Starting a compilation

enamored by how stupid he is

SEVERELY UNEDUCATED KAREN MEME INCOMING:

The root cause is ADHD and the correct treatment is Adderall (for some patients).

The reason that the numbers have gone up in legal prescriptions, is because more people are becoming aware of ADHD “symptoms” and telling their doctors. Most of these doctors that prescribe adderall, are Psychiatrists. So yes, numbers are rising because parents are becoming more knowledgeable and people are becoming more aware and educated. Mental health is health. Period.

If you seriously believe that there is another reasoning behind what this dumba$$ is “trying” to say…

Keep it to yourself, on your own posts.

Don’t bring your uneducated self over to my stuff and “try” to change my mind because it simply can’t happen.

This is how Science and Medicine work. You learn more about the disorder/disease/syndrome,etc & then you learn how to treat it! This isn’t fu**ing rocket science!

Random Life Ramble under cut about this weekend. You can skip this entirely or just cut to the last two paragraphs (in italics) to get the ghist of it if you want! Anything's cool!❤️

Ok, so I really planned to try to catch up on fics I wanted to read tonight and tomorrow, but I honestly don't think that's gonna happen until maybe Sunday now.

Because today, we moved my twin sister into her apartment and I honestly am not sure how I feel about it. It's not because she's been disowned or hates out family or she's leaving in a negative manner. She's literally moving 12 minutes away and I'm still going to see her all the time until I leave for college again. She moved to college back home after her freshman year elsewhere and has been living at home again. And while she loves my parents and is so much happier back here than where she was, she just wants to be able to try living out of the house like so may of our friends are and that's totally fine. My parents agree that like we're twenty and it's normal for people to want to do that during college and it could be a good experience for when we're out of it and we're both good kids. So that happens today and it all went well and I really an estancia for her that she finally gets to do this. And I think that this will be something she enjoys and will be good for her to be independent like she wants to be a bit more of. She'll still be super close to everything she knows but she also gets to try stuff she hasn't before. And I think she'll do great. Because I adore her so much and I want her to be happy so badly. She is my twin and my other half in every sense of the word. Which is funny because we look nothing a like and 80% of the time we are the literal definition of the whole "The Brawn and The Brain" one athletic and one nerdy twin stereotype. My parents put us in separate rooms at like a year and a half old because she'd fall asleep like sleeping beauty and I'd take much longer to fall asleep and would keep her up too much while just messing around in my crib and it just wasn't working out at all. But as different as we are I wouldn't change a single thing about her for anything in the world. She is and always will be my best friend and I know without a doubt I would choose her above anyone else right now. And I'm so happy to see she's happy....But there is a part of me that fucking hates this. And I'm not really sure what to do right now.

Because if it hasn't been noticed, I really am not good at expressing my feelings out loud. In life or when reading things I'll have so many thoughts in my head about it and how much I feel about it and what I think. But when someone asks about it or if I want to tell them how I felt about it, I have a very hard time saying more than "it was good" "it was fine" "I loved it." Because really in the backwards way my brain sometimes works, those words are all that's needed to express exactly how I feel and anything else just wouldn't make sense or would be repetitive and my brain also gets on to be about being too repetitive or rambley especially when I'm nervous or excited. And so while it isn't always a bad thing, and I am able to control my emotions relatively well in many situations, I also tend to bottle the worse things up and I know that's not always good.

But I have briefly cried at least five times today when I made sure no one was looking. And I really don't cry a lot. I don't like crying because honestly nine times out of ten it's doesn't makes sense to me to do. Either my brain says that crying would not be productive to the situation so let's find a better solution or I would rather set aside what's bothering me and make myself focus on something different because I don't want to be sad. I like being happy and I really would rather just forgive and forget most nonmajor inconveniences instead of letting them bring me down. I like being a glass half full kind of person and I don't think that's a bad thing. And once again, bottling things up isn't good even if I can't help it sometimes.

But when it comes to my sister I don't have that issue at all apparently. I like to joke that she's the biggest reason I ever cry and not because she's tossing the remote at me from across the couch. But it's also true because when it comes to her I can't actually hold stuff in and just the thought of something happening to her worries me so much at times even if I know she's going to be fine. I think the biggest thing this time is that she won't be as close to me anymore. Like us going to different colleges was one thing, but it also wasn't too bad because on top of texts and calls and stuff, I knew that when I came home from the holidays she'd still be sleeping right down the way like she'd been quiet literally since ever. And now that's not gonna happen anymore and while I understand that it will even have to happen one day and we will both move out and not live in the house we've grown up in. There's something about it that just makes me uncomfortable. Because I think the last thing in this world I want is to lose anything with my sister because we've move apart.

But yeah. So honestly today has been a good day. Work was good and her move in was easy and my family had pizza dinner at the apartment and this day really couldn't have gone smoother. And I've talked to a lot of great people today too. I think the biggest issue today has been the ten minute power outage that happens while writing this and tumblr being a little ass about me trying to edit a post and organise it the way I like. Like really? Why is it shoving over my bolded text to stuff I didn't chose and why is it shifting where my hyperlink? Though again. In the span of things those aren't really big deals. They won't affect me forever and all in all they didn't do anything to dampen the good that happens today.

But something about today has just drained me and so I want to wait until Sunday or Monday to read things when I can fully focus on them without my anxiety in the background. And I feel bad about it because I like everything y'all do and I want to see more of it but I just can't do that today and I don't want anyone to think I'm ignoring them or am not interested. I am, but I just don't think I'll be able to fully focus and respond and process on what I'm reading tonight and stuff.

Finally, I do however, have two things in my queue for this weekend but haven't gotten around to it until now. Mainly because I wasn't sure if anyone would be interested or if it would be worth it. But I've made them and I've been meaning to post them for a few days and don't want to let my self chicken out about it again But the first post is a WIP list of the stories I haven't published, the ones I've started writing, and some ideas I have planned next. I think it would maybe help people seen what I'm working on, and also be a place for me to semi store ideas that I make up. The second post is just something about tags list I'm going to start making. Because I haven't actually form that yet, and while I've had people asked to be tagged in stuff before, an actual for stuff didn't occur to me until recently and I was always worried that I would forget someone who asked. And I'm not sure how may people would want to be on them but I figured it could actually help me organise things a bit!

And yeah! That's it. If you've read this all or even a bit I'm sorry for rambling. But I love all of y'all, all of y'all are brilliant and amazing and I can't what to see what happens next with all of y'all lovely people! ❤️❤️ Have a good weekend!!

I’m scared I’ll never have a great love story

I’m even more scared I’ve missed mine already

If twitter is going to bust I guess I have to start posting here again

Man I don't even know if my followers remember I exist 😭

did a lil top card & bottom card draw for myself today and 🔥🔥🥺 (queen on top, king on bottom)

in essence, this reading means i have no fuckin game and will always be alone n fully separated from any genuine prospects of love

Zack’s poor fucking family. Can you imagine getting a call from your son’s boss only to be informed that he exploded his hands? Can you imagine returning from getting coffee from the hospital cafeteria and then seeing him being transferred to the psych unit? Can you imagine being told that the sweet boy who loved science and his friends and family, was responsible for so much death and pain? Can you imagine having to visit him in a locked ward for Christmas instead of watching him teach his niece science?

The moment I accepted my new life and true calling

There were 4 humans in the room. Where did 4 of the 5 upstairs big kids need to be?

On mom, of course.

(Emma is barely visible, just next to my hand on the left, behind Addy)

I have never felt more like Daine from Tamora Pierce's Tortall books.

Nona and coronabeth

i know i did one of these for alkaid so i tried to make some more for the other guys

this is obviously the one pic out of all that made me hyperventilate the most (believe me, the sounds I made were definitely unholy) -more under the cut-

I was really surprised and intrigued at how the pictures were generally really intimate and brought a spotlight to their personalities, starting from kris. Their expressions (especially bojan's) made me think I was looking at someone else. For a second, it didn't feel like the joker out that we knew. But it's them. The truest, rawest version of them, stripped of all the facade and expectations.

But jan and nace? Their pics were what made me think. A lot. This one above, just proved how much they are willing to showcase their love for each other, let it be platonic or romantic. They aren't scared to let us see it. The extent to which they are affectionate with each other always made me so happy and proud, but this is another level. Also we've seen how comfortable they are with their sexualities and physical affection. But this picture, shows another whole level of intimacy which tbh, scares me a bit. Why, you may ask. I'm not about to delve into my issues with intimacy right now, but all I want to say is that I'm really happy they found each other. But I'm still a bit confused on what exactly they are conveying. I hope someone else can give a clearer opinion on this. We'll never truly know what the meaning behind this is, but no harm in trying to form an idea, right?

i think i’ve realized (as i have waffled back and forth many times on whether i actually like addek as a ship) that what bums me out the most about their divorce isn’t the end of their marriage, it’s the end of their friendship. like, no other character on the show has that extensive of a history with another character really. most of the other core friendships and relationships begin at the start of the show. but then addison comes in and it’s like “oh they’ve been married for over a decade. they met at the beginning of med school and have spent almost all of their adulthood together” not to mention mark who is revealed to have been friends with derek since childhood, practically his brother. like, these three have such an extensive past that is just basically over before the show even really begins. and yeah sure, they’re kind of still friends. derek saves addison’s brother, mark and addie hook up in the early seasons of private practice. but it’s not the same! it just makes me sad, with the things they have revealed about what that trio dynamic was like in the past. they ALL hurt each other horribly but i think that they also know each other in ways that nobody else ever will. and obviously derek loves meredith deeply and they had a beautiful life together, but there’s just this whole chunk of his life that she doesn’t really know. she’s not close with his family, they don’t talk about his dad or his sister. she didn’t know him before he was Dr. McDreamy Shepherd, Certified Neuro God. idk. i’m rambling again but maddek just makes me so unbelievably sad when i think too much about it lmao.

all my love to addy and everything but why the fuck is the meat pie in her school lunch...blue

and why is it smiling at me