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punkeropercyjackson · 1 day

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"You're real fucking sweet but i gotta watch out,you'll burst my bubble,like strawberry POP!"

For @rinverse ' 1 year Atsv annivesary event and illustrated by @a-hypnos-v,my Spidersona:Nora Morales aka Earth 1610's Spiderwoman,also know as Gamespider!

Nora is the eldest Morales sibling at 36/37 with Jefferson and Rio being aged up to their 60s but he's not their bio kid because i'm black biracial instead of monoracial so he's adopted!His parents took him in as a 16 year old street kid who'd been kicked out for being trans,specifically transmasc genderfluid and bigender.The Morales fam are super supportive of him and always have been!!

He's super bubbly,goofy,silly,sweet and kind but very insecure due to his trauma which also included getting bullied at school with zero friends and never went to college because his neurodivergence made school at that level too hard for him(audhd,anxiety and mdd)and Miles having all the same ones didn't help at all.But he never takes it out on him and is super proud of him for how smart he is and they're best friends on top of being adoptive siblings!!!Nora's also really snarky and lowkey cheeky and a huge gamer and geek and actually pretty responsible with good self-care habits contrary to the stereotype because he's a black fem instead of a white dudebro who dosen't read Spiderman comics.His poor social skills made it hard for him to connect with people but he does have a few casual friends in Itsv!No real strong connection though,it's just people he knows well enough.I think it goes without saying but he has hidden anger issues and spiteful tendencies too!

His version of the movies is called 'Spiderman/Spiderwoman:Spiderverse' but would be dubbed Spidersiblings:Spiderverse by fans if he were canon!It's both his and Miles' story as the titulary Spiderman and Spiderwoman so they're co-protagonists and Across has him as the fem mc instead of Gwen

Into him worked at the diner Peter B and Miles talked at and that's why Miles took him to it and Jefferson is a househusband because fuck copganda

Nora actually got bit at work at the same time Miles did while with Ripeter and Nora's intro blends into his as their theme songs play back to back/mixed into eachother:Miles' is 'Sunflower' and Nora's is 'Strawberry Pop',a rap song about black womanhood and Nora's type specifically as it was written for him like Sunflower was for Miles and both have a few lyrics referencing eachother as the heart and soul of Spiderverse.They're open with eachother about almost everything and Nora partially helped raise Miles so he always looked up to him but stopped vocalizing it as he got older so Nora misenterpreted it as him not thinking he was cool anymore and it hurt but he didn't vocalize that either because he found it fair

Nora was close to Uncle Aaron too and had suspiciouns he was hiding something and there's a moment where he jokes that he's secretly a supervillain but pretends not to be to protect the family with a goofy expression and hand gestures and we don't see Aaron's expression on purpose for dramatics and angst sake

His Spider motif is the purple jumping spider so his power is super strong legs including beyond average strength in them and echanced jumping and the rest of his body is already thick beforehand due to age(and so he dosen't look ridicilous LMAO)

Peter B is his main love interest!They bickered a lot in Itsv due to the whole 'extrovert optismist vs introvert pessimist' thing but had relathionship development as they got to know eachother and worked together and ended up crushing on eachother.Nora was the first older trans person Gwen met so she instantly latched onto him because they clocked eachother and he was happy to be friends with her and mutual mentors for lack of a better term(i.e Gwen taught Nora about being Spiderwoman and Nora was a positive adult figure in Gwen's life who took care of and looked out for her).He gets along with Peni,Noir and Spiderham too and Peni is shoujo based instead of moefication bullshit so naturally her and Nora's pastel femme ass hit it off

What's Up Danger? is a Morales Siblings shared theme song and Nora gives Miles ressurances as much as their parents and Peter B do and Peter B himself helps Nora out in feeling like Spiderwoman even before he chills out.There's a scene where Nora devastates that Miles will never look up to him like he used to but will make a great Spiderman and Miles is shocked speechless before he say he just didn't think he needed to say it anymore and got made fun of for admiring his big sister so much by his bullies because he talked about him at school a few times and tells him he never stopped being his hero and that he's 'the most awesome Spidersister in any universe' and that's what gives Nora the confidence to really be Spiderwoman as they rush off to the collider after hugging tightly and grinning at eachother.Nora is Spiderwoman(male)and Miles is Spiderman(female)

Nora showed bits of interest in punk culture in Into and goes full pastel punk/afropunk between it and Across and that's where his suit upgrade comes in and Itsv!Nora dressed like an afrolatina grandma tbh while Atsv!Nora dresses like a baddie and a huge faggot(complimentary).Spiderwoman is frequently seen at riots and charity events and Spiderman accoumpanies him when he's not too busy with school shit.Also Spiderwoman dosen't follow the no kill rule just for the exception of abusers and fascists

Nora becomes even more parental acting post Uncle Aaron's death for obvious reasons and there's direct talk of him in Across because of how important he was to the Spidersiblings.As Spider(wo)man,Nora naturally has something going on with all adult MJ's(meaning yes 1610 MJ and 616 MJ but not Em Jay because she's Gwen's age)and there's a joke of this when they sneak into the Kingpin party with the Mjnora interaction that implies bisexual MJ who loves all Spidermans regardless of gender

Atsv has a rework of it's intro sequence with a speech by the og Spiderfam(Miles,Nora,Gwen and Peter B)and same for the actual art/animation in it and Nora is the first amongst them to discover Spider Society,followed by him and Peter B reuiniting in a corny romantic scene that's interrupted by Miguel and Jessica and it cuts back and forth to them and Gwen as contrast and Gwen and Nora have an equally tender reunion as she frantically tells him what happened to her in a meltdown and he comforts her as they make it to Spider Society.Nora excitedly says he can't wait to tell Miles about it until Miguel says he can't just yet and refuses to tell him why so Nora just gives up and follows along because he's so fucking annoying about it.The movie is extended to almost 3 hours and there's a lot of Nora and Miles bonding in Earth 1610 and Peternora replaces Ghostflower as the love story of the movie and Gwen and Miles are platonic to not feel like it's only a thing because they're the other two main Spiderpeople

Hobie and Nora did the Spiderman pointing meme when they first met because they're both punk Spiderpeople and acted like they'd known eachother for years after only a few days of friendship and Nora basically adopted Hobie as his little brother and pseudo-son.They're platonic t4t black love realness and Margo gets in on it too since him and Nora have a shared special interests in video games and other matching tastes and Nora provides a shoulder to cry on when Mr and Mrs Kess are being extra toxic.He also helped Peni post Canon Event to cope and could relate from his own broken childhood that turned him into an edgecase too at the time and Pavitr and him are beyond unserious together and Gwen lives with Hobie fulltime on his boat and Nora visits them often enough to parent them it's pretty much his second house

This earns Nora the nickname 'Spider Manager' since they call themselves the Spiderband and he's their mentor/caretaker(Also George Stacy is Nora's canon event cop /hj.MURK THAT NIGGA!!!!!!)

Punkflower happens and their dynamic is the same because they're already so romantically-coded but there's more scenes and expansion due to longer run time.Ghostbyte also is together but there's tension going on not due to antagonizing eachother but due to Gwen's fated death and Margo's self-worth issues in regards to romance because of the 'disposable black love interest' trope.I wouldn't say they're on the same level because misogynoir is a very real thing but i think it's a good angle to work with in-universe and i'm a black woman myself so i'd say it's okay for me to since it's my territory

Jessnora is REALLLLLLL THEY'RE SO FUCKING GAY.Jessica still has a husband and is pregnant but they're polyamorous so it's okay with him them being a thing and Jessnora is that one trope where they're both chaotic but one's classy and elegant and smooth about it and the other's just a fucking menace with NO fanciness to them.Noraguel is also real in an enemies to lovers and rather angsty way as Nora actually changes a lot of Miguel's views by working with him and making him spend quality time so he unwinds but he's still scared to loose everything all over again and Spiderman and Spiderwoman in the same dimension makes them The Original Anomalies and it's a long while before he connects the dots and is too blinded by his trauma to see reason.He knows he loves Nora too but Nora has no clue on his feelings or Miguel's and it's torture because he can't figure out why he's so important to him but nonetheless dosen't hesitate to beat his ass and come for his entire life

42 Nora aka Nora J(Junia)is Venom's host who ran away from home post Jefferson's death because it broke him and is a vigilante like Miles G but much darker in his plots and sourer and meaner.There's a horror movie based reveal in the finale where Miles thinks he's safe because his Nora is with him but he turns and reveals himself as Venom-faced but has no actual intentions of hurting him contrary to his terror and his actual Nora gets Miles G and there's a dual frame reveal where the 42 Morales Siblings say the same thing:'I'm Miles/Nora Morales'

42 Nora/Nora J is also known as 'Venora',Nora has the trans pin on his Atsv costume to match Gwen's room flag,all Spiderpeople have special move the others can't do and Nora's being able to hack with his webs thanks to being kinda a criminal to get by when he was a homeless kid giving him experience beforehand and Beyond has Nora helping Miles G get that redemption-healing arc so at some point he asks him why he's so insistant on caring about him so Nora responds 'I'm gonna save you even if it kills me.You're my sunflower too'

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thrashkink-coven · 2 months

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this may seem like a weird question, and if this comes across as disrespectful i apologize. but, could lady aphrodite be - well - a man? could they appear to a devotee of theirs as male instead of female? i know spirits' appearances are fluid and change depending on who, when, where, what, and so on, but, is it possible that they ever change their gender? i've never seen anybody mention it, and, aphrodite doesn't feel female to me, instead they feel as a gender-reversed version of themself.

DID YOU MEAN APHRODITUS ?!

Lol I love this topic. Yes! You are not confused in feeling a male or masculine energy in Aphrodite. There’s a LOT of really cool history that goes into the archetype of the God(dess) of Venus and love and war, but to make a very long story short, Aphroditus (or Aphroditos) was the male Aphrodite originating from Amathus on the island of Cyprus and celebrated in Athens. He was later then syncretized with the offspring of Aphrodite and Hermes, Hemaphroditus. Different interpretations may or may not consider them to be the exact same entity. What we do know is that both Aphroditus and Hermaphroditus are always portrayed with an androgynous, intersex, or transsexual body, a mix of female and masculine traits and anatomy.

It’s widely accepted that Aphrodite/ Aphroditus is derived from the Mesopotamian Goddess Inanna/Ishtar. Inanna is a very important deity in regards to gender and sexuality, as she was the Goddess known to transform men into women and women into men. She was the patron of transgendered, intersex, and nonbinary people, and her holy priests and priestesses were very queer! She was portrayed with a beard, breasts, basically whatever she wanted lol, as she was believed to be the origin of queerness itself. All bodies, male, female, or something in between, are capable of exercising the joy of Inanna!

In general, the energy that we receive from Venus has always seemed to be inherently queer, gender bending, and fluid, which makes sense for the planet of love- love for others as well as love for the self! It transcends our traditional understanding of gender and sex and shows us how all of these identities are beautiful and powerful.

People often associate Aphrodite very highly with females vagina power, which she totally does embody to the max of course, but she also very much represents love for the self that transcends the flesh. She has always been the biggest ally to transmascs and femmes. In some interpretations, the God(dess) may be trans and queer themselves.

As a trans man myself, I personally view Lord Lucifer as an Aphroditus, the beautiful son of an Aphrodite. The divine masculine aspect of Venus that exists within the divine feminine. Combined with his values of self love, luxury, freedom, knowledge, and the courage to be your most authentic self, I see Lucifer, Aphroditus and Aphrodite as the pillars of queer divinity.

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multigenderswag · 29 days

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Multigender Survey Results Dec 2023: Anything else relevant

Participants were asked "Share anything else about your multigender identity that you find relevant" and had the option to respond with long answer text. Some notable responses include:

As a m+f bigender person who uses he/she pronouns, I sometimes feel like the "he" refers to my female side, and the "she" refers to my male side

I am no longer religious/Christian, but the expression “God is Change” resonates deeply with me and my approach to gender as experience. I accept that my gender (holistically) is an amalgamation, something that breathes new life into itself repeatedly and often unexpectedly, sustained by its own willingness to grow past its bounds and taste richness anew. Teaching is part of my work, and as such I consider myself an eternal student: gender is just one avenue for discovery and learning for me.

I feel so boring but it is what it is, name wise I use one (completely feminine) with group A and one (completely masculine) with group B and hope and pray that they never interact

I identified as a 'tomboy' (gender wise) as a child and transmasc as a teenager. As an adult part of my being multigender is honouring these past versions of myself and acknowledging that who I was is an important part of who I am today.

I like to describe my gender like this: imagine there’s a house on a street. the house represents being a boy/male, and being *in* the house means you’re binary male. The road represents a neutral, non-male/female gender. My gender is like the driveway — both part of the road *and* the house

i think this is relevant-ish, but the way i experience gender kind of feels like. there's a man and a woman in my head at all times, not in a system way so much as a (this is very obviously stupid but i can't find another comparison to articulate it) inside out way. they're both always there, and they're both separate, but at the same time, they come together to make the same person, me! nonbinary is a label i understand and identify with, mostly to simplify the matter for others, but in reality, it kind of feels like a... superbinary of sorts. i'm 100% a man, and 100% a woman, but because the binary only "allows" you to choose one, nonbinary is technically correct, isn't it?

I'm multigender in the "one gender that fits into several categories" way than being multigender in a "has multiple genders" way

My gender is the intersection of butch dyke and trans man. I'm questioning things right now, but I'm somewhere in that region, with a foot in both at once. I've always been drawn to butchness and sapphicism as well as transmasculinity. I think most of my journey to understand my gender has been a balancing act between identifying as enough of a guy to feel comfortable in my skin but non-binary enough to not have to abandon my identity with butchness. Recently I've adopted the label multigender, and it's helped a lot. I'm only even a little bit a girl if I can be a boy first and foremost, and I could be just a boy or just a dyke but I would have to kill part of myself to do so. I'm trying to find a way to exist in my gender without blood on my hands. I think I'm getting there. It's hard but I'm getting there.

It is complicated but I love it

Yay I love multi gender people we are so cool. <3

A number of participants also referenced being autistic and how that has influenced their multigender identity, so it is possible that autism may be included as a question on the next survey.

#'feminine name with group a and masculine name with group b and pray they never interact' person you are just like me fr #also shoutout to the inside out person i didn't think that was stupid at all. i liked it #survey results december 2023 #multigender

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canonically-a-genloser · 7 months

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Please explain all the genloss characters to me

All I know is the stuff from the live I haven’t kept up with anything else

oh boy you're gonna have a TIME reading this one brother i'm gonna spend hours typing out the insane stuff the randy collective has come up with

okay so the insaneification of genloss started with sneeg. FANON IS WRONG ABOUT HIM HE IS WRONG IN EVERY FIC THE MASSES DO NOT UNDERSTAND HIM . so basically to be true to the canon sneeg mutual started actually talking about the trauma he would have and how genuinely fucked up he would be and that's how the randy collective started. anyways i touched on the whole being raised by showfall thing which ties into kids theory. charlie and sneeg would have been so so so codependent and toxic and they love each other and they're all over each other like animals but they'll also fight to the fucking death because showfall can just revive them. (there's a creature au as well that is very cool but i'll talk about that later if i remember.) frank was sneeg's boyfriend and he got permakilled for it and i will come back to this (but also. side note. yellow is frank's color. that's the color of the number code ran chose to put into the computer. maybe this doesn't mean anything but i think the yellow connecting to frank and the fact that he was dead was foreshadowing but take that as you will. moving on)

generation loss charlie. everyone talks about him. everyone loves charlie. they don't care about sneeg. charlie knows this and he will use it against sneeg any way he can. he's the favourite and he flaunts that at sneeg and knows showfall would kill sneeg if he said the word. at the same time sneeg knows this and he would be so fucking jealous of that. he would kill charlie for it. he'd regret it but that wouldn't stop him. it's the cain and abel symbolism and it could be explained so much better but i really really love this point so i had to mention it.

another thing about charlie being the favorite. charlie genuinely doesn't have anyone without sneeg. so when frank comes along and starts talking to sneeg and basically taking his brother away from him he gets jealous of that. there's multiple endings to this one but it was an interesting point.

last thing about charlie for now the charlie mutual made headcanons for transfem/transmasc charlie separately and they are so cool. i can't remember who had the idea of aroace charlie but we love that too. we spin him in the washing machine

i have my own version of ran as well. in all my post escape aus they use hearing aids and prosthetic eyes from where the box messed up their face. (SHOWFALL EMPLOYEE AUS GO SO FUCKING HARD WITH THIS ONE. TO ME. i literally cannot forget to talk about this later.) but yeah that's my basic design idea and the headcanons for this guy are crazy. one of my favorites is the one that sneeg and charlie were literally on top of each other all the time being brothers so ranboo adopted that kind of show of affection post escape. they're fucked up brothers your honor

hETCH IS NOT THE VILLAIN. HE IS A VICTIM TOO. the popular headcanon is that he's also gay for the founder and sometimes we like to think about how it would be funny if the founder were gay for him too but honestly hetch is most likely just their emotional support wet cat. but yeah charlie mutual started making headcanons about charlie and hetch being blood brothers and i was never able to erase that from my memory /vvpos . i love thinking about that dynamic too for so so many reasons. hetch staying with charlie and sneeg and basically raising them and there's just so much in there that i can't even get into yet because i haven't explained the employees BUT I WILL I PROMISE

niki is such a fucking fun one to think about too. i don't have much on her because she's actually characterized decently well from what i've seen but @/white-collar-cannibal has an au where she cuts off her hair and just. the butch niki headcanons. it's such a cool concept. because we've discussed her too and as popular hcs go niki was brought in as a teenager. i think we said 14-15 (but don't quote me on that i could be wrong). but the basic idea is showfall made her be pretty and she wants to be like sneeg. she wants to fight and be able to stomach stuff like all the gruesome stuff showfall fed sneeg and charlie as kids and ough. it's just so cool to think about i love her character

I'M GONNA REBLOG WITH STUFF ABOUT THE OC SHOWFALL EMPLOYEES (AND ANYTHING ELSE MAJOR I MISSED SO FAR) BUT I'VE BEEN TYPING FOR SO LONG AND THIS PROBABLY MAKES ZERO SENSE THE WAY I WORDED HALF OF THIS SO .

EDIT: tumblr notifs ate it but @/white-collar-cannibal actually came up with the transfem charlie hcs! my bad on that one i don't remember who does what sometimes!!

#toad <3 #im so normal i swear

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m0thmancore · 5 months

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this doesn't merit a reblog because it's different enough i think but it's inspired by the post that you should look at here and is also directly below this one if you're on my blog seeing this

so the original post is about the duality of being transmasc while also defending the nonexistent perception of you as a woman and how really the man vs women differences don't exist (no really it's such a good post go read it)

so anyway i had the opposite version as the "boy" who was surrounded by girls: i'd do shit and people would be like "stop that, guys don't do that" and like. well i'm not. but also so what if they do? you are not the Guy General i actually think men can do whatever they want! still not me though

like i talk about this in the context of autism and being trans every once in a while but i had the weird gendered thing where by standard gender rules i wasn't a girl but also just. kinda wasn't a guy. like not in the same way cis people were yk? and everyone did try to correct that but they went the wrong way

so it was really weird to defend shit like "guys can sit with their legs crossed and say they love people who are not their family members" while also not being the people who were the receiving end of "guys can't sit with their legs crossed that's how girls sit" because yes you're so close (though i didn't know it yet)

anyway gender nonconformity is cool and based and trans solidarity is too

(hope this makes sense lol it's 4 am)

#transgender #lgbtq #lgbtqiia+#trans #transfem #autistic things #actually autistic #queer theory shit #gender

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tmnt-ashes · 1 year

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Hello! Your au seems super cool! I was wondering what were the turtles (esp Mikey’s) pronouns? And what was your train of thought when picking their species? Have a great day :)

Oh thank u !

For pronouns,

Leo's - He/Him

Raph's - He/Him but cooler (transmasc)

Donnie - He/They

Mikey - Any pronouns (with a preference of she/her) !

As for species, I really liked rise Leo being a red eared slider, so I brought that to ashes. Leo and Raph are twins so, raphs a red eared slider as well ! For Mikey, ehmmm I just really like how he was a box turtle in previous versions so ! Kept that as well. As for Donnie erm ,, I'm not sure how I came up with his species ! I was just kinda looking at turtles and thought striped mud turtles were cool

#tmnt ashes #questions !

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not-poignant · 1 year

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This is the anon the said 'safe'. Your tags hit me hard, since I'm actually starting a transition but am avoiding hrt. I've been getting pushback on it, and been told I'm not really trans without it. I know what I want to change to feel like myself. Also what I don't want to change. That's probably why 'safe' was my choice. It sucks when you think you should belong, but still feel like you aren't good enough. It helped to hear you have felt the same. I just want to give you a big virtual hug.

Ahhh I have a similar story, anon <333 I'm so sorry you went through it too.

Under a read more because it contains transphobia towards a nonbinary person from a binary trans person. My experiences are from a nonbinary lens, anon, so take the bits that are useful to you and ignore the rest, depending on where you sit on the trans spectrum <333

When I started realising I was transmasc (I'd known I was non-binary for a while) I remember that I talked to a trans man about it, he'd been going through the process for a couple of years at that point and we'd talked about that too at different points.

And I remember mentioning that I'd thought about hormones, but I was still on the fence because I'm nonbinary, not like 'binary trans' (i.e. I'm not going from point A to point B, where you move from AFAB to man or AMAB to woman), and I was talking about wanting they/them pronouns and maybe he/him pronouns at that point.

And he said: 'Oh cool, yeah, hopefully that helps until you decide for sure with testosterone and surgery.' I had this moment of like ??? and he was like 'when you realise and can be brave enough to commit to being a guy, I hope that goes really well for you.'

It was one of the most transphobic things I'd ever heard, not because it was said from a hateful place (it really wasn't, I'm still friends with this guy), but because it came from a friend, I was being very vulnerable during the conversation and it left me feeling like I didn't have a right to consider myself trans at all for about two years after that. It pushed me into this space where I'd been defined by a fellow trans person as a 'coward until I decided to be officially a man.' And then for two years I kept looking for that inside of myself, denying my non-binary-ness in favour of looking for a very clear and decisive 'I'm a man!' moment. It was a horrible period of time, gender-wise. Because being identified exclusively only as a man or a woman is dysphoric to me, so trying to do it to myself was like cutting at myself with an axe.

It's also very much like when gay and lesbian folk would say to me - back when I identified as bisexual - 'get back to me when you pick a side / become a real queer.' There's a real phobic bent among folks who are 'one or the other' (sighs) towards people who are in the liminal with this stuff and that's where they belong. And it hadn't occurred to me that I'd hear a version of that from a fellow trans person. You'd think I'd have learned, right?

He and I are still friends, but I stopped talking to him about all of my experiences as a trans and nonbinary person. It was clear to me, in that moment, he saw me as a much lesser version of an identity he'd embraced and was living. You know, how so many people think of nonbinary transmascs. (It's also frustrating, because trans men also don't need to have hormones or surgery to be trans men, and it makes me furious when people take this attitude with binary trans folk too, but I'm mostly focusing on my own experience here, of the myriad ways we encounter transphobia in the trans community).

I never heard anything quite like that again, but I've had one other trans guy be like 'when you're ready for testosterone, I'll support you' like he was waiting in the wings for me to 'fully make a decision to be 100% a man' which isn't a decision I can make, because I'm not 100% a man, lmao, I'm like 80% of one, and 20% something else, and 0% woman, lmao, which is why I call myself nonbinary transmasc.

I was lucky that through research and listening to voices in nonbinary transmasc spaces and more open-minded trans spaces that I realised that I'd encountered transphobia, and that this specific kind of transphobia is particularly common in the trans community, especially in cases where a trans man or woman has a period of being nonbinary as an experiment to see what transitioning feels like before they fully commit to the surgery and/or hormones and name etc. that they often wanted all along. So they often project this onto other people, because for them being nonbinary was a midway point, or the middle of an evolution. But being nonbinary isn't an experiment for most nonbinary people, it's literally our identity and it always will be. (And any binary trans person reading this, don't ever use this rhetoric with your nonbinary friends, or your fellow binary trans friends who have elected not to use hormones or surgery - it's transphobic.)

These days, I'm proudly trans and proudly part of the trans community, but I'm also aware that there are a lot of binary trans people who will treat me and other trans folk as 'other' because I haven't suffered through the same surgeries or adjustments that they have. That's...their transphobia, and it's not me expressing my identity wrongly, or being 'lesser', it's just straight up transphobia. It belongs to them, not to me. I don't believe we have a unique word for nonbinary transphobia, it all comes under the same umbrella, but that's definitely what it is.

When you start to feel like you don't belong, anon, remind yourself that this is internalised transphobia, not to punish yourself, but to remind yourself that it's not true. Those feelings belong to the people who gave them to you, but they're not innately or inherently true, they actually have nothing to do with how valid you are at every stage of your transition.

You're fully a trans man if you don't take hormones, and you're fully nonbinary if you do. Whatever you need (or don't need) to affirm or express your gender for you, is what you need, and that deserves to be respected and fully validated no matter what, at any time. Whether it's binding or not binding, hormones or not hormones, hormones and then 'not for the next few years' and then hormones again, surgery or not surgery, etc. Whether you're a trans man, woman, nonbinary, agender etc.

People have this idea of what it is to be a 'proper' trans, bi, gay, lesbian person (like the 'gold star lesbian' which is horrendously disgusting as a term and concept), but all you need - literally all you need - re: these things, is to just... know you're these things. That's it. That's how a gay person can know they're gay without having sex. That's how a bi person can know they're bi without sleeping with someone of the same sex. And it's how a trans person knows they're trans without looking perfectly androgynous or perfectly binary trans (depending on what they desire) on the outside. (Don't get me started on fatphobia in androgynous and nonbinary spaces, and the equation of true 'nonbinary androgyny' with thinness, because that's a whole other rant for another day, lol).

I'm sorry you've experienced that pressure to be 'more' of something from society / particular people. I can specifically relate on the hormones front because I actually went quite far into looking into taking T, to the point where my doctor was ready to sign off with an endocrinologist, before I realised that it wasn't the right decision for me. It might be one day, but right now I know I'm transmasc without it, and I'm concerned about some of the side effects with my neuroendocrine tumours. There are other ways I affirm my gender that work great for me. But I did have a moment of knowing that would impact how other people see me, and it's one thing when it comes from all the cis people, but it's another thing when it comes from the trans community as well. :( Thankfully most people are really validating now, use the right pronouns, and I just don't confide nonbinary vulnerabilities with folks who saw being nonbinary as a midpoint of their own evolution/journey, just to be safe, lmao.

Wishing you fortune and strength and much validation, anon <3 You are amazing as you are, whatever you decide to do or not do in the future. :) *hugs*

#asks and answers #personal #queer culture #i'll never forget that experience #i had the chat right here on tumblr actually #and i remember sort of sitting back in my chair and feeling like something had broken in me #because i'd been supportive to this friend through their transition #and sort of expected the same #and instead got a sort of 'well see you when you get here' conversation #that made it clear that he thought my gender as it is now #was just a weak little scaffold #for the 'end point'#it still makes me emotional thinking about it #i really hope folks who are trans men or women #think about how they talk to nonbinary people #and fellow trans men or women #who are electing not to have one or all of the surgeries or take hormones for many valid reasons #our transness is not defined by how much #we do to our bodies on the way to gender affirmation #we are trans before we ever experience a scalpel or take another hormone #or change our names or birth certificates #all these things can help #and they can hinder #everyone's experience in this is unique #administrator Gwyn wants this in the queue

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Is there any hope of looking like a cis man? I just saw a lot of transmasc say we will never look as cis and how they're better than cis men or whatever, but I dont want to be 'better' than cis man, I want to look like a cis man and I want people who dont know to see me like a cis man, is that a bad thing to want?

There absolutely is hope, and it's not a bad thing to want.

A lot of folks also don't want to look that way, and don't want to try; and that's awesome! It's a great source of empowerment, and knowing that your version of manhood is not any lesser just for being trans is unquestionably a good thing.

And some people don't find comfort in the idea that they might never look like a cis man, and they desperately want to look that way, and that's... kind of just what dysphoria is, for most folks. That's normal. It doesn't mean you see trans manhood as inherently lesser than cis manhood- it just means you want to look and be understood a certain way, and it's distressing to think you might not be able to.

If we could "cure" dysphoria by just thinking about gender a different way, even if it was some intangible social ill that would go away if society had no clear picture of what a man or woman should be, well. That would be cool, but we would also see evidence of that now, in all of the trans people who do think that way.

And we don't see that. Because for most of us, dysphoria doesn't go away no matter how we change our understanding of gender.

I just don't buy that any trans person experiencing dysphoria is "not trying hard enough", or is too cissexist or transphobic to truly accept a trans version of their gender. I don't think anyone really believes that (with maybe a few very extreme exceptions) and I don't think you need to, either.

Gender is okay. It's fine and normal. Your understanding of gender is deeply personal and unique, and your relationship to that is going to be extremely specific to your cultural understanding of gender, your feelings about it, your personal identity, your dysphoria, and a bunch of other factors that nobody but you can really understand. So is everyone's; just like your feelings about your gender don't mean anything about their's, their feelings about their gender don't mean anything about your's.

Nobody has any right to tell you, or anyone else, that their personal feelings about gender aren't real and deserving of care, attention, and whatever kind of support they need to be healthy.

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(Part 2 if you'd rather rain check it) Also do you think Shiv's gender expression and sexuality would present differently in the CGKU, with her already being in the company and making moves and juxtaposed with her sister who's pegged more as The Girl of the bunch? Like, obviously she'd still pass for a fem straight woman but straddling that line of what performances of female homoeroticism and imitated male heterosexuality are acceptable without drawing ridicule. (Truly she is the real transmasc Kendall in practice to me lol)

But also, do you think there could be something with AFAB Kendall having *gender stuff* or would she probably essentially just be a woman? In like how she would never really be able to get anyone to see her as anything else and wouldn't have that much incentive to be Not-Woman anyway. Well, other than the whole "misogyny/sexual violence factory" of it all maybe, but even then I feel like her feelings on victimhood and "debasing" herself would be in some complicated zone between the extremes of Shiv and Roman.

ok i lost the first part of this somehow lol. but, my take on canon shiv is that in certain ways she does live up to logan's expectations of masculinity in a way roman and kendall don't, but i don't think she would ever see this as being incongruent with her being a woman. like, i don't think she thinks about her gender with that type of attention; i don't even think she's consciously trying to be masc, she's just like, living her life and only 'identifies' with womanhood in the sense that it's assigned to her. also unfortunately, extrapolating from how she talks about institutions and authority and 'political science', i think she's like, a generic liberal transphobe who thinks biology is immutable and inescapable wdkwjfkwj #bringbackpilottransphobeshiv

in the cis girl kendall scenario, there would maybe? be more room for shiv to vie for the role of the fav son, just b/c of how much logan doesn't like roman. but i also don't think he would like girl kendall (cries too much) so he might still want shiv to be His Daughter who's like, cool enough to Get Him but also woman enough that logan can be friends with her and not have it be homosocial. so i'm not sure it would really shake out differently for shiv, gender-wise, plus again i don't know that she would really be inclined to push for any kind of gender non-conformity beyond just the fact that temperamentally, she's kind of masc in logan's worldview.

re: kendall, honestly i do just think she would be a girl lmao. like, i think a version of kendall who wasn't raised being told that she was entitled to inherit would just be tweeting like, the most generic jessica valenti quotes trying to get chelsea clinton to notice her or some shit. like, i just don't think masculinity would appeal to her really.

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22hemi12 · 1 year

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A different person when he's with me

Once again written with a transmasc reader in mind

Fluff :>

(Was tempted to make this smut as well but I've never really written it before... might make a NSFW version on AO3... maybe, if people want it)

Please request me, I need it :)

Another day, another crash landing.

This time it was too much of a crash than a landing.

There was some tension in the marauder as Tech and Echo fixed the ship, Crosshair was pissed at something and Wrecker wasn't helping his mood.

Hunter tried to the best of his capabilities to stop Wrecker from annoying his younger brother too much, but even then it didn't help. Wrecker has too much energy and not enough expolsions.

I stood by Tech and Echo, a small amount of small talk between us, It's basically just me trying to convince Tech to let me borrow his datapad, of course he wont though, it's one of his babies.

"Oh come on Tech, You aren't using it right now!" Tech sighed, wiping off sweat from his forehead, leaving a streak of grease. I held in my chuckle as he turned to me

"Give me a good reason to give you my datapad" Echo let out a chuckle as I wracked my brain.

"I want to distract Crosshair with going out on some form of excursion before he kills Wrecker" It was half true, before Tech could reply a Loud Crash and a Crack rang out from the open hatch.

"Wrecker! What did you do?!" Crosshair had yelled so loud bird-like creatures had flown away from the clearing where the marauder crashed in.

"I think it's too late" Echo spoke as I sped to the hatch, hearing the yelling loud and clear.

"I didn't mean it!" Entering the Marauder I saw what got Crosshair so mad.

His guncase was broken at the hinge and his Firepuncher laid on the floor, broken in half. Hunter stood over it in between a fearful Wrecker and a Fuming Crosshair.

"Calm it!" Hunter tried his best to stop the grey haired clone from killing his brother.

"Get outta the way Hunter, if you know what's good for you" Crosshair had murder etched in his face. Hunter noticed me at the hatch. He mouthed this pleads.

I sighed and shook my head as I walk towards Crosshair, he didn't notice me, too mad at the towering mass of muscle. I grabbed his bicep and tenderly started to pull him out of the marauder.

"Come on Ram'ser" He snapped out of his rage to stare at me, he still looked mad, but his eyes softened when he noticed me. "Let's cool off"

He grumbled shaking my hand off of him and sped walked out, I followed behind quickly "Tell Cross I didn't mean it! Please! TINY!?" Wreckers voice cracked in worry as I watch the Lean clone walk out of the clearing into the bush.

"Here" I turned to Tech who handed me his data pad. "I marked some points of interest for you two"

"Thanks" I quickly jogged after Crosshair as Tech walked back into the marauder.

Pushing past trees and swatting away bugs, I finally found crosshair who sat on top of a boulder, a deep scowl etching his face and a pile of broken toothpicks lay under his feet.

I struggle up the boulder hearing him mumbling under his breath in mando'a as I sat next to him. The mumbling stops when he noticed I'm here.

After a beat of silence he speaks "I'm gonna kill him"

I chuckle "No you're not" He shuffles closer to lean his head on my shoulder.

"Yes I will" I lean my cheek on his head as I look at Techs data pad, looking over the map to see what Tech marked thinking would be interesting for us.

A massive Tree, A flower field...

A waterfall in a cave?

When did Tech have the time to find this?

"Hey" I softly speak, Crosshair makes a noise telling me he's listening. "How about we go somewhere cool?" He scoffs.

"Where?" I move lightly making Cross remove himself from my shoulder. Jumping off the Boulder I turn back to rise my hand to him.

"Follow me" Confusion flashes in his eyes as he holds my hand and jumps down, not letting go of his hand I pull him along, periodically looking at the Data pad to make sure we are going the right way.

After a few minutes of walking we reach the cave, the darkness engulfs us as we walk in, I use the light from the data pad to light my way, knowing fully well that cross can see just fine.

Crosshair lets out a small gasp, I look at him not having noticed a small floating glowing bug flying right in his face. I snort, holding my hand over my mouth.

The puzzled look on his face as he looks at the bug is too much, the bug flies away as I laugh, looking back up at him as I wipe away tears.

He playfully glares at me, looking up to my hair he snorts covering his mouth and looking away, in the dark I know his ears are flush.

I can see the glow of the bugs and feel them crawling in my hair, I let out a grossed sound as I shake my head, seeing them fly away from my head.

We look at each other and let out a chuckle as we continue in, the bugs seem to not be the only thing in this cave that glows, the fungi and plants glow in bright colours.

The sound of rushing water meet our ears as we reach the main room. A waterfall surrounded by glowing plants and trees.

"Woah, gotta thank Tech for this find" I say out loud.

"You can do that" Cross lets go of my hand walking to the water and looking in. I smile a daring thought popping into my mind.

Sneaking behind him, I push him into the water, letting out a cackle as he pops back up to stare at me his mouth agape. He smirks as he pulls me in. The absolutely cold water makes me shudder as Crosshair laughs at my predicament.

"H-how are you not shaking?" I stutter racing out of the water, Crosshair behind me.

"I'm an enhanced clone remember?" I stared at him knowing full well he uses heating packs in his armour.

"your lying aren't you" He stands there for one second.

"Yeah..." He smiles making me shake my head. I lay down so he sat next to me, I stared at him letting the silence of the cave waft over us.

He's a different person when he and I are alone. A good different, He's free to express his feelings and laugh. I feel honored to see this side of him.

Looking down at me with the sweetest smile, I know he feels safe with me.

Walking back to the Marauder when the sun went down was a little sad, knowing that once we get back crosshair might get angry again at Wrecker.

The Marauder was in view... and didn't look any diffrent, Tech and Echo were no longer outside, which surprised me, I know Tech and Echo would of stayed out there till they either fell asleep or the ship was fixed.

Stopping before we entered the clearing we looked down at each others hands, still holding onto each other, afraid to let go, not knowing when we'd get to hold each other again due to the war. I sighed slowly letting go of crosshairs hand.

He was less willing to let go, I look up at him, his eyes held his emotions, I smile at him leaning up to peck him on the lips.

He sighed and smiled lightly at me, letting go slowly and walking with me to the ship. The rare smile gone from his face.

The ship was silent excluding the loud snores that is unique to Wrecker, must of fallen asleep. Looking down at where the gun case and broken firepuncher was gone, Hunter walked out of the cockpit with a smile, he mentioned to us to follow him to the bunks.

Looking at each other in confusion, we walked to in seeing Wrecker asleep leaning against his bunk, The Bad Batch's unique armour colour covering his face and blacks, Echo and Tech talking silently to each other leaning over something next to Wrecker, they looked back and moved out the way with smiles on each others faces.

Crosshair's gun case was sloppily fixed and covered in paint, the paint was obviously Crosshair inspired, his tattoo and a nexu was the main features on the case, the Firepuncher was also fixed, obviously by Tech and still in the regulation black.

I smile and look to Crosshair as he picked up the fixed firepuncher, making sure it was to his high standards. I leaned in to whisper...

"I told you that you wouldn't kill him"

The glare on his face was fake, but the look in his eyes wasn't...

#tbb #the bad batch #the clone wars #star wars clone wars #star wars #tbb crosshair #crosshair bad batch #crosshair the bad batch #crosshair x reader #crosshair #crosshair x transmasc reader #clone trooper

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==> INTRODUCTION POST <==

Meet all the guys that you can ask questions, and who will be role-playing them in responses!

(All copy pasted from discord, everything under cut!)

Violet(Vi, V):

-Draws well (I had to)

-Adhd, maybe autism, CHEWS AND GNAWS ON EVERYTHING

-Actually wears her glasses

-Very silly, acts like normal V but sometimes actually genuinely happy and nice

-Totally isn’t the cause behind the bite marks on the landing pod chairs

-Aroace & lesbian flag

-Does the Dino arm thing

-Basically just a fucking cat (purrs, meows, and all that jazz)

-A broken headlight cause yummy yummy (same with crack in tail Vial and screen)

-Acts like a silly cat

-Most of the time unaware of surroundings

-She/her

==> @conniewoof

:!Stars intro!:

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- half snow leopard (somehow)

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- slightly talker than the average drone

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- workaholic

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- thinks her scars r cool

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- their pawpads and ear stars r rlly squishy :3 and if u squish her ear stars they make a squeak sound GEHE

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- she's practically a nightlight coz of how glowy they are.. but whenever she goes to sleep they stop glowing lolz

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- rlly likes bugs and studys them nonstop

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- loves analog horror n scary stuff in general,, they just find the concept of it all rlly interesting

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- gets distracted by anything cats would💀

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- rlly likes video games and can defo kick ass in them

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- has a scary ass zombie drone/solver form

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- her nose twitches when she cries shrug emoji

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- her tail (elliot) is actually pretty sentient, meaning he can communicate with beeps and boops (even though star can only understand them clearly)

==> @strbrypancakesxd

《☆ Nathan ☆》

<-- ADHD -->

☆▪︎▪︎ Pansexual, Transmasc ▪︎▪︎☆

==> This little man PURRS. He is a dog at heart but he PURRS.(his favorite thing to do)

==> Hehe silly feathered wings(that could still kill a man)

==> Would unironically bark at someone if they annoyed him somehow

==> Is the sweetest guy but oh my goodness does he hold a grudge

==> "Haha oh biscuts that knife right by my heart really hurts- Do you want that back?"

==> PUZZLES. Do not give this man a puzzle he will try to solve it for the next week and no-one will see him

==> Took the nanite acid out of his tail at one point(it hurt like a bitch) and now has a empty stinger as a tail tip instead

==> OBSESSED with keeping his wings clean and nice looking, he literally will put aside any other responsibilities until they're perfect

Silly little Alaskan Malamute inspired guy :3

==> @staruzi002

❦ Revel ❦

❦ Pansexual lil guy

❦ Has a weird hyperfixation on ducks, specifically lil tiny yellow ones and really loves to make random duck comments to fill a conversation.

❦ Anything that might be yellow is going to be gone in approximately 5 seconds of him spotting it

❦ Outgoing with a passion for fashion (OUJI-) and design, has a bit of sass if you by chance try to question his fashion choices. He also uses "girl" and "sis" unironically

❦ Usually passes away at the slightest compliment and will ascend with his wings into the stratosphere to hide himself

❦ Ribbons. Ribbons are the best.

❦ Don't give him any bells or things that squeak, he will indefinitely be playing with them until they break somehow and he'll go into sad lil guy mode for a week on average

❦ “Autobots! Roll out!” *rolls down an ongoing avalanche*

❦ Deathly afraid of spiders but will disintegrate an entire colony

==> @bonkadonkss

☆▪︎▪︎☆

In a mysterious alternate version of Copper-9, this fun little group all met eachother! And now they're here to answer your questions!

So ask away folks!

☆▪︎▪︎☆

RULES --

- No NSFW. For the love of God please none.

- Be nice to the sillies(and the roleplayers) we're just here to have fun!

- These are characters that are from an active rp server, so things might change about them as we go!

- Expect text for most of the answers(unless whoevers answering feels up to doing a doodle), that'll be how they're put most of the time!

#ask the observatory #intro post #murder drones #observatory violet #observatory star #observatory nathan #observatory revel

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