THE CROWD GOES WILD

return of create mod??

a redraw of ‘lament for icarus’ by herbert james draper ✷

these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3

anyway yeah fr i miss ordo theoritas. i miss the theory crafting i miss the hugeass meetings before/after Big Lore Event to brief/debrief everyone involved i miss the chaos and confusion and laughter and teamwork. i miss the cellbit, bad, and phil (key-keepers my beloveds) being the heads of the ordo working together to untangle the mysteries to the island. they were hardly ever on at the same time bc schedules and time zones (WAILS) but in my head they had so many late nights down in the evidence rooms like this

just. yeah. yeahh.

You know I think one of my favorite things about Cinder is simply the fact that he's an elemental master with an element that we really didn't get to see a lot of before. And I mean, a lot of the elements from before are ones we haven't seen much from simply because there wasn't a lot of screentime they could feasibly give to the other elemental masters, but I just find it cool that now we have a much more important character with a previously underutilized element that we're able to see in action more.

My Opinion on the Topic of Gridball

Alright. Not a single person has probably wondered but has anyone else ever noticed the discrepancy between what Shane refers to as gridball and what Alex refers to as gridball? I'm here to put my useless two cents on the matter because whenever I come up with a new and stupid thing to think of, I always put myself wholeheartedly into things.

Alright. My thoughts? Gridball in the Stardew Valley universe is like the American football vs. futbol debate.

Here is why: When you speak to Alex and he talks about gridball, he often holds what looks like an American football and speaks about it like a football player in the real life. He's a jock, what can I say? His sprite outside of his house is also seen tossing the ball like a football and he talks about the fact that he wants to throw it around with your character (though I still get mad ab his dialog for that one if you're a woman). I've never seen Alex's heart cutscenes because I've never romanced him, but I'm sure there is some evidence there to the American football association.

Now, I looked through his dialog on the wiki and nothing there seems to stick out in terms of moving us toward his being like soccer. However! In the trivia section, they claim that his Tunnelers jersy looks like a reference to a jersey from a real-life soccer team. He does mention having been on his high school's varsity gridball team and his spouse room contains a soccer ball, which would make sense for him to have if he played it in high school. I'd also like to point out that his 8-heart cut-scene (which I have seen many times bc I am, first and foremost, a Shane lover<33) looks like it takes place in a soccer stadium, not a football stadium.

This has been an incredibly lackluster review on why my opinion is (maybe?) correct. Argue w/ the wall if you disagree thank you<3

i filled a whole canvas with shitty little rose doodles te other day and this was the only one that came out even half decent LAWL. can u tell i lik e stylizing -_-

wow joel and etho really died three times to their own stupidity huh. the only players strong enough to kill them are themselves apparently

HIII THABK U FOR THE TRIVIA AND ASHE SONG before i take forever 2 answer those or forget here is a blank ticket to please please talk about prime defenders and their AWFUL emotional literacy and processing skills i would literally love to read that essay so much ive also been thinking about it incessantly. big eyes staring up at u.png. ok ok peace out GOODNIGHT !!!! <33

i lied actually im not going to bed im judt thinking about this ans listening to St. John on a loop now. hello catkiss.gif i forgot how youve filled me with so much joy. that cat is so fuckign cute

anyway. hi :) prime defenders huh. this is gonna be less of an essay and more of a sleepy ramble but ohhh i have so many thoughts. they all process things so differently and none of them are good at it they all need therapy so bad. ms.g where is the hero therapy why didnt you build that into w.a.t.c.h ma'am

vyncent is probably the best at actually processing things out of all of them, he just internalizes everything to the point where he wont talk about it unless hes pushed past the breaking point. vyncent is actually very.. emotionally intelligent? i want to say mature but that feels like im singling him out because hes the oldest. i just feel like because he grew up on Fauna and had to be in basically survival mode in a world full of monsters trying to kill you.. that makes a person grow up quicker than they should. i think vyncent had a good childhood and for the most part his parents took good care of him but just.. living in that world doesnt seem like it leaves room for a whole lot of expressing emotions. vyncent is good at quick analysis of a situation, but unless a problem directly interferes with the current goal he doesnt externalize it to everyone else. but bottling up his feelings and emotions just builds up pressure over time until something like the lich makes him blow up and let it all out at once, usually in a dramatic monologue format bc condi is really good at those god damn it. also they played off the fact that vyncent said all of that to the lich and then missed his attack as a funny thing but i like to think of it as. he got too overwhelmed w his emotions and lashed out too soon it made his fighting messy. vyncent is so angry and honestly after what hes been through he deserves to be !!!!

william wisp. my boy. god hes just like me fr so much so that it physically hurts sometimes. anyway. i always think back to the scene where theyre all in the cabin talking about themselves/sharing backstories and william keeps desperately trying not to talk about himself. the fact that hes so ashamed of his powers he hides wisp form every time. two of his powers are LITERALLY a) turning invisible and b) turning intangible, usually as an excuse to leave whatever situation hes in ("accidentally" falling through the floor at opportune moments in season 1) . theres. a thing that happens at the end of episode 13/beginning of epidode 14 that youre really close to and i wont spoil yet but god it has to do with this so extremely much please come back to my inbox when you get there. youll know what it is trust me. um. yeah. so anyway. i think a lot of this comes from a place of. he doesnt want anyone to be scared of him. williams not stupid hes incredibly smart and insightful he knows his powers are objectively SCARY. hes scared of himself constantly, he doesnt want anyone else to feel that way about him, so he shifts focus whenever those aspects of himself are brought up because if someone were to think about it for any amount of time theyd realize the truth that hes scary and dangerous to be around (<< william logic. hey remember how one of the reasons he originally left deadwood was because the monsters there were attracted to the wisps and therefore Him so he left to keep his friends/family out of danger)

i think a lot about williams death and the immediate aftermath, i dont know how much you actually know and how much of this comes later but . how does he go home after waking up from that. his parents know about his powers, so they MUST know what happened. what do you think he told them when he god home muddy and dirty and broken and probably bloody after being missing for. god knows how long. how does he look his mother in the eyes and tell her her little boy is dead. but hes also not because hes standing right in front of her. how the fuck do you think he felt the first time he went into wisp form and saw his body laying there !!! of course he wouldnt want to talk about that!!!! youre gonna have to pry william wisps emotions from his cold dead hands !!!!!!!

dakota's response to the ashe situation was to run away in the woods and do nothing but train for 10 months. he didnt think about it for 10 months. i dont even have a whole lot to say about dakota other than like. stunned silence whenever his inability to process trauma is brought up because grizzly does such an incredible job at being like "you ask dakota how hes doing and his face is just blank" << paraphrased actual quote from an episode i cannot remember which one. either 11 or 12 ?

also because im thinking about him im including ashe in this. we didnt get to see a whole lot of his canon reactions to extreme emotional situations so a lot of this is just coming from My Mind but ashe seems like hed be the type to repress a lot of his emotions too. being alone in your house/in your room for extended periods of time will do that to a guy. i think he feels a lot of things and will probably very openly cry/scream/get angry when hes alone but as soon as he knows another person is there he can immediately flip the switch to turn it all off like nothing happened. very much a deadpan "im fine." if someone asks how hes doing, even if hes got like. the remainder of tear tracks down his face. cannot physically express his emotions in the presence of someone else

alright. y’all just might get chapter 12 of ncty tomorrow.

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he really didn’t wanna make it messy . he really , really didn’t , but the boy gone cray !

(hehe totally not brewing up an au .. /lh) (might color this later lol)

Ok so at the end of the sword part 2, after adora turns against the Horde, she has a little panic:

"Why did I do that? I can't go back now! Where am I supposed to go?"

Which, while it's mainly framed as humorous and Glimmer quickly assures her that she can come with them to Bright Moon, it also implies something else.

That Adora really wanted to go back to the Horde, even after she saw, and fully understood what they were doing. She clearly apposes them - even before she transformed, her conversation with Catra demonstrates that.

("I'm saying this is wrong." // "Look around, these aren't insurgents, they're innocent civilians.")

More than that, she's clearly upset about being lied to and manipulated there - as demonstrated by her devastation and confusion when Catra quickly and nonchalantly confirms the truth that she's spent the last day(?) or so refusing to accept.

So why does it bother her so much that she won't be able to go back?

The obvious answer is that she doesn't want to leave Catra, and I do believe that this plays a role. But there is also a massive part of Adora's character that this line of speech calls to - her people pleasing tendencies.

At this point, she's under the impression that Bow and Glimmer still, at the very least, dislike her. Her last significant interaction with Bow was as she went off to face the Horde, just after revealing that she "knew" about the invasion of Thaymore. Her most recent interaction with Glimmer was more positive - Glimmer gives her back the sword. But, at this point, she views She Ra as a very external factor to herself, so while she may be sure that Glimmer likes She Ra, as far as Adora knows, she herself is not in very good terms. And as the people pleaser, anxious mess that Adora is, this translates to Glimmer and Bow's previous invitation to Bright Moon being revoked. She did the wrong thing, and now she's not welcome there.

This, of course, isn't true, as Glimmer immediately extends another invitation to her. But it's interesting (sad) to note just how easily Adora thought it could get permanently rescinded.

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today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

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