You know what I really want from season 7? I want another Buddie blow up like the grocery store.
I want Eddie, whose done a whole lot of healing to yell at Buck that Buck needs to be back in therapy because he died and of course that's going to change him but he doesn't even recognize Buck sometimes anymore because Buck won't let Eddie in.
I want Buck yelling right back that Eddie's moved on with his life since the shooting, why won't he let Buck do the same after the lightning.
I want angry tears and confessions through gritted teeth. I want everything they've swept under the rug and not talked about to come spilling out in Buck's kitchen.
I want Eddie telling Buck with pain dripping from his voice that "I see you, I've always seen you, but now I don't think I know you anymore. You won't let me know you anymore."
I want Eddie leaving Buck's loft after he says it and tells him that he can still see Christopher, but maybe for now the two of them should just be coworkers because Eddie needs time and space before he can be Buck's best friend because he isn't sure he knows him anymore.
I want Eddie crying in his truck after the conversation and Buck crying on his new couch, clear that he doesn't find it comfortable. I want the episode to end on a shot of both of them crying in their own spaces, so clearly alone.
Then I want the next episode to be so clearly uncomfortable between them. They still work together seamlessly, but that's it. They're awkward and tense around each other, they can't even look at each other between calls. I want it to be 10x more awkward than their first couple shifts together. I want looks exchanged between the members of the 118 when Buck and Eddie aren't looking.
And then I want the episode to end with Eddie pacing around his living room, clearly torn and then grabbing his keys only to open the front door to Buck standing on his doorstep looking at Eddie's house key like he isn't sure he's still allowed to use it.
I want Eddie to hold Buck's face like it's something so fucking special and Buck to do the same. I want a kiss that's biting and angry that melts into something soft and tender.
Cut to them in Eddie's bed, the sheets a mess, the comforter on the ground and Buck says something like "You've always seen me, even the ugly bits that I don't want people to see. That's why I'm so scared"
And then Eddie kisses Buck soft and sweet and says something like, "There's nothing about you that's ugly Buck."
Buck awoke to sunlight that was far too bright and wait–
Was that pounding?
“Buck? Buck? Are you in there? Buck?”
Apparently, the pounding came with shouting.
“Go away, Eddie,” he groaned back, pulling the blankets over his head, ready to throw himself an enormous pity party.
Of course, he knew it only delayed the inevitable. Eventually he’d have to face Eddie. Eventually he’d have to end it. But they’d been up so late, and then his swirling emotions had kept him up for several more hours.
He was too damn tired to deal with Eddie right now. He might screw it up, and either propose marriage or drool on him. Both were as likely as the other, and neither would be welcome.
“Buck, I’m not leaving. Let me in, or I’ll use the opening rune and come in anyway.”
“Use the fucking rune. I’m tired!” he yelled back, though it sounded muffled through the blankets.
The heavy door creaked open, and Eddie strode lightly towards the bed. He flung the blankets off, and Buck curled up into a ball, lifting his hands over his face to deflect the sunlight and the Eddie-shaped onslaught.
“Why did you leave?” Eddie asked, hands on his hips.
Fuck. Of course Eddie had to get straight to the point. Buck was half hoping he’d been relieved to wake up alone. So much for that then.
Eddie’s righteous indignation continued. “I woke up this morning, and you were gone. You didn’t stay.” His voice caught, and he looked up at the stained glass window, his hands falling uselessly to his sides. “After…last night. After everything. You left… You– Why?” The agony on the last word caught Buck by surprise.
Why was Eddie in pain? He wasn’t the one about to get his heart broken, about to shatter his own heart. All the pent-up hurt exploded out of him at once, and he shouted, “Because it was killing me! I can’t do it anymore, Eddie. It’s killing me.”
Perhaps his words were overly harsh, as Eddie took an unsteady step back.
A mask dropped over his face, and he asked, deadly serious, “You can’t do what anymore, Buck?”
“I can’t…pretend anymore, Eddie. I just can’t. We have to stop…this.” He waved his hand vaguely between the two of them and then flung the covers back over his head, wishing he could sink through the mattress and melt into the floor. Anything to get out of this conversation.
“Who the fuck is pretending?” Eddie roared in response, flinging the blankets back off.
Something I haven't seen discussed yet is not only did buck and Tommy kiss, but they JUST kissed. Tommy kissed him once, just communicating that "okay is this what you want us to do?" And then he set up a real romantic date where he's going to pick buck up at 8 and everything.
Buck who has a shit load of trauma from partners wanting him for nothing more than his body. From always having to be the person adding the romance into every relationship to convince people there's more to him then sex.
Baby boy just got asked on a wholesome date and got promised romantic helicopter flying lessons and he won't even have to drive and goddddvdhebusjabsjsjdnxns
Going absolutely feral thinking about Bucks mom saying 'you think you're indestructible, but your not' in Buck Begins because she fundamentally doesn't understand why Buck is so reckless. He doesn't think he's indestructible - he thinks he's disposable. He thinks no one would care if he wasn't around anymore because his parents always just looked through him instead of seeing him.
And holding that up next to Eddie saying 'you think you're expendable, but you're not' in Survivors because Eddie does understand why Buck is so reckless. And it isn't because he thinks he's indestructible, it's because he thinks he's disposable. He thinks that everyone else is more important than him because no one has never made him their priority.
Just... Eddie knowing Buck. Eddie seeing Buck. Eddie needing Buck to understand that he isn't expendable because he has a family that loves him and need him to remember that he matters too.
“how can you ship bucktommy what about buddie????” tommy is the most compelling love interest buck has had in 6 years. he has more personality than the last 3 combined and lou can actually act. i’m absolutely gonna enjoy him while he’s here, i have enough love in my heart for all 3 of those boys in any and all combinations. skill issue if you don’t