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gonna get really sappy and DEEPLY tmi/personal about twenty one pilots on main so im gonna put it under a cut. i am cringe but i am free and clancy tour coming up is giving me Feelings
i've been a top fan since 2016. i initially had some resistance to them bc it was when Stressed Out was at its peak and like, yall know how oversaturation goes. even if its good, its fucking annoying by proxy. all the 12/13 year olds at my high school were into it. i was turning 17. and it was a really fucking rough year.
i've been deep into homestuck since i was about 14/15, but by age 16 i had branched out into text-based rp and met a guy from italy who i kind of had a situationship with i guess?? at the time?? idk if that's what the kids call it. (whenever i describe how many relationships ive had, i count this one as a 0.5) anyways. it eventually got to a point where he was emotionally abusing me for a period of about four months. it was brief, but intense, especially since im a fucking lovesick lonely teen at this point who doesnt know any better. he lovebombs me, talks to me and acts like i am his girlfriend, gets jealous and shitty if i talk about other people, but then the moment he goes and does the same shit i get told i'm the reason he was depressed, im the reason for his problems, etc. until he calmed down and placated me and won me over again. over and over, regularly, for four months. it was a lot for my little developing brain to handle.
i know people have had it longer, have had it worse, but it really left a lasting impact. i was left with a litany of abandonment issues, and self-esteem and image that was already bad was buried dead in the fucking ground. i wanted to die every single fucking day for those four months. he even told me, as i began to question my sexuality properly, that i couldnt be bi 'because i liked him'.
but he LOVED twenty one pilots. would quote their shit regularly. wore the merch. all that stuff.
by 2016 i'd managed to see clearly enough and have enough support from friends that i felt comfortable cutting him and his circle off permanently. and it was fucking hard. i didn't have a lot of irl friends at the time and it felt like my only support network. after i finally left, i was desperate to feel some semblance of control, take something back, my own personal little 'fuck you' i could carry in my heart.
with all the hype around them, i gave top a try. slowly eased my way in. i knew i was hooked when i heard Holding On To You for the first time. it made me feel like i could take back that control and find a light at the end of the tunnel.
i consumed everything they had put out after that. i saw them live at emotional roadshow sydney 2017, i was turning 18. i made so many new friends. i felt such hope in my heart. i sobbed so fucking hard when they played HOTY. they weren't the only reason i made it through, itd be naive to contribute everything to them when i've done a lot of work and so have the people around me, but they were like a lifeline to hold on to when things were hard.
i went and saw them again in 2018 for the bandito tour. i made my own outfit and was surrounded by people who had done the same. i made more friends, had more adventures. i was dropping out of high school the year that Trench released due to having the worst mental health i'd had probably since my abuse and felt so lost but it helped me feel a little more stable and grounded. like that light was still there.
a lot has happened since. i'll be 25 when i go see them in November, once again at Qudos Bank Arena in sydney. i'm in a happy relationship with someone i love who respects me. i'm doing things that make me happy. i'm happy. i've felt and experienced and lived and loved and lost and done so so so much since i was a scared 16 year old hearing them for the first time. i've gotten piercings and tattoos, something i never thought i'd do, and put their work permanently on my body. i'm so proud every time i see my tattoo on my arm. i genuinely love and accept myself exactly as i am, which is something i NEVER thought i'd do.
having Clancy come out nine years to the day from blurryface, an album that has been so deeply important to me in a lot of ways, gets me real misty. this entire tour gets me so misty. i didn't think i'd live past 18 at BEST. but i'm here and i'm fucking happy.
genuinely cannot emphasise how much this album and this tour means to me. i plan on getting a Clancy tattoo once the album comes out and i've had some time to sit with it. it feels very full circle, i guess. hearing Next Semester has just had me thinking about this constantly and all weepy all the time haha. but a good weepy.
i cannot fucking wait to scream in a stadium full of people again in a way that heals my heart.
#twenty one pilots#tw suicide mention#tw abuse mention#i wasnt kidding when i said i get real fucking tmi in here#my household already has to deal with me rambling about them all the time lol so tumblr gets the deep and meaningful
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HS Epi: Meat p21 reaction
So, Dave, huh?
Doesn't seem as if Dirk is expecting him to fall unconscious too from the looks of it.
But that doesn't mean that he might not. It depends on who's really behind the condition, Dirk or Alternate Calliope.
You'd think Dave might get called by Roxy when they can't wake Jade up, but that might happen in the latter half of the page.
It's notable that Dirk even as almost omniscient narrator seems harried to continue acknowledging certain scenes.
As if he fears he might be influenced.
"DAVE: holy shit thats disgusting
KARKAT: DON’T BE A FUCKING XENOPHOBE
DAVE: im not being a xenophobe"
Yeah Dave, be more sensitive towards the people whose body image is celestial. :P
"Karkat doesn’t respond immediately. He shuffles his feet to the edge of the outcropping they’re standing on and stares down at the brood pit, where the Mother Grub of Earth C is squelching out unfertilized jelly."
:O They actually left their hive!
And they're meeting up with Kanaya!
So... yeah, didn't think we'd require further indulging into the reproductive cycle of trolls, we had TMI already, but here we are. :P
Jelly to go into the slurry, unfertilized like fish eggs. Joy.
"No answer. This silence makes Dave actually back up for three seconds and think about what the hell just came out of his mouth."
Karkat's just distracted, thinking of something else or looking for Kanaya, I suspect, but Dave goes reading too much into it.
"Dave could definitely be handling this situation with a certain measure of restraint or grace. But he’s got my genes, so he decides to handle it a different way than that."
Well, Dirk did say he owned his own faults. He wasn't lying.
"DAVE: but im almost as passionate about this troll speciesism thing as i am about the economy which you may not have known is my number one"
Heh, Dave's really getting worked up about this, assuming he came over poorly.
"Karkat still doesn’t answer. He’s staring real intently at the jelly."
He doesn't spot any mutations, by chance?
"KARKAT: HEY DIPSHIT, SHUT UP FOR A MINUTE.
KARKAT: I’M NOT IGNORING YOU BECAUSE I’M MAD.
DAVE: what
DAVE: that wasnt what i
KARKAT: I KNOW THAT YOU PERISH LIKE A DELICATE LILAC BLOOM IN THE FUCKING DESERT IF NOT SHOWERED WITH MY VERBAL ATTENTION AT ALL TIMES.
KARKAT: BUT I’M KIND OF WITNESSING THE REBIRTH OF MY ENTIRE FUCKING SPECIES RIGHT HERE.
KARKAT: YOU EVER THINK THAT THIS MIGHT BE A MONUMENTAL MOMENT FOR ME?"
Wow, this is actually really much more like the Karkat we're used to hearing rants from.
I can definitely understand he feels some very heavy feelings right now, since everything that happened in the A2 session and after has lead to this moment.
So I'm definitely allowing Karkat a measure of solemnness, and perhaps even feeling proud and aloof at the achievement.
"Dave comes to the edge of the outcropping, standing shoulder to shoulder with Karkat as he too observes the majesty of translucent goo getting birthed out of an alien asshole."
So majestic. I'm definitely getting "Mufasa showing Simba the Pride Lands" vibes from this scene. :P
"KARKAT: WHAT PART OF THIS IS DISGUSTING?
KARKAT: IS IT THE SLOW DEFLATING OF ITS DISTENDED ABDOMEN?
KARKAT: THE SOUND OF DOZENS OF SEGMENTED LEGS CLACKING AGAINST ITS EXOSKELETON?
KARKAT: THE UNFERTILIZED SLURRY BEING SLOWLY SQUEEZED FROM ITS OVIPOSITIONAL SPHINCTER?
KARKAT: IS THAT IT? IS THAT DISGUSTING TO YOU DAVE?
DAVE: kind of
KARKAT: ...
KARKAT: YOU’RE RIGHT
KARKAT: IT’S HORRIBLE"
You know when people sum up three items, the third one is often the most important one. :P
And yeah, I figure Karkat can still see how horrific this is even as a troll himself.
We know how much he could get grossed out by Equius' sweat and strongly voiced his dissent, and this is a whole new level of excrements.
"KANAYA: Im Sorry But I Can Hear You From Down Here"
Kanaya has excellent hearing, being able to discern their blabbering from all the squelching and clacking.
It might the rainbow drinker abilities.
"She’s glowing. Her skin, I mean."
Yes, we already established she and Rose would adopt, if they'd ever go for progeny, if Rose can be convinced. :P
"Kanaya steps out from beneath the canopy where she was doing grub science, wiping her hands on a silk cloth."
It's cool to see Kanaya do such a Jade-like activity! It's actually quite logical that her kind would be well versed in biology, given their strong dependence on the grub for (biological) reproduction.
"Her mood can be politely described as pensive."
... Something might be bothering her. A lack of donations, so far? It's not as if the imperial drone system will be set again, right?
Depends on how they did things on Beforus, which she might shed light on. ... Figuratively.
"DAVE: whats shaking sis
KANAYA: Must You Always Call Me That
DAVE: nah but it does feel pretty rad to say
DAVE: like wow my sister in law is an alien how"
Pffff, yeah, that's right! Well, that's the first time someone besides Calliope (and Joey) is called sis!
What'd that make Karkat to Rose? :P Since he has ties to both Kanaya and Dave.
"DAVE: i love our awesome planet where everyone is free to form xenophilic family units without fear of government interference or reprisal"
That's an odd thing to say, but okay.
"Karkat pauses to imitate a very common Davism that involves two hands and a double-wrist swivel. It’s an incredibly good imitation, because he sees this particular bit of body language like ten times a day."
... Does Dave make a jazz hands signal when he's trying to change the subject? :D
"KARKAT: IT’S THE STUPIDEST THING I’VE EVER SEEN AND YOU DO IT LIKE TEN TIMES A DAY."
... Is Karkat picking that up from the narration, unconsciously?
"DAVE: im dropping a beat
DAVE: like im using a turntable and scratching one song into another"
... Well then, less dorky and more related to his interests than I thought.
"KARKAT: IT LOOKS LIKE YOU’RE TRYING TO FOLD LAUNDRY YOU FORGOT TO IRON."
At this point both he and Dave have forgotten Kanaya's presence. :P
"KANAYA: So This Is About The Election
KARKAT: AH."
She was expecting them. I wonder if they'll get as much an evasive answer as Roxy and Calliope gave Jade.
"KANAYA: I Do Get The Internet Down Here"
Pretty good reception though! 'The Internet', such a Kanaya-ism.
"KANAYA: I Am Impressed That You Managed To Be Seen In Front Of That Many People Without Spontaneously Bursting Into Flames"
So he gave a public statement! Nice.
"KARKAT: WOW THANKS, ANOTHER VOTE OF CONFIDENCE FROM ONE OF MY DEAREST FRIENDS."
Yeah, well, your speeching days are kind of behind you, and even then it was only in front of 12 people, she may or may not have a point.
"KARKAT: THIS CONDESCENSION IS REALLY RICH COMING FROM THE PERSON WHO DECIDED HER NARCISSISTIC OBSESSION WITH BEING THE ONE TO HATCH THE MOTHER GRUB WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN NOT SEEDING OUR PLANET WITH A STOPGAP SYSTEM OF REPRODUCTION THAT WOULD CAUSE SYSTEMIC SPECIESISM TO OSSIFY INTO SOCIETY FOR 5000 YEARS."
Pfff, Karkat already mentioned he discussed these topics so often with Kanaya over the phone.
It'll be interesting to hear her retort.
"KANAYA: But I Do Not Think It Is Productive To Attribute These Resultant Troubles To A Single Decision Or Individual
KANAYA: It Stands In The Way Of Our Efforts To Address Them
KARKAT: MMNNNRRRGHHH.........
DAVE: (shhhhhh)"
I like this, Kanaya's right in absolving herself at least in part of the blame for the end result.
Karkat is doing wonders in restraining himself from shouting.
Dave is shooshing Karkat.
"KAYANA: You Know As Well As I Do That We Must Present A United Front"
Yeah, that'd be best to not cause societal upheaval. But they're not doing a good job already of course, running two different campaigns.
"KANAYA: I Have Nothing But The Utmost Faith In You"
... is the new "I believe in you".
"Kanaya reaches out to put a hand on Karkat’s head. He doesn’t duck away in time, and she gives him an affectionate, matronly hair-ruffle between his horns."
I love how Kanaya's motherly/sisterly feelings towards Karkat manifest sometimes. :D
*pap pap good crab*
"KANAYA: While I Know That It Is Difficult For You To Take A Direct Compliment
KANAYA: I Have In The Past Put My Faith In You When The Threat To Our Survival Has Been Immediate And Literal
KANAYA: Its Basically Nothing To Ask Me To Do It Again Now That The Threat Is Far More
...
KANAYA: *Existential*"
Awww. Yeah, she always was one of his closest confidantes. Even going through with the trolling of the kids when she didn't feel like it would be that effective.
And she's right, the dangers now are far more vague.
"KANAYA: Is How I Think I Shall Put It
KANAYA: If We Are Going To Be Polite"
... And personal, I guess, since they come from within their own group.
(Let's be honest, the trolls were a team but not a cohesive one. In that regard, the players on Earth C are far more kin.
"Dave is watching her, but Karkat’s looking contemplatively at his entwined hands. Kanaya’s right: it’s almost excruciating for him to take a completely unironic compliment, especially face-to-face, like what she just said to him. I understand this about Karkat. It’s one of the precious few things he and I have in common."
Well, it stands to reason that if Karkat has a lot in common with Dave, he'd have a lot in common with Dirk too!
But maybe some of those things are not part of the same set.
"We internalize and project the quality in very different ways, however, which is why I’m going to win."
Here goes Dirk again, assuming he's the real leader on his side.
He assumes his way of dealing with compliments will make him come off better, but he might just seem arrogant.
"KANAYA: Jane Has Been Here To Speak With Me Recently In Fact"
Oh! I actually figured the issue was being discussed over the heads of the actual people impacted by a decision.
... Like is so often the case on our own Earth.
"KANAYA: You Know I Do Like Jane
KANAYA: In Some Regards She Reminds Me Of A Friend We Had Who Sadly Did Not Survive Our Time On The Meteor"
Feferi?
"KANAYA: She Was Unfailingly Kind To Everyone She Met But She Also Happened To Be The Heiress To The Throne Of A Vast And Bloody Empire"
Aww. We didn't have much interaction between them, but it seems she held Feferi in high regard.
It would have been a different empire under her. Different from Beforus as well, since the troll race had been influenced so severely by Doc Scratch and )(IC by then already.
"KANAYA: And While She Had A Lot Of Opinions On Reform She Had Already Wrenched Some Of Her Power From Our Last Empress In The Traditional Manner"
Via the lusus. That might be her reasoning behind waiting until after the time skip to hatch the Grub.
For the bond that would form between troll and grub.
Maybe she felt she alone could handle the responsibility, or she craved a little sliver of that contact she lossed with her own custodian.
"Karkat finally looks up at the description of one of their many dead friends."
Yeah, this would surely stir something with him as well.
"She rests an ear against the rise of its massive stomach, then taps the shell with two perfectly manicured fingernails."
That calls back to when she got the matriorb out from her dead lusus' body.
"KANAYA: By Which I Mean That Jane Is Perfectly Pleasant And I Believe That She Has Only The Best Of Intentions
KANAYA: But I Cant Shake The Feeling That Deep Inside Her Lurks The Potential For Despotism"
Yeah, we know how it could have manifested in Feferi from Beforus.
"KARKAT: OKAY I GET WHY YOU GUYS KEEP CALLING JANE A CRYPTO-FASCIST
KARKAT: BUT FUCKING FEFERI? SHE WAS HARMLESS.
KANAYA: These Things Take Time To Gestate Karkat
DAVE: damn"
Dave is impressed by Kanaya's political analysis.
"KANAYA: Power Corrupts In Small Steps
KANAYA: Compromises
KANAYA: Concessions
KANAYA: Appeasements
KANAYA: And Leaders Follow The Example Set For Them
KANAYA: Look At What Jane Has Modeled Herself After Already"
So maybe the situation on Beforus wasn't Feferi's doing single-handedly, just a situation that grew and grew over millennia.
A goal reached by means bartered over, the result corrupted in the process of achieving it.
I don't think Jane really modelled herself after the Condesce consciously, but if it's the only example of a powerful business woman she had, then of course she'd unknowingly copy some bad habits she doesn't think are bad.
"KANAYA: This Is Why I Trust You Karkat
KANAYA: Because You Listen To Advice From Below And Beside You Not From Above"
Plus, the Sufferer is his precedent, whether he believes in him or not.
And yes, Karkat might admire achievements made by what he believes to be his betters (Vriska, Meenah, the Condesce), but he's learned not to copy their behaviour.
"DAVE: so weve got your endorsement then
She laughs, not kindly.
KANAYA: Jane Offered Me “A Seat” On The “Board Of Responsible Troll Reproduction”
KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK. HOW DARE SHE!
KANAYA: That Is Exactly What I Said"
Wow, yeah, that was definitely inconsiderate of Jane.
Trolls should be the end responsible of their own reproduction, and if there's a board, there's a chairman, but as long as there's a president above either and she's human, the inequality persists.
"RECREATION SPRAWL"
Troll term for park.
"KANAYA: In Case You Cant Tell I Am Actually Fucking Furious About This"
Well, thanks Kanaya, I really couldn't!
"KANAYA: Our Reproduction Method Is Alien And Unfamiliar
KANAYA: To A Human It Must Sound Monstrous
KANAYA: Uncontrolled Even"
While it wasn't, of course, there's a rhyme and reason to it.
Especially considering the dangers on Alternia, a big pool of spawn to go through the trials is necessary.
... I wonder if they're going to set up new trials on Earth C, in the brooding caverns?
Come to think of it... What the grubs go through... It's kind of similar in a way to how in humans, the male sperm has to survive the trip to the egg cell.
"KARKAT: WHEN I HEAR ABOUT HOW HUMAN GRUBS CHEW THEIR WAY OUT OF THE FEMALE MATESPRIT’S ABDOMINAL HOLE BEFORE CONSUMING THE WOMB MEMBRANE IT MAKES ME WANT TO VOMIT."
That's... well, a different phrasing but still close to the truth. Makes us sound like birds hatching from an egg, though.
"KANAYA: I Hope That There Is At Least One Principle We Share As A Planet
KANAYA: Which Is That We Must All Work To Ensure Equal Dignity And Respect For Every Species"
It's sad that in real life, so many people disagree.
"KANAYA: Otherwise
KANAYA: What Was This All For
The three of them stare at the floor in adorably cartoonish synchronicity. What was this all for, indeed?"
It's almost as if they're looking down to the narration, acknowledging Dirk's presence. :P
"Morality is a cultural construct. It’s pure ego for any of them to believe that their personal interpretation of it will result in the most effective laws."
As for your personal interpretation, Dirk? :P
"DAVE: would you be willing to say that exactly but
DAVE: like in front of a huge crowd
DAVE: and also a television crew or six"
She'd actually pull it off better than Karkat. Maybe she could be his press speechperson on troll subjects? :P
"KARKAT: OR MAYBE JUST IN FRONT OF JAKE ENGLISH?
KANAYA: Oh Dear Has Jane Recruited Jake"
The Jakestakes return. Kanaya also believes in that Jake will sway the vote.
"KANAYA: That Would Be Disastrous
KANAYA: He Is Beloved In The Troll Kingdom For His Perky Ass"
Why. Of all the universal constants.
"DAVE: seriously?
KARKAT: I TOLD YOU IT’S NOT JUST ME!
KANAYA: It Has Some Terrible Arcane Power
KANAYA: I Have Never Seen Anything Like It"
It's like his <3 quadrant, a black hole everything is attracted to.
"DAVE: but jane is one of his best friends so we gotta approach this with a scorched earth policy
DAVE: give him a whole cadre of sob stories thatll make him feel all manly and heroic for lending his support
DAVE: just gift wrapping babies for him to kiss
KARKAT: TROLL BABIES EVEN?
DAVE: sure that can be part of the deal he can kiss the first natural born grub right on its gooey lil head"
He'd don a mayoral sash, top hat, fake moustache and monocle for the occasion, I can just picture it.
"KANAYA: Have You Spoken To Rose Yet
DAVE: uh no
DAVE: i mean
DAVE: shes
Dave mimes laying down and taking pills. The look Kanaya gives him is neither fond nor patronizing."
Very tactful, Dave, real smooth.
At least Dave didn't bother Rose while she's otherwise occupied, like during the start of their session. Progress, right?
"DAVE: whats up with that anyway
DAVE: are you guys uh
DAVE: grub pregnant"
Oh, yeah I should have figured Dave would start wildly guessing when not knowing the specifics behind the migraine.
"DAVE: cmon karkat dont you wanna be an uncle to a lil bundle of love and unnatural genetic tampering"
Oh, now the baby became a genetically manipulated crossbreed. Jegus, Dave.
"DAVE: ok stop freaking out im just saying from what i understand of troll reproduction it would be technically possible for a troll and human to
KANAYA: No
DAVE: and with ectobiology anythings possible"
Well, it's true the fandom speculated about crossbreeds, but uh, Dave is just approaching the subject from the worst angle.
"DAVE: i dunno its just unusual for rose to brush me off for our annual ecto sibling oversharing session"
I would have thought they'd AT LEAST schedule it monthly, not annually. :P
"DAVE: shes been sick for a while
DAVE: either shes pregnant or i got reasons to be worried"
And NOW we get to the REAL reason Dave's breached the subject.
"DAVE: id be cool with it yknow
DAVE: bring on the rosemary combo grubs
KANAYA: Rosemary"
Hah, nice! Shipping name dropped!
Maybe that's what Dave thinks of them in his mind sometimes, like how "Dave and Karkat" became a concept to their friends.
"DAVE: like rose plus your last name which is maryan or something right
KANAYA: Maryam"
Oh Dave, inconsiderate much? :P
"DAVE: the rosemary babies would have her hair and your horns or whatever
DAVE: like when two cartoon animals of different species give in to their lust and have preposterous children"
Like what Dirk drew for Jake and Roxy.
"KANAYA: Im Going To Call My Wife And You Are Going To Stop Talking"
Oh boy, here we go. Is Dirk going to answer? Making him both narrator and character at the same time?
Is he going to impersonate Rose? Or will Rose unexpectedly wake up?
"Dave and Karkat bicker about what their combo kids would look like, in the event that they decided to stop being such laughable wusses"
Even Dirk is rooting for them, kind of.
And why would they even discuss this subject if the subject of becoming more than friends even scares them so much they don't acknowle- wait I answered my own question.
"Rose’s line rings for a long time. It’s unusual, she thinks. Rose rarely leaves her phone unattended."
She rarely leaves an occasion hanging to be able to speak long sentences.
"Rose is in absolutely no condition to be having a conversation with anyone. Not even her cherished bride.
DIRK: Hey,"
Is Dirk going to lie, I wonder. It would just be another mark against him, but a big one, as it'd be a confirmed action of malicious intent.
"Kanaya’s voice turns sharp right away.
KANAYA: Excuse Me
She can sense that something’s wrong."
Alright! He won't be able to spin the wheel on her, if he'd wish to do so.
"She’s also smart enough, and facile enough in handling questionable men" - right, Doc Scratch.
"to understand that she quickly needs to regulate the tone of her voice for diplomatic purposes.
KANAYA: Dirk
KANAYA: Is That You"
Not fooling him at all, Kanaya, he knows you know it's him.
This turned almost into a call with a hostage-holder.
"I don’t answer immediately. I’m distracted by something."
His own narration, or something happening to Rose?
... Or perhaps... Perhaps Dirk is making contact with Reload Dirk, if he still exists. It would be something if he lost touch with Earth C for a while.
Perhaps it's more like what Blaperile thinks, Dirk is being distracted by events in the Furthest Ring, leading up to the upcoming perspective switch.
"She really should chill out, anyway. I’ve got everything under control. Not that she’ll ever be able to fully appreciate this."
Well that's the understatement of the year.
Kanaya would never forgive him, and it's only questionable if a lot of his other friends will.
It'll dependent on further developments.
"I don’t have time to explain right now. John’s doing something vaguely important to the plot again."
You'd think that what we last saw, John and the wallet, is where we'd continue his scene.
But maybe Dirk fastforwarded his narration of John (he showed off at one point and let him spend a few hours, remember?), and now Rose's timeline caught up.
But this means Dirk's currently not in a state to answer Kanaya, but what does that mean?
Is he going to freeze with Rose's phone in hand for a few hours, or has he broken off the call to "write" the narration?
"DIRK: Kanaya, I don’t have time to explain right now."
That's not an acceptable answer for her and you know it.
Unless he has her fall unconscious, too, Dave and Karkat and her are going to come over!
"DIRK: John’s doing something vaguely important to the plot again."
Wow, he actually repeated his narration into the phone. He really doesn't control his situation as much as he thinks.
"KANAYA: Dirk...
KANAYA: What
DIRK: This is gonna have to wait.
KANAYA: Dirk
DIRK: I’m putting you on hold, ok?
KANAYA: DIRK!"
"Putting you on hold", pfffff. It's a personal cliffhanger for Kanaya.
At least he's partially outed himself to the other people now.
Unless he can continue his conversation with her with a 'reasonable' delay of only a few seconds from her perspective, and then proceeds to smoothly talk around what he told her, with his narration powers influencing her to drop the subject.
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