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pebiejeebies · 7 months

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ISNT IT FUNNY? - Poll below.. read warnings please.

TW: Curse words, Full caps, Vent/Rant (I got very angry here.. sorry)

(If you are sensitive to the topic of LGBT, Alterhumanity, Vents/Rants, please do not read.)

Before you read, understand that most of what I say is an example, nothing more, nothing less. And I support and love Alterhumanity and LGBTQ+ equally, no more, no less. And If I worded something wrong, do tell!

Im glad to hear you two aren’t actually mad at me.. (Talking specifically to @chocolatespyro and @thelittleprinceconfirmed , but this is for everyone, don’t leave yet!)

I kinda feel like a little child or something— you know, for telling me I’m not wrong.. hah.. but eitherway thank you both for explaining what’s right and wrong, I “sorta” thought I did like a HUUGGGEE horrible thing so like I took a moment alone for a bit, then I came back to your very calm words.

I’m never used to people talking to me so.. nicely, (especially in a sensitive topic like this) that’s why I might fuck up and say I messed up even though I had the complete right to speak. (Which shows in my “apology” post, I literally deleted everything cause I thought it was a stupid idea to talk about)

Sigh, I guess since it’s fine from the both of you, I guess I can talk about it again. Honestly thank you for comforting me and such. I expected WAAAAAAYYYY worse.. (haha trauma go brrr) but yeah, back onto the topic.

(THIS IS THE START OF THE TOPIC IF UR UNINTERESTED IN WHAT I SAY FOR THEM <;3)

The topic (if you didn’t know) was basically about how people reacted towards LGBTQ+ and Alterhuman coming out situations..

(I think if you go to my profile and use #my polls you might find a broken and messy reblog of it, cause I deleted the text/poll aha..)

Let’s do an example, shall we? (NO HATE TOWARDS LGBT. JUST AN EXAMPLE)

We all love it when we hear the appreciation posts say: “Be who you are! Never hide your true colors! Show yourself to the world! Never be scared to shine!” And so on.. but why do I feel like it’s mostly aimed for humans (aka LGBT), not Alterhumans.. (IK THERE ARE APPRECIATION POSTS FOR THEM/GEN)

If an Enby came out to their parents, (like in America or a country that supports lgbt) there’s a good chance they’d be supported by their parents, or friends, or both! (WHICH IS VERY GOOD, DONT TAKE IT THE WRONG WAY!)

But alterhumanity has an issue with that, (Still in America or a country similar to it) if I ever said to my parents that I was a therian and a fictkin, they’d either laugh thinking I’m joking or smth, or they’d think I’m out of my religion for being an Alterhuman (WHICH IS COMPLETELY UNREALISTIC! SEARCH IT UP!) I researched so much for a good week or two, learning about therianthropy and fictkinity, and it doesn’t even affect your religion! Satanist? You can be a Alterhuman! Christian? You can still be Alterhuman! Etc etc..

It is an Identity, you identify as an Alterhuman, just like how you would identify as a part of the LGBT!

(Keep in mind that I know what LGBTQ+ people go through, and I’m so proud of them for fighting back all this horrible hate)

Back to the main issue, which was the “Coming out” issue. like I said earlier, if you came out as an enby you’d most likely get good treatment, like flags around pride month, and freedom of expression! (And Like hearing people use your pronouns, which probably feels so great <3)

Now let’s look at alterhumanity.. If I wore a tail or ears out in the public.. will I get the feeling of “Be who you are! Never hide your true self!” In those painful stares of disgust and shame? If I ever hissed “accidentally” in public, wouldn’t they just make fun of me? (Which.. sadly happened once.. never again.) and so on..

What’s my point you say?

LET. EVERY. CREATURE. EXPRESS. THEMSELVES.

Where is the equality everyone talks about?! Have you seen how much HATE VIDEOS of THERIANS, OTHERKINS, AND SUCH?! It’s RIDICULOUS.

It only infuriates me because you (not targeted dw) say “Be who you are! Never hide! Show yourself to the world” then go all “What the fuck are you wearing.. are you a cat boy?! Cringe asf..” or “You do know ur human right?” OR ONE OF THE MOST INFURIATING THINGS TO SAY TO US “You wanna get treated like wild animals? I’ll get my shotgun and hunt you down lolol”

Aaahhaha funny indeed! (I might be overthinking again, sorry)

You don’t see enbys (NOT TARGETED. ITS AN EXAMPLE) Get called “You know you’re human right?” Yet every day (not literally) I see a new post on therianthropy hate, mocking of them walking on all 4s or showing their beautiful howls/roars/meows/squaks.. etc etc.. (This sort of happens to furries as well, they are so misunderstood. </3)

It’s frustrating when I show myself to this world after they ASSURE me and TELL ME ITS FINE.

then all I get is a

mocking

stare

DISGUST.

even after they say “I’ll never judge you”

(Take a moment to breathe, and think about this so far, I don’t want you to get tired because of me, <3)

Sigh. I guess this accidentally turned into a vent/rant (since I was more comfortable talking about it.. makes sense I guess)

Now, the thing you (probably) came here for.. The Poll.

(Be a little more detailed in your opinion please and explain if ur talking to me or not/gen, and please reblog/nf so more people can vote/nfnfnf)

Thank you for voting/reading (I like looking at statistics, that’s why I made a poll btw.)

Here, have a cookie for being so patient!

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mostlysignssomeportents · 1 year

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Learning from Silicon Valley Bank's apologists

My weird hobby is taking pictures of signs, especially “vernacular” signs, handwritten and odd. The best kinds of signs tell you what other people think you are thinking, or what you don’t understand. I’ve nabbed over 4,600 of ‘em:

https://www.flickr.com/search/?user_id=37996580417%40N01&sort=date-taken-desc&text=sign&view_all=1

If you’d like an essay-formatted version of this post to read or share, here’s a link to it on pluralistic.net, my surveillance-free, ad-free, tracker-free blog:

https://pluralistic.net/2023/03/15/mon-dieu-une-guillotine/#ceci-nes-pas-une-bailout

I think you learn more about the world by delving into others’ misconceptions than you learn from their factual understandings. Facts are out there for anyone to discover, but when someone inadvertently affords you a glimpse into their wrong beliefs, well, that’s something that can’t be learned in any other way.

Which brings me to the apologists for Silicon Valley Bank, who are busily churning out incredibly revealing bad takes about why bailing out SVB was the right thing to do, and why you’re wrong to call it a bailout, and why all of this is Very Regrettable but nevertheless The Right Thing To Do.

Here’s a terrible reason to support the SVB bailout: because if we let all the tech companies who did business with it fail, you might not be able to get into your house anymore after your smart-lock fails because the cloud service it depends on cuts off the startup that made it because their bank account went up in a puff of smoke:

https://www.wired.com/story/silicon-valley-bank-collapse-fallout/

Look, if you think the fact that my Internet of Shit door-lock failed because the company that designed it made no plan to let me into my house if they went out of business would make me sympathetic to that company, you are out of your fucking mind. If that happened to me, it would make me want to tear the lock out of my door, hunt down the CEO of the company that made it, set the lock on fire, and throw it through their front window.

Here’s another terrible reason to support the bailout: if SVB’s depositors lose their money, every other large depositor will flock to Morganstanley, on the theory that Morganstanley is too big to fail, and will behave just as recklessly, but will never be allowed to go under precisely because they are so structurally important:

https://marginalrevolution.com/marginalrevolution/2023/03/can-the-svb-crisis-be-solved-in-the-longer-run.html

I’m pretty sure this is true! It doesn’t make me want to support an SVB bailout though — it makes me want to break up Morganstanley, regulate the everlasting shit out of the resulting fragments, and create massive public banks that are run by and for their depositors, insulated from the reckless, speculative conduct of these maniacs who keep crashing the world economy:

https://prospect.org/economy/2023-03-15-federal-reserve-banking-public-option/

One more very bad reason to support the bailout: “it’s not a bailout.” The Biden administration wants us to know that SVB’s creditors and shareholders aren’t being bailout here, just the depositors — everyday folken with more than $250,000 in liquid cash in their checking accounts. Whomst amongst us can’t relate to that?

https://www.nbcnews.com/meet-the-press/first-read/biden-administrations-message-dont-call-bailout-rcna74628

There are a lot of totally normal people who would suffer if not for this bailout — the people who clean the toilets or answer the customer-service calls for tech companies aren’t stock-option-fattened bros in Patagoinia vests. They’re totally normal working people who took no risks and bear no responsibility for the failure of SVB.

But come on. Does anyone seriously believe that the absolute fucking ghouls who came out against a barely-there student debt cancellation as a precursor to literal Stalinist gulags are advocating for endless billions for SVB’s depositors because of the janitors?

https://www.forbes.com/sites/mattnovak/2023/03/12/larry-summers-says-now-is-not-the-time-for-moral-hazard-lectures-about-bailouts/

Listen: people aren’t pissed off about the bailout because they want startups to fail. They’re pissed off because they are living in the century of “socialism for the rich and rugged individualism for the poor”:

https://www.reddit.com/r/LateStageCapitalism/comments/iaqdrl/as_martin_luther_king_jr_said_in_1968_this/

They’re pissed off because the Treasury official who presided over the theft of millions of houses by corrupt, bailed-out banks after the 2008 Great Financial Crisis and then wrote academic articles defending the decision to “foam the runways” for the banks with everyday Americans’ homes is about to join the Federal Reserve Board:

https://pluralistic.net/2023/03/06/personnel-are-policy/#janice-eberly

They’re pissed off because Biden reneged on his promise for muscular, sweeping StudentDebtCancellation in favor of a self-immolating weaksauce version that would barely dent the crushing financial devastation faced by millions of young people:

https://pluralistic.net/2022/05/03/utopia-of-rules/#in-triplicate

Only to have the illegitimate dotards of the Supreme Court make even that symbolic gesture moot:

https://www.npr.org/2023/02/28/1159606491/student-loan-forgiveness-supreme-court

(As to what Biden should do about it? The same thing Trump would: Pack the court. Pack the fucking court. Pack it. Just do it. The court’s legitimacy could not sink any lower. There is no downside. Do it.)

The rage at well-capitalized startups being rescued from unearned distress isn’t motivated by a free-floating techlash rage at “bros.” It’s rage born of the fact that young Americans are being put on the hook for their dead parents’ debts:

https://pluralistic.net/2021/05/19/zombie-debt/#damnation

There is infinite political will and bottomless appetite for money creation when VC-backed companies face distress, but when the death of your parents is followed by years of brutal debt-collector armbreakers chasing you from phone number to phone number, it’s just crickets.

There’s no question that the SVB failure resulted from a series of extremely technical phenomena that offer a fascinating peek into the behind-the-scenes forces that power an economy built on private banking and home ownership as the sole means of intergenerational wealth transfer.

But the fact that this is a complicated circumstance doesn’t mean that laypeople don’t have a right to be furious about it. We should all be suspicious of the inevitabilist narratives of the “experts” who claim that none of this could have been avoided:

https://prospect.org/economy/2023-03-15-qa-daniel-davies-venture-capitalist-bailout/

When finance “experts” tell you that you have no business opining on this highly technical matter, just remember that these are the same experts who were paid fantastic gobs of cash to certify that all these failing banks are just groovy, mere weeks ago:

https://www.wsj.com/articles/kpmg-faces-scrutiny-for-audits-of-svb-and-signature-bank-42dc49dd

Those same experts were caught bribing government officials to help their top staff cheat…on ethics exams (!!!!!!!!!!!!):

https://pluralistic.net/2021/06/04/aaronsw/#crooked-ref

Even if it turns out to be true that the kind of risk that SVB was exposed to is an inevitable consequence of an economy built on private banking and housing as an asset, rather than a human right:

https://www.bitsaboutmoney.com/archive/banking-in-very-uncertain-times/

Remember that those choices are not inevitable. The decision to make housing the primary driver of intergenerational wealth transfer is both recent and very, very stupid:

https://gen.medium.com/the-rents-too-damned-high-520f958d5ec5

Private banking doesn’t need to be an unregulated free-for-all, nor does it have to be the only game in town:

https://publicbankla.com/

As SVB’s apologists insist that tech startups should be preserved lest our IoT gadgets brick themselves, or that SVB should be preserved so that the Morganstanley cancer doesn’t creep into more of our social organs, or that bailing out SVB is acceptable because it’s to defend elite startup founders, not ultrawealthy bank owners, they are missing the fucking point.

But they’re missing it in a useful way. Like any weird sign, these bad takes teach us a lot about how the people who utter them model our own beliefs. They think that people like smart gadgets. They think that we don’t want the finance sector reformed. They think that we’re motivated by schadenfreude, which means that they also think we’ve forgotten about broken student debt promises, about robosigning and the foreclosure epidemic. They think we are fully onboard with rugged individualism for the poor and socialism for the rich.

These bad takes reveal a profoundly out-of-touch elite, the spiritual descendants of the French aristos who went to the guillotine with sincerely baffled hearts, unable to imagine why anyone would be this angry at them.

Upton Sinclair said, “It is difficult to get a man to understand something, when his salary depends on his not understanding it.” It’s even more difficult to get a one percenter to understand something when the system that insulates them from the endless, spiraling economic wreckage of our new feudal economy is on the line.

Next Monday (Mar 20), I’m doing a remote talk for the Ostrom Workshop’s Beyond the Web Speaker Series.

[Image ID: A sign reading 'Pull on handle to open closet. Handle is rigid and doesn't turn.']

#pluralistic #wrong takes only #silicon valley bank #bank meltdown #what they think we think #guillotine watch #commafuckers #svb #finance #bailouts

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stawpny · 6 months

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GUYS I AM BEGGING YOU

SOMEONE DRAW NEW YORK IN THE 1989 ERAS TOUR OUTFIT OR THE REPUTATION ONE

PLEASE I WOULD LITERALLY COMBUST AT THE SEAMS

AUGHHH

🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

anyways, ik a lot of ppl go on here and see when I post, hoping it’s headcannons and I just disappoint them

so here’s some hc’s for u children

ny and the south edition! (pls I don’t know much about the south so don’t kill me 😭 I’m a new yorker)

(the quotes with names on it are southerners communicating with NY or whoever else u want, but more specifically NY)

- NC and SC always force NY or any other state who would hate it to sing and/or play the banjo when singing a song at a campfire. Even if they suck at singing or playing the banjo!!!

-speaking of campfires, I believe that the states usually have fires every Summer and Autumn. most get together and sing songs and stuff (u can use this idea if u want)

-New York was forced by Gov to make sure a southern party didn’t go terribly. He stood by the door while Texas wouldn’t leave him alone. He stole Texas’ hat when they all passed out, drunk and still has it to date.

-as (maybe) stated before, York plays a lot of instruments, and sometimes they force him to play the acoustic guitar, harmonica, banjo, electric guitar, etc. The NE makes fun of him for it.

-acts gay especially in front of the south just to make them pissed. he’ll flirt with them and make them uncomfortable with the high amount of gay in the room with them. Florida just goes along with it, laughing and pointing at all the southerners that turn away out of embarrassment.

-made fun of Texas and California when they were outlaws and they just joined the union. “I’m tha toughest cowboy ya will ever meet!” “Mhm.” “DONT JUS’ HUM AT ME!!” >:( -Texas

-They know better than to mess with a northerner. Texas doesn’t though, he’s just stupid. York punched him once and he swore he saw him crying to Virginia after.

-has bit many southerners, does not regret it

-“Gimme yer best ‘yeehaw’” “yeehaw..” “Ya can do better than that! I’ve heard ya yell at Jersey.” “yeehaw.” “York, I swear-“ “YEE- FUCKIN’ HAW!”-Texas

-“just add some ol’ bay, it’ll make it taste better.” “No it fuckin’ won’t. Keep that shit away from my brownies.”- Maryland

-played poker against Texas, won and almost got shot by him. (Sore loser)

-“what are yous gonna start growlin’?” “GRRRRR-” -Kentucky

-“nah yer good ‘ere.” “Yous are ontop of me. I dunno if I should feel turned on or uncomfortable..” -Georgia

-“off-brand me.” “southerner you, which makes better.” -also Georgia (Empire State and Empire State of the south)

- “who made you this way..?” “The man yer datin’, Y’know, Mass’.” “He would never-“ “Gin, yous even know the answer to this question, it’s an obvious yes.” -Virginia

-“get rid’a the car at this point.” “Hey! I spent my life savin’s on ol’ reliable ‘ere! I ain’t gettin’ rid o’ her if she jus’ has a leak!” “Life savin’s? Jesus, what’s wrong wit’ yous?” - Tennessee

-“ that’s ‘cause Sippi’ wants a sip of that dick.” “WHAT. I ain’t gay!” *crickets* “GUYS PLEASE-“ -Mississippi

-“are yous happy to live in this shithole?” “Hey! I work hard to make this house a home!” “Work harder next time. This looks like if a hillbilly came in ‘ere trashed the place. Y’know, that makes sense knowin’ that yous idiots live ‘ere.” *walks away* “HEY! YOU TAKE THAT BACK!” -Alabama

- “I HATE YOU!” “NUH UH! I HATE YOU MORE!” “‘nuh uh’ really proves yer point, north.” -NC & SC

- “Mais sha, ya really know how shade the south, huh?” “I’ve had enough of all of yous and I’ve seen ya at yer highest and lowest, so I know what will make yous cry later.” “Uh huh, do me then.” “Nah. Don’ get me wrong, yer barely tolerable, but ya don’ get one.” - Louisiana

(loui was upset later bc he didn’t get one 😭)

-“I swear, ya say anythin’ about me bein’ in ‘misery’ then I’m gonna-“ “Nah, I don’ care ‘bout that. What I do care about is why you like mules better than horses. Isn’t that like the whole southerner thing? Horses and idiots with hats?” -Missouri

-“are yous even apart of the south, or are you like the West Virginia of Kansas?” “JESUS IS GONNA NEED TO BLESS YER ASS SOON, WHAT THE HELL DID YA JUS’ SAY TO ME?!” “I’m Jewish.” -Arkansas

-“yer mid-atlantic, but I understand why ya don’ go to family dinnahs wit’ the Northeast. If I had an excuse, I would use it too.” “You guys are scary up there, I’m shocked you still go to those things. In the ‘contract’ they said they were optional.” “FUCKIN’ OPTIONAL?!” -Delaware

-“I will eat your face.” “Uh huh.” “PAY ATTENTION TO ME OR IM GOING TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC!” “Uh huh.” “AAAAAAAAA-“- Florida

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could u tell I got lazy at the end?

anyway, I hope you liked

I spent so long on the quotes, trying to come up with a good one was the hardest part.

and I know half of them are reaaally bad 😭

augh

I have no clue what to do for the next chapter of a fic

but anyways, ily guys

#wttt #welcome to the statehouse #wttsh #wttt new york #wttsh headcanons #wttsh new york #wttt headcanons #wttt southern states #wttt south #ARG #please 🙏#draw him I beg of you #(jk) u don’t have to #I just think he would look hot

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fischlcatgirl · 1 year

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"resident rodent beats invasive vermin" what did venti mean by this. like i mean clearly he's mirroring signora's statement about him being like a little rodent god but what's interesting is that it paints him as like. prideful. which dont get me wrong i think he's proud of mondstadt but not in the sense that he'd be openly hostile to people of other nations especially considering signora IS FROM MONDSTADT ORIGINALLY. like i understand that she. attacked him. but this line + the fact that it is a direct attack on him instead of something like the negotiation with morax or nahida or the whole thing with ei implies that venti and the tsaritsa have some kind of mutual animosity. and WHY. it's not like their domains directly oppose each other or anything. i'd maybe understand if the tsaritsa were the god of contracts instead of morax or something, but freedom and love go HAND IN HAND.

ne ways. my guess is that its cataclysm related. something like venti's participation in the destruction of kanenriah being particularly offensive to a tsaritsa who loved all people, considering that he's supposed to be guaranteeing their freedom. idk. i am thinking about the archons all the time even when im not

#im not a lore girlie though so idk. if any lore girlies want to come explain to me i would not complain #genshin impact #venti the bard #the tsaritsa #board certified my post

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onemustalwaysbecarefulofbooks · 2 years

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You share my one (of many) problems with Amren in ACOSF. Say all those things, keep Rhys's secret about the baby and getting mad when Nesta doesn't go with the program lockstep, but then acting like all she said was all part of the plan for Nesta to "realize what was in front of her" I was like you dont get to call her a waste of life and other horrible things and then act all benevolent when she bows to you. I think it was a power trip bc she was jealous of Nes's power I really do.

Okay, anon. . .you've triggered my ACOSF Amren rant!! XD

Amren straight up disgusted me in ACOSF. Which is a shame, because I really did like her a lot through most of the original ACOTAR trilogy. Her totally dry, straightforward, and blunt personality was a nice balance to the melodrama of everyone else. But then ACOSF happened and caused my opinion of her to nose dive. Arguably my very least favorite part of that entire book was when Nesta gets on her knees to ask forgiveness of Amren. I couldn't believe what I was reading, I was convinced I was hallucinating or something. GIRL, GET UP!!!!!!! Amren should be the one apologizing to YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OFF OF YOUR KNEES!!!!!!!!!!!! It was heartbreaking and infuriating to me after everything Nesta had been through in that book and I couldn't believe it was really happening. NOTHING Nesta had done up to that point had made her deserving of being called "a pathetic waste of life", that is a fucking horrible thing to say to someone (was she a pathetic waste of life when she was saving Cassian's life in the battle against Hybern, Amren??! Or when she offered herself up as a distraction to the King so you and Feysand could get to the cauldron??!). It honestly reminded me of the period in Heir of Fire when Rowan says all those awful things to Aelin, basically along the same lines (calls her weak and pathetic and that the world would have been better off if she had died as a child). Another pattern I've noticed with SJM is that sometimes she just takes her characters too far when they're being "cruel" to each other. I get that in real life, people say awful things to each other, but I still feel like there's a line that shouldn't be crossed, even in fiction, if you want the character to be somewhat likeable. Both situations are fucked up and wrong and neither are really technically ever addressed again but at least Rowan ACTS repentant in his actions during the rest of the story. And Aelin never gets on her knees to apologize, that would be absurd. Amren didn't even deserve an apology, much less one on on bended knee.

And don't even get me started on all the High King stuff. I don't have words for how gross I find it. My brain actively goes into denial over the fact that Amren is sitting here describing how the three Archeron sisters are essentially tools to expand Rhysand's power. "Nesta herself--and Elain, with whatever powers she has--is here. Feyre is here. All three sisters blessed by fate and gifted with powers to match your own. Feyre alone doubles your strength. Nesta makes you unstoppable. Especially if she were to march into battle wearing the Mask. No enemy could stand against her."

And like. . .people wonder why Nesta doesn't like the IC. How nice for Nesta, to know that her and her two sisters have all gone through extremely traumatic transformations into Fae because the Cauldron/the Mother/Fate/whoever wanted Rhys to be High King.

Like I said, it's so gross I really don't have words. She's literally talking about them like they're weapons in his arsenal. These are PEOPLE. They’re supposed to be your FRIENDS. LOL Amren, what gives you ANY indication that any of these three girls are willing to do this or have any desire to???? Nesta doesn't even LIKE Rhys!!! Elain had her badass moment killing the King of Hybern but in general is not a fighter in the slightest and appears to barely be able to withstand violence and bloodshed. Feyre will obviously do whatever the will of Rhysand is, but at this point, as far as they know, she only has a few short months to live. Remember, that winged baby that Rhys just finished having a nervous breakdown over because he had exhausted every single resource he could think of with no answers?? Little does Amren know, Rhys ALSO only has a few short months to live because he tied his life to Feyre's. Hopefully the magic of the High Lord doesn't pick Keir or some shit after he’s gone. But yes, tell me more about how he’s such a great candidate for High King of All Prythian.

The most hilarious (or disgusting) part of all of this is that she’s making all these claims about how Rhys is MeAnT to be High King because of something NESTA made!

“Nothing is a fluke. The Cauldron’s power flows through Nesta, and could use her as a puppet without her knowledge. It wanted those weapons Made, and thus they were Made. It wanted Rhysand to have them and thus the Blacksmith brought them to you. To you, Rhysand, not to Nesta.”

“The Blacksmith didn’t bring them to Nesta!!!” So what???? That doesn’t mean they’re HIS! 1) Does this blacksmith know where Nesta lives? 2) Even if he does, can he climb the 10,000 steps to get up to her and give them to her??? The obvious answer to both of these questions is “No”, which would lead us to the conclusion that he gave them to Rhys, whose high profile residence is known either because a) he knows Nesta is his relative or b) they’re powerful terrifying objects and he’s fucking scared of them (Rhys is The Most Powerful High Lord in Prythian’s History, in case you’d forgotten).

The logic here is so weird. If those weapons belong to anyone, they belong to NESTA. SHE made them! If I created a piece of art, something unique and special that only I could ever do, leave it at someone’s house, and that person drops it off at my brother-in-law’s house, that doesn’t automatically make it my brother-in-law’s piece of art. Maybe the Cauldron is saying it wants NESTA to be High Queen! Ever think of that, Amren?! Honestly, go back into the Cauldron, bye.

(Disclaimer: I do not want Nesta to be High Queen any more than I would want Feyre to. I do not want ANYONE to be High King or Queen. I despise the whole High King/Queen plot line and I despise it even more because knowing SJM, the series will end with Feysand on those thrones. I was just making a point that I hate how Nesta uses untapped unheard of magical abilities to make something that literally no one in history has heard of or done before, and we’re supposed to believe that this was done to give Rhysand more power. If anything, give those 3 weapons to 3 sisters--Archeron or Valkyrie).

#this turned into such a long rant lmfao #can't help myself #acosf #acosf critical #anti amren #nesta archeron #pro nesta #sjm critical

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lesbianicbitch · 1 year

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Betrayal, part 2 of "Deadly Sins" {Marilyn Thornhill}

Huge spoilers of episode 8! So pls dont read if you havent finished Wednesday!

(I apologize if the beginning sounds rushed, Im just explaining what they already had done so far!)

TW: blood, wounds, death

Third PoV: Things that had already happened

Wednesday had been shocked when Sky told her, that Tyler was the monster, the Hyde. She had explained to her, why Tyler could only be it, and Wednesday believed her. She noticed his odd behavior as well.

So, after the Rave'N, they had made a plan. A plan, where nothing could go wrong.

Wednesday had met with Tyler in the Weathervane to talk. His aura was weird, he was acting completely strange. Enid and Sky had sat in Ophelia Hall, waiting for Wednesday to return. Once the girl came back, she told them everything. Tyler had kissed Wednesday, and she had a vision. A vision about Tyler being the Hyde, as they already knew, and killing Dr. Kinbott. She left the Weathervane immediately, getting back to the Academy as soon as possible.

They decided, together with the Nightshades, that Wednesday should meet with Tyler in the forest, to talk about what happened after the kiss.

And thats what they did. The Nightshades, including Sky, and Wednesday got Tyler and brought him to Xaviers shed. They interrogated him about being the Hyde, of course he denied all those accusations. Wednesday had gotten out her torturing tools, to make the Hyde come out. The Nightshades felt a little weird, and reported all that to Weems. After all, shes the principal. She should know about it.

The police came into the shed shortly after, preventing Wednesday from truly hurting Tyler. The sheriff, Tylers dad, was shocked to see Wednesday and his tied up son. Wednesday got taken to the police station, and they talked to her about all that. Tyler had also quickly talked to her before she left, asking her how it felt to loose. Obviously, she had been in a fucked up mood all the time, an dthen the worst happened. Weems threw her out of Nevermore.

Sky and Enid sat with Wednesday while she packed her things. Wednesday got informed, that Eugene was awake, and that they could perhaps stop by the hospital to visit him. Wednesday seemed happy about the fact, that her friend was awake and she looked forward to seeing him before she had to leave.

Present

Sky was in her dorm, talking to Bianca about this and that. Normally, Sky would be with Marilyn at those times, because she was really sad that Wednesday had to leave Nevermore. But Marilyn had told her, that tonight she had a lot of important things to prepare her lesson tomorrow. She said shed make her lesson very exciting, with a few new and deadly plants. Sky understood that, and so she stayed with Bianca. Her and I were playing a game, when suddenly Enid barged in, seemingly panicked.

Small Enid PoV

I was in my room with Ajax. He was my best friend, and I talked to him so much about Wednesday, especially now because she was gone. (Yes, i love ajax, but yes, i love wenclair more so you get this) Ophelia Hall felt so empty without Wednesdays type writer noises, or my "talks" with Thing.

"I miss her, you know? I didnt think id feel like this towards Nes when I first met her. Everyone is scared by her, but why not me? She makes me feel all tingly and bubbly inside and argh oh my god" I was frustrated by my own feelings and screamed into my pillow. I just heard Ajax laugh behind me and turned around, asking why he is laughing. "Enid, my dear Enid. Everyone at Nevermore knows, that you are in love with Wednesday Addams. Hell, even Weems noticed! The way you look at each other, its so obvious. Also, youre the only one she lets get close to herself. You made her smile and that is something nobody is capable of doing!" Ajax laughs, making me blush. "Whaaat ? Me?? You think she likes me back? Maybe I should talk to her, maybe I shou-" I got interrupted by the door opening. It was Thing.

"Thing, what are you doing here???" I asked, shocked.

Thing jumped on my bed, making wild movements with his fingers, explaining something to me. "Wait wait, slow down, i cant understand you" I said, making Thing explain it slower. "Principal Weems??" I asked in shock. "What about Wednesday??" Thing started moving again, telling me what happened. "Tyler and Thornhill took her? Where?" Thing showed me something. "Crackstones Crypt? What the heck? And who are the Nightshades?" I asked and Thing pointed to Ajax.

Ajax explained a bit on the way, we had to get my sister, Sky, and of course Bianca. (small info: By now Enid knows that Thornhill and Sky are together)

Third PoV

Skys and Biancas Dorm door burst open, revealing a panicked Enid and a confused Ajax. "You both need to come with us, right now!" Enid said. Sky didnt question it, and grabbed Biancas hand. They rushed to the secret library, having Enid explain the situation. Knowing about Sky and Thornhill, she left out the fact until Sky went outside. Sky went out because she needed fresh air. In that time, Enid quickly told the Nightshades. Bianca looked somehow hurt and disappointed. Could you blame her? Her best friends girlfriend was betraying her.

The students agreed on using their siren spells on the other students so neither Tyler nor Thornhill would notice.

Enid was scared for Wednesday, because she didnt know what Thornhills plan was and what she would do to Nes. "Everything will be alright, Enid, we will save Wednesday and you will be with her sooner than you can think of. Now come on, we need to search for her." Sky told her sister, grabbing her arm. Thing, who was on Enids shoulder, grabbed the fabric of her coat so he wouldnt fall off.

It got darker by time, slowly but surely. It wasnt night, but it was dark enough now. Enid and Sky reached the forest and kept going, until Enid fell a bit behind. Sky heard a small whimper from her sister, making her turn around. "Sky, Thing, I think im.. arghh.. wolfing out.. omg.. urghh" Enid groaned, her body slowly turning into the familiar form of a werewolf. "Im so proud of you, Enid!" Sky said, before approaching her sister, also wolfing out. In case thered be danger, they would be able to defend themselves.

They reached further into the forest, seeing two people stand in front of each other. Wednesday and Tyler. Thats when they noticed Tyler slowly turning himself into the Hyde. Yet, before he could hurt Wednesday, Enid sprinted forward, pushing Tyler away from Wednesday. Sky ran to Wednesday, sniffing on her cautiously. "Is it.. Enid?" the girl asked, Enid looking at her. Wednesday had to smile and then turned to Sky "Thank you, Sky. Go help your sister, Tyler is strong. Ill go to Nevermore" Sky nodded, before she turned around, attacking Tyler as well.

It seemed he had gotten stronger over the time, and although it was two against one, he still managed to hurt both of them. Sky threw herself n front of Enid a couple of times, not wanting her sister to get hurt. They fought against Tyler, hurting him pretty badly as well with their teeth and claws.

Meanwhile Wednesday was at Nevermore, fighting against Crackstone. Thornhill had brought him back, and now it was Wednesdays destiny to save the academy and the Outcasts. Wednesday had gotten a sword, ready to fight and kill him for ever. Thats when Xavier appeared, ready to shoot Crackstone. The evil one made the arrow turn around in the air tho, shooting it back. Before it could reach Xavier, Wednesday jumped in front of it, the arrow ending up in her shoulder.

While Wednesday continued fighting against Crackstone, Enid and Sky were still not finished with Tyler. Enid landed good hits, making the Hyde screech in pain. Sky felt so proud of her sister, for a moment too long, looking at her. Tyler sensed that she was distracted, scratching her back roughly with his claws, sending her flying into the next trees. Sky howled in pain, even hearing some cracks. She was sure, she broke a few ribs and she felt the blood literally flodding her fur. Her body shuddered with pain. Enid, seeing what Tyler did to her big sister for a second time, got more angry than before, attacking him with all the rage she had in herself. She didnt like it when people hurt the ones she loved and she would make Tyler regret his actions.

Sky gathered her strength, seeing that Enid was able to handle the already bruised Hyde, an dgot back to Nevermore as fast as she could with her wounds. She heard screams and the clanging of a.. sword? Sky slowly transformed back into her human form, getting some clothes she had hidden behind a bush in case shed need them. Her whole body hurt, the bleeding still not stopping. She lost a lot of blood and breathing wasnt easy due to her injured ribs.

She went to the schoolyard, seeing a zombie like man who fought against the Addams girl. Sky sneaked to the closest pillar, sinking down onto the floor. She watched the fight, how the man, apparently Crackstone, destroyed the sword, coming closer to Wednesday with his.. staff(rod, idk man). Sky got up, immediately falling to the ground, groaning in pain. Sky kept looking at the scene, knowing this man would kill her friend.

But then, someone pierced a piece of the sword through Crackstones back. It was Bianca. She helped Wednesday, and Nes got another piece of the sword, piercing it right through Crackstones heart. He screamed in pain before he exploded into black dust.

They defeated the enemy. Or so they thought.

Skys gaze glued onto Bianca and Wednesday, she didnt hear this one person coming in.

"Oh Wednesday.. you have ruined my plans from the very start.." Thornhill said with a pout. Skys eyes welled up with tears, seeing her lover like this. A gun in the hand, pointing it towards Wednesday Addams. Bianca spotted Sky, her eyes widening as she saw her best friends state. Sky clutched onto her chest, bleeding everywhere. She muffled her sobs as Marilyn spoke to Wednesday, getting ready to shoot her.

"I might not get to kill all the Outcasts, but at least I get to kill you" Marilyn says, before Sky lunged forward with the last of her strength left, pushing her Lover to the side and making the gun go off and releasing the shot.

Sky yelps in pain, falling onto the ground, right next to Marilyn.

"No!" Marilyn screamed as she saw her girlfriend. Time seemed to go in slow motion, blood was pouring from the shot wound in Skys chest, making her weaker and weaker.

Marilyn pulled Sky into her lap, crying. Normally Sky wouldve scooted away. Marilyn was the villain in this story. She betrayed her. She broke her heart, ripped it out and stepped on it. "My love, stay with me, we can fix this. Honey i never wanted to hurt you. I never wouldve dared to let Crackstone hurt you. Never would I have let anyone touch you. When Tyler hurt you like that, I swore I would kill him if he did it again. Please, you have to stay with me Baby, keep your eyes open. Look at me my love, please" Marilyn begged. And Sky did. Her skin cold, face pale, she turned her head, looking right into those hazel eyes. "You.. betr..ayed me" Sky coughed out, blood leaving her blue lips. "Sky please, we can fix you, help is on the way, stay with me baby, please" Mari sobbed. She never wanted to hurt Sky. She never wouldve let anyone close to Sky, she should have protected Sky. But Skys heart was too big, sacrificing her life for the life of her friends. "Please, im begging you.." Thornhill kept crying, holding Skys cold face in her hands. "I love you, Sky, so much" Mari whispered, before placing a kiss on Skys ice cold lips.

"I love you too, Mari" Sky whispered out, before the life faded from her eyes.

It was as if it was just Sky and Marilyn in this moment. Wednesday and Bianca stood by the side, holding Eugene back. He had come with his bees to defeat Marilyn, or rather, Laurel Gates. But this right now? It caused Thornhill more pain than any bee sting could ever. So they let her be. Not forever, of course. But due to this, you see that she truly loved Sky, although she was an outcast.

"I will miss her.." Eugene whispered. Bianca wiped her tears away. Her best friend died in the arms of the love of her life. Even Wednesday had glassy eyes. Shed been good friends with Sky, and Sky was also Enids sister.

Marilyn held Skys body close to herself, hugging the lifeless shell of her girlfriend. Yes, she had hated the Outcasts, but Sky showed her, that they could be so much more. She was forced to fullfill what her family had started, she felt forced, as if shed be haunted by the ghosts of her family forever if she didnt. And it was the biggest mistake of her life.

A while later

Marilyn was still sitting like this with Sky.

Wednesday, Bianca, Eugene and Xavier, who joined them, made their way into the forest, where the other students were.

"Wheres Wednesday??" Enid asked everyone, they just shrugged because they hadnt seen her so far. Enid became more scared, afraid something happened to Nes. She made her way through the people. revealing a small group of.. 4? It should be 5.. shouldnt it?

Enid yelled "Wednesday!" and freed herself from the helping grip of Ajax, running to the girl she loved, hugging her. At first, Wednesday rejected the hug, and looked at Enid. Then she wrapped her arms around the werewolf girl, hugging her tightly.

"I thought Id loose you" Enid cried, looking at Wednesday. "You didnt, im still here" Wednesday smiled very slightly.

"You saved Nevermore! But.. wheres, wheres Sky?" Enid said, looking around for her sister.

"Sky??" Eid said, concerned. Then she looked at Wednesday and Bianca, whose gazes said everything. "No.. that.. Nes please dont tell me.." Enid teared up once again.

#christina ricci #i love marilyn thornhill #marilyn thornhill #wednesday #laurel gates #marilynthornhill

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red-dyed-sarumane · 2 years

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so while i dont have much idea where exactly kyuuyaku hankagai, kugutsu ashura, and shuuen touhikou happen in the timeline i think it’s reasonable to say marshall maximizer, oumen mokushiroku, canon, and unplanned apoptosis are all 1) directly related 2) the most current event we’ve been shown so far and 3) all from members of the same team (minus the angel i dont think she's affiliated with anyone directly)

marshall maximizer i think happens first. they have the experiment started, the whole team’s together, this isn't their first attempt or at least it’s not the first attempt that’s happened i can't say for sure when they joined the cause & started fighting. there's also the 「旧四ロンド」”past four rondo” part of the lyrics but whether that’s saying the world’s died 4 times before or just referencing it’s part of the same story as the last 4 songs i don't know for sure. maybe both even. the chara in this one is pretty committed to their cause, maybe even the group lead, since maximizer is their song & that’s who is being talked to & called upon when things start going wrong. & i think there’s links to other songs here too. 「気が狂うヒトの振りをしているキミを観ている」”observing you who’s pretending to have gone mad” and 「気が狂うヒトの真似をしているキミへ」”to you who’s imitating a mad man” i thought were perhaps criticisms of how far this person is willing to go for a chance at saving this world, but these lines aren't in quotes so im leaning more towards it’s their thoughts on another character they’re working with and i think it’s the unplanned apoptosis character since their whole song is the circumstances catching up with & overwhelming them. and of course there’s 『「無間地獄へ堕ちる！堕ちる！」』”’falling to the depths of hell! falling!’” which, you know, they’ve severed themselves off from the angel, heaven’s not going to help them and they know this.

in fact we have oumen mokushiroku to really show this off.『祈るように―「私じゃない！私じゃない！」』”as though praying— ‘it wasn't me! it wasn't me!’” i think is both sides. you have the angel begging them to believe it’s not her fault for starting this and you have the team denying it’s their fault for the state of things as though if they weren't involved maybe then she could save them. and she really does want to help but it’s past the point of miracles & hope & there's really nothing she can do except watch as it all fades away again.

meanwhile theres unplanned apoptosis who is kind of being blamed for it going this badly. the whole time they are working with the team but at the same time they know it’s happened before & they just really don't see the point in it. they don't care. and because they think it’s pointless they keep thinking like why am i doing this i’ve got so much to live for but i’m here wasting my time doing something that doesn't even matter. they even admit they're being selfish about it. out of anyone i think they’ve been doing this for more than one time especially with the 『一体どうして、みんな気づかない？「いつも通り」と今日は終わった』 ”how the hell hasn’t everyone noticed? today ended ‘as usual’” like no wonder maximizer would think they’re acting insane. they pretty much are at this point. like any sane person would say 「自分を殺して試験は終わった」”killing myself, the test ended” like. they're dying in more than one way. they aren't just ending their life again and again just to see if maybe once it’ll work and save the world. at this point they're suppressing and giving up on everything they want to live for, everything they once enjoyed, just so they keep working with their team, and in the end their feelings are catching up with them & their works getting messier & sloppier and not what it used to be and everyone else is noticing. 『「じゃ、またね」最終拠点を壊して渡って結く昨日も過去も何も無くなってしまっていた』 “‘Well, see ya’ Going around securing the broken final base Yesterday and the day before, it’s all gone to naught” the ja mata ne is like the sayonara byebye mata ashita in kyuuyaku hankagai it’s not “well we worked hard today see u early tomorrow” like your average job this is “i see we failed again, we’re about to die, and next thing we know we’ll be right back to this point again” but they can't bring themselves to give up completely either. they still want to live that carefree life they’ve been dreaming of.

which leaves us with canon who’s the last of the group we have right now. they’re also exhausted but they handle it differently than apoptosis. it starts right out with 「さよならも言わないで　——もういいよ。」 “don't say goodbye, too ——that’s enough.” so you don't get a second to doubt it. they’re tired. they don't want this to happen anymore. they know things are failing, and they just hope it’s not bad enough to kill everyone this time. different from shuuen touhikou it’s said they tried leaving, too, but 「走らない逃亡者」 “a fugitive unable to run” i think the text pulls on this 「雨のにおいが少し残った夏空の下で、私はひとり、はじめて見るその景色に、ただ圧倒されていた。」 “Under the summer sky, where the smell of the rain remained just a little, I was alone, taking in the scenery for the first time, simply overwhelmed.” as though they’re coming back from one destruction, only to realize it’s about to happen over again, so they can't run and go back to helping. and they know everyone else is getting tired too and they know it won't end well but they can't do much if anything about it. 「誓った集団と痕二回隔った十三度雑踏嫌々嫌々暴走してい唖々、要らない妄想だ」 “I swore to the group / Any traces would be twice removed thirteen times / The crowd, ever so unwillingly, rushed recklessly into it / Ah, that's a delusion we don't need” they found something they knew wouldn't help, wouldn't end well, and tried to cover it up, only for the group to try it anyway not seeing any other options & they hated that. & they watched as everyone’s actions “broke the glass” like. the exact imagery of the windows between oumen mokushiroku and unplanned apoptosis, it’s literally explaining exactly what happened that the angel can't do anything to help and they know that's only making the situation worse, but they can't do anything either. and in the end they have to say that goodbye they’d been dreading.

so in conclusion marshall maximizer, oumen mokushiroku, unplanned apoptosis, and canon together have the most complete story arc in aru sekai shoushitsu we have yet.

#aru sekai series #hiimagu goto #i have no idea if i put this in a way that makes sense #additionally i left out some direct text bc it would feel like stating the obvious #i dont remember how to put read more on mobile sorry everyone #reminder there is actually text in canon & emimin & i owe that one person in the hiiragima tag that decoded it our lives

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jamsofdeath0 · 5 months

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man i HATE lily. and not as a person like the writers would want ne too, as a character. she serves NO purpose but to highlight the writers inability to work within the outlines they themselves conjure. what is lily if not worse, less fun to watch, less interesting chloe. narratively there is not a thing she does that could not be done with chloe. shes a desperate grasp at making a show more interesting by adding another character instead of using any of the many characters already there. they had a whole classroom of kids they could make villains. why make a new kid. especially when that character has no redeeming traits. shes a boring character. she adds nothing.

at least luka has the benefit of having a REASON to not be a preexisting character. he serves a new role. new cool-guy love interest for marinette. unlike with chloe and lily this couldnt really be achieved with a pre-existing character. the point was she met someone new.

similer things can be said with felix and kagami.

felix's core purpose as a character is to be related by blood to adrien. that wouldnt work eith curent characters. he adds somthing.

kagami is designed to relate to adrien by being talented, rich, and socially inept.

both these characters couldnt be other charaters. they actually add things to the narrative.

does this FIX miraculous' problem of just making new characters all the time instead of doing interesting things with the ones theu have? no. its a writing cruch that will eventually run dry. but lily is the WORST offence. they literally already had a bully they were escalating into villainhood. they didnt need another MORE BORING one.

i havnt watched the lastest season so i cant talk on the new bee. but i can say i havnt seen NEARLY enough fanart for me to think people have really latched onto her. maybe im wrong and shes a fan favorite. but she tbh FROM AN OUTSIDE PERSPECTIVE seems redundant. maybe itll be answered when my sister an i (dont spoil it for me we have alot of fun watching together) get to the latest season but why did they need a NEW character to be the bee? why not an existing character. really drum up some friction between a classmate and chloe.

#mlb #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug tales or ladybug and chat noir #miraculous lb

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squeet-smooch · 10 months

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I cannot imagine that you want me. When was the last time you kissed me? Or said my name? When was our last date? When did you last hug me that wasnt out of pity? When have we last cuddled?

When have you last thought of me? When did i last say anything non triggering or non vent to you? When have we last been anywhere near each other? When was the last time you'd look at me? When you'd look in my eyes?

I can kinda get it, especially after today. If i was you i would regret me too. There's not really anything about me that isnt triggering for you.

The drugs which, you say recreational snd i say medical. But who am i to tell you you're wrong. How dare i after i said something knowing it would be bad. The fucking zadr shit. Of course its a bad ship in the full canon, and of course you had a bad fucking go of it previously. Of course i mentioned it wrong, misinterpreting my past memories, seeing the wrong universe. Of course i hurt you and of course you were the one who comforted me. Of course we did things because im an idiot. You probably felt like you had to. Of course i regret it all. I dont regret you, i would love to choose you. But i regret that i let you choose me. Of course im on hormones, the ones that scare you. Of course i merely mentioned them. Of course i ruined that trip. Of course its all been my fault. Of course i made it up here late and clawing and scratching. Of course i still triggered you. Of course i broke your things. Of course i broke several things. Of course i cluttered your space, brought too much. Of course of course i lost my ID and am still STILL failing to replace it. Of course im letting you down, because of course i am.

Why do you let me live here? Guilt that i have nowhere to go? The dog you rescued, hoping he'd find a new home when well enough. Hoping he'd eventually get out. A fun temporary thing. "Married"

Irken married. Why. Why me

When have i brought anything good? When have you asked for me? When was the last time i wasn't alone. Isolated. I pulled away because i could sense that I've been hurting you, and you retracted all the way without hesitating. Im losing you and you would be better off with the other 2. Of course he is replacing me. He's sleeping in the office? Where. When my stuff has been removed? He's excited to live with me too, as i am him. But are you? You haven't seemed to miss me

And maybe i am selfish. Maybe im the asshole. Im actually a narcissist. Im sorry. I'm expectant and needy and listless and useless and stupid. Im unhelpful and lazy. Im so lazy and stupid. I don't help, i make things worse.

How many things have i broken. I promise i have been careful, you wouldn't see it even if you lived in my body. You'd believe all the awful things about ne. You'd know exactly why you should abandon me, dump all my belongings in the yard. Leave me to rot in the rain.

I told you i was a trauma holder. And you left me alone. It was already shaky, our bond. I was relieved, and i told you because i thought things were improving, that my trauma was being treated and we were being soft and warm. I was grateful you were being so affectionate, so gentle. I need absolutely nothing from you, and im sorry im being greedy. One look from you is a blessing very rare few can afford, and you've given me so much more than that. So, so much more than i ever deserved. But how could i tell you any of this. How dare i. What is wrong with me? My problem? How dare i. How dare i. I'm an evil demanding creep. Im not a person and im not irken anymore, im vile.

Im barely conscious anymore. Im alone. I put myself in storage and I'm going to cumulate dust before you can even bear the sight of me.

Im so horrid. Rancid. Bad. It's all my fault and im sorry i didn't protect you. Im sorry that it's my fault and i got you to start trusting me. I broke it immediately somehow, I'm a walking trigger.

#vent #negative #do not rb

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phoenixfangs · 1 year

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>:3c fandom askies for aa, depending on your Mood

Salty: 1, 8, 10, 25

Neutral: 16

Posi: 17, 18

JAJAJAJAJAJAJA pepper coming in clutch as always, and u KNOW im gonna do all of them, mood be damned. going under a readmore because i rambled!!

the character everyone gets wrong

maybe its a boring answer but phoenix. good god do people just Not understand him. i think the fact weve seen him in so many forms (feenie, trilogy, 7yg, aa5/6) makes it hard for people to get a pin on him, but thats the thing: u cant really get a pin on someone like that. too often i see stuff where, well into his thirties and having gotten his badge back, people portray him as just as outwardly emotional (and sometimes emotionally volatile...) as he was when he was dating dahlia, and Thats Simply Not The Case, especially after how guarded and jaded he became during aa4. hes SUCH a complicated character i cant even go into specifics and try to give other examples, because they each require paragraphs of their own explaining context and nuance in what goes through his head. i dont know how else to go on, just know that i am the only person who is correct about phoenix wright, and if anyone requires consultations for fic or art, my fee is steep but fair

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

all of them. no im kidding, uhhhhh hm. i guess that klavier and apollo Immediately knew they liked each other/were attracted to each other and spent any time pining for the others affection during aa4. i like klapollo as a ship, i just dont think klav teasing apollo with flirtation when they first meet means he was Seriously Flirting with apollo, i think its possible there was a base physical attraction but he was mostly just trying to get apollos goat for fun since he was a rookie attorney. and because of that, what reason does apollo have to be drawn to klavier? apollo isnt some stock tsundere, i think he probably was really annoyed by klavier and Didnt Like Him All That Much at first. plus, with aa4s story being what it is, i just dont think any romantic feelings are on either of their minds until well after the last case. with their ship, i like to imagine they start as professional adversaries (not rivals in the sense phoenix and miles are rivals, its a different vibe), then become friends, THEN graduate to exploring other feelings

10. worst part of fanon

all of it. no im kidding, the worst part of fanon is how rigidly people expect u to obey it. if u dont portray miles as a gay trans man, people look at u weird, for example. which isnt to say that its Bad to follow that fanon, obviously i also think hes gay (i dont personally headcanon him as trans though) but just that it is fanon. until we get concrete proof in a game or anime or what have u of miles demonstrating or naming his sexuality/gender expression, it is just as perfectly valid to portray him as a cishet man as it is to portray him as a gay trans man, even if i personally think its weird and impossible to imagine him with a girlfriend or something. its fine to have different interpretations of whatever; its Not fine to get mad at somebody because theyre not following fanon that u personally ascribe to

25. common fandom complaint that ur sick of hearing

'i dont read wlw content because its all the same :( why are all the mean lesbians getting so mad that my mlm ship is just better :( its not my fault those stupid broads arent written as well as my spicy yaoi :( what do u mean one half of my mlm ship is a lamp ur just being mean to a mlm because ur bitter that ur stupid bitches arent written as well as my mlm gay disaster babies :( stop bullying me for no reason u crazy psycho cunt this is why nobody gives a shit enough about ur dumbass wlw ship to make anything for it :('

obviously nothing wrong with mlm ships, i have been known to enjoy many mlm ships! but when a wlw (particularly a lesbian...) complains about the disproportionate amount of mlm fan content between characters who literally never spoke, stood next to each other once, or where one of them is literally Not A Character (clay terran is a prop i am not wrong about that), its SO FRUSTRATING to see the response be someone taking it as a personal attack and throwing the blame back out at wlw for not just shutting up and dealing with it. that post that showed among us had significantly more mlm fics over wlw fics on ao3 when Those Stupid Creatures Dont Even Have Gender/Character applies to like literally every other fandom

16. u cant understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc.)

any situation in which phoenix depends on miles for money during 7yg. similarly, royalty/medieval au where phoenix is some kind of servant to prince miles, and yes being a knight counts as being a servant in my mind. these two things feel wayyyyy imbalanced to me but in fanworks theyre portrayed as like necessary and appreciated by phoenix (in the money situation) or really romantic (in the royalty/medieval situation). idk, to me, phoenix would rather saw off his own arm and eat it than accept money, especially from miles, during 7yg, and if he did accept it it would only be because miles says 'let me do this for trucy then if ur gonna be so stubborn about it' and he Begrudgingly Agrees; with phoenix being miless knight, it just feels too much like people seeing phoenixs one-sided devotion to miles in aa1 and going 'this is normal and desirable behavior', and idk how to tell people this but phoenixs savior complex over miles is Not Good fjkdsjlfslak like it worked out for them but i dont think phoenixs behavior towards miles in aa1 especially is indicative of a well adjusted, emotionally stable person, and that hardly ever gets talked about its just 'wee wah hes soooo in luuuuurve isnt that romantic'

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

siblingsssss there are so many good sibling pairs/groups in aa. also wlw ship stuff In General because there is never enough in any fandom. also also (because i love to kick the hornets nest) more fic where the intention is to Tell An Actual Story With The Characters instead of projecting the authors trauma and/or kinks and/or personality onto the characters where it doesnt fit ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

18. its absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

idk if krisnix counts as slept on because ive only been in the fandom for a couple years, i know things were different like 10-15 years ago and maybe it was more popular then, but. krisnix. jfkdsjfls. there is soooooooo much narrative drama u can cook up with these two, so many scenarios and angles, and uve got 7 whole years to fill!! and u can be as serious and somber as u want, going into mental health and toxic relationships and what it means to spend so much of ur life with someone who is so bad for u but letting go isnt easy because thats years of ur life with that person ur being asked to let go of, OR u can be silly and say that kristoph is christian grays lawyersona, because come on i dare anyone to try and tell me kristoph Isnt Also the worlds worst dom

#mine #THANK U PEPPER I KISS U ON THE MOUF #im sorry its so many words. fjkdlsjklf

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french sirius and welsh remus headcanons!!

(translations are at the end <3)

french sirius!!

sirius will sometimes speak in french to calm remus down after a nightmare because he finds it soothing

he will also talk in french just because remus has no idea what he’s saying and so he can get away with saying literally anything with no repercussions

‘Tes yeux sont beaux’

‘What does that mean?’

‘You’re hogging the blanket.’

sirius speaks in french to everyone just to mess with them

‘Ok, Sirius, do you know what you’re doing?’

‘Je ne sais même pas où nous sommes.’

‘...and that’s how I’m gonna impress Lily. What do you think?’

‘Tu sais qu’il y ont des modes plus faciles pour impressionner une fille, d’accord?’

whenever sirius gets confused, which, let's be honest, was quite frequently, he would furrow his brows and mutter to himself in french, which remus found positively adorable

welsh remus!!

sirius loves it when remus speaks in welsh, because he thinks it’s very sexy very soothing

‘Rydych chi mor anhygoel o dwp.’

‘Oh wow. Say something else.’

remus has a very strong welsh accent, which makes it quite hard to understand him most of the time.

sirius loves his welsh accent though. especially when he pronounces something differently and everyone else then has to try to figure out what he's saying

remus will sometimes digress into welsh when he’s angry. if one of the marauders has pissed him off, or he’s just gotten into an argument with someone, he’ll lapse into welsh without realising.

‘Are you kidding?! That served absolutely no purpose! Beth sy'n bod efo ti?'

the other person will obviously have no idea what’s going on, so they just stand there for a good five minutes until remus realises what happened.

sometimes remus will forget the english word for something, which everyone else turns into a competition to see who can figure out what he's trying to say first

it wasn't uncommon to see remus pointing frantically at a random object whilst the rest of the common room shouts over each other

when remus argues with sirius, they’ll both end up talking in welsh and french respectively. They’ll yell at each other for god knows how long, with no clue what the other is actually saying.

eventually, the argument will diverge into them just complimenting each other or something, but still in french and welsh. so whilst sirius thinks remus is still throwing insults at him, sirius is actually just saying really lovey-dovey stuff to him, and vice-versa, but they’re both still speaking really angrily.

‘Je pense que je t’aime!’

‘Dwi am fynd allan gyda chi!’

‘Je l’adore quand tu souris!’

‘Mae’ch gwallt yn edrych yn neis iawn!’

nicknames!! remus and sirius call each other really lovey-dovey names in their respective languages

for example, remus will call sirius 'fy nghariad', and sirius will call remus 'mon amour' (ty to cadiepughx on ig for this one lol)

because of this, Sirius has made it his goal to see how many random words he can call remus, that he will respond to, because as long as he says it lovingly, it sounds like a term of endearment

'hey, mon rideau'

remus: *looks up*

sirius and remus shared a bed since fifth year, so sirius got a front row seat to remus talking in his sleep, during which he would say the most random things.

for example, sirius once heard him mumble, 'dwi'n caru bara' (ty to remuslupinslefttit for this hc lmao)

when he asked remus what it meant in the morning, he couldn't stop himself from giggling whilst remus just stood there with a face as red as a tomato

'where does that even come from?!'

'yeah, alright, alright, laugh it up.'

they both picked up some of each other's languages over time, which made it a lot harder to talk shit about the other to their face

while remus was brought up bilingual, speaking both english and welsh at the same time, sirius was taught french from around the age of five onwards. so remus tends to lapse into welsh, but sirius doesn’t, because french is his second language.

when his parents started teaching sirius french, their method was to speak to him in only french until he picked it up, because he would learn more general phrases that way.

however, that also meant that one day sirius woke up and everyone was speaking a different language, so he had no idea what was happening

let’s just say walburga and orion weren’t the most patient teachers.

as a result, sirius tries to reject the remnants of french culture whenever he's at home

on the other hand, remus, who grew up in wales, loves welsh culture (?)

especially the food

he often tried to get the other three to try some, which they weren't big fans of

remus went to a muggle primary school where only english was spoken

when he was writing sentences out, he would always get confused between welsh and english, and end up mixing both into the same sentence, because he didn’t realise that not everyone spoke welsh.

this led to some very awkward parents’ evenings. the teacher had no clue that he was writing in welsh and suggested that he speak to a psychologist, as he appeared to be writing complete gibberish, and that was concerning, at his age level.

when sirius and remus left hogwarts, they moved into a flat together. they would, even then, speak in french and welsh respectively, just to mess with each other.

'hey sirius, can you pass me my siaced?'

sirius: *passes him a can of beans*

when sirius turned up on remus’ doorstep in 1994, the first thing he said, with a hopeful smile on his face, was, ‘je déteste tes tripes?’

remus merely grinned and said, ‘rydych chi’n twpsyn.’

translations:

tes yeux sont beaux = your eyes are beautiful

je ne sais même pas où nous sommes = i dont even know where we are

tu sais qu’il y ont des modes plus faciles pour impressionner une fille, d’accord? = you know that there are easier ways to impress a girl, right?

rydych chi mor anhygoel o dwp = you are so incredibly stupid

beth sy'n bod efo ti = what's wrong with you

je pense que je t’aime = i think I like you

dwi am fynd allan gyda chi = I want to go out with you

je l’adore quand tu souris = i love it when you smile

mae’ch gwallt yn edrych yn neis iawn = your hair looks really nice

fy nghariad/mon amour = my love

mon rideau = my curtain

dwi'n caru bara = I love bread

siaced = jacket

je déteste tes tripes = i hate your guts

rydych chi’n twpsyn = you're a dumbass (I think??)

bonus bc I was researching welsh idioms and I liked this one but couldn't figure out a way to include it lol (but it seems like something remus would say lol):

fel rhech mewn potel bop = like a fart in a pop bottle: an expression used to mean something insignificant/useless

i apologise if any of the welsh is wrong!! it's all google translated lol

p.s. ik some of these aren’t particularly believable lol it’s just for fun

#this is very wolfstar #but who's complaining really #is sirius turning up on remus' doorstep in 1994 canon??#am i projecting?#pfft of course not #the thing about remus getting mixed up in primary school?#that may or may not have happened to me #saying 'i take my jubblies to the beach' leads to some fun parents evenings #talking from experience #of course I meant to say 'chappala' which is punjabi for flip-flops #lets just say i was brought up speaking english from then on #sometime i forget the english words for things as well #which my friends love #anyways #harry potter #harry potter books #hp marauders #marauders textpost #marauders at hogwarts #marauders era #marauders #welsh remus #french sirius #bilingual #hp headcanon #marauders headcanon #remus lupin #sirius black #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs #james & peter & remus & sirius

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gender-i-hardly-know-er · 2 years

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your stitches are all out, but your scars are healing wrong - chapter 6

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WARNINGS - this chapter gets into some pretty dark themes, proceed with caution passing of a parent, past suicide attempt, suicidal ideation, failing to take care of yourself, unintentional self harm, crying, breakdown, just generally upsetting stuff. lmk if i should add anything else, stay safe!

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Hajime noticed things. He knew when something was off. He knew when Athena was struggling. Ne wasn't always sure what was wrong or how to help, but she knew when something didn't seem right. When she noticed that Athena had been biting her hands more than usual, she knew something was going on.

Athena had always had a chewing stim, mostly when she was upset; but it was never this prominent. It seemed like every time Hajime looked over at moon, she had her hands or fingers in her mouth, biting them. It was obvious that she was in pain.

They decided to tell Alvara about it. Who knows, maybe they'll know how to help. If they brought it up straight to Athena, pix would get defensive, and they wouldn’t be able to actually help.

HJD

hey, so

idk if uve noticed

but athenas been chewing her hands a lot lately

that normally means somethings wrong

do u have any idea what might be wrong

emo bitch

yeah i saw that

i dont rly know whats up with them

but that doesnt seem healthy

i dont want that to hurt moonself

HDJ

same

idk what to do abt it tho

emo bitch

have u ever heard of chewelry

its like jewelry but its made 4 chewing on

so u dont hurt ur teeth or ur skin

christmas is comin up soon

maybe we can get them some of that?

HJD

hell yeah

that’s perfect

thanks 4 the help allegra

emo bitch

thats not-

thats not my name

HJD

>:)

Hajime found a shop that sold chewy necklaces and picked out a little blue star-shaped one. Ne ordered it immediately, after sending it to Alvara for approval. Xe hadn’t been so excited for Christmas since xe was a child.

As the weeks before Christmas went by, the chewing got worse. That wasn’t the only thing Hajime noticed. He also saw that Athena was staying in that’s room way more often than usual. She was picking up more work projects than usual. Moon was eating much less than usual. It was distressing, especially because Hajime couldn't figure out what was wrong. It should probably have just asked Athena, but pix was usually not one to share how pix felt. They wouldn’t talk about it unless Hajime gave them occasion to. When the necklace came in, they decided to give it to pixel early. They needed it now.

Hajime walked to Athena’s door, necklace in hand, ready to knock. They looked at the necklace again. It was simple, just a blue silicone star with a black cord. Inconspicuous. Perfect. Athena was rather embarrassed about this particular stim, given that she prided herself on being mature and stoic. This thought the stim made them seem childish and foolish, though no one around her minded if she chewed on things. Hopefully, this sensory tool's discreet nature will help ease some of that embarrassment. They knocked on the door.

“Come in!” Athena shouted from inside. Hajime turned the doorknob and pushed the door open slightly. The scene before her was upsetting. Seeing Athena like this broke her heart.

There were clothes all over the floor, something Athena never liked to let happen. Her bed was unmade, uncleared water cups standing like an army all over her nightstand. And then there was Athena, sitting at her desk on their laptop. The ever-present bags under their eyes were more prominent than they’d been in a long time. Their loose tie hung from the collar of a wrinkled white button-up shirt with the first few buttons undone. Her hair was in its usual low ponytail, but it looked like it hadn’t been brushed or washed in weeks. In contrast to that’s usual tall and proud posture, pix had pixels shoulders slouched. Hajime only wished they'd gotten to her sooner.

“Hey, darling,” Hajime started, choosing ner words carefully. “I got you something. Well, Alvara and I did. It was supposed to be for Christmas, but I think you should have it now.” They handed the necklace to their roommate. “It’s one of those necklaces made for chewing on. I saw that you’ve been biting yourself more lately, and I didn't want you to hurt yourself. Sooo… yeah.” The more he talked, the heavier the air in the room felt. “There.”

Nothing could’ve prepared Hajime for what Athena did next. Athena, the same Athena that insisted that she hadn't had feelings for years, the same Athena that buried all her tears in work, Athena Logan Astra, ner best friend, broke down and sobbed. Moon stared at the necklace in their hands and fucking sobbed.

“I- um… Sorry, you don't have to take it if you don't want to, I didn't mean to upset you-”

“No, that’s not- I love this, Hajime, this is so thoughtful and kind and I just… Christmas is hard. Now.” Athena cut her off, still looking at their hands.

Oh. That. That’s the problem. Her mom…

“I know that you’re aware of the situation, but I’ve been told that talking through it can help. Would you mind if I started from the beginning?” Athena was biting her lip, finally looking back up at Hajime. He motioned to the necklace, trying to keep her from hurting her lip. Moon exchanged their bottom lip for the necklace, nodding to Hajime.

“That’s alright with me, love. Do you want advice? Do you want me to talk to you as you tell it? Or do you just want me to listen?”

“Just listen for now. I might ask you for input afterward." Athena pointed to the bed, wanting to be more comfortable than she was in the desk chair. They both wordlessly sat on the bed, face to face and cross-legged. “Okay, so. Let’s start from the beginning.

“I loved my mother. More than I loved any other person in the world. She was my reason for living, she was my hope in a hopeless world, she was the most important person in my life. And Christmas was our special time. We baked particular cookies. We put up the same decorations every year, even as they were falling apart. We had movie marathons with the same exact movies over and over, shitty ones we watched just to make fun of them, and I loved it. It was the same every year. A constant in my life, it kept me grounded. When I was at my lowest, when I was thinking of ending it, I always thought, ‘I have to make it to next Christmas.' My mom made the best hot chocolate. No matter how many times I try to recreate it, it’s never right. I don't know why that specific thing is at the forefront of my mind, but it always is. I miss her hot chocolate. I miss her cookies. I miss our shitty Christmas movie marathons. I miss her.

“When she passed three years ago, it broke me. I didn't see a reason to live anymore. I had only stayed alive in high school because I wanted to make her proud. I know she was proud of me, she told me all the time. She was gone, and I couldn’t find worth in myself without her. I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. I wanted to jump off a bridge. I wanted it to end. That first Christmas was the closest I ever came. I tried. I took too many painkillers and immediately called 911. I couldn’t do it. I almost died. Sometimes I wish I had. That first Christmas without her, without our special decorations, her cookies, her hot chocolate, it tore me apart. I was inconsolable. It was a nightmare. I wish I never put my family through that.

“I’d been doing better for a while. Started to see reasons to live again. You were one of them, you know? You still are.” Athena smiled through her tear-filled eyes, and Hajime almost collapsed. He held his arms out to Athena as an invitation to hold her. She accepted, basically falling into Hajime’s chest.

“But then, my father remarried. Just this year. After dating this woman for two months. Two fucking months. Kim. It’s not like I hate her or anything… okay, that’s false, I despise her. Not because she’s malicious, she’s a perfectly nice woman. She’s just… not my mother. And I know it’s unfair of me to judge her for that, but you know what else is unfair? The way that cancer stole my mother away from me before I even moved out. It’s like my father went out on a mission to find the exact opposite of my mother. Her cookies are repulsive, her hot chocolate tastes like sand, and she unironically loves the shitty movies mother and I always watched to mock them. She refuses to use any of our old decorations that we’ve been using for decades. She says they ‘clash with the wallpaper.’ I don't even wish to go back home anymore. She changed the house, it’s unrecognizable. Different paints and wallpapers, different artwork, different fucking carpet. She took down the family portrait taken at my graduation that’d been hanging above the mantle, one of the last photos of all of us before mother got sick, and replaced it with a picture from her and father’s wedding. It’s not my home anymore. I lived in the physical house, yes, but I never lived in that home. It’s not my parents’ house anymore. It’s not my house anymore. It’s not my mother’s house anymore. It’s Kim’s.

“Everything just feels so sudden. I know she’s been gone for three years. I know it’s just a house, just decorations, just stupid traditions. I hate nostalgia and sentimentality, yet give into them both so easily. And I despise my feelings toward the situation. My father can't be alone, I know that. Since my sister and I have both moved out, he’d be alone without Kim. I know. I’d be worried if he didn't have a close friend or partner by now to keep him company, but why did she have to be so much different from my mother? Why did she have to change everything about my childhood home? Why did she have to be forced into my life so quickly? It makes no sense for me to feel this way, and that makes it so much worse.

“And now the hopeless feelings are coming back. Why am I still here? Why do I stay alive if she’s not here? What’s my purpose, if not to make her proud of me? And- I should stop. It’s not okay for me to just unload all of this on you. You don't deserve to have to deal with my problems. Thank you for the gift.” Athena sat up off Hajime's chest, chewing the little star around that’s neck.

“Hey, darling, I offered to listen. That’s what I’m doing. I signed up for this.” Ne took Athena’s hands. “Do you want me to talk about it with you now?” Athena nodded, looking down and messing with Hajime’s fingers.

“‘Thena. It’s not a stupid thing to be upset about. You’re allowed to be upset. You’re allowed to be nostalgic. You’re allowed to be sentimental. You’re allowed to be angry. You can let yourself feel things, even if you don't think they’re the ‘right’ thing to feel. Plus, you don't have to like your stepmom. You don't owe that woman jack shit. Why would you, because she married your dad? How’s that your fault? Your dad chose her. You didn't.

“And for what it’s worth, your mom would be so, so proud of you. I know I am. You’re an incredible person. You should be proud of yourself, too.” Hajime heard Athena sniffle at that.

“Both of our brains are basically hardwired to hate change. It’s okay to let it affect you. You just can't let it keep you from taking care of yourself. I know that it’s difficult, but that’s what the people that love you are for. Anytime you feel like this, anytime you need help, no matter how small or stupid you think your problem is, you can come to me. I’ll do whatever you need. Because I care about you. I love you, even when you don't love yourself.”

Athena leaned into Hajime’s chest again, muttering a “thank you”.

“You’ve been drowning yourself in extra work, hon. When was the last time you ate? Showered? Slept?” Hajime gently gripped Athena’s face and moved it to look at her eyes.

“I’d tell you, but you won’t like the answer.” Athena’s nose got all scrunched up. Hajime loved that face.

“That’s fine, let’s try and fix that, shall we?” Hajime smiled and rose from the bed, extending a hand and bowing like the pompous jerk he was. Athena’s light laughter made the humiliation worth it, ten times over. Athena took ner outstretched hand and walked with them to the small kitchen area. Their apartment was tiny, but they didn't mind. Neither of them needed that much space, anyways.

“Okay, why don't you go take a quick shower. I’ll make you something to eat, so you can have it when you get out. Sound good?” Hajime proposed. Xe knew Athena liked to have plans set out before doing anything, no matter how small. It helped moon process things easier, and Hajime was happy to oblige.

“Mhm, that works. Can you make toast and eggs? You’re much better at cooking eggs than me.” Athena loved eggs. She was always a breakfast for dinner type of gal. They always had Hajime make them, insisting that ne made them better than her. Hajime knew it was just because he made them the exact same every time, and they’d become a safe food for Athena.

“Sure. Do you want Crofter’s on that toast?” Hajime suggested. She was met with a confused Athena, looking at him like he was speaking gibberish. “Ya know, that jam you like? You have your own special flavor? Crofter’s?” Hajime opened the fridge to grab the jam, only to find that it was nowhere to be seen.

“When have you ever known me to eat jam? The texture is horrible. I have no clue what the hell you’re talking about.” The little nose wrinkle came to Athena’s face again. “Just butter on the toast is fine, thank you.” She nodded and went off to get a shower, leaving a confused Hajime to make her jamless toast and eggs.

...

Once Athena had eaten and showered, it was time to go to bed. “You’re right. I should get some sleep, I have work tomorrow.” The last thing Athena wanted to do tomorrow was to go to work, but she had to.

“Honey, neither of us is going to work tomorrow. You’re recovering from a depressive episode. I’m not leaving you here alone and you’re not going to sit in a lab for hours on end. We’re staying here, watching shitty Christmas movies, and baking cookies. It won't be the same as Christmas time with your mom, but it’ll be yours. Ours. Not Kim’s, not anyone else’s.”

“I- thank you. You’re very kind. You don't have to do this-” Athena’s sentence was cut off by a raised eyebrow and tilt of Hajime’s head.

“I know that I don't have to. I want to. I’m not debating this. Let me take care of you. You take care of me all of the time, it’s time I returned the favor.” Hajime grabbed Athena’s hand and gave it what they hoped was a reassuring squeeze.

“Can I sleep with you?”

I’m sorry, what? That’s not- I don't- “I- um, that’s not the best idea right now,” Hajime struggled to get ner words out. Ohhhh.” They were so fucking stupid. “You mean literally. Like sleeping in the same bed.”

“Yes? What else would I mean?” Athena’s brow furrowed. “Is this another euphemism I have to learn? Ugh, it means sex, doesn’t it? Why do so many common phrases mean sex? I just want to sleep in the same bed with you, yes.” She was exasperated, this was clearly something that bothered her quite a bit.

“Alright, we can do that. Literally, I mean.” Hajime was sure he was reddening heavily, but he didn't really care. He got to be cuddled up with Athena, and nothing else mattered.

They went to Hajime’s room and got comfortable. The pair were facing each other, their arms around each other. Athena’s forehead was buried into Hajime’s chest, and Hajime was messing with moon’s now clean hair.

After a bit of comfortable silence, Hajime had almost fallen asleep, when ze heard Athena pipe up from zeir chest. “Why are you so kind to me? You have no obligation to be. What have I ever done for you to deserve this?” Hajime almost started sobbing.

“I’m nice because I care about you. I wouldn’t do this for just anyone, you know that. I do the things I do because I love you.”

“Why?” Athena’s voice cracked and so did Hajime’s heart.

“Why what? Why do I love you?” Hajime looked down at Athena, who nodded. Pix looked up at him from moon’s spot on his chest.

“I love you because you’re the smartest person I’ve ever met. I love you because I learn from you every day. I love you because we could have a conversation about literally anything and it’d be entertaining. I love you because of the look you get in your eyes when you talk about things that you’re passionate about. I love you because you let me ramble on about philosophy all I want, even when you already know about the topic we’re discussing. I love you because my years with you have made me a better person. I love you because of the way your nose scrunches up when you’re embarrassed, or disgusted, or confused. I love you because you’re blunt and straightforward with me to set off my defensive sarcasm. I love you because you’re gorgeous in every sense of the word. I love you because you’re you, Athena. Because that’s all you have to be.”

Hajime finished ner speech, one that they’d been wanting to give to Athena for so long but just never found the right time for. She looked at the incredible woman in her arms. Hajime hadn't seen her smile so wide in a long time.

“You had better not be bullshitting me, Hajime.” Athena looked at nem with wide, hopeful eyes.

“About this? Never,” he answered, and he meant it.

“May I kiss you?”

“I- um… I don't think you’re in a good place for that, mentally, right now. Once you’re feeling a bit better and you can think more clearly, if you still want to, I’d love nothing more. The last thing I want to do is take advantage of you.”

“Oh, yes. That makes sense. Thanks,” Athena started, still clearly worried about something. “You- you did mean that romantically, right? I wasn’t just jumping to conclusions, was I?”

“Yes, love, I meant it romantically.” Hajime couldn't help but chuckle a bit at that.

“Cool, cool. I don't, um, I don't think I can say that I love you in that sense. Not yet,” Athena shrunk back a bit. Hajime’s heart sank a little, but they understood. “I’ve just never said that to anyone in the romantic sense. It’ll take time. I do deeply care for you, and I do have romantic feelings for you, I’d just have to be in a relationship for a while before I can say that back. Does that make sense?” Hajime nodded. They didn't care how long it took. Being with Athena was enough.

“Thank you, again, for the gift. It means more than you know.” Athena put one hand over the star around her neck.

“You’re so welcome. Thank Alvara too, they had the idea once I pointed out your chewing.”

“I will, of course.”

“They like you a lot, you know.”

“I do know. I like them a lot, too. She’s cool.” Hajime didn't think that Athena understood what ne meant by ‘like’, but that was fine. She was used to Athena being an oblivious idiot, this would figure it out in that’s own time.

“Yeah. They’re cool.” Hajime considered its words for a moment. “Never tell them I said that.”

“Go to bed, dumbass.”

endnotes- i love this chapter, even if it's sad- hurt/comfort my beloved- yes, this is a vent, no please dont ask

taglist:

@will-wood-fan-01 @azorii-tulip @simplestoryteller @whatishappeningrightnow @trash-bastard @anonymous-gremlin

#logan sanders #loceit #patton sanders #remus sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders #roceit #intrulogical #janus sanders #analogical #sanders sides #your stitches are all out fic

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here’s our bus route map for my bus ride! (masterlist!)

here’s the original event post :)

HI EVERYONE!! i just wanted to thank you all for your participation BECAUSE AAAAAA YOU GUYS DELIVERED AND UGH I WAS LITERALLY SO WORRIED NOBODY WAS GONNA WRITE ANYTHING BUTSJFLKFASDF

ALL OF YOU ARE SO TALENTED OKAY??? LIKE BYE I WAS BLOWN AWAY

I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THIS EVENT HEHEHE I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO SO MUCH!! AND THE FACT THAT YOU SPENT TIME ON THIS EVENT 😭😭MWAH MWAHH

THANK YOU AGAIN FOR 400!! MUCH LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES :D

ALSO SORRY AHHA THIS WAS POSTED SO LATE

WE IGNORE HOW IT’S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO GET FROM LA TO LONDON VIA BUS JKDFJKFJK

here’s how i formatted it!

title- author’s @!

pairing genre warnings word count their summary that they made

-> my review!

let’s take a look at our map...

starting from LA, heading to bilbao! we’ll stop along the bus stops on our way!

and yes im aware that the route is going in a weird, illogical way if bilbao is our last stop, shush i wasnt thinking when i made bilbao our last city KJDFJKS

masterlist under the cut!!

now arriving at... los angeles, California!

-> write an AU!! the AU can be literally anything: royalty AU? road trip AU? GO FOR IT!! just as long as it’s not in the canon era hehehe

first stop... “something only the stars know” - @luvoratomi

pairing: suna rintarou x gn!reader genre: secret relationship au, royal au, crown prince!suna, knight!reader, established relationship, fluff, angst word count: 544 their summary: in which you and crown prince, suna rintarou, find comfort in each other’s arms underneath the moonlight, where only the stars are witnesses of your love.

-> my review: um. nayru. OKAY IM CONSTANTLY BLOWN AWAY BY YOUR TALENT AND THIS IS NO EXCEPTION. i dont even KNOW who rintarou is but im in love with him. ALSO I DONT THINK IVE EVER READ A ROYAL AU BUT KLASDFJ THIS WAS SO?? WELL?? WRITTEN?? ive reread it at LEAST 5 times.

next stop... an untitled zombie au from @eunoianthia

pairing: yamaguchi tadashi x female!reader genre: zombie au, angst :) warnings: a lot of angst, death, a bit of gore? word count: 1.1k their summary: going to Los Angeles was a dream, and you were finally achieving it. It’s like a dream come true, going to Los Angeles and your boyfriend tagging along? What could go wrong?

-> my review: OKAY WAIT THIS IS THE FIRST ZOMBIE AU IVE EVER READ. like EVER. AND WHAT I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO HURT THIS MUCH. i- the ending- PLEASE I- i dont even know what to say. how COULD YOU.

now arriving at... 3:38 am from @arquitecturadelanada

pairing: zuko x fem!reader genre: roommates au, i would say fluff! warnings: none! word count: 1.1k their summary: As sokka’s best man zuko has to write a heartfelt speech for the wedding day, the only issue? he doesn’t believe in love, but maybe his roommate can change his perception on the matter.

-> my review: so youre saying this whole time youve been supporting my writing when YOU WRITE BETTER THAN I DO?? ugh you’re so talented this isn’t funny, and this fic ALMOST MAKES ME WANT TO BECOME AN ATLA BLOG AGAIN BAHHA- “he noticed he was considerably less stressed just by hearing his roommate’s voice” IM GONNA CRY

last stop... “what are the odds” from @hikariakaashi

pairing: kuroo x fem!reader genre: roommates au, i would say fluff! warnings: none! word count: 3.2k their summary: it was an act of desperation, to say the least, downloading the app lev recommended for him. but he was in dire need of a wedding date. so when kuroo opened up the brightly colored app titled rent a girlfriend, he knew he was in for an interesting evening.

-> my review: so uh 1) i remember writing a review for this and i have no idea where it went IM SO SORRY DSKJFJ and 2) i would do anything for kuroo to be my bf even if it was just my job 😩😩 and 3) um ??? YOURE SO TALENTED?? MISS MA’AM??

now arriving at... london, england!

-> breakup fic time </3 you can make it an angsty breakup, or a fluffy exes to lovers!

first stop... “i love(d) you”- @floralkawa

pairing: tsukishima x reader! genre: angst! warnings: none! word count: 300 their summary: one where tsukishima never showed his love. making it onesided, leading poor f/n on in a bitter relationship. of course, no one can handle it forever, can they ?

-> my review: this is the reason why i dont like angst. i felt this IN MY HEART, OKAY? NOELLE YOU LIED & SAID YOU COULDN’T WRITE FEELINGS. i hate it I HATE IT I HATE IT. but ugh youre talented enough to pull anything off and your angst is PROBABLY the only ones ill read willingly :(

next stop... “i should have seen the signs”- @kirishimas-manly-eyeliner

pairing: oikawa x reader! genre: angst! warnings: none! word count: 2k their summary: going to the city of love and london was supposed to be an exhilarating vacation after a long week of exams. as it seems, love is fake and so is toru oikawa.

-> my review: um. this kinda hurted me tho. how am i even allowed to be friends with you like ?? miss ma’am? YOURE SO TALENTED??? i hate angst and ill say it again: I HATE ANGST. IT HURTS IT HUUUURRTSS. OIKAWA MY BABY WOULD NEVER DO THAT BUT HE DID. I CANSTEALK I CANT DEAL WITH THIS

now arriving at... berlin, germany!

first stop... “Spring Chills”- @wesokkasimp

pairing: oikawa x reader! genre: fluff! warnings: none! word count: 447 their summary: you and Oikawa go for a walk on a chilly spring day. beware: banter ahead

-> my review: 😐😑😐 my heart wasn’t prepared for this. AND!! I BET Y/N LOOKED GREAT IN THAT TANK TOP; OIKAWA BETTER HAVE GIVEN HIS JACKET TO HER AFTERWARDS. jacket + tank top = cute outfit smh

next up... “warm and fuzzy”- @oikawaplssteponme

pairing: kuroo x reader! genre: fluff, a hint of angst, childhood friends to lovers, ‘boy next door’ warnings: one swear word, kuroo calls the reader ‘pretty’ however no gender pronouns are used, mini make out word count: 1.4k their summary: n/a but a quote: "The lights in your room were dim. Their golden-yellow tone shone above you, though you paid little attention to what was going on inside your room. You were much more interested in what was happening outside.”

-> my review: wait this actually reminds me of me and my front door neighbor GOODBYE AKLSJDF I MISS HIM :( ANYWAYS BAHHAHA- see you never miss 😐 i think awkward tetsu is underrated BYEALKSF THIS WAS SO CUTE I CANTASEKL

last stop... “ice cold”- @kyotarou

pairing: tsukishima x reader genre: fluff! warnings: bit of fanon tsukki, mutual pining, smidge of angst, fluff word count: 700+ their summary: n/a but a quote: “Asshole was the best word to describe Tsukishima Kei. He was an asshole to his peers, and it didn’t change towards you, his best friend.”

-> my review: mY TSUKISHIMA HEART OMG- okay OKAY I THOUGHT I GREW OUT OF MY LOVE FOR HIM BUT ITS ALL COMING BACK ASLKJFDL- oh to share a jacket and be vulnerable with tsukishima ✋😩 once again bestie youre so talented it isnt funny

now arriving at... bilbao, spain!

our only stop in this city... "break-in”- @kohi-zeri

pairing: iwazumi x reader! genre: fluff!! warnings: mentions of food and common illnesses, use of “darling” and “brat” word count: 1.4k their summary: n/a but a quote: “there’s something so… infuriating about having a migraine. especially when it’s uncalled for.”

-> my review: i cant express to you how much i love sickfics. like JLSDFLJKFSALJ SADFL I CANT- ALSO I READ THIS FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN I HAD THE WORST HEADACHE SO WHENEVER MY HEAD HURTS I COME REREAD THIS BAHAHHA-

here’s what some of our passengers are saying...

one passenger says “Wait. Stand right there, I want to take a picture of you.”

“pretty petals, pretty pictures”- @shxyo-sho

pairing: iwazumi x reader! genre: fluff, mutual pining, just two best friends crushing on each other warnings: none! word count: 590 their summary: If you could describe your best friend, Kiyoko, in one word; what would it be? I would pick the word, flawless.

-> my review: repeat after me: kiyoko is a queen. and YOU DO HER JUSTICE I ASFDLKJ PLEASE- in all honesty i would be blushing if kiyoko said a word to me too- y/n you arent alone ✋😩

another passenger asks “Why aren’t you asleep?”

"night owl”- @atlabeth

pairing: sokka x reader! genre: fluff! warnings: stress over school and one (1) curse, but other than that it’s pure fluff word count: 907 their summary: If you could describe your best friend, Kiyoko, in one word; what would it be? I would pick the word, flawless.

-> my review: alright this isnt fair where is my irl sokka 😐 YOURE BRINGING ME BACK INTO MY ATLA DAYSDF LKSJA- not complaining tho I LOVE SOKKA SO MUCH. and “But for a “fairly smart person”, you made a lot of bad decisions.” THATS TOO RELATABLE STOP IT RIGHT NOW SFKDJK

HEHEHEHEH THANK YOU AGAIN!! SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG GOOD BYE

#morosis's 400 followers bus ride #morosis recommends #haikyuu!!#haikyuu angst #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu x reader #atla x reader #haikyuu fanfiction #atla fanfiction #haikyuu x y/n #atla x y/n

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bi-sapphic · 3 years

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i feel like we dont talk enough about how much of a pain in the ass Se is for INFP and INTP.

for the record I'm an INFP and INFPs and INTPs (INFj and INTj in socionics) have an Se PoLR and i think that Se is one of the most useful functions one could use as we need to deal with the real world and while all the other functions are important, i find a good Se to be the most useful skill.

however i want to talk about stuff that's not talked about a lot (from observation). a simple google search can tell you that it's basically a blindspot and that the INxP can feel paranoid in a way about "entering" other people's lives and violating sb's personal space and dont like it when other people do the same thing to them or tell them how things are. it's also pretty well-known even for beginner learners that Se polr can make it hard for one to stay committed or even focused on doing tasks that require physical work for example. (p.s. i still dont know a lot about shadow functions so correct me if i get sth wrong)

i want to talk about sth a bit different today. how detached from reality an INxP can be. first of all, most of us will probably be clumsy and bad at sports, especially those ones that take a lot of navigating (e.g. football). it can be quite challenging to focus on the concrete and actively engage in it.

especially when you're someone whos creative or likes to read (or even daydream a lot) it can take a some willpower to keep on engaging with the real world without deformed expectations. intuition (both Ne and Ni) likes to make a slightly different version of reality because it likes the abstract, connecting things and is more interested in doing more theoretical stuff than analysing it through the five senses. Ne likes wondering in the world of abstract, possibilities, and what ifs. it's important to not get too lost in it as it can really detach one from reality and cause one to perceive the reality in an irrational way.

i know a lot of INxPs (especially INFPs) who struggle with the fact that they spend a lot of time in their heads or do stuff that doesnt necessarily involve engaging in the real world (simple examples can be daydreaming, reading). doing physical work or having to use Se/5 senses instead of usual Ne can be quite hard and one will often not pay attention to details, be very oblivious or just really not pay attention to the surroundings.

an example would be the fact that when I'm socialising for example, i pay the most attention to the talking, thinking and the mood. i pay almost no attention to the surrounding area, you could ask me what my family members are wearing rn and i wouldnt be able to give a good answer. when i observe an environment or an appearance of a person i generally remember the overall mood or maybe color scheme but rarely do i notice or remember details and my mom and ESTP friend have always bugged me about it. "you need to pay more attention to your surroundings" "how did you not notice that?"

coming back to the real world from your imagination is also tough especially if you are a maladaprive daydreamer. i feel like being a high Ne user with a weak Se can really feed to one developing it and having weak Se as an imaginative person can make it hard to reconnect to the real world and take the opportunities the world gives you

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lesbianicbitch · 1 year

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Betrayal, part 2 of "Deadly Sins" {Marilyn Thornhill}

Huge spoilers of episode 8! So pls dont read if you havent finished Wednesday!

(I apologize if the beginning sounds rushed, Im just explaining what they already had done so far!)

TW: blood, wounds, death

Third PoV: Things that had already happened

So, after the Rave'N, they had made a plan. A plan, where nothing could go wrong.

They decided, together with the Nightshades, that Wednesday should meet with Tyler in the forest, to talk about what happened after the kiss.

Present

Small Enid PoV

"Thing, what are you doing here???" I asked, shocked.

Ajax explained a bit on the way, we had to get my sister, Sky, and of course Bianca. (small info: By now Enid knows that Thornhill and Sky are together)

Third PoV

The students agreed on using their siren spells on the other students so neither Tyler nor Thornhill would notice.

They defeated the enemy. Or so they thought.

Skys gaze glued onto Bianca and Wednesday, she didnt hear this one person coming in.

Sky yelps in pain, falling onto the ground, right next to Marilyn.

"No!" Marilyn screamed as she saw her girlfriend. Time seemed to go in slow motion, blood was pouring from the shot wound in Skys chest, making her weaker and weaker.

"I love you too, Mari" Sky whispered out, before the life faded from her eyes.

A while later

Marilyn was still sitting like this with Sky.

Wednesday, Bianca, Eugene and Xavier, who joined them, made their way into the forest, where the other students were.

"I thought Id loose you" Enid cried, looking at Wednesday. "You didnt, im still here" Wednesday smiled very slightly.

"You saved Nevermore! But.. wheres, wheres Sky?" Enid said, looking around for her sister.

"Sky??" Eid said, concerned. Then she looked at Wednesday and Bianca, whose gazes said everything. "No.. that.. Nes please dont tell me.." Enid teared up once again.

#christina ricci #i love marilyn thornhill #marilyn thornhill #wednesday #laurel gates #marilynthornhill

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