Hey, are you okay? You haven’t uploaded in a while. If things irl are getting bad then please focus on yourself. We are here for you and whatever that’s happening (if there is something) then we’re here to support you. Don’t forget that there are people who care about you. You are great! Don’t feel bad about the lack of content. Make sure you’re okay. Have a good day today, okay? One step at a time.

🥺 I have the greatest anons and followers of all time, and no one can contest!!

Anon, you are so sweet, you make me want to cry in a good way!

What’s the saying? Too much to do and too little time? I will admit, life just kind of swung a curve ball at me, and then it turned into a snowball that got bigger and bigger. Meaning my time got way too divided and writing unfortunately took a backseat.

I have to admit I do feel bad for not uploading in a good way I swear! and I hope to get back on track. Maybe not as much as before and a much slower schedule, but I’ve missed writing. Not to mention bugging ya’ll because whenever you visit, be it a like, reblog, or anon, it always makes my day the best one.

I will promise I will take it slow and not push myself! You, my wonderful anon, have a wonderful day. Keep doing you and hope to talk to ya soon ^^

So I decided to spin the wheel by @onefey since I saw so many mutuals getting really cute PMD Teams.

Meet hero Lucky (Girafarig) and partner Biggs (Wimpod). Never in my life have I considered a Girafarig as my potential PMD-sona but here we are despite it all. Even though I was skeptical at first I am now in permanent love.

Gotta think of an Exploration Team name now... hm.

i remember seeing someone call tubbo a fully grown adult at 19 (obvs before he turned 20) and i gotta say. i think maybe some people have a really skewed idea of what constitutes as "fully grown". and also what constitutes as properly mature. thinking that at 18/19 (or hell even at 20/21) people are now fully grown and mature is insane to me like yall thats how you get people thinking their life is over at like 23 and that 30 year olds are senior citizens 😭😭 be fr

a post about fic updates! so the fics im currently juggling are dog teeth, tams, and of course, taob. my original plan was to start posting the second installment of the dog teeth series by sometime in april, bc it's the fic im most into atm and i already have the first chapter done, i just want to bank another one or two because once i start posting it i want to KEEP posting it with regular updates, hopefully every 2 weeks like with kaiein. HOWEVER this will put my atla fics on a back burner. april is a good writing time for me (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE) bc i have the entire month off from uni to prep for may exam season, and i always want to write when im procrastinating my degree. which is. it's own thing im sure i'll graduate it's fine i'm fine. so if i focus on dog teeth, neither tams nor taob will get focus until like. june. which is par for the course with taob but im NOT happy about doing with tams.

SO my thought process was i can either be normal about this and just accept it's literally my final year at uni and im trying to graduate and it doesn't matter if updates are slow on ANY fics, or i can do my usual and implement an insane deadline that i somehow always make by the skin of my teeth. can you guess what i went with?

and thus i present unto the crowd my tentative plan: have the next taob chapter done by middle of april (im aware this is quite hand-wavey but it gives me a month to work with, so in my head this means anything between april 10th-20th), have the next tams chapter done by the end of april, and dog teeth can follow.

PLS PLS IM BEGGING UPDATE COLLARS AND CAGES PLSSSSSS IM GONNA CRY THE CLIFFHANGER OF CHAPTER 4 PLSSS UPDATE IT

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I feel so demotivated lately... Like I'm experiencing a crash of some kind. I don't want to do anything... I'm always so tired and everything feels off. What's not exactly helpful either is the feeling that I'm being annoying/bothering whenever I post here shfhsjdh ... I've been trying to at least comfort myself via self shipping but honestly whenever I get really into feeling like this it becomes hard to imagine myself as worth loving in any way.

I feel like 🐛🌧 ... ... I hope things will get better soon

A British a Scottish and an Austrian man walk into a Great Gatsby themed New Year's Eve party.

Aka, Ghost, Soap and König in the latest chapter of Gasoline In Your Heart, by the wonderful @whispermask.

Attacked @lammergeared 's Nathaniel in the Art Fight

Hope yall are having a good holiday season!

I'm excited for the new year ;w; small update in tags

SORRY FOR CHANGING MY PROFILE PICTURE 100 MILLION TIMES TODAY. THIS ONE'S FINAL FOR REAL THIS TIME

i hate when someone makes a genuinely good critique of patriarchy and then terfs are like yasss so true its because of the Trans

like no shut up it’s actually not!!! 😝😝

Alright….I’m pretty sure “Enemies with Benefits” is about 65% complete.

I feel like it took me way too long to get to this point, so I’m happy I’m making good process. If I’m fortunate enough, I’ll actually finish the story in two weeks - if burnout doesn’t try to do a sneak attack on me.

(I also need to tell myself that its okay if I don’t publish something on a daily basis lol)

as a writer how do you stop thinking about like getting kudos/comments? I've just started writing fanfic, and when I start a writing something -- it goes well and then eventually I get to point where I'm like "ahh but what the readers don't like that? or what if I don't get as many kudos or comments" and it makes it difficult to continue because then it becomes stressful -- I guess how do you deal with "wanting to write stuff for yourself" and "wanting validation" thanks!

You're going to hate this answer, because I hated it too, but TIME. When you first start writing and you get kudos and comments and people love what you're doing, it's a huge validation of your effort and talent, and it's natural that you want MORE of it. When I first started putting up fics I already had been writing for 15+ years, knew I was good at it, and still for a good few years found myself really glued to the hit counter, and the kudos, and wondering how I'd be able to get people to comment the same way they did on things like Seven Suitors.

But the thing is that commenting comes and goes in waves, and unless a fandom has a big comment culture, or is large enough that you're guaranteed a good glut of them every time you post...you're going to hit a point where you write exactly what everyone wants and get crickets. And at that point you'll get ANNOYED, because LOOK, I MADE THIS, i made it for YOU GUYS, and now y'all don't have anything to say? It'll get to you. It'll make you doubt that you know what anyone wants at all. It'll happen and it'll suck the whole time.

Lots of advice will say "write for yourself," which is an excellent sentiment. You should always write what YOU want. Put into your fic what you want to see, write the nitpicky poetic metaphors and craft the most screwball twists your heart desires. Pour yourself into the most niche AUs and most tin-hat canon theories. At the end of the day, you want the IDEAS you put down to be for you, because comments and kudos are nice, but if they don't come...you have to be proud of what you put out, even when it feels like an echo chamber.

But also...we don't POST things for ourselves. We post things to share. Fic are a conversation with canon and it is perfectly natural to want to create something that creates conversation among other fans. So you're never going to fully get the need for validation out of your head, you're not. You can hide hit counts and ignore your inbox all you like, but the want to have someone interact with your work, to inspire someone to reach out to you will ALWAYS be there. You just have to create a healthier relationship with it.

Be confident in what you write. Think less about whether people will like it, and more about how you WANT them to react. The reader is the most important character in any novel, but it's the one most authors forget to manage. When you come to a point where you go "oh man, I hope this is good for them!" stop and go, "what do I *want* them to be feeling here?" Focus on where you're putting their attention and whether you WANT it there. There's so much you can do when you visualize your relationship with the reader as PART of the work, and it takes off a lot of the pressure of "is this good? is it disappointing? will this get me validation?" and brings it back into the realm of storytelling. You are taking your reader on a journey, and when you do it well people will think less about "did I like that?" and more about "what comes next?"

i dont wanna tag anything but i did go back to beato himeru and repaint the bg bc the pixelated version was bothering meeee

wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........