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mach1ne-g1rl · 7 months

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collection of my digital bnha drawings .. sorryyyy

#can u tell who my favorite is #drawing tomura in a long skirt is therapeutic to me #i love making art for myself ok?#also do u like my 2 lov ponies #<- i was gonna do more but then i lost interest.. i drew them all on paper though.!!! those drawings will stay for me alone though #bnha #mha #shigaraki tomura #shigaraki yoichi #toga himiko #not tagging the rest sorry but they only appear once and erm thats awkward to me these 3 are the stars anyway #sun.art

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napneeders · 10 months

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his body language is so important to me

#i move like this #and also like. my instinct as a teen was to be effeminate and prancy (in an awkward way lmao hence why i love lucius so much) but then i sa #myself and deemed that everyone around me was just seeing those mannerisms as ~girly~ and i stopped #and i didn't know what all that was about obviously #although it was the exact age when i was maybe the closest #well that's enough about my bittersweet queer origin story #i should make a lucius spriggs having a bad time compilation (pretty sure i'd have half the material already)#lucius spriggs #ofmd #my gifs #buttons

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uncanny-tranny · 11 months

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The only reason I'm glad I didn't recognize I was trans sooner is because I would have totally named myself Brandon

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #trans meme #yes if i had named myself that i could have re-renamed myself but i am too awkward to have done so i think #i just do NOT look like a brandon. like idk what about names can make you go 'i look like a [name]' but like trust me #like you ever look at somebody and say 'they look like a [name]' and you're RIGHT? that's kinda freaky lmaoo 💀#anyway shoutout to the trans brandons out there i'm sorry i am not worthy enough to have joined your ranks (lighthearted)#i AM a firm believer that you can name yourself whatever 'weird' name is out there though. unironically that's what i believe #like fuck it!!! if your name is toaster then your name is toaster and i admire you for it!!!!!#names are simultaneously very important but also kind of absurd when you think about it

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puppyeared · 7 months

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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

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seiwas · 3 months

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my bf is my #1 fan and it’s the sweetest thing 🥺☹️

#i wish i could see myself the way he sees me !!! 🥹#he told me today that he thinks i could be an ig model if i rlly wanted to do it 😭😭😭😭😭😭#idk if he’s exaggerrating but he wouldn’t stop looking at me over lunch 😭🥺#i get super awkward and shy when i’m looked at or complimented so aksnsjxn #but 🥺 what a precious boy 🥺#making me laugh and smile all the time 🥺#it feels like a dream sometimes 🥺#lovebug #sorry i am mush we are 6 yrs old today 🥹#i have also known him for a third of my life 😭#i talked so much again

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anti-transphobia · 17 days

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Everyone posts about how Stardew Valley is a cozy LGBT+ inclusive game but NO ONE mentions the lack of a platonic option for the bachelors/bachelorettes. Which would be good for aspec people and also just more pleasant for many casual players I believe but that's not even the point. I just want to become best friends with everyone and not only does that require me dating everyone at once and feeling like a sleazebag because of it (ik the bad cutscene can be avoided but I know in my heart they'd be hurt if they knew) BUT it also means the women flirt with me!!!!! Constantly!!!!!!! It makes me sick to my stomach. Truly ruining the characters I liked

#this post is not that serious or meant to be an Analysis or a Discourse Post or a Hot Take or whatever #i just think the dating thing needs to be handled differently #i should be able to Not Date characters and still get 10 hearts with them #also ive never made it far enough in stardew valley to marry someone and this is the first time i could even date someone #and ive heard that the flirtatious comments dont stop once you're married which is. really awkward for me #i mean i could probably handle the guys flirting with me while im married but id hope being married would be an off switch for it #its just awkward to have ppl im not actually dating and only gave a bouquet to so i can be their friend be called my bf/gf when. they're Not #i seriously need to find some kind of mod to fix this once i finish getting all the girls up to ten hearts #i will deal with the stomach churning grossness of the flirting for a while so i can see everything #but then I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!!! I just want my friends back!!!!#maru and abigail and haley !!! my buds!!!#NOT emily shes scary and NOT leah because we just didn't click and DEFINITELY not penny because i fucking hate her #penny sucks. penny dni #but yeah the flirting feels gross because im gay and repulsed by women romantically/sexually #and even though i did open myself up to this by playing the game. because i dont want it it feels like its being forced on me #which makes it feel even WORSE than normal #and its like. not only do i feel like I'm stringing along these characters #but i feel like my friendship with my favourites is ruined :(

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sluttyten · 5 months

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My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone?#in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

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tabbyrocks · 8 months

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okay genuine question how come people think selfcest is like,,, evil. I don't see how kissing a clone of yourself or you from a different universe is bad??? like lowkey if i met me from a different universe id be like "oh boy smooching time!!!!!" but maybe im just odd

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bunnihearted · 12 days

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🐇☀️☁️🍦

#im glad i went today to hang out with my friend c:#it was nice to just hang out with another person and talk and stuff #i also just like how considerate she is #and she's accepting and chill. i can like tell her that oh im sorry if im low energy now im just overheated bc of the weather and im feeling #sad. and she'll be like dont worry thats ok! and it also is ok she doesnt get annoyed or anything #plus she doesnt look at me weird when there's awkward pauses and i cant express myself properly lol #i overanalyze too much i know :c but anyway it is always nice talking w her so it was nice today #we walked to a sushi place and then to the library #i only stayed for like 30min at the library even if i wanted to stay longer #i realized that it's bc like she had sushi which gives her energy #but i cant afford to buy things out lol so i never eat and refresh my energy #so after 3hrs i got so low energy and just wanted to go home #i should try to find smth easy and cheap i can bring to snack on so i can stay longer!! T-T ugh.. next time!!#we also met a dog! :o she was just standing alone outside a house and stared at the gate #and we came by she walked up to us and looked at me and was like 'get me inside :)'#so my friend went around the house and the owner came and was like omgggg she ran away again!!!#im glad it was so easy to help the dog bc i could not have left her alone by a street w cars and stuff #but she was so sweet and cute and let me pet her 💗#hmm yeah! then i walked home in the heat that killed me... and now im sitting in front of the fan ^-^#im not cut out for summer!!! anywaysss it was just a nice time #i wish i could've stayed longer. i'll make sure to bring a cheap snack next time so i can hang out more

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fortes-fortuna-iogurtum · 8 months

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have decided that I will not be reducing people to their current life phase, relationship status, religious affiliation, age, or any other exterior trapping. you are a person. I care about you. that's basically it. this is how I'm going to see the world from now on.

#making this post for myself #bc i'm fighting the uni trend to label and categorize people based on their chosen major or dorm building or what have you #you're not those things! you're a person! interesting and complex! just like me! and everyone else!#and I am working really hard to go out of my way to talk to people that don't fit the 'mold' of 'who I'm supposed to hang out with'#even though it's very tiring because it means that I'm having to learn a lot about how to communicate with very many different types of peo #people #and also work very hard to Not be concerned about what they think of me #if I come off uncertain or awkward or cold at first #gurt says stuff

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mayathescientist · 2 months

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I don't trust people who are obsessed with cleanliness and personal hygiene and rely on their feelings of disgust to make a moral judgement or form an opinion about a person.

I don't trust people who make conclusions about people very easily and like to claim people with one or two words they use to define this person's place in their eyes.

I don't trust people who are popular, sociable and talk about others a lot. I don't trust people who measure everyone by how that person compares to them.

for no particular reason at all :)

#maya posts #talking to mia #vent post #Almost #I hate my roommates and the way they talk about other people behind their backs and how they treat me with discreet contempt when I'm here #and how they no doubt already talked so much shit about me when I wasn't there considering discussing other people is this favorite pastime #they're also friends with our class leader which no doubt shaped her opinion about me loooool #can't wait to turn into an exile in my uni class too hell yeah #they know nothing about my personality my interests etc and frankly they don't fucking care #as long as they see that I'm fat obviously neurodivergent in my patterns of communication and have poor hygiene and have to build self care #habits from the ground up after years of untreated mental health issues #as long as they see I don't go out as much as them don't have many friends or a boyfriend and don't rly have what's considered achievements #their judgement on me is sealed #and it would be fine if they just thought i was a loser because well socially I am and they think so too #they literally pretend I don't exist. like it's just the two of them living in the room.#all of the decisions are made without me. they cook for themselves I cook for myself. my attempts to even ask if I can move something while #cleaning are IGNORED.#all of my attempts to mend our relationship by giving them awkward gifts or clean the room every other day since I know how obsessed with #cleanliness they are #all of my attempts to make peace were IGNORED.#whenever someone knocks on our door it's always one of their friends looking for them #I'm a nobody #absolutely a nobody #I literally just don't exist.#also these girls are extremely lesbophobic and just bigoted in general I don't think they know anything about my queerness but they might be #just kinda able to tell #I literally wear boxers and flannel shirts and I own a shirt with a male cut and I have extremely short hair and wear exclusively trousers #I don't think they haven't noticed #considering the fact they cared enough to notice how often I was my hands

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questwithambition · 11 months

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New York has been treating me pretty well ✨

#although the slight shift in culture keeps hitting me in the face #also it’s super difficult to make small talk here like I’m feeling like the most awkward person ever which usually isn’t a thing #but a lot of learning!#and I’ve been pushing myself to make sketches!#so. many. windows.#anyhow that’s all from me #questwithambition #studyblr #new york #new york city #view #sunset #wine #aesthetic #travel

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player1064 · 2 months

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ok first of all love your stuff second of all gary getting all flustered about freddie flintoff in 'it's just not what's done' is one of my favourite things in any fic and i would adore it if you wrote anything more involving gary getting flustered about the big handsome cricket man if you ever got the chance

I! LOVE! GARY GETTING FLUSTERED OVER BIG HANDOME CRICKET MAN FREDDIE FLINTOFF!!!! his poor gay nerves can't handle it........ can you IMAGINE if beautiful twink (~96-99) Gary had met him I think he would probably have died.

ANYWAY this lil drabble is set in the same fic universe as 'it's just not what's done' just bc I like writing openly gay but still hopeless with men Gary... and him and Carra still fighting the inevitable friendship that is coming for them...

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The first planning session each Monday is more of a ‘sit in a conference room eating breakfast and chatting about the weekend’s games’ than it is a serious broadcasting meeting. It’s an almost nice start to a long day of meetings and rehearsals and shooting.

When they call time the producers all scuttle off to go spin their idle chit-chat into an hour’s worth of television, and the ‘talent’ (or whatever Carragher’s classed as) have a couple of hours to kill before the next meeting.

Gary, of course, usually spends it working. He’s no idea what Carragher does, only that he leaves their dressing room blissfully undisturbed for the full two hours, which is all he really needs to know.

Except, today Carragher pauses on his way out and says “thought I might try out one of them classes they have at the gym, fancy joining?”

Gary looks around the (now empty) room for who he could possibly be talking to, because there’s no way it’s him. He scoffs. “Do I look like I go to the gym, Carragher?”

“You look like you should,” Carragher replies, and so now Gary has no choice but to go just to prove him wrong.

He changes into baggy shorts and a t-shirt that’s tighter than he remembers it being when he bought it, and follows Carragher into the fitness studio part of the on campus gym.

And immediately walks back out when he sees which of his other esteemed colleagues have decided to spend their Monday mornings doing fucking yoga, of all things.

“Carra!” he hears a cockney accent greet as he starts to speed walk away, “and was that Gary I saw with you a second ago – oi, Nev! D’you forget something, I think we’re meant to be starting soon.”

Gary reluctantly turns back around and pastes on a smile, tugging self-consciously at the hem of his shirt. “Alright, Jamie?” he says with a nod, then turns to look at the man beside him and manages to get out a single-syllable greeting of “Fred” without incident.

Carragher looks at him curiously, and he feels his stupid face heat up under the scrutiny.

“Just going to – just gonna head to my mat, then,” he says to a point on the wall behind Jamie and Freddie, and he hurries over to the furthest corner of the room possible.

Annoyingly, Carragher follows him.

“That was weird,” he says, voice hushed while the teacher walks up to the front and starts the introductions. “You’re weird, d’you know that?”

Gary tries to pay attention to what’s being said up front, but can’t help but frown and reply “dunno what you’re talkin’ about.”

Carragher leaves it, but a few minutes into the class the other Jamie and Freddie drag their mats closer and start up a continual stream of chatter that’s hard to ignore.

At one point, the teacher looks over to their corner and shushes them so harshly that Gary loses his concentration and stumbles a bit. He braces himself for a fall that doesn’t come, because there’s suddenly a warm hand on his elbow and – and, actually, maybe the fall would’ve been better. Less embarrassing, surely, than having to look up at Freddie fucking Flintoff and mumble a thanks, and then turning away just a fraction too quickly and stumbling again, this time right into the poor man’s bare chest, because of fucking course he has taken his fucking shirt off for a fucking yoga class, why the fuck wouldn’t he?

He's just about ready to melt into the floor in a puddle of shame when the teacher points at them and says “you four, out!”, and he and Carragher are ushered out of the room by a giggling Jamie and Freddie.

“Didn’t yous say in your autobiography, Neville, that you got kicked out of yoga in playing days?” Carragher asks blithely.

Freddie is still stood close enough to Gary that he can feel his body heat, so with effort he manages to quite admirably reply with a hum and a shrug.

“Christ, if I’d known yoga w’you two idiots was all it took to get ‘im to shut up I’d’ve done it a year ago,” teases Carragher

Jamie reaches an arm out to ruffle Gary’s hair. “Aw, poor Nev’s got a little crush on me, don’t he? Can’t ever keep his head on around all this perfection.”

If he hadn’t played for Liverpool, Gary would be tempted to call Jamie Redknapp a good friend. Carragher and Freddie both scoff and start teasing Jamie and his vanity, and Gary’s able to regain enough composure to take a step away from Freddie and join in.

“Not if you were the last man on earth, Redknapp,” he says, then internally cringes at how his voice comes out just a little too loud.

Freddie laughs, elbows Jamie in the side. “Think you’re the one wit’ crush, Jamie,” he says, glancing over to Gary and Carragher with a wink. “Every time we see ‘im it’s ‘ooh, Gary, tell me I’m pretty’, ‘Gary, look, my biceps are bigger’n Fred’s’ – which is bullshit, just by the way – ‘Gary, stop starin’ at Fred and come pay attention to me’.”

Carragher looks between Freddie and Jamie, then turns to Gary with a squint. Gary prays to whatever god might be listening for him not to open that big ugly Scouse mouth of his.

No such luck.

“The two a’yous do realise who you’re squabblin’ over, right? Gary Neville, Christ, ‘ave some self-respect. He’s not even the best lookin’ footballer in his own family.”

#redders is like. if someone has a crush on freddie and not me I WILL kill myself #but also. he sees Gary floundering and is like okay I know how to make this less awkward. im going to talk about how beautiful i am.#and it WORKS.#carraville #drabbles

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st4rstudent · 4 months

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I think every social media website should have an effective tagging system, just my thoughts

#clemramble #i want to post some more of my art on twt but i also want to tag it effectively but idk how the tagging system works on there #since hashtags seem to do very little on there #if theres one thing tumblr has done right its the tagging system . this is awesome i love putting things in tags like its me whispering #directly into your ear extra info that you really didnt need to know #and also the ability to mute hashtags is awesome. even if it doesnt completely hide it #twt is so weird in its hidden words. i have so much stuff blocked on there but the moment it gets popular the system just #doesnt work and im stuck seeing it all again. very annoying.#anyways yeah this is also a call if any one knows how the muting system on twt works and how i should best tag my stuff.please share #your wisdom. if you dont mind. i asked on twt but my regular posts kind of flop if its not art. not that i mind but the point remains #..i had thought about making another account just dedicated to like ship stuff on twt bc i have enough stuff to do that but #would it be unnecessary? idk . ignore this part sorry im rambling outloud to myself virtually through tags #i might just end up not posting it there. its like a little tumblr exclusive #im not even scared anymore ive bossed up. twt just makes me feel awkward now. its like when you enter a giant classroom and theres no empty #seats so youre forced to go up and down the isles trying to find a spot that open

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mossflower · 7 months

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ok i’m gonna set an alarm but it is not the end of the world if i miss the lecture tomorrow

#i am quite frankly concerned by my attendance. i am not academic weaponing it up. i am being academically attacked #it’s fine it’s fine. i always get caught up and i’d say i’m making it to a solid three quarters of them. but it’s not ideal yknow #turns out living alone is very hard and i am oh so tired. all of the time #which yes is in part bc i’m struggling with sleeping. and also low iron is low ironing bc i’m bad at remembering to take my tablets #and social awkwardness is quite frankly reaching the point where it’s probably just actual anxiety. teebeehaitch #it’s better than it was when i first got here but uhm. not by much #even posting on here is freaking me out a bit bc i keep remembering that i have like. 1700 followers for some reason #like you’re telling me that what amounts to my diary is hypothetically being read by 1700 people. that’s fucking insane. what am i doing #like i only get a few notes on personal posts obviously but still. it kinda freaks me out #might make another blog idk. not right now i am going to have a nap <3 and hopefully attend my lectures <3 #i can hear birds singing outside. why do i keep doing this to myself #morganposting

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astriiformes · 1 year

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Navigating a slightly awkward fandom etiquette situation that I'd be interested in other folks' input on

I was a part of a really neat little gift exchange where my own prompt ended up having to be filled by a pinch-hitter, which may be one reason for the mismatch. The TL;DR is I had requested a genfic (unsurprisingly to you all, I am sure) and the gift I ended up getting was... not, and felt a bit like it veered from the prompt to additionally focus on a character I don't care as much for.

(Ultimately I am not horribly put-out because this was for a small fandom and there were a number of other works people did for the exchange that I got excited about, and also the vibes of the whole event have been lovely and kind which is why I don't want to kill that!)

My dilemma is I feel like I still ought to leave a comment on the fic -- it doesn't seem right not to on an exchange gift, especially when someone stepped up to write something last minute and I think just genuinely didn't understand my preferences. However I am still feeling a tiny bit of aromantic weariness about the situation, and feel a bit uncomfortable with that. My usual "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all" fic policy is failing me here, and there are at least a few bits of it I still liked and could bring up in a comment. But it all feels a little disingenuous.

Just contemplating the best sort of comment to leave that won't hurt the writer's feelings and even expresses some gratitude for stepping up at the last minute (since I'm sure there are other folks getting excited about the story, and I like that thought) but also doesn't totally misrepresent what I am About in fandom, you know?

#i'm truly not too bothered since this event about doubled the amount of fic/art in the Ao3 tag which is lovely #and there were several other people's gifts i love #also being honest i enter events largely as motivation for myself to create & love the gift-giving part even more #but like i do feel a tiny bit weird about people seeing the gift/a comment by me and misunderstanding what i actually prefer!#i suppose that's the only thing i'm really having an issue with #especially since i'd love to do another exchange like this in the future and couls see someone looking at it for inspiration #which would very much give them the wrong idea #sighs. i like putting in the work to make fandom a warm and welcoming place but it does get a bit awkward sometimes

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