I can read you like a book, Roman...

And it's getting quite old.

Your offering's empty,

godless and cold...

rules: put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that come up, then tag 10 people

tagged by @zhalar !!

voracity - myth & roid

dante's inferno - whirlybird

100punk - shutups

whose eye is it anyway??? - jhariah

violet - bad suns

brave as a noun (ajj cover) - local news legend

dont make me - malinda

betrayed by bones - hellosgoodbye

genghis khan - miike snow

st cecilias - animal flag

i dont have anyone in mind to tag, so anyone who wants to post some songs should do so. esp bc i love being recommended songs, so @ me and rec me some!

Cozy nights

Hello little ones, (even if youre not so little or if im littler than you, im 172cm)

I hope today felt nice, I relaxed after a long day of anxiety because I was dumb and missed my scholarship deadline. But thats fine, alls well, Im going to apply for another scheme. I had some tea my uncle brought from Taiwan, boy was it good :). I had some alcohol after that and asian flush is really coming through. Today, i would like to share with you content that soothes me when I can't sleep or cry too much.

Podcasts

Anything Joe Pera (Spotify/Youtube)

I think I am quite like him sometimes, I like to make observations about my surroundings and ask questions in my mind that sound stupid hence I dont verbalise them. I am a mom friend and my friends rely on me lots but I think im still a child.

Ella Wishes You a Swinging Christmas

Come on, need I elaborate?

Bird Alone Soundtrack

Youtube Channels

yanghaiying ( soothing life advice)

growing up in a chinese family, its just so comforting when i see her do calligraphy. i used to do lots of it as a kid and really liked it. She also gives advice for lots of things and its nice hearing all that.

Malinda Herman Official (song covers with dogs/cats)

Something about her covers just make me smile, shes referred to as grandma in her comments section, isnt that so endearing?

in due time I will add more, for now please take care of yourselves. Vent if you need to, request anything if you want to. Whatever is bad shall pass, and whatever good you desire you need to approach, no one is going to spoonfeed you. Do good in your own terms and I wish you all the best, let's work hard together.

can anyone hear me double life pearl = dont make me by MALINDA im torn asunder

Anyways listen to Dont Make Me by MALINDA

Very good villany song

((sdghdfhj okay okay, lemme try to explain my thoughts a bit better in regards to this post - pls bear with me bc I’m very tired and my brain has been basically dead all day rip

anyway, so what I need to do in general (and what will relate to my au idea), is rewrite the ikau verse to include that Obadiah had been working alongside Killian before his death during AoU. It’s all for the money, of course. After all, how could the government say no to them if they’re presenting ways to make the military stronger? Killian is offering extremis - a way to make enhanced soldiers, and Obadiah is offering armor - a perfected design of the Iron Man suit to create iron soldiers. Carter wouldn’t know about this - she wouldn’t be aware of Killian or extremis, and wouldn’t realize that, not only was Obadiah forcing her to keep the Iron Man mantle as a means to control it, but also so she could work on perfecting the suit for him, so he would only have to worry about production later down the line. In the ikau, Obadiah dies before that partnership begins to work out the remaining kinks - Ultron confronts him to find Klaue, and he tries to take control of a situation where he never had any; his own arrogance spelling his demise. But, Obadiah would survive for the au of the ikau, with Ultron never going to him to begin with, leaving Carter stuck under his control, and leaving her spiraling out. AoU is one of her final breaking points - she’s horrified by what Ultron’s done, and fully blames herself for everything that had happened - practically drowning in her own mistakes, and refusing to see how Obadiah had pressured her into creating Ultron to begin with. She’s giving up, and no longer sees reason to try and please Obadiah or anyone else. She’s fucked up, what reputation she has is in shambles (or so she believes), and she’s obliterated her father’s legacy (again, or so she believes) - she doesn’t see the need to make nice, or to make herself to be a soldier when she’s so clearly not one. Obadiah sees this, and sees this as a threat - much like how he viewed Tony before he plotted Tony’s death

Killian and Obadiah... don’t get along very well, but they’re dangerously good at business. They’re both manipulative, both in need to have control, and often clash with how to approach what to do - Killian cares more for money than who he gives extremis to, and Obadiah is set in his ways of creating weapons for the US military, though still has little care if he sells to the highest bidder under the table. Both want money, and both agree that combining their products can make them near invincible. But Carter starts figuring things out. Maybe she sees Killian one day, or maybe she sees or overhears Obadiah talking to him or discussing extremis. Maybe she doesn’t even know about any of that, and instead comes across proof of Obadiah’s involvement with her father’s kidnapping and later death. But she becomes a threat, either to Obadiah or Killian or both, but Obadiah knows he needs to be careful to push Carter out while keeping up his ruse. So, he figures out something that paints Carter as... questionable. Maybe she’s connected to things she shouldn’t be, or maybe he begins to plant seeds of doubt in the minds of others before eventually spurring it further to have them turn against her. Either way, Carter sees this, but... instead of defending herself, she doesn’t say anything. She doesn’t fight back. Doesn’t deny any accusations or claims, but doesn’t accept them either. She stays silent, and her silence is louder than anything she could say. She sees the game Obadiah’s playing, and is figuring out her own way to play it, too - and to her, that means making him think he won while she worked off the board to bring him down

or... maybe Killian gets tired of Obadiah. He sees the Iron Man suits to be nothing more than a dream - that Carter would never allow her designs to be used for mass production, and that Obadiah was getting nowhere in claiming the designs from her. So, one day, it’s discovered Obadiah’s dead, clearly having been killed, and Carter’s nowhere to be found. No one wants to believe she would do such a thing, but it’s still suspicious either way, and she’s left hiding from the others as she tries to pull apart everything that Obadiah had gotten himself into, and trying to find a way to bring Killian down in the process. She goes about it alone, because she believes it to be safer for everyone if she went in by herself and took Killian down - because, that way, they would both be the ones dead rather than her dragging everyone else down with her. But... also because she doesn’t know who to trust, because the one person she had trusted the most had betrayed her in more ways than one and it destroyed the shaky foundation she had been standing on

either way, it’s not permanent. Her name is cleared and the truth is revealed, and Carter takes time away from being an Avenger - letting herself heal and recover and slowly come to terms with everything that happened, while staying with the people who actually love her (Pepper, Happy, and Rhodey, because they had been there from the start and she’s closer to them than to the Avengers if only due to the lies she had been fed by Obadiah), but is later dragged back into it when Thanos decides he needs to correct the balance of the universe

also I just want more ikau threads where Carter puts herself between another muse and danger to protect them dsfgjhdfj - she’s absolutely emotionally stunted to hell and back and may not act like she cares but she really does

Can we just appreciate how amazing and truly haunting and also incredible song “Don't make me” and not just for Thomas?

Its truly an incredible song and Malinda is a wonderful and incredibly talented performer and artist. 

You can't disguise The flame in your eyes...

“Don’t Make Me”

Malinda Kathleen Reese ft. Thomas Sanders

Can I offer you a little salt for that wound ?

Anyways this song destroyed my pan ass and I'm looping it as we speak

Never was built to be this way But turns out the villain is fun to play Your Hollywood romance, extra and sappy, but- Spoiler alert: the ending ain't happy

this is another video that will take over my mind and it only came out today

Am I funny yet

Also @macaroni-0verlord look I included you