#Meant to post this yesterday but I was distracted lol Remembered today because I had an intense debate over which leather jacket to wear
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Freddie Mercury on stage at The Coliseum, Oakland, California on December 16, 1978
Scan from Queen: Album by Album by Martin Popoff.
#queen#queen scans#my scans#freddie mercury#queen band#Meant to post this yesterday but I was distracted lol Remembered today because I had an intense debate over which leather jacket to wear#greatest hits
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Hey! I have this weird situation in my head where Dabi has a crap day and his S/O can tell right away. His S/O asks him like “do you wanna talk about it?” “Do you want to talk about something else to get your mind off it?” He says no to everything because he just wants them to hold him and run their fingers through his hair. Would you be able to write a short scenario like that?
(AN: Ho boy so I definitely wanted to do this, cause I pictured this with the Touya theory, and uhhhhh…. Yeah, it’s sadder than I meant for it to be, I started to get into it while writing so I hope it’s okay!)
Today is one of those off days for Dabi.
Where he feels like he’s been hit by a truck filled with anxiety and depression. He always hides it just like he keeps his past buried, but once in while he can’t and he keeps to himself more than usual or gets snippy over every small thing. Even if it’s just bumping into someone he glares at them like they’d just insulted him; what make it all the more worse is what causes it: his past, his memories, looking at the burnt picture of he and his siblings with their mom. Remembering the ‘training’ he was put through, the days he wasn’t allowed to have more than a serving of rice if he didn’t train hard enough to his dad’s liking, then being called a failure the moment his youngest brother had gained his quirk and was exactly what his father wanted as a successor.
Yes, Dabi has all but pushed that to the furthest recesses of his mind, but even he has a day where the memories of 'Touya’ come back.
He comes home early today, normally being home really late but checking the time it’s only 7:33 PM. The League only had a small meeting at least, but he barely paid any attention to it. He considered going out and drinking the night away, but he also wanted to be around his lover. If he went there was also the chance he’d burn the place down after getting into a fight. He can hear them cooking with their music playing off their phone drowning out the sound of sizzling meat.
When he shuts the front door they call out,“Dabi, are you home already?”
“Yeah,” is all he replies, throwing his overcoat onto the back of the couch before walking further into their apartment to peek into the kitchen. When they hear him coming they look back and smile, asking,“Hey, how’d it go? I text you asking what you wanted for dinner but you didn’t answer so I’m just throwing something together.”
He comes over and looks at what they're making, shrugging before turning and going back to the living room.
“I don’t care, whatever is fine,” he says, which they’re normally used to hearing. But this time they furrows their brows in concern and look after him.
’I’m guessing the meeting didn’t go well…?’
Letting the meat simmer they follows him out and finds him on the couch bent over staring at his phone. Tilting their head (F/n) comes into the room and sits beside him, moving their arms around his neck and looking at the screen of his device while asking,“Watcha looking at?” It isn’t long but they get a glimpse; a selfie posted by a man with spiked white hair and gray eyes grinning wide, a girl with glasses and the same colored eyes and white hair with red streaks through it hugs him smiling. A younger boy with half red and white locks and one gray and one blue orbs is pulled in too looking surprised, and between them all an older one with pure white hair smiles with closed eyes. (F/n) already knows their boyfriend’s past, and they know exactly who these all are.
They’re caught off guard when he stiffens and looks at them with an intimidating gaze; carefully (F/n) let’s him go and sits back, their concern rising when he locks the phone and starts taking off his boots. Now they know what’s bothering him.
“Dabi… Do you wanna talk about it?” They ask carefully, having been through this with him a few times before.
He shakes his head, answering,“No. Also it smells like dinner is burning.”
They gasp and hurry into the kitchen while the ravenette stands and walks to the bathroom to take a quick shower.
(F/n) doesn’t let up, not yet, although they does let him eat silently while they watch TV. They watches him out of the corner of their eye, nibbling on their food as they consider different ways of approaching this. When they first encountered one of these times they let him be alone because they didn’t know what exactly to do, he nearly burnt down the apartment! But as they continued seeing these moments they figured out a few ways to handle him like this.
“Dabi, are you sure you don’t wanna talk about it?”
Nothing, no response, just him staring at the TV but his eyes looked lost in thought. They bite their lip, asking after,“Or, do you wanna maybe talk about something else? Like, something really funny happened while I was shopping today, I’m sure it would even make you laugh!” They smile at him, which soon disappears and they look away, their fingers fidgeting with their shirt. Maybe a distraction would work?
“Hey, why don’t we watch that one movie you liked? I bought it yesterday and-”
“(F/n), stop,” he snaps, turning and looking at them with an irritated look. They freeze surprised, and he continues,“I don’t want to talk about it, okay? Just leave me alone, already.”
Silence falls in the apartment and (F/n) stares at him. It’s weird to see him like this, he’s holding up a huge wall but he also seems vulnerable too, and they don’t like it because they don’t know how to help him…
He sighs and gets ready to stand and leave but he stiffens up feeling them starting to run their fingers through his hair. While doing this they gently grab his arm and pull him down so his head lays in their lap and they continue brushing their digits through his damp raven locks. He looks up at them puzzled and wanting to get up and still leave, but… He can’t. They smile softly down at him.
“I won’t pester you if you don’t want to talk, just remember I’m here for you if you need to vent, okay?” they tells him, brushing a hand down his face but not flinching at the rough scars, even rubbing across them with their thumb softly. “I love you, Dabi… Touya… And I’m sure they miss you so much.~”
His eyes widen when they say the last parts and he suddenly feels his throat and chest tightening, his lips turning into a strained frown. He turns onto his side and presses his face against their stomach hiding it in their shirt while he brings an arm to wrap around their back and a hand grips the back of their shirt.
They keep petting his hair and can feel a wetness on their shirt when he presses his face more into it, his grip on their clothing tightening and the (brunette, blonde, etc) is surprised. They don’t stop though, letting him calm down while giving him affection, knowing that in the end sometimes it’s all he needs.
(AN: This came out sadder than expected, and uhhhh yeah, I love Touya theory but I especially love writing angst or sad fics for it, it’s bad… lolAnyways thanks for the request! I had fun, sorry about the end lol )
#dabi is a todoroki#mha dabi#dabi x reader#mha x reader#bnha x reader#bnha fanfiction#bnha dabi#sad fic#sad dabi#boi needs love#i love sad touya theory too much help me
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💜💜 PG MM Anon 💜💜 Interpretation Collection - 7
Anon said:
You go PG!!! 😊😊😊🌸🌸🌹🐼🐼🐝🐝👍👍👍💖💖💖🌻🌻🌼🌼🌼😊😊😍😍💜💜🌹🌹🌹🌺🌺🌺💙💙💙🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌹🌹🌹❤❤❤👍👍👍👍 Violets 🌼
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💗🌲🌞😺 hi Skippy this is for PG and JG🏡🌲🥰🥰🧚♀️👑👑🐱🐰🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🐥🌺🌹🌼🌸💐🐿
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💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
MM Anon
MM ANON (DISCLOSURES)…… A presidential doe in the head-lights/sound/ camera …… POC ?……we’re just-ice wild about Harry…… 🎼 O Island in the second son 🎼…… NO’ there’s bigger fish …… “We’re gonna need a deeper hole”………the royal black-mail…… a reluctant Mantis …… “but it’s non-bloody-profit”…… fishing for chips ……… “For the greater good dear”…… disclosure beckons.
We have an additional word today, Disclosures….is that meaning big news and the end is nearer? We have thought quite a few times the end was near. I think due the historical nature of all that has happened, continue to happen, there may be several different ‘endings’ at different times. For example we haven’t seen mm in public for quite some time, yet her PR churns out gruel as if from a Dickens novel!
A presidential doe in the head-lights/sound/ camera
Doe in the headlights Is someone caught in a state of paralyzing surprise, fear, or bewilderment. Likened to the tendency of deer to freeze in place in front of an oncoming vehicle. So the phrase lights/sound/camera are filming words, lights/camera/action. So who is the presidential doe??? MM ANON could have said deer in the headlights which is most common but she said doe as in female. Someone’s female partner has become privy to some very startling videos in which she sees her presidential partner in , l won’t say further, we all know what l am talking about. Who is the presidential person??? I am not even giving initials, l don’t want a lawsuit thank you, or worse.
POC?
Person of Color, not colour, this is the American spelling. Is this direct part of the previous clue? Than it’s blatantly obvious who is being referred to! My, oh my!
we’re just-ice wild about Harry
Old song l’m just wild about Harry, Harry’s wild about me, LOVE old songs and films! In this case, play on words is justice. In Harry working covertly overtly, my fave phrase l coined lol a few riddles ago. Or has he fallen in with the dark side and will be in criminal trouble like the rest. I believe he would never betray his granny, HMTQ. I think he has been and continues to work hard on the side of justice! He needs a red cape to fly? SuperHarry!
🎼 O Island in the second son 🎼
Dolly and Kenny, love this song too Islands in the Stream….great song and collaboration! Second Son" is a short story featuring Jack Reacher, a fictional character created by British author Jim Grant. JE brother ME is a year and a half younger therefore second son, he now inherits the Island and all its horrors. Who would want it? Bulldoze it and leave it to nature. Harry is also the second son, he has no involvement in JE, however the backers that set him up and paid for mm may well have been.
NO’ there’s bigger fish
So, PA will be left to be, there are bigger fish to fry as the phrase goes. My goodness , l can’t get the actual use of presidential doe, out of my head. Rumours for years but what all is coming to light regarding public officials, politicians, people with immense wealth?!
“We’re gonna need a deeper hole”
Again with the JAWS reference. Bigger hole to bury all the filth they are uncovering. I don’t think this is meant literally, it’s to give us an idea of just the reality of the world tilting on its axis a bit once all names are public. But even then, l am sure some will remain undisclosed.
the royal black-mail
The Royal Mail is the official post, as ours in Canada Post. So here we have it, attempts to blackmail the BRF! This all started planning years ago. Go take another peak at the photos from IG, where mm, dr and ma present Harry with news. It’s obvious in those photos! There is also yet here another colour reference, was that intentional??
a reluctant Mantis
Mantises are insects with elongated bodies may or may not have wings, but all have forelegs that are greatly enlarged and adapted for catching and gripping prey; their upright posture, while remaining stationary with forearms folded, has led to the common name praying mantis.
Mantises were considered to have supernatural powers by early civilizations, including Ancient Greece, Ancient Egypt, and Assyria. A cultural trope popular in cartoonsimagines the female mantis as a femme fatale. Mantises are among the insects most commonly kept as pets.
Well we know who our femme fatale is, however she is anything but reluctant. Who is the reluctant Mantis??
“but it’s non-bloody-profit
This is PP, anytime l see the word bloody l think of him😄. This is PP definitely referring to the Sussex Foundation and that Foundations and any link with work the royals do, is NOT FOR BLOODY OR OTHERWISE PROFIT,,
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fishing for chips
🎣 fishing for chips, poker chips, microchips? Whose doing the fishing or is it Phishing?
“For the greater good dear”
Decisions and choices must be made for the greater good of the Monarchy even if it means family members pay deep deep consequences for behaviour. ?PA ?PH depending what happens.
disclosure beckons
Disclosure will soon be forthcoming, if l read all these clues right, this may well all be out before Prince Harry’s birthday on the 15th. The sell by date has long past, the truth all of it needs to come forth!
GSTQAOBC 🇨🇦
Fantastic PG…I would like to point out PA is also a second son. This is really interesting…thank you PG! So appreciate you doing this!🙏🏻💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
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💜💜🙏🏻PG INTERPRETATION OF MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
Sorry it’s so late we had massive t storm at night and hail. Just able to get online a wee while ago.
MM Anon
MM ANON … a trending treasure …… “ how many bloody grey suits does one need”…… “ read this babe ,and try to sound sincere “… SS will delete the mistake …… “What do think? I’m calling it ‘A royal Pregnancy ‘…… “Yes, with Brad and Leo” George is directing …… Push commercial!!!…… “Just do it Harry!!!”……… “first f#@ing day at school” Ahhhhhh!!…… “£#@ Balmoral,and £#@& Sandringham.” 💄💋👄👠👜💍🥑🍹🍾……… tabloid revenge
💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
A trending treasure
First day of school, DandDOC took Prince George and Princess Charlotte to school, he returning, for her, it was her very first day. My what a handsome family, Catherine looked beautiful with new haircut and colour. Our Charlotte is really growing up, her face has matured. She is a beautiful young lady, George is handsome, as we used to say, they will be heartbreakers few years from now. The photos are stunning and we thank William and Catherine so much!! For sharing this beautiful moment with the world 💜😊💜
how many bloody grey suits does one need?
We have all noticed the trend by now, old dim grey suit for any non-official appearance and well put together suit for official appearance. It’s more than a coincidence, it’s definitely PH screaming at us take note! Take note!Harry, please know we have taken note! We believe in you! We know you are covert! We love 💜🙏🏻 and pray for you!
“ read this babe ,and try to sound sincere “…
This is mm writing the script with instructions on how she wants him to read it/sound.
SS will delete the mistake
SS, Sunshine Sachs, PR company covers ills using worse ills. She is relying on them to make it all better voila. Them , using methods they allegedly employ, scare me beyond belief. Dark just got darker, and l am not referring to skin tone!
What do think? I’m calling it ‘A royal Pregnancy ‘
Oh my, has she plans for another ‘royal tour fakenancy? Oh, l couldn’t stand another sight of bump cradling, I will go stark raving mad!
“Yes, with Brad and Leo” George is directing
What is this now? She in a film role with the above named? Is this true? Or more of her fairy dust. Brad has been to rehab and has returned from the hell, that was his life with AJ, another fauxmanitarian, birthing his children and adopting in third world countries. Mm in a film with these, believe it when l don’t see it because well,@ l can’t go to movies because of my health 🤣, but seriously l wouldn’t pay a penny for that film. Will never happen.
Push commercial!!!
Pushing in the papers how much commercial flying PH actually does, this is all a distraction, every issue like this is noise, look over here, not there…please let’s look there, see what evil machinations she has continued with. SS of all , again as l said yesterday, the Nazis had an SS as well
“Just do it Harry!!!”
People want him to end it, assuming he is in charge.PH will continue until the need is no longer there, he is serving HMTQ! Remember what l said yesterday about his wedding ring, that’s no ordinary ring. Most British men, royals and friends l have there, men don’t wear wedding bands. So why does Harry? Think about it, remember what l said yesterday about that ring, it’s no ordinary ring folks!
“first f#@ing day at school” Ahhhhhh!!
Self pitying woman, jealous of a beautiful family and children, something she will never have. Catherine turned up with gorgeous new hair, looking gorgeous at 8 a.m. WOW!we love them, but how she loathes them love wins💜💜❤️💜💜
“£#@ Balmoral,and £#@& Sandringham.”
This is her opinion of these two private homes of HMTQ. These are privately owned homes, by HMTQ. This is her exact opinion because SHE HAS NEVER NOR WILL BE invited into HMTQ private residences! Full stop!
💄💋👄👠👜💍🥑🍹🍾
All gussied up and nowhere to go, what we used to say. Is this popping champagne et al getting ready for an African tour? She has no clue. Is she having a surprise interview with Ellen to air on tv?
tabloid revenge.
Tabloids and main newspapers have stopped any use of Duchess title, she is mm. There have been countless stories but SS and the behind the scenes Hollywood scheming is huge news and no amount of SS is going to make this go away. If she was hated before, oh to quote MMANON “ you ain’t seen nothing yet!”
Fantastic job PG….thank you so very much…..😊❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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💜💜🙏🏻PG INTERPRETATION OF MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
This late afternoon when l finally got moving l read incredulous things. I think we are finding things never thought and by an unforced on HRC’s behalf. Why come out of the shadows and tweet unveiling herself?? Thank you MM ANON and LG for your never ending work on behalf of HMTQ and British solidarity. I sense as Brexit gets closer more bizarre unexpected names will rise from the depths of the mire. God bless and keep you 🙏🏻🙏🏻💜
GSTQAOBC 🇨🇦
MM Anon
MM ANON … Bumbling along …… “( no Ice in my coke”)…… embrace the crowd …… they love me…… TV ‘ it’s a cake walk …… I’m not a royal pawn…… that’s what nanny is for …… the coverage darling,the coverage. …… F#@£ those small minded Brits…… while I’m in control ……… “ But! Nobody knew …… tell SS to put out a denial …… Di knew we’re the bodies were buried ‘ and so do I!! ……🎼 welcome to the Hotel… 🎼
Bumbling along
Bumbling is acting in a confused or ineffectual way; incompetent manner. Is this how they want us to see Harry? Certainly there has been a very domineering intense effort to role switch, she as the royal , he as the plus one. Let’s be certain, Harry is not bumbling, he is in , quite literally the fight of his life, the fight for the Monarchy. The bumble dating app has aligned with Smart Works. $$$$£££££€€€for who?..
“( no Ice in my coke”)
Flying first class commercial, can’t use any substances. Playing on words to flight attendant. Poor pet, that was one major reasyfor flying private but was never given publicly as an excuse. But we’re dumb Brits/Commonwealth we would never think that!WRONG😡 not only do l think it, l know and believe it!
embrace the crowd
Oh embrace the millions of Americans who adore her and will be lining the streets to welcome her home and praise her for all her hard work! 🦗 crickets do l hear 🦗 crickets? Yep no cheers only 🦗 crickets.
they love me
She is so delusional, she really truly believes she is loved and adored in America. Most people there don’t have a clue who she is. Nor do the care.
TV ‘ it’s a cake walk
Oh my, l hope this isn’t a reference to the interview with Ellen rumour. Maybe hoping to meet with her team tonight. Now which team OS that hmmm??? HRC lives in Westchester, NY.
I’m not a royal pawn
She feels that doing anything royal, which was her chosen duty when she married , she is being used. She wants nothing to do with royalty except the fun parts with diamonds, private jets, Givenchy etc.
that’s what nanny is for
Any questions leaving amw, as he is too young and fragile to fly to Balmoral, the nanny can look after him while she is in America.
the coverage darling,the coverage.
The coverage she will get, tv camera will be on her not Serena. Tennis players as are stage actors, notoriously superstitious! I think since Serena lost the last time madam was present, l would assume the last thing she wants is a repeat of that. She has also made a very public concerted effort to remove herself from the friendship. Ie when asked what baby advice she had…you remember that if you saw that. It would not surprise me at all, if madam did this without any consultation with her ‘bestie’ or her managers.
F#@£ those small minded Brits
Her, AND HER BACKERS!!!! Have exactly that attitude about each and every British citizen and by extension Commonwealth citizen. Folks, this is way way deeper of a plot and goes to levels once thought implausible, but that tweet today, that sent it over the edge.
while I’m in control
She seems to think she has the power and control. LG is giving her a few more inches of wiggle room, let her show , l do think the tweet today brought out in public a backer no one could ever have thought. What is going on? If a foreign national marries and tries to undermine the politics of the country she is not a citizen, that is tantamount to treason.
“ But! Nobody knew
Here l shall say, nobody knew HRC was a backer. I have a strong hunch HMTQ and LG and his team know every backer. But as far as l know, nobody had even mentioned her as a possible, her husband involved with JE. Something always thought odd, how such a woman of power stood by a man who so publicly humiliated her. I still can’t, but their mutual lust for power and control supersedes anything.
tell SS to put out a denial
Is this the whole anti-nanny thing? Have them deny that? Why? When there are a zillion other issues , PR lies, just in the last week!
Di knew we’re the bodies were buried ‘ and so do I!!
She still feels she has secret info on the royal family, and maybe she does, but whatever, she is wielding it like a hammer to get her way. Let’s reassure ourselves, this is LG, working with the worlds elite services, they do not suffers fools lightly, HMTQ as well.
🎼 welcome to the Hotel… 🎼
From The Eagles Hotel California, where you can never leave, like the mob, it’s for life. The ship she has tethered herself to, is a lifetime deal, and she has been so blinded by desire for fame, she has become infamous and she will have to answer to her backers because she changed the agenda!! For selfish reasons!!
GSTQAOBC 🇨🇦
Thank you so much PG! Fantastic! And the bubbling app and Smartworks.? Wow! 🙏🏻💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
I’m going to say it…I am…a dating app? I’m guessing goes deep into all kinds of things…
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Sept. 7
💜💜🙏🏻PG INTERPRETATION OF MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
MM Anon
MM ANON … Jorges@ros… Thestarchamber… the puppet master maker…the puppet master … the puppet … the strings of PR……A Supreme Monarchy …… A future family … an American sidewinder…🎼”start spreading the news”🎼…… 🎾🎾🎾😱😱😱…… “WHAT!! Bloody New York”…… “September is a wicked month”…… hidden beneath a dress uniform.… BRIDGE-OF SIGHS.
💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
Jorges@ros
This l can only find a fellow who works for IBM Cloud services. Might this relate to the Bumble app that our girl and her pals are so vested in!? I really do not know l am sorry.
Thestarchamber
1983 film Judge Steven Hardin is discouraged by the failures of the legal system after seeing hardened criminals go free on technicalities. Acknowledging Hardin’s perspective, his peer, Benjamin Caulfield introduces him to the Star Chamber, a secret organization that condones vigilante action in cases where justice has not been served. However, when the cabal sentences two criminals to death, and Hardin finds them falsely accused, he clashes with the powerful group.
We have long believe a cabal is behind the whole planting of mm and the plan was but she took it much further ie child, merching etc. HRC Instagram revealed her as a part of this group of backers. I feel like l am repeating myself but it’s important! We did not know this until yesterday!
the puppet master maker…the puppet master … the puppet
So what was the impetus for this sudden trip to NYC? Tennis? REALLY. SW has been publicly distancing herself and lost the last time she attended. Not a good thing. The puppet, mm, puppet master? MA,Puppet master maker HRC, GC,RB,LR? I am certain this trip suddenly was arranged by SS, l don’t believe she flew commercial because no one saw her, no photos, didn’t happen. The purpose of the trip on the surface is tennis so she will attend that. She will have had either in person, FaceTime meetings with likely, SS, lawyers, agents, her backers for Sure!!! All under the guise of watching her friend lose again. Oops!😮Hey l’m 🇨🇦,l am rooting for our girl!! The extra benefits of this trip is the recreation, sniff sniff, gulp gulp, etc you get the idea!
the strings of PR
SS is now on board. If you believed no PR before, for sure believe none now! It’s going to get really down and dirty. I pray to a God they don’t go after the Cambridges and their family!!!🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻. Be prepared for public misinformation, manipulating, lies like never before.
A Supreme Monarchy
The Monarchy has reigned supreme for over 1200 years and wants to stay that way. There is a well long planned effort to manipulate and possibly destroy it. We must stand firm in our unwavering support of HMTQ. PLease support her and her family, LG and his team in prayer.🙏🏻
A future family
Talking about adopting an African child, but l truly wonder since she did that bump cradling might she do that on this tour as well. Or might she use morning sickness as excuse to get out of an unglamorous tour?
an American sidewinder
🐍 This is definitely the Instagram by HRC yesterday revealing herself publicly as a backer. The nerve of encouraging a foreign national to interfere in the country’s political and upset the Royal procedure. The utter nerve!! The person who represents U.S. interests in the U.K. is the official U.S. Ambassador. What is she playing at. More information for LG, however he probably already knew. They are far ahead of us, knowledge wise of the facts, we know that
🎼”start spreading the news”🎼
The song New York,New York is where she is. Supposedly flew commercial, no photos or reports that l could see in scan of the paper.Did she really fly commercial? Or did SS arrange something more private? That’s just me being suspicious because l believe nothing she puts out.
🎾🎾🎾😱😱😱
Surprise at the U.S. Open. How will she present? I am guessing perfect hair, designer clothes etc etc. SS is on board now. Her public appearance will be vastly different now,,no more rats nest hair style. IMHO.
“WHAT!! Bloody New York”
Utter shock by HMTQ and PP that she has done this flight to New York. She continues to defy everything.
“September is a wicked month”
MM ANON has used this previously, sort of. August is a Wicked Month is a novel by Edna O’Brien. If you recall it’s about a woman so dissatisfied with her husband and life that she leaves for a different city. Will our madam leave be the same? No way, she is staying ‘royal’ $$$$$€€€€£££££ were it a regular person, the IRS would have been waiting and a return to the U.K. without a visa would never be allowed re-entry to the 🇬🇧. They are looking to hook bigger fish, she is a small minnow despite the damage amount she has wrought .
hidden beneath a dress uniform
Dress uniform? Whose dress uniform? I don’t recall seeing Harry or William recently. Is this reference to the kilts at Balmoral and the Highland Games?
Is this reference to SW uniform at the tennis? I just am not certain at this point what this means.
BRIDGE-OF SIGHS.
The Bridge of sighs is a bridge in Venice, Italy. The enclosed bridge is made of white limestone, has windows with stone bars, passes over the Rio di Palazzo, and connects the New Prison (Prigioni Nuove) to the interrogation rooms in the Palace. The view from the Bridge of Sighs was the last view of Venice that convicts saw before their imprisonment. The bridge’s English name was from the suggestion that prisoners would sigh at their final view of beautiful Venice through the window .
Why all upper case? Will there or has there been a lot of interrogation? Or has there been a chase since HRC unforced error of that Instagram post. Certainly obviously, this woman/situation has caused a lot of sighs, frustration, tears, anger etc.
I wonder if our Cambridges are very stressed and sighing as well. Didn’t they look splendid on the first day of school?,
GSTQAOBC 🇨🇦
Thank you so very much. Great job! 🙏🏻💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
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Skip, Julie here. PG you have the biggest heart and an amazing ability to break down the riddles. We are truely in awe of what you give us because hopefully some of us look at the unravelled riddle and it’s like minestrone soup. Means something but where do I start. PG you look at it and go OK I can see this or that. Every clue has several ways of looking at it. Courts of law wouldn’t exist if we all interpreted the same. You get us to think and debate. You have an amazing skill we are in awe.
I have no idea what PG is apologizing for, but PG is a big reason I enjoy your site, Skippy. PG, I love your analyses. If anyone made you feel you had to apologize for anything you wrote here, I am sorry. You brighten my days. Cheers and thank you!
Dear, sweet PG: You are wonderful and smart (not whip smart, since you’re no heidiho). 😉 Thank you for all you do! Never complain; never explain. 😎 💕…Songbird
For PG 💜💜💜
You are amazing. The riddles are mostly in a fog for me, but I read your solution, and have an “ oh of course” moment. You make it so easy for the rest of us, and we know it’s a struggle for you, with your health, and love and appreciate you being here to help.
I never ever understand the riddles without your pulling them together.
With much love from the UK.💜💜💜
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PG!!! No apologies necessary, ever! You do so much more than most of us here with the deciphering and you are top notch. Speaking for myself (and I’m sure others), I am always so happy that you tackle these and am amazed at your knowledge. Keep going – we look forward to your interpretations! xo
MM ANON …… pg ‘ darling girl stop with the beating yourself up 💜💜💜💜💜💜we love you pg …… LOVE YOU OK. …… your Bletchley Park top code breaker. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦Much love. MM anon.
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PG, I’m always impressed by the connections you make or the specifics of things that I know about but in a much more general way.
Thank you.
You do a great job.
You have nothing to be apologize about in my book.
And Skippy, thank you for this. Wow, Things I never thought of.
For you dear PG! You have mail!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
PG you rock!
Sounds like I don’t need to be here…..😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
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💜💜🙏🏻Thank you all🙏🏻💜💜
Wow l am overwhelmed. No one said anything bad, it’s just me being self critical when after it’s done, l see mistakes in spelling or oh l should have seen that it’s so obvious now,
💜💜💜💜THANK YOU ALL FOR UPLIFTING ME WHEN INWAS FEELING I HAD NOT DONE IT PROPERLY BECAUSE I TAKE THIS SO SERIOUSLY 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 God bless you all! I am truly humbled 💜💜💜💜💜💜GSTQAOBC 💜🇨🇦
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💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU MM ANON🙏🏻💜💜
MM Anon
MM ANON …… Bloomsbury NY. ……MADISON AV. …no after party …… 🎼” I’m sitting at the railway station”🎼…… “ missed you,Thank you Markus darling”……… I’m trapped …… Him!!! ‘he’s pale and stale”…… I’ll be back ‘SOON!! …… “This isn’t Downton Bloody Abbey”…… “let her stew, old thing”…… LG gave me the SP…… Duck all in a row ‘ sort off?…… “Him!!!! He’s in the $h!t”… no going back now!!
Bloomsbury NY
BLoomsbury is a part of West End London, Coventry Garden also. However it is a major publishing house, in America. I wonder if she had a meeting regarding the children’s book there had been some talk of a while ago. I also wonder if she is being offered a book deal on a more personal level, then l would think the company would be one that could afford her price tag for a book of that sort.
MADISON AV.
The main advertising businesses , PR firms run along this street in NYC,NY.
Were there meetings or representatives while she was there?
no after party
She certainly was not at all welcomed at the tennis yesterday. In fact it appeared no one spoke to her, she looked completely alone, sadly alone. When she attempted to talk to Serena’s mum she was completely ignored. They didn’t want her there, bad luck and she was. At times near tears, at times talking to herself, sad, sad. Certainly no invitations to after party since Serena lost, and l doubt she felt like a party and l especially doubt she felt like doing it with a jinx who she has been trying to extricate from friendship for some time now.
🎼” I’m sitting at the railway station”🎼
Homeward Bound, Simon &Garfunkel,, you know it, endless one nighters, performer who just wants to go home. Is she finally, seeing a bit of reality? She looked so sad and pathetic yesterday, certainly different than her last visit to New York.No half million dollar party, designers clothes, surrounded by wealthy friends etc etc. She looked a pitiful soul, unkempt hair, alone, l am sure she had security but nothing like we have seen. Does she just want to dump it all and go home? Well it’s far far too late now.
“ missed you,Thank you Markus darling”
No show, she didn’t see him at all. I don’t know if he was even in NYC. Nothing in the paper l read about MA, JM, LR, PCJ, any of her usual besties for a NYC party. I do have a feeling though, because of the massive negative results of the billion dollar baby shower, she saw friends of the down low, oh that word again, l feel twenty years ago when we said that all the time 🤣🤣🤣🤣 even abbreviated to dl , how old am L?😗😗😗😁😂😂😂😂. I am certain 110% even without photos, she saw him, or someone close at Soho, for sniff sniff sniff, gulp, gulp, gulp, aah aah aah😮😮😮😮😮😮😮. I hope that translates!
I’m trapped
She is trapped! But of her own greed and volition. She has made many many poor life choices. This one due to greed and she went beyond the original agenda. Let’s see how her return to the U.K. goes. Will she have a VISA. of course she has magical visas.
Him!!! ‘he’s pale and stale”
She wanted British male, pale and stale with£££££££££££? This reference, SORRY SIR , is DEFINITELY her reference to LG, she does not like being controlled or having rules because she thinks she’s above that. LG SIR, please continue, carry on.😁
I’ll be back ‘SOON!!
She insinuating return to America ? Or quick return to London with fresh six month VISA in hand ready to hit the ground running in SA. Oh l can hardly wait to see her on thatbtour🤣🤣😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂, if yesterday was any indication kids we are in for some great fun. SpongeMeg get ready!!!
“This isn’t Downton Bloody Abbey”
British Royal life is NOT Downton Abbey. Well it probably was at the time early 20th century. But we are 2019, expectations are there? This again given the tone and wordage comes from dear dear PP.
“let her stew, old thing”
No sympathy, no ££££€€€€$$$, she is not part of the BRF. Let her lay in the bed she made, feel the consequences of her decisions.
LG gave me the SP
LG has given the scoop , on the dl, the crack, whatever slang, Scotland we said the crack🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣Memories 🙃. So who did he give it to mm? Or MM ANON to share with us? Hey l am doing my best and today l won’t cry if l get something wrong🤨 or forget something.
Duck all in a row ‘ sort off?
So all is arranged, almost, God please🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 be she gone by Harry’s birthday the 15 th. But more importantly, let them have every duck in a perfect rom so charges stick, there is a conviction!! Or another idea, given the extremely detailed SA itinerary, which seems unusually detailed and written at this stage, maybe this means the SA tour . But l hope the first is the right answer!
“Him!!!! He’s in the $h!t”
PH, poor dear, he’s getting lots of blow back from the media. It’s all the role he’s playing, service to the Realm, HMTQ, so in that he bears the negative criticism. Let’s do remember to pray for him and HMTQ.🙏🏻
no going back now!!
We are all a product of the choices we make in our lives to most regards barring illness etc. But we all know so much that she has done, and has done since the marriage ish day. There is no turning back ever. She has danced with the devil, still is, and trying to make money and changing the agenda is a very very dangerous dance!
💜💜🙏🏻THANK YOU EVER SO MUCH MM ANON AND FOR YOUR KIND WORDS YESTERDAY🙏🏻💜💜
GSTQAOBC 🇨🇦
Amazing job! Thank you dear PG!🙏🏻💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
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Perfect Distractions
A/N: whooo I’m late posting by nearly an hour. I had my university grad party tonight and everyone JUST left so I’m posting this before I pass out LOL
I had this particular chapter planned out the minute I wrote Jamie and Claire arriving at Lallybroch for the first time, so this one’s a particular fave of mine. Hope you like it! <3
School’s starting up again, Jamie’s being verra dramatic about it, and as always, all the facts of this fanfic are contrived specifically to make fluffy university/modern-day au scenarios. Please let me know what you think!
Part One: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] |
Part Two: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] |
Part Three: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] |
Part Four: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] |
Part Five: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] |
Part Six: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] |
Part Seven: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] |
Part Eight: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] |
Part Nine: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3]
Part Nine: Empty |
Chapter 4
It was funny how quickly the body got used to things.
Two weeks ago, he woke up naked, pressed against Claire’s equally naked back, and very nearly shat himself.
Now he woke up next to Claire and very nearly shat himself, but she at least had a nightgown on.
Usually.
Slowly, he tightened his arms around her waist, pressing his chest into her back as she fluttered awake.
“Hmm?”
He rubbed his cheek into her shoulder blade, memorizing the feel of her soft skin against his early morning stubble and that perfect mingling of scents: Lallybroch and Claire, home by every definition.
“I can feel you frowning,” she said, trying to turn around in his arms. He held her where she was, hiding his face in her neck instead.
“When we get back to campus, mo chridhe,” he mumbled into her skin, “I willna be able to hold ye like this.”
“What?”
He let her snap around, making no attempt now to hide the lines of bleak acceptance on his face.
“What are you talking about?” Her hand reached across to cup his cheek and he closed his eyes, smiling faintly at her touch.
“As I recall—” He fought against the downward tug at the corners of his mouth, but lost as she withdrew her hand. “—ye have quite the nosey dorm-mate.”
“…and you have a roommate.” Realization flooded her glass face and he couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Aye,” he said, squeezing her waist.
“Well—we managed before, didn’t we?” she offered, but Jamie scoffed.
“If ye think I can go back to how it was before, mo nighean donn—” He pressed their bodies not-so-subtly together. “—then ye must really not know me at all.”
Now she was chuckling softly, running a feather light hand through his hair, tracing the shell of his ear. He wanted to melt into the mattress and pull her with him, trap them both in this moment with fingers entwined and soft morning smiles frozen in time.
“We’ll figure something out,” she sighed, tucking her head under his chin and slowly wrapping her own hands around him as if drawn by the same supposed finality curdling in his wame.
“Aye, lass.” He kissed the crown of her head, then snuggled his cheek into her hair. “We will.”
Tomorrow they’d pack up their bags. Make the bed, ruin it, and make it up again. Kiss Jenny on the cheek, wee Jamie on the head, embrace Ian and Murtagh, and ruffle up Fergus’ hair.
Tomorrow they’d leave Lallybroch, arrive at school by evening time, and head back to textbooks and roommates and classes the next morning.
Today though, for possibly but hopefully not the last time in a long while, they held each other and let the world turn without them.
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Like winter had frozen everything in place, Claire found the front yard of her dormitory unchanged, save for the flood of memories that accompanied the last time she was here.
She turned around, running right into Jamie’s chest with a laugh as she wrapped her arms around his waist and smiled up at him.
His eyes were distant, the deep blue lacking that trademark glint. He’d been just a touch melancholic since yesterday morning. Hell, so had she. Lallybroch, as promised, had quickly become a home for her heart, if only because it was an extension of Jamie. Unconsciously, she rubbed her cheek against the soft tartan scarf Jenny and Ian had given her for Christmas.
Jamie, belatedly, wrapped his own arms around her and chuckled.
“Aye, I remember, mo graidgh,” he said, kissing her forehead. “I love ye too.”
“Well,” she said after a time, “here we are.”
“Aye.” Defeated.
She frowned too now, snuggling her head into the curve of his neck. Jamie hugged her tightly to him for a moment, and then pulled back with a sharp inhale.
“I’ll buy ye breakfast in the morning, mo chridhe,” he said. “And ye dinna even have to run for it.”
“Ha bloody ha.” She looked up and, for once, found no brilliant Fraser grin reflected back at her as their lips pressed together.
“Good night, Jamie.”
“Aye, good night mo nighean donn.” He tucked a curl behind her ear, then took her hand in his and pressed his lips to her knuckles.
“I’ll see you tomorrow,” she said, heart quietly shattering when he stood upright and smiled softly at her.
“Sweet dreams, Sassenach…” he said before finally turning to take his leave.
Claire watched him go, willing the winter wind to freeze the whole yard and shelter them from the flow of time.
Five hours later, however, she was glaring at her ceiling, wanting nothing more than sweet dreams. Or any dreams, really.
Or just sleep in general.
“Really, Beauchamp,” she grumbled aloud. “You’re acting like a child without her blanket.”
How many nights in twenty-some years had she slept blissfully alone? How could one two-week reprieve systematically destroy two decades worth of easy dreams, let alone the very real exhaustion pulsing in her bones?
She pulled her blankets up to her nose and tried – for the ninth bloody time – to snuggle into her lumpy mattress. But as she turned her head and tried to force herself to sleep through sheer will alone, she couldn’t help but feel like her pillow was suddenly too large.
Like it was meant to be accommodating more than just her, no matter how wild her curls got.
Like it was somehow emptier.
There was a faint whistling noise coming from the window, letting in the smallest of drafts, and that was just enough to pin all of her frustration on.
“Fucking dorm windows. What is all my bloody tuition going to anyway?”
She sat up to direct her anger at the offending glass and frame, but instead felt her heart stutter.
It wasn’t open.
There really was a crack.
She could almost hear him yelling for her, just like he had two weeks ago before—
Before everything.
She shook her head, reaching for her phone and letting out an ungodly groan as she read the time.
2:54 a.m.
Jesus H. Roosevelt Chr—
Her phone pinged, a message notification suddenly blurring the photo of Jamie asleep on her shoulder from the train.
> What the hell was that? Ye’re not having fun in there without me, are ye?
Claire’s brows drew together.
> What are you talking about?
> That was YOU who groaned just now, no? Or have I got the wrong room?
> What???
> Could ye come to the door, mnd? I dinna want to be standing out here all night.
She sprung from her blankets and rushed over. There, taking up all the space in her doorway, was her 6-foot Scot standing nonchalantly in the hall.
“What are y—?!”
He pressed a finger to his lips, holding his phone up in the other hand and nodding to her.
She nodded back dumbly, about to type what she was saying when—
> Can I come in?
She grabbed his sleeve and yanked him into the room, poking her head into the hallway to make sure no one was lurking around.
Satisfied, she closed the door and turned back around to face him.
And was immediately crushed to his chest in a tight hug. A sigh shuddered out of both of them.
“How pathetic are we, lass?” he said in a half-laugh.
“Couldn’t even last a night without me, huh?”
He pulled back to cast an eye down at her.
“Oh, like ye werena just looking at yer phone at 3 a.m. before I texted ye.”
She kissed him to shut him up and was rewarded with that brilliant patented Fraser grin that made her body feel so full of air, she physically rose to her tiptoes as if she would drift up to the ceiling.
“I tried, aye? But the bed felt… wrong. I went for a walk so I wouldna bother John, then I—I sort of…”
“Ended up here?”
“Found myself walking home, mo graidgh.”
She was at once thankful for the darkness in the room hiding the touch of pink on her cheeks. Just in case though, she buried her face into his chest, taking in his scent like it hadn’t only been mere hours since they last saw each other.
“Let’s go to bed, Jamie,” she mumbled into his shirt.
“To bed?” he asked, punctuating the question with a slow kiss that had Claire’s bare toes curling under her. “Or to sleep, mo chridhe?”
She hummed, but pressed her palms into his chest.
“My 11 a.m. tutorial says to sleep.”
“Verra well, a nighean.” He laughed, kissing her crown as he stepped out of her arms and plopped onto the bed.
She watched him settle himself into the pillows, filling the empty bed space as he patted and squirmed around in the mattress like a dog assessing its new bed. She was giggling the whole time.
By the time he was finished, his back was pressed against the wall, the blankets barely covering him, and his feet just poking out off the mattress.
“Are ye laughing at me?”
“Obviously.”
He made a derisive Scottish noise that completely contradicted the smile on his face.
“Come to bed, mo graidgh,” he said, stretching his arm out to her. “There’s a draft from the window, I’ll warm ye.”
“That’s from the crack you made,” she said in a yawn, practically floating towards the bed.
It took three seconds to slide in and mould her body to his.
Two seconds to kiss him goodnight properly, and snuggle her head into his neck.
One second to fall fully and deeply asleep and in love in his arms.
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mmmmmmm tired but today fine. better than yesterday at least. Woke up at like 8:45ish and had a call from the court that my one emergency case was going to be heard at 9:30, and of course I have a 9 am court case in another room, thankfully the courtroom coordinators are super chill and got us in first, but it took a little while for her to get on the bench and we ended up checking in but the judge didn’t have the file which she needed for what we had to do so she passed the case and said I could pop out to handle my other case, so I hightailed it over there and thankfully there wasn’t really a wait and the hearing was pretty simple (I think this is first case I’m seen of revenge porn being posted by the woman about the man, but I’m sure it happens) so that went pretty smoothly, so I was pleased with that. popped back into the other courtroom (and by all that I mean switching Zoom calls, each courtroom has a call, they put people in break out rooms and then move them into the judge’s breakout room) and finished that up. This was actually the first case I did from home back in April so I had a bit of feelings about it haha but I really hope she does well for herself, it’s just so draining for me to hear about kids getting subjected to violence because their father (or mother potentially but I’ve pretty much only seen father) is violent and it’s just so massively traumatic for the children, so that really gets me. but, anyway. once court was done I went back to my usual stuff, I was trying to get two cases prepped for our case acceptance meeting at 2, but then we ended up moving it to tomorrow anyway. but I had some other stuff to work on, and then shortly before 2 I think I got a call from the court saying my emergency motion from Friday was FINALLY being heard. I don’t remember how much I explained it on Friday but it was a motion that needed to be filed within 30 days of the last court date, and on Friday we realized we were on day 29, and before my boss sent the email being like “okay there are ways we can deal with this next week” I was like “I’m halfway done with the motion I can do this” and so I did, but it was late in the day Friday so we knew we weren’t going to get to see the judge that day, but we had to file it then for the 30 day requirement, and then for like this whole week so far I’ve been trying to get i front of a judge and it finally happened today. The motion was pretty standard and the facts made sense so I didn’t have to do any actual arguing other than being like “she has 6 kids at home, she got a little distracted” so that went well and we got the case back on track, and I was super happy to get that done, it was such an awfully violent case we really should’ve offered to represent her from the beginning, but I’m glad we can help out now at least. the rest of the day was filled with a bunch of different things I had to do for like 4 different cases so I was running around a little crazy until like 5:20 lol. sometime around there I had remembered that this was Wednesday which meant we were having our virtual trivia night fundraiser. It was funny when I first tried to log on it was like “maximum capacity of 100 person here, try again later” which I thought was fucking hilarious, and while they were fixing that it gave me the opportunity to run downstairs and grab my groceries from my instacart order. there was some confusion in dropping them off, I had no idea where he was and it took like a solid 10 minutes to get to me, and normally I would’ve just walked to the front of my yard so he could see me but you know not really an option right now, and he was very apologetic to which I of course said it was fine because I’m not a bitchy person who would like cut the driver’s tip because of an honest mistake. but yeah, anyway, trivia night was generally in like a nice law firm suite with food and have the whole trivia session which is fun, but now it was all over Zoom and that was a bit confusing, but after a few more minutes they got it up and running with everyone logged in. I’m hoping people actually donated money because I”m not exactly sure how that was happening. but I ended up on a team with my supervisor, one of my coworkers that I occasionally interact with, and a girl from our other office location, and I was already like okay this isn’t going to go well it’s okay I have low expectations haha but we actually managed to get more right than we thought it would, but you know the questions get harder and pretty soon we were just like yeah no clue haha, we almost nailed the final question, you had to give three names (top 3 surnames in the US that start with K) and we got two of them right (we said Kelly, King, and Knight), but it was all or nothing (it was Kelly, King, and Kim, which I totally should’ve gotten) so we didn’t get any points for it and ended up pretty low on the scoreboard lol but it was okay I already decided I wasn’t going to care about winning that. so yeah, it was kinda fun? a lot of weird but still a fairly good time. when we finished it was like 8:30 and I was like lol let me turn the debate on and see how long I can deal with it before shutting it off but then I started tweeting about it and I was like okay I do like this so I ended up staying on till the end. got, Pence is such a twat, and Kamala fucking killed him. honestly I just look at us so close to the end here and I know polls are good and shit but like, I am pretty concerned we’re going to end up with 4 more years of nuts, and I don’t know if I can even handle that. sigh. anyway. after the debate I watched Psych for a bit and then went to shower and started getting ready for bed, and now I’m here. And yeah that’s it, it’s almost 2 and I might get a chance to nap tomorrow but we’ll have to see, for now I’m going to bed. Goodnight amigos. Salud.
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Chad Chronicles is on hold while we work from home.
I'll keep updating this post if anything does happen to us.
Basically, I was telling Jacqui how J*ck told me I should join Tinder, use it during work to find out of he is there and if we would match. But Jacqui was like "what if you don't see him there but his friends see you??" So I was like "Then good na he's not on it 😂 as if he's ever talked about me to his friends 😂"
Then, nearly an hour later, I looked at my "Friends You May Know" on FB (there's a rumor that that is a list of people who's viewed your profile) then I saw that one of his friends are on it!!! I was shook, if the algorithm theory is right, then his friend was stalking me which means he has talked about me to his friends. LOL AYAN NANAMAN OVERTHINKING BES EH 😂
Then Jacqui told me how she asked her bf: if you offer a lift to a girl, does that mean he's interested? Her bf said yes but I shouldn't overthink and wait for another big sign.
Anyways, my Mandalorian plan is still going ahead. 😂
20/3/2020
Well, we didn't really talk online, he welcomed one of the guy on our team because he just got his access sorted today but I did not get the same treatment yesterday 😭
It's G tho 😂 Seems like he really is super smart because I looked into one of his chats and he used the word "futile". I'm just....wow big word 😂
Lol anyways, we're out for the weekend, Disney+ comes out on Tuesday, will try to binge it as soon I can so I can message him by Thursday or something 😂 really hope our conversation can flow naturally. Like I will just say "oh I've finished it and I am now obsessed with Baby Yoda or I can see why you are obsessed with Baby Yoda, he is adorable!" Then hopefully he can be like "What did you think of it?" Etc etc and we live happily ever after. CHOS.
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21/03/2020
Swear everyone is telling me to either text him or to keep my feet on the ground and let the connection grow.
I REALLY DO NOT KNOW. He keeps doing all these things to me and I am always overthinking it. My friends have told me not to but it is sooo hard. They told me to wait for other signs.
I really want to take a risk and tell him but I really do not want to ruin our new found friendship. I mean I really hope he's just waiting to make more signs because he doesn't think it's time yet or something but I just don't want to give give give and not have anything in return. Haaaay Lord, please help me!
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22/03/2020
This morning, I told my mom about the fact that he drove me home. At first, I couldn't tell her immediately, I was just staring at her the whole time and she asked "Anong kailangan mo sakin?" I said "nothing." "Bakit naka tingin ka sakin?" Then finally, I said, "Wala lang, may update lang ako sayo." Then she was like "ano may date ka???" I replied, "No update!!! Hinatid nya ako kila tita nung last time kaming pumasok.." and she was just like "ayie, hinahatid ka na ha." Then she told me, "yan dapat, cool ka lang. Pero tapusin mo muna.." She didn't complete her sentence but I knew she was talking about my FE1s but then she was probably thinking that I am nearly 25 and she should let me be. Hahaha. Then she asks "nag offer ba xa?" Sabi ko oo 😂
Then she asks me if he texts me and I told her no, we only talk in work. Then she replied, "ganun talaga" 😂 hay mother, if she had asked more details, I would have told her how I am getting mixed signals from him kaya di ko tlga sure kung gusto nya din ako 😂 but she didn't, so let's leave that for another time. 😂
Lord, pleaseee I trust you. If he doesn't reach out to me, ako na tlga mag rereach out. Need to binge The Mandalorian asap.
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23/03
He keeps reading my messages on our GC immediately but does not with other people
ANO BA GUSTO MO PARAMDAM KA NAMAN PLS
Happened again at 16;09 ANO BA HUHU
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24/03
STOP SEEN ZONING MY MESSAGES AS SOON AS I POST THEM AND START TALKING TO ME
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25/03
No sign of Chad life anywhere, he was pretty much quiet today, not reading/replying to messages etc
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26/03
I FINISHED THE MANDALORIAN YOU GUYS.
I took a risk and messaged him. It took me a whileeeeee but I just took the plunge.
Basically, I asked him how he was and how working from home has been coming along. It took him like 6 mins to reply, which was fine, we were in work so understandable.
He told me he is relaxed but about to get boring. He asked me ‘how about you?’ So I sent him this quite long response how I’ve been relaxed working in my jammies and binged watch Mandalorian, bummed about 2 eps so illegally streamed the rest. Told him that I am now also obsessed with Baby Yoda (he laughed react to this). Then he said how it was dumb for Disney not to release everything at once. (Was upset he didnt ask me what I thought of the show)
Then I told him if Netflix can do it, so can they. But he said people would just sign up for trial, watch it then cancel. Thennnn he asked if I liked it. I said yes except for Ch.6′s characters. He said he thinks you were not meant to like them.
Then I asked him if he thinks Fennec Shand is still alive. He was like which one was HE again? So I told him correction she* (laugh emoji) then explained her character. He was like ‘Oh yeaaahhh. Then boba fett was supposedly the one who found her” I replied ‘yup that’s the theory but I feel like she was pretty much lifeless already and maybe just a teaser for boba fett then?'
Then nearly 3 hours later, I go check our workplace chat and he seenzoned me. Okur. He read the message at 20.27. He better reply tomorrow or I’ll take it a sign that he really just isn’t interested in me.
On a side note, he went on lunch at 6pm, came back at around 7ish but didn't change his Status xD it's either he forgot or na distract na sya sakin CHOS sige laaaangg.
I swear I hope we can talk more tho. Since he seenzoned me, I will not message him again cos I don't want to look eager/desperate so yeah. Byeeeeee.
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30/03
STOP READING MY MESSAGES, dear heart and head, STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM.
I know you get notifications that "Bianca messaged..." Does your heart flutter when my name appears? STOP OVERTHINKING BIANCA.
Ayan nnmn tayo sa seenzone eh 14:55. Ano ba?
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1/04/20
I had a dream that he messaged me. He asked me how I was and for some reason, he told me to go to Google Music because they were having a sale and that I should make a track for him. (Like what?)
Also dreamt that he took me home again. When we got to our house, he told me we needed to talk. I think he confessed.
Ay ayoko na.
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5/4/20
Why do I keep dreaming about him? I dreamt that he messaged me on FB, really long paragraphs of him confessing his feelings.
Urgh.
Oh and I also paid for a tarot reading of how he really sees me. I mean idk if it's real but there are feelings there but there may be a third party but the reader could not 100% confirm it. It is highly probable, he's a single man who could totally date around. The reading also mention how he finds me attractive and sees a long term energy with me. It also says how he may not be ready for a serious romantic relationship but he can see it progressing down the line. But honestly, I do not see him as someone who longs for sex, yknow? I am nearly sure that he could still be a virgin but the fact that he frequented Krystle in college, makes me question it. I mean, he is a white male, it is something I am not super pressed about.
I've just been thinking, if I were to get with a Filipino guy, is there anyone out there who has never had a girlfriend or who has even dated anyone?
Chad really gives me the vibe of never having a girlfriend before but I really see him as not looking for anything at the moment to focus on his dream job.
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6/4/20
Okay, why did I have a dream that he proposed to me??
I think we argued over something and then a few days later, he proposed. Wtf.
From what I remember, he only proposed in his car. lol
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8/4/20
So we had a team call today. He has not been working since like Thursday last week because he could not get his VPN to work.
But dang. I heard his voice after 3 weeks. He sounds the same as in real life but his American accent is more prominent 😂
Then our TL said we might still be working from home for the next 3-4 months and I'm just like. HUHUHU.
Will I be over you by then?
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10/04/20
Had a dream we were back in the office and we were having banters again like nothing has changed.
I think he also messaged me on Facebook one of these isolation days...
I swear I know it was probably unintentional for him to ghost me like that.
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11/04/20
So I've been searching his Gamer tag on Google, even before I decided to let go of him and there is this one file I keep noticing, it is League of Legends and it seems his password is Yugioh246 😂 it is actually hilarious 😂 I didn't know he is that big of a nerd. I don't see it as a bad thing because I like nerds and I am drawn to them but I hope he is not an incel because that is a major turn off.
Yes, I am not wishing for us to be together anymore but I really hope he finds the woman of his dreams. He deserves to have someone who will understand him for who he is.
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13/04/20
Another thing, how do I listen to songs without thinking of him?? It is getting frustrating. I used to listen to these songs without thinking of him and now all I do is associate these songs to him. Nakakainis.
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14/04/20
Why do you keep reading my messages then stop reading others' after mine??
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18/04/20
Argh why did I dream of him again?
We were back in the office daw and I sat in a different computer because I was avoiding him as in. For some reason, the coat rack was behind him so when it was home time, I grabbed my coat as fast as I could so he would not talk to me. He was slouched in his seat and looked really tired. His hair was long like mid length sufer dude hair, he was not wearing his hat. But then he saw me and called me and said "Bianca, I'll give you a ride home." I replied, gaga naman ate nyo, "If it's not raining, I can walk but if it is, I'll take the bus." He replied, "What time is your bus?" I replied, "In an hour." He replied, "Okay, if it's raining, I'll wait for you here, let me know." Then I grabbed my stuff from my locker, I went out the office and it was raining. I went back into the office and told him that it was raining. So he got up from his seat and we walked to his car. On the way, I noticed he looked really tired and his eyes were red so I asked him, "Did you not sleep?" His reply was: "Yeah I came to work with no sleep." So we just walked to his car and he opened the door for me. He even adjusted my seat.
Then for some weird reason, we ended up in Dolphins Barn, like the flats and around Tesco. Then there were billboards for Book of Mormons and he saw it he said or read "What about the Mormons?" Then I was confused at first so he pointed at the ads for the Book of Mormons. Then I told him: "Oh I really wanna see that! I heard it's meant to be one of the best Broadway shows." He then tells me he is not a big play fan but there is something he likes. I asked him but he saw another Book of Mormons billboard and pointed to it. Then we reached Reilly's Ave and idk why but my whole family and our old neighbors were all outside. Bsta ang weird talaga na he dropped me off in our old house. Dreams are weird.
So I just thanked him and watched him leave.
Aish why did I dream of you again???
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20/4/20
Had another dream about him. Just why oh why? What are these dreams trying to tell me? I haven't been thinking about him seriously so idk.
Basically in this dream, we were all back in the office. So we got a few newbies who joined our team. And management/TL thought it was a good idea to blend the newbies with the senior agents so there was a complete seat change again. Chad and the guy beside him moved to my old area, as in Chad moved to my old seat. While I was stayed in my current seat. Of course I felt sad that I won't be able to see him face to face as often anymore and that I felt like our friendship will drift apart again.
Basta ano baaa I don't understand this. Do I still have feelings for him deep down?
Oh and he read my message on the group chat again. 10:18am. I mean ok he's been active on the UKI chat today so here's me overthinking again.
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23/04/20
Another day, another Chad dream.
So in this dream, I was in Tesco with my mom or Aldi, anyways a supermarket.
I wanted to make Tacos so I was at the spice aisle, looking for a taco spice mix. Then out of nowhere, he pops up and sees me. Says hello and asked how I was etc, while I was grabbing the taco spice mix.
Then I told him goodbye but I still kept seeing him everywhere in the store even though I purposely was avoiding him.
WHY DO I KEEP DREAMING OF HIM.
It is honestly annoying. 😭
I just wanna move on.
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27/04/20
Been a while since my last dream but I dreamt that he drove me home, yet again, but I only remember the part where we entered Cherrywood and then I just got out of the car and don't even remember saying thanks. I stood at the front door, until he left.
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28/04/20
Arghhh he read my messages again on the office chat almost instantly at 2.37pm 😩😩😩😩 Whereas our own team's chat has been active all day, yet he has not read the messages on there since yesterday morning!!
Were you expecting that I messaged you or something??? CMON IF YOU WANNA TALK TO ME JUST MESSAGE ME. I already messaged you first, it's your turn.
Ugh I hate overthinking this!!
Also, 26th of April marked the 1st month since we last talked. Hmmmm have I fully moved on? I really don't think I have but I am just trying to live my life. Why must you be an introvert Chad, we'll be waiting for each other forever.
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6/05/20
Hmmmm... Beginning to think he actually has 3 siblings contrary to the fact that I thought he said there are 3 of them in the family, him being the eldest, followed by his sister then his younger brother.
If it is his brother that I saw on FB then it makes sense now because remember when he gave out chocolates for Christmas? I heard him say "my brother's work had them on sale" or something along the lines. And the other brother I was aware of was only a kid. This person I saw matches the bill, from Chicago and went to the same secondary school as him. (AND LOOKS LIKE HIM!!! We may be the same age or a year younger because he graduated secondary school in 2014) [yup he is older than me by 6 months and just like his older brother, he is also very much into Star Wars and video games. But he seems more social than his bro. Haha xa na lang date ko 😂 Chad 2.0 chosss Chad introduce me to your bro para di tayo awkward sa work 😂 They are actually only 10 months apart, I wonder if they are close.]
Hmmmmm why am I such a stalker 😂
(7.6 update: nah saw his bro's IG and he seems like a fckboi, his DP is a mirror selfie of him shirtless, showing off his v line abs 😂)
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13/05/20
It's been a while. As of yesterday, he is fully back to work. We had a team meeting on Monday and he was on it. He said they gave him a laptop to work on. I had myself on mute so I was just listening to him. Yes I wanted to join in on the convo but I needed to stop myself. I need to distance myself until I fully move on from him.
Anyways, today, a case was assigned to me at around 8.30 in the morning. I didn't action it because the office was going mad with chats so I said I was gonna action it when I had a chance later on.
Then I noticed that it disappeared from my queue. I went to my closed cases and I saw that he had actioned it. I mean, I am not saying that he did it on his own free will, our TL may have asked him to go through our team's response received internal queue. Which is aight but this case was not originally mine, but one of his office broskis, na mean? So it's either he did not read the email thread at all or he just decided to close it in MY name. I mean he had to type my name and I wonder if he felt something. CHOSSSSSS 😂
But I'm telling you guys, ever since he got access again, my heart started fluttering again just like when I was still crushing on him, before I moved in front of him and he started giving me all these attention that made me fall in love with him.
I have been trying to move on. I even wrote a 7 page journal entry about my feelings. I've been super distracting myself by watching Kim Possible and staying away from sappy romantic shows 😂
I need more time to heal but it will be okay!
Update 14/5:
I got another case from the same broski, which he actioned yesterday and closed it under his broski's name but he closed the other one on mine.
Ugh why am I overthinking this again!!!
Chad please go away from my feelings 😩
15/5
Today, I helped him out with one of his cases.
He said 'thanks!' whereas the past few days, he's only been replying to people on our team with 'ty!'.
Made me overthink again but I was just being ridiculous 😂 'ty' tapos today sakin 'thanks', special ako chos 😂 honestly wasn't that bothered but okay! Stop giving me special treatment please 😂 don't treat me differently from others if you don't feel the same way because it's unhealthy for me 😂
Helped him again with another one and he said 'thanks!' again urgh. Swear tho, I was hesitating a bit when I was helping him. My heart was thumping again like it did before we started getting comfortable with each other 😭😭😭
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17/5/20
Exactly 2 months since I saw him and when he dropped me home.
Oh Chad. Will I ever be over you.
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18/5/20
Helped him with another case because no one was helping him so I was just being nice.
Bianca don't be marupok pls. You've been making progress. Don't relapse now.
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20/5/20
Another day of helping him out....
Basically he asked our group chat for help, no one replied for like 5 minutes so I said I'll help him.
Then he private messaged me about the case. He told me there were a lot and said "ahah". I should have joked around but I didn't or even asked him how he was 😭
But after I helped him, this was his reply:
Huhuhu parang ang happy nya na may tumulong sa kanya. Chad naman, don't do this to me! I am trying to move on 😭
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21/05/20
Haaaayy... Reading my messages again as soon as I post them. Chad Chad Chad ....
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26/05/20
He legit have not read messages on our office GC since 10.30 this morning. I messaged a few times around 3pm and he kept reading them. Ano ba kasi Chad.
Don't be scared of rejection, I know I may not be showing real signs but I am an awkward turtle, just talk to me.
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27/05/20
As usual no one was helping him again so I private messaged him and asked if anyone was helping yet.
His response:
Hahaha cute 😂 so I told him 'give me the deets, I'll send it up'.
He said 'ty!!', gave me the deets.
Then when I completed it, this was his reply:
Hahaha naloka na xa, double a. Choss. I replied with "anytime 😊" 😂 para konti landi to let him know na I am here to help anytime HAHAHAHAHAHAHA chos
BAKIT HIRAP MAG MOVE ON MGA BESH
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5/6/20
So I've been hesitating about posting this but about 2 days ago? I had a dream about him again. It wasn't just him in it but the dream mostly centered about him and I.
Basically, we there was a party in the office and for some reason, I was getting ready at my desk as in curling my hair (so weird 😂😂😂).
Then Chad decided to go out of the computer area, probs was on a break or something. Then my team decided it was a good idea to hide his baby yoda plushie so I hid it in my locker and when he came back, he kept looking for it and we were just laughing at him. 😂
That was it haha.
But you guys, I've been diligently praying for my vocation and I've been getting signs about marriage etc. What if he's the one? God, please give me more signs.
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15/06/20
So it's been a while. I've been helping him here and there over the last few weeks.
Today's response was "awesome, thanks!"
And that made me kilig inside. 😂
I am awesome, chos! 😂
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16/06/20
Just saw the July Schedule and he is taking 2 weeks holidays 😂
Lol fam watchu gonna do? 😂
Tara let's go on a date chos 😂
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24/06/20
I miss him ☹️ But I've been good with not thinking about him a lot but I just really can't wait to be able to ask him out in person hahaayyyy
Hmmmm I also suddenly wondered if he still has the card I gave him for Christmas. That was a cute card, €4 din un ha hahaha
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3/07/20
Yo wassup.
I had a dream, so we were back in the office. We were on the weekend shift and for some reason, I decided I was staying back for a bit more so he left before me.
Basically, from this dream, it seems that we were on minimal speaking terms. So like as he was leaving, at the computer area door, he said bye to me and idk why, I asked him to have dessert with me on Monday 😂 it was weird 😂
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12/07/20
Okur, I had a dream that he dropped me off again in Cherrywood, like just out of nowhere. Like all I remember was that we were walking to his car together.
He even opened my door and carried my bag and walked me to the front door. Haaayyy....
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14/07/20
So today, I was overthinking again.
Basically there was a post in work where an SME asked him to tag his team. He tagged me first over his broskis and that made me quite overthink again. Like the way he tagged our team was not as if it was alphabetical order. So why did he tag me first?
Hahah ako ung unang pumasok sa isip nya
Huhuhu ayoko naaaaa
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19/07/2020
So he is on his 2 weeks PTO from tomorrow.
Haaaaayyyyy miss ko na xa, bakit ba kasi ako ganito. Pero as long as he has not said that he is not interested in me, may chance pa rin tlga kami eh.
Wag lang tlaga xang umalis ng company and it will be grand.
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08/08/20
Been a while since this was updated, nothing's been happening between us so there is nothing to report. But anyways, lately I've been having (r-rated) fantasies about him 😂 argh I just want to be with him 😂
He's also started playing Fall Guys on the PS4, we have something in common na chos 😂
Also, there's an SME position in work and I have a feeling he might apply huhu if he gets it, he'll be level 12 and I won't be able to date him 😭😂
Honestly still think may something sila ng QA namin huhuhu
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16/08/20
So I told MF on the 14th of August about everything that has happened, like how I was getting mixed signals that made me overthink alot to me messaging him twice and being left on read, also how I plan on asking him out when we get to the office. (Also how he dropped me home.)
I told her how it's been very hard for me in the last 5 months, trying to move on from someone I don't even talk to. She was very understanding and told me that she also has not talked to Chad since WFH, as she was also left on read. She said he may not be the texty type because he's quite shy.
I was honestly shook. I thought they talk, even on our workplace chat because they are close in work. Cause I asked her if it was even a good idea for me to ask him out or if she knows if he's seeing someone because I don't want to intrude. I told her I want to take a risk with him but a part of me fears rejection.
She asked me if I ever thought about asking him out for coffee since things are opening up. I told her, yes but I don't think we are in that level where I could just ask him randomly.
So her plan is to build up a rapport with him again and find out the goss. I really hope she can build something up with him and that if ever, this time, there will be progress.
Until I know I have a chance with him, I can't move on. If he's seeing someone, then okay at least I'll know where I stand.
I'll let you know if there's progress.
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19/08/2020
So today, I helped him out with a case.
One of the internal tools was not working for him so he asked for help. I was the first to reply so I told him to send me the details and I'll do it.
When I did it for him, he said 'Perfect thank you!' and I just replied, "No worries 😊" landi landi with that emoji 😂 Wish we kinda had a conversation going though 😭 Wish I asked him how he was but it wasn't appropriate okay 😂
Haaayy can't wait to find out if he's dating anyone or when I'll see him again so I can ask him out. HAAAAAYYYYSSSS.
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9/9/20
So yesterday, I asked our group chat for help on a case. I didn't really expect that he would be the one to respond but he did and that was cute. Awww. ❤️
Looool I wish I could've thanked him personally but other people started helping me out so yeah. But for a brief moment, I was kilig haha
Really wanna ask him out already! But cases are rising again and I don't want him to use Covid as an excuse so I'll wait again until cases have slowed down.
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13/09/20
So today, I had a video call with MF. She told me that she got a new job 😭 meaning, she won't be able to be my wingwoman now 😭
I am happy for her but this cuts down all my chances with Chad 😭
But she did talk to Chad and he applied to the SME role apparently, I think he may have already been interviewed but he didn't hear back from them yet.
MF also said that we should meet up for a coffee date "with Bianca" and he said we should hahaha cmon MF make this a reality please so I can talk to him 😭
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I just want to start off by saying that this is probably something you wont read and will probably scroll past. I want one person and his friends (all of cc) to read this and know how much they have helped me.
I have had a horrible week even though it only just started.
It technically started last monday but the worst of it arrived yesterday.
Last week I had a surgery on my ear (I had a hole in my ear drum causing hearing loss)
After the surgery I woke up wearing this ugly stupid red headband that I could tell would get annoying.
People thought it was normal, fashionable until I said its from surgery.
First few days were fine, my sleeping schedule on the other hand not so great.
I slept all day and stayed up all night until I went back to school.
I tried to fix that but it got worse until I was awake for two whole days with 0 hours of sleep. Then the next day, the next, the next, until it got to the fifth day.
I have had 6 hours of sleep over the past 5 days. I googled insomnia because a few people said that I might have that.
Insomnia can occur from several things, those of mine would be depression and anxiety.
I am technically not a senior because I dont have enough credits to qualify in the state of Texas.
Thats already stressful. Comes the first day of school my teacher who has been helping me with my learning disabilities told me I would have to work my ass off to get those credits in only a few short months.
Professional communications, we must present a poem about color. I thought of my poem abd I thought it was great!
Red is the first color of the rainbow
Orange is an orange
Yellow as yellow as the banana bus
Green, well those are peas
Blue mens group and blues clues too!
Beautiful indigo night skies
Violet, now where is she?
The more you know
That was my poem.
Then I got scared and almost didn't present it but I did and the look the teacher had on her face made it clear, she didnt like it.
Those cause my stress.
My depression oh boy,
Being bullied because of what I look like. People staring and pointing at me before the laugh while going down the hall to our next class. Thats all im seeing. Judgement.
Boys. Oh lord, I told my crush how I felt. I wrote it on the notebook app on my phone.
I sent it to my two close friends so they can see it before I send it (all of us girls do that)
They told me to send it but I was honestly scared and kept thinking "he doesn't like you who are you kidding. You know whats gonna happen. Stop. Trying." But I sent it and was shaking because I was so scared. I have never been so honest to a guy like that before, its scary!
Being the mofo sweet thing he is he said he thought it was cute and sweet.
Since I didn't have the guts to ask him how he felt about that, I asked my friend Faith to ask him.
He thought it was sweet and cute that I was so up front and honest about how I felt towards him (those werent the exact words, I understood what he meant anyways." But then the next like read "but I dont like anyone at the moment."
That was not the response I was wanting.
He two of my friends felt bad and told me not to worry but all I said is that it has happened to me many times before and Im used to it by now. Truth is Im not.
This guy I like really is the nicest guys I know. He is in the cooler group of people unlike me yet he still listens and read my insanly long paragraphs of me venting, only to respond with something that will make me feel better. All these other guys at our school pretend to be nice at first and then unmask their true self. "Fuqbois" I honestly thought he wad going to be like that but he is still here helping me out today. He makes me laugh in class by being a doofus *no joke, actually pauses typing session to open his snapchat- and actually bringing Shelby, Samar, Faith and us closer together. Yeah it annoys me when he sends me selfies and not say anything or start a conversation and even when I try he just doesnt talk (heckin turd) but I mean hey, he still helps me.
I will admit I felt worthless and unwanted but my two friends, immediately started to message me telling me its okay and trying to cheer me up. It didnt work.
I couldnt talk to him, I was too embarrassed. I talked to my new friend Matthew and he was telling me his story about how he was nothing to what he is now, a huge fuckin ladies man, guys ask him how he did it. He really tried just as much as the girls did but it didnt work.
I talked to my friend L (I know your name Latrice, just want to hurry sorry boo). She immediately knew something wad wrong and tried to help. I decided I just wanted some time alone so I asked "when I get back, can you send me a bunch of pictures of my man Brett?" And she said she would.
I didnt really get any alone time as all my friends kept texting me but I didnt want them to know and start to worry. I only talked to a few of my older girlfriends (going back since 7th grade) Bailey and my other friend Dani (queen) and my friend who was also by my friend Sakib (he introudced me to bre my bitch ass dork), Kate and Sakib were always there when I needed someone or something. Since my freshman year. They graduated as class of 2017 at Central, leaving me and a bunch of us behind. Kate helped me feel better but we didnt talk much. Bre was acting like a mom, I said I was so embarrassed and she said it wasnt embarrassing. How is that not embarrassing? "Because I said so" she made me feel better a bit more.
Bailey, she said I should respect that about him and I agreed. I said I hated couples besides her and her boyfriend Cody.
Her- I wish Cody had friends, I would set you up
Me- me too WAIT OMG "I wish Cody had friends" THE SHADE IS FEELING NICE OVER HERE!
Dani, my beautiful Queen oh my goodness! You already went through a horrible loss today and I wasnt there for you like I should have. I told her I always mess things up and ruin everything. -again gets on snapchat because Erick the cuck asked me a quetion and I answered and then he like died or something, gets distracted amd realizes that Jakob from cc opened my message and then gets on instagram to tell L and let her know Im still writing this, remembers Jakob, freaks out again, looks at notifcations and sees that my famdog Matt (super awesome one I talked about) changed his profile picture so I go check it out realized I was supposed to be typing this and comes back here to remember I need to go to the conversation I had with Dani earlier to put her quote- "its just people who need to learn to see whats so great and its right in front of them." That made me feel better.
I go back to instagram and ask for the pictures of Brett. They instantly make me smile. I dm her because I can connect with her on a certain level with certain things, I tell her I sent a note to Jakob and that I hope he reads it. I took a screenshot and sent to L who said it was so sweet. While typing that letter to Jakob, I had realized the reason Im still here and who I am now than who I was just two weeks ago and I began to cry. I had just realized that Brett has made me smile so much and made me laugh and giggle. He may not know it but he saved my life. Im in a group chat with L and Sam. The chat is called the Slaughter Club. We had met from a post Sam had put up saying she wants to make a gc with a bunch of cc fans and just have an awesome time. Im so glad I hit that comment button and asked to be in the group. Over a day after, we realized I was the oldest, Sam being the youngest and we kinda let her choose lol. Brett is the older one of the group, I was called the Brett of sc. Trevor being the youngest of cc, Sam being the Trevor of sc, L, she chose Aleks. So Aleks of sc she was. They would get great pictures of the guy of cc and I never saw good ones so I asked where, they brought me here. Since being in this group chat and being the adult in certain situations (also weird fact, whenever Im not there, shit happens like idek. Same with Brett with cc.) Brett has inspired me in so many ways and I know I will never have the chance to ever in any way tell him, this is how Im telling him how he saved me. Really, all I want is that the Cow Chop crew read this and know how much they mean to me. I have a feeling that I know they will never see this (especially Brett) but Im going to put this out there in the hopes he will. Thats what I want from this. I know its all stupid but the CC crew really have brought together an amazing group of friends who I love so much and want to thank for always being there. Thank you. -Caroline Hope Powell
#brett hundar#hundar#cow chop#modest cube#aleksandra zaryanova#alsojakob#please reblog#thank you#saved
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TWITL – week four 2017
all this time
I didn’t know
you would be the one
every glance
a mystery
until the moment
we touched
did you forget
as I did
to breath
to think
to speak
did you freeze
while the spark lit
a fire deep within
unlocking a different beat
to your heart
all this time
we didn’t know
we were meant to be
the mystery unfolding
the moment we touched
The fangirl adoration for Simon Kassianides continues. I’m doing the slow re-watch of Agents of SHIELD and remembering how much I enjoyed it when we were watching it during its broadcast run. But how did I not notice Simon the first time? It’s so strange remembering almost all the episodes so far that I’ve watched but not remembering him. How did he slip from my notice? I have no explanation at all but it does make re-watching the show interesting… I am still trying to figure out when I started following him on Instagram as well as WHY. Why did I start following him? I seriously have no idea. Usually I can trace back to the beginning of my fangirl regard but with him, I’m drawing a blank. It’s rather fascinating. Have I been following him for years and didn’t realize it? I really don’t know…
Simon on Agents of SHIELD
It was Greg Lee’s birthday this week! Too bad he doesn’t read his twitter. READ YOUR TWITTER GREG! Also, it’s been EIGHTEEN years since I took this picture with Dean O’Gorman, Ryan Gosling, and Joel Tobeck:
Go on, say it– I’m old. LOL I actually took that picture with the boys on Greg’s birthday, when he turned 26. Cripes, we’re all OLD! Anyway, still adore all the boys, of course. Oh, and Ryan has been nominated for an Academy Award for Best Actor for LA LA LAND. Joyous!
FANGIRL FAILS
So, I didn’t win that contest to go up to Sacramento to see Jacob Davis perform for local radio station BUT one of my fellow Squadies and her boyfriend did win. They had extra tickets (they both got two each) and I could have been one of the ticketholders but I wimped out because I’m not adventurous enough. Alas. To be fair, I did find out towards the end of my work day and I had wanted to give my boss some notice and it wouldn’t have really been enough if I had told him late in the afternoon. But I think I could have swung it. I ended up turning on the livestream of it and Jacob and the guys were so good! I was glad I could have it on and lo, the work phone actually didn’t ring for the whole set. Glorious!
Not seeing Jacob meant that I could leave work early on Friday to go see Tyler Rich at Rohnert Park. But again, because I’m not adventurous enough, I decided not to go. I could say I saved some money (because I would have had to stay the night because I wasn’t going to drive back home after 1 AM in the morning after a Friday night) but really, I am too wimpy about driving that far a distance even though I pretty much know most of the way out there. I just couldn’t rev myself enough to go alone and that’s on me. I think if he’s out at RP again soon, I’m going to just do it and go. Otherwise, I truly SUCK. But at least I know he still knows I love him. I do, I really do!
FAMILY
My niece recently joined the army and she’s in training right now. I’ve been writing her letters because 1) I like to write letters and 2) she’s currently disconnected from the online world (which might be a blessing at this point). I set my letter out for the mail carrier today and when I checked the mail later, I found a letter from my niece! It was so good to hear from her! I love getting letters. I’m glad she’s learning and training and I’m really so proud of her. 🙂
THE THINGS I USUALLY DON’T POST
I’m not one to give into fear, especially to circumstances in which I have no control. I don’t talk politics because even though I consider myself middle of the road in many things, I know I’m probably more liberal leaning than anything. I like to think I can see both sides but recent days have really brought my soul some struggle. I don’t want to linger in it for too long because the despair just eats and eats all the light but I know I must feel it and hopefully come out of it with some kind of purpose.
We are starting to move beyond politics. We need to view our current state of being as humans with morals. If you call yourself a Christian, how has this week been treating your resolve? If you voted for our current president, how do you feel about each time he signs his name to these orders? I’m curious and I want know every side. Part of me wonders if he’s wreaking this chaos as a distraction from other things. Or is he merely making good on the promises he made so that people can say, “Well, at least he tried.” If this is the case, what kind of fallout can we expect?
Here’s what I know– I was born and raised here but both my parents are immigrants. They were born in another country. My grandfather brought his family here after serving in the US Army. My father went to the Philippines, met my mother, married her, and brought here after they got married. I speak perfect English but even I, a Californian born and bred, just recently had a perfectly easy conversation with someone who joked, “Where are you from?” It was a joke and meant as such and I laughed and rolled my eyes. But it made me sigh inside because why would someone say something like that to me? It’s because for some reason, no matter how naively I’ve gone through this world as an American, there are people out there who look at me and think it’s okay to say, “Where are you from?” Not, “Where did you grow up?” Not, “What part of California did you grow up?” No, it’s “Where are you from?” even though I speak English and was born and raised here. How do I answer that? If I go at face value, I say I was born in Oakland and raised in San Leandro. But I know that they are really asking about my ethnicity. As if it matters. Because heaven forbid I’m just American. I can’t be just American. I have to be something-American.
Most of the time it doesn’t bother me. Most of the time I go along my merry way as an American woman who listens to country music and jazz, likes British tv shows and rugby and baseball. Most of the time I’m just me writing stories only few will read. But sometimes things happen in the world that remind me that I’m not just me. People look at me and judge and perhaps have these preconceived notions about me before I open my mouth. Most of the time people are awesome and polite and kind. But sometimes there’s a moment that reminds me that there are people out there who will look at me, ask me where I’m from, and not be satisfied when I say I was born and raised here. As if it matters.
I will not go in fear. I will feel this despair and helplessness then I will let it go. I hope for clarity. I hope for purpose even if it’s just to live my life as I did yesterday. I will draw upon the love in my soul and remember my greatest lesson was in patience. Perhaps I will not shout but leave it to whispers. For now…
from TWITL – week four 2017
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July 22, 2019
Life is a journey of self-discovery. Everything we do. Everyone we meet. All the circumstances is meant for us to learn more things about our energies. So strange, how we spend a lifetime discovering things about ourselves. I think its cause we’re constantly evolving and shifting. We’re always changing, and so there’s always something new to uncover. Lest we remain stagnant. I decided to skip OJT today because I needed to catch up on school work which I have yet to start on, plus I have to get ready for my interview this Wednesday.. LORD pls let me wake up. Because I swear to god, I have a really hard time waking up. I cant even wake up to my 20 alarms anymore, legit. Okay my roommate and her boyfriend just came in and ruined my alone time. Lately, I’ve been thinking about travelling, and what an amazing experience it is to meet new people who grew up in completely different settings and cultures than you did, and exploring foreign cities with those people. I miss Amsterdam. I miss Lille. I miss everything. I really developed an attachment for Amsterdam, it’s insane. I can’t wait to do that soon. But first, I must focus on finishing my thesis. You know, I know I have to eventually move to Canada but right now, I can’t imagine it. Having to leave Manila. Earlier as I was pouring coffee and I did that thing where I pretend like my past self is peering over me, along with all the other people in my life (lol, I really home I’m not the only one who does this but if I am its cool too) and I realized that I’m kind of living the life my younger self had envisioned me to. I’m living in a big, vibrant city (Yes, Manila - the shithole everyone likes to look down on, but which I also secretly love) I’m living in an apartment here (Hello, apartment stories) I’m dressed in clothes I totally could envision my future self wearing. Im out here writing. It’s just crazy, I remember seeing this quote before about how we’re living the lives we once dreamed of yet now, because we’re all wanting new stuff, we’ve forgotten about it and how sad that is. We human beings, we never appreciate what we have until we lose it. Right now, I’m still in an awkward-ish place with Kristine because of the party she threw on saturday, but I’m glad that it happened so if ever she throws one again, I can be like no because of how rowdy the other one was. Like I legit had such a hard time sleeping. Yesterday, i was supposed to do work but dude I’ve just been so tired lately. Always doing something. I never have time for myself, or atleast when I do, I’m too tired to even do anything aside from lie on my bed and scroll mindlessly on my phone. My head isn’t in the right place to create. To write. To read. To process anything. It just wants to be gulay. And I think that’s fine too. But yeah. Conserve your energy. So last night, I was literally just reading Sally rooney’s conversation with friends and I forgot what it was like to be so enraptured in a book. Like I literally had to stop myself from reading. I was so hooked, but I couldn’t stop. Ya know. My thoughts are coming in so slow because I’m so distracted I’m not sure if I’m doing this right because I know freehand writing, you’re not even supposed to put periods or correct any phrases but I sometimes reword mine. Oh well, there is no right way to do boring pages dba. I’m spacing out rn lol so funny. But yeah, time to get moving. I just had several thoughts in mind thats all. After this, I shall probably do my makeup and then get going to commune where I shall work for the remainder of the day. I will do my 1se a day post from yesterday since I kind of just passed out. And then maybe fill out a little gratitude post if I feel like it than ill start working by plotting out the tasks that I need to work on in my little cattleya filler. Its gonna be a productive afternoon :) I shall read an essay after this, and maybe do a little meditation. I usually do my meditations at night and cut it real close to the strike of 12 but I somehow always make it and currently my streak is at 8 :D But yeah I love you Manila, and I’m just trying to make the most of my stay here in Pobla because it might be like 2 Torre where time flew way too fast that I wasn’t really able to create lingering memories in. So yeah, brb Imma be productive for a bit.
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I haven’t touched on the topic much about how caffeine affects me while on this medication, and I’m sad to say that I miss coffee!! I get the jitters and I’m super hyper now when I consume coffee. When before I was just another walking zombie with an IV bag attached to me full of hot coffee, going at a steady speed. Slow. Coffee, my darling return to me soon.
Moving on! From yesterdays After hours series; pull up a chair. post I ended up staying awake until the early mornings of 6:00am. This is the second night in a row where I went to bed super late and woke up super early. Today was only difficult because I was so exhausted. As I slumped out of the comfort of my bed and my cat Jaja, I slumped myself instead into the shower. I even set an alarm JUST IN CASE I did pass out. Granted I did so when I started flailing around I stopped and took a moment and said to myself “Is it even worth turning it off?” Reluctantly I did get out and turn it off. I set it for an hour. And as I’m climbing myself back into the cold water I started to debate with myself.
I shouldn’t go. I’m too tired.
Maybe I can text Kim quickly before the interview asking to reschedule.
No, that might not work. What is they see that as me being lazy and don’t want an interview all together?
But I’m so tired.
I ended up sleeping for another 30 minutes. Scrambling out the shower roughly an hour before the interview. Yes, my body was prune-y and hurt. 😦 However I knew if I stayed in bed I wouldn’t have gotten up. Happily to announce I DID go to my interview and once I started moving around and woke up I felt myself again. Making decision why tired or sleepy for that matter is something I shouldn’t do. (Note this is a bad habit!)
My interview went great, thank you for asking!! They really enjoyed me, asked me multiply times if I was still interested in the position. The gentlemen was all around thrilled of me. Saying that I’m exactly what they were looking for. I mentioned this somewhere, but can’t remember where. But!! It’s a pay increase to $4+ on what I’m making now. Super friendly staff, and it’s family owned. They have insurance and paid holidays and yadda yadda (I’m not equip to talk about this, because I literally know nothing about it LOL! ) Now for the down fall of this whole interview.
I was sweating the whole time. And when I say sweating I mean I was physically dripping liquid down my shirt and I had arm pit stains. (I was wearing a sleeveless shirt. Of course this would happen). It was pointed out a good bit in the interview to where they mentioned how hot the office is, to turning down the temperature for me. The whole time I was internally screaming and just told myself to keep smiling. I was also begging for some sort of towel or napkin, which thankfully was supplied LOL! I was only sweating because right after a shower my lotion makes me sweat. Like profounding-ly sweat. It can take me up to four hours to stop and cool off. I’ve always had this problem, although it’s stuck out more since this medication. Note to self to ask about that at next doctors visit.
Tomorrow is going to be a day for me because it’s the last day for me to submit my medical leave paperwork. Which I haven’t done as mentioned in After hours series; open to those who need to chat. I don’t have the funds to go and get it signed. Which is why I didn’t hesitate to honestly apply myself to this establishment. It’s my backup plan I guess. I’m still dealing with my choices and I really would like to talk this out with a professional. I think this is denial of my feelings, because I’m trying to justify my new job. Like significantly justify why I’m doing it and how I feel about my current job. I’m making excuses I guess. Not too sure. I’m going to post more about my interview soon! I was inspired to write the tips I learned before going into my interview.
Here is me on how I looked! My hair could have been straighter, and I probably could have used more makeup. But I’m not worried! I was me 100000%.
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After hours; job interview and no coffee! I haven't touched on the topic much about how caffeine affects me while on this medication, and I'm sad to say that I miss coffee!!
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Notes I’ve taken during the Double XP weekend and forgot to publish, as usual
self care is staying in Mystery Heroes all day and never worrying about team comp
I love how you learn this game by watching and copying the enemies. I steal all positioning ideas for snipers and turrets from the read team. And reading about counters on the internet is one thing, but personal experience is more memorable. Today I played D.Va a lot and Symmetra (unsurprisingly) always wrecked me, so later when my D.Va met her red team double I switched to Symmetra and we won. I even got a POTG, though it looked unimpressive; I also learned that the shield generator is awesome on a control map. (Earlier in the day I tried the same with Roadhog, but for some reason it didn’t work. I wonder if it’s just a general lack of skill or there’s some specific mechanic I’m not getting.)
I want to start recording the kill cams when the enemies take advantage of my mistakes in a cool way. Like when my Mei tried to chase after enemy Sombra who lured me right into Bastion’s line of sight. Or when my healer (Zenyatta, maybe Mercy, don’t remember) went through a choke ahead of the team for some reason and an enemy Mei walled me off of them.
After a couple of hours with Symmetra I now learn her teleporter is limited to six people. Whoops...
We got absolutely demolished by a group of six on Gibraltar. They didn’t even let us out of spawn. I’d never experienced a game like this, it was like playing against aliens from Mars. When our team tried to mimic them next turn, of course someone sneaked out and they won again.
Over the weekend, my playstyle shifted from always “contest the objective!!” to “well let’s hold back and group up. okay it didn’t work. let’s group up? nope again. oh, the timer ran out”. Neither are productive.
It’s actually one of the reasons I’m getting sick of playing healers. I want to initiate! I want to contest! I want to be! on! the! damn! objective! But how am I suposed to do it with no communication? When I’m a tank there’s at least a hope that when I rush in, the others would follow. (Which can be painful as Rein, because you can’t even turn around to check if they’re really backing you or have scattered elsewhere.) As a healer? Well, maybe Lucio, but I haven’t played him much because I can’t get the hang of wallriding and I need to be near my teammates which is not always possible. It’s so pointless to jump on the payload alone as Mercy. Or for a moment yesterday I pushed the payload as Ana, though it was in Mystery Heroes. Look, as a healer and a sniper, I don’t think I should be alone up here...
Also if I’m the only healer I can’t just switch to try and counter a particularly troublesome enemy. When I’m the only tank it applies too, but to a lesser extent.
Satisfying games I had in the same night:
Riding the payload as Bastion on Dorado attack. Never tried it before. The red team was not prepared. I don’t think the payload was ever deserted.
Tank-to-tank standoff on King’s Row, both attack and defense. I was Orisa, the enemies had Orisa too both times, and D.Va at least once. Stand your ground and spray bullets to your heart’s content. Shout out to the awesome Mercy who made this possible and rezzed me immediately, I think it was a multi rez too.
I got sick of the teams on defense standing too far from the pont, and then letting someone through and trying to rush back before they can capture it but being too late. So I went to Hollywood as Bastion, parked in a corner with my back to the gate and my barrel parallel to the wall with the chokepoint, and could shoot at anyone coming through without even aiming. The other teammates stayed on the point too. Everything went well -- until the enemy D.Va sent her mech over the wall and wiped everyone off the point at once. We couldn’t recover and they won. Now that was a POTG. I really should have expected that, though...
Speaking of D.Va -- I face so many strong ones but my own skills are still garbage :( I can’t even ult properly, like sometimes I try to use boosters but instead explode it immediately with nobody around. And I always get ejected from the mech so soon. I dunno what dark magic Defense Matrix management skills other people have.
Symmetra out-DPSed my Bastion several times and it was bullshit. She jumped around me faster than I could turn. Of course, when I play Symmetra, half of the time the enemies run away too fast and I run after them in a straight line providing an easy target, or they don’t even bother and overpower me without moving.
Me: It’s just cosmetics
My obsessive brain: Makes me grind until the last hour of the event in late morning
Seriously it was kind of a hell... I waited for the new week in Arcade to unlock and couldn’t leave until my nine victories. And that night, the final night of the event, I discovered that 3v3 is the most efficient mode. No waiting/setup time, no stupid skirmish. We moved there at the suggestion of a teammate of a particularly torturous game in Total Mayhem that lasted 20 minutes. Zaryas on both sides, ults going off all the time but not killing anyone...
And when I got all the lootboxes, they didn’t even give me anything but dupes. I had 3245 gold and was faced with a terrible choice: one skin or four dances. I’d wanted Zen and Rein’s dances all this time, Tracer and Sombra and some others are super cute too. But the skins are more prominent, while emotes can only be used occasionally and I might want to replace them on the wheel. Thankfully, I got Symmetra’s skin as loot, so the choice was between Pharah, D.Va and Lucio. I’m so terrible at Pharah I’ve stopped trying, so that skin might have been wasted on me. I looked up D.Va’s voice lines in the new skin and didn’t particularly like them. I like D.Va’s default skin, and theoretically I’d love to get my hands on the Lunar one if it’s ever available again, but I’m indifferent to Lucio’s default and the purchaseable skins are worse. So I was left with the choice between Lucio and four dances. I watched the video with this skin’s alternate songs and spent some time trying to figure out whether I like them or not.
I wasted so much time torturing myself over this I realized it could take less to earn some more gold. So I bought Lucio’s skin and went grinding again. At this point I didn’t particularly care about winning, just getting through the matches for the xp. The first lootbox was kind to me and dropped 50 gold... so I was only 5 gold away from an emote. In sleep-deprived desperation I sat down to grind another level. By the time it was over, I think it was a bit past 10am aka the official ending time. But I got my gold. I bought Zen’s dance, and I was finally free to log off and try to get rid of the adrenaline and finally get some sleep. I’m so sorry, Sweethardt... I wish we could be together :(
I’m still not sure if the Lucio skin was the right decision. The songs are indeed kind of distracting, and the speed one is badly mixed: starts with a new jazzy melody and then for some reason fades into the default beats (of a totally different style). And it bugs me that the hat completely covers his eyes. Ah, well. Any decision would have resulted in buyer’s remorse in this situation.
Highlight of the 3v3 grind session: sleepymarmot gets POTG for sleeping. My Lucio boops Ana, she shoots him with a sleepdart, and that’s all that happens. Entire chat went “wtf lol”. Clearly the game was sending us a message. It’s 7am, you know what’s the best thing to do right now? Going to fucking bed.
I pocketed Pharah a lot in those matches. I feel guilty about letting the third person die... But when my healer instincts got the better of me and I dropped down to feed a red cross, it didn’t end well. Fall off of Pharah once, and without communication, good luck trying to attach yourself to her again... Tbh I wouldn’t like to play this regularly -- it’s not very interesting to literally spend all the time literally riding on one person’s coattails. Though I guess in a normal game the fun is in the jumping back and forth between Pharah and the team -- like in a normal Mercy game but with more flying.
I also played Pharah myself in this duo a couple of times and actually didn’t do badly. I guess it’s easier on these smaller maps
After I wrote this entire post, I discovered that this event, like the free weekend, is still mysteriously active for me hours after the end date. So I went to grind again. Got Tracer’s dance (good), I think McCree’s too (don’t care). And you know what was in the final lootbox, which I opened after the event finally ended? Lucio’s goddamn skin! Of. Course.
I feel seriously burned out after playing so much in a short amount of time, especially because in the final hours I’ve stopped caring about winning at all. I lost concentration so badly -- I didn’t think about my abilities or teamwork or countering enemies, constantly attacked them head on even with characters not meant for that... What if this attitude stays and I won’t be able to play the game normally? What if I just ruined it for myself? Ugh. Why do I always have to be like this.
The best thing about this session was when I accidentally clicked on 1v1 and managed to win 5-1. It was pretty stressful so I went back to 3v3 immediately. But it was really fun to think strategically about hero selection, trying to quickly compute which of the three available characters is not only easiest for me to play, but the strongest against any of them.
Another good moment was in Mystery Heroes, when I got Reaper and on my way to the point was lamenting my inability to play him and the aforemetioned lack of concentration. The point is under attack, I teleport in, kill Zen and two others who were about to get onto it, help kill Winston in the middle of it, overtime runs out, I get POTG. Wat?
One night after playing a lot I had a dream that the Roadhog nerf came through and also changed his name (don’t remember to what) and portrait to an unmasked, civil-looking, clean-shaven 30-40 year old blond white man, and just as I went to see what his skins look like now I woke up
I finished the event at level 89. Considering that I only played during the free weekends and bought the game after the second one, that’s pretty fast leveling up.
I started recording a lot during the weekend, and have several videos in the drafts, but on second thought I don’t think anyone would be interested, there’s nothing remarkable going on in them.
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1/22 DAY 3: PLAN & ORGANIZE #KeepMarching
Today’s entry is a little long but it is the most important I will post because The Work Is just beginning and it’s going to be a LONG bumpy ride!
ACTION:
Attended the MoveOn.Org / The Indivisible/ Working Families Emergency Call To Action & Training on Grassroots/Local Activism For Change. The call had 40K participants RSVP. My notes on the training are below
Called my 2 state Senators Chuck Schumer D-NY and Kristen Gillibrand D-NY to encourage them to remain vigilant in opposing the cabinet and keeping the pressure on about the ACA. Find your Senators Here. You can call, write a letter, or go to their office!
Went on The Indivisible website to find a local group to join. I joined a group in NYC called Rise & Resist that meets weekly. First meetings: Tues 1/24 7pm- for all members & Weds 1/25 6pm- Rise & Resist POC Caucus
2018 MIDTERM ELECTIONS ARE COMING! Went on SwingLeft and signed up to help campaign in my local swing congressional district which is NY 3rd Congressional District. Please research the people in the district now and before supporting anyone in an election cycle be informed!
Confirmations to encourage your legislatures to Fight This Week:
Mike Pompeo- CIA
Rex “Exxon” Tillerson- Secretary of State (Support Rubio on this one if you are in his district)
These are my opinions, but I encourage you to judge for yourself. Here are some links with a schedule for watching upcoming hearings. Most of them you can livestream via C-Span’s Facebook page. Yes, take a break from playing “Bad & Boujee” on repeat and listen to these hearings instead. It will be very enlightening. Some past ones to review are:
Jeff “How Racist Do You have to Be to be considered too Racist for Alabama” Sessions- Attorney General
Betsy “Because Grizzlies” DeVos- Education Secretary
Steven “Tax Evader” Mnuchin- Treasury Secretary
Tom Price- Sec Health and human services (Labor) and it got heated
Rick Perry- Department of Energy
THE RESISTANCE
Lots going on today people! The most productive thing I did was join the emergency call to action call from Moveon.org and The Indivisible. It was a 2hr call with 10K people, 80% of whom were marching in the streets yesterday all over the world! (And they said this march wouldn’t do anything). They were training us on the guidebook that The Indivisible created which you can find here. Below are the main messages from the call.
Major Keys for The Resistance Movement to be successful:
We are acting on the principle that Trump’s Agenda is an abomination, racist, authoritarian and Un-American
Our resistance will be through LOCAL congressional advocacy
We are embracing/pushing progressive values that are meant to benefit ALL Americans, especially the ones that need it most, out of LOVE and KINDNESS. (aka Don’t be a Jerk)
Non-Violence is key. We are acting out of LOVE for our fellow Americans who are under-represented, marginalized, and being used as a political prop
De-escalation is key. Taking a page from the Dakota Pipeline on this one.
Again, come to everything out of a place of LOVE for one another, even those that mock and oppose you. When they go low, we go high.
Best Practices From Past Successful grassroots movements:
Use Your Constituent Power: For now, focus on YOUR Senators and representatives. These folks care deeply about being re-elected and are paranoid about losing at home because something like the race in NC can happen to anyone with a movement this strong!
Also, it does no good to call members of Congress outside of your district because they frankly will not care and you will be wasting your time. Midterm elections are another story, but for now stay local!
There is power in both Responding to AND Defending members of congress on their approval of the Trump agenda
Red States: You make sure you let them know of your disapproval and have a reason why. If you have a compelling story, now is the time to tell it and let them know you will be active in swinging their district if they refuse to do so.
Blue States: Positive Reinforcement/ encouragement is key! Tell the Senators who are killing it to keep fighting with everything they have because you are with them (shout out to Chuck Schumer!), or give them a little push if you don’t think they are being bold enough
Trump’s agenda depends on members of Congress approving that agenda, and We The People CAN have a say in that. Look at what happened when the GOP tried to Jam through Trump’s cabinet picks without the proper paperwork or the attempts to dismantle the Ethics Office in Congress. Trump would make you think it was his tweet alone, but groups like the indivisible were alive and well in making that happen. Also, when.
Remember Visiting your Senator’s Office is > A Phone Call > Writing a Letter > Tweeting
CALL TO ACTION #1: Attend a Stop Trump’s #SwampCabinet Rally on 1/24
Every Tuesday, beginning this Tuesday 1/24, the goal is to have as many people as possible join events designed to fight Trump’s crooked Agenda. You may have seen the hashtag #ResistTrumpTuesdays, this is what they are talking. This Tuesday, the call to action is to go to their Senator’s office and ask your Senators Oppose Trump’s #SwampCabinet.
Ok stop right there, I know what you are thinking… really… going to their office? I haven’t been to a senator’s office since that one field trip we took in High School that one time. This is way out of my comfort zone. But you don’t have to go at it alone! Go with a group who are also going and rally against these cabinet picks. You can go to Moveon.org/Jan24 to find groups that are planning to go to their senator’s office on 1/24. If you can’t find one, or it says its full or you can’t get off of work, or you’re reading this thinking, “I’m no Erin Brockovich here, I have to take care of my kids” no worries try to join next Tuesday or simply call! And remember to record everything good or bad with your experience and tag it #Indivisible or #ResistTrump or #ResistTrumpTuesdays.
CALL TO ACTION #2: Get Connected and Recruit
There are numerous groups near you putting a full court press on Congress, in every state in America, no matter how Red that state might be. You can join one that interests you by going to The Indivisible website or act.moveon.org to find one near you. If you have a group and you want to recruit new members, register your group on both of these sites and include your contact info so others can join you.
As stated in my call to action, I joined Rise & Resist in NYC. I liked that they had a POC caucus and that they meet weekly for resistance planning. I will be attending group meetings this coming Tuesday and Wednesday after work this week. Excited to connect with people outside of the comments section of Facebook and on Twitter lol.
TRUMPLAND
So after tweeting/mocking the women’s march on Washington yesterday, The Donald then sent a tweet of praise of our “democracy in action,” which he definitely DID NOT write (it’s speculation, but complete sentences are just kind of not his thing). But ends up this was definitely supposed to be a distraction from the fact that Kelly Ann Conway and others confirmed that Donald Trump, yet again, reneged on his campaign promise to release his Tax Returns when they were done being audited. They have stated in the past that the people have moved on and only the media wants to see his tax returns. Well Donald We Aren’t the Media, and I think there are about 2.9 million+ of us in the US that want to see those Tax Returns.
But we may get them… the ACLU has filed legal documents to demand access to key documents concerning his conflicts of interest via The Freedom of Information Act to untangle his conflicts of interest… so maybe we’ll see them after all. But I wouldn’t hold my breath. (Side note, how Woke are the people writing for TeenVogue right now? Shout out to the younger generation!)
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