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trickstarbrave · 5 months

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hi i wrote this half awake again but

a lil bit of an exposition dump. steren also wakes up. kinda sad still (actually. rly sad) but dw it'll cheer up. just give it some time

vivienne from @mulberrycafe (so you all know they are in vivi's world. not steren's home world)

“Ah, my champion,” Azura was in better spirits than when Nerevar last spoke to her like this, at least. “I was hoping you would find that child. I’m glad the two of you were able to meet soon.”

“The Dunmer with a star on his face?” Nerevar asked. If so, that would mean it was Azura’s doing, which only raised more questions.

“Yes.” She replied, smiling. “Steren.” She then tilted her head. “I thought you would be spending time with him and asking him questions.”

“He’s unconscious because he has hypothermia.” Nerevar frowned. “He’s lucky we found him when we did or he’d be dead.”

Azura seemed upset at that, though more worried than angry.

“… I hadn’t intended to drop him here so suddenly.” She admitted. “I had to make a hasty decision.”

“Who is he?” Nerevar declined to inquire about why she brought the boy to Solstheim for the time being. Who Steren even was was a much more pressing question.

“Steren is from another world.” Azura finally admitted after a moment of pause. “One much like this one.”

A more intellectual person like Lucien might take the chance to ask all sorts of questions about different worlds and what that meant, but Nerevar wasn’t the type. He’d hardly understand it and didn’t particularly care if there were more worlds like his own given there wasn’t much he could do to interact with them until now. Not to mention it’s not the first time a daedric prince had offhandedly mentioned it in either lives.

“Why does he have the Moon and Star ring?” Nerevar wanted answers to determine if he was a threat or not.

“He is the one who fulfilled the Nerevarine prophecy.” Came Azura’s firm reply.

“The prophecy…?” Nerevar’s brows furrowed. He’d quite like to chew her out sending a kid who looked like he’d barely reached maturity out to kill gods, but she was already in a foul mood from her spat with Mephala and Boethiah. “Then he’s me?”

Azura shook her head, a sort of sadness in her eyes. “He is not your reincarnation, no.” She then closed her eyes, giving a soft sigh.

“In that world you had a son.” Nerevar froze stiff, and Voryn did the same beside him. “He is your son’s reincarnation, following that family line.”

“I had a son?!” Nerevar looked even more alarmed. How much different had that world been then? If there was a crown prince to carry on his legacy, had the tribunal killed him too? Was he used as a political pawn? Raised to take his place in the prophecy? Nerevar wouldn’t have allowed that. He wouldn’t have made his son do such a difficult task—

And what about Ayem?! If he did everything Nerevar did, did he have to kill his own mother? Nerevar couldn’t imagine a more cruel life. But why had Almalexia even agree to a child in that world?! If things were so different there, surely their relationship would have been better. Had she still gone along with his death?

“You did.” Nerevar’s mind was still running a mile a minute with the information, barely even hearing Azura. “With Voryn Dagoth.”

“What?!” Nerevar stared at the goddess like she had grown two heads. “How in Oblivion—“

“In that world you had a different set of anatomy.” She replied very bluntly, and Nerevar smacked himself on the forehead. Right, that would explain it.

“Then what happened to my son?” Nerevar asked, still worried. “Was I still king—queen?”

“You were king, yes.” Azura moved to a slightly less formal position, looking a bit deflated. “It had been an accident. A moment of passion with you and your beloved, much like in your first lifetime here.” Nerevar could see that honestly. He found it hard to imagine a version of himself that wouldn’t fall for Voryn. “And you had given him to Voryn to be raised under House Dagoth, for his protection.”

“He was a secret then.” Voryn sounded… Unsteady and a bit breathless, baffled by the circumstances. “He wouldn’t have been safe with Neht, especially if the rest of the great houses found out he had Steren with me.”

“Precisely.” Azura closed her eyes once more. The goddess didn’t often show anxiety like mortals did, but Nerevar could tell the crease in her brows was unusual. “And when he was still young, the Battle of Red Mountain occurred.”

It was unspoken what she meant with everything else, as an uncomfortable silence fell over them. Nerevar felt cold, and Voryn tightened his grip on Nerevar’s hand, trembling slightly.

Steren had been orphaned then. Both of his parents were killed, and he was likely too young to really understand what happened.

“The false gods sent him to House Indoril. They attempted to raise him. Guide him. To ease their guilt no doubt.” Yes, Nerevar could see that. Back then, Vivec, Sotha Sil, and Almalexia had deluded themselves into thinking killing him and Voryn was the right thing to do. For both selfish reasons, and for the good of the people. But he didn’t think they had it in them to kill Nerevar’s only child just to tie up loose ends.

“Steren grew, and eventually learned he was of House Dagoth. He sought answers they refused to give him, and so he left to seek it out himself.” Azura sighed. “He married and had a child, before soon meeting his own end.” Nerevar hated the way she said it so simply; his child being lost and alone in the world looking for answers was not something she could just casually brush off like that. “And you,” Azura looked at Nerevar again, “You refused my call to Moonshadow. Even the Tribunal could faintly sense your soul and tried to seal you in a bone walker, and yet through force of will you resisted even that.” That was pretty impressive all things considered, Nerevar would admit. “You refused to leave your child alone in the world, so you haunted him. And then his child. Then his child’s child…”

“I stayed there the whole time,” Nerevar asked, a sadness in his chest that still left him feeling cold, “Right?”

“Yes. Until Steren was reborn.” Azura sighed. “You refused to rest, let alone incarnate, so I had to use his soul. You had already modified the enchantment, and the prophecy had to be fulfilled.”

Nerevar paused, about to ask another question, before Voryn snapped.

“You sent him to kill Dagoth Ur?!” Voryn looked furious.

“Someone had to.”

“You sent him to kill his own father!” Voryn was trembling in rage now. “Even if I was lost and mad, he was still my son—I could have killed him!”

“And you tried.” Azura said simply, only adding to Voryn’s rage. “Dagoth Ur thought he could remake Steren as an Ash Vampire if need be, before forcing Nerevar’s soul to be his.” She still met Voryn’s angry gaze without flinching. “And if he had not defeated you, his world would have been doomed.”

Voryn punched the wall of the temple with a supernatural strength, leaving cracks in his wake.

“Voryn,” Nerevar went to calm him.

“No!” Voryn snapped at him. “She sent my son to kill me or die trying! She—“

“She did what she had to because I refused.” Nerevar held Voryn’s arms tightly. “Don’t blame her but blame me.”

“You wanted to be with our son, how could I possibly blame you?”

“Because that selfishness doomed him to having to correct my mistakes—our mistakes.” Nerevar’s face was firm but level. “And… He’s alright now. He succeeded.”

“Indeed.” Azura spoke up again. “But in the end, the grief of your beloved’s death was enough to nearly shatter your already fragile soul. You had to return to moonshadow, or perish in a way not even I could save you.” Nerevar hated that. He knew she was right; Voryn’s death had nearly broken him this lifetime. If his soul had been active for thousands of years without rest, it was a miracle he didn’t cease existing in that world. “You had guided him since he got the ring, allowing him to communicate with your soul. I let you two give your goodbyes, and he ushered you to Moonshadow and safety.”

So Steren was left alone again. Having to say goodbye to both of his fathers in such a short time.

“Why is he here then?” Nerevar asked, once again taking Voryn’s hand.

“… As a reward for fulfilling the prophecy when you could not, I offered him anything.” Azura looked sad once more in a way that Nerevar did not like. “He asked me to let him be with his parents again.”

Another chill ran up Nerevar’s spine.

He didn’t fully know Steren, but he knew Steren was his son.

His son, after a long and arduous journey, had asked the Lady of Twilight to kill him. To end his life so he could roam Moonshadow looking for Nerevar and Voryn.

Nerevar knew that feeling well; he too wanted to end it all after he was done. But he moved forward as he knew that’s what Voryn would have wanted, and what his people needed. But it was something else entirely to hear his own child had been through the same grief and loneliness.

“I didn’t have it in me to end his life.” Azura admitted. “He is young, and it is not in his fate to die young again.” Nerevar was at least thankful she didn’t just go along with such a request; he would have been furious enough to try and rip her to pieces himself, dead or not. “But I didn’t want to delay it either. If I refused, he might take matters into his own hands,” That was also a possibility, “So I used my magic to keep him from death for a few hours, and made the hasty decision to send him here to meet you.”

She was still upholding her end of the bargain in a way. He did get to be with Nerevar and Voryn, just in a different world.

“Your spirits from that world also wish to join you.” Nerevar raised a brow. Two of him and Voryn? If they could just join the living, wouldn’t she just bring them back in his world? “If they are residing inside your souls, as fragile as they are, they can rest without vanishing and give you their memories so you may know Steren as they do.”

“… So that was that feeling.” Voryn muttered.

“You knew?” Nerevar asked?

“Only faintly.” Voryn sighed. “The souls felt like you and I only… Fainter. And it seemed impossible there were two of us so I thought it must have been my imagination.”

“Would you welcome them?” Azura asked. “The memories may be slow to come, especially for Nerevar given he had so many,” Azura looked like she was almost pleading with them, though as proud and vain as she was she would never admit it.

“Yes.” Voryn answered without a second thought. Nerevar was surprised even by how quick he answered, before sighing himself.

“Sure,” Nerevar huffed, but he couldn’t help the soft smile on his lips. “I’d hate for him to be alone again.”

A warmth then bubbled up inside him, almost like a warm ember was glowing. It felt ticklish almost in his chest; a weight there that wasn’t unpleasant in the slightest.

And then the two were standing in an empty temple, holding hands. Azura was gone, but there was the knowledge the two were different. Time could only tell the changes that might happen, or how long it would take for the memories of their other selves to surface, but…

Now Steren wasn’t alone. That much brought a feeling of comfort to the pair.

“… Let’s get back to the manor,” Nerevar tightened his grip on Voryn’s hand, “The healers should have brought him over there.”

“Yes,” Voryn leaned down to give a soft kiss to Nerevar’s forehead. “I should also hurry to tell my assassins to watch over him as closely as they do our poet.” Nerevar smiled in turn, a sort of loving, mirthful smile he sometimes rarely got to make in his stress of being king and the mess they were dealing with now.

“Right,” Nerevar leaned up to kiss his husband softly on the lips. “We have a son now, after all. They need to watch over him just as carefully as they do Vivienne.”

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It was days later Steren awoke, groggy, in pain, and miserable.

“… Dad…?” He asked, groggily. He knew he’d seen Nerevar again; he’d gotten to hug Nerevar properly. He remembered the warmth; the solid feeling of his father in his arms. “Ata…?” He’d also seen Voryn there with him. Had they brought him to a place to rest? And why did his body hurt so much when he was already dead?

He tried to climb out of bed, but his legs were too unsteady. They buckled under him, sending him crashing to the floor, almost causing him to hit his head on the nightstand. “Fuck—“ Steren swore under his breath. Gods it was cold out of the blankets too—why was Moonshadow so damn cold?! From how Azura is always dressed you’d imagine her realm would be warm, not freezing. Not helping was the fact he was in loose pants, bandages on his chest, and a thin robe overtop that was left untied. He was shivering already as he tried to steady himself, but luckily he wasn’t left struggling for long as quickly the door opened, someone rushing to his side.

“Shh, it’s alright,” Nerevar was there, gingerly helping him up. He was completely solid too, not simply a golden spirit you could faintly make out the features of. He was in all his chimer glory, white hair and blue eyes as he scooped up Steren and placed him back in bed. “You’re still injured so you should rest—“

Nerevar didn’t have time to finish tucking him in, as Steren began clinging to him and openly sobbing into his shoulder.

“Dad—!” Steren was holding him light a frightened child, nails digging in through Nerevar’s robes until they nearly hurt, as though he feared the moment he let go Nerevar would slip away from him again. “I-I’m so sorry—I’m sorry, I just—”

Steren was then sobbing and babbling incoherently, refusing to let go. A bit awkwardly, Nerevar patted his head and rubbed his back, letting him cry it all out. He didn’t dislike Steren at all; Steren was his child as Azura told him, but he was still a bit unsure at the best way to comfort him, especially when he was this upset.

But eventually the tears began dying down as Steren hiccuped, before he began wiping his own tears.

“Normally you’d already be—be lecturing me about how stupid I was to do something like this,” Steren tried to smile through the tears. “I know you’re furious with me but I just—just needed to see you and Ata again…”

“Shhh,” Nerevar hushed him again, cautiously wiping his tears away, “You did the best you could… More than what you should have.” Nerevar tried to smile back. “I’m just glad you’re safe now.”

“Well I know I am now,” Steren was still smiling so happily. “Now we can be safe and happy together in Moonshadow.” There was no threat of dying anymore, after all. No one who could rip apart his family. They could catch up on everything—Voryn could tell him about his early childhood, Nerevar could explain how he grew up, and they could make new and happy memories together.

“… Steren,” Nerevar sighed; he didn’t want to drop this on him so early, but it felt unfair to lie to him as well. It would only upset him in the long run. “We’re not in Moonshadow.”

“The land of our ancestors then?” Steren asked. He honestly didn’t care where they were, so long as they were together. But still, Nerevar shook his head.

“We’re in Solstheim.” Nerevar explained. “Azura brought you here.”

“S…” Steren began, his mouth fumbling. “Solstheim…?” That frozen island of Skyrim? Why would she take him there? Actually, more importantly, why were his parents here?!

“… She brought you across time and worlds into ours after you defeated Dagoth Ur.” Nerevar explained, his eyes cautiously watching Steren’s expression. “She said you wished to be with your parents and that you are mine and Voryn’s son, and in your world you fulfilled the prophecy when I couldn’t.”

It was hard to explain the emotions Steren was going through hearing that, taking in the look on Nerevar’s face as well as his behavior. Nerevar was looking at him like he was a… Stranger. Someone unceremoniously dropped into his lap. There was no tender affection in his eyes, nor anger at Steren wanting to die and join him. He wasn’t hostile at all, just reserved. Cautious. Unsure.

Then there was anger. He had asked Azura to be with his parents. His. Not some other version of Nerevar and Voryn who didn’t know him. We’re his parents even together in this world? Possibly not, but certainly Steren hadn’t been born from how clumsily Nerevar spoke, as though in disbelief over the fact he and Voryn had a child.

Pure rage coursed through him, before he quickly directed it from Azura towards himself; of course, what else did he expect?! A daedra wouldn’t uphold their end of the bargain that easily. Even if Azura was one of the few daedra you could worship semi-openly as she wasn’t regarded as evil or openly cruel, that didn’t change the fact she was a daedric prince. And Clavicus Vile didn't have a monopoly on twisting someone’s words, so it was no surprise Azura would instead dump him somewhere else to be of use to him.

He should have just asked for some gold and then killed himself properly. Then there would at least be the guarantee he'd see his fathers again. Now if he died there was no promise of even that. If he was in another world like Nerevar said, he was far beyond his afterlife and Moonshadow, and he didn’t trust Azura to return him to his parents in that world anymore.

But there would be time to weep over that later. He could find someplace private to cry himself to sleep, like he'd done so many times before. At least this time he knew the ghost of his father wasn't watching, helpless to comfort him like Nerevar desperately wanted to. Instead, he relaxed his clenched fists, trying to make his defeated sigh as quiet as possible, and moved his legs so he could partially kneel on the bed, putting his hands in front of him, and bowing low.

"I'm sorry for imposing on you. My deepest apologies." He'd normally never talk so formally to Nerevar, but this was not the Nerevar whom he affectionately called dad and who guided him around Vvardenfell. This was Nerevar reborn, king of Morrowind. And Steren had learned plenty what happened when you disrespected those of a higher station. It was better to kneel and apologize, licking boots before scurrying off like a coward, at least whenever you could.

“H-hey,“ Nerevar tried to usher him up, “There’s no need to bow like that—“

“I’ve shown you great disrespect. Please allow me to apologize for that.” He could at least thank House Hlaalu for his better speaking abilities. “I had no idea I would be brought here and I know I must have put you into a difficult situation caring for me.” At least the fact he was alive still explained the pain and cold. Azura dropped him into the fucking ocean just to spite him and had him wandering around near death as punishment no doubt instead of trying to be useful for her. It’s no wonder he still had all his fingers.

“Please lay down properly.” Nerevar ushered him back to the bed, “You’re still injured,” His hand was firm on Steren’s chest, not painful but warning him to stay there. “Rest up for now and we can talk about this later, alright?”

Steren didn’t really want to talk about it further, if he was honest. What point was there playing pretend? Acting like he had a place here? This wasn’t his world, and this wasn’t his father. They were strangers, Nerevar just being told he had an obligation to look after Steren from Azura.

But he could sort it out later. When his injuries from his fight with Dagoth Ur healed and his head cleared from hypothermia and exhaustion, he could figure something out. He’d thank the hortator for his hospitality, pass on the ring and sword that in truth belonged to him, and leave… Somewhere else. Somewhere warmer, at least. Maybe he’d go west to the deserts of Elsweyr or the Illiac Bay—well, maybe not the bay. His birth mother in this life was on the run there. The warm sands of the desert would be a safer bet, or even just Cyrodiil again where he could find a job like unloading cargo again or work under a merchant. It’s not like he wanted power and fame after all; he’d swear to Lady Azura he didn’t covet Nerevar’s throne, do whatever quest she sent him here to do, and be on his way. It could be a weird little anecdote for Nerevar and Voryn in this world; something funny to joke about years later while they wondered where he ended up wandering off to.

But for now he’d rest. Steren closed his eyes, refusing to let anymore tears fall; he’d cry for his actual parents, but not in front of some stranger. He refused.

Nerevar waited at the door, unsure, watching him lay there and breathe with anxiety bubbling in his chest, before he sighed and closed the door.

They’d explain it all when Steren recovered. Right now he didn’t look mentally ready to understand anything they said, and Nerevar was afraid of making the situation worse. He’d keep a close eye on him and wait it out for now, earning his trust if he had to. But they’d make it through it. Nerevar would be sure of it.

#SORRY IF THERE ARE WEIRD TYPOS i skip words when im sleepy????#or misspell things #this was written on my phone so autocorrect #but i tried #steren #steren nerevarine #nerevar #voryn dagoth #vivi au

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kaiswifeblog · 9 months

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i know i just asked but woonhak is rly stuck in my head but can u make one where reader in love interest to the serenade mv and woonhak rly likes her and he gets jealous about how the reader is touchy with other members for the sake of filming so he starts distancing himself from reader and reader gets sad cause she also likes him but the boys bring them back together cause they know they like eachother

a/n: thank you for your request again anon!!ofc I can do it!!

𝘛𝘐𝘛𝘓𝘌: MV recording accidents

𝘗𝘈𝘐𝘙𝘐𝘕𝘎: idol!woonhak x gn!reader

It was the day 'BOYNEXTDOOR' was recording their second MV 'serenade' and let's just say you were anxious. One: because you would have them hypothetically confess their love to you and you didn't have to react and two because one of the members is also your crush 'Woonhak'.

As you were on set the first scene you were in was one near a clothing shop where Leehan and Taesan needed to interact with you directly so you needed to pretend like they weren't even there.

But as you were out of view from the MV and watching the street, the chorus started with Woonhak singing.

That's when you lost it and started smiling so much but then you were back in view and needed to get the act back on.

The second scene was at the cafè where jaehyun and leehan looked at you with a look of love that would startle anyone. woonhak, in that moment, started to get a little bit jealous even if he is in denial and tells himself he's not.

And after the video recordings as the boys thanked you Woonhak seemed more distant than before and let's just say you were sad.

Now the boys noticed this and decided to help.

They decided to set you too up on a date in hybe's cafeteria saying they were gonna be there too but one too another they started cancelling until only you and Woonhak.

Everything was silent, an uncomfortable silence, which was then broken by Woonhak coughing.

"hey Woonhak.." you started talking to maybe then ask him what's up with him, "yes?" "Well I've seen that you have been more distant" "ah well there's a lot on my mind, the debut and all of those things!" "Okay well be sure to rest alright!'

The next day Woonhak was a little more confident and built up the courage to confess to you.

So he messaged you and asked you to meet him at the building.

As you arrived at the building you saw Woonhak.

"hey Woonhak! What did you call me for?" "Well i wanted to tell you something. I-I like you, I liked you ever since u saw you for the first time" "w-well I like you too Woonhak!" "YES"

#boynextdoor x reader #boynextdoor fluff #woonhak x reader #woonhak fluff #taesan x reader #taesan fluff #jaehyun x reader #jaehyun fluff #riwoo fluff #riwoo x reader #leehan x reader #leehan fluff #sungho fluff #sungho x reader

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d-nessi · 1 year

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CHAPTER 2

<3 ONLY US <3

A/N:

I really tried hard to put a lot of sweets, fluff and flirty things in. also a bit of drama (rly just a bit)

minimum of swearing.

Wordcount: 2k

proofread?: not really

as always I'm german so I hope my English is not that boring <333

the title of this chapter is the name of the song bella sang together with jacob fawler <333 I LOVE HER VOICE WHEN SHE SINGS!!! >__<

(this is not my video on yt :) )

youtube

also I use HE/SHE (just because I forget sometimes and also love using all)

and I can`t find if skipper is male/female so I tried to avoid the pronouns.

summary: You just want to enjoy the time until bella have to leave but things changes fast!

so fast you can`t even realize what just happen with both of you. time runs out too fast and things gonna be flirty and heating up your both blood more and more.

pairing: Bella Ramsey x FemReader

A bark comes from the other side of a door. Not any door….BELLAS door. yes I meet her at her Home.

The door opens and a little barking dog runns all around me excited to meet me. As soon as Bellas voice echoed in my ears skipper just sits beside her while she gets prepared for the walk.

"morning", bella says and put on the leash on skipper. "good morning" I greet her.

"isnt it a bit too cold outside for shorts?" I look at her with worries in my eyes. "its ok. I`m often outside, got an active immunsystem" he giggles proudly as we all start to walk into the beautiful world that is surrounded by huge trees, mountains and a small and absolutely clear river.

I look at skipper and smile. "I saw the post of yours on Insta. it is awesome that you adopted skipper."

"yeah skipper was on set and I instantly fell in love with the little cutie" she says happy while taking out the ball, throws it after making skipper off the leash.

"You both are such cuties" realizing I wasn't thinking I grab a stone and just throw it into the river while she looks like she's frozen for a moment with a noticable blush. Im moving on and can feel her gaze on me. Bellas heart starts to race and she tries to find the right words. "Y/N…What is this betwe---"

the mobile of her interrups suddenly the sentence I really wanted to hear.

"Ramsey hello?…….ah..yeah just go ahead…..no…sounds interresting…" that was a total lie. I can clearly see something is burden him.

"but how early?………in 2 days!?" he seems to getting really nervous.

"yes….no there is no problem. Will be there then…it`s still calgary?…ok yes thank you and see you there. bye" she puts her mobile back in her pocked obviously stressed out with a sad face.

"is everything ok? something happen?" I make my way to her as close as I can. "that was Neil Druckman….He asked if I could come sooner as he is currently casting a lot of people for Season 2 including the cast for Dina and he would like me to be there to make sure there is chemistry between me and the Dina cast."

Dont be a dick right now I thought to myself and put on the best fakesmile ever. "but that sounds good! Thats the best way to make this show even better." I pretend but yeah truly that wasn't a lie. "When earlier you must leave? in a week?" I don't realize how serious things getting right now.

"2 days…." she says in a frustrating way and grabs skippers leash only to move on quietly. "Bella…there will be friends on set right? pedro and all the new friends you gonna meet!

"I'll be gone for like 1 or 2 years. yeah great I mean....shit I cant believe this is happening!" she starts to arguing with a face as if Lady Mormont itself wanna cut your head of. Scary and so cute at the same time.

"But this is your chance to make it big again! what the hell is your problem!?" honestly right now Im really confused. She looks at me and I can feel my soul leaving my body.

"BUT you're not with me!"

oh…wait what? She looks at me like a puppy who got lost. "you're a really good friend and sometimes on set it's so boring. most of the time they want to do their work and after that Im in my hotelroom…just me." I am not shure if this is the true reason like…come on they seem to have so much fun on set.

Bu…did….did she just friendzoned me?

I could work from my Laptop I thought to myself and took a deep breath. "well how get we gonna managing this? in 2 days? I need to do some things that's left" I start

"I will talk to my manager and fix everything if you want" she looks at skipper who's just sitting beside her trying to comfort her. "that's huge bella" I admit but smile slightly at her."

"well ok so than lets start and get ready for the flight" I say calm and she smiles so bright even the sun seems dark. I look deep in her eyes and a red shade on her cheeks find its way.

Our way seperate after the walk and I manage to get work and flight together. There's only one problem………

Again a knock on the door. Skipper barks again and the door swings open.

"hey aaaah….." staying here infront of my future wife with all my luggage. "the flight is in two days Y/N" obviously looking confused.

" yeah there is only one thing. I gave notice of my apartment for a whole year, but that counts from today and not just in 2 days.

Now I'm standing here and wanted to ask you if I could sleep at your home." She laughs and let me in. "It's not very big and I only have one bed but I just sleep on the couch" she says while showing me around. "No no, I sleep on the couch, no problem." I just wave with my hands.

Looking to her there is this feeling again. I'm slowly but surely becoming aware of what it means to have this tingling sensation. it drives me crazy and the thought of being close to her is almost painful. I don't know where I stand with her anymore but definitely not in the 'come on let's cuddle zone'.

'FrIeNdZoNeD'

She just want to be friends with me. I hate my fucking feelings and I try my best to ignore.

I already thought she might feel the same but I was so wrong….so fucking wrong it makes me sick. Sometimes I wish I have a Damon that could just stop feeling any emotions but I just watched to much vampire diaries.

"it's late, I make some dinner and go shower. if you want we can watch a movie later." she grabs some ingredients in her kitchen.

"sounds good! You need a hand for something?"

"no it's ok. if you want you can shower first", he looks to me with a questioning face and I agreed.

"you have a towel? or is it enough to come out of the shower completely naked?" I simply ask cought him offguard looking completely blushing at all my words. here we go I can't stop teasing him.

While I'm in the shower I thought deeply about telling her how I feel. I just can't go with her and not even touch her for once. Being in love with someone you can't have is pure agony.

"smells good" I come out of the shower and really thought about to just tease her more and changing my clothes in front of her. I smirk and was about to drop my towel when she immediatly turns arround and disappears into the bathroom.

I giggle and take a bowl of food eating and waiting for her to come out. After 30 minutes I started to worry and went to the door.

"Bella are you ok?" I carefully listened to what she is saying. "Yes, everything is fine," she conveyed to me. Lie…….. and I didn't know that because she's sitting in the shower letting the water run over her the whole time. Bella was confused and she is more than aware of what is happening here. Too shy to admit what she's feeling, she prefers to swallow all the great feelings and hope it goes away. funny because that's absolutely hopeless. it's getting worse, more and also….she friendzoned me."shit…." she mumblet.

I make myself comfortable on the couch and wait impatiently when she finally comes out in an oversized hoodie and shorts. She gives me a nervous smile and sits on her bed with her bowl.

"ok movie..any favorite you want to watch?" I ask and wait for her to awnser. "I'v never watched Jurassic Park so why not this?" she ask and I agree.

I start the movie and make myself comfortable on her bed beside her ignoring my heartbeat that just dance like a fire in the wind. Bella looks to the TV and follows the story.

I lay back with my Hands behind my Head. Jeeeeezz I can feel the Air is getting more intense and I don't blame it cause hell there is sitting an absolutely beautiful guuurl beside me not knowing what I feel, not knowing that my heart gets electrocuted by her smile. I coul'd just take her face in my hands and kiss her blessed soul out of her.

I didn't even realize that my eyes only watching him. Studying every corner of his face and hell this is painfull when you can't do the things you really wan't to do. Thoughts are buzzing in my head that even scare me.

She's been looking at me…the whole time and I'm so preoccupied I don't even realize it. My heart is literally jumping and my whole body can't take the tension anymore.

"Don't you want to finish your question from the day before?" I say without averting my eyes.

"I already did…" she whispers as if trying with all her might to keep up the lie but failing.

"than say it…again" I come closer like I want to intimidate her.

She blushes and I can clearly hear her breath goes wild. I already know the answer and still words wouldn't be enough for me. The gap between us is getting smaller and smaller so that I can feel her breath on my lips when suddenly her mobile rings. AGAIN ..I swear that thing has something against us.

She completely shreeks up and takes her phone. She answers with a trembling voice. "H… hello? No, Mom, you're not disturbing me right now." Her face turned bright red, first looking at me and than very quickly to her lap. She can brush her mum off while I got up in time to have a drink. crap…. I just thought silently. It's getting late now, so I decide to lie down on the couch and turn off the TV.

"good night Y/N" she lays down in her bed and it's like I can hear still her breath.

As if the breathing almost becomes a whimper. I wake up and see that it is totally dark outside. a look at the clock tells me that it's already 2:42am. The whimper comes from Bella's direction so I just turn around again. Is she crying? I startle immediately and walk carefully to her bed. There she lies… curled up and asleep. She must be having a nightmare.

"No…" I only hear a very low murmur. Enough of that…. I just snuggle up with her under the covers behind her back. An arm wraps around her as I snuggle my face in her hair. She smells so good I have to keep my thoughts to myself. She feels me and startles, turning to me out of breath but hiding her face on my neck.

In the corner of my eye I can see that she is quite red with slight tears in her eyes. I just smile, caress her cheek and literally feel my heart want to erupt. I give her a hint of a kiss on the cheek and close my eyes as I wait for her breathing to become more regular.

There's only us…only you and me I thought smiling and fell asleep together with her in my arms.

WOOP WOOP that was soooo freak'n cute to write and that's just the beginning <333 there will be more Chapter and next chapter is getting moooore snuggle loveydovey <333 :P

For more Chapters, stories and more just look at my Masterlist ♡

#bella ramsey x female reader #bella ramsey x you #bella ramsey x y/n #bella ramsey #bella ramsey x reader #hbo tlou #lgbtq #Youtube

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quodekash · 1 year

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its 1pm and im finally well-rested enough to watch last nights episode of abaab, wish me luck (im rly excited for more threezo pls gimme more threezo)

im eating a pomegranate while watching so my commentary may be slightly limited

NOOO CHER WHY ARE YOU SAD ITS GONNA MAKE ME SAD

i just accidentally sprayed pomegranate juice everywhere

this is my first time eating a pomegranate and im sitting on my bed

i have a towel on top of me just in case and im glad i have it

otherwise my funky hufflepuff blanket would look like a crime scene rn

anyway back to the show

awh :[

comforting kiss

im gonna cry

“its not a company owner and an intern. its just you and me.” GHEIBRHGERH THATS SO PERFECT and also makes me feel better cos i was still feeling a little weird about the power imbalance/age gap so yay

THEY HUG

NO, BC YOU WONT BREAK UP

THIS IS THE HAPPIEST FLUFFIEST SHOW, I WILL NOT ALLOW IT

JACK, YOU AND YOUR PERFECT HAIR, HELLO

THREEZO

LOOK AT ZO’S LITTLE HEART JUMPER

I WANT IT

THE ARM THE HAND ON THE ARM LOOK AT THEM AAAAAAATYFYTUUVJ (ft jacks perfect hair on the left)

OMG

THATS AMAZING

IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU JACK

GJERKDGBKRHEBGKJREBJGRE

ah shoot

wait hang on

what the hell

ive been wondering whats in that folder since day one

ohhhh okay its a groupchat

props to that one person for saying its none of your business

yOU HAVE ONE OF THOSE??

i nearly dropped my pomegranate

why was i surprised to learn he has a mother

a lot of people have mothers

thats exactly what she said, isnt it?

bc theyre actually in a drama

its gonna cut to a scene of her saying exactly that

damn i was wrong

thERE’S A HUG QUOTA???

damn then i guess im going to jail

my hands are covered in pomegranate juice this feels like a murder

hey, does pomegranate juice wash off?

MY BOY AND HIS EYEBROWS

HAH, SUCKS TO BE YOU (checks notes) oregano?

i do love that and that’s very sweet, but bro needs his coffee

already at two kisses and were not even halfway through the episode. if only tinngun could live up to their standard.

(this is mostly a joke, im just really salty because tinngun COULD have kissed SIXTY-SEVEN FREAKING TIMES and they DIDNT and no i will not shut up about this i spent way too long combing through the show counting every single time they didnt kiss to not mention it every single time any characters kiss. shameless self promo here)

no wait hang on what the hell

WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN???

“drunk or not, i love you” i see now why that line was significant

and also the slight breakup foreshadowing earlier

i understand it now

they wont break up tho bc (i pull out a sword) i will not allow it

(just kidding)

(i dont have a sword)

(if i did have one tho i would absolutely take it out of its sheath right at that moment)

FRIENDSHIP COMFORT TIME

YAY FRIENDSHIP

they make me happy

HIS PERFECT HAIR

I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH GFYTDFYTFCUTVJHV

oh yay we get some tub time!! i cant wait to learn more about him so that i can pick him apart and do a character autopsy on him to find out how he works!

is he speaking from experience? tub, what do you have going on in life? what have you gone through? tell me all about it :] 📝📝

is it texas chicken or is it kfc?

MY BOYS

IM GONNA CRY THEYRE SO FREAKING CUTE

ilysm three

RIGHT????? he gets it

THREEZOOOOOO

i love them so much

NOOOOOO

CHE???

something good better happen

(eret son of eret voice) is tha’ who i fink i’ is?

it might not be

if anyone knows who plays this man, pls lemme know

NOOOOOOO NOT THE GAMEBOY

OH IT GOT WORSE

sir do you have the technical skills for this

i know hes the head of a game developing company thing but the actual physical insides of a gameboy are an entirely different thing, right?

i was waiting for the thoop situation to come up again

the MOOD that this is-

i have finished my pomegranate and can confirm that the juice does in fact come off of human skin, which is nice bc i looked like id murdered someone

👀

and how are you gonna do that, gun?

idk man, i reckon id appreciate you as my big bro

yayyy that was really good, a little bitter at times but really sweet overall. 7/10, would try again

oh and the episode was also really good

huge lack of threezo tho

theyd better make up for it next week

still good tho

bye bye everyone! have a good day!!

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lovenona · 10 months

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I really want to read some of your stories again but they're not showing on AO3 anymore. If I try to read them on here, it says I need a password. Can you please make them readable again?

ah sorry of course i’ve been so slow fixing things around here 😭 I had closed the ones on ao3 to users only bc i read that they’re having data scraping issues & it would help protect my work from being stolen by chatgpt (although it makes me rly sad bc i want them to be accessible to all so maybe.....) and i’ll work on fixing my blog rn !!

EDIT: ok friend i have done the good deed

#thank u for making me go do this LMAO i keep forgetting #letters to adele

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ahundredtimesover · 10 months

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Will miss you.. but will re read all the stories again n again coz they are soooooo good ❤️

Ah yes, reread if you want some comfort! I’m doing that myself, given that this period is making me sad bc I rly do want to write and this is also pretty tough but yeah, I hope they can still give you joy 😊

I’ll miss u as well! I’ll still be here every once in a while so drop in anytime 💜💜

#mimianswers #💌

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1d1195 · 10 months

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hey!!! last update giving very much f u and i’ll see u tmrw bc I lowkey CRIED while reading HOWEVER that shit was so well written, thought out, developed and executed I have no words. i’m not a writer, so it’s rly hard for me to express how deeply I enjoy this story. it’s insane. when I first started reading I didn’t follow you or anything I fully found it by accident and then I lost it (i’m so bad at using this site lmao) and going back now seeing what I had written in my notes app made me laugh and I wanted to share w u

lost tumblr post

- ceo and sugar daddy h

- but she works for niall

- one word title (arrangement?) (internship?)

- louis is her best friend

- 2 parts

- got me in my feels

- SO F ING GOOD

anyways, this last update was incredible and thanks to your writing, I am learning to appreciate the angst. I love it and appreciate you putting it out here for us

xoxo, fu + c u tmrw <3

AH literally so excited you got to read it! I was honestly thinking about what your reaction might be the whole time when I posted it. 😭

The idea that you would make a note of details of my story to find it again has me 🥺🥺 im so glad you found it again and so glad you enjoyed reading it. Thank you thank you thank you 💕

This site has its moments so I’m glad you got to find me again and don’t be so hard on yourself! Your message is ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 for my sad little heart. I appreciate your thoughts so much!

I do love a bit of angst myself. Makes for a good story. I hope you’ll like the next part too!

Xoxo

#f you and see you tomorrow :)#tradtional

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spearxwind · 2 years

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Ah I wish id kept better track of evidence, I didn’t think of it at the time because I didnt think this would be a long term issue?? I’d have to evade their blocks and look through years of nonsense to get it so I definitely wont do that

Ive been ignoring them for this long, they only make me act up whenever they try to pull some shit at me and even then i just go ‘wow this sucks’ and never rly take a step. Fortunately the intervals at which these happen are fairly long

its rly pathetic but its even more sad that they dont see it 😭 like please find another hobby or something damn

also im actually genuinely stoked!! Ive never really felt so hyped to work on this character, and ive loved him for a long long time, i just never knew what to do with him lore wise or personality wise since i was constrained by these other people’s stuff, but now hes free and in a setting where I can actually get him to thrive and hes like... actually speaking to me now for the first time. So im hella excited and i hope new people like him, and that old fans enjoy his return

honestly they really do, i must occupy their mind fully if they keep this up so intensely. At this point its just ridiculous tbh, mostly for them

as a sidenote, i really appreciate everyone coming forward to offer support!! thank you!! I would definitely like to drop this now though and move on if possible, so this will be my last post on it! but yeah, thank you again

#ask #anon #ask dump #putting these three together for organizations sake

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mlynar-nearl · 1 year

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the amount of pulls you just said was insane sorry, did you just say 290 for ling/lee? and 170 for gavalter/pozy? absolutely insane that is some. wow. (can i say anything i hand mhy my wallet like it is free)

ok but yeah i can see like.... why. i mean. i love old man nearl i want him, i want him now so i can finally get started on my nearl family agenda and have to m9/mod3/maxlvl everyone in the nearl family (i love them little lovelies) and i have only done this with nearlter but blemi needs rocks and i hate rocks i hate farming 1-7 with a passion i have literally postponed farming rocks so much i have like 7??? un-e2'ed 6*s just bcs they need rocks (and also bcs they are not meta lol)

ur wallet is terrifying. anyways will u max pot the old man? i feel like u wld tbh but like complete guess.

and yeah most ppl will talk abt honkais story instead since it is pretty good, but i like the gameplay very personally, like... im a sucker for good hack-and-slash games (that i can play on mobile bcs idh a pc oop) that also dont require *that* much brain and honkai has honestly filled up that for me lol. its nice its flashy i press buttons its a win-win

but yeah before that, for the longest time, it was just arknights that stuck with me and its really obvious why bcs its a really good game (even now ofc tho sss pains me in every way possible) and i still do is2 all the time for fun even tho ive maxed out my candle level for weeks alr like hell yeah !!! i love this game!!! i burn out sometimes but i usually get back within one or two events (hence my incomplete guide ahead + the one medal missing from lingering echos + i only completed medal set for tw on the rerun) but yeah i love arknights and sometimes i wish i had more friends to yell abt it !!! watched the concert (the one with phenomenal agents and i was rly sad that i couldnt talk abt it to anyone properly)

ah once again sorry for the length, but i would love to hear what other gacha games you play as well ! personally i am a gacha game only person (my standards are a bit low sometimes) and i dont play much outside of gacha tbh. ah and of course, have a nice day !

i pretty much only pull on limited banners which is why i could put in that many for gavial and pozy without dipping into the wallet that much. ling and lee, on the other hand, THAT shit hurted my money. for my arknights pulls i basically set myself a number of rules that rely on the slight delay between CN and global that let me think out ops in advance and such. essentially, i allow myself one operator release between limited banners to actually invest in, based on how they look, their mechanics, and what i like in a character. so mlynar is my one between gavialter/pozy and omertexas/penance, simple as. GG was a previous "one." so was surtr. unfortunately this system does mean i have to skip characters that i do like- for example, i prio'ed GG over gnosis and fiammetta, who i both really enjoy as characters- because i ruled that GG has the most utility that i can take advantage of in my average playstyle and her global range is just too good at covering for my smallbrain moments. so for that reason, i normally have around 17 ten-pulls saved for each limited banner including the free ones that you get (meaning i average around 175 pulls since i throw in a few singles to make it nice and even.) ling and lee were an exception since mr lee just decided to fight me on it. to this day the only operator released on a limited banner that hasn't come home is irene and that's because i put foresight in myself and reminded myself that gavialter and pozemka would be upcoming in a much shorter gap than between ling/lee and specalter/irene, and i would regret it if i went all in for irene. the primary goal is always the operator who will be impossible to get at any other time of the year. yes i plot these things that far in advance like a general going to war. it's how i Survive . i've been doing it pretty much since i started when the limited to save up for was W.

i don't intend to pull for maxpot on mlynar for this reason. even with him sitting at my all time favorite character in the game, it doesn't fit my standard of pulling. eyes are ahead to omertexas and penance once he's home. though i do have idle plans to use any royal guard tokens i get on him. i would like him to be maxpot someday but given that i generally roll with the broad goal of collecting as many characters as possible, it's incompatible for the moment.

rn i indulge at feh and genshin at the request of my friends who do play them. i do enjoy genshin and it's a fun time killer- it's a shame the fanbase is So. i try not to indulge in gacha games unless they're recommended to me by friends, and arknights was, in fact, a rec when it was fresh enough (i think right after partial necrosis dropped because i had the frostnova lore explained to me as a hook.) i started right at the tail end of nian's banner. most of the vibeo games i play are non-gacha to avoid the hurts to my wallet that mr lee put on it. at least with arknights i can feel like i'm actually paying them for a good game PFSDLGH.....

#ash answers #anonymous #i tend to be of the opinion that a lot of gacha games are exploitative which is why i dont really do them unless recommended #though when i was younger i was very into mobile gaming

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everythingsinred · 2 years

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001 gakuen alice

wow really! how random that u chose this manga that i dont even care about or whatever

001

Favorite character: tie with natsume and mikan! natsume has been my favorite since day one but even though it took me some time to love mikan as much, they rly are equal to me.

Least Favorite character: UGH like theres characters i hate, like esp and persona, but whose roles in the story i mostly appreciate. if theres a character im kinda meh abt, even regarding his role in the story........ maybe tono? lol i have no real outstanding feelings abt him

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): im assuming this is romantic? if so: natsume/mikan, hotaru/ruka, koko/sumire, tsubasa/misaki, narumi/misaki-sensei. but ill include nonromantic as well bc i want to: natsume&ruka, hotaru&subaru, mikan&yuka, main 4 as a friend group (which is what we deserved rather than the three of them barely interacting outside of their bond with mikan), and the special ability group (namely tsubasa and misaki with mikan)

Character I find most attractive: kaoru

Character I would marry: maybe yuka. shes the one i would most trust above all. definitely the Best adult in the series. and most sensible.

Character I would be best friends with: UGh maybe yuka again. i trust her the most. its also bizarre now that im closer with age to her than i am with the main characters lmao. yuka is underrated though

a random thought: i have a rudimentary understanding of how alices are sorted according to ability but im ngl i still have trouble comprehending why some of the special ability students arent in latent or somatic. i just accept that i wont understand and leave it at that.

An unpopular opinion: the ending being bad is NOT unpopular. my unpopular opinion is that im not a big fan of like the last 30-40 chapters in general, not just the last three. theres parts i like, but mostly i think it could have been better done. also i dont like that mikan got the stealing alice. i dont like that choice really. i hope that doesnt sound arrogant but honestly im tired so if it comes across that way oh well.

My Canon OTP: natsumikan... ahh im so lucky

My Non-canon OTP: tbh hotaru and ruka! my sister and i made a banger playlist for them and i have sobbed just thinking of their potential. i honestly rly dont care if ppl think theyre a random couple or a way to pair off the spares--i think theyd be a genuinely good match and their scenes together are to die for.

Most Badass Character: probably either natsume or yuka but that badassery also just makes me sad

Most Epic Villain: ew none (ga is not an example of media where i root for the villains lol)

Pairing I am not a fan of: this is such a vague prompt. ill just say that i resent when ppl make one character the character they "ship with everybody" (namely mikan) bc that character tends to be female and there tends to be some very suspect implications about her agency and role in the relationships, like its more abt other ppls interest in her than in her own feelings. im not saying ppl who multiship are all like that (and im sure most multishippers are entirely reasonable) but ive seen enough takes in that vein for it to really rub me the wrong way. i rly genuinely only ship mikan romantically with natsume.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): ugh i lowkey dont wanna fully answer this but ill give it a go. first idc abt persona redemption, especially if it comes at the cost of his victims' experiences, so like no. he couldve just maybe died or smth instead. ALSO as ive mentioned with her having the stealing alice, i think mikan's end was not really that great for her character. it bums me out.

Favourite Friendship: natsume and ruka hands down no contest. dont argue with me; i wont listen

Character I most identify with: ah a lot. natsume bc. child abuse victim with anger issues. ruka bc pervasive loneliness and feeling of being a burden. mikan bc god am i really good for nothing can i even offer anything? i hate this prompt its too personal

Character I wish I could be: none lol the choices are to be abused, abuse others, or both so none. maybe id be jii-chan, he truly is outside that whole mess.

if you would like to send me an ask for a character/ship/show or you'd like to rb the original post yourself, heres the link!

#answered #thesightofworms #ask games #ga #gakuen alice #my thoughts abt ga have been in the making for 12 years so theyre complicated at times.#just ignore me if u want

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trickstarbrave · 20 days

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20 Questions for Writers

i got tagged by @throughtrialbyfire !!! idk who wants to be tagged though so if you see it. you can do it too :]

ill also answer under a read more

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

572,669. i have a disease that makes me incapable of shutting up

3. What fandoms do you write for?

i write for TES right now tbh but i've also written for yugioh and fire emblem three houses

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Consequences (fe3h) 1,483 Our Den (fe3h) 1,244 The Secrets We Share to Those We Love (MHA) 946 The World Eater's Eyrie (skyrim) 666 (LMAOOOOO nice) Alduin's Bane (skyrim) 569 (also nice)

5. Do you respond to comments?

god i try to. i love getting comments i just sometimes dont know what to say. i try to stay on top of reading them and responding if i can. if i havent replied to ur comment. i am stupid.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

most of my fics dont have endings tbh. i have either never finished them or they are just nice little one shots. however Siblings (fe3h) with twin byleths where one kills the other was pretty angsty ngl

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

uhhhhhh this is a problem yet again where most of mine are just happy little one shots or are unfinished. but i think To Walk the World with You Again (morrowind) is very happy. it hurts a lot in the beginning but ends with a happy loving reunion :>

8. Do you get hate on fics?

the closest i got was someone saying on Consequences (fe3h) that it shouldnt be tagged as M/M and instead M/F bc byleth was trans but other ppl ripped into them. i havent gotten rly terrible hate since fanfiction.net

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

all the time. i think i am primarily a smut author if im being honest. i just wanna watch my blorbos bone. as for what kind uhhhhh theres multiple kinds????

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i dont think i have. i am just boring tbh

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

again not that i know of but if anyone wants to i wouldnt be against it

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

YES the cannibal au for 5ds with my lil bro. i still think abt that au all the time tbh. it was angsty. it was dramatic. it was complicated. it was filled with hard moral dilemmas and gods with non-human morality and a lot of mythology shit. sad we never finished it tbh but life was getting hectic.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

i dont know. rn i think its nerevoryn but trickstarshipping (where i got my url namesake from) still holds a special place in my heart <3)

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Ghosts of the Past (svsss). i really do like the story and had a bunch of it planned out mentally. qinghua's father was going to disown him when qinghua was going to tell him he was dating mobei and refused to hear qinghua out, there was gonna be drama with qinghua's family too where his dad says he firmly believes qinghua is actually the son of his identical twin brother who had an affair with qinghua's mother (his father was already cheating on his mom and she was wrong to do that, but no he is in fact the child of his bio-dad even being disowned). they then spend a summer vacation living together getting an apartment, go visit his uncle, and qinghua learns to enjoy his creative passions while finishing his degree with mobei and shen yuan's help, etc etc

the ending was going to be at a christmas party where qinghua's father catches a glimpse of qinghua at a company party. his wife (qinghua's former step-mother and the revealed mother of qinghua's half siblings rather than step siblings like qinghua grew up believing) thinks hes here to crash the party only for them to see he's there as mobei's boyfriend. his dad then tries to get in good with mobei who just brushes him off with "ah right, i know you. you're qinghua's uncle (since he refused to believe he is actually qinghua's father and it must be his twin brother he resented for being artistic and sensitive). i didnt think you were that close, why are you bothering me?"

qinghua goes on to be an accountant at the company, pretty high up too, and his father ends up quitting out of embarrassment and mobei being especially hard on him once he takes over for the company. he also continues to write his trashy novel while he and mobei plan to get married.

but tbh. i have morrowind brainworms. idk if i will ever finish it. sucks that one of the few stories i had all planned out with cdrama levels of bullshit i was really looking forward to going ham on i lost my motivation for when my hyperfixation changed.

i also wanna finish alduin's bane. i have a lot planned for that i could also spend an insane amount of time explaining. im hoping that the motivation for that one comes back though rather than me simply saying i probably wont finish it

16. What are your writing strengths?

i dont know 🧍‍♂️ if anyone wants to tell me i would appreciate it. i think it is like. i am primarily a romance author so i like working on dialogue, character interaction, stuff like that. ive also gotten compliments on my world building but idk if thats just my ideas or how i write them into the world.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i feel like i struggle with pacing and motivation. as well as stuff like war tactics and full on battles. again i write mostly romance i dont know why i torture myself with stories about war

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

its very hard. ive seen ppl do it well but i find it difficult to read bc i am stupid. even with notes and flicking back and forth i feel like its a struggle to understand even if the goal was to obfuscate the meaning from the audience as well. usually i just do another language in bold font and make it clear the characters are speaking another language. but honestly do whatever you want forever

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i think it was in fact yugioh. i had ocs and daydreamed up storylines but i dont think i really sat down to write a fic until i was 12-13 and was writing a tendershipping fic in one of my notebooks at school lol

20. Favorite fic you've written?

tie between Alduin's Bane and Moon and Star. i love my long ass TES fics where i just go ham and play around with the world building and mythology. its a lot of fun and i feel like ive gotten to be very creative in the setting and make something unique and fun with the storylines given in both skyrim and morrowind

thanks for the tag <3 this was a lot of fun and thank u for reading if you did

#writing #tag #sorry for the fe3h jumpscares

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