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chrollohearttags · 10 months

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let me see if I can get sum written today.

#I miss y’all #between work #and my body gaslighting me #I haven’t had the time but I’ve been working on one thing I hope I can get out today #cherry chats 🍒

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clownsuu · 1 year

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Why are Wally and Howdy so cute together??

Just something about em that fuels my wee small lil heart smhhh- their dynamic is so wacky yet simple it makes me crave more somehow 😔🥄🥄

Fuckin e e p y

#Ngl this took me some time to doodle dawg my brain is currently running at 2 centimeters an hour #Probably cause I didn’t sleep much smhh #Also side effect from howdy propaganda #Every time I see a sliver of howdy content my body feels like I overdosed in caffeine JSHDHDHDDJ #That is all #welcome home #welcome home wally #wally darling #Welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #welcome home julie #welcome home barnaby #barnaby b beagle #Howdy propaganda #Edit oh god I’m so tired that my dyslexia is gaslight gatekeep girlbossing me JDHDHDH #Wallypillar

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b3droomgirl · 4 months

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rahabq · 5 months

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#literally me #my year of rest and relaxation #megan fox #jennifers body #adriana lima #this is what makes us girls #girlhood #divine feminine #girlblog #girlblogger #coquette #girlblogging #girly #lana del rey #female manipulator #manic pixie dream girl #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #lizzy grant

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ribb0ngirl · 15 days

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Mom was right, it's my fault 𖦹

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doki-doki-imagines · 1 year

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You never show your face to him during intimate moments.

Bachira Meguru:

-No way he is okay with this, he needs to see your eyes to understand what is going on.

-They are also the first trait that pulled him to you, so covering them ruins all the fun.

-“Ohi, what’s wrong?”

-There is no way Bachira will let this topic go, he’ll cage you under him and he’ll stare until you break.

-Bachira can be pretty intimidating when he wants.

-So you break, you tell him you don’t want to see his disgusted face when he’ll look at your body, how you are scared shitless of your low appeal, and…damn you can’t talk anymore between sobs.

-Bachira treats you with the delicacy that only someone in love could have. He is still caging you under him, but his expression is much softer like his embrace.

-“You can be so dumb at times. Don’t know how those thoughts got into that silly head of yours, but I’ll make sure to push them all away”

Rin Itoshi: -Why do you always hide your face, why do you always turn the other way around, why, why, why

-So Rin thinks he is the problem, you don’t want to look at him because you are disgusted by him, maybe you prefer to think of someone else…

- As often happen Rin's green monster crawls under his skin, ready to vomit venom on you at the first sign of hiding.

-But this time, when you cover your eyes for the nth time Rin notices something new; are your lips trembling? Are you gonna cry? Is he so disgusting?

-So with his usual gentlemanly ways, he grips your wrist to push your arms out of the way and whispers “What the hell is wrong with you”

-The atmosphere is so tense you think it is gonna kill you soon if you don’t spill your insecurity and that’s what you do, chest heavy, but trying to maintain at least a bit of dignity

-“Never heard such dumb shit ever in my life”

-If the situation wasn’t so dramatic, you have kneed his kidney.

-So you think to be the problem…this change the entire situation! He doesn’t know how to deal with this situation anyway, but he feels relieved!

-A little less relieved when he looks at your face, eyes watery and ugly pout.

-Rin for sure doesn’t know how to express himself with words, so he’ll do it physically. Will it take more time? Probably, but it is the easiest way for him while trying to make you understand how pure shit those intrusive thoughts are.

Oliver Aiku:

-With a guy like Oliver the issue came out way sooner than with the others guys.

-And for you, the issue got even worse since it was way easier to imagine him going with someone else if you aren’t good enough.

-With someone else, Oliver wouldn’t have given two fucks in all honesty.

-But he is serious about you?? So he at least wants to try, he doesn’t want to give up so easily.

-It was during a normal indoor date that Oliver asked you about this.

-You were watching a film together, your head lying on his chest, his arm around your waist, so it was easy to stop your probable runaway.

-And he was so good at making you relax. It’s not like it was easy to talk about the topic, but at least Oliver put you at ease.

-But his ass is burnt. Do you trust him so little? Damn it hurts. He jokes about it with you, laughs even, but the pain is real.

-Oliver will try anything in his capabilities to make you understand that more often than not brains can come out with fucked up shit that aren’t true.

-But now you also have to demonstrate you trust him; it still stings you know?

#bllk imagines #blue lock imagines #bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #bllk headcanons #blue lock headcanons #bachira meguru #bachira meguru x you #rin itoshi #rin itoshi x reader #oliver aiku #oliver aiku x reader #often read over confident reader with their body and since I'm not I decided to make a trope for reader like me #even if honestly I hope nobody has my same problem #Overconfidence in this case I think it is a blessing LOL #I had so many characters in mind but went for them #I love you Oliver #did I put him in the ship post...I think I have to edit it ouch #what a girlkeep girlboss gaslight thing to do not adding him to keep Oliver all for myself AHAHAAH

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heavenlyyuri · 2 months

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pussy from a girl who sometimes feels like she's haunting her own body

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nails4breakfast-tacks4snacks · 8 months

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~Yeah, my boyfriend's pretty cool

But he's not as cool as me

#girlblogging #lana del rey #girl blog #girlhood #female hysteria #femininity #hyper feminine #divine feminine #emma roberts #madison montgomery #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #taissa farmiga #emma watson #my boyfriends pretty cool but hes not as cool as me #megan fox #jennifers body #eat your heart out

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phoenixcatch7 · 1 year

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Persephone captain marvel au. Hear me out.

Associated with duality, reincarnation, resurrection, childhood innocence (and it getting ripped away by adults), and her 'counterpart' Kore, which is her in her returning aspect of spring, youthfulness, new life... Come on. Is that not the closest thing to Billy you've ever seen in ancient Greece? Where he gets his powers?

It all starts with Teth Adam, and his devastation at the death of his son. He finds the old paths, breaks them open, and storms down into the underworld to demand him back. His is not a new story.

But where Persephone might ordinarily be inclined to ease her husband's scorn, give the troubled mourner a chance, she is speaking to the champion of magic, the world's mightiest mortal. The chance of success is too high. The challenge would not be enough. The death was too high profile and would risk too many attempting to follow in his footsteps. The man is too unstable, too powerful, too close to the heart of magic for it to be safe - for any of him - to grant his wish and risk his false hope.

They deny him.

Enraged, implacable, Teth Adam lashes out. The battle is long and drawn out, neither side tiring even as both weaken, but Persephone, in either form, is not one of war, and she is felled as her curses shatter, her furies tossed aside like dolls. The sound of Hades' scream as Adam's surprise leaves him open flattens the rubble of their throne room.

The wounded champion escapes, hounded by cerberus and skeletons instead of his son's shade, as her husband crashes to his knees beside her. She has not a mortal soul, and thus will be going where even Death cannot reach.

But Adam killed the goddess of reincarnation, and Billy has odd dreams. He's pretty sure he needs to ease up on the stress. He's restless in winter and distracted in summer, he can sleep outside in howling storms as long as he's tucked snug in the boughs of a tree, he's had the luck of never tasting a rotten fruit. Sometimes it feels like there's ghosts in his hideouts and the kids at school try and bribe him to curse their enemies.

When he chosen to be Captain Marvel the wizard chokes on his own speech when the smoke clears. They stare at each other.

"Well," says Persephone, "that was unexpected. Hullo."

"Hello," the wizard replies, "I was under the impression..."

"I don't think the laws of interference quite apply until I'm immortal again," he says.

The wizard's relief is palpable. It's understandable, he looks ready to keel over from old age. "Can I ask...?" he gestures at the new body. It takes a second to understand.

"Oh, I'm a boy now. For a while."

And that's that.

Until green lantern is killed in battle.

#Billy as Kore - spring youth maiden flowers #And the captain as persephone - death curses ghosts reincarnation. ✨royalty✨#I especially like that it works with whatever interpretation of cap/Billy you have!#Aspects of the same person. Billy having a limited recollection of his past life and minimal powers compared to cap's fully grown self #Also the idea of big burly sunshine strength cap being in truth the Soul of a young innocent maiden kidnapped from her family would #Infuriate in universe alpha males. Brings me life.#Billy/Kore: innocent cinnamon roll too good for this world too pure #Cap/persephone: gaslight gatekeep girlboss #Cap would keep his death powers under wraps and NEVER curse. Unless it's Adam or darksied or something. Then a simple 'gtfo' works #Not that he ever keeps it simple. Everyone on comms has their ears SCALDED. They're all in shock. Cap stops just short of another 10 plague #Cap (looking at gls body): aw my husband's gonna be so mad at me *rolls up sleeves*#Gender queer Billy vibes ftw #I'd say bigender or gender fluid. Bigender needs more rep.#Wonder woman is shooketh but glad. Her uncle has Not been a happy bunny.#Idk just isn't it cool???#shazam #billy batson #captain marvel #dc captain marvel #dc comics #justice league #wizard shazam #rock of eternity #greek myth au #Kinda #persephone #Kore #black adam #<< man boutta get a whooping from his precious victim who got the ultimate power up

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ditzycowjess · 25 days

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when i say hurt me i mean permanent physical damage. i mean trauma that makes me cry when a man so much as makes eye contact. when i say hurt me i mean break me.

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angelic-inamorata · 15 days

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Existential crisis at 1:30 in the morning, yaaaay… :/

Trying vv hard to fall asleep so I don’t have to think about it, but the anxiety makes it difficult. Time to distract myself with YouTube videos ig

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heavenly-angell · 8 months

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saw the jennifer's body cheerleader costume, and i neeedd.

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borderlinebelle · 1 year

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kicked for tits, are the fucking men being banned for their nips too?

girl, interrupted = 😡

scroll down 👇🏽for the photo of the dress for my grandma’s formal 95th birthday party and/or for possibly my other grandma’s funeral reception 👍🏽

i was kicked off tumblr live tonight for “violations” so below is the dress i was promising to share but got cut off as I was getting up to show you my nipple did a slipperoony into view. *gasp*

*shrieks of absolute horror*

please follow my shitty old blog for more 1am tumblr lives(boo!),breakdowns,consistent life distress,historic wins & of course girlbloggging!🙂🙃💖

MY NIPPLE IS AGAIN APPARENTLY A CRIME.

i really liked the live and I’m bummed it ended because y’all deserved better mutuals 🥺

Stream tomorrow night @ 11pm, so there’s like a… 78% chance 💖

🫡

ART. This is ART tumblr. so you cannot ban it tumblr staff. DO NOT fight me on this. I swear to god.

I’ll die on this hill.

#today on tumblr #i was banned #tumblr live #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlblogging #staff picks #living with borderline #bpd and me #bpd things #my body is art #🖼️#try me i dare you #give me a hill to die on #girl interrupted #black content creator #live streaming #personal

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 1 month

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me: hermes is a painfully accurate example of how some ways of defending yourself against certain kinds of insidious emotional abuse, gaslighting, ableism, and therapy speak can warp you into a person whose learned helplessness and lack of perspective can result in doing really shitty things, and who passes that abuse along in different forms (hi meteion) + lashes out in disproportionate ways + can be deeply hypocritical.

me: as a disabled person in a society where our systemic mass murder via pressure into government-sanctioned suicide is on the rise, the ancients' society is beyond fucking upsetting to me. i have zero sympathy for anything to do with them pre-apocalypse except for the effects of living in that system.

me: that said, they are a good opportunity to remind oneself that there are children in that burning building; that a society being fucked does not mean they deserve to be wiped out; and that that does not mitigate the harm they do, nor mean that its victims are not allowed to be angry or resist it, including the victims inside it.

me, booboo the fool: oh, this youtube essay about hermes looks interesting--

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv hermes #heeeellllllppppppppp #i haven't even been looking for discourse in fact i have been trying to avoid it #i just wanted hermes meta and every other site i've so much as glanced at for it so far has been This #hermes is so so fucked up and so interesting #and Relatable in so many ways which simultaneously are incredibly validating; and can make for an uncomfortable look in the mirror #and people trying to like. diagnose him with NPD and say he's The Worst Ever Actually and is basically 'they all hated me' goob #while saying things like 'i can't be ableist i have depression'#and while accusing anyone who says the ancients did anything actually wrong at all of being anti-indigenous genocide apologists #is so much. it's So Much. oh my god #anyway i have been greatly enjoying this game and it is incredibly refreshing to see this kind of thing represented and called out lmao #FFtag #ffxivtag #genocide cw #abuse cw #abuse denial cw #abuse apologia cw #gaslighting cw #ableism cw #the salt files #(also god don't get me started on hyth/lodaeus people who do this Love Him and Think He's Super Sweet and Gay)#(when he is a horrible person in specific ways that make my skin crawl right off my body. the way he talks about meteion jesus christ)#(if your blorbo is fucked up that's fine but GOOOOOOD GOD)#warning: worm grass #endwalker spoilers

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heavenlyyuri · 5 months

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one thing about me is that i could spend hoursss admiring my legs. like damn these beauties are not for the weak ❌❌

#don't even get me started on literally any other part of my body #i <3 being self obsessed #girlblogging #this is what makes us girls #just girly things #this is a girlblog #just girly thoughts #just girly posts #girlhood #i'm just a girl #hyper feminine #girly things #pinterest girl #it girl #girl blogger #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #self love #femcel

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caterpillarinacave · 2 months

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So you choose not to step through the door, after all why mess with nonsense when you're already in nonsense? You check the items in your pockets, your phone you shut off to conserve power, the dog tag, key and top clink together but offer no help, and when you fiddle with the walkie-talkie you manage to get it to turn on, excitedly you call out to the void but only static responds, which is disappointing but predictable, so you put the items away and hunker down for the night, looking at the sky you can see that the stars seem strange, though you're no expert, and the moon seems to have a second smaller moon near it which looks pretty cool but is a stark reminder of how not on your own world your predicament has landed you.

In the morning you begin looking through the nearby bushes and plant life taking note of anything strange, you notice the berries you had been picking before you stepped through the door are also growing around here, they look and taste the same, and some other plants seem pretty similar to the forest from before as well, although the further away from the door you go the more unfamiliar plants you come across (of course that may just be your lack of familiarity with plants) and the few animals you have noticed are bizarre in a way that you can't explain, like the people from town, they seem almost perfectly familiar, just a little off and the noises they make have you thinking they wouldn't be able to communicate with their counterparts either, brushing aside another branch you come across a strange funnel made of metal which you pocket and what looks to be a regular whistle, you wipe it down and blow but hear nothing aside from the air going through, you consider it is either broken or maybe a dog whistle, as you go to put it away you hear something big running in your direction, before you can decide how to react a large creature storms out of the bushes and stops in the clearing before you, it's huge as a horse with paws and sharp teeth it licks as it looks around and spots you, it shakes its head again reminding you of a horse, then steps closer before turning and staring expectantly, you get the feeling it's waiting on you, impatiently, and you realize it seems to expect you to get on its back. Do you get on?

Yes.

#I am a terrible terrible Irish child #Clearly all those folk tales whose only moral was “don’t climb on the strange horse” were lost on me. Technically not a horse though. So. H #Uh please don’t run into the bog with my on your back strange horse thing.#…This may be one of my worse ideas #On one hand moving away from what appears to be the only connection my world doesn’t sound like a great idea #Back through the door is logically the the best bet. However I’ve already explored the area #The only thing to do would be to just sit there for hours and that will get me nowhere. The things that do have leads like the walkie-#Sputtering are things to pay attention to but not things that are likely to change if I don’t move. The whistle is the newest thing-#And let’s be real I’ve been in the bramble for like 14 hours without the neurospicy meds I am teetering on dangerously antsy #Probably better to get on the horse before I come up with something more stupid #It’s interesting my world flora seems to surround the door. I wish I’d payed more attention before I stepped through #If the nearby flora on the other side seemed like it would come from this world it would suggest that the door just leaks between universes #In two ways. If it’s earths flora then it’s either only leaking one way which we could no from one step through #Or - which we will not know but should pay attention for if we step into some other world - if the earths flora shows up around EVERY porta #Which would suggest earth is the base in some way #It might be beneficial to climb a tree to try and see farther out #Though I don’t exactly get many opurtunited to haul myself up a tree so I would put to much stock in a)my upper body strength #And b) my ability to chose a tree that won’t kill me #It’s defintley worth taking in as much info as possible. I’ll try and notice things like different winds gravity tempature ect #What should i tag this all. Help I got lost in a blackberry bush? Anon who takes me to alternate planes of reality?#I know #Guys I got lost in a bush #That’s a good one. Nothing weird there at all.#FINE I’ll rage it “guys I got lost in a blackberry bush”#I wonder what makes things so familiar. Perhaps this world exists very closely to the other. Perhaps they’ve crossed paths before.#Perhaps they’ve shown up in our dreams. Perhaps I have bad memory and my brain gaslights itself into thinking everything’s familiar #I wonder maybe the horse is a horse/dog thing- that would explain the likeness to the dog whistle (?)#This can’t get any worse I say doing something that could very much make it worse #Eh what’s the worst that can happen. At least I don’t have to pay taxes in this world #Guys I got lost in a black berry bush

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