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mediapen · 2 years
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for anon: carlos, with his life split into two halves. how life feels cut when a major event occurs — before and after — maybe before and after silverstone ‘22?
[x] // richard siken, ‘straw house, straw dog’ // richard siken, ‘unfinished duet’ // [x] // jenefer shute, life-size // [x] // liz bowen, sugarblood // ethel cain, ‘strangers’ // warsan shire, ‘to swim with god' // the smiths, ‘paint a vulgar picture’ // richard siken, ‘saying your names’ // [x] // [x] // [x] // rainer maria rilke in a letter to lou andreas-salomé // phoebe bridgers, ‘garden song’ // [x] // [x] // r/Games // bhanu kapil, the vertical interrogation of strangers // [x] // [x] // [x] // [x] // cota, 2022 // [x] // clementine von radics, 'the fear.’
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freakinflipflop · 9 months
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The more I look into articles about students using AI to cheat the more it sounds like WILD sensationalization
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anthroposeen · 18 days
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[tma spoilers: sasha's arc, discussion of women in tma and general spoilers for s1-5]
i wanted to do a breakdown of how the tma fandom interprets the main cast of 'protagonist' women specifically pertaining to sasha's role in tma canon and how shes viewed in the fan sphere :)
i think its interesting how sasha is almost universally liked by tma fans when she was a very short-lived character with just about no screen time. its obviously tied to the fact that sasha was considered an ally by jon and the other original staff and they take measures to avenge her in some regard- this is perpetuated as shes painted as an obvious protagonist (one of the few who arent necessarily morally grey) with no real content to prove she had bad qualities. other women in tma have a considerable amount of content (im specifically referring to those working in the archives or having a large role in jon's life: georgie, melanie, basira, and daisy) which lets the audience see them in a more multi-faceted light. we see their rights and wrongs through jons eyes, and since they have more canon content, obviously they're more complex characters and they serve more nuanced narrative purposes. at the end of the day, sasha's use as a character was to drive the plot with a significant death and inspire a revenge or depression in the other characters, and she served this role perfectly. jon avenges her twice in s5 alone (smiting the not!them and then cursing her name at jonah) so we know she was very important pre-s1, but as the audience we just dont get to see that depth to her.
theres also the internalized misogyny that fandoms often have; sasha was the main and only female role in s1 (not counting gertrude since shes dead) and her relationships largely revolved around men. all of her coworkers were men, and we know they admired her. we know she was friends with them all individually and also glued them together in group settings. she had a "will they wont they" relationship (his words of course) with tim, and she was the character that introduced us to michael. the other more fleshed out women of tma had relationships largely revolving around other women. melanie and georgie were partners, melanie had moments were she was friends with basira, and basira and daisy came into the series as a package deal. when these characters are given the choice between choosing to help jon or choosing to help the woman closest to them, they dont choose jon. obviously this can rub the audience the wrong way, but it also showcases a loyalty to the idealized fanon interpretation of a woman over the canon multi-dimensional women we dont need to extrapolate on.
i get that its easier to like a female character when she's a protagonist who supported the male lead; and bonus points if shes such a vague character that anyone can paste their interpretations onto and it cant be "disproven". of course its sexier to leave things up to the imagination, but it just irks me to see people fawn over a (please forgive me) one dimensional character when more complex women exist in canon. people have the tendency to beg for flawed women in fiction then dislike them or ignore them when they get the representation they asked for. if you're willing to defend jon but not melanie, basira, daisy, or georgie, maybe ask yourself why.
disclaimer: i dont think anyone is a misogynist for liking sasha or preferring her over the other women in tma! i like both canon and fanon interpretations of her character and i wish we got to see more of her, but i do think theres something to be said about how the fandom treats her vs the other women in the cast. and i know im not at all the first to say it! i was just thinking about this as a general observation of fan content that ive seen and i dont mean to hate on anyone, their fan content, or sasha as a character!
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triptychofvoids · 6 months
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Autistic medic gives me life ❤❤. Any random hcs for him? /nf /pos
of course! autistic medic is canon to me
ive already talked a bit about him being autistic before so a few of these maybe be things ive already mentioned but ill say them anyway
this is already obvious to everyone already but his special interests are surgery and medicine! anything medical really. hes also very interested in anatomy and pigeons (specifically pigeons. he probably couldnt tell you a lot about parrots for example, but if you want 100 facts about doves then hes your guy). and of course hed have a bunch of other hobbies and interests but those are the big ones
hes more prone to shutdown than he is to meltdown. not that meltdowns would never happen, theyre just more rare. usually a shutdown would come first and on the occasion hes pushed past that then a meltdown would follow, and after a meltdown then hed have a second even worse shutdown. thankfully situations like these are rare
like ive said (and drawn) before his main stims are rocking, hand flapping, echolalia, tensing up and hand wringing, and biting. a few other less obvious/not as common that he has are sparkly/flashy visual stims, he also loves both feeling and seeing anything gorey, he likes petting his birds, certain noises would be very pleasant to him like his doves cooing or coins clinking together and the sounds of the mediguns. hed love the smell of coffee and isopropyl. hed have a few others stims too but theyd be more rare and very situational like hitting himself or toe walking.
hes weird about his gloves and his coat. as in he would put them on for a specific reason but once he gets used to having them on he would absolutely hate taking them off. he has to keep them on for the rest of the day no matter what. and vice versa, if hes not wearing his gloves or coat then he cant just?? randomly put them on?? no no its all or nothing theyre either going on for combat and then staying on for the rest of the day or not at all
hes very excitable and loves to talk and if hes engaged in a conversation or excited about something then his voice will gradually get louder and louder and he'll keep interrupting or talking over people. he wont even notice it until someone points it out to him
you cant take him to the store because hes going to touch everything and then very quickly regret it when hes suddenly overcome with the overwhelming soul crushing need to wash his hands and theres no sink around. its so over :[
bad at left vs right and identifying north, south, east, and west. nothing else to say here, its not that he gets lost easily, he can find his way around just fine its just that hes awful at directions
very strict about his routines and lists. he cannot stand it if he makes plans and they get postponed or canceled. he hates it if he makes a list of things to get and then cant get everything on the list exactly correct. hes actually more than willing to do things on impulse in the moment but only if hes already mentally planned to do that or if it doesnt interfere with something else he has going on
hes very blunt and direct. he says exactly what hes thinking and answers questions very honestly and directly. people often find him to be rude for this but he doesnt get why. speaking of him being seen as rude, he used to get in trouble for always rolling his eyes or talking back to people because for the longest time he didnt realize that trying to stretch your eyes or avoid eye contact or staring could all somehow be considered 'rolling' your eyes. or rude. and talking back... isnt that how a conversation works? hes never been very good at knowing when he is or isnt supposed to reply to statements.
ive said it before but i will say it again. he has little to no empathy. every autistic person is different of course and not all autistics have low empathy, but im tired of low enpathy being seen as a bad trait. im tired of people with low empathy (autistic or otherwise) being seen as evil and uncaring. having low empathy doesnt make you a bad person. he has very low empathy and often struggles to connect with and understand others. he frequently will have the wrong emotion for the situation and may sometimes come off as uncaring when he is not as sad about something as they are, etc etc etc but he is not some horrible evil monster for it and i do not want to see anyone saying that because its just completely incorrect. hope this helps
anyway!!!! theres some autistic medic!!!! i hope you like him as much as i do!!!!
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eusion · 6 months
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i love ur work omg >< can i req maknae line as long distance bfs too? ^^
⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪&team maknae line as ur long distance bf ⌒☆
pairing ⌒☆ &team maknae line x reader
word count ⌒☆ idk...
note ⌒☆ thank u for requesting! this was hard to think about since i just think about hyung line exclusively LMAO enjoy!
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yuma ⌒☆
sends u lots of memes and silly videos on tiktok. u both have the same humor so hes always excited to share new ones with u
always invites u to play games with him whether itd b just u two or with his friends, he never fails to invite u
same with movie nights
always wears the beanie u sent him & complains that its starting to smell less and less like u
sends u so many selfies in .5 after u introduced it to him this one day. now that he knows u find them hilarious he will send them as often as he can
i dont see him fting much tbh but will always text and check in frequently with a "u doing okay?" message
likes to plan out dates with u, even if its just for fun & not to actually plan. he just likes to be with u even if its just in his mind
as a date u two make little crafts together over ft
"do i grow out my hair or cut it" and does the opposite of what u tell him
jo ⌒☆
takes pictures of the little things because he knows how much u love to see picture updates
learned how to make those big knit blankets so he can make his own to give to u
sends u handwritten letters very often along with printed polaroids of the pictures u two have together
u have several of his art pieces framed on ur wall
when u both debrief about ur days he always asks a lot of questions so he can hear u go into extreme detail
props up his phone on his nightstand when going to sleep so u can see him snooze. he wakes up earlier than u do so he wont end the call until u wake up
asks u what ur plans are for the day n sometimes he will try n match what ur doing
when u two plan a day to meet up, he crosses out the days in his calendar above his desk every morning until the day of
ur name in his phone is just ur name but it has this emote next to it ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ
harua ⌒☆
lots of ft calls with him sitting in his car while snacking
loves to see what u bought from the store n always begs for a haul with u going over every item in detail
matching phone cases that u both bought together, he has not changed it out or taken it off since
hes very playful so theres a lot of banter between u two but itll always end in laughs. hes more than comfortable enough to play around with u & this means a lot
flirting but in a cringe way. the amount of winks & kisses through the camera never fails to make u both shiver
"why arent u here..." in a sassy tone but hes :(((
study calls are a very common thing between the two of u & hes always willing to help u out even if he doesnt know it 100%
always has the sweetest compliments ready for u & will always be the first 10 comments on ur instagram post
while hes out shopping he sends u pics of things n asks "do u like this?" n will buy it 99% of the time if u do
taki ⌒☆
u both binge watch a lot of shows & will get really upset when he finds that u watched an ep without him on ur shared netflix account
his friends always send u off guard pictures of him n when u show him hes extremely confused
always yells a good morning message into ur voice memos. sometimes he'll sing it
fts u with all of the lights off n when u ask him to turn on the lights so u can see him he uses a handheld flashlight n points it under his face
has blocked u more times than u both can count because he thinks its really funny
"when we meet up next time lets do this tiktok challenge"
his every day bag is equipped with all of the pins, chains n small plushies u gifted him
when ur too tired to talk he reassures u that its okay n that he can talk for u so u just sit n listen with ur eyes closed
sends u random videos throughout the day of him dancing
maki ⌒☆
always brings u along to watch his night routine, will prop u up on the sink so u can watch him brush his teeth n wash his face
matching profile pictures on almost everything. whenevr he posts and his icon pops up he smiles so wide because he knows ur the other half of it
records & sends u mini vlogs if he goes out and does something fun n will always end the video with him saying "miss u!"
whenever u two are on ft and his family is in the same room, he always turns his phone around to face them n says "say hi!"
everyone in makis circle knows u very well because he cannot stop talking about u
plays roblox with u when u both have free time... ur avatars are extremely goofy
has fallen asleep on cam many times & u have multiple screenshots n video recordings of him snoozing
99% of his bereals are of him n u while ur on cam
study nights always turn into 5hrs of u two watching random videos on youtube
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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months
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Hear me out on this please
TADC crew x itward like reader
If you want to ignore this request you can I totally understand lol
TADC cast x itward type! Reader
Imma be so real with you anon originally I was gonna save this request for later since I have ZERO ideas (funny since fran bow as a game has had a choke hold on me since it released) but then I realized I can be evil and introduce people to the game
Anyways guys go play fran bow! Or better yet theres a full fandub, as well as several lets plays on YouTube!! I also recommend little misfortune as it's made by the same creators and takes place in the same universe!
Kind of wrote this as their general thoughts and dynamic with you since I struggled a lot with thinking of romantic stuff with them, especially with characters that I dont think would like. Be interested in characters like itward
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CAINE:
You guys. Can talk up a storm, I think. Literally it's just you two "interrogating" one another and learning more about each other. As scared as you are of the current situation at hand, you can't help but be intrigued by everything, including the self proclaimed ring master!
Curiosity is damned, damn you curiosity/ref
Your curiosity ends up with you learning as nearly as much caine is willing to let on about the digital world...
Thinks
Two well dressed fellows, as well.. bonus if you have a red suit like itward so you kinda match with Caine
Caine loves watching you build your little machines, too, usually hovers over your shoulder
POMNI:
Sure you might not be able to fly away in a flying ship and return to the real world, but who's to say you cant make your own exit..? Possibly manipulate the code or something...! Sure you're main thing is machinery and technology, but theres usually some level of coding in there... so you and pomni team up to try to come up with a plan... honestly you probably lightly scold her when you find out she tried to leave, knowing ragatha needed help. On one hand you cant bring yourself to fully blame her, but on the other you would rather try to escape with everyone, you know? Pomni is sometimes put off by your odd nature, though... not enough to push her away from working with you though!!
RAGATHA:
You guys bond over your shared interested in sewing! You both make plushes! For you it's more so for gift giving, and for ragatha she does it to pass time! I like to think you guys both have nights where you just hang out, either in her room or yours, and just. Chat and sew! Probably finds your weirdness a little endearing in it's own way; afterall never once were you malicious, in fact you're quite kind to everyone around you and are more than willing to offer second chances even to those who dont deserve it. You and ragatha would be really good friends, I think!
JAX:
Finds your weirdness a little annoying and he probably asks you a ton of stupid questions on purpose. Probably asks a stream of dumb ones before asking one he knows will peak your interest, but insist he needs to go do something when you start answering. That aside he has probably asked if you could build him a funky little gadget (that he totally wont use for mischief).. probably tries to get all buddybuddy with you because he knows you wont give it to him for the...actual reason he wants
You personally dont hate him, but theres no real solid friendship there I think
KINGER:
Ah, the two strange father figures! Both with funky interests; kingers is bugs and yours is forks! ....okay well it's hard to combine those two interest so I guess we can use a different one, mechanics! You've definitely made kinger wind up robotic bugs before, and the fact it made him happy makes you happy! You guys both have a habit of spacing out, though on different levels and for different reasons...you both mutually keep an eye on one another, though!
You've probably dreamed of building a flying machine and escaping this place at least once, leaving with kinger. Too bad the reality isnt going to be that simple.. besides you'd bring everyone with you anyways
ZOOBLE:
honestly they get annoyed how sometimes you dont give direct answers and be vague when you're asked for a solution. It's not that you're trying to be malicious or incompetent, youre just trying to push for everyone to get creative and explore the world around them themselves, you know? Finds it a little off how you sometimes zone out, as if youre thinking about a dozen things at once... but nonetheless, zooble cant bring themselves to hate you. In fact you have this weird comforting aura around you.
GANGLE:
Youre so so nice with her and always trying to build her up. And honestly I think that's so sweet. Hugs. Give hugs! Side note I bet itward gives the most comforting hugs so by extension the reader gives the most comforting hugs!! You're always there to stand up for her, too, when people *cough cough jax* are mean to her. You probably also try to helo her make a new mask... not like "oh you help her fix her masks" no I mean like you try to make her a mask that's made of a stronger material so it's harder to break
Honestly I cant see a romantic relationship between a reader like this and gangle, I personally see it more as close friends or even found family
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unlimitedhearts · 7 months
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I’m dreading the third game of Spiderman might kill off Harry :/ either he’s goblin (solo or probably along with daddy-o) and dies a la Hero Sacrifice. Or kept comatose and in the end with grim results the decision is to pull the plug on him. idk I feel Harry’s fate is doom and gloom. But they could have killed Harry at the end of this sequel giving a strong motivation for Norman to be the Goblin and hatred for Spider-Man…yet they didn’t. idk rambling thoughts. What do you think?
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Personally i can see both options. I saw someone in the tags of my last headcanon post say that it wouldnt make sense to save him from death in this game only to kill him in the next. On some level i get that, why wait when you could do it now?
I have two worst case scenarios in my head:
Harry wakes up from his coma w amnesia a la the third Tobey Maguire movie. Hes unaware of Pete being Spider-Man and Peter, thinking hes protecting Harry, wont tell him. This may cause a rift in their friendship when Harry finds out - or if Norman ends up going goblin and dies - Spider-Man is to blame in Harrys eyes and he'll go after him then. To me this is a tired trope of Harry getting an intense hatred for Spidey and wanting to kill him over his father. It always felt out of character for me and i truly TRULY hope they dont go this route.
Harry becomes the Kobold. In the comics, Kobold is essentially Harrys way of making the Green Goblin a good guy. If he still wants to fight by Peters side, he'll find a way to do it. Kobold would make a lot of sense to me personally, as it kind of continues their dynamic from this game. Then at the end theres a heros sacrifice to be made and Harry goes for it despite Peters protests. This would be lazy to me too though because he essential already did the heros sacrifice in this game. Seems like theyd just want us to have more time with him to love him even more, just to make losing him hurt worse. I wouldn't put it past an intrepid writer to think they could make it work, but it just seems lazy to me.
Actual best case scenario for me though? Harry wakes up as the g-serum is being injected. Hes against being his dads experiment all over again so he runs and finds Peter. Hes not aware of his pseudo-retirement, he just goes straight to the place thats always been his safe haven; Peters home. He asks Peter to hide him from his dad. Tries to explain everything but hes exhausted and frantic. Peter agrees and they take him into hiding.
Norman, ever the expert deflector, doesnt see this as a failing on his part. Hes convinced spider-man had something to do with his son escaping so he puts out a hit on him. Hes ready, willing, and able to capture and kill at least one of the two spider-men it doesnt matter. We see him pardon Wilson Fisk for this job, and when Fisk cant do it, he has to. Normans going to go Goblin. I know it, i can feel it in my bones.
Miles asks Peter to get back in action and he does. Fisk, plus potentially Otto again, plus this brand new villain in town is too much for any one person to handle. Heres where i see Harry becoming a "Guy In The Chair" for Peter like Ganke is for Miles. Two Guys in the Chair helping the spider-men is definitely better than one. I could also see Harrys goblin powers start to emerge but he keeps pushing them down. Last time he gave into power it didnt end well for anyone.
In an effort to not write out the entire plot of the game as i see fit (because itd be long and there are so many moving pieces and characters and IDEK WHERE THEYRE GONNA PUT SILK IN-), i think if Harry does take on the cowl he'll be doing so against his father. I think i see Harry becoming Goblin/Kobold to fight against Norman and ultimately try to help Peter/Miles. This is where i see Harry either accidentally killing Norman or Norman killing his son (and of course, blaming Spider-Man)
There is also room, in my mind, to bring back Venom a la Lethal Protector/Agent Venom. But tbh if they do, i would much rather Venom go to Eddie Brock or Flash Thompson. But thats just the separate Venom Fangirl Entity within me.
Ultimately my hope of course is that Harry not die and they dont go down that all too tired and hackneyed trope of Harry growing to hate Peter dor whatever reason. I truly TRULY hope they dont go that route it is just SO tired and lazy. I want them to stay close and loving. Whatever route they go with will be SO MUCH MORE IMPACTFUL if Harry Osborn lives and doesnt make a full 180 on his best friend for no good reason.
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weskin-time · 2 years
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NSFW Wesker Headcanons part 2
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More wesker headcanons because im high and hes all i can think about right now i cannot get him out of my head!!!!
this one is a fuck ton kinkier i will not apologize- children leave the area before i eat you
he loves using pet names
AAA
him grabbing your chin, sorta squishing your face while making you look at him saying "youre such a perfect plaything for me"
heres a list of pet names i think he would use
plaything
pet
puppy
good boy/girl
sweetheart
dearheart (a given as this is wesker)
sunshine
love
honestly he will call you anything you want (within reason to his ego)
into pet play
this one is for me im being self indulgent
if youre not into it thats fine but if you are
whoa
loves if you wear a pair of puppy ears and/or tail
(or kitty if you wish. or hell even a fox)
LOVES it when youre in pet space with a collar on and leash tightly held in his fist while hes working at his desk and youre just sitting there next to him but on the floor with your head on his thigh
will randomly tug on your collar and make you suck him off while hes doing paperwork
will get you a water bowl to drink out of if you wish
and will get you a cage to rest in
dry humping? yea dry humping.
if theres little time to fuck and youve been teasing him all day he will 100% pin your chest to a wall and hump your ass till he cums
so now youre all hot and bothered, he got off on using you, the fucker will not allow you to tease him all day and will get back at you for it
this man is clearly into BDSM
i mean look at him
skintight leather suit (which respect him for that that shit must be hot af and not easy to move in yet hes doing jojo poses and shit like hes dio brando and flipping around like a kungfu movie star)
hes very into bondage
either that be tying you up with silky rope, giving you a body harness, suspending you, or even using uroburos on you
would 100% blind and gag you, have you tied in a frog tie with your arms tied behind your back
if you want a crotch knot is up to you
he just loves to have you tied up, gagged and blindfolded at his mercy
it makes him swell with power
and makes his cock hard when he trails his hands up your body and you make a cute muffled wimpering sound
respects your bounderies
not really a kink thing but
when you two first start becoming sexually active with each other he sits yall down to make a list with things you want to do, what youre willing to try, and things you will not do
then review them together and talk about it
even if its embarassing a tad he makes you feel comfortable
he wants to make sure you actually like it alot when he pulls you aside in his lab when anyone can walk in
his hand around your throat and the other in your underwear fucking you with his fingers
(dont worry he locked the door, he wont tell you but he would never let someone see you like that. thats for him and him only. tho he gets off on you thinking its unlocked)
as much as he loves to fuck you hard he also loves soft sex
holding you close to him, bodies touching as he slowly thrusts in and out of you, bottoming out inside you while hungerly kissing you
sitting in his lap with one of his hands on the back of your neck holding you to him tightly while the other one is held firmly around your waist as he bucks his hips up to fuck you
if youre like me and take a fuck ton of time to orgasm and are kinda embarrassed by it
please do not fake it with him
or do cuz he can tell if you are faking it no matter how real it looks or how many times its worked on other people
if you do and he knows he will overstim you by making sure you cum for him
he doesnt mind sitting there for longer between your thighs
or rubbing you off while he fucks you sensless
your pleasure means a lot to him too hes not just chasing his own high
would somehow train you to cum when he does
hes also into you calling him some names
those names are
master
captain (my personal fav)
sir
my lord
God
daddy
anything really that lables him as someone having power over you
an athority figure
daddy was one he was kinda iffy about
but hearing it come out from your lips one night inbetween your gasping, he almost came right on the spot and was sorta confused with himself for a bit
which then made him realize he has a breeding kink
please wear his sunglasses on your head while fucking him, damn
send him lewd photos while hes at work of you in a shirt of his and nothing else and he will try to leave work early
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gods this was longer than i wanted it to be lol
i hope yall like this! reblogs help me find more wesker simps to share my shitty food with
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sunless-not-sinless · 5 months
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shitGPT
for uni im going to be coding with a chatGPT user, so i decided to see how good it is at coding (sure ive heard it can code, but theres a massive difference between being able to code and being able to code well).
i will complain about a specific project i asked it to make and improve on under the cut, but i will copy my conclusion from the bottom of the post and paste it up here.
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conclusion: it (mostly) writes code that works, but isnt great. but this is actually a pretty big problem imo. as more and more people are using this to learn how to code, or getting examples of functions, theyre going to be learning from pretty bad code. and then theres what im going to be experiencing, coding with someone who uses this tool. theres going to be easily improvable code that the quote unquote writer wont fully understand going into a codebase with my name of it - a codebase which we will need present for our degree. even though the code is not the main part of this project (well, the quality of the code at least. you need it to be able to run and thats about it) its still a shitty feeling having my name attached to code of this quality.
and also it is possible to get it to write good (readable, idiomatic, efficient enough) code, but only if you can write this code yourself (and are willing to spend more time arguing with the AI than you would writing the code.) most of the things i pointed out to the AI was stuff that someone using this as a learning resource wont know about. if it never gives you static methods, class methods, ABCs, coroutines, type hints, multi-file programs, etc without you explicitly asking for them then its use is limited at best. and people who think that its a tool that can take all the info they need, and give it back to them in a concise, readable way (which is a surprising lot of people) will be missing out without even knowing about it.
i got it to write tic-tac-toe (the standard babee) in python (the lang i have to use for uni ;-; (held at gunpoint here)). my specific prompt was "write me a python program for tictactoe that is written in an object oriented way and allows for future expansion via multiple files"
it separated it into three files below (which i think would run, but i never actually ran any of this code. just reading and judging)
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why does board use display instead of __str__ and __repr__?
why is the board stored as 1d instead of 2d? thats just confusing
why does it never early return aside from check_winner? (not a big issue here but kept on choosing to never early return when i asked it to add more methods)
why is there no handling of non-number user inputs?
why are non-int inputs truncated instead of telling the user that they should input ints only?
why is display implemented like that?
why are so many lines so bloody long (wide)?
why is there a redundant self.check_winner() after the while loop in TicTaacToe.play()? and if it wasnt redundant then you could finish the game without there being anything printed telling you that the game is finished?
why is the only comment useless? (this comment wouldnt be useless if it was a doc comment tho, but it aint a doc comment. speaking of, why is there no doc comments?)
these are the more immediate things i saw, but there are other things that are bad here.
whenever i write * this is where it updated the api without changing any usage of the api.
so i ask it to change board.display into __str__ and __repr__, it changes it to __str__*, it does not add a __repr__. asking it to add a __repr__ 1) removes the __str__ and 2) gives me this (the other methods are unchanged)
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what. the. fuck. this would imply that board takes in an argument for the boardstate, but it clearly doesnt. after 4 more asks it finally has both __str__ and __repr__, without fixing the fact its implying board takes an optional arg, so i get it to add this arg. anything that needs to print the board still calls display btw.
the reasoning it gave for using display over the repr and str magics was this
While using __str__ and __repr__ is a more idiomatic approach in Python, choosing to have a separate display method can still be a valid choice, especially if the display logic is more complex or if you want to keep the __str__ method for a more concise or formal representation of the object.
which, erm what? why would __str__ be for a concise or formal repr when thats what __repr__ is for? who cares about how complex the logic is. youre calling this every time you print, so move the logic into __str__. it makes no difference for the performance of the program (if you had a very expensive func that prints smth, and you dont want it to run every time you try to print the obj then its understandable to implement that alongside str and repr)
it also said the difference between __str__ and __repr__ every damn time, which if youre asking it to implement these magics then surely you already know the difference?
but okay, one issue down and that took what? 5-10 minutes? and it wouldve taken 1 minute tops to do it yourself?
okay next implementing a tic-tac-toe board as a 1d array is fine, but kinda weird when 2d arrays exist. this one is just personal preference though so i got it to change it to a 2d list*. it changed the init method to this
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[begin ID: Python code that generates a 2D array using nested list comprehensions. end ID]
which works, but just use [[" "] * 3 for _ in range(3)]. the only advantage listcomps have here over multiplying is that they create new lists, instead of copying the pointers. but if you update a cell it will change that pointer. you only need listcomps for the outermost level.
again, this is mainly personal preference, nothing major. but it does show that chatgpt gives u sloppy code
(also if you notice it got rid of the board argument lol)
now i had to explicitly get it to change is_full and make_move. methods in the same damn class that would be changed by changing to a 2d array. this sorta shit should be done automatically lol
it changed make_move by taking row and col args, which is a shitty decision coz it asks for a pos 1-9, so anything that calls make_move would have to change this to a row and col. so i got it to make a func thatll do this for the board class
what i was hoping for: a static method that is called inside make_move
what i got: a standalone function that is not inside any class that isnt early exited
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the fuck is this supposed to do if its never called?
so i had to tell it to put it in the class as a static method, and get it to call it. i had to tell it to call this function holy hell
like what is this?
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i cant believe it wrote this method without ever calling it!
and - AND - theres this code here that WILL run when this file is imported
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which, errrr, this files entire point is being imported innit. if youre going to have example usage check if __name__ = "__main__" and dont store vars as globals
now i finally asked it to update the other classes not that the api has changed (hoping it would change the implementation of make_move to use the static method.) (it didnt.)
Player.make_move is now defined recursively in a way that doesnt work. yippe! why not propagate the error ill never know.
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also why is there so much shit in the try block? its not clear which part needs to be error checked and it also makes the prints go offscreen.
after getting it to fix the static method not being called, and the try block being overcrowded (not getting it to propagate the error yet) i got it to add type hints (if u coding python, add type hints. please. itll make me happy)
now for the next 5 asks it changed 0 code. nothing at all. regardless of what i asked it to do. fucks sake.
also look at this type hint
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why is it Optional[str]???????? the hell??? at no point is it anything but a char. either write it as Optional[list[list[char]]] or Optional[list[list]], either works fine. just - dont bloody do this
also does anything look wrong with this type hint?
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a bloody optional when its not optional
so i got it to remove this optional. it sure as hell got rid of optional
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it sure as hell got rid of optional
now i was just trying to make board.py more readable. its been maybe half an hour at this point? i just want to move on.
it did not want to write PEP 8 code, but oh well. fuck it we ball, its not like it again decided to stop changing any code
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(i lied)
but anyway one file down two to go, they were more of the same so i eventually gave up (i wont say each and every issue i had with the code. you get the gist. yes a lot of it didnt work)
conclusion: as you probably saw, it (mostly) writes code that works, but isnt great. but this is actually a pretty big problem imo. as more and more people are using this to learn how to code, or getting examples of functions, theyre going to be learning from pretty bad code. and then theres what im going to be experiencing, coding with someone who uses this tool. theres going to be easily improvable code that the quote unquote writer wont fully understand going into a codebase with my name of it - a codebase which we will need present for our degree. even though the code is not the main part of this project (well, the quality of the code at least. you need it to be able to run and thats about it) its still a shitty feeling having my name attached to code of this quality.
and also it is possible to get it to write good (readable, idiomatic, efficient enough) code, but only if you can write this code yourself (and are willing to spend more time arguing with the AI than you would writing the code.) most of the things i pointed out to the AI was stuff that someone using this as a learning resource wont know about. if it never gives you static methods, class methods, ABCs, coroutines, type hints, multi-file programs, etc without you explicitly asking for them then its use is limited at best. and people who think that its a tool that can take all the info they need, and give it back to them in a concise, readable way (which is a surprising lot of people) will be missing out without even knowing about it.
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trailerprk-princess · 2 years
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—dating dean winchester | dean winchester x fem!reader headcanons
!!!: my work is not to be reused without credit/permission!
request rules
warnings: nsfw & mentions of drugs! minors dni! fluff & not edited
authors note: im really obsessed with him rn🫣 requests are open!
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he is so desperate for your love & attention that its kinda concerning. he never got love growing up or has been involved romantically with anyone for long & he is used to one night stands that dont go anywhere. so its very refreshing to him to have someone being as equally in love with him as he is w u
he is very hesitant to talk about his feelings & past to everyone, including to those he loves. but you really get him to open up to you about those things. which is really good for him bc he learns that his dad was a shit father & he finally gets to know what real love is. & what it actually feels like to have someone be concerned & care for him. & he knows that he doesnt have to hide anything from you bc you wont judge him or think of him any differntly
when sleeping next to him, he finds it very hard to let you go from his grip. hes very touch starved & craves any touch he can get from u. whether it's spooning you, putting his hand on ur thigh, or just holding ur hand
he is a very conflicted person. almost in every episode he thinks something is wrong w him bc he "enjoys" killing. but it really is bc hes pushed aside every emotion he has ever felt & doesnt deal with them. him being with someone who is willing to listen to his vulnerabilities really helps him figure himself out
he is a VERY loyal person & boyfriend.
he likes to give gifts & is very close to being ur sugar daddy from how much money & gifts he gives u bc he thinks that the only way to keep u around is to give u everything u could ever dream of. which is very unhealthy thinking on his part
he needs CONSTANT reassurance. he needs to know that you will never leave him for someone better. believe it or not but hes pretty insecure. hes not insecure of his abilities in bed or looks but insecure of his lifestyle
he gets you little souvenirs from every state he visits! & now u have a whole bookshelf of knickknacks
type of person to tell u that he loves u within a week of dating. im half joking but he falls for people very easily
hes pretty controlling & protective of u, he just doesnt want you to get hurt. he will not let you go hunting with him, anyone, or alone. he needs you to be safe at all times. which yes, is understandable but you have to tell him that its toxic when it gets to the point hes too nervous about you leaving the bunker, your house, motel, anything really. & there's probably a tracking device in ur bra
he never smoked marijuana or says he does in the show. but everytime he sees a bong hes gets weirdly excited so i think hes a pot smoker. which is nice! bc hes very good at getting you strains of marijuana that r good for u & fit ur needs. he rolls ur blunts/joints for u!! & he even lights them for u as well! smoking weed is a huge part of his aftercare for u as well bc it helps to calm u down
he is very casually dominant! he orders for u, ties ur shoelaces for u, takes away ur soda if uve had too much, denies chocolate from u if u have too much cause he needs u to be healthy for him & eat right. he turns off the tv at the same time every night & makes u go to bed. he doesnt like it when u cuss & gets on to u everytime that u do cuss. he likes to pick out ur outfits as well. he also doesnt let u drink due to the fact his father was an alcoholic
he teaches u how to play pool & poker!! & even takes you out shooting every once in awhile!
he has the BIGGEST innocence kink known to man. he literally loves taking virginites
he literally has an angel kink. theres nothing that screams innocence/corruption kink more than that
he likes to dress you up as an angel too!! white lace lingerie & it would get him going more if he could get you to wear a halo headband!
his literal petname for u is, 'angel.' inside & outside of the bedroom. youre just so sweet & precious, how could he not call u angel??
literally just wants to corrupt u everytime he has sex w u. taking your innocence or making you look innocent while doing a not so innocent activity
a lot of people think hes a switch but i dont think so tbh. he literally has no control in his real life which would make him more likely to want control in the bedroom. not saying he tops everytime but theres no chance i can see him giving up his domination/control
but what i do know for sure is that this man is a FREAK
his list of kinks is longer than the amendments on the bill of rights
breath play, bondage, knife/gun play, impact play, corruption/innocence kink, praise/degradation kink, literally anything if youre down
i mean. he is horny 24/7 so it is for certain that he would try anything once or do anything sexually w u as long as u liked it
he LOVES to praise u! youre his 'pretty baby' or 'good girl' but he also LOVES to get praised too. he needs to know how good he is doing
but there are times that hes very degrading, usually when he has had a bad day. because u can be his 'good girl' one day & the next youre his 'dirty slut'
he is also a brat tamer! if your acting too bratty he will bend u over his knee
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smoshpostiing · 3 months
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for me, it isn't really about "shipping" them. based on how much we see the whole cast on camera and the nature of the videos, it's almost like a big second friend group for us and a place to hang out with them. for me at least, that is the relationship that is presented for me as the audience; as one of them in a way since there are a lot of ways to interact like comments and suggestions.
with all of that and the years we've all watched them, for me it just feels like rooting for two of my friends to go for a relationship, which is in itself harmless, whether or not they go through with it it isn't up to us just like if they were in our friend groups in person.
it feels like i've seen two friends almost grow up (as young adults) together, have amazing chemistry, care for each other, and become true best friends, but also share how they've struggled with relationships in the past. if they can struggle to find a partner outside and are already such a good match, it seems too good to pass up. i want two of my "friends" to be happy regardless of the risks they might have with working together. if i were ian and anthony they would already have my blessing, but the decision is truly only up to both of them.
i also don't believe we should ever 1) use the word "proof" and 2) go through things they haven't openly shared with us in the same way we'd never do that to our other friends in real life. just because there are two screens between us, doesn't make it ok for that to happen. if it isn't something we wouldn't do to our other friends, we especially shouldn't do it with them. i think the more we go over that boundary, the farther they pull back from it.
we do owe them a little better. anything we would do with friends in real life is completely valid, and fun, and comes from a place of wanting people to be happy while 100% not having the pressure on them to do so. anything we wouldn't do in person just pulls them closer against their chests.
the more we are willing to take from their personal lives, the less they are willing to share from their personal lives because people will keep trying to take more.
they've shared in the past they are ok with people shipping them all in good fun, but i just get a little sad sometimes thinking about how they must feel when we do step over that line. i think when courtney said "guys, don't speculate online about other people's relationships online" in the recent get 7th video, i think this is what they were referring to. when we go further than what they previously said they were comfortable with.
i hope this was well put and doesn't come across as antagonistic toward the community because i mean it in the exact opposite way.
(i really like how respectful you are in these responses and posts, keep it up!)
hey anon thank you so much for this!! its super insightful and i would love to discuss. you raise a lot of important and true points and i think its very important to think about this stuff from time to time!!!
for me at least, that is the relationship that is presented for me as the audience
i agree! smosh has built an excellent rapport with their audience and have such an intricate and unique business/brand model that can be personal to audience and to the company whilst still accommodating boundaries and maintaining respect!! i could honestly go on about it for pages and pages but i wont right now because theres much more to discuss here!!
whether or not they go through with it it isn't up to us
i am on the same page 10000% and it's likely you've seen me post about this on here before. as much as we are fans and part of a community where we can ship and make fanart and rpf and theorise and discuss, we are also smosh's AUDIENCE. not to mention that shayne and court's relationship (romantic or otherwise) is a very real part of their personal lives away from smosh and we do not get to decide what they do or don't share with us.
it feels like i've seen them almost grow up (as young adults) together, have amazing chemistry, care for each other, and become true best friends
absolutely 🥹 i think a lot of you will agree with me or relate in the sense that i have been able to grow up with smosh, and watched them grow and become who they are all whilst figuring that stuff out for myself!! its no wonder people are excited and curious about them, when we have been the audience there with them watching them grow through the many years!!
also don't believe we should ever 1) use the word "proof" and 2) go through things they haven't openly shared with us in the same way we'd never do that to our other friends in real life. just because there are two screens between us, doesn't make it ok for that to happen. if it isn't something we wouldn't do to our other friends, we especially shouldn't do it with them. i think the more we go over that boundary, the farther they pull back from it.
THIS IS THE EXACT POINT I TRY TO MAKE VERY CLEAR ON MY BLOG!! personally, i believe not only that it violates their boundaries and privacy and disrespects them, but it is dehumanising and almost treats S+C as characters rather than real people.
the golden rules of my blog are
1)to never mention "proofs" or "evidence"(i will send a warning just in case someone wasnt aware of the harm it can cause, after that if it happens again, blocked)
2) it's not okay to try and discuss moments or images that aren't specifically shared by either of their personal social media accounts or on smosh (or any channel they appear on as work). anything not shared from these cannot guarantee that it had s or c's consent to be shared and can risk violating their privacy.
and 3) to never bother s or c or anyone associated with them by trying to speculate about the relationship they have. again, boundaries, privacy, comfort and respect. pretty simple.
the more we are willing to take from their personal lives, the less they are willing to share from their personal lives because people will keep trying to take more.
this is such a fantastic point anon. i wish i could show everyone in the smoshblr community and particularly shourtney shippers this. (and again, it all comes back to s+c's comfort when it comes to sharing. the only way we can guarantee they are comfortable is by showing them that we respect their boundaries and privacy.)
(i really like how respectful you are in these responses and posts, keep it up!)
thank you anon! i think its really important to just be as transparent as possible when it comes to these discussions about shourtney. thank you for your ask!! im glad i had an opportunity to discuss these topics in depth.
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lambment · 4 months
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FAQ & Important Info
About me:
bday: march 30th
lgbt?: im bi
What can we call you?
Lambment is fine, its supposed to be a play on of Lament or Lambent you can also call me Pepaw!
What pronouns do you use?
I'd prefer They/Them, but you can use She/Her.
Whats your Main blog?
Im still deciding whether I want to have my two blogs associated, Im enjoying the anonyminity. That being said, I may say whatever and link em', but you'll just have to wait until then.
Mutuals are free to ask though, theres a level of understanding that I trust you when I started following you.
Art Related:
What art program(s) do you use?
Procreate and Clip studio Paint. Brushes: Shiyoon Kims Wet Brush pack (X) and several Max Packs (X) for procreate in CSP I use the defaults + these two lineart brushes (X) (X)
How long have you been drawing?
I've always drawn, but I started getting really serious at 14, around the same time I first made my main blog. I was self taught up until I got into animation school.
What do you do as a career?
I'm currently doing Freelance work for companies and individuals. I was previously an animator, I'm moving over to storyboarding now.
Do you have a store for your art?
yes, probably wont be posting it here until/if I decide to link my main blog, But I'm willing to make prints or zines in the future!
Do you take requests/commissions?
I do have commissions. all the slots are currently filled, but you can message me and request an inquiry for wait times/prices.  for the time being small requests are open, they may close soon, and there’s no real guarantee I’d do anything with them.
Asks and Messaging:
Rules for asks/tagging?
Anyone can send me a message, Mutuals, Anons or not!
Dont send discourse or anything explicitly NSFW. you'll be blocked lol. suggestive I dont mind, also artistic nudity is oki doki, but if theres two people tangoing I dont want to see it. if you send me triggering content I’ll mind blast you into dust. (block).
Do not send and DNI's?
Transphobia, Homophobia, Acephobia. All the obvious bigot contenders.
SA, pdfilia and incest are absolute no goes.
***very important to note to be aware of when you’re making sexual comments on someones posts, are you actually being ‘funny haha’ or are u just being explicit.
are you okay with me direct messaging you?
only if we have spoken before/ you're giving me a headsup about something/ I've prompted you to send me one. Mutuals are free to DM though. willy nilly even.
***minors: please refrain from dming me to chit chat, im not down to and it will probably end with me lecturing you about internet safety.***
Why don’t you answer my asks/dms?
my main blog has +1000 unanswered asks... I’m tiored. (I also hoard the nice ones sometimes like its a pile of treasure, dont ask me why) as for DM's, unprompted messages from strangers will not always get answered sorry. I also sometimes just dont see it because im an old man w ADHD thats logged off the internet.
Misc
why are you posting political stuff on your art/fandom blog?
because I can and caring should have no such boundaries.
Can you reblog my donation posts?
no. too many scams.
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faerunsbest · 2 months
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Tav Character Worksheet: Ma'na
(i wasn't sure if you wanted dwylla or the new tav ma'na so im using this to flesh out mana)
with Ma'na i haven't even built her up in bg3 i just built her like Dwylla. with whatever i was capable of doodling and what i know from playing and researching.
as far as tags uhh if you guys wanna play @dutifullylazybread @falcatamandarina @cinnasalmon @commander-krios
thank you elven-e-girl
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Name: ma'na its a joke because mages need mana and i made her for rolan! haha i thought it was funny anywho
Age: shes early to late 30's but doesn't actually know how old she is as she doesn't count it or celebrate birthdays.
Gender:female, happily woman although she does not limit herself to 'fem' activities and the like
Sexuality:Bisexual. she find herself attracted to certain features (dark eyes//split tongue//ect) although you can be none of the things she finds attractive and still land her if you make her laugh and feel safe
Pronouns:she/her
Tav voice:n/a
Family:Ma'na is one of 23 children. they are drowe that work mines, there are so many of them for the same reason farmers used to have a million kids. its cheaper to raise em then hire em. She used to be a rather mid worker but was prominent for the sole reason of she
Birthplace: Somwhere between mintar and thornwood there is mine. that mine is where she was born and where she lived her life
Job(s): she has done very little as since she was born she as told her purpose. to work. manual labor, mining, building, digging, demolition and all that comes with helping keep her family up and running
Phobia(s): drowning/suffocating ,nothing terrifies her as much as not being able to just perform the basic task of breathing
Guilty Pleasures:in all honestly she feels guilty about wanting to be wanted for more than she can offer.
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she feels guilty about feeling pleasure in her body and her form, things like touching cuddling, kissing fucking and masturbating makes her feel likes shes doing something wrong
Hobbies:singing. sculpting sewing
she sings in the mines and her voice echoes down cold stone keeping people awake, sending chills when you've forgotten shes there.
with all the clay she pulls up from the soil, she pressed her fingers deep appreciating the feel of around her fingers, pressing, pulling stretching and smoothing clay until it resembles someone or something
she loves fixing old clothes, stitching in little pictures to make broken old worn out things feel new and loved still
alignment chaotic good. overall she wants good happy things but people aren't always good and she sometime retaliate with excessive violence or some form of mischief
sins.previous to the nautiloid she didn't have a lot of opportunity to commit any notable sin. even so probably the most notable things shes done is sleep with Dammon when she was supposed to be working. she also kicked the absolute living shit out aradin far past a singular punch
virtues: she does her best to believe people are good and give them a few chances to be good which is why she wont let astarion ascend
This or That?that?
Introverted or extraverted? depends on the day, but mostly extroverted
Organized or disorganized?mostly organized but any more than is useful
Closed or open-minded? forever curious shes quite open minded
Calm, anxious, or restless? calm, theres very little that sirs anxiety in her. shes always very much 'ill either die or i wont'
Disagreeable or agreeable?usually very agreeable as she just wants to enjoy herself
Cautious or reckless? moderately cautious
Patient or impatient? very patient, she willing to wait for good things
Outspoken or reserved?depends on the topic, shes very reserved with gale as she like to let him yammer but with astarion and laezel she feels its incredibly important they know how she feels
Leader or follower? she never lead anything until the nautiloid, as long as she knows what needs to be done she can lead but prefers to just do her part and be done
Empathetic or apathetic?incredibly empathetic
Optimist, pessimist, or realist?somewhere between optimist and realist, as in do the best with what you've got but a person can not expect miracles
Traditional or modern? whatever is easiest and most efficient she has no qualms in either direction
Hardworking or lazy? she will as hard as is needed but no harder than is required
OTP: ma'na and rolan my loves
BROTP:astarion/ ma'na they talk a lot, about things they wish would or wouldn't have happened. when he offers to please her at the grove she catches him outright, stating she wont touch him unless that what he wants, actively wants. he's so thrown off guard they wind up sitting out there talking until its time to leave in the morning
NOTP:SHADOW HEART
they just do not mesh and shart doesn't join them on the mission despite being rescued on the ship
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definitelynotshouting · 9 months
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(scared) What... what happens if Grian explains right off the bat when he's found out? (shaking)
in reference to the tags of this ask
So like. A really huge part of what Scar's plan entails in canon-- and yes, it's Scar doing this partially on purpose-- is the inherent kindness of the hermits. You bring a starving, dying man back into the fold, and you can absolutely bet that the VAST majority of hermits will at LEAST let him stay until he's healthier again. This is a deliberate move on Scar's part!!! The urgency of the situation (plus the familiarity) creates more of an incentive to let Grian in and then let him linger, which gives him a chance to grow his roots again and make up with the hermits. Scar wants him home again, permanently, and in this game its basically ALL about buying time.
So what happens when you take away that sense of "he's gonna die if we dont keep him here" urgency?? Well...
Well, in an au where Grian fessed up instantly abt the starving and making games when confronted, there's a lot more room to think about it. In some ways, hunger!Grian's canonical reaction to shut down and just let them furiously throw them out was a lot kinder and ultimately worked to his advantage-- nobody got any answers, so they started looking. People are more willing to talk to him if only to understand why. There's a clear element of "i was just doing this to survive and i feel fucking horrible about it" that is,,, pretty undeniable when you've got the person in question self-harming pretty severely about it. And yes, there's pity. Not always a bad thing, and in this case thats the element Scar is deliberately tugging on to make Grian's stay a bit more palatable until he can reintegrate himself
But when you have time to think about it, without that immediate evidence, without that sense of raw urgency sorta blanketing everything so people dont question as much-- what you get is a more measured, and ultimately more negative outlook. The hermits OF COURSE take the time to help Grian figure out how to feed without using people's emotions. They're kind like that. They do care. But theres now more time to think about this, more time to decide yeah, thats valid, sure, but he still used us and hurt a lot of us and also we didnt consent.
Essentially, what im getting at here is that in a hunger au variant where Grian fesses up immediately, the hermits do help him figure out a way to feed without relying on others... and then when thats all sorted out, a vote is called, and Grian is politely but firmly requested to leave. So he loses them anyway, and without the benefit of a mystery to help bring him back.
Thats not to say the vote wasnt awfully divided, there were plenty of people who were at the very least okay with him staying. But with more time and less distance to think things out, a lot of the folks who fall into the "wary but willing to hear him out" category in canon (i have a whole chart fiejfjdj) ended up moving to the "we dont want him here" side of things because they found themselves understandably uncomfortable with the situation and the harm caused by it to others. To their friends.
Basically, its enough of a majority vote to get Grian kicked anyway and without an opening to return. And in this au, i dont think he would return. The au as i have it outlined is that Grian ends up spending years alone on a singleplayer world, falling into his grief and into the rote cycle of surviving but not thriving, until Iskall (one of the people who wanted him to stay) meets him in a market hub and eagerly gets back in touch with him.
Its very much one of those aus that really SQUEEZES your heart, bc its about the loneliness, and the emptiness of losing your entire community, and knowing it is your fault. Its about what happens when you fully isolate because of guilt and forget what its like to be happy because you wont LET yourself be happy. And its about relearning what its like to be a person instead of personified misery. The recovery in that au is SO much harder, so much of a more difficult road (which is saying smth considering canon's is already super difficult), and takes a lot more time and effort on Grian's part. Its a good au, one im really sinking my teeth into and chattering about in dms, but my gods is it significantly worse in many ways to canon hunger au
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theinkyisles · 4 months
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word count: 3691
warnings: theres a scene where shadow thinks hes gonna get jumped but he wont, hes just rather anxious
reblog pls I beg
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The bridge to Angel Island theoretically had a foot path alongside its road. The key word here is “theoretically.” The bridge had first been built over one hundred fifty years ago and slowly replaced and updated as certifications became stricter and cars became more and more of a family item. The current iteration must have been put in place almost fifty years prior and, while the road fared well over time, the footpath fell into desperate disrepair. There was no use to try and use his skates over what may as well be a gravel sidewalk, so whenever Shadow walked from Green Hills to Angel Island, he walked.
As he’s walking, the bridge rattles slightly and Shadow turns his head to see someone’s car starting to drive across the bridge. It’s not one he recognizes, but he doesn’t exactly know everyone’s car in Green Hills, so he turns back, pulling his jacket tighter around his body and walking a little faster. He pats down his inner pocket and curses lightly under his breath. He doesn’t need his knife, he hasn’t needed it in years, but he wishes he hadn’t fallen out of the habit of carrying it with him.
The car is creeping along, slower than it should, and Shadow keeps his head forward. He’s a pretty fast runner and worst case imaginable, he runs back to Green Hill. It’ll be fine, it will be fine, it will-
“Shadow!” a booming voice calls out. Shadow freezes in his tracks, his heart beating in his throat, his breathing rushing in and out at an ill-advised rate. The car rolls up next to Shadow, the sidewalk barrier standing in between him and the vehicle. Shadow forces himself to look at the driver, all alarms blaring in his head, and a huge woosh of air leaves his lungs as the tension bleeds from his shoulders. Knuckles’ bright expression fades into something more concerned. “I have scared you,” he says, frowning.
“You did,” Shadow sniffs, “but you always do. What were you doing in Green Hills?” Knuckles sticks a thumb towards the back seat, his bangles clacking loudly. Shadow cranes his neck to look. Cases of various flavoring syrups are stacked together and tied down so they don’t shift around during transit. Stamped across all of them is the name Emerald.
“There was something wrong with the last supply shipment, so Rouge asked me if I would be willing to get the emergency replacement.” Shadow makes a face.
“She can’t have been happy with that,” he says. Knuckles nods resolutely.
“She said several things I will not repeat,” Knuckles says in a wry tone, before reaching over the passenger seat to pop the passenger door open. “Join me, I am headed to the Emerald before going home.” Shadow raises an eyebrow.
“You’re just assuming I’m going to Angel Island to see you?” he asks. Knuckles rolls his eyes.
“Get in the car, Shadow. Let us not keep the miss waiting.”
“Calling her the miss¸ she must really have been upset,” Shadow says, taking a couple steps back. He takes a running leap, grasping the top of the barrier and launching his legs sideways over the concrete. He lands on the balls of his feet, steady. Knuckles beams and gives a soft applause. Shadow preens slightly before grabbing hold of the door handle and sliding into the passenger seat. Knuckles quickly shifts gears and the car jolts into a start as they make their way across the bridge.
Knuckles keeps the window down, letting the air flow in out of the car. Shadow rests his elbow against the door, leaning his head close enough to the open window to feel the wind flowing past. His other arm is stretched out enough across the console that his hand brushes against Knuckles’ forearm.  Knuckles, in turn, shifts his arm so that it presses closer to Shadow’s hand. Shadow presses his face into his arm, hiding a stupid-soft smile (he can’t see it, but Knuckles is wearing a similar, even soppier expression).
The car rattles along, tracing a long-familiar route and before long, they’re pulling up to Emerald. Knuckles quickly exits the car and Shadow makes to follow suit, but Knuckles appears at his door in a flash, gently pushing him back into the car. Shadow gives him a look and Knuckles shakes his head resolutely. “Last time, you hurt yourself.” Shadow goes red and crosses his arms.
“Last time was a mistake, and it’s going to take forever if you do it all by yourself.” Knuckles rolls his eyes before popping the door to the back seat and gathering one, two, three cases on his own and striding into the building. Shadow scoffs and slumps into his seat.  “Show-off,” he grumbles.
“I can hear you!” Knuckles shouts, but Shadow just sticks his tongue out.
The Emerald is an old club that’s been around for as long as Shadow can remember. A bright neon sign reads the name of the establishment across the front of the building and the front door is plastered with various posters, the same design of a green emerald on all of them. It’s the only place you can reliably get drunk at in a thirty-mile radius and every weekend, the tiny building is packed to the brim. Local bands just getting their start frequently have their first big shows here. Once (and only once) Shadow played upfront and quickly learned that he never wanted to perform again, nearly quitting bass guitar altogether over it. The Babylon Rogues, specifically, are getting rather popular with their stints at Emerald and Rouge has regularly stated that if they don’t give her a cut of their world tour money after she discovered them, she’ll sue them for all their worth. The Rogues laugh like she’s joking but Shadow’s sure she knows a couple lawyers who would take her side.
Shadow watches Knuckles carry the last few cases in and lock up the employee entrance before getting back into the driver’s seat. They don’t say anything as Knuckles shifts the car into first, second, and then third gear, rumbling down the road, but as soon as the car sets a steady pace, he reaches over a hand and Shadow face burns as he slips his hand into his friend’s.
They rove around Angel Island, climbing up the hills to where Rouge and Knuckles’ apartment is. Occasionally, Knuckles has to pull away his hand to shift gears again or mess with the parking brake, but he always picks Shadow’s hand back up (and it’s not like Shadow is a small man. He’s really not. It’s just that Knuckles is truly a foot taller than him and his hand swallows Shadow’s own and it’s not a thing, it’s not, chaos-). The engine hums a comforting sound and Shadow leans his head against the car door, letting his eyes fall shut as exhaustion tugs at him. Before long, they’re pulling into Knuckles’ designated parking spot and Knuckles tugs gently at his hand to wake him up.
Shadow takes a second to orient himself, drowsiness dripping off him in waves, but he eventually stumbles out of the car and catches up to Knuckles, who’s already taken Shadow’s bag and is waiting for him at the curb. “I could have gotten it myself,” Shadow mutters, shoving his hands into his jacket pockets. Knuckles pats him heavily on the back and Shadow has to brace himself not to stumble forward.
“What do the children say?” Knuckles muses. “As if. That is what the children say. Now hurry, the miss is waiting!” Shadow’s head perks up slightly and Knuckles chuckles. “You both are very predictable.” Shadow flushes and shoves at Knuckles’s side, though predictably, he doesn’t budge an inch.
“We’re not,” he defends. The other man just rolls his eyes and makes for the stairs. Shadow follows close behind, taking two steps at a time just to keep up with Knuckles’ gait. He quickly unlocks the door and sets Shadow’s bag right inside. They both slip off their shoes, Knuckles immediately moving to a pair of fuzzy house slippers, and Shadow zips further into the apartment, craning his head around corners to look for Rouge.
She’s in the kitchen, looking at her phone and chewing on something. She doesn’t turn to greet him in the doorway, but he’s not one to try and break her concentration on whatever she’s looking at. Shadow steps onto the cold tile, shivering slightly as it creeps up through his socks, and makes for the cupboard where he knows his mug is kept. As he reaches it, he brushes by Rouge and she screams, startling the both of them. Shadow jumps just about a foot in the air, his shoulders tensing up to his ears, and Rouge whirls around, grabbing a wooden spoon as a weapon. Shadow hears scrambling down the hall and Knuckles slides in, his eyes wide.
Rouge and Shadow stare at each other for a second before Rouge gently smacks him with the wooden spoon and yanks what he now realizes is her earbuds from her ears. “You scared me, asshole!” she admonishes, slumping back against the counter. Shadow’s shoulders drop, still tense, but no longer in fight or flight. Knuckles exhales heavily, rubbing at his eyes with a laugh.
“In my defense,” Shadow starts, “I didn’t expect you to be blowing out your ear drums with whatever you’re listening to.” Rouge scoffs and smacks again with the wooden spoon. Shadow hisses lightly and bats it away. “Unfair, I’m unarmed.”
“I should know better than to leave you two unsupervised,” Knuckles declares. “This always happens.” Rouge makes a scandalized noise.
“It does not always happen,” she refutes, “it’s just that this oaf-” she smacks him again with the spoon.
“Ow, Rouge, stop doing that-”
“-doesn’t know how to knock.” Knuckles furrows his forehead.
“Must he knock when he enters? I would have made him do so, but we have never required that before.” Rouge’s gaze softens and she pads over the small space to reach up and pat his cheek.
“Figure of speech, baby,” she says and Knuckles’ expression changes from confusion to a look of understanding. She looks back over her shoulder and turns around, propping her hands on her hips. “Now what are you going to say for scaring me?”
“I’m not going to apologize,” Shadow grumps, crossing his arms. Rouge glares at him for a moment, her lips pinched together, and the moment is a long stare between the two before Rouge cracks first and laughs. The tension from Shadow’s shoulders finally bleeds out and he smirks. “I always win, when will you admit that.” She shakes her wooden spoon at him and Knuckles reaches over to pluck it out of her hand.
Rouge spins again, turning her ire onto her partner and Shadow chuckles as Knuckles tries in vain to defend himself. He turns back to his mission, looking for his mug and setting the kettle to boil. Behind them, the faux argument dissolves in Rouge and Knuckles just poking each other’s button before someone rings the doorbell and Knuckles seems to be the one who loses the draw to go answer it. He settles against the counter and closes his eyes, listening for the telltale whistle of the kettle being done. A warm pressure leans against his side and he cracks an eyelid to see Rouge settling in right next to him. “Personal space much?” he mutters. Rouge snorts and Shadow allows himself a lazy smile.
“You haven’t been sleeping,” she says more than asks. Shadow shrugs. “You gonna stay for dinner?”
“I was thinking staying the night?” he asks quietly. “I know you and Knuckles have work and- I can of course head back home if it’s inconvenient.” Rouge shushes him, papping him gently on the arm before resting her head on the same spot.
“You can stay as long as you’d like.” Shadow leans into her, pressing his cheek to the top of her head. “As long you do the dishes.” He groans loudly and Rouge laughs.
“You’re awful to me,” he grumbles.
“Sure, sure,” Rouge says lightly. “I’m a horrible monster.” The kettle takes the moment to screaming and Shadow startles slightly. Rouge sets aside so he can reach into another cupboard, grabbing the first tea bag he feels and chucking it into the mug. As he pours the water, he hears Knuckles walking back into the kitchen. “Who was at the door?”
“Cream,” Knuckles says. Shadow turns around to face them, breathing across his tea to try and cool it down before taking a sip. Knuckles waves around an envelope. “Little rabbit gave me this envelope and said it was from her mother.” Rouge purses her lips and reaches for it.
“What would Vanilla need?” she asks, almost to herself as Knuckles hands over the envelope. She deftly rips it open with her acrylics and Knuckles peers over her shoulder. “Honey, you don’t have your glasses on, you won’t be able to read it,” she says off-handedly, skimming through the letter. Knuckles frowns, squinting at the page.
“Bested by reading,” he grumbles. “Blasted letters.” Shadow snorts into his tea and Knuckles frowns at him. “Do not laugh at my plight! You try having these eyes!”
“I’m good, but thank you for the offer,” Shadow says wryly, taking a sip. “What did Vanilla write?” he asks Rouge. She’s frowning at the letter and quickly turns it around to the back, but there’s nothing written.
“She’s asking if there’s any open positions at Emerald.” Shadow and Knuckles cock their head to the side in tandem.
“Has she lost her employment?” Knuckles asks. Rouge shakes her head, reading the page again.
“No….it seems like she’s asking for someone else? It’s just that it ends mid-sentence…” Rouge pulls another page out of the envelope. “Interesting. Apparently, some friend of hers is moving into town. He needs a job.”
“He couldn’t ask himself?” Shadow huffs. “Go through an interview process like the rest of us?” Rouge raises an eyebrow at him.
“Didn’t I get you your current job?” Shadow’s shoulders creep up to his ears and he loudly slurps his tea instead of answering. “That’s what I thought.” Rouge looks back at the letter, sighs, and then looks up at Knuckles. “Do we have the space for someone else?” Knuckles hums, very carefully thinking it over.
“Temporarily, perhaps. Until whoever this fellow is can find some more suitable work. Vanilla has asked for little in return for the favors she has paid us.” Rouge chews on the inside of her cheek.
“It’s not a bad idea,” Shadow speaks up. “My hours- I asked for more work at my second job so I won’t be around as much.” Rouge’s head shoots up at him.
“Are you having trouble with money?” she demands. “Shadow, I swear, you need to fucking tell us about this- we’ve been asking you to move in for months, it would fix so much-”
“No, no, no, it’s not...” Shadow sighs and sets his tea on the counter, fiddling with the cuffs of his leather jacket. “I just have too much time on my hands. Might as well do something productive.” Rouge scoffs.
“Hardly call what they make you do productive-”
“Rouge,” Knuckles says, disapprovingly. Rouge waves her hands in the air, a mock surrender.
“Fine, fine, keeping my mouth shut.”
“I know you don’t like what I do, Rouge, but it brings in good money.”
“Look, I’m dropping it so you have to drop it too,” she insists, tossing the letter onto the counter. “Okay, no more work talk. Promise. I’ll- turn off my phone even.”
“Oh, wow,” Shadow remarks, sarcasm dripping from his voice.  Rouge sighs loudly and Shadow sinks into his jacket. “Sorry. Uncalled for.”
“It is past lunch,” Knuckles interjects, “and neither of you have slept well recently. Let us eat and then we will sleep, alright?”
“Thanks, Knux,” Shadow says quietly. “Sorry for being an ass.” Rouge grabs him by the arm and pulls him into her side.
“If you weren’t being an ass at least some of the time, I think I’d be worried.” Shadow digs a hand under her ribs and she shoves at him, hard. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees Knuckles bestowing them a fond smile and he ducks his head, flushed. Rouge claps her hands together, her arm still looped around Shadow’s. “Okay. Get the takeout menus. We’re splurging tonight.”
-
Bracing his knees, he hoisted the crate of new glasses up over onto the bar to be loaded into the dishwasher. Knuckles surveyed the bar, mentally checking exactly what needed to be done before he could go home and get ready for his security shift. The floor was disgusting and likely needed to be mopped several times over. Trash had been picked up, supposedly, but it couldn’t hurt to go over it on more time.  Bathrooms had to be cleaned and counters wiped down. The bartenders will come in shortly and cut fruit and refill coasters and straws on their own, but if he had time, he will try and get some of their tasks done ahead of time. Knuckles sighs and tightens the bandana holding his dreads back. It will be a long night.
As he makes for the storage closet, someone knocks on the entrance to the club. Knuckles stops, staring at the door, thinking he made it up. The door began rattling again, someone banging on it over and over again. Knuckles carefully walks up the door, keeping his footsteps soft. As he gets to the door, someone calls out, “Hey! Hey, uh, it’s Sonic? Vanilla sent me.”
Knuckles pauses. He had read Vanilla’s letter himself, once he’d finally found his glasses. A friend of a friend, apparently, who was moving to Green Hills and needed employment. Young, though, a couple years younger than himself, and the transition from Station Square to some place like Green Hills seemed odd.
He opens the door and there’s a young man rocking on his feet outside the door. The first thing Knuckles notices is the shock of vibrant blue hair pulled into a baby ponytail at the base of the man’s neck. It doesn’t do much to keep it out of his face, and strands of it are sticking everywhere. He’s a lot shorter than what Knuckles was expecting, but, to be honest, he wasn’t expecting much of anything today. The man beams up at him. “Hi! Are you uh, Rouge? I figure, because of the red – your dreads are cool as fuck, by the way.” He sticks a hand out at Knuckles. “I’m Sonic, Vanilla said you got work for me?”
Knuckles carefully shakes Sonic’s hand. “I am not Rouge, but she is the manager. I work security, my name is Knuckles,” he says. Sonic nods rapidly.
“Cool, cool, cool, so, uh, is Rouge inside then? I gotta get a paycheck sooner than later so-” Sonic tries to peer over Knuckles’s shoulder into the club but Knuckles shifts to block his line of sight.
Rouge and he had discussed, very vaguely, if the club could take on new staff. It wasn’t that there was a lack of work, but they were a small establishment, and the owner of the place tended to cut costs wherever he could. The fact that Rouge and Knuckles had stayed as long as they had was a testament to how hard they’d worked to make themselves – bringing on a new, seemingly permanent person? Knuckles would love to, but it didn’t seem like a possibility. Rouge was supposed to talk to Boss tomorrow. Then they would see.
“Rouge did not schedule for an interview today. Come back tomorrow,” Knuckles says and goes to close the door. Sonic’s eyes go wide and he sticks his arms in between the door and the frame, forcing Knuckles to keep the door open or crush Sonic’s arms.
“Wait, wait, wait, look, man, I really need work,” he says frantically. “I’ll do just about anything, but everywhere else is just gonna take forever and I need to pay rent, like, yesterday.”
“I told you, there’s no interview today,” Knuckles opens the door, squaring his shoulders, and tilting his head to the side. “Now get lost. You can come back tomorrow.” Sonic clasps his arms together and…begins to beg.
“Please, man, just- just like twenty bucks, I’ll do whatever you want me to. Look, I have a kid, at home, he- he needs to eat and stuff and I really used up everything I had to get us here and-” Sonic continues but Knuckles tunes him out, the mention of a child putting him at odds with himself.
On the one hand, this would largely be illegal. There is a process for a reason and the owner only needs one reason to nix Rouge from her already tenuous position among his staff. But leaving someone with a child in the lurch went against every moral code Knuckles has and…well, as long as he could hold his own, Knuckles could figure something out for Sonic.
“-he’s like nine and growing every day and-”
“Trial run,” Knuckles cuts Sonic off. “Today only. If you pull your weight, then I will pay you and I will talk to Rouge.” He steps close to Sonic, grabbing the collar of his letterman and lifting Sonic up with it so that’s he’s on his toes. Sonic blanches and starts stammering. “One mistake. That is all it will take to lose this opportunity. Do you understand me?”
“Yeah, dude, of course, just- let me down, will ya?” Sonic says. Knuckles stares him in the eye before dropping him. Sonic lets out a yelp and scrambles to regain his footing. Knuckles turns back into the club, gesturing for Sonic to follow him.
“Come, we have much to do.”
“Anyone tell you you’re kinda freaky?” Sonic says breathlessly, sneakers squeaking as he struggles to keep up with Knuckles. Knuckles grabs a broom leaning it against the wall and tosses it at him.
“Yes. Now sweep.”
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Since u are doing romantic stuff for more character can u do romantic hcs for Jeff and Nina
Dating Jeff and Nina headcanons
I wasnt sure if you wanted them separate or not so! Separate just to be safe!
Notes: Reader is GN
CWs: Canon typical violence
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Jeff
Affection is.. still something new to him, at least with giving- he mostly shows that he cares through actions.. whether it be putting a knife in someone who's giving you hassle or picking something up for you
Just don't mention it because hes going to get defensive about it... hes not getting soft!
Fairly possessive and prone to jealousy, and can react immaturely... definitely going to have to work on it
A little.. very.. not used to touch and may or may not have an aversion so it's going to take some time to warm up to it
VERY forgetful, or admittedly sometimes hes just not listening.. he doesnt mean to he just struggle to focus on things that dont capture his attention immediately
Definitely working on it, though! For you, actually.. wont admit it, though
Definitely teaches you how to throw knives... unfortunately you now have a brand new mark in your wall where you guys were practicing.. sighs.. better go outside and use a tree next time
Nina
Shes your number 1 fan, constantly hyping you up and making sure you know your worth
Loves doing your makeup and hair, shes willing to comply to your personal style but she tends to add her own touch
Makes you necklaces and bracelets made with little knickknacks shes found or collected
"Never back down never what" "never give up.." dynamic if you tend to be low energy
Not judgemental at all, open to just about anything so you know theres always going to be a safe space
Oh you guys definitely make ocs to ship with each other
Nina definitely does self shipping and- well you're on this blog so you likely do the same or do oc x canon! You guys can ramble about your f/o's for hooooours
Building off of that but she genuinely attempts to get into your interests so the two of you can go insane over it together
Looooves physical touch, always hugging you and peppering your face with kisses- you often have marks on your face from her lipstick
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