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a-force-dyad-in-space · 1 year

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🎇BREAKING NEWS🎇 Yi City Man Known for Mass Murder is Speechless and Shy as He Experiences Kindness for the First Time in His Life

More news at 8!

#love your local murder gremlin!#theuntameddaily #xue yang #the untamed #jenggifs #aka one of the things about yi city that make me go absolutely feral and my heart ache #the fact that this is the first time anyone has ever shown him any trace of genuine kindness is so evident on his face #he literally doesn't know what to do #so he just freezes there and waits and sees if things take a turn for the worse and he gets hurt again #but then it doesn't (not for 3 years at least) and he can hardly believe his luck #excuse me while i go cry bye hope you like the gifs 😭

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guinevereslancelot · 3 months

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eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist

#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad #and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that #also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :(#tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope #but mostly i hope its treatable #also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol #but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself #but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad #they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses #but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭#i dont even know how expensive yet tho #maybe i should make a gofundme or something #this has been a shitpost #im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive #probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things #but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰#and its not early for catching it at all

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levil0vesyou · 6 months

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When one of your posts starts going viral

#i can't go even half a minute without getting a note on the death of tumblr meme 😭#like i'm glad about the free serotonin but y'know. over 2.5k in less than 2 days? i haven't done numbers like this in years #hope strange aeons doesn't reblog it or it's basically over for me /hj (she can if she wants lol but i'm just not used to it anymore y'know #wish people gave this attention to the edgy sonic fandub edit (pinned rn) since i spent way more time on that and am actually proud of it 😔#oh well #mine

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philippagordon · 5 months

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hello everyone, I hope you're all doing great! just passing by to say i'm officially going to be a librarian :) follow your dreams kids

#took me a while but i got there! all on my own #quit my masters bc i had health issues and had an existential crisis moved out of my parents' to live with my sister #i didn't know what to do so i applied to volunteer in a retirement home i was paid a little and it literally saved my life #i found meaning and purpose again met incredible people and i still go there every sunday :)#but most importantly i met the director of the town's museum who recommended me to the library for a summer job #i got it and i loved it just like i imagined one of the librarian was retiring and she told me i should apply to replace her #so i did and after months of not knowing for sure if they would hire me i finally got the email! i'm starting in February #in the meantime i worked at a bookshop in paris which was also a cool experience #but i can't wait to start for real at the library #also did i mention the town i moved in (and where the library is ) is the town of my dreams?#it's calm there's a river and small shops and i also got an apartment with a balcony #2 years ago i thought my life was over i didn't think i would ever make it out #so if i can give a little hope to someone things do get better #i'd love to post again on this blog btw but i keep saying that and never do it 😭

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sweet-dining-car · 1 month

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The more I find out abt the new production the more confused and embarrassed I am 😭 Like these names are so similar to the names I came up with for ocs when I was in my tweens like what is ALW on??? He is reverting back to an awkward homeschooled middle schooler instead of pumping out the good stuff that we all want(what he originally had)😭

#starlight express #stex #It sounds like a fanfic honestly 😭#And femGB doesn’t make sense to me #To some extent it feels like alw is trying to ‘get with the crowd’ to be woke or whatever but to me it does the opposite #It’s like it’s to just say ‘look! We have an LGBTQ couple’ when CB and Electra have been husbands for years 😭😭😭#Please can we just have that confirmation instead???#Or finally have a female Electra??? Or mor female Rockies???#Idk why I’m so butt hurt over that #I really wanted to see Female Electra #Ideally to have the role covered by both men and women and to have the first cast role go to someone who is NB or Gender Fluid #FebGB just feels random I guess #Not genuine #Which rubs me the wrong way #I hope they keep the Germany version the same so we have two different versions

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated

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woolpines · 3 months

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hello everyone! i've returned from my almost two week birthday trip to cali visiting my boyfriend and i head back to work tomorrow 🥲

i had a great time and got to do a lot of stuff and visit a lot of places and it makes me wish cali wasn't so damn expensive, otherwise, i would live with my bf )):

i got the itch to play more with the fitches so hopefully i'll have some posts queued up this week! im pretty drained from the trip so i'm gonna slowly ease back into things (:

i hope you guys had a great few weeks!

#.txt #it rained a ton the first week i got there though #and everyone was jokingly asking me if i brought the rain 😭#i hope i can go back within a year or so or my bf can come down for graduation -- whether that be the end of this year or half of next year

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pepprs · 11 months

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acnl is a superior game to acnh in almost every way except the graphics. it’s actually making me mad

#purrs #working at the roost… mr shrunk… main street … multiple shop upgrades… megaphone (and microphone AND CAMERA on the ds)… villagers have #distinctive personalities and spread rumors and ask to schedule a time to come to your house… pattern grass… kappn island minigames… bananas #and mangos and durians and perfect fruit… the town tree and all the history in it… like idk. i love acnh too but it’s just so hollow and i #wasn’t even around for acnl in its glory days. like i STILL haven’t unlocked all the shops or shop upgrades on acnl or even met Gracie yet #or whatever and on acnh the only thing i need to do is get like 2 more reactions and then ive completed the game. and it just feels #pointless logging on and whatever (ik im saying things that have already been said a million times) bc the villagers are just dolls who say #the same 3 things over and over again. meanwhile eunice and benjamin are two of my og acnl villagers and they’re still there 5 years later #and i log on and talk to them and it’s so rewarding to bc they feel like actual.. people! who i love and who love me. whereas my acnh #villagers who i also love will just carry on exactly as they were no matter how long ive been gone. idk. i just don’t understand why they #decided to downgrade so much for acnh and let go of all these features and characters. i really hope they’ll make another game and that jtll #have everything new leaf had and more. and i mean the new horizons features can stay too (except for diy. i HATE diy)#ac #exterior building customization beyond just houses… sitting on rocks and tree strumps (and tree stumps having patterns)…. 😭💔#the basket where you could put stuff from kappn islands in there so it wouldn’t fill up your inventory….

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godnectar · 5 months

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#nectar's rambling #yeah so–#I can finally say 'm on break 🥹🥹🤧🤧#sobbing happily rn #thing is tho #that I might not be on as much as usual bc I'm going on a lil' trip tomorrow for the rest of the week 😭#I will though 100% come here on monday and wish u all lovelies a merry xmas 🫶#will also do my best to work on some drafts #and hope there will be something out before the end of the year #I dunno #biggest mwah for you all 😽😽🫶🫶

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind #1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like #2) i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read #but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really #3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me.#everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored #and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing)#i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money #then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/#ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is #im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything #4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it #everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :((#i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it #5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them #except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/#but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again.#i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333

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daz4i · 9 months

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uh oh i think my laptop's officially dead

#i really hope not. but. the keyboard stopped working suddenly 😭#idk maybe i turned smth off accidentally?? idk if that's even possible #I'm trying to restart it now but it's going. very slowly. which is also worrying #even holding the off button isn't doing anything. shit #it was so sudden too??? it was actually still working like i could use the mouse and it was playing music #this is so weird I'm so scared 😭😭😭😭😭😭#it's like 5 years old man don't do this to me 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐#update: well it's not turning off so i took the charger out and hope it dies from a lack of battery power soon #and then I'll plug it back in and see if it helps 😔#i THINK it happened before?? like that it didn't turn off and i had to wait for the battery to drain first #I'm so worried i really hope it doesn't die 😔 it'll break me mentally i fear.#(yes it's an object but like. i need it man. and it has a lot of my stuff there. and a lot of distractions from the fact I'm alive)#bro why is this taking so long #usually when i use my laptop and it's not actively being charged it dies within 5 minutes #it's been over 10 now and it's still going?? now?? when i actually WANT it to die??#:/ think I'm gonna leave it alone for now hhhhh whatever. I'm very anxious but there's not much i can do besides waiting anyway

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fantabulisticity · 7 months

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I'M GETTING MY NIPPLES PIERCED THIS FRIDAY

#i am so so so so so excited to have them pierced and so so so so so scared for the piercing and healing process lmfaooooooooooooooooo #i've wanted them pierced for YEARS but haven't done it bc i either couldn't hack it or couldn't afford it and now i can afford it so.#i'm gonna hack it. it's gonna be fucking ROUGH.#my nips are so goddamn sensitive 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#but if i want them pierced i have to GET them pierced. i can't just magically have healed piercings.#so i'm going for it this winter when I know i won't be swimming since the healing process takes so long.#by the time they're done healing it will JUST be getting warm again!#hopefully. depends how my body handles it.#but if i try really hard to eat my veggies and treat my piercings nicely then i should heal on 6-9 months????? i fuckin hope.#the pain is supposed to be short. very very intense but short.#and well. after my experience with my last iud removal & replacement and then getting an iv recently? yeah. i think i can deal.#we'll see. worst comes to worst i'll chicken out after the first one and have one pierced nipple. and that's fine.#but i'm going to a good piercer at a reputable shop. i trust them.#so the process will SUCK but i'll be fine afterwards.#personal #piercing tw

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gatheryepens · 30 days

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Okay mini life update since I’m about halfway through my gap year….

#so I don’t really know where to start #anyway for the past like 3ish months I’ve been very radio silence :|#mainly because of work #but also I’ve been busy doing uni interviews/prepping for them #I’m very much a person who likes to dedicate their time on something #and give it my undivided attention #so that’s why I’ve been slacking on giving updates and why my drafts keep on building up 💀#anyway i digress #exciting news I’m going to uni!!!!#and I’m going to do vet med with a foundation year :)))#it’s going to be a long six years #but I’m so excited to start my course #I found out like last week but it took so long #since I did the interview in mid feb and they said I would find out mid March #so when it got past mid march I was loosing hope 😭😭😭#anyway I’m so relieved that the uni process is over and I can’t wait for september to come #it’s going to be a really big adjustment going from my small city to a pretty big city but I’m sure I’ll cope #some other updates #work still sucks but it’s only for a couple months #then I see if I can talk to my manger about working when I’m on holidays #some other exciting news I’m going travelling in about 3 weeks so I’m very excited about that #and after this I might do one more trip maybe …#gatherrambles #gathertalks #thegapyeardiaries

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chrisbangs · 8 months

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if you told me all those years ago that the people who made the song that got me through the worst time of my life would go on to do some of the craziest things in their career and you said they're gonna go perform at all these places and do all these things 😭 idk what baby me would've done but current me is literally so overwhelmed with emotions ... 😞🫶‼️💗 like that's just too crazy to me to really put into words but watching the skz journey feels so heart warming and exciting and im so incredibly fucking proud of them... 🥺🤍 my skz you are so amazing 😭🫶💗🌙🫂

#idk what i'm trying to say #but 17 year old me found you when my life was in ruin #and then 🤍🫂 you picked me up and put me on my feet... 😞💗‼️ and i... i am lucky to have you in my life ...#i wouldn't be the same without you...#no i mean.. i wouldn't even be here without you #😞 i know that for sure ... like without a doubt #that part of my life was ... bad 👍#sitting on that train after being assaulted the first time and feeling like it was over like i was going to kill myself and then #all i heard was chans voice saying 'blessings wait for you'#and 😞 it felt like the first hug id had in ages... like someone had held me and told me it would be ok 😞💗#idk ... kinda presumptive to say i owe them my life but... 🫂 i wouldn't be here without them #that much is for damn sure ...#so to see them come this far ... do so much #🥺 the pride in my heart is beyond overwhelming #being here since they were nugu losers 😭💗🫶 GOD I LOVE UUUU MY SKZ!!!!!#i don't know how much more i can say it........ i so incredibly love you 😞🤍💗#god i'm so proud #i hope chan knows 😭🫶💗🥺 with every fucking fibre in my being that i'm always ALWAYS cheering him on 😞 that he deserved this so infinitely #god i fucking love him 😭‼️ my darling boy.........#:( my skz fr...#li.txt

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bunnyb34r · 6 days

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It's here!!

Greensand, buggy blend, fruity blend, veggie blend, catalpa leaves (broken unfortunately :( but maybe that's a plus, easier to spread), cuttlebone blocks

I hope they like it!

#marquilla #ill have to put them in the tank later bc im really drained rn from allergies but when I put them in i hope they like it #the greensand i think is going in a little food bowl or maybe on a shell for them to pick at since it doesnt go bad and i can leave it in #year round... i hope the bug blend isnt just whole bugs 😭 im scared...

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heartual · 1 month

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waaaaghhh

#🍄.txt #i lost so much weight being sick in 2021 and finally got back around to where i used to be earlier last year #except w starting birth control this is now the heaviest i’ve ever been 😭#IMAGINE my struggle with clothes the last three years. omfg #before that too actually when i first got sick in 2018 too 😭#tried on pants i got at the beggining of 2023 that i went a size down in bc my normal size was too baggy #they were borderline trying to unzip on me as i sat down and cut off my circulation GODDBYEEEE #i swear that bc has only stopped my period and made me put on weight more easily #CAN U TREAT THE OTHER PCOS SYMPTOMES TOO PLEASE #i haven’t weighed myself in months PUGHHHH i do not wish to see because it’s going to give me a very very bad complex about my weight again #*w my >#the changes w body in the last few years i am going insane please pick one range please i beg #OUUUGGGHHHHHH #it’s not even the weight anymore like i’ve tried to leave most of the internalized fatphobia in high school #but by god are clothes stressful with significant weight changes #also my mom with an eating disorder she won’t acknowledge or go to therapy for constantly being ‘concerned’ for my wellbeing #i finally don’t want to kill myself but god forbid … some of the medicación makes me gain weighte……#anyway. i yam frustrated a little bit #took advantage of old navy’s 50% off sale and got some shorts and pance in a more comfy size at least #amanda small win 💪#should be here in april 1st which is not giving me high hopes already 😭 but we move!#weight mention #ed mention

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