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sailoreuterpe · 2 months

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I'm so tired of being sick. No one but me wears a mask at work, I literally have customers come in and fucking joke about being sick, this fucking country doesn't have any safety net for people who get sick (no paid time off, no universal healthcare). I hate it here.

#Notes by Nikki #I've been sick three or four times since December #I can only miss so much work #and again #no one else will wear a mask #at least I only get vague judgement #rather than outward hostility #(so far)#physical health #physical illness #COVID #COVID19 #coronavirus #corona virus #I need to take another test #after I eat lunch #and cry some more

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eat-rock · 1 year

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“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way

#maybe it’s the mental illness but boy howdy do i feel like an outsider #as a teenager it’s usually the feeling that everybody else is a stick in the mud and stupider than you kind of stuff #now i’m feeling like everybody else is a real person while i’m only partially a person #like there’s so much of myself missing and i can’t seem to relate with anybody else #it’s lonely feeling like nobody would understand how my brain works even if i tried to explain it to them #idk how to tag this but i hope anybody else can relate #actually neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #mental illness #mentally ill #neurodivergent #👁‍🗨#🌀

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pallanophblargh · 6 months

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Another desperate strike at the art block and a tribute of sorts: super rusty linocut to reinitiate me into the world of printmaking. It’s not as attuned to my working style as intaglio was, but this is fun, tactile, and enough of a departure from my way of thinking that is super welcome.

It’s nothing special and definitely technically lacking (over-inked block and such) but it’s something, which is a big deal lately. Also it’s my favorite species of fish and we all know Kuhli loaches deserve all the tributes we can give.

#printmaking #linocut #Kuhli loach #kinda sorta art #love the carving process even though this is only the easy carve block so it’s soft #I have some of the firmer stuff too for future works for better detail #wanna do a cecropia caterpillar #actually wanna do a bunch of little precious invertebrates #art is so hard these days I will take what I can get #I’ll figure it out i promise #this is redemption for the horrid woodcuts I did during my relief printmaking class #miss it so much

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carolperkinsexgirlfriend · 2 months

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Steddie Upside-Down AU Part 96

Part 1 Part 95

Mom makes him go home when he starts dosing on Steve’s hospital bed. But it’s okay because she kisses Steve’s cheek before she leaves, and Eddie and Wayne stay parked by his side.

The connection’s easier now. It’s like all that time straining for Steve has snapped something into place. He can feel them all the time, a warm buzzing in his chest. He wonders if he runs hot now. If the warmth will diffuse through his whole being, make coats obsolete even in the dead of winter.

Hopper is waiting for them in the waiting room, El burrowed into his side. She looks wan, and tired, drooping into her extravagant coat, eyeliner running down her cheeks like she’s been crying. Something inside him twists when he looks at her.

Before he can untangle that knot of emotion, Hopper stands up, both hands slapping against his knees first the same way Mike’s dad does before he gets up from his recliner. “You ready to go?” he asks, not looking away from Mom.

When Will glances up, Mom’s smiling up at Hopper in a way he doesn’t want to think about. The adults talk quietly in front, leaving El to stumble tiredly along beside Will. She’s staring at the side of his face. Will can’t bring himself to look back.

“Steve,” she says, sounding the word out and making it longer like it still tastes foreign on her tongue. “He is okay?”

When Will gets up the courage to look over, her eyes are big and worried. He smiles at her helplessly. It’s almost funny how innocent she looks; like she’s a bunny dressed up in punk clothes. “He’ll be okay.”

She smiles, small and close lipped, but it still beams out of her like the sun. Will tilts his head to the side and tries to see what Mike sees in her. He wants to hide her in Castle Byers, build a fortress around her, and keep her away from all the lab people for the rest of her life.

Is that howMike felt, hiding her in his basement, giving her frozen eggos and keeping his mouth shut?

But then her lips thin and she looks forward again. The feelings vanishes. It’s just El, hia friend, despite how much of Mike’s attention she’d snapped up just by being herself.

“I’m glad,” she says, looking at Hopper’s broad back as she takes two steps for each one of his.

It’s quiet after that, the way it always is after; all of them too brittle and bruised and bone-deep tired for conversation.

Hopper’s truck rat-a tat-tats itself to life in the hospital parking lot. The radio croons out something quiet and thrumming until Hopper reaches over to shut it off.

El’s heads smushed into the window, vibrating against the pot-holed roads of Hawkins.

Will’s so tired he’s wide awake.

He watches the familiar buildings of Hawkins flicker by. It's been a long time since knowing his surroundings brought any comfort.

Monsters could live behind every door, every tree, every smiling face.

He’s not sure any of them will ever feel safe again.

Will closes his eyes, locking the scenery out so he can focus on the bundle of warmth in his chest. They’re still huddled together, two sparks merging in his chest.

The past couple days have been a necessary violation of Eddie’s private feelings. He’d bared them all with love confessions and grasping hands, trying to pull Steve back from the edge of immolation.

He’s not even sure Steve knows, hopes he does. Steve deserves to hold that love delicately between his palms and choose what to do with it.

He won’t crush it, even if it’s unreturned. He’ll hold it gently like he always does.

Will doesn’t realize he fell asleep, or that they’d arrived home until he’s in free-fall. It feels like one of those falling dreams where you wake up solidly in the middle of your bed, but this time he really is tumbling, only Jonathan’s arms keeping him from hitting the gravel.

“Are you okay?” he asks shakily as he pulls Will into his chest, holding him tight enough to hurt. “I’m so sorry.”

“Oh, sweetie,” Mom murmurs, wrapping them both up in her arms, chin landing solidly on Jonathan’s shoulder, sandwiching Will between their bodies. “Everyone’s fine, right Will?”

Will murmurs his affirmation, feeling groggy and confused in the light of day.

“I was with Nancy,” Jonathan whispers. “I was just with Nancy, and you were–I almost–”

“Shh,” Mom cuts him off, reaching up to cradle his face and smile up at him. Will barely catches the edge of his watering eyes from his restricted vantage point between them. “Everyone’s fine.”

“I should have been he–”

“Jonathan,” Mom interrupts again, sharper this time. “Everyone is fine. You deserve a normal life.”

“But Will–”

“I’m fine!” Will cuts in this time.

Jonathan pulls back, looking down at him with worried, droopy eyes. “And Steve? Mike said he was possessed.”

Will feels that bundle of warmth in his heart, lets it shine through his smile as he looks up at his brother. “He’ll be okay.” As Jonathan droops with relief, Will feels his smile turn cheeky. “Eddie will never let you forget that you were on a date while we were fighting monsters, though.”

Jonathan closes his eyes, pained while Mom laughs.

It’s not until they’re walking toward the front door that Will notices the lack of demo-dog bodies. There’s still puddles of black oil-slick blood, but everything else looks normal. Who covered their tracks? The lab? Hopper?

He settles down for the debrief, pillowing his head on Jonathan’s shoulder as Hopper’s even tones flit through his brain.

Maybe familiar places no longer hold any comfort, but Jonathan’s bony frame is enough to lull him into a peaceful sleep.

Part 97

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#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #will byers #steddie upsidedown au #my fic #Steve pov: I'm a wretch and a monster and everything is my fault #will pov: steve's so comforting :)#also Jonathan freaking out because he missed everything is something that is so fun to me. He's like. I'm a terrible brother!#Meanwhile Nancy only has low stakes in the whole thing. And she never got involved so by the time she knew to worry about Mike.#She already knew he was fine. so her main reaction is feeling left out.#Nancy is so fun in this AU because her inciting character incident (Barb's death) shapes so much of who she is #that we have like maybe one episode of characterization to work off of wrt what she was like before #anyway I'm sick so we'll see how much writing I can actually get done while feverish!

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pictureday2005 · 5 months

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i dont need therapy or medication i need it to be 2007. i need it to be my full time job to learn and explore and be curious about the world around me again

#crayon on envelope #i cant do any of that shit when i gotta have a job #i really miss when all i had to do was go to school #like i didnt realize how good i had it at the time #go in for like six hours and still have time and sunlight to do what i wanted when i got home #weekends off where all your friends Also have it off so you can organize hanging out #the whole summer to yourself #honestly i feel like id be doing so much better psychologically if i could have summer vacation again lol #bc at least then i was working towards something #just gotta get through the year so i can enjoy my summer #now its like. why am i even doing all of this #why is my only goal to suffer till i get a paycheck #and i dont even get to keep most of it #pointless luv litchrally pointless

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sysig · 3 months

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Ah, childhood memories (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Gaster #Having such clear external-view memories of what happened when they were young would probably give Sans a lot of ammunition lol #Not that they'd know any different - their poor memories honestly :( - but having such clear memories in places would have to be weird #Most people have childhood amnesia to an extent! Tho it's hard to say when that would've applied to them anyway with their sped-up growth #Not to mention the trauma #And it's possible that doesn't apply to Monsters to begin with lol - but it's all a moot point anyway since these are their only memories!#It's sad to think of how much of themselves are missing forever since Gaster didn't experience them :(#This is what happens when you get behind on your work >:0 #I really wonder what their lack of memories/restoration of memories would do for their like/dislike of certain things!#Like how Papyrus says that sitting with Sans in his lap makes a lot of sense as to why it was so familiar and comforting #But also that knowing makes it sad as well :( Knowing recolours their understanding and interpretation!#Knowing Why makes things make sense but does it actually Help? It's a tough question - certainly it hurts in the moment #The little things Gaster has infected for them and for himself ♥ Like taking notes! Like chess and sweets and spaghetti and lab coats #And dark sweaters and cigarette smoke and hugs and intelligence - how many pieces of all of them have A Feeling attached #How many more have A Memory - and even more than that A Memory Lost and unrecoverable ughhh ♥#But the little things they can hold on to hehe <3 Like pinging Gaster for what they all know and remember #Why does he even keep coming over if he knows the reception he'll get? Lol #Feels particularly self-loathing and goes to get bullied as penance pfft

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shiningliive · 14 days

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IMPORTANT POLL

Utapri Live Emotion Coverage

If I continue to cover Live Emotion, I want to know where you would prefer to see it. No guarantees I'll follow the responses since I'm still considering it myself. For now, I have a Live Emotion blog (@live-emotion) where I've been reblogging from here. But this won't work in the long run.

If I cover it here @shiningliive: It might bring more awareness to the game since I still have followers from Shining Live days, and people wouldnt have to migrate to a new blog. It may feel nice to continue to utapri mobile game legacy in the same spot. But also, Live Emotion coverage here would bury Shining Live content, and make it harder to find in the long run. Id also have to figure out new tagging system to differentiate content between the two games. The blog name would also be inconsistent/confusing.

If I cover it @live-emotion: It would be a fresh start, and make finding content for each game more convenient. It would also allow ShiningLiive to remain a clean archive of Shining Live content, and people uninterested in Live Emotion wouldnt have to unfollow. However, it might be a bit sad to leave Shiningliive behind, and people may miss the content.

#leaning towards coverage at new blog at the moment #im really enjoying being back here though #its nice to see familiar usernames after a few years #but also im not working much at the moment so I dont know if I'll be able to keep up coverage if I get busier #If i keep shiningliive as shining live only #i can also perhaps upload cards etc that i missed after i stopped uploading #welcoming any further thoughts in replies and tags #poll

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mixtercandy · 10 months

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The PokeDogs Zine is open for Pre-Order! Its a charity zine benefitting the 15/10 Foundation! @pokedogszine

Buy a bundle here! (It also has a gacha option!)

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madsmilfelsen · 2 months

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lost dogs

#lost dogs #rust cohle #apparently i can only work in manic cycles that top out at 25k words #go easy on me (me @ my novel manuscript)#i already miss them so much what other character would make some poor girl come until she cries and thinks its selfish

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coffeemira · 9 months

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need an age regression/de-aging fic where a post-KH4 riku has to take care of a younger sora, and bb sora is just completely awestruck over how strong and kind and pretty (and tall!!) his best friend riku got… and is so transparently smitten that riku, who is actually dating present-day sora, is just like: wow we really were oblivious how did either of us miss sora’s glaring crush on me??

#soriku #i’m picturing like… sora right before kh1 or post-kh2 #old enough to have butterflies over this other riku but not quite old enough to know what it means yet #just a puppy crush #there’s angst potential too if it’s kh2 sora before he found his riku #so he throws himself sobbing at older riku #but a BBS sora bouncing around teen riku would be very cute also #anyway i would write it myself but i don’t have the time #also am not confident about writing children #i just want riku getting to see firsthand that he wasn’t the only one pining for years and years #and that sora always loved him even at his worst #8yo sora doesn’t care that his riku teased him sometimes he still wants to play games with big riku #10yo sora doesn’t understand why his riku said they’re too old to hold hands #and is thrilled that big riku is happy to give him hugs and ruffle his hair #kh1 sora doesn’t care about their old ‘rivalry’ or that his riku was working with maleficent #he is just overjoyed to learn that riku came back to the side of light and that they get to be friends again #kh2 sora is loud about how much he missed him and very impressed by how far riku has come as a keyblade master #(also blushes when he sees him working out and then is confused as to why)#(i am thinking of that one manga panel where sora talks about riku’s “big arms” and how he can carry big logs by himself lmfao)#any of these soras would follow a cool older riku around like a duckling and be wowed by everything he does i am convinced

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autism-swagger · 1 year

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Tara headcanons :3

(it's literally just angst. Blame @lionydoorin for making me have Tara thoughts)

She can't stand the smell of cooking meat anymore. It reminds her of Amber.

After Sam left, there wasn't anyone buying groceries on a regular basis. She never starved, but there were many occasions where she went to bed hungry.

She doesn’t remember most of the night her dad left (or even the man himself for that matter). She tried to grab him as he was leaving, but he shoved her off. She slammed her head on the corner of the wall really hard, and ended up with a scar on her forehead, chronic psychosomatic migraines, and tinnitus.

She'll avoid going to the hospital unless she absolutely has to. Not only does it reminds her of being attacked, she was also a really sick kid, and she spent a lot of her childhood hospitalized. Even just going to the doctor stresses her out.

She's like. 70% stress and anxiety at any given moment. Seriously somebody get this girl some SSRIs before she has a heart attack.

Her leg and hand have permanent nerve damage, and her entire left arm is kind of fucked up after 6. She has a semi-permanent arm brace, a cane for her leg, and a whole lot of chronic pain.

Christina had a revolving door of boyfriends, and would bring them home sometimes. They were almost always awful to Tara.

She really misses Amber sometimes. She never tells anyone.

#god I have SO many thoughts about her #canon isn't angsty enough I must make her suffer more #*puts her in the blender*#the other 30% is rage btw #---#pretty much the only thing her leg is good for is telling when it's about to rain #like. it works. she can walk on it. but it can't support her weight and she walks with a limp #so she has a cane. no matter how much she hates it #she just wants to be /normal/. normal people don't have nerve damage from their girlfriend stomping on their leg #so she just pretends it didn't happen. and there's nothing wrong with her leg #--#Christina's guys were awful to Sam too (when she was around) but this is Tara headcanons so #-#she feels so incredibly guilty for missing Amber #she misses the person who tried to kill her. who tried to kill her sister. who /did/ kill her friends. how awful is that?#so she never tells anyone #the guilt almost eats her alive #Tara tag #horror tag #hc tag

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whumpshaped · 5 months

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#so im working on some disabled whumper stuff #bc i got many good prompts for it #and i keep thinking abt this one guy who i think highlights how “prosthetics can be useful but overall theyre clunky and bothersome”#i used to play tabletennis right #and this guy was missing a leg #so he'd wear the prosthetic leg when walking around bc it was easier #then take it off before he came to play #he was a MEAN fucking player bro i love him #i remember my doubles partner saying 'ive heard theres a rule for not dropping the ball right behind the net'#'bc wheelchair users cant reach it'#and he grinned and said 'oh dont worry abt it. hit the ball wherever u like'#him and his doubles partner OBLITERATED us😭😭#to be very fair these were men in their 40s and we were like 12 #but like we have been competitively playing at that point for years and years and years #i lost soooo many matches to this man ok #AND I ALSO MUST HIGHLIGHT. DO U UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH MOVEMENT IS NEEDED WHEN U PLAY DOUBLES #U NOT ONLY HAVE TO REACH THE BALL #UR CONSTANTLY TRYING TO AVOID CRASHING INTO UR PARTNER #WHILE ALSO LETTING THEM REACH THE BALL #THAT MAN WAS NIMBLE #i think abt him a lot #also one time when i was like 9 we were sharing one changing room in the sports centre #and i didnt know that #(we were usually all afab so it wasnt unusual that the other changing room stayed locked when we had like one (1) man there)#(we'd just take turns it was no biggie)#(especially at like 8pm)#and i go into the room and theres a Leg #BRO I ALMOST SCREAMED AJSJDKSKSKSKSKSK #anyway..... back to writing. but i think abt him every time i question whether a disabled person would be able to do A Thing #irlshaped

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nashvillethotchicken · 2 months

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I'm think about claudia and louis again. 79 dead 1903 injured

#all that work to leave her abuser and get a better life for her and louis just to get taken out by louis husband again like omg #she shoulda been in the club! she should have been an aka! or an sgrho! she shoulda been upwardly mobile! but instead shes in an urn #on louis mantle with her picture looking down #or a tree in a garden in dubai or in a locket held tight in louis’s fist #like i truly feel for her so much #that baby is trapped!!! she literally cant escape not only from lestat but louis as well!#louis needs something to cling onto and its claudia #its always been claudia even when it was paul or grace or lestat or armand its always been claudia #and she cant leave his heart cus hell die if she does and oh how horrible itd be for the both of them #and she dont even get anything outta it! she love her father so much and all she got outta it was a soft casket #do you think she thinks about how louis killed her. even outside of what she says in ep 5 like louis killed her. he was the prox cause of-#the storyville fires/race riot like do you ever think about that?#do you ever think about how louis ended her life just to restart his own? cus i do. so fuckin often #and its not like she couldnt have done something with herself outside of them! she can! bailey!claudia was light enough where she could pass #for white pretty well and go and live whatever like she wanted but she didnt. cus she loves and misses her father so much and she wanted-#a life with him and her without the specter of lestat over them and louis couldnt let it go for her #see thats louis problem. he cant let anything go #couldnt let paul go. couldnt let lestat go. couldnt let humanity go couldnt let claudia go kept all them damn newspapers looking for a-#glimpse of his heart his baby his angel his claudia #claudia belonged to louis. cus nothing belongs to louis really #not the home he lives in (either rue royale or his childhood home)#he doesnt own his husband who galavants up and down the quarter with a white woman who isnt an 1/8th of him #he dont own his business cus that can be taken away by a lynch mob or a plague or a drink too many #he dont own his family who replaced him with some broke ass nigga the second paul passed #he dont own his brother who lives quietly in a mausoleum louis is so sure he put him in #he dont own his sister who so wants to connect with louis even when its rough and its eating at her like he almost did Benny #the only thing he really really owns is claudia. thats HIS blood. thats HIS daughter #he didnt make her but she is HIS and no lestat or armand or freaky vampire lufe can take that from him #claudia du pointe du lac #louis de pointe du lac

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laniidae-passerine · 5 months

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see I am very disjointed from a lot of nine/ten fandom discourse because I genuinely believe that in a different world where space boy was not to be seen, had an older Rose gone to the hospital and bumped into a certain Doctor Jones by a vending machine or as she was taking Rose’s vitals, she would have instantly hit it off with Martha. and probably flirted with her a little on accident and then on purpose when Martha flirted back

#I can see Martha raising an eyebrow as she catches Rose (who definitely snuck out despite being on bedrest) by the vending machine #Rose probably snuck out of bed because the girl in the bed next to her was crying and she wanted to make her feel better #because she doesn’t really like hospitals either #and when she tells Martha this she’s surprised when the Doctor (who seems quite strong and a little serious) suddenly smiles #and shows her a trick to get extra sweets and chocolate out of the machine #and then tells her to hurry because the check-in sweep of Rose’s ward is about to begin #you just KNOW Rose would be Martha’s most combative patient but in all the best ways #always asking what that machine does. what that incomprehensible doctor scrawl means. if there’s something she can do to help other patients #and Martha loves it. loves how much Rose cares just like her. they gossip and they chat about their daily lives. they get closer #everytime Martha has to scold Rose for sneaking out of bed or doing something she shouldn’t #(even though she secretly adores it. she’s never really mad she just wants Rose to take care of herself as well as other people)#she sighs and says (in her most firm but still fond tone) ‘Miss Tyler-’#only to be struck in the heart again with a cheeky grin and a ‘yes Doctor Jones?’#and also Rose loves that Martha is a doctor. that Martha cares. that she works overtime. that almost all Martha’s patients love her #and the ones that don’t just aren’t kind people anyway. that Martha doesn’t condescend. that Martha cares and cares and cares #that Martha likes all the things about Rose that other people think make her difficult and trouble and too much #she likes the things that other people don’t like in Martha either. thinks she’s magic.#Rose Tyler is always going to love her Doctor. and Martha Jones will always love somebody who thinks everybody matters #I’m like. obsessed with them?? move OVER space boy (actually nine can get involved in this. lmao ten stay away)#they’d have been so cuteeeee #rtd failed to see the lesbionic possibility but I am no such coward. no fighting over boys here #martha jones #rose tyler #dw #doctor who

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itspileofgoodthings · 9 months

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so funny because my emotions are a strength of mine (also their strength in particular is a strength) but they’re also a huuuuge weakness and downside and pitfall as well, and not just because they make me suffer. they also just, like, get in the way of so many good things.

#they’re part of my eloquence/persuasive powers!#such as they are #and people respond to the passion! but I actually think they get in my way more often than not #and just make my points so much less valid and interesting #when I can look back at a thing from the vantage of emotional hindsight and talk about it quickly and simply and analytically #when I’m not actively WRESTLING with something I feel like I do my best work #but idk. maybe that’s just how it feels from the inside and isn’t actually so #nah it is so. at least with negative emotions. I am only off-putting and annoying and disagreeable when I’m speaking on a thing negatively #and even positively sometimes that first flush of emotion that’s carrying me along has to die before I can really speak honestly #like me speaking on Jonathan byers with SOOO much overflowing emotion and warmth and love #akksksjdjejejejejejjejeje #but there was stuff I was missing and wouldn’t look at!!!#it was all conviction and warmth but then I was wrong #TLDR: I think I’m most persuasive when the emotion has passed or at least is not immediately present and I’m speaking about things #more rationally #Because I like to think my rationality is still not cold! It’s very alive but it isn’t so weighed down by emotions #It’s why I need to restrain myself from speaking bitterly (at least publicly) when I’m mad about stuff #i just say all the ugliest and in many ways LEAST true things about whatever I’m talking about #even as I’m reaching for clarity #again. Teaching helps with this.#time mellows the first waves of emotion appropriately. still giving my takes life but not overpowering the vision (hopefully)#but then idk. sometimes I have a take and many very very smart people hate it so much #so it’s just like #shrug emoji #Maybe I AM wrong #I can’t be the judge of my own takes turns out. Not really #but I guess I’m learning to have them anyway #if it’s organic and hits me like a wave of revelation #it’s always those takes people hate the MOST though aksjsjejejeje #again except for my students. because they don’t know to hate them so they just follow where I lead (mostly)

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kyouka-supremacy · 10 months

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Does anyone know where I can find the good quality version of this image? It's so frustrating because when cross searching on google it'll tell me the original quality is 850x478, but I can't find a way to download it in that quality. This is another version of the image (I'm guessing it's Mayoi promo art):

But I liked the clean white background one...

#It's cute...#It's got Akutagawa stealing glances at Atsushi #Thought asking was worth a try ;;;;;;#Google cross image search has changed and as someone who used it as I use breathing it's been absolutely heartbreaking.#It makes cross searching images so much harder it's awful #Because before when you looked up an image it suggested you the best quality avaible of that image.#And the search got worse every year but it was still functional you know??#But now there's not that anymore. There's no “large” “medium” “small” and instead it only gives you “find image source”#Dude I don't want to find the image source. I've downloaded the image I KNOW the source. What I want is ANOTHER SOURCE with better quality #And I used to get it when I was 10 and I used to get it when I was 15 and I sued to get it when I was 20 #And now I don't have it anymore?? It stripes away one of the most powerful search tools on the internet from the public????#It drives me insane. Like why does internet get worse every year that's not how humanity is supposed to work #Sorry. I needed to rant. This makes every quality-freak media archivist (like me) job harder beyond comparison #Btw if you're looking for an alternative Yandex images still does the work... It's not as powerful search engine as google #and it's often going to miss the particular hidden media (y'know- super niche Akutagawa merch from 2018 and stuff)#But for the rest it does a pretty good job. If anything there's still the best quality avaible option #But seriously looking up stuff for aktgw-daily has gotten so much harder ever since this fucked up change to google lens #and it makes me hate the world. I haven't been able to find a way to reverse it but if anyone more tech savy than me who has any idea-#what I'm talking about can help me. Please please hmu I'll be grateful forever #Sorry for the rant I have a lot of pent up rage over this. Stop making broke people's lives harder challenge #random rambles

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