lou + edie

Who Scared You?-The Doors

Im halfway the list.

its a mirror of me, all the music that I listenend too, music that is relevant today, music from that the past that I grew up with or found thanks to spotify

@poisonjeans

@whitehairedyouth

@aloeverawrites

@dumb-ass-biatch

apollo’s confidence in court: oh my god i’m the worst lawyer ever my client is going to go to JAIL because i can’t even do my JOB

apollo’s confidence outside of court: i’m the only smart one here, i’m the most normal guy in the world and NO ONE is doing it like i am, investigations are EASY, klavier gavin wants me carnally

I had no idea where I was going with that outfit, and I ended up with a mashup of 60s mod, classic l0lita and English hunting tweed suit?

Outfit rundown Jacket: second-hand Innocent World Skirt: second-hand Métamorphose temps de fille Turtleneck: second-hand Cecil McBee Beret: thrifted Bag: offbrand Shoes: old Queen Bee Fox pin: Little Rose Planet Grape brooch, train pin and ring: thrifted

Just died

being single in your late 20s & 30s is so fucking wild bc on one hand it's fun and flirty and you skip a lot of the bullshit because you know what you're looking for and you know how to spot a red flag from a mile away and you've learned to set boundaries and communicate your own and be upfront about your needs and most of the time they've learned it too - and if they haven't, you can tell after the second date that they haven't been to therapy

and every time you feel lonely and dried up and an ugly husk there's a whole community of other single people out there who are just as unhinged and want to hang out with you because they just need a plus-one like you do and you get introduced to like. people in their 60's and 70's and 80's who are all like - nope, single life is my choice and i love it and you feel warm and seen and like okay, it's not the end of the world if i'm not seeing anybody. and yeah it's hard and sometimes exhausting but part of getting better is that you do make like so many friends and do so much wild shit because you made a promise to yourself that you'll actually get out there and try shit and actually work on your hobbies and skills and friendships because to be honest in relationships you wouldn't push yourself this hard and it's actually been super rewarding because it came from you and from what you wanted

and yes of course the apps such and dating in general can suck but after one of the bad dates you go back to your apartment and call up those friends you made and make jokes about what the other person said and it rolls right off your back and you have plans for self-care in the morning. you prioritize yourself and your happiness and you really actually don't mind it, a lot of the time, unless it's like at a wedding and they're doing one of those couples-related things. most of the time it's not even a problem except when you can tell people pity you for it and you're like - i'm actually fine, babe, even without a partner i am still, like a person and yes of course it would be nice to have a partner but you have established yourself as a person and as an adult in a way that feels really hard-won and well-earned and you're protective of that and of the life you're living and honestly you're pretty happy, all things considered

and at the same time you do have to tell your father that you are single on purpose right now and that, yes, believe it or not, they're letting women be single past the age of 30 these days without burning us at the stake (can you imagine!) and you have to kind of sit pretty while people make jokes about how you're losing your marriageability and you're like, a little too old for the bars and the clubs and whatever but you do still want to go out dancing and it's like. the other day you went to a board game party and had the time of your life and then your mom calls you and says she's worried because what if you never find the one, shouldn't you be spending more time looking? and you're like - trying to balance this place where you're actually, like, perfectly okay? except you hear this thing over and over and over - oh no. that's so sad. i hope you find your lover. and you weren't really upset about it until someone suggested that you're running out of time and until someone said that it's so miserable that you live without someone to kiss and you're like why can't anyone believe that i'm genuinely happy. like. joy. like. bliss.

and then they look at you and they look at their partner and the look passes between them that says - poor thing. you're just lying to yourself about this.

the guys ive been listening to on the last six months + a greetings for 2024!

Kurt Cobain, Los Angeles (1992)

music list of today

today I will new music

yesterday I added celtic, indi folk, soutern gothic and classical music

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@whitehairedyouth

Catherine Deneuve, 60s

Une anomalie sur la glace

Outfit rundown Coat: vintage Skirt: vintage Blouse: old Liz Lisa Belt: Axes Femme Hat: vintage Boots: old Fluevog Brooch on coat: vintage Diamond-shaped ナポリタン brooch: Mayokichiya 3D napolitan brooch: present by a friend Dango earrings: handmade from Daiso charms

Layne Staley, Mike Starr & Jerry Cantrell Circa 1988-1989

📸 Todd Shuss