i am in this constant battle of getting help or just living without it until i get the courage to kill myself.

Lit my mother just got mad at me and now don't want to talk to me anymore because I got mad at her cause she fatshamed me... She was upset cause I didn't respected her but she literally was making fun of me...

At least she gave me a new reason to ⭐ve :))

I love seeing people use tumblr as their personal diaries, like I have no idea who you're talking abt but I will hate them with you. 🤞🏻

TW BINGE EATING, STRESS EATING, LOW RESTRICTION AND BODY IMAGE

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Today was one of my worst days, it started well but everything fucked up when my mom bought KFC for dinner. I HATE my lack of willpower, I could have avoid overeating but I didn't, I just sat and ate over my limit and nos I feel terrible, I really feel like a MONSTER (I'm sorry if this might be offensive, I just want to express how I feel in my own body). Today was a total failure so I have to be better tomorrow. I was thinking about doing a liquid fasting or just fasting, only if I get really hungry and dizzy I can eat something small (less than 500 kcal), tomorrow is my intense workout day so that may help too. I will se ya tomorrow,

Take care ♡♡

Soooo

Today I ate 729 kcals

I didn't had breakfast so I ended up eating until 18:00 o'clock, so, this day was a total success:)).

26/01/23

Breakfast

• Sandwich light 210 kcal

•Chips 258 kcal

•Enchiladas verdes 525 kcal

Total: 993 kcal

See ya!!

Hiiii, soooo... I have been pretty disconnected since last year and my profile has been quite dead so, I wanted to come back with something, just that I wasn't sure with what.

Now that I have been thinking about it I'm going to start a food journal so I can keep track of my calories and macros and bring back to life my account:)).

I just finished the "New Jeans Diet", it wasn't bad so maybe I will do it again in a couple of days.

Now the diet I want to try is this one:

Sw: 53.6 kg

Gw: 48 kg (at least)

So, see ya tmrw;)

no one understands that i will not be satisfied until my thighs don’t touch

My sister is getting on my nerves, like, she literally accuses me to being almost the worst sis in the world saying that I never want to be with her, to be always mad at her, never eating the food she makes me and to never be concerned about her mental state, like, sis...srly???!!

I always eat whatever she cookes for me, I'm always worried about her mental state and trying to talk with her to see how she is going but the mf will yell at me and then stay mad just because I said no to one of her plans???

Like, she never looks at me when I'm in my worst, she doesn't even know that I tried to km twice in the same year. Like... I eat your food even though it scares the livin sh!t out of me 'cause guess what??? I HAVE A FUCKING EATING DISORDER, but of course if it is not a about you it is not relevant.

I'm tired of this bs tbh.

Rn my existence feels like a very HUGE mistake, like, more than ever

I hope to survive Christmas and new year's dinner :):

I hope I die soon.