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Soooo instagram gave me a pop up this morning that since now the EU made it illegal to harvest personal data to sell to third party without the explicit user's consent, one can either tell them they can harvest and sell your personal data or pay a subscription to use their apps.
Like this is not even about ads, they are still allowed to show ads to users. They just can't harvest and sell personal data without consent anymore, and are throwing a fuss about it
Bite bite kill kill
#instagram#facebook#data privacy#meta#I hate everything about this and I guess it means no insta for me#I wanted to work on my phone addiction anyway so fuck this shit
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「Feel the magic ๛ l.n」
part v
✧.* you come to realise that your relationship with lando might just be the most serious and mature relationship you've ever had and while that confuses you more and more each day, your taking it all because some people just love to watch the world burn.
✧.* introducing some people, making babes suffer a little less, hating Alpine, you know the drill, its a chill one really 🥰 this is a psa for the people who wanted to be on my taglist but never got tagged, i didn't forget or ignore you, I simply am unable to tag you and therefore removed you from the list feel free to ask me again so I can take a look at it. Taglist is open Love ya ❤️
✧.* prev part - next part
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y/nusername oh my days ✨️
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f1gurls we've reached peak dog mom, Dash got an Instagram 😭
norrizz waaaaaait y/n's finally gone insta official with lando?!
mclarenbabies it was about time, lando did it nearly two weeks ago 😂
fewtrelllando good to see they've adopted max 🥰
landonorris disgusting
y/nusername you've clearly never looked in a mirror before
landonorris I was talking about the sushi
y/nusername oh..
y/nnorris I love them your honor 😭
landoscar why's dash looking at me like that, why is he judging me? 😭
mrsnorris 🤮 🤮 🤮
landonorris exactly, who would eat sushi?
chilisainz lmfao girl thought she did something
hamilt44n hey girlie, you got lando's attention, speak up 👏
charlie_leclerc I'm changing my mind, they are actually cute together
thomasgoms 😍
y/nloveee we either have a supportive ex-boyfriend or mans completely missed the picture of y/n and lando 💀
norry4 Arianna what are you doing here?
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girlsofthegird happy birthday Cecile! 😍
carlandooo lmfao milou watching the stories and seeing this post: 🧍♀️
george63russell I mean she's been a lil' bitch lately so are we really surprised? 👀
miloubabess she's with her family on a holiday, guess she couldn't make it 🙄
fewtrelllando I don't known about y'all but this smells like a double date!
norrizz HOWLING THE CAKE 😭
y/nlandooo peak y/n behaviour 😭
chilisainz loving this new friend dynamic, always thought Cecile and y/n would be a better match than y/n and milou..
maxfewtrell well..great picture..
cecilemoulin max, don't worry, you are the prettiest!
y/nusername the prettiest princess of them all 🎀
landonorizzzz goddammit, those muppets really do be in love huh
thomasgoms happy birthday Cecile!
y/nluv boy get out of here..🤨
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Everything taglist; @thomaslefteyebrow @hopefulinlove @smoothopz @softboystarkey @honethatty12 @cixrosie @parkersmjs @ireadthensuetheauthors @celestialams @be-your-coffee-pot @heli991113 @kodzuvk @reality-is-a-con @80sloverry @bibissparkles @myescapefromthislife @lanando4 @elliegrey2803
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treat you better — j. maybank
❝ tell me, why are we wasting time
on all your wasted crying
when you should be with me instead?
i know i can treat you better ❞
pairing: best friend!jj x cheater!reader
context: once again, you went through your boyfriend's phone and found things you didn't wanna find. but for some reason, you can't seem to build up the courage to finally end things with him (he was your first love, after all). so, you turn to your best friend, jj, for advice and comfort.
words: 1.4k+
warnings: reader's in a toxic relationship, mild cheating (physical & emotional, but i don't condone it!!), a little angst, fluff
you sat at the edge of the pier at the chateau, your eyes focused on the way the moon reflected off the marsh. you had just snuck out of your boyfriend's house after he fell asleep and you looked through his phone.
adriana. kelly. paige. maya. lauryn. the number of girls' names you found in his insta dms and messages went on and on.
why did you put up with this? i mean, sure, he was your first… everything, but was he really worth it?
"y/n?" you hear a familiar voice call out your name and turn your head to find jj walking down the dock to join you. "what are you doing out here?"
"just needed some time to think," you said, looking back out towards the marsh.
jj lets out a sigh, already having an inkling of what must be bothering you, and takes a seat beside you. "let me guess… liam again?"
"i just don't understand why it can't just be me," you shrug, a thousand things running through your head. most of the time, liam told you the girls were just his "friends". but deep down, you always wondered whether or not he took it any further with any of them. and that thought, alone, made you sick to your stomach.
"i mean, am i doing something wrong?" you turn your head to look jj, only to find that he was already looking at you, a certain kind of sadness filling his baby blues. he hated that you even thought you were the one in the wrong.
"it's not you, y/n. whatever he's doing, it's on him," he tells you. "stop putting up with it."
"but i love him, j," you admit, your voice cracking a little. you knew that you shouldn't. he was a scum bag. nothing but a cheater. but he was also the guy who made you feel like the most special girl in the world. the one you'd completely laid yourself bare to. "what am i suppose to do about that?"
the defeated look in your eyes broke his heart. but instead of listing off different ways you could deal with liam, jj decides to be a friend, and opens his arms up to you, "come here."
for the first time all night, you let yourself break, and immediately fall into his arms.
"i just don't get it," you sobbed into jj's chest, as he ran a hand through your hair and rested his head on top of yours,
in an attempt to soothe you. "i've done everything, j." you continued. "everything he needs from me, i do. everything he wants me to be, i try to be. so why can't he just let the other girls go? why can't i just be the one?"
hearing you cry about this guy was not only breaking jj's heart, but also making his blood boil. liam didn't deserve you, he knew that much.
after a few minutes in silence of jj just running his hands through your hair and pepperring soft kisses on your head, you finally pull away from him, looking like a complete mess.
there were now black stains under your eyes from crying some of your mascara off, and pieces of your hair stuck to your tear-stained cheeks, as you sniffled.
"i'm sorry," you said, attempting to rub off the mascara stains also leftover on jj's shirt. "your shirt's all stained with tears and mascara now."
"i don't give a shit about my shirt, y/n," he tells you, bringing a hand up to tuck your messy hair behind your ear. "are you okay?"
you sighed, the tears threatening to well up in your eyes again. ugh. after hearing yourself going on about the way you've felt about liam treating you, you were beginning to wonder whether or not it was really love you were feeling for him or not.
but if it wasn't love, why did you still feel like crying?
"i don't even know anymore," you say honestly, shaking your head and running your fingers through your hair. "i mean, how do you even go about loving someone who's hurt you so much?"
"you don't," jj tells you.
"you don't think i love him?" i asked. i wasn't sure why i was asking jj, but i also knew that he knew me better than anyone. maybe even better than liam. so if there was anyone who could tell whether or not i was in love… it'd be him, right?
"i can't tell you how you feel, y/n," he says.
"i'm not asking you to," i reply. "i just wanna know what you think."
he sighs, and shifts his eyes between yours. he knew exactly what he wanted to say, but he wasn't sure it was his place to do so—more so, he wasn't sure you'd like his take.
"promise you won't get mad?"
you chuckle, feeling uneasy now. "why would i get mad?"
"i think you're scared," he says, causing you to furrow your brows.
you scoff, thinking he sounds ridiculous. "scared? why would i be scared?"
"because he's your first," he shrugs. "i mean, he was your first, right?"
"so? what does that have to do with anything?" you ask, knowing damn well the information was relevant.
"i know you, y/n," he says, locking his eyes with mine. "you're a hopeless romantic who has your head buried in those romance books all the time because that's what you want. you want your first to be the one. and you're a perfectionist. you can't stand the idea of putting your all into one person only for them to not be worth it… so all this time… that's what you've tried to do."
you stay quiet. jj was actually making sense.
"i'm not saying you didn't love him," he continues. "i think you really did, but the love you felt before isn't what you're feeling now. i think it's just indifference. you don't want to believe that you've actually lost feelings for someone you've fought so hard for, so you try to convince yourself those feelings are still there. because that way… at least you won't be the bad guy."
your mouth had fallen agape, as you realized that jj was right. "wow."
"but you're not the bad guy anyway," he assures you, placing a hand on top of yours. "you've done all you can. what he does isn't your fault. your only fault would be staying."
"but what if he's fucked me up so bad that i've become unlovable?" you ask, voicing your real fear. truth was, you weren't always the best girlfriend. since liam made you feel so insecure about his feelings towards you all the time, it made you act out in ways you never thought you would. you'd call him incessantly when he wouldn't answer. you'd demand he cut certain girls off. ask for his location at all times. he saw the absolute worst of you. and yet, he stayed. what if no one else did?
"is that really what you think?" jj asks.
"i wasn't always the perfect girlfriend, j," i admit, glancing down and fiddling with his fingers on top of mine. "i was insecure all the time. i constantly-"
"because he made you feel that way," jj cuts you off, and picks your head up with his hands to make you look at him. "don't you get it, y/n? whatever you did, it was because of him. anyone made to feel insecure would act out. that's not your fault. you're just…" his eyes shift between yours. "human."
"but what if-"
"but nothing," he shook his head. "you are the absolute perfect version of yourself, y/n. and liam's an idiot for not realizing that. it doesn't get better than you."
without even thinking and being overwhelmed by the sweetness of jj's words, you lean in to kiss him.
he doesn't even hesitate to kiss you back, his hands on your face immediately tangling into your hair.
your hands make their way to back of his head, the kiss deepening as they do.
your tongues dance together in perfect harmony, until you abruptly pull away.
"wait, wait, wait," you say, and he looks at you, a mix of confusion and sadness at the lost of touch present on his face. "this feels wrong."
he glances down, "oh."
"no, not like that. i mean-" you take a deep breath to get your words together, while jj just looks at you. "the kiss was great. amazing, even. it's just… i'm still technically liam's girlfriend."
his eyes light up at the compliment about the kiss, before he chuckles, "shit."
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Dr pt2 spoiler warning
This was a fantastic set of episodes
• Kai and wyldfire are everything. Kai having to deal with someone who acts like he did in the earlier seasons is poetic justice and funny as hell.
• I also like how they kinda tried to explain why Kai seemed calm after sea bound and nyas seaifcation. I guess Kai meditating with wu would make him calmer. At least it confirms that Kai was upset (even if they didn’t show it)
•I am kinda upset that nothing from skybound was brought up with the Djinn. I personally don’t really like skybound but I still find that it could be used more than just oh yah that happened right wink wink. I mean we had to suffer through skybound for something right?
• I actually really liked sora and nyas whole plot with the Djinns curse. It was fun and had a nice conclusion.
• Coles return is great I love his little gang in the land of forgotten things. My favorite has to be the skeleton girl (I forgot her name probably cuz they only say it like 2 times) she’s funny.
• I do wish there was a scene where nyas like btw I found Cole and the other ninja react. I mean she does mention it at the end but no one except Zane has any real reaction.
• Beatrix going off the rails was really funny. It felt like someone gave a teen with daddy issues an insta death weapon.
• rapton switching sides kinda came out of left field for me. Like the guy isn’t the brightest bulb in the box I think it would be more likely for other characters to switch sides. Also how did he recover from being tased so quickly? Man was out cold and not two minutes later he was up and walking around.
• kinda felt that the whole being sucked into non existence should have had more lasting effects (totally not because I want to traumatize or brutally injure Kai no why would I want that /s) tho fake out deaths are pretty par for the course with ninjago, this one actually didn’t make me feel all that much cuz I knew the moment wyldfire got pulled in that this was a fake out. They wouldn’t kill one of there new characters that quickly.
•so wus just legitimately fudging dead. Never thought we would see the day when this old mad would just peace out. Also ghost wu legit looks like he’s slowly loosing his form or something cuz in the first half he appears with his full body but in the last scene he’s in he’s just a chest and a head. It might have just been a stylistic thing tho.
•I’m not mad jay only showed up for around 30 seconds (this just might be my bias tho cuz jays probably the ninja I care the least about, not that I hate him or anything he’s just not that interesting to me) it’s kinda refreshing for me cuz nya gets to be her own character for a bit and not be completely attached to Jay and Jay gets to take up less screen time (if I am being honest Jay had so much focus in the wild brain seasons it kinda got annoying to me personally) idk if he’s actually lost his memories or if that leak is wrong cuz it would make sense cuz he has not searched for the ninja (specifically nya cuz that man is a simp for his gf) Arin missing him by a second is hilarious to me.
•not sure about how I feel about Lloyd being the linchpin for the entire thing. Part of me thinks that it would have fit the shows themes better if all of them used their elemental powers or something else to power the cores to fix everything. But another part of me understands that Lloyd get main character privileges cuz he’s the son of ninjago god.
•still kinda frustrated that they are changing how elemental powers work. Originally they were from the first spinjitzu master, but the whole source dragon being the source (for lack of a better word) of the elemental powers, it completely retcons and nerfs the first spinjitzu master. It would have made more sense if they still came from the powers of the fsm and were gifted through the source dragons to people.
•the implication of the cursed realm merging with the rest of the realms brings up the question if the departed realm merged to? Does that mean no one can die??? Or is there some sort of force that still keeps the departed realm separated from the rest (like how the people in the land of the forgotten can’t leave) or can some dude just wander in to the departed realm and see like there dead grandma chilling with the fsm having tea or some crap like that.
•Lloyd going I forgot there are two of them now towards Kai and wyldfires antics is peak writing. And all the arson and explosions the two created is just beautiful.
•I think the Kai and wyldfire duo should be called like the arsonist or the kaboom duo
•THE HUGGG!!!! My boi was so happy looking when the tackle hug was done.
•I just cant get my brain to shut up about these two. They give off tired dad who sometimes gives in to his old chaotic ways he’s sworn he’s grown out of and living embodiment of chaos and fun daughter who drags her dad into crazy things.
Tdlr I loved this second half and had a few issues with it but it was still really good.
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Mad about you (Pedri x Reader - Smut)
Summary: Pedri pisses you of so you decided to give him a punishment😉
Warnings: smut, swearing, slightly angst
It has been a year since you and the young Spanish Barcelona player have been together. The truth is that Pedri has been involved in many hook up/dating scandals which weren’t ofc true until he met you and he didn’t take him long to fall in love with you.
He never confirmed or unconfirmed the scandals he was supposedly involved in because he knew his family and his real fans would never believe any of that, but when it came to you and everything between the two of you he was keen on the idea to publicly announce your relationship. There were photos of you and him leaked already being together so it was the perfect opportunity for you to confirm your relationship
You were kinda afraid of his fan girls because you thought after the confirmation they would attack you and hate you but it turned out to be better than you thought. His good and loyal fans loved you as you treated the golden boy with respect and the love he deserves. Also they saw how your cariño’s eyes sparked every time he was with you and that’s all they wanted for him
But that didn’t mean that every fan of him would treat you in the same mature way. Sometimes when you were out for a walk some of his fan girls spotted you and asked a photo with the young star. You were never negative about it, in fact you liked that they appreciated your bf and his team, but all of that with a limit.
One day when you were driving for your scheduled Sunday lunch a fan of him raised her hand and pedri immediately stopped the car. He opened the window and you saw a very beautiful girl with blonde hair and blue eyes around your age asking for a photo with him and ultimately giving him a piece of paper writing something inside.
You were never a fan of these type of notes as girls always wrote him their numbers, instas and stuff. It made you jealous and it made you more jealous the fact that this beautiful girl gave him the note but he didn’t throw it away after reading it as he always does.
In the afternoon as Pedri was in the shower you sneaked in his stuff and grabbed the paper because you would explode if you didn’t read what was inside of it. You had murder on your mind as soon as you read the paper. The girl literally wrote all this nasty stuff about you and demanded Pedri to meet her in a hotel after his training tomorrow
After Pedri was done, he was in a mood for yk but he noticed your grumpy face. “What happened to you amor?”
You threw the paper in his face as you left the room and locked yourself in the guest room where you could spend the night since you were not in mood facing him. Pedri was knocking the door demanding answers “Y/N please what did I do, answer me and I can explain you if possible’’
“Ohh please you say you care about me and stuff but in the first chance you get for pleasure you run like a puppy, I guess the rumours of you and all those hook ups were true” you said
“Y/N stop you know all these are nothing but lies, you are the first girl I ever felt something real about, open the door and let me show you how much I love you” Pedri replied
“You think sex is always the answer after every argument, sorry Pedri but this is all too much to handle, if you want to get laid you can always message Gabriela (the girl who wrote the note)” you said
“Wait- what? Who is Gabriela?” he said
“Don’t act surprised Gonzalez, you know damn well. Good night I am tired” you replied
When Pedri heard you called him Gonzalez he really knew you were pissed of. He tried knocking and knocking all over but with no success. He returned to your room and slept since he had training tomorrow
The next morning he woke up and he understood that you had already left for your uni classes. Pedri was sad and confused about what happened. He remembered the moment when you threw the piece of paper in him so he run to the room looking for it. He found it in a corner where he read what it was written. As soon as he finished he knew how fucked up he was. He wanted to make up for it and he knew the way
When you returned from university you hoped Pedri could come soon so to get every bad thought you had unconfirmed but hours passed and your chances were starting getting lower and lower. So you decided to wear your favourite lingerie nightgown and watch your favourite series.
You heard the door unlocking and you didn’t even bother to check. Pedri greeted you but you rolled your eyes. Pedri had enough of this attitude of yours so he decided to open up to you
“Y/N I understood what I did wrong I had to get rid of the paper as soon as we arrived home but I promise I didn’t open it until today after our argument. Please you have to believe me” he said
“That’s why it is 8:00 pm and you were supposed to be back at 4:00 pm, I guess someone had a lil too much fun today with Gabriela” you answered
“Who gives a shit about this irrelevant girl when I have you. You have no fucking idea how hard it was for me to sleep without you last night. I needed you and I needed to feel your hands, your arms, your soft touch, I needed everything of you. I needed you yesterday, I need you today and I will need you forever. I love you Y/N, you are the only girl in the world, my only girl” he said accompanied by a soft cheek kiss
These words coming from his mouth melted your heart, you realised that you were too quick to judge, you had to listen to him in the first place. But you still had the upper hand you wanted to tease him a lil more and you knew the way
“The reason I was late was because I visited my mom and begged her to make our favourite croquettes. I thought it would be a small yet meaningful forgiving gift. What do you say?” He asked
You still gave him the silent treatment. Pedri fell on his knees kissing your hands and saying “Cmon Y/N what more can I do to forgive me?”
You suddenly turned your head and looked at him with your playful eyes “Well there is a way to make me forgive you and if you are a good boy you can get a reward later” you said making Pedri blush and starting to sweat
You stood up heading to your bedroom where Pedri followed you like his life depended on all of this. Pedri closed the door and prepared himself for what was gonna happen next.
You moved the strips of your nightgown allowing your dress falling from you and leaving you only with your lingerie bra and pants. The underwear made your curves and chest look perfect and that made Pedri’s jaw to fall on the floor. “Oh god Y/N you look fucking amazing, I need to be inside of you, pls let me in I swear you won’t regret this” Pedri said while his bulge started being visible from his skinny jeans
“Not so fast Pepi, you have to satisfy my g spot differently before your dick feels every inch of my pussy” you said in dominant way. You sit on the edge of the bed and then slowly you started opening your legs widely.
“Y/N -I… God I am so fucking horny rn pls i can’t wait anymore” he said while suffering from pain. “Shut up and get on your fucking knees, you are wasting time” Pedri obeyed you like a good little boy and after removing his shirt, he dropped on his knees ready to pleasure you in every way you wanted
“Now do a good use of your mouth and start licking every inch of my pussy, I want to see my cum on your mouth. If you succeed then i am all yours” Pedri didn’t waste a second and rapidly removed your pants exposing your wet pussy
He put one of his fingers to massage your clit and felt all the wetness “Joder Y/N so fucking wet for me and I didn’t even do anything to you yet” he said. “Less talking pepi and more action”
He started by kissing your inner thigh and then by moving closer to your outer lips where you felt all his saliva. You let out a small moan from the enjoyment while throwing your head back. He moved to your inner lips and ultimately found your vaginal opening where he entered you with his tongue. His pace was ideal, you enjoyed every moment of it but you wanted more you wanted to be in this position forever. “Fuck Pedri you do me so good you are almost there” you said while pushing his head further inside
“A little eager aren’t we Y/N?” he said. “Shut up! You aren’t allowed to talk until you make me cum”. Pedri made his pace faster and you felt your cum being on the edge. You rode yourself on his mouth so you could help spread your juices all over his face
“Pedri I am gonna cum…omg you make me feel so fucking alive” you moaned. Suddenly you breathed and let it all out. Pedri’s face was covered with your cum but he didn’t seem to mind. Instead he licked his lips “Y/N you taste so good. I wanna eat you like this every night” he said
“Btw am I forgiven now?” He asked. You took him from his neck and started kissing him passionately, putting in him top of your bare skin so you could feel his muscles and abs. “Does this answer your question?” you asked
With one of his hands he unclenched your bra exposing your tits in his face. You on the other hand you reached with your hand inside of his boxers so you could feel his hot hardened cock. That was a sign for you to help his situation…
End of part one
I could have written more but it is already big so I am gonna divide this into two parts:))
Hope you enjoyed it and stay tuned for the second enjoyable part😮💨
Btw this was my first story so sorry if the details aren’t perfect🥲
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hate III
summary: you start freaking out but ‘putting the genie back in the bottle’ is a lot harder than you realise.
rating: 18+
words: 5.8k
characters: lewis hamilton x fem!reader
a/n: this is a long one, a little dialogue heavy, a little angsty and a touch of fluff and smut. feel free to let me know how shitty it is read the previous part here
summer break officially over you knew you weren’t going to see lewis for weeks, it’d only been a week and you were missing him not that you’d admit it to yourself - you weren’t missing him, you were missing the sex. lewis was scrolling through insta watching all of their mutual friend’s stories just for a peak of you - how pathetic he thought, your insta was private and he couldn’t send a follow request for two reasons - one he didn’t follow anyone and secondly, you’d laugh at him.
he thought about texting you now that you both said you’d stop hating each other but just because you said that it didn’t mean you really wanted to be friends. looking at himself in the mirror every day, the scattering of marks you’d left as revenge made it impossible not to think about you though.
you made dinner plans with one of your best friends, someone that wasn't a mutual friend of you and lewis. you had barely sat down with y/f/n when immediately started with the questions, she knew something was up.
‘so are we going to talk about it?’
‘what?’
‘girl, the hickeys! you haven’t told me about anyone new, so who was it!?’
‘no one you know’
‘you’re a terrible liar and you’re never secretive when you get laid! it is someone i know but you don’t want me to know…’
‘ugh, it was a one off!’
‘no it wasn’t, you had hickeys after the party y/f/n threw and you have a hickey again after the dinner…omg! it’s definitely someone i know!’
‘okay so it was a two time thing but it’s not happening again so i’m not going to tell you who it was’
‘oh come on! i can keep a secret and besides don’t you wanna talk about it?’
‘no i wanna forget it ever happened’
‘wait did you hook up at the party?’
you scrunched your face letting out a groan, god you wanted this conversation to end. you were a terrible liar but y/f/n wasn’t mutual friends with lewis, she was your friend you could tell her everything and it wouldn’t be such a big deal.
‘yes’
your friend let out a gasp. ‘omg now you have to tell me!’
you knew your friend she was incessant and you did need to discuss it and your mixed emotions that you were trying to ignore.
‘okay but you can’t be weird about it or judge me’
‘omg just tell me! who was it? wait let me guess, lewis’ she giggled laughing at her little joke which only made you sigh. i mean the thought of you and lewis was funny, you both hated each other and she especially knew that since you knew you could complain about him to her.
‘it was lewis’
‘oh come on tell me the truth’
‘i’m not lying, i was horny and drunk you know that’s not a good combo for me! and he was there, it just happened! and then the other night at dinner when everyone left, it happened again’
it all rushed out but you were sure to leave out the part about him fucking you in his bathroom with them all downstairs, the party was bad enough but alcohol was a great excuse - the dinner on the other hand you had no excuse for.
‘wtf!? lewis!? you hate lewis! he hates you! and you weren’t that drunk at the party!’ you rolled your eyes thinking back to lewis stating the same thing, maybe you were more horny than drunk…you weren’t going to admit that. ‘and what do mean it happened again, you just fell on his dick the second time!?’
‘i’m sensing judgement…’
‘i’m not judging, i’m confused do you hate each other or not? are you guys fuck buddies now? i said you guys just need to fuck it out! i was right!’
‘when did you say that!?’
‘i mean i didn’t say it to you just thought to myself whenever you’d tell me about something he’d said or done to annoy you, you guys bicker like a married couple. clearly, it was just a matter of when’
‘whatever’
‘so what does this mean?’
‘nothing! clearly we both hadn’t gotten laid in awhile and we let our hormones get the better of us, it’s not happening again’
‘it happened twice though’
‘and that’s why i’ve downloaded hinge again, i need to get back out into the dating scene again’
‘so what are you guys going back to hating each other?’
you thought back to the conversation you and lewis had on the couch, maybe you could be friends but maybe you should just stay hating him maybe it’d be easier to be around him.
‘we never stopped’
‘well in couple weeks he’s gonna be back in town so we’ll see’
‘there no we’ll see’
‘okay whatever i want the details, was he any good? is he big?’
you rolled your eyes laughing. ‘well i wouldn’t have hooked up with him twice if he wasn’t and no comment’
‘boo, you’re no fun. do i need to get you drunk? let’s order a couple shots of tequila’
you drank way too much at dinner but it was a nice distraction from obsessively thinking about lewis till you got home that is. laying bed you thought about the fact you had another week before you’d see him again, you were anxious. what if it was awkward? how could it not be awkward? your mind was racing with different scenarios maybe lewis hadn’t even spared you thought, why would he? he had a championship to worry about. it was just a random hook up and nothing more - you don’t know how many times you were gonna repeat that to yourself before you believed it.
you scrolled through hinge bored after only a few minutes, looking at the time it was late but you didn’t care you decided to call lewis - giving into your impulses, you could always blame it on the alcohol.
‘hello’
you almost dropped your phone, a little surprised lewis had picked up your call.
‘heeeey’
‘y/n? why are you calling me at this time?’
you didn’t like the way he answered, the tone of his voice. you were probably reading into it way too much but you had a habit of doing so, i mean you were drunk who didn’t act little ridiculous when drunk.
‘am i interrupting something?’
‘i was about to go to sleep’
‘idk why you’d pick up then’ you rolled your eyes, sighing. ‘byeee’
‘wait, you didn’t answer my question’
‘doesn’t matter you’re going to bed’
‘just tell me why you called’
‘no, you’ve ruined my mood’
‘i didn’t do anything!’
‘your energy is not a vibe’
‘i’m sorry’
‘you don’t even know why you’re apologising’
‘i’m apologising for ruining your mood, even if you won’t tell me how…’
‘okay bye!’
you shut off the phone not giving lewis a chance to reply, you groaned burying your face into your pillow embarrassed at that stupid call. what were you thinking!? why did it go so sideways!? what was the point!? you didn’t know what to expect but that wasn’t it and now it would definitely be more awkward. you sighed, telling your brain to shut up and stop over thinking the situation you closed your eyes willing yourself to sleep but before you could your phone rang - fuck it was lewis. you wanted to ignore it but you knew dealing with this sober would be far more agonising.
‘what?’
‘uhh why did you lock off like that?’
‘why are you calling me back?’
‘you’re annoyed with me and i didn’t even do anything!’
‘i’m drunk, let’s just forget the phone call happened’
he chuckled, of course you were drunk why else would you be calling him at this time you seemed to have a habit of being reckless when fuelled by alcohol.
‘figured, you’re so sensitive when you’re drunk’
‘fuck off’
it was meant as a joke but he could sense you were still angry and upset with him, he hated it and even more so he hated that he hated it. it’s never bothered him before so why now did it bother him especially when he didn’t even do anything to piss you off and yet he was apologising.
‘are you gonna tell me why you called?’
‘the moment’s passed, i was just bored’
‘and you thought of me?’
you could hear the smirk in his voice, you hated it. ‘shut up’
‘come on, did you just drunk dial me to argue?’
‘yeah, i didn’t want to wait another week to fight with you. i miss it’
you chewed on your lips as the words escaped your mouth, you didn’t say you miss him but even letting him know you missed him on any level made you queasy. he smiled hearing those words, sure you didn’t say you missed him but you still missed him, he was going to ignore the context and clear sarcasm in your tone.
‘i missed you too’
‘eww’
he laughed, he should be offended but he wasn’t surprised by your answer you weren’t affectionate to your friends so absolutely wouldn’t be with him.
‘what’s funny?’
‘you’re so predictable’
he didn’t seem bothered by your response which you didn’t know how to take, you did miss him though but he clearly didn’t mean when he said it but there was something in the way he said it…you just want there to be something you thought.
‘if i was so predictable you’d know why i called you’
‘you said it yourself you were bored so you decided to harass me because you gain a sick pleasure from annoying me’
‘it really turns me on’
‘no wonder you fucked me that night’
‘i guess that makes you a masochist, do you like being my little bitch?’
‘i think you’re forgetting who’s the brat and who did the brat taming’
‘i think the next time you see me you’ll be begging for me’
‘i thought there wasn’t going to be a next time?’
‘i didn’t say there was going to be one just that you’ll be begging for one, for me’
‘you wish’
‘you know i called you because i was horny, you could’ve been hearing me moan your name as i touch myself but instead you’re your annoying self’
he groaned unsure of what to say you’d thrown him threw a loop, you were so confusing he couldn’t stand it but before he had a chance to reply you let out a yawn.
‘but now i’m tired and i’m going to bed, night lewis’
you kicked off again without even waiting for his goodbye and he knew this time to not bother calling back, your tone was finite you were done with the conversation, done with him. he sighed as he thought back to the sounds of your moans and the way you sounded when his name fell from your lips. he ran his hands over his face annoyed at the way his cock twitched at the thought, at the way you teased him and left him hanging, this is why you guys didn’t get along you were infuriating.
you laid in bed smiling at leaving that conversation with the upper hand, it was childish of you and you knew deep down he hadn’t meant to piss you off but you didn’t care, you were pissed off so you were gonna piss him off you only wished you could’ve seen the look on his face. you might’ve not been able to stand lewis but the way you used you felt so good and yes he used you that’s all this was, you were both using each other to get off and the hate was part of it, you were going back on your offer of being nice to him. whatever fleeting thoughts you had were just that - fleeting thoughts and if you were honest pissing lewis off was so much more fun than being nice to him.
as the week dredged on you scrolled through the dating apps determined to find a date asap, you weren’t in any real rush to be in a relationship but you needed a distraction, a palette cleanser after lewis and especially before lewis came back and you were in luck. they were the total opposite of lewis from looks to personality, they had taken you to a bar for drink which you thought was a little cheap and questionable for a first date but you couldn’t be picky with the time constraint. before your date you had gone to dinner with the mutual friends you had with lewis and now you were being really petty and a little pathetic but you were dolled up so you made sure to take lots of selfies with your girls for their insta stories in hopes lewis would see it.
your friends made a fuss over your sexy number, taking lots of pics they made sure to caption it ‘her date tonight is so lucky 🥵’ you loved the way your friends hyped you up you’d forgotten why you were doing all this, you were just having a fun night. your date went as expected, mediocre and when he kissed you, sure it was pleasant but lewis popped into your mind. you went home annoyed the whole purpose a flop, you needed to go back to hating lewis.
race weekend over lewis had a two week break. he knew what he wanted to do and that was see you, after the phone call and then the insta stories he saw he couldn’t stop thinking about you which you clearly didn’t feel the same way. he wanted to know every detail of that date, he just hoped someone would ask about it tonight. their friends had planned another gathering so he knew he’d be seeing you, it felt nervous it’d been awhile since the last time and with certain events he wasn’t sure what it’d be like seeing you again or how to behave around you.
you were the last to arrive, you spent way too much time thinking about your outfit setting on a mini dress that was both cute and sexy. greeting everyone you ignored lewis as usual but he had other plans, he sat next to you and involved himself in as many conversations you had. you were growing tired of it but you couldn’t exactly snap at him for it so you tried to ice him out or poke at him but he didn’t bite it was like he almost found it amusing. when he managed to get you alone he brought it up.
‘i thought we were going to try and be friends?’
‘did i say that? i don’t remember agreeing to that?’
‘really? you don’t remember me eating you out and making you cum twice on my tongue? as a reward’
‘reward?’ you rolled your eyes. ‘whatever, pissing you off is only fun if you actually get pissed off’
‘what can i say, i find your bratty attitude hot’
‘pathetic’
‘doesn’t mean i won’t put you in your place’
‘you can try’ you walked away unable to think of a better retort. joining your friends again.
‘so y/n how was your date?’ now this was a conversation you didn’t mind having.
‘it was nice, he was cute and sweet’
‘did you guys hook up?’
‘maybe…’ your friends laughed at your coyness, you were one to never divulge too much.
‘you gonna see him again?’
‘i think so’
‘think so? if he hasn’t already asked you out he’s not’ lewis couldn’t stand hearing about this guy, so he butted in with his own opinion’s.
‘you don’t know jack shit'
‘i know you were dressed like a slut so if you fucked him and he got what he wanted there’s no reason for a second date’
‘slut shaming? how original’
your friends were taken aback by lewis’s outbursts, one giving him a punch in the arm you walked away trying to hold back your smirk, he was behaving exactly like expected. lewis found you upstairs in a bedroom, of course probably here to apologise.
‘i don’t wanna hear it, jealousy doesn’t suit you’
‘i wasn’t jealous, you know you’re forgetting you opened your legs pretty easily for me’
‘fuck you’
‘i think it’s pretty normal i didn’t wanna hear about you fucking other men!’
‘i don’t care about what you wanna here, you’re not my boyfriend’
‘thank fuck, i still don’t wanna hear about the pussy i’m fucking getting fucked’
‘the pussy!? i have a fucking name’
‘i didn’t mean it like that’
‘oh please, you meant it’
‘i’m not jealous’
‘so you just genuinely think i’m a slut’
‘you call me a slut all the time’
‘as a joke but you did it to hurt me’
‘i’m sorry’
‘fuck off’
‘please, i’m sorry y/n’
‘i don’t want to look at you right now’ you tried to walk out but lewis grabbed your wrist.
‘just fuck off’
you stormed out, lewis sighing he really fucked it up. he let his emotions get the best of him, he didn’t know what to do. after you cooled off you and lewis didn’t acknowledge each other’s presence at all and the evening ran smoothly, lying to your friends that lewis had apologised and all was forgiven. you still had a good night refusing to let him get to you, at first you weren’t pissed off but the private conversation? he really got under your skin. he knew better than to approach you after his shitty comments but he couldn’t stop looking at you all night, desperate to fix things. as the night drew to a close everyone started ordering uber’s and lewis decided to take a chance following you as you went to the kitchen for a quick drink.
‘let me give you a ride home y/n, your place is along the way’
you narrowed your eyes at him. ‘no, i can call an uber’
‘please i just want to talk’
‘fine’
he gave you this pleading look which you couldn’t say no to, you were already over him calling you a slut it had just been the perfect opportunity to create a rift between you two again but then he looked at you like that and now you were giving him another chance to apologise. your friends weren’t surprised at the fact you were accepting a ride in fact they were happy, if only they knew you thought. goodbyes said you followed lewis to his waiting chauffeured car. opening the door for you, you mumbled a thanks. the car ride was awfully quiet but you had no desire to fill the silence but he said he wanted to talk so you knew it was a matter of time.
‘i’m sorry for what i said, it was out of line. you can sleep with whoever you want. it’s none of my business and i had no right to judge. please forgive me?’
he looked at you with his stupid pleading eyes but you ignored him, shifting your body away from you looked out the car window. he didn’t push it, he didn’t know what else to say. the rest of the car journey was quiet till you pulled up to your flat.
‘well this is me, bye’
‘let me walk you to your door’
‘no’
‘please’
you were too tired argue, you nodded and let him follow you into the building. it was obviously a poor excuse to come upstairs and you weren’t too mad about it, when you reached your door though you opened it just enough to let yourself in turning to him.
‘well you’ve walked me to my door’
‘you really not going to invite me in?’
‘you didn’t say you wanted to come in’
‘i just really want to make it up to you’
‘you have a car waiting downstairs’
‘not anymore’
‘you think a simple apology and you get what you want’
‘don’t do this’
‘do what?’
‘go back to hating me’
‘you make it really easy’
‘you think i don’t know what you’re trying to do, i know you don’t care that i called you a slut you just wanted a reason to hate me again’
‘that’s not true’
‘you’re a terrible liar’ he sighed, rubbing his forehead annoyed and unable to think of a comeback. ‘ugh i just wanna—fuck!’
he grabbed your face leaning down his nose pressed against yours, you leaned forward closing the gap you gave you to decide if you wanted this. his kiss was hard and angry, his hand grabbing your butt you jumped into his arms wrapping your legs around him he stepped in pushing you against the wall as he kicked your front door shut. he bit down on your lip tugging as he trailed kisses down your neck, sucking and nipping.
‘lewis!’ his name came out in a moan more than as a warning you intended it to be.
‘no more hickeys…’
he whined against your neck, pressing kisses along your shoulders as he pushed your strap down his hands running down your front, he grabbed your breasts pushing your top further down. you moaned as he took your breasts into his mouth, his tongue swirling around your nipples you thought about how good his mouth felt against your skin but he was being too gentle, you didn’t want any hickeys but actually if they weren’t anywhere visible what did it matter the way he attacked your body with his mouth wasn’t something you wanted to give up.
‘i don’t want hickeys anywhere visible’
he looked up at you smirking at the implication, he takes your breast back into his mouth. you arch your back your legs around him tightening as you whimpered. he squeezed your ass, his mouth tracing back up your chest.
‘bedroom?’
‘straight ahead’
when he threw you on your bed, you sat up on your knees pulling off your own dress left in nothing but your panties. you crawled up to the edge, lewis pulling off his own clothes you helped with the trousers as his cock sprung free you were about to drop to your knees, your mouth salivating at the sight of his hard cock but it must’ve been obvious to lewis because he grabbed your chin to look up to him.
‘lay back’
with that tone of voice you knew it wasn’t up for debate, doing as he commanded he leaned forward pulling your underwear down he opened your legs wide as he went down on his knees - eye level with your glistening pussy.
‘you’re soaking wet…’ he didn’t waste any time, diving into your folds he lapped up your juice, sucked on your clit. ‘your date make you feel this good?’ he looked up at you but you refused to make eye contact but he wasn’t letting you off. he slapped your pussy, plunging two fingers into your waiting hole you arched your back biting your bottom lip trying to hold back your moans.
‘answer me’
‘no’
‘that’s right, no one will ever make you feel this good’
he was relentless, his mouth his tongue his fingers, he devoured your pussy and whenever you squirmed his arms were back around yours thighs holding you wide open. all that filled the room were the sounds of your choked sobs and lewis’s encouraging words as you neared your climax.
‘fuck lewis i’m gonna come!’
he swirled his tongue around your clit sucking on it just right, your toes curled as your gripped the bed sheets the waves of your orgasms crashing over you. of course lewis didn’t let up lapping up your juices pinning you down as you tried to break free from his grip. your pussy clenching around nothing it was aching to be filled, you needed lewis inside of you.
‘ahh fuck, lewis fuck me’
he climbed on top of you lacing his fingers with yours he held your arms overhead as he kissed you deeply, tasting yourself on his tongue drove you insane, you were desperate for more.
you bit his bottom lip tugging gently. ‘lewis..’ his name came out in a breathy moan, you didn’t need to say anymore he knew what you needed. he pulled away only to watch as his cock stretched you out sliding into your aching hole with ease. his thrusts were slow but deep, sinking all the way before pulling out till only the tip was inside of you - the stretch felt so good. you knew he wanted you to beg for him but you weren’t going to submit anymore than you already had. you leaned up wrapping your arms around his neck, your nose grazed against his.
‘you think your cock’s special? you think i won’t find someone to fuck me just how i like?‘
he growled ‘god i fucking hate you’ kissing you roughly he pushed you back down, slamming his cock into you like you wanted. you hissed as you yanked on his ponytail of braids you’d be playing with which only egged on lewis. pressing soft kisses along your jawline, his hand danced along your neck.
‘put your hand around my throat, don’t squeeze baby’ he groaned wrapping around his hands your neck, you clenched around him and when he felt the effect he had on you he smirked slamming into you harder.
‘you filthy whore’
he was rough, his pace brutal and you loved every minute of it as he railed you your nails dug into his back with every slam digging into dipper, you were sure you’d broken skin. having cummed already your second orgasm wasn’t trailing far behind and your clit already sensitive didn’t need to be touched, the angle in which your bodies met was enough.
‘look at me, watch me use you’
trying to keep your eyes open felt impossible, you just wanted to get lost in the pleasure. you watched as lewis face twisted, his nose scrunching his eyebrows furrowing, his own climax nearing. you kissed him or at least tried, it was sloppy all teeth as you both moaned into each other’s mouth so overcome with pleasure.
‘fuck!’
‘you greedy slut’
it hit you so suddenly as quick as your body tense it went limp, the waves washing over you your body shuddered. lewis continued fuck you through your orgasm, groaning as your pussy walls fluttered around his cock himself on the edge.
‘fill me up!’
his thrusts become disjointed as he reached his climax, muttering a string of incoherent words you wrapped your legs around him holding him against you as you milked his cock. he groaned trying not to collapse on top of you, he caged you in with his arms on either side of you kissing you passionately as spent as he was he would go another round if he could. your legs falling to the sides lewis pulled out hissing as you clenched around him.
‘baby…’
you whined at the loss of fullness, quickly replaced with a moan as you felt his cum dripping out of you. lewis enjoyed watching his seed spill out but he enjoyed it even more when he realised his much you liked it, dragging his cum through your folds he smirked as you moaned.
‘god, you’re dirty slut aren’t you?’ he plunged his fingers in, finger fucking his cum back inside you created the filthiest sounds along with your choked sobs. you were sure you were too sensitive for another orgasm but you were too tired to fight against lewis, your limbs like jelly your brain short circuiting trying not to become overwhelmed by lewis’s fingers. it proved to be an impossible task, your back arched, your mouth open with a moan stuck in your throat your third orgasm hit you. your body convulsing, you snapped your legs shut against lewis’s hand. he chuckled slipping out, he towered over you as he shoved his fingers in your mouth which you cleaned off without hesitation.
‘good girl’
your breath hitched at the words, sucking on his fingers harder giving away your praise kink lewis smirked making a note for next time. you laid in bed absolutely shattered as lewis cleaned you both up.
you laid in bed as lewis walked back in grabbing his boxers.
‘i’m gonna leave now’
you leaned up watching him grab his clothes you crawled to the edge of the bed and grabbed his wrists.
‘it’s late, you should stay’
‘i don’t wanna inconvenience you’
letting him sleep over was probably a bad idea when you kept trying to put this wall up between you and lewis.
‘you’re not, i want you to stay’
you wrapped your arms around his neck as you kissed him softly, lewis dropping his clothes grabbed your waist kissing you back gently. you pulled back from his lips raising your eyebrows and biting your bottom lip waiting for an answer.
‘okay i’ll stay’
the way you looked at him made it impossible for him to say no to you. god you confused him, swinging from animosity to kindness. was it the haze of sex clouding your judgement? he didn’t want to think about it right now. you got ready for bed, brushing your teeth and doing your skincare you gave lewis a spare toothbrush head for your electric toothbrush which you wondered was that weird, you never do that for anyone except your best friend. finally in bed you tossed and turned trying to get comfortable, lewis sliding in.
‘thanks for the toothbrush and face wash’
‘you’re welcome’
‘good night’
‘night’
you both laid on opposite ends of the bed, it felt awkward and you couldn't stop you tossing and turning.
‘are you okay?’
‘sorry, sometimes i just get a little restless before bed. can’t get comfortable’
‘come here’
he shifted closer to you and you to him, pulling you into his arms he held you tightly from behind. his hands finding yours he squeezed them his thumb stroking the back of your hand you found it soothing, relaxing into his touch you soon found sleep.
lewis woke up before you did, he watched you as you slept, not quite in his grasp anymore but still close enough to play with your hair and stroke your head. he contemplated on what to do, he thought it was a little creepy watching you sleep. he grabbed his phone to check the time, it was early somehow he was awake before his alarm. he remembered he had a workout with angela this morning, he thought about just sneaking out if not for the fact he didn’t know what to expect from you, would you be sweet or mean but it didn’t matter your own phone started buzzing, your alarm going off. you groaned as you reached out for your phone quickly shutting off your alarm, you yawned and stretched twisting around to find lewis awake.
‘i didn’t wake you did i?’
‘morning to you too, no i just woke up a minute ago’
‘morning’
your eyes were still closed not quite ready to be awake, you pulled the covers over your head groaning. lewis chuckled pulling the covers down.
‘stop!’
‘what are you doing?’
‘that alarm was my going for a run alarm, i am not going for a run anymore so i’m going to sleep some more’
‘if it’s because of me…’
‘no, i just can’t be bothered. you wanna have breakfast?’
‘i can’t i’ve actually got to go’
he quickly jumped out of bed, you rose up confused watching him get dressed, there was an awkward tension now. what had just happened? was he still mad over last night?
‘you sure you don’t want a cup of tea?’
‘i’ve put you out enough’
‘i mean after a couple orgasms breakfast is a fair offer’
‘i really gotta go, i meant to be working out with angela soon’
‘well then breakfast makes even more sense, you need to fuel before a workout’
‘stop y/n’
‘what?’
‘if you’re gonna go back to hating me don’t offer me breakfast the next day’
‘do you have to be so dramatic’
he sighed as he watched kneeling on the bed, visibly dejected. he felt bad but he knew this is what you really wanted, the friendship thing was his idea and you were just forcing it. he wrapped his arms around you giving you a hug and a quick peck on the forehead.
‘i’ve really got to go, bye’
heading to your front door you followed after him.
‘seriously!?’
you didn’t even have a chance to say anything, he just turned to you and gave you a quick kiss on the lips before leaving which threw you off, you just stood there for a few moments trying to process that whole thing - you needed to call your best friend to vent.
‘y/f/n i fucked up!’
‘what happened?’
‘lewis happened, he stayed over last night after we hooked up but that’s not the issue. i know i said we still hated each other after the last time but we said we’d be nice, except i was horrible to him and now i’m pretty sure he really hates me’
‘why is that a problem?’
‘because the look on his face, it was bad and he’s not gonna want to fuck me again’
‘well, wasn’t that the whole point of downloading hinge?’
‘yeah, but he’s so good in bed’
‘then apologise and be friends with benefits instead of trying to be enemies with benefits’
‘ugh’
‘since when have you ever even cared about his feelings? maybe the real issue here is that you want to be friends with benefits’
‘ugh shut up!’
‘i’m right! you can’t deny lewis is a sweetheart and now that he isn’t actively trying to piss you off you’re finally seeing it’
‘he’s still an asshole, in fact we got into it last night because he was jealous over my date.’
‘don’t you think it’s a little interesting he was jealous…’
‘don’t even go there, his exact words were ‘i don’t like to share’ he’s just possessive’
‘look y/n you’re overthinking the whole thing, just go with the flow. i know both things are hard for you to do but try and enjoy the multiple orgasms and don’t think any deeper than that. unless there’s something else?’
this was your opportunity to say what the issue really was, that maybe there was something deeper between you and lewis you couldn't stop thinking about him but you weren’t ready to acknowledge those feelings yet.
‘there’s nothing else’
‘so apologise and let yourself become friends, if anything it’ll make the situation better not worse and i’m sure everyone will appreciate it’
‘you’re right’
‘i’m always right!’
you felt lighter after the phone call but what were you going to do about lewis? he did a complete 180 this morning, maybe you could text him to come over? would that seem needy? you got back into bed sighing, not overthinking was impossible.
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Staring at the mirror looking at my self in disgust , Jack “fans” mean comments are starting to really get to me , being a black woman and dating one of the world’s favorite rapper is hard especially when you are constantly reminded that Jack should’ve ended up dating a white woman
But those aren’t the comments that got me overthinking my worth , it’s the comments from them saying how my Afro looks like a Matt/rug and them saying how I should keep my hair in braids or straighten, thinking of the comments got me tearing up in the mirror while picking at all my flaws my Afro being one of them
Growing up my Afro was always my biggest flaw in my eyes , though when me and Jack got together He would always tell me that my Afro is special and it’s one of the things He loves most about me , his fans think other wise , although my thought process was immediately cut short when he knocked on the bathroom door “baby you alright ? You been in there for a while now ”
I wiped my tears in a hurry and turned the faucet on so it can make it seem like I was just using the bathroom I exited the bathroom and there he was sitting on the bed staring back at me , my mood haven’t been the best today and he obviously knew that , I must’ve did a horrible job at trying to hide my emotions and the fact I was just crying because he immediately seen right through my facade
“Come here ” he pats his lap I immediately ran into his arms and started sobbing, he rubbed my back shushing me “shhhh it’s ok baby I got you ” he grabs my cheek caressing it softly while wiping my left over tears the sight of his blue eyes can make any woman melt “ what happened pretty ?” He asks concerned “the comments Jack ” he then became confused I’m guessing he didn’t check his twitter and insta today
“What do you mean y/n ” he says while rubbing my back still “is my afro ugly ? ” I asked but the second I asked that he immediately stopped rubbing my back after a moment of silence he finally spoke again “ Y/n stand up ” he says I’m confuse but I stand up anyways, he leads me to a mirror I caught on to what he was doing I turned my head where I can’t see my reflection “look y/n” he grabs my chin and gently turns my head to face the mirror again
I go over my body my hair most importantly “do you wanna know how I feel about your hair ” he asked I was scared even though I know how he feels about it “ your afro is beautiful I think it’s makes your pretty brown eyes pop , your Afro is a crown that you should not only honor but be proud of , those people don’t know what they’re talking about ,I don’t see how anybody could even hate on you , everything about you is beautiful especially your ass but that’s for another time ”
I laugh at his laugh last comment “there’s that beautiful smile that I’ve been looking for all day, moral of the story is DON’T hide it embrace it , now if you don’t mind I would love to show you how much you really mean to me ” he says while leading me to the bed I’m really the luckiest girl in the world .
A/n- Remember our hair is a crown doesn’t matter how we wear it , don’t hide it embrace it 🫶🏾🫶🏾
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I agree with everything you said in your response to that ask. It's obvious Chaggie wasn't something she was always going for. What confuses me is her mindset of, well now that it's canon, I don't have to put in any work for this ship. Excuse me? What? Has Viv never shipped before. That's not how canon works. You have to make ppl care about the ship and she or the writers haven't done that. How is Chaggie good enough to become canon because of some fanart but not good enough for you to flesh out their relationship for ppl to care about? That's dumb as hell. For all that, she should've had them stay platonic. I'm not even a Chaggie shipper but the fact that the creator of this ship doesn't even care about them is disgusting. Nobody told her to make them happen. She did that herself.
Let's be honest, she's likely been on the internet long enough to know what shipping is, explaining her more cavalier attitude on fans shipping which used to be the norm. Her "ship what you want but don't be a dick to other people" attitude is precisely what old fandom used to be like before the influx of what I can only describe as normies decided they wanted to be a part of fandom.
See, the thing about the old internet (and by that I mean before the rise of mainstream social media platforms like Facebook, insta, Twitter, etc.) the internet by and large was by nerds for nerds. We kept the shit we liked online to ourselves irl and we definitely didn't talk directly to creators because it was understood that there was an invisible line we knew not to cross. You didn't harass actors or writers trying to get what you want. But the rise of mainstream meant the rise of accessibility to creators, and the trolls morphed into something much worse.
Look up the fiasco with Alex Brightman during the height of Beetlejuice on Broadway. The poor man was stalked, harassed, and asked over and over again if he condoned Beetlebabes, a ship which had kept that fandom alive for well over 30 years. Until he eventually released a statement so carefully combed over by PR experts only the people who lack media literacy took it at face value. It didn't reflect any previous attitudes he had on anything, and moreover it doesn't align with his current views considering the projects he's actively working on. In reality I don't think the man really gives a shit what people ship he was just sick of the harassment and likely worried that public outcries of him being a pedophile because of a fictional ship because he didn't actively condemn it and call for the harassment of people who did like it would ruin his career.
I have several friends who have come to hazbin from Beetlejuice, and many of them have met him pre pandemic. All of them say he's a lovely and sweet man with a good sense of humor. But imagine going through all he went through for over a year. Viv, and I hate to say it, went through something similar. I was pissed to find out toxic charlastor shippers on Twitter were harassing her to make it canon. So if that ship squicks her out now? I honestly don't blame her. Things are even more sticky with wlw or any gay relationships where you legitimately aren't allowed to portray them as complex or problematic. One thing I've noticed in particular is that male and straight ships are allowed to be as grossly sexualized as anything but women (or femme identified characters) cannot.
Look at all the chaggie art, not a single sexual thing. Even their official pinup stuff is fairly tame. Look at the Vees, despite the fact that velvette is an adult woman who died and is dating... Valentino I think? All the fandom sees is two gay dads and their uwu not sexually active daughter. Same with radioapple come to think of it, Charlie becomes a fully non sexual, almost Madonna figure in relation to the overt sexual nature of the gay ships. I'm guessing some of that still internalized homophobia and kink phobia coupled with sexist attitudes of what women can and cannot be interested in. Lesbian ships cannot be interested in sex, they must be pure and good. Meanwhile there's no end to overtly sexual art of the gay ships across the hellaverse. And the fans get rabid when any female ship isn't innately good and pure.
Another real world example; people flipped their shit when catradora became explicitly canon at the end of the she ra reboot. Because catra had gone through a corruption arc before a redemption one and therefore was forever culpable for the crimes she committed when in an obvious downward mental spiral after a life raised under an abusive mother figure and being abandoned by the person closest to her, and the major brainwashing of the Horde, but we don't have time to unpack all that. Ironic that in a show all about second chances and becoming better than the person you were these attitudes are still pervasive and ugly huh?
To a certain extent I think Viv has been on the internet long enough that she's seen what happens to creators who don't "perfectly" encapsulate a gay romance. Which means that it's unique while also being applicable to everyone. Totally an achievable standard right? (Insert sarcastic eye roll here). For her, I think making chaggie as boring in canon as possible was probably the safest move she could think of. I will critique it from a writing standpoint but overall it was the smartest choice to avoid backlash. I still prefer Vaggie/Emily and charlastor because it's two vastly most interesting dynamics, but I get why the writers might have been wary.
Sorry for the rant but unfortunately the depiction of chaggie wasn't created solely in a vacuum and there's a lot of cross fandom history context that needed to be brought up to explain why chaggie is the animated tofu of hazbin hotel ships.
#dream replies#dream answers#fandom stuff#fandom history#hazbin hotel#ch/aggie#meta commentary#you have to look at the doylist explanation to understand the canon here#no one likes their female couples to be problematic
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I'll never understand why Freddie stans hate Brian. As someone who's been ever so slightly insane about FM for years, Brian is my second favorite out of the four bc he's basically the founder of the Freddie Mercury fan club. (It's actually an in joke amongst my friends that he's the only one who talks about Freddie more than I do- but that's not really important). Like how dense do you have to beto actually think that Brian doesn't care about him and never did. I'm convinced the only people who buy into that narrative are either very new to the fandom or just Really want Mary's version of Freddie to be real.
Yeah, it was a big point of contention among me and the other Freddie fans/jimercury fans on insta back like 3 years ago when I had a fan account on there. They hated him and thought he hated and disrespected Freddie no matter how much I tried to point them to reality. I've talked about this from time to time, but there are three main reasons why Freddie stans tend to hate Brian, in my view: Brian says things about Freddie that they don't want to hear, specifically things which contradict their headcanons of him, they think Brian's love for Adam means he doesn't care about Freddie anymore, and it's because of Brian's defense of the movie. With the first one, it's usually people who are angry that Brian says Freddie was gay, vulnerable to being used by fake friends, and got fucked up on the club scene. Those three things apparently trigger people lmao. With the second thing, people are just idiots and can't fathom that Brian can love and respect more than one singer at the same time.
With the last one, people think that Brian can't actually care about Freddie if he so vehemently defended the film which portrayed him in such a shitty way. I get where those people are coming from initially, I used to think the same thing in my very early days of the fandom tbh, but then I actually heard Brian talk about Freddie and quickly saw how genuine his love for him was. It was Brian's clear fondness for Freddie that made me pause and listen to the things he actually had to say, and prevented me from becoming a Brian hater tbh. I read more and realized that Brian became very protective of the movie because he sees it as part of Queen and as a net positive for the band and Freddie, and Brian becomes very defensive of anything related to the band and Freddie. I guess I still wish he understood the criticism of the film more, but ultimately, I just decided it wasn't worth being mad at him over tbh when there was this tidal wave of quotes from him which proved that he did, in fact, care about Freddie, so I let it go. But there are people online who won't do that, they stop at his defense of the movie and don't listen to anything else he has to say because they hate the movie so much. I loathe that film, but it doesn't negate everything Brian has said about Freddie, and you really do have to be incredibly uninformed or straight-up deny reality at this point to think Brian doesn't care about him. Like you said, Brian was basically the founder of the Freddie Mercury Fan Club lol and has said some stan-like things about him
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got any Michael headcanons u wanna share with the class? >:B
This prompt made me realize I don’t think as much of Michael 😭😭 digging thru my Trevor brain-rot brain to find crumbs of Michael ngl
This one isn’t really a headcanon bcz I think it was hinted heavily in canon but I’m not sure— I think Michael may be a sociopath. Doesn’t necessarily make him a bad person, of course, I think he just struggles to emotionally connect with others. Doesn’t mean that he doesn’t want to or can’t FEEL emotion— yes he cares for Amanda, yes he loves his kids, yes he cares for his friends/associates (all in his own way) and doesn’t like killing when it’s senseless (or at least that’s what he tells Trevor, I believe), but he definitely is exploitative and looks for his own benefit
WHICH brings me to my next point which I assume is also fairly popular— Michael’s exploitative nature was heavily expressed towards Trevor, especially in the earlier years after he’d understood that Trevor was really attached to him. So like Trevor was doing shit for him which he knew wouldn’t be done for him in return. There was always an (unintentional?) power dynamic — we know Trevor was relatively “chill”er in his youth, so I think he was more easily influenced by his need to please and be around Michael? Michael also sometimes (both unknowingly some times, and knowingly at others ) used “positive reinforcements” to not only keep Trevor on the right path, but also to keep him dedicated to himself. Why? Because uhh repressed LGBT activity makes a man possessive I guess
HES A SOCIAL MEDIA LURKER FR. he looks at posts from his friends and family, never interacts online but might mention something that caught his interest in a face-to-face conversation. (Amanda posts 2 pics asking which outfit looks better at 3pm. “The red one looked best by the way.” Michael replies when they’re in bed getting ready to sleep.)
Used to be obsessed with working out, obviously. He was a jock 🙏🏻
He just likes being a big spoon 🤷🏻♀️ never even acknowledged it to himself tho bcs that’s the kinda corny even he can’t stand
Can’t dance
Neutral towards pets/animals. Doesn’t have a particular favorite and doesn’t hate any particular one.
He gives me momma’s boy vibes (not like the vibes Trevor has tho? Much milder) I don’t know why. Can’t even elaborate on this one
Literally the entire fandom agrees: R E P R E S S E D H O M O
hasn’t cried since he was born 🚩
Before, his reaction to almost everything would be a knuckle sandwich 👊🏻💢 . (Being around the trigger-happy Trevor didn’t help) now his reaction to almost everything is just a blank stare ( “😐” looking ass) he worked hard to manage violent impulses and he knew he could only get them under control if he distanced himself from “bad company”
He doesn’t even miss his old surname at all. I think part of him would’ve gladly left it in the past— he didn’t really have a connection to it
Suspects that Ron has....something going on for Trevor (Franklin doesn’t believe him). Call it a crush or whatever. He definitely wants to tease Trevor about it
hes dismissive when it comes to heart-to-hearts. Doesn’t like lengthy emotional talking— he’d rather brush it under the rug. If it’s not a problem he can shoot at, please don’t bring it up 👍🏻 he CAN say corny shit every now and then if someone REALLY needs to hear it but he doesn’t really mean much of it half the time.
Jimmy and Tracey tried showing him vines and low-quality meme vids . He was not impressed. (He laughs at the kind of shit Franklins VA posts on his insta 😭 I wouldn’t say boomer humor exactly but.....lowkey boomer humor)
#these are all I can think of rn!#I’m ashamed even some of these have to do with Trevor I rlly can’t get that nasty old man out my head#I’ll gladly try and think of more#thank u so much for the ask tho I rlly appreciate it :3!#gta 5#grand theft auto v#gta v#michael de santa#grand theft auto#gta#michael townley
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Sorry this is a bit of a novel haha but I wanted to get my actual point across considering that other person’s response xo (also it won’t let me do paragraphs for some reason so it’s kinda clumped)
I don’t need a celebrity to validate my feels lol I want to know what kind of person I’m suppprting to be able to continue supporting them you know? I also think not speaking on it doesn’t necessarily make you a bad person but it does change my opinion when the only thing Palestinians are asking for is for people to use their voice. Also thinking vacationing with your (I’m pretty sure) Zionist besties makes you a bad person though. He can’t change the world I know this lmao but he does have a massive voice and it does count for something no matter what people want to believe - whether it makes Palestinians feel heard or sways some of his very impressionable fans to think more about it. I also thought about this a lot more today because I saw a small under 15k follower band and another do an event for palestians with a politician in support of palestine and it just made me think they have everything to lose - up and coming hardly any recognition and they could be blacklisted forever. Harry is Harry. One of the most famous influential sought after people in the industry, his career wouldn’t end, honestly all I want is for him to tell us who he is - just a donation link does that. Or a ‘I do not stand with genocide’ whatever. Even if he just did a donation link on insta stories or something to let us know he doesn’t agree with it? Not much can come from that honestly. Most people in the world are with Palestine. Like guru said because he’s silent - we don’t know his stance. That’s enough for me to be suspect I guess the word is? I just saw a lot of integrity in those bands and see Harry being silent when he says tpwk etc. It’s not about me forming my opinion based on what Harry says or doesn’t. It’s about wanting to know wether or not the man I’ve been supporting for the last, what, 13 years is a Zionist, or excuses that behaviour because of his friends or stays silent because he wants to keep money or whatever, and I just think that’s incredibly hypocritical considering what he advocates for. I just want to know his stance. That’s the least he could do in my opinion, to let his followers know who he is when he says we should all do everything we can to take care of each other. All in all my point was not that I think he can change the world. His supporters just deserve to know if he is a genocide / Israel supporter or not. Wanting to know he is someone that practices what he preaches instead of just making money and an image from it. His silence says a lot and everyone interprets it in different ways. And honestly, most people believe silence is complicity.
You make absolutely valid points. I agree that even the smallest thing would make a lot of his fans feel really good (and a lot would hate him for it too). But the way Harry is so recognizable (even walking down the street with hoodie and sunglasses) he’s more of a target than a small band who wouldn’t have much recognition. But who knows!? Maybe he’s silent bc of money and fame more than safety reasons.
I also feel like just bc you want him to say what his opinion is doesn’t mean you need a celebrity to validate your opinion. I think that anon was just getting heated and that’s what happens with these kinds of conversations - lots of emotions come to the surface and even with people you agree with you want to argue with. It’s just talking in circles at some point.
Thank you for your thoughts. I definitely feel you and this conversation is far from over.
That being said… I have to get to some other things right now and I’m not going to be answering anymore asks like this today (this is draining y’all). Anyone is welcome to send in your thoughts and I will read them but no more of this today 💕🖤
Xoxo
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If you’re still choosing violence: 20 and 21!
20. part of canon you found tedious or boring
Doctor Strange is, I think, the only MCU movie where even on first watch I was just straight up in another tab doing other stuff, which I really try not to do if I'm not actively watching something for background noise. (And I don't do that with my writing fandom canons, since I'm always rewatching for either vibes, voice, or details.) It just doesn't do anything for me at all, I'm not comfortable with the Orientalism in the first film, and I don't need either the characters or the worldbuilding, so I've never rewatched.
21. part of canon you think is overhyped
I mean, every part of it is overhyped from a different angle, it just depends where you're at -- like, if I'm saying this from my Instagram MCU perspective, I'd say FATWS without hesitation, because I really disliked it but a lot of people in my Insta circles love it. But FATWS doesn't really come up that often in my Tumblr MCU circles. Likewise, a year ago I probably would have said NWH, but it mostly vanished without a trace and it doesn't really come up anymore. (The Spider-Man films in general have this problem.) I actually do think WandaVision is very good and it's had better staying power than a lot of the rest of Phase 4. CATWS is just as good as people say it is (I mean, I say it is), but how the rest of the MCU deals with everything that happens in it makes it retroactively a worse movie. Black Panther is great, but it has a specific trope in it that I very much dislike so I don't rewatch. GotG's a combo of things I might like put together in a way that doesn't do it for me. I really like parts of Thor Ragnarok, really dislike other parts, and like TWS, how the rest of the MCU dealt with it makes it retroactively a worse movie. I could go on. I think in general that's one of the MCU's big problems -- no matter how good a single movie is, the rest of the saga can make it retroactively a worse movie.
okay but in terms of what I personally think is overhyped because I see it all the time and it drives me up the wall -- Captain Carter. I'm sorry, this is a Captain Carter hate blog. (I'm fine on Peggy! I don't dislike Peggy! But I really dislike Captain Carter.) After What If Captain Carter just had what seems like a completely disproportionate response both from fandom and from Marvel (did y'all know she has an ongoing comic series? on top of the live action appearance in DSMOM), and I don't understand why aside from grrl power, I guess, plus I really dislike her execution in the show and in DSMOM, and I also don't feel like the canon or the fandom engages with (a) anything that would make her interesting or (b) any of the actual consequences? It just feels really lazy compared to how carefully the mainline MCU dealt with Steve (up until Endgame) and just shorthanding some of what they did with Steve for Peggy, but most of that you can't just transfer over wholesale, which is what they're doing. even the uniform! Steve's uniform evolution is developed in very, very specific ways and they just TAKE the CACW uniform and flip it back to WWII but with the Union Jack and that doesn't WORK, because the CATFA uniforms are ALSO developed in very specific ways! like, I could go ON about how much I hate this and it's EVERYWHERE and I don't GET IT.
and that's putting aside the fact that that's not even the thing from What If that was most interesting -- in a rightful world, Star-Lord T'Challa should have gotten all the hype that Captain Carter gets, and I don't even think you can write that off on Chadwick Boseman's passing anymore, which I was willing to give them for the first six months or so, but we're well past that now. you're telling me that T'Challa being in space was so powerful that it literally changed the entire face of the Marvel universe and that's less interesting than Peggy Carter stepping over Steve's bleeding body to get superpowers? where are T'Challa and Nebula's space adventures? or Party Thor (which I also strongly dislike) and Jotun Loki having shenanigans? Natasha and Clint living through an apocalypse? Post-apoc Natasha having to learn how to live in a new universe where she's literally the walking ghost of a murdered woman, while having to deal with a fresh-out-of-the-ice traumatized Steve and also fighting a resistance movement against an Asgardian occupation? various Stranges? Shuri and Pepper vs Killmonger? I grant the whole Gamora and Tony thing is supposed to be in S2 (still holding out for that one's AU being Tony getting trapped on the other side of the wormhole in Avengers), so I'll let that one go. also the zombie 'verse is there too I guess. you're telling me CAPTAIN CARTER is more interesting than any of that? I don't GET IT.
(you know I am going to lose it in the worst possible way when S2 finally airs and they Winter Soldier the CC'verse Steve.)
#this is a captain carter hate blog sorry#typeoneninja#bedlam replies#meme response#bedlam watches the mcu
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✨ I did thank you! So glad to hear fencing went well & it helped you! 💕
I wonder if he's doing the teeth thing as he has time off? and you're right his teeth already looked fine so it probably won't take long at all with Invisalign?
I've always thought piano maybe? 😅 but wouldn't know where to start/which method to use! 🙈 Very sweet of you! 🇫🇷
I think the use of crutches will be dictated by his medical staff! So many people get tired of them easily but this is his livelihood after all so I imagine he'll be doing everything by the book! *clever jacky*
But I can't imagine him not being there come December - Fred & Ollie will probably be rested for a while but they show up to most tigers games anyway so Jack will surely be there too!
I think its good England are clearly keeping him in the loop too - also doesn't help Mitchell's case that he didn't have a great game on Sunday 👀 I knew the second he overshot that kick at the very beginning that it was going to mess with his head and it did...😖
P.S watched last nights 'this rose: live' - those crocs. And his girly giggles oh goddd. They brought up the middle name 'overbury' thing too and he shut it down pronto like 'lets not talk about that' - I really think he doesn't like being thought of as posh! 😅 Also he clearly is *never* online (even less so than I thought) because they mentioned the Ben Earl greek poetry thing and it was the first he'd heard about it!! 👀 [also his challenge was shit and he got 2 points to Marchant's 15] omggggg they did mention Jacky though!!!
Really ? Oh nooo I need to listen to it Asap ! (Edit: listened and I love how much of a farmer Jack is 😂🤣 but yes only one person hiding in the corns)
On the new pics he also look like he has something over his teeth super weird insta quality you might say ... weird as it is his lower jaw who needed a job if he wanted to do something
I send a water bottle to the sea for you over there if people have piano methods !!
Well... If he is doing all as he should I am hoping on a quicker recovery if he can get rid of his crutches during an entire event ? Maybe it is because he knows the place if he needs to sit ?
December will come so soon tho ??? I mean september is already going on so quick I Feel like time escape me!
I hope he will not be under the same rule of rest since he didnt played. So happy he is back with Cameron at home I Guess.♡ Cam is a better influence if he didn't move out yet.
I have finally saw my first : " I never thought I would say that but england miss JvP"... 😏 I am not against meepmeep but just don't act like he is better than Jack they are both lacking skillsets and game time, they are unprep and all looks messy.
The crocs are a mess he looked like a nurse in a scrub, also that score of 2 🤣😂 it is the wiiiiind ! Joe looks super relax and a great person, so sad they didn't do something around music😭 the questions were also so oriented as pre-chosen but they did let you the illusion you could ask them stuffs via those stories I hated that from England rugby socials
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My turn! Jiuxiao or Wen Kexing!
yeah, like you don't know I'm gonna do both
stealing your color coding bc it's cool, we'll use this for wkx and this for jiuxiao
a song that reminds me of them
When You Break by Bear's Den
none pls suggest me jiuxiao songs
what they smell like
expensive perfume and saltwater
plum flowers, obviously
an otp
wenzhou, hanwenzhou
jiuxiao × jing'an, I guess? also my jiuxiao × jing'an x su qingluan crackship bc its funny and this himbo deserves two bad bitches
a notp
wkx x zj? I don't know if anyone ships that, but I would hate it for sure
yunxu is either a notp or a sure-tp depending on the vibes, I've not seen jiuxiao shipped with many other ppl
favorite platonic/familial relationships
WKX AND GX THEY ARE SIBLINGS SHE'S HIS DAUGHTER THEY ARE EVERYTHING
I'm a sucker for jixuao and hy friendship, as you know, but I'd also love to see him be a gege to gx and cl
a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with
I tend to take most hcs about wkx's upbringing in the gv with a dose of skepticism, like sure, maybe, but what does that mean and how would it actually impact his character? but that's not focused on any particular hc
ig I hate the interpretation that his attraction to zzs was insta-love, like no he thought that guy was sus and got attached to him along the way
that he's completely stupid and unaware of what's happening around him? I like my jiuxiao fairly sweet and kind and somewhat oblivious to the darker sides of life, but still with a lot of emotional intelligence and awareness of the shit that's going on that he actively has to supress
the position they sleep in
curled in on his side, facing the wall
sprawled out like a starfish, snores lightly
a crossover au i’d love to see them in
cql bc give me wkx with the other wens
...I can't think of any, actually
(edit: actually he'd be super funny to throw into blood of youth, I feel like, although I've only seen like three episodes. I feel like he would delight in that genre)
my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn
ep 31 gvm wkx is where it's at
how many outfits does he have? the one in the sad jiangs flashback scene
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08.04.23
today was a great day at the shop! it was very slow at first and there were no customers for the first like two hours and i was starting to get upset. but then so many people started going in! in the end i was only 15 chf away from the ultimate goal!!! (and by ultimate goal i mean really we don't get these kind of numbers every day so it was an extraordinary result)
the best moment of the day was when these two american ladies came in and one of them bought the céline leather jacket and it suited her sooo well! and she was like "show me something i might have missed, do you have anything unique?". and i remembered about the absolutely gorgeous versace top we received the other day. it looks a bit weird on the hanger and i was like just try it on trust me! and she did and it looked AMAZING on her! so she ended up buying it. and i was just a tiny bit sad bc i wanted to keep the top for myself but oh well.
here it is btw:
anyway nik came to chill for a bit. he was coding in the storage room/kitchen while i was with the customers. his gf broke up with him bc he got drunk and shouted at her. it's the same story with him every time, i swear. like idk if i can be compassionate anymore. and idk how to judge him bc the first couple of times his alcohol problems and the issues related to them seemed sad. but idk if he's putting in any effort into fixing his life and becoming a better person. it's always the same shit with him.
but to be fair, it's always the same shit with me too so im not the one to judge. it was his bday party yesterday and he invited everyone to a bar. and im in my tea drinking era and really didn't feel like going. but the thing that motivated me was that it was B's favourite bar and he's there every weekend. so i, being the absolute pathetic loser clown that i am, was like "oooo i might bump into him if i go". and guess what, the first thing that nik said to me when i got there was "yeah, B was there a minute ago but i told him that you were coming so he left". like 💀💀💀 and then the night was ruined basically. bc i was paranoid the whole night. i was like omg what if B's gonna come back what if what if what if. i felt pathetic.
and it's frustrating in a way bc i feel like B must be handling the breakup so much better than me even tho im the one who left. like he doesn't watch my insta stories, he didn't stop to talk to me that one time i bumped into him by the river, he seems so much more disciplined than me... like idk. meanwhile im still obsessed and dream about him every night. and i fuel this obsession more and more like i can't stop myself.
this week im catsitting for my neighbour and again, i can't stop being a loser about it. bc ive known her and her cat (bless her!) since high school. and guess who else i knew since high school? like i have these vivid memories of going to check up on the cat and then coming out of the building and B waiting for me by the door with his bike and everything. and then going to the frog pond and passing by the petrol station to get pasta for dinner and then going to his place. and the fucking birds singing fuckk i hate those stupid birds i want them to shut up. because it takes me back to those evenings with B. and even tho this is the same building in front of which i used to take the school bus every morning when i was a kid, the only thing i can associate with it is B. despite all the other memories i have in this neighbourhood, it's always B B B.
and now i live in a different neighbourhood and listen to different music and have completely changed my wardrobe, i still have those memories ingrained in me. of me in my denim skirt and pink velvet top from bershka i bought when i was 17. him on his bike with his stupid backpack and cheeky grin. that one picture of us smiling in the countryside with wheat fields and the lignon towers behind us. the birds singing and the sun setting.
fuck.
when will it end?
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what is your opinion of Gracey?
I really took some time to think about this and write it down in my notes because I don't really know what to think of her tbh. I don't particularly hate her but I also surely don't like her. I also don't know her that well and I also wasn't so known with how she was in her relationship with Brad. I know I found out about them on Twitter because people were talking about them and there were also fans who went to the Simpson's gin bar and got pictures with Brad and Gracey. I also know that tabloids like The Sun were spreading rumours at the time that Brad and Gracey were together as it wasn't confirmed. At the time they were dating I didn't really had an opinion on her. I also didn't really pay attention to her or their relationship as I know that Brad wants to keep it private. I did follow her on insta because I was curious about how she was.
The only things I know about their relationship and her are the things I read here on Tumblr. I only listened to her songs once to see if her music was good but basically it's not my taste of music. Her ep Fragile is all about Brad as we all know lol. In my opinion she holds on to Brad too much until it's just unhealthy + I think it's unfair that only her side of the story comes out like this. She says she loved him but maybe she could pay some respect to Brad then. Idk how she was in her relationship or what the hell happened but rn she really doesn't respect Brad at all. She knows all too well that as well as her fans as The Vamps fans know that they were together and she just throws everything on the streets about their relationship in her music. She is putting Brad in a difficult position I guess with revealing so much. You know writing about a breakup is normal, I mean writing is therapeutic for artists. Brad does it too. But the big difference between Brad and Gracey is that Brad always blames himself while Gracey is completely putting the blame on Brad. Like I said I don't know what happened and I know Brad is not perfect but in a relationship you're with two and I guess you can't put the blame all on one person. The second big difference is that a lot of The Vamps songs are about relationships and breakups but you never know who they are about while with Fragile she basically announced it's about Brad on insta. She didn't say his name but it was so damn clear that it is about him.
Also I'm actually just tired at this point that it's still about them and just about her. She just stays giving hints that she misses Brad and stuff so the conversation about them goes on and that's just what she wants. It's been 2 freaking years. After all this time it's just getting annoying and exhausting.
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