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olyaprazdn · 1 year

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Hi everyone!

i haven’t written in this blog soooo long. I had to treat my mental diseases. i treated them in a psycho-neurological dispensary. but i wanna go on diet, bc i gain weight. i’m 85 kg now and i hate myself.

and i have news- i got a job. i’m working barista now and i’m making some cute things on coffee (pic 1-3)

and i got dog!!!! her name is Nino and she is miniature bull terrier! (pic 4-5 and video) she soooo cute.

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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i binged yesterday and today. i hate myself. i wanna die😭😭😭😭

why am i so weak😭😭😭😭

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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🖤Hi!!!!🖤

i don’t post yesterday bc i purged and feel myself disgusting.

today was awesome!!!! I met my sister's dog, her name is Nino and she soooo cutie 😭❤️

🖤meal plan (29.04.2022)🖤

🖤breakfast🖤

onigiri with eel (120 g) — 172 kcal

onigiri with salmon (120 g) — 174 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

🖤lunch🖤

egg — 110 kcal

boiled beef tongue (30 g) — 70 kcal

🖤dinner🖤

onigiri with eel (120 g) — 172 kcal

onigiri with salmon (120 g) — 174 kcal

🖤total: 887 kcal🖤

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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🖤Hi!!!!🖤

i don’t post yesterday bc i purged and feel myself disgusting.

today was awesome!!!! I met my sister's dog, her name is Nino and she soooo cutie 😭❤️

🖤meal plan (29.04.2022)🖤

🖤breakfast🖤

onigiri with eel (120 g) — 172 kcal

onigiri with salmon (120 g) — 174 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

🖤lunch🖤

egg — 110 kcal

boiled beef tongue (30 g) — 70 kcal

🖤dinner🖤

onigiri with eel (120 g) — 172 kcal

onigiri with salmon (120 g) — 174 kcal

🖤total: 887 kcal🖤

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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i’m binged :(

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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💚good evening!💚

💚meal plan(26.04.2022)💚

today i was working. i finished all sorts of things before exams. I'm terribly tired.

💚breakfast💚

baby puree with buckwheat and apples (200 g) — 140 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

💚lunch💚

baby puree with three types of cereals (200 g) — 136 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

💚dinner💚

onigiri with tuna (100 g) —170 kcal

onigiri with mushrooms (100 g) — 162 kcal

egg- 155 kcal

💚total: 789 kcal💚

💚burned: 317,8 kcal💚

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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HIIII!!!!^ - ^

💜meal plan (25.04.2022)💜

💜breakfast💜

onigiri with tuna (100 g) —170 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

💜lunch💜

cream cheese soup (500 g) — 373,5 kcal

💜dinner💜

cream cheese soup (500 g) — 373,5 kcal

egg- 155 kcal

💜total: 1 072 kcal💜

💜burned: 339,7 kcal💜

im soooo tired. today i was working on my thesis with my father. this was hard. he constantly watches russian propaganda and it makes me angry.

the soup was very tasty, but I understand that I overate. I hope I don't eat so much anymore. although who am I lying to?))))

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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My meal plan (24.04.2022)

💗breakfast💗

half an egg — 77,5 kcal

bueno white (2 pieces) — 222 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

💗lunch💗

egg —155 kcal

Monster Energy ultra Sunrise (0,449 ml) — 15 kcal

💖dinner💗

cheesecake with mango (60 g)— 120 kcal

pita (30 g)— 121 kcal

💗total: 760,5 kcal💗

that was easy.

tomorrow i’m going to work with my father. I have to start the practical part of my diploma. I really don't want to, bc a lot of greasy food at work. but I have to. :(

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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idk why but i feel very good. i didn't do anything today. just lay on the bed and watched videos. （╹◡╹）

i ate cheesecake with mango. per 100 grams 200 kcal (i ate 80 grams). this was delicious.

I'll post what I ate today soon.

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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Hi everyone! 🥺

i haven't written in my blog for a long time, i’m sorry :( i had long depressive episode. it all started with a load at the university, then the war started. I feel very strong guilt and sadness for the government of my country.

i recently started taking pills for depression again. This pills blunt hunger and i decided to try blogging about weight loss again.

during the time that I was not online, I developed compulsive overeating and bulimia very strongly. I hope the blog will help me somehow deal with this.

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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I will never puke again

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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good evening!!!!~ :3

I worked a lot and I'm very tired. there was nothing interesting today.

breakfast:

apple (150 g) — 72 kcal

burn without sugar (449 ml) — 9 kcal

monster without sugar (449 ml) — 13 kcal

lunch:

lavender choux filled with cream (100 g) — 294 kcal

dinner:

rice (100 g) — 139 kcal

russian salad “Lecho” (100 g) — 52 kcal

pickles (45 g) — 9 kcal

TOTAL: 588 kcal

BURNED: 602,7 kcal

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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Hi everyone!!!! :3

i haven’t written for two days. (i’m very sorry about it). i needed to be alone with my thoughts and maybe I felt bad because my period was about to go. anyway i’m better now. (*^▽^*)

i was working today. it was necessary to make a prosthesis for a student, because she did not have time for study. earned about 2000 rubles (~27 dollars). and my boyfriend was finally hired!!!! i’m so happy for him (*≧∀≦*)

I didn't count calories today, but i think i ate on 800 kcal. weighed yesterday and my cw is 61,9 kg.

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olyaprazdn · 2 years

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good evening!

there will be no meal-report today.

i was taking a break from studying today. i realized that i shouldn't be constantly nervous about this. from today I will try to study at my own pace, not study to close the deadline, bc I no longer have the strength for this. now i need to accumulate strength to graduate and then go to psychotherapy. it aggravates my condition very much and my ed. I have a general deterioration in my entire mental state now. lately I've been having thoughts that I need to start using drugs again. sorry.

I can not take it anymore. sorry if you don't like reading anything other than ana-motivation.

i’m sorry about it.

it's very hard for me now. i really want to start treatment, but my study and treatment schedule doesn’t match.

I'm sorry that I can't live up to your expectations.

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