SUCCESSION ▸ they’re trying to body snatch him. history’s being written.

So what can I do? I really beg you, my Lord To me, flirtin' is just like a sport

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PRETTY AS A PICTURE.

Black and white collection from the BAFTAs 2023.

Because I have great friends (poke @gay-impressionist and @saecookie), I have recently found myself in possession of ER's season 5 et 10 DVDs and boy, is the hyperfixation slowly but surely creeping back on me.

Which, after the DW specials, feels like I'm travelling back in time and I'm 15 again. Absolutely not a bad thing but definitely a weird feeling to say the least

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I have started an autistic!Wilson fic but after that is finished I may answer the call to write an extremely angsty Kerry Weaver character study fic (probably with a Susan/Kerry ship affiliation because I have never been fully able to get past Sandy outing Kerry). I have been rewatching ER and my girl deserves better. She is the very best, I adore her with my entire being, and like 80% of "protagonists" of the show participate in a campaign to hurt her for no clear reason except that she doesn't seem neurotypical. It would probably be some heavy angst because when I watch certain scenes in seasons 7/8 I get the distinct sense of "this character is severely depressed to the point of being suicidal, and no one knows or cares." It would probably follow the trajectory of Susan realizing at some point just how bad things have gotten for Kerry since she left, and feeling Remorse.

Rewatching ER sometimes feels like watching someone's villain origin story. Because Kerry starts out intense, but clearly trying very hard to make friends. She just wants to make things better for everyone. And she has Ideas of how to do that and wants to share them. But by season 8 she starts to close off and retreat behind walls of hostility, because all the nt characters were attacking her anyway. She starts looking out for herself more, because she is aware that everyone else hates her for things she can't fully control, and would stab her in the back eagerly and happily if they got the chance. She becomes less "let me help you all with my Charts!!!" and more "I need to stay on top to survive please don't take the only thing I have in my life away from me let me just have this job." So if Kerry stayed at County General until a hypothetical season 23, and a new character is like "why is she so closed off/cold/compulsively pushing everyone away?", the flashback sequences would be to seasons 2-8.

I may also answer the call to write a surprising friendship fic between House and Kerry because of character parallels I've discussed in a previous post and because I think it would really work. They would NOT get along working together, but at a conference, especially post ER season 7, they might become quasi-kindred spirits. Because they both NEED to be right to justify their existence, and I think House would recognize how Kerry is slowly becoming afraid of showing any kind of soft edge to people, even if he would never acknowledge that recognition. I think they would settle into a kind of "I would rather crawl over glass than work with you, but outside of work we can sit and drink and ruminate about how other people are wrong and ignore how we are one of each other's only friends" dynamic. They are similarly intense, but in conflicting ways (Kerry hyperfixates on administration and House hyperfixates on cases in a way that makes him rebel against administrators). Also Kerry just deserves a friend.

𝑲𝒆𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝑺𝒖𝒔𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕 | ER Season 9 Episode 7 — Tell Me Where It Hurts

Susan: What? You're pregnant? Kerry: I am. Susan: Oh my God! Kerry, congratulations! Kerry: Thank you. Thank you so much.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: ER (TV 1994) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sandy Lopez/Kerry Weaver Characters: Kerry Weaver, Sandy Lopez, Henry Weaver Additional Tags: Fluff, Canon Divergence, no bury your gays here, Christmas Vibes, Family, s10 au Summary:

After a year of highs and lows, it is Christmas morning in the Weaver-Lopez household. And a new year is promised.

I received this incredibly cute and fluffy Kerry/Sandy fic in the ER Greatest of Gifts Exchange 2023!!!

The Banshees of Inisherin in a nutshell

A little Sandy/Kerry Drabble I write for the ER Greatest of Gifts Exchange 2022

The Letter

this is something i wrote whilst speculating what Kerry wrote Kim at the end of s7. i think i lost her voice a little but i like it anyways. this can be applied to anyone you ship Kerry with.

I wish I could wax lyrical about you to the heavens, for any deity who would listen, but words fail me. I don’t know anything anymore, outside of you, I suppose I don’t know anything about you either, but I’d like to. You have invaded my mind with surreal happy-ever-afters, truths and futures I long to share with you despite already being able to taste my disappointment. I like to think about you however, about what food you like, about the clothes you wear, about the things that make you smile and how I wish I could do that, just once. I tell myself that if you just listened to me instead of hearing me then perhaps you would see good in me, kindness, that you could be as enamoured with me as I am with you. Or at the very least that you would like me. However, denial of my own faults is not helpful, comforting yes, but I think I may finally be strong enough to admit I’ve wronged you too, and I believe you deserve to know that I have not unearthed this strength alone, it is all in you. Everything I am, which is good, is for you.

I would promise you a thousand stars, if I knew that’s what you wanted, anything to erase your repulsion of me. Again, I find myself unwilling to concede that maybe you are right. I am so tired of being me it drains me, imagine living with my perfectionistic torment 24/7 arguing and insulting me till I break down then berating me for my weakness, yet telling me what I  need to hear the most - that I am disgusting and unworthy. You know this of course. If I think logically, something I am finding increasingly difficult these days, I understand that I could never be good enough for you and in knowing that I would be dissatisfied. So, I guess it’s a good thing that you don’t like me back.

Yet weirdly, I think that you… understand me, better than anyone else I have ever met. You deciphered my flaws and my weaknesses fast. I don’t mean to upset you with this next line, but I do think that our minds are alike, both searching for logic and trying to decipher the world around us. Our methods may be different but that doesn’t mean they’re wrong. I think they could compliment each other.

I find myself longing to be around you, I want to smell you, to absorb you, to make us one and whole, to listen to your stories and for you to listen to mine. I want to make you dinner, to curl up with you on a cold winter’s night with blankets and hot cocoa and marshmallows, I want to be the one to hold you when you cry. I can do it, I can be nice and good, if you were to let me try.

Your words bite me, my heart breaks to hear your mocking and your scorn, and endless reminder that you will never and have never viewed me through the lens which I view you. Nevertheless I find, uncharacteristically, that I am not angry with you, I am wounded and emotional; true. How could I not be? I am human despite what rumour says. But I am not angry with you. I am thankful that you have allowed me to view myself as I truly am, that you have unconsciously inspired me to be a better person. Morally, since my purpose is technically for my eternal happiness, I am still in the wrong, but even if I never get to kiss you good morning and good night. I am so unbelievably glad that we’ve met.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that, I love you.

Take my heart whenever you want it.

More from the Baftas.

Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri

Movies watched in 2023

Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri (2017, USA/UK)

Director & Writer: Martin McDonagh

Mini-review:

I liked this much more than The Banshees of Inisherin, but it still left me with mixed feelings. On the one hand, the acting is simply phenomenal and the script has some biting social commentary. The story also packs a few twists that took me by surprise, which I always appreciate. However, some of its dark humor didn't really work. I feel like it was trying to criticize or parody certain types of people, but sometimes it ended up doing the exact same things it seems to criticize. In this regard, the comedic parts of the movie were somewhat confusing. At this point, I'm starting to think that Martin McDonagh's movies are just not my thing. They're obviosly well-made and he can direct the hell out of his actors, but his sense of humor and his choice of dramatic beats are too hit or miss for me.

First contribution to @flufftober! Prompt was “Oh no, you’re a morning person!” for Day 5.