This stomach pain is really eating me up. I hope the colonoscopy will shed light on things but the prep is making me shaky and weak (add it to the list of things making me sweat). I know there's the element of spirit where my sense of self is growing. When I think of my old names I feel the pain there. I'm healing thru it. It hurts. I know the stress from caring for mom makes it worse. I know the fear of thinly veiled threats. There's so much I need to do. I have plans. But most importantl, I need to lie down and try to rest so that the flare doesnt get worse.

I have $50 worth of bills each month. trying to secure meals (I have low mobility/energy when I have a flare so I need to order delivery), and I'm also trying to save for travel to a safer place $500

So far I've only raised $3 but it def helped.

If you have the spoons to boost it or the funds to support me with my basic needs and help me afford to live.

Cashapp $femmeboigarfielf

Venmo: garfgodot

Ko-fi.com/cosmickarike (credit cards/PayPal)

sayaka miki as ophelia from hamlet 💐

The anti LGBTQ "groomer" conspiracy has led to a severe uptick in violent incidents. O'Shae Sibley was murdered by hate for doing something joyful. Y’all homophobic biiiiches need to be looking at your own households or should I say church holds because we all know the real groomers are: those white conservative male pastors!

expired film from concerts that remind me of accidental notes, Atlanta 2023

Old but gold

Wu-Tang Forever ..

As an independent black artist from Staten Island, NY(yes that Staten Island😂) I always felt like there’s was always at least a mini chance of making because look at Wu-Tang, they did it and became legends.

Sometimes your dream, whatever it may be, is just a moment of representation away from seeming conceivable. I encourage you to keep with it. Feed it consistency. Think of who came before you that made you feel like hey I could really do this. That is what will keep that fire alive.

If you came across this post give this song a listen from one dreamer to another.

A ball is happening at the gas station where O’Shae Sibley was killed.

Redrew the one Scott Pilgrim Takes Off scene with Ben and Brooke (my spiderverse oc) Tehe

happy new year! 💫 my part of a trade with a friend 💕

Terrell Villiers for Italian Vogue September 2022

Shot by Sara Lorusso at Villa Lena Tuscany

Interview by Jordan Anderson

Full Interview

on the road in autumn (Georgia, 2020)

by Jasmine Mans.

What March feels like right now..

My mini sketch book ✨❣️