is over #for the next 18 years she worked endlessly dealing with a man she hated for kids she never wanted #does it excuse the abuse No of course not #but I understand why she was unable to learn anything than what she’d known growing up

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wildbasil · 2 months

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things haven't been great but i think they will be. eventually 🌻🌼🩷

#personal #comics #tw abuse #digital art #personal comic #for the record no i don't think my mother loves me #but the idea that she did kept me in an awful situation for a very long time #the number of times people said “she's your mother. she's trying her best. of course she loves you” etc etc #but i don't think “love” and abuse are mutually exclusive #like even if someone DOES love you it doesn't mean it's not abuse and it doesn't mean it's ok #art tag

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witchyykitten · 1 year

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everyone talks about cutting off a toxic parent

but no one ever talks about the pain of wanting a parent but knowing yours cannot love you the way they should

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northstarscowboyhat · 4 days

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Justice Family Cuddles ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

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lostmf · 2 months

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thecommunityoftrustworthysinks · 8 months

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You are Morgan Yu. No, you’re not Morgan Yu. You were Morgan Yu. No, you were something else.

The face in your memory—a man. The face in our mirror—a woman? No, you were a woman. You were many shadowy faces distorted in the polished gold of the railings.

You are Morgan Yu.

I am Morgan Yu.

“…and after that, it was over. No one could stop the Typhon. It spread all over earth. So I took my escape pod…”

Alex’s voice drumming in your head. Morgan’s head. It drummed endless hours through a transcribe.

Typhon.

Alex had made you. Alex had resurrected you. Alex created you.

Alex had killed us from the beginning.

No. You shake your head. You are not Morgan Yu. You don’t know what memories are real.

“Morgan?” You look up. You haven’t quite gotten your tongue to form real words yet. Morgan would’ve spoken more. I wanted to speak more. Alex sighed. “I guess it’s a lot to take in. You should get some rest, Morgan.”

He gestures at you, his voice directed towards the operators—your friends. Voices you thought you knew. Drumming again, directed away and bouncing back. “Take it back to its cell for tonight. I don’t want to risk anything reverting overnight.”

You could kill them. You know that. You did it a lot, before.

But you are Morgan Yu. Alex Yu is your brother. Alex Yu watched over you and worked with you.

Your bedroom. Where are you? Your bedroom.

Your voice is speaking to you. You don’t know the words. You don’t know the speaker.

Your bedroom?

You’ve been Morgan Yu. You’ve been a thousand Morgan Yu’s.

Are you Morgan Yu?

We are reading again. The logs of the destruction of Talos. I don’t remember it this way.

“Remember that, Morgan? You gave us the greatest idea that year. Boosted Neuromod reviews in days. Mom and Dad would be proud.”

The escape pods. They didn’t work. They were built that way.

Mikhalia.

I said it aloud. It rasped from my lips, scraping my throat on the way out.

“Mikhalia?” Alex. “She’s the operator now, Morgan.” His voice, smooth and condescending.

She was, though, wasn’t she?

You squeeze your arm. We can feel pain. I feel a trembling energy underneath.

“Do you remember her from Morgan’s memories?”

You were Morgan Yu?

Morgan would nod.

Morgan nodded.

“Interesting. You saved her, and then let everyone die instead of letting anyone escape.”

The echo of straps across your wrists and ankles tugs at you.

“You’ve always loved her too much, I thought. Either I was wrong, or you still have too much Typhon left in you.”

Phantoms inhabited bodies of human dead. Human dead did not inhabit phantoms.

Your inky hands scrape into the metal holding you. Where are we? Where is Morgan? I am Morgan!

Mimics. Alex kept several in secure locations, continuing his research. He tells you about them. He tells Morgan about them. The deep purple tissue of the Mimics feels familiar. Familiar from a thousand lifetimes—and familiar from you.

There is a room tonight. Alex locks it from the outside. You’re still at risk of being a monster. Right?

You are Morgan Yu.

Who is Morgan Yu?

A man tells you to destroy it—destroy it all. You won’t like it, it erases your family’s legacy and you will probably have to die too. But it’s the only thing that’s safe.

She says it too. The woman.

The woman?

Something courses through you. Every vein, every neuron, every spin of every atom is alive. It stings it roars it slows the world to a stop.

And everything is at your hand.

Another day, Morgan Yu. Today, tests. “They’re an essential part of an experiment. Just like you did, Morgan. I know you don’t remember—you didn’t remember in the memories either—but you were so committed to those neuromod tests. No one could stop you.”

Alex’s voice rings into our head.

Morgan did the tests. We will do them again now.

The face in the mirror. Broken and dappled in blood, a sliver of silver shone through. The eyes fester with Typhon sinews. You are Morgan Yu.

The failure of a screen. Alex once shut a screen against Morgan, didn’t he? And outside, everything was golden.

Blood streaks the floor. Your leg is split open, your alien flesh bursting out. Alex’s voice throbs at the back of your head as you stumble. A memory, too many memories.

I am Morgan Yu.

#writes about prey but it's about my mother writes about prey but it's about being trans writes about prey but it's about abuse writes about #prey 2017 #morgan yu #alex yu #prey game #x #poetry #ish #prey fanfic #ish again #PLEASE someone ask me to deconstruct this and what pieces mean

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dolorianwolf · 6 months

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INTERFACING - You let the empty bottle go. Upon contact with the ground it shatters into pieces that scatter, joining its intact brothers on the cold linoleum of your kitchen floor.

YOU - It'll hurt.

HALF LIGHT - Of course it will. Do not jump down from this countertop. You will cut yourself and bleed out through the soles of your feet.

INLAND EMPIRE - That's not what he meant.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY - What then, the hangover?

PHYSICAL INSTRUMENT - The shoulder?

VOLITION - The failure?

LOGIC - The resetting of the timer? Going back to day zero...

YOU - No.

ESPRIT DE CORPS - The idea of letting Kim know that he could not protect you from this. It rips a hole in your stomach for all to see.

YOU - But who else could I tell?

[VOLITION: Impossible] - Call Jean

[PAIN THRESHOLD: Challenging] - Call Kim

[ELECTROCHEMISTRY: Easy] - …

#disco elysium #harry du bois #the furies #alcohol abuse/alcoholism #ficlet #inspired by ''who do I tell/The idea of letting my mother know/she could not protect me from the world/#It makes me ill/So who do I tell'' that i wrote a while back but will never publish anyway so now im turning it into a DE ficlet #aka op recently reset a timer of their own and is taking it out on the poor fictional man theyre obsessed with dot jpeg

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lighthouseas · 10 months

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begging people to understand that "mike is not being abused by ted and karen" and "ted and karen are not good parents towards mike and this is something that we are supposed to take notice of throughout the show" are two statements that can and should coexist

#putting this on a fucking billboard idc #i also feel like my opinion holds some weight because my mother grew up in a family just like mike's and she did NOT turn out good okay.#she is fucked up and reminds me on the regular but thats another can of worms #like. her parents were not abusive but they were definitely emotionally neglectful #as are ted and karen and we ARE SUPPOSED TO NOTICE THAT MY GOD #i made a post abt this a looooong time ago comparing the wheeler fam and the byers fam dynamics #and like. the differences are so obvious guys.#cmon. please. begging people to understand this. PLEASE #and btw my mom is almost the same age as mike would be today . so #anyway. ok im done. byebye #stranger things #mike wheeler #st.txt

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kaeyapilled · 9 months

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i am still not over the fact arlecchino is referred to as "father" by the house of the hearth kids btw. the gender of it all

#i cant articulate this ugh #its just. the idea that she plays not the role of mother #where nurture and compassion would typically be expected of her #but the role of father. where a more stern and i guess distant sort of love might be typically expected. Yeah #i also dont hate the fact she doesnt seem to be abusive to the kids. i know i said i wanted her to be irredeemably evil but i really dig th #s #i actually really like the direction they seem to be taking? where its like.#shes still The Fatui. shes still using orphaned kids for military missions #but she doesnt go out of her way to harm the children. id say she sort of goes out of her way to *not* do so #AGH IT MAKES ME INSANE!!!!#the fontaine siblings' voicelines about her made me utterly insane. particularly freminet's #leaks skip if u dont wanna know but when he says she doesnt like crying so he avoids shedding tears in front of her at all costs (augh)#but still will say that things got better after the house director changed and she took charge #and that she literally told him that he has to value his own life instead of prioritizing self-sacrifice for loved ones' sakes. or somethin #which i take to be good advice for freminet in particular who has some concerning suicidal tendencies going on in there #anyway yeah arlecchino i am obsessed with you #my posts

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twoheadedfather · 1 year

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child is just existing in the general vicinity of their mother (62 dead, 592 injured)

#yall remember the og post #never leaves my brain #it's so real #me : exists #my mom : hey *insult* *insult* *ableism*#toxic mom #toxic mother #mommy issues #child abuse #childhood abuse #emotional abuse #childhood trauma #trauma

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witchyykitten · 1 year

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yardsards · 9 months

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a tactic of abusive parents that i don't see brought up very often: convincing their victims that child protective services are evil and that foster parents would certainly be even more abusive than their current circumstances

#eliot posts #csa mention #abuse mention #im watching an interview with a cult survivor #and she was talking about how her parents told her that child services would hurt her and put her with abusive foster parents #and i was like HOLY SHIT MY MOTHER DID THAT TOO #my mother always told me that if i got put in foster care i would get beaten and molested #and that if we told anyone about our home life they would ''misunderstand'' and ''incorrectly assume'' we were being abused #and then we'd get taken away by uncaring cps workers and given to evil foster parents #when in reality there would be no ''misunderstandings''. what was going on at home WAS abuse #but until my teen years i was convinced i was lucky #because i only got beaten sometimes and i got access to food and a roof over my head and i never got molested #this is not to say the foster system is perfect. there definitely are flaws in the system and occasional bad incidents #but it's nothing like my mother made it out to be #in fact the main issue with child services in my area that i knew of was that they rarely did much #like a classmate i knew called cps on her dad and they showed up and talked to him and he said she was lying #and when they left he punished her by burning her with a cigarette butt #when we were kids a few times our mother called the cops on our dad cuz they got into a violent fight #she'd tell the cops he was abusing her (though the violence was mutual) but when they showed up she refused to press charges #and a few times the cops SAW me and my sister there and DID NOTHING #like maybe if you get called to this same house multiple times you should investigate what's happening to the kids???#child abuse #abuse #abuse tw #anyway i'm still not 100% sure if that was deliberate manipulation on her part or if it was part of her weird paranoia about everything #but nonetheless it ultimately had the same effect as deliberate manipulation #she refused to get help for her mental illness even though a doctor told her she needed to

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thattheater-kid · 3 months

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Everyone talks about how fucked up it was that people told kids, especially girls, that if someone picks on you it means they like you. And that is fucked up and should be talked about, but you know what else is fucked up?

Telling bullying victims to have sympathy for their bully because “they’re probably hurting too” (also that the best way to stop bullying is to ignore it, but that’s another post). That’s really harmful and just teaches kids to ignore mistreatment and abuse because the perpetrator has had a hard time too.

#like no #fuck them #idgaf #their trauma is not my problem #their bad home life is not my problem #they don’t get to abuse others because they have a bad life #I’m traumatized too #you don’t see me making other people want to end their own lives #bullying #anti bullying #my childhood bully came from a single parent home and her mother was a drug addict #you think I gave a shit when I found this out?#hell no #yeah I felt kinda bad for her #that sucks #doesn’t give you an excuse to treat me like shit though #that’s not my problem #another bully had an abusive father who humiliated him in public #I watched his father embarrass him at a school concert #and you know what I thought to myself?#‘damn that sucks. I feel kinda bad for him. still a dick though’#not ‘oh that’s why he’s body shamed me and called me slurs every day since third grade. that’s why he told that girl to khs. I forgive him’

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asmo-cosmetics · 18 days

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unironically when y'all equate calling lucio montag to calling julian ilya it does genuinely piss me off

julian and portia's given names represent their closest loved ones, family or people they consider family. they like being ilya and pasha equally to their chosen names.

to lucio, "montag/monty" represents the "family" that never loved or accepted him or let him be himself. he chose a new name that fit the person he actually wanted to be instead of the one he'd been forced to be.

if you call julian "ilya" he'll be surprised but happy. if you call lucio "montag" you will break his fucking heart.

#hi reminder that i do not want arguments or debates on my posts. if you don't like this post don't respond to it. or else get bloct #but like sometimes i will see lucio posts where yall 'affectionately' refer to him as monty and like.... that is insane to me babe #cute boyfriend nickname!!! it is what his abusive mother called him as a child ❤️#the arcana #wank //#lucio morgasson #julian devorak

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y-rhywbeth2 · 3 months

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Orin's mother trying to murder her on her fathers' command as an infant is actually the average Bhaalspawn backstory. It's also Sarevok's backstory; he seemed about the same age she was when his turn for infanticide came.

This is just how this family works; you are born to die for Father, and it's probably going to be your mother holding the blade. If it isn't your parent, then probably a sibling... Occasionally it's an angry mob on a witch hunt, just to add variety I suppose.

#And that's without getting into “and my abusive foster father garrotted my beloved foster mother in front of me as a warning to obey him”#In the rest of Sarevok's childhood #It's also [spoiler's] backstory #bg2 spoilers #babbling #/orin #/sarevok #edgelord hours #villainous nonsense

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skynapple · 10 days

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I just wanna say if I'm moody and offline tomorrow it's…Mother's Day aka the worst literal day of the year for me so <3333 sending a fair warning while the anxiety builds up for me through the evening.

#I'm hoping it's NOT as bad as it historically is every year but #adf;kla #madi talks #WHAT DO I TAG THIS AS ANTI MOTHERS DAY????#i don't hate my mom #but #its just a hard day for me #every year #my whole family is already anxious about it #hushed whispers and shared looks #cw abuse

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