#(the pay is great for the job and it'll give me something to do instead of just...I dunno...reading through the winter I suppose)
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job hunt tipssssss (and lessons learnt..)
tailor your resume to each position you apply
(1) always make your employers' job easier
include only the relevant experience and keep the descriptions straightforward.. recruiters are basically just ticking boxes, make it easy for them to do so or expect them to bin your CV after a quick glance
(2) have too many part-time/work gaps?
i highly recommend using a skill-based CV than a chronological CV for this case; not only is it waaaaaaaaaay easier to prepare but also makes your experience look more put-together since you can mix & match your relevant skills.. give it a shot if you've inconsistent work history or want to have a career change; i should mention it's also a game changer for people whom English isn't the first language
(3) review your cover letter before heading to an interview
i mean you've already explained why you're a great fit for the job in the application, just take advantage of that effort and reiterate everything during the interview --- preparation done!
dont use the same answer for interviews
.. it'll definitely make you come across as average
there are 3 key and frequently asked questions you should be ready for:
(1) tell me about yourself
start with a basic introduction, followed by your previous work experience (again, making them relevant to the job) and wrap up with a glimpse of your personality -- for instance, say something like.. I see myself as an ambitious and self-motivated person (.. and how these qualities fit the job profile!)
(2) what do you know about us/ why do you want to work for us
always research the company; mention its values or services, and how they resonate with you
(3) what can you offer us/ why do you think you suit this job
highlight how your experience aligns with the job requirements; this demonstrates your dedication and preparation.. and also shows the employer what they can expect from you
i hate interviews (who doesnt?).. i believe many of us are very qualified for jobs we're interested in but often struggle to demonstrate our competence effectively; my way to make the process less agitating is to view it as a cool opportunity for employers to learn about us: it's not an exam.. rather, it's a level playing field where two or more strangers come together to mutually explore each other.
This is your chance (after putting so much effort into preparing the application) to shine and let them know you're the perfect fit for the job they're offering!
never trust the reaction of the interviewer!
some interviewers acted super affirmative to each of my responses, making me feel like i was nailing the interview.. but then i ended up getting no job; i understand the intention is to encourage interviewees during the process, but pls dont take them too seriously and get carried away
stay focused and humble instead
always reflect after each experience (exactly what i'm doing now)
it's important to reflect on your performance and seek improvement for future applications
i always discover areas that could be done better while preparing for new job applications, even though i felt that i'd already given my best for the last one
the competition is fierce but dont worry about competing with other stronger candidates (what you cant control); instead, concentrate on what you can control which is demonstrating how you're the best candidate!
always put yourself in your employer's shoes and do the homework; focus on the good and keep trying, one day all your hard work will pay off and get the job you deserve
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(i regret so much that i didnt perform better during my interview just nw🥲i dont want the same thing to happen to you, pls take my tips and prepare as much as you cn💔)
#job search#job hunting#interview tips#interview questions#cv tips#resume tips#job interview#career tips#career#recruitment#lessons learned#good luck#get a job#be prepared#employment#jobseekers#graduate
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To the End of the Line
Rating: T
Fandom: Cyberpunk 2077
Pairing: Johnny Silverhand x Fem!V (platonic or romantic)
Warnings: Suicidal ideation, discussions of grief, hurt/comfort
Summary: V finally gets to mourn Jackie properly instead of hiding from her feelings
Her mouth was too dry for the pill she forced down her gullet, but she didn't care. V downed a gulp of rum from her flask to wash it down. Vik had probably said something about not doing that, but she needed something to dull the pain.
She hopped off her motorcycle, looking up at the Columbarium. Her hands were shaking and she almost regretted doing this alone. Maybe she should've asked Misty to come, or maybe Panam. A part of her even regretted taking the Omega Blocker, Johnny's ribbing always had a way of distracting her from whatever was bothering her.
But she couldn't let him see this, she needed something to herself, something that was all her own. Something he couldn't fuck up.
It wasn't the first time she'd gone to visit Jackie, but it was the first time in longer than she'd like to admit. It was the first time since right after his ofredna.
His niche was fairly out of the way, Mama Welles having scraped together all she could to get the nicest one she could provide. V had offered to pay, of course she had. But Mama Welles had refused, of course she had. The whole family was always far too proud for their own good.
"Hey Jacks." She said quietly, hands folded in front of her.
She raised her right hand and ran it across his name, glowing a soft blue against the grey concrete. She then moved to her throat, gently thumbing the bullet necklace Misty had gifted her. Once again she found herself missing Johnny's ever-present snark.
“So, I did it, kinda." She laughed, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand. "I mean, I'm dyin' so that's not great, but every fixer in town thinks I'm the biggest thing since Morgan Blackhand, so that's cool."
She paused, but she wasn't sure what she expected. An answer, maybe? Maybe she'd gotten too used to the dead talking back, meeting two in the last couple weeks. Three if she counted herself.
"Um, you got your drink, choom. I get it every time I go to the Afterlife, which is pretty often..." She sniffed. "Misty misses you, talks about you all the time. Mama too, I try to be there for them but… you know I was never good with the emotional stuff. They've been helping each other, I think…. it's nice, I think" She shook her head. "Of course it's nice, what I meant was just-"
V leaned her head against the concrete. "Fuck, Jackie. I miss you, I miss you real bad." She shuddered, unable to stop the tears that now fell at full force. "It's hard, Jacks, goin' on without you. Sometimes I'll be on a job and I'll turn to look, expectin' to see your stupid grin at just blowin' some gonk away but…… And then I just get this sinking pit in my chest that I just can't get rid of."
She shuddered
"I fucking hate being alive without you, Jackie." She pulled back, gently running a finger over his name. "Sometimes I can't wait for this stupid chip to kill me. I don't know if I agree with Mama and Padre about what comes after, or even Misty. But, fuck, at least it'll stop hurting so fucking much."
"Shit, V."
She jumped, instinctively drawing her gun and pointing it in the direction of the voice.
Johnny didn't flinch, why would he?
She didn't bother to wipe her eyes, allowing her tears to trickle down her reddened cheeks. "What the fuck are you doing here? I took the blockers."
He shrugged. "They wore off a couple minutes ago, thinkin' they probably aren't as effective anymore.”
She cursed, holstering her gun and turning away from him. "So you couldn't give me a little bit of fucking privacy then? Not a single moment alone to mourn my fucking choom? Haven't you ever lost someone before?"
"Yeah, that's why I know you shouldn't be alone right now."
There was a sincerity in his voice that she hadn't heard before, at least not in her own memories. There was something in his though, but she couldn't quite reach it.
“C'mon, I need to show you somethin’”
V furrowed her brow, but followed as the engram led her through the Columbarium to the very back.
“Alt’s niche?”
He shook his head, and pointed to the one up and to the right of it.
Robert John Linder 1988 - 2003
She racked her brain, trying to find someone by that name in his past. But she came up empty.
“Who was he?”
“That's my name- or, it was. After I deserted I changed it, I left that man behind. I saw friends die, I saw brothers die. Better men than me, men who deserved to live way more than I ever did. And they died for nothing, for a stupid fucking corpo dick measuring contest.”
"Johnny-“
“So yeah, V, I lost people. Even before Alt and fuck I think those hurt more. I know how it feels, that
survivor's guilt that fuckin' eats you alive: But I couldn't die, I knew I was meant for bigger things. I knew I was gonna fuckin' do something with my life. And so are you, V”
She couldn't meet his eyes.
“You ain't gonna die, V. We're gonna find a way to fix this"
She lifted her head, smiling slightly. "We huh?'
It was hard to tell behind his dark sunglasses, but V was pretty sure he rolled his eyes.
“Yeah, V. We. I'm with ya, to the end of the line.”
“To the end of the line.” She agreed.
#my writing#fanfiction#cyberpunk 2077#jackie welles#johnny silverhand#fem!v#johnny x v#johnny silverhand x v#johnny silverhand & v#hurt/comfort#angst#tw sui ideation#crossposted on ao3#ao3#queue#one shot
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Just gonna toss this out there, then I have to get back to my SciFi edits and the GO fanfic I'm writing (titling it "The Gift of Words" just to be mean and hint).
A lot of people keep equating Aziraphale to a warrior because he once had a flaming sword and was tasked to guard the Eastern Gate of Eden.
I'd like to dispute that, now. And this is just my take, so feel free to disagree with me, or believe whatever you wish. We're all entitled to opinions, here, and the only one that really gets the definitive say is Neil. :)
Nothing about Azi reads "warrior" to me. In fact, he flat-out REFUSES to fight when told to line up and be counted for war in S1. That's not the action of a warrior. Warriors fight. As for the whole flaming sword thing -- if you check out the Archangels, etc, in Biblical/Catholic canon, pretty much ALL of them have a flaming sword at one point or another. Doesn't mean much, for my money, other than "this is to make sure you're paying attention to me when I talk to you."
And yes, I get that he has protective vibes about certain things / beings. But protective doesn't meant warrior. We've all, at some point or another, felt the need to defend something or someone.
To me, from my first reading of the book and going straight through the end of S2, Aziraphale has always vibed Love and been more of a healer than a warrior. He even tells Maggie at the beginning of S2 that forgiveness is one of his favorite things. To forgive, you have to love. You can't hate something and forgive it (I speak from personal experience there... and it also segues another subject I'll talk about another time: what I think Azi's really saying every time he tells Crowley "I forgive you."). And Azi is unfailingly kind to people, even if he's sometimes misguided in how he does it. He gives Adam & Eve his sword, knowing it'll cause him trouble, because "it's going to get cold and dark, and she's expecting!" He watches over Job's children, even in gecko form, checking to make sure they're okay. He's absolutely broken about Jesus (listen to his tone of voice when he's talking to Crowley) being crucified -- he feels helpless to prevent it, but it's clear he wishes he could stop it. He wants Shakespeare to succeed, tries to encourage the actors on the stage, refuses Crowley's request for holy water because "it won't just discorporeate you. It'll destroy you!" He tries to save Elspeth's soul (misguided), and is gentle and kind to wee Moraig. There are countless examples of his gentleness and love for humans and occult/ethereal beings alike.
Everywhere he's given the option, he acts in a healing capacity. He doesn't dispute being called a "doctor" though he could, and the image of him clutching that jar with the young boy's tumor in to to his chest, that stricken look on his face, will be forever burned into my mind. He heals Anathema in the book and in S1.
Yes, I know the argument "but he tried to shoot a child in S1." What those people are failing to pay attention to is that it wasn't just some random kid, and he didn't even want to do it, at first. He was trying everything else he could to get out of doing it. He even tried (until the very last moment) to pawn the task off on Shadwell. The only reason he tried, instead of handing the gun to Crowley, in that last moment, was because he was no doubt trying to protect Crowley from Hell's wrath.
Would it be awesome to see Azi just lose his shit and level Heaven in S3? Umm... Yeah.
Does it feel like part of his character to me? Probably not. Not unless Crowley is in direct danger.
I have my theories. :) I'm just writing my fanfic and waiting to see if my S3 bingo card comes up a winner or not. The rest, I leave in Neil Gaiman's capable hands.
While we wait, have fun theorizing and writing, and just being a generally, amazingly unhinged fandom (meant with great love... I enjoy being part of it, and I'm every bit as unhinged. lol).
#azicrow#aziracrow#aziraphale#go2#good omens 3#good omens fandom#ineffable spouses#good omens#ineffable husbands
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Hi, I'm a big fan of your blog. I'd like some advice on a personal issue. I have a boyfriend who I love so much and he loves me too. There's just one issue. He lacks ambition. He has been jumping from one menial job to the other. When I first met him, he was in delivery business, then, now he's a taxi driver. I mean with all this, he never asks me for money and he pays for our food on most dates. He really is s great guy. I myself I am an engineer and have a stable income and I'm very ambitious. He wants to marry me but I'm worried about our future. It'll be very hard to support kids based on his income, especially if I'm on maternity leave or something, I have really tried to convince him but he doesn't want to do something about it. I am worried that this is a deal-breaker for me but we love each other so much, what do you think I should do
Hi! 💗 I absolutely am in no position to tell you what to do. This is your relationship. And matters of the heart are always so tricky. It seems like you’re unfulfilled with the relationship, and he isn’t what you want- but you love him. Ask yourself, is this fair for you or him? Can you create the life you want with him? Are you scared to leave him because he is a great guy and you’re scared you’d be making a mistake or not find another great guy? The truth is you shouldn’t have to settle. Love is not enough. Is it then fair for him that you know he’s not exactly what you want? Heck, are you who YOU want to be? Or are you holding yourself back because of him? People grow and want different things. It’s normal. It happens. It especially happens when people start dating before they have established lives. Men do it ALL the time.
I’ve dated guys who cared about me way more than I cared about them; and it was so hard to break up with them. So from that POV, I can relate. Other people will tell you to talk to him and see if he changes, or to push him (to be who you want him to be). I am not going to do that. Primarily because I disagree. You shouldn’t try to change someone or give them ultimatums. Especially when they already showed you who they are. It’s just not fair for either person.
I’ll be honest, and this is advice I would give myself in this position. It’s not a direct response to your question, but it will help addressing the issue that you are dancing around. That way you guys can just deal with this head on, instead of investing into a relationship not knowing which way it’s going to go.
If it were me, in this situation, I would buy a book like:
101 questions to ask before you get engaged
The hard questions
And go through it together. There are other books as well you can check out. But it’s definitely time to see if you guys are in a relationship with a future or if the relationship has served it’s purpose. Relationships take work. But they don’t take force. And you shouldn’t have to work hard to make the relationship work.
Good luck 💗
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The side stories ~
Under the cut ~
Stereo record - Tokiya Ichinose
❤️: ............ Mr shop owner. It's okay to keep telling the customer not to come back here? Because I guess today's human is going to come back.
💜: It's up to me how I behave in front of the customers. It's up to them to decide whether they come here or not, and we shouldn't guide them.
❤️: Well, maybe so. In exchange for "records", you pay with "life force" every time, but if you can't collect it, "inventory" will only decrease, right?
💜: It's just my selfishness and complacency. I can listen to the "sound" even if it changes its appearance. Even so, it's sad to never be able to exchange words again.
Besides...a straight, undistracted, pure soul. It is precisely because such people visit and desire to come back, beautiful sounds are produced. Yes, I'm sure she is too....
💜: oh you Sorry for not noticing. As you can see, I was just listening to the record, so if you don't mind. Let me know if there's anything you'd like to pick up.
This record? It's a nice tone that makes you feel the depth of life. If you close your eyes and listen quietly, You can feel the richness of the outside world, The complex melody strikes the heart.
I can't leave this store. That's why I'm playing these records, to learn about the world...You think I'm lying? That's how great music can be.
Ah, but you're right. Maybe I, who should be the owner of the store, have become captivated by this gramophone and records.
By the way, why are you at this store again? I told you not to come back here when I saw you off before............ is there a piece you'd really like to hear?
💜: The time spent by one person. Numerous thoughts and feelings that could not be put into words. All of them become "sound" and are engraved on a single record.
Hesitation always accompanies this act, which is named "recording". Still... "I" cannot resist the urge. It's made that way.
I want to hear your sound. That's all.
When the desire to keep something overcome doubt and hesitation, you will keep it forever.....So, give me you.
Oh, don't worry. You will have many friends. Each of the records that beautifully decorate the store is a memory of someone's life. They all sound good, don't they?
You and I can be together forever. I'll take good care of you. I just want to doze off surrounded by your sound. So, let me hear it? The music of your life.......
Monaural record - Ranmaru Kurosaki
❤️: Hello, welcome. Dear customer, This is your first time at this store. Do you like records? Or maybe you just wandered in because of the atmosphere?
I knew it. But don't worry. I will show you around from the very start. Since no one else is around I will be your escort.
By the way, I recommend this. It's a masterpiece without a doubt! .... I have my own taste, though.
Are there any jackets in the store that interest you?
Ah... Am I talking too much? I'm sorry. The owner of the store often tells me that. I really like this store. That's why I want customers to like it too. What do you think, would you like to become a regular customer? The owner is a little unfriendly, but... I'll be your exclusive partner instead. But Don't tell him, okay?
❤️: Finally, the "recording" day of our customer has arrived..... Even though the store will not go on if this is not done, I am somewhat saddened for doing it...
What I can say.... It's tempting me...
Because it is my job to record the soul of a fine human being on a vessel called a "record" and add it to the store's collection.
Well, I don't hate my job. I feel that customer service is my true calling, and this "recorder" fits in my hand as if it was made for me.
Alright. What kind of jacket will her record have? She was a pleasant person to talk to, so I'm hoping it'll (the record) be more to my liking.
Let's listen to the first sound on my favorite gramophone. I just love that moment when the needle drops.....I'm really, really looking forward to it.
#utapri#shining live#ranmaru kurosaki#translation#tokiya ichinose#The Mystical Tours - Old Time Record Edition#side story
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11, 26, 42, 50, 60 for Francine, Kane, Arnold! ty
Francine: Oh me again!? Wow!
Kane: Wait this is anonymous, how do I tell if they're hot or not? C'mon, bet you're a cutie.
Arnold: Hmm... *looks up from phone.* What the fuck do you want? I'm busy I haven't got time to answer stupid questions.
Francine: Oh C'mon Arnie, it'll be good publicity for the company.
Arnold: Will it? Fine, make it fast. I'm busy and I got shit to do!
Who’s the most important person in their life?
Francine: Arnold of course, he means the world to me and I'd be lost without him.
Kane: Right now, its my contact at city hall who is preventing an inspection of my club. Motherfucker did a good job of fobbing off the clipboard crew so far.
Arnold: What was the question? *looks up from phone again* Oh uh... Francine, obviously.
What’s one topic they could never get tired of researching or learning about?
Francine: Ooh, I think itd have to be Selvadoradan culture. Such a fascinating topic to cover there. I mean the Genesis Wars were a big deal and lasted decades. I love how they are our immediate ancestors and most modern people sprung from them. Its really fascinating to think as well that a lot of things we take for granted now sprang from them.
Kane: The centerfolds of playboy I guess? Well all jokes aside my late father left me a lot of books years ago about how to run a successful business. Pity he didn't read them as thoroughly as I did.
Arnold: Fuckin' research? I'm tired already at just hearing the question. If I had to, I'd pay some fucker to do it for me.
What’s the typical first impression after meeting this person?
Francine: Positive I hope. I try to be as polite and friendly as I can be. But I also want to be fun too. Hopefully people look at me and don't think "bitch."
Kane: Nah, that's what happens when they meet Kira Francine. I think my first impression is good, they think this guy is suave, debonair, classy, good looking well dressed, interesting, and I'm modest too.
Arnold: I think the first impression when they meet me is fear, and respect. I command, and expect both. Simple as that. Next fuckin' question come on, lets get this shit over with.
Do they have any insecurities?
Francine: Um... I think just feeling like I won't be as good a lawyer as my mom, its some big shoes to fill. I mean, she totally betrayed me but, still, big shoes. Maybe as well that Arnold might find a more pretty girl than me... I guess that's the main ones...
Kane: Insecurity? Nah. Don't do that shit. "Fake it till you make it" motherfucker.
Arnold: Yawn...! Couldn't you have asked about my favourite gun or something instead. Insecurity, right uh, Francine will leave me, but we're tight and together right babe?
Francine: Right!
What are some of their simple pleasures?
Francine: Well for me I think my simplest pleasure is a coffee and a cigarette or a nice drink and a cigarette. I know! I shouldn't smoke, and even though I only have like 10 cigs a month, I wish I never started but, since I did, yeah, I do like it. Don't smoke kids. Um, lounging about in bed on a cold day, love that. And I also like hanging out with my buddy Sarah ( @sparkiekong ) she has been a true friend to me.
Kane: For me cigarettes ain't a simple pleasure, they're a fuckin' essential item! I ain't gonna lie, since I got the club open, I love watching the girls work, I love watching the money flowing. A good bit of weed too now that's where its at. Also, most simple pleasure of all, being right when Kira is clearly wrong! Fuckin' love that.
Arnold: I'm a billionaire's son, so my simple pleasures are my Range Rover Sport SVR, my G wagon. I like my gun collection too, gives me great delight. *looks at Francine sideways a moment.* Oh and cuddling up with Franny on a cold day in that bed. Amphetamines are high on my list too. You get me? Right... this shit is done.
Grabs Francine's hand and walks off with her.
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I'm still feeling pretty anxious (absolutely terrified honestly, lol), so I think I'll make a list of pros and cons of (moving into) our new apartment.
pros:
we can get cats (!!!)
we'll have one more room, so we can have a separate office
there's a balcony (!!)
.. which is also great for the cats (I've looked at those cat nets and they seem like a good option to make it safe for them so they can't get out)
there's a garden that we could use if we wanted
the people who own the house also live there. which I've heard often isn't great, but tbh our neighbour has used our landlord as a threat so many times that I think I prefer that.
we can't see or hear the highway there. we live in a pretty quiet village now, but the highway is very close and the noise is constant when the windows are open
our kitchen is above the owners' kitchen. which means we can actually use it at night now!! at the moment I'm terrified every time I open a fucking drawer or anything like that.
I've already told them to please just immediately tell us if they don't like something we do, because I don't mind fixing something, I just don't like constantly having to worry because our neighbour just waits weeks/months to finally bring stuff up and when she does she's so fucking angry about it. like bitch we could have solved this ages ago if you had just (nicely) said something 🙄
we'll get away from our downstairs neighbour. yeah, I'm really extremely happy about that. she's made my life miserable for a year and now I don't have to be nice to her anymore 💖
the bathroom isn't a disgusting beige/green colour and it actually has storage
our old apartment is on the second floor and there's a lot of stairs (and I have problems with my feet and legs so that really sucks sometimes), the new one is on the first floor
there's a dishwasher
our washing machine will be in our apartment instead of in the basement (carrying laundry up and down all those stairs sucks, having to hang it up to dry where the neighbours can see it still feels weird to me, and I'll finally be able to do laundry myself again - here I'm too scared.)
cons
rent is a bit more expensive - but my husband's new job pays a little more so it's basically the same
we haven't signed a lease yet so I'm anxious about that. we do have a firm verbal offer though and my brother was there too so there's a witness lol. I don't know, I just need things in writing to feel safe
we might have to keep paying rent for our current apartment for three months. we haven't talked to our landlord yet - I want to wait until my husband gives the new landlord some paperwork (hopefully) tomorrow - maybe if we can find someone else who will move in earlier than that we might get out of the 3 months notice period. though I've read that landlords don't have to accept that. I don't see why she wouldn't agree to that, but I also thought she'd let us get cats, so what do I know lol
it's in a different state, which means my student bus ticket doesn't work there. though my husband will still take the bus to work, so I'll have the car and it shouldn't be a problem
it's another village that is very small and where I don't know anyone. though that doesn't really bother me that much. and I think we might get along with our new landlords, the guy is a bit strange and very talkative (and I think kind of racist... idk some things he said were weird) but the wife seems really sweet
I don't like change. I mean. I do. but it fucking terrifies me. I've only just gotten used to our apartment after a year of living here, so it sucks to have to start over. but I think in the long run it'll probably be better. it can't really be much worse.
we'll have to move all our stuff and I hate that so much. it was so much work last time. but maybe it'll be a bit easier now - before, most of my things were stored in my brother's attic, so it was much harder to figure out what we have, what we need etc. and we also had to buy a lot of furniture. that'll be easier this time
it's another attic apartment, which I really don't like. I hate sloped ceilings and especially the heat in summer. but the ceilings aren't too bad, and we did alright this summer so I think it should be okay. I think having a balcony should also make the heat a bit more tolerable
hm. I think that's pretty good overall. I'm still really stressed out about this whole thing but I just have to get through the next month. I just have to get through it. I don't have to do everything perfectly, I just need to survive. then it'll get easier again. it'll take a while, I'll feel that gross sense of 'I don't know what I'm doing here, I don't belong here, why am I here' for a while (I don't know if that's normal but that's how I feel whenever I'm staying in a place I haven't been in before. it feels very bad and terrifying.) but it'll pass. maybe it'll be better then.
I really haven't been happy here at all. I've been trying, I've done everything I could to make it better - we had just started rearranging everything and I was actually kind of pleased with how that was going. but overall I don't like it here. so yeah, I think I'm feeling cautiously optimistic (and very very scared)
#idk I have an appointment with my GP this week and I might tell her that I'm feeling very stressed#don't know if that'd help but I can try. I don't think she'd give me any more meds but maybe she would. that's not a long term solution but#like I said... I just need to get through this#and I'm not sure I can handle all of this right now... the panic is getting stronger again so idk#I've got my appointment with the psychiatrist in a month but that's not helpful right now 😣#personal#anxiety stuff
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The end of an era, or so it feels. I'm not sure what's happened or what's happening, what changed, why I feel the way I do, but something is different in my head. I don't feel like things are clicking the way they normally do. Nothing has grossly changed, but some little things are different. I feel like football doesn't hit the same way internally as before, like it's more distant. It feels like medicine has taken some of that real estate. It's interesting because love is basically boundless for me, and I thought my anchoring energy worked similarly where I could develop new anchors while maintaining the same significance.
That's the thing though, significances feel like they changed. Now, people are super significant. I'm wondering if people have maybe replaced or displaced football. Maybe my anchors are zero-sum. Is that good or bad? Who knows. I almost flipped the switch playing today and then I just didn't. Maybe subconsciously knowing the situation, I saved it. I don't know. It was weird though. I had the emotions but I processed them and they went away more than they stayed. Maybe I have better emotional processing... Or less emotions, at least related to football.
Because I still haven't released my other emotions from earlier in February. Basically I'm somewhere over 100% of my emotional capacity with an artificially inflated emotional threshold because I still need to cry, just haven't done it yet. That need to cry has been more come and go than expected, but we'll see how this next week goes.
I would like to say weekend but I'm not sure what type of weekend it will be, though I know there's one type it won't be. It won't be a culmination of friendship, it'll be a bitter reminder of how to pay more attention to communication.
I had the greatest presence of anyone I've ever met, and all signs and indications say I blew it. I said too much and that was that. Did I deserve it? I don't know what I deserve. Is it on-brand for my life? Yes, though I think this is the first time I've blown it given my breakup was mutual.
I told her I didn't deserve her, and I guess I was right. I wanted to be a great friend, I just wanted to be a positive. I had a very simple job, and I didn't do it. I guess not doing my job today is a nice summary of not doing my job in this situation. I started well and finished horribly. And now I don't know. I don't know what the emotions are towards me in either situation, but I know I failed. The pain of failing Sam hasn't really hit yet, I don't know when it will, maybe once I know she's gone. The sadness hit me already, but that's all muddied by the feelings of failure.
I feel like I've failed so much recently, and it's crazy because my school progress makes it appear that everything is moving forward well but the truth is, I haven't been doing things well. It's similar to the feelings at the end of 2023, except I had gotten so many gaps addressed to start the year that it felt like I could ride high into my new phase of life. Instead, I'm just walking, walking with the weight of my failure. At least I've been able to hold my head up this week. But I stopped riding high 2 weeks ago. I got checked and I was humbled. I don't really know if I can even apologize properly for what happened, or if it even matters. I guess it's just another part of my heart permanently reserved for someone who may never update that reservation again. Unfortunately, this is the first time but it would be great if it was the last, because losing people on my heart is painful. It's not a quick pain, it's a slow burn that is really hard to put out because you give them so much time as a cushion. I guess one day, she could write back, but I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't. It's her right and I'm just a guy she met less than 7 weeks ago.
That was a lot and I could do more self-criticism but I think the point is clear. The thing that could be replacing/displacing football is about to change my life. 2 weeks of waiting isn't anxiety-inducing to me, but it does feel like a waste of 2 weeks. At least SOAP could be next week but I digress. The next time I'm taking care of kids, I'll be their actual doctor I guess. The idea of doctor, or any position for me, has never been daunting really. I know what I'm there to do and I'll do it to the best of my ability. I got to schedule for a non-Sabbath graduation both for Dad and for me. I just like clean Sabbaths tbh. Will not walking with people suck? A bit. Is it worth the awkwardness? Not really to me. I know my brain and Dad won't be there on a Saturday afternoon. People will show up though, I assume. I do have to be careful with assuming though, that can get you into trouble.
With Sam at least, it wasn't anything like assumptions really. It was just faith in her. Faith that she would just accept my heart offered raw. It was too much though.
Back to graduation. Idk how I'm inviting people but I just hope that special people can be there. Part of me wonders how big that list will get, cause my heart only grows with that list it seems. I just want to get on to the next part of life though. I've been here just kinda passing time and I want to change lives now.
Romantically, idk man. I can be liked hypothetically. Will some girl actually like me? Feels like a hard sell. Idk, I feel like with relationships, people tell more dreams than reality. Maybe there's someone but it feels more like kind words than something to really believe.
My eyes are tired so I'm stop, but who knows? There could be part 2
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Star Ayahoshi OC Part 5
Training on Mount Sagiri ~
On the way to Mount Sagiri, Tanjiro and Star stopped by a farm
Tanjiro: Uh, excuse me. Do you mind if we take your basket along with some straw and bamboo?
Farmer: Sure, kid. Go right ahead ~
Tanjiro: Here, I'll pay you ~
Tanjiro digs in his pocket to grab some change
Farmer: Hey, don't worry about paying, kid ~
Tanjiro: No, I insist ~
Star on the other hand sighed
Star: Uh...Tanjiro, he said it was okay...
Farner: Yeah, kid, don't worry about it. The straw and bamboo is free as well
Tanjiro: Hang on, I almost got the change...
The farmer grew annoyed while Star sighed
Farmer: Come on, kid! Just take the bamboo and straw!
Tanjiro: Just let me pay you!
Tanjiro slaps the change in the farmers hand, causing him to yelp in pain
Tanjiro and Star quickly picked up the basket, straw and bamboo. They both made a run for it
Star: Tanjiro, was that really necessary?
Tanjiro: I was offering to pay!
Eventually, Star and Tanjiro made it back to their cave. But instead of seeing Nezuko, she wasn't there
Tanjiro: N-Nezuko?
Star: Where is she?
Tanjiro: I-I don't know, I- she's gone!
To their surprise, Nezuko popped out from a hole that she dug up herself
Star: Ah! There she is! ~
Star gently came close to Nezuko, giving her comfort while Tanjiro thought to himself
Tanjiro: "She really hates the sun, huh?" Ah! Hang on, I have an idea! ~
Tanjiro spent a while repairing a basket that he got from the farm. Star stayed behind to comfort Nezuko
Star: "Gosh...she really does hate this new look"
Eventually Tanjiro finished the basket and came inside the cave
Tanjiro: Nezuko. Nezuko? Hey uh, do you think you can fit in here? I want to keep moving when the sun is out ~
Tanjiro held the basket in front of her with a smile
Nezuko crawled from her hole and tried fitting in the basket but only fit half of her body
Star: Uh...guess not?
Tanjiro: Hm...remember when she grew uh...really big and scary?
Star: Ah, right. Do you think instead of growing bigger, she can grow smaller? Uh...that is if...demons can do that?
Tanjiro: That does sound like a good idea. Hey uh, Nezuko? Do you think you can get smaller?
Nezuko didn't say any words and stayed in her basket
Star: I don't think she wants to move...
Tanjiro: Here, let me try ~
Tanjiro cleared his voice and spoke in a cheery tone
Tanjiro: Come on, Nezuko ~ Get smaller for us ~
He said while gently patting her back
Nezuko got up and shrunk herself while falling inside the basket
Tanjiro: Wow ~ Nice job ~ I'm so proud of you, Nezuko ~
Star was shocked that she turned into a tiny version of herself. She immediately poked Nezuko's cheek
Star: You're so...cute ~ That's amazing ~
Nezuko made happy noises as Star and Tanjiro smothered her with our attention and sweet words
Tanjiro gently places a blanket over the basket and gently strapped it on his shoulders
Tanjiro: Alright, let's get going ~
Star nodded and held Tanjiro's hand as they kept walking
After a while of walking towards the mountain, a woman approaches them
Woman: Are you both heading to the mountain?
Tanjiro: We are ~
Woman: Please be careful. People have gone missing. Especially at night. Please, I advise you both to keep eachother safe...
Tanjiro: We will ~ Don't worry ~
Tanjiro gripped Star's hand as he noticed how nervous she was
As they continued walking, night fell. Nezuko came out of the basket so it'll be more easy on Tanjiro's back
Star: Look, we made it to a temple ~
Tanjiro: That's great ~ We should be fine for tonight ~
As they approached the temple, Tanjiro smelled blood all over again
Tanjiro: Blood...
Star: Blood...? ...Is...someone hurt?
Tanjiro: Somethings wrong...
Tanjiro ran towards the temple
Star: Tanjiro! Wait! Be careful!
When Tanjiro opened the doors, he froze. Not only did he see corpses but a demon eating one of them
When Star and Nezuko arrived, they were horrified. More like Star was horrified and Nezuko started salivating, seeing the bloody corpses and less worried about the demon. Star immediately held Tanjiro's hand
Star: T-Tanjiro...we should go. N-Now-
The demon lunged at Tanjiro while star ducked out the way
Star: TANJIRO!
Tanjiro immediately used his hatchet and slashed the demons neck but he only regenerated quickly
Star ran towards the demon but only got hit, causing her to fall to the ground
Tanjiro: Star-!
The demon suddenly grabbed Tanjiro who was too slow to react
As for Nezuko who was still salivating from the dead corpses. She heard both Tanjiro and Star's cries for help
Nezuko immediately ran towards the demon and kicked off his head. She also ran to Star and helped her up
As for Tanjiro, the demons headless body rested against his to which he pushed it off. Star shivered and looked away
Star: Gross. So gross...
Tanjiro looked up at Nezuko who had a neutral expression on her face, unbothered by what she did
Tanjiro: She took off his head with just one kick?
Star: His head is somewhere. It's gross. Let's just get out of here...
Tanjiro: Right we should-
The demons body tried grabbing at Tanjiro but Nezuko kicked it, keeping him at bay. Star immediately stood by Tanjiro's side
The demons head started talking
Demon: Tch. I was right. So one of you were a demon!
The demons body pushed Nezuko away and came for Star who dragged her by the hair, away from Tanjiro
Tanjiro initially tried reaching out to help Star but the demons head grew arms and tried attacking Tanjiro again while his body batters Star and Nezuko. He ends up tossing Nezuko deep into the forest and does the same to Star as well
Tanjiro realized Star and Nezuko were being attacked. So while the demon was attached to his hatchet, he headbutted the demon with his hard skul, causing the demon to be in a daze. Tanjiro then hurls the hatchet to a tree, pinning the demon in its place. With that out of the way, he runs to help Star and and Nezuko
As Tanjiro made his way over to them by a nearby cliff, he sees the demons body still kicking and attacking them
Tanjiro: Nezuko! Star! Get away from them!
Tanjiro tackles the demon's body off the cliff. Star immediately grabbed Tanjiro's leg before he fell but Nezuko holding on to Star's leg as well so she wouldn't slip off the cliff
As for the demon's body, it landed hard on the ground. It caused the demon to go unconscious
After that disaster, Tanjiro was armed with a knife as he walked towards the unconscious demon
Tanjiro looked at his knife and then at Star and Nezuko
Star: I think we both know what you have to do...
Tanjiro nodded and turned to face the demon. He didn't move one inch. He was hesitant. His thoughts were telling him to do it but he just physically couldn't see himself killing anyone
He took long enough to the point where a man with a mask puts a hand on his shoulder
???: You cannot kill the demon with a knife...
Tanjiro then looks down at a rock and picks it up, realizing he's gonna have to crush the demon's head in. But Tanjiro remained still. He just couldn't do it.
The man catches his scent and realizes that Tanjiro is too soft and too nice to even kill demons. The demon immediately woke up and tried grabbing at Tanjiro. But at that moment, the sun rises
Star immediately took Nezuko back inside her basket and they sat in a corner where there was plenty of shade
As for the demon on the tree, the sun ended up burning him to ashes as it screamed in immense pain
Tanjiro felt relieved that the demon was gone but quickly realized that Nezuko couldn't be in the sun
Tanjiro: Nezuko!
Tanjiro ran towards the basket and felt another wave of relief washing over him as Nezuko was safe with Star
After the man buries the bodies of the people in the temple, he introduced himself
Urokodaki: My name is Sakonji Urokodaki. I believe you're the boy Giyu sent to me...
Tanjiro: Yes sir. My name is Tanjiro Kamado and I'm here with my little sister Nezuko. She's a demon but I'm doing my best to help. And I'm also here with my close friend, Star.
Urokodaki: What will you do if your sister devours someone?
Tanjiro was shocked by the question but didn't answer. Which resulted in Urokodaki slapping him
Urokodaki: You're too indecisive! If Nezuko kills, you would be forced to kill her and then yourself! That's what it means to travel with your sister who turned into a demon. You must never let Nezuko kill a human. Do I make myself clear?
Tanjiro: Yes sir, I understand.
Urokodaki: I will test you to see if you fit in the demon slayer corps. Get your friend and pick up your sister and follow me...
With that said, Tanjiro had Nezuko on his back while running with Star by his side. We were both following Urokodaki who for some reason was much faster than us?
Star: H-How old is this guy? And why is he running so fast?
Tanjiro: N-Not "why" just...HOW? I can't...keep up...
As Tanjiro was running, the basket was bouncing a lot meaning that Nezuko was a bit uncomfortable
Tanjiro: I'm sorry, Nezuko. We're almost there. Hang on.
As the sun set, Star and Tanjiro were both exhausted from running. Tanjiro especially fell to his knees since he was carrying Nezuko
Tanjiro: Did we...did we pass the test?
Urokodaki: Your test will begin now...
Tanjiro screamed in shock as he was already exhausted. But as for Star, she was confused
Star: A test?
Urokodaki: Yes. You both will be tested to see if you both fit to be part of the demon slayer corps. But you will be tested by someone different...
Before Star could answer, woman with a mask like Urokodaki's stepped in
Urokodaki: This is Hikari Hoshizawa. And she will be training you, Star. I will train Tanjiro while Nezuko stays in my hut...
Star wanted to train but didn't want to leave Tanjiro and Nezuko
Hikari: Come along now, girl.
Hikari held her hand out towards Star. She was hesitant but...she took her hand. She looked back at Tanjiro, completely unsure of this whole thing. But he looked her way with the same expression as Urokodaki took him inside with Nezuko. They were both unsure of this
As for Star, Hikari led her to the top of the mountains as night fell
As Hikari and Star made their way up the mountain, Star felt exhausted and dizzy
Star: M-Miss Hikari, why are we climbing this mountain?
Hikari looked back at star and said
Hikari: You will run down this mountain and back to my hut. If you make it back then I will continue training you...
She said as she vanished from Star's very eyes
Star was left alone in this dark forest. Tanjiro and Nezuko were on her mind to keep her spirits up
Star: If I want to be back with them two then...I have to climb down this mountain. I have to...
With that said, Star began moving
So far it was going well, it was just really steep. But as she ran, there was numerous traps as a large branch slammed into her body, causing her to cry out in pain
She tried to call out to Tanjiro and Nezuko but realized it was just her in this forest. She had to do this alone. She didn't have a choice. She sighed and picked herself up again
As Star kept running, she dodged some traps but got trapped in some
Traps such as holes she would fall in, bamboo striking her as well as tree branches or sharp objects she would fall on
While her body was all bloodied up and bruised, she still kept Tanjiro and Nezuko in her thoughts to keep her moving
Star decided to try and not dive hear first down the mountain, knowing she'll get hurt by unknown trap. So she continued moving while at the same time being wary of traps
Eventually, she made it to the hut where Hikari was staying. Star opened the door, body all bloodied, bruised beat up and on the brink of passing out
Hikari got up and stood in front of Star
Star: I....made it...
Star giving into her exhaustion, she passed out on the ground by Hikari's feet
Hikari seems somewhat impressed that Star made it while being incredibly injured. Her traps were meant to be deadly
With that, Hikari picks up Star's unconscious form and takes her inside to patch her up. Star has been accepted as Hikari's student
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So sorry for the late response but omg Manny, i miss you so much! It's just not the same without you around. But yeah i'm fine. My hours at OG have been cut to like 10 hours a week. No more Sunday morning shifts. Not that i'm complaining. Its about time i get out of the service industry game, anyway. Chris is kinda hinting he wants kids now sooooo eh...The question is, how have you been?! Is it all working out how you planned? You got a nice place to live? Give me updates! Lots of lovexxx
Brace ya'self, Ish. It's gonna be a long one.
Honestly, I'm glad you remembered who I was. I miss y'all too (you especially, you're basically like my she-bro). Sorry about your hours getting cut, I feel like that's something going on with every corporation because at my job (I'm working at Nike now, retail job, customer service), I'm lucky to get more than 12 hours a week and I need at least 30 to keep up with my expenses.
I honestly have no clue how I managed to survive this long but I've been keeping a video journal series on my YouTube to look back on just in case I forget (youtube.com/22aaa).
Chris wanting a family is great! dude making big moves, I just hope that things go well for y'all beforehand because I personally don't trust this economy but if dude wants a family, he also at least has an idea how to manage it so I just hope for the best for y'all :)
As far as quitting the service industry, you have any idea where you wanna go to next? It's a big world out there and it'll drown us if we ain't prepared.
I thought I was prepared but the first two weeks I was out here in Texas, I was sleeping in my car.
I jumped the gun with this job I thought I had set up. Looking back, it would have been smarter if I just requested to come here with vacation time, checked out some things, came back to Georgia and racked up with another tax income check.
Instead, the job I THOUGHT I was gonna get basically told me that they wasn't looking for any new workers. Thankfully, I have a cousin in Houston that was cool with me crashing at her place until I got myself together.
I ended up getting the job at Nike and jumping the gun again with this apartment (sleeping in the car during hot ass August was not the ideal situation for ya boy and I was desperate).
I got the apartment around August and been using what money I had saved up to get myself situated with this place but because I got all these bills and not so many hours, I've been on edge about how I'm gonna pay for a lotta stuff.
If worst comes to worst, I can always go back home to Louisiana, lick my wounds and try again. I'm in surprisingly good shape so I can retain this body for at least another decade before my bones start to go lol.
Positive note, I've been working out a bit more, been training to be a wrestler still. It feels good that some wrestlers know who I am enough to say "hey man, you cool" to me sometimes but dude…every time I go to a wrestling show (I help out as like an usher for seats or like a doorman or something), I just say to myself "I should BE there".
The thing is I need to be able to train for a year straight and the challenge with that is just money and time. I'm willing to do what I need to do to get myself in that action, I just ain't got the money for it as much as I like but when I CAN go train, ya boy has fun every dang time.
Hoping things are working for y'all over there, really glad you reached out. I got scared for a moment lol
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And the new law in Florida regarding transgender healthcare is illegal and unconstitutional and we're going to start help fight it and we're putting a petition together and we're going to find some lobbyists and we're going to donate money to the cause and we're going to do that for this and they're a couple more that apply to race in Florida and don't ask don't tell kind of lost too that we disagree with and roe versus Wade we just figured out that it should be upheld and not put down because of what our son was thinking you get raped only these guys they make you into papoose and it's dangerous and they're also inseminating women on purpose and tracking them so creates a fight having these clinics I'm going to start putting some fire and smoke on these things we need to really soup it up we're coming off as lame and we need to shatter them in all of them and that will help a lot and the war at Red Hill and silent Hill will be over right now I'm going to hand it off to Thor Freya great day today big success of lots of lawsuits in tons of them are paying up and send it through the court and five s*** hits Monday actually I should have been sent today they were two of them in the mail and Trump and sister stopped it along with Tommy f so they're out and there's some others involved to help them do it like mac he's also out
Bitol and Goddess Wife
Mike Brenda you're insane I want people to look at that film out my people I don't give a crap what people here think usually there against me because they're Trump I want mine to look at that tape of my friend are assaulting me and not letting me leave $30 and he's been doing for years he's repetitive old guy in other words he has absolutely no ability to adapt and that's what he's doing and that's what he is someday I'm going to get in a fight with her and he's going to get hurt and it's going to be a problem so we have to get him out of the way
Zues Hera
It's true someday he will get to fight with him and my brother keeps on saying it it'll be like grainy and we say no it won't he's going to shut you down he needs to be shut down your spaz you're an angering little kid we're going to play the film over and over and match it up to your behavior now I'll see it's the same idiot so we can throw you under the bus until you break and fall pieces and we're going to get rid of you people in the way it's a matter of fact you're going to force it through and you're going to just get your ass kicked by everybody around you
Thor Freya
Sure to get stuff and then it'll sit there this afternoon do nothing but I can't let him have stuff cuz my plan
Bha
Useless fool you are. My life is now I'm in trouble now I'm not waiting for a savior you jackass I need help now these women and stuff and some people have been putting it on the line to help me and I admire that lots of them have an angle some don't really have a great angle and do it got things to have an angle but most of the time he knows kind of weird you're a fool you lost tons of stuff the Trump taught you this gay s*** they got lost your army killed he's a goddamn idiot
Zues Hera
I certainly see something you're not willing to wait for money cuz you need it now I follow something else these people are so intolerable and can't stand them and tell me if wants you down there and this stupid idiot Trump is always doing the wrong thing I don't know what to tell you he's constantly in the way he's so wrong all the time but holy crap by this guy Tommy Trump's program to do it I'm not and you know it yeah I know but Jesus Christ 30 bucks what the hell happened 30 bucks you know if I was like you and crazy right now I go up and kidnap you in Japan like 30 trillion dollars okay that makes sense it's so what you went up there and help someone do a job so trying to get on my feet and trying to start a business instead you look terrible so I got that I heard it was me too I'm going to check this so this is terrible this is terrible who thinks it was a Chinese food place cuz he said just give me 20 bucks and I'll get Chinese food they heard he heard him say it again he went up there and it was well it's ready rice ok
He needs it in his diet and his papa knows
Mac
We have a team for me and Wayne's going to bump into them cuz they're going to be the ones to finish the shore we saw it and he said that's terrific news
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big applause to myself
went through a mental difficulty just now but feeling better now
it's been a long yet quick two months putting myself out there, worrying every second about getting judged by people
however, it's been a surprising journey
the recognitions and encouragement i received were immense -- especially the gentleman who approached and told us we did a good job making people curious about our idea, it's really a good start
the host said that he's bn waiting the entire night for our turn; the judges expressed their astonishment watching the video pitch; there's also bn great laughters throughout our Q&A section --- what have i done to deserve so much attention! it was totally INSANE
yet i still blamed myself for not doing good enough and had to call samaritan to try to get rid of the strange and uneasy feeling
i mean
i wrote the entire business proposal without any business background
i made a 3-min pitch video in 2 days with no prior video editing experience
i wrote a damn good live pitch script
although didnt fully understood what the judges said, i still answered their questions in fluent english and in front of a full house of audience
most importantly, i got to turn something that seems challenging into a viable idea
what else do you want to achieve?!
now in retrospect, was that not another kind of recognition? HUGE recognition. yes, other groups were awarded tangible prizes.. but only our group received that special treatment, that's SOMETHING
i started to feel that, after last year's dissertation presentations and this workshop, i may have greatly underestimated myself; i am actually capable of lots of things than i ever know..
i know my cptsd is really fking with my ability to feel pleasure and enjoy life
and here i thought of Richard's advice -- is that (whatever 'bad' happening) something to blame myself for, or a lesson to learn from?
yes it could be done better, yes you could have treated it more seriously; but instead of keep blaming yourself for something that no longer can be changed, why not learn from it and give yourself credits for the part that's done well?
and also, always remind yourself not to overly focus on your own but pay attention to others and genuinely cheer for them when they succeed.. it's ok to not be perfect even when in a seemingly life changing event; knowing how to feel happy for people will also make you happy (and less resentful)
that's the note for myself
give credit
take the recognition and not assume it to be the expectation that you need to meet
pay attention or engage with others, distracting yourself from imagined problems
“In the midst of every crisis, lies great opportunity” --- Albert Einstein
i'm so glad i've turned this crises into an opportunity to learn
below is the link for my video pitch, i hope it'll put a smile on your face because many have told me that's what i've made them; if it doesnt, dont have to be mad at me, it's a learning process
vimeo
well done jojo!
#accomplishments#self development#self compassion#pitch#purple mode#round of applause#a day in the life#random thoughts#what a day#purple#made my day#Vimeo
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idk if this is just me being petty—but i also have seen a LOT of writers that feel the same—but does it piss anyone else off when ppl are just like "omg tag me in the next part" bc idk...it just makes me feel like ppl see me as a writing machine. forget leaving a comment about what you liked or discussing the plot or something, how are you just assuming that there will be a second part ???
and "part 2 pls" isn't that great either, it just sounds like "oh i read this and liked it. okay now give me more !!" idk maybe i'm just being dramatic but if you enjoyed something to the point where you'd like another part, maybe try something along the lines of "i loved the part when....and it'd be cool to see......if you're willing to do another part to this" instead of just going "i need a part 2" bc then what's the point for me to do a part 2 ?? it'll just lead to you demanding part 3. idk, if you're not gonna interact with a fic, that's fine, that's up to you, but kindly stop saying things like you need another part bc it comes off as demanding
i need a well-paying job and a degree. we all need things you're not special
#tee talks#heres my 4 am rant#someone deadass commented#'tag me in the next part'#like only that.#i straight up blocked them#how TF do u know im doing another part#someone tell me if im being sensitive#moots#i need ur honest input#bc that got me raged to the max#and i need to know if i should just cool it
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A/N: So after months of teasing, Professor Jihyo is finally here. Hope you enjoy! I was originally going to schedule this to drop at midnight after seeing @ggidolsmuts posted something morning. But fuck it.
“All right that’s it for today. Make sure to study, and don’t forget you all have an essay due next week.” The cheery feminine voice at the front of the class says as the electronic bell chimes.
“Yes, Professor Jihyo.” The entire class replies in a unified voice.
The bell echoes throughout the building as the sound of shuffling papers and moving chairs fills the room. Various chatter and conversations increase in volume as students pour out of the classroom. You barely hear the PA system page for Professor Eppes overhead. As you organize the papers on your desk for the next class, you hear soft footsteps approach you. Scooching your chair out and turning to the side, you look over to see Professor Jihyo standing in front of you. Your eyes slowly trace their way up her body. The way her purple skirt clings to her voluptuous curves as her white button-up snugly cradles her massive breasts fills you with indecent thoughts. A sympathetic smile appears when your eyes finally reach her face.
“What’s going on? You haven’t been focusing that well during lectures today. If you’re going to be my TA, I need you to be better than this.” Jihyo says, her large eyes filled with concern.
“Sorry, just been distracted,” You answer, nervously rubbing the back of your neck. “I guess I didn’t sleep well last night. I’ll try to get it under control.”
“No, that isn’t it. I’ve seen you when you’re sleep deprived and this isn’t what that looks like.”
Your jaw drops slightly as you’re shocked that she’s been paying that much attention to you. Having only been her TA for a few months now, you weren’t expecting her to know you so well. Jihyo slowly kneels down in front of you. With her amazing figure hovering so close to your crotch, you feel your pants start to constrict around your growing erection. You shift slightly in your chair as you try not to stare at her body.
“I just want you to know that if you want to talk about whatever is bothering you, I’m here for you.” Jihyo gives you a compassionate smile as she softly places her hand on your thigh.
“Oh really? Thanks Professor, but I’m probably just coming down with something then, I’ll see a doctor after work.” You nervously avoid her eyes.
“Hm, you don’t look sick. Let me check if you have a fever.”
Like a cliché drama, Jihyo leans in and softly touches her forehead against yours. With her eyes closed; you can’t help but be in awe of her beauty. Shoulder length black hair perfectly frames the beautiful face you’ve spent hours staring at. Your eyes lustfully gaze over her incredible S-line before focusing on her soft lips. A mixture of thoughts race through your head as you contemplate your next move. Doing anything here is risky, any sort of action can easily backfire and end your life as you know it. The voice of reason in your head frantically tries to convince you to not do anything. Even in a normal situation, you wouldn’t have the confidence to try anything anyway.
But as you stare at the delicate features of a beautiful face you've longed for since you first saw it, your lust overpowers everything else. A surge of baseless confidence comes out of nowhere as you boldly decide to tell her the truth.
“I haven’t been able to focus because I’ve been far too distracted by that amazing body of yours Professor. The way your outfit flaunts your amazing tits, how can you possibly expect me to focus?” You stare into her eyes, trying not to show the immediate regret you feel after finishing that sentence.
Your heart pounds so hard that you can hear it in your ears as Jihyo doesn’t say anything. Two seconds of silence. Then three. Finally, she scratches the back of her head and releases a deep breath. From the apparent disappointment, reality comes crashing down around you. You can feel your life as you know it disappearing before your very eyes. Jihyo looks in your eyes as you gulp nervously.
“Well, you’re definitely not the first student to tell me that. Not even the first TA. But I don’t think I have to tell you how wildly inappropriate that is.”
It feels like an anchor is on top of your chest. Your limbs feel like lead weights as panic starts taking over your mind. How could you be so stupid? What on earth made you think that there was any way this ended well for you? Every breath becomes harder and harder to get out. As you quickly descend into a panic attack, Jihyo's calm voice reaches your ears. Her sweet voice soothes every fiber of your body.
"But I can't say I don't feel the same." Jihyo says, a whisper so soft and gentle you aren't entirely sure you heard it.
"What?" You ask, no doubt looking stupid with astonishment.
"I've noticed you staring several times now." Jihyo whispers as she leans closer to your face.
You can feel a warmth radiating across your face, but you're not sure which of you it's coming from. With her curvaceous figure so close to you, your dick stiffens in your pants again.
"You always think you can hide it. But there's no hiding that massive erection when your pants bulge so much. Even now." Jihyo whispers seductively as her hand grabs your crotch through your pants.
A surprised groan forces its way out of you. While it might be through your pants, the fact that the brunette beauty in front of you is touching your dick at all is enough to make you feel pleasure. Her hand vigorously gropes and massages your dick. Staring into your eyes, Jihyo leans in and pushes her lips back against yours. Melodies of soft moans merge as she slips her tongue past your lips.
Your tongues lustfully swirl around each other as you gently place your hands on her shoulders. The two of you fall deeper into the kiss, a cascade of moans pouring out of your mouths. As her tongue aggressively rubs and circles around your own, Jihyo wastes no time; her delicate fingers nimbly unbuckling your belt. She slowly pulls away from the kiss, giving you another seductive smile before looking down and unbuttoning your jeans.
Unzipping your pants, Jihyo releases a small gasp as your stiff cock practically jumps out of your pants. After a half second of surprise, she quickly wraps her soft fingers around your shaft. It doesn't take long for your small grunts to start up again as she begins briskly stroking up and down your cock. Suddenly, Jihyo takes her hand off your dick and looks into your eyes. With a lustful gaze, she gives her palm a long, slow lick before grasping your shaft again. Her eyes lock with yours, glowing with an intense sexual passion the entire time. Your cock throbs in her hand as her strokes gradually grow faster and harder. Knowing that you're now firmly under her control, Jihyo gives you a seductive smirk.
"I want to see your tits." You say, trying to hide your desperation for her body.
With another smirk, Jihyo pulls apart her button-up and reveals her giant pillowy breasts as the shirt slowly falls off her shoulders. Held snugly in a purple bra to match her skirt, she tucks the large cups underneath her tits. You lick your lips as you stare at her deliciously silky skin. Before you can move in and devour her stiff pink nipples, Jihyo leans in and darts her tongue back into your mouth.
Your small moans mingle as her tongue lustfully rubs against yours. Grabbing your hands, Jihyo roughly presses your hands against her chest. As soon as your palms feel the sensation of her smooth skin, you need no further instruction on what to do. Her stiff nipples press into your palms as you aggressively squeeze her tits. The soft elasticity of her perfect breasts drives your lust through the roof. Your fingers squeeze and grab all they can, glorious mounds of heavenly flesh oozing through the cracks of your fingers.
Jihyo's moans merge with your own as her tongue playfully dances inside your mouth. She reaches down and begins furiously stroking your dick again. With her palm still wet from her saliva, her hand glides up and down your shaft with ease. The friction of her brutally fast strokes combined with the natural softness of her hand makes you worry about how long you'll last. You continue fondling and groping her pillowy breasts, savoring every moment of her supple skin against your fingertips. Your tongues playfully swirl around each other as your moans blend together.
Although you could spend forever kissing Jihyo and squeezing her tits as she jerks you off; you regretfully peel your lips away from hers.
"Lord knows I don't ever want to stop this, but students will be coming in soon." You pant.
Jihyo frowns, but she knows you're right. Suddenly, her eyes light up and she gives you a devious smile. She kneels down and sits underneath the desk in front of you.
"You teach the class instead. You can say I had a personal emergency or something. It's got a closed front, so no one will see. It'll be great." She says as she pulls your chair in so you're bottom half is hidden under the desk.
Before you can firm any sort of rebuttal, Jihyo leans in and practically inhales your cock. Her warm tongue eagerly wraps around your dick. The soft caverns of her mouth drive you crazy with ecstasy. You are quickly learning that Park Jihyo has no clue what the word restraint means as she begins rapidly bobbing her head up and down on your cock. Her quiet moans and slurps are barely audible when the classroom door opens. Your heart pounds furiously in your chest as students begin slowly pouring into the room. Thankfully this is a smaller class, but it’s still 30 students that you’ll somehow have to teach while enduring the best blow job of your life.
“Professor Jihyo had to leave early today, so I’ll be taking over this class. Everything seems to be fine, but because of the suddenness of the situation, I don’t have a lot of material. So let’s take it easy today, huh?” You tell the students with a smile.
The students squirm excitedly in their seats, eager to have an easy class. Meanwhile you’re desperately trying not to show any signs of the intense pleasure you’re experiencing as Jihyo continues to suck your dick. Her soft tongue grips the underside of your shaft, making it slick with her saliva as she rapidly bobs her head up and down. The ecstasy of the most beautiful woman you know devouring your cock blurs your mind. You shuffle around papers lying on the desk, looking for something you can use as a loose lesson plan.
"So, we're supposed to be studying game theory today according to this brief lesson plan.” You say, resting your elbow on the desk.
A collective groan is exhaled from the lungs of 30 students. You smile as you know that feeling all too well. The smile also partially stems from your busty professor's soft tongue rubbing your shaft. Jihyo's warm spit slickens your dick as her tender lips glide up and down. You flinch slightly as she aggressively swirls her tongue around your tip.
"You know what. This workload will be so light that it doesn't matter much. And Professor Park will probably take the next lesson to go over it again anyway. So let’s just relax instead. As students, it's important that we get some relaxation every now and then. There's been several studies showing that play is just as important as work." You give the students a friendly smile, sitting up straighter as Jihyo starts cupping your balls.
“So what are we going to do today then?” A student in the back of the class speaks up.
“Why don’t we all just talk about stuff? You don’t have to if you want, but let’s just chat.” You reply.
“About what?”
“Whatever. Plans for the weekend, tv shows, life dreams. Whatever you guys want, I’m pretty easy.”
As soon as you finish the sentence, you immediately regret the last part. Your students all grow a mischievous twinkle in their eyes. To make matters even worse, of course this is the moment Jihyo decides to wrap her tits around your cock. You desperately try to keep your face calm as your shaft drowns in the softest heat you’ve ever experienced. As Jihyo slowly starts stroking your dick with her breasts; it doesn’t take that long for the first hyena to strike, quickly pouncing on your poor choice of words.
“So for practicality, if you were to commit a heist, would you prefer boxers or briefs?” A voice from the back shouts.
You blink in confusion, taking a few seconds to think about the absurdity and randomness of the question.
“That’s an extremely odd question. Let’s just say some things are better left to the imagination though.” You chuckle with a friendly wink.
Apparently unhappy with your answer, Jihyo intensifies her titfuck. Pushing her arms together around her chest, she squeezes her tits even tighter together. Her soft pillowy breasts completely engulf your cock. Even though you can’t see it, you can feel Jihyo looking up at you; her big eyes boring through the desk as she aggressively strokes your shaft with her tits. Not having any mercy towards your situation, Jihyo gets harder and faster with every stroke. Worried about the noise, you lightly tap her knee with your foot as a warning.
“What do you do in your free time?” Another student asks, bringing you back to the reality of the situation.
“Hm. Nothing exciting really. Outside of work and my own classes, I don’t get a lot of free time. What little I do get, I usually spend watching tv shows.”
“Do you know if Professor Pierce is dating anyone?” Another voice shouts.
“He’s uh. In a different department so I don’t know too much about him. But to my knowledge he’s got his own thing going on.” You answer with an awkward smile.
As you continue to answer the various questions from students, Jihyo gives the tip of your dick a long sensual lick. Your cock thoroughly and pleasurably sandwiched between her heavenly tits, Jihyo slowly drizzles her drool onto your tip. Her warm spit slowly pools in her soft cleavage.You give the class a friendly smile, desperately trying to control your facial expression as your dick twitches in their professor’s pillowy chest. Your elbow propped on the desk, you rest your head on your hand. Just as you’re feeling the full intensity of Jihyo’s assault on your cock, the question you’ve been dreading is finally asked.
“I have a question.” An attractive student in the front row declares.
“And what might that be Miss Park Sooyoung?” You say with a forced smile.
Sooyoung gives you a smile as she leans forward on her desk. Her red hair sensually drapes over one shoulder. You struggle to maintain eye contact as the way she’s leaning gives you a straight view directly to her cleavage. While nowhere near as stacked as Jihyo, Sooyoung's breasts are decently sized in their own right.
"If you're as easy as you say you are, are you seeing anybody right now?" Sooyoung asks with a devilish smile.
As you briefly consider how to respond, Jihyo takes your tip into her mouth. Between your cock being buried in her pillowy breasts and the warm saliva drowning your tip, you clench your jaw; desperately trying not to let a single ounce of this pleasure show on your face. Jihyo quickly swirls her tongue around your tip, rubbing and massaging all around it.
"No I am not currently seeing anyone." You respond with a friendly smile.
The combination of Jihyo's pillowy breasts surrounding your shaft and her tongue's brutal attack on your tip, you know that it won't be too much longer until you reach your limit. You try to stifle a groan as her soft tongue swirls messily around your tip. This is without a doubt the sloppiest, most amazing blowjob you've received in your life, and it's absolutely killing you that you can't react to it. Her soft tits rapidly stroke up and down your shaft as she silently slurps on your cock. You're honestly impressed with how little noise Jihyo is making while giving you such intense pleasure.
"Would you like to be?" Sooyoung asks, not bothering to hide the seduction in her voice from the classroom full of students.
Hushed whispers fill the room, sixty pairs of eyes all eagerly waiting for your reaction. You feign a smile, something done quite easily as Jihyo continues her violently lustful attack on your dick. Taking a breath, you release a small chuckle as you look over the class.
"As flattering as that is, Ms. Sooyoung, I'm your TA. That's extremely inappropriate." You say with a stern voice.
"That wasn't a no~." You hear another student mutter teasingly.
A plethora of excited murmurs echo throughout the room. As you decide to nip this discussion in the bud, Jihyo decides to intensify her assault on your dick. You clench your toes as Jihyo's warm drool drips and oozes all over your tip. The silken skin of her breasts tightly pushes against your cock. Your entire body tenses as your cock drowns in the erotic pleasure of her saliva and her heavenly tits.
"Actually, that was a no. Sorry.”
“I see. Well if you ever change your mind, just let me know. I’m just as easy as you are.” Sooyoung teases, her voice containing a hint of disappointment.
Seemingly jealous at Sooyoung's flirtation, Jihyo amps up her blowjob even more. Your toes clench even more as her warm tongue rapidly swirls and rubs around every part of your tip. Suddenly, Jihyo sucks so hard she practically inhales your dick, the moist chasm of her mouth violently constricting around your cock. The aggressive pleasure catches you off guard and your elbow slips off the edge of the desk; your entire body suddenly slumping with it. As a classroom full of young eyes looks at you with concern, you let out an embarrassed laugh.
"Sorry. I'm not feeling well but I thought I could force myself to get through this class." You chuckle nervously.
"Are you okay?" A student asks worriedly.
"Yes I'm fine. Just a small cold is all. But on the bright side for you guys, I'll be ending class early. Make sure to study and do the assigned work for next class."
The class continues to look at you anxiously.
"I promise, I'm fine. Now go on, get out of here. I'll be leaving shortly after. Go have a fun rest of your day." You say as you give the class a reassuring smile.
Although still uneasy, the students slowly stand up and begin to leave. You wave goodbye as the classroom gradually empties out. The last one to leave, Sooyoung lingers around the doorway. She opens her mouth as if to say something, but after a few seconds she turns around and leaves without a word.
You wait silently to make sure that nobody else is coming back into the classroom. After three eternal seconds, you quickly pull Jihyo back out from under the desk.
"Jesus, Jihyo. That was close. They could have caught us at any moment." You exclaim in a hushed voice.
"Yeah. But it felt really good, right?" Jihyo teases.
"Oh, that’s an understatement. It felt amazing."
Jihyo gives you a smug smirk as she stands in front of you. Admiring Jihyo's body, you find yourself impressed. Somehow while being cramped under the desk, she was able to strip down completely. She quickly straddles your waist, barely hovering just over your dick. Your tip twitches as it lightly brushes against the moist lips of her pussy.
Jihyo grabs your hands, forcefully pushing them onto her hips before she grabs your shoulders. Slowly caressing your hands up her sides, you can't help but be in awe at Jihyo's body. Despite the awkwardness of it, you're thankful that Sooyoung's flirting apparently triggered Jihyo's aggression in the current situation. However you're not sure why she's jealous. Because while Sooyoung is attractive, she's a girl. But Jihyo. Jihyo is a woman. A woman you can't wait to fill to the brim with your cum. As if reading your mind, Jihyo gives you a small smirk before plunging onto your cock. The searing heat of her tight cunt pulsates along your shaft, her womb excitedly meeting the tip of your dick.
"Fuck. You feel even bigger inside me." Jihyo moans as her fingernails dig into your shoulders.
Her velvety walls tightly grip your shaft and your fingers sink into her silken flesh as you squeeze her sides. Soft groans make their way out of you as you try to adjust to her lustful snatch. Your breathing slowly quickens as you still can't believe this is actually happening. That you're finally able to delight in the body you've been hungering for for months.
"We don't have forever here. The next class will start eventually. So hurry up and suck my tits while you fuck the shit out of me." Jihyo says, her blunt words snapping you out of your idle thoughts.
As if driving her point home, Jihyo starts eagerly bouncing on your cock before you can respond. The heat of her velvety cunt hungrily grips your shaft as you begin to meet her thrusts with your own. Your hands quickly travel to her breasts, the large mounds of silken flesh melting into your palms. The sensation of her pillowy chest rippling and jiggling against your fingertips quickly kicks your lust into high gear. You can’t take your eyes off her breasts as they bounce hypnotically with every slam on your cock. It doesn’t take long before your slams grow frantic, both of you desperately chasing the ecstasies of each other’s bodies.
“Oh fuck yes. That’s it baby just like this.” Jihyo moans as she aggressively bounces on your dick.
Both of you thrust into each with an animalistic lust, violently slamming yourselves against each other. Her moist cunt hungrily devours your cock, the hot walls gripping and pulling your shaft. You continue to watch in awe as Jihyo’s sizable tits heave wildly in your hands. Pleasured groans quickly find their way out of you. While you’re worried about the sound, there’s no way you can suppress the ecstasy as her soft cavern continues to eagerly constrict your dick and her milky thighs crash against your own. Apparently sick of waiting, Jihyo grabs the back of your head and forces you into her pillowy chest.
“Come on, I said suck my tits. Don’t think for a second that I don’t know that’s all you’ve ever wanted to do to them. Now hurry up, I want to feel your mouth on my nipples.” Jihyo groans.
Not wanting to risk a failing grade, you immediately comply; quickly taking the stiff tan nub into your mouth. The sweet taste of her nipple filles your mouth as you rapidly swirl your tongue around her nipple, followed by a slight hint of saltiness from her sweat. While your tongue lustfully massages and teases her nipple, your fingers quickly go to work on the other. You roll the stiff nipple in your fingertips, pinching and pulling it as you gently take the other one between your teeth.
"Fuck, just like that. You're so good at this babe." Jihyo moans, running her slim fingers through your hair as she rolls her hips on your cock.
"Well I would hope so, with how many times I've imagined doing this." You groan, your voice muffled by the nipple still in your mouth.
Jihyo pushes your face into her chest even more, her silken skin smothering your face. Your fingers sinking into her heavenly flesh as you fondle and squeeze her tits. Her velvety walls tug your shaft as her body crashes against yours, both of you reaching a fast mounting ecstasy. You continue to loudly slurp and suck on her pillowy breasts, your teeth and your fingers both pulling and teasing her stiff nipples. The sweet taste of her tits continues to coat your tongue as it rapidly swirls and flicks her fleshy nubs.
As you continue to devour her tits like you’ve always dreamed of, you glance up at Jihyo to see her biting her lip; desperately trying to hold in her erotic moans. Seeing Jihyo try so hard only makes you want to make her moan more. You speed up your thrusts, your cock violently slamming in and out of her tight cunt. Her massive breasts heave wildly, the soft skin rippling against your lips as you violently squeeze them. Your aggressive thrusts continue to pierce into Jihyo’s depths. The more you lose yourself in your lust, the more you hope this isn’t a dream you’re about to wake up from.
Realizing you’ve been neglecting her other nipple, you push both of Jihyo’s pillowy tits together and lustfully force both of her nipples into your mouth. Your tongue darts across both of them, flicking and swirling around them as much as you can. Taking them between your teeth, you alternate between pulling on them and pushing your head back into them. You accelerate your slams even more, your tip pounding away at the entrance of her womb. Her tits jiggle violently against your face, your fingers aggressively squeezing and kneading every inch of her soft mounds.
You end up finding Jihyo’s spot, a high pitched squeal forcing itself past her lips as you slam your dick into her depths. Armed with your new knowledge, you decide to take full advantage of it; using this opportunity to make her yours and yours alone. With relentless thrusts, you continue to attack the spot from before, your tip slamming and scraping against her velvety walls. Jihyo grips your shoulders, her fingernails digging into your skin almost to the point of drawing blood. Pleasured squeaks continue to pour out of her mouth as you aggressively piston in and out of her cunt. After several minutes of your violent thrusts, Jihyo pushes you back against the chair; her tits falling out of your mouth with an audible pop.
“Fuck, baby you’re so amazing. But you have to stop hitting that spot. I won’t be able to control myself and someone might catch us.” Jihyo moans, her voice a mix between pleasure and worry.
“I don’t fucking care.” You growl.
Without any warning, you quickly stand up; slipping your cock out of Jihyo and flipping her over so she’s now bent over the desk. You don’t waste any time, immediately slamming yourself back inside of her tight cavern. Her supple ass ripples against your body as you bury your cock all the way to the hilt. Quickly resuming your animalistic thrusts, you rapidly pound away as her hot walls devour your dick. A loud moan escapes from Jihyo as you give her ass a hard smack. The soft skin jiggles against your waist as you aggressively pierce into the deepest part of her cunt. You bend over and whisper in her ear as you roughly slap her ass again.
“You like that? You like being my little whore like this?” You groan, your hands grabbing a fistful of her heavenly ass.
“I do. I love being your little whore. Please, keep fucking me just like this.” Jihyo moans.
Listening to her lustful begging, you’re more than happy to oblige with Jihyo’s wishes. Your fingers sink into her ass, the soft skin jiggling against your fingertips as you give both cheeks an aggressive squeeze. Her velvety cunt grips your shaft, the tight walls rapidly tugging on your tip as you violently pound away inside her. As you slam your cock against her womb, you squeeze her ass so hard that your fingers leave imprints on her heavenly flesh. A shrieking moan explodes out of Jihyo’s mouth as you pry into her depths.
Without thinking, you quickly muffle her mouth with your hand. Jihyo’s moans vibrate against your fingers as you continue drilling your cock inside, piercing deeper and deeper into her heavenly cunt. Her moans deafened by your palm, the only sounds filling the classroom are your pleasured grunts and the sound of your bodies crashing against each other wildly. You give her ass one more rough slap before moving your other hand back up to her tits.
“Mmmf. Mmm, mmm mm.” Jihyo moans against your hand as she looks back at you.
“You’re the one worried about getting caught.” You hiss.
Your fingers go back to where they were before, aggressively squeezing and kneading Jihyo’s pillowy breast. Leaning over her back, you pound her cunt, violently slamming against her depths again and again. Her giant tits heave wildly, her entire body rippling and jiggling against yours. The soft flesh of her breast pours out of your fingers, her massive chest too big for your hand to handle. Deciding to do her own teasing, Jihyo licks your palm; her tongue sensually and erotically travelling all over your fingers as she takes them inside her mouth.
Every thrust sends you tumbling further and further into the depths of your ecstasy as your tip continues to breach Jihyo’s depths. Her tit continues to ripple against your hand as her sizable ass jiggles against your waist with every violent crash of your bodies. Jihyo’s warm saliva slowly trickles over your fingers as her cunt tightens around your shaft. As her hot walls clamp around your cock, you can tell she’s almost there
“Oh fuck baby. Get on your back. I want to see you as you cum on my cock.” You growl as you withdraw your throbbing dick from her cunt.
Jihyo wordlessly obeys you, quickly rolling over so she’s lying on top of the desk. With your cock slickened with her juices, you have no trouble slamming yourself back inside her. You plant your hands on the desk above her shoulders. The soft chasm of her cunt greedily grips your shaft as she wraps her legs around your waist. You lecherously admire Jihyo’s body as it crashes and ripples against you; her pillowy breasts bouncing wildly as you pound away at her cunt. Mesmerized by her massive tits jiggling from your violent slams, your balls tighten as you approach your end.
“Fuck. I’m going to cum Jihyo.” You groan.
“Go ahead. I’m. I’m almost there too. Just. Let. Just let everything out.” Jihyo manages to get out between her erotic moans.
The mounting ecstasy finally reaches its climax as Jihyo’s hot walls constrict your shaft. You pray nobody else can hear her lustful moans bounce off the walls as she grabs your wrists. Looking down, you can't help but stare as her gentle face is now contorted with lust; unable to hide her unbridled joy from being filled with your cock. Unable to get out any actual words in her moans, Jihyo meets your gaze, her eyes silently pleading for you to drown her womb with your cum.
With one last resounding slam, your tip aggressively pierces into Jihyo’s depths. A cacophony of moans fills the lecture hall. Staring at Jihyo’s face, you relish her expression; her lips quivering in pleasure as her eyes portray the overwhelming pleasure you’re both succumbing to. Her petite body trembles, her cunt hungrily constricting your shaft as you pour what feels like an unending amount of cum directly into her womb. Both of you shudder violently as one last ropey blast of semen plasters her velvety walls.
Both of you stare into each other’s eyes as your mutual orgasm slowly fades. You smile at each other as you pant and attempt to regain your breath. As you lean down, Jihyo leans up, meeting you halfway for a gentle kiss. Your lips melt together for what feels like an eternity before you both pull away. The two of you smile at each other as you both giggle softly.
“I FUCKING KNEW IT.” A voice shouts from the doorway.
Your head turns to the classroom door so fast it gives you whiplash. The two of you stare at the figure in the doorway in shock. Looking down at yours and Jihyo’s naked bodies still connected and back up at the surprise visitor, you feel the world crashing down around you. Jihyo meets your eyes and you both gulp nervously. Standing in the doorway staring at you with her arms crossed and a scowl is Park Sooyoung.
A/N: As I was writing this I felt like the smut was a little shorter than maybe I would have liked, but I hope you guys still enjoyed it. Also while writing, I realized that I wrote Joy as a student despite the fact that she's actually older than Jihyo. But it's fiction, so fuck it, whatever lol. Hope you guys enjoyed it!
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Dream's discord podcast. Basically him answering questions for 2.5 hours. This will sort of be in order but I fucked up my notes so it might not be in order completely. (From 13th May 2021)
For reference the photos at the end are: A prototype of fidget spinner merch as loads of people asked, a reference photo of his favourite merch and a photo he sent of his hair to prove he wasn't a brunette.
•He said his teeth are mostly straight but he's thought about getting Invisalign. He's never had braces. He has a tiny gap in the left side of his mouth and his canines are longer and sharper (vampire arc). He's never had teeth surgery so has his wisdom teeth still.
•He thinks pineapple on pizza is good.
•He likes seafood like lobster and crab. He had crab made in an air fryer last night. He like peas. He thinks quesadillas are good and likes most food.
•He hates Coffee and most drinks
•The Dream Shorts team is Ken who is his personal reminder (Ken's main job is to spam him with texts so he doesn't forget things as he's got a habit of reading texts and not replying) and also comes up with a list of sets for Dream shorts. The builder is a friend and munchymc builder "his talent gets wasted on Dream's shorts but we pay him so"
•His editors are currently Dizzy, Firesale and Mjcr. Willz doesn't edit for him anymore
•The mask animation isn't done but Mask should be released May 21st. He wants to release them together as "the whole song is a double meaning and the whole nuance will be lost without the animation" but no matter if the animation is done the song is getting released on the 21st.
•He and Sapnap eat together often.
•He and Sapnap prefer medium rare Steak
•He wants a home gym it's something he's willing to splurge on. They currently have a weight rack but they haven't even set it up.
•"Eat the rich? Shut up shut up" - Dream
•Talked about money basically saying "Most people don't understand how money works I don't have millions in my bank account it's in assets like merch, land and warehousing for that stuff" (He's not in his landlord arc)
•He's been debating Pride Merch because of Rainbow Capitalism. He doesn't want it too be seen as a money maker and if he does most proceeds would go to charity. He's currently super busy merch wise with Sapnap joining and George in the middle of joining. He did say "Only if the LGBTQ+ community in this community wants it" He thinks he's going to at least change the merch website to a pride one. Sapnap wants to make pride merch including a rainbow flame on his.
•He wants to create a charity that's centered around helping LGBTQ+ one day because he thinks that there's a lack of them. He mentioned that creating a charity was expensive and took a lot and was a complicated process including a board of directors but he wants to do it someday.
•He wanted to buy a bunch of houses in Florida which was a service to house mostly LGBTQ+ youth and people stuck in abusive households for free to get them out of bad home environments. But he didn't because he didn't want people thinking he was profiting of of abuse victims and LGBTQ+ community.
•He said he's terrible with time management and replying to people which is why Ken helps him (and also helps George and Sapnap). He mentioned how Sam messaged multiple times and Dream just forgot to answer but felt bad "I feel like people think I hate them..... Cause I'd be mad if people did that to me"
•He tries to reply to a few texts a day (community number). He also can't do birthday messages everyday because you can only reply at certain times so it's not abusing the system so if you get one it's special. He said he does try but it's got a weird time gap.
•Him and the manhunt winner are trying to come up with a good time to film
•He wants to stream this MCC on twitch and says his team is good.
•He talks about why he's not partnered with Twitch. Basically Twitch has a lock rate (in which you make money) and you legally can't stream on YouTube. So legally if Tommy wanted to stream on YouTube he couldn't. Someone then mentioned how Bad is a twitch partner but still streams on YouTube "Bad streams on YouTube but he has for a while and I don't think that he cares" - Dream
•He likes to reply to every donation he gets on stream and feels bad when he doesn't so he'll turn them off when he streams and wants a platform deal where he can be payed to stream (not twitch). If he gets a streaming partnership he will stream a couple of times a week. He looked in to Facebook but they don't have an alias system meaning you can see everyone's actual Facebook account and personal info, he doesn't like seeing real names on Facebook so it would require a lot of altering if he was to stream there so he's thinking it's probably going to be YouTube.
•He was asked about if his demographic was what he expected and he said he went in with no expectations, he didn't even know what stans were, wasn't really on social media so he wasn't aware of the fan culture. "You guys are a handful sometimes but it's worth it"
•He also mentioned how he and the DreamSMP changed the twitch audience demographic. It used to be male dominated in both streamers and audience and now it's almost split which is unheard on.
•He has 5 fidget spinners in his house. Two in his bedroom. Two in his office. One in the living room.
•He likes his Minecraft skin as he thinks the arm is cook and you never see the rest of his skin really. He says it's unique and different and "me". Dream: You can't even tell half the skins apart on MC.
•He's not lost the motivation to stream. Most of the times if he wants to stream he gets George or Sapnap to do it and he just turns up. It's more beneficial to them as they have donos and subs on. (Don't we fucking know it "can you say hi to")
•He has listened to Lovejoy. Says the ep was great and they're very talented and awesome. Doesn't know what his favourite song is but probably would pick One Day because the chorus slaps.
•RIP to acoustic Roadtrip. He said instead of acoustic Roadtrip we get Mask so no losses today for Dream stans.
•"With Roadtrip I went to Parker and I said Hey I have a story I want to tell through music. I have no experience with that can you help me" He said sure. He crafted the music and melodies and how things are formed where it's catchy. I have less comfort singing that. I love the song and it's my song, it's very representative of me and I'm sure I could sing it but it's a song I'd be kinds of scared to sing live, with Mask I basically did everything. I sat there the entire time and maybe an hour out if the 100 I wasn't in the call. Dream came up with the lyrics and main melody for Mask (First one he's ever come up with) "That was just notes in my fucking voice memos"
•The clip we heard of Mask was a prechorus not the actual chorus. He thinks he'd be more comfortable to do a mask acoustic and it's more melodic than Roadtrip. The chorus also has a lot of instruments similar to Roadtrip. Mask starts of slow and guitar with minimal reverb and is more raw.
• He doesn't want music to be his main thing. It's something fun to do and he's passionate about it as it's a way to express emotions. He wants to release mask then go from there. He wants to release at least one more song but has nothing on his mind currently. His two ideas were Roadtrip and Mask.
•He wouldn't quit his job to become a pizza delivery man.
•His favourite features on himself are eyes or freckles and he also confirmed that he does have eyebrows.
•He was told that Parkour warrior would be bought back some time in the near future and he got excited for it. "Even if I don't win, which I will, it'll be fun"
•Went on about his MCC team but I'm not going to put that in as we should be getting them today. He did say he wasn't on Pink but he did sound confused. (For reference he's always in Pink as it's the last team announced and keeps the hype up by announcing the biggest streamer last)
•Said he and his mum had the Mr Beast burger. He recommends because he likes the avacado. He mentioned how Mr Beast uses "Ghost Kitchens" which is basically where he gives restaurants permission to cook his food so it's restaurant quality food.
•His favourite piece of merch is the circle smile. (The pool photo on Instagram). He said the quality was bad (he worked with a different company and didn't have his own company) and it was elasticy feeling and he's planning on re-releasing it again but with good quality.
•He's started to send merch out in custom packaging. So his bags have the smile and will mostly be green. Sapnap's has the flame and is either black or white. He's also trying to make it so every order has the sticker packs for both him and Sapnap.
•He loves the coins as it's cheaper than a hoodie but still celebrates the milestones and will last a long time. He mentioned how the old coins are getting removed off the site and how if you have any of the coins your special because only a few thousand get made. He's kept around 100 of each coin that he wants to give away in person.
•He wanted to have a cool store where you could access computers that give you access to the DreamSMP in spectator mode. But it's too costly and would require too much time and isn't safe fight now. He doesn't think it'd be worth it financially.
•Most of the hoodie are black instead of multiple colours because of limited supply and covid. Getting the colours are harder because if the pandemic which hopefully won't be an issue soon.
•He wants to do a short meetup tour with Sapnap and George with a few locations in the US (and if others nearby want to join like Quackity or Karl they can). He also wants to visit Australia, UK, Canada, Mexico and Philippines and do something like that there but definitely at least visit with George and Sapnap.
•He's never been to the Philippines but his mum has. He wants to set up a place in the Philippines where he can ship merch in bulk and it would help to reduce shipping. However it would probably be big milestone merch.
•He's not got the vaccine yet but will get it when he needs to. He doesn't leave the house so he doesn't see the point.
•He's the ideas man. George's footcam video was Dream's idea. The T-shirt video was Dream's idea. Most if not all of the Dream Team's videos are Dream's ideas.
•Said he's got a similar/the same hair colour as Froy (Dream buddy at this point the only difference between you and Froy is that one of you is dating Richard Madden /lh)
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welcome to the day a duck ruins your perception of items in genshin impact.
i uh. made some items in genshin impact as yandere boys and what they're like sort of??
you could try and burn your eyes now.
;)
adepti seekers stove- he's going to be a tsundere no buts or uhts. he's the type of yandere that's trying to be protective and failing miserably everytime. so being impatient and angsty. so, he resorts in kidnapping you instead. but hey look on the bright side! even when you're kidnapped you can have delicious meals and snacks! secretly likes to cook for you a lot, but he won't admit it even in death. just don't question why there's a lingering scent of sleeping potions in your meal and you'll be good as jolly jee! probably wants you to help him in the kitchen, since he once heard that couples do that. would probably give you self esteem issues down the line. "didn't i tell you to not get hurt? are you that much of an idiot?? here. have this it'll lessen the pain just a bit so we can walk back home. just drink it already."
windsong lyre- smug bastard, smug shit. he's probably a player or just overly dramatic with everything. maybe he's righteous or something.. likes to show off his music skills a lot. he sucks at it tho. gaslights you probably in public places to add more pressure, because people are staring like you're having a performance or something. calls you love even if he's pissed at you for not listening to him, or accusing him of being toxic or suspecting him of being your stalker that always watches you from your window at 2am! would make you paranoid a lot. loves kissing your cheek and tickling you. he's a closeted pervert. you're gonna have to move in an isolated place too, he will spread rumours of you being his lover. "love, I'm sure that you're just overreacting. plus even if i was the stalker that you're talking about I wouldn't be oh so casually talking to you in public when I could've been hiding! jeez it's like your going crazy."
wind-blessed harpastrum- such sweety! just so wholesome bakes you a pie in tuesday sweet. seems patient too but beware he will break your legs when you get a little bit too bratty for his tastes. touch starved too and it shows, that's why he loves to cuddle you lots! really obsessed with what you think of him. if you say you hate him he'll tear up and try to convince you that he's good, but if you pretend that you like him he'll shower you with uncomfortable affection and confessions. really great at making bombs and torture weapons too. probably sewed in a bomb inside your body threatened that he will kill you with it if you leave. bad at darts and archery. if you say that to him he'll laugh and take out his diploma saying that he's too smart for those childish games. he's impulsive in decision making. "haha. you know. you almost escaped from me back there. but hey! now you won't do anything stupid like that ever again if you can't walk."
windblume balloon: listen man. im going to be killed but he's an airhead, pun intended right there. probably lowkey manipulative and doesn't even know it yet or chooses to ignore it. protective of you a lot. really delusional to the point that he rationalizes your escape as someone kidnapping you. so say goodbye to whoever poor stranger who was trying to help you escape they'll be greeted by an arrow through their head once he finds you. has a habit of holding your hand because he's afraid you might disappear from his line of sight and leave him all alone. if you let go tho he'll gorilla grip your hand, might crush it too. just very overprotective. he also doesn't know that he's an airhead. yeah."hm? why do i like holding you hand..? i just like it.. your hand makes me feel... uh. safe..? is that the word for it? ah. it was the word loved."
wind catcher- he's a full on sadist. throw all of your escape plans out the window, this guy will climb a mountain and ride any wind current available to catch and torture you. persistently trying to make you like him atleast a bit. yeah, he's that kind of delusional. would teasingly push you
of a cliff as a 'light' punishment. dark humour and likes to joke about killing you from time to time. note: he can kill you. and he would also do it by ripping you in half with the wind current so just stay in his house and be a good lover that'll shower him in kisses, okay? okay. he mostly sees you as a tool of interest, but not just any tool- you're his favourite tool. "pfft! hey stop crying now! you're making me feel bad! hm? oh? why am i doing this? well i mean maybe I'm angry that someone was trying to escape. again."
warming bottle- he will absolutely leave you in the cold if you were being a brat towards him. lives in dragonspine to spite you, also because he can just turn take away your blankets and anything that can give warmth so you gotta ask him to cuddle you to survive. he usually does this when he's feeling a little petty. which is so frequent. that you can almost give it a schedule. but don't tell him that. kind of a tsundere but only when it comes to physical affection since he's shy. that's why he has to take away your blankets so it looks like he's just mocking you but not because he's touch starved. he's not at home that much too but don't worry, he will make it up to you by uh.. physical activities.. "what? you're freezing? no shit we're in dragonspine. oh? you want me to hug you..? hm. fine. I'll indulge you for a bit. I am quite merciful."
parametric transformer- businessman that scams you a lot lol. he's going to be a masochist because i said so, yeah i know the electric stone thing gag that's why i made him a masochist. really likes to collect useless stuff and spoiling you, so expect your room to be filled with a lot of random things from jewelry to mushrooms and crabs. has a you should be grateful i even give stuff mindset. thinks that giving someone something of vaue would make them fall in love with him instantly. also probably loves it when you fight back especially when you successfully land a hit on him, he will enjoy it. but be careful he has different responses whenever you hit him. pick your poison. spends a ton of resources on everything to keep you in line. that rope costed him 700 pinecones. "why do you even wanna escape? i give you a ton of stuff so you won't get bored! hah. maybe if i had picked up someone else they would've been grateful."
portable waypoint- throw out your escape plans the season sequel. he's very quiet but has a small temper that won't last that much. maybe he's like that since he tries so hard to repress it. listen he's trying okay? escape always fails so quickly. one minute you're in springvale shouting, crying, begging for anyone to help you and then back to his house to see him sipping some tea. his punishments are cruel too- he makes sure to leave you in a den of monsters and ruin guards, waits until your in the brink of death and teleports you back to him. has a superiority complex over everyone too. probably likes to make you feel weak when you have to rely on him. loves to crush your self esteem. wants to be affectionate but thinks that you, as an inferior being, should be affectionate with him instead. so tsun. "see? this is what i was trying to tell you. you're too weak to actually survive out there. you even had to rely on me to save you. pathetic."
memento lens- mysterious and elegant. he's quite cryptic to say the least. likes to watch you from a far if he's feeling a bit angsty. you try to make sense of what he says and it just leads to you being confused even more. and he likes that about you. you actually try to understand him, even if what you guess is wrong. you're going to have a tough time with this guy if you wanna escape. just avoid any fox statues and you'll be good. the problem is the shrine maidens. they basically want the two of you to end up together so they don't have to deal with him. he's actually very gentle with you punishments still suck but atleast he doesn't do it physically, he just makes you write that you're sorry over and over until your wrist are tired. loves poetry and solving puzzles, riddles, scriptures. he's
smart but soft. "spring blossoms even in the darkest depths of uncertainty, is that why you have the courage to try and escape me..?"
kamera- perfectionist stalker. wants to make sure that the photos he takes of you are perfect to every extent. colour, lighting, and expressions. even if it means going inside your room and having the possibility of waking you up from your sleep. likes to take pictures of everything too. kind of like this; both of you are walking somewhere and he stops to take a picture of a sunset. he takes twenty minutes trying to find the correct angle. but the sun is already gone so he sulks. maybe- you can cheer him up by volunteering to be his model? you'll do that? right? also worships you like a god so if someone dared to even say something breath near you or celestia forbid insult you, best to say they'll be quickly disposed of by blackmail and fake shit. would not steal any of your belongings, he would just take pictures of it. so he's not that bad. "i consider everything in this world is beautiful, but you have surpassed that. so that is why im keeping you here. no one deserves even a glimpse of you!"
waverider toolbox- he's such a gentlemen and a sweetheart. always there to help you with repairs, sometimes he'd add some updates to it too. just ignore the stuff going missing inside your boat thing. he probably guilt-gaslight you into staying with him in his waverider then bam your in an island stranded. ahaha, now both of you just have to survive by working together ya know? like a loving couple likes hugs and physical affection a lot! bonus points if it's given when he's tired from doing his job. as i said tired guy so appreciates all the things you do for him whether it's paying for his meal or giving him a gift. next time, he'll make sure that you won't leave the island permanently. thinks that stranded island equals date smh. " ahh? oh! is this for me? really? thank you.. i don't usually receive gifts but that just makes this even more special! say, do you wanna go on a trip? i just fixed the waverider from last time."
red feather fan- mischievous little shit. likes to scare you a lot by appearing on trees and just jumping on you. knows that you're trying to escape but pretends not to since he likes to try and guess which direction you would run to. hugs you a lot even before he kidnaps you really touchy even if you say no he'll use the good ol puppy eyes! doesn't work? okay he'll just smell your clothes when you're sleeping as compensation. he likes to flirt with you a lot. some pickup are cheesy.. but others are a little- personal? acts cool by making a dramatic entrance everytime even. you know those radical superhero landing stuff? that's him. he would build a nest as your house even being a dick and placing it on top of a mountain, goodluck on trying to get down. "caught you! going to the shore was so predictable by the way. maybe you should try a different place next time, dear? hm? maybe a restaurant so we can have date? sounds great right?"
serenitea pot- unhinged malewife that wants to make a the perfect living space for you- ehem. probably a perfectionist if you squint hard enough. he's delusional but just a little lucid about the stuff he does to you. likes to make a ton of furniture too! personalized the room you're trapped in with a ton of valuable and expensive materials. just don't try to escape he'll cut your limbs off just like a damn tree shawtie. owns a shit ton of pets ranging from boars to cats. all of them are like bodyguards to you during your stay. dreams about having a peaceful life with you in the realm someday, sigh. he sometimes has burnouts where he just places a bunch of furniture on a single room and call it a day. "and here is your room! do.. do you like it? i made it just for you! i didn't know what wood you would prefer so i just settled on whatever i can find! ahaha. we're kind of like a married couple living together now... right?"
nre menu- he's probably going to be from the adventurers guild. really awkward and shy. takes for him a long time to
open up to you. when going on quests he's the one in charge of carrying the food and healing shit you need. really patient and nice! slightly uh mean with other people trying to talk to you but other than that everything is normal. everything is normal the long loving gaze he gives you every now and then and some food being left on your doorstep. yeah let's not question it i mean he's just so shy! he would never do anything wrong? right?? he's a closeted pervert, cliche i know but he's a pervert with a line to not cross. he just checks you out. good for him. would cry if given any ounce of affection. sweet baby. "t-that was a tough commission.. oh u-uh.. do you need some food to replenish your energy? we need to do the other commissions you know.. hm? why aren't you eating it.. something wrong with the food..?"
seelies- spoiled. that's the word to describe him. really straight forward with his courting kind of dumb? but he's so damn lucky for some unknown reason that your plans to avoid him always fail. yeah the high quality rope you just bought for 1000 mora? it broke and you fell into his arms. he's probably rich by sheer dumb luck too. finds a ton treasure chests even in the places you didn't expect. people pressure you into spending time with him. since he's just so cute! how could say no to such a face? it really feels like the gods are on his side ya know? he throws a lot of very very aggressive tantrums if you're not with him. thinks he's doing a good job at courting you, with rationalize rejection as a playing hard to get. "tada! look i got you this crystal i found while i was walking! it looks like a diamond and it has a ton of colours too?? is it valuable?? would you kiss me if i give it to you??"
endora- majestic, regal, and likes to explore a lot. he uh. probably trapped you in a bubble once or twice too. really curious about his surroundings, also has no personal space since it's first time going out. he would cuddle you when he feels like it homie. kidnapped you and made you his tour guide. don't try to fool him he learns quickly about stuff. fast swimmer, so no joining any expeditions in water if you don't want their ship to be wrecked by a mysterious being of the teyvat seas. he likes to see you cry. it's not a kink he just feels connected to you when you cry. doesn't have a house so you just live in a run down boat. he's doesn't know when you're lying to him sometimes. god complex bastard. "this world. at first i wasn't sure if i was going to like it or not, but ever since I've met you... I've grown to tolerate some parts.. so you should be thankful, you've convinced me. mortal."
intertwined fate/older twin- listen. he's just so smug about everything he does. and he knows you love him. probably invites you out on dinner only for him to not show up. so basically he's an asshole without a doubt. toxic boyfriend that gives you false hope and has a ton of admirers. you probably think he won't settle for you right? ah, he's not that cruel. so picks you as his lover out of all the billions of people. you should be grateful! he even kidnapped you! do you know how hard it was for him to go all the way from his home to yours? anyways yeah. asshole. he likes to do the open the door for darling trick where he just gives you a small crack on the door and watch you make a decision. it's an act of your loyalty. if you escape he'll make you feel pain. if you don't then he'll reward your patience. god complex bastard 2."sigh. did you try to escape? again? patience is the key to everything you know. maybe you should learn that. i expected more smart from you."
acquaint fate/younger twin- cinnamonroll he's such a sweet guy. he's always there for you when you need him. okay- he has a nice guy complex, fucking damn it. probably uses the but I've been there for you since the start trick unintentionally a lot. he just doesn't know he wants some action, so be thankful that he didn't just jump on you like a barbarian. he's kind of contradicting himself too. one hand he wants you to love him, on the other hand he doesn't
believe he deserves you. loves to give you the same things, remember that one painting you liked from two years ago? he got you that. quantity beats quality. surprisingly, he's really patient but would have bursts of anger every now and then. has a self value issues?? yeah, but did i tell you he's a touch starved guy. punshments are just him softly lecturing you about what's good and what's wrong."i always viewed myself as inferior, that i didn't deserve anything.. but this time. i want to be greedy just once."
that's it- :'D i haven't proofread this but here you go mer! ill probably continue with more humanisations of items in genshin later.. if you ask why i ruined your day with this crazy idea i was watching that one video of a person humanising social media and got this idea.
also i discovered how to bold out texts... i have power..ejwjdhshaj
so yeah have a great day! -🦆anon
I AM IN AWE?!?! WHOA OMG!!!!! 🦆, THIS IS FANTASTIC!! AAAAAA (≧∀≦)
All of the various characterizations… *chef’s kiss* It’s literally so good! With each one I read I kept thinking okay this guy is my favorite and then I would read the next description and my heart was stolen again. I can’t pick a favorite now. T_T
#chit chat#yandere#🦆 anon#meraki faves#YOU HOLD SO MUCH POWER#AND YOUR BRAIN IS IMMENSELY GALAXY#BECAUSE WOW OMG I AM IN LOVE WITH THE CHARACTERIZATIONS
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