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thepowerisyouth · 2 months

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Eh mental health is annoying. Buying & cooking cheap low-FODMAP diet is annoying. My best top note for now is I'm using this blog to practice writing. I need more practice in it. I only know business, accounting & economics stuff. Its stupid stuff. Theres too much actual fraud everywhere that its annoying

Also I use mobile so formatting sucks cause Nvidia GPUs, or Arch dont like tumblr site. Or tumblr site dont like tumbkr site

Also also I 100,000% support all my fellow ones-and-zeros and their identity. Everyone is welcome here.

Except transphobes/zionist/long list of others but you get it. I'll help harrass any of those types endlessly if someone wants to tag me, and bring me in on an argument like that friend you call for backup with fights

Im unhinged so who's to say exactly what will end up here but this is also a completely public blog to me friends, family, hell, even acquaintances i dont give a fuc.

Blog should be expected to be roughly as child-friendly as simpsons or bobs burgers. But also boring like a civics/economics lesson sometimes. Yay

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I (and my husband) am ex mormon. Its a weird thing. Look into it if you havent recently. Realllllyyyy look into. Takes time to figure it all out in this fuckin fucked up world.

I just moved a year ago. Didnt watch the US stock market as much as I normally do. Had my first snowstorm 10 weeks ago, that was.. fun to handle while ill prepared. About 6 weeks ago I was hopping back on the market and notice its a huge tech bubble about to pop and all the conditions Ive been warned about my whole career imply this is not good. Just took a little more thinking & digging and I'm a little too confident to stop talking about it now.

(Oh I'm also care-free as fuc so I dont really read or desire to change past posts more than lil-nitpicks. More informative for the reader & myself-in-the-future-reading that way)

And I'm not kidding I do love feedback & questions. Its a very public blog tho so I get that part for sure.

If you search "life story" in my tags I had that pinned for a min Im just moving shit around rn

Being poor sucks. Will write more on that later.

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First of all-- the exact timeline of an "economic shock" is literal insanity. Dont worry about the exact timing of any of this-- just know its doomed to happen soon.

Here are some effects I predict of this upcoming economic downturn

If anyone comes across any sources for these events that support my arguments please feel free to add in comments, reblogs, etc.

This concise list is mainly for my own reference, but it would be great to add to it if any one has something to add!

0.5. US Stock market collapse-- I have no desire to try and predict this one exactly. Too many conspiracies are actually correct about this big guy. Lets just say 7 US Tech stocks are worth 25% of the entire worlds market, roughly. "Too big to fail"-- I believe is the phrase

1. Corporate (slightly later will be residential by extension) real estate crisis: currently way too overvalued. Most of the houses, land, & urban corporate property we see could stand to decrease by about 60-90% from its current price.

2. Bankruptcy crisis: similar to the after-effects of the 70s inflation-- we can expect to see a huge wave of bankruptcies affecting a variety of business: from the micro-self employed; to the small business with leased buildings; to the largest corporations who commit massive accounting fraud & hope to escape accountability in time

3. Bank runs-- there is an extremely high overreliance on the Federal Reserve, who does not have good control over this situation. Once it becomes clear that there is a crisis (we call this a catalyst event)-- bank runs for physical cash are a surety. Hard to say how long a crisis like this might last. I should ask my siblings who lived near the SVB bank crisis hotspot (but those were rich fucks they do their "bank runs" over the phone)

3.5. Global currency collapse, which takes effect in every single local, state, & national economy at slightly different times. This means prices lower. Much lower. But takes time

4. Whatever the fuck the geopolitics is gonna do???. Its weird. You got Russia wanting to invade Europe? (Look at global economic forum 2024) Trump wants to let them. Biden wants to be an establishment corporate ass. North Korea has changed its #1 public enemy to South Korea (dont remember my source but it was a couple months ago). USA is stationing more troops in Taiwan, but probably only because of semiconductor technology?

The scope of our global financial woes are larger than can be explained in any of our lifetimes. Its much, much closer to pre-revolution France or the late 1920s. Big change is coming. Itll be soon

5. More to come

#anti capitalism #economics #geopolitics #real estate #bankruptcy #banks #corporate fucks #pinned post #mental health sucks ball sacks #arch linux #nvidia is a scam bubble like enron #simpsons #bobs burgers #intro post #will change it more later

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saijspellhart · 2 years

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Wow things have been crazy,

Finished out my first week full time at my new job. I’m still nervous. And it’s still a bit overwhelming. But I’m learning and improving.

We had a pipe burst under our house and we were without water for nearly a whole week. Couldn’t shower, flush toilets, cook, nothing. Broke as fuck, and trying to get by without water is… very stressful. Had to buy jugs of water from the store to wash hands and ration it for other uses.

We managed to get that pipe fixed, but there is still a pipe in my shower that is busted and leaking. And honestly just a million other small home repairs that we cannot afford but need.

Got some family drama/stress happening. My eldest brother is being stupid about his diabetes and I’m worried about him.

Friend drama happening. (I don’t want to get into that. But is better now.)

On top of all that, still got my medical problems I’m always dealing with. I’m chronically and incurably sick. Got an autoimmune disease, coupled with mental health problems. Which means even my best functioning and most active days, are still the bottom of the barrel days for normal healthy people. But I’m trying so very hard.

Suffice to say, I’m dirt poor, barely scraping by, and there is a mountain of stress smothering me.

Which is why I’ve been quite absent, and not updating anything. I feel like an understuffed plushie, with seams made of cotton candy, and I’m slowly coming apart and struggling to hold my pieces together. But there’s not enough stuffing in me either so I’m lacking any structural support. So I just fall limply on the ground and come apart.

But there is good news

I made new friends at my new job. Real in person friends. The last time I had an in-person friend, who lived close by, I lost them to cancer. So this is huge for me. I’m extremely excited and happy. And I hope to spoil these new friends rotten. -tentatively have my fingers crossed that it’s good lasting friendship-

I won’t be dirt poor anymore! This new job will effectively triple my previous income. And it won’t be as physically demanding or exhausting as my previous job. I won’t risk another back injury like the one that had me bedridden for nearly a month this summer. Plus new job comes with benefits, vacation time and stuff. And the hours match my husband’s work hours better, so we aren’t struggling with opposite schedules anymore.

My husband and I’s sleep schedules finally align.

I will be able to get treatment for my illness again so my body does not continue to deteriorate! Huzzah!

We fixed the burst pipe under my house so I have running water again!

We’ll be able to afford small home repairs, and take the steps to return our house to a more liveable state. This will give me a more mentally positivity living conditions.

Eventually I’ll be able to see my therapist again. (Yay mental health love and care)

I’ll be able to afford some clothes, (it’s hard to find clothes from a thrift store when you are big and very tall.) shoes, gas for the car, car repairs, finish getting my drivers license, basically all the small things I did without because… very poor.

Just… there has been so much going on. And it’s been everything I have to hold myself together.

Thank you to everyone who has been patient with me. Thank you to everyone who has been so friendly and supportive. Thank you to everyone who helped me out when things really went to shit for me. (So many of you came through and leant a helping hand.)

I feel like I’m finally reaching a point in my life where I can put some stuffing back inside, and begin stitching myself back together with some proper thread.

Thanks, you beautiful people.

#life update

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joyridingmp3 · 1 year

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i havent been watching any anime recently but the last two i watched were stars align and kiznaiver, both of which i liked. the BIG one that i was super obsessed with though was bungou stray dogs. i still really like it and i plan to watch the new season. also ive never watched the matrix either but i assume that's a compliment???

and YAY!!!! if u do watch it just know there's an american version and a british version. i'd recommend watching the british one bc it's the only one ive ever seen lmao

I ALSO LOVE OCS. If u have any id love to hear about them!!!!!!

my main guy is named melvin!! His whole story is that basically hes this guy in his 40's who's never really done anything with his life because he has this power where anyone he touches comes down with this really awful incurable illness and he's really sad and guilty about it. He ends up getting a bunch of money after his mom dies, so he decides to buy this big fancy house in the middle of nowhere so he can avoid people. Unfortunately that doesn't work out bc he very quickly discovers that he's not the only magical thing around because unicorns are like. Real and they frequent the premises of his home quite often!!! and also there's a weird group of people extremely dedicated to protecting the unicorns from harm who also frequents his premises!!!

The plot is really silly but it's a lot of fun to write lol (also oopsy sorry if this is really long!!!!)

oooh!!!!! okay like im not massively into anime but i have heard good things about stars align from this one guy at a party who i bonded with by talking about his tattoos so take that as you will! they sound good though and im glad you enjoyed watching them <3

when i do get around to watching it you will be the first to know!!! (as in, i'll probably make some post for you since idk who you are). thanks for the heads up re the british version

ALSO!! MELVIN OH MY GOD!!! that is Suuuuch a cool plot idea! kinda like pushing daisies sounding? but less intense. and i love the allegory of "i hurt everyone im going to isolate myself because its easier this way" only to discover that there are others like you. thats super cool! thank you for telling me about this :D

#if theres any further significance to the unicorns id love to know too!!#or tbh anything about the world it really sounds amazing #ask #anon #dont be sorry for the long ask!!! im soooo talktative rn

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #387

“today i woke up, & i hate myself”

What common problem have you never experienced? The loss of a close family member (that doesn't include pets). Alternatively, what's an uncommon problem you have experienced? Homelessness. Do you know anyone who opposes marriage equality? I sure do. What was the last thing you got really emotional about? Meerkat Manor: Rise of the Dynasty premiering. What's the longest amount of time you've been ill for? I don't really know. I don't get sick a lot at all. Who is your closest male friend? Girt. Do you know anyone who hunts for meat? Sadly. I say "sadly" because it's not like they need it. Have you ever lived with a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes, although I wasn't a technical resident. I was there all the time, though. What do you wash dishes with? Sponge, scrub brush, rag, something else? A sponge. Is there anything you prefer to do the old-fashioned way? There's probably something, but I can't think of anything. Do you put your glasses and mugs right side up or upside down on the cabinet shelf? Upside-down. What was the worst part of your childhood? My parents fighting. Have you ever seen a high school relationship last long-term? (like 10+yrs) Yeah. Do you know any cancer survivors? Quite a few. Leftover pizza for breakfast... yay or nay? Good shit, man. Do you personally know anyone who's a psychopath or sociopath? I don't think so. What is your most used kitchen appliance? Lately, it's been the apple slicer. I've been on a real apple slices + peanut butter kick lately. What is something that you would personally like to be remembered for? For being a caring person towards all living things. Have you ever been diagnosed as clinically depressed before? Yes. Do you like bowling? Yeah, it's fun. Do you own binoculars or nonoculars? What do you use them for? No. Do you ever wish you had a telescope on the roof or attic to stargaze? Yeah, that'd be cool. Have you ever had to deal with someone close to you going off to war? No, thankfully. Who do you feel you have the most in common with? Sara, easily. Who in your life causes you the most stress or negative feelings? My damn self lmao. Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? No. My parents didn't grow up in NC. What’s one thing that people definitely CAN’T count on you for? To remember like... anything. What about something they definitely can count on you for? Someone to listen to encourage them. What’s one food that you want to try but haven’t yet? I've always thought macaroons look good. Do you have anything planned for the summer? No. Do you walk fast or slow? Slow. Would you consider yourself an adrenaline junkie? No. What is a common slang word from where you live? Plural "you" does not exist. It's "y'all," lol. What’s the scariest thing you’ve accidentally found on the internet? *shrug* Probably something as a kid, going on those sketchy websites with loads of games and stuff. Thinking of every Halloween costume you’ve had, which one was the most creative? I don't think I've had any creative costumes for Halloween. What’s one random city you want to visit? It's not exactly "random" as it's a popular location, but anyway, I would love to visit Venice. What subjects do you or did you get the worst grades in? Math. When was the last time you ate cake and what type of cake was it? That's a good question, actually. Maybe my niece's birthday in February? I don't remember what kind of cake it was. Do you have photos to go with all of the contacts in your phone? No; I don't have any. Do you like snowy winter days or do you prefer rainy days? SNOWY! Name 3 things you find most beautiful in nature: Mountains, large waterfalls, and desert dunes in the wind. If you could ask one person one questions and get a completely honest answer who would it be and what would you ask? Jason. I'd ask if he thought I was emotionally abusive. What is your favorite winter activity? Building snowmen. Who is the greatest singer who is no longer living? Freddie Mercury. What is your idea of heaven? I don't know, really... I have to ask myself IS there a heaven in eternity? Living forever just... doesn't appeal to me. "Living" is an odd word to use there, but hopefully you get it. Existing on and on and on and on seems like it'd just be a drag, but at the same time I do like the thought of feeling relentlessly happy and peaceful with my loved ones. I guess that would be my definition of it, if it does exist. What’s one of the scariest things you’ve ever done? ODed. Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through? Just once, on my 16th birthday because I was at Jason's place and all of his family was watching it. I had absolutely zero interest, but we wanted to hang with the family. If you had to move to another country, where would you move? Canada. Do you watch American Horror Story? I haven't in years. It was Jason's and my first "show," and the first season was excellent. I lost interest in the second one, honestly. I'd be up for watching other seasons, though. How many relationships have you been in this year? None. What's your favorite cereal? Probably Cinnamon Toast Crunch. That's also the only cereal where I can happily drink the milk afterwards. Twitter or Facebook? Facebook. Do you like to paint your nails? No. What's the coolest place you've ever been to? Disney World, probably. Have you ever punched anyone? No. What's something you wish you knew how to do? Cook. :/ I really need to make an effort to learn. It'd be great to not rely on a microwave for the rest of my life. What's a celebrity that everyone likes but you don't? *shrug* What food do you eat the most? Probably bread in some form or another. That really needs to stop. Green or purple grapes? Either one, but they have to be firm. I cannooooooot with soft grapes. Have you ever cried over a text? Yeah. What's the background of your phone of? My lock screen is this pretty, simplistic periwinkle color with "work on you for you" written on it. It's one I plan on keeping for probably a long time because I connect to it so deeply with my stupid damn head frequently demanding I have to improve "for Jason" to prove him wrong. Which is a very unhealthy mindset to have, I know. My home screen is a cute lil Mark edit someone made with a very similar pale blue background, so my phone is just currently an #aesthetic. Do you have a Snapchat? No. What's your favorite sports team? (if you like sports)? I don't like sports, but I'm biased towards the Carolina Hurricanes hockey team because of my dad. Last thing you ate? I had Honey Nut Cheerios for breakfast. Do you take a lot of selfies? Definitely not. I just hate how I look so much; it takes way too much effort for me to get an "acceptable" one. Do you prefer strawberries or cherries? Strawberries. I hate cherries. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? Maybe like, three. -_- Our A/C is still out, and it was like, 87 in the house last night. It was impossible to sleep. Do you listen to music daily? Not EVERY day, but usually. Biggest insecurity? My weight. Do you play video games? Not as much as I used to. I'd probably play way more if I actually had a PS4 + the games I'm DYING to have. Do you consider yourself lazy? "Yes, but a lot of it is also health related for my lack of energy and motivation." <<<< This for me as well. What recently made you laugh? I was watching a bit of The Nanny with Mom yesterday. We love that show. Do you like gummy bears? Yep. What was the last song you listened to? I'm randomly hooked on "My Nocturnal Serenade" by YOHIO. Like, I've known the song for a long time, but NOW I'm bingeing it???? Describe your mom with one word. Selfless. What's the biggest turn-off? Probably being misogynistic. But being a cocky ass is definitely high up there, too. What fish scares you the most? Mfkng whale sharks terrify me. How do you feel about snails? They're cuties!!! What's your favorite app? Pokemon GO. Would you rather time travel into the past or future? The future, to see what's coming. I feel like you could come back with some pretty valuable information. What is the saddest song you've ever heard? I think "Terrible Things" by Mayday Parade has to come on top. What insect do you hate the most? I was reminded that stag beetles exist last night, and omfg those. Well, "hate" is the wrong word, really, I'm just terrified of them. Would you ever have a wild animal as a pet if possible? I 110% want to rescue an opossum, emphasis on "rescue." I'm not plucking one from the wild or anything like that. I would be in HEAVEN raising one of those angels. Are there any decorations that makes you happy? (lights, candles, plants..) I love those beds decorated with fairy lights, and just Christmas lights in general. Halloween and Christmas decor tend to give me sparks of happiness when I see 'em. Does race matter to you when it comes to dating? Not at all for me. When was the last time you painted something? Not since I was still in school and took a Painting course. When was the last time you really felt alive, and what were you doing? I have NO idea. What is one question you would like an answer to? Why the worst things tend to happen to good people. Name one favorite thing to do with kids while babysitting. I don't babysit, but if I was to be in charge of a kid, I'd love to teach them to play video games from my childhood. Playing Pokemon with my niece and nephew is always a blast, ahhhh. Name one flavor you like. Strawberry is pretty consistent. Name one thing you are hoping for. Venus' new terrarium soon... big sigh. I can't for the life of me find one that's a reasonable price and also adequately sized. I'm willing to put the rest of my cash into it, but Mom is helping, so I can't just buy the first one I see. Then I'd need more substrate, I seriously want a temperature gun and hygrometer, a cool hide, sticks and stuff for cover... It's going to be expensive, but I want Venus to have a truly proper environment she can thrive in. Write the name of one of your imaginary friends from when you were younger. Oddly enough, I can't remember the imaginary wolf that was my "friend." I say "oddly" because his whole idea was important to me as a weird-ass kid. Name one girl's name that starts with a "J" that you like. "Justine." Name one boy's name that starts with a "J" that you like. Maybe "Jaxson." Have you ever been kissed? Yeah. Have you ever feared that you would be killed? It's never been like, a fear I actively worry about. I just acknowledge it's always a possibility for anyone. What is the last great opportunity you missed? This was quite a while ago by now, but I'd say by dropping out of school, I really let photography opportunities slip since I became the newspaper photographer...

#survey #surveys #questions #lyrics: ''under the graveyard'' by ozzy osbourne

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lilpuffyart · 3 years

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I do not care that it is 3am, I must see Puffy talk about Count The Ways and sudden headcannons about their AU and give them quiet anon support. Take my quiet clapping. *quietly claps bcz its 3am* (-KA)

Okay

You've doomed yourself (a part I did at 3am and the other part I did now at 11am)

!!LONG POST AHEAD!! (Kind reminder that I do love the story but I still like to make fun of some parts)

IN THE FIRST FUCKING LINE, "deep voice" w h e r e where that crackhead energy voice is d e e p. I can accept threatening but d e e p???????????????????

Also I'm still upset that "silly millie" is "millie pamonha (that is a Brazilian food)" in the unofficial Portuguese translation

Second page and we discover millie belongs to the gays when she said "in tribute to the beautiful dead girl from edgar Allan Poe's poem" (she was talking about her cat name and I'm sorry if it's not the correct wording: its 3am and I have a stroke everytime I read some part of the book, also I don't have the English version :c)

Who's Curt Carrion?? Who's he based on??? My Chemical Romance?????? I would prefer if it was Evanescence tho for personal gay reasons ✊😔

Her grandpa has a sword collection and that's pretty neat, but makes me wonder if FunFred ever walked around the house with a fucking sword and everyone was okay with it

Grandpa: you're always so pale

Millie: lmao that's the point

Me 🤝 millie

Liking edgar allan poe

Also Millie's grandpa is millie's mom's dad?? Since he mentions that she would stay outside burning in the sun when she was 14-15yo

Also he's supportive of her disliking meat, we stan an old man ✊😔

THE COOKIES R BACK!!!!!!!! I still think daily about FunFred trying to cook it and messing it up smh even if grandpa is there. Also the fact she ate her grandpa cookies after he left makes me happy fsr

He mentions the workshop 😳😳 is he already aware FunFred is awake?? Who knows 👀👀

I know the timeline doesn't fit, but I like to think Dylan and Millie knew each other for more than a week

FUNFRED!!! LIKES MILLIE!!!!!! WRITE THAT DOWN WRITE THAT DOWN!!!!!!!!!

Millie honestly reminds me of when I was on high school and my depression peeked lmao I wanna hug her-

THE FALL OF THE HOUSE OF USHER IS A GREAT STORY I LOVE IT

I HAVE WAY TOO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW FUNFRED/THE ANIMATRONICS WORK BC OF A DUMB DRAWING I DID 1 YEAR AGO- like oil is the equivalent of blood to them and they do have water inside them, what keeps their mechanisms and stuff working well. Also when they r "sleeping" its extremely quiet, till they "woke up" and slowly their mechanisms do a lot of noise, till it calms down

Funfred has been around before millie moved there, and was probably awoken since then bc he heard her talking SO, from her bedroom window, u can see the workshop bc that's the only way he heard her (and she heard him later on)

Also I KNOW it wasn't like that but when her grandpa asked if the person he met was a boy or a girl I could literally only think "damnn a supportive grandpa, I love him" so that's where I'm goiNG

He mentions he went to university SOOOOOO what IF he and henry went to the same university and both did something related to mechanic/mathematic and that's how they became close friends 👀👀 (I am aware he was a mathematic teacher but he still could have done both or started mechanic, dropped it and started to study mathematic)

Also I lowkey wish we knew what her grandma died of

ALSO I like to think FunFred himself is someone that is scared of doing things himself instead of... just letting things go

I love how, when millie asked if he was going to bite her neck (bc he was talked about Dracula) he just wenT "OH YAY I COULD DO THAT BUT U R IM MY STOMACH" FJFJFJXHXJJCJCGKFJFJFJFJ I HATE HIMMMM

Here we go to FunFred's hyperfixation ✊😔 I'm sure that, whenever millie goes to the library, he begs her to bring some kind of history book

The fact millie doesn't know how to say Chutlu is big gay energy and everyone energy

COUNT THE WAYS AU IS NAMED COUNT THE WAYS BC IT'S THE MANY WAYS FUNFRED LOVES MILLIE AND GRANDPA AND IN THAT ESSAY ILL DIE AND COMBUST

Me, a veterinary student: Hahah I know what's ventricular fibrillation is

Idk why but I like to think millie studied something related to literature in university, but, if she did end up working on a library, I think people would 1. Be creeped out by FunFred 2. Think he's cute, no inbetween

Me 🤝 grandpa

Going somewhere bc it has free food

WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEAN TO HER SHE'S LITERALLY A TEENAGER STOP BEING LIKE THAT WTF???

That part of that party makes me emotional bc something similar happened with me (not related to a s/o other tho)

FunFred is back being a dumbass I love/hate him

Unpopular opinion but I still strongly dislike millie's family

FunFred would buy a guillotine online ngl

In Millie's defense I would crawl inside an animatronic bear as well

POV: you're rob, millie's uncle, and you found out the worst way that she has a bear guard body, in a way (I hate rob honestly lmao)

That was my presentation, thank you for your attention

#anyway i love that silly book about a silly bear and his silly friend #anon #ask #KA #count the ways

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purplesurveys · 4 years

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Things won’t get better unless you make them better Survey by emptyspaces

Do you agree with the quote in the survey title? For the most part, yes. A lot of the good things that have happened or come to me did so because I did something about them to some extent. I wouldn’t have begun dating my girlfriend if I didn’t ask her out, I wouldn’t have gotten this internship offer if I didn’t send a letter of interest, etc.

How many windows are on the front of your house? There’s one tiny window on the left side, then on the right is one big window but with three panes.

What common problem have you never experienced? Commuting at rush hour or getting the chickenpox.

Alternatively, what's an uncommon problem you have experienced? Being chased by a giant bird that I was trying to take a quick snapshot of from a distance.

Do you know anyone who opposes marriage equality? You mean the entire Filipino population who isn’t a millennial or from Gen Z? Sure. I can give you a novel with a list of names.

Are you an early riser or a night owl? I’m...both. I barely sleep. I have a 9-6 day shift but I also accompany Gab for a few hours on her 9-6 night shift, but honestly I don’t get tired from it at all. I seem to do well with only 3-4 hours of sleep.

What was the last thing you got really emotional about? Her and I.

What's the longest amount of time you've been ill for? That week-long fever I had a few months ago. Prior to that I only ever had quick overnight fevers, so you could just imagine my horror when my fever turned into 2 days, then 3, until a whole week passed and I was still playing around 38-39ºC.

What's your cure for hiccups? I hold my breath but it doesn’t always work. I don’t have other cures for it and I just let it naturally go away.

Who is your closest male friend? My eldest cousin on my mom’s side. Or Hans, but we only ever talk when Angela’s present or involved.

Do you track your spending? Yes. I only get an allowance so it’s not much, and I especially had to track it when I was still in school because back then I had to allot for gas, food, and course readings.

Are you addicted to anything? I love love love my dogs, but I don’t know if that counts as an ‘addiction.’

What was your life like 5 years ago? Where were you living, working, etc? I was in my senior year in high school. It was two months after I went through a bad breakup, less than a month since I went through a grandparent’s death for the first time, and it was around the time I had taken the ACET. Not the best of times, and I can’t believe my life is as turbulent five years later. It just doesn’t feel fair, lol.

Have you ever let a mental health issue go untreated? It’s been untreated for around a decade now. Idk man, it will take a lot for me to be convinced to share my life story and most inner thoughts to a therapist who is also a stranger.

Do you know anyone who hunts for meat? No.

Have you ever lived with a boyfriend/girlfriend? I haven’t. I wouldn’t want that at 22, I think it’s way too early to be doing it. I don’t even have my own place yet.

What do you wash dishes with? Sponge, scrub brush, rag, something else? A sponge and the wire ball thing that makes it easier to scrape off dried rice.

Is there anything you prefer to do the old-fashioned way? Weddings. I will always fall head over heels in love over weddings where the color scheme is super simple and there aren’t a lot of over-the-top gimmicks that will kill the vibe of it being a serene ceremony.

How old were you when your parents first let you have a TV in your room? Well I shared a room with my parents and siblings up until I was 10 and we had a TV. When I was 11 and we moved in to a new house, my new room already came with my own TV. They eventually removed it when I was around 17 because I never used it anyway.

Are you more practical or creative? Practical. Not a creative bone in my body.

Have you ever seen Requiem For A Dream? I have seen it twice, unfortunately. I really should’ve seen it just the one time. I felt for the women the most, especially Marion. That girl had a goddamn dream, man.

Do you put your glasses and mugs right side up or upside down on the cabinet shelf? Upside down.

Are you planning to make any big purchases soon? Like what? For how much? Nothing big. I’m just trying to save my internship allowance so that I get to buy my parents nice things. The only purchase I’m planning for myself, admittedly, is a vape lmao and that’s like ₱199 or a little under $4. Otherwise everything is going to either savings or treating my loved ones.

Are you a recent university grad? I am indeed.

What changes to the environment/climate have you noticed in your lifetime? The highway I live on used to be peppered with trees, now there are buildings everywhere. It’s also impossible to see the stars at night, especially in Metro Manila; thankfully it’s not as bad where I live.

Do you own any power tools? We have some at home but none of them are mine.

How old were you when you first flew on a plane? 11.

Does everyone in your family get along with each other? My brother and I don’t.

What did you have for dinner last night? My dad prepared sisig and munggo, but I only ate the sisig.

What was the worst part of your childhood? The alcoholism and domestic violence I was exposed to the second I was born.

What grocery items do you buy the most frequently? I don’t buy my own groceries yet but I would say my parents go for eggs, bread, onions, garlic, frozen meat, and some veggies the most.

Have you ever seen a high school relationship last long-term? (like 10+yrs) Not from my own high school, but someone I used to work with from my first internship has been with her guy for like 15 years now or something.

Do you know any cancer survivors? Yes.

What color is your bed frame? It issssss black.

How old were you when you first started dating? I’ve never really...dated around. Doesn’t happen as a demi. I started liking someone for the first time when I was 16.

What's the highest-level science course you've taken? I’m from a humanities/arts course so I never needed to push myself when it came to science courses haha. I took only the most basic biology and physics electives because that was all that was required for journalism students in my school.

Have you ever had something stolen from you? Yes.

Leftover pizza for breakfast... yay or nay? YAY. Cold, fast food pizza is my guilty pleasure.

Do you personally know anyone who's a psychopath or sociopath? No. Again, what’s up with surveys asking the exact same questions? Y’alls telepathy games are strong, lol.

What is your most used kitchen appliance? I don’t use any of them other than the refrigerator.

#survey #surveys #took me a hot minute to get started and im highkey ready to admit im a jerk for not knowing survey etiquette slash common sense sooner #but yay survey credits!#shoutout to beth and guia for being the inspirations

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9firefly9 · 3 years

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The baby quirk

Denki’s perspective

I wake up still very tired and look at my clock “OH NO IM LATE!”I yelled, I quickly had a shower and got into uniform then began to run to the school at full speed.

I quietly opened the classroom door hoping no one will hear me come in so I can sneak over to my seat, I walk into the classroom and everyone is listening to present Mic teach English so I’m filled with confidence that I won’t get in trouble for being late, because I know no one will hear me coming now, so I sneak behind Midoriya who is jotting stuff down in his notebook and I slip into my seat.

A good half hour later I feel someone tap on my shoulder I turned around to see Kirishima looking at me with a confused look “When did you get here I didn’t see you this morning?” Kirishima said “well I snuck into class cuz I didn’t wanna get in trouble.” I said with a chuckle. After what felt like forever the bell rang telling everyone that it was lunch time. I was relieved that the class was over, it was a really boring class and I want to go see Shinso and tell him about this morning. I grabbed my lunch and headed outside, I know that Shinso will be there since that’s where he always is at lunch. I run up behind Shinso and tapped on his shoulder.

“Hi!” I say with a big smile on my face.

“Hi.” Shinso replied looking down at his food “I saw you running in the hallways this morning. Were you late for class?”

“Y’a i was.” I said with a nervous laugh “Hey do you wanna come with me to the arcade tonight after school?” I asked, please say yes please say yes

“Sure.” Yay he said yes!

After school me and Shinso walked to the arcade and decided we’d stay till 8:00pm then go home. “Wow Shinso, you’re great at Pac-man you beat my high score!” I said amazed, “Oh one minute, I’ll be back I’m gonna go get us food.”

What food does Shinso like? I should have asked what he wanted before I went to get food, oh well. I should check my wallet to see how much money I have to spend on food.

I reached down and counted my money, I looked up and bam I bump into someone.

Ow that hurt. Oh my god there’s a girl on the floor. Oh no that’s the person I bumped into I need to see if their ok.

I got up and looked down at them “Are you ok?” I asked, she looked up at me and laughed “y’a I’m fine.”

“I’m Denki Kaminari.” I said with a smile and I reached out to shake her hand, the girl shook my hand and all of a sudden my hand became tingly the feeling moved to my whole body. “Oh no! I’m so sorry it’s part of my quirk, I shouldn’t have shaken your hand I’m so sorry!” The girl said worriedly. I looked up at her and my vision got blurry and I started to lose my balance, then everything went black.

Shinso’s perspective

That’s weird, Denki isn’t back yet I should go find him.

I walked over to the food place were Denki told me he was going.

Hmm I don’t see him here.

Something tugged at the bottom of my pants, I looked down and there was a child. The child had yellow hair with a black streak in it and his eyes were yellow.

Oh my god! That’s Denki! Oh dear oh dear, what am I gonna do I can’t just leave him here!

I reached down to pick him up. Denki put his arms around me and hugged me and started giggling. I started heading to the dorms hoping someone there will know what to do.

I walked into the dorm and the first people to great me was the bakusquad “Guys! Denki turned into a baby!” I said worriedly.

Everyone started laughing, even Bakugo looked amused. Sero slowly stopped laughing and he’s eyes met Shinso’s “Oh my god your being serious that really is Denki and he’s a child?” He said, everyone stopped laughing and looked closely at Denki. “Awe he’s so cute!” Mina said “What do we do with him?” I asked “Well isn’t it obvious.” Mina said with a smile ”We need to take care of him.” “I don’t want to take care of that.” Bakugo said pointing at Denki in disgust “We don’t even know how long he’ll be a baby for.” “I- I do” Midoriya said nervously and pulled out his note book “I met a girl a while ago who had a de aging quirk, she told me her quirk and others like hers should only last on the person for a day.”

So this will only last a day, well that’s good cuz I have no clue how to take care of children.

“What should we do first with him?” I asked “Well we must keep him entertained and sense everybody loves shopping. LETS GO SHOPPING!” Mina shouted.

“When was it decided that everyone liked shopping?” I asked “Just now I think, haha.” Sero responded.

Mina ran out of the living room and went into Uraraka’s room, then Momo’s. All three of them came into the living room “Guess what! Denki turned into a baby so now we get to go shopping for him!” Mina announced. “Yay I’m so excited!” Uraraka said jumping happily “Alright ill go shopping with you guys it will be fun picking clothing for a baby Denki.” Momo said.

“Wow look at all those clothes!”

“There all so cute!”

“Oooh let’s pick that one.”

The three girls said as they fangirled over all the clothes.

“I think we should go in there.” I said pointing to a place full of pikachu merch. “That’s a great idea Shinso!” Mina said with a smile, and everyone walked over to the store.

Shortly after back at the dorm

“Did you have to buy this much? This is basically the whole store.” Sero said in confusion. “Yes we had to, Everything there looked great in him.” Momo said happily, while clapping her hands together.

Denki who was laying on the ground next to Uraraka crawled on her lap and grabbed her hand. He started trying to eat her hand, and drool got all over her hand. “Ew, he’s drooling on me.” Uraraka exclaimed. “Yes but it’s so cute.” Kirishima said in awe.

Then all of a sudden Denki started floating. “Oh no, Uraraka stop using your quirk he could get hurt.” I said a little worried. Uraraka looked over and her eyes went wide, and she turned off her quirk, catching Denki as he fell. “ I’m sorry, I didn’t realize I was doing that.” Uraraka apologized. Denki was giggling and seemed to not be worried in the slightest.

“Oh y’a, i finished putting him in his pj’s.” Uraraka said happily.

I looked over and he was in a pikachu onesie laughing and looked very happy in his onesie. It was truly an amazing sight to see. It’s so wholesome. Someone should take a picture.

After them playing heroes and houseful a while with Denki he started crying.

“What’s going on why is he crying?” Momo asked trying to ask Denki what he wants. “Is he hungry?” Sero asked “No he ate an hour ago.” Uraraka replied “Is he thirsty?” Kirishima asked“No he drank a few minutes ago.” Mina said. Denki crawled out of Momo’s lap and crawled over to Bakugo. Denki rapped himself around Bakugo’s leg and stared at him with tears eyes.

“Agh get off me you damn extra!” Bakugo yelled causing the crying to get louder. “Do something Bakugo, he clearly wants something from you.” I said.“What do I do?” Bakugo said clearly starting to worry about the child. “I don’t know ask him.” Uraraka said

“Pfft, you want me to ask a baby what it wants, it can’t talk.” Bakugo said annoyed. “Just do it! I can’t stand the sound it’s so loud!” Momo said referring to the crying child.

Bakugo bent down and held Denki’s hands “what do you want” he said softly. Denki’s crying came to a stop and he stared at Bakugo, he slowly walked up to Bakugo and hugged him. Bakugo didn��t hug back, causing Denki’s eyes to water and he began to sniffle.

Oh dear please don’t cry please don’t cry

Bakugo looked terrified and quickly hugged Denki. Denki started laughing and everyone sighed in relief that the crying had stopped. Denki then crawled over to me and went onto my lap and fell asleep. “Awe he‘s so cute.” Uraraka said in awe.

Half an hour later everyone had gone to bed and Denki was sleeping in a crib. Yellow dust floated around Denki, and the tiny child turned back into a sixteen year old boy again.

Denki’s perspective

What happened why am I on the floor? Oh my God there’s a crib beside me. What the heck happened?

I went to look at the crib some more when someone gasped loudly behind me. “Denki your back!” It was Mina’s cheery voice I turned around and smiled at her. Mina ran up to me and hugged me tightly.

I’m so confused I wasn’t gone I was just at the arcade, but ok I like hugs.

Please don’t repost. Thanks :)

#cute #fluff #bnha fluff #babies #shinsou hitoshi #mina ashido #bakugou katsuki #kirishima eijirou #izuku mydoria #momo yaoyozoru #uraraka ochacho #long one shot #9firefly9

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threepatchpodcast · 5 years

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Hello TPP folks. This will seem odd I'm sure, but you guys seemed like you might be the best people to ask because there is such a variety of you with different experiences to share. Currently I am really struggling to fight off a full fledged depression. I feel myself right on the fringes of a deeply depressive state. I see myself not having any motivation, despite actively wanting to do things like write fic. I actively want to do them, but I just... Can't. (1/2)

(2/2) It's really paining me to feel this way, but I can't help it, and I don't have a lot of support at home or people I can ask to help me through this. My mom won't help me get access to the mental health assistance I really need. So, my point is this. Do any of you have any advice on how to get through this helpless feeling of fighting of depression? On how to maybe get back to how I was? Any advice you guys are willing to offer would be extremely appreciated. I love your work immensely

CW: Mental Health, Depression

First, dear Anon, you are brave to reach out, and we are humbled by your trust.

Many of us have struggled with mental health challenges but we aren’t health care professionals and can only speak from our own experiences. @iamjohnlocked4life put together a resource list of suggestions and we also encourage others to share their strategies and advice when facing depression.

But before the list, a big disclaimer: you are not alone. The depression is not your friend, it will tell you horrible, mean lies about yourself. Try to respond to your depression brain as if it were saying these awful things about a close friend of yours. Try to be patient with yourself too. It's not your fault you have depression. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT YOU HAVE DEPRESSION. Your brain has a chemical imbalance, but it isn't you, and the state your brain is in right now is not permanent. You've felt differently in the past, and you can feel differently again. It isn't easy, but you are not alone. Keep reaching out. Find other people to connect with, on anything (fandom is a great place to start!)

Now here are some specific strategies for dealing with depression:

try not to fully isolate. Reaching out to us is a GREAT first step! If real life friends are tricky/difficult, see if they have any fandom friends, or people they interact with online. I think that a good chunk if not a majority of people in fandom are familiar with depression and mental health challenges. Even if not first hand, almost everyone I've ever interacted with online in a positive way has a good understanding of mental illness, or is willing to learn. Just having someone to chat with can be a big help!

if you really want to write fic, but are having serious motivation issues, having a writing buddy can make a HUGE difference. There are groups online that do writing sprints, or if they know another fandom person they might be up for pairing up for encouragement and motivation. Having a beta cheerleader helps a ton too! I know that's not always easy to find, but a call out on twitter or tumblr can be effective.

if they are 100% unable to get any mental health treatment (like if they're a minor?) perhaps a school counselor could help too. If it's more a money/insurance issue with the mom, depending on their location, there are likely mental health resources for low/no income folks they may be able to access. There are also online resources, if that is more accessible. Again, having someone to talk to who understands, especially someone who is trained to help, is such an important step

if it's accessible to you, try to get outside at least once every day, even if it's just to go to the mailbox or something. Any amount of leaving a room/apartment/house is valuable. If outside access is not possible, see about buying a plant or some cut flowers for the room, to have some sort of nature indoors (this is a good idea regardless! yay plants!!!). If going for a neighborhood walk is feasible, do it as often as you're able.

reward seemingly small achievements, like getting dressed, eating breakfast, or getting that mail. I've got a pack of stickers I put on my to-do lists. It felt silly at first, but it helps you see that you've DONE something, and is more positively reinforcing than crossing off an item. writing them out in a list helps a lot, as long as you don't overdo it with the list. Try just a morning list of shower, dressed, breakfast, or whatever combination of morning stuff feels doable that day. slowly add stuff as you're able.

try listening to any upbeat music you like, especially when trying to complete a task like laundry or dishes. give yourself a nice soundtrack!

And lastly, here is a list of relevant phone-lines and web-services for different jurisdictions that can provide immediate support, whether you are in crisis or in need people who know how to listen.

Reblogs welcome! Please share more ways strategies for getting through depressive episodes and resist stigma around mental illness.

#mental health #depression #support #fandom #survival strategies #ask

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kanasmusings · 6 years

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[Translation] Growth Drama CD Vol. 3 - Track 5

Track 5! This one’s a pretty fun and light-hearted track~ It’s so enjoyable!

※ Please don’t re-post the English translations without permission.

Under the cut, enjoy~

Track 5: [遊園地に行こう！] “Let’s go to the amusement park!”

(cheery carnival music)

MAMORU: Ah, Sekishima-san, over here!

MINAKO: Good afternoon! Thank you for inviting us today.

MAMORU: Thank you for accepting our invitation, too! It was sudden but is it okay?

MINAKO: It’s perfect, actually! We’re going back to Hokkaido tomorrow and I couldn’t decide on where I wanted to go before returning. I feel like I’m being spoiled but is it okay for you, too? You have work, don’t you?

MAMORU: Yes, that’s right but our work starts at evening so don’t worry about it. We’ll be filming a music video at the amusement park at night later.

MINAKO: Eh~ That’s amazing!

MAMORU: We got free passes for a one day ride-all-you-can ticket. And so, we decided to invite the both of you.

MAMORU: It’d be a waste not to use them and I thought that it might make Tohma-kun happy, too.

MAMORU: Tohma-kun, good afternoon.

TOHMA: G-good afternoon.

RYOTA: Here, have these. It’s passes for both Sekishima-san and Tohma-kun.

MINAKO: Thank you very much. Tohma-kun?

TOHMA: Ah… Thank you very much.

RYOTA: You’re welcome.

KOKI: Good afternoon, Sekishima-san, Tohma-kun. Welcome.

KOKI: Is your husband doing alright? I heard he had a fever.

MINAKO: Yes. I’m very sorry even after you went all the way to invite my family. It would have been great to come here together.

MINAKO: Ah, but even though it’s a fever it’s not really that high. I think that he’s sleeping at the hotel right now. Even the doctor said that if he took it easy today, he’ll be right as rain tomorrow!

KOKI: I see. I’m so relieved that it’s nothing serious.

MINAKO: Me, too. I think it’s because he got too tired at working at the stall all day yesterday. He told me to tell you all ‘thank you’ though.

KOKI: If it’s thanks, please say it to our manager, Mochiduki-san. He’s the one who got us the free passes after all.

MINAKO: (chuckles) Oh, you’re right. Thank you very much for inviting us today.

MINATO: Ah, no, don’t mind it. It’s good PR for the park too so please enjoy yourselves to the fullest today.

MINAKO: Yes!

KEN: Good afternoon! I’m Yaegashi Kensuke. Do you remember me?

TOHMA: I mean, I just talked to you the other day.

KEN: I see. That’s great! Let’s enjoy ourselves today~! Do you like amusement parks?

TOHMA: Well… It’s so-so…

KEN: I see, I see. So you love them, huh?

TOHMA: HAH?! I didn’t say that!

KEN: Sure, sure~ Let’s go buy some popcorn or hotdogs later, too.

KEN: Man, I’m kinda scared at how I’m so used to dealing with guys who aren’t honest with their feelings~

RYOTA: That-- (grabs Ken’s shoulder) I wonder who you’re talking about~?

(people screaming)

KEN: This one’s definitely the first!

KEN: A rollercoaster!

TOHMA: Uwah~! So high…!

KOKI: It is quite high, isn’t it?

MAMORU: Uwah… So fast…

KOKI: Quite so, huh?

RYOTA: It’s got quite a momentum. Oh, it twists, too.

KEN: Look at how the rail twists! It’s just like Ryo.

MAMORU: (laughs) That’s a good one, Ken-kun!

RYOTA: (cheerful and yet menacing tone) You two~

MINATO: Eh, I can ride one, too? Really? Yay! This is my first time riding a rollercoaster in a suit!

KOKI: Mochiduki-san, are you fine with riding thrill rides like this one?

MINATO: Yes! I actually really love amusement parks, you see? Man, this job just got a lot more fun~

(rollercoaster going up)

TOHMA: (laughing and giggling)

(screaming)

KEN: Yay~!!

MAMORU: Ugh… Riding one after so long’s getting to me…

MAMORU: It’s coming back to me…

KOKI: (chuckles) Are you okay?

KEN: Next one’s… Oh! Let’s do that one. The coffee cup!

MAMORU: Ugh… Isn’t it dangerous to go ride something that spins around so much after riding one that spun around so much, too?

MAMORU: Big Brother’s at his limit and feels like something’s gonna come out…

TOHMA: I kinda wanna see that…

TOHMA: I’ll spin it around a lot, ‘kay~? (sparkles)

MAMORU: (gasps) Tohma-kun’s such a frightening child…! Do you really wanna see Big Brother’s limit that much?!

MINAKO: Ah, I won’t be riding but I’ll be cheering you on, okay?

MAMORU: Sekishima-san’s protecting herself!!

KEN: Then~ This cup will be me, Mamoru, and Tohma-kun. And over there’s Ryo, Ko, and Mochiduki-san.

MINATO: Alright, Tohma-kun! It’s a competition!

KOKI: Mochiduki-san’s all gung-ho about this…

KEN: Alright, then, me and Tohma-kun will challenge you!

TOHMA: It’s a battle!

KOKI: He’s gung-ho, too…

RYOTA: Even so, everyone’s really—

(Tohma and Minato start spinning the cups vigorously)

RYOTA: W-woah…! Wha--- AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!

MAMORU: AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

MAMORU/RYOTA: (panting and trying to catch their breaths)

KOKI: Mamoru, Ryo. Are you two alright?

MINATO: We-we have something here to drink, too. Which one would you like, the cold one or the hot one?

RYOTA: (angrily) Mochiduki-san!

MINATO: Ah-ah, yes…?

RYOTA: There’s no next time, okay?!

MINATO: Yes…!

KEN: We had some casualties but I’d say the battle was a fair one.

TOHMA: (giggles) It was a great match, wasn’t it?

KEN: Right~?

KEN/TOHMA: Yay~ (high fives)

(train whistling and happy music plays)

KOKI: The wind is calm and this feels relaxing, doesn’t it?

RYOTA: The wind feels so good.

MAMORU: Peacefulness is the best~

KOKI: You two look better now.

TOHMA: …

KEN: What’s wrong?

TOHMA: Isn’t this train car standing out too much?

MINATO: It’s quite high and it’s full of boys after all.

MINAKO: (from below) Tohma-kun~! I’m taking a picture! Come on, look over here~

TOHMA: I-it’s embarrassing…

KEN: Eh? Come on, it’s fine~! Alright, peace~ Yay!

(people chattering)

TOHMA: I wanna ride that! The go-karts.

KEN: Alright, let’s go! We will become one with the wind!

KOKI: So go-karts are next, huh?

KOKI: Oh yeah, I’ve always wanted to get a car license.

KOKI: Since I think it’d be easier with Mochiduki-san around, maybe now’s the time for me to get one.

RYOTA: Oh, then I’ll go with you. I’ve been thinking that it’s about time for me to get one, too.

MAMORU: Yes, yes~ I wanna go with you, too~

KOKI: You haven’t gotten your license yet, Mamoru?

MAMORU: I worked right after graduating high school, you see? I couldn’t find the time.

(go-karts speeding around)

KEN: Behold! This wonderful steering!

TOHMA: Ah, he got past me!

MINAKO: (from the spectator’s area) Tohma-kun, don’t lose!

TOHMA: Here I go!

RYOTA: I think that Ken over there feeling the wind would want to get his license soon, too.

RYOTA: Let’s try to schedule it together next time.

KOKI: You’re right.

MINATO: Oh, there’s a haunted house over there! It looks like it’s getting less crowded so want to go take a look?

TOHMA: Yeah, let’s!

KOKI: Ah…

MAMORU: Ko-kun and I’ll pass. We’ll go buy some popcorn~

TOHMA: Ah, that! Kensuke, it says “Lucky Attack”! I wanna try!

KEN: Let’s see… Ah! It’s that thing where you need to hit all nine with one ball. I like that! I’m pretty good at that.

TOHMA: I play baseball too so I won’t lose!

KEN: Oh~! Then, it’s another battle!

KOKI: This is my first time.

RYOTA: Eh? Really?

KOKI: Yeah. Though I’ve seen people do it before.

MAMORU: (on fire) Let me show you how it’s done, Ko-kun.

KEN: Somehow… Some guy overflowing with confidence suddenly appeared…!

RYOTA: Mamoru, are you okay? I can feel like you’re raising a flag…

MAMORU: I won’t wait.

MAMORU: Looks like my time has come. I wish you wouldn’t lump me in with those who are only doing it for fun.

RYOTA: No, uh… This is actually meant for fun though…

MAMORU: I forget not my NEET days! I managed to win a 5000 yen price for completing a challenge perfectly at a batting center similar to this game.

MAMORU: I had bet my life on that day!

KEN: Uwah… He’s so serious…

RYOTA: More like he’s got a plan brewing under all that…

MAMORU: First one’s the middle!

MAMORU: Number 5, here I go!

MAMORU: Roar, my vanishing attack! Fujimura Mamoru Typhoon!!!

KOKI: Won’t it be bad if it disappeared though?

(ball hits the mark)

ALL: Woah~!

TOHMA: It’s number 2!

KEN: It wasn’t number 5…

MAMORU: Continuing with… Number 5!

MAMORU: Typhoon #2! HYAH!!

ALL: Woah!

KOKI: It was number 1.

KEN: Not number 5… How about not aiming for any numbers…?

MAMORU: Next one…! (voice cracking) Number 5!

MAMORU: Typhoon #3!!

ALL: Woah…!

RYOTA: Number 9.

KEN: The only one you’re not hitting is the middle one…

MINAKO: Oh, speaking of…!

(Mamoru continues to throw baseballs intensely in the background)

MINAKO: Back then, Fujimura-kun was in charge of cheering during a ball game and I was a bit surprised at his vigorous cheering.

KOKI: I see. He hasn’t changed at all, has he?

TOHMA: That was fun~! I think I’m a bit hungry now…

MINAKO: I’m a little hungry, too. Ah, they’re selling hotdogs over there~ Tohma-kun, do you want some?

TOHMA: Ah… Um…

RYOTA: I want some, too. Let’s go buy some together. Tohma-kun, you want some too, right?

TOHMA: Ah, yeah, I want some.

MINAKO: Got it~ We’ll go buy some, okay?

MINATO: Ah, I’ll go with you. They might want something to drink, too.

KEN: Uwah~ I played a lot today~!

MAMORU: We did ride a lot of things, didn’t we?

TOHMA: If we ride two more, we’d be completely finished with this area!

KEN: For real?! Aren’t we awesome?

KOKI: No one normally visits during weekdays after all.

MAMORU: Ah, that table over there’s free. Should we sit? Let’s all take a breather.

KEN: Sure!

(they all walk to the table and sit down)

KEN: So, Tohma, you havin’ fun?

TOHMA: Yep~!

KEN: I’m glad! Even Sekishima-san was happy that she got a lot of good pictures of you.

KEN: She said it’s going to be a gift for her husband, your father, I mean.

TOHMA: Ah… I see…

MAMORU/KOKI: …

MAMORU: Hey, Tohma-kun.

TOHMA: Hm?

MAMORU: What sort of person was your mother? Is she easy-going just like Sekishima-san?

TOHMA: … My mother… My real mother died from an illness when I was really small so I don’t remember her much.

MAMORU: I see… You’re kinda like me, huh?

TOHMA: Eh…?

MAMORU: I lost both of my parents in an accident, you see? I was raised in an orphanage.

MAMORU: I was really young back then so I don’t remember anything about my mom or my dad at all.

KOKI: Ah…

TOHMA: Is that so…?

MAMORU: You know? I had a lot of aspirations and dreams regarding my parents.

MAMORU: Like, would it feel like this is both of them were alive right now? Or maybe it would feel like something else. I kept thinking about that.

MAMORU: I don’t know what it would feel like normally so I can only watch others, like you and Sekishima-san, from a distance and speculate.

TOHMA: … I see…

MAMORU: Somehow, it’s a little difficult, isn’t it?

TOHMA: Yeah… It is.

TOHMA: I know that Matsuyama-san cares for me. I know that Father’s not saying anything even though he’s troubled about it. I know all that but…

TOHMA: It’s really difficult. I know that adults think about a lot of things but… Kids do, too.

MAMORU: I understand.

TOHMA: Yeah…

MAMORU: Hey, Tohma-kun. This might sound a little carefree but, for me I think it’d be great if you two could get along better or something.

TOHMA: … Better…?

MAMORU: Yep. A family’s someone who you’re with for a long time, right? I guess if it’s a little difficult for you, it’d be troublesome, huh?

MAMORU: That’s why, I thought it’d be a little better if you found something in common [that you can get along about].

MAMORU: Just because you’ve become mother and child doesn’t mean that you have to be super close. But I don’t think that you should be so distant as well just because you’re not connected by blood.

MAMORU: I love both Sekishima-san and Tohma-kun so I think it’d be best for you two to be always smiling like you do now.

TOHMA: Always smiling, huh…?

KEN: Today, Tohma-kun was smiling a lot compared to the other day we met~!

TOHMA: That time… You guys seemed like suspicious people so… I’m sorry.

KEN: You heard him, Mamoru~ Don’t mind!

MAMORU: I’m not the only one he thought was suspicious, okay?

TOHMA: (laughs)

TOHMA: I… If I laugh with Matsuyama-san, do you think my mom would get angry?

KOKI: Get angry?

TOHMA: Yeah.

TOHMA: Would she think that I’ve forgotten about her? Would she think that her place is being taken?

TOHMA: I… I love my mom, too. Even though I don’t remember her much… She’s important to me.

KEN: Tohma…

KOKI: Since no one knows the correct answer, can I tell you what I think?

TOHMA: Yeah…

KOKI: The fact that you treasure your late mother so means that you’re a nice person. If you’re this nice then I think that your mother was very kind as well.

KOKI: If that’s so then she definitely won’t get angry. I think she would love to see you happy and smiling rather than making a sad and troubled face.

KOKI: That’s what I think. Surely.

TOHMA: Do you think so?

TOHMA: (chuckles) I hope that’s true!

KEN: No, no, no! Not ‘hope’, it definitely is! It’s totally obvious!

TOHMA: (laughs) Eh~?

(Ryota and the others walk back)

RYOTA: Sorry for the wait. The line for the soft-serve ice cream got long so it took quite a while.

KOKI: Welcome back. You even bought ice cream?

MINATO: It says it was a Hokkaido-special soft-serve ice cream. As a proud Hokkaido native, I wanted to check if it’s true!

RYOTA: Even if he says that, I think he just wanted to eat something sweet~

MAMORU: (chuckles) That’s true. I want some, too!

KEN: Me, too!

MINAKO: There’s some for Tohma-kun, too~ Try and taste if it’s really up to a Hokkaido native’s standard~

TOHMA: Ah… Thank you, Minako-san!

MINAKO: Eh,,,?!

TOHMA: It’s still a little difficult calling you “Mom” so… That’s why for now, I’ll call you “Minako-san” just like how Father calls you.

MINAKO: (holding back tears) Yes… Yes, that’s enough for me~! That’s completely fine! Nice to meet you, Tohma-kun!

MINAKO: Ah, does saying “nice to meet you” sound strange? (laughs)

MAMORU: (laughs)

==END==

#growth #growth translations #my translations #tsukipro #drama cd #ken's so good at bonding with children lol #but what made this entire track for me was the intense background music when Mamoru was throwing baseballs XD #but also mamoru please stop embarrassing yourself

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butterfly-tattoo · 6 years

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The Sims 4 Plants Legacy Challenge! ✨

This is a very pack intensive legacy challenge based on plants! Basically each generation is based off of a different genre of plants! Feel free to move around generations or skip generations (If you dont have the pack for it) The order doesn't really matter! Each heir will need to have a specific aspiration and 1 specific trait, you can choose the other two. This legacy focuses on growing a diverse family farm with as many plants in the game as possible! Each generation must

Finish their aspiration

Grow the required plants

Expand the family farm

The heir and their spouse must live at the family home until they die. Each Sibling must be a young adult before they move out. Everyone in the house hold is allowed to help with the farming. Your sims partner can have a job but your sim cannot. Your sims partner can have any base game job unless stated otherwise. Each generation only needs one child unless stated otherwise. The heir doesn't have to be female and the children can be adopted. This is more about plants than DNA (YAY gay legacies!)

Gen 1 - Lets be farmers! (base game)

Aspiration: Freelance Botanist Trait: Loves out doors

To start the challenge off, move your founder into a VERY BIG lot. This will be your lot for the rest of the challenge. You shouldn't cheat to get a house, this challenge is about building up your farm. (but of course its your game so do what you want) Use your starting money to create a starter house.

Have your sim get married to a townie. Your sim is starting over with very little after having left their family forever. The only real interest they every had was plants! Maybe they could use plants to help them get their feet off the ground?

Add a fence around the plot of land

Things you need to plants:

dragon fruit

Snapdragon

Cowplant

Gen 2 - Selvadorada (Jungle Adventures)

Aspiration: Jungle Explorer or Archaeology Scholar Trait: Active

Have your sim get married to a Selvadoradian. After meeting their spouse on vacation, your heir becomes very interested in their culture. They decide to use the family farm to plant things to make their spouse feel more at home. Of course, still using it for profit to pay for extending the house.

Expand the house to have a section for the last generations to live out the rest of their lives. (bedroom, on suite bathroom, little activity area)

Things you need to plants:

Avocado

Black Bean

Tree of Emotion

Gen 3 - Vampires

Aspiration: Good Vampire or Vampire family Trait: Family oriented

Have your sim get married to a vampire. The current Heir obsessed with learning about their spouses vampire culture and raising their children on healthy plasma alternatives! *At the end of this generation, turn the heir, their spouse, and the next heir into humans*

Expand the house to have a basement where you keep your partners coffin and anything else youd like to put there.

Things you need to plants:

Garlic

Plasma fruit

Wolfsbane

Gen 4 - Family Chef (Base game)

Aspiration: Master Chef Trait: Foodie

Have your sim get married to a sim they meet at a restaurant/bar. Your sims spouse can work in the culinary career. This sim has always loved cooking healthy for her family. Now they cant wait to use home grown produce on their own kids.

Expand the farm to have a grill area.

Things you need to plants:

Carrot

Apple

Spinach

Gen 5 - Aliens (get to work)

Aspiration: Successful Lineage Trait: Geek

Have your sim get married to an Alien.*Actually since there is a base game plant from sixam, you could do the generation without get to work! Just Marry a faux alien, collect that plant, collect two other rare plants, and do the astronaut career instead of scientist!* After meeting their alien partner, your sim decides to plant things from their home world. Your sims spouse must be a scientist that uses their spare time to help your sim build a spaceship

Add a rocket ship to the farm.

Things you need to plants:

Glow Orb

Quill Fruit

Fang Flower

Gen 6 - Camping (outdoor retreat)

Aspiration: Outdoor Enthusiast Trait: Squeamish

Have your sim get married to someone they met on family vacation. Even with your sims love for plants, dirt really grosses them out. Lucky for them, they fell for a camper. Have your sims spouse help them find plants in Granite falls.

Add a pond to the farm (A small natural looking swimming pool with plant life and rocks around it OR cheat to buy a fishing pond for 1000 simoleons)

Things you need to plant:

Chamomile

Elderberry

Morel Mushroom

Gen 7 - Flower shop (Base game)

Aspiration: Big Happy Family Trait: Romantic

Have your sim get married to a sim they meet at the park. They fell in love surrounded by flowers and they intend on being surrounded by flowers forever.

Expand the farm to have a shed or green house.

Things you need to plant:

Bluebells

Chrysanthemum

Rose

Gen 8 - Fur babies (cats and dogs)

Aspiration: Friend of the Animals Trait: Cat lover

Have your sim never get married and never have children. After a family full of cousins, aunts, brothers and sister, Your sim is ready to finally be alone.

Add a play area for cats and adopt as many cats as possible!

Things you need to plant:

Napnip

Madnip

Nuzzlenip

That’s about it! If you do this challenge, please, please tag me and/or link back to this post! If you're doing a YouTube series on this challenge please link the rules in the description. Ill add more generations as they add more plants so be on the lookout for that! If you like my content, consider buying me a coffee?

Social media links below the cut (follow my twitch to watch me play this legacy!)

Twitter: NabiTattoo Twitch: ButterflyTattoo Tumblr: Butterfly-Tattoo

#ts4 legacy #ts4 gameplay #ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4 legacy challenge #ts4 challenge #s4 legacy #s4 gameplay #s4

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blackwoolncrown · 6 years

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Hi I really love everything you post about your life. I know this is a really big question, but how do you do it? How long did it take you? To build a space full of clothes and beads and gems and foods and plants that you like? I'm 18 and I want to hurry up and make a life that I enjoy but I don't know where to start.

First: Do not compare yourself to me.

Or anyone else.

You’re 18 so before I tell you anything else, I will give you a grave warning:

Do not be covetous of other people’s lives.

I’m not saying you are, but this is a warning, and here’s what I mean.

The secret of life is that nothing can make you happy. Things cannot make you happy. Nothing is really good or bad, somethings are hard and some things are easy. Some things make it easy to be happy and others make you carve the happiness out.

But do not look at other people’s lives and measure your experience by them. Do not stress yourself out over what others have achieved and how fast. Time isn’t real, everyone’s experience is subjective and often, if you focus on what others have you may find that you receive it– the whole package.

I’m not going to mislead you- my life right now is blissful. The world may not be, but my life is. However, this is my experience, and my desire and ability to build this particular home life is part and parcel of my entire life up until now. I have carved it out of my past, my mistakes, my sufferings, because they all taught me what I do not want.

That’s not going to be the same for you. You can’t use anyone else’s life as a measurement for yours, it’s an easy way to come out with an ill-fit.

In my field of work there are a lot of women who also have what looks like a charmed life, and in the past I’ve lusted after the things they had and the places they went, but many of them are also not particularly happy, always striving for more, idk, always complaining.

So don’t get caught up in that. I have a lot of things now that I wanted once I saw that they had it because I realized it was possible- and that’s what mattered; knowing it was possible because someone else was doing it- not thinking that if I had what they had I’d be happy.

That being said, here’s your direct answer: I’m 31, been in this house for over 2 years. Before that I was in a nice 3 bedroom apartment for 3 and my online adult biz had picked up (hence the move). Before that I was in a little little duplex, trying to cam, trying to find steady work, and at times unemployed because YAY AMERICA.

A shopping tip is this: once you know what you like, ONLY buy that stuff, but DON’T ALWAYS BUY IT. What I mean by that is that you don’t have to own everything that appeals to your identity but if you only purchase things that do, your collection of things will look more cohesive and pleasing (IMO). That’s why my house looks like that.However… even when I lived in an apartment I felt happy wth all the things I had. Even when we were in the duplex we thought we were doing very well for ourselves and decorated it nicely.

As far as the beads and clothes and etc.. it just happens. A little bit here, a little bit there. I never set out to ‘have it all’ I just reach out for what excites me and trust that in time I’ll do something with it, learn how to work it (wire, beads, paint etc), make reasons to wear it (outfits etc etc). But I don’t buy a lot of anything at once. It’s a slow, easygoing process.

It’s not what you have, but what you feel about it. It’s not something you can buy, per se- A lovely home is an expression of your inner peace and vision. A lovely home has lovely things, but also quiet, communication, love and laughter. If you don’t have those latter things first, the stuff won’t matter at all.

You’re 18, give yourself time. You’re going to change a lot, have fun with it, don’t stress. Have goals, hold them gently- don’t force yourself to achieve them if it doesn’t feel right, use them like a guidepost but don’t think you can’t be happy if you end up wanting/having something different. When I was your age I painted my walls burgundy and had a very ornate oriental/goth thing going. Everything was burgundy and black- everything. I didn’t start decorating with color until I was like 24 and I didn’t start decorating with nature themes until we moved into this house.

There is no ‘hurry up!’ There is no rushing this. Just take a deep breath and do what you can that feels good.

Hope that helps!

#mine #homes #life #Anonymous

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keziacole · 7 years

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tagged by @bumbleblossoms - thank you!

Tagged Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Coffeeeeeee

2. Phone call: My partner, just as they left the dentist. :( 3. Text message: Motherbot 2.0 4. Song you listened to: Been Caught Stealing – Jane’s Addiction 5. Time you cried: Uh… some point in the last couple months, I guess? Not sure when, but it was at something related to dogs. Honestly, I did most of my crying last year, during The Year From Hell, and I’m still a bit dried out.

6-92 under the cut. :)

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: As in getting back together again? Nooooo. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: …yup. Often. Sometimes not until a long while later, though! 8. Been cheated on: Not to my knowledge. 9. Lost someone special: Yep. 10. Been depressed: Eh, I’ve never been diagnosed with depression, so no, I don’t think so. Situationally really fucked off with things? Yes. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Once. Story time, everyone!

So, I generally have a really good alcohol tolerance and a cast iron stomach (not necessarily for good reasons, but hey), but I did once go to a party that ended very badly. I was about 17, had recently been diagnosed with CFS, and was on a heavy painkiller regimen. I drank when I shouldn’t really have done so, because bullshit and All the Emotional Drama, BUT… I did not know that my friend’s asshole brother had spiked my drink. (He was a peach. Gave his 14 year old brother acid once just to point and laugh at the result. Fuckin’ hated that guy.)

At some point in the evening – somewhere after the sham marriages, interpretative dance, and someone putting someone else through a table, because teen parties – I realised I was wayyy more wasted than I should have been, despite the painkillers, and I ended up spending all night hallucinating and throwing up, plus feeling horrific for about three days afterwards.

Moral of the story: if you spike people’s drinks, you are a gigantic bag of toe lint and should suffer mosquito bites on your asshole for a thousand years. The end.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Purple 13. Red 14. Blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Not yet. Befriend me, tumblr, you’re my only hope. 16. Fallen out of love: No, though I have watched my relationship with at least one family member crumble into dust. Does that count? 17. Laughed until you cried: At least four times a week. Which is one big reason why I’m marrying that motherfucker. 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes. See 16. 19. Met someone who changed you: Not yet. 20. Found out who your friends are: Yes, sadly. It sucks when you realise how effectively someone has manipulated the people around you. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Nah, I don’t really do the FB thing. I should, I guess?

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: See above. I kind of have a profile, but I only use it to message people I’m related to who are freaking obsessed with Facebook and won’t communicate any other way. Ugh. So… most of them? I guess? 23. Do you have any pets: One dog – Hector, a grumpy and elderly terrier - down from two resident mutts and a boatload of fosters. Older dog died last year, and I’m not in a position to foster right now, which sucks, because I miss having a house full of beasties, not to mention making a difference. 24. Do you want to change your name: Already have done/am doing! I have no real interest in keeping up with more than 80% of the people I’m related to, and I never liked my birth name, plus this is easier to spell and dictate to people, and isn’t known by the abusive assholes in my life. So, yay! 25. What did you do for your last birthday: Ordered pizza and watched favourite movies with my partner. We did The Blues Brothers and shit-talked the progression of police militarisation in the US over the past 30 years, and it was incredibly fun, despite the fact we’re 3000 miles apart right now. Also, they remembered my birthday, which is more than can be said for over two-thirds of the people I’m related to. 26. What time did you wake up: 9am, but in my defence I was up until 3 last night.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Talking shit with my partner, knitting an afghan, and watching foster kitten cams and reviews of awful movies together, because these are good ways to help someone who has a dental appointment in the morning try to stay calm. 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Getting my current backlog of work finished. Sooo clooose…. Promised myself a movie and gaming binge when I’m done. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Last week. 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Either having enough money to fix all my problems (yes, in this case, money most certainly can do that), or just being on the same continent as my partner, so we didn’t have this immigration thing to worry about. Not having a debilitating illness that fucks everything up would be pretty awesome, too. 31. What are you listening right now: Freddie King 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yep, many Toms. All the Toms. Well, like, five plus. 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Not knowing whether or not the electrician is going to show up tomorrow, which will mean I need to move the paintings and quilt top I currently have all over the sitting room floor. I’m not done piecing that thing yet. Grr. 34. Most visited website: Lots. Mostly Google, Politico, Reuters etc., but I’m living on eBay right now because I’m trying to sell off a bunch of DVDs, books, and vintage glassware. …Does anyone want to buy some vintage/antique glassware? 35. Mole/s: Yep. I had one removed from my back once. Turned out to be benign (phew!) but I got an interesting scar out of it. 36. Mark/s: I still have a faint surgery scar on my elbow, but it doesn’t look as Frankenstein-y now. Most of my scars have faded, but I still have some weird idiosyncrasies from things that have been broken or busted up. 37. Childhood dream: Writing was always my main thing, but also acting/directing. Illness took that away. Other than that, I always wanted to live somewhere rural with lots of animals, and be happy. 39. Long or short hair: Long. Lots. It’s huge. Send help. I like both on other people. 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Not right now. Give me ten minutes and a new Fet profile to stalk and I’ll get back to you... 41. What do you like about yourself: I’m a creative dynamo and I don’t stop until I fall down. I’m also proud of the fact that I’m a pretty compassionate and patient person, and I like the fact I’m slow to really anger. Someone told me recently I’m a very stabilising influence, and that was nice to hear. I feel like life can use more of that. 42. Piercings: Ears (two left, three right), nose (left). More on the way, maybe, when I can justify it. 43. Blood type: ???? I should check. I know the NHS won’t let me donate blood because of my medical condition, which blows. 44. Nickname: Zia. Some people call me Kez. One person is allowed to call me Admiral Fuckface McAsshole III. 45. Relationship status: Open relationship with my primary partner, technically speaking. Poly is good, but my planner is too cluttered for anarchy. 46. Zodiac: Aries w/ Aquarius moon, Virgo ascendant. I also have Mars and Venus in Taurus, so mooooo. And yes, I did used to do natal charts for beer money. I read palms, too. I’d still do it if asked nicely. 47. Pronouns: They/She. I don’t mind feminine pronouns, because I’m incredibly cis-passing and most people will assume “she”, plus I can live with being labelled female if it’s a binary choice, but I see myself more as a person than a gender, so I love that neutral pronouns are being used so much more now.

FWIW, I considered whether or not I was trans for a hot minute when I was a younger teen, because I used to love passing as a boy when I was a kid (until puberty at nine. Boo.), but for me it was the difference in how I was treated when I passed as male that mattered. It was the difference between “Oh, isn’t he confident and intelligent?” and “Hello, sweetie, don’t you look pretty today?” that affected me, not a real sense of dysphoria, so I decided the problem wasn’t really in how I presented, but in society itself. I have yet to really find a satisfying way of rectifying that, but I think we’re all making progress as a society. It’s very slow progress, sadly.

48. Favorite TV Show: I don’t watch that many series, but Star Trek (especially TOS and DS9), X-Files (S1/S2), Game of Thrones, old mystery adaptations (all the Agatha Christie ever), Stranger Things, Better Call Saul, Breaking Bad… can’t think of anything else right now, but there are some. 49. Tattoos: One black and grey dotwork spiral goddess on my arm, next one coming soon (watch this space, now I’ve found an artist!) 50. Right or left hand: Ambidextrous. Yes, I can write with both hands. Sometimes, I switch in the middle of the sentence. No, it doesn’t look the same. I can also operate light switches with my toes from a standing position. 51. Surgery: I fucked up my ulnar nerve a couple of years ago by blacking out and falling on some stairs. It was melodramatic, and I lost the use of my left hand. Had surgery to correct it. I was awake but a bit sedated, and spent most of the time talking to the cute anaesthetist about chastity cages. Because... sedated? Yes. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. Sadly, he did not call, though I’m pretty sure he did a lot of googling when he got home that night. 52. Hair dyed in different color: Always, since I discovered Olaplex, which means I can actually bleach my hair without it completely frying. Most recently, I’ve had a mermaid fantasy in turquoise, green, and purple, but it’s faded a lot. Not sure what I’ll do next. Maybe orange, or neon yellow again. 53. Sport: I can’t do much without turning blue and blacking out, but I’ve always enjoyed tennis, badminton, swimming, and equestrian stuff. Is hiking a sport? Hiking’s fun. 54. Do you use sarcasm a lot: Um...

55. Vacation: Last one was to see my partner; next one will be too. So, the woods of NEPA. Hiking out with some granola and my favourite human, and spending a few days playing with shelter pitbulls. <3 Otherwise, I’ve never really been on holiday. I went on a school trip to Germany once where I nearly got arrested and, when I was seven, I went to Malta and there was a hurricane. I remember wedging wet towels into the window frames and hoping we didn’t die, because we were on the twelfth floor and there was nowhere else to go.

I did go to Norfolk with my mother for four days after her breast cancer diagnosis. Macmillan, a cancer charity that is very worthy of support, granted her a short break. There was a lot of playing dominos and trying to convince her she wasn’t actively dying at that precise moment.

56. Pair of trainers: Converse. All the ratty old Converse low tops in the world.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I have the house to myself right now. It’s awesome. I’m celebrating with homemade shiitake tofu stir fry, wontons, vegetable udon… and doughnuts. Not in the same bowl, though. 58. Drinking: Rum.

59. I’m about to: Finish a short story, close out an editing project, format a print galley (again. Goddamnit, Adobe.), and try to finalise the running order of a poetry collection. Maybe send some emails, maybe eat the rest of those wontons. 61. Waiting for: The dizziness to go away, usually. 62. Want: The time, space, peace and quiet to focus on my work, and my health to cooperate long enough for that to happen. 63. Get married: As soon as possible, which basically means when we can afford it, because immigration, legal wrangling, and a ton of other bullshit. It’s a headache, but if there weren’t so many technical hurdles it would already be done. 64. Career: I write and make stuff. I’m doing it under a new name now, which is daunting, because it means starting over again, but I’ve spent the past few years doing a lot of genre fiction and being told my original work is “too original”… but I’m ready to say “fuck you” to that and see what I can carve out for myself. Come on, internet: don’t prove me wrong, ‘k? 65. Hugs or kisses: Ooh, tough. Yes? I guess hugs if I have to pick. 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes. 67. Shorter or taller: I honestly don’t care, though I do very much enjoy short subs. Pocket rockets are adorable. 68. Older or younger: It really doesn’t matter. 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Arms, I guess? Doesn’t really matter. It’s all pretty to look at, but who really cares? Arms are best for hugs. 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive. I don’t like too loud. 72. Hook up or relationship: Define the terms, yo. I’d say relationship, but the definition of “relationship” can be open to numerous things. 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Um… possibly a bit of both, but more hesitant, probably.

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: No. 75. Drank hard liquor: Yup.

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I once dropped a contact lens down the back of a gas fire and spent three hours getting it out with Vaseline on a paperclip. My vision is awful and I wore very expensive gas permeable lenses at the time. 77. Turned someone down: Yup. 78. Sex on the first date: Nothing wrong with it (and nothing wrong with sex being the date), but it’s not for me. 79. Broken someone’s heart: So they said. 80. Had your heart broken: Yes, but not how you might assume. 81. Been arrested: Nope. 82. Cried when someone died: Yep. 83. Fallen for a friend: A couple of times, with varying degrees of success.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: I try to, because few other people often do. (*the world’s tiniest violin plays*) 85. Miracles: Yes, sometimes in the form of coincidences, surprises, or the results of hard work. I believe in inverse miracles, too, when things go catastrophically wrong for no apparent reason. Or, as we call it at my house, Tuesday. 86. Love at first sight: Yes, in a way. Potential for love at first sight, I guess? I’ve usually found I know the moment I meet someone whether that’s a thing that’s going to happen or not. 87. Santa Claus: YES, DAMN IT. Okay, maybe not a literal dude in a red suit, but as a personification of the generous spirit of Non-Denominational-Winter-Solstice-and-Festival-of-Lights, he works. (I’m an eclectic neo-pagan/hedgewitch, but my most loved time of year is the whole October-February period, so I start celebrating Yule/Christmas around December 1st and don’t stop until Twelfth Night. I will take ALL of your symbolism, ALL your traditions, and – most importantly – ALL your festive foods and embrace them. In my belly. Thank you.)

88. Kiss on the first date: Probably. Unless it’s a baaaaad first date. 89. Angels: Again, not so much the literal sense, but it’d be nice to think there are positive presences looking out for us. I’d be very concerned about the serpent-like pillars of fire, though.

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Aside from my dog, that’s my partner but they don’t like their details shared, so SHHHH IT’S A SECRET. 91. Eye color: grey-blue-thing 92. Favorite movie: You can’t just ask a person that at the end of the thing like it’s a simple question…! So. Many. Movies. Depends on the genre. The Blues Brothers, Priscilla: Queen of the Desert, Gattaca, Silence of the Lambs, Re-Animator, Die Hard, Stand By Me, Sleepaway Camp, Alien, Lady in a Cage, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead, TRHPS, The Great Escape… those are movies I can watch a billion times (and have done). Honorable mentions, depending on my mood, go to things like Basket Case, Caramel, An American Werewolf in London, Exterminating Angel, Secretary, Gran Torino… I could have done 92 questions just on the most popularist movies I like!

tagging: I’ve been away for a few days and I don’t wanna tag people who’ve already done it, so if you’re reading this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged! <3

#get to know me #personal #long post

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la-appel-du-vide · 5 years

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THAILAND 2019 - Day Ten {Phuket}

Our tour for today was a sunrise tour to the Phi Phi islands, which is supposedly better because then you get there before the islands get crazy packed with tourists. We were scheduled to be picked up at 6:30, so I set my alarm for 6:00. I was depressed when it went off, because I had another terrible night’s sleep and the exhaustion was starting to catch up with me. Beach had decided to try sleeping on the couch, so she was out there when I went to go get my phone. I laid back down for a couple of minutes before I decided that I had better get going so we wouldn’t be late. I went out to wake Beach up, and found out that she had been super sick all night. She had spent over half the night in the bathroom. She’d tried taking pills to stop it, but wasn’t sure if they were working. She was nervous to leave the hotel in case they didn’t get in and she needed bathroom access all day. I didn’t want her to miss the tour, but I understood why she was worried about it. After she deliberated for a while, she decided she would try to come.

I was glad, because it would have been a super depressing day for both of us if she had stayed home. I did feel really bad she was so ill though.

We grabbed our stuff and met the taxi downstairs. He took us back to the same marina as yesterday, and it turned out that our tour was actually scheduled with the same company, and the same little tour guide, Mr. Boy! (And his odd female assistant for the day, who made a call of the wild every time we needed to head back to the boat…) I kind of felt awkward about being there two days in a row, but I guess we’ll never see them again so it doesn’t really matter haha.

I ate a banana from the breakfast buffet, but Beach decided to understandably stay away from food and water for the day. Because the tour was so snorkel intensive, we were able to pick up some flipper fins to bring with us for the day. We grabbed them and headed back down to the marina.

We had a boat very similar to the one the day before, so this time, we decided it would be fun to sit in the bow of the boat this time. We headed up there, and got comfortable, but soon regretted that decision haha. I grabbed a coke before we took off, opened it, and also regretted that! As soon as the speed set in, the wind up front was bad enough, and made drinking impossible, but WORSE was the super intense bumps! The water was sooooo choppy, and we were getting flung around like crazy. I tried desperately to keep my hand over the Coke can, to keep Coke from flying all over the place, but it was so rough. About 20 minutes into our insane ride, one of the tour guides came up front to ask if any of us what to go back and sit in the boat. We definitely wanted to take her up on that, because we were getting bounced all over the place. ROUGH WATER. Standing up and getting back there was scary, but we made it haha. In the back, the we’d get splashed with water from time to time, but the wind and bumps were significantly less so that’s an improvement.

Our first stop of the day was Phi Phi Lay. They first took us to look at the beach where a movie with Leonardo DiCaprio, which I think is actually called The Beach, was filmed. It’s closed to the public now, so we only got to look at it from afar, but I guess that’s cool? I’ve never actually seen the movie haha. The Phi Phi islands are very beautiful though, I just can’t get over the water color here.

After we looked at that for a minute, we drove around to the other side of the island where we could actually swim/snorkel. Beach was feeling very nauseous, so we took our snorkel gear and swam to land so she could throw up – poor lil guy. It helped though, so that’s good! And the other problem was better for her at this point too! So things were looking up a bit. We put on our fins and masks, and did some snorkeling. It was way awesome here. There were soooo many fish – neon striped fish, teeny tiny fish, fish from Finding Nemo, long pointy fish, etc. We saw some sea anemones, like where Nemo lived, too. The water felt perfect, even though we were in the shade and it was super early in the morning. At one point, we were inside a massive school of fish! There were literally SO MANY. I was getting flopped by fish all over my body, it was crazy.

Then we hopped back in the boat to go to our next stop – Phi Phi Lay Lagoon. It’s a gorgeous semi-enclosed area that’s pretty calm and wasn’t too crowded so that we could swim there! We got to jump right off the front of the boat, and just swim around for a good 45 minutes. It amazed us how most of the people on our tour didn’t even get out of the boat. Silly guys – enjoy the moment! The water is great! Literally the views are indescribable. Gotta see it to believe it. AH. Obsessed.

Then we got back into the boat and made our way over to Phi Phi Don. On our way, we drove past some of the “bird nest mining” operations set up in some of the caves in the area. I guess there is a certain type of bird who makes nests out of their saliva, which is very valuable for health? It was hard to catch everything the guy was saying with his strong accent haha. So their nests are collected daily, and sold for like 400,000 Baht, which is like $13,000. I don’t really get it? But cool to see I guess?

Then we went to Monkey Beach!!! I don’t know why so many monkeys live there, but they do and it’s amazing. We saw so many on the beach, literally scaling the rock walls and vines, and some were even carrying their babies on their stomachs. It was super cool, and a very unique experience. We weren’t allowed to get out of the boat, because I guess they are kind of rabid monkeys and you can get bit by them – they attack haha. But we loved watching them from the boat for awhile. Our tour guide even threw bananas to them, and they would catch them, peel them properly, and eat them. So cute.

Then we drove down Phi Phi Don to another beach where we had lunch. This buffet was not nearly as good. I ate some rice, and some sort of sweet and sour tofu/vegetable mix. (Tofu – yuckkk). The watermelon was good, but I didn’t feel like I liked the rest of it at all. And poor Beach didn’t eat at all.

After we ate, we took some photos and then just laid on the beach relaxing. It was nice.

When everyone was ready, we hopped aboard, and went over to Bamboo Island for an hour of free time! This is another popular island, and it was a bit more crowded, but I can see why. There was powder-white sand, beautiful Gatorade blue water, stunning mountain views all-around us, and it was honestly just perfect. We set-up our towels, and spent the next hour rotating through swimming, tanning, and sleeping on the beach.

One weird thing – When I was down in the water, this little Thai guy came over to talk to me. I talked to him for a minute, then he started gesturing behind me. I turned around, and there was a woman taking photos of us. I thought that was weird, but then before I knew it, two more Thai guys were coming up asking to take photos with me. “You are very beautiful!” It was so weird.

Our final stop of the day was at another island closer to Phuket called Rang Yai. It didn’t have as nice of sand as Bamboo Island did, but it was still another relaxing hour of laying out, and then cooling off in the perfect water.

And that wrapped our tour up for the day! Hopped back in the boat, had some delicious pineapple and watermelon (sorry Beach), and headed back to Phuket. I honestly loved Chiang Mai so much, but the sheer beauty of these Thai islands can’t be beat.

We went through the same process of going back to the tour office, filling out surveys, and getting a taxi ride back to the hotel. We got done earlier today since we started earlier, so we wanted to go out and see Big Buddha, which is one of Phuket’s most famous landmarks. However, the taxi ride to the hotel took forever, so I was a little worried there wouldn’t be time. When we finally got there, we ran up to the room for a minute to change out of our swimsuits, and then went to ask Ms. Jub for a taxi there.

He drove us a lot farther than we expected, up a mountain to see Big Buddha! It provided a really gorgeous overlook of Phuket and the surrounding waters. Plus, Big Buddha himself was super impressive and cool. It was definitely one BIG Buddha.

(Let it be known that I have tried multiple times to get a good picture of Beach and I together on this trip, but every time they have turned out bad. I’ll get one eventually….UGH)

We took our time looking at the view and the other Buddha statues in the area, and then went back to where our taxi driver was waiting. He drove us back down the mountain and dropped us off at the mall so we (or rather, just me) could get dinner. Beach ate a couple of DQ cones, since she had been feeling better most of the day, and was literally starving, but she still wanted to play it a little safe.

I found a little restaurant to try, where I had mushroom pesto pasta, a chocolate Oreo shake, and a cup of Miso soup (which was not as good as the one I fell in love with in Chiang Mai, and I’m sad that I might not ever find one like that again). It was all really good.

We went down to the grocery store on the bottom level, to buy some body lotion for our poor sunburnt skin (we even put on sunscreen, but the Thai sun is just so powerful), and toilet paper because ours was now gone of course, haha. (Again, poor Beach).

And on our way to call Ms. Jub for a taxi, we noticed a Ramen restaurant. We looked through their menu just for kicks, and found a Miso ramen. Beach thought I should just try it, and so even though I had just eaten dinner, I ordered it haha. It was decent, but still not my OG guy. I have to give up the hunt – it’s too depressing.

It took a while for Ms. Jub to send the taxi, but we were alright chilling in the beautiful mall. I went to the bathroom, and it was the most ornate, beautiful bathroom I’ve ever seen. I want it in my house.

Finally the taxi showed up and took us home. Ms. Jub charged us an exorbitant amount of money for the taxi rides (I still don’t understand why we pay her and not them…) which was frustrating. Usually, we like to settle on a price BEFORE we do the ride, but we didn’t have the chance this time. Oh well. It is what it is.

It was our last night in Phuket, so we had a lot of stuff to get done – Beach’s homework, my Tumblr posts, researching flights to Bangkok (story to come in a later post, but to sum up – UGH), pack, repack, and pack again, clean, shower….

But guess what’s awesome? The one redeeming element of this hotel (besides the pool of course) was the fantastic WiFi, but tonight, it up and stopped working. LOVELY. That was super frustrating of course. We couldn’t accomplish anything. So basically, we just packed and went to bed. Love that for us.

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suchawonderfullife · 7 years

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Day 3- testing my meds, more findings

Today was another important day where I took all my current medications and supplements into my Dr to have him test them on me. Before I get into that, check out the new concoction he gave me to help support my liver and spleen (my two most badly affected organs). So I’m lying on the table and he’s doing his bioreasonance things on me and going over to his wall of supplements and working stuff out. He starts making up this concoction and I’m saying “I thought the stuff you’d give me would taste far worse, it was actually fine! I’ve had to drink some pretty disgusting stuff so I’m used to it, but it really wasn’t that bad.” His response was “Just wait for it. Trust me, wait for it.”

As he said that I saw him pouring this black “sludge” looking stuff into a new bottle and I thought ah crap! That’s what is pictured above and I have to put an entire dropper (the amount you can see in the dropper) under my tongue and then swirl it around before swallowing, 3x a day. It smells like rancid licorice and it’s pretty horrible (I’d rather say it tastes like ass- Aussie slang). My Dr said it was something that would make my liver and spleen go “yay :D” haha. I love his technical termonology.

So we laid out all my medications, supplements, essential oils, and a few addition things like my gelatin powder (I use in subtitute of bone broth) and a fermented probiotic my natural Dr gives me. He started doing his bioresonance testing over them and separating them as things arose.

There was a pile for things my body is actually allergic to, a pile for meds that are toxic and a pile of ones that are fine. I had no idea I was taking things my body was allergic to. These were my B12 injections, potassium tablets and L-Glutamine tablets. He said that those coming up as an allergy doesn’t mean I’m allergic to say potassium, it means for that particular brand there is an ingredient in it (for example the coating) that my body cannot tolerate. I have 2 medications that are toxic to my body and they are Coralan (one of my heart meds) and The Pill. I cannot stop taking either of these, but being that the pill is toxic to me, may explain why my hormones are out and my reproductive system came up as problematic.

My Dr said he cannot tell me to stop taking anything, especially anything prescription. He didn’t want me to stop any of the “bad” things I was taking as my body is used to them and stopping things while starting what he’s giving me may upset too much. So to counteract my body being allergic or toxic to certain things he gave me little cups of these homeopathic white balls (like the tiny balls in sachets you see in containers that soak up any liquid) and I had to crunch them all up and swallow them. He said if I had an allergy to food, he could give me a remedy that within 24 hours I could eat that food without a problem. These little white crunchy balls were doing the same for my meds and supplements so my body can tolerate them. He explained it in way cooler detail and even showed us this video about frequencies that was really interesting. I can’t remember it though. So he doesn’t just sound like he’s pulling statements out of thin air, he actually explains everything so that it makes sense.

All of my essential oils tested well on me. He said I can take any that I want. I have one’s that I take everyday, some I take a few times a week and some I take only as needed (for example, if I have a cold). He pulled 4 out of the pack and said “these one’s your body is saying OMG THESE ARE AMAZING!” So definitely keep using those. They were: Frankincense (your staple oil if you’re going to start using oils, you should probably start with that), Purification (a good detoxing oil I put in my epsom salt baths a few times a week), Peace & Calming (a blend I put on the soles of my feet every night to help me sleep) and Lemon Myrtle (something my body has always reponded well to when I’ve felt toxic, nauseous, fatigued, just generally unwell).

He also said that Valor is a good blend for my spine/bone pain, Peppermint oil is good for my muscle pain and RC is good for whenever I feel I need it (it’s one I use to combat cold viruses). These findings are in correlation to my own bodies chemistry, so do not think that these oils or what they’re good for may be the same for you. He did comment on how great oils are though and I said “I know I’ve been using them for over 2 years now and they’ve helped me so much.” He has a whole wall of the same brand of essential oils himself. They also have diffusers around the clinic where they diffuse Thieves all the time.

I showed him my gelatin powder and he said it was fine to use. I said that I put it in my soup every morning but if I was at home I would be having bone broth. He then said bone broth may not be the best idea for me as it contains properties of L-Glutamine (one of my medications that came up me having an allergy to it). When I explained how I make it and that I only add a few tablespoons of it to my cup of soup or a few hundred ml into my sauces or stews etc. he said that that’s totally ok. Some of his patients drink straight broth (the kind you cook for 24+ hours and it sets like jelly- which is what I have) and they’ll have around 3 cups of it a day, which is not good for them. So how I’m having it and the amount is totally fine.

My natural Dr sells me a natural probiotic that I take a shot of every morning. He said that was fine to take but recommended I google “fire cider” as it being naturally made I could make large amounts of it myself to save money.

I asked him about the possibility of getting well enough to come off my heart meds. He explained that the way the body works, your heart is the last thing to heal. So it’s not something to look at for a long time.

The last thing we did was he worked on a thick scar I have on one of my forearms. When you have scars on your body, just underneath it where the scar tissue lies, it breaks up the energy pathways and hinders movement through the cells/body (that’s how I understood it anyway). So he got these 2 little machines with tiny points of them and pressed them on either side of the scar and held it for about 30 seconds. My skin felt like it was burning a little, then he’d move both of them 1cm down and hold it again until he covered the entire scar. It won’t remove the scar but it’ll atleast heal the damage underneath it so that that part of my body has energy flowing through it properly.

I’m feeling really happy and chilled at the moment. But I’m bracing for detoxing or bad symptoms. It might be the calm before the storm or I might just keep feeling good, I don’t know. Everyday I come home and within a few hours I become so tired I can’t keep my eyes open and need to nap. Then it’s really difficult to wake up, but I eventually do and I have energy again to shower, watch tv, chat to my parents on skype and last night my partner and I played some card games before going to bed. Today after treatment I went to Walmart for over an hour and walked around to buy a few things and that was fine.

Feeling very grateful and knowing that this has been the best decision in my recovery. There’s around 10 other patients in the clinic at the same time too and I’ve gotten to know a few of them and their stories. It’s comforting to know that they’ve chosen this clinic for the same reasons I have and they are just as positive and hopeful. The people there have varying levels of illness too. I thought I would be one of the “well” one’s going as I’m at around 50% health. But it seems there are people there more well than that, some on their first visit and some on their fourth or fifth visit. Two females there were saying how they felt guilty for being there as they are sick, but high functioning and no where near as sick as many others. Both of their doctors told them that they absolutely deserved to be there and to get better. I’ve seen a few very unwell looking people too. Everyone is really nice though and they love my Aussie accent haha.

We have good chats with our drivers to and from the clinic as well. Our driver home today was one of the staff at the hotel, this middle aged African American woman. I asked her if she’d always lived here and she said “all my life, born and raised!” I laughed and said “OMG you’re the first person to say that “born and raised”, I love it it’s so American.” We told her that my Dr said “ya’ll” today and that was our first one, another very American phrase. I told her the Aussie equivelent is “you’s” and she needs to say “What are you’s doin?”

She was telling us about great places to eat in the area for wholesome American food, like ribs, brisket, and she really loves fried chicken. So she laughed every time she mentioned a restaurant and I’d say “what sort of food do they have?” and she’d repond “oh I go there for the fried chicken!” (a lot of comedians hang shit on African Americans obsession with fried chicken so I think she saw the humour in how much she loved it). My partner also posted a photo on facebook yesterday showing a food he found in a local supermarket that was a sausage wrapped in a pancake on a stick. Our aussie friends were commenting on the photo like WTF kind of food is that? We told our driver how amusing we found that food and she goes “I LOVE THAT FOOD!” Laughing at our amusement of it. I then said “i find the deep fried doritos with cheese funny” and she said “OH i love those too, haha!”

We seem to have the same driver in the mornings, this lovely middle aged man. He’s always so happy and super excited to talk to Australian’s. Every night it’s as if he researchers more things about our country to ask us questions. Today he took us on a detour through a very well-off neighbourhood so we were looking at multi-million dollar American houses. They were amazing. Then these 2 big birds were crossing the road and he goes “look! Those are wild turkeys, we get them a lot here!” I was like “OMG TURKEYS!!!!” I seriously would have taken a photo if I had my phone in my hand. Then he made a joke that he drove a South African man to the clinic for a while and this man talked about the animals he had near his house such as lions, giraffes, tiger, you know the usual. So when the driver showed him Wichitas “native” aniamls, such as a turkey, this guy was not impressed. And here’s us, easily amused Australian’s going OMG A TURKEY (BEST DAY EVERRRR)!!!!!! haha.

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anxiousheart4 · 4 years

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Looking for a Lifeline!

I know it's been a while since I’ve posted in my own words, in fact it's been almost a year, I’m sorry for that. I’ve always been terrible at keeping up with journaling, so why would I think blogging would be any different? Lol.

If you haven’t noticed, I am a fan of TWLOHA and its message to everyone. I've always followed them, and they mean a great deal to me. So I hope in my absence, you’ve enjoyed the posts of theirs I've been sharing. 🙂

Anyways, I don’t have any really good excuse for while I haven’t posted for a long while (well I do between Thanksgiving and Christmas last year, but not since then), and I even got a new laptop this year, that works SOOOO much better then my old, glitchy, slow ass one; so not having a computer can’t be my excuse. And I've had a lot of free time this Summer, so I can’t even say I was busy either. Basically no excuse, but I’m back; so lets catch up.

So, between Thanksgiving and Christmas I was working 4 jobs!

-Mon-Fri 8am-4pm at an office job that I hated.

-Sat & Sun at the Zoo taking kids photos with Santa

-And then Mon-Fri nights, I switched between working at my local GameStop, and helping at my other local Zoo taking Santa photos as well.

The office job I was working was doing bookkeeping at a nursing home. I met some nice residents there, and some mean ones. I met some nice co-workers, and some I didn’t quite get along with. There was 3 other girls in my office.

One was extremely nice and helpful, and patient with trying to teach me, I got along with her quite well. I would actually have conversations with her, and it felt like she did want to get to know me.

Another was the Boss’ wife, and she was nice and all, but also very intimidating, and she never made me feel welcomed; she would be having a conversation with the other 2 girls, but as soon as I tried to join the conversation it was like “we got to get back to work” and the conversation stopped.

And the last girl, I would have thought I would have gotten along with her so well, we have the same taste in music and tv shows, I was like oh yay we can bond! NOPE! I did everything she gave me to do, and asked me to do and it was never good enough, or fast enough, or competent enough, or just enough. She made me feel like a complete failure! And unless she needed me for something, it was like I didn’t even exist! She would go out for lunch, and ask the other 2 girls in the office if they wanted her to bring back anything, and she never even looked my way and asked me once, never! Seriously the best days at work were when she didn’t come in for some reason or another.

Besides the one girl, no one else ever tried to make me feel welcomed in the office, I spent 6 months of my life feeling like an outcast at work, looking for a lifeline, just trying to survive. Apparently the girls in the office went out after work and hung out together, not like I was ever invited to join and get to know them. Instead I went to the movie theater next to work where a friend of mine was a manager and would stop in to see her or go see a movie all by myself. The only time I was ever invited out with them was when they would go to lunch for someones birthday, and still I think that was mostly because every one split the bill evenly except the birthday girl (which I do approve of), so it was a little less money for everyone else. Only the one girl made me feel like I was actually welcomed, otherwise I just listened to their conversations, cause no one seemed to wanna include me. And Surprise Surprise! They never did anything for my birthday! They do all this stuff for the employees birthdays, bring in breakfast, go out to lunch, decorate their office, etc. all I got was a generic card they did for everyone “Happy Birthday from ’The Companies Name’”.

I think one thing that can make even the worst job in the world bearable, is your co workers. I’ve had some terrible jobs, but I had some awesome co workers, so I didn’t dread going to work as much everyday because I got to see them. Safe to say, most of my coworkers there never made me feel like a coworker, a friend, or anything else. I went to work everyday dreading the next 8 hours of my life. When I got let go, I never even said good bye to any of the other people who worked I the building, I only said good bye to the nice one in my office and that’s it. So the ONLY things I liked about the job, was that I got to sit down to work, and the money, oh the money! I miss the money soo bad! But the job gave me SOOO much stress and anxiety, idk if it was worth the money. 😞

Although, I was able to buy my new computer, a MacBook Air, and I have wanted a MacBook since I was in high school, I just could never afford it.

My other jobs, were pretty good, only minor complaints. But I LOVED my coworkers at the other 3 jobs! The biggest complaint was that I had no time to myself because I was so busy.

Gamestop was cool, after only being there for a couple weeks they interviewed me for a supervisor position, they believed I was competent enough! The only reason I didn’t take it, was cause I got the office job, and I couldn’t turn down the money (though now I wish I hadn’t, it would have saved me soo much stress and anxiety). So I stayed seasonal, so when the holiday season was over, my employment was over there.

The one Zoo I worked at during the week, I've worked at for years now, and I love it, and the guys who play Santa are sooo nice, I get some really nice guests, and 90% of the time everything goes smoothly, and I actually hang out with my coworkers outside of work!

The other Zoo I worked at Sat & Sun was pretty much the same as the first Zoo, I love my co workers, and actually hang out with them outside of work. The big complaint about that Zoo, was the guy who played Santa. HE WAS AN ASSHOLE! He had an opinion on everything, and had a problem with how we run our business, and he wouldn’t even let the kids tell him what they wanted for Christmas. We told him we wanted to get a picture of the kids talking to him, and he would tell the kids to “look at him and PRETEND to tell him what they wanted” and then as soon as I took the photo, even if the kid was in the middle of something he would just kick the kid off his lap and move on to the next family. I’m sorry, but if I had kids, I would definitely NOT want them to go see that Santa! I don’t see how so many people line up to see him, and he’s been Santa at the Zoo for years! How has he not lost the Zoo business! But I still like my job, so I'm going back again this year! Lol

Anyways, so that was my holidays, as were coming up to another holiday, lol.

After the holidays, and my busy schedule, I went to Arizona and Mexico for 10 days, and it was AMAZING and relaxing, with only a few hiccups. Like an all inclusive resort without free wifi! What is that? I was gonna use wifi to check in with family back home, but that didn’t happen! And the the room was falling apart, and one of our rooms had bugs in it, and maids didn’t clean very well, like wtf kind of resort was this? But besides that, I got to see and hang out with my sister from another mister who lives in AZ and I don’t get to see often. We went line dancing, which was FANTASTIC! I got to spend my 29th birthday in Mexico, Florida, and AZ + flying over the states between! And with the time difference my birthday lasted 26 hours instead of 24! And I didn’t think about work once during the whole trip until they day I had to come back, and it was because I didn’t wanna come back and go to work!

WOW this is getting long, I'm sorry, only a couple more topics I need to talk out. Its been a very stressful year!

Well after I lost the office job, I've been pretty much Ubering for money, and not making too much of it. But all summer I got to spend weekends going to Bridal/Baby Showers, Weddings and family parties, which I've never really gotten to do before (well besides the weddings, I've never missed a family wedding), so that was awesome! And the weekends we didn’t have an parties, I went up north to my family’s summer home, which my parents just got about 2 years ago, and I’ve barely been able to go before. Which is soo much fun! Ice cream socials, the pool, bonfires, drinking games, bar hoping out on the boat! Nothing about it isn’t fun! So YAY!

If you remember, last November I moved in with my 93 year old grandma with dementia. This experience has been stressful. She spends her days trying to call her mother and grandmother, who are at the cemetery; pacing around the house; she puts dirty dishes in the dishwasher away and washes clean dishes twice; she sets the air conditioning and heat up to 80 degrees, I swear she’s trying to kill me. Its very hard, but I love her, and I love that I get this time to spend with her. And thank god for my mom who is only a call away to help with grandma when my anxiety is through the roof and I can’t deal with her atm, I wouldn’t survive this without her!

This week is going to try me though. I’m staying home all week with grandma, because she just had surgery. She had skin cancer on her nose, and they had to remove it. She’s fine, but she has a bandage on her nose that she isn’t suppose to take off, and yet she does like every time I look away, she’s not supposed to irritate it by touching it or blowing her nose, but she tries to blow her nose every 5 mins. And she’s suppose to sit down and relax with her head back so it doesn’t start bleeding again, I swear she won’t stay sitting if her life depended on it. Ill probably write more about living with her at a later date, but Ill leave it to that now.

Lastly, while I was sitting down writing the blog post, I got a call that just devastated me. My grandma on my other side, has been having some health issues the last week and it has not been looking good, I was going to go see her tomorrow night. Well my mom called me to let me know that she passed away tonight. She was 82 years old, and though she would technically be my step-grandma, she was the only one I ever knew on that side, and I loved her just the same. My dads mom died of tuberculosis probably about a decade before I was born, but my grandpa remarried an amazing woman, and some of my extended family had trouble accepting her (the cousins opinions, usually based on their parents, who probably thought she was trying to take their mothers place, like some kids react to a step mom), but I always saw her as grandma. What kills me is the last time I saw her, I didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye! It was my cousins wedding at the beginning of October, and even though I talked to her during the wedding, when she left that night, I was out on the dance floor or somewhere, and didn’t know she was leaving, so I never said goodbye. And now I'll never have the chance too!! I know she knew I loved her, and though her body was deteriorating, her mind was still has sharp as ever! She was a sweetheart! And my sister and I kept saying we were going to go visit her and bring her dinner, or watch the Blackhawks game with her, and as much as we said it, we barely ever went, and I really wish we had! She was an amazing woman and I’m so happy I got to call her Grandma, but I’m going to regret not spending more time with her when I could, especially near the end! When my Grandpa died, over 15 years ago, I had actually seen him the week before, and gave him a hug and kiss goodbye before I left. Plus he died 2 days after Christmas, and he used to give all the grand children $10 for Christmas (there was 29 of us at the time so for him that was still a lot of money), so I had gotten one last Christmas present from him, which I never spent. I have $10 just sitting in a jewelry box, because nothing ever seemed important enough to spend it on. And after he died I was given his guitar, which I still cherish! I fear I won’t have nothing but 1 picture with my grandma to remember her by. Its going to be hard to say goodbye! 😭

So since its 2 am, and I've been holding back tears while I've been writing this post, and my anxiety and depression will probably be bad this week, I think its time for me to go to bed. Sweet Dreams sweet readers!

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