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I loved Thony and Jorge’s roadtrip last night!
#the cleaning lady#thony de la rosa#jorge sanchez#tcl#I feel like I’m alone in enjoying them#I loved armony and I still do love them but they’re never coming back to me#so on to Thony and Jorge 🥲#i need a ship name for them
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sometimes i remember that gojo wanted to tell geto “we’ll meet again, right?” just before he died but forced himself not to knowing it would have cursed him and then i start thinking about how kind and thoughtful gojo is as a character and how he hasn’t been able to lean on another human being since geto defected and then i want to . Scream
#like. there’s something almost helpless about that question. because gojo doesn’t *know* the answer…. he’s asking for reassurance#he wants to know if they’ll ever meet again even though deep down he knows the answer#and it’s so… bare? so vulnerable.#if he had voiced it that would’ve been the first time in TEN YEARS that gojo truly bared his heart to someone and asked for help#but he knew it would turn into a curse and so he gulped the words back down. :((#gojo is such a sincerely kind and thoughtful character and it breaks my heart that sooo many people in the fandom can’t see that 😭#he isn’t a saint and he definitely isn’t selfless but above all else his goal as a human being is to make sure no one ever feels alone.#that no one has their youth taken away from them….. that everyone gets a Choice in how to live their life :(((( it’s so important to him.#i just genuinely don’t understand ppl who insist that he’s morally gray ….. gojo is a consistently Good person and that never changes#he wants to have fun and laugh and he wants his students to enjoy their youth. he wants them to think he’s cool.#he’s the big brother slash father Ever and i love him to death#i got sidetracked this was supposed to be abt geto 😔😔 anyway the final scene between them will always be my Favorite ever#and the key to understanding both their characters and love for one another#ty for coming to my ted talk i’m feeling normal abt them today 😇😇#ari noises ✩
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I remember back when The Mountain Goats No Children was a meme on here seeing a post that went “I hope you live, i hope we both live,” and it making me SO angry…
And this was before I had ever even listened to the song (or anything by TMG for that matter), but now, knowing that John wrote the song, and specifically the line “I hope you die, I hope we both die” in response to radio overplay of the sugary sweet I Hope You Dance, I feel even more vindicated, because like.
Yes. Ultimately my overall life philosophy is that I hope we all live… I would hope that goes without saying. But No Children isn’t a life philosophy. It’s about how sometimes everything sucks and you feel like shit and trapped and hopeless and angry and I HOPE YOU DIE, I HOPE WE BOTH DIE!!!!!!!!! And who can’t relate to that? Who has NEVER felt like that in their lives??????
I feel a little silly accusing what was ultimately just a joke meme post of Toxic Positivity, but that was the vibe I was getting from it, which is why it made me mad. As though it was sticking up its nose at a song it clearly had no understanding of and going “well I hope we both LIVE 😇😇” and like. Fuck you lol. It’s okay to feel negative emotions. It’s okay to be angry.
#tmg#the mountain goats#tagging bc i feel strongly about this lol… i’m sure i’m not the first to say this#but like. you know. if negative songs aren’t your thing then that’s cool - i respect that#but they still have a right to exist#it’s like people saying that stories with tragic endings shouldn’t exist… that non-hopeful stories should not exist#they can’t understand how people could get catharsis from that too#and it’s okay to not understand! there are plenty of things people enjoy that i’ll never understand#but that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t exist#or need to be sanitized#idk… my personal experience with No Children is that i avoided listening to it for the LONGEST time bc i thought it’d just be edgy bullshit#but then i FINALLY listened to it and i was like ‘oh yeah - i’ve been there’#and i’ve been a Mountain Goats fan ever since#bc i really respect and appreciate the way that John doesn’t see negative feelings as the antithesis to healing#there are a lot of artists out there who are like ‘yeah i made a lot of negative songs when i was in a bad place but now i’m getting better#so i’m gonna make happy peppy songs now!’ and like. hey - good for them! more power to them!#but i like the acknowledgment that experiencing those darker feelings doesn’t mean you’re a terrible person or backsliding#it’s okay to just *FEEL*#and it’s okay to sing ‘No Children’ at the top of your lungs in your house all alone#you might even feel BETTER afterwards!#don’t know until you try it!!
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idk if this has any merit to it so correct me if i’ve got the wrong idea but a thing i’ve been thinking lately is that the biblical dichotomy between jew and gentile (which new testament scripture teaches is no more) is sort of reborn in the modern dichotomy between like.,,, cradle catholic and random atheist/agnostic
point being, God will reach out to everyone. even those who aren’t doing all the little traditional rituals right, even those who don’t know what they’re doing, even those who just walked in out of nowhere. so the former need to remember to have humility and compassion for others who are trying their best to seek truth.
this is not to say the former are doing anything wrong by going through all those motions- of course not! and of course those motions aren’t insignificant; they’ve got so much history and tradition behind them. but ultimately they aren’t what save us. the foreign gentile who just showed up one day is baptized and saved. the deathbed convert is baptized and saved. funny how that is
the devout jewish people of the scriptures and the modern day hardcore tradcaths are neither better nor worse than other people- they are the people fortunate enough to be born in the ‘right’ environment, so encountering Christ and being saved will be much easier for them. but this also means they have a responsibility to do more.
and if they go haywire in the way they behave the consequences will be so much worse because of what they’re supposed to be representing (and i’m sure we all know that biblically the jewish people have caused lots of their own problems and presently. well. a lot of catholics Suck™️. we are all that person sometimes. often. usually)
#does this make sense?#frankly i find this a helpful way of thinking because it’s a lot easier to get more out of scripture#when you understand that yeah everyone causing major problems and being stuck up in the name of holiness?#that’s me. that’s us. scripture calls all of us to wake up and repent#this is what i’ve always felt the whole ‘chosen people/royal priesthood’ thing meant#not that they alone shall be saved#but that the circumstances of the birth mean they have a unique responsibility to proclaim God’s word to the nation#sometimes i see hardcore tradcaths belittle others for like. wearing Pants as a Woman#or not having every saint’s feast day memorized or receiving the eucharist on the hands#and i’m like hm this feels eerily similar to jewish leaders in the bible having a tonnnn of little rules for a purpose i can’t quite get#now of course. this isn’t to say it’s all meaningless#i’m sure there are good reasons#at the same time. wow ritual law is wild sometimes#sorry i can’t take anyone seriously who acts like you should have a spouse sooner than you have a cell phone lol#i mean stay blessed. i hope tradcaths enjoy their lives. good for them. but some of them do b Nasty sometimes
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i miss my irls and my cat and my house this is so SICKKK what did i ever do to you, december
#vent ->#i am so homesick i havent seen my friends in forever. i had an incredibly good sunday i was looking forward to the next 2 weeks#and then you make me get FUCKING ARRESTED????#and i’m just so irked and i’m so sad why is nothing going right. don’t i deserve good things!!!!!#of course you do this to me when i’m not dreading school anymore and i’m actually enjoying the company of my new friends#so annoying. i’m just so sad i want to go home#i’d be fine with all of that but then you had to take away even my online buddies like what the hellll#if another person tells me to [ tolerate it for a little longer ] i might just explode in front of them#i just feel awfully bitter and alone and sad#💭
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i don’t know where to find other people who were disappointed in Geekish Celibacy Advocates Gotta Go to commiserate with. don’t wanna clog up the main tag with negativity because people just browsing abojt a musical they like don’t need that. but holy shit was this show a letdown for me and i cant find one other comment or review anywhere that acknowledges Any flaws :(
edit: censored the name of the show and didn’t tag @ all w/ the show’s name, but this’ll still pop up in searches for starkid and the effort required to edit tags on tumblr is INSANE, so i’m adding Starkid Negativity to the front of the post for blocking purposes of anypony doesn’t want this in their search!
#starkid negativity#letdown for a lot of reasons but it’s still probably just a 5/10#it isn’t. horrible. i just do not get in Any Way the praise being lathered on it#especially the music#it wasn’t even that funny :(#i’ve never felt like one or two actors have ever CARRIED a starkid show alone before#max and chastity being the ones who carried hardcore here#they were funny and well written and even got most of the Not Bad songs in the show. good for them#but a lot of what they’re surrounded by is just :( underwhelming#i didn’t expect the Story here to be AMAZING WOWWWW bc that’s rarely what i watch starkid for. twisted knocked it out of the park but#for the most part starkid shows aren’t drawing me in with their Plots#the comedy and fun music and nice acting is the appeal for me and this show only really had 1 of the 3 in spades :(#that’s the acting. the acting was good nobody phoned it they were all clearly acting their asses off and enjoying themselves. that’s great#would’ve been greater if they jokes they were delivering and the songs they were singing were#also good#i’ve been a starkid fan since before the third very potter musical dropped*#i usually love starkid’s productions. they were a very good portion of my childhood and adolescence#trying to keep my criticisms here focused on Being Subjective. not saying any of my thoughts here are objective facts abt the show#using a lot of I Feel and To Me statements here. if this does show up in the N//P//M//D tags i’m not saying anybody is dumb or wrong#for liking it. if they did like it#but For Me this show really was a letdown compared to the rest of the starkid catalogue#starkid is allowed to change and evolve. of course it is and it deserves to. but id hope that a Starkid Spirit remains as a througline for#their entire catalogue#yknow. the quintessential essence of Star Kid. and it didn’t feel very present here :(#i have removed the title of the show from the post and it isn’t in the tags. but i’m gonna add a tag for blacklisting just in case
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#hiding this in the tags bc it’s kind of embarrassing and i need to get it off my chest#and i could journal about it but i just want someone to see me#sorry for being cringe <333#but i don’t know what the hell i am like i don’t know if i’m even nonbinary anymore and that scares me like being nonbinary felt like coming#home after a long trip#and now i’m having all these thoughts about wanting to be a man? like near tears rn bc i want to be a guy but then when i think of actually#being a guy i freak out a bit#bc i like being seen as feminine too and i know that there are feminine men and they get treated so terribly#and i feel like all the men i see that i want to be like or look like are white! why don’t i see any black trans men like i feel so alone#and i’m scared to look/be openly trans bc there’s so much violence against people like us that it feels safer to just cosplay as a cis woman#even though i’m not#like i don’t want to be a boy but i want to be one and i absolutely don’t want to be a girl but i’d like to be seen as someone sometimes#it’s all very confusing#AND like i know i’m biromantic like im attracted to all genders and people#but im like? am i on the ace spectrum#bc i have a low sex drive am often sex repulsed and will sometimes ‘test’#myself to see if im sexually attracted to people and most of the time it’s like#it’s like meh not really but sometimes im like sure but that’s rarer and rarer these days?? and like. tmi here but i jerk off and enjoy it#so i can’t be asexual right?? i tried looking it up but the articles just confused me#but then i also am like with the right person if i had a connection to them i wouldn’t mind having sex with them! but like. then i think#about actually having to be in a relationship and i’m like gross no but i think that’s just relationship trauma and fear of being#vulnerable#and like i know i don’t HAVE to have a label on my gender or sexuality but for me personally it helps to know What i am#and and i love butches so so so much and if i’m a man how can i love butches? like#it’s all so confusing#i feel like i’m 14 and going through puberty again
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2023 reads // twitter thread
This Doesn’t Mean Anything
NA contemporary romance about a sex-repulsed girl starting uni and meeting an upperclassman who hangs out in the same study room and coffeeshop as she does
struggling with her asexuality, new friendships, and harassment
#This Doesn’t Mean Anything#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#well.#I was overall enjoying the first half of this! then it went to shit lol#for one. WAY TOO LONG. but also feels like scenes would be very short then skip to the next day#I liked how the first half of the book was just developing the relationship as a friendship.#there’s a conflict at 50% and they literally are terrible to each other for almost the entire rest of the book#also the conflict of why they can’t get together feels manufacured.#he feels like he (21) is too old for her (18) and while i’m like…yeah I understand that im iffy about it too;#as the reader we know they’re going to get together anyway. so it just feels stupid. and made that way just to cause a conflict. which lasts#too long.#2)#then men are SO overprotective to the point it’s kinda. not creepy exactly but like why the fuck can none of these women go anywhere without#a dude accompanying them? the MMC even. when she tells him to leave her alone (because he rejected her) he’s still being all protective and#and calling her sweetheart like I started to actively dislike him. it’s like. borderline manipulative ‘nice guy’#THEN it threw in a SA at 80% or whatever which. a) can we not SA our ace characters and b) is just not handled well. it feels like an excuse#to make them hurt/comfort and then get together aka end their conflict. which. oof.#3)#‘i was looking up why i dont want sex and i saw the word asexuality but couldn’t find much else maybe the GSA could help’#you can’t use info-not-on-the-internet as a plot excuse when. there is endless info about that on the internet? I don’t think this is set in#2005? also she doesnt even go ask the gsa#while her sex repulsion is a significant part of the book actual references to asexuality are extremely brief and half of it is shoved into#the last chapters. and it’s almost entirely her being self hating and the LI affirming her#anyway I can see the INTENTION is good here; the quality of writing just makes it all bad#like maybe these things are the author's experience and that's fine. the way it's written is uncomfortable.#i can tell all the 5* reviews are people who have never read an ace book before. i promise there is better#i think there’s gonna be a companion sequel about her roommate being aroace which. I don’t have super high hopes for writing-wise but I gues#guess I'm interested
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I’m going to get some hate with this one but it needs to be said.
STOP HARASSING CREATORS FOR CREATING MPREG CONTENT!!!
I’ll say it again. Stop 👏 harassing 👏 creators 👏 who 👏 create 👏 Mpreg 👏 content 👏
it doesn’t affect you and there is nothing wrong with anyone creating or enjoying content involving male or nonbinary presenting pregnancy!
And I think it’s a bit transphobic to suggest that Male presenting pregnancy is weird or gross. As if it isn’t something that exists in real life! Trans men and nonbinary individuals have children all the fucking time and you need accept that fact.
also, stop going on posts of creators being like “are you the person who drew that thing?! Yano, ‘that’ thing? 💀💀” Mpreg is not a curse word and it’s weird that you think it’s weird. And it’s really rude of you to come in and act like they did something disgusting.
this isn’t saying you need to like said content. It’s fine if it’s not your cup of tea.
And it’s also ok to criticize content that may fetishize people and experiences. But harassing people is never the way to go. It’s not your place to bully and harass people.
Not to mention what you are doing by stigmatizing a mostly queer experience. You are hurting people and being rude for no reason!
I’m so sick of seeing talented people be shunned and harassed and struggle with their mental health for something as simple as Mpreg!
(also this stands for anything. Don’t harass people for making fan content that you don’t like. It’s ok to call out genuinely problematic behavior but harassment gets us nowhere)
and I’m ready for the hate. I’m ready for angry people. But I can’t stand it anymore.
please stop.
#Getting emotional in this one#And I know some of y’all will think it’s not that serious#But it makes me sad to see people unable to enjoy fandom spaces peacefully#mpreg#rants#transgender#Also don’t want to name fandoms on the off chance I accidentally call out creators#Feel free to comment stuff though#And it’s obviously not just Mpreg#It’s every artist who got harassed for creating something someone else didn’t like#It’s for every writer who got bullied for having harmless fun#It’s for every creator who got maid fun of because their interests where “weird”#It’s for every artist who was bullied for being new and not having a lot of skill yet#It’s for every writer who wrote characters differently and people shunned them for it#I’m sick of this culture of harassment we breed online#Leave people alone#please
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guys. guys !!!!
#vanu is rambling#ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence.#like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me#but like for these past couple months things have been different.#i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone.#like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or#i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey#where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment.#today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me#and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during#those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears#and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg#and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that.#because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call.#i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends.#it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time#they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable.#someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did#and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent#stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable.#like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter.#they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl.#they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in#friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool#people really. really cool people
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What is this problem and how do I fucking fix it.
#Mmmmm how do I enjoy myself like a normal human being instead of feeling crushing guilt if I’m taking a break for my own sake#I have a love hate relationship with my brain and mental illness#OCD I could do without you leave me alone#I’d like to keep all the manias to a minimum tyvm#Honestly I wish I didn’t have to medicate my ADHD but it’s hit or miss if I can function averagely if I don’t#I don’t fucking know where the dissociation periods came from as a kid#(Actually I do. Fuck you anxiety.)#but now I get freaked out if lose track of time or feel too emotional or like the world isn’t real#Mmmmmmm I just wish I could enjoy things and find happiness in them like I used to though#Yk it’d be great if I could take care of myself too instead of promptly forgetting to do basic human needs#My cat KitKatniss is here though and she’s v excited to see me#Anyways sorry#rant#Delete later#probably#I did rewatch a lot of She-ra was nice
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everything has been so fast lately i need time to just stop for a little
#preferably on. 02:19. so i can sleep! thank you#really though it’s like i’ve been so busy i’ve no time to do anything For Me lately#everything has been like work. and school. and plans with my friends. and coursework and like ITS SO FUN but also#i have had no allotted robyn time and it’s starting to get to me i think . i haven’t written anything substantial in weeks if it#hasn’t been for class. and like again i’m having fun! i’m so excited for everything coming up and it’s nice to be so busy and productive#but also AAAAHHHH AAAAHHHH SOMETHING IS ALWAYS HAPPEBING#it’s like so hard to maintain like#school AND work AND social life AND online life AND me time#like one or two of them always ends up struggling#and again i’m having so much fun but 😫😫 i really just need to be alone for a day i think! and take it easy#but. idk. i’m also enjoying myself IM NOT COMPLAINING it’s just like wow i can’t remember the last time i took myself out somewhere nice to#write… i haven’t been to my favorite teahouse in a minute 😔 maybe next weekend. idk. i think i have stuff then too!!!!#rambling#also something bad happened and i ended up having to chop off a part of my hair#and i have been taking it as well as you’d expect (cannot handle unplanned change)#it’s so small you can’t even notice. BUT I CAN FEEL IT ABD ALSO IT MAKES ME SAD! ok goodnight
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maybe I should plan that cosplay
#Also these tags might get kinda venty#Please just skip past this#Jay’s on her bs again don’t mind them#Do you ever just feel like your fucking melting the second someone isn’t looking at you/you’re alone?#Like. I was alone earlier in a school hallway and I just sorta. Idk. Almost cried? And felt stifled by the quiet?#I enjoy being alone. But I feel like I have to put up such a fucking facade when around people that it’s just so exhausting when I stop#So even now when I am sitting here alone. I kinda want to cry. I feel abandoned and almost ignored. But I know it doesn’t matter#None of this shit matters.#Nobody cares. So I’ll stop caring too.#And if there’s ever a day where I just crack. Then too bad.#I’m too done for this.#jay’s venting again
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I’ve come to the conclusion/realisation that I got so butt hurt that ghost game went episodic instead of incorporating an epic plot I started to low ball my expectations for every new episode that came out so I either wasn’t too disappointed or I was pleasantly surprised.
And I think that cynicism is dampening my enjoyment.
#I’m still upset that ghost game is episodic#if they set it up to be episodic I’d have no issue cause I do enjoy the characters#But they set it up as an overaching mystery show? with them solving the mystery of hiros dad disappearance and gulusgammamons existence#and then they went full episodic 20 episodes in and we’ve not had any updates?#that is infuriating especially when I know the show only had a 50 episode run#they’re going to have to rush introducing an antagonistic force and answering those two questions#I don’t consider Gulus an antagonist btw. He feels way more like an anti hero#I’m also not really happy with the episode concepts. Not many of these episodic episodes have interesting enough concepts to be stand alone?#but whatever they can’t all be winners. I just wish we didn’t have 15 episodes of digimon turn people into X and we get them back. It’s old#soaps adventures#ghost game spoilers#not really but for organisation purposes
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#feeling a bit angry with myself about my writing habits#I pour so much into fic bc I feel almost possessed by it like I can only exorcize them through writing it down#which is good! don’t get me wrong I’m glad I’m able to do it regardless of whether I post it or it does ‘well’#it also affirms that I genuinely enjoy the writing process#but I wish I was able to do the same with the myriad ideas I have for original work#I have so many notes and outlines that I easily get overwhelmed in the details#and so many of my ideas are years and years old but they never seem good enough to begin writing in earnest#and even when I try to anyway something always comes up like a plot wall or some such#as I get older I begin to wonder if I’ll ever write anything original let alone publish it and idk it’s just been really bothering me lately#but especially today#/end rant
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When jjk characters call you ‘clingy’
Feat. crybaby-ish!reader
Gojo, geto, toji
Cw: hurt, guilt, angst (if you squint)
This is inspiration from a mini series i read a few days ago by user @fumekara. It was so good, I love me some angst to hurt/comfort.
But i also wrote this from personal experience too, my bad yall i treat this like my own personal diary
Anyway, enjoy!
Satoru Gojo
He was pissed. He doesn’t typically show it much, but when he does, he gets kind of scary. He’s more quiet, his voice gets deeper, and his whole body language just shifts. So when the higher-ups piss him off after a very long meeting, the last thing he needs is someone to pounce on him. He usually loves it when you greet him at the door when you’re home for work. But today, he just wanted to strip off his clothes and hop into bed.
Gojo huffs as he leaves the elevator of your shared apartment and grabs his keys from his pocket to unlock the door. As he opens the door, he sees you in the kitchen grabbing ingredients for dinner. “Hi baby,” You softly greeted him. “Hey.” was all he said back. It confused you for a second because he’s never greeted you like that before.
“Is everything okay?” You walk up to him to try to kiss him on his cheek. “God- Y/n, please.” He grumbled, walking right past you and placing his briefcase on the table. “I’m just trying to help,” you defended, walking up to take his coat off for him. “At least let me take your coat-” That’s when he snapped. Something he’s never done to you before. “Y/n, I fuckin’ got it! Geez, you’re so fucking clingy!” He aggressively shrugged your hands off his shoulder. It scared you a bit, to see him so angry at you. You were confused, all you wanted to do was make him feel better. Were you really that clingy?
“I-I’m sorry.” your voice came out shaky and defeated. Hearing how small your voice sounded in response to him lashing out made Satoru’s heart shatter into thousands of pieces. He wanted to turn around and apologize, but the words weren’t coming out. By the time he turned to face you, Your back was already facing him, preparing dinner for the both of you as tears rolled down your face.
Suguru Geto
It was 2 weeks after Suguru deflected. 2 weeks since he committed mass murder in that village. 2 weeks since he left Satoru, Shoko, and the others. It was weighing on him and you could tell. Nothing but him, his two adopted girls, a few people who believed in his cause, and you.
You promised him you would go wherever he would go, and he was so grateful for it. He loves you deeply and would do anything for you. But some days just threw everything on him at one time, today was one of those days. Monkeys non-sorcerers begging him to exercise curses left and right, Nanako and Mimiko begging him to take them shopping, missing payments from those begging for his service. It was all too much. And the guilt was eating away at him.
He genuinely wasn’t paying attention to what you were saying and it annoyed him how much talking you were doing in his ear at that moment. You were both sitting outside watching the two girls play in the yard. “Y/n,” He interrupted you. “Don’t you have something better to do than to just bother me?” He sighed sounding so condescending. “What do you mean?”
“Must you always cling to me? Isn’t there something else you can do besides following me everywhere I go, at all times of the day?!” His voice raised a bit as if he was talking to a non-sorcerer. “I didn’t realize I was. I was only trying to tell you about what me and the girls did today,” You defended. “You’re always so busy, I rarely get to see you anymore.”
“Yeah, because you’re always underneath me. Sometimes-” He stopped mid-sentence because of the saddened look on your face. His eyes softened a bit. “Sometimes I just need my space.” He sighed. You only nodded and started to walk back inside. “Ok, I understand.” Your voice cracked. Leaving Suguru alone to think about what he had just said to you. As if he didn’t feel guilt then, he definitely feels guilt now.
Toji Fushiguro
Toji was a bit frustrated today. He was cheated out of his money after doing a side job, the bet he placed on the race he kept constantly telling you about fell through, leaving him with zero, and to top it all off, the child support payment was coming up. You being an empath and knowing your boyfriend so well, you wanted to help him any way you could.
He was sitting in the chair by the island in the kitchen with his fingers combing through his hair. He was on the phone with multiple people at once, trying to solve his money issues. “Shiu, you guaranteed me way more money than this! How am I supposed to cover this months child support with this amount?!” You walked up to where he was, wondering what all the commotion was about. “Baby?” You softly called out. You could hear Shiu on the other line trying to calm him down and explain the situation.
“That sounds like a bunch of bull and you know it Shiu, you better have my money by next week thursday or else I’m taking it myself.” He grumbled and hung up the phone. “Baby,” You gently placed a hand on his broad shoulder.
“What, Y/n.” He sternly said. You merely blinked a few times. “I was just checking to see if you were okay. What’s with the attitude?”
“I’m fuckin’ frustrated okay? Please leave. You aren’t helping right now.” He waved you off.
“I barely did anything, I just wanted to know if you needed help with anything-”
“Jesus, I said enough! I don’t need your help. Fuck, you’re so clingy.” His voice booming caused you to remove your hand from his shoulder in fear. Seeing your reaction caused him to think about what he said and how he said it. The last think he wanted to do was scare you. He wanted you to feel safe around him. But with the way you jumped at how he raised his voice, it saddened him a bit.
“Y/n, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-” He was cut off by the sound of his child wailing in the background. “I’ll take care of it.” You said in the smallest voice, not even leaving him time to protest against it and apologize.
“Fuck.”
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