#YALL IM SO HAPPY WITH HOW THIS TURNED OUT IM SOBBING
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I’m crying 🥲💖
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not her
pt2
warnings: swearing, jealousy, crying, comparison, not proofread
a/n: yall seem like super excited about this series and im all for it tf
a/n 2: if ts is lowk sad, thats my fault, it was an accident I was listening to partially sad music and rlly got into it
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over the past few days, matt and amelias friendship had gotten closer, while y/n and matts was no less than just the title of ‘dating’. they didnt hang out, they didnt talk much and they didnt go on dates. but when y/n did ask matt to do anything, it was always ‘cant. im with amelia’ or ‘cant. ill be with amelia then’. it was always amelia this, amelia that. but never ‘sure baby! i totally want to hangout with my girlfriend’
y/n was fucking over it. she wanted to talk with matt about this all. she wasnt fucking gonna deal with het own boyfriend not acting like her boyfriend.
so, thats where she found herself, standing behind matt where he sat with amelia next to him. it was very obvious was she was being more than friendly to him, her hand was caressing his arm and her eyes were staring deeply into his. y/n bit her lip, fighting back the urge to bitch slap amelia.
y/n ran her hands through matts hair, annoucing her presence. matt flinched at the sudden touch, whipping his head around to look at who had just touched his hair. his eyes softening and a small smile creeping onto his lips when he saw who it was.
“matt? can we talk please?” y/n asked, her eyes studying matts features, god how she missed being this close to him, to be able to admire him.
matt turned his head to look at amelia, before looking back at y/n, “im talking with amelia, maybe later?” he asked. remorse present in his voice.
y/n moved her hand away from him and took a step back from them, refusing to look at amelia, as her eyes glossed over and a lump in her throat grew. breathing grew harder and she knew talking wouldnt be any easier.
“y- yeah. thats fine.” she mumbled, her voice breaking, she took a breath in. and began walking away, but not before saying a quick “I love you” to him out of instinct. she took slower steps away, expecting one back, she wanted to hear him say he loved her too.
but when she didnt hear one back and only heard him resume talking to amelia, her eyes immediately lost all control over the tears in her eyes, the hot tears running down her cheeks faster than she could comprehend. she held her breath, trying to make no sound obvious to the sobs she wanted to let out. but she couldnt let matt know how upset she was about this, and she certainly didnt want amelia feeling the satisfaction of making her cry.
y/n moved quickly, leaving the library where that entire interaction went down and pushed past the doors of the school, walking quick to her car.
she opened the door and sat inside, closing it the door and immediately breaking down, her sobs being loud, her tears being fast as they poured down her cheeks and her breathing incredibly hard.
she couldnt fucking believe it, her own boyfriend chose some other girl over her.
the boy she used to kiss goodnight and sleep in his arms every weekend, the boy she used to be able to come to and expect not to be lonely, the boy she knew she could come to when she was upset or when she just wanted company. but now she wasnt sure if she could, matt only wanted to be with amelia and not y/n.
does he understand how much he meant means to y/n? hes the reason shes not lonely, he was the reason she was able to fall asleep so peacefully at night, he was the reason she was happy everyday, so content with life and now she couldnt have that anymore because of that stupid fucking girl. stupid fucking bitch named amelia.
she took him away from her and she didnt know what to do. its obvious matt wasnt interested in y/n and was only interested in amelia and what she wanted to say or do, not the girl he dedicated his life to, not the girl he told ‘im yours’, not the girl he used to say ‘I love you’ to every time he possibly could.
y/n just wasnt her, not amelia, not what matt wanted, she didnt have beautiful green eyes like amelia did, she didnt have that lovely orange color of hair amelia did, she didnt have naturally beautiful freckles covering her skin like amelia did. amelia was her, and y/n wasnt.
y/n only cried harder, pulling her knees to her chest and hiding her face in her knees, sobs escaping her throat. being so gutural, it scratched her throat with each sound leaving her lips. but that didnt compare with the aching pain she felt in her chest, the lump in her throat being so big she could barely breathe.
what matt had dismissed earlier so easily wasnt so easy to handle with for y/n. all she wanted was matt to be her boyfriend and act like it.
she wanted to dial his number and call him, but she couldnt run to him like she always did. he wasnt going to be there for her like he always was, but he was going to be there for amelia.
a pit in her stomach formed with the overgrowing urge to run to matt, her body so familar with always going to matt, being so familar with his hands rubbing her back as sweet words left his lips, his voice lulling her to the warm hug of being okay. but she couldnt have him, she couldnt have the same comforting feeling he brought her.
she wanted him, she needed him but he wasnt within her arms reach anymore and she felt sick. sick with words she wanted to tell him. sick with the need of feeling matts touch. sick to her stomach with just wanting matt in her prescense, he wouldnt even have to do anything. she just wanted him with her with the gentle reminder he wanted her too and in the same room, but instead he was talking with another girl, giving his attention to another girl.
‘another girl, another girl’ was all y/n heard, her thoughts screaming into her ears.
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—:: Secrets in plain sight ?
cl16 | instagram au
pairing: charles leclerc x reader
summary: you and charles prefer to keep your relationship private, so when you start posting a little girl on your instagrams, it leaves people questioning whether or not you may have been hiding a big secret
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yourusername core memory watching charles teach her to play piano + special feature from dumb and dumber (charles and carlos) 🤍
charles_leclerc she’s almost as good as me at piano, and it’s only been a few days
— yourusername she’s a natural protege
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livelaughloveleclerc need to see the picture from carlos’s pov
— astrid.olin it’s prob his blackmail material
— carlossainz55 don’t expose my secrets
— ferrari4life LMAO he actually replied 😭
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leleleleclercfan okay but who’s the kid in the pictures?? and why is no one talking about them
— selene.daska no because what
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f1fanforevss babe wake up, new y/n and charles conspiracy theory dropped
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charles_leclerc enjoying the short weekend before the next race.
yourusername so happy we get to spend these small breaks together during breaks between the races <3
— charles_leclerc 🤍
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16isthebest stopppp you guys are literally the cutest igh im so jealous
— ferarrarrarrari when will it be my turn
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grandgrandprixfanxoxo going to the next grand prix, hope they’re both there so I can get a picture with them ahhhh
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user8495103 yall the little girl is in the pictures again, i’m telling u that conspiracy going around rn is true
— carlosleclerc highkey agree tbh
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f1wags is there a new kid in the paddock? fans have begun speculating that @/charles_leclerc and @/yourusername may have a little girl they’ve been keeping secret based on recent photos posted to their instagram accounts. what do you think?
sienna.layi honestly would be so happy for them not like it’s any of our business anyway
— user83773 right it’s only their business
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ferrarif1xxxx i wanna say it’s their kid but like how would they of been able to keep it a secret this long ??
— khloeponta probably had ndas signed tbh
— charles161616 oh definitely
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keepingupwthewags okay hear me out, maybe they’re babysitting because you know y/n wouldn’t want to miss out on posting cute pregnancy pictures
— user2375 the only voice of reason so far
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yourusername behind the scenes if the paddock during a race 🏎️
livinlifefastt y/n i desperately need an answer to this, what’s your favorite charles moment so far this season?
— yourusername the vegas videos <3
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kimiii.ohonnn lmao istg charles just does duck lips in every photo at this point 😭
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ferrarrigofastt sooooo are we just gonna completely ignore the whole secret kid thing
— liliannaalmaa literally like c’mon
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scuscuderia y/n marry me
— yourusername sorry, i’m already taken
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yourusername added to their story
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may i ask a baekhyun scenario? unplanned pregnancy and he doesn't want the baby. reader resists. anything about cold/bad/fucboy or what else 🤣 but happy end please. 🥺🥺 I want to see s/o's happiness.
omg 😭 anon i’m so sorry for how this turned out i hope you like it 😭😭😭 fuckboy baekhyun makes me feel insane i feel crazy for writing this! beware of the worst baekhyun you’ll probably ever read on my page ! i do not condone this behavior at all yall.. have fun with this. thank you for the ask also!! 🩷🩷
unplanned • bbh [req]
pairing: fuckboy!baekhyun x pregnant!reader, fwb (?) relationship
synopsis: you find out you’re pregnant with baekhyuns baby, and he wants nothing to do with you (or it).
genre: ANGSTTTTTTTTTT
warnings: swearing, mentions of smut, baekhyun is awful, like really awful. reader has a poor sense of self worth/respect :((. but the ending is kind of happy (ish??).
two red lines only mean one thing on this test; so does the word ‘pregnant’. three pregnancy tests lay on your bathroom counter, all concluding the same thing: you’re pregnant.
“well?” your friend, chaeyoung, asks on the other line. you called her when you woke up vomiting, after feeling nauseous for the last three days. she’s the one who bought you the tests, dropping them off at your work on her lunch break and telling you to call her immediately when you take them.
you don’t even know how your lasted at work today, feeling sick the entire day and vomiting every time you went to the bathroom. you had hoped it was just food poisoning, and had managed to convince yourself all day that it was, even when chaeyoung brought you the tests. up until now, your hope for food poisoning was going strong.
letting out a shaky breath, you say, “well, im pregnant,” your voice breaking on the last syllable. a nasty sob escapes your mouth and you drop the phone onto the counter, covering your mouth as the tears start streaming. your whole body shakes as you bawl into your hands, your tears gathering in your hands and sliding down your arms.
“i’m coming over,” you hear chaeyoung say, and you start shaking your head as if she can see you.
“no, chae, it’s fine,” you cry, wiping underneath your eyes with the back of your hand, though it does nothing because the tears keep flowing. you’re not ready to have a baby, not even close. it wasn’t even planned.
“y/n, i’m coming over,” your friend says. you can hear shuffling, and you panic as you try to find the nicest way to tell her to stay the hell away from you.
“chae, stop please! i just want to be alone right now,” you sniffle and hear her sigh.
“you need support.”
“i haven’t even told baekhyun,” you moan out, the realization crashing down on you. that alone makes you start bawling again, not ready to deal with him and his reaction to this.
“oh god. y/n, i feel like i should come over,” chaeyoung says, and because she’s your best friend and you don’t have any energy to fight with her, you mumble an ‘ok’.
twenty minutes later, chaeyoung arrives with boba and a few snacks. you feel drained, and your skin feels tight due to the dried tears on your face. chaeyoung throws her arms around you once she’s inside of your apartment and all of her items are on the counter.
the two of you don’t say anything as you hug tightly, silently crying on her shoulder. chaeyoung rubs your back soothingly and tells you that it’ll be okay, but you don’t believe her. there’s so many things that you need to do, like tell your family, figure out doctors appointments, build a nursery, talk to the father of your child. but nothing feels possible, it all feels overwhelming and out of reach. “cmon, let’s sit,” chaeyoung says, grabbing the drinks and walking into your living room.
the both of you sit on your couch and pop the straws through the film lid, and drink. you barely take a sip, letting your lips wrap loosely around the straw, your mind everywhere but here. “talk ti me, y/n. let it all out,” chaeyoung says, scooting closer to you and wrapping her arms around you. you lean into her and let out a shaky breath.
all you can think about is baekhyun, and his reaction. you know it’ll be bad, and you’ll probably end up crying like you always do. he doesn’t spare your feelings ever, and can’t imagine him doing so when you tell him, and it makes your heart ache in the worst way. if your relationship wasn’t already messy and bad enough, it just got incredibly worse.
“i cant tell baekhyun,” you say. you feel chaeyoung let out a breath, and you’re grateful that you can’t see her face, because her expression would definitely make you cry. chaeyoung hates baekhyun, to put it simply, and has made ir clear that she doesn’t support you fucking with him to any degree.
“you know you have to,” she says. you close your eyes to keep the tears at bay. “do it now, before it’s too late.” and by too late, she means before you have 3 months to figure out if you’re going to be a single parent, or not.
you’d like to think that baekhyun wouldn’t be against raising this baby with you, but you know, deep down, that he he is going to be. hell would have to freeze over before he’d even consider playing the role of this baby’s father.
you pull yourself out of chaeyoungs embrace and lean back against the couch. you feel her eyes on you, and you take a drink of your boba to busy yourself. “you know i’ll always be here for you,” she says, and you nod. chaeyoung and you have been through a lot, emotionally, and it all started when you began sleeping with baekhyun. she hated (and still does) the way he treated you, like you a toy he could play with when he was bored. he’d call you up in the middle of the night and tell you to come over, hed show up unannounced and expect you to be ready and waiting for him, hed message and go out with other women, and you’d still stick around. for some reason, you defended him from all of her criticisms, which was the main reason the both of you stopped communicating for awhile.
“i know,” you say quietly.
“and i care about you. which is why this is the one and only time i’m going to tell you to call him, because he deserves to know,” she says, running a hand through her hair. you think back to your phone that you left in the bathroom, and you wished you would have flushed it down the toilet instead.
you can’t even think about what you’d even text him. you rarely ever ask him for favors, like to call you, nor do you ever really text him. you once tried to keep a conversation with him, but by the third text he stopped responding, and didn’t respond for days until he told you he was on his way to your house.
begrudgingly, you get up and walk to the bathroom to retrieve your phone. you open it and click on your messages with baekhyun, and start to scroll.
thursday
y/n: are you busy?
6:23 pm
baekhyun: come over
11:53 pm
tuesday
y/n: come over?
7:30 pm
saturday
y/n: come to onyx tonite
8:50 pm
friday
baekhyun: come over
10:35 pm
y/n: ok omw
10:37 pm
you could cry, looking at the messages. it’s pathetic, really. you guys never really communicated beyond being in the bed with each other. the only times you both talked, was during the beginning, but once he figured out that you were at his beck and call, the talking dwindled. sometimes, all you got from him were grunts, not even a greeting.
you sulk back into the living room, phone in hand and dignity in the garbage. “what do i even say?” you ask your friend.
“tell him to come over,” she sighs, rubbing her forehead. you bite your bottom lip and aimlessly type the message and send it without second thought. you gingerly take a seat on the couch, your phone burning a hole in your hand.
you expected silence, and after ten minutes and no response from him, you sigh and pick your phone up, contemplating if you should text him again. “just do it,” chaeyoung says, reading your mind. and so you double text him, for the first time since you two got involved. in the beginning, you didn’t feel uneasy about double texting, but that fear quickly seeped in when he simply wouldn’t respond, like ever, to any message if you sent more than one.
when you don’t get another response after a total of thirty minutes, you dial his number, almost blindly. you can’t even remember the last time you called him, but you have this number memorized despite it all. it’s tattooed in your brain from all the times you wanted to but didn’t.
the line rings and rings, until you get the message to leave a voicemail. so you do. “hey, baek… come over when you get this,” you say, and quickly end the call. your stomach has dropped to your ankles, and you want to die.
chaeyoung anxiously chews at her fingernails. “call again,” she says.
“but he’s not going to answer. and i dont want to tell him over the phone,” you say, tightly holding your phone between your hands.
“just try again. trust me.”
so you do. and to your surprise, he answers towards the last couple of rings, pure agitation in his voice. “fuck, y/n, what?” he asks. baekhyun pushes the forehead of sohee, the girl currently on her knees in between his legs, away from his crotch. “what do you want?” he asks, running a hand through his hair. sohee rests her cheek against his thigh and looks up at him, and baekhyun smirks down at her and drags a hand down the side of her face before pulling at her bottom lip with his thumb.
“i-i just wanted to see if you were free,” you say, cursing yourself mentally and not having your shit together. baekhyun didn’t like when you were unsure or nervous about something; it turned him off. if you were indecisive about going to his house or yours, he’d just cancel all together. “just come over when you can, ‘kay?” you say, pacing the living.
“yeah, okay, whatever. that it?” he asks, pulling him thumb out of sohee’s mouth.
“yes, by-“ he doesn’t let you finish and hangs up, tossing his phone behind him and looking down at the poor girl between his legs. if she had any bit of brains, she’d leave now and never look back. but like most of the women baekhyun is involved with, they never do.
when baekhyun is done with sohee, he leaves without as much as a goodbye. he vaguely tells her he’ll see her again, but never specifies when. she watches him leave, feeling confused and empty and wanting more. and maybe that’s why they all stick around for him, because he leaves them feeling like a piece of them is missing and they’re desperately chasing it, trying to get it back.
he decides to entertain you and come over, despite your neediness. that’s another thing baekhyun didnt appreciate; clingy and neediness. he hated when women wanted him so much, it made him feel trapped and confined. baekhyun didn’t like feeling trapped or tied down to anything.
baekhyun doesn’t text you that he’s on his way, he just shows up at your door. when you hear the knocks, you jump up, having forgotten that he was supposed to come over because two hours feels like ages ago.
when you look through the peephole, your heart drops and your palms start to sweat. you pull the door open and baekhyun up-nods at you and let’s himself in. you close the door behind him and lean against it as he comfortably makes his way through your house. that is all about to change in a few seconds.
you make your way into the living room and see bakehyun sitting on your couch, scrolling through his phone. he looks up when he hears your foot steps, and frowns. “why are you acting weird?” he asks.
“i’m not,” you definitely are.
“yes, you are. stop it,” he says, going back to his phone. it’s now or never.
“baekhyun, i need to talk to you,” you say, still standing in the entry of your living room. he lets out a sigh and looks at you, his expression a cross between irritation and panic.
“about what?” he all but groans out. when you asked him over, he had expected (and hoped) for less talking and a lot more sex.
you lick your lips and shyly cross your arms in front of your chest. “i’m… im pregnant,” you say, looking him in the eye. he stares at you blankly, his mind unable to process your words.
“what?”
“baekhyun…” you say, taking a step towards him and then retreating. you really can’t say it again; it’s already too real.
“you’ve got to be fucking with me? you’re fucking with me, right?” he says, running a hand through his dark hair. you only shake your head, and he scoffs. “well, it’s not mine.” he says plainly, going back to his phone.
at this, you frown. “what? yes it is, baekhyun. i’ve only slept with you,” you say, a storm brewing in your head at him insinuating that you’ve been sleeping around. if anybody’s been sleeping around, it’s him. when you two first got together, he had asked you not to sleep with anybody else, and you didn’t see anything wrong with that. but now, you feel like maybe you should have.
“i don’t care; you don’t have any proof, y/n. that baby isn’t mine,” he says harshly. tears come to your eyes and you blink them away.
“this baby is yours! and you’re going to help me raise it!” you say, wiping at your eyes.
“like hell i am. i don’t give a fuck, y/n. i don’t want this baby, and you shouldn’t either. we aren’t even fucking together,” he spits, shaking his head, and that weight settles. you and baekhyun don’t even have a relationship label. you wouldn’t even know how to refer to him if somebody asked you who he was to you. friend was too mild, because you do things most friends don’t do to each other, and you don’t know that much about him. lovers isn’t even remotely true, because there is no love between the two of you. you’re somewhere higher than a friend, but lower than a lover, which is practically hell.
your mind drifts off to remember the time he invited you to his family’s barbecue. you practically met everyone in his family, danced with his grandma and little cousins, helped his mother in the kitchen. you thought he’d ask you out after that, but he never did. instead, he constantly reminded you that you two were not together.
“i don’t care,” you say quietly. “this is your baby. you’re going to help.” you tell him.
“y/n, i always use a condom. this baby isn’t fucking mine—what don’t you understand?”
you shake your head. for all of the times he’s used a condom, there is, of course, the one time he didn’t. and you remember it clear as day. you were the one who told him to get one, even though both of you were tipsy, you were still able to understand that. he told you he’d pull out, and did everything but. you can still remember the feeling of being so full of him. it still makes your knees weak.
“you didn’t the night after sehuns party,” you say.
“it was one time!” he shouts, as if he never took sex-ed. one time is all it takes—everybody knows that. “fuck, y/n. why do you want to keep this baby. are you trying to ruin my life?”
“i’m not trying to do anything. you think i want to be pregnant? baekhyun, i’m only 27! i’m not ready to be a fucking mother, but this is my reality right now!” you yell back, and it dawns on you that this is the most you’ve both ever spoken in a single meeting.
he shakes his head. “what do you want from me, y/n? i’m not raising this fucking baby with you—i’ll pay for you to get rid of it, but i’m not raising it. there’s no fucking way,” he says, standing up. you start to panic, stepping closer to him.
“what are you doing?”
“getting the fuck out of here,” he says, trying to push past you. you stop him, putting your hands on his chest. “y/n, move.”
“no. we need to talk about this.”
“there’s nothing to talk about! i’m not raising this baby with you, and that’s it. i don’t care what you do with it, but leave me out of it,” he says, removing your hands from his chest and brushing past you, his shoulder bumping into your arm in the process. “and lose my fucking number.” baekhyun says as he pulls your front door open and steps out, slamming it as he goes.
you can’t help but crumple to the floor, feeling like a rug has been swept from underneath you. you shake uncontrollably as you sob, fat tears rolling dons your face for the nth time today.
for some reason, you feel like a weight has been lifted off of you even though your world feels like it’s been flipped on it’s axis. you know you’ll be bound to baekhyun for life, as long as this baby is alive, whether either of you like it or not. but at least he knows, and maybe he will grow up and come around.
and you feel a sense of peace for the first time ever since he’s ever departed from you. usually, you feel hollow, used, and muddled; always in a constant state of anxiety when he’s around or when you think about him. but him leaving was probably the best things he’s ever done for you. now you can be sure he won’t be coming here unannounced, interrupting peaceful sleep at ungodly hours. now, you can rid yourself of unnecessary stress and drama, albeit unfortunate circumstances.
yes, you’ll be bound to baekhyun for life. but there are definitely worse things that could happen to you. and who knows, maybe he’ll change his mind.
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gonna get really sappy and DEEPLY tmi/personal about twenty one pilots on main so im gonna put it under a cut. i am cringe but i am free and clancy tour coming up is giving me Feelings
i've been a top fan since 2016. i initially had some resistance to them bc it was when Stressed Out was at its peak and like, yall know how oversaturation goes. even if its good, its fucking annoying by proxy. all the 12/13 year olds at my high school were into it. i was turning 17. and it was a really fucking rough year.
i've been deep into homestuck since i was about 14/15, but by age 16 i had branched out into text-based rp and met a guy from italy who i kind of had a situationship with i guess?? at the time?? idk if that's what the kids call it. (whenever i describe how many relationships ive had, i count this one as a 0.5) anyways. it eventually got to a point where he was emotionally abusing me for a period of about four months. it was brief, but intense, especially since im a fucking lovesick lonely teen at this point who doesnt know any better. he lovebombs me, talks to me and acts like i am his girlfriend, gets jealous and shitty if i talk about other people, but then the moment he goes and does the same shit i get told i'm the reason he was depressed, im the reason for his problems, etc. until he calmed down and placated me and won me over again. over and over, regularly, for four months. it was a lot for my little developing brain to handle.
i know people have had it longer, have had it worse, but it really left a lasting impact. i was left with a litany of abandonment issues, and self-esteem and image that was already bad was buried dead in the fucking ground. i wanted to die every single fucking day for those four months. he even told me, as i began to question my sexuality properly, that i couldnt be bi 'because i liked him'.
but he LOVED twenty one pilots. would quote their shit regularly. wore the merch. all that stuff.
by 2016 i'd managed to see clearly enough and have enough support from friends that i felt comfortable cutting him and his circle off permanently. and it was fucking hard. i didn't have a lot of irl friends at the time and it felt like my only support network. after i finally left, i was desperate to feel some semblance of control, take something back, my own personal little 'fuck you' i could carry in my heart.
with all the hype around them, i gave top a try. slowly eased my way in. i knew i was hooked when i heard Holding On To You for the first time. it made me feel like i could take back that control and find a light at the end of the tunnel.
i consumed everything they had put out after that. i saw them live at emotional roadshow sydney 2017, i was turning 18. i made so many new friends. i felt such hope in my heart. i sobbed so fucking hard when they played HOTY. they weren't the only reason i made it through, itd be naive to contribute everything to them when i've done a lot of work and so have the people around me, but they were like a lifeline to hold on to when things were hard.
i went and saw them again in 2018 for the bandito tour. i made my own outfit and was surrounded by people who had done the same. i made more friends, had more adventures. i was dropping out of high school the year that Trench released due to having the worst mental health i'd had probably since my abuse and felt so lost but it helped me feel a little more stable and grounded. like that light was still there.
a lot has happened since. i'll be 25 when i go see them in November, once again at Qudos Bank Arena in sydney. i'm in a happy relationship with someone i love who respects me. i'm doing things that make me happy. i'm happy. i've felt and experienced and lived and loved and lost and done so so so much since i was a scared 16 year old hearing them for the first time. i've gotten piercings and tattoos, something i never thought i'd do, and put their work permanently on my body. i'm so proud every time i see my tattoo on my arm. i genuinely love and accept myself exactly as i am, which is something i NEVER thought i'd do.
having Clancy come out nine years to the day from blurryface, an album that has been so deeply important to me in a lot of ways, gets me real misty. this entire tour gets me so misty. i didn't think i'd live past 18 at BEST. but i'm here and i'm fucking happy.
genuinely cannot emphasise how much this album and this tour means to me. i plan on getting a Clancy tattoo once the album comes out and i've had some time to sit with it. it feels very full circle, i guess. hearing Next Semester has just had me thinking about this constantly and all weepy all the time haha. but a good weepy.
i cannot fucking wait to scream in a stadium full of people again in a way that heals my heart.
#twenty one pilots#tw suicide mention#tw abuse mention#i wasnt kidding when i said i get real fucking tmi in here#my household already has to deal with me rambling about them all the time lol so tumblr gets the deep and meaningful
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hi so i was wondering if you could write a wilbur soot x blackfem!reader?maybe where the readers his girlfriend and she’s having some doubts abt her body and wilbur helps her. it can be smut or fluff or both, im fine with either one
Okay !!
Here for you <3
Some fluff for yall !!
Kinda angst but comfort at the end !!
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You eyed yourself in the mirror, eyebrows furrowing as your gaze landed on your body. Your eyes watered at the sight. You weren't very fond of yourself, and when you saw yourself, your own reflection staring back at you,
It was your final straw.
You started breaking down right in front of the mirror, tears freely flowing down as sobs escaped your throat. Why did you have to look like this? Why couldn't you have looked like some pretty girl on Pinterest or something? Why can't you just be PERFECT, LIKE THEY ARE?
Your thoughts were soon interrupted by your boyfriend, coming into the room, his smile dropping as soon as he registered what you were feeling.
"Love?! Oh fuck-!" Almost immediately, he went to you, kneeling towards you and kissing your face all over. "Fuck -- what happened? Why're you crying? L-love? Did anything happen? Are you okay?" Questions tumbled out his mouth as he placed his large hands on your cheeks out of pure worry. "I-I'm fine... I just... I don't know, Wilbur. Why? Why do you still love me? Why do you love me when I look like... like this...?" You started to cry again. This devastated Wilbur. You were the most breathtaking, absolutely gorgeous woman he had ever laid his eyes upon, so he never knew you thought that lowly of yourself.
"Sweetheart... listen to me, alright? You aren't ugly... don't think so lowly of yourself... your body? It's absolutely gorgeous, stunning, perfect..." his hand traced circles on your stomach as his forehead leaned against yours.
"Fuck, you're the most beautiful person I've ever even seen..." he clasped his hands with yours, passionately crashing your lips against his. He pulled away, smiling as his thumb caressed under your lip. "Whoever made you think that you're ugly, they're a dumb bitch, and I hate them, okay? You're literally perfection embodied. It feels illegal to look at you, because it's like looking at a goddess who stepped upon earth..."
He used the back of his hand to caress your cheeks, his free hand combing through your pretty curls. Wilbur's lips meet your forehead, resting there for two seconds before he pulled away, kissing your stomach next. "Shit, Wilbur..." you smiled at him. "I love you so much, god, it's insane how much I do..." this earned a smile from Wilbur. "And I love you too, angel. Never forget that." He says before pulling his guitar onto his lap. "How about I serenade you on this fine evening, beautiful?"
You tilt your head at him, smiling at how happy he was to sing wonderful songs to you. "Go ahead, love. I wouldn't stop you." He started strumming his guitar,
"I hate the way that I talk,"
"When the words won't give off"
"The kind of praise esteemed of you..."
"And what the hell could I say,"
"When you're two stars from grace?"
He looked up at you, a smile tugging at his lips before singing the next lyric.
"And the world, it turns for you?"
♡
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TALKING ABOUT THE QUINN TRILOGY OF VIDS WE GOT
obviously spoilers ahead for all 3 vids !!!
i had this post in my drafts to put my love reactions on so that's why the tenses are so fucked up LMFAOOO
tws are the same as all the videos!!
Your Cruel Vampire Ex Got Caught
FIRST OFF SAM N DARLIN TALKIN WILL ALWAYS GIVE ME SUCH HAPPINESS. THEN BEING HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER. THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
oh davids calling slay
THEY WHAT.
i dont trust this shit for a SECOND BRAH
david speedin lol thas hawt
THE DEPARTMENT IS ON THE LINE ISTG THEY GETTING ON MY NERVES. if at some point we don't overthrow the government imma wore out M Y S E L F.
MR FOX? OMGGGGG (also got accused of being erik by @blutomindpretzel because earlier i mentioned foxes and wolves😝)
Henry sounds like someone who drinks expresso just enough to gain back his social cuts
YEA HENRY FUCK OFF (im so sorry Henry ik your just doing your job)
ok yall got quinn. let darlin kill him now please 😻🙏🏽
HE WHAT.
imma be so honest a part of me said, "LET HER DIE JUST FUCK HIM UP BRAH" intrusive thoughts did not slay as usual
IM SORRY? YOU WANNA BRING UP THE ETHICS OF THIS SHIT NOW? (everyone welcome philosophy student div)
SO THE VERY SYSTEM THAT WILL (W/O CONSENT REMEMBER) ERASE THE MEMORY OF UNEMPOWERED HUMANS TO MAINTAIN COVERT IS SAYING THAT USING THE VERY POWERS THEY ARE GIVEN TO FIND INFORMATION THAT COULD SAVE A LIFE IS UNETHICAL BECAUSE "HE STILL DESERVES RIGHTS"??? DAVID IS RIGHT, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THEM. HE IS A FUCKING HOMICIDAL PSYCHOPATHIC ABUSIVE SADISTIC AND MANIPULATIVE VAMPIRE.
are the rights of a murderer worth more than the life you can save. ISTG THE DEPARTMENT IS SO LUCKY THAT I DON'T EXIST IN THEIR WORLD BC I WOULD FUCKING DESTROY THEM
sigh.
oh shit the video still playing. who he wanna see?
you've gotta be fucking kidding me.
SAM? oh he's gonna mindfuck this shit all up
the CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT OF DARLIN OHMYGOOOD. Early Darlin would've shifted and ran to the department the moment David called. But look at them now. They are calm. Angry, but calm. They encourage Sam to talk because they realize that their want for vengeance is less important than the life they could save.
im FUCKING SCARED
Your Mate Confronts Your Cruel Vampire Ex
Sam's breath before he enters the room im alr sobbing.
HES FUCKING BRITISH
oh my fucking gawd. OH. MY. G O D .
also GBA love that. i love him.
YUHH SAM GETTIN STRAIGHT TO THE POINT
"your manners could use some work" YOUR ENTIRE PERSONALITY COULD USE SOME WORK QUINN
gba is doing such a good job like i genuinely wanna punch my phone
"i wanna get to know you" this ain't A FUCKING DATE HIJO DE SU PUTA MADRE
"i do look rather dashing in blood" lets test that theory. im gonna use a chainsaw, a bat with nails, etc. ALLÍ SI YA VEREMOS QUIEN SE RIA ENTONCES IGNORANTE HIJO DE MIERDA
FRED MENTION IN 2023 LETS FUCKING GOOOOOO
nvm i hate this mention.
FREDRICK COLLINS? IM FUCKING SOBBING.
HOW DOES QUINN KNOW ABOUT SAM'S TURNING-
ALEXIS ISTG.
this girl is either dead or doesn't exist bc quinn just fucking loves talking
i wanna know what coffin you'd like quinn 😻🫶🏽
"humansblah blah blah" mf YOU WERE A HUMAN ONCE YOU STUPID DENSE IDIOT
imma be honest quinn reminds me of my ex and my darlin kinnie is FUCKING SCREAMING AND CRYING
"is her life worth less than your comfort?" ......props that's a good line.......
CAN HE STOP TALKING ABOUT FRED ICAN'T DO THIS BRO
as someone who was refused closure. yea. the worst thing a monster like quinn could do is deny them closure. FUCK. ERIK YOU BRILLIANT BITCH
darlin is dissociating so hard i can feel it
"betryal" THEY RAT YOU OUT FOR BEIN HOMICIDAL AND YOU- i need to calm down before i break this phone cause i JUST got it 2 months ago.....
ouch. erik did you text my ex for this 😝🫶🏽
comfort from the world in pain and suffering GOD.
SLOPPY SECONDS? AHORA SI LO PIDE VOY A MATAR A ESTE PINCHE HIJO DE PUTA
shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up. shut up.
QUINN. OH MY GOD HE KEEPS FUCKING TALKING.
HE WAS STALKING THEM? EWEWEWEWEWEW
"surely they've asked for it by now, knowing them" not gonna lie this activated my ptsd and i had to take a lil quirky crying break 😻🫶🏽
HIM CALLING TOWARDS THE WINDOW BC HE KNOWS DARLIN IS THERE FUCCCCCCKKKKKK I WOULD'VE PUNCHED THAT WINDOW
goddammit erik you brilliant genius.
Quinn's Aftermath
I'm alr crying and i haven't even pressed play brah.
OH THANK GOD THE ADDRESS
F U U C K THE HUG I'M CRYING
DAVID HEARD EVERYTHING? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I'M GONNA SOB I CAN'T DO THIS
"i need to get you out of here" I'm sobbing. I'm fucking sobbing. did i mention i was sobbing. cause if not, im sobbing.
CAN I JUST SAY HOW MUCH SWEETHEART IS A FUCKING MVP LIKE THEY INFORMED DAVID FIRST AND IS KEEPING THEM IN THE LOOP I FUCKING LOVE THEM
DAVID AND DARLIN HUG IM SOBBING EVEN HARDER NOW
i can feel the dissociation radiating off of darlin im still crying
"what can i do darlin" pls remove my tear ducts and give me a goddamn lobotomy/j
did i mention I've been sobbing this whole time 😝
"i thought you'd be angrier" that's dissociation for ya.
cold hatred > fiery hatred : you cannot let the rage consume you because if you do, it becomes your whole life and you can bring yourself to a position where you have no chance of moving on in the future
this audio deserves an oscar IDC THIS HELPS SO MANY PARTS OF MYSELF THAT WERE LEFT UNHEALED IM STILL SOBBING
"what he told me doesn't change us" you guessed it. sobbing.
"you are my absolute priority" I'm gonna be so honest. I had to turn off the video. I never knew that was something I needed to hear but DAMN.
HOURS? HE DUMPED THEIR TRAUMA FOR HOURS? OMFG LET ME AT HIM
the way he says that he sees darlin after knowing about their past. As someone who's been through
"What I heard, in all his rambling, was the story of a good, kind person...with an open heart... trusting a man who promised to care about them and him using that trust to hurt them." + everything after that. jesus christ um. I'm gonna rant so if you don't wanna see that skip till i says BALLS 🤪
I've been in this position of close people finding out about my past and I'm gonna be so honest. If I had someone like Sam, I don't think I would've fallen to rock bottom as hard as I did. All a victim wants is for people to understand what they went through and not think less of them. I remember the way I was talked down to and still am due to the person's knowledge of my trauma. Sam saying that he sees a fighter who got up from the amount of trauma, is something that I begged for. It's what Darlin needs. They need to see that although this is a big portion of their life, it does not reflect their person. Erik truly, once again, hit a very sensitive topic right on the bullseye.
BALLS 🤪🫶🏽
THEM BREAKING DOWN STOP IM GONNA BREAK DOWN WITH THEM.
all the listeners think crying and being anything other than happy is stupid and i RELATE
my momma bear is coming out jesus christ. THEM THINKING IT'S HUMILIATING TO LIKE THAT ASPECT? FUCK I'M GONNA SOB
[imma skip to David calling because the rest of sam and darlings talk i was just ugly sobbing]
hold on. "You're my heart darlin." "You deserve so much better than the hands life's dealt you" sobbing even more.
N E W A Y .
I FUCKING KNEW IT THAT GIRL WAS DEAD ISTG THIS IS WHY THE DEPARTMENT IS FUCKING STUPID WHY WOULD QUINN GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO SAVE SOMEONE
HE HAD PICTURES AND VIDEOS??? I'm gonna gag istg THAT SADISTIC FUCK
"he's gone quiet" he'll go quiet when i KILL HIM
fuck. man fuck what anyone says, vega, regulus, blake have nothing on quinn. VEGA YOU COULD'VE FED ON THIS BASTARD AND GOT MORE POWER THAN WHAT YOU GOT FROM IVAN
YES. YES. NO WITNESSES FOR ME TORTURING HIM FUCK YEAAAAAA.
only condition is that they're still is something to kill? I GOTCHUUU
i need William comforting Darlin. And Asher. And Milo. HELL I'LL TAKE CHRISTIAN TOO PLS I NEED MORE COMFORT.
FUCK YEAAA VAMPIRIC LAWS ARE SLAYING
KILL THE BASTARD. LET IT DIE LET IT DIE LET IT SHRIVEL UP AND DIIIIIEEEEEEEE
can't wait to see quinns face when he realizes the fact that darlin is gonna torture him the same way he torture them.
NOW TIME TO WATCH GUY, OLLIE, AND CAELUM BECAUSE HOLY SHIT I NEED IT
#redacted asmr#redacted audio#redactedverse#redacted shaw pack#redacted sam#redacted darlin#redacted quinn#redacted dump
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RANK 1989 AND FEARLESS RIGHT TF NOWW
i cant even complain anymore bc i brought this onto myself ahaha
1989
this love - the bridge of this song actually KILLSLSSSSS me everytime it makes me FEEL THINGS OMG LIKE. the production is like a wave just HIT ME IN THE FACE,, and the added echos onto taylors version????? PUT ME LITERALLY 6 FEET UNDERGROUND ITS SO GOOD,,,, im so glad that people are finally starting to give it attention bc of it being one of the 2 tvs on 1989 bc this song really is THAT GIRL
you are in love - this song is literally all i want to experience in life,,, its another underrated gem and its sosososo cute and i love how she wrote this about jack antonoff thats peak friendship tbh
wildest dreams - so iconic how she put her actual heartbeat into this song,, also have u heard the music video version of this???? basically, towards the end theres added instruments and it sounds more orchestral and ASIGDUSDGLHFASTFGYUASGDJHAIISUFGHJKAFDSGH
style - THEEEEEEEE STRUT SONG. CATCH ME ON A WEDNESDAY NIGHT IN MY ONESIE PRETENDING LIKE IM ON A CATWALK IN MY BEDROOM. im not a haylor stan BUT thank u harry styles for making this song happen (same goes for out of the woods which brings me to my next ranking,,,,....)
out of the woods - THE PRODUCTION. PUT THE SONG ON AND PROPERLY L I S T E N. jack antonoff and taylor put their whole soul into that bridge bc....,..,, the build up to that big moment and the layering of sounds and then the pull back of the production on 'you were lookin at me' to show that all of the anxiety from outside of the relationship fades when she looks at HIM AND OAFIUAGFHLSVHDG (im so normal about this)
i know places - ok 1989 has the best production ever tbh,, bc the click of the recorder thingy at the start and end of the song to show that shes constantly being watched by the public????? *CHEFS KISS* its always super interesting to see insights like this into what its like to be famous, and this song with all of the themes of being anxious in a relationship bc of people watching is soo reminiscent of out of the woods (and u already know how i feel about that song hahaha)
blank space - this song is reputation (lyrically) before rep even existed,, the whole thing with her leaning into the untrue persona people gave her is very rep coded + this song is probably the most iconic thing to come out of 2014, and its also so funny bc when it came out i didnt know it was satire, so 8 year old me was yell-singing 'boys only want love if its torture' with my WHOLE BODY LMAOOOO and i turned out to be a lesbian so maybe i was onto something there
wonderland (gotta preface this by saying that im NOT a gaylor,, im just gonna say how i interprate this song for myself )
- i listen to this song in a very lesbian way. the idea of a relationship being doomed bc of peoples thoughts but being in ur own bubble in the magic of it all anyway??????? lesbian. 'too in love to think straight'???? lesbian. also the b
shake it off - i unironically think this is such a bop. idc what yall say,, if ur a shake it off hater u just dont know how to have fun,, haters gonna hate i guess
new romantics - this song is soooooo 1989 tour. whenever i think about it i mourn the fact that i didnt go and experience it
welcome to new york - ICONICCCC ALBUM OPENER. the progression from 'some day i'll be livin in a big old city' to 'welcome to new york it's been waiting for you' makes me want to sob. also her going 'the lights are so bright but they never blind me' to 'the lights and boys are blinding' ON THE SAME ALBUM is so funny like girl why are u lying😭
all you had to do was stay - this song is so funny bc didnt she say that she heard the high pitched 'STAY' in her dreams and then put it in the song😭, also i love the genre of taylor song that is actually lyrically so sad but is paired with really upbeat happy production😭 for example august and forever winter
clean - i have a confession, i didnt like this song for yearrrrsss but now ive matured and im sane and i understand that this is such a perfect album closer, i love how its a lot calmer than the rest of the album and i really love the secret message for this song in the album cd booklet 'she lost him, but she found herself, and somehow that was everything'
how you get the girl - iconic of her to have a literal instruction manual for men with no communication skills. and its a bop so there really is something for everyone here
i wish you would - this song kinda reminds me of i almost do (aka one of my faves off red)
bad blood - iconic music video, iconic feature with kendrick lamar BUT. the lyrics arent up to her usual level,, however the bridge is still rly good,, i just think that reputation executed this songs vibe a lot better
fearless (im already dreading this omg,, why is it SO LONG)
also just for fun im gonna put this emoji ☔️ on every song that mentions the rain or a storm bc theres sososo many
come in with the rain ☔️- shout out to me for bring the only person who appreciates this song,, like.....,.,.,.,,,,,, 'hoping that someone will come back and just watching the 'and i, ive got you down / i know you by heart / and you dont even know where i start' HELLO? this is such a comfort song and it is very relatable 13/10
the other side of the door ☔️- another underrated bop BURIED by the sheer number of songs on this album😭 the outro alone should make this song more popular bc LISTEN TO ITTTTT
the way i loved you☔️ - shes so silly for this bc this mindset is exactly what she was taking about growing from in daylight😭 anyways,, iconic bridge,, so fun to sing, another 13/10
you belong with me - PICK ME ANTHEM🗣🔊💥💥💥💥 also i saw someone post that its rly funny how the song says 'i remember you drivin to my house in the middle of the night' but in the music video taylor and the love interests are next door neighbours😭 like why are u driving 10 meters king !?
breathe - ANOTHER COMFORT SONG (the lyrical content is actually very sad but whatever) its about a friendship breakup and to me it also is very reminiscent of a wlw breakup and iahdouslahgdhfgsadfhjgshjadf also i love the outro sm (the im sorry repeat part) anddd idk why but i find the way she sings 'and we know its never simple never easy' soo satisfying
fearless☔️ - THIS SONG IS SO FUN IM SO GLAD SHES PLAYING IT ON THE ERAS TOUR BC IT SO PERFECTLY REPRESENTS THIS ALBUM AS A WHOLE WITH THE FREENESS OF THIS LOVE AND THE RAIN LYRICS AND THE BANJO AND EAHHASAGDFHGLSDAHFSDGF
white horse - i love this song sm bc in all her old albums (including this one) she really emphasises the whole perfect fairytale romance thing but in this song she flips the whole thing and shes like nvm ive been delusional bc this isnt a fairytale, i deserve better, and and ur actually not allathat. byee
youre not sorry - THE MELODRAMA HAHAHAHHAH I LOVE THIS SONG, also im obsessed with the speak now mashup where she did back to december/apologise/youre not sorry bc thats probably my favourite ever live recording of her
bye bye baby ☔️- the first line is so good bc she says 'it wasnt just like a movie / the rain didnt soak through my clothes (❌☔️)/ down to my skin' bc this whole album shes talking about fairytale romance and kissing in the rain and here shes like nah i lied i was over romanticising this bc this didnt actually happen lolz (similar to white horse)
fifteen - this song is so relatable bc this exact thing happened with me when i was 15☠️ also why are her songs about abigail always the saddest things ever bc we have this one AND HAPPINESS???????? abigail was going thru it fr..,. oh and production wise i love the brief pause and the drums at 3:48 (this is very specific but whateverrr lol)
love story - what can i say...,.,,, its literally love story..,,,,,.,,,,.. the song of the century tbh, its not my personal favourite but i still adore it sm and i love the romeo juliet aesthetic and i love how shes wearing romeos shirt in the fearless taylors version cover (also apparently taylor wrote this song in 20 minutes???? thats crazy talent)
dont you - im obsessed with the vocal layering on 'my heart knows what the truth is' in contrast to the rest of this fairly simple song. also i love the parallel between 'sometimes, i really wish that i could hate you / i've tried, but that's just somethin' i can't do' and 'i can’t make it go away by making you a villain'
we were happy - to make this even more depressing i like to imagine this song sung by the person from mary's song,, where before they were these childhood friends-lovers who thought they were gonna be together forever. 'and our daddies used to joke about the two of us / they never believed we'd really fall in love' to 'talking 'bout your daddy's farm / and you were gonna marry me'
forever & always☔️- she ENDED joe jonas in this one LMAOOOOOOO 'was i out of line? / did i say something way too honest / made you run and hide / like a scared little boy' kills me hahhahahha
tell me why - i cant relate to this song but it is so fun to pretend to be angry and sing
thats when☔️ - most of the fearless vaults are super underrated and that makes me so sad actually, bc this song is so nicely produced it feels so light and airy
you all over me☔️ - 'once the last drop of rain / had dried of the pavement' is a very iconic lyric for such a rainy album. its good closure only...,,.,,,, THE ALBUM IS NOT FINISHED BC ITS 26 TRACKS LONG
mr perfectly fine - ok im gonna say it, this song is overrated. im SORRY,,, i love the song (especially the key change bc omg) but i feel like forever & always said everything this song did but in a better way???? but i do appreciate the sarcastic nature of this track
the best day - GOD BLESS ANDREA SWIFT
today was a fairytale - ok from this song ranking down i feel like the songs could have been cut out of the album,, bc honestly these songs are the reason why fearless drags on and is my least favourite ts album :(((( if these werent on it fearless would be higher on my album ranking,, anyway i think that today was a fairytale is super cute and nice but its very generic lyrically (also i like to imagine this song to be about the too perfect bf she talks about in the way i loved you)
untouchable - when i found out this song is a cover i was actually shook to my core bc the og is rock and it sounds so different😭 props to taylor bc she rly did make the song her own
change - the hallelujahs in this song are funny bc its literally christian country girl cosplay😭 go off i guess??????? one time my dad gave me the aux at church (hes a priest) and he told me to put on some christian songs and i played this one LMAOOOOOO
superstar - this ones cute, its like those one direction fanfics where a member would fall in love with a fangirl
jump then fall - this song is nice ! thats all i can say tbh
hey stephen☔️- whyyyy is this on the album,, stephen i do NOT care about u and this song is boring sorryyyyyyyyy,, the only good part is the mmm mm mm m m mmm m m OHH AND THE 'all those other girlssss yeah theyre beautiful / but would they write a song for you?? HA'
im not putting if this was a movie on here bc that is NOT A FEARLESS SONG. ITS A SPEAK NOW GIRLIE IDC. TAYLOR CANT GASLIGHT ME
#this took me hours😒#i dont have the energy to reread so if theres grammer mistakes sorryyyyyyyyyy#bea tag#asks#taylor swift
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i missed so much while i was away??? seriously midterm season is kinda killing me a lil on the inside.
you and nagis commissioned piece (^ー^) yall look so adorable!!!!
i ran for secretary for my college student council and am so nervous cause elections are tomorrow! and also have just been so tired, been through hell and back w exams and proposals and now im almost almosst done.
ive literally just come home and played genshin after a long day. been wonderful. hope you've had a better start to the week than i did emmie!! <333
signed,
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nonnie my love!!! sob i hope ur still managing to take care of urself amongst the business ૮꒰ ᴗ.ᴗ ꒱ა eeeee im super glad u like the comm also! ur such an angel ueueue i’m so happy w how it turned out <33 omgieee i’m so excited bout u running for secretary tho i’m totes gonna vote tons for u rn!!! i’m hacking the system!!! u gotta let me know how it goes (꒰ঌ ๑•́ -•̀)໒꒱ make sure ur getting loads of rest tho grrrr >:[ i hope exams all went well for u also! u deserve the lil genshin breaks tonesss . i hav been super busy + v drained but we are surviving hehehe <33
#ʚ ₊˚ 💬 — new emmail.#ʚ ₊˚ ⌕ — 🪻 nonnie.#i’ve been SO tired! i got a new job + i’ve been filling out paperwork and just regular working + gym n UGH! i’m so tired! so sore!#i just wanna write + do fun things ;^;
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8 days until the new year & I’m finally moving on. The last time I did this was in MAY! Okay, I’m scared but let’s do this! WE’RE BACK, BABEYYYYY
And the Beast from the Sea:
* HE MONCHHHHHH
* “He ATE IT?” “He ate it up.” God, I love this show.
* Ohhhh Alana looks yummyyyyyyyyy
* “Jack Crawford, fisher of men, watching my cork move against the current. You got me again.” This shows writing is so dramatic & we just hit the first minute.
* I’ve missed therapy. & this session is great! So explorative, evocative!
* REBA, MY LOOOOOOVE!
* I love the idea that the dragon & Francis are now disconnected after Reba. She’s his coil to humanity, & the Dragon craves her. Amazingggg
* YOU CAN TOSS THE DRAGON TO SOMEONE ELSE??
* God, Richard Armitage, I love how you move! Such a clear shift. So instant.
* HANNIBAL, LEAVE THEM ALL ALONE!!! DONT PLANT ANYTHING!!! HOW DARE YOU???
* WHY THE HELL DID THE “Kill them all?” SHOT HAVE YOU STARE INTO MY SOLE, MADS?? WHY??
* I’m sorry, what is with this season 2 score?
* OKAY IVE MISSED THIS BUILDUP! Ohhh, wings and the tail! Fun!
* Reba & Francis!!! MY FAVS!!!
* Cue my plotting to murder family #3 home video
* NOT THE DOGGIESSSS!
* “I’m not fortunes fool—I’m yours.” YALL
* HANNI IS JUST IN HIS LITTLE SEXY GLASS TWIRLING HIS HAIR WHEN WILL SHOWS UP & PLAYING HIS LITTLE IRL D&D STRATEGY GAME & I can’t blame him. But he should stick to his dusty books,
* OH HE’S SO SASSY!!!
* “There’s a family out there who don’t know who’s coming.” Yeah, William, & I hate to say it, but it’s YOURS!💔
* DONT PSYCHOANALYZE HIM, HANNIBAL!
* “Social media, I imagine. Cant be too careful with privacy settings.” STFUUUUU HE’S SUCH A BITCHY LITTLE MAN!
* LE GASP! I REALLY GOTTA FINISH THESE THINGS. “And I’m not letting them die, Will. You are.” SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPPPP, YOU BASTARD MAN!
* WAKE UP BABE, THE MURDER TEETH JUST DROPPED!
* OH I AM LOVING THISSSSSSSSSSSS
* HE IS REALLY STALKING IN HIS FUCKING LEATHER STRAIGHTJACKET!
* I LOVE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
* OH FUCK FUCIN FUCK FFUCJ NO NO NO
* WILLIAMMMMMMM😭😭😭😭
* “You gonna kill him?” “No.” WILLIAM, YOU COULD NOT BE MORE WRONG
* THIS POOR KID OMGGGGGG
* “I had to justify myself to an 11 year old.” Damn, William, sorry.
* MOLLYYYYYYYYYY (totally forgot her name so I’m happy Will said it a few second ago)
* HANNIBAL BASTARD MAN LECTER WITH YOUR LITTLE FUCKING BOOK
* OH ALANAAAAAAAAA, MY MYYYYYYY
* “Would you have told me the truth?” “I’m my own way, I always have.” YEAH, LIKE A FUCKING BASTARD, YOU BASTARD MAN!
* Oh, a surprise guest in Jack!
* Hannibal “Trans Rights” Lecter part 2
* I am laughing way to hard at Sexy Glass Cell Hannibal. “You have hubbed hell, Dr. Lecter.” “I often do.” I LOVE THIS BASTARDDDDD
* OHHH THE TAILLLLLLLL
* Oh they are not the best of friends anymore!!!
* Francis, PLEASE STOP
* OH THE WINGSSSSS WHERE ARE WE??
* OHHHHH OF COURSE, QUEEN REBA!
* OHH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!! THEY ARE SO GOOD TOGETHER!!!!
* DAMN, GET YOUR FUCKING HAT, FRANCIS!!!! This is why we can’t have nice things! YOU MADE HER CRY!!!!!😭😭😭😭
* Stupid fucking dragonnnnnn
* Oh, this aught to be a very educational moment.
* “(SOBBING OVER THE LINE??)”
* OH THAT VOCAL SHIFT IS MAGNIFICENT
* A sweet man💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
* HANNIBAL NO YOU MOTHERFUCKERBHRHSHIRHRHRBFB OH MY FUCKING GOD
* I LOVE THIS JACKKKKKK
* & yummy Alana OH & INDIGNANT HANNIBAL
* I never would have thought that quick shot of Hannibal turning his head with that mask would be when HIS TOILET WAS BEING TAKEN OH MY GOOOOOD IT’S WHAT YOU DESERVE, BUDDY
* Heyyyy, Molly’s awakeeeee
* Molly, this is NOT the self-blame game! Piling on Jack doesn’t count! Negative points!
* OH WILLIAM Bby nooo STOP CRYING PEOPLE, IM GONNA CRYYYY
* OH WILLIAM’S GOT HIS REVENGE EYES ON OH FUCK WE GOT A MIRROR (mirroring movements, not a mirror for the trick, that was just the fade) WALK TO HANNIBAL OHHH THAT WAS NICE
* STOP BEING SO HIGH BROW, BASTARDDDDD
* “Save yourself. Kill them all. Then I gave him your home address.” FUCKING HELL, NOT CRYPTIC BUT VERY BITCHY BASTARD OF YOU, BASTARD
* REVENGE EYES TO “I’m bored, let’s have some fun” ASSHOLE
* I don’t know if I like that this mirror isn’t directly equal. I get the ✨symbolism✨ of Hannibal finally being caught & pushed into the corner of indignity & Will inching closer to rip him to shreds, but it’s Not Equallll
* All thanks to you, Hanni.
* We have crave change, Hannibal, but not in a “let’s go murder our neighbors” kind of change
* SIIIIIIIIIIIGH FUCK THIS FELT LIKE IT TOOK FOREVER BUT GOD HAVE I MISSED IT!!! Want to keep watching, but I have a movie date with the twin
(Video reaction will be turned into a 40 second audio & I’ll send it over to you!)
I love that this is the third adaptation of Red Dragon but I was still like "HOLY SHIT WHAT?!" when watching this episode.
Speaking of which, now you're going to be up to hands-down one of the most unintentionally hilarious (or maybe it is funny- knowing Bryan, he probably wanted it to be a bit funny..) episodes I've ever seen of any TV show 😂
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I dont think we talk enough about how beautiful bejeweled is in regards to her ED and yes im gunna go there, sue me.
But like, for real, taylor said that bejeweled is about hyping herself up to go out in public and oh my god, this will make so much more sense once I post my mv analysis, but I really think bejeweled is about her ED and her body-image specifically. Like, okay, we know with my discourse of style/yoyok/wcs/bttws that I believe taylor probably developed her ED after her abuse from Meyer and this becomes significant once you realize that taylor probably was dating people at one point to fuel her ED desires (see all of 1989 but esp wildest dreams)
So keeping that in mind, bejeweled being written as a song about her love life is very revealing and emotionally vulnerable. She spends the entire love song saying to the people in her life "I am fantastic, you better believe I'm still amazing and beautiful and desirable" (re the karlie/calvin situation) but the first/second verse don't really feel like she believes her own words... like she's doubting herself and begging them to believe her and then we get the bridge and it's just a complete tonal shift because we're shown the real picture of what taylor looks like from the stranger's perspective but she's internalized that perspective and it's clear by the time she finishes the end of the song.
Like "sapphire tears on my face, sadness became my whole sky but some guy said my auras moonstone just cause he was high" like the fact that she used moonstone blue for the album, it's clear the guy here is Joe but what's interesting is she says sapphire tears and sadness became my whole sky (another bigger than the whole sky reference please im sobbing yall) but some guy, like he's just some guy, she doesn't know who he is, he's a complete stranger and he calls her moonstone... she says sapphire tears but he says ur moonstone... the difference in shade here and like it's nice to have a friend.... it speaks to Taylor's innocence that she lost after the blue sky that meyer painted her* into and then turned to rain with his abuse of her... and there is this recurring theme that she thinks of herself as a dark, midnight blue shade of rain but joe sees her as the most ultimately light shade of blue...
Like this goes back to how she talks about true love being simple and childlike in its nice to have a friend, but it also cuts deeper than that because taylor has been lonely since she was seven (if im interpreting seven correctly, this was when she made the decision to be famous... we know she made the decision to be famous because she was being bullied and treated like an outcast) so like, in a way, her desire to be liked led her to finding some guy in this bejeweled bridge and he's the first person in forever to see the core of who she is in a really long time...
Like he saw her as moonstone and she forgot that she was originally a light blue sky before all the pain hardened her until that moment and it's such a cute song about how once you decide to heal and pump yourself up to go out in public and be seen as your authentic self, it can lead to great outcomes of emotional happiness for you.
Like, also, there is the fact that this album is also retrospective so she's looking back at it now with her now mentality so it's significant to me that she made a love song/song about feeling neglected in ur romantic relationships about hyping herself back up after being seen in public and going out and still being beautiful.
Like, there's real ED fears in that statement there she gave about the meaning of bejeweled and I like that she says things that we have to interpret ourselves as fans now in interviews. It's nice that she has that boundary up now, but like the fact that she still feels the need to dazzle and sparkle and wow, that's so vulnerable of her to admit honestly and I thank her for it.
Nobody really talks about being a healthy body after being sick for a long time and how that really is the biggest fucking trigger and the reason recovery can take years for people to go through because it's so hard to want to be healthy when everyone is disappointed with your healthy body, because they see it as a negative. So im sure she does need to hype herself up from time to time because I have to everytime I see my fucking mother, and it's obvious she's uncomfortable with being healthy in public at times, I've noticed a few tells here and there and I really commend her for being so brave and willing to stay true to herself even when society is not as nice to you as they should be.
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please. (l.mk)
☆ warnings include; smut, dacryphilia, finger sucking, choking, bulge kink, fingering, dirty talk, degradation kink,breeding kink * wrap it b4 u tap it (mdni) best friend!dom!mark, sub!reader. ;) (best friends to lovers) also pet names; slut and baby.
☆ alright so i’ve been dying to write abt mark😭 first time writing w/ breeding in it so sorry if its bad :’) hope yall enjoy!♡
you know it was wrong to help your best friend with something so intimate, but he asked you so nicely to help him with this favor.
“please y/n, i can’t go in this date with this girl without trying what she likes first.” to be honest, you were curious abt what she likes. “what does this chick like anyways? maybe i’ll consider.” his face lights up like a dog ready to go play outside. “ok!! so here it says she likes it when her partner or sexual accquaintances fucks her till she cries and begs to cum-” “well damn, that’s a start.” he laughs at your response. “she also likes finger sucking, choking, breeding, and when she can see the bulge of the person shes fucking from her stomach.” he continues. you stare at him, blankly. “and you want to try all this to satisfy her.” you speak. “yes, only if i have consent to try this with you.” “ok.”
and that’s how you ended up underneath mark, breathing heavily, lips wet, and swollen from his aggressive kiss. breaking the kiss for second— taking off his shirt, caressing his skin, kissing his bicep, giving him the initiative to keep going. you’d be lying if you say you’ve never liked him. you love him. or you’d be lying if you say you’ve never wanted him. you needed him. you were envious of the mysterious woman going on this date with mark. “it should’ve been me.” you thought. when mark asked to try this with you, you were more than happy to do this with him. not one hesitant bone in your body, but you couldn’t let him know. honestly, you didn’t think further on why he wanted to do this.
“this could be fun.” he takes your shirt off, kissing down your neck, down to your boobs— slowly removing your bra. “mark, please.” you gasp. “please” he responded back mockingly, it shocked you. this was literally the hottest thing you’ve ever heard. “please, what.” he sounded so demanding. made you moan. he barely even started. “please, touch me.” “if you want me to touch you, you’re going to have to beg for me baby.” he smirks as you squirm under him. dripping by the seconds. “please, please, please, touch me. i’ll behave. i’ll be your good girl.”— your, something abt the word your coming out of your mouth saying that specific word to him, made his cock twitch in his sweats. he was satisfied with your choice of words. roughly taking down your shorts and underwear.
rubbing your clit, teasing you a bit. “you’re such a fucking slut for me, aren’t you y/n.” he smirks. “y-yes i am.” he chuckles. “haven’t even started and you’re soaking my fucking sheets, a bit pathetic, huh?” he growls into your ears has he grips your jaw on each side. “yes mark, please, im so fucking pathetic for you please touch me.” you sob. tears trickling from your eyes. you buck your hips into his hand. needing his fingers. he’s turned on right now, he wasn’t expecting to like it this much, but you look so pretty when you cry for him. he slowly puts a finger in, you mewl, finally getting what you wanted. whimpering and drooling as he adds another finger while pumping in the first one he already had fucking into you.
already fucking you dumb and he hasn’t even taken out his cock yet. “mm close, so so close.” he takes his fingers out slowly. you whine at the empty feeling. “if you’re cumming, you’re gonna cum on my cock, slut.” he says as he takes of his sweats and underwear. he comes back onto the bed, aligning to your entrance, slapping his cock onto your pussy. your voice shakes as his cock slowly enters you, throwing your head back, eyes rolled to the back of your head. mark groans at the pure bliss he feels, warm, tight, your juices dripping down your inner thighs. he starts to move, rougher each thrust. mark moves his hand slowly up your body, giving your boobs a quick squeeze, bringing his hands to your throat, squeezing lightly. you moan. “you like that? huh?” mark breathes. “ i love it, please.” he moans slightly, loving it when you beg him please. “say please one more time, im gonna fuck you full of my kids.”he grabs your jaw again, roughly speaking into your ear.
“please.” “fuck.” he snaps his hips roughly, your legs shaking, moans uncontrollable. mark groaning and moaning coming close to a release. “mm close.” you whine. “cum with me” mark grunts. mark cums inside of you. he lays down next to you after pulling out. breathing heavily. “you know..” mark starts. “i never wanted to go on this date with this girl, i wanted you to go on a date with me. so maybe tomorrow we can, on me?” he talks almost nervous for your answer at the end of his confession. “i would love to go out on date with you, i’ve always loved you mark, i mean more than best friends.” you confess. mark smiles. y’all kiss one more time before he cleans you up and drifts to sleep with you on his side.
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Longing For My Lover
Druig x reader
warnings: slight eternals spoilers
a/n: go watch eternals and fall in love with him so i get more requests for him. idc if yall think im basic hes just. 🥰🥰
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Despite how much you had loved each other throughout all those years fighting alongside one another, you decided to go your separate ways. It wasn’t because you were angry or upset with him, nor he with you. It was simply because he was all you had ever known, you wanted the space to evolve with the humans. He accepted it without a fight, wishing you well on your travels. And because he loved you so much, he was willing to let you go.
“I want you to do what’s going to make you happy.” Druig rubbed his hands over your shoulders and arms as you tried not to cry. “Don’t feel bad, my love. We’ll meet again one day.” You nodded, sniffling as the tears began to fall and prompted him to let his emotions loose as well.
“You know I love you dearly, lover.” You sobbed and he laughed while cupping your cheeks and wiping your tears. “Please don’t cry for me.”
“I’ll cry for us.” Druig’s forehead met yours as you stood together one last time, wondering what the infinite future had in store for you considering that the new life you’d be living was just that, new. “I love you, my beautiful y/n. For you, I’d wait a thousand years. I’d travel to Olympia and back if it would make you happy.”
“Stop talking before you make me regret this.” You chuckled through sobs and he finally pulled you into his embrace, tightly squeezing you as he took a deep breath of air, catching your scent one last time before you pulled away. You always loved his hugs, especially when you knew those arms that were wrapped around you weren’t accustomed to anyone else.
“I have one request.” Druig’s signature smirk was bound to surface and that it did as you awaited his next words. “Don’t forget about me, lover.” You bit your lip to stop another sob of laughter and nodded a confirmation, ready to leave for good and shooting him a playful wink on your way out, leaving each other with happy memories of your departure.
Days turned into years. The years turned into centuries, but you never forgot about him. Druig, even if you’d be miles or millennia apart, held a place in your heart that no other being could possibly earn. You often pondered your early days together with him, little exchanges, getaways, battles, and tender moments that caused you to fall with him in the first place. You never did forget about the man.
But life was much different than it was so many years ago. The people, the technology, the science, the society, it had all drastically changed and you wondered if Druig even knew of this. And you wished by the time you had parted that photographs were a thing, the details of his face began to grow fuzzy in your mind.
After all these years, though, you’d never even thought of taking a new lover, deep down you always figured that you’d cross paths with Druig once again after living a couple dozen lives apart. And that time seemed to be closing in as your fellow Eternals knocked upon your door.
“Y/N, it’s been a while.” Sersi kindly greeted you, watching your roller coaster of expressions ride from surprise to guilt to anger to acceptance of your duty. “I take it you heard the news.”
“We killed them. All of them. Phastos said it himself. Deviants? Gone.” You opened your apartment door wider and let her, Sprite, and Ikaris inside your quaint little abode.
“You’ve been on your own for like, half a millennium and this is all you have?” Sprite judged with her arms crossed and began fidgeting with your few belongings, including a book on the Amazon Rainforest. “Ooh, look what they’re reading.”
“Put it down, Sprite.” You rolled your eyes and sunk into your couch. “You have a lot of explaining to do, Sersi. I don’t like the vibe I’m getting from all of this.”
“‘Vibe?’” Scoffed Sprite, throwing the book down. “What are you, a ‘millennial?’” You glared at her, but had to laugh considering the irony of being an immortal being who had lived through thousands of years.
“And what are you? Twelve?” You shot back before Sersi began explaining to you all that she knew so far. Which was not much to go off of, but you were enticed with the idea of gathering the Eternals once more, whether the reasons were obvious or not. You itched to get through the journey, which came with relentless teasing from your team as they watched you grow more impatient by the hour. Not only had you discovered the world may be ending and your time was officially fleeting, but you grew worried that maybe Druig had changed his mind about you over the half a century you’d been away. It seemed like you might have even abandoned him.
“I hope you’re excited for our next stop, y/n.” Kingo snapped you out of your thoughts as he noticed your leg bouncing. “Hope you find happiness instead of hurt. I do mean that.” He pat your knee and moved along as you released the tension in your jaw, prepared for anything that the universe might have in store for you.
“We know how much he loved you, y/n. I doubt that would change with time.” Thena assured and you nodded, staring out the window. “Druig will be happy to see you, you’re selling yourself short.”
But when your feet touched the ground of his turf, uncertainty flooded your mind once more. Were you trespassing? Were you even welcome here? Are you going to be able to put one foot in front of the other? Thena grabbed your hand and tugged you along in solidarity, and you grasped it tightly until the moment you laid eyes on him again. She backed away as he moved toward you, looking you up and down and lowly speaking, “Y/N.” With a simple nod of a greeting before he walked by. You cautiously looked back at him and spoke.
“Druig.” The Eternals, your family, stared at the exchange in confusion before getting down to business. You even looked to Gilgamesh to see what his reaction would be. A shrug. A very confused shrug.
You stayed quiet during the meeting, sharing quick glances to the man you always considered your lover. Maybe every once in a while he shot you a weak smirk, but the intentions behind it were still unknown. No one dared address the elephant in the room, not even Sprite, for that matter. And Druig was just about to ask for a moment alone with his lover, too, but disaster struck at the worst time and he looked right to you, almost in fear as you heard the monsters invade.
“Go! Run!” You shouted to the people of the Amazon compound as the beasts engaged, using your powers to fend them off as best as you could. You didn’t even notice the other Deviant pursuing until Druig had tackled you into the dirt to block the bite of said creature just before Ikarus knocked it far away.
“Are you okay?” Druig asked you as he stood over you and hoisted you up, then wiped the deep brown mud from your cheek.
“I’m okay, yeah. Are you?” You asked him just before pushing him aside and lifting your hand to combat the next Deviant that dared to cross you. He didn’t even have the chance to speak before yet another has flown by and picked you up and away.
“Y/N!” Druig panicked and watched you get carried away, soon dropped from the sky. It was too bad you’d gotten split up because this time around because the only thing that could really kill an Eternal was a Deviant, something none of you ever had to worry about for these many years until now.
Battle ensued as the team gave it their all, but the aftermath of the battle left many shook, especially once everyone left alive had regrouped besides you.
“Has anyone seen y/n?” Druig asked with a calm demeanor, but he was dying on the inside. Had you met your end by the claws of these Deviants? Because if so, Druig would no longer be able to live with himself. Silence fell over the group, a moment for Gilgamesh and a moment for you, just before you had crawled your way through the brush looking a bit worse for wear. “Y/N…” He ran over to you and offered his assistance lifting you up once more and helping you to the group with your arm wrapped around his shoulder.
“I’m fine, thanks for asking.” You jokingly sighed and looked down at the fallen friend in Thena’s arms, ready to drop back down before Druig pulled you into his chest as if he were protecting you from the pain this world had brought you. But that was the most you had gotten from him while there. Still shutting you out, it seemed.
The mission was still in progress, bringing you halfway across the world, then across it once again to reach your ship, the Domo. It was quite the spectacle in the modern day, but it could definitely use some touching up. It was within this ship that you first met Druig, and some may argue that your love was at first sight, catching each other from across the room once eyes fluttered open seven thousand years ago.
“Hey.” Druig grabbed your arm as your paces fell short of the rest of the Eternals. “Come here with me.” You were led through the ship that you knew like the back of your hand, somewhere secluded where Druig could let his guard down, and that he did. “It’s wonderful to see you again, lover.” He wrapped his arms around your waist and your brows furrowed at his change in demeanor.
“Where was this at your compound?” You asked him with a tilt of your head and he let you go, backing up and nodding at his previous actions.
“I didn’t mean to make you feel like I was no longer interested in you.” He admitted, stuffing his hands into his leather pockets. “I haven’t seen you or them in centuries, and the bombshells they dropped on me didn’t help those feelings settle at all.” He explained and turned back to you with a genuine smile. “But how I missed you, your face, your laugh, your everything. It’s unfortunate that I’ve went so long without getting to see your beauty.” You rolled your eyes playfully and turned away from him. “Oh, don’t be like that.” Your lover reached an arm around your body and grasped at one of your hands, spinning you slowly back his way.
The two of you had longed for each other long enough. It was about time that a new tender moment finally be added to your history. Your foreheads touched like they did the last time you met, your hands reached for his face and your thumbs ran across the dimples in his cheeks. His hands rested on your face as well, fingers tangled in your hair just slightly.
“I’ve longed for you…mind, body, and soul, my love.” He whispered to you and you chuckled.
“Considering our creation, are you sure we even have souls?” You questioned and he shook his head gently against your forehead.
“Doesn’t change the fact that I think we might just be soulmates.” Druig lifted your chin to kiss you, meeting his lips with yours after so long apart. You’d never dreamed of a more perfect union or reunion. The soft touches, the slow movement, the feeling of being alone together, you were determined to save this world so that you might be able to live another life with him this time. “Did you follow through on your promise?” He asked once he disconnected from you and poked at your shoulder.
“You tell me.” You stuck your thumb under the collar of your shirt and lifted up a new chain with an old pendant attached, something Druig had made for you so many years ago. His initial was carved into the back, definitely a bit faded. “Did you?” Druig scoffed at your question and held the piece in his hand.
“Well, that’s a nice piece of history right there. I applaud the artist.” He joked and rustled around his pockets a moment before pulling out a chunk of crystal you carved around the same point in history.
“I’ve never stopped loving you.” You assured him and he smugly nodded along. “You know it’s true.”
“Oh, I know. And I’m the same way, I swear.” He reached for your hair just to mess it up. “And that’s why we’re going to walk into that room, make a plan, and I’m going to save this planet. So I can continue to live beside you. Hopefully this time, it’s permanent.”
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A/N: yall know im a sucker for dadrry and writing another one was just so fun for me, i thought i would write more about them! so i decided to write more oneshots from that universe, you'll be able to find the stories in the masterpost i've created, link is just down below :) feel free to send me prompts about what you'd like to see happen in this universe!
PAIRING: husband!dad!Harry X Reader
WARNINGS: struggles to get pregnant
WORD COUNT: 2.7k
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Three minutes have never felt longer ever in your life. As you sit on the lid of the toilet, the pregnancy test laid out on the counter, an alarm set on your phone to signal when the waiting is over, but you already checked it about three times to see if it hasn’t stopped, because you were convinced it should have been over already.
“Come on, come on!” you mumble under your breath, legs shaking anxiously. Originally, you wanted to wait for Harry to do this, but you just couldn’t stop yourself, you needed to know. You’ve been feeling off all day and your period should have come yesterday, everything adding up to convince you that you’re finally pregnant. You’ve been trying for baby number four for about three months now, but all your previous tests came back negative and the more failure you had to endure, the harder it’s getting to keep your hopes up that you’ll get pregnant again.
This is gonna be the one, you know. You can feel the change in you and it has to be a baby. It needs to be or you’re losing your mind. Harry is picking up the kids today, they can be home anytime and you really want to welcome him with the good news, you could have your first appointment later this week, checking in on the little bean.
Your phone goes off finally, making you jump up from the lid as if it was on fire as you grab the test from the counter and check the result. However the excitement quickly turns into something bitter and painful.
One line.
There’s no question it’s only one. No faded second line, nothing you could hold onto and give yourself hope. It’s a negative test, meaning that you’re not pregnant.
“Fuck,” you sob as you break down crying, sitting down to the bathroom rug as you hug your knees to your chest. This was not how it was supposed to happen, you were so sure it’s gonna be positive this time! You’ve been trying for long enough to make you worried.
What if you won’t get pregnant again? You joked about three kids being your limit, but what if it really is? You think about how disappointed Harry will be if you tell him you didn’t get pregnant this month either, and you feel like you’re failing him, not giving him what he wants. But you want it too, you’ve gotten so into the idea of having another baby, having to face this failure will scar you for sure.
You cry and sob and whimper, gasping for air until your eyes turn red and your lungs sting. It takes several minutes to get yourself to leave the bathroom floor. Feeling like hiding from the world, you go to your shared closet with Harry and reach for one of his bigger hoodies that completely swallows your figure.
The front door opens and the happy chatter of your kids fills the house, following Harry’s deep voice. You quickly wipe your cheeks and try to rub your eyes dry, a pair of small feet thumping up the stairs and you recognize Ellie’s steps right away.
“Mummy! Are you here?” she calls out for you. Taking a deep breath you step out of the closet just when she barges into the bathroom.
“Hey, Bunny. Did you have a good day?” You force a smile to your face as you pick her up and hug her to you, a tad bit tighter than you usually do.
“Mummy, are you sad?” she asks, examining you with a worried look on her face. She is still wearing the dress you put on her for school, her hair that was once braided is messy, unruly curls bouncing around her face. She looks so much like Harry, though her eyes are definitely yours.
“No, just a bit tired. Everything is fine,” you smile at her, kissing her cheek. “Why don’t you go and change? Do you have homework?”
“I do. Will you help me?”
“Of course. I’ll meet you downstairs,” you tell her, putting her down and watching her run out of the room.
You want to head down too, but instead, you just sit on the edge of the bed, tears stinging your eyes again as you think about how long it’s been when Ellie was a baby and that if you
don’t fall pregnant again, you won’t get to experience having a baby again.
Ellie changes from her pretty dress, dropping it into the hamper like she was taught before she runs back down to get her homework from her backpack. The twins are in the living room, playing with the toys they brought from their room in the morning while Harry is putting away their lunchboxes in the kitchen.
“Where’s mum, Ellie?” Harry asks her, pressing a kiss to her head as he walks past her.
“Daddy, I think mum is sad,” she hums, sitting to the dining table to get her books and pencils out. Harry freezes, turning back to his daughter.
“Why do you think she’s sad?”
“She was crying when I went into your room. Is she sick?” she asks, worry all over her adorable face.
“I’m sure it’s fine. I’ll go check in on her. Keep an eye on your sister and brother, will you?”
Ellie nods as Harry heads upstairs, taking two steps at once. The room to your bedroom is slightly ajar and he hears your sniffling before he sees you. Pushing the door open he finds you sitting on the bed, your face buried in your hands and his heart breaks right away seeing you like this.
“Baby, what’s wrong?” He is quick to rush to your side, pulling you to his chest as you sob into his shirt. “Hey, whatever it is, we’re gonna figure it out. Just talk to me, please,” he murmurs softly, kissing the top of your head.
He gives you time to calm down and when you’re finally not sobbing you pull away, wiping your cheeks again. You probably look like a mess, your nose snotty, eyes puffy from all the crying you did so far, but he has seen you way worse before.
Without a word, you get up, walk into the bathroom and grab the negative test from the counter. Harry watches you like a hawk, his arm coming to curl around you as you sit back next to him, handing him the test.
“Oh baby…” he breathes out, putting it aside so he can hold you with both of his arms. “This is what got you so upset? It’s alright, we’ll keep trying, don’t stress yourself about it.”
“But what if I won’t get pregnant? What if I really did reach my limit?” you choke out, burying your face into his chest as he holds you tight. “I’m sorry I disappointed you,” you add in a whisper, but it’s like a slap across Harry’s face.
“Hey, none of that,” he sternly tells you, pulling away so he can look into your eyes. His hands cup your tear soaked cheeks as he looks down at you. “You could never disappoint me, especially not with something like this.”
“But you want this baby so much and I want it too, but we’ve been trying for three months and it should have happened by now…”
“Just because we got lucky the first two times, it doesn’t mean it’s gonna be the same now. Three months is not that long, okay? And we have time, we can keep trying, it will happen in its own time.”
“And what if it doesn’t happen?” you ask with trembling lips.
“Then nothing changes, we have three beautiful kids, it’s already perfect, with or without another baby.”
“You won’t be mad if I don’t get pregnant again?” you ask in a broken whisper.
“Oh baby, I could never. You already gifted me with three amazing babies and I’m so happy with what we got. Please don’t beat yourself up about this, I don’t want you to wreck yourself because of it.”
“I love you,” you breathe out, wrapping your arms around his neck as you fight your emotions to get you to stop crying already.
“I love you too, Y/N. So much. Just take it easy, it will happen if it was meant to happen, okay?”
You just nod, kissing his neck a few times before pulling back. You feel so relieved already, knowing that it was a mistake to ever think Harry would be anything but kind and loving towards you even with all the failures you’ve been facing.
“Why don’t you take a shower or a bath, I’ll help Ellie with her homework and then we can make dinner together, how does that sound?” he hums, gently rubbing your back.
“No, I want to help Ellie. I want to… I want to be with the kids,” you tell him pouting and Harry gets you right away. Focusing on them will most likely take your mind off of the negative test.
“Alright, whatever you want,” he smiles nodding, kissing your forehead.
You take a quick shower, don’t want to get too deep in your thoughts. Dressed in Harry’s hoodie and a pair of comfortable yoga pants you head down, finding Harry in the living room with all three of your kids, looking very much like they are plotting something.
“Hey guys,” you greet the suspiciously, their heads snapping up at your arrival.
“Okay, now!” Harry whisper yells and a moment later you’re under attack.
Max is the first one to throw himself at you, then comes Maddie and then Ellie, all three of them hugging and kissing you, telling you how much they love you.
“Oh my God!” you chuckle, kneeling down so they can reach you better, Max climbs to your back and Maddie is giggling as she kisses your nose. You look Harry’s way who is watching you with a wide smile from the couch.
“Daddy said you needed extra love today!” Ellie explains, laying her head to your shoulder.
“Ah, you are so sweet,” you breathe out, touched by the gesture as you hug them to you the best you can. “I love you guys so much,” you murmur into Maddie’s hair.
“And we love you too, mum!” Max laughs from behind you, hanging from you like a little monkey.
Letting them go is a little hard, but you need to if you don’t want to start crying again. Harry was right. Even if this fourth baby doesn’t happen, you still have such an amazing family, you have nothing to be sad about.
Having late night snacks with Harry has always been your favorite especially since you’ve become parents. Once the kids are down and you have some privacy, you often use this time to love on each other, but other times it’s not what you desire.
You’ve been moaning about wanting fries all day to Harry and he was sneaky enough to get a pack of frozen fries on his way home. Ellie went to bed with no problem after Harry read her a bedtime story and the twins were tired enough to fall asleep fast as well. Now as you’re making your way downstairs, you find your husband standing in the kitchen, his gaze fixated on the air fryer that’s most likely filled with fries.
“Oh God, I’ve been thinking about this all day!” you groan, grabbing plates from the cupboard.
“I should be offended that I’m not the one on your mind all day,” he huffs, pretending to be hurt, but you don’t miss the smirk that curls the corner of his mouth.
“You are too! But fries beat you today,” you snort, but kiss his shoulder blade moving past him.
Soon enough, the two of you are sitting at the kitchen island with a pile of fries in front of you, munching on it like you didn’t have dinner just a few hours ago.
“This needs ketchup,” Harry hums, walking over to the fridge.
“Can you grab the mustard too?”
“Mustard?” he gasps, but grabs it either way as he walks back to his previous seat. “I haven’t seen you eating mustard in ages!”
“I know!” you groan. “But I’m really craving it.”
“Last time you wanted mustard as if your life depended on it you were pregnant with the twins.”
You both freeze at his words, processing what he just said. Slowly you turn to face him, dropping the fry you were holding.
“And also when I was pregnant with Ellie,” you add, your eyes growing wider.
“Have you… when was your last period?” Harry asks in a whisper, the food long forgotten as he hops off his stool and you follow him while doing the quick math.
“I think… oh God, I’m like five days late! That’s a lot!” you gasp, realizing that you completely forgot about your period. You’ve had a busy week with work and Ellie’s school project you’ve been helping her to put together, it totally slipped your mind that you should have gotten your period earlier this week.
“Do you have any tests you haven’t used?”
“Yes, I have one, come on!” you grab his hand and you run up to your bathroom as if it was a race.
Just as you remembered it, the test is in the drawer where you put about two months ago when you and Harry agreed that you’d take the baby project a little easier, not forcing anything after your breakdown. That worked so well that you kind of forgot about it completely, right until two minutes ago.
Harry stays in the bathroom with you as you pee on the stick and then set it to the counter, setting an alarm on your phone. The two of you sit on the edge of the bathtub, hands tangled together as you anxiously wait for the three minutes to pass.
“Baby, if it comes back negative, it’s gonna be alright, okay? Don’t want you to feel bad about it,” he reminds you, kissing the side of your head.
“I know. We’re good. I love you,” you say, using it as a kind of mantra to calm your nerves.
“Love you too.”
You sit in silence for the remainder of the time until your phone goes off and you share a nervous look.
“You check it, I can’t,” you urge him and Harry nods as he grabs the test from the counter while you squeeze your eyes shut, bracing yourself for another failure. “What is it?” you ask in panic when you hear nothing from him.
Harry kneels in front of you, placing a hand on your knee as he kisses your forehead.
“Baby, open your eyes?”
“I don’t want to,” you whine. “Just tell me!”
“I think you’ll want to see this,” he chuckles softly and it sends a shiver down your spine. Slowly you open your eyes and meet Harry’s teary gaze as he grins at you wide. Before you could ask anything, he holds up the test and you gasp right away.
Two lines.
There’s no doubt that there are two lines. It’s not even faded, you don’t have to talk yourself into believing that there’s a second one, because it’s obvious.
“Oh my God,” you whisper, tears rolling down your cheeks as you take the test from him and take a closer look at it. “I’m not just seeing double, right?” you ask laughing through your tears.
“No,” he shakes his head chuckling. “It’s definitely positive.”
“It’s positive,” you repeat, eyes meeting his. “I’m pregnant. Again!”
“Yes, you are!” he laughs before wrapping his arms around you, pulling you tight into his embrace, both of you crying happy tears.
“We’re having another baby,” you whisper in shock as it slowly hits you. Even though you’ve been trying and planning on it, it’s still shocking that now it’s become reality. You’re gonna have another one.
“I told you baby. I told you it’s gonna happen. I knew it,” he mumbles into your hair, kissing you everywhere he can reach as you take deep breaths to stop you from crying.
“And you’re just always right,” you chuckle, cupping his face to pull him into a celebratory kiss.
“Always,” he hums happily against your lips.
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character: ran
content: angst, hurt? ig, gn reader, mentions of cheating, reader is drunk at the start
synopsis: moving on from haitani ran is a difficult task, especially when your heart still belongs to him
hihi this was supposed to be fluff but i got carried away- hope yall like this!! and im sorry if it doesnt make a lot of sense because my brain cannot function </3
“Babe- y/n?”
The lavender hair male corrects himself, a mix of emotions hit him at once, nervousness, fear, worry, happiness, they all flood the male standing before you at his door. It’s been a while since he last saw you after the breakup a few months ago. he’s unsure why you would be at his apartment at 3am in the morning. Did you leave some of your stuff here? Or did you come to take him back?
Ran took the time to look at you, eyes droopy, body swaying slightly and unable to keep your head up, letting it fall forwards and onto his chest, there was no denying that you were absolutely drunk. He hesitantly raises his larger hand, wanting to rest it onto your soft hair but he stopped the moment you uttered a name,
His brother? What was your relationship with him? Were you seeing him after splitting ways? How long was this happening for? He felt a sting in his chest, hurt and jealousy clouding his mind. But he soon snapped back to his senses the moment he felt his shirt getting damp and sniffling. Ran immediately brings you into his apartment, leading you to his bedroom and laying you down on his king sized bed, one that he feels is rather empty without you. He leaves you and returns with a glass of water.
His brother? What was your relationship with him? Were you seeing him after splitting ways? How long was this happening for? He felt a sting in his chest, hurt and jealousy clouding his mind. But he soon snapped back to his senses the moment he felt his shirt getting damp and sniffling. Ran immediately brings you into his apartment, leading you to his bedroom and laying you down on his king sized bed, one that he feels is rather empty without you. He leaves you and returns with a glass of water.
“W-what happened..?”
Ran was hesitant, he was afraid of what had caused you to be in this state but part of him knows that he was the reason.
“I.. can’t forget him..”
You sniffled, the hurt and pain evident in your voice, making the male’s heart clench.
“..who?”
“Fuck you rin, you know who, your stupid brother”
You rolled your eyes. Ran can’t help but to chuckle, even in your poor state, you’re still as sassy as he remembers. But that was short lived when he realises that you were drunk and sobbing because of him.
“And what about him?”
This time you groan, hands coming up to rub your face in frustration.
“My god were you even listening when i told you what happened?”
Silence filled the room, ran unsure of what to say next. You sighed,
“I just can’t move on rin, just.. I miss him.. I know he’s an asshole and he probably doesn’t love me but.. I don’t know, i’m tired”
You turned away from him, eyes slowly fluttering close, slumber slowly hitting you, but before you could doze off to sleep, a grip on your arm stops you.
“You.. miss me..?”
“Huh, what on earth are you talking about rin..dou..”
And for the first time that night, your eyes meet his violet ones. The fog in your mind starts to clear up as sobriety starts to slowly settle in. you cursed under your breath, pushing his arm away and quickly getting up. Still slightly drunk, you stumbled over your feet as you made your way towards the front door, all while ran calls out for you behind. Just as your fingers brushed against the doorknob, you were yanked back into a pair of strong arms and a broad chest.
“Haitani ran fuck- let me go!”
You squirmed in his arms, trying so hard to get out of his tight grip on you.
“Can you fucking listen to what i have to say”
“There’s nothing more to say, i saw you haitani, in that fucking club with all those hot girls grinding up against you!”
You spat at him, nails practically digging into his arms to pry him off you.
“And like i said, it’s for work”
Ran rolls his eyes, turning you around to face him.
“Oh really? It’s odd that mikey didn’t know about this mission huh, y’know your boss?”
Ran froze as tears welled up in your eyes, threatening to spill. Your lip quivered at the memory of your then boyfriend, hands wandering the bodies of women other than you. Ran’s arms around you loosened, he stared back at you with regret and shame, ashamed of what he did and how he still managed to lie to you this moment. You turned your back to him, opening the door and ready to leave when,
“I love you..”
Your heart clenched at those awful words, oh how you hated them, the words that would make you feel all warm inside now hurt you. You so badly wanted to turn back into his arms, wanting to feel the embrace and comfort that he used to provide whenever you felt down. But that wasn’t possible anymore, not when the man you loved betrayed your trust that night, winding up in the arms of another.
“No you don’t, i could tell ran, you never did”
Tears rolled down your cheeks as you stepped foot out of his apartment, slamming the door shut behind you.
Ran watches you walk down the street through his bedroom window till he can no longer see your silhouette. He plops down on his bed, face snuggling into the side of the bed that you just laid on. He believed that if he thought hard enough, he could feel your body pressed against his and he’ll finally hold you close to him, something he should’ve done before.
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