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#am i crying abt 2/2 now? yeah what about it
qualityrain · 8 months
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every time the mental illness is illnessing i have morganas “even if you think people hate you or dont want you around-“ playing in my head so i constantly hear this stupid cat in my brain but this also means every time i think abt 2/2 i start crying because shaking atlus does he know. does akc know the PT care abt him and want him around shaking atlus
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emypony · 6 months
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#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more#this self conscious catgirl is so tired#sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok#i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment#genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me#and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media#in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end#YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!!#i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months#which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me#it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us#i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place#like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances?#anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically#idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i#personal#sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually#me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl#bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow#im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit#i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy#the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob#which i am feeling like right now!#vent#emy rambles#ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM#k really am#sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon#and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them#but yknow one can yearn
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love-belle · 7 months
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today and tomorrow and every day after that !!!
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which their fall-in-love-again era is them pretending as if they haven't already made it till forever.
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for when it'll be them today, tomorrow and then a day after that. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
social media au // max verstappen x fem!reader
prequel - i should hate you ⋆·˚ ༘ *
warnings - language
author's note - it's 3am and im tired. thank u and i hope u like it <3
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yourusername his big wet eyes and loser personality have captivated me
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lilymhe run away with me
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-> lilymhe divorce exists
-> yourusername she has a point
username im paralysed like WHAT DO U MEAN THEY'RE MARRIED
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maxverstappen1 something about how i'd marry you with paper rings and in this case, a string (or $1 rings from vending machine)
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maxverstappen1 i did not write the caption
-> maxverstappen1 y/n wrote this caption
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charles_leclerc i have heard you sing that little song to yourself. you wrote this caption.
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-> charles_leclerc i mean...
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-> maxverstappen1 fun fact! we don't have a dog
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-> maxverstappen1 she tripped me
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yourusername u told me that i was the one who should propose
-> maxverstappen1 yes
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yourusername in any case, the answer would be fuck no ❤️
-> maxverstappen1 i'm calling christian and telling him that you're bullying his first driver.
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-> maxverstappen1 uh, i already asked charles_leclerc so...
-> charles_leclerc sorry
-> yourusername homwrecker
-> charles_leclerc there was no home to wreck
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username this comments section is what keeps me up at night
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yourusername babygirl u are a very freak and strange. i am deeply in love with u. all jokes aside, we made it. i know we got married like weeks ago but marrying u like FOR REAL has been the most beautiful moment of my life. i wanna spend everyday with u, in this life and all the others. vegas was a trip but even then, it was perfect with u, the one i was marrying and as taylor swift said "i like shiny things but i'd marry u with paper rings" or in our case, $1 rings from the vending machine. i wanna go to museums with u and point to pictures with weird guys and say "that's u". i wanna dance in the kitchen with u. i wanna look back after decades at all these memories and laugh, knowing that my now-self made the best decision. i love u even if u have me saved as "DO NOT ANSWER ❌" in ur phone. i think forever would be nice with u or till death do us apart (or someone in a suit if this escalates to a divorce).
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-> yourusername carmen 🤍🤍🤍 u own my heart and thank UUUUUU for being a part of my big day
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-> maxverstappen1 i'll go with her into the afterlife too like who the fuck she trying to meet there
-> yourusername bold of u to assume you'd even get in
-> maxverstappen1 is this what married life is like???
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-> yourusername u tried to set our marriage certificate on fire saying "it's set in stone now"
-> danielricciardo doing god's work
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username AHSHSJJKKSSKAKSJSJKS
maxverstappen1 never changing your contact name
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username YELLING THIS IS REVOLUTIONARY
username screeching when will it be my turn
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maxverstappen1 never really did sappy posts but this means the world to me and i guess there's a first (???) time for everything. all i can say is that i truly cannot wait to spend all my days with you and go to sleep thinking that i can't wait to do it again tomorrow. and i think, there's nothing more lovelier than that. you once told me that i deserved the world, i hope we get to see it together. i wanna hear how your day was, today and tomorrow and every day after that. but before getting to all those tomorrows, here's to our forever that's summed up for me in a small moment.
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username "here's to our forever that's summed up for me in a small moment" THIS DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE AND IT MADE ME SOB
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-> maxverstappen1 mate you were sobbing while giving your speech
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-> maxverstappen1 winning on and off track
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username IN LOVE WITH THEIR WEDDING AESTHETIC LIKE IT EATS SO HARD
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charles_leclerc can't believe you would cheat on me
-> maxverstappen1 might just leave her for you
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-> charles_leclerc wait a minute
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danielricciardo tell lando i'm the godfather
-> landonorris he WON'T because you're NOT
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-> maxverstappen1 and you're officially out of the godfather contestants
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-> maxverstappen1 likewise
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-> maxverstappen1 have a sense of humour
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-> username CLEARED HIM
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-> maxverstappen1 i don't know, this girl who follows me everywhere and calls me maximus
-> yourusername she sounds cute
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username i will show this to my kids
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n0ct0urn1quet · 2 years
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in general im like 10x as emotional as most other people so like something relatievly small will make me tear up n cry a tiny bit but after like 20 minutes im fine but . being on ur period just absoultley shatters my emotional stability and i will Start Crying over the dumbest shit but then i try not to make myself cry which just makes me lightheaded and ijust hhhjd hf kd bdhbhjd f mbd dmfg dfhbmhbdgcbvc
#im just like <:(#hopeuflly listening to the same song over and over again for the next 2 hosru will help#but right now im just siting here like hhgggh#but also god what am i saying i dont have emotional stability i will cry over the dumbest shit . i cannot help it#emotions are hard 2 control because i start getting upset over something small which then spirals into#my brain being like 'oh ur sad ??? here lets think about this other ting You Dont Like Thinking About!#because ur sad so Now's A Good Time to Remember This Bad Thing That Happened To You Several Years Ago!'#n its not like stuf happens that reminds me of bad things its just#brain gets sad . so i start thinking bad thoughts n then WHOPOPS im remembering thoughts that im trying not to Remembr#i am not very good at distracting myeslf i dont think#because i try to distact myself with positive thoughs abt other things but then its just#the negative thoguhts are overwhelming!!!!!! im oevrwhelmed!!!!!!!!! i cant stop thinking!!!!!!!!!!! help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sory it sjust . hggb bjhbhj Long Distance Is Hard and i very much wish i was Not Here rn and was with my gf that is all#n i keep being like 'oh well maybe we'll visit during the summer maybe during winter break' but its just . it is hard#bc parents. n i have 0 proble m going over to see her but id have to have my mom come with me and we woudlnt have anyone to#watch kitty and so id prefer either going there by myself or having her jus com see me but even then its like#yeah she can come see me thats not a problem (i dont think) but. 1 problem#she will have no where to Sleep . my bed is barely big enough for Me. so theres no way someone who's generally bigger than me#is going to fit on that bed. even by herself she wouldnt Fit#n hell no im not gona fuckin have her sleep on the couch which is rly the only other option so its just . hhjhjfgbjhbfg#n we cant move cause a simple 2 bedorom house is going for like twice as much as we pay here so ists just hjhbf#i wish things were easier!!!! i wanna go see her so bad n i keep holding out hope that maybe by some fuckin miracle ill be able to see her#like next summer or this witner break or just something . Anything. like i can deal going anothr coupl years before we move in its not like#seeing each other is a necessity (i mean it is but to me i can absolutely wait if its for sure impossible for us to meet considering the#circumstances) but. still. itd be nice to just do Something. hell even if its not for a full 2 weeks like we planned n its just a week or#few days. i am desperate JSDKJLKLJG#sory i just think about that a lot its hard not to think about sometimes n i end up making myuself super upset over it#ghgouhg
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leondickrider · 8 months
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fluff alphabet ౨ৎ leon s kennedy x gn!reader
𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 || working on sm leon fanfics at once ! i made this in like 20 minutes so it prolly sucks but idc!! nsfw alphabet coming soon :3
𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 || fluff (obvi), not proofread or read by betas
𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 || deinking mentioned, none
𝐗𝐎𝐗𝐎 || leon s kennedy mlist 🎀 @starzu
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Activities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?
leon really loves just kicking back and relaxing with his s/o. after soo many life-threatening missions, he just wants to kick back on the sofa with his s/o in his arms and binge watch some tv. however, he also really loves taking they all the places they want to visit, whether it's a concert or a museum
Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
everything, literally finds every inch of his s/o perfect and beautiful. but, he really loves their hands, especially if they are soft and smaller because it's the opposite of his hands that are rough from so much fighting and training. also finds their eyes beautiful, will literally hold contact for hours if he could
Comfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
refer back to re4r how leon comforted ashley. he's really good at comforting you and will do anything to help cheer you up. 2 am emotional binge sesh? he's driving to the shoppe and buying you ice cream and frost and drizzle or syrup and sprinkles and brownie bits and cookies and and potato chips and and cheeseburgers and fries and tater tots and cheese and everything (i'm on a rlly strict diet so this is deadass just me listing foods i want rn) 5 pm cry sesh? he already has the tissues, blankets, stuffies and tear-jerking movies ready
Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
in 1998, leon would dream about having a totally normal relationship with you. big suburban house, a couple kids. but after the raccoon city, he kind of changed his dreams. he still craves the normal, domestic life, but now he kinda envisions it as just you and him. not that he doesn't want kids, he just doesn't want them to be in such a dangerous world
Equal - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
i think he'd be more dominant in relationships when it comes to most things. not dominant in a weird, controlling way. but he would want his s/o to come to him before making any big decisions simply bc he probably brings home the bacon with his government paycheck. but other than financially, he's pretty passive, he really doesn't care what you do as long as you don't do like porn or like cheat
Fight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
depends honestly; most fights he will forgive you, but sometimes he really holds it against you and just shuts you out for a while before resuming as if nothing happened. however, when he snaps and lets words he doesn't mean to get out, he will apologize so much. even if you forgive him, he doesn't believe it and will buy you everything
Gratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
very grateful! in 1998-2013 and after vendetta specifically. he realizes that you help keep him happy pretty fast. if you're in raccoon city with him then he probably felt a lot better and more confident. (def not bc he wanted to show off in front of his partner!!) in 2004 he is soo grateful you were willing to stay with him even with the job he ended up with and with all the training he had to get. in vendetta i think that's when he might seem ungrateful cuz of his drinking.... but yeah after all that he's back to normal
Honesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
a lot of secrets :(
mainly about work though, cuz unless you're an agent he literally cannot legally get into the details with you. he keeps secrets abt his drinking too, like you know he drinks but you don't know how much he drinks.
Inspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
yes! he became more confident in himself because like being in a relationship makes him feel like somebody wants him, so he gains sm self confidence and actually wants to be stronger so he can return home from missions !
Jealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
i think he gets jealous pretty easily. he will get a bit jealous if a person look at you twice, or somebody flirts. but part of him thinks you deserve somebody better so he doesn't ever tell you about his jealousy, you gotta hring it up first
Kiss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
a very good kisser!! every single kiss is filled w sm love and affection and passion <3 mainly bc he doesn't really know when it will be the last kiss :(
first kiss was really special even though it was spontaneous. it was in the late hours of the night, the whole apartment dark except for the tv light. and you were slow dancing to some random song when suddenly the mood felt right and he kisses you MANSBSHH (this is based on my first kiss with my ex ....)
Love Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
he doesn't really confess first, he drops subtle hints that he has feelings for you and just gopes you catch onto his words
Marriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
yes, going back to dream. he thinks about marriage all the time, he likes the idea of having a cute lil spouse to come home too after grueling missions
he proposes totally out of nowhere. he originally had a plan, he was going to take you on a romantic vacation before proposing to you while there. but he chickened out last second, so after several other attempts (that he backed out of last minute) he finally had enough. and then one morning he got down on one knee after buying you a ton of donuts
marriage is really good. he's such husband material. overprotective but not too overprotective. possessive but not too possessive. you know what i'm saying?
Nicknames - What do they call their s/o?
sticks to the classics most of the time: babe, baby, love, sweetheart, etc etc. lots of italian pet names
however when he's sweet he really branches out: sweet girl/boy, lovie, lovebug, cuddlebug, pretty
On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
oh my gosh, this man is so lovey-dovey. literally heart eyes for you. but he forces himself to stay serious even thought other people easily know he's all your's. he doesn't talk much when it's just you and him, preferring to just sit silently across from you and listen to you. and that's what makes it obvious to others since normally he doesn't pay attention and always says his dad jokes or says something stupid
he expresses his feelings by like... yeah.... not being annoying i guess
PDA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
hmm, he doesn't really like pda due to his job. he knows he has enemies who are after him, but most don't really know about you since they don't really look into that. however, when he's off work, he'll take you into cities and his hand in always on you, whether he's holding your hand, or his hand is planted on your hip/waist. just makes him feel better
he brags about you to all of his friends. chris hears about it nonstop while leon is drunk (and he sobs after bc the redfield bloodline.) "sure that looks nice on them but you know who would look better in it? my s/o." "oh, my s/o has that same necklace, i bought it for them in paris." (😭)
he doesn't really care after the missions. esp if he got close to death, he is all over you the second he sees you. he doesn't care who is watching or who sees, he is literally holding you as if you were dying
Quirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.
he knows whenever you are upset. doesn't even need to hear you speak. literally can just tell from your footsteps or your posture
also, he's really quiet so when you are having your moments he's able to sneak around withhout setting you off (please i get so annoyed when people are loud when i'm mad)
Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?
yes
he will do everything to make his s/o happy
Support - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
it really depends on your goals. if your goal is to become famous on onlyfans (aimed) then he probably wouldn't really help cuz well why would he?
he believes in you to an extent, he's brutally honest sometimes so... yeah... if you're dumb he will tell you that you're dumb (in a nice way) but he tries his best to support you 💀
Thrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
there's no such thing as routine with this man other than his exercise routine 
Understanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
he knows you better than you do. this man literally buys whatever you're craving like a week before you even ask fo it. he knows exactly what album or movie or video game you're going to beg him to buy so he already got you it
Value - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?
literally his top pirority. it goes you, his friends, him. he always puts you ahead of himself in everything and values your life sm more than his own :(
Wild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.
everytime he returns from his missions, he always comes home with your favorite snack and an expensive bouquet of your favorite flowers (if you get the expensive bouquet reference jtm)
XOXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
yes, he is so touch starved and can cuddle all day if you let him. he kisses you a lot as well
Yearning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?
he always carries a little polaroid of you snd him cuddles together on the sofa (taken before 1998 for draamtic effect) and just looks at it for a little bit
he also bought a small bottle of your fav purfume/fragrance and always takes it with him on missions, aweet boy :)
Zeal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?
this man would literally take a bullet for you !! A BULLET !!
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i'm making a ghost ver of this as well since i love him sm !! :))
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charles_leclerc Really happy to be part of the Ferrari Drivers Academy and be development driver for Scuderia Ferrari :) For you, (your initial).
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yn.yln.16 holy moly so proud of you big sister 🥹
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yn.yln.16 made a best friend at work ❤️‍🩹
p.s new article is up in my blog 🫧
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bellahadid youre something special 🦋
user92 what do you write about? :)
⤷ yn.yln.16 sports and fashion 😚🤍
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charles_leclerc Prema today ! Working to get back on the top step as soon as possible 🙂🏆
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kylie_yln anyone cute? 😚
⤷ yn.yln.16 looollll no 😖
pascale_leclerc Stay safe, chérie ❤️
⤷ yn.yln.16 ouiii maman!!! see you soon:)
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Maman 💇‍♀️
Charles, before you find out from anyone else, I am having lunch with Yn today.
Charles🤦‍♂️
What? Where?
How long will she be there?
Is she with you now? Maman?
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yln.updated yn out having lunch with her childhood neighbors! via. chefsmonaco: “Met yn.yln.16 this afternoon! Kindest soul who had lunch at our restaurant!” view all 1,684 others
yn.yln.16 chefsmonaco Loved the food, will surely come back! 🤍🥹
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yn.yln.16 so so thankful to have written my first vogue article about my beautiful sister !!!! kylie.yln 🥹🤍
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user82 notice how her first article is ab her sister.. talentless nepo babbyyy lol
⤷ yn.yln.16 yeah but hey, atleast im writing in vogue and not crying abt it in someone’s post 🤷🏻‍♀️
⤷ user1 GAGGEDDDD LOLL I LOVE HER ALR
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charles_leclerc POLEEE POSITIONNN 🏎️ 2 poles out of 2 Qualifyings. Thanks again prema_team for the great car. But tomorrow is the day that counts ! 👊🏻
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BBC NEWS • SHORT STORIES
MEET YN YLN May 29, 2017
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Yn Yln has been making her mark in the industry.
From detailed writing on fashion pieces to analyzing the newest models of F1 cars, Yn Yln is racing through the internet.
Yln told the BBC it was her bursting of emotions that first got her to write.
Her love of fashion was what started her journey. She put up her first blog up in 2010 titled “Layering”. Yln showcased several ways to style for the winter which skyrocketed her blog.
She then wrote about the racing sport. Yln mentioned a friend of hers raced and that is where her writing started to flourish.
“He just got me really interested in the sport that I couldn’t go a week without writing whether Hamilton got a win or modifications had been made to the sport.”
The writer got her first issue in Vogue out this May 11th. The issue was about her sister, Kylie Yln, and her entrepreneurship.
But while she has achieved much beyond her years, Yln has much more ahead of her. She continues to help the writing industry advance and flourish.
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⤷ yn.yln.16 Thank you so much🥹🥹🏎️
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charles_leclerc I remember watching Formula 1 being younger and dreaming of one day being part of it. I can't believe this day has arrived and that I will be racing with Alfa Romeo Sauber F1 Team for the 2018 Formula 1 World Championship. I am hugely thankful to all the people who have been involved in my path to Formula 1.
A special thought to my father that did absolutly everthing for me to get there and to Jules that also helped me massively, I wish you two were here to see that but l'm sure you will follow me from up there.
A special thank you to the Ferrari Drivers Academy/Scuderia Ferrari, my sponsors/partners, Nicolas Todt/All Road Management, my family, all the people close to me during all these years & obviously Alfa Romeo Sauber F1 Team for giving me this opportunity.
Also, a special thank you to (your initial). This is also for you and I’m proud of you.🤍
Still a long way to go to my second dream..! So back to work and see vou in Melbourne 🏎️
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Charles Leclerc explains reasons behind #16 F1 number choice
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Since he was young, Leclerc has been dreamt of his future in being an F1 driver, as well as his future number.
The 20 year old driver explains it has always been the number he was going to pick.
“There is too much emotional connection for me to not pick this number. I hold this number deep in my heart and the person who helped me achieve everything, is mainly the reason. I hope to do the number well and give it justice.”
He has yet to specify who he is talking about but fans would guess a close friend. READ MORE…
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⤷16spriv STOPPP ITS MY NUMBER. NOW I HAVE TO CHANGE MYUSERNAME. goodbye yn.yln.16.
kyliexoxo deeeep breaths sister
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user2 why is she famous again?
⤷ yn.yln am i even famous
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⤷ user3 she’s a talented writer and her sister is $$$
ylnsbabe the 16 in her user is gone????
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february 13, 2018
MARCH 25, 2018
it was nerve shaking for both yn and charles to come into the paddock knowing the other would be there but they both walked in with confidence.
with charles in his rookie season, many interviewers were trying to get his input on it. he searched the faces for that one (y/h/c) but proceeded to answer questions while walking.
as he started to leave the group, he had the urge to turn around. and when he did, he was met with those (y/e/c) and nostalgia.
the interviewers started to disperse, getting in his line of vision for a moment before they were focues on her.
this was his second shot and he was not going to waste it.
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NOTE sorry it took so long to upload:( hope everyone has a good year!! this took me a while and a lot of things aren’t accurate, such as the job description, but its fictional!!
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sage I have art donaldson ideas and ik it's 3 am but HEAR ME OUT.....
he wins for the first time in like forever and reader let's him o whatever he wants and hes like dominant but not in a bitchy way he just took control and it's making me 🥴🥴
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bri omfg u have me thinking thoughts rn. . .
this type of dom!art is what i'm trying to incorporate into pt. 2 of you're such a loser, but i'm making this a separate drabble bc im thinking abt this concept too hard now
the way that i'm writing this instead of finishing pt. 2 of YSAL is crazy
content warnings: soft dom!art donaldson, switch(sub)!reader, praise, gentle throat fucking, kinda fluffy.
word count - 2k
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The large crowd in the stands behind you burst up from their seats and roar with praise and cheers as Art successfully wins the volley against his opponent, resulting in the winning score of 7-5 for him. You can't help but jump up from your seat too, clapping your hands together and shouting things like "YES!" and "there we go!"
Weirdly, you felt like crying on behalf of your player. This had actually been his first win in over several months. He had hit a real slump about a year ago, and beat himself up for it, which only worked to decrease his overall morale and result in more losses down the line. You never actually told him this, but you were genuinely worried that his career might be over.. that he might never win again. But here the two of you were: many long mornings, afternoons, and nights of training and practice later, and he had fucking won.
A huge grin was splayed across his pink, sweaty cheeks as the score was announced and he went to shake his opponent's hand. The other player put on a brave face, shaking Art's hand, but as soon as your husband's back was turned, the player's face dropped into a display of resentment and anger. You scoffed at this, feeling a sense of pride in your partner and smugness at his win. This might have been a slightly hypocritical reaction on your part, though, as Art had been the resentful loser one too many times in the past year. You shrug the feeling of cognitive dissonance off. Who cared? He had his mojo back now.
Art jogs off of the court and makes a b-line right for your open arms, which he joyfully runs into before lifting you off of the ground and spinning you a bit. Once your feet are back on earth, you pull away to look into his eyes, and they are positively beaming with happiness and confidence. It was like looking at a whole new man! You brushed some wet pieces of hair from the middle of his forehead back into place, and then cupped his cheek. He smiled into your touch, and then pulled you back into his chest.
"You did such a good job, pretty boy. I'm so damn proud of you," you spoke quietly in his ear as he held you. He squeezed you tighter, letting you know how much he appreciated your praise.
"Thank you," he whispers.
You pull back and take one of his hands in two of yours.
"Let's get back to the hotel, yeah?" you smiled, and he nodded tiredly with a grin before using the back of his free hand to wipe beading sweat from his temples.
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The taxi drops the two of you off outside of the huge hotel, and you both exit the vehicle after you pay the fare with your credit card. Art takes your hand in his with a renewed sense of self-assuredness, and you smile at him as you both walk into the building and take the elevator up to the twelfth floor.
Upon arrival, you pull the key card from your pocket and hold it gently over the red light above the door handle. A brief beeping noise is emitted and then the light is green. You turn the door handle and step inside, Art so close behind you that you can actually feel his body grazing the back of yours, and the door shuts quickly after. As you begin to pivot your body and congratulate him once more, he's suddenly all over you before you can even speak--
He's grabbing hungrily at the fabric of your dress, hiking it up and gripping your soft thighs, as he leans in to bite and suck at your neck. You can actually feel his canines nearly puncturing your skin as he places one of his palms at the nape of your neck so that you can't pull away from him.
"mm-! fuck!" you moan softly, using one of your hands to grab a handful of his hair while the other wraps around his upper back. He groans as you press your body against his, almost grinding into him.
"wh-what.. what are you doing?" you breathe out, swallowing thickly as he continues to leave bruises and bite marks on your flesh that are wonderfully sore and stinging.
He licks at your neck before responding, "I'm just so proud of us, and I want you to understand how proud I am."
The warmth of his breath kind of tickles and gives you goosebumps as you reach for one of his hands and bring it down to your panties.
"You can do whatever you want, love. You've earned it," you whisper into his ear, and then he's hooking his middle finger onto the inside of your underwear and pulling them down to your upper thighs in one smooth motion.
"I know I have, now jus' let me play with you a little,"
He rubs circles into your clit with his thumb, while his other fingers slide through your slick folds.
"You like this? Me having complete control over you?" he coos.
You nod, whining as you lift your leg to wrap it around the back of his legs and give him more access to your parts. He plays with your needy pussy for a couple of minutes more before you can feel his clothed erection pressing against your leg. He pauses his finger's movements, and breathes heavily against your shoulder.
"Kneel."
A beat of silence. There is no noise, except for the faint echo of your heavy breathing. You buck your hips against his hand.
"Wha-?" you mumble, still riding the high of your previously fast-approaching orgasm.
"You heard what I said, babe. On your knees for me," he saids gruffly, before pressing a kiss to your collarbone.
Without hesitation, you drop down to the floor, kneeling in front of him and making direct eye contact with the tent in the front of his white athletic shorts. He runs a hand though your hair, peering down at you with admiration as you begin to reach down and rub at your own clit. Art smiles at your desperation, and then he's pulling down his shorts and boxers until they're almost to his knees.
He holds his stiff cock out and gives it a couple stokes, which makes him toss his head back in pleasure, before he wiggles it slightly in front of your nose. He bends down and forward to give you a sloppy, warm kiss on the lips before he's back to standing upright. Two of his fingers from his free hand tap the underside of your chin.
"Open up, baby. I wanna put it in your mouth so bad.."
You oblige, opening your mouth up wide and letting your tongue loll out and rest against your bottom lip. Your brows turn up in arousal as you continue to get yourself off with your fingers, staring up at your pretty husband. This whole situation was so incredibly hot, given Art's lifelong streak of submission. He rarely took the reigns, but you guessed that today's win must have flipped a switch that had previously been off and lying dormant within him.
He takes a step closer to you and places his leaking tip onto your tongue, which you promptly wrap your lips around and engulf in the wet heat of your mouth.
An involuntary whimper tumbles from his lips at the feeling, but he tries to stifle it by pressing his lips tightly together. He grabs a fistful of your hair, and shallowly bucks his hips into your mouth. Your tongue swirls incessantly around the limited portion of his cock that he's gifted you, and you make sure to swallow whatever drips out.
"Okay, honey, listen to me," he groans, hips still twitching, "I'm going to fuck your throat now, but I promise I'll be careful. You can tap my leg twice if you want to stop. Nod if you understand me."
You nod, his erection still filling your mouth, and you look up at him with pleading eyes. You want this just as much as he does.
"Good girl," he says softly, praising your obedience.
He slowly pushes his hips closer to your lips, successfully stuffing his length down your throat. It takes a second for you to get adjusted to the slightly unpleasant feeling, and you choke a little around him. He studies your face as he continues to stuff your mouth full, making sure that you don't look too uncomfortable or uneasy.
"There you go, baby.. taking me so well, oh ffffu-uck-"
His hips are now pressed flush to your lips, and your eyes well up with tears as you feel the stretch of your throat. You feel a bit of drool drip down your chin and land on your leg below.
Art delicately grabs your head with both of his hands now, brushing some of your hair behind your ear, and then he starts to thrust needily into your mouth. At first, it's small jerks of his hips, but these jerks soon turn into full-on pumps of heady cock in and out of your throat. Your head feels fuzzy at the sensation of this, plus your approaching orgasm and the lack of direct access to oxygen.
"mm-mm-mm-mf-!" you whine high in your chest as he fucks your mouth mercilessly, lost in his own storm of arousal and desperation. Your other hand moves to grip his leg and steady your body from rocking back and forth. You wanted to be a good toy for him right now. After all, he had worked so hard today.
He moves one of his hands to cup your lower jaw and uses his dominant one to grab your hair and hold it back from your face in a make-shift ponytail. All the while, he's still pumping your throat full of his dick, as he lets out low groans and muffled whimpers.
Your body starts to tremble and you squeeze your eyes shut as your fingers rubbing your sensitive nub bring you closer and closer to the edge. Art immediately takes notice, and you can feel the way his length twitches and jumps with interest as it pummels your mouth.
"Are you close..? I'm getting close.. I'm so close.." he moans out loudly, gripping your hair with ferocity.
You release a drawn-out whimper, alerting him that you were ready to cum any second, and he looks down at you with unadulterated delight.
"So pretty when you're cumming, babe, let me see you cum while you're sucking me down,"
At the processing of his words, your eyes quickly glaze over as you start to squirt all over your hand and the floor beneath you. Your body shakes with the waves of your orgasm as you cum, yet you still make sure that you're lavishing his erection with adequate attention.
He moans as he watches your hips arch in the aftershocks of your release, and then his hips are stilling as his balls draw up-
"Oh FUCK, oh fuck me, I'm cumming I'm nnnghh-!"
You feel a warm and rapid flow of liquid down your throat that follows the sound of his cries of ecstasy, and you instinctively swallow it all. Every single drop, and this effectively works to milk his cock dry as he continues to spill into your mouth and whimper with each throb and pulsation of his orgasm.
After he rides out the last bit of his high, Art attempts to catch his breath as he slowly pulls himself out of your mouth. You cough and splutter a bit, having gotten used to the full-feeling, and then swallow a few times to soothe your used throat.
"Where did that.. where did that come from?" you gasp out, also trying to regain the steadiness of your breathing.
He laughs softly with raised brows, before blowing out a harsh breath of air through puckered lips. His brows knit together in genuine surprise and contemplation.
"I honestly have no idea, but I kinda liked it."
You smile up at him, wiping at your spit-covered chin.
"Me too.. maybe this will be a new incentive for you to win," you tease.
"If that's how it's gonna be, I'll win every match from now on," he smirks, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead.
"You're on."
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im thinking so many thoughts.
ps. sorry if there's any errors, i wrote this at 3 am :,)
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inspired by your post about your husband lol, what random things do each member of bts do that make them a new level hotter to you
this is such a cute question!! well, maybe not cute depending on the response, but. u know. 🤷🏻‍♀️
seokjin — i think people are expecting me to say his brat taming thing, bc it is objectively hot, but if this is a safe space and we’re oversharing together on a stormy friday night, i think it’s kinda hotter if he… doesn’t? like, knows you’re being a brat but goes along w it and “lets” you act up. so that’s not my answer, obviously.
so, to me, it’s his perseverance. i think it’s very hot to straight up say, “hey, i’m not all that great at this, but i’m gonna do it and try my best anyway.” i am a person who gives up the second i’m not good at something right away or as soon as it gets hard, so. yeah. very attractive and hot quality.
yoongi — cop out answer, but anytime he does anything with his hands. it almost put me in the ground when he made all those cutting boards. add on him playing guitar and i was donezo. he has really nice hands and he knows he has really nice hands and it’s sick. he’s sick.
hobi — idk how to explain it but hobi emanates this absolute freak aura and it’s, like. very hot. like you can just tell he’s comfortable and confident in himself and would be down to do anything and get a lil weird with it, and that kind of energy is powerful.
namjoon — this is where parasocial relationships come in handy bc this is something i find so hot hypothetically but would make me wanna strangle him irl, but: his petty streak. my god this man is SO petty and i find it SO hot, but if it was directed at me i’d cry so bad. like, hickeygate??? closer pt. 2?? kill me.
jimin — his absolute disregard for gender roles. really fucking hot. talking abt how much toxic masculinity sucks? hot. drawing the bigender symbol on himself? hot. being described as having “gender neutral charm”? hot.
this is not me trying to assign him a label. it’s me as a person who does not necessarily feel all that connected to their gender (hard to describe what i mean by this but: i’m cis and know i’m cis but i still don’t know what being a woman means to me personally, and therefore i feel disconnected from it sometimes) seeing someone look at what society expects them to look and be like because they’re a man, and say, “yeah, nah.”
taehyung — how messy he is. another trait that might drive me bonkers irl, but from a very far distance? love it. it’s similar to what i said about jimin in the sense that, as an idol, there are expectations for him. and he just waves them away. like, there are not very many idols who are gonna go on weverse and threaten to shoot someone in the neck for violating their privacy, but taehyung will, and that’s very hot of him. those pictures from that club in paris? also very hot of him. he just sort of does what he wants and in an industry that’s so rigid and boxed-in, i can’t help but love a rebel.
jungkook — idk man. fucking everything. i had an embarrassing and public meltdown over him last year in his calvin klein era and now i can’t look him in the eye. if you put a gun to my head and made me pick one, though? it’s the way he’s got this overwhelming sort of fuckboy energy but you also know you could make him cry. we love a man with duality.
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charmedreincarnation · 11 months
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hii maya!!! i have a success story and im so excited bc this is my first manifestation success story.
for context for everyone else, i was getting bullied at my workplace. my boss hated me and would mock me in front of people and my coworkers disliked me and disincluded me from things and talked behind my back. It was so bad and i was searching for another job instead even though this was so close to my house, the pay was good, the actual work was easy. etc. I told maya abt this and she was such an angel and would let me vent to her and gave me a lot of advice about manifesting.
I wish I could say that I took her advice and changed my life but I honestly struggled a lot. I rmbr crying every single night before going to work and constantly just dreading being there or the thought of having to be there.
But everytime I vented, maya would always tell me to just affirm while listening to theta waves as I was going to sleep so I tried to atleast do that. In hindsight this was a really big thing. I was recently looking into SATS and reading posts about how important what you do before sleeping is because you are super suggestible. I think crying every night made me keep manifesting that my job sucked and stuff whereas affirming that it was great helped to start changing that.
I also tried to ignore the bullying and just act like I was being treated correctly. Like one time my boss said that she wished she had hired someone else and before I would have said nothing and just gone home and cried but instead I just laughed, taking it as a joke, and said that I'll make sure to work hard so that she can be proud of hiring me.
Slowly over the course of 2 weeks things started to change. We got 2 new people added into the team and one of them sits next to me and is my friend and I talk to him a lot. My boss and coworkers are okay with me now, like we have nice small talks and I haven't been undermined in a while. I made an error and before it would have become a big issue and while I did get scolded slightly, it was more of a "be more careful when doing this" versus what I usually got which was "you are so stupid, why are you like this." I also made a lot of other friends at work and work is pretty fun! I look forward to going to work sometimes (not all the time bc I'd rather just be at home in bed) but yeah it has changed so much and I'm much happier.
i just want to thank you so much maya. you are such an angel and i genuinely appreciate you so much. i can't wait to come back to you with a void success story!!
I am beyond proud of you! Your Success is proof that you overcame everything and persevered. But I actually want to point out your reaction to your boss, and encourage everyone to follow suit. You quite literally laughed at the 3D which is what I would do metaphorically but I mean physically probably works better lol.
Regardless I’m happy for everything you’ve accepted as yours. I’m also glad this is only encouraging you to want to go farther and achieve your entire dream life, not just a good one you can tolerate. When I reached this stage I remember I had a thought like “well maybe I should just accept this” “or it’s not that bad now I guess so do I really need to continue or can I chill” and if you have to ask yourself that the answer is no and you know you deserve it all at the highest degree.
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love-belle · 10 months
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i should hate u !!!
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which their post break-up era is them using shady captions to communicate and the media and fans being confused.
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for when you loved them too much. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
social media au // max verstappen x fem!reader
sequel - today and tomorrow and every day after that ⋆·˚ ༘ *
warnings - language
author's note - hello!!! i really hope u like this <3 i was initially gonna do daniel ricciardo one first but i already had 1/2 of this done so i just decided to post this :) thank u sm for reading <3 i love u
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f1news y/n y/l/n and max verstappen called it quits almost a month ago and it seems like they didn't end on good terms at all. the singer, at her london show last night, threw shade at her ex-boyfriend, saying and we quote, "the next song wouldn't have been possible without this one dude who inspired it obviously. so — here's 'i should hate you'. spoiler alert, i do. thank you!" the reason for the split is still unknown but sources who claim to be close to the pair said that 'it was bound to happen — with their different goals and plans for the future," seemingly referring to the talks that y/l/n wanted to get married and verstappen didn't. both of them have yet to comment on the situation. for more details, click on the link in our bio.
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username WOAH
username pause.
username ahahahahaha say what.
username oh my god 💀💀💀
username NOT HER CONFIRMING THAT I SHOULD HATE YOU IS ABT MAX
username no bc the way her voice cracked so many times in between the songs like girlie is angry AND hurt
username OH MY GOD
username i genuinely have no words
username omg the photos are NOT of her shading max. it's her laughing at a fan who yelled "you're the baddest bitch of all baddest bitches" at her
-> username YEAH LIKE SHE WAS SO CLOSE TO CRYING WHEN SHE SANG ISHY
username my delusional ass thinking they ended on good terms 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
username nah it's so champagne problems and you're losing me kinda thing i can't handle this whatcthe fucj
username OH WHATCTHEBFUCJ
username me getting the big guns out to defend her AND max with my LIFE
username still processing their breakup give me a year to digest this information
username STOP WHAT THE FUCK
username my parents ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️
username no bc she's genuinely such a sweet person so if she said this max must've done something 😭😭😭😭😭
-> username STOP NO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
username can't believe she's saying this about a dude for whom she wrote "feels like" for like wow.
username I WAS AT THAT SHOW AND SHE LOOKED SO SAD AFTER SHE SAID THIS I FELT SO BAD
-> username SHE ALSO STARTED CRYING WHEN SHE FINISHED SINGING I MISS U IM SORRY AND ZARA (HER LEAD GUITARIST) HAD TO RUN AND CONSOLE HER
-> username AND SHE SAID THAT THE LAST MONTH HAS BEEN HARD ON HER AND SHE APOLOGIZED IF THE SHOW WASN'T AS GOOD AS THE OTHERS
-> username NAH MOTHER ATE AS ALWAYS
username y'all saying this but not the fact that she ALSO said "in another life we would've worked but im grateful for everything i had because for a moment you were mine"
-> username MY HEART JUST BROKE WHATCTHEBFUCK
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maxverstappen1 i know i say that i am better now, spoiler alert, i am
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username the way my jaw dropped
username THE PICTURES
username GODDAMN
username someone take away y/n's phone before she hits back 💀💀💀
-> username the way i know that she would absolutely destroy him
username NOT THE PHOTOS OMG
danielricciardo spoiler alert, also a liar
-> maxverstappen1 you promised you wouldn't snitch
username he definitely cried while posting this idc
username max babe it's okay to admit that u miss ur wifey bc same 💔💔💔
-> username "wifey" girl he didn't even wanna marry her
-> username not another word.
username funny haha 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 im crying 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 now get back with mom.
landonorris no you're not
-> maxverstappen1 i will block you
username lando and daniel exposing max 💀💀💀
username no bc he probably cries whenever he remembers that he fumbled a baddie like y/n
username "it's all better with you ❤️"
-> username i could've gone along with my day without seeing that just saying
-> username delete that RIGHT NOW before i start crying
username missing max simping for y/n like ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️
charles_leclerc i swear i can hear you crying from my hotel room
-> maxverstappen1 WE'RE NOT EVEN IN THE SAME HOTEL
username the way im SO sure he heard y/n saying that she hates him and that was the moment he gave up
-> username nah bc he was one of the "my girl's mad at me i hope i die" kinda guys
-> username wonder how he's surviving this tbh
username I CAN'T TAKE THIS SERIOUS IM SORRY THE POST IS JUST TOO FUNNY
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yourusername i hate you lol
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username HELP
username she could only get this much in before her manager took away her phone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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username no bc girl had a lot to say she's just trying to keep it cute
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username the way i know y/n FOUGHT for the right to post this caption
username this is MILD bc i know y/n can be ruthless 😭😭😭😭😭😭
landonorris "in love" alright.
-> yourusername IT'S FOR THE AESTHETIC
username mother and father are fighting i can't take this what tye fyxk
username 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
username mother slays everyday just saying
username no bc if y/n ever said ihy to me i would give up just a thought
lilymhe pretty bitch
-> yourusername u sure that's not u?????
username i REALLY hope she's at the next gp
-> username no bc the way max and her meeting would definitely be more entertaining than the race itself
username NOT THE SONG LYRICS WHAT HAVE U PLANNED
-> username oh fuck that broke my heart what the fuck
username missing my man max in the comments section being a whipped bitch so bad ://////
carmenmmundt can't wait to see you darling 🤍
-> yourusername counting down the seconds omg i missed u!!!!!!
username y/n's manager has her on lockdown i can tell 💀💀💀
-> username with what she said at her last show i wouldn't be surprised
landonorris the post has reached the target and the target is currently eating ice cream while singing your songs
-> yourusername OH OKAY
-> yourusername good to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
username she's so pretty it's not fair wtf
username the caption omg
-> username it's SO mild compared to what i was expecting tbh 💀
username slay
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maxverstappen1 it's all better now
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yourusername and i swear to god i'd kill you if i loved you a less hard
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username SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
username OH MY GOD
username IS THAT MAX WHATCTHEBFUCK
username NOT Y/N SOFT LAUNCHING HER EX BOYFRIEND
username GIRL 😭😭😭😭 get up
username this is INSANE
username MOTHER?????? WHAT IS THIS??????
danielricciardo the most stressful week of my life if we're being for real
-> yourusername u can send m*x the therapy bill
-> maxverstappen1 don't. i did not agree to that.
username HER SONG LYRICS OH MY GOD
username SHE WROTE THIS SONG FOR MAX 😭😭😭😭😭😭
username okay but like. are we SURE that's max?????
-> username i simply refuse to believe that it's someone else so yes. that IS in fact max.
username OKAYYYYYYY
username did NOT see this coming in a thousand years
username obviously VERY happy for them but y/n censoring max's name is so fucking hilarious like
-> yourusername babe it's m*x
-> username my bad ur absolutely right it's m*x
-> maxverstappen1 this is bullying
username DID HE PUT A RING ON IT WHATXTHEBFUCK
-> username NO BC THAT WOULD MAKE SM SENSE
username so i lost SLEEP over nothing????????
maxverstappen1 nice pants
-> yourusername thanks they would look better on ur floor
-> maxverstappen1 say less
-> username i think i just died whatcthebfuxk
-> username oh they're GOOD now
username imagine they just drop engagement photos out of the blue then what.
-> yourusername imagine lol
-> username WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
username i just know y/n's eating up every moment of this chaos
-> maxverstappen1 demons thrive in chaos so
-> yourusername well! it was nice to reconcile for a couple days, goodbye now.
username im crying whayctrhbfcuk
landonorris mother father
-> yourusername child
-> maxverstappen1 no
-> username ah yes the four family members mother father child and no
username THE HEART THE EVERYTHING THEM
username they STILL don't follow eachother LMFAO
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first starkid fic! pretty happy w it.
jason x richie (aka weeball), chatfic, slightly angsty, 1052 word
*10/21/21 , 4:07 pm*
*DMS with @jsnjepson and @weeaborichie*
jsnjepson: hi 
jsnjepson: did u get home safe?
weeaboorichie: I’m omw home right now
weeaboorichie: ╥﹏╥
jsnjepson: okay !!
jsnjepson: you have food yeah?
jsnjepson: for the plane tomorrow 
weeaboorichie: yeah
weeaboorichie: I have like everything 
weeaboorichie: I’m still so pissed abt it tbh (¬、¬)
weeaboorichie: god my eyes hurt
weeaboorichie: from crying o(TヘTo)
jsnjepson: I’m so sorry love
jsnjepson: it’s so unfair I’m sorry you have to go through this
jsnjepson: you wanna call?
weeaboorichie: that would be nice
weeaboorichie: I’m sorry about all of this
jsnjepson: it’s not your fault
jsnjepson: I’ll text you every day 
jsnjepson: I promise
*@jsnjepson started a call that lasted 4 hours, 21 minutes and 8 seconds.*
*10/22/21 , 10:35 AM”
*DMS with @jsnjepson and @weeaborichie*
jsnjepson: what are u doing rn? <3
weeaboorichie: we just got in the place
weeaboorichie: haven’t taken off yet 
weeaboorichie: when we do my wifi will probably get so shitty too
weeaboorichie: idk if I can talk to you then (ノ﹏ヽ)
jsnjepson: that’s fine, don’t worry about it please love
jsnjepson: how do you feel?
weeaboorichie: physically or mentally
weeaboorichie: physically fine , I took advil 
weeaboorichie: but mentally. god. so shit
weeaboorichie: jace I’m gonna miss you so so much
weeaboorichie: and pete 
weeaboorichie: and ruth 
weeaboorichie: I don’t wanna leave
weeaboorichie: I’ve never even met this woman
weeaboorichie: uncle paul hasn’t met her since he was like. a baby
weeaboorichie: I have no clue why we’re MOVING. to like buttfuck nowhere texas 
weeaboorichie: neither of us care abt her
weeaboorichie: but we gotta uproot our whole fucking lives to take care of her
weeaboorichie: I DONT KNOW WHY WE CAN’T MOVE BACK WHEN SHE KICKS THE BUCKET TOO
weeaboorichie: god I just. he won’t tell me much and
weeaboorichie: I love you guys too much to. never see you again
weeaboorichie: god I can’t think about that
jsnjepson: that’s so shitty
jsnjepson: I’m so sorry love 
jsnjepson: I love you so so so much okay prince?
weeaboorichie: I love you too
weeaboorichie: thank you
weeaboorichie: I love you
weeaboorichie: fuck fuck fuck we’re taking off
jsnjepson: have a good flight love
jsnjepson: text me when you land please?
weeaboorichie: will do
weeaboorichie: I love you
weeaboorichie: bye bye
jsnjepson: bye love <3
*11/02/21, 12:43 am*
*DMS with @IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD and @jsnjepson*
jsnjepson: dude I just fucking
jsnjepson: I miss him so god damn much
jsnjepson: I don’t want to get out of bed
jsnjepson: ever
jsnjepson: my eyes hurt from crying
IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD: you’re like 
IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD: so down bad man
IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD: you wanna
IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD: come over to my house or something 
IAMJAGERMAN-IAMGOD: later
jsnjepson: not really
jsnjepson: I don’t wanna do anything
jsnjepson: but thanks bro
jsnjepson: for asking 
*11/04/21, 3:14 pm*
*GROUPCHAT with @micropeter, @flemwad and @weeaboorichie* 
weeaboorichie: i want to go HOME
weeaboorichie: this SUCKS
weeaboorichie: I don’t know ANYONE HERE!!!
weeaboorichie: I still get bullied
weeaboorichie: I miss you guys so so much
weeaboorichie: I’d do anything for a movie night with you two
weeaboorichie: and Jason
weeaboorichie: oh god Jason
weeaboorichie: I miss him so so much
weeaboorichie: it like actually hurts
weeaboorichie: we text and call like every day but
weeaboorichie: it’s not the same
micropeter: Sorry Richie :(
micropeter: We miss you a lot here too.
micropeter: Study sessions are so so much more boring without you.
flemwad: YES THEY ARE
flemwad: godddd I’d even watch one of ur weird ass animes w you I miss you so much
flemwad: and not  for the sexy anime girls !!!
flemwad: not just for the sexy anime girls
weeaboorichie: thanks guys
weeaboorichie: I love you two
weeaboorichie: I’m gonna go eat dinner now
*11/07/21, 2:21 PM.*
*DMS with @jsnjepson and @weeaborichie*
jsnjepson: hi love!!
jsnjepson: how’s it going? everything sorta ok over there?
weeaboorichie: actually. pretty good! 
weeaboorichie: I met this kid at my new school
weeaboorichie: his name is Ethan
weeaboorichie: he’s so cool
weeaboorichie: he likes anime and stuff!! he’s all caught up on Naruto too!!! 
weeaboorichie: he lets me borrow his manga alllll the time
jsnjepson: woaaa!!!
jsnjepson: that’s so cool! I’m so happy for you!!! 
jsnjepson: you wanna have a movie night tonight? online? we can watch the movie for that anime you like
weeaboorichie: maybe sometime
weeaboorichie: I’m hanging out w Ethan tonight 
weeaboorichie: okay okay I gotta go!!
weeaboorichie: I love you so much 
jsnjepson: okay!! I love you prince
jsnjepson: have fun
*11/11/21, 6:58 PM*
*DMS with @jsnjepson and @weeaboorichie*
weeaboorichie: hey jace!! sorry it’s been so long 
weeaboorichie: I’ve been busy with my new school and Ethan and everything
*11/11/21, 8:43 PM*
weeaboorichie: jace?
weeaboorichie: sorry if ur busy I totally get it
jsnjepson: SORRY SORRY I’m so so sorry I’m sorry I was at Max’s house
jsnjepson: that’s fine that’s fine!! I’m glad you’re settling into things!!
jsnjepson: how’s everything going ?? how are you?
*12/02/21, 9:32 AM*
weeaboorichie: fine
weeaboorichie: school is nice! 
weeaboorichie: me and Ethan have an anime club now and it’s so cool we watch two episodes every Friday and it’s like book club but for anime
weeaboorichie: he’s so cool he got me a jujitsu kaisen hoodie for my birthday!!!
*12/02/21, 12:59 AM*
jsnjepson: that’s cool
jsnjepson: a bunch of scouts came to the last game at hfhs and talked to me and max
jsnjepson: we might get to go to a really good collage for this
jsnjepson: college
jsnjepson: what college are you going too? 
weeaboorichie: uh idk
weeaboorichie: I think the same one as Ethan he has it figured out and stuff
weeaboorichie: I want to at least
weeaboorichie: you could send me whatever college u wanna go too
weeaboorichie: I guess I could look into them
*01/01/22, 1:00 AM.*
weeaboorichie: happy new years
jsnjepson: happy new years
*02/16/22, 9:30 AM*
weeaboorichie: sry it’s been awhile since I checked in
weeaboorichie: hru?
*02/17/22, 2:54 AM*
jsnjepson: good 
jsnjepson: wbu?
weeaboorichie: fine
*02/20/22*
*03/05/22*
*03/15/22*
*03/20/22*
*03/29/22, 12:43*
jsnjepson: I dont think i’m in love with you any more
*Read*
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loveyougoodbi · 6 months
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your tags on the post abt max talking about charles cheeky move in the first lap is making me emotional 🥺
I am so glad my tags wake emotions in people. But its not me, its these 2 guys, these beautiful talented amazing 2 people that do this to us. This whole day, them sitting down and talking about racing each other with a big smile on their faces, a smile charles didn't even have on the podium after getting p2. How can we not be emotional over them? It's impossible. He worked so hard in quali, he put that ferrari on the front row next to max and was so happy and so hopeful that he can win that p2. He worked so hard the entire race he did everything he could and more and was so dissapointed in the end. But then he sat down next to Max and he smiled and was truly happy again. Because at least Charles got to fight his favorite rival. And Max knew. And Max watched Charles the entire time, and he made him laugh and cjenxnen. But you know what makes me the most emotional? He didn't get to do the donuts with Max. 😭 try to think about it without crying I dare you. He wanted at least that, to be a little less dissapointed. And they said no and he didn't do it. I can feel how much he wanted it. And now I'm crying.
So anon yeah, we're emotional but can you blame us? Some people are saying we got less content today. I say today we got a lot more than any other race.
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NPMD WAS SO FUCKING GOOD AND NOW I'M GONNA TALK ABT IT IN A REALLY DISORGANIZED FASHION
ruth and richie were hilarious characters, and i am GLAD they didn't turn out to be smokescreens for different pre-established characters (...technically? not main characters anyway, but goddamn i was not expecting the paulkins cameo). poor richie, that whole scene with him being like "i'm not a loser anymore, i'm one of the guys! i love life! :)" when we know that he's about to murdered was such a hilarious gut punch, and ruth was just,,, god, diversity win, this sweaty disaster of a teenage girl who gets wedgied to death is canonically bisexual. what a legend.
will branner is INCREDIBLE, holy shit. he steals the show as max in every scene he's in. max may be my favorite villain in the hf stage trilogy, he's as hilarious as he is menacing. he's like. i dunno, jock beetlejuice? something like that. also new ship just dropped, will and jon's unnamed student characters during best of you.
speaking of best of you, god the MUSIC was so great. don't know if it quite beats out black friday for me yet, but it's damn good. literal monster wasn't my favorite like i was expecting, i'll have to give it another listen to pin that down. but still, what a score, not one skip happening once this cast album hits spotify.
pete and steph were once again Cute As Hell, it was really neat seeing their relationship play out over the course of a full show. their "i don't love you but maybe i actually do" song in beanies (forgot what it was called lol whoops) was a banger, and seeing them walk out in their cute lil homecoming outfits in the end put the dumbest smile on my face. also, that reprise of cool as i think i am in act 2 nearly made me cry, joey as pete was a phenomenal choice.
grace,,, holy shit, i love what they did with grace in this show. hearing her call god a son of a bitch before stealing the gun from one of the officers and turning back on them threw me into another goddamn dimension. dirty girl and bully the bully were hilarious songs (feel like i'm overusing that word, but how else can i describe it?), and holy shit, her having sex with max's ghost to vanquish him and then proceeding to go mad with power?? my jaw was dropped, that was incredible. i never could've predicted that in a million years and i've never been more delighted.
me like one month ago: yeah i don't think we're gonna see the lords in black in npmd since this is supposed to be a more standalone hf show than black friday :/. literally all five of the lords in black: we're about to end this dumbasses whole career. that was WILD. their song wasn't my favorite in the show (if only bc it was kinda hard to hear with the digital ticket audio), but i am ecstatic to have canon human designs for all five of them now.
god, i feel like there's more i wanna say, but there's just so much to talk about. all i can say is that after three years of delays, i'm so so happy that we're finally getting to see npmd. dunno how it stacks up against tgwdlm and black friday for me yet, but i'm just overjoyed. can't wait for the youtube version and the cast album, they're gonna be great.
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How Will I Know (Chapter One) - Steve Harrington
A/N: hello my loves, just to continue with my Steve Harrington obsession, I now bring you a series for King Steve! I’m not sure how long it will be, about five or six chapters I think but I hope you like it :D this will be set in season 2 since Steve is still in school but after he broke up with Nancy of course :) also it will feature Eddie and Robin because... well, why not xD
Request - my-idea-was-stolen asked: So i was thinking abt a request for steve where the girl is secretly pinning over him but is suree that he won't notice her because of how she's not popular but good at studies and everything but then somehow he notices her when they both get assigned together to do something and then jalshdkdlf their relation blooms ?!?!Idk if this makes sense but yeah ik not really sure abt the plot of it either so I'm sorry but yeah hope u like it 
Warnings: set in S2; reader wears glasses; Hellfire guys being kind of assholes at first; I think that’s it but please tell me if I miss anything
Disclaimer: I don’t own Stranger Things :D gif isn’t mine :)
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How Will I Know
There's a boy I know, he's the one I dream of Looks into my eyes, takes me to the clouds above  Oh, I lose control, can't seem to get enough, uh-huh When I wake from dreaming, tell me, is it really love?
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"You're staring again" you were snapped out of your thoughts by Eddie's voice.
"W-what? No, I wasn't" you said, going back to your food but feeling your cheeks burning as you looked down.
"Oh, really? Then what were we talking about" Gareth laughed.
"Uh- about... the uh- next campaign for D&D?"
"Not even close" Jeff laughed.
"Hey" Kevin said, walking over and sitting down. "What's going on?"
"Well, she's staring at Harrington again" Gareth laughed.
"I am not!"
"Really? Again? Aren't you over your little crush?" Kevin laughed too.
"Shut up" you said, feeling your cheeks burning and not daring to look up from your food.
"Come on, we're just doing this for your own good" Jeff insisted, pushing your arm a little.
"Exactly, it's time you let go over that stupid crush-" Gareth told you.
"Guys" Eddie warned, noticing how your behavior changed and you were not comfortable with this conversation.
"I mean, imagine Steve 'The Hair' Harrington falling for someone like you" Kevin said, laughing a little too loud along with your other friends.
"Shut up! You don't have to be such jerks about it" you snapped.
"We're not saying it to be jerks" Gareth told you. "But come on, his last girlfriend was Nancy Wheeler" he chuckled.
"Yeah, you can't really compare yourself to Nancy Wheeler" Kevin added. "She's beautiful and you're-"
"I'm what, Kevin?" you asked, getting upset.
"Well, you just don't look like the kind of girls that King Steve goes out with" Jeff stated. "So, it would be best if you just let it go" he said.
"Right" you said, feeling a big lump in your throat and trying your best not to cry. "Thank you so much for reminding me that, guys" you said, getting up and walking away from them.
"Hey, princess, come on!" Gareth tried before he felt Eddie hitting him on the back of his head.
"What the fuck is wrong with all of you?" Eddie snapped.
"What are you talking about, we didn't say anything that wasn't true" Jeff told him.
"Really? Well, how do you think it makes her feel when you tell her that she's not as pretty as Nancy Wheeler? What the fuck?"
"We didn't mean to-?"
"Yeah, well, you still did" he said, getting up. "You guys suck sometimes" he muttered and then he glared at Gareth. "And only I call her princess" he said before following you.
As soon as you stepped into the last bathroom stall, you removed your glasses and finally let the tears fall down your cheeks. You felt embarrassed, but mostly, angry. Not because your friends were jerks, which they were, but because they were right. You had no idea why you couldn't let this go. You had been in love with Steve Harrington for so long but you knew it was completely useless. He was one of the most popular guys in school. Even after Nancy Wheeler had broken up with him and now Billy Hargrove seemed to be making his way to the top. He was perfect. Everything about him. His beautiful chocolate eyes. His soft, wonderful hair. His, big, bright, adorable smile. Everything about him was perfect in your eyes. And you? You were basically invisible. A wallflower. A nobody. You knew there was no way in a million years that someone as perfect as Steve Harrington would ever even notice someone as insignificant as you. You heard someone entering the bathroom and walking right in front of your door before they knocked.
"Go away, Eddie" you said, trying your best not to have your voice break.
"You know that's not gonna happen, princess" he said, leaning against the wall. You sighed and got up, opening the door and revealing your tear-stained face. "Aw, c'mere" he said, hugging you to him and you broke down crying. "Don't listen to them, sweetheart-"
"But they're right, Eddie" you said, pulling away. "And I know it shouldn't bother me this much but-" you sighed. "Why do I have to like someone like Steve Harrington?"
Eddie was your best friend in the entire world. The two of you grew up next to each other and he was like the big brother you never had. If it wasn't for him, you probably wouldn't even have any other friends. Aside from Robin.
"Because that's not something you can decide" he laughed. "Look, Harrington's not that bad" he tried. "You never know, maybe he has a thing for nerdy, shy girls who like to play D&D" he said, trying to cheer you up and making you chuckle just slightly.
"You're just saying that because you hope Chrissy Cunningham has a thing for metalheads with long hair who love to play D&D" you smiled up at him.
"Hey! It could happen. At least Chrissy and I have hung out before-"
"Once, at our talent show in middle school, and I honestly doubt she remembers" you chuckled.
"Well, still" he argued, glad that you were feeling better. "So, are you gonna be okay, or do you need me to kill those assholes we call friends?" he said, making you laugh a little again.
"I'm okay" you said, hugging him again. "Thanks, Eddie" you smiled. "Now get out of the girls' bathroom before someone sees you" you said and he chuckled, kissing your head and leaving.
You went over to wash your face and fix yourself when you heard the bell ring. You quickly grabbed your things and made your way out of the bathroom as fast as you could but bumped into someone when you did.
"Jesus Christ!" you heard that voice. You looked up from the floor and found Steve Harrington looking back at you. "I'm sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going, are you alright?" he asked, offering you his hand. You looked at it and back at him and you nervously took it, trying your best to stop your hand from shaking.
"Y-yeah, that's okay, I wasn't paying attention either" you said shyly.
"You sure you didn't hurt yourself?" he asked, flashing the most beautiful smile you'd ever seen.
"Y-yes, I'm f-fine" you chuckled nervously.
"Okay, cool" he said. "See you around, then" he said, walking past you back on his track.
You sighed, staring dreamily at him. You knew Eddie had just tried to make you feel better. But every time you looked at Steve, there was a small part of you that hoped with all of your heart that he could maybe be right.
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"I'm just saying, I don't get what the big deal is" Robin, another one of your few friends, told you while you were in class. "I mean, look at him. He always gets bagel crumbs all over the floor and he asks dumb questions and he's such a douchebag-"
"Hey! Cut him some slack" you complained. "You're just saying that because you hate that Tammy Thompson has a crush on him" you whispered.
"I'm just saying, I don't get why you like him so much" she told you.
"Well, he's cute" you said as if it was obvious. "And he's nice. I bumped into him today and he helped me up and-"
"Whoa, hold on! You talked to him? As in talk to him?" she asked, curiously.
"Don't say it like that, I have talked to him before-"
"No, you haven't!" she laughed and you glared at her.
"Yes, I have!"
"Let's recall, shall we?" she asked, grabbing one of your notebooks she knew you used as your personal 'I love Steve Harrington' journal. She looked through the pages and landed on one. "Ah! Here. He asked you if he could borrow a pencil" she chuckled and looked for another entry. "On this day, he asked, what you got for answer number three on a math test. Spicy" she mocked you and you glared at her. "And, on this day, which is my personal favorite" she smirked. "He shared with you his passion hatred towards Billy Hargrove saying, 'What an ass, huh?'" she said, going over to a new blank page. "So, I guess we can now add, 'Bumped into him and he helped me up'" she wrote on it. "You know, if you keep this up, you might end up married by graduation-"
"Alright, fine, that's enough!" you rolled your eyes, grabbing the notebook from her.
"I'm just saying, the guy is a douchebag, how can you think he's this perfect?"
"You're the one to talk! You think Tammy Thomson is perfect!" you whispered the last part.
"She is!"
"She wants to be like a singer" you laughed.
"So? She has dreams!"
"Have you heard her sing? She sounds like a muppet!"
"She does not!"
"Does too!"
"Uh, hey ladies" the two of you stopped when you heard someone interrupting and you looked up to see Steve Harrington standing there.
"Holy shit" you both muttered under your breath. Had you somehow summoned him? "Uh... h-hello" you managed to say, trying not to stare at him while Robin smirked.
"I was going to ask if you wanted to switch places since Tammy is your partner" he said, looking at Robin.
"W-what? P-partner? What do you mean partner?" she stuttered, nervously.
"For... the project?" Steve said as if it was obvious. "Mrs. Click just... assigned partners?" he kept going. "You're with Tammy Thompson" he explained. "And I'm with you" he said, looking straight at you.
"Y-you're with m-me?" you stuttered, trying not to let your heart warm at the sound of the sentence that Steve Harrington was with you.
"Oh! Right, yeah, I knew that" Robin said, grabbing all of her stuff and winking at you. "Good luck" she said before she ran over to Tammy Thompson. Steve let out a soft chuckle and took Robin's place in front of you.
"So, it looks like we're gonna be partners" he said.
"Uh-huh" you were only able to say.
"I'm Steve-" he started as he stuck out his hand.
"Harrington, I know" you smiled awkwardly, shaking his hand. You are so stupid. "I uh- we've had classes together since kindergarten" you said blushing even more at the fact that he really had no idea who you were. Of course, he wouldn't. He was Steve Harrington and you were... well, nobody.
"W-we have?" he asked with his smile falling and feeling a bit bad about not remembering you. "I m-mean, o-of course we have" he said awkwardly.
If you had felt stupid the entire day, courtesy of your friends, you felt a new level beyond that now. Here you were, literally writing down the four times Steve Harrington had barely acknowledged your existence and he had absolutely no idea who you were.
"You have no idea what my name is, do you?" you said with a small smile to let him know you weren't mad at the fact that he didn't. Because, really, why would he? Steve bit his lip awkwardly and placed his hand on the back of his head, which you think was absolutely adorable.
"Uh- y-yes" he said with his cheeks blushing. "O-of course, I do-" he chuckled nervously.
"You do?" you asked with an arched eyebrow. You knew he was only trying to be polite, but a really small part of you actually hoped that he might just know it. Even if it was because Mrs. Click had just told him his partner's name.
"Yeah" he insisted.
"Well, what is it then?" you asked with a small chuckle.
"It's um-" he said, looking down at your things to see if your name was on them, but no such luck. How could he not know? Mrs. Click had just told him and pointed at you when she assigned him his partner. "Umm-"
"It's (Y/N)-"
"(Y/N), yes! I was just going to say that!" he insisted, making you laugh a little.
"Of course, you were" you smiled.
"I swear!" he insisted with a sweet smile. "Alright, I promise I won't forget it from now on, okay?"
"It's okay, really" you assured him. "There's no real reason why you should remember my name" you smiled shyly, but it came out sadder than you intended to and Steve felt a string pulled on his heart.
"Hey, no, don't say that" he told you. "I'm just... really bad at names" he insisted. "I promise I won't forget it, alright? I mean, now we're partners, and... didn't I just bump into you earlier today?" he asked, making your stupid heart flutter at the thought of him remembering you. Yeah, as the dumb girl who bumped into him.
"Uh- yeah" you nodded. "That was me" you said, feeling your cheeks burning.
"See? So it was meant to be" he smiled. "We bumped into each other and now we're partners" he smiled at you. Meant to be. "So... should we... get started on this project?"
"Oh, y-yeah, sure" you smiled shyly and realized you had no idea what the project was about.
"Could I... take a look at your notes? To be honest, I wasn't really paying attention" he chuckled, grabbing your notebook.
"Sure-" you said before you realized which notebook he took. "Wait, NO!" you said, grabbing it from him and closing it, putting it in your bag. That was your 'Steve entry' journal. "Uh- that's m-my notebook for another class" you said, feeling your cheeks burning like they never had before.
"Oh, sorry" he laughed, a little confused when he saw your other notebook on our desk, with a blank page. "Were you... also not paying attention?"
"Um... r-right, I was... kind of distracted talking to Robin" you admitted. "But... it looks like what we have to do is pick a classic book, like The Great Gatsby, and see how it can adapt to our daily life" you said, looking at the board and starting to take notes.
"Okay, cool so, we should do The Great Gatsby then-"
"A-actually, I don't think we should do that one" you said, nervously.
"Why not?" he asked, confused.
"Well, firstly, I think everyone will be doing that one" you rolled your eyes a little. "And secondly, it's a boring book" you admitted.
"What? You think The Great Gatsby is boring?" he chuckled.
"Don't get me wrong, it's a good book but... it's written by some rich white guy about some rich white guy, and I guess we're supposed to feel bad for him because he's obsessed with the only girl he can't have?" you chuckled.
"Well, maybe more people than you think can relate to that" Steve said, quietly.
"Maybe you can, but I don't... at all" you insisted. "I'm just saying there are plenty of other books, better books, that we can consider" you suggested.
"Okay, like which one?"
"Well" you said, grabbing your bag and putting out some of the books in them.
"Holy shit, you read all of these?" he asked, as you took out about five books. "Wait, are they like... for school or something?"
"No" you said shyly. "I just... like to read, I guess" you smiled.
"Okay, well I haven't read any of these" he said, going through your books. "So, you can choose which one-"
"N-no" you replied. "That wouldn't be fair" you told him. "Maybe we can each narrow it down to five books-" you stopped when you saw his worried expression. "Or three books, that should be enough" you said, seeing him sigh in relief. "And then we can decide together" you smiled politely.
"Okay, sure- sounds good" he smiled. "So, do you want to get together after school to work on this?" he asked casually. Even if it was a study date, your heart still couldn't tell the difference. You were going to hang out with Steve Harrington after school. No, no you weren't.
"Um, uh- a-actually I have to work today" you said, feeling disappointed.
"Oh, where do you work?" he asked curiously.
"At the... diner" you said as if it was obvious. As if he should remember to see you there at least once since he's there every Saturday.
"Benny's Diner?" he asked and you nodded. "No kidding! I love it there! I go there all the time" he smiled.
"I know" you blurted out before you could stop yourself. "I m-mean, I see everyone from school there all the time" you covered up. "It's pretty packed Fridays and Saturdays" you said. "I've... seen you there with your friends" you smiled. Not friends. Dates. Girls you have always secretly wished it was you. "I'm off tomorrow, though" you said, getting back to the point.
"Well, then tomorrow it is" he smiled.
"Uh- um, s-sure, we could get together at the library-"
"Oh, I was thinking we could go to my house" he suggested, making your heart drop.
"At y-your house?" you asked, feeling your entire body shaking.
"Yeah, I mean, it's just more comfortable than some old library, and I have way better snacks, I promise" he smiled. "If that's... okay with you, of course" he added.
"I uh- w- um-" you stuttered. You in Steve Harrington's house. "S-sure" you managed to blurt out.
"Cool" he said just as the bell rang. "So, we can meet up by the parking lot when school ends, sounds good?" he smiled. You were still processing your whole conversation so you could only nod. "Great, see you later, (Y/N)" he smiled before he walked away.
Holy shit. You were going to spend tomorrow afternoon with Steve fucking Harrington.
To Be Continued
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[Ch.2]
A/N: soooo what do you guys think? should I do a part 2? also, let me know if you would like to be tagged on the next part :D hope you liked it!
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smallcrystals · 3 months
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pls pls pls i need some flashspruce headcanons, idc what they're abt i just NEED
i've been on the verge of insanity lately
this is so real and honestly your insanity brought back mine so thank you
i feel like part of the reason i've kinda fell off my eqg soapbox is bc i felt like i've said all i've ever wanted to say abt them, but i don't think i have actually! if you do not mind me repeating myself occasionally:
between flashspruce, flash has the most experience with boys despite having realised his attraction to them later than timber did. this is mainly because flash is surrounded by more boys because high school, the maths is pretty simple
timber, on the other hand, had a more complicated relationship with sexuality because his gender was doing all sorts of funny things. he had an idea that he was pan (of course, he didn't have the words for it yet) but he was never sure if he was romantically interested in boys or just admired them so obsessively he wanted to be one. as timber grew into his teen years he realised it was both lol
timber hides this with his confidence but flash can see right through it because he's dealt with boys like this before when they've hit on him previously (though they're never quite as cute as timber is. pretty privilege i tell ya)
when they're friends, they have this specific dynamic that idk how to explain (the closest i can think of is hyung-dongsaeng in korean culture), but essentially it's this feeling of wanting to dote on your friends that are younger than you (even if it's just by months). that's how flash treats timber in the early stages – flash finds out he's older than timber by a few months and now he cannot think outside of timber = baby
timber loves the mane 7 but if flash is tagging along with their hangouts (which is usually the case, timber only rarely hangs out with them as a group by himself), he's very clingy and has his arm hooked with flash's. flash finds it adorable, especially when timber refuses to let go in public
i see 2 ways in which they can go from friends to lovers; either it's very natural and it doesn't feel like anything's changed, OR they've reached a breaking point where they're just seconds away from devouring each other. sunset says that sometimes flash looks at timber like he will leave bite marks on the guy if he doesn't stop whatever he's doing (existing). both are good i'd say
timber has always filmed little candids of flash when they start being friends, mainly on his phone but whenever they're out by themselves, he brings his fancy camera out. flash doesn't know this, mainly because timber doesn't show him out of embarrassment, but you can really tell the person who filmed the videos loves their muse
flash sends over lyric docs whenever he feels like it and usually these are without any context, literally no "hello" or "how are you", just [text].doc and timber's like ???. but then timber reads them and is like sad™. timber's never admitted to this, and it'll take him a while to do so, but there have been certain lines in flash's lyrics that had him crying. how many chances do you get in life where your muse considers you their muse too?
flash sometimes buys timber books that he's read just so timber can also read them and then freak out the same way he did. most of the time timber's reaction is "why would you make me read this i am now clinically insane" which was exactly flash's goal
i would try to debate who would be the pathetic lover between flashspruce but there is no answer to that bc they are both equally pathetic in their own ways sorry loverboys
flash actively joins timber when he goes to get more wood just so he can see timber in a tanktop and an axe but flash will deny this every step of the way
timber can't say anything though bc man does this as well during the summer months when the flash drive are performing at bars; flash is Not about to wear leather in this weather and timber's gonna enjoy every moment of it
and yeah flash teaches timber the guitar bc what is he if not a lover of music and queer rockstars (he thinks timber could make a really cool queer rockstar if not for the fact he would steal a million of girls' hearts in one second and a smile)
these two make me want to chew a wall. dead serious
(i see your ask about flash, i will get to that soon i promise 🫡)
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pixleslutz · 3 months
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Heyoo
How are you doing? Hope your day is going well! If reqs are open can I request something? Bllk boys ( sae, rin and possibly Kaiser, if you don't do multi characters then just rin) with a blind s/o? Fluffy angst kind of where reader is insecure abt them being a burden to the character and the character has to reassure them that they're not? Any gender is fine but I do have a preference for fem! Reader.
there's no need to accept this if you're not comfortable and just ignore this request if reqs are closed
Anyway, have a good morning/ afternoon/ evening/ night and byee :)
Hello hello anon 💜🌻I’m doing awesome thanks for asking! Yes request are open! It’s my first time writing something like this so it probably won’t be that good but I’ll give it a whirl 😅 ..and I hope you have a great morning/afternoon/evening/night :3333.
Summary:request above ^^^^
Sae
You and Sae have been dating for 2 years now and Sae was at a interview and you were at y’all’s shared home so you turned on the tv to listen to his interview and the reporters asked Sae a question “ Sae I’ve heard that you have a girlfriend who is blind correct ?” ..”yes i do why do you ask ?” ..”well don’t you think she’s a burden to you because of her blindness?and that she’s holding you back from progressing 100%?” …you turned pale at that question because why would someone ever say that about you so you switched the tv off not even wanting to know sae’s answer and you went to your shared room and cried … Sae couldn’t believe what the reporter asked he was so pissed he got up and yelled at the reporter and told his answer truthfully “no she’s not a burden or is she stopping me from progressing I love y/n and to be honest if I have to quit soccer for good just for her I would because that’s how much I love her screw this interview and screw you all too “ so he walked out and got in his car and drove home …as Sae walked in the door he didn’t see you in your usual spot waiting on him “y/n where are you my love ?” Then that’s when he heard your sniffles from the bedroom so he walked that way and knocked on the door “y/n can I come In please?” You walked to the door and opened it sniffling ..”Baby what’s wrong?” ..”Sae I think it’s time we break up “..”why my love I love you and you love me right?”
“Yes but I feel like I’m a burden to you with my blindness and am holding you back just like the reporter said today “..”baby no your not you’ve never held me back or were you ever a burden that reporter was being an asshole the only thing that matters is our love for each other if I have to give soccer up for you I will no hesitation ..I swear on my brother rin that you aren’t a burden nor are you holding me back “..you started crying even more as Sae held you in his arms while he reassured you ..you believed him and from that day on you never questioned if you were a burden!
Rin
You and rin were at a team dinner with all of his teammates and you were setting at a table with rin as you overheard a conversation behind you “hey man don’t you think y/n is burdening rin with her blindness ? “..”yeah he needs to dump her and focus more on soccer “and rin heard that aswell and had a death grip on his fork
“Hey rin I’m going to step out for a moment “ ..”y/n I think it’s time to go home it’s getting late here take the keys and I’ll be out in a minute I have a bone to pick with someone “..so he gave you the keys and as you were walking out with your service dog pico you heard rin “ok man that wasn’t cool to talk about my amazing girlfriend behind my back thinking I wouldn’t hear your sorry ass ..Y/n is just as normal as the rest of us it doesn’t matter if she’s blind or able to see she will never be a burden to me ever so you should shut your ass up and be respectful to others around you “and with that he walked out and he seen you setting down on the bench by the door with pico “I’m sorry about my teammates y/n they need to learn how to be respectful to others “ ..”but it makes sense rin just dump me and you’ll probably be better off “you couldn’t control the tears that fell “y/n we have been together for 4 years I’m not going to let you go just because someone said that the only thing that matters is my love for you you’ve never been a burden to me and never will be trust me y/n you are the most precious and wonderful woman I’ve ever met and that will never change no matter what “
“Let’s go home and enjoy ourselves there “ and with that you smiled and you both went home
Kaiser
You and Kaiser we setting at home enjoying each other’s company while listening to a ghibli movie play in the background as you and Kaiser were cuddling up on the couch ..you had been wondering for week now if you were a burden to Kaiser so you finally mustered up the courage to ask but you couldn’t help the sobs that escaped your lips as you asked “Kaiser am I a burden to you ? If I am please break up with me I’ll be ok if you say yes “ …”mein Schatz why would you ever think that you were a burden to me or did someone say something ..because whoever it is I’ll make sure to beat them up for you “ Kaiser proclaimed “well it was myself because I really do think I’m being a burden and you need to let me go where you can progress with your career “..he pulled you away from his chest and looked at you ..y/n you’ll never be a burden I swear on mine and ness’s life that you will never be a burden ever “he then say up and pulled you into his lap and captured your lips into a kiss of passion and reassurance and when you pulled away for a breath he kissed your forehead “trust me mein schatz i love you and you aren’t a burden” ..” i love you too Kaiser I believe you and I won’t think those things ever again “ and with that Kaiser switched the tv off and carried you to your shared room to take a nap
P.s.REQUEST ARE OPEN 💜🫶🏻
I hope you enjoyed xoxo Rebekah ✨🌻💜
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