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becomethebooks · 4 months

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1,3,4,7,16,19,20,30,38,39,42,50,51,53,70,

I wouldn’t be able to answer this but I want to know if you can #77

79,80,86,102, 103, 106, 130

This is one of my own questions: is there a book that changed you mind about an opinion that you once had?

And is there a book that you wish you could switch places with one of the characters?

Loved these questions :)

1- a book that is close to your heart: Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell

3- a stand-alone that you wish was part of a series: Eleanor and Park!!! It needs a sequel lmao All the Crooked Saints by Maggie Stiefvater is also so good I wish it had more.

4- a poetry book that reads like a story: The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein. I grew up with this book and I found it cute when I was younger but now I realize how fucked up it is lol

7- a book you did not finish: Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte. I tried I really tried is all I can say.

16- a book you'd recommend to your younger self: The Alchemist by Paolo Coehlo. I read this too late in life for it to have the impact it would have, it came off a bit pretentious. Younger me would benefit from it better.

19- a book that put you into a reading slump: “Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close” by Jonathan Safran Foer because that book was so so intense

20- a book that got you out of a reading slump: “Tell No One” by Harlan Coben

30- your favorite middle grade book: Maggie Steifvater’s Wolves of Mercy Falls series was my favorite for a looong time.

38- your favorite series: I think right now it’s the Legendborn series. I really love the characters and I’m excited when I think about it. But also the We Hunt the Flame duology was soooo well done. I loved the villain.

39- a book featuring your favorite character: Altair from We Hunt the Flame/We Free the Stars by Hafsah Faizal

42- a book that made you want to scream by the time you got to the end: The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo because WHYYYY EVELYNNNN WHYYYYYY

50- a book that made you cry a LOT: All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven …because BRO!!!!

51- a book that you found underwhelming: Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros

53- a popular book/series that you hate: The Maze Runner by James Dashner. Literally WHAT made this book series so popular?!?!

70- your favorite poetry collection: cant say I have a favorite collection but I love e.e. cummings’ and Rainer Maria Rilke’s works

77- a book so useless that you could use it as a coaster: I think you’d agree with me when I say Breathless by Jennifer Niven lmaooo

79- A book that reminds you of your favorite song: My current favorite song is “Bloom” by The Paper Kites, which reminds me of The Raven Cycle series because it reminds me of Adam and Ronan, precious boys.

80- a book that reminds you of a loved one: Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell

86- a book with an insane plot twist: Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card. I remember reading the twist and my jaw dropping lol

102- your favorite dark academia read: Libba Bray’s Gemma Doyle Trilogy. Still very obsessed with it even though I remember nothing about it lol.

103- a book that deals with heavy topics: Goliath by Tochi Onyebuchi. It’s a future sci-fi based on a post-pandemic Earth. I found it so fascinating and even almost prophetic. Very subtly gut-wrenching.

106- a book that made you squeamish: Theres this one scene in Ordinary Monsters by JM Miro that I CANNOT get out of my head months after reading it

130- a book featuring flashbacks and/or intersecting storylines: East of Eden by John Steinbeck does this SUPERBLY.

Your own question- Is there a book that changed your mind about an opinion you once had? When I was younger (like early middle school), I read “The Giver” by Lois Lowry and it was my first Utopian-Dystopian book. I used to think Utopia’s were good and that we as a society should strive for them, but after reading The Giver it opened my eyes to the reality of human drive to evil.

Your 2nd question- And is there a book that you wish you could switch places with one of the characters? This is a haaaard one. I don’t think there is one, or maybe I haven’t read something where I wish I was in that world. If manga counts, Inuyasha FOR SURE!!!!!! Lol

#asks #ask #I'm sure some of this is new for you lol

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morewyckedthanyou · 1 year

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I was tagged by @lovelesscherub, thank you soooo much, I love to be tagged 💖 (even if I don't always answer these because I forget or don't feel motivated at the time ).

favourite colour(s): Green (especially emerald green but all shades, really) and also yellow and orange. 💚💛🧡

favourite flavour(s): I have a sweet tooth, so if it's something is sweet... yes please. But also, I like savoury things too, and things that are a bit spicy a well. And garlic in anything usually works great! 😋

favourite genre(s): Whether we're talking about movies, tv or literature, I mostly prefer horror, sci-fi and fantasy. Oh, and mysteries (whether it's crime or something supernatural).

favorite music: I lean towards metal more than anything, but I actually also like a lot of different types of rock (especially if it was made 'in the old days', so in like... 50's to 90's) and pop as well.

favourite movie(s): So damn many tbh! But I will try to list at least some favourites that come to mind immediately. Here we go: Alien, Brokeback Mountain, Pacific Rim, Titanic, Flatliners (1990), Back to the Future-trilogy, Star Wars episodes IV-VII (but especially The Empire Strikes Back and The Force Awakens - the latter had so much potential ok!), Mamma Mia!, The Blair Witch Project, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Jurassic Park, Crimson Peak, IT 1990 (which is technically a miniseries but I think of it as a movie so), The Faculty, Thelma and Louise, Girl Interrupted, Stardust, Pitkä Kuuma Kesä, Spirited Away, Young Guns 1 & 2, Monty Python's Life of Brian, The LotR-trilogy, Hot Fuzz, Sinister, Maurice, The Breakfast Club, Kingsman 1 & 2...

favourite series: I don't watch a lot of tv (other than true crime "docuseries" sometimes) because I can't concentrate on following a plot that goes on and on most of the time but here are some favourites I've enjoyed in the past: Twin Peaks, The X-Files (seasons 1-7), Mash, Black Books, Doctor Who (the new series seasons 1-4), Spaced, Good Omens... Also I guess I should say Cobra Kai, not because I think it's particular good but because I just love the karate dads so much.

last song: GOSSIP by Måneskin

last series: Probably some true crime murder-series, I honestly can't remember, haven't even opened my tv in like a week or so

last movie: Can't remember if I've watched anything else in full since I watched Big Eden (2000) a few weeks ago.

currently reading: I wish I was reading an actual book because that's what I want to do more this year... But nah, I have started some but none could hold my interest more than a couple pages. 😩 I am however rereading a very good Cobra Kai fanfic feat. Daniel/Johnny/Amanda written by my very talented tumblr mutual and once I've finished reading I will leave a loooong comment because it looks like last time I was dumb and didn't comment at all and I am disappointed in myself.

currently working on: Writing letters to my penpals. Also trying to work on having a proper rhythm in my days even now that I'm unemployed and have nowhere to be during days. It's going alright I think. I should also try to work on my anxiety which has been quite bad lately.

I will tag: @catzy88 @disdaidal @icanhasnaow @leyley09 @an-sceal @ashyyboyy @dull-c @valastaja @marley-manson and @vonderbarr But if you have already done this recently or just don't feel like answering then no pressure! ❤️

#i got tagged #answers #lovelesscherub #lol my movie list became so long and would've been even longer if i'd also added all the horrible movies i like for nostalgia reasons #one quite bad nostalgia trip movie even found its way on the list 😂

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pinkgoblinshark · 2 years

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I just finished my first run through Eden and my thoughts are:

it was a beautiful end, and its good to know this game will have good repeatability, it's been a blast to play

if i had known i wasnt supposed to survive Eden and the goal was to sacrifice light, i couldve had SOOOO many ascended candles

#listen #by the time id gotten to the eye or the part where the red rocks just wont let up #i had like at least 60 winged lights #sky children of the light #sky spoilers #sky: cotl #skyblr #sky game

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apricottah · 2 years

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there’s so many things i want to tell you and it builds up and becomes too much, anyway let me tell you what has been happenninnggg there is something so wrong with me all the time i swear the past like 2 weeks? week? three weeks? idk how long it’s been but anyway i went out whenever this is like at the start of when i last wrote something and me and my friend go out and jay who i went es with is there bc he works at the pub we went to and we had a really nice time but then we’re all talking about ages ago when we went to the eden project and me and this guy broke into the eden project and stole ice skates and went ice skating and swam in the waterfall but apparently the night before that there was this girl and they found me behind the portaloos 😭😭 telling her like no no get off me and she was trying to get it onnn with me and they had to save me from her bc i was like nooo and she was like 😜😜😜 so new trauma got unlocked that i completely don’t remember. whatever there’s this guy at work i fancy the fucking arse off of but like when i like someone im so nervous i just cant if idc im fine whatever but i literally idk i have a problem so ofc i told everyone and their nan i think he’s Fitttttt, we’ve been talking a bit but im still working on it but then a couple days later i sort of got over it. i asked my step dad to get some bread a week ago and he gave me the dirtiest look so my home life isn’t so great also my sister’s got really bad again and i shldn’t be workinf so much so i can look after her but i need to get my own place so i can just get custody of her it’s tricky and i’m really bad at law. i was out the other day and im walking to the loo and i see caitlin fucking daniels i haven’t spoken to her in yearrsss man she was like omg grace?!? and i was like hi!! and we’re gonna meet on sunday im so excited i was like ahhhh im doing so much better now im so heaLTHY lets do smth! she’s doing really good she seems more balanced. i have this 50th bday party on sat and im so anxious bc the only people i know going is the girl who’s parents it is, her bf and my fucking disgusting toxic ex who i would literally rather set fire to my own body than sit in a room with for any amount of time because everyone is still so blind i literally feel crazy saying he’s an asshole but im sorry i called it from the start and then i was psychotic so idrk what happened but my therapist said it’s best to just leave closed doors closed and accept what was left behind them which yeah i get but fucking hell im not drinking when i go onsat because one fucking glass of wine and i would honestly choke the shit out of him chop his cock off and bury his body in the woods yeah maybe i do have a lot of repressed anger and resentment but at least i’m getting it out in ways like writing it down instead of doing something about it. i had a dream i was pregnant last night and it was soo weird also i didn’t get into halls for uni but i think it’s a good thing i just do not think it wld be good for me im gonna just go into a house and get a job and get on with it i actually have a goal now and i am soooo gassed for it because the law changed a while ago too so you can live in italy if you’re working abroad like idk i think it’ll make it easier for me and i won’t have to fake marry a gay italian man. i have such a good idea for a book i can’t wait to start it also i finally finished my draft of the first one i am SO excited except now i need to go back and edit it alllllll which will bore the ABSOLUTE SHIT out of me but it’s also okay because i love myself

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imaginewithmgk · 4 years

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Hello! I was wondering if I could put in a request for an MGK fic? I’m obsessed with the song sex by EDEN and I would love a friends to loves fic where the reader and Colson have a friends with benefit relationship and they both start catching feelings. Little angst but a fluffy ending?

NOT ALL THE BENEFITS

summary: colson and y/n have been friends for a very long time but colson has had enough of hiding his feelings

word count: 1,657 words

warnings: fluff, smut-ish, swearing

Y/N’s P.O.V.

I walk downstairs into the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. I scan the cupboards, then the fridge, and then the cupboard again but I can’t pick anything that I really want. I decide to pop some bread in the toaster to see if that springs any ideas into my crowded mind. I cross my arms and place them on the counter, leaning on them so I can watch the toaster intently. I’ve been trying to master the art of not getting scared when it spits my toast out. Don’t judge me. I shiver due to the cold surface on my bare skin. It might not help that I’m only wearing underwear and an old t-shirt as well.

“You look cold,” A deep, tired voice says from behind me. I blush as I feel arms wrap around my waist and lips place delicate kisses on my neck and shoulders. I stand up properly and rub my cold hands over their warm arms.

“Colson stop,” I giggle. I feel him shake his head and place it in the crook of my neck. “What are you doing?” I exclaim.

"I'm cold! You're cold too so I'm trying to generate body heat to keep us warm," I feel him smirk against my skin. "You also look incredibly sexy so I couldn't help myself,"

"If you're cold you can go get dressed and leave me alone so I can make my breakfast!" I laugh, turning around and gently shoving him away. I notice he is only wearing boxers so I take that to my advantage and scan his body quickly. I study his tattoos and the six-pack that is beginning to show.

"Fine. I know you don't want me to get dressed though," He winks, wiggling his butt as he walks out of the kitchen and into his room. I laugh at him and quickly forget about my toast.

My mind drifts to how Colson and I aren't in a relationship and the fact that I wish we were. I have the next best thing though, him as my best friend. I obviously have feelings for him but I would never tell him because I don't want to ruin the beautiful friendship we have. A few years ago we took our friendship to the next level and sort of became “friends with benefits”, I guess you could call it that. Just not all the benefits. We jokingly mess around with each other, kiss each other’s body parts like neck, shoulders, etc. We’ve done pretty much everything imaginable except for actual sex, and for some reason, we’ve never kissed. I think we’re both too scared to see where it would go. I don’t really know, whenever it comes to Colson my mind turns into scrambled eggs.

I follow him into his bedroom and see him standing in front of his wardrobe with his favourite pair of black jeans on, the ripped ones with the XX logo on the knee, looking through his tops.

"Y/N," He whines. "I don't know what top to wear,"

"Chill, I'll help you," I chuckle and walk over so I'm standing behind him. I copy his actions from earlier and wrap my arms around his waist, but instead of placing my chin on his shoulder I just rest my head against his back. He's too damn tall.

"What are you doing?" He asks. I hum and watch him flip through shirts. I sneakily trail my hand down from his belly button to the top of his jeans and keep my other hand on his hip, rubbing circles into the material of his pants. I feel him shiver but he ignores me and continues looking through shirts. I feel him tense up as I place my hand on the front of his jeans. I feel him harden in my hand, and I know he’s trying to hide a moan. I squeeze his package making him moan out loud. I chuckle and move away from him, causing him to let out a long breath.

"Fuck baby. Don't ever do that again," He says which makes me laugh even more.

"I won't," I say in between laughs. I point to a top and he puts it on quickly, grumbling to himself.

"Piss off!"

"Awe don't be like that," I pout.

"Bitch," He mumbles. I walk over to him and give him a hug, snuggling into his chest.

"You know I love you right?" I ask and look up to meet his eyes.

"Of course. I love you too," He replies, looking into my eyes and placing a gentle kiss on my forehead. I smile.

"What do you want to do today?" I ask, moving away from him. He shrugs.

"I have a recording session at 3 and it's already 1 so I'm not sure I'll have much time to do anything,"

"Oh yeah," I nod. "Do you want to go grab some food and see what happens from there?" I ask.

"Yeah let's do that,"

I make my way to my room and get changed into some simple black jeans and one of Colson's tops. I put on some mascara, fill in my eyebrows, brush my teeth and then put on some lip gloss and I'm ready to go. I grab my keys and phone and watch Colson lock the front door before he grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers. We make our way to our favourite cafe that’s only a few blocks away, chatting about random things the whole way.

We get a table outside and pick up the menus.

"What are you going to get?" I ask him.

"Probably a BLT, you?"

"Avocado toast I reckon,"

"You get that every time!" He chuckles.

"I know but it's soooo good," I exclaim. Shortly after the waitress takes our orders and we go back to chatting.

"I low key wanted to go to the park but I think I'd rather just stay at home and cuddle with my girl. I got some difficult songs to record later on." Colson says playing with one of his rings.

"Your girl huh?" I tease. He's never called me that before.

"Shut up," He blushes.

"Are you blushing? Oh my god!" I grab his hand. He starts laughing and covering his face while rubbing his thumb on the back of my hand. The waitress comes over to our table and gives us our food.

"You guys make a really cute couple by the way!" She smiles.

"Oh n-" I go to correct her.

"Thank you so much," Colson interrupts me. I furrow my eyebrows at him as she smiles at us once again and walks away.

"What was that?" I ask him.

"I didn't want to make her feel awkward," He shrugs. I hum in response and begin eating my food. We finish quite quickly and make our way home.

"So what do you wanna do?" I ask him as we walk through the front door. I close it behind me and watch him grab a blunt off the lounge room table and light it.

"You wanna just cuddle and watch Netflix or something?"

"Sounds good to me," I follow him into his room and take off my jeans so I can be comfortable. I put on a pair of his shorts and hop into his bed, wrapping myself in his blanket. He lies down next to me and turns on his TV, changing it to Netflix. He randomly chooses a movie but keeps it at a low volume so we can chat.

"Y/N?"

"Yeah?" I reply.

"I'm so happy we're best friends. You mean the world to me,"

"Awe I feel the same way,"

"Like, you're actually my whole world. I don't know where I'd be without you," He whispers.

"Same," I giggle, then move onto my side to look at him.

"I love you bitch,"

"I love you too whore,"

Colson’s P.O.V.

We lay in silence for a while but I can’t help but think about her and whether or not I should tell her about my feelings. Y/N is my best friend but I’ve found myself falling for her more and more each day, to the point where I think I’m in love with her. I don’t want to ruin our friendship because it truly is one of a kind, I’m just not sure how long I can last without being with her.

“What’s up?” She asks. “Whatchu been thinking?”

“What do you mean?” I look over at her.

“You’ve been staring at the roof so long I swear it’s come alive,” She jokes.

“Can I tell you something?” I meet her eyes.

“Of course,” She whispers, clearly nervous.

“I don’t want to lie anymore, I don’t want to hide this anymore Y/N. You’ve taken my heart. I know you said, well we both said, that the intimate things we do mean nothing but they do mean something. They mean something to me. I know I should’ve kept my mouth shut but I can’t keep living like this. Remember that fight we had last week? When you said that you thought I was heartless, that we were just messing around, and you would never call it love, it fucking broke my heart but I caught feelings! You know I have a fear of feeling but I don’t know how to forget you. I can’t forget you,”

“Colson I-”

“I know Y/N. I know you don’t feel the same way but I had to tell you!”

“Would you just shut up for a second?” She raises her voice. “I love you,”

“What?”

“Not in a friendly way. In a romantic way. I’ve had feelings for you from the second I met you and being with you all the time made me love you more and more every day. I love you Colson Baker,”

“I love you too Y/N L/N,”

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luiysia · 4 years

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tagged in TWO memes by @condoravenue wowowow

tagging all my mutuals who have been in my activity in the past three days so

@seraph-wings @pawpile @benevolentchineseassociation @birdemic @stinkyhat @electronicbehaviorcontrolsystem @boxheadpaint @dailyjackiechan @coolart2021 @atonement420 @okragre @angelbabyspice @hauntedmotel

just do one of them if you want but yea and tag me in it hehe

10 songs i’ve been listening to lately

1. other side of town / OOHYO

2. i am not a robot / marina and the diamonds

3. girls / marina and the diamonds

4. obsessions / marina and the diamonds

5. butter chicken / OOHYO

6. can you feel it? / the apples in stereo

7. paradise ft. hannah diamond / charli xcx

8. its afternoon im feeling sick / sidney gish

9. luxury / azealia banks

10. road to nowhere / talking heads

generally ive been listening the albums october rust / type o negative, night owl / olivia jean, far from the madding city / OOHYO, kala / MIA, new magnetic wonder / apples in stereo

social distancing meme

Are you staying home from work/school? yeah im back from university at my parents house and i havent been outside in like 4 days online classes just started and its hell already

If you’re staying home, who is with you? my parents and my sister and her fiance are all in this house together. its madness. i feel like im in one hundred years of solitude

Who would be your ideal quarantine mate? tbh it annoys me to even be around my friends too much lmao... i wish we had a cat or something i guess

Are you a homebody? yes lmao this honestly reminds me of summer break in high school i am now realizing how abnormal it is that i basically thought of summer break as 3 straight months of literally staying at home hanging out with my mom all day

An event you were looking forward to that got canceled? i have actually been enjoying this semester of school so far lol so im kind of sad and i miss classes... and aside from that i was in a production of the vagina monologues that got cancelled the day before the first show LOL but i had actually been dreading doing that so it’s fine. i was going to go to miku expo in may but it got delayed until september. i think there are other things im forgetting about too

What movies have you watched recently? i just recently rewatched big eden omg such a good and comforting movie PLEASE check it out if you want good gay romance movies that are actually good and don’t suck it’s so cozy and sweet and the acting is great and it just feels like there is so much care put into this movie. it was good

What shows are you watching? ive been catching up on steven universe (yeah i know. whatever) so i am still finishing that up and ive also been watching anime lmfao... i started watching eizouken and chuunibyou and also im still watching star trek ds9

What music are you listening to? see above, i have a little list of new albums and bands i wanna listen to now that i have a bit more time to absorb them

What are you reading? i want to finally finish the brothers karamazov so im trying to get thru that, im about 1/3 of the way thru at this point. and im also reading gilead by marilynne anderson and i feel bad because its talking about like. being kind to your family and respecting your parents and shit and im just like but theyre so annoying -_- theyre just so annoying -_- but it’s soooo beautiful i love this book lmao even if im a total hypocrite

What are you doing for self-care? ummm playing 2048 extremely poorly while listening to type o negative and reading threads on gossip forums

i like to play “speed 2048″ where i try to get as high a score as possible in the shortest possible amount of time. kind of like in the bobby fischer movie where they play chess really fucking fast and slam the little timer thing

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sleepywinchester · 5 years

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ai hod yu in

Summary: The reader is a grounder that also hopped on the rocket to go to space. She’s been suppressing her feelings for Bellamy Blake since the day they met in the middle of an Azgeda war march.

Author: sleepywinchester (prev. deanwinchester-af)

Characters: Bellamy Blake + Ring Kru.

Pairings: Bellamy Blake x Reader.

Words: 2.6k+

Beta: Nope.

Warnings: None, fluffy af.

Note: It's been a while and it’s not my usual pairings or fandom for fics but I’m obsessed with The 100 soooo here it is. | tagging @larrybirdcollins cause you commented the post :)

You weren’t sure if it was 3 in the morning or almost 6 in the morning. You were uncertain because at this time it was confusing to know the time when the earth’s and the sun's rotation was over the small dot of green. It was when the sun shined and the darkness of space covered the earth at the same time. Not close enough to be night or really early in the morning.

You’ve been sitting by your favorite window for a while now, both of your knees touching your chest. At this time of the night or morning, it was when it was also the coldest.

This window was the one that everyone overlooked, the one that was on the furthest section of this spinning ring in the space you called home.

Suddenly you heard steps reaching your location. They were soft and steady, followed with a yawn. The corner of your lips formed a small curve.

This window was also the closest to his bedroom.

“Can’t sleep?”

Bellamy’s deep and somnolent voice sent chills through your entire body.

He stood close to you, leaning his body against the cold wall.

You nodded, “Yeap.” You replied without looking away from the window. “It’s strange, every night, I wake up at the same hour, and come to the same window to drown my sorrows… with water. God, I miss liquor.”

“Better than drowning them with Monty’s algae,” Bellamy said as he slowly dragged his body down to the floor to the spot next to you.

You chuckled at his attempt to make a joke.

“Ah, there it is,” Bellamy said softly.

You looked at him, his eyes smaller than usual, probably from his sleep. “What?”

You and Bellamy shared a moment, gazing at each other’s eyes.

“Your smile,” he said, smiling.

You let out a soft and tired chuckle as a response. You rested your head against the wall, eyes going back to the spot of green. “Three years.”

“Time violation,” Bellamy spoke, “dishes or latrine?”

“Dishes,” you replied and you both shared a laugh.

The two of you kept silent for a long second, both continue to stare at the green dot of possibilities on earth.

“What sorrows?” he asked.

Once again you shifted your eyes towards Bellamy, he was already looking at you.

“Three years, Bellamy,” you repeated. “I miss Earth, I miss the fresh air, I miss-,” you sighed deeply, “I miss being able to walk around the forest…”

“Without the fear of walking into a war?” Bellamy added.

You chuckled, “It was one time…”

“That’s how we met,” he said with his voice low and deep.

“That’s how we met,” you repeated. “If I remember right, I saved your ass that day.”

You two shared another laugh, this one was full of memories of meeting him on the land. You and Bellamy crossed paths on the land where Azgeda was marching towards Polis in an act of war.

“Good thing you weren’t Azgeda,” he murmurs.

“I heard that,” Echo’s voice joined the room.

You two instantly looked up to see her serious expression starring down at you guys. She glared for a couple of seconds and then continued to walk down the hall.

“Three years and I still don’t know how you can stand her,” you let out.

“What’s the point?” he said.

You stood up, “What’s the point? She almost killed your sister… She- She did terrible things to my people.”

“Azgeda,” Bellamy said as he followed you and stood up. “Azgeda did that to your family.”

“She is Azgeda,” you told him.

“We’re stuck here for two more years, Y/N. There’s no Skaikru, Trikru, Grounders or Azgeda in here… We are stuck in this ring for two years, maybe even more if we don’t find a way to magically create Hydrazine… So, yeah, Y/N, what’s the point?”

You sighed as you watched him walk away from you.

“Unbelievable” you muttered under your breath, turning back to the window, you glanced down to Eden.

“If pissing him off is your way of flirting, you’re doing a great job.”

You rolled your eyes at the sound of Murphy’s snarky comment. But at the end of the day, he was the only one who knew about your secret crush on Bellamy.

“Shut up, Murphy,” you spat as you began to walk towards the common room.

“Why don’t you just tell him how you feel,” Murphy reached you.

You glared at him, “What’s the point?”

“You really telling me that?” Murphy said. “The point is that we still have two years full of boredom and surviving in this wheel. It would suck less if you have a person to ride it out with.”

“He defended Echo,” you glared at him. “I said she almost killed his sister and he defended her. For all I know he’s already screwing her. So, yeah - what’s the point?”

The two of you were in the furthest section of the common room. You could see Bellamy and Raven talking by the table meanwhile Echo was teaching Harper and Emori new fighting skills. It had become a morning routine to learn fighting skills before meals and sometimes multiple times during the day.

Bellamy paused his conversation with Raven to look at you.

“Just tell him how you feel,” Murphy whispered to you before joining the group.

You contemplated the option of turning around and not having breakfast for the day. The option of spending the entire day in your room trying to draw. Or do anything that wasn’t being in the same room as Bellamy Blake, or anyone.

“Y/N?” Monty’s voice brought you back from space.

You scoffed at yourself, at the irony of your thoughts.

“You okay?” Monty asked.

You looked at him, “Yeah. I’m fine.”

“Are you?” Monty stood next to you with a tray on his hands that contained the green goo bucket everyone called food and a couple of cups.

You grabbed the cups from the tray, “God can anyone in this spring stop asking me if I’m fine? I am fine! I swear next person asks me that, I’ll start throwing punches.”

He looked at you, his worry increasing but he kept his silence as you both walked side by side towards the table. Everyone looked at you guys, everyone knew it was time to eat but weren’t excited about it. This wasn’t eating, it was surviving. You began to pass the cups forward, once everyone had a cup, you took a seat next to Murphy and Emori.

The eight of you motioned the cups forward, doing a silence cheer before taking a big sip. After that swing, you felt like throwing up instantly but this substance was something you needed to keep down to survive.

“So, I’m space walking today-”

“Shotgun,” you cut Raven’s sentence before she could finish.

Instantly you felt all eyes are on you.

“What?” Emori spoke.

You looked up from the cup and looked at Raven. “I said… Shotgun.”

“You… You want to spacewalk?” Raven spoke.

“I want to spacewalk,” you replied.

You stared at her eyes with a slight of desperation.

She took a deep breath, “You got it. We are spacewalking.”

“But you don’t like space waking…” Bellamy spoke, “You - You’re terrified of it.”

You shrugged as you stood up and walked to the dock. The annoyance of him defending Echo didn’t let you think straight. You only wanted to be alone and if walking into space was the only way you could have a couple of minutes to yourself, that is what you were going to do.

/ / /

There was an awkward silence on the dock as you and Raven began to get ready for the spacewalk. You could see the space from the door. A whole black emptiness, with only a door made of steel blocking you from being out in the exile. Only a door separating you from the thin line of being dead or alive.

“Why are you really doing this?” Raven broke the silence.

Throughout the last few months, you and Raven had bonded and become friends. Being friends with her wasn’t something you could have predicted when you hopped on the rocket, running from Praimfaya. You didn’t want to speak of the reasons you wanted to be alone but you could not lie to her either. She was too smart for that, she knew better than that.

“I just need to be alone for a couple of minutes…” You sighed, as your eyes never left your space suit as you put it on.

Raven furrowed her eyebrows, “I mean… I get that. It can get pretty annoying with everyone but… Why?”

You looked at her in the eye. “I just want to be alone… Truly alone. That’s it.”

She nodded somehow understanding that you weren’t ready to talk about it yet. Instead of continually asking, she walked towards you and helped you to finish up the check-ups of your suit before walking outside.

“Ready?” Raven asked

You nodded and put on the helmets. When Raven was about to close the door, Bellamy appeared in the room. He had a look of worry in his eyes, you could see his chest breathing heavily.

“Hey,” he looked at you. “Are you really gonna do this?”

“Yeah,” you responded, “I just need to be alone, Bellamy.”

Bellamy clenched his jaw, taking a step closer to you. He holds your arm, caressing it softly. “Be careful, please?” his eyes were soft.

You gave him a small smile, not being able to stay mad at him. “I’ll be careful, Blake. Now leave this chamber before you get yourself floated.”

He chuckled as he stepped back with both hands tucked into his pants pockets, his eyes never left yours as Raven closed the chamber. She began to speak her astronaut language but you weren’t listening to her. You were completely zoned out in Bellamy’s eyes.

You were so zoned out in him that you did not hear when Raven opened the door behind you. Bellamy’s eyes widened, looking away from you for a second and looking into space. You could feel your body floating, turning around Raven was already in space floating.

You turned back at Bellamy, he gave you a smile and watched you float into space. Somehow knowing that he was there watching you, that he was there, made you forget about your fears and made you feel safe.

“I get that you’re relieving some stress but I actually need your help over here,” Raven spoke through the radio that is built into the suits.

Turning around you floated towards her and began to help scrub in the antennas and turning them towards Earth’s. She asked for your help in other areas of the outside of the station.

“I gotta say,” Raven spoke once you two were safe inside the ring. “For someone who’s terrified of space… You did pretty well, Y/N.”

You let out a laugh, “For some reason, I wasn’t thinking about how could I die.”

“Oh, I think I know the reason,” Raven said, glancing at the hall.

You turned following her eyes, confused with her words until your eyes met with Bellamy’s. He was standing in the hallway, his body leaning against the wall, looking at you.

“H-He’s not the reason…” you stuttered lowly.

“Stop being a baby about it and tell him,” Raven said.

You turned at her, “Tell him what?”

Raven glared at you, “How you feel.”

“I don’t feel anything for him,” you glared at her.

“Whatever you tell yourself, it’s none of my business, but stop lying to yourself.”

“It’s not simple,” you said with your voice low as you could.

“He is into you, Y/N,” Raven said, “and you’re into him. It is simple.”

She did not let you speak another word after that sentence. She pressed the button for the air compression door to open. Raven walked by Bellamy, giving him a quick nod and a tap on the shoulder as she passed.

Your chest felt tight when Bellamy began to walk towards you with both hands tucked in his pockets. He gave you a small smile which you returned immediately.

“How do you feel?” he asked.

You breathed deeply and smiled, “I feel lighter.”

“That’s good,” he replied caressing the back of his neck, “wha- what are you going to do for the day?”

“I was going to plan on napping all day,” you chuckled. “Why? What are you going to do?”

“Uh-, nothing special, I was actually hoping for some Trigedasleng lessons?” He asked.

“Okay, I’ll just take a shower and I’ll see you at the window?”

Bellamy smirked, “Yeah.”

/ / /

“Let’s go again, strik sis,” you pronounced.

Bellamy nodded and repeated the words, “Strik sis.”

You guys were sitting in front of each other on the floor with both legs crossed.

“What does that mean again?” Bellamy rose an eyebrow.

“Little sister,” you said. “I’m pretty sure by the time we go back down she’ll be even more fluent in Trigedasleng… Gotta get you up to speed.”

Bellamy chuckled, “Thanks for doing this.”

You shrugged, “No problem. Next phrase, Mebi oso na hit choda op nodotaim.”

He took a deep breath, “Mebi oso nait-”

“Na hit,” you spoke correcting his word.

“Na hit,” he tried again, “choda op nodotaim.”

“Nou foto,” you smirked.

“Nou foto?” he asked not knowing the word.

Your smirk didn’t disappear, “Not bad.”

Bellamy smiled, “Okay. I want to try a harder one.”

You took a moment to think another phrase to teach him. It was there in front of him, seeing eye to eye that you thought of the feelings that have been eating you alive for the past four years. Even long before hopping into that ring, you had feelings for Bellamy Blake but you never were brave enough to tell him. But you were brave enough, you hopped into a rocket and were living in space even though there were a million things that could go wrong and kill you.

It was there as Bellamy looked deep into your eyes that you could not speak out loud what you were feeling. It was at that moment that you did not see yourself living a second more in a lie.

“Ai hod yu in,” you spoke and your body instantly froze.

Bellamy nodded, “Ai hod yu in?”

“It means…,” you breathed deeply, “it means… ``I love you.”

Bellamy’s eyes instantly widened and entire body froze. You were breathing heavily as your heart began to beat faster. You thought of the idea of running away to your room because there was no other place to run where he would not see you but you stayed right where you sat.

“Ai hod yu in,” Bellamy repeated.

You looked away to the window, “You don’t have to repeat it… I shouldn’t have said that but that’s how I feel… It’s been years and today-,” you shook your head. “I just couldn’t hold it-”

Your words were interrupted by Bellamy’s warm lips. He was kissing you and you felt like suddenly the gravity in the ring was zero. The way your body felt as he kissed you was out of this world. His kiss was deep and full of passion and you wanted more.

God, you wanted so much more.

Bellamy broke the kiss but hold you closer to him.

“Ai hod you in,” he whispered against your lips. His breathing was heavy and his dark eyes pierced your soul. “Since that night in Mount Weather… Ai hod you in.”

You smiled for a second, taking his words in and kissing once again.

#bellamy blake #bellamy blake x reader #the 100 fan fiction #the 100 fic #bellamy blake fic #bellamy blake fan fiction #elsie writes

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bittergloss · 4 years

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do u have any romance book recommendations? (:

i tend to read more contemporary than fantasy so don't expect too much from the latter lol

the maddest obsession by danielle lori. enemies to lovers (sorta? kinda?) romance. the angst and the push and pull is soooo good its not a cutesy cutesy book but idk if i would call it dark cos i've read wayyy darker books. if ur into more straightforward sweet romances u may not like this as much. it doesn't really have a plot though the focus is mainly on the development of the romance. i thought it was hot and its one of my fav reads of 2019 ive reread it so many times

pestilence by laura thalassa. the four horsemen of the apocalypse falling in love while destroying humanity. i got it cos i thought the plot sounded new and it ended up being better than i expected

Play and Lead by kylie scott. not super deep just fun rockstar romances. they're good when you just want a quick romance fix . lead has a little more angst tho so if ur into that

Hoop shot by kennedy ryan. enemies to lovers sports ish fun romance. i liked long shot too but it was super heavy and very graphic depictions of physical and sexual abuse and it takes up half the book i was so shocked cos the warning was so mild so if you want something lighter go for hoop shot

Fake out by eden finley . fake relationship book so ofc i liked this

just warning you these books are na/adult so they're pretty explicit

Puddle jumping by amber l. johnson . short but soooooo cute

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe. i read it cos it was all over tumblr and idk i have my issues with it but overall i still like it it was one of my fav reads of the year

The wicked king. everyone and their mother has read this series so not much to say but the cruel prince is boring as fuck i barely got thru it and it was only to say i finshed it lol the wicked king is WAY better so if you can finish the first one............

#bro but really i read so many books last year and i can barely count my favs with 2 hands #also anon who recommended me crier's war im STILL getting thru it i usually tend to finish non contemp books later

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forreasonswretchedandivine · 4 years

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Tagged by: @kimchi-fried-ice (feel free to say hi whenever! I LOVE your blog, and you seem very nice I’d love to be friends!:))

Nickname: it’s practically my actual name, but it’s tidge. When I was little my basketball coach would always say my name as tish lol. Then my family started calling me that because they thought it was hilarious, and my mom said it in front of my theatre friends and they started doing it too. It’s honestly grown on me, and I let just about everyone call me tidge BC it usually leads to me telling them where it came from. Also I think it’s cute:):)

Height: 5’5?? 5’6? People always say I should know this but I just never do🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️.(side note: if you’re taller than me and also a girl who likes girls HMU😚)

Hogwarts house: I’m like the only one of every person I know who’s consumed 4 Harry Potter things( read first book, watched first 3 movies) but I took a quiz and got slytherin? Sounds about right from what I know lol. I’m nice, but I’ve got major RBF and I’m ALWAYS down for a little drama

Last thing I googled: “where to catch dreepy in Pokémon sword” that elusive motherfucker has a 2% chance of spawning in the wild area and I almost exploded after 2 hours of running in and out of like 3 different tall grass areas. Didn’t find one BUT I found it’s evolved form, which was fine because looking any longer may have killed me

Song stuck in my head: From Eden by Hozier and high five by Sigrid. They are both bangers in their own respect, and the are playing ln my head at the same time right now. It’s kinda nice!

Following:253! Though a few of those are inactive now, I’ve had this account since middle school

Followers: 27 total but 10 are inactive, and I’m pretty sure one is just a spam account that was VERY convincing

Amount of sleep I get: I try for 7-8 and get it most of the time, but some nights I get hit with that good self hate™️™️ and stay up later because why not? Or I’ll be up till 3 in fugue state trying to finish homework/ projects that I procrastinated on lol. I take lots of naps too BC they are soooo great

Lucky number:13! I have no basis behind this, other than because I want it to be, and because people say it’s bad luck. So far it’s been pretty great to me!!

Dream job: 😬😬😬 welll over the past 2 years, especially since I transferred colleges and had a bit of an unexpected major chance( technical theatre> studio art) My career path has been pretty unclear and I’m still not really sure what I wanna do. I’d love to get back into something theatre related because I’m pretty good at it, but lately the art I’ve been doing makes me very happy and gives me a personal sense of accomplishment that theatre never gave me. I’m hoping to find some sort of intersection between the two, so I can be able to make something for either a play or musical, then when I’m done just go chill somewhere for a little while and take a nap. Or like make some cool painting or drawing, make some money from it, then take a few weeks off of doing sutff, repeat. So I guess the short answer is: make art that I enjoy, get paid, not work every day:)

Wearing: what am I wearing?My, my, how sexual!! Just kidding;);). Black boots, high waisted skinny jeans, an button up shirt with a stranger things demegoron pattern, tan cardigan, and a little trans pride pendant I made to remind myself I am valid, and to signal other trans people!

Favorite song: (TAZ balance spoilers) idk if this counts but any version of lucetia’s theme from taz, written by one GRIFFIN TEAR MY HEART OUT ANDREW MCELROY. It’s just so beautiful, and it always makes me feel such strong emotions because every time it plays on the podcast there’s like a major plot development or moment of growth for lucetia, and I JUST. I literally ascend when it plays during the finale when she’s about to stop the hunger, just ugh so good

Instruments: I played the baritone for like a year in middle school. To summarize how that went: I was not very good:/:/

Random fact: I’m always telling myself that this probably isn’t something I should be so casual and open about, but then I tell people anyways. When I was 3-4, my sister was getting on my nerves and we were both on the kitchen counter for some reason. So to get her to stop, I took a knife and cut almost completely through her finger. Needless to say that got me in a bit of trouble with my dad, and to this day most of my family gets on edge when they see me with a knife. Which I find funny because In my teen years and now, I’ve gotten really into buying knifes and swords like some sort of blade gremlin. All of that probably made me sound very unstable, but I promise I’m not, just like sharp things. Im like 30% unhinged at all times AT MOST.

Aesthetics:????? I’m really into symmetry and matching colors of that counts as an aesthetic. My room is probably the best example, because everything in it is organized in a weird messy kinda way. I know where it is but it’s not where you’d think(ex: The sword I have hung next to my window) again I am very much a gremlin girl, and while I keep a lot of weird stuff, Im also very organized and creative so I end up using some broken things to make something new(ex: the bow and arrow I made out of a walking stick, some rubber bands and a 5 mechanical pencils). This description is probably also a good example of my aesthetic, which is to say messy, and slightly incoherent, but prepared and practical. In terms of clothing, it’s a sliding scale between “ For all intents and purposes I was not planning on leaving my room or being perceived physically by others today, but a friend wanted to hang out, and I love my friends so here I am looking like this” And “ I am an ethereal being of pure beauty and elegance, but watered down a bit so I’m still very well dressed, but minus the elegance, and plus a lil slut and probably some black boots”. It should also be stated that my gayness is part of both of these in varying degrees of intensity

I tag: @rosebudyke @negative-ghostriderr @sunshine-nb @severedned @seraphlesbian (y’all don’t have to if you don’t want to tho,but if you want message me! You all also seem very nice☺️)

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slonekaru · 5 years

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The Society!

So it just finished season 1 on the day they announced season 2! Yeah season 2.

Things I need to see/know or have questions about for season 2.

Charlie the dog. That little bastard wasn't on the bus with them but some how ended up in New Ham. We were then led to believe like Elle that Campbell had killed him but there he was in the last episode in West Ham. Soooo that leads me to believe that there is a doorway somewhere to get them back.

Grizz is my fav! I admit for the first 2 episodes I thought they were calling him Chris! I love that he seems to be the most balanced and well adjusted of all of them. He's pulled away from all the old bullshit and seems like he would actually quite like New Ham now he's found his farm. In fact the only time I saw him being super irrational is when his emotions got the best of him when he found out about the baby. I think if he'd been an outsider on that he would have seen Sam was doing the right thing. Also the hair and facial expressions, pure gold!

Speaking of baby Eden. Who the fuck is the father? Is anyone else getting the impression it's not one of the kids there. Maybe it's a teacher, a parent of a friend. I feel like it's something like that.

Also I like Sam. How he's commited to being the father even though he's not. Even to the point of the fact it's impacted his relationship with Grizz. I'm glad they started to make up at the end of season 1, hope they ended up back together running away with Becca and Baby Eden to the farm.

I wonder if next season we will get a bit of splitting in the community. Maybe there will end up being 2, one based in town and one at the farm.

Campbell and Elle. I hope she gets out next season! I love to hate Campbell! I always feel guilty because I love the character but know he's a super bad person.

We never found out what exactly happened between Kelly and Harry. With her reaction to Will and telling him he need to ask for permission I'm thinking rape but it's not been said yet. I love Kelly finding herself, she's fallen in to the role of town medic and it suits her.

I'm looking forward to Lexie being in charge. She way over her head with her deal with Campbell but I imagine she'll give it as good as she's got. She's pretty sneaky.

Wow this is super longer than expected.

#the society

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clarabbarrow · 7 years

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Challenge Your Shelf || September || Day 14 || Currently Reading

I started reading Dividing Eden some time ago and then Six of Crows came intomy life and I started reading it.. But now that I finished it I’m back on Dividing Eden and it’s getting soooo good

#it's actually the first ebook i read #challenge your shelf #book photo challenge #book photography #booklr #dividing eden #joelle charbonneau #september #*scys #**mine

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lithugraph · 7 years

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Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you’re finished, tag people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy! Thanks to @gummyboots for tagging me!

1: Are you named after someone? Sort of. My parents wanted to have a boy so they could name him after my dad but surprise! They had a girl instead. My mom wanted to name me Rhiannon after the Fleetwood Mac song, but my grandmother – being the All Supreme Catholic – was like ‘That’s not a saint’s name.’ So my parents opted for a feminized version of my dad’s name.

2: When was the last time you cried? I almost shed some tears watching “Moana” the other day. It was the first time I’d ever seen it and its message about listening to that small quiet voice inside you and how that’s the real you and going beyond yourself and khaljf;akf;akdAS! It could not have come at a more appropriate time in my life.

3: If you could switch bodies/powers with a fictional character for one day, who would you pick and why? Never really thought about it, tbh. But I wouldn’t mind going for a ride in a big blue police box ;)

4: What’s your favourite song? Too many to list.

5: Do you have kids? One.

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yeah, I’m awesome!

7: Do you use sarcasm? No, never ::wink::

8: How old are you? 3 decades

9: Would you bungee jump? I used to want to bungee jump when I was a kid. Not so much now. I lose my shit on the Mach Tower ride at Busch Gardens. But I still want to try skydiving. Go figure.

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? Lucky Charms all.the.way.

11: Who is your favourite villain? I would say The Master from the Doctor Who reboot with David Tennant, but he’s more mentally fucked up unstable. I’ve yet to read/see a really good and fleshed out villain. I want a villain that makes me think they’re the hero throughout until plot twist! you were wrong. But like gummyboots said, Cathy in East of Eden is pretty despicable.

12: Do you think you’re a strong person? I kind of have to be.

13: What is your favourite ice cream? Birthday cake!

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? Their speech patterns and facial expressions. And then I try to mimic them.

15: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? Nothing. I’m perfect. Although my hair has suddenly developed a mind of its own. I used to be able to rock any hairstyle, style it any way, and my hair would comply. Now it’s like nope, not gonna happen, I’m just going to hang in your face.

16: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? Rust colored and no shoes

17: What are you listening to right now? I’ve got the crab’s song from Moana stuck on repeat in my head.

18: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Teal…it was always my favorite.

19: Favourite smell? Hazelnut coffee and sandalwood.

20: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My best friend.

21: Favorite sport to watch? I will only watch sports provided: 1.) I am physically there at the arena or whatever to watch the sport 2.) I have beer. However I did enjoy watching the FIFA Women’s World Cup on the television. Also fencing.

22: Hair colour? Auburn

23: Eye colour? Chestnut brown.

24: Do you wish your hair/eye colour was different? I used to wish for blue or green eyes when I was a kid. But I’ve grown to like my eye color. My eyes are such a weird shade of brown – in some lights they almost look greyish-green closer to the pupil.

25: Favorite accent? Russian, Scottish, Yorkshire, Caribbean, Cajun/Creole (I met a Creole dude once at a bar and his accent was soooo cool, the interplay of French and English!). And there’s an accent here in Virginia that is really unique. I call it the Richmond accent. I’ve never heard anything like it before with regards to southern American accents. It still has a bit of a twang, but some of the words are more genteel sounding like “out, about, proud,” and so on. It sounds like a Canadian accent married a Southern American accent and had a child. Here’s a video so you can hear it: https://youtu.be/vJT4wVgTw0k

26: What type of movies do you like? Historical dramas, animated, and sci-fi.

27: Last movie you watched? Moana.

28: What color of shirt are you wearing? Cream with red and orange and black patterns

29: Summer or winter? Winter. Give me a chance to see snow, or flurries fluttering down, and the metallic scent in the air and black skeletal trees against a grey sky and warm drinks and a crackling fire.

30: Who is your current crush? Seb Stan as the Winter Soldier Michael Fassbender

31: What book are you currently reading? I was re-reading Jane Eyre (the slow-burn just started to intensify!)…but then summer session started and I’m knee-deep in UNIX and networking textbooks.

32: What fictional character do you feel you’re most like? Jane Eyre (obvi) and Elizabeth Bennet.

33: What is on your mouse pad? What’s a mousepad?

34: What is the last TV program you watched? Sherlock season 4….most disappointed.

35: What is the best sound?

nature.

36: Rolling stones or The Beatles? David Bowie. The only Stones worth listening to is their bluesy stuff, like Gimme Shelter and Tumbling Dice. And I have mixed feelings about the Beatles. I like their early “boy band” stuff…and some of their later stuff, but mostly the songs written by George Harrison. I think Paul and John were trying to “outweird” each other.

37: What is the furthest you have ever travelled? Berlin from Virginia.

38: Do you have a special talent? I can predict what’s going to happen in any tv series, movie, or novel. I’m a walking spoiler-alert. You don’t want to watch tv shows or movies with me…or suggest a book I should read because I will figure out the plot before the first half of it.

39: Where were you born? Virginia. And I live there again….except on the opposite side of the state from where I was born.

Totally optional, as always, but I tag: @niniel-kirkland, @irascible-erable and whoever else sees this and wants to do it.

#ask #survey #answered #all about me

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