the bobby/maddie/eddie parentified child parallels go hard this episode i'm not ok

hold up i'm seeing dnis now that say "mspec" like period, not even mspec lesbians/gays. and also bi/pan/omni/fluid listed. what the fuck is even going on??? what has the mogai community become where we're just writing people into boxes again? you can be a gender collector but you aren't allowed to have a layered experience of being queer? like make it make sense. mspec just means multiple-attraction, as in, bisexual, pansexual, omnisexual, abrosexual. like that makes up such a huge portion of the queer community. like how are you running a queerblog but are still unsupportive of bisexuality in 2023.

apparently if you have boobs men will approach you on a sunday morning while you mind your own business and talk to you in a very rude manner bc they think you're a hooker. you couldn't fucking afford me, pimplehead. and if i was a hooker, would that mean you can fucking disrespect me???

hey guys, sad news, tomorrow my cat is being put down and I'm pretty upset about it so I might not respond to people right away or reblogs and stuff like that. Ill still be online somewhat but not as much, I hope you guys understand

honestly, i've been really happy lately. my life is starting to piece together to a degree and i managed to do a collaboration with pete gold himself, but watching the payday franchise burn to the ground like this brings me so much pain.

i legit have no clue what to do about this. i love payday, and i've invested so much time and money into it, but the way they've fallen from grace hurts. from the way they had butchered and recast the heisters to the way they had fucked payday 2 up so much to the point of unplayable really sucks.

i've had a lot of plans for payday. i have a dating simulator slowly but surely being planned, i have an animation or two being worked on, and i even am hoping to interview eric etebari himself. yet with how all of this is going down, it's starting to make me want to withdraw. i may put my projects on hold, or at least keep them in the dark from now until i release them. i also wanted to get the collector's edition of pd3 due to my autistic ass loving collectables, but the way that the game has been treated so far, it just makes me upset and at this point it would be a waste of money.

i'm just so angry about this. i should probably save this for my therapist to hear, but i can't help it. i'm so passionate about payday 2, so all of this is just awful.

i'll still post about payday 2, mostly oc x canon content as per usual, but this is the one time i'll touch in on the negatives of it. as much as i want to ramble my ass off, i don't want to bring the mood down of everyone else in the fandom, or make it worse.

please, starbreeze. you know better.

Becoming a fan of an old actor with no social media presence whatsoever is all fun and games until you can't find anything but pictures of old and even not so old interviews

Do you think that MIAB and CBBH are for Harry Styles or for Zac Efron? I'm trying to understand her 2012 love life lol

It's time to answer the most dreaded question of my inbox that i've been avoiding for [checks ask date] a long long time. I don't blame you for being confused, 2012 Taylor is a mess indeed.

Short answer: MIAB was likely written on April 23rd and CBBH def on April 12th, so that's enough for me.

Longer answer: I think that if MIAB and CB...BH are sister songs, MIAB is also Begin Again's cousin. Begin Again is about opening up again with somebody after being hurt so badly, and you know that the relationship was not right for you, but the wound is still fresh and you can't let go and you still think about them and drawing comparisons between the toxic guy and the sweet new guy. MIAB instead is completely free of the past and it's so... fresh and carefree and cheeky and young. It's about the freedom of crushing on someone again. CB...BH is sadder because the spectre of long distance is always there when you choose this kind of career. This is my #1 interpretation of the songs. Now onto the muses.

Harry: I'm just gonna say it: Harry was 18 when he met and then dated Taylor. He turned 18 in February 2012, met Taylor exactly 2 months later, he was 18 when Taylor turned 23, he was 18 when they broke up and Taylor was seen leaving the Virgin Islands on a boat with the famous blue dress on. For some reason, Haylor is still #iconic but the same hype is not reserved to Conor Kennedy: everyone cringes when they look back at Taylor's Kennedy era, RIGHTFULLY SO. Harry and Conor are barely 5 months apart, yet everybody is glad that Taylor didn't write any songs for Conor because he was so young but then they're fine with thinking that MIAB is about Harry because slay kween. I'm gonna be honest, if you think that early Haylor was appropriate while Taylor/Conor wasn't i'm gonna side-eye you, cause you can't justify early Haylor with "Harry was 18 while Conor was 17 when they met" cause it means that you think that Taylor dating them is a legal issue, not a morality issue. Taylor and Conor met when he was 20 days short of 18 and Harry was 18 and two months old. there's no difference for me, they're both inappropriate. that being said, we technically don't have any confirmation of Harry and Taylor dating in April, just rumors. Nothing points at Harry as being the MIAB muse.

Zac: I vote for Zac as the muse. He was jetting around the world for promo, they had great chemistry, he corresponds to the physical description, they were both single, he was in London the day Taylor and Max Martin and finished the song. Also this was said before she met Harry, which is basically a line from MIAB:

When you meet someone that you’re attracted to, do you go, “Here’s a song”? That can happen. I get inspired by the smallest or the biggest things. You meet someone and you wonder if you’ll ever see them again. I could write so many songs about that. I have written so many songs about that. Wait till you hear my next record, it’s all about that.

That being said, Jesus, Zac truther are insufferable, sometimes it feels like they want the muse to be Zac just cause they want a gotcha to use against Haylor and they turn all of this into a ship war. chill, it's not that important.

I really do not appreciate the "heterosexualfication" of my gay ships, thank you very much.

STOP MAKING THEM STRAIGHT!!!!

If you're going to genderbend them do it to both of them, damn it!

I just had to delete wattpad because my homescreen wouldn't load AT ALL

With or without wifi!

Extremely disappointed in the new update guys.

I'm highly annoyed that I had an appointment on March 3rd but they rescheduled it to the 29th. Then, they were like "Oh, you can't see the person who prescribes you your VERY NEEDED meds until you see a therapist". Like, what the fuck? I just need to get a refill because I haven't been able to see them. It's so aggravating. But the very nice and understanding lady in the pharmacy said she'll have a refill tomorrow since I can't see the doctor. So, I'm very hopeful I can get them because I'm completely out.

Sorry about the rant. I just needed to vent to someone. So, please, don't mind me. I love you all.

I think it's homophobic of amazon to be releasing the new wot in 2.5 hours when i have to be up at 6am tomorrow

crossing my arms and wearing a grumpy scowl on my face as Star Wars comically pulls me back in because Andor’s fantastic so far.

THEY JUST LEFT HER THERE😭😭😭😭

spoilers for season 4 of stranger things. Discussing ableism and other problematic bs with stranger things. I am an angry person.

Just finished stranger things season 4. And I'm so mad. I related WAY too hard to Henry. I just.

And him telling Max "people don't think about killing others." At first I was like upset, but then I realized. Henry was probably told that. Max said it, but that felt so odd to have to say to her to make her upset. Henry, a killer in canon, is lying by saying that to her. He's probably been told that. By doctors, by his mother. I just. I hate what this season did to him. I hate the ableism in the show and the fandom. I hate the problematic nature of this show. I hate those scenes with Lucas and Erica. I hate the fact they filmed in a fucking Nazi prison. What the actual fuck. Everything is just so God damn disrespectful. I'm finished with the season and I'm not even sure if I care about what has to come next. Cause wow. Just wow.

Also yeah, Eddie was heroic, but that death was fucking dumb. Like. Killing him off. They never ever kill off main cast, just the side characters they throw in the season like Billy, Eddie, whoever else I can't remember, Bob. I just hate it. The closest they came to killing a main character is with Max and even then, she has a chance to live. And all the ableism surrounding the fact that Max could be disabled and blind if she lives and "they should have just killed her off." No.

I hate the ships. Nancy and Steve are not going to work out, like come on, not everyone in love should end up together. I don't like Mike and El cause they both have their issues and I just...they don't fit. Mike is too in his own stuff and El was too in her own stuff.

I hate that the normal stuff was thrown away in this season. Like wow nothing ever came of the normal bullying or normal problems.

Having Lucas call Jason a raging psychopath was fucking disgusting. I was so ready to have him tell Jason off and then he just says that. Like fucking wow. Implying the one that is threatening and murderous and nearly kills Lucas (not even mentioning the fucking shocking nature of him pulling a gun on Lucas as well as the other sport guy fucking TACKLING Erica) is a "psychopath." Like fuck off.

Will is precious and I love Dustin. They're both good.

Oh no, Henry's thinking is scary. Oh scary and bad. Also using a monster to portray mental illness and trauma, but then having that monster be a traumatized neurodivergent person specifically autistic and ASPD is fucking bullshit.

I just. This season tried and it fauled. It presents itself as a good season with great directing and such, but the story and writing is all bs and of course it's a super problematic show. I've barely listed the shit and not gone in depth about it.

Also it felt like the show kept fighting between Brenner bad, but Brenner can be good, Henry bad, Henry villain. All that fucking shit. It wasn't even clear. And I love that they made Robin autistic, but it just felt like they shoved in some of the autistic traits in random scenes. Or like they just took some autism info and shoved it onto her (at points, not overall.) It's like Robin was the quirky autistic, El was the weird autistic, and Henry was the big scary autistic. And I hate it. It doesn't feel like representation. It doesn't feel like it at all. You can't have some celebration of Robin or acceptance of her being autistic and it be shown as good when you demonize the traits of Henry being autistic. I headcanon Robin has learned she's autistic and is unmasking because it makes sense to me and reminds me of when I started "acting more autistic" too. So this isn't a rant on Robin being autistic or anything, this is about how the show portrays it and points out autistic traits rather than just letting her be autistic. It does remind me of us that have realized we are actually autistic and we "act more autistic" basically. So I will accept that headcanon even though I don't have faith in the writers.

Just everything makes me mad that I can't even enjoy the story. I can't enjoy it at all. Like it just gets worse and worse. And the fandom is hell. Just fucking do better. I don't know how to end this but just, fucking do better.

Hey y'all I just wanted to give a life update real quick:

So uhhh...I got dumped just a few hours ago ✌️ we were together for 5 and a half years, our son is 4 years old, and while I know I'll be ok once I get through this right now I am just... not ok lol I know updates have been really sporadic over this past year, it's been a rough one in many ways, but don't be surprised if I kinda disappear for a long while. I'll come back, but I don't think I can write about romance at the moment.

Anyway that's all, thanks for sticking around you guys ✌️ talk to you later

it's all fun and games until the yarn tangles...